#the autism is kicking in guys be very afraid!!!

[duck-in-a-thrift-store]

Personal rant bc we haven't gotten my official results yet but we did get a very stressful phone call about it, and because adhd has been kicking my ass lately. This is going to be long and rambly and all over the place, and if you're anti self-dx, I wouldn't suggest reading further (or interacting with me in general). It also sort of becomes just me psychoanalyzing my own behavior and infodumping about it

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For context, I'm autistic and adhd, and I went and talked to a psychologist a couple weeks ago and had some testing done

Personally, I don't really feel the need to have an official diagnosis for autism. I'm confident in my informed self-diagnosis (technically it was actually my parents who first suggested I might be autistic but I've learned a lot about it since then and now I'm pretty sure I'm more convinced than they are) and I just don't think a doctor's note will do much for me (totally understand and support anyone who does want to get diagnosed tho). Adhd however is another story. If I want meds that will actually work and accommodations with my school, they need proof, and as things are I am desperate for some help.

So the appointment I had a couple weeks ago was supposed to be for adhd testing, but apparently he also lowkey tested me for autism while we were there. Which like, fine, whatever, it would be sort of nice to have that validated I guess, but when we checked back in with him on the phone earlier this week he started using outdated and problematic terms like high-functioning and aspergers and I'll just say that it did not exactly inspire confidence

But that can of worms aside, let me get back to (mostly) adhd related ranting

I feel like there could be an essay about how the diagnostic process for adhd is flawed and doesn't work all that well for people who have an internalized notion that their worth as a person is dependent on their academic success and task performance and therefore spent their childhood and adolescence funneling all their efforts time and attention into school and generally being seen as a good well-behaved bright kid out of desperation to have value (and it worked- I've always made good grades, but what people don't see is the days, weeks, months of paralyzed procrastination, the anxiety-fueled mad rush in the end to get things done late, and the grace I'm inexplicably shown every time, without which my grades would be much worse)

I'm scared, that I'm going to be determined "too high functioning" to be diagnosed even though I'm currently doing basically nothing with my life outside of college and yet I'm technically failing like half of my classes right now, that they're going to say "well the signs weren't there when you were younger" even though there's a variety of explanations for why that might be, not the least of which being the fact that for some folks with both autism and adhd the traits of the two have a tendency to "hide" one another

Apparently he also ran an iq test on me, and he broke down the 5 scores to us; I scored in the upper average/above average bracket in all but the 4th, processing speed, in which I'm below average. And like yeah, I'm well aware that I'm slow, but I guess it's official now-

Anyway, my main point with the iq thing was that while he was telling us about my high scores in the first 3 areas, I'm sitting here getting more and more uneasy, bc I'm like yeah sure I'm intelligent or whatever but it isn't worth shit if I can't motivate myself to actually do anything with that potential, and the conditions under which I was tested just don't reflect my day to day life closely enough to give an accurate reading, in my opinion.

Basically I'm afraid this guy is going to look at the results of some tests- tests which I was really focused on bc of the intrinsic fear of failure that plagues my existence (even though rationally I know you can't fail a psychological evaluation) and bc I know it's a bitch of a process to even get tested in the first place and I wasn't going to waste the opportunity goddammit-

That he's going to look at them and decide that I'm "too smart" to have a learning disability, when, again, all the brains in the world wouldn't do me any good if I

1) don't have the ability to self-motivate and direct them at what I need to be working on, even if I've been beating myself up about that pile of homework or my disaster of a room for weeks or even months, and

2) have such a loose grasp on the concept of time and priorities that I have on multiple occasions found myself pulling all-nighters on personal projects or reading for pleasure or scrolling on my phone only to realize oh shit I have to get up for school in like two hours, oh fuck, I'm going to be exhausted all day, what happened to "let's go to sleep early this time, I'll just do this for like 5 more minutes and then call it a night"

or realize after one of those all-nighters that what was actually a period of about 10 hours feels more like 10 minutes to me ("man wasn't I literally just here to get dinner" the next morning, passing the caf on my way to class on exactly 0 hours of sleep and still having managed not to get any of my actual class work done in all that time)

And also just that tendency in itself is significant, to get so deeply hooked on something once it does manage to get my attention, that I often feel like I can't stop until outside forces demand it- staying up until 4am on a school night painting my phone case and texting my crush (14 or 15), making bracelet after bracelet at the kitchen table at ungodly hours of the night because I couldn't sleep and now that I'm on a roll I don't want to break the momentum (18, a few months ago), throwing horrific amounts of time at reading fanfiction of whatever series currently has my interest when I have so much work that needs to get done if I want to have a chance at passing my courses this semester (18, basically present), making a last minute birthday present for my aunt and being so caught up in the rush and the craft of what I was working on that I ignored my body's needs until I ended up pissing myself (12), etc

The fact that I've been meaning to catch up with my high school friends for weeks or months, literally something as simple as a "how have yall been" in the group chat, yet for some reason I still haven't gotten around to it

The fact that for all my alleged intelligence I still haven't learned to ride a bike or drive a car or apply for a job or develop a work-life balance or play any of the instruments I want to or have a thriving social life or feel like a person (I think these are more autism-related but I'm throwing them in anyway)

The fact that minor (or even just mistakenly perceived) disapproval or judgment or teasing or having a text left on read can send me spiraling into anxiety and convinced that everyone hates me and that I'm worthless or obnoxious or stupid (rejection sensitivity is a bitch)

The fact that when I try to read I have to make a constant conscious effort not to jump ahead and all over the place and I often have to reread the same passage multiple times to understand it because I realize that I wasn't actually paying attention the first couple of times, my mind elsewhere and my eyes wandering

I know even if I do get diagnosed they'll say it's inattentive, not hyperactive or combined, because the majority of my hyperactivity is either fairly subtle movements (because I'm socially anxious and clumsy and don't want to draw attention to myself or run the risk of breaking or disturbing something) or just straight up in my head. Like sure I'm not a nine year old boy who can't sit still in class and is constantly bouncing around all over the place and getting into trouble and driving his parents and teachers crazy (bc being seen as annoying and unruly by authority figures would have broken me), but there's always so much noise in my brain, it's always talking or playing music in the background or thinking about the 47 different projects I need to be working on and the media it wants to be engaging with instead and the 1000s of things there are to worry about in a day; sometimes I'll get stuck in a loop where I'm mentally repeating a word or phrase over and over and over again until I feel like I'm going crazy

All of this is stuff that this guy doesn't see, and that worries me when it comes to the validity of his assessment

But basically, what I'm trying to say is, I swear to god if the people around me don't believe that there's clearly something not neurotypical going on here I'm going to fucking riot

And, ranting aside, I want to end this post with a note to all my fellow neurodiverse folks who are waiting for answers or treatment or validation or support or whatever.

I feel you. Hang in there. You have my well wishes in your endeavors. And remember, it's ok to be happy with or proud of who you are and what makes you different, it's ok to embrace your neurodiversity while also acknowledging how difficult it can be to live with and the fact that you might need extra time or support with things that seem to come easily to other people. It's ok to admit that it's fucking hard sometimes, and it's ok to ask for help. Take care, mates

[starleska]

RAAAAH I got a job interview for my dream career field, my autism evaluator is deciding how Afflicted and Afflicted with what I am, I'm well rested, and I've had a great time talking to people today! I believe I am finally blinded by the hubris of my victories enough to tell you (and whoever may be following the saga of my ramblings in your askbox) what my Latest Fixation is! You can just dm if I say anything inane in my post-pleasant day delirium, or you can put me on blast, idc idc I'm losing my mind rn, I'm rotating this show in my head so fast.

👉👈 so...The show is called Longmire. It's an American, contemporary western, crime drama from 2012 based on the book series of the same name. It follows the titular Sheriff Walt Longmire as he tries to get his life together after the loss of his wife and solve crimes in his county and whatever he can around the neighboring Native American Reservation.

I say "whatever he can" bc The Reservation isn't actually within his jurisdiction and he's barely allowed to be there, bc they have their own police force, and THAT'S where THE GUY I keep trying to tell you about without telling you about comes in!

👉👈so...he's Tribal Police Chief Mathias Clark. Yeah I gotta say the whole thing.

We're first introduced to him when he tries to beat the ever-loving cowboy out of our protagonist for daring to show his face on The Reservation after arresting his boss, the previous Tribal Police Chief (albeit for crimes he did commit, but Walt didn't even wait for the federal police like he was supposed to, but...it was complicated, ok?)

I think he walks this nice line between upholding the law above all else; doing things often more by-the-book than any other character; being calculated and calm and sane (...despite that introduction); and, at the same time, being fiercely protective of his people and culture; considering Sheriff Walt and co. to be opportunistic, reckless, disrespectful threats and scarcely cutting them any slack and still giving them trouble when he finally does in any investigations that may lead them onto his jurisdiction; being willing to kick and bite (and occasionally blackmail, uh oh) to achieve everything he can for the good and well-being of his people on The Reservation, even if the people refuse to trust another Police Chief, or if it may cost someone else.

Ultimately, he holds the law in a very high regard but holds his people and culture higher. He's very limited in what he can do, as a tribal police chief, and he's set on being fair, but he'll do anything he possibly can to make The Reservation safe and ensure the people on it a good future. <3

Also he's got a lot of attitude and sass and is constantly mad at Walt and loves his people sm and its very endearing and funny and also don't fact check anything I've said today with a real long-time fan of the series unless I made him sound unlikable, I hope you're doing well plz take care okay bye AGAGGHAAAAA THE POST RANT CLARITY-

LORELEI YOU LITTLE LEGEND OMGGGG!!!!!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳 honey i am so, so proud of you, that is absolutely amazing!!!! wow - makes me feel a lot better about a rough month that it's balanced out into a good time for a pal, eh? 🥰 ohoho FIXATION TIME!!! okay okay i am sitting cross-legged and listening eagerly :3c wow!!!!! oh my goodness first of all this show sounds so cool, i'm adding it to the watchlist immediately 👀 and second, hello Tribal Police Chief Mathias Clark!!! he sure is a handsome guy 😳😳 and from everything you've said about him, quite the catch (and exactly the kind of man you tend to fall for 😉) :3c he sounds like a wonderfully principled man who isn't afraid to protect those he cares about most...and you know what? i reckon you falling for him is a sign that you feel you deserve to be taken care of. which you do. that is so, so wonderful 💖🙈

i can imagine this is a series which touches on a lot of prevalent issues to do with the erasure of Native American culture and safety at the hands of American racism and police brutality...would you say this show does a good job of portraying that? it's not a subject i'm overly versed in being from the UK, and i'd love to get a better grounding on that even if in a fictionalised context. i'm not sure if you'd recommend the tv show or the books first, but you've certainly got me curious 👀 interesting that the first thing which comes up when you google his name is fanfiction - clearly you've got some competition in the fanbase, eh? 😉 you'd better be inviting me to the wedding!!! 🥳🥳🥳

[ask-the-observatory-gang]

==> INTRODUCTION POST <==

Meet all the guys that you can ask questions, and who will be role-playing them in responses!

(All copy pasted from discord, everything under cut!)

Violet(Vi, V):

-Draws well (I had to)

-Adhd, maybe autism, CHEWS AND GNAWS ON EVERYTHING

-Actually wears her glasses

-Very silly, acts like normal V but sometimes actually genuinely happy and nice

-Totally isn’t the cause behind the bite marks on the landing pod chairs

-Aroace & lesbian flag

-Does the Dino arm thing

-Basically just a fucking cat (purrs, meows, and all that jazz)

-A broken headlight cause yummy yummy (same with crack in tail Vial and screen)

-Acts like a silly cat

-Most of the time unaware of surroundings

-She/her

==> @conniewoof

:!Stars intro!:

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- half snow leopard (somehow)

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- slightly talker than the average drone

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- workaholic

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- thinks her scars r cool

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- their pawpads and ear stars r rlly squishy :3 and if u squish her ear stars they make a squeak sound GEHE

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- she's practically a nightlight coz of how glowy they are.. but whenever she goes to sleep they stop glowing lolz

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- rlly likes bugs and studys them nonstop

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- loves analog horror n scary stuff in general,, they just find the concept of it all rlly interesting

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- gets distracted by anything cats would💀

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- rlly likes video games and can defo kick ass in them

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- has a scary ass zombie drone/solver form

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- her nose twitches when she cries shrug emoji

˚₊· ͟͟͞➳❥ -- her tail (elliot) is actually pretty sentient, meaning he can communicate with beeps and boops (even though star can only understand them clearly)

==> @strbrypancakesxd

《☆ Nathan ☆》

<-- ADHD -->

☆▪︎▪︎ Pansexual, Transmasc ▪︎▪︎☆

==> This little man PURRS. He is a dog at heart but he PURRS.(his favorite thing to do)

==> Hehe silly feathered wings(that could still kill a man)

==> Would unironically bark at someone if they annoyed him somehow

==> Is the sweetest guy but oh my goodness does he hold a grudge

==> "Haha oh biscuts that knife right by my heart really hurts- Do you want that back?"

==> PUZZLES. Do not give this man a puzzle he will try to solve it for the next week and no-one will see him

==> Took the nanite acid out of his tail at one point(it hurt like a bitch) and now has a empty stinger as a tail tip instead

==> OBSESSED with keeping his wings clean and nice looking, he literally will put aside any other responsibilities until they're perfect

Silly little Alaskan Malamute inspired guy :3

==> @staruzi002

❦ Revel ❦

❦ Pansexual lil guy

❦ Has a weird hyperfixation on ducks, specifically lil tiny yellow ones and really loves to make random duck comments to fill a conversation.

❦ Anything that might be yellow is going to be gone in approximately 5 seconds of him spotting it

❦ Outgoing with a passion for fashion (OUJI-) and design, has a bit of sass if you by chance try to question his fashion choices. He also uses "girl" and "sis" unironically

❦ Usually passes away at the slightest compliment and will ascend with his wings into the stratosphere to hide himself

❦ Ribbons. Ribbons are the best.

❦ Don't give him any bells or things that squeak, he will indefinitely be playing with them until they break somehow and he'll go into sad lil guy mode for a week on average

❦ “Autobots! Roll out!” *rolls down an ongoing avalanche*

❦ Deathly afraid of spiders but will disintegrate an entire colony

==> @bonkadonkss

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In a mysterious alternate version of Copper-9, this fun little group all met eachother! And now they're here to answer your questions!

So ask away folks!

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RULES --

- No NSFW. For the love of God please none.

- Be nice to the sillies(and the roleplayers) we're just here to have fun!

- These are characters that are from an active rp server, so things might change about them as we go!

- Expect text for most of the answers(unless whoevers answering feels up to doing a doodle), that'll be how they're put most of the time!

[newwwwusername]

Hey! I had seen your Breakfast Club fanfics on ao3, and they are great! I was hoping you could do one with a BenderxBrian pair

Ship: BenderxBrian

Headcanons: ADHD!Bender , Autistic!Brian

Prompt: Bender is very self conscious about having ADHD, not wanting anyone to find out about it. When Brian innocently asks a question regarding neurodivergency, Bender gets really mad. Brian tells Bender he’s autistic, and he helps Brian not feel so alone with his ADHD.

Warning : The r-word is used multiple times out of dialogue but from the perspective of an ableist, abusive parent so just keep that in mind Chronology : Post-canon Pairing : Brian/Bender Headcanons : Bender has ADHD, Autistic!Brian, they have math class together, Bender's dad is ableist (although that's hardly a headcanon cause there's no way in hell that man would be NOT ableist) Author's note : I use the term "Asperger's" here because it's more accurate to what Brian probably would've been diagnosed with given the diagnosis, however this is your friendly reminder that Asperger's is, in fact, just an outdated term for part of the Autism spectrum. Similarly, Bender's ADHD is just called ADD here.

When the doctor told Bender he had ADD, he quickly took steps to make sure no one else found out. His dad's reaction to his fuck-up son being a retard on top of everything else was bad enough. He didn't need to get the same treatment from his peers.

He was so careful with this information that when Brian innocently asked him a question about it, he flipped his shit.

"Hey" the blonde had said as he sat next to the other boy during science class. Bender was too surprised by the fact that, of all people, the nerd was talking to him during class that he didn't even manage to get a shitty remark in before the boy continued. "Sorry if this is a bit random, but I've been picking up on certain things you've been doing and, I was wondering if you maybe have, like, Attention Deficit Disorder or something, because-"

Bender kicked the boy in the shin hard and gave him a very scary look. Brian seemingly took the hint and stopped talking.

After class, Bender roughly grabbed him by the arm and dragged him to the nearest bathroom. He shoved the smaller boy into the biggest stall and locked the door. Brian looked up at him as though fearing for his life but didn't dare say anything. Once the brunet was sure that the door was locked properly, he pinned his scrawny classmate against the gross tile wall, much to Brian's dismay, and leaned in really close to make sure no passing-through students heard.

"Who the fuck told you?"

"Huh?" Brian asked, confused. Bender almost smacked him but refrained, instead just holding a very stern glare toward the boy as he elaborated.

"Who the fuck told you I have that... Thing?"

"What, Attention Defici-"

"Who. Fucking. Told. You?"

"No one" Brian told him, eyes wide with fear. Bender let up his grip a little bit because he didn't want the kid to be that afraid of him. "No one told me. I figured it out on my own"

"How?"

"Well, I, uh..." Brian sighed. He figured there was no use in hiding this information considering he was in deep shit regardless. Besides, maybe it would help Bender be less ashamed of his own disorder. "I have Asperger's"

"Holy shit" Bender said, a bit surprised. He'd been tested for that as well, but he himself wasn't diagnosed with it. However, that had still triggered a whole slew of rants from his father about how retarded those kids were and how he was glad that, if his son was gonna be a retard, it was better that he had a less extreme case of it. He never thought of Brian as retarded, though. Just kind of annoying. "Holy shit"

"What?"

"You're, like, normal" Bender chuckled. Then, seemingly realizing how he was coming across, he shook his head and forced back on his tough guy persona. If Brian wasn't still being pinned to a wall, he probably would've chuckled. "Regardless, you don't tell anyone about this, got it?" the taller boy demanded. Brian nodded earnestly. "If I hear one of your little math nerd friends so much as breathe the word 'ADD' near me, you're dead, got it?"

"Absolutely" Brian assured him. "But, uh, for the record, it's nothing to be ashamed of"

"Well that's easy for you to say when you have something way more serious" Bender told him. Brian just seemed sad at this and it was only then that it dawned on Bender that he wasn't actually alone in this anymore. Sure, ADD and Asperger's weren't the same thing but surely they were at least similar if his doctor felt the need to test him for both at the same time. "Don't speak of this out loud, however... Notes, I'm fine with"

Brian's frown gave way to a small smile. He's trying, he thought to himself. This is hard for him, but he's trying.

"Now..." Bender spoke up again, releasing his hold on the smaller boy. "Get the fuck out of here"

"Yes, of course"

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[fineillmakeaslasherblog]

I'd like to request headcanons for whoever's you think would be the most interesting (+brahms) with a reader who has Pathological Demand Avoidance? It's a subtype of autism, I think it could be fun to write characters interacting with a reader like that. Suggesting brahms in particular bc he's a huge brat ❤

I'm actually going to be pedantic here, since Mun is both autistic and a neuroscience student, and based on the phrasing of this request, I'm guessing you don't experience PDA yourself lol. In the DSM-5, there are just three "types" of autism: level one, level two, and level three. PDA is a controversial topic for a variety of reasons, but the general consensus among professionals is that it's a behaviour pattern/profile, not a condition or sub-type. It does not appear in the DSM-5 at all. Not to mention the potential for pathologizing self-agency (see also: the controversy around ODD which I'm not touching with a ten foot pole). Anyway, here's an overview on the topic if you're interested. There's therefore uh. No way I can make everyone happy with this post. However, for these headcanons, I'm going to effectively treat it like a compulsion, so hopefully that's good enough.

Brahms Heelshire:

Alright, here's my hot take: you guys have the backbone of a chocolate eclair when it comes to this boy.

Look, I get it: massive man who can and will kill you tells you to do something, survival instinct can kick in. But like... at the very end of the movie, when Greta puts her foot down and doesn't act afraid of him, he listens to her.

This obviously isn't to say that constantly telling him no is ideal, but it really isn't going to go as badly as some would have you believe, especially if you can explain it to him.

To be honest, the last thing he needs in a relationship is his parents 2.0, so being able to tell him no is a really important skill to have regardless. His parents were afraid of him, which is why they gave into what he wanted. Being able to refuse him shows that you aren't afraid of him.

Bubba Sawyer:

Aaand now for the complete opposite. I don't think Bubba is capable of demanding anything if he tried. Like to a fault. So the only time I can foresee this even coming into play to begin with is with his brothers.

Honestly, though, you're probably still going to be fine. There will be some arguments, sure, but you're the one with the giant man with a chainsaw on your side.

Tbh Bubba is really your best bet here. Absolute sweetheart, has the patience of a saint, and can either support you or cheer you on, depending on what you need in that moment.

Like I'm not gonna romanticize compulsions or anything, but at the same time, if you're able to stand up to Drayton, even if you didn't want to, he'll still be watching with stars in his eyes. We all know this.

[fefe-the-cat]

Frithuswith (protagonist of my current wip, Adultery, Assassination)

[1] Frithuswith is immediately beloved by all. She genuinely loves everyone she meets. Major golden retriever energy, but still competent enough to be one of her kingdom's greatest monarchs.

[2] She's a queen consort. She's never alone. But if she was, she'd probably just... vibe, I guess, I don't know.

[3] Grief, specifically the kind that comes from betrayal. She just denies everything. The only reason she believed Eadgifu when she said she seduced Rastislav (her husband) was because Eadgifu was "running too high a fever to be lying" at the time.

[4] Loving almost to a fault and will make everyone aware.

[5] Definitely a good secret keeper seeing as no one found out about the attempt on Rastislav's life. But they all knew Frithuswith used her regency to usurp the throne.

[6] She meant what she said and she said what she meant. An elephant's faithful one hundred percent!

[7] She could probably lie if she wanted to, but she just... doesn't want to.

[8] She will definitely let you know. She's spunky.

[9] I... don't know, actually. Maybe all of them? I think she can adapt.

[10] Frithuswith fell for Rastislav hard and fast, and trusted him blindly.

[11] A crackling fire, a soft blanket, and an opportunity to yap.

[12] Her self-esteem is pretty high, but she's not arrogant. She knows she's flawed, but she also knows worse people can and do exist.

[13] A joke that might take a second to get. A funny one-liner or clever pun.

[14] It depends on the situation. A flustered/crush laugh is a giggle. An amused laugh is a cackle. Then there's that sad laugh. I don't know how to type it, but I'm guessing you all know what it sounds like.

[15] She overthrew her husband because he cheated on her. This question can't be answered because Frithuswith is never around someone she doesn't like. She just kicks them out or leaves.

[16] She's self-reliant but not problematically.

___

[17] The constant fear of being assassinated.

[18] No.

[19] She wouldn't have married Rastislav. She would have kicked and screamed and insisted on her father making an alliance with another country. Or joined a convent. Or run off into the woods.

[20] She just does her darndest to solve the problem. Cheating husband? Kick him out. Girl tried to assassinate him because she's a hitwoman? Give her a new job. She's very practical.

[21] Really depends on how sick. A little sniffle or an upset stomach? Leave her alone. the plague? Please hold her.

[22] She'll have nightmares, but they're more vaguely threatening and they don't happen often. If they do, she doesn't remember them.

[23] During canon. Husband gets plague, finds out husband got plague from cheating on her because mistress is an assassin, has to rule the country and figure out how to deal...

[24] I'd say overthrowing the king was a pretty heart over head decision.

[25] The story is set in what is implied to be Medieval Europe, so I think all her fears were rational and the better question is why isn't she afraid of everything?

[26] If she does, I'm not sure how important it is to the plot. Up to you guys :) She may have a few traits yoinked from autism though. As a treat. Because I'm autistic. But it's entirely open to interpretation.

[27] She doesn't really have a physical appearance. She could be anyone. But my current mental image of her is Jane from My Lady Jane (the TV show).

[28] Forgiveness is complex. It doesn't mean no longer being hurt. It doesn't mean reconciliation. It means intentionally choosing not to hold a grudge and hate that person for the sake of the forgiver. So I really don't know.

[29] Eliminate the cause, cry...

[30] Healthiest: cry, solve problem. Unhealthiest: you could put her quotes on r/rare insults probably

[31] Hmmmm... I think it depends on whether she's aware that what she did was wrong. If she knowingly did something wrong, she'd own up to it quickly and easily, but if it was an accident or only considered wrong by an arbitrary societal standard (e.g. greeting someone with a cat noise, wearing pants around the palace, etc.), she probably won't, at least not without putting up a bit of a fight.

[32] Being so trusting.

[33] Her wedding. Even if the guy turned out to be an adulterous asshole, she still looks back on it as a good day.

___

[34] She's impulsive and naive, but I don't know how insecure she is about that.

[35] Up to interpretation. I didn't give her a physical appearance, nor do I know if/what beauty standards are applicable in the setting, so it's up to everyone else.

[36] Yes, definitely. Her wedding dress and ring, probably.

[37] She doesn't get those. She has a kingdom to run.

[38] It's a castle. It's inherently safe, otherwise purposeless.

[39] Sidesleeper, probably scrunched up, likes to be the little spoon.

[40] It's the Middle Ages. She can't afford that.

[41] Wake up, get dressed by lady/ies-in-waiting, monch.

[42] Cuddle time for both

[43] She's the queen. That's not a thing.

[44] Wherever the people are.

[45] Depends on the event.

[46] Comfort.

[47] Probably, but not much. Maybe a glass of wine or mead with dinner. Maybe a couple on her wedding night.

[48] princess->queen

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[49] Literate, good at politics (not even a period-typical misogyny thing, King John of England needed a signet ring for a reason)

[50] Really good at knowing what she wants, really bad at wanting things society wants her to want, probably

[51] I refer again to her position in society.

[52] Old English (Frithuswith was named after St. Frithuswith, Patron Saint of Oxford, that's her native language), Czech (Rastislav is named after the king of Moravia in the 860's), and probably Latin (church and stuff)

[53] I feel like they didn't sing much outside of church at that time...

[54] Just tell her what you want and she'll do her best to get it to you :)

[55] It takes three weeks for habits to be developed, so...

[56] Depends. Was it clever? Did the dirt contribute? Is she eating? Are there children present? What's the relationship between the maker of the joke and everyone else present, including but not limited to her?

[57] Nurse the woman who tried to assassinate her husband back to health.

[58] Morals

[59] She doesn't care much about if she's remembered or specifically what for, but if she is remembered, she wants it to be for something good or morally neutral

[60] I think she already did. She usurped the throne. I think that counts, except she can't break the law because she is the law, so...

OC questions

60 questions that can be made into an OC ask game, or you can just fill everything out yourself to get to know your character a little better :)

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[1] What first impression do they typically make? Are they likeable from the get go, or take time to grow on people?

[2] How does their social personality differ from how they act when they’re alone?

[3] What emotion is the hardest for them to deal with?

[4] How physically and emotionally affectionate they are?

[5] Are they good at keeping secrets?

[6] How direct are they in conversations, do they speak in hints and riddles or bluntly say what they think?

[7] Are they a good liar, and what would they probably lie about?

[8] How open they are about their true feelings, both positive and negative?

[9] What is their love language?

[10] How quickly do they fall for someone?

[11] What are small things that make them happy?

[12] How high is their self-esteem?

[13] What kind of sense of humor do they have, if any?

[14] What does it take to make them laugh, and what does their laugh sound like?

[15] How do they act around people they don't like?

[16] Do they easily rely on others to help them out, or prefer doing everything themselves?

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[17] What is their biggest struggle that no one around them is able to understand or believe?

[18] Do they ever have to hide their identity and for what reason?

[19] If they could change one thing about their past, what would they change?

[20] When they’re sad or upset, do they need company or some time alone?

[21] When they’re sick, would they want others to visit and take care of them, or they would rather prefer not to be seen at not their best?

[22] Do they have nightmares, and if yes, when did they start and what are they usually about?

[23] What was the worst, the darkest period of their life that they have been through?

[24] How hard it is for them to not allow their emotions to cloud their judgement?

[25] Do they have fears and phobias, and if they do, do they usually keep it to themselves or talk about it openly?

[26] Do they have any physical or mental ilness, how do they handle it and how open they are about it?

[27] Do they have any scars, how did they get them and how do they feel about them?

[28] What is something that they will never be able to forgive?

[29] How do they deal with loss, stress and anger?

[30] What are their most healthy and most unhealthy coping mechanisms?

[31] How hard it is for them to own up to their mistakes and wrongdoings?

[32] Is there something they've done in the past that they deeply regret till this day?

[33] What are one of their fondest and most treasured memories?

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[34] Do they have vices they don't want others to know about?

[35] Do they like their own appearance, and what do they do, if anything, to alter it in any way?

[36] Do they own items that have sentimental value?

[37] How would they spend a lazy day when they have nothing specific to do?

[38] What do they usually do or where do they go when they need to feel comfortable and safe?

[39] What is their sleeping habits and favorite sleeping position, either alone and with someone?

[40] How picky they are with food, do they have specific dietary requirements based on their health or culture?

[41] What’s their usual morning routine?

[42] What is their idea of a perfect friendly hangout and/or romantic date?

[43] Do they enjoy flirting or being flirted with?

[44] On a party, where would you find them?

[45] For an event, would they dress like they typically do, or go all out?

[46] Would they rather dress to look attractive or to feel comfortable, and what would they never wear?

[47] Do they drink alcohol, and if they do, how much and how often?

[48] Are they, or were they at some point in their life, a part of any subculture?

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[49] Do they possess any unexpected skill or knowledge that surprises others, and otherwise, what is something anyone would assume they know or can do, but in fact they don’t?

[50] What are they really good and really bad at?

[51] How good are they with money?

[52] Do they speak any other languages aside from their own?

[53] Do they like to sing and how confident they are with their singing?

[54] Do they like giving gifts, and how good are they at picking good gifts?

[55] How long does it take for them to make a new place feel like home, and what do they need for it?

[56] How would they react to hearing a dirty joke?

[57] What was the most stupid or dangerous thing they have ever done?

[58] In the situation where they had to choose, would they rather stay loyal to their morals or to people they love?

[59] What would they want to be remembered for?

[60] If they were to commit a crime, what kind of crime would it most likely be?

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some of these question were written myself, some are the courtesy of my friend, and some were brought from my questionnaires in my old fandom. if you use them, please reblog or link back to this post

[curious-menace]

Arkham Scarecrow SFW Alphabet

im really enjoying writing arkham scarecrow. maybe ill do something similar to my random riddler headcanons posts with some scarecrows

long post under the cut

 A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Uhhh, the short answer is no. Jonathan is almost wholly incapable of what most people would term “affection”. His idea of loving is not using you for his experiments, only giving you small doses to build up your immunity( not that that will stop him from enjoying watching you panic). Jonathan leans heavily on gifts and words of affirmation as his language of love ( assuming he can even feel that emotion). He calls you  “my dear”  and “my darling” or once “my pumpkin” if he had too much to drink. 

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Jonathan would make a good friend if he could ever be wrangled into admitting it. He’s a complete bastard, but he's a loyal bastard. He always goes above and beyond for his friends but it's always in a “aw shit. My favorite idiot needs help AGAIN?!” begrudging , kind of way. You probably met in university/college and if you've stuck with him this long he’d be hard to get rid of.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

He never asks for cuddles and is pretty touch adversed as a rule. Sometimes though, He simply plonks himself in your space and expects you to know what he wants. Usually it's gentle backrubs/strokes like you would with a child. Sometimes he just wants your warmth to sooth his aching body. He’s heavier than he was in Arkham asylum but still very underweight so you shouldn't have too much trouble moving him into a comfortable position.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Absolutely not. I'm not convinced this man owns more than his books and the burlap sack on his back ,never mind a home. He has plans to take the cloudburst on tour, to go cross country and then across the world spreading fear. That would be a little difficult if he had gotham mortgage sending him nasty emails every other day about missed payments. While he can cook and clean, I doubt you'd want to eat anything he made. Ignoring his filthy hands, he's probably laced it with fear toxin or a lethal amount of hot sauce.

His homemade cleaning chemicals are pretty stellar mind you. They can get blood, piss or tears out of anything. 

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Scarecrow really is a ride or die kinda guy. If you've wormed your way into his life then he’s going to do literally everything and anything to keep you in it. He’s not above making you dependent on him for safety just to keep you around longer. He’s not a total monster to the people he cares about mind you. If you really didn't want to be with him, he’d let you go….eventually.

I'm not sure he fully understands the concept of a “breakup”on his end. He gets that you don't see eachother anymore but I don't think he quite grasps that it's not because one party is dead. There's a 99% chance he’ll use you for his fear toxin experiments as a way of kicking you to the kerb. If you wake up in a ditch with a text that says “we’re through” you should consider yourself lucky. 

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

I canon arkham scarecrow as having been engaged at one point in his life, possibly around the time of origins. I can imagine his partner gave him a “me or the fear toxin” ultimatum which has led to the man you know now. Despite how he looks, how he speaks and acts, he’s still open to the idea of a partner. He’s a loyal man who can't stand backstabbers, he’d appreciate someone like a spouse/husband/wife to have his back. If he decided he wanted to get married he’d propose almost immediately. It might be more of a business or thesis type proposal with lots of talking rather than flowers and wine and you're likely to be married as soon as you said yes. 

He has a tiny pumpkin ring saved for the occasion. Something like this (image credit https://www.banggood.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He’s gentle, in a creepy way unsurprisingly. He was a little stronger than the average man before the incident with croc, all that cardio and fighting with batman made him a skinny legend amongst the rogues for how well he could fight. Now? He couldn't fight his way out of a paper bag. Mostly he's calm and soft, especially when you wouldn't expect him to be.  He can still be an emotionally manipulative person but chances are good you're smart enough to see right through him. Calling him on his bs is actually a good way to endear yourself to him. He likes a challenge and he loves it when people think they can outsmart him.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Hmm. yes and no. Scarecrow is severely touch adversed, but...It's not like with Riddler; Edward is on the autism spectrum and genuinely gets overstimulated by a lot of physical contact, he doesn't usually enjoy it unless under specific circumstances. Scarecrow WANTS to be hugged and held on occasion, but the mere thought of someone in his personal bubble sends his hackles up. 

When he first woke up after the asylum, he clung to you like a lampent. Scarecrow gives and recieves hugs like someone who needs them to breath.Your warmth soothes the aching pain when even drugs couldn't . By the time of Arkham Knight he’s grown cold and distant. His hugs are few and far between and unusually half hearted even when he initiates them. Maybe he’s just preoccupied with batman.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

I doubt he’d ever say the words ``i love you” but he’s absolutely going to quote love poetry at you, recite lines from his favorite literature  “shall i compare you to a summer's day” and all that. That’s far better than a simple “i love you” right?

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Jonathan is sort of one note when it comes to expressing frustration. Coffee machine not working? Melt it down into fear toxin vials. Line at the grocery store? Gas everyone out of his way. He doesnt get mad, he gets even. He’s not a super jealous person, he’s probably the most secure in himself out of all the rogues in Gotham bar Selina and ivy. But when something does hit his jealousy bone just right? LORD HE IS TERRIBLE. 

Unless you were the instigator, you are 100% safe but the poor soul who made the mistake of flirting with you will never see the light of day again.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

He can't really kiss to be honest. He lacks a lot of lip tissue and tongue dexterity for deep smooching. He’s quite happy to give you little pecks on the cheek but anywhere else will get sloppy and he's not a fan of that. Jonathan has actually started to bump you with his head like a cat in lieu of kisses. Rare as it is, when he wants kisses he has a tendency to nuzzle into the crook of your neck or rest his head on your shoulder. He likes to be kissed on the cheek , forehead and top of his head. Most other places are covered in scars and lack the sensitivity to enjoy it.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

He likes to scare kids. It's not as malicious as it is with adults, he just likes to yell boo at them, smiling as they scream and giggle and run away. It's probably the most innocent he’ll act around other people. He still doesnt like them per say but he’ll tolerate them in small doses. 

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Scarecrow , like most rogues, is not a morning person. He doesn't sleep well and he is hella grumpy when he first wakes up. Expect to watch him shuffle around his hideout like a zombie, still wearing a quilt and his dressing gown as he complains about everything from the weather to the loud creaking of the floorboards. You should present him with food and coffee and then retreat to a safe distance until he’s fully awake, otherwise he’s liable to turn on his grumpy old man routine on you. If he's feeling particularly sore or needy, he’ll ask you to help change his bandages and dressings .

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

It really depends on what he feels like in the moment. Sometimes he’ll leave you at home while he goes out to cause general mischief, sometimes he’ll bring you along as a look out. Sometimes it's a low-key night at the hideout reading and sometimes it's a caffeine fueled frenzie of experimentation and lab work with you as his trusty lab assistant.  He doesn't sleep well at night, the aches keep him up. If he were ever to actually go to bed he might find that you make a great pillow.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

As much as he resents people having the upperhand with information, it's hard not for people to see his past. His scars are so easily visible, inside and out. He doesn't talk about his past unless prompted. But if you do he’ll quite happily answer all your questions; he’s not afraid of discussing it. 

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Jonathan is a very patient man, not just when it comes to revenge.It takes quite a lot to make him fly off the handle and he cools off again quickly. That's not to say he doesn't hold a grudge like he’s being paid for it, only that it's more of a simmering anger rather than a boiling one.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He remembers most things about you, he has an excellent memory. But that being said he never lets on that he knows these things. He likes to hear you talk about the things that interest you, even if you've told him about it before. Watching you wax lyrical about your chosen subject makes him feel close to you. 

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

I don't know if it's a favorite or even a positive memory but when he first woke up from surgery after croc you were lying beside him. He was understandably confused, maybe even afraid, but seeing you there brought him great comfort. He didn't know what was happening because of all the meds, but as long as you were with him he was confident things would work out for him.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He means well, you should always keep that in mind  before you snap at him. He brought you to the arkham knights HQ to protect you from his plans, he’s given you micro doses of fear toxin to build your resistance and by the time of arkham knight you can hardly move for the amount of guards he has following you around. He’s overbearing bordering on controlling but I think it's because he simply can't admit the thought of losing you scares him, even just a little. You aren't a rogue, you don't know Batman like they do. He just needs to keep you safe from batman, from the police and from the ugly world outside.

Given how weak he’s been viewed practically all his life, I believe he’d resent the accusation he needed protecting. deep in his mind he knows no one man is an island. He appreciates little helps even if he won't say it. He doesn't need protection per say but If nothing else, after being injected with his new toxin, he's going to need someone who’s corpus mentis in his corner for court and medical proceedings.  

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

His idea of a perfect date is you two working on your respective projects in comfortable silence, maybe a trip to the museum if he feels like the exercise. Obviously that suits some people down to the ground, myself included, but he gets that it's not for everyone. He’s probably ok with you planning the activities provided you warn him beforehand. 

Given everything he’s been planning for batman, things like important dates and even everyday tasks have a tendency to get lost in the fray. He's not doing it on purpose, He’s glad to celebrate these things with you if you remind him, He's just got his priorities in a funny order.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He shuffles his feet when he walks and is one of those people who always has conversations in doorways. You can never be sure he isn't aware of these habits and is doing them on purpose. He also used to smoke quite heavily but has since given it up due to his throat and lung issues.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

It's sort of a mixed bag with him. On the one hand he knows he’s ugly, that's the point. You're MEANT to be scared looking at him, he’s leaning into it. But on the other hand his “look” is a carefully maintained visage; if it slips it might lose the intended effect. He might not be as scary to look at or worse, people might look at him in pity. It's not ordinary vanity or narcissism but yes, he is concerned with maintaining the way he looks 

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

The concept of feeling whole is somewhat lost on him; He’s clearly missing a few screws even in his most lucid moments. That said even in the depths of madness brought on by his toxin, he still notices your absence. Still incredibly distressed In his cell in blackgate, he can often be heard crying out to you for comfort  but is lacking the wherewithal to understand why you're not there. 

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Given that he has pretty extensive facial injuries, eating is pretty difficult for him. He used to really enjoy bagels and cubanos from gothams many deli’s. His favorite was a kosher deli in The Cauldron, before Joker ruined it. They’ve since rebuilt and while he can't eat many solids anymore , he still enjoys their matzo soup and smoothies. 

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Like most of the rogues, he absolutely can't stand bullies.He also can't stand physically aggressive people; if you're going to even TRY and intimidate him maybe you could use your words like someone with more than 2 brain cells to rub together, rare as that is in gotham. Back when he was a psychiatrist he hated people who were chronically late. Not his patients, most of the time it wasn't their fault  due to executive dysfunction or traffic, but people who kept HIM back and made HIM late were the bane of his existence. 

Z = Zzz (What are their sleep habits?)

Crane is a back sleeper who snores because of his damaged septum.He knows he makes a noise akin to a flip flop in a lawn mower but there is literally nothing he can do about it besides sleep on his stomach. He squirms around a lot in his sleep so even if he starts on his stomach, he’ll be on his back snoring like a dead horse in no time. The only thing that could keep him frontwise is if he were to sleep on you and have you hold him in place. 

[bornadreamer]

My watch dogs 2 headcanons

Sitara:

 Aro/Ace (not just because she wears the flag colors lol)

Dedsec is a big queerplatonic relationship for her. She loves all the guys so much and would kill for them, but as soon as someone mentions her fucking one she kinda just *vomit emoji*

Hyper protective of kids. After the mission with her niece she dedicates at least 10 hours a week to developing software to protect kids on the internet/root out pedos

Hardcore listens to nature noises while she paints/sketches

Fantastic at calling people out on their bullshit. She does NOT let the guys get away with anything demeaning/sexist, even by accident. To their credit, they always apologize and try to do better

Loves weird/facey tea flavors. One time she brought back a bbq boba tea and everyone else gagged. 

Knows everyone’s triggers and actively purges them from Dedsec feeds before the others can see

Crazy wine aunt vibes. Will care for you when sick, but will roast you for how you acted like a baby after.

When she gets panic attacks, she needs weighted blankets. Like, enough to break a few ribs. Wrench sat on her once. It actually helped. 

Loves She-ra. Hacked the studio to watch the eps being made and yelled at the screen like a banshee the whole time. The boys were very afraid.

Horatio:

Actual only straight person in the group. The butt of so, so many jokes.

He, like Marcus, LOVES fashion. While he can’t wear what he wants all the time due to his undercover persona, he buys fashion mags like nobody’s business. Can name his ten favorite designers off the top of his head. 

A little bit very OCD, though you can’t tell by looking at him. Ratio is very anal about what goes where. Everyone knows not to go near his station in the hackerspace. 

One time Wrench knocked over his desk (nearly destroying his rig) and Ratio’s stuff went flying. Wrench almost had a guilt meltdown. Luckily, Sitara had a picture and they managed to put everything back almost exactly. Almost.

Stress cleans. When his undercover stuff is really getting to him, he’ll kick everyone out of the hackerspace and just. Clean. For hours. When they’re allowed back in you could eat off the floor.

Since he can’t be around all the time, he gets little gifts for everyone and leaves them at their stations to show that he’s thinking about them.

Wrench:

We been knew that the boy is suicidal, but he’s manic-depressive bipolar as well (also not shocking)

ADHD

Self medicated with every kind of drug out there.

Marcus and Josh eventually beat him down enough to take Meds That Are Actually Helpful. Sitara mediates. It was A Process. 

All of his fingers are broken from one thing or another, it made him really self conscious when he Marcus and Josh started dating. He didn’t like holding hands because he felt his were ugly. 

Texts solely through emojis like fucking hieroglyphs. Half the time nobody knows what he’s saying. He has no intention to stop. It drives everyone nuts.

Likes to be the middle spoon, with Marcus as the big and Josh as the little

DO NOT let him consume more than three cups of coffee. He will not sleep for days. 

The first few weeks of sleeping with Josh and Marcus he doesn’t take his mask off. He’s terrified. Finally, they manage to get im comfortable enough to do so and his boyfriends have a great time kissing every inch of his face. He laugh-cried from relief. 

He and Marcus have terrible hacker movie night. They watch cheesy hacker moves and laugh at how bad everything is.

Squishy toys help relax him when he’s having a bad manic episode or an anxiety attack.

Josh:

Also hardcore ADHD

Somewhere on the autism spectrum as well. 

Marcus’s first gift to him as his boyfriend was a chewy necklace, since he needs his hands to hack. It actually helped more than he thought it would.

Most of the time he totally forgets he has it, though

Unironically enjoys black and white television. He’ll have I Love Lucy running for audio while he’s working. Sometimes he even turns on the blind narration.

Horatio and Marcus switch off on making him blind narration eps. They have a ball with it.

Lists. Lists. Lists. This boy has a timed checklist for almost every day. His phone will ping and won’t stop until he Does The Thing. When he’s really in the zone and doesn’t hear it everyone at Dedsec kind of wants to kill him.

Sometimes Marcus and Wrench need to tag team who coaxes him into the shower and who does his laundry while he’s distracted because this boy is a fucking disaster. They both fucking hate his green hoodie. 

Must Hack. There is nothing else But The Hack.

Will crack if you say enough bad puns. It’s really the only humor he can get behind

When he does his happy stim (flappy hands) everyone at Dedsec just does from cuteness overload

Loves slow, lazy kissing in the morning or right before bed. It’s the only time his brain slows down enough to really enjoy it before he goes into work mode

Marcus:

He and Ratio have the deepest discussions about fashion. They both lose their minds at John Boyega and Orville Peck

Marcus loves to shop! He drags Wrench and Josh with him for opinions, though neither of them really care they love how happy it makes him. Sitara is his real shopping companion, she Knows what looks good on him.

He’s the only neurotypical person in Dedsec. Boy was THAT and adjustment. Marus spent months after he joined reading up on everyone’s conditions and how to best help. He feels like a pro now, but is eager to learn. He stayed updated on all medical research. 

Marcus works with Sitara to prepare little emergency ‘fit-kits’ as they call them, for everyone. He can pull them out when someone’s having an episode and help them through it.

It can be a struggle to make sure both his boyfriends are on their meds and keeping themselves healthy, but he’s happy to do it. Marcus can take almost anything life throws at him

Organizes hack offs within the group just to show off, basically. The only one who has beaten him so far is Josh.

Josh isn’t into clubbing, so Marcus and Wrench party hard. When they come home they binge one of Josh’s old shows until all three fall asleep on the couch. 

Tasers pedos and rapists on sight, unless he’s on mission.

He goes back for them after

Terrified of motorcycles but loves weird cars.

He’s jewish and keeps a menorah at the hackerspace. Everyone loves to help him celebrate. 

[critical-ramblings]

Things that Mean More on a second watch-through of C2

Episode 8-10

"He burned alive in front of me" "Yeah you did that though" this is why I love Beau

Caleb identifying all the things and then not telling them what it is makes a first appearance! It's so clear here how little he trusts them, even as he jokes with Beau 'you look like a nerd' and Fjord 'yeah those manacles just stop you from being gassy"

Fjord snaps Beau's goggles almost immediately upon her acquiring them. so what I'm saying is that they've always had that sibling energy

Caleb purposefully manipulates Jester by giving her the wand--to distract her from the glove of blasting...too bad Beau is on the case.

Beau says she's getting her own room, and Jester says they've always been roommates...this is also the night Beau tucks her in, so....THIS IS IN EPISODE 8 PEOPLE

Jester extorting the starosta for Fjord's letter is still Incredible, as is the first appearance of "Fjord Tough." I still lost it with the rest of the table.

Caleb didn't have to roll a wisdom save after he incinerated the bandit leader because he was immediately knocked unconscious, but Liam makes up for it with the nightmare he has afterward (take them out, take them out!) LOVE ME SOME ANGSTY WIZARD

I already made a post about this, but I feel compelled to remind everyone that the shady guide they meet when they first get to Zadash is the abandoned business partner of Lawrence, Tary's husband. 

First appearance of Pumat Sol! I love how much the cast love's Matt's voices

"Unpleasant one, let's go" "obnoxious one, I'm with ya" Molly and Beau are so good you guys

"There are those who believe [tieflings] are the result of the Curse of Ghor Dranas" cool world-building Matt!

"The Apple Tree Learning Center" is a soltryce-run 'public school' for children and adults...who wants to bet it was a similar school that discovered the blumentrio? Or at least encouraged them to apply

the first time Caleb transcribed a spell (unseen servant) he IMMEDIATELY invited Nott to help him. And Nott, though dismayed that it was going to take 2 hours, was willing to help out.

"What are you doing with my cat?" Molly won't be able to see through Frumpkin's eyes, but he's got the spirit

"When you compliment people it sounds like a fucking insult," Fjord and Beau are GREAT

Maye one reason we have a dim view of the Empire is because our first plot line in Zadash involved corrupt politicians...not to mention Caleb's whole Thing

First mention of the Cerberus Assembly: general complaints that they're grabbing for power and influence in Zadash and beyond.

Nott being afraid of the bath :( "a person could drown in that"

I legitimately forgot how much they treated Nott like a kid...from the swimming lesson, 'you'll get a sticker'

Caleb is SUPER paranoid, asking everyone how they feel about the Empire and sounding out these new party members. Funnily enough, it's Molly who is most on his wavelength as far as keeping a low profile goes

Yasha really didn't want to confess which god she followed to the rest of the Nein, but when pressed said, "he pulled me out of what felt like literally the depths of hell. I owe him my life." this is without even remembering Obann or what he did.

The contrast between early Beau/Yasha 'do I get a good view" 'roll for perv' and later Softness is...a lot

Caleb and Yasha bond over not doing the hugging thing

Nott LEANS AWAY after asking how dangerous the sewer job is going to be. She is Not On Board for risking her life the way the others are--not even for 700 gold.

'you kicked his cat into oblivion!' "I didn't!" Matt doesn't often distance himself from his NPCs, but when he does it's for animal cruelty and bad parenting.

Jester talking about her visit with the Traveler in the Pillow Trove is...Relevant. It's kind of crazy how early the line was drawn between Fjord and Beau not trusting him and Caleb being quick to prop up Jester's faith, "there are stories that tell of gods dabbling with mortals, not often but it does happen." whereas Beau says, "I'm interested in a god who kicks it with mortals. Never heard of that."

Caleb not wanting to get a new jacket because he knows this one is big autism feels (even if it is also his paranoia talking)

"she does see hamster unicorns. they're gods, right?" "No Beau they're just--they're just unicorns" I love them

"I've never been in a sewer" Molly says, excitedly, and also making me Feel Things

the evolution of Yasha's voice is really cute. we stan 1 Ashley Johnson

I think I was still listening to the podcast at this point so I totally missed all of the It jokes Liam did in the sewer job

Nott sees everyone getting ready to fight and takes a drink. It is interesting to keep track of her drinking, knowing everything we know now.

rat punching, the pasttime of lvl 3 adventurers.

Yasha, to Caleb: "are you very scared right now"

Caleb: "no because I am with all of you"

Nott: "I'm very scared right now"

Caleb advocating for looting the guards the spider killed is #vultureculture

It gets overlooked in later episodes, but 10 was when Nott's button collecting really took off.

They meet the Zadash Lawmaster Orentha and Nott immediately says, "she seems nice. I wonder why all those people wanted to rebel against her." if that doesn't sum up the themes of this campaign idk what does

Nott says, "and now we never have to do another adventure again" she's come so far

Caleb is VERY transactional after this fight, handing out loot for favors and goodwill with individual party members rather than splitting the loot.

This leads directly to Molly pinning him to the wall, which in retrospect was definitely a play for authority and dominance and not anything shippy.

Caleb straight up says to Fjord, "I don't trust you yet. I don't trust any of these people yet."

That whole conversation is actually Very Good: 

Fjord: "That's too bad"

Caleb: "yeah I have...I have made mistakes in my life. And, I'm, I have harmed people. Not in a long time. *clears throat* you know I thought I was going to be something, someday, a long time ago, and now I. Don't."

"We've all harmed people, and I hope you come to trust me in time" this is why I ship widofjord (emphasis mine)

 Nott going through Fjord's stuff is also this episode! Such shady motherfuckers

"If the money's right and it's not stupid" is a good philosophy for this group

"Your cat got kicked into another dimension?!" "Oh he had such a face, I will never forget this face"

They have fireflies in Kamordah and not Nicodranas. Canon.

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My little special interest topics! (Finally got to writing this)

Ulysses S. Grant: I actually don't know where to start. He's just my #1 guy. Every new thing I learn about Grant is so fascinating. I think what I like best about him is just that he is such a normal and genuinely caring person who rose to power through honesty and sincere effort. Grant is unlike other historical figures who usually dominate the spotlight like the founding fathers who had advantages in life, something that makes him so extraordinary. I like him because he is a good person who, although he definitely made mistakes, tried his very best to pursue justice no matter what other people thought. Grant also admitted his mistakes, something that so many historical figures and just people in general who have a good reputation seem afraid to do. Grant makes me happy and I smile about him. Absolutely awesome dude :). I'm so glad he was president but am sad that people forget about him mostly in part due to Lost Cause propaganda slandering him.

The Complexities and Confusion of Thomas Jefferson: My #1 problematic fav. Thomas Jefferson never fails to be interesting. I've always had a fascination with him. Something that makes him so fun to study in my opinion is his personal life rather than the actions he took that made an impact on the world. Jefferson is personally very mysterious though his actions are well known. I constantly wonder what his thought process was that caused him to be so hypocritical, racist, and willingly blind to his own actions. There is the added complexity of Jefferson most likely being autistic, and I personally wonder how he coped with this. From what I recognize so far, he became unmasked later in life (but also gave into his intrusive thoughts) likely due to the fact that he had garnered so much power that he didn't need to worry about it anymore. The death of Martha Wayles Skeleton Jefferson (yes full name I didn't want it to get confused with Patsy) completely altered his life and how he approached it.

My Favorite Historical Content: This is basically a bunch of miscellaneous stuff. Historical media and film is SO engaging and entertaining so that I get to enjoy history as well as enjoying historical fiction to hyperfixate on. In addition, my autism has me bound to contract that I have to get REALLY into the media and make sure to fact check it and everything, which endears it to me even more! What I like about history is the people, something that is so much more of a focus than other approaches to history. Film and such brings these people to life. Because there is so much of a focus on these people, I think that historical accuracy of them has a different nature than the accuracy of events or dates. If done incorrectly, a person and what they portray is inaccurate (think King George III in Hamilton being entirely like his actual self to amplify the stakes and add entertainment). When done correctly, it can amplify actual things about a person that cannot be done so easily through writing (like Hancock in HBO John Adams being rich and smug or Thomas Jefferson in 1776 being obsessed with his wife). Also Hornblower <33333 this series is so awesome I love it. Horatio and Grant are my justice-pursuing, babygirl, ass-kicking (and kicked) blorbos.

Genshin Impact: .My dirty little secret is that I like Genshin Impact and have been playing it since version 1.4 I think >:). I like collecting characters and looking at the aesthetically pleasing landscapes and character designs in the game. The story is fun and I enjoy how different cultures are adapted to fit into such a fun game! Well written characters are all very likable in their own ways. I do have to say that many of them fall into a trope or are cringe in some way, but a lot of them are also actually likable. Overall I like talking about characters and being able to interact with them through character builds. It also has such a large player base that much more people can relate to it in some way than my other interests.

My dogs: I LOVE MY DOGS!!!! They are something I can always talk about to anyone. They are my safe topic when I cannot think of anything to say. My dogs are also adorable. Our first dog is Rosie, an 11 year old black labrador retriver. She is friendly but has anxiety and is slowing down as she ages, but she is a sweet girl. Poor girl probably has a psychological condition that's undiagnosed since she can't talk. On the other hand, Mac, our 3 year old yellow labrador retriever is a stereotypical dog who is playful and silly. Mac always makes me laugh and he is very open about loving us all. He is very good at relieving my anxiety because of his playful nature being able to put me in a good mood. Mac is also a crybaby and whines when he doesn't get what he wants but it is pretty funny.

Mac...

And Rosie!

HONORABLE MENTIONS: Also ghosts and ghost stories tehe, fashion, art, and architectual history, Disney animation (particularly older films and the history of the studio), pin collecting, niche music and sea shanties, appreciating rural nature and landscapes, traveling to historical sites, musical theater, classic literature (especially Jane Austen), more that I am forgetting at the moment.

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With Malice Toward None: a Musical of Abraham Lincoln and the Civil War. I’ve been developing this musical since summer 2020. With Malice Toward None focuses on exploring the mental health struggles that Lincoln experienced during his presidency. The musical is narrated by Robert Todd Lincoln, who recalls the storyline’s events with complete omniscience while at the 1922 Lincoln Memorial dedication. Relevant themes for the show include mental health, public history, teams that become brotherhoods, compassion, the stages of grief, leadership, and a bunch of other concepts that I’ll probably end up yapping about on here at some point. Orchestrally, the show can be described as “if Les Misérables, Hello Dolly, and Evita decided to have a threesome in my brain”.

all of my original characters. seriously. I have SO MANY OF THEM that I’ve developed over the years, mostly for historical fiction. 😭 the ones that are living rent free in my head the most right now are Anastasia Andrews-Ismay (the human personification of the Titanic), Lieutenant General Ethan Clay, and Dr. Constance Pierpont Morgan. Honorable mention goes to my Star Wars OC Shi’al Valorum 💅 if any of these muses seem familiar to you then we’ve probably either been in a discord server together or you’ve somehow stumbled across one of my roleplay blogs.

the rms titanic. literally EVERYTHING about this ship and her sinking is my Roman Empire. I’m particularly fond of yapping about Captain Smith, Thomas Andrews, Wallace Hartley, William Pirrie, J.P. Morgan, or any of the officers — but if you get me talking about the vilification of Bruce Ismay by the sensationalist yellow press in the aftermath of the sinking, then I WILL NEVER SHUT UP.

star wars. my first exposure to the Star Wars franchise was when I was a sophomore in high school and I got to see a screening of A New Hope where the soundtrack was played by a live orchestra. suffice to say, this altered my brain chemistry and I’ve never been the same since. I’m a Prequels girlie and Jedi apologist to my CORE; my favorite characters are probably Yoda, Dooku, Mace Windu, and Bail Organa.

film and tv soundtracks. …the fact that I once did a TWENTY FIVE MINUTE LONG presentation on the film score for Titanic (1997) should tell you everything that you need to know about this silly fixation of mine.

HONORABLE MENTIONS: ghost hunting, tarot cards, classical music, Taylor Swift, creative liberties taken by Lin Manuel Miranda for Hamilton, historical fiction as a genre in an era where media literacy is on the decline, Antebellum America, the Great Triumvirate (Henry Clay, John Calhoun, Daniel Webster), the Lost Cause of the Confederacy, and public history.

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Perfect for me,, Ch1

Summery: A girl who had been running through walkers ran into a group, who turned out to run huge school. Would she get along with everyone? Would she be kicked out? Would they find out about her secret and kick her out like her last group did or would they welcome her with open arms?

Pairing: Louis x autistic reader

words: 1112 words

uploaded; July 21 2020

Warnings: almost meltdown, and that’s about it

Disclaimer: I do not speak for others with autism and I’m speaking from my experience 

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 You were running through the forest, walkers chasing you quite slowly, but they were gaining on you. You’re not really sure what happened next but a few moments later a group of kids were standing in front of you. You glanced around, not really sure of what was happening. Dead walkers were scattered on the ground and blood was everywhere, all over the ground, the trees… and you. You hate the feel of blood, the stickiness covering your hands and arms, You look up to see a tallish kid with blonde hair, which was cut to be a mullet, the next kid was a short girl who also had blonde hair, she was holding a meat cleaver. Lastly, there was a boy with brown dreads, a trench coat, and a… chair leg?? 

     “Hey, you alright?” The blonde hair boy asked.

     You ignored his questions as your hands began to shake, there was too much to handle for you at the moment, all you could think about was the blood, the sticky and gooey blood on your hands, you want it off, get it off, off, off, off, off, off, off, OFF!! The next thing you knew you were crying. The group quickly became confused, why were you crying? They had just saved you, everything was okay now. The kid with the dreads stepped forward, watching as you stared at your hands. He realized what was happening as he reached into his coat pocket and pulled out a handkerchief. 

   “Let me help.” 

     He grabbed your hands slowly so as to not startle you, though you quickly began to panic and tried to pull away, ‘don’t touch me, no touching, I don’t like touching.’ 

   “Don’t be afraid, I’m trying to help you, Can I clean the blood off your hands?”

     You hesitated but nodded, you hated being touched when things like this happen, but the blood is far worse than touching. You quickly hold your hands out, which were shaking tremendously, you just want this to be over. 

     He grabbed your hands and began to gently but quickly clean off the blood. Once he had finished, everyone stayed silent, waiting for you to gather your thoughts. After a couple of minutes you had slightly calmed, still a bit shaky. 

   “Uh, I’m Marlon, this is Violet,” He introduced himself and the girl with the meat cleaver. “And, this is my best friend Louis.”

     Louis stepped forward once again, holding his hand out. You placed your hand in his as he slowly lifted it up to his lips, kissing it softly. 

   “It’s a pleasure to meet you.” He said in a slightly joking tone.

   “Come on Louis, don’t scare her away already.” Marlon spoke, at that moment stepping forward. “Are you alone?”

     You nodded as you looked at the tree behind him, causing the group to look back to see if another walker was approaching. When they had noticed there wasn’t anything there they had turned back around to face you. 

   “Well you seem like a nice girl, how would you feel about heading back to the school with us?” Marlon spoke in a somewhat soft voice, thought still somewhat assertive.

     You nodded once again, turning around and grabbing your backpack that you must have dropped when you had almost had a meltdown. You kneeled onto the ground, opening your backpack and quickly searching through it, after thirty seconds or so you began to panic. ‘Where was she?’. After a few more seconds of searching, you found it, you pulled out a stuffed lamb, very small in size, smaller than your hand, the inside was filled with beads, making a rattling sound whenever moved. You held your lamb closely to your body, hugging her to you tightly. After a few more moments you zipped up your backpack and stood, putting the lamb in your pocket. 

   “Ready to go?” Marlon inquired.

     You nodded as the four of you began to walk, the group walking slightly ahead of you, you had stayed a little behind, Louis noticing your falling behind, had started walking slower, so you could catch up to him. 

   “Hey, I never got your name.” 

   “Y/N.” You spoke quietly. 

   “Well, Y/N, I think you have a beautiful name.”

   “Thank you.” 

     You two walked for a couple minutes in silence before Louis spoke again. 

   “Where are you from?”

    “Like, before all this started?” 

   “Yeah, I’m from virginia.”

    “I’m from Indiana.” 

   “How did you get all the way down here?”

    “Walked.”

    “I should've guessed that, not a lot of working cars around here.”

    “Where is here?”

       “West Virginia.” 

    “Oh.”

      The two of you continued to walk and make somewhat small talk as you had finally approached the gate.

     “This is the school?” 

    “Yeah, It was a boarding school before all of this started.” Louis spoke.

      You nodded, deciding you didn’t feel like talking at the moment.

The four of you walked in, everyone gathered around the gate once they had noticed you. 

     “Who’s the new girl?” A guy with a hand carved knife spoke, voice slightly raspy. 

     “This is…” Marlon had begun speaking only stopping when he had realized he had never learned your name. 

     “Y/N” 

Everyone glanced at Louis who had spoken up. 

     “Where did you find her?” a kid with brownish hair spoke up, he couldn’t have been older than the age of twelve. 

     “In the woods alone.” Violet spoke

     “Is she staying here with us?” A girl with long red wavy hair asked.

     “We’ll talk that through tomorrow morning.” Marlon spoke.

     “Is she bit?” A girl with red hair asked, having a slight accent and the same hairstyle as Marlon.

     “I’m not bit.” 

Everyone turned to look at you, that’s the first time you’ve spoken since you arrived. 

     “I think we should introduce ourselves, it’s the polite thing to do.” A girl with a baseball cap spoke up. 

     “Good idea Clem.” Louis spoke. “I’m Louis, well you already knew that.”

    “Welcome, It’s so good to meet you.” Sophie came forward and hugged you, pulling away a few seconds later. “I’m Sophie, and that’s my sister Minerva.” She pointed to a tall girl who began to walk towards you, geez she’s tall. 

      “I’m Minnie.” 

      “Like Minnie mouse?” You spoke, getting a bit excited. 

       “Yeah, I guess so.” Minnie chuckled before backing up with her sister, giving the other people a chance to introduce themselves. 

A boy with the knife came forward next.

     “I’m Mitch.” He spoke as you nodded your head. 

The rest of the group introduced themselves, now knowing all their names and a little about each. Everyone had walked off to do their own thing, leaving you standing alone, now what?

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Going anon for this because insecurities have peaked for me on this topic but, how would the guys react to finding out their s/o has autism, and never really knew other than them having some ticks or quirks, maybe they find them visibly upset one day because they find out they were hearing a lot of hate like how some people think they can't feel love or were refered to as an "it", and were honestly afraid to let the guys know in fear of being seen different or lesser, weaker

I hope that I’m able to write this okay! And no need to worry about being anon for requests, I think asking for prompts in the first place can be a little daunting so whatever makes the reader comfortable is what they should do. 

Under the cut because it gets a little long

Nero

Immediately worried to find them that upset, he’s extremely protective of them so he’s ready to jump to whatever they need him to help with

Finding out that it’s an emotionally sensitive situation instead of something he can just help fix, he settles down and asks them if they’ll tell him what’s bothering them

He gets mad on his s/o’s behalf all over again, saying that none of the people saying those sorts of things know the first thing about them/other people with autism

He was so hotheaded about the insults that he needs to backtrack to address the part about his s/o having autism- he understands that they were self conscious, and now it’s made him extra committed to being supportive towards them. He doesn’t want them to feel like he’d ever think less of them.

He tells them he loves them exactly as they are

Is only half joking when he offers to kick the ass of anyone who said something stupid 

V

Sits beside them and patiently tries to help them calm down first- whether that means just being next to them, or holding their hand, or talking to them calmly until they’re ready to talk

He’s an exceptionally comforting listener, just quietly taking in what they have to say and nodding to encourage them, holding their hand if they want that.

He waits until they’re finished before he responds. He says, with comforting assuredness, that the people who say things like that are wrong about them. He lists off the things about them that he thinks are special and wonderful and says that the people who talk like that will use any excuse to call someone else less than them.

He tells them that they can lean on him for support, and he’ll be happy to listen to them

Dante

Tries to cheer them up first, making some dumb jokes or another, but he stops if his s/o wants him to be more serious about it.

Asks if they want to talk about it. He’s more than willing to listen, but he’s fine with just helping them get their mind off of things if they prefer.

If they want to talk, either right then or later, he doesn’t interrupt. He does say quite a bit with his expressions, though- a lot of sympathetic looks when they’re expressing how they feel, and a lot of looking exceptionally pissed at hearing what the other people said

Rubs their back and lets them let it out until they prompt him to say something

He says that putting on a name on the way they are would never change the way he feels about them- he’s around them all the time, he already knows the way they are and he loves them as they are

Calls the people who said cruel things “a bunch of idiots”, and says people will rally behind any stupid idea without knowing what the hell they’re talking about

says they can talk to him about anything- he says he doesn’t always have the best advice but he’s here for them 

Vergil

He’s not good with comforting other people when they’re upset and he knows it. Still, he cares deeply enough about his s/o that he’s going to try. He secretly hates the idea that the way he acts is making them try to hide this sort of thing from him.

At the very least, he’s going to sit by them and be physically there as the available shoulder to cry on if they want it. If they try to stop their crying he’ll tell them it’s fine, just let it out. He won’t outright say he’s there to help but he’ll ask why they’re upset.

When he hears that it has something to do (in part) with what someone else said, he has to stifle the instinct to try to deal with that first and just continue to listen.

He wipes away his s/o’s tears and tells them that he knows they’re strong, more than strong enough to listen to people who say idiotic things. He says that they know themself well enough to know that the others are wrong. 

If they bring up their autism again to ask about his reaction or show some sort of insecurity about his opinion of them, he’ll scoff and say something along the lines of “I must not be clear enough in my feelings for you if you think they’ll change over something like that.” 

That’s Vergil speak for, “I’ll love you no matter what”

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Personal Fnaf Headcanons:

FNAF 1:

Freddy: Male, Optimistic but slightly manipulative, probably bi

Bonnie: Male or Nonbianary, Slightly depressed and probably Freddy’s main target for manipulation, either gay or bi

Chica: Female or Nonbianary, maybe Demigirl, Optimistic but hates baking and dislikes pizza, most likely lesbian

Foxy: Male, Wants attention, attention hog, acts like a dog sometimes, gay or bi

Golden Freddy: Male or Nonbinary, Depressed and hates everyone, Freddy constantly seeks his approval and he hates it, aro/ace

FNAF 2:

Toy Freddy: Male or Demiboy, A little nervous but happy all the same, afraid of Withered Freddy, gay for days

Toy Bonnie: Male or Demiboy, Loves music and thinks Withered Bonnie is cool, totally gay

Toy Chica: Transmale, Hates his body, most of the time wants to slap fanboys, wants everyone to feel happy despite all this, loves cake, hates pizza, bi

Toy Foxy/Mangle: Genderfluid or Male, Working on his self confidence, loves hugs, annoyance to others, rather dislikes Withered Foxy, pan probably

Balloon Boy: Male or Demiboy, Actually only an annoyance to Nightguards, everybody else love him, a bit over confident, either aro/ace or gay/ace

Marrionette: Male or Nonbianary, Loves music, don’t disrupt their lullaby, prize counter boss, judges everyone silently, either aro/ace or bi

Withered Freddy: Male or Nonbianary, Thinks his toy version is adorable, actually thinks everyone is adorable, just wants a hug, either straight or bi

Withered Bonnie: Male, Loves singing and music, shuts himself off from most others, gay but maybe demi

Withered Chica: Female probably, One of the only Chicas who actually likes food and cooking, tries to be optimistic, thinks Toy Chica is stupid and needs to like pizza and actually do his dang job for once, lesbian or bi

Withered Foxy: Male or Demigirl, Thinks very lowly of himself and is really depressing, always goes on and on about the ‘good days’, annoyance to pretty much everybody, either straight or bi

FNAF 3:

Springtrap: Male, Hates that he is the host to William, Talks to the phantoms a lot, sometimes talks to himself too, gay or bi

--Phantoms came to be of the rage felt by the ghost children at William being active again, they all came to life at different times, with P.Freddy being the last to form

Phantom Freddy: Nonbianary, Male, or Demigirl, disliked Springtrap at first but actually kind of likes him now, probably straight

Phantom Chica: Nonbianary or Demigirl, thinks everybody is cool, wants to make everyone happy, rather shut off from the others, bi

Phantom Foxy: Nonbianary, Wishes that they could be of more help to stopping William, one of the first to realize that Springtrap also hated William and become his friend, aro/ace most likely

Phantom Balloon Boy: Male, Hates pretty much everyone, actually an annoyance to the others, strangely befriends the nightguard, aro/ace

Phantom Marionette: Demiboy or Nonbianary, Actually one of the last to come to existence, one of Springtrap’s best friends, has imaginary friends and acts like a child, aro/ace

Phantom Mangle: Genderfluid or Demigirl, One of the first ones to form, dislikes Springtrap but tolerates him, lesbian

FNAF 4:

--The nightmares were created by William to track down his children along with targets, their main focus was on Michael

Nightmare Freddy: Male, Acts like a father to the Freddles, probably actually is their father, is hostile towards the other nightmares, gay

Freddles: Multiple, N.Freddy’s children, act like such

Nightmare Bonnie: Demigirl, Genderfluid, or Nonbianary, Is the most aggressive, despite that they pretty much adopted Nightmare Balloon Boy, either aro/ace or bi

Nightmare Chica: Female, Makes Michael sandwiches for lunch and jumpscares him whenever he refuses to take them, the most jumpy of the Nightmares, bi or gay

Nightmare Foxy: Female or Demigirl, The first to rebel against William, loves enclosed spaces like the closet, She likes to watch TV, gay

Nightmare Fredbear: Male, created by William just to spite Michael’s love of Fredbear, actually helped the others rebel, became pretty much a true father to Michael, aro/ace or bi/ace

Nightmare: Male or Nonbianary, The last to rebel, but became pretty much the best father to Michael, easily annoyed, aro/ace or gay/ace

Nightmarionette: Male, Is a bit short, hates people commenting on it, quick learner, scary dad but fun dad, gay all the way

Plushtrap: Nonbianary or Male, small but will fight you, rude and sassy, pretty much Michael’s older brother, talks to the other stuffed animal and thinks that they’re alive too, bi/ace

Nightmare Balloon Boy: Male or Demiboy, loves teeth, has a small crush on Plushtrap, anyone who defies him gets bite, can’t bite very hard, gay/ace

Nightmare Mangle: Genderfluid or Demigirl, The weird mom, also the ‘can I speak to your manager’ type of parental unit, has the best understanding of human culture things, lesbian

FNAF SL:

Baby: Demigirl, the mom friend, a demon to her enemies, brags about ripping out Michael’s organs, very smart, gay

Ballora: Female or Nonbianary, Eyelids don’t work and it annoys her, rather aggressive, will kick anyone in the nuts, gay

Bitybab: Multiple, Baby’s main minions, will steal your kneecaps

Minirina: Multiple, Ballora’s adoptive children, won’t attack very often but will steal your snacks

Funtime Freddy: Male, Loves to party, clumsy, rather unintelligent, aro/ace, gay, or bi

Funtime Foxy: Genderfluid, Will stab a bitch for no reason, follows others blindly, rather unintelligent, bi

Bon Bon: Female, Loves her wife, F.Freddy is her son, very math smart, gay

Bonnet: Female, Loves her wife, F.Freddy is her son, very social smart, bi

Ennard: Nonbianary or Male, makes vore jokes, lives with Michael, intimidated by the nightmares, aro/ace or gay/ace

Funtime Chica: Female, loves attention, claims to be using others but wants to be their friend, gay

Lolbit: Female, steals stuff and sells it back to their owners, a bit of a hoarder, loves money above all else, aro/ace

FNAF PS:

Rockstar Freddy: Nonbianary or Female, will throw a mic at anyone who talks during their performance, bi

Rockstar Bonnie: Male or Demiboy, Embarrassed by the other rockstars, likes to hang out with the salvages, gay

Rockstar Chica: Genderfluid, Likes pizza but likes tacos better, will bite, lesbian

Rockstar Foxy: Male or Nonbianary, Loves music, loves animals, won’t bite, gay

Lefty: Male or Nonbianary, doesn’t talk much, has a small crush on anyone with even a small resemblance to a bear, pan

Molten Freddy: Male, loves climbing on the walls and ceilings, partially deaf, aro/ace

Scraptrap: Male, Springtrap but William has almost total control, Scraptrap tries to talk to the Phantoms whenever he can, gay or bi

Scrap Baby: Demigirl, has no friends to be the mom friend to, barely talks to the other salvages, focused on making everyone’s life a living hell, gay

Nedd Bear: Male, doesn’t talk much, dislikes the Freddys, straight or bi

Happy Frog: Female, talks a lot, especially to Nedd, straight or bi

Mister Hippo: Male, talks way too much, husband to Orville, annoys most everyone, gay

Orville: Male, only talks a tiny bit, talks mostly to his husband, gay

Music Man: Male or Demiboy, very loud, doesn’t talk a lot actually, partially deaf, bi

El Chip: Demiboy, the best cook ever, outclasses the Chicas, very overconfident, bi

Candy Cadet: Nonbianary, a troll, tells you they’ll do things but they never do, aro/ace

Pigpatch: Male or Demiboy, steals other’s eyes, hoarder of the odd, somewhat formal, aro/ace or bi

Helpy: Male, very helpful, despite that will indeed stab a bitch, insults others rarely but is amazing at insults, aro/ace or gay/ace

Security Puppet: Male, loves people too much, interested in humans, has a collection of random things, gay

Glitchtrap: Male, William’s fursona, actually a different being than William but shares his ideas and murderous tendency, merged with Vanny, aro/ace or straight/ace

Humans:

William Afton: Male, a bitch, that’s all you need to know, straight

Henry Emily: Male, a pure cinnamon roll, probably has autism, fidgets a lot, bi

Michael Afton: Male, also a pure cinnamon roll, honestly just wants this all to stop, adopted by the nightmares and then adopted by the funtimes and then adopted by the rockstars, has way too many parents but at the same time not enough, crying child, gay for days

Elizabeth Afton: Female or Genderfluid, died too early to tell, haunts Baby but is a bit disturbed by her actions, aro/ace

Older Brother Afton: Male or Bigender, regrets almost killing Michael, almost killed by the nightmares, fear of robots, straight or bi

Mike Schmidt((Michael Afton)): Just Michael but with his mother’s maiden name, if not then

Mike Schmidt: Bigender or Demiboy, stubborn as all hell, was one of the masked bullies to Michael, demi gay

Jeremy Fitzgerald: Male or Nonbianary, just wants the fucking pay check, befriended the toys and was then adopted by them and the withereds, has no clue what’s going on, demi

Fritz Smith((Older Brother Afton)): OB but married a woman and changed his last name to hers, if not then

Fritz Smith: Male, one of the masked bully’s older brother, long hair probably, absolutely fabulous, straight or bi

Frightguard: Transfemale, raising money for her transitioning surgery, determined and has punched Springtrap more than once, bi ((Don’t have a name for her yet))

Phone Guy: Male, nervous, pure cinnamon roll, maybe Henry’s nephew, gay demi

Phone Dude: Male, over confidant, Frightguard’s best friend, thinks that she’s joking until he somehow befriends P.BB, actually the one to give the phantoms different names, straight or bi

Vanny//Ness: Female, didn’t want to join William at all, accidentally merged or whatever with Glitchtrap, can’t escape from his grasp, gay as fuck

Tape Girl: Female, nerdy lesbian book lover, she attacks when frightened, wants to save Vanny, lesbian

[mileycyprus-hill]

Hi! If you’re still accepting them I’d love to get a match up. I’m 23, 24 next week. I’m 5’0” pansexual,(with a male preference) plus sized with brown hair and brown eyes. I’m an aspiring animator. I have a big loud personality and love making new friends. I’m also on the autism spectrum and sometimes have trouble realizing when people want to end a conversation or if they’re getting annoyed at me. I love reading and watching cooking shows with my mom. I also love card and bird games

Answering both of your matchup requests here. 

Requests open until January 17th!

🎶 Matchmaker, matchmaker. Make me a match! 🎶

I match you with…

Bill Williamson

a.k.a. Mr. Coconut. He’s got that hard, burly exterior with a sweet inside once you crack him open hard enough.

Sure, Bill’s got an abrasive personality to start, with his hot temper and not-very-bright intelligence. But you actually bring out the best in him!

The gang swears he’s turned into a much better person since you came along. He’s much nicer to everyone.

Bill thinks you’re funny which is why he hangs around with you more often. 

When you start talking and end up in a long-winded tangent, Bill doesn’t mind. He’ll still be interested. 

He doesn’t get many people to come and talk to him, and he likes your company. 

You can pretty much talk about anything, even things he doesn’t understand. He wants to keep engaging with you in conversation. 

Though if you need some alone time, don’t be afraid to remind him. He may not be bright, but he’ll know when you need some space. 

Just be sure to come back to him when you’re done, otherwise he’ll worry. The man’s got low self-esteem and will think it’s about him. 

He loves your drawings and doodles. He’s completely blown away by your attention to detail. 

He’s not articulate though. He’ll say something like, “Uh, you draw good. Real good.” 

I’m sure you know Bill’s a big dude, and he totally loves your small stature and how he dwarfs you. It’s a size kink of his: he likes short ladies. 

It makes him feel strong and powerful to pick you up over his shoulder like a feather pillow. 

That guy can lift. 

Bill doesn’t like Micah all that much either, ever since he witnessed Micah kick Cain. Bill loves that dog.

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Hope you like your match! 

[lilrooroo]

Headcanons for an disabilities human au

I did a lot of research and talked to friends with these issues, so I hope everyone enjoys! I worked really hard on them

Emile Picani

47 years old

The doctor of all the others

Believes regression therapy is a valid and good coping techniques

Acts like his clients caretaker during their sessions

Loves his clients so much, gets truly upset when something bad happens to them.

Best caring doctor ever.

In general one cool dude

Married to Thomas (29 year old)

Met his husband though friends. Nether of them cares about their age gap. Has dated since Thomas was 26 married a couple months ago

Patton Miles has Bipolar I Disorder

22 years old

Spends a lot of time stable or on highs

Tries to hide it when he’s low

When he’s feeling a depression episode he tends to wear large sweaters and forget to take care of himself

Sleeps a lot during low periods and eats a lot

No energy to do anything feels empty

Slowest talker ever

During his highs he’s bouncing off the walls

Fastest talker ever

Hyper touchy (cuddles? Lets cuddle!)

Tends to be more dangerous

Started regression therapy for his low periods, finds that it really helps, now does it during his ups too.

His little age is 3-5

Has a stuffed brown bunny named “Coffee”

Meets Logan first. Adores the taller man. Finds him cute.

Has been called Patton Smiles before

Logan Powell is High Functioning Autistic

22 years old

Has known he had autism for a very long time

Started going to therapy because he wants to learn how to fit in

Monotone talking, but very passionate about topics even if his voice doesn’t seem like it

Likes pressure, enjoys bear hugs as long as he doesn’t have to hug back

Emile gives really good hard hugs, he likes them

Hates gentle touches, can’t stand someone slightly touching him or giving him a soft hug ew

Doesn’t understand jokes, when told it’s a joke he’ll just say “Ha”

Makes lists for everything, most organized person in the world

Routines Routines Routines

Hand flapping when he’s excited

Researched all about regression when Emile mentioned some of the toys in his office was for clients who regressed.

Came back to Emile wanting to try Regression Therapy

Little age is 3-5

Has a realistic stuffed raven that is heavy

Collects blind bag toys, gets obsessed over with getting all them for his collection. Likes Tsum Tsums because they are small, can be stacked and there is a lot to collect. Prefers the Vinyl one over plush ones though

Squishies loves squishies but hates the feeling of slime

Showed a interest in meeting other regressors hoping he could make a friend that way

Emile had Logan meet Patton first. It surprisingly worked amazingly

Virgil Storm has Social Anxiety Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder

21 years old

Suffers bad panic attacks and bad thoughts

Very lonely guy who people call “emo” he’s not though. He just likes black clothes and black makeup and his bangs happen to cover his face

Struggles with sleeping and goes to the bathroom a lot

Very shaky cranky boy

Started going to therapy after he was caught self harming

Virgil in therapy ends up going on about how he wish he could go back to when he was a kid. Before life got stressful (sure he was always a nervous child, but being an adult is too hard)

That’s when Emile explained what Regression therapy was

Virgil thought it was weird and was afraid other people would think he was weird, but after talking to him and promising he didn’t have to worry Virgil gave it a try and loved it

Little age is 3

Has a million fidget toys, squishies, fidget spinners, and chew toys are some examples

Was given a black and purple cat that smells like lavender

Met Patton first and made his first real friend

Deceit Nathair suffers PTSD

20 years old

No one knows his real name, has had it legally changed to Deceit

Was forced into therapy after he had an “episode” at the mall

One of Emile’s hardest clients.

Refuses to talk about what happen. Already knows he has PTSD

Whatever it is, it has to do with his burns (turn into snake scale tattoos) and his missing eye (replaced with a yellow slit eye)

Has had a bad life, bad childhood, bad teenage years, and bad adult life

Always been the villain of other people’s stories

Was the son of a teenage single mother who blamed him for ruining her life

Never had a childhood very resentful of it

Thought Emile was crazy for suggesting Regression Therapy but agreed anyway.

Little age 2-4

Loves praise so much, cries happy tears.

Flinches at unsuspected touch

Bad eyesight

The most scared when Emile suggested group therapy with other regressors

Agreed because Emile encouraged him

Roman was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder

Started suffering effects at the age of 16, dropped out of school at the age of 17

Was kicked out of his home because he was “crazy” and “dangerous” to his younger siblings

Comes from a rich family, who wasn’t the best to him (he has scars)

Believes a woman has cursed him, goes on about the Dragon Witch and her crimes towards him.

Refuse to give last name

Struggles with caring for himself

Talks very weird

Believes in everything magical, fairies, dragons and so on

Struggles with sleeping which can make his symptoms wore

Very disorganized and compulsive

Keeps a journal with all his notes about magical creatures

Keeps a diary (different book from the journals) about his day.

Was placed in Emile’s care after he had gone to an elementary school with a toy sword demanding to see the princess.

It turned out that he had gotten very afraid that his sister was in danger and he needed to see her to make sure she was okay. Unknown to him, his family moved away to get away from him.

Didn’t know about regression. He ended up walking in on the group therapy session. And just joining in.

According to him they must have been dosed with Fairy Dust. Because Fairy dust can make you experience childhood again.

His main delusion is that magic is still in the world, it’s just people have lost the ability to see it, so they can’t see the creatures that live their life with humans in secret. The Dragon Witch had blessed him with the sight however, but it was also a curse, because people think he’s crazy.

Wants to join in on the fun, he loves fairy dust and being able to be a kid again, but this time not having to worry about being the perfect prince.

His little age is 2-3

Believes Deceit is the son of the dragon witch. And is extremely interested in him.

I hope you all enjoy! I worked very hard on this one

[jolie-auletta]

Lose Yourself, To Find Yourself.

So, I had the honour of being part of an international women’s day seminar yesterday. Hosted by the beautiful Gaia Rose, at her annual awakened woman gathering.

Part of a 7 woman strong team, I made my first public speech.

Stood in front of 50 women I didn’t know, I spoke about something that had impacted my life. How I fully and completely lost myself, but found my true self by doing so.

So here goes;

When I first found out I was going to be speaking today, I was an anxiety ridden mess, I was almost automatically filled with all kinds of insecurities. What if my story isnt as exciting as everybody elses. What if people judge me. What if I dont even inspire any one?

And as normal as that thought process is for someone who has never spoken in public before, it isnt actually very logical.

While I was writing this speech I sent it over to my friend to read over and I told her I felt somewhat guilty for mentioning someone from my past.

I am literally about to say things to a room of strangers that I've never even said a loud before!

But that's when it hit me, I want to be part of teaching our daughters and the next generation of women to not be afraid of simply speaking the truth!

I was always an intelligent kid. I taught myself how to speak other languages, play musical instruments, top of the class.. so I should have been a grade A student, gone to uni and I could have been living 'the dream' right now.

I know that the dream is just perspective. The dream is what you make it. But what I’m trying to say, is I could have had a smooth and easy life, if things had been different.

I don't dwell on that though, devine alignment is something I speak of often. All that is meant to be, will be.

My secondary school days were awful. I started later than I should have, so perhaps that had something to do with it? I don't know. But I felt like I was just always having to try harder than normal, just to make friends. Constantly seeking approval from my peers, constantly trying to be ‘one of them’.

What I've realised it comes down to, is I've just never had good social skills. Which no body believes when I tell them because I come across so confident and eccentric!

But honestly I'm what I like to call a social chameleon. I can blend in with any group, but it's all down to analysis of behaviours and mimicking. In a sense it's just acting.

And that's what school was like for me, I shuffled between groups, making friends then falling out with them over things I just didn't understand at the time

It's like I just didn't know how to integrate with people , or be myself.

So along with feeling like I has no real friends.. I was actually bullied too. The entire time.

I remember having to leave school early just to avoid confrontation. The worst part is, I didn't tell a soul I until I was 25? So a whole 10 years went by without even telling my own mum that I was bullied!

That's something I really regret now. Because I believe it all stems from there and if I had reached out to someone, it could have all been different.

Anyway, the last year of school rolled round and I'm obviously so happy to leave!

But then this fear kicked in. What if I get bullied again!?

So I had an ingenius plan. (in hindsight this was not an ingenius plan at all)

I firstly completely went off radar. I chose a college in a new area, where no one would know me and heres the ingenius part. I made a new personality. Who is the most unbullyable person, I thought? All my previous bullies where quite 'rude girl' personas, so thats when i pieced everything together and decided who I’d be.

And it worked. No one picked on me and I was actually popular.

The mask was working, but that’s all it was, a mask.

I was still constantly seeking approval from people, always trying to be what I thought other people thought was cool, not what I actually thought was cool.

About 8 years ago, i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and BPD. I was on medication but I took myself off of them when I fell pregnant. I did see a psychiatrist for a number of years, but I'm due to have another evaluation because I tick a lot of the boxes for autism!

This was literally a lightbulb moment! When I found out I could be on the spectrum- everything in my life made sense. And it turns out its really common for women with autism to go under the radar, or be diagnosed with depression, anxiety or bipolar/bpd like I was, and that's it, autism isn't even considered.

I am quite obviously high functioning, but every day scenarios like dealing with my emotions, sensory predicaments and simple socialising are a daily battle for me.

I have done A LOT of self healing and I have made a lot of progress, but I have come to the conclusion that whether I'm one, none, or all of the above , I just don't fit in a box and that's okay!!

I found my release in music, it was a coping mechanism, a world to get lost in.

But this leads me onto the second part of my story. During my music years, I met someone who would change my life.

A narccissist.

As i said before i do believe everything happens in devine order and its all lead me to where I am today. And I don't even hold a grudge towards this person. What's done is done.

And we were actually friends for a long while before getting together, we were best friends in fact, I can't even fault the friendship.

But the relationship was TOXIC!

The mental abuse was off the scale. And he also introduced me to cocaine. Now, in the beginning, it was all fun and games. Parties, recreational and I had no responsibilities in life so I thought why the hell not.

But it became more than that. He got me involved in not only taking it, but selling it too.

The entire relationship became based on that.

And ultimately it was detrimental to my soul.

I didnt even recognise myself. My family didn’t recognise me. It was like I had all these layers of personality I had invented to hide behind, but I couldn’t even remember who I was underneath it all!

I became more and more involved in this crazy lifestyle, so much so I ended up in prison because of it.

Honestly I look back and just think, how could I be so STUPID. It took me so long to admit that I was in a controlling and abusive relationship.

This guy had a hold on me. The kind of hold only a narccissist can have.

This wasnt some teenage crush where i 'loved' him so much and I'd do anything for him. I was a crushed soul, bowing down to a dictator.

I did what he wanted, when he wanted. I didn’t even exist. It was all about him.

My mental state was in pieces.

Im honestly so embarrased to tell people Ive been to jail. I mean even saying the word jail. It makes me cringe. I rarely tell people. There are family members that don’t even know!

But that prison freed me. From the jail that was my own body.

Its almost heartbreaking to think of myself all alone in a cell, no friends or family , but I had time to be on my own. With ME! The actual me, not the me I had been playing the part of for the last god knows how many years.

I honestly remember the day the penny dropped, it was when I put my nose ring back in. It sounds so crazy, but when I put it back in, all the pieces of me started to sort of fall into place too. I wore the clothes I wanted. I wore my hair how I wanted and I was starting to love being me again.

The mask was off! I existed again! And that was a beautiful feeling!

I can’t believe I’d kept up this charade for so many years! I should have been an actress, seriously 😂

So fast forward to today, I have a daughter, My Isabella Amethyst. I honestly love her more than I ever thought was even possible and she has played a major role in me becoming the person I am today, because she deserves me at my best and no less.

Another point to make is… As some one who was too foreign for the white folk; yet too white to be black… my whole life I had never fit in to a ‘group’.

I started researching my ancestral heritage and had a deep spiritual connection with the Italian and Spanish parts of my DNA. I even discovered I had Amerindian and oceanic DNA. Which was amazing and even more soul grabbing for me, it gave me a sense of belonging.

A lot of people say wow jode, you've changed so much!

But i am now, who I actually was before I was pressured in to believing I wasn't good enough as myself! Before I invented a new me, just to fit in with everyone else!

So along with becoming a parent, Ive managed to start my own holistic business too!

I do everything I love now, everything that makes my soul happy. I say yes to my intuition and say no to anything that doesn't serve me. We as women have to learn put ourselves first! We have to learn to trust ourselves, love ourselves and actually learn to be a bit selfish!

Life has given me some lemons, as they say. My world was incredibly sour at times and I have found my self in the darkest of corners, alone. But as clische as it is, after the darkness comes light.

I can wholeheartedly say that although I may not be 'living the dream' I could have been, if I had chosen all the 'right' paths in life, I am infact HAPPY. My soul is content and I am ME.

No matter what any of us have been through in life, we not only grow through it, we can flurish beyond it. These awful things happen to us, but they do not define us.

Sometimes we just have to lose ourselves, to find ourselves.