#the coach (?) telling them that they have to dance together in the performance bc it was just so beautiful

[justaz]

ballerina marinette lives rent free in my head

[blockedbykei]

can we get tsukishima and kuroo x figure skater gf headcanons pls?

ive always wanted to try figure skating but i am very clumsy 🙏

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tsukishima kei

- figure skating requires great balance, especially when you spin into the air and land on one foot. luckily tsukishima knows all about landing

- obv bc he's a middle blocker so he knows how to land his foot properly to avoid falling down, so expect his presence during your practice

- sometimes he joins you inside the rink when you practice all by yourself. he's actually kind of clumsy there— he's all flimsy and gripping onto the sides 😭

- it takes him a while to get used to the ice, and he learned when you always grabbed both his hands and guided him into the middle, and then left him there

- you left him stranded in the middle of the ice rink and he was SO pissed at you he kept swearing as he fell down on his ass, almost crawling his way towards you

- though when it comes to serious practices, best believe he's even more nervous at your performance than he is at his own game.

- he's seen a lot of figure skating accidents that mostly include the blade of someone's skates stabbing their foot or slicing their face. he wasn't squeamish, but he'll probably faint if that happened to you

- tsukishima is always present at your competitions, silently watching— his only form of loud cheering was his claps and yelling at the beginning and at the end of your performance

- figure skating includes dancing too so sometimes he lets you dance with him off the rink to make your body even more languid

- when you're partnered up with a guy, he doesn't get jealous. unless that guy gets handsier than he should be, so it would always end up with your partner shying away when they catch sight of tsukki

- video tapes your practices and shows you what you need to improve like HES the coach

- but really he's just really observant and can catch on well on the dos and donts of figure skating (and he also studied it himself)

- figure skating is also what brought you two together

- he was walking by a public rink one day, though he realized it was probably rented out when he saw only your presence inside, practicing your movements. so since it was an open area, he watched you

- you caught him watching and he blushed, and he felt himself get burned alive when you skate towards him and introduced yourself

- anyway he's very supportive and prioritizes your figure skating too so you would never fight about majority of your hours being spent on the ice rink

kuroo tetsurou

- loudest cheerleader ever

- rink side (like courtside) bf

- knows jackshit about figure skating so when you tell him about this and that he's just nodding and taking mental notes

- knows how to ice skate so sometimes he joins you inside the rink and would practice with you

- and by practice i mean he's actually dancing with you

- since he's the captain of nekoma, he knows well how to prepare beforehand by studying your opponents. so he does exactly that with you

- trashtalks the living shit about your opponents

- he actually worries about how much time you spend on the rink because sometimes you come home with a fever or a runny nose from spending too much time in a cold area

- jealous bitch, HATES every partner of yours when it comes to pairings

- he panics so much too because, as aforementioned, figure skating accidents can be gruesome and he does not want you to lose a toe nor cut your face

- one time he brought his team to your practice and forced them to watch you, and you ended up inviting everyone inside the rink

- kuroo also brings them to your competitions so you could have extra cheerleaders

- says he doesn't threaten them with 100 laps but that's obviously a lie

- he met you through one of the figure skating magazines, and he's had a crush on your for a while before you'd gotten together

- he managed to watch you in the figure skating nationals in japan and brought kenma with him, and he was lucky enough to get your attention right before you performed

- anyway he thinks you look sexy in the clothes you wear for practice

- one time you almost got injured and he ran barefoot into the rink just so he could carry you and get you out of there to be examined

- you slipped and barely sprained your foot, he was always so dramatic

[lo-frequency]

Class 1-A on Various TV Shows

So this is the first part of a "tv show" themed series of headcanons I have planned. I still have some requests to get to, but I hope y'all can enjoy these in the meantime!

Bakugou:

-American Ninja Warrior

- Please, you can’t tell me they wouldn’t have a pro-hero version of ANW. It’d have to be an international/Japanese version in this case, but the concept would be the same.

-SHOW SUMMARY: So in case you’ve never seen/heard of American Ninja Warrior, it’s a game show (?) where contestants have to cross a challenging obstacle course that tests your athleticism and physical strength. The course is outside (w a crowd watching), and there’s water beneath the course, so if you fall, you’re off the show. To win, you have to have the fastest time of all the successful contestants. END SUMMARY

-Anyway, in his introduction clip, they’d show Bakugou doing some intense training/parkour or whatever and he’s like “This’ll be an easy win. I do courses like these as a light workout”, you know, the usual arrogance we all love so much.

-Would be one of those contestants with a backyard Ninja course/personal gym and he’d be on that thing everyday. He eats, sleeps, and breaths ANW until the day he runs the course

-Now, for this particular version of ANW, Shoji has the #1 record with the fastest time in Pro-Hero ANW history (hard to beat somebody w 6 arms and over 1000lb grip strength)

-So for Bakugou, it’s not a matter of finishing the course or even winning the show, he’s training for the that #1 champion spot.

-Would he beat Shoji’s record? Probably not, but he’d definitely go down in the hall of fame

-I think it would be pretty cool to watch him show off the results of all those 6am workouts, lol

Hell’s Kitchen

-Do I even need to continue the headcanon?

-Chef Ramsay’s actual twin, blonde hair and everything

-As the judge (aka Chef Ramsay), he’d be so hard on the contestants smh

-He’d have your blood pressure high with how much he’d be yelling at the other chefs

-Would take too much pleasure in giving the losing teams punishments

-Probably sent everybody out of the kitchen during dinner service at one point, just shut down the whole service out of rage

-As a chef, he’d be the most intense on his team

-Wouldn’t have been a team player at first bc he knew his skills alone would keep him on the show, but as more people got eliminated, he would learn to work with others so they’d be more likely to win challenges

-Would’ve been told to humble himself on multiple occasions by Chef Ramsay, I can’t imagine him taking criticism very well either, w Chef’s usual tone.

-He’d fit right into the show honestly, bc most of the chef’s on there fight and have bad attitudes anyway 💀

-Would definitely be a finalist, has a pretty high chance of winning the show bc he has strong skills despite his sucky attitude. It would be a season to remember, for sure.

Kirishima

-Would have a fitness Youtube channel , “Red Riot Fitness” or something like that

-Weekly workouts for all fitness levels, really enthusiastic and one of those instructors that’s constantly hyping you up and making those dramatic sounds as you get your last few reps in

-Does mostly resistance training and HIIT workouts

-If he has other people working out with him in the video, he’d go around the room encouraging them and doing the exercises with them

-Very popular with stay at home moms, they’re all up in his livestreams ;) (shoot, I’d be right there with them)

-Makes those inspirational videos like “You’re winning even if you can only do 5 minutes!!”

-Could see him collaborating with other fitness channels and doing something unexpected like Zumba or a hip hop dance class for the fun of it.

-Probably makes videos like “My Daily Workout Routine” or “What I Eat in a Day” and then people would start making content like: “I Worked Out like Red Riot for a Week and This Happened 😱”

Izuku

-Sports newscaster, always makes the most accurate predictions about game outcomes.

-March Madness? He’d get closest to guessing the actual Final Four

-Knows all the player stats like he coached them himself

-If he had a radio show he’d constantly be getting into debates with co-hosts or listeners about player performance or which teams are the best

-Gets genuinely excited about interviewing the players after games

-Good at narrating games until he gets too hype and starts rambling out of excitement

-Pretty well known commentator throughout the world of whatever sport he follows.

Todoroki

-Brace yourself, because this is truly a concept: messy reality show host Shoto

-They’d have him hosting the sit-down meetings at the end of each season, where the cast members sit together and have a “discussion” about that season’s events.

-No, stay with me on this. He’d be perfect because he would “unintentionally” instigate the drama between cast members like:

- “So Alicia, how is your relationship with Colby?”

- “Uh, it’s fine, now…?”

- He raises his eyebrows “Really? I’m surprised, since he cheated on you with Kelly.” 👀.

- “He what?”

-*Camera pans to Shoto looking knowingly into the camera, sipping his drink while Alicia and Kelly fight.*

-Later on, during individual interviews, he’s like “I knew Alicia was unaware, although Colby was making it obvious, in my opinion. I just thought it was about time Kelly got exposed for being the fake friend she is.” he says in his usual flat tone, with a slight shrug to his shoulders.

-I’m telling you, this would make good television.

That’s all I've got for now! Thanks for tuning in, as always :)

[springday-aus]

Figure Skater!AU with Jimin

moodboard link

Group: BTS 

Member: Park Jimin 

Genre: fluff, romance 

Type: Bulletpoint AU 

Word Count: approx. 2.1k 

I think Jimin would make a fantastic ice skater

like Olympic gold kind of ice skater

have you seen this man’s form when he’s dancing? now just imagine that with skates

even tho homeboy is a lil clumsy

(*cue the compilation of him falling off chairs on his own*)

but yeah, he’s an ice skater and he’s beautiful—thank you for coming to my ted talk

just kidding

kind of

so Jimin started young

his dad signed him up for dance classes originally

and Jimin loved it

but then Jimin went ice skating

he struggled at first, but after a couple of tries, he got the hang of it and he fell in love with it gradually

and it was history from there

it was like a slow burn love rather than instant and that’s what makes him so committed

Jimin still does dance every once in a while, but he really committed himself to ice skating and got really good

he entered an amateur ice skating contest and actually won (to the much of his shock)

and then homeboy kept winning and winning and next thing you know

he’s in the top ten ranking for ice skating in Korea and that meant Olympics and well

while he hasn’t won like gold or anything

he’s been super close to it and that proves how good he is tho

these competitions are basically him dancing on ice

it’s such a wild card because he has so much range

one time he did classical music and incorporated elements of ballet

another time he did a Big Bang song and everyone was not prepared

he’s absolutely eating these performances up and still managing to feed it to ice skating fanatics

speaking of which, he’s pretty well known in the ice skating world

especially since he basically captures everyone with his performances

and his face

but also his butt

it’s everything

everyone loves jimin

does Jimin know it?

there are times he uses it (like getting Yoongi to buy him snacks)  

and other times, he’s 1000000% oblivious to it

you know how people throw winnie the pooh bears at Yuzuru Hanyu?

anything that looks remotely cute is thrown at Jimin

so you can just…. imagine

he’s gotten so many of those gigantic stuffed dogs since people say he resembles a puppy

but he started getting thrown otter plushies

which he didn’t think was a thinguntil a bunch of people started throwing for him and now he gets an obscure amount of otter plushies when his performances are done

because lbr, Jimin is super affectionate, loves his family and is super cute

otter = Jimin

speaking of performances tho, the bts boys always try to make his competitions

they’re super supportive as always

Seokjin always brings snacks and Namjoon always brings flowers

Hoseok cheers the loudest (obviously) and waves a lot of flags like some goddamned color guard

and Taehyung and Jungkook bring signs that are supposed to be supportive… but then like

it’ll say shit like “Korea’s Thighs! PARK JIMIN”

Yoongi: “guys, it’s supposed to be Korea’s pride……”

Jungkook: “well, it’s already made” :)

Taehyung: :)

anyways

they’re like the most attractive group of people in one spot, so even if you only came there for Jimin, you’ll get like six more attractive pieces of eye candy to look at

(which is probably why Jimin’s crowds are noticeably bigger)

there was this one time tho that this one dude was competing, saw Seokjin and almost tripped

I mean who wouldn’t

but Jimin had to deal with Seokjin’s ego for the next week and it was a pain in the ass

speaking of pain in the ass, Jimin spends a ton of time to practice at the ice rink

he’s basically a perfectionist when it comes to his performances and he ends up spending all day there

there’s usually his manager, his trainer, and one of his friends

they all come in rounds to make sure he isn’t going insane

this is actually how you meet him 

you happened to be there one day to ice skate with some of your friends

only, here’s the catch

you cannot ice skate for shit and you are very aware of it

it took a couple of bribes of free food and hot cocoa that led you out of the house and into the skates

realistically speaking you could’ve stood on the side, but they were like come onnnnn

and, like an idiot, you let them peer pressure you into getting into the rink

and now you’re grasping on the rail for dear life and your friends are all making fun of you and recording it on their phone bc ✨memories✨ or some other crap

well, not all of them

two of them are skating next to you to help hold you up and convince you to let go of the rail

and this is where things kind of go awry

basically, let’s just say that your friends got a little distracted by some of Jimin’s friends (i.e. Jungkook and Taehyung) who were visiting him

they were on the rails, watching and supporting Jimin  

looking handsome and shit

ofc your friends dropped you—they were distracted

lbr, you would have been distracted too but you couldn’t be

because when they let go of you….

you fell flat on your face

like flat flat on the ice and a part of your soul died

you kind of got stuck and struggled getting up, especially since you kept falling back down on the skates

and then another pair of skates appeared and a hand reached out to you—aligning with your vision

Jimin: “do you need some help?”

You: “yes please”

he manages to get you up and you manage to stabilize yourself as he holds you up with both hands

while you’re trying to balance yourself, he chuckles to himself at the sight

you’re basically clinging onto him at this point but he doesn’t really mind

you’re cute

You: “I’m so sorry, this was not my idea”

Jimin: “first time skating?”

You: “um, actually, no”

You: “this is like my third time”

You: “I’m just a klutz and my friends are assholes”

Jimin: “oh?”

You: “not like that, but also like that”

he spends a bit more time skating with you to help you out for a bit

next thing you know, you’re spending another hour with him

laughing

chatting

learning more about one another

as you held onto his hands and skated around with him

it’s a fun

he’s basically done practicing and, even afterwards, you two got some hot cocoa from the stand

(along with his number)

it was a super cute lowkey first date

as you two texted and got to know each other a bit more, he invited you to another rink where he practices

when you walked in, no one else was present—it was just him, on the ice, in the middle of a routine

you quietly get closer, admiring the gratefulness that is displayed until you’re at the rails

when he’s finished, you applaud

indirectly scaring him, causing him to break his form and practically fall onto the ice

You: “oh my god!”

you run over to him, checking if he’s okay

You: “I didn’t mean to scare you, I’m sorry”

Jimin: “it’s okay, I didn’t know you got here”

You: “yo, that was really good tho—you should do this as a job or something”

Jimin: “..... this is my job tho?”

Jimin: “I’m an Olympic ice skater”

You: w h a t

you two spend a bit more time in the rink, especially since he’s preparing for the Olympics once more

so you’re like friends, but like there’s something more (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

speaking of friends, you’ve met some of his

wild times

especially since Taehyung tried to show up Jimin on the skates and then falls on his face

Namjoon was self-monologuing as per usual

Seokjin was admiring his reflection on the ice, but still making as many dad jokes as possible

meanwhile Hoseok was trying to maintain balance but Yoongi was trying to trip him

Jimin: “I’m so sorry”

You: “why? this is hilarious”

they all know what’s going on tho, especially since all of them have met you at least once

*cut to Jungkook making fun of Jimin at some point*

things don’t really change until he has his first performance and you’re in the crowd (sitting with the boys obviously)

(for which you got a lot of stares for)

you cheered for him really loud before and after his performance

and you came with a cute sign

(“KOREA’S ICE PRINCE PARK JIMIN”)

and it’s bigger than Taehyung and Jungkook’s embarrassing one

it wasn’t until the scores were released and Jimin’s adrenaline rush came through

with all the congratulatory remarks and celebratory mood, he was in the locker rooms to get ready for the party his family was setting up at home

his coach let you him since he knew no one else was present

you lightly knock on the doorway to let him know of your presence

*unfortunately* he’s already clothed by the time you’re there

You: “congratulations, I knew you would get first place”

You: “I got you flowers, but I didn’t know if you were allergic, so I got plastic ones”

Jimin gives you a charming smile, with his eyes turning into crescents

Jimin: “thanks, you can set them down if you would like”

you seat yourself on a nearby bench as he brushes through his hair and puts on his shoes and whatnot

Jimin: “are you coming to the party?”

You: “I don’t know if I’m invited”

Jimin: “well, I’m inviting you—if you would like to go”

You: “like………. together?”

Jimin: “yeah, you can be my date?”

you both show up to the party with your hands held together

:)

your dates are mainly at the ice rink for the rest of the season

whether you’re skating with him or just watching him practice and reminding him to take breaks, both mental and physical

you’ve improved your ice skating abilities btw

considering your boyfriend is a professional ice skater

you always make time to go to his performances and you absolutely refuse to miss a single one even if you’ve seen it a thousand times when he practices

there’s just so much gracefulness and agility and Jimin’s so beautiful to watch

and he’s so glad to have found someone who supports his dream as much as he chases after it

also you asked him to dance to Twice once as a joke and he actually did it for a performance so

now you have many requests and ideas

Jungkook: “tell him to do One of a Kind by GD”

You: “why don’t you tell him?”

Jungkook: “because he doesn’t listen to me”

Yoongi: “I think he would know if it was your idea even if (Y/N) is the one who told him to do it”

Jimin: “I’m not doing GD”

Jungkook: “wow okay”

anyways

after the season is done, your dates have more range

he’s a big softie and it’s 1000% applied to relationships

so that means lots of romantic walks, coffee dates, picnics

of course lots of restaurant dates when he’s off his diet

in which you always pinch his cheeks bc he looks so cute with puffy cheeks

but there’s some dates where you two just stay in and watch some movies but you get a bit distracted with his plump lips and nice torso………. however you want to take that information

since he’s so used to the cold at the ice skating rink, it also means he loves to just pile blankets onto the two of you

but also he needs cuddles and it gets super heated real quick

and I mean like heated heated because of his body heat and the giant blankets

altho, it could also be heated

you two built a blanket fort once and it was knocked down real quick - in what ways? I’ll leave that to your imagination

oh and since you’re openly so supportive for him

he tries to reciprocate it

even if it’s the most mundane things

he wanted to make a sign for you once

Jimin: “do you have bigger banner paper?”

You: “why?”

Jimin: “I can’t fit in THE LOVE OF MY LIFE: HONEY SUGAR BABY CUTIEPIE”

Jimin: ………… “now that I’ve said it outloud, I think I’ll just save it for my phone or something”

You: “yeah, let’s never say that again”

you repeated it back to him once and you don’t think you’ve ever seen him this flushed since that one fan tried to propose to him

he’s a shy baby

kind of

because he needs a lot of attention and a lot of praise

but if you do it in front of other people, he will combust

anyways we’re all simps for Jimin and it’s great we’re having fun

[taejeonie]

taehee’s relationship with 127

taeil — jeonil

taeil loves to pat her head

taehee mentioned if 127 was her family taeil would be that cool uncle

she finds him very cute esp when he dances and does aegyo

taeil hugged her during weekly idol when he was asked ‘who’s the member you pity the most?’ bc he felt like living with the boys is hard esp if she’s the only girl and she was having it hard that time so he’s sad for her

she and hyuck always clown him for taeil’s butterfly

iconic moments: everytime taeil appears on screen, taehee would shout ‘귀여워!’ or ‘cutie!’ and it will always make him smile wider

johnny — johnhee

when she graduated with mark, johnny carried her on his shoulders

“I CAN SEE THE WORLD FROM UP HERE!”

always clowning mark committee

she finds johnny as the sexiest member

johnny loves to copy her australian accent,,he labeled it ‘fancy’

iconic moment: they were doing an interview in buzzfeed about who’s who. when johnny was voted as the member with the best fashion sense, taehee explained whenever she goes shopping, bringing johnny is a must. “i go up to him,” she says while pretending to hold two pieces of clothes in her hand, “i’m like ‘what should i get?’ and he’s like,” all of the foreign members answer with her in english while the others say it in korean, “‘get both!’,” making laughter fill the studio.

taeyong — yonghee

“taeyong eomma-“

“bOOMING SYSTEM UH UH TY TRACK TY TRACK”

taehee discovered taeyong gets flustered easily during that one vlive of nct u boss, so she makes it a point to playfully flirt with him at unsuspecting times

taeyong always reminds her to not work too hard and makes her food, even if he taught her how to cook

he made her a letter when she appeared in ‘real men’ and it made her cry

iconic moment: taeyong talked about taehee during one of those deep nct life solo interviews, “taehee works very hard, and i admire that about her but i always remind her to take it easy at times. i know it’s been hard for her when it was announced that she would be debuting with us so i, along with the other members, try to be good brothers to her so she can get comfortable....honestly, she hides her problems and insecurities for our benefit and she won’t tell us until you try to ask. i just want her to open up to us and let loose at times because that’s what a family is, and we’d always be there for her.”

yuta — taeyu

anime buddies she loves haikyuu

he’s always trying to pull pranks on her

she isn’t that gullible but everything that flies out of yuta’s mouth seems like the truth so she believes everything that he says even if it’s not true

“(yuta) oppa looked so cool in his part in cherry bomb!!”

yuta: must!!! headlock!!!! taehee!!!!!

iconic moment: during vlive, a fan asked if they could marry taehee and she immediately agreed, but yuta shouted, “SHE’S NOT GETTING MARRIED UNTIL SHE’S 35 AND NOT SURROUNDED BY BOYS!!! THOSE ARE TWO CONDITIONS!!!”

doyoung — youngtae

also “doyoung eomma-“

whenever taehee does something provocative, he’d always have those wide eyes and say like “WHAT’S THIS??? WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?”

(idol room) “you shouldn’t get into a fight with taehee. you will lose, especially if it’s a verbal fight. she’s scary....”

“once i become an adult, i want to drink with the older oppa’s.” “good.”

taehee sprained her ankle by the end of a cherry bomb performance and doyoung was the one who helped her get back to the waiting room

iconic moment: in the new nct life episode, they would be sliding down a really long and high slide while answering questions. haechan teased doyoung, who was his opponent, that they couldn’t win because of his fear of heights. he argued, “you’d lose too!! taehee’s also afraid of heights. right, taehee?,” and in response, she said, “i’m not a coward like you,” while coolly walking off. doyoung: (　ﾟдﾟ)

jaehyun — taejae

sexy voice/adlib duo but also dimple line ( ◠‿◠ )

they did that goblin scene (the one where euntak complains that she doesn’t have a boyfriend yet and the goblin shouts that he’s the boyfriend, you know that scene? yeah that scene) for star road and when they finished taehee was like, “woah...i think my heart’s speeding up”

later in that interview, she found him the most handsome member during that day (cue a lot of complaints from the other members bc they thought it was jungwoo, meanwhile hyuck answered himself)

(nct night night) “jaehyun oppa’s voice is the type to listen to when you want to relax or fall asleep,,,great for asmr 👍”

has his hands around her waist when they stand next to each other but it’s like one of those ‘back off big brother is here’

iconic moment: nct 24-hour relay,,,mark and jaehyun taught her how to play bball and jaehyun kept on complimenting her. after taehee shot the ball while being defended by mark, he told her, “okay, goooood!! now try to get the ball from me.” “yes coach!”

winwin — wintae

cute duo tm

nct’s always onto them,,pinching their cheeks or hugging tf out of them,, they cannot and will not escape

he doesn’t like skinship but he doesn’t mind it if taehee puts her arm around his shoulder like a bro

they’re also really flexible like they showed off cutely during that one weekly idol episode

their love language is like making derp faces while finger hearting

iconic moment: while filming an nct life episode, winwin couldn’t understand the rules. mark tried to explain it to him but he failed, so when taehee tried to explain in to him with actions, he understood immediately. (cue smug taehee)

jungwoo — junghee

taehee’s got a crush on him from empathy era and it disappeared somewhere around superhuman era,,and then it went back during kick it

when he got back, taehee kept hanging out with him because she missed him

“yOU THINK HE’S CUTE BUT HE’S GOT AB-“ jungwoo quickly covers her mouth, pushing them off frame (vlive)

“oppawhatdoyouwantforyourbirthday?” “you.” “w h a t”

back hugs back hugs back hugs back hugs back hugs

iconic moment: (as4u) “honestly, i had a slight crush on jungwoo oppa when he first joined,” (mark: Oiiiiiii) and jungwoo was flustered but he managed to get out a “ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ﹖,” and then taehee continued, “his looks are my type.”

mark — markhee

best friends since they joined the company

they arrived in sm the same day and mark thought her name was joanie after hearing her mom call her that when she was being dropped off, so whenever they talk in english he calls her joanie

and she appreciates that bc she gets reminded of home

they’re smart during work but then all the brain cells come out when they’re outside

*mark choking on water bc he drank too fast* *taehee panics and gives him more water* *mark drinks the water and chokes more* taeyong yelling “THAT’S NOT HOW YOU DO THAT”

iconic moments: markhee’s not all soft, they have their sexy saxophone moments too especially during performances and it makes czennies fLIP. like that one concert fancam of mark blew up and it was when they were singing the bridge part their faces got so close. “yeah at this moment see right on time, ay,” taehee grabbed mark’s tie and pulled him closer, while mark put his hands on her waist while singing his verse. their foreheads were touching and they both internally smirked when they heard the fans’ screams. the effect they had on czennies.....

haechan — taehyuck

if you think junghee/markhee was the most popular ship then uR WRONG ITS TAEHYUCK

“(aegyo) i like noona too much” *vomit noises* hyuck just wants to love her but she keeps pushing him away

but she’s kind of a tsundere when it comes to him so when he asked for a kiss during an interview she gave him one while sporting a disgusting face ofc

their ship edits mostly consist of their vlive moments hyuck’s always so touchy with her

they learn dances together random dance king and queen

iconic moments: hyuck professing his love to her during vlive. “i’m gonna marry noona one day-“ he gets hit on the back of the head by doyoung while she laughs, “don’t say things like that.” and he retaliates by saying he’s got his future planned out and marrying her is one of them. there was also this one time only the two of them were doing a vlive and taehee was reading the comments. “lee donghyuck, do you love me?” *hyuck, sincerely, while looking at her* “jeon taehee, i really really really love you.” ........ “that was a comment” expect that to be used in edits too

[blackevermore]

x I had this idea of a human AU where all my boys went to highschool together. In this it wasn’t really a romance au or anything and I wouldn’t be there it would just be a high school drama about 8 (Not including All Might and Fat Gum) teenagers trying to make it to the next year without dying.

|| Meet the students ||

x William Wonka aka the Gordon Ramsay of cooking club #2 in the school

Age: 17

Really doesn’t understand why he has to let people into the club for it to be a club when him and Alastor are enough.

Once ran over a rock in his brand new car trying to park, was the laughing stock until he had Alastor handle it. 

Has strong gay energy but no one is sure what he is except a very mean fashion disaster. 

Him, Alastor, Nique, and Mettaton are known as the Toxic Four. They are the Heathers and Mean Girls but way better and more functional in friendship.

Has the best teeth anyone as ever seen

With that being said there is a rumor going around that he bits people that disagrees with him. (Alastor started it)

Is really hard on the members in his club because food is a craft

Has a crush on someone close to him but no one knows who but it may be the school’s drug dealer, who knows

x “Miach” Mettaton aka the main star of every event, ever

Age: 16 (1/2)

Boss Ass Bitch is his entrance song every morning.

He has a page in the school newspaper about staying fabulous and how to bring out your inner beauty.

Is the nice on in the Toxic Four

Really loves doing volunteer work with the elementary school 

Has been caught making out with Dominique before a performance but they aren’t together

Doesn’t vib will with William but since he is a friend of a friend whatever

He does make them wear pink on Wednesdays

Don’t tell him secrets he can’t remember not to tell people 

He plays dumb so William feels better but he is Nique’s life coach 

x “Angel” Michelangelo aka the captain of the basketball team and art club ambassador

Age: 16

Soft baby who can’t keep his attention on anything except for his passions

The class clown but the teachers love him

He thinks Beyonce is overrated and would wish Nique didn’t play her everyday

He is gentle until it’s game day then move your fucking asses we got a game to win

Has lead his team to victory every year he has been apart of it

Is apart of the same volunteer team Miach is on and teaches kids the importance of keeping their creativity.

Wants to be a teacher

Him and Bryson are always getting into something but always manage to get out of trouble.

Made best friend jerseys that say “Blue Eye Slutz”

Wants to make his family proud of him since all his brother already went off to college and are doing amazing.

x Kurt Wagner aka the “should have been but isn’t” captain of the gymnastic club and theater kid

Age: 17

Transferred from Germany, took him a bit to adapt to his new school

Keeps getting Nique and Micah confused for each other because of their hair and makeup.

Gave up the title as captain of the gymnastic club because he couldn’t handle the responsibility. But the current captain always ask him for the help.

Really enjoys William’s cakes and is the one that has been stealing them.

Is the third wheel of Bryson and Angel and is just happy they let him hang out with them.

He loves getting the villian parts in the school plays bc he gets the best customs. 

Has the best dance moves and everyone loves when he dances at functions.

Talks shit a lot of the time, but since no one but Alastor and Nique knows German he gets away with it.

He can be found in the library most of them time.

x “Bryson” Bumblebee aka the second in command of the basketball team and Angel’s best friend and member of the mechanics club

Age: 16

Is the class clown and the teachers do not love him.

is very artistic but doesn’t really express it because he wants Angel to be in the spotlight.

Will fix your car.....for a fee

Will hide your weed....for a fee

Will do a lot of shady mechanic shit......for a fee

American Sweetheart of the year award goes to Bryson

Is apart of a rugby  team called “Autobots”

When Angel is busy with the art club Bryson takes over the bball team (which is a lot lately)

Is secretly crushing over Kurt and Angel but keeps it to himself because he loves his friendship more than anything else.

x Dominique Dalmatia aka head director of the drama/theatre club also head stylist for all school functions

Age: 17

No one has a nick, everyone is “darling” “baby” “sweetie” “doll”

Will change his clothes during the day, legit packs another outfit in the morning before heading to school

Is the richest kid in the school but no one cares

He drives a new care every week, he picks up Mettaton sometimes and they always roll in with style

Plays his music very loud

Always talks about his besties from another school and has a bad habit of comparing his new friends to them

Will come up to you in the middle of the hall to crew you out about wearing conflicting fabrics

But he is the nicest out of the Toxic Four and will help anyone and everyone

Is the cry baby of the group

Once had a break down over crewing because he didn’t want to keep crewing but had to

It wasn’t William that bit someone, it was Nique and Alastor knows

x Nathaniel Abcott aka the member of the culture and heritage club also the school drug dealer, #1 in the school and hated by William

Age: 18

Is very big on everyone respect other people’s cultures

Is the smartest in the room but you would have no idea because he is high off his ass and asleep all the time

Has an amazing singing voice and can play guitar, he is the kid that sits under the tree at lunch

Ladies man, Mens man, he doesn’t care come to daddy. The respected school hoe

Asks William to cook for him all the time and always gets rejected but not without making the younger boy blush

Doesn’t get along with Mettaton or Nique

He drives a motorcycle to school and like the dork he is, imagines himself as a greaser. He even has the comb switchblade.

Is a momma boy at heart and will make up an excuse of having to help his mother to get out of things. 

His mom shows up to every event ever and she’s the school’s mom

Him and Bryson are weed buddies for life.

x Alastor Hazbin aka Wonka’s right and left hand man in the cooking club and director of the school newspaper and announcements

Age: 18

Nothing gets past him, the hallways are his ears, he knows everything about anyone and will blackmail the fuck out of you

Don’t touch him don’t touch him DON’T TOUCH HIM

His parents drive him to school everyday and he kisses his mother goodbye everyday

Thinks Williams sweet treats suck, not because they do but because he doesn’t like sweets.

Has put alcohol in William food to make the student body wasted as fuck so he could get a laugh out of it. 

If you pay him he will travel to the rival schools and get the dirt on them and punish it in the school newspapers.

Computer geek and knows the ins and out of firewalls, proxies, vsps, tracking etc etc. He was the one that found out the two of the teachers were changing grades of student they didn’t like. 

He runs this shit from the shadows, you think William is the brains wait till you get a taste of Al

Really enjoys his friends but if need be it for his own safety he will destroy them one by one.

Used to date Miach, was an agreeable breakup and never told anyone. Sometimes it slips up when Miach does something caring for Al but everyone brushes it off.

[luvtessascott]

Battle of the Blades: Epi 1 Write-Up (Live Taping)

Last Thursday, I got the opportunity to attend the Battle of the Blades live filming with Danielle, her mom, and my mom. We had dinner at this great German restaurant in town and had amazing Schnitzel. [[Danielle wants you to know that Schnitzel and Spaetzle is the love of her life]]. Since Danielle was shooting the event, we got to the venue quite early around 5:45pm. Danielle went straight in while the rest of us stayed outside for a bit. We saw Mike Marinaro and Alma Moir outside so we chatted with them for a while (Danielle's Mom knows them more personally).

After that we headed into the venue and local skating clubs and hockey teams had some skaters paired together for a little show. These were the skaters that Scott had worked with a few weeks prior. They were all very cute, each pair containing a figure skater and a hockey player. Tessa, Scott, and Colby (the 3rd judge, who used to be a contest) came out to watch the little kids perform. Tessa looked like an ABSOLUTE DIVA in the black jumpsuit and the bangs and updo. I LOVED IT! My mom didn't even recognize Tessa with her hair and outfit. I pointed them out and my mom said "That's Scott but that doesn't look like Tessa". At that time they were in shoes so I had no clue they were going to wear skates. From the first time they sat in the judges chairs, you could sort of tell that Scott was uncomfortable in the tall chairs. He like sat down and then got up and sat on the edge with his feet on the ground. They left right after the performances and didn't come back till being announced at the beginning of the show.

The venue was nicely set up with the judges on one short end of the rink and the skaters entering from the other. They had giant screens on both sides of the rink and the Battle of the Blades signs on both sides with lots of sparkles. Just before the taping started they had all of us move down as close as possible to fill in all the empty seats. That worked out great for us as we ended up being 3rd row! So close that it was a better shooting location for Danielle that she came to sit with us.

When they introduced Tessa and Scott there was an arena wide standing ovation! I was surprised they were in skates while being real clothes, it was kind of funny LOL. It was so nice to see such a warm response to them and have the whole crowd on their feet. Since everyone was talking about the hand grab thing, it was one of those reaching for her hand without looking and landing on her wrist. If you watch my video again they turn to go back to their seats and hold hands properly, so calm down. Right after they launched into their retirement spiel. I have a video of it that I posted on my Youtube, linked here (x). Sorry about them being in portrait, you'd think by now I'd remember to make them landscape but it was a fast record it and I forget!

For the show itself, I was super excited to see Natalie Spooner because I'm a fan of hers. She was really great with Andrew, I thought her posture was so great for a hockey player. For sure Shelley and Kaitlyn were my biggest surprise. Danielle and I were SCREAMING when they started doing the polka-- how adventurous for a first outing! The crowd had a great atmosphere and was reacting well to everything it was a nice crowd to be in. The costumes for the most part were really well done-- kudos to Matthieu of course! I thought that the judges might change out of their skates after the intro but they were in them the whole time. Kurt was the first one to jump up and show a skater an example of what they’d like to see from them and then it made sense to why the judges were so far from where the skaters were standing to get their scores! The tv crew wanted the judges to stand up and show the skills as needed and left them ice space to do that. Danielle and I got the vibes really quickly that Tessa and Scott were playing good cop bad cop on judging. Tessa being positive and Scott giving those coaches corrections, it seemed to be working well. I wonder if they’ll switch that up next time.

During commercial breaks, all the judges would get make-up and hair touch-ups! Kelly was there fixing Tessa's hair as well as the make-up person. Scott was always quick to jump out of his seat (which he had been fidgeting in the whole time) and skate around or talk to Kurt. Tessa would also chat with Colby some of the time. Other times, Scott would stand in front of Tessa and they would chat. It was nice to see them looking at each other when dancing in their seats to the music, laughing, and whispering with each other as usual (typical VM dynamic!).

Since Tessa and Scott represented one score, they would whisper to each other during the performances. Tessa often holding up her cue card for them to look at and then they would quickly decide on a score. I know there was lots of talk about Scott talking over Tessa but I have to mention that the judges chairs were pretty far apart and there was a mic delay. Tessa and Scott were also seated side by side where in interviews they can usually sit on angles so they can anticipate when they finish speaking. I think it was just honest mistakes when they overlapped.

At the end of the night, we ran into Cara and Alma and had another quick chat with them. And just before leaving in the parking lot we saw QUEEN KIRSTEN MOORE-TOWERS!! She always has such great outfits and is SO SWEET-- she remembered me and HUGGED me (I DIE). After chatting with her for a bit, we called it a night. We had a really good time! We were planning on going to the finale but when we went to get tickets they were ALL SOLD OUT. So as of rn, I don't have ticket but hopefully they'll release more. I'm looking forward to watching the season on tv!

(This was a second time I wrote this, bc it got deleted so if I remember anything I add it after).

[glamrockmonarch]

Im just a bit sad and in need of fluff.. cute fluff with Ben? Just got home after a weekend trip away with my entire family and a drunk aunt who sat me down and told me that nobody would ever love me bc of the old selfharm scars on my arms..

A/N: You are hitting home, my darling Anon. First of all, those scars are a reminder of your journey - as hard as it might have been this far -, and also, what a bitch move! You will find someone who will love you right and they won’t mind your scars because they’ll see you for who you are. I have my own scars and my own demons, and let me tell you: I fought through it, so fuck anyone who dares judge me, because the pain was mine and the shame was mine too for too long, I am done with it. Be done with it, you’re on the other side, my dear. You deserve love and you will be loved.

Anytime you need to talk, hmu, dear!

Let’s do this (btw I did not proof read, but I hope it’s fluffy enough!):

Ben laughs at the tv while you come back into the room with a bowl of warm popcorn.

You are watching Billy Elliot, one of your favourite films of all time.

This movie is one of the many reasons why you started dancing back in middle school. You were told that you were a bit old to be starting but you did not care because you loved the look of graciousness on the ballerinas in movies and television. You spent almost every summer taking ballet lessons in London and when you were found talented enough you were invited by one of your coaches to take lessons in Russia. It was unexpected but your parents supported your passion as you had started working on small productions and they thought you would probably be able to make a living out of this.

Regardless of the issues that ballet brought into your life when you were younger, you still dance nowadays, although you work behind the scenes as a coach.

“Do you miss performing?” Ben wonders as you watch Billy fight his father when he finds out his son has been sneaking around to dance ballet.

You hand him the popcorn and sit down next to him, falling into his warm embrace once he puts his arm over the backrest of the couch so you can snuggle up to his side.

“Always.” You admit and look down at your hands.

In an unintentional move, something you do out of habit, you pull on the sleeves of your sweater and shrug your shoulders.

“Hey…” Ben sees this and wraps his arm around you.

He puts the bowl on the coffee table and puts his hand on top of yours, making your fingers leave the edge of your fluffy grey sweater.

“Don’t do that.” He whispers and kisses your nose.

With a blush creeping up your face your eyes wander up to his face with a timidness Ben recognises.

“You are over it.”

Your boyfriend rubs your wrist and up your forearm, lifting the knitted fabric to uncover the pale scars on your wrist. The ones you are sometimes so ashamed of. Ben has been clear that he does not care when he looks at you he sees a strong woman who is perhaps too grownup for her short life, he admires your strength and the love you radiate every day through whatever battles you are fighting internally.  

He intertwines his fingers with yours and pulls your hand up to his lips, kissing the back of it and then your wrist. You smile at him and move in the sofa so you can give him a peck on the cheek.

“Yes. I am over it.” You remind yourself now, and Ben nods with a soft smile on his face. “Thanks for refreshing my memory.”

Your boyfriend chuckles and kisses your temple, now pulling you closer into a big bear hug that squeezes you with love and playfulness.

For the rest of the film, you watch together and laugh, Ben listens intently to your little comments every time there is something mentioned that your boyfriend should not understand well since Ballet is filled with French terms and because of course, the first position and fifth position are not the same at all.

“How are they different? They are doing the same!” Ben points at the tv in frustration and you huff.

Standing up you threw your sweater at him, standing in your comfortable Sunday attire. In your yoga pants and a borrowed shirt of Ben’s, this one has the queen logo stamped on it.

“Look at my feet, would ya?” You show him the positions slowly, standing next to the coffee table as Ben presses the pause button. “The first position,” you sing looking forward and showing him the steps to each one until you arrive at fifth, admitting that the hands might be in the same place but the feet have now traveled so one is in front of the other. “See now?”

Ben brushes his chin with his fingers, standing he comes to put his arms around you, lifting you up he brings you over his shoulder and swiftly carries you back to the sofa.

“Ben!” You laugh with your face close to his bum, as your arms hang loose, you bring your palms down on his arse and slap it.

“Oi!” He complains, “two can play that game, y/n!”

Now he is slapping your bum, laughing at you.

You are thrown onto the sofa and Ben laughs watching you as you pick up your legs so he can lay down too, falling on his stomach with his head on your chest, hugging your waist as he does so.

“Can we watch the movie now, madam?”

With your hands on his hair you giggle hearing Ben call you the same way your tiny students do, of course, you now have a small studio with a friend where you teach young children ballet - for fun, you never push them and the although you take the theory seriously, you let the kids enjoy themselves and even tickle them when they’re on the bars to encourage them to like their time learning the basics of ballet. Your friend teaches older kids and once they go over to her, they have to learn the real deal and stay focused, for you this is easier although working with three-year-olds on a daily basis sounds like the worst job.

“Alright, alright…” You reach out and stretch your arm to grab the remote.

Pressing play you finish watching the movie like this. Sprawled out on the sofa together, your bodies intertwined in a lazy manner as you lull Ben to sleep without knowing it, once you dig your hand out of his blonde hair, you find his eyes have closed and he is peacefully napping on your chest, his breath fanning over your skin. Turning the telly off and forgetting about Netflix, you wrap your arms around Ben’s shoulders and allow yourself to close your eyes and fall asleep too.

[justlistenuniverse]

Jaylos Headcanon #1

Headcanon where Carlos wants to be a cheerleader - but in Auradon you can't be one when you are not a girl

So he asks Evie for help and they dress him up as a girl (after she said he should just talk to Ben and make it happen that way but Carlos thinks that he has to dress up for some reason)

So he dresses up as "Carly" and auditions for the Cheer Squad and the Cheer Coach Phoebe is baffled at how good that new girl is

The other girls quickly grow to like Carly since she's surprisingly strong and super flexy and she was born for flips

Audrey is first a bit bitchy but she also grows to like Carly and soon the two of them become quite close as they help each other with routines and talk about school and boys

Carlos loves all of it, even the talks with Audrey (she's surprisingly sweet and tough and he likes her), but it's getting hard to hide from Jay (who still buys the "I'm learning" "I've got a project" "I'm going to the library" excuses but he is not dumb, he'll notice!)

Plus Jay, Carlo's long-time crush, best friend, and roomie, starts to flirt with Carly and at night, when Carlos is doing his homework and Jay is laying on his bed, Jay tells Carlos about how great Carly is and how cute and yes, the boy got a crush on Carlos' female identity. How bad is that?

Meanwhile, Audrey starts to develop a crush on Carly too

When she asks her out though Carlos breaks and tells her that he is Carlos and not Carly and that there is no Carly. And he also tells her that he is most certainly gay.

Audrey gets super angry and she's so hurt and storms off but then she thinks that it all adds up now. how Carly just disappeared into thin air whenever practice is over and all the girls walk to the locker rooms and that she always skipped girl's night with some lame excuses and Carlos was still so sweet to her and never made fun of her and she will probably miss him as a friend

So she walks to the boy's dorm and knocks and when Jay opens the door she smiles and asks if Carlos is there and if she could talk to him

Carlos is so shy and silent when they walk through the school that it hurts. But when Audrey tells him that yeah, she's hurt and it was a super dumb action of him, she will help him out. Because she likes him as a friend and he's unbelievable good at cheerleading and she knows about that stupid "no male cheerleader" rule which she still doesn't get

They also talk about Audrey's new found orientation and why she doesn't need to hide it and how Carlos grew to be comfortable with his sexuality. Audrey happens to be less insecure than he was when he noticed but she's still not ready to tell anyone else (she might have a late-night phone call with her mom though)

The next day, Carlos Evie and Audrey can be seen sitting around a table at lunch, talking and laughing and pointing to some of Evie's sketches for something

But even with Audrey's help, Jay and Mal start to get suspicious

Carlos is always disappearing, appears to be super sweaty when he finally enters his and Jay's room, never attends any Tourney games anymore (which bugs Jay more than he'd like to admit) and since when is he good friends with Audrey of all people?

Mal finally confronts Carlos when he's coming from practice (in sweatpants and a loose shirt but still drenched in sweat bc he never showers with the girls), chatting to Audrey (who's all clean but in soft clothes because it's the evening and after practice and that's her new best friend next to her) and he tells her everything, even making Evie show Mal the Cheerleading costumes and the wig she's created for him

Mal tells him that he needs to come clean because he can't play a double-game any longer. People will start to notice that Carly is never in any classes and they already started asking her if she's related to Carlos since they both look so alike

A week later, the finale Tourney game of the season starts and Auradon is playing their hardest enemy yet and the boys are nervous as fuck

When they walk out the first thing they see is the fans and then the cheerleaders and that's when Jay does a double take because is that Carlos in a male cheerleader uniform doing flips with Audrey?

Carlos sees Jay stare (and with him half of the team and most of the students including the other team) and just smiles and waves and prays that Jay won't be angry

It's a tense game and Carlos does his best to cheer for his team, performing really cool looking routines with his girls whom he talked to before the game (they were all a bit angry and weirded out but when Audrey talked to them about how Carlos never entered the locker room and never touched them in a sexual way they calmed down)

But during half-time [is there a half time? I don't know], one of the other players makes a loud and more than rude comment about Carlos as a male cheerleader and how Auradon only has fags around and everyone loses it

Audrey is yelling at the guy, telling him to back off her squad or she'll forget her good manners while half the team is trying to hold back Jay but when the guy shoves Audrey they let the thief free, watching as he barrels into the other man

but then there's Carlos. Small, ordinary, genius Carlos, stepping in between the boys, making Jay immediately stop (because hurting Carlos? not an option) and hissing at the other boy to get lost or he'll show him what a fag like him can do to a prince who has muscles but doesn't know how to use them

Coach tells the Auradon boys to calm Jay down while the coach of the other team yells at his boys for being intolerant immature assholes

When the second half starts Carlos is still on the cheer squad after Fairy Godmother and Ben decided that the gender is so not important

And when they win he makes sure to wink at the guy that pushed his friend, hurt Jay and bullied him (the guy turns white immediately and leaves the field)

At the party they throw for winning the championship Carlos watches as Jane womans up and asks Audrey to dance (and he also catches them making on the balcony later on)(he might also show his girl a thumbs up when she beams at him) when Jay walks up

"Should've known it was you."

Carlos laughed and nodded.

"Yeah, you should have. But you didn't, which is okay by the way. I am awesome at playing a game like this."

Silence. Carlos sipped at his punch while Jay tried to muster up the courage to say what he really wanted to say.

"So... would you like to, maybe, like, go on a date with me?"

Carlos nearly spits out his punch. He stared at Jay with huge brown eyes, not believing what he just heard. But there he was, his best friend, his long-time crush whom he might even love, looking amazing in a dark red waistcoat and black skinny jeans and with a hopeful look in his eyes that couldn't be an imagination.

"But... I'm not Carly."

"Yeah, well..." Jay blushed and rubbed his neck with that adorable little smile he always got when he turned a bit insecure. "Maybe the reason that I flirted with Carly was that she looked like you. And that I fell for Carlos long before I fell for Carly but thought I wouldn't stand a chance with you."

Carlos spends the rest of the evening dancing with his might-be-boyfriend. And when Jay has to go for some weird winner ritual the auradon tourney team has, Carlos dances with Audrey and Evie and Mal and all his girls, having the night of his life.

Bonus:

Carlos being fiercely protective of his Squad, even back when he was still Carly

Audrey randomly walking into the boy's dorm to talk with Carlos. They spend hours on his bed, both in soft clothes, talking about everything. Some weeks into their habit, Evie joins them. It's never too girly but Carlos can be talked into painting nails (never his own though) and he has a great fashion sense. Jay mostly spends those nights with Mal who welcomes that change into her life. It gets boring being a princess all the time and if there's a better way to get rid of that boredom than climbing up to the roof and talking to her best friend or planning pranks, she hasn't found it yet.

Everyone, even Chad, telling Carlos that he looked damn good in that skirt (he knows)

Ben lifting the gender-specific rules around the school and suddenly there are more boys trying out for the cheerleaders, a mixed R.O.A.R. Team and girls who even try out for Tourney (Coach ends up letting Mal in because with her and Jay playing together? No one will be able to beat them)

[lantok-forever]

what if ice hockey AU where Lance and Antok meet at a free skate (Lance has dreams of being a figure skater, while Antok has forever been on his local team with his friends) and Lance is drawn into ice hockey bc of Antok and roots for his bf during games

Omg I love this. You don’t understand how much I love figure skater!Lance au’s!!!! So Lance has been ice skating for years now, going to competitions and then tournaments (if there are tournaments for figure skating, I’m not exactly sure). He even took dance lessons to incorporate into his routines, so he’s literally a master on the ice. He’s always seen ice hockey as it’s own sport, from when he was little and started taking lessons at the public ice rink to when he’s already a champion ice skater and sees hockey practices in between his rehearsal hours. He’s never really been interested in the sport, but it’s just something that he’s always been around. And then a new team start to practice at the same rink Lance does; specifically, they use the rink during Lance’s requested times. And Lance is pissed, bc not only are they using he rink during the hours that Lance has always requested, but they don’t even acknowledge that they stole the rink from him. Lance doesn’t hesitate (after this happens multiple times) to get in to the coach’s face about this, only to be brushed off by the guy and told to deal with it until after the season. Thankfully, one of their lead players (if you can’t tell, I have no idea how hockey works), antok, goes up to Lance and apologizes about the mix up, and asks that he at least watches one of their games so that he can understand how important their practice time is. Lance agrees, but only if they watch one of his practices as well. So Lance goes to one of their first games, and can easily tell which one is antok and sees the brutal beauty of it all. And as promised, antok -in fact the entire hockey team- watch Lance do his routine, and to say that antok cant take his eyes off him is an understatement, and a few of the other players notice how antok is completely head over heels for Lance. Of course, some of the players still think that what Lance does doesn’t necessitate the time at the rink; so Antok and Lance plan together to get these guys to actually try and do what Lance does for a living.After a very hilarious and humiliating couple of hours, Lance and antok, along with their coaches get together with the rink manager and settle out everything between them. At the end of the day, a few of Antok’s buddies from the team conspire together and set up Lance and Antok to go on a date to a local diner. And well, the rest is history.Lance goes to all of their games, and Antok goes to Lance’s performances. And yes, Lance wears Antok’s jersey to every game, and you can bet your ass that antok would wear as much of Lance’s merch he could get his hands on (or were actually in his size).

[tangerinewrites]

DAY 24-25: MINA!

11/24/2020-11/25/2020 

wc: 1275 + 767

note: i skipped day 24th but then got back on track today!! sorry i had homework and was very stressed out bc of college and work. still will!! so expect late updates

The night after the girls were told about their promotion schedules, Mina automatically went to Chungha for help and guidance. Sure, she could’ve gone to the other girls in the dorm as well. Hell, if anything, she could’ve gone to Yuzu for help, considering she’s her first “close” friend in HEARTZ that has promoted on a music show before. But, it was practically normal for Mina to go to the other for help and guidance with anything related to the project. So even if she isn’t involved with HEARTZ yyxy themselves, she was still someone Mina could go to when she was in need of an emergency.

“Mina, you’ll be fine,” she says with reassurement as she gives the other a tight hug. “You’re such a talented performer and you’re also super charming! If the whole country hasn’t fallen in love with you already the moment ‘One & Only’ came out, then they definitely will once they see you onstage!”

Mina whines. “What if I mess up, though?”

“Don’t think about the negatives! Thinking like that will only make you focus on the bad side of it all.” She gives a hug to comfort the other. “You’ll be fine, Mina. You’re going to do great with promoting this song. If anything, I think this song suits you the most out of the whole group.”

She tilts her head at the other. “Is it because of the fact that I’m the youngest?”

Chungha hesitates when asked the question. “…No…”

“It totally is,” she says, rolling her eyes.

“It’s not the only reason!” she says in her defense quickly. “You genuinely fit the concept of the song more. Sure, Heejin also had a bit of a cute concept for her song. But knowing you all individually and your performance styles, I feel like this subunit definitely has a benefit with you being apart of the lineup if this was going to be your debut song.”

Mina pouts and looks at the other with puppy eyes. “Aw! Are you saying that you think I’m yyxy’s secret weapon?” She gives the other a tight hug in response. “I love you! This is why you’re my favorite. You compliment me too much.”

“Anything for my mini me~” Chungha coos before she tugs on the other’s cheek. She looks out at their door before looking back at the other. “You think the others are going to call us to watch Yurim’s music video soon?”

Mina shrugs. “We can beat them to it and be the first two in the living room. Just so we can show them we’re superior.”

When she hears that suggestion coming from the younger’s mouth, she couldn’t help but snort. “This is one of the reasons why I’m glad you’re apart of this with me.”

Mina grins before she gets out of the other’s bunk bed, making her way towards the door. “Come on! We don’t want to look like losers! Let’s get a move on!”

“Yeah, yeah,” she says with a sigh before she follows the other’s actions. As soon as the other gets out of bed, Mina makes her way to living room immediately.

If Mina were to go back in time to tell herself one thing, she’d let the other know that she really shouldn’t have gotten as nervous as she did for her Sphere audition. Performing in front of her CEO and coaches is one thing, but in front of a live audience as well as a camera that would broadcast this on TV screens nationwide? Hell! She remembers having to watch music shows through streaming on the Internet! The whole world could be anticipating this performance from the subunit.

It’s obvious she looks a little nervous. She’s always been a bit of a perfectionist when it came to her performances, so messing up in the middle of this would definitely be hard for her. Her manager, the staff, and even the other members were very kind to offer her words of comfort and support during this time, but it still didn’t seem to help Mina’s nerves at all.

And then, it was time. They were given the cue to get themselves onto stage. They had a pre-recording for rehearsal first and Mina managed to do fine, but this was going to be live now. She was going to be performing in front of so many of HEARTZ’s fans as well as netizens and the public in general. The girls who have had their experience with online netizens (because of the MGAs) have told her to not pay too much attention to any mean comments they gave her. But even if she didn’t, she still knows that their image is on the line and first impressions were always important for any up and coming idol.

The girls get into their positions and prepare for their performance. As the music starts and everyone does their moves accordingly, Mina starts to feel herself loosen up as the song progressed. She tries her best to get each move perfectly, as it nearly muscle memory for her at this point. But she also made sure that she gave good facial expressions and that she tried her best with her lines as well. What she will say, though, was that the one motivator to having genuine fun on stage was hearing the fanchants from the excited fans that have prepared for it.

The performance ends quicker than she thought it would and as soon as the director announces that they can get off stage, all four girls bowed and made their way offstage with the back up dancers. Mina smiles as she runs up to Yurim with a big smile, tapping on her shoulder so that she could get her attention.

“We did it!” she says excitedly. “We got to debut together!”

Finally, the schedules that everyone in the group has been waiting for.

After yyxy’s promotions wrapped up, all twelve girls were immediately told to go to the studio to start recording for their debut album. With this finally happening for the twelve girls, it was no surprise that they were all excited for what would come of the future. They were all already familiar with the process, thanks to their individual experiences within their subunits, but now was the time in which they were able to use such experiences to use. This time, however, as their complete lineup.

Mina can say that, between all the girls, there was a mixed opinion on how to feel about their debut title “Hi High”. The song was definitely not something Mina expected for their debut, considering all the concepts that the girls have displayed in the last twelve months. She knows that a good chunk of everyone were disappointed with how it sounded, while the other chunk loved how energetic and cute the song sounded.

Mina was in the middle. She felt that if she listened to it more, she’d gradually learn to love it.

After recording all of her lines for the B-Sides (her favorite one being “Heat”) and for the title, Mina leaves the recording studio with a smile on her face. She’s trying her best to let it sit with her that this was officially happening. She’s sure the other girls felt the same as her, but she was still in shock over what was happening. She was going to be in a full group with such talented girls, some of which she had idolized in the past. She was going to be able to perform, after years of believing that having a career as an idol was impossible for her.

Holy shit! She’s going to debut!

Concept pictures were always one of Mina’s favorite things about the entire process of preparing an album. Not necessarily because of the fact that she thought modelling was fun (though, she does like to look at her pictures from the screens moments after they were taken), but because it gave her an opportunity to look pretty. With this album’s photoshoot, there were two concepts that the girls had to take pictures for: “uniforms” and cottagecore girls in the forest.

As expected, Mina liked the latter much more. It was a shame that the “uniform” aka a white button-up and a gray skirt had to be apart of their fashion for this comeback, as they were going to record a music video for a B-side of theirs. Was it “Heat”? No, unfortunately. But it was “favOrite”, which she thinks would’ve been more cooler had it not been for the outfits given to them.

Not like her opinions mattered for this anyway… for now.

Despite all her negative thoughts on that, she felt the most happiest when taking the group pictures with everyone else. Call her sappy, but she was glad to be able to finally have physical proof of them coming together as one. After the photoshoots ended, Mina asks their manager if they could take a quick group picture for her phone lock screen. With a smile, the manager takes her phone and Mina enthusiastically gathers everyone together for a picture.

“Everyone say ‘Mina is the best!’” Mina shouts with a big smile.

“No way~” the eleven girls tease her in response. After the manager snaps a couple pictures, they give a thumbs up signaling that they were finished. At that, Mina turns to face the others with both hands on her hips. “YAH! Why are you guys so mean to me!”

They all giggle at her and she can’t help but sigh and join in on the laughter. After working and living with them these past few months, even if they did like to tease her a lot, she knew they loved her deep down.

Compared to “Hi High”, she is confident in saying that she liked “favOrite”’s choreography better. Mainly because if she was still covering dances on YouTube, she’d want to cover this choreography for sure.

However, she didn’t like the place in which they were filming this choreography. With filming being in May, she could confidently say that she wasn’t too fond of how warm it was. That, mixed with their dancing, was not a combination Kang Mina was a fan of. Whenever they took breaks from recording the scenes, some of the girls (including her) would rush for their fans or cold water bottles to get a sip.

This music video recording was definitely not a vibe, but Sua, the leader that she was, continued to give them words of encouragement so that all twelve of them could finish with recordings strong. And towards the end of the day, they finally finished filming.

As soon as they got back home to their dorms, Mina went to her room and took a good nap. What an exhausting day.

Compared to “favOrite”, the recording of “Hi High” took longer than just one day. It’s expected, obviously, considering the fact that this is the main music video that everyone would be focusing on. And thankfully, the styling with this music video was much better than “favOrite”. There’s a variety now! Exactly what they needed.

After recording the cinematic scenes, in which Mina tried her best to give actress vibes in them, they got to the best part: the choreography. Compared to “favOrite”, the choreography of this dance was fast-paced, but more so in the cheerful aspect. And after the dreadful recording of “favOrite” from a few days ago, she feels confident in saying that she liked “Hi High”’s choreography now simply because of the positive association. Not to mention, her cutesy parts in the song were fun to verbalize now with the choreography accopanying it.

Their last dance scene would be recorded in front of a weird… architecture? She wasn’t sure how to describe it. But she did know that it was red and that the contrast with that vibrant color and their adorable denim outfits would be pleasing when she watched the music video. As soon as the song finished up and their did their ending poses, the director finally gave their last “Cut!” before wrapping it up with a smile and thanking everyone for taking part of this filming.

And with their words, the twelve girls all cheered in excitement.

[yukipri]

Random text HCs for the YOI Future!Verse ABO AU - Adults 02

Exactly as stated. Self-indulgent rambling headcanons around themes/questions on the five main charas of the YOI Future!Verse ABO AU. Most of this is generally assumed to be post living together, though not necessarily after everyone’s married.

(in other words, a text post bc did not have enough time to art it all oops)

New to the AU? Basics here, rest of the posts HERE.

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Financial background/Money spending habits/Careers

No really, it sounds boring but it’s really important to having a functioning family so hear me out yeah?

Financial contributions of the adults to the family kind of go two ways here: People who bring in money from the outside, and people who do things that they otherwise would have had to spend a lot of money on, therefore saving a lot of money. Both are equally important.

Some of this info will be a bit redundant from other posts but I’ll put it here again so it’s as organized as it can get...

Yuuri - Comes from a lower middle class family that sometimes had to be careful with money (due to decreasing business in Hasetsu) and did struggle a little with Yuuri’s skating fees and sending him abroad. As a result, even though he’s never quite been poor, he’s very conscious about money and how even if you think you’re doing alright, sudden unpredictable factors out of your control can put you in a financial pinch. As someone who also grew up in an inn, he also puts immense value on doing proper house-keeping and absolutely refuses Victor’s suggestion that they hire a maid for their rather spacious house(s) (he grudgingly accepts Phichit’s cleaning assistant robots though).

He’s alright with spending a little extravagantly once in a rare while, but in general will look for bargains and other ways to save, and tries to be the voice of reason. Likes hoarding and puts a lot of sentimental value on objects and may insist on continuing to use them long after it is perhaps practical. Is a bit anxious about the kids’ futures and wants to have hefty savings so they’ll never be limited because of money. Doesn’t like when his husbands spend on things he feels are really unnecessary (especially when it happens frequently). That being said, he’s also very much a stress shopper and when his anxiety’s running high, he can spend more than even his mates (and sometimes but not always regrets it afterwards).

After retiring from professional figure skating he focuses mostly on the kids. It seemed natural, given that Yurio was entering the peak of his career and Victor needed to be at his side as his coach and Yuuri needed to recover from his pregnancy. Later, he’s technically coaching Minami full time, but given that Minami was living with him at home and also more or less spending all of his time and money on their family anyway, it gave him far more flexibility than coaching an outsider would have. After Minami retires, Yuuri continues to focus on the kids and is busy training them.

Yuuri was pretty convinced that his skating career was over the first time he became pregnant, but Phichit convinced (read: begged) him to guest in his ice show once it was started and Yuuri couldn’t turn him down. He took part in it seasonally for several years. The Nishigori triplets are also in charge of running the now annual Onsen on Ice Hasetsu Exhibition, where he’s also performed in lower stress environments, often doing ice dancing and other collaborative programs with his mates and later his kids.

Victor - Rich, and has always been rich. Has a ridiculous inheritance, considerable savings from his prime as a skater, and is also still making more than your average middle class income. Money’s not the thing he’s ever struggled with and he used to drown his loneliness in buying quality but empty-feeling material goods. Now he likes to spend a lot less on himself, but a LOT on his family. He gets that love =/= money, yet he also feels very strongly that those he cares about shouldn’t have anything but the best, and he can be pretty snobby about what he considers acceptable quality. Also feels that if it’s damaged/old, they should throw out the old and buy better new things, because again, nothing but the best.

He especially likes splurging on the kids and frequently gets into huge spats with Yuuri over buying them excessively expensive things when they’re younger because, “They’re children Victor! They don’t care if it’s plastic or swarovski crystals! And they’ll also grow out of those in a few months!” The family technically has a, “You do what you want with your own money, we try to split all the shared things/kids necessities” rule so Yuuri can’t exactly prevent Victor from buying things with his own money, but he can death glare and give him the silent shoulder for days...Money is probably the main thing Victor and Yuuri fight over given how strongly their opinions on it clash and how stubborn both can be, but usually the rest of the family can coax a resolution.

He considers his main job to be coaching his kids, but his reputation as the Living Legend has never faded, and given his success and fame with both Yuuri and Yurio, he still gets tons of requests from outside for coaching. He hasn’t accepted any full time coaching offers but occasionally teaches extremely expensive group and solo classes, often at the St. Petersburg rink when he’s in the country (where Georgi is now the main coach, having succeeded Yakov, long retired), but also at the Hasetsu Ice Castle, which he now owns. Nishigori and Yuuko are therefore technically his employees, and he pays them very generously.

Yurio - Grew up poor and heavily dependent on his grandfather and money was scarce even with the limited financial aid his mother threw their way. He considered himself a relatively money-conscious child who tried not to ask for too expensive things and preferred to just focus on working hard, but as an adult he appreciates so much more how his grandfather never left him wanting. He realizes now that paying for all of his skating training, boarding school education, and never skipping out on giving gifts and an allowance that let him buy whatever he wanted was probably a lot harder on his grandfather than he was aware of when he was younger, and possibly why his grandfather had lived so far from the city and in a pretty barren house with an old car. Yurio does his best to support his grandfather while he’s alive, although Kolya is as cheerful as ever and doesn’t seem to be particularly lacking in anything in Hasetsu, where he now lives with Yuuri’s parents, playing with the kids and taking daily soaks in the hot springs.

As a parent, he’s very much on Team Save Money with Yuuri. He agrees with Victor that buying quality things is good, and he wants the kids to have things that he never had. But at the same time, he also feels very strongly that his childhood wasn’t lacking in any way because he didn’t have anything brand-name, and if it’s all the same he’d prefer to buy used or bargain. In other words, if the kids are conscious of something and want it, sure they can buy, but if it’s just the parents’ whims wanting to buy it for them and the kids don’t care, they shouldn’t. As a figure skater with a career easily comparable to Victor’s, he could easily have supported his family even if he were the only husband, but he agrees with Yuuri that savings are important. Rarely actually starts fights over money himself but will stand solidly at Yuuri’s back as he rages at Victor.

While he was quite the money maker while an active figure skater, after retirement (which wasn’t until his mid 30s) he focuses on training the kids, specifically the one kid he decides he’s going to personally coach. He really wanted the close, personal coaching experience that he and Victor, Victor and Yuuri, and Yuuri and Minami had, and it seemed the right path for this particular child and Yurio’s experience. He also continues his side job as a model and has several clothing lines in his name, though most of those in his adulthood are much tamer than the first line he was given artistic control over in his late teens.

Phichit - Comes from a wealthy family that was able to give him expensive training and lessons in a country where figure skating is far less accessible than others. Was sent to study abroad at fancy boarding schools multiple times in his youth to both grant him better access to skating and to further his extremely advanced academic potential (as a result, he skipped grades and was a college freshman at 16 when he met Yuuri). Yet despite having always had the best of the best, he’s much more aware of money than Victor, and has also never used it as an emotional crutch like Victor either.

But at the same time, he also just genuinely loves splurging on his loved ones and has a very alarming habit of never caring about price tags. He likes buying nice brand things, but unlike Victor, he also likes buying weird, fun, and quirky things too regardless of price, all in a haphazard mish mash that makes it very hard to tell whether the gift he’s bringing home is reasonable or outrageous. He’s very much on Team Spend with Victor, but at the same time he’s empathetic to Yuuri and Yurio’s concerns and can usually spin some excuse why it’s a good idea. As such usually can avoid getting into fights with Yuuri on the same scale as Victor. If he’s around, tries to nudge Victor into choosing his words wisely, which Victor follows if he’s smart about it (he’s not always). Is usually the one to wisely point out that given the set up of their very unconventional family, they have five adults and therefore far more disposable income than most other families, plus they also have investments in multiple countries so one economic crash could never break them. Yuuri trusts him a lot more with money than Victor.

Despite Victor having the largest inheritance, Phichit’s the one actively making the most money from his multiple successful careers and it’s clear that he’ll be the richest by far in the long run. He has his super successful ice show in Bangkok and its sequel which he personally ran for years before leaving it to his successors. He also opened a skating school to give students in Thailand more opportunities to access figure skating. Outside of skating, he picked up acting while studying to create his ice show and while he doesn’t consider himself a full-time actor, he’s been in enough cult hits that he’s one of the more internationally recognizable Southeast Asian actors. Given his talent in connecting to his audience and his varied entertainment production training, he’s received a lot of requests to write and produce for platforms other than ice shows, especially in ways that showcase Thai, Southeast Asian in general, and even Asian in general talent on a more global stage, so that’s also something he dabbles in. He also accidentally and unintentionally created a social media platform which he meant to keep as a hobby/side-project, but it ended up appealing to more people than he thought and sort of blew up. He’s technically CEO but Leo and the Nishigori triplets run it more. His busy careers means that he tends to have to spend the most time away from family, and while money can’t replace his presence, it is something he can provide while across the globe. Whenever he comes back home he brings really extravagant gifts, and though Yuuri tries to stop him, he regularly drops enormous checks into Yuuri’s account “for the kids and you when I can’t be there.”

Minami - Comes from a relatively big name family with ties to the local medical industry, his parents both famous doctors, but is also the youngest son with an older brother so he doesn’t have any pressure to continue the family legacy. Had a fancy education (attended an Ivy League school in the U.S. during the 3 years between the end of canon and Yuuri’s first pregnancy) and access to the best training, but in the end he’s never been particularly ambitious outside of skating. He admits that if their family had been more conventional and he was Yuuri’s only husband, he’d have to go find a full-time job post retiring, perhaps related to skating, perhaps related to medicine which is considerably more lucrative and which he isn’t untalented in. As it is, there’s so many other adults working full time and bringing in a ton of money, so he doesn’t feel any particular guilt mostly focusing on the kids with Yuuri. He regularly goes to take specialty classes when he feels he could learn a skill or get certified in something that will be useful to their family, which is how he ends up with a teaching certificate and tutoring qualifications. While he doesn’t have a medical degree, he’s picked up a lot of things from his family and after Yuuri becomes pregnant the first time he studies prenatal care, especially the more specialized omega prenatal care pretty intensively, and arguably knows more than many general medical practitioners. While he’d never treat anything serious himself, he can provide sound advice and keeps a very close watch on Yuuri, plus they can go to his family for most things without worrying about medical fees. His knowledge and constant presence by Yuuri’s side gives the other mates tons of peace of mind.

Minami still contributes somewhat financially by occasionally tutoring people on the outside, but his primary focus is on Yuuri and the kids. Him waiving almost all medical fees is already a considerable contribution, but he also personally covers all of the kids’ academics when they’re not actively enrolled in school and can tutor them in all subjects. And that’s not even mentioning skating, he wasn’t Japan’s top skater for years and considered Yuuri’s successor for nothing. He was most of the kids’ first introductions to the ice. He also considered himself the full-time live-in babysitter long before he was officially married into the family, watching over the kids whenever he and Yuuri weren’t at the rink for his training. Yuuri and the others were so dependent on him looking after the kids that Yuuri tried to waive Minami’s coaching fees, as it seemed to him a perfectly reasonable exchange of services if not lacking on Yuuri’s part, but Minami very firmly refused. The one time Yuuri tried to refuse payment, Minami splurged extravagantly on the kids, more than Yuuri was due, so Yuuri quietly accepted the money so he could at least funnel it into useful things. Minami was smug, his point made.

Minami likes nice things well enough, but also considers himself very average and would prefer to buy ice cream over fancy brand name clothing any day, and a magazine clip out of Yuuri over any museum art piece. Given that there’s two adults on Team Save and two adults on Team Spend, when it’s a clear split and neither side is budging Minami tends to be the deal breaker. He can swing either way depending on the situation and can be trusted to always prioritize what’s best for the kids, even setting aside any personal bias to give Yuuri whatever he wants.

[creatingmemoriesandchasingdreams]

2018

There were so many uncertainties in my life, and there still are, which are gradually pulling me down rock bottom making me think whether I'm really cut out for this life but I kept pushing through without knowing which direction to go; just crawling my way away from these demons that are haunting me, just to feel better with the fact that I'm actually moving. I feel afraid most of the time but I'm not sure what I'm most afraid of. I've lost passion in what has been my entire life countless of times and I always find myself going back to it, hoping it'll somehow rekindle the burning passion I had inside of me all these years. Many times it just didn't ignite, but some times it did. I've been seeing myself through other people's eyes because I've never appreciated myself or loved myself enough to believe that I'm good enough in everything I do. I constantly need approvals to believe that I'm good at it. Especially in the performing world. Especially when I was a gymnast. I constantly needed to hear "be like Nelissa" or "if Nelissa can do it, why can't you?" from my coaches, or simply a name sequence that put my name last to compete bcs the best is always the last one to compete. Only then I know that I'm above everyone else in the team and believe that I'm good enough. I'd push through trainings to be on top, to be the best, to get compliments; just to believe that I'm good enough. The same goes for love. I've always had good luck with love; being with the good guys. I always had someone to look up to and make me want to be a better individual. But as mentioned, I never do it for myself. I did it to get validation. Validation that I'm good enough as a girlfriend, as a person in general. Never for myself. My first love taught me maturity. And my second taught me true love. These two guys played a really big part of my teenage life and deep down I am more than grateful to have had them holding my hands, going through that phase of life growing together through all those years. Because of them I still believe that there are genuine people out there and that love is great. I also learnt that when a guy truly loves you, they'd never lie to you. Even when the truth will hurt you. This is why you'd always see me breakdown so bad after my breakups and if you know me long enough, you'd know that I take so long to move on from my exes. I feel too much of everything and my mind controls me. It affects me so much because I lost someone who I'd get a validation from. It even sickens me to type this out but that's just who I am; constantly finding my worth in other people's hands. I also keep something really hidden from everyone. Mainly because of the reaction I got or would get if I were to tell it out. I remember coming to the studio late one day and my studio master (lecturer) made fun of my illness because of it. Here's the truth: some mornings I wake up with an attack that makes me choke on myself and makes me feel like I was going to die at that very moment but I just don't. Its like having constant severe chest pains that makes you feel like your life is ripping out from your chest but you don't die but constantly feeling the pain. I struggle many mornings, sometimes forcing myself by dragging my ass to class because attendance is taken into account for your cgpa apparently *roles eyes* but it was that one unlucky day where it took longer to calm myself down from my attack that I was almost an hour late to the studio, with puffy eyes. I was greeted with a "baru bangun ka? Eh eh no i know! Anxiety attack!" like something so serious like that is taken as a joke. I was called weak because I had an attack during training and the coach thought I was just giving an excuse because I couldn't keep up with choreography. I was also called a child out of wedlock just because I stood up for my classmates and apparently voicing out opinions and standing up for the truth is considered rude just because you're a freshman. Just goes to show how shallow the youth's minds are, at least where I'm studying at. Seniority is very important apparently. I know that everyone has their own struggles and this might only sound like I'm just complaining about my life. But it's not easy living a life dependant on chemicals to make you function well with so much being thrown at you just because you're bold enough to stand up for the truths. Every word anyone say to me affects me so much. I take into account every single thing you say to/about me and I feel them deeply. That's just who I am. I did try to fight it but it's bigger than I am. Someone who I call my own brother left me because he thought I was lying about my illness. "you have a loving and supporting mom and sister, why are you still like this?" I didn't choose to live a life like this. I didn't choose to feel this way. I didn't choose to have my parents divorced. I didn't choose any of it but I'm trying my hardest to make it work with whatever I have left of me and that's still insufficient to satisfy them. I'm worn out. I'm so close to giving up but I'm grateful to still have people supporting me. Someone once told me, "people see us as who we are 'most of the time' so don't worry if once in a while they say or see things about you that you don't like. Cause if you really are who you are, they will see it". I messed up last year and I don't want to mess my life again by drowning myself in my own emotions. I always seem happy and strong because I was always afraid of what people will think and look at me once they know what I'm diagnosed with. But I don't want to be afraid anymore. I don't want to fake my smiles and emotions anymore but to just be genuine with myself because I deserve it. I went through my old stuffs and realized that I've always worked so hard to get to where I was, to obtain those straight A's. So I don't want anything to get in my way anymore. I just hope everyone is more considerate and understanding, especially towards those suffering from mental illness. Because its an everyday battle within themselves. And its not something you can see physically as it happens mentally. If you've read this far, it means that you care about me. So thank you, I really appreciate it. Thank you too to my classmates and seniors who've been guiding me with my studio projects and also dances. I'm looking forward to what this year and the following years have got to offer me. I've just got selected into a production and the state's dance company and I am eager to see what other opportunities there are for me to grab! InsyaAllah we'll all go through our individual hardships with high perseverance. P.S. doing this not to seek for attention. Much love, Yours truly xx

[barbarasminerva-remade]

dc heroes highschool au

so i was thinking about this and its my new baby but its really long so im putting part of it under a read more

the school is called justice academy and the school colors are blue, white and gold

theres a martial arts class at their school that bruce teaches bc he’s lonely and we all know he doesn’t have a real job

clark is the lunch lady who reminds kids to eat their vegetables

everything made in the caf is grown in the school garden that he has and he shames kids into not picking the unhealthy foods

bruce is smashing the lunch lady aka clark n he thinks no one knows but really the whole school gossips about how rich dude/part time gym teacher bruce wayne is banging sweet lunch lady clark

also clark and lois have an open marriage so they don’t have to hide their relationship but bruce is like........yeah but i don’t want ppl to know i’m dating someone who says y'all'd've'st

Kon HATES it bc he and tim are also dating

diana is the wrestling coach and everyone marvels at how good she is except donna and cassie (bc thats donnas mom and cassie’s aunt and she  loves to embarrass them) n she’s known for having a rivalry with her the arkham academy coach, barbara minerva, aka her ex girlfriend

also diana is an ancient/world history teacher teaching history as it happened

Diana during the first day of class: The common theme in world history is that White Men Ruin Everything 

donna is captain of the wrestling team

she’s really good and everyone on the wrestling team aspires to be her and everyone on the rival school’s (arkham academy) team wants to beat her

kory was an exchange student during her freshman year and eventually decides to stay. she’s cheer captain but also known for arguing for equality and stages like school walkouts and things and no one ever challenges her bc she’s tall and buff and her gf is the captain of the wrestling team

wally runs track and field

wally is iris's nephew and barry and iris met at a track meet when iris came to pick him up and he was like hey wally what's ur aunt's number? and wally was like ‘sorry coach barry my aunt isn’t looking rn’ bc he thought it’d be weird if his coach dated his aunt but barry shoots his shot anyways and now barry and iris are engaged

also wally is a senior n bart is a freshman so when barry makes bart co-captain wally is like what the fuck is the point of you being engaged to my aunt if i dont get nepotism?????? n barry's like wally he's ur cousin and wally's like not if he steals my scholarships and they fight a lot but they l*ve each other 

roy is president of the archery club with his sorta sister artemis crock and jason is a lit nerd who roy flirts with but jason just thinks he wants homework so he ignores him

roy struggles with being a good dad while also fighting his addiction and work part time to try and save up for college after ollie kicked him out all on top of being a senior in high school

artemis is good friends w mia and conner bc first they were in the archery club together and then she joins the family after jade has lian and she’s like i’m sorry jade is vicious and tries to help out with lian as much as possible and mia and conner respect that

artemis is a really good aunt, she loves lian so much and spends all of her pocket money on taking her niece places. she ditches school to get slurpees w her girlfriends zatanna and m’gann. m’gann helps her study for her classes and with her homework. both make sure she stays in school cause artemis almost flunks out at one point bc of family stuff. also artemis is in lit club bc Z is in it and she supports her

jason lives in an apartment and he makes bruce pay for it as reparations for being a bad dad. but he also works bc he’ll be damned if he has to live off of bruce’s money permanently and eventually starts paying for his own bills and stuff

dick is captain of the gymnastics team and he’s really good. he’s the best in the region and has only ever lost a meet once (which was nationals, he came 2nd place)

tiger, dick, and helena went to summer camp together. tiger doesn’t go to their school, he goes to a gotham boarding school and dick sneaks into his room at night to hang out/make out and tiger comes to dick’s meets and helena tags along

also wally has a big crush on dick and he has since they were kids and dick liked him too. but wally thought dick wasn’t interested so he never went for it and then dick being dick just moved on and now wally just pines after him and it’s sad :/

damian is a snot nose 9 year old kid who hangs around the gymnastic team’s practices to hang out with his big bro and he sneers at the team and says he could do it better (which he can)

the summer before jason’s sophomore year he disappears after an incident and no one knows what happened to him but afterwards bruce sends him to boarding school to correct his behavior (which is where he meets amazon artemis and bizarro) until jason says fuck this and comes back junior year and everyone spread rumors that he like died while he was gone bc no one ever saw him so when he returned everyone was like :O and dick is really excited he’s back but jason is pissed at him bc he didn’t like support jason in fighting w bruce to let him stay

jason has bruce’s number blocked for the drama of it and bruce refuses to think his son blocked him so he's like "oh his phone must be off he's so busy love that guy (:" and no one has the heart to tell him. the rare times he does answer the phone when bruce calls, he recites a monologue and hangs up. he’s also president of drama club and also of literature club

jason recites historic and iconic monologues and soliloquies (bc he has them memorized for certain situations) except he just sprinkles curse words in

jason’s english teacher is about to fucking quit their job bc jason always tries to teach the class

cass is the best student in bruce’s class and also his daughter and she’s fairly quiet and hangs out mostly with her brothers. people like don’t really know who she is other than like hey that’s the kick ass dancer on helena’s dance team or oh! that’s the girl who kicked my ass sparring in Mr. Wayne’s class. she meets steph in one of bruce’s classes and she’s like wild and outgoing and funny and cass has a really big crush on her but she doesn’t think steph feels the same way (she does though) also steph can drive and she’s always taking cass on these really fun adventures but bruce doesn’t approve of steph so cass like sneaks out to go hang out with steph but bruce never knows bc he thinks she’s the perfect daughter and like steph brings cass out of her shell. she’s also on the gymnastics team with dick and is the second highest placing athlete on the team.

my boy duke thomas and his parents were good friends of bruce right so when during the summer before his freshman year his parents die in a freak car accident bruce takes him in. he’s a sophomore now and he’s still adjusting to life with bruce and he thinks his new siblings are kinda weird but cool. he’s also really focused on making sure his grades are immaculate so that he can get into his dream school and make his parents proud. he is in the school band and he’s really great and tim is also in band bc bruce made him but he’s not as good as duke 

jason met duke at a family dinner he was forced to go to and thinks he’s cool unlike his other loser brother and makes him join literature club 

tim drake is a freshmen and gets shoved into lockers. his only friends are kon, bart, and cassie. he joined the coding club bc he thinks babs is extra cool and wants to be like her

jason is the one shoving him in the locker and tim’s like what the fuck you’re the nerd here and jason’s like funny isn’t it and then closes the locker

bart hangs out with tim and kon and cassie. except cassie is cool from being on the wrestling team and being donna’s cousin so she’s always really busy but she tries to make time for them. wally shoves him into lockers sometimes and kon has to get them both out.

kon is in his rebellious teen phase where he's like fuck u dad i don’t wanna be a farmer but its justified bc kon is techinically an illegitimate child from a previous relationship and clark is kind of a dick to him bc he treats Jon better than Kon

helena and dinah make out under the school bleachers before helena has dance practice and when helena has to go dinah smacks her ass and says knock em dead babe

helena originally took mr. wayne's martial arts class because she needed PE credit but now she kinda likes it. the whole time she’s there she objects to bruce's passive approach to fighting 

bruce: fight to disarm or incapacitate ur partner helena: thats dumb, fight to kill ur partner 

bruce wayne voice: helena this is a PE class please stop trying to murder your partners

kate kane subs for bruce sometimes but she supports helena's kill ur partner attitude so they don’t hire her very often

helena is captain of the dance team and they perform at all school rallies and football games and shes really hard on her team mates but only bc she wants them to be their best and babs & dinah make her music mixes for performances bc they love her

babs is president of the coding club and even though she’s a nerd everyone respects her. her and dick went on a date once and then when he kissed her good night she realized she was a lesbian. they’re still buddies though. she dated dinah for awhile but they decided they were better as friends. helena and babs became friends in the martial arts class and babs introduced helena and dinah and the three have been bffs ever since.

[snapitseventeen]

best friends to lovers!woozi

I’m suffering real post concert depression right now and overwhelming love for my boy lee jihoon

alright let’s be real

jihoon’s a v shy person

and he also has no time for socializing and making new friends bc svt’s real busy

and he also produces and practices like 24/7

actually when does this boy sleep???

but alright let’s get to it

you and jihoon have known each other your whole lives

your parents and his parents both are high school sweethearts and best friends so of course they planned to get knocked up the same time and have kids the same time

t o tally norm i mean i would

he was born first so he automatically has the ‘seniority’ card my ass it was 2 weeks

there hasn’t been a day that you haven’t spent with him

of course i mean until he goes to seoul

b ut im just getting started so not yet

it was natural for you two to become friends honestly

everyone knew you were inseparable

you lived next to each other so when one of you woke up, you ran outside next door to wake the other ass up

usually u waking him up bc he’s a rock my head rock my head ok bye

you guys went through everything together

first fight

first grounding

first period if you’re a girl

first detention

first time you made one another cry

first family vacation

that one time jihoon beat up the dude who bullied you at 7????

and then he got accepted to be a trainee at pledis

you were devastated as fuck!!!!!

you two almost parted ways in bad terms

when he found out, you were the first one he told bc hello best friend!

you were honestly at shock like you knew he was talented and loved music like hell he sang and played for you all the time

but lowkey although you supported him 10000%, you never thought he would actually get in!

so your congrats was just sorta like “y-yay?”

jihoon was so disappointed at your reaction like he thought you would be screaming and bouncing off the walls like usual

so our bub got a bit sad and then you noticed and was like

“n o no noooonooo jihoon I’m so happy for you!!! you gOT IN YAY!!”

and then he did that eye smile and your insides just melted thank you

so you were helping him pack but you felt just like empty a bit??

like it didn’t hit you yet that your best friend of forever was leaving you and home for god knows how long

and so you just blurted it out one night like a few days before he was leaving

you two were playing video games when you put down the controller like “don’t go.”

jihoon was like “what????”

“to seoul, don’t go.”

he was flabbergasted like ????

and then you just started pulling things out of your ass

“what are the chances of you actually pulling this off???”

“jihoon this is dumb”

“just stay here”

oh and then this one triggered him

“what if you’re not good enough”

hiS FACE GOT SO COLD, he never looked at you that way before you were honestly a bit scared

he started yelling at you about his dreams and how you were supposed to support him and how he felt so betrayed and then

“you’re not my best friend. get out.”

and that’s how you ran out crying back to your house

you didn’t talk to him the next day, you actually couldn’t face him

but the day after that he was leaving and as much as you were scared to see him, you couldn’t let him leave without saying goodbye so you woke up and ran to his house in your pjs to see him eating breakfast with his parents

“oh y/n, jihoon was about to see you” his mom said with a smile

“make up already, we all know you two can’t stay mad at each other for long” his dad said as you and jihoon were walking upstairs to his room

it was quiet at first but then both of you started saying sorry at the same time and you kept talking so just like honestly it was a relief

you ended with a hug and a few tears saying how much you were both going to miss each other and how you’ll text and keep in touch

sadly you couldn’t accompany him to the bus bc you had a school thing so you said goodbye at his house

you guys did keep in touch of course but as the days weeks months and years went on with him not coming back home bc practice you eventually stopped texting and calling each other

you began pursuing your own thing - highkey you were a really talented volleyball player and you were happy your parents were your biggest fans and you actually thought you could do this for a career

when jihoon debuted you were so excited you were keeping tabs on him and his group bc hello you were his best friend!

you literally burst out laughing at his pink hair but you were also like “aw he looks so different nice job puberty”

you sent him a text on his debut day and he responded so fast you were a bit shocked tbh

“CONGRATS JIHOON I SAW YOUR VID ITS SO GOOD I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU ACTUALLY MADE THIS SONG ITS SO GOOD I MISS YOU I SUPPORT YOU ALL THE WAY FROM BUSAN I ADORE YOU LOVE UR BEST FRIEND Y/N”

“I MISS YOU TOO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE IT??? THAT MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER I GOTTA GO BUT I MISS YOU AGAIN BEST FRIEND :)”

“oh by the way nice pink hair”

“shut up”

you guys didn’t talk to each other again for a while bc hello he’s a hot idol now

bUT THEN YOU FOUND OUT you got accepted to the most competitive volleyball team in seoul so ofc you had to go

the first couple months you were so caught up with practice that you never even thought of texting jihoon

and then he called you one night like

“you’re in seoul??? what the heck man why didn’t you tell me?”

“what how’d you know?”

“one of my members watches volleyball and we were all watching and i saw you and yeah”

and that’s how you ended up setting up a date and time to meet up with jihoon at his dorm with the other 12 members of seventeen????

you were honestly a bit scared like you knew his group, you knew enough about the members to know who all of them were, you actually really liked their music and it still amazes you every time you think your best friend produced this song???? but like whAT IF THEY DON’T LIKE YOU

and then you rang the doorbell dressed sorta nicely like -> (girl / boy)

and this one really tall guy with dyed hair opened the door

“oH YOU MUST BE JIHOON HYUNG’S BEST FRIEND? HE TALKS ABOUT YOU A LOT!! IM MINGYU!”

and then jihoon comes out and tells mingyu to let you in and to stop being annoying and

yOU ALMOST HAD TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE BECAUSE brO

LEE JIHOON

YOUR BEST FRIEND SINCE BIRTH

LOOKS SORTA REALLY FUCKING HOT

and like you saw his pictures from his comeback BUT

him in person WOW and he got taller than you so like ;)))

and likewise he’s like in his head shiT WERE THEY ALWAYS THIS ATTRACTIVE????

but you two greet each other in a big hug and his busan accent came out while talking to you and his members are just like :)))) “we’ve never seen him so hyper :))))”

and so you meet all his members and you guys eat for a bit and honestly you hit it off with them thEY LOVE YOU and when you and jihoon go to his room for some best friend catch up time some of the boys start pouting and whining and it’s really cute but jihoon pulls you towards his room with jeonghan mingyu and cheol and just locks the door

you two talked for the longest time it was like you were back in busan in his bedroom and that made you tear up a bit like you missed him a lot like the first year or two coping without him was absolute hell for you

you were the only person that he felt so easy to talk to like words flowed out endlessly and without that comfort in the beginning he was so lost

sadly you had to go back to your own dorm and so you said goodbye to jihoon and seventeen (not before you got their numbers and snapchats)

you still didn’t see jihoon very often, but you certainly did communicate with him a bit more

every time one of you had a break, you would send a snap and a little “hey loser good luck with adsfgfdj today”

you honestly didn’t know when you began to catch feelings for jihoon and same with him

like the rare times you two hung out together, the first thing you noticed was how good he looked no matter what he was wearing

you just like began noticing every little thing he did

you especially loved seeing him work at his studio or seeing him dance

his body just moved so fluidly??? like he wasn’t in the performance unit or anything but he was so good at dancing!!!

and his seriousness when working at his computer like you were in awe how did you not notice this handsome face since idk your birth?

when he caught you staring at him yOU BLUSHED SO HARD and he did that little smirk like “you okay there?”

you almost smacked him

that night you were in your bed just thinking about him like you were making theories and everything

“alright if he liked me this could honestly be the best thing ever. I know a lot about him and he knows a lot about me okay we grew up together we uSED TO BATHE TOGETHER alright mom and dad love him and hello aunt and uncle basically adopted me already-wait not adopted, that would make him seem like my brother hell no okay so-”

the day you both found out you liked each other was a wild ride

you got hella scolded by your coach bc you kept making mistakes at your game and you were just not having it so you went to their dorm a bit uninvited just like hoping they’d be okay with having your company for a bit bc you needed some lovin

you were literally about to cry and all the boys were like “y/n no!!!”

so they kept trying to make you laugh and that really made you feel better

and then they started being sly with you and jihoon bc you sure as hell know that they know about jihoon’s crush on you

“y/n who’s your favorite member???” jeonghan ha

“oh that’s an easy one!”

jihoon just expecting it to be him

“minghao!”

“yES!”

“what the hell???” jihoon accidentally said out loud

everyone was laughing like hard crore even you

and then baby just left to his room and you’re like ??????

cue seungkwan “u made him jealous y/n oh no!”

so of course you go after him and try to talk but he’s just in his room all stoic and a bit irritated just at the mere thought of you and minghao together

so you’re like “jihoon what the heck? it’s just a harmless topic”

“why don’t you like me??”

“don’t be dumb, we’re best friends-”

“exactly, that’s why I should be your favorite”

“stop being a baby”

“I’m not! just thinking about how you like minghao makes me wanna punch him”

and you like cross your arms and sigh bc even when he’s overreacting he’s still so fucking cute!

“it’s not like I wanna date him”

and he’s just like “whatever”

so you’re just pumping yourself up like thiS IT IT PERFECT TIMING DONT PUSSY OUT

“I mean, if they asked me who I would wanna date, I would definitely say you”

“what”

“what?”

he would be so shocked but also like :))))))

“-and I know this would potentially ruin our 19 year long friendship but-”

“shut up and come here” and he would pull you in and hug you so close like you would feel lightheaded a bit in a good way

and then he looks at your face and looks at your lips and your heart is beating so fast like you’ve been wanting to do this since you first saw him again and 

boom boom

“hey is everything-oH HEY!”

you and jihoon as a couple would be the cutest thing ever

jihoon hates pda with the guys but he LOVES it with you it sort of offends the boys a bit

he always holds your hand he loves being connected to you

really likes it when you give him back hugs tho

really appreciates when you force him off the computer and you two just lay down on the couch in his studio cuddling and you’re just stroking his hair

sort of addicted to kissing you too especially on the shoulder

it’s honestly perfect because you guys are just so comfortable bc hello again you’ve known each other since birth

the boys love you and they always count on you to take care of him when they can’t and vice versa

support 100000% he streams your games and you his performances

you’re his muse to everything you’re the reason he gets up every morning

tours are hell bc all jihoon wants to do is hug you and sometimes facetime is hard bc time zones but you both somehow make it work

you guys barely fight at least not big ones, you both understand it won’t be easy but you love each other so it’s okay

there’s a huge amount of trust which is so important when he travels

when he announces you to the public you get a fair amount of hate and he got so sad but you’re like “eh”

eventually the fans accept you and love you bc like you’re jihoon’s best friend and who better to be with him than someone he’s known his whole life???

omg when both your parents found out

your dad to his dad

“you owe me a car”

jihoon makes me so warm and this was longer than I thought it was gonna be but !!!

[circeswife]

October 2006, 8 years old-- My mom brings home a copy of the self-titled album from the library and we listen to the songs together.  I’m 8 so I don’t understand all of it yet, but I know instantly that I love it.  I know Taylor is young, and I’m awed that she’s accomplished so much already.  I’ve already decided I want to be like her when I grow up.  At that age, I'm obsessed with Eragon and dragons and swords, and would dance around my room with a ruler (my sword, obviously) and pretend I was battling with evil kings.  The self-titled was my soundtrack.

September 2008, 10 years old-- I’ve just started 5th grade and my alarm goes off in the morning for school and the radio is playing.  A brand new song starts (Love Story), and I don’t know it yet, but I can tell I’m going to love it.  Later I found out the song was by Taylor and I’m ecstatic because that means there’s new music coming.  The very next year in 6th grade in my chorus class, we have karaoke Fridays every week and from day 1 I know I want to sing Love Story.  Later in the year there’s a Karaoke Concert and students Ms. Stanley chooses get to perform.  I sing Love Story and the whole night I’m all smiles.  (A few years later, my grandfather is in a Veterans Affairs nursing home in Richmond, VA.  They hold holiday dinners for the veterans and their families.  At one of the Thanksgiving dinners, there’s a DJ who is having people do karaoke if they want.  My dad walks up with me and asks the man if he has Taylor Swift songs.�� He says he does, and I sing Love Story again.)  The album comes out a few months later and Change quickly becomes my new dragon fighting anthem.

October 2010, 12 years old-- I’m introduced to Speak Now the same way I am Fearless, with hearing Mine on the radio before school.  By then, I’m old enough to recognize it as a Taylor Swift song without needing to be told.  When I learn that Taylor wrote every single song on the album, I love her even more.  I’m not in chorus anymore, but there are new electives at my middle school, and one of them is karaoke.  I take it as many times as possible (they only lasted a quarter and then you were supposed to sign up for different things).  My friends and I make a goal to sing as many Taylor Swift songs as we possibly can (we get through quite a lot).  I love every single song on the album, but I’ll always have a soft spot for Long Live (the dragons, again).  My dad hears Haunted, and for the first time he starts to like Taylor’s music, too, not just because I do.

October 2012, 14 years old-- I’m a freshman in high school and I’ve spent a lot of the last few months listening to Taylor’s first 2 albums again.  I’m at a point in my life where I’ve realized I don’t have very many close friends (maybe 1).  My group of friends from middle school fell apart all too quickly when high school began and I’m not sure where to sit at lunch or who to talk to.  I latch onto Red and all its songs because at this point, Taylor’s music has been in my life for a while and I almost consider it a friend.  I feel weirdly passionate about We Are Never Getting Back Together, considering I’ve never been in a relationship.  All Too Well is beautiful and breaks my heart every time I hear it (which is why I listen to it a LOT).  My dad decides his favorite song is The Moment I Knew off of the bonus cd, and to this day it still is.  I’m on the swim team at school, and one of the meets is fairly far away and my parents come to it and instead of riding home on the bus with the team, I ride home with them and we listen to the album the whole way home.  I don’t think I’ll ever be able to pick a definitive favorite Taylor Swift song, but as of right now in my life, Red is my favorite album.

October 2014, 16 years old-- 1989 is released and I’m nervous because it’s a different style of music this time around, but I buy it anyways because it’s Taylor Swift and she’s never let me down before.  I love it.  Every time I listen to the songs, I notice something new about them and find something new to love.  At this point in my life, I’ve long since realized I want to be a writer and this album reminds me that Taylor Swift was one of my first inspirations since she writes most of her songs.  At Christmas, my parents surprise me with concert tickets to see the 1989 world tour in D.C. July 13th.  I have bronchitis that Christmas and a little out of it tbh so my reaction was definitely a bit more laid back than it normally would’ve been.

July 13th 2015, 17 years old-- This is the summer I started my job as a coach on my long time swim team. My coworkers and my swimmers have heard a lot of my excitement about the concert.  It finally rolls around and it was and still is the best day of my life.  I was up in the stands of Nats park with my mom and dad dancing and screaming along lyrics with people I’d never seen before and it was such a surreal experience.  It was the first concert I’d ever been to, not just my first Taylor concert.  I think I cried at least 3 times.  I wanted to live in that moment forever.  The next day, I went to swim practice/work despite getting less than 4 hours of sleep, and BOY did I talk about it all day to my swimmers.

Summer 2017, 19 years old-- This was the first summer I was too old to swim on the team, so this year I’m just a coach.  One of the lifeguards decided to play from Taylor Swift’s spotify a couple times, and every time a song came on, my swimmers knew I was gonna be dancing and singing as loud as I could.  One day a different lifeguard was playing music so there wasn’t any Taylor in the playlist, and one of the parents asked me about it.  At the end of the season all the coaches got thank you cards that the swimmers signed and 3 different people signed mine as Taylor Swift (it was adorable and its on my insta @llyceab).

Taylor’s music has been a part of my life for a long time, longer than the swim team I now coach for.  Her music always seems to fit my life like a soundtrack, and its been like a friend to me.  Idk if she’ll ever see this, I just wanted to say it bc as an artist and as a person, she’s so important to me.  I’m at a point in my life where I’m starting to push back against the people who aren’t really there for me and become who I want to be.  LWYMMD inspires me to not take crap from anyone and be myself unapologetic about it.

@taylorswift