#the abandonment trauma is hitting rn

[notblue-bandit]

oh also i got told im getting laid off from my job. yk the one that literally pulled me out of my months long depressive episode, the one that gives me a reason to keep going when i dont want to? the one that helped me find purpose in my life. teehee i guess im not allowed to keep anything nice in my life

[pricemarshfield]

the wolf of derevnya hitting me with some REALLY good lines

[fulcrums501st]

silco is a great character. but if your love of silco causes you to hate on vi I’m gonna need you to reevaluate some things

like vi has every reason to hate silco all of which are valid for her to believe. yea she doesn’t get that silco actually cared for jinx. but like bro she was imprisoned?? and like? he killed her family??? why would she ever see him in any way either than that?? she doesn’t know about his political motivations and those don’t justify him trying to kill her family????

vi’s been in prison for years and obviously would assume that jinx became the way she is cuz of silco. and she isn’t even fully wrong to assume that cuz silco raised jinx for years and yea he did let her get to this point. like yea it’s complicated cuz of his own issues and his messed up ideology kinda make him incapable of being a good parent no matter how hard he tries. but vi ain’t giving him the benefit of the doubt and like why tf would your expect her to?? obviously we know that there was some jinx brewing beneath the surface of powder in act1. but how tf was vi supposed to have predicted this?? silco’s parenting undeniably contributed to who jinx became. so vi isn’t even wrong to believe this. not 100% right but not 100% wrong.

and like jinx is so different from vi’s perspective ofc vi is gonna 100% blame silco on that. and like she has a right to. like vi shows up to try and save her sister and silco tries to kill her and yaps about “freeing” jinx. like what is vi supposed to conclude from that other than silco is Mr. evil and a sister- stealer. like yes girl go blow up his factory.

“silco was there when vi abandoned powder” actually what tf are you talking about. vi was 15. experiencing a trauma no one eve should. she invisibly shouldn’t have hit powder but like I completely understand why she fricking did. understandable emotional reaction for a 15 yo. how are we still giving her shit about this?? plus she TRIES TO GO BACK TO POWDER. BUT IS PUT IN PRISON FOR 7 FUCKING YEARS. she walked off to cool off not abandon her sister.

also the point is that silco misunderstands jinx’s situation. he can only see vi “abandoning” jinx as the same betrayal that happened to him. when they’re completely different. silco’s perspective on vi’s motivations and “betrayal” could not be more inaccurate. it makes sense for him to believe that cuz again of his own trauma. but be fr rn he did not asses the situation correctly which is partly why jinx has such conflicting feelings on vi. yes silco was there for jinx, but not cuz vi abandoned her or bc vi was a terrible sister.

silco and vi both want what they think is best for jinx. what they think is best tho is completely incompatible. both of their perspectives are completely understandable and genuine. that’s why jinx feels this pull between the two of them. that’s what makes the dinner party scene so good. cuz neither of them are entirely in the wrong for believing what they do or for wanting what they do.

“silco was right, vi chose caitlyn over jinx”

if this is abt s2 then just no. never cite s2 again when talking about vi. never. Not in my vi arcane.

And even in s1 jinx asking vi to shoot Caitlyn was unfair and messed up as crap. like ofc vi wasn’t gonna do that she has fricking moral compass. vi is put in an impossible position.

silco was right about how vi is still holding out hope that jinx can go back to being the same innocent powder she remembers AND CAN YOU BLAME HER?! she hasn’t seen her sister in 7 YEARS?! she only remembers powder. the memory of powder was the only thing getting her through those 7 years. yeah silco is correct in this assessment but it doesn’t make vi’s hope invalid or selfish, just wishful and optimistic. again, powder was the only thing keeping her going. cuz vi has been separated from the world and the cruel reality of it for 7 fucking years. silco and VI’s perspective are both valid given their experiences.

“vi could never accept jinx, while silco loved jinx unconditionally”

ok and that’s great parenting on a paper but is also lwk part of the problem cuz he enables all of jinx’s messed up and self-destructive behaviors. his unconditional love overrides his capacity for good parenting and discipline. it’s part of what makes their father-daughter relationship codependent and toxic. also vi loves and cares for her sister sm. but her sister becoming a murderer is an insane thing to ask of her to accept. like jinx does so many messed up things in s1. we the audience know why jinx is acting the way she is. but vi has every right to be disturbed by her. like could you imagine being kidnapped and separated from your little innocent sister for 7 years and then coming back and the first thing you see her do is shoot at people and giggle?? all out of her own volition?? I would be a bit taken aback too. It would be weird if vi wasn’t. And even after all of that vi doesn’t give up on her. she literally says “I’m not going to abandon you again” (and do not fucking bring up s2 cuz that was NOT vi)

“vi created jinx” “no silco created jinx”

how tf is this still a discussion?? they both did and neither of them did. jinx was made from terrible circumstance. every single one of her life experiences contributes to who she became. her parents being murdered by enforcers. her living under systemic oppression. her childhood insecurity and feeling like she needed to prove herself to the group. vi encouraging her inventions. the incident. vi “abandoning” her. being raised by silco. killing silco. etc. there isn’t one event that “makes” jinx.

anyway. vi’s hatred of silco is valid given her perspective. and silco’s beliefs also make sense given how messed up he is and they are genuine. but I never wanna see a silco fan hating on vi ever again.

[hxhhasmysoul]

Thoughts on this video? And their take on Gon?

https://youtu.be/_nCRBRM76bk?si=S_J5JCUxi0B6mg9R

This video gets 1 star out of 10 for using they/them for Pitou.

I don't exactly know what their take on Gon is, apart from them not liking Gon much as a person and trying to add "intellectualism" to it. It was honestly kinda exhausting to watch due to the tone of the speaker alone. I was worried I hurt my eyes, I was rolling them so hard when the speak hit every trope of pretense to "intellectualism" and being above the material he was analysing. These are all hallmarks of: we'll now hear some derivative bs rn.

I don't know how popular AI was when the video was created but if it was written by gen AI, I wouldn't be surprised. This or it was written and then recorded as a draft without a second pass over the text to eliminate at least the basic issues it has.

The video is extremely internally inconsistent and also very selective about what is and what isn't important in the text. Basically anything that could add depth and nuance to Gon's character is unimportant.

It hand waves how trauma shapes a person, discarding the near death experience with Kon's mother and Kite saving his life as anything that could've shaped Gon. The speaker insists that it shouldn't have, that it's bad writing. Especially because Kite, an adult, forgot about it... The author very clearly shows that they don't really understand the difference between a child and an adult. Or the fact that for Gon it was a completely different kind of experience than for Kite.

Also Kite is mentioned in the manga in other places. While the author just shows the first chapter and then the meeting again at the beginning of the Chimera Ant arc, which leads me to believe that the author hasn't read the manga, only scanned the bits they needed fro the vid and read some of the chapters after the 2011 anime.

Same with Mito's memories of Ging, they should've been forgotten by her because she was a child then according to the author. Not like she was losing her whole family gradually to death and the last person she latched onto semi consciously as a child, someone who seemed larger than life to her abandoned her so of course she fucking internalised it. It's laughable levels of pretending that traumatic experiences don't matter.

It completely hand waves abandonment issues as something that could shape a person.

It also veers into false claim to expertise at the beginning to do this. The speaker says that their family was pretty shitty so like they know what it's like... This is such a red flag when someone thinks their experience of something is so universal that any depiction or testimony of that that isn't like theirs is by definition wrong. Especially that messed-up family can mean many things. There's an infinite number of possibilities of what kind of family situation it could be and how an individual could be shaped by it.

The video seemingly acknowledges that Gon's family is messed-up. all of them, including Mito and her lies, but again hand waves that as a formative experience.

One more note about the Kite scene and how it's described by the author. And how the author talks about how Gon perceives nature. All those bits are extremely pseudo-intellectual, very tainted with both the myth of "human nature" and the myth of separation of "humanity" from nature. And the projection in those bits is so fucking strong. The author ascribes to Gon so many opinions and deeply held values based on... well vibes I guess. We need to trust the author on this one because sure as fuck the vid does not circle back to the text to give some evidence for all that bs.

The author says that Gon is "a stupid child" but also consistently holds Gon up to the intellectual and introspective standards of an adult, see all that conjecture about Gon's attitude towards nature and others.

I will coin a term now (if someone did this before, I'm sorry, I genuinely don't recall). The "Killua effect" - it's when someone who watches/reads HxH gets used to Killua's stream of thought inner monologue and unusual levels of introspection and seemingly adult world understanding and common knowledge and then unconsciously starts applying that as a standard to what a kid's thought process should be, especially in the context of putting Gon down.

So yeah, the author of this vid suffers from a severe Killua effect in what he says about Gon.

They claim that Gon gets away with everything because he's so strong and no one can control him... Idk... what? I don't even know how to comment on that one.

The part about Greed Island is so shallow, I get it, the author doesn't like it. I guess that's okay then for them to hand wave it. It's honestly another red flag when someone doesn't acknowledge how their personal bias skews their interpretation of something. This is re their interpretation of Greed Island and Gon. Like whenever I write about Kurapika or Chrollo, I make it my fucking point to make my bias explicitly clear and point out that it colours my opinion.

The author acts like they're above the world building. Aka, they don't understand hyperbole and fantastic elements as means to tell a story and to exaggerate certain elements of our reality to make a point. So the author smugly fails at media literacy 1:1.

Because like when the world is not our own, the story should be also analised in the context of that reality because world building has a purpose in storytelling. So applying our world logic one to one breeds nonsense videos like this.

The author of the vid is right, Gon is written very consistently but not exactly for the reasons they state. Yes, Gon goes through a crisis because his idea of the world and his morals crumble, but the video just purposefully interprets everything about Gon in the least charitable way it can and thus misses the point.

There are some points in the vid that feel good out of context of the whole vid. But in context... it feels like the author read them elsewhere, maybe on reddit. Didn't fully understand them and tried to string together an argument leading up to them because they sounded intellectual. So like I said at the beginning. Either Gen AI shat this all out based on some reddit posts and other stuff fed to it. Or this is a shining example that Gen AI is completely useless because people are capable of that kind of bs writing on the own.

I hope this answers you in any way. For a more detailed answer, I'd need to rewatch the video several times and take notes and probably make a table when the author contradicts themself, projects their own opinions onto the characters, especially Gon or hand waves shit because it would require them to ad nuance to their interpretation. But I won't, it's not worth it, I already watched it once till the end to see whether the author will give me anything not to roll my eyes about, and well, I got the they/them for Pitou so like win?

[yuukei-yikes]

as someone with their own kagefuture playlist (hyper fixation hit me hard a few days ago), may I raise you the following songs: Fine, Great (by Modern Baseball), Stupid (by Brendan Maclean), DogBird (by Madds Buckley), Tongues and Teeth (by The Crane Wives), Dreams (by Fleetwood Mac), Share Your Address (by Ben Platt), Thinking of You (by Katy Perry), and (the funniest possible Shintaro song) Get Him Back (by Olivia Rodrigo). Anyways, finding kanoshin songs was a lot easier than finding ayashin

A PLAYLIST?? OF YM KAGEFUTURE COMICS??EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKK

i was so honored by that thought. that i went to listen to all of these and read the lyrics thoughtfully and wrote stupid idiot thoughts abt them. OK?? also i'm crazy and i will look for any excuse to talk about my blorbos and my au.

i talk a lot abt kanoshin cuz most of these are kanoshin but also i think the reason it's easier finding songs that fit them in this scenario is because THESE BITCHES BASICALLY JUST BROKE UP AND BREAKUP SONGS ARE LIKE, A THING. and shintaro and ayano have like a very specific dynamic going on rn like i've got a long ass shinaya playlist and a lot of the songs are sad breakup songs cuz yeah. i love the shinaya breakup scenario lalala anywaysssssssssss

fine, great - that drove me craaaazy. i'm assuming this one is kano / kanoshin. "guilty as charged for leading you on" "i hate thinking about the future cause all my problems are based on the past" it's so real. shintaro who can't think of the future in order to cope with his eye ability/kano who can't think of the future because he's working through his trauma, and in regards of his relationship with shintaro, he knows it's inevitable shintaro will get back with ayano. i think an interesting part of kanoshin's little situationship is also the fact it was a Secret and it was actually important for them both that it remained that way, more for kano than shintaro. in one way because they'll get clowned for it and it's funny but in another (probably very unconscious) way, it's 'cause neither of them really wanna Hear what anyone else has to say about it. everyone would think it'll be short lived because they truly would think they don't make sense AT ALL together, so they've got no Future together. stupid - this song i actually knew before! again i'm guessing kano / kanoshin. also very fitting cause. sort of a bitter ex being like WELL WHATEVER U WERE UGLY ANYWAYS i like it because it feels a little passive aggressive and that's how kano approaches shinaya i think lol. like ur maaaade for each other. i hope ur sooo happy together (resents them for the rest of his life) it's very funny but kano's been down bad for shintaro for like 10 years, he just thought it was a pointless crush that'd always sorta be there, and probably started hitting on him when they got older cause he's a gay bitch but he never expected shintaro to reciprocate. like he was just goofing. so when the guy you've wanted for all this time is like, suddenly into you. heh. kano was sort of in this infatuated HE LIKES ME BACKKKK mood during their situationship i think. sadly his demons always won and he kept pushing him away. i think he could've been all happy with shintaro and then shintaro would get a call from ayano to go pick up her kids from school cause she got caught up at work and even though he's very apologetic about it, shintaro IS immediately out of the door because ayano needs him and that's the way kano gets called back to reality where he logically believes shintaro's NEVER staying with him over ayano dogbird - AGAIN I THINK KANO???"you're too gentle i need you to hurt me back instead" i thinks. kano never really understanding what shintaro sees in him. kicks rock. like shintaro's the one person who's seen kano do his worst yet hes here. auughghg these are giving me kanoshin sickness as if i didnt already have it tongues & teeth - i applaud ur music taste i love the crane wives…. i think this one can be both shinaya (abandon all your stupid dreams of the girl i could've been) and kanoshin (if you're fine with that [me being a weird evil thang], you can be mine)hehehehee dreams - when shintaro and ayano broke up they were 2 wet kicked puppies share your address - is this shintaro / kanoshin? if so that's SOOO. CUTE. idk if shintaro's the kind to come off this strong, i don't think he was that intense with kano but he's a very logical guy i think the reason he kept trying to have a Proper Relationship status is cause he's NOTTT doing that casual bullshit, if he wants something he's like alright man then be my fucking boyfriend whats the big DEAL. but also i think it could be shinaya bcuz. they're a little cute like that i think they sort of got a domestic thing going on rn even if it's not intentional from their part thinking of you - i'm guessing ayano wanting shintaro back. heeehehehee egeheehehehbsdj get him back - THAT IS KINDA FUNNY THAT U THOUGHT OF IT FOR SHINTARO. I GUESS UR RIGHT. idk if shintaro would be Wanting to make kano and ayano jealous or anything but i think he is a little into the idea of kano being put in his place and ayano, who originally dumped him, wanting him back would probably do something to his ego.

shintaro's a little too clueless when it comes to the jealousy cause again he's still not being able to see the situation from ayano and kano's perspective, but ayano and kano having jealous fits over shintaro is kind of. a part of this situation. hehe. also shintaro's very affected by all of this but a more comedic part of him is probably like omg… they BOTH want my attention… but again he's very stressed and also this is a nightmare of a situation to be in so he's more like who knew pulling bitches was this fucking stressing. on the olivia rodrigo songs, bad idea (only olivia rodrigo song i've heard before this one) is also extremely kagefuture kanoshin.

[miraclegel]

I've been working on outlining aftermath fic lately cos ngl, I just got a liiiiittle too burnt out on the rewrite to keep going for the moment. I'm stressing over it in the back of my head because I need to get it dooooone and keep moving forward with this fic, but oh man, it's been such a fun break to just be plotting and outlining instead. Even if some of it is lighter/fluffier scenes that I know I'm gonna dread when the time comes to actually write them lmao. Like the aquarium date. And the museum date. And the festival date... whhhhy do I do this to myself, I hate writing fluff xD But dammit, Noct is getting better! He deserves to have fluffy dates here and there!

Knowing me, they won't even be pure fluff lol. They're not even really supposed to be cos boy still working on his trauma. He just gets to be spared any panic and/or breakdowns and/or PTSD triggers and have an overall good day while being slightly on edge. The things we writers do to our characters...

I'm aaaaaalmost done outlining the second arc (this fic has arcs now!! T^T). Fic goes from April to April and Sept-Dec is the second arc... I'm kinda hung up on winter holiday stuff, because I made up a holiday for it ages ago, and then I wrote monsters, and for some reason I made up a similar but different winter holiday for that fic??? And I like having consistent worldbuilding between my fics but I kinda like the stuff in aftermath fic better but it would also make the fic a little longer and one thing is also a little too similar to a thing I made up for the not-halloween holiday which, admittedly, Noct didn't get to do cos trauma said no so it's not like it would read the same... Yeah hi I'm torn and it's stopped my outlining because I don't know which one to go with and neither of the two people I usually ask for plotting help are available rn so here I am rambling on a blog post instead dksksk

The outline is up to eighty-nine chapters so far. lmao. keeping in mind it's the second arc. there's a whole third arc after this that covers january to mid-april. genuinely what the fuck is wrong with me. why did I ever write such a ridiculously long fic. still feeling/fearing it'll hit a million words, but maybe it won't. it'll get close though. I mean it's at 650K and it's only just started the second arc??? yeah I'm doomed.

That said, it's been really satisfying having stuff come together while outlining and taking what was disjointed plot points and making them flow smoothly into one another and realising how one will lead to another... feels like fitting together a puzzle and I get so excited when I find the two pieces that naturally connect. I think about my early days of writing fanfic and pantsing it and getting frustrated and stuck and having to abandon fics and I shudder. Outlining to spare my future sanity, my beloved.

[just-a-carrot]

arc 3 is my absolutely favorite hands DOWN. I relate to orlam severely in his trauma, his extremely obvious hypersexuality, and especially the way he was treated by his “friends” until the end of arc 5 and the timeline reset.

(btw I want to clarify that this is NOT meant to be a trauma dump by any means. this chapter just affected me a lot and I wanted to give the reasons why without going into too much detail on my end but also giving it the praise it deserves by handling topics I very much relate to)

there were already signs already littered throughout arcs 1 and 2 that stung to me when it came to orlam that I could really relate to. and it was really goddamn hard for me watching orlam go through this constant abuse as somehow who was treated exactly like him growing up. It felt like I was watching myself all over again and chapter 3 solidified it

for once he was actually being treated NICELY by SOMEONE, even for an arc. dude like the whole orlam being thrown off and even deterred a tad by iggy SIMPLY CHECKING TO SEE IF HE IS OKAY bc orlam just isn’t USED to that and god that resonated with me hard. don’t even get me started on the bathroom scene. christ. it was so incredibly hard to get through but in the “I am being so severely called out rn” way, not the “this arc is garbage” way

the iggy’s room scene and the prom scenes are what genuinely kinda make me crack??????????? god. I had to pause when orlam said his terrified little “daddy?” bc I had to shut my laptop and just. SIT there and try not to cry. it shook me so hard and I’m genuinely glad it did bc of how seen I felt. the after prom scene made me weep genuine tears. abandonment trauma is so extremely personal to me and seeing orlam not even an adult yet break down bc everyone in his life keeps leaving him, and GOD how he’s just been treated like shit the ENTIRE TIME except by iggy in this ONE SPECIFIC CHAPTER

(dawg don’t even get me STARTED on the classroom prom photo and how I felt about that a couple arcs later dude I was SOBBING)

LIKE DAWG I WAS CHEERING WHEN IGGY STOOD UP FOR ORLAM ON THE BOAT EVEN IF IT WAS JUST FOR THAT CHAPTER I WAS JUST SO SICK OF ORLAM BEING DOGGED ON ALL THE TIME 😭😭😭

this arc is my favorite arc, but also the hardest arc for me to play due to how much orlam resonates with me as a character

he is probably the character I am the most happy got their good ending, and I’m not just saying that as an orlam fan, but as a victim of the same types of abuse he /constantly/ suffered. I’m glad he’s loved by his pals post-timeline reset and that him and genzou’s beef is WAY less terrible than it was post-reset.

the way you handled abandonment trauma and truly What It Does To A Mfer was extremely accurate and done extremely well to me. you handled what it’s like to be the punching bag friend EXTREMELY well and what constant abuse and harassment does to someone mentally AND socially. like orlam didn’t have anyone else to turn to, he had these 4 people who took all their shit out on him and that’s IT. of COURSE he was going to develop an attachment to genzou like that when they had their situationship, that was probably the most affection(?) he’s gotten……EVER??????????????????? and then to have that be INSTANTLY taken from him bc of genzou’s inability to accept his sexuality issssssss OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

the torture scene with orlam’s heart in arc 5 got me too that shit was done so well BUT THIS IS ABOUT ARC 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but yeah. best arc is definitely 5 but arc 3 will always be my favorite bc it focuses on a character I heavily relate to, the topics in it are handled extremely well, and it’s the arc that hit the hardest for me

well done gang 🔥🔥🔥

ahhhhhhhh ;-;

i feel like nothing i can do to write in response to this would come close to adequately acknowledging everything in here properly...

but i'm really happy you wrote this and i'm really touched and my heart got very soft and teary-eyed and mushy...

so i just wanted to thank you and somehow try to say again how honored i am that you could feel these things about my game and and all the incredibly kind things you've said about it...

so thank you truly 💕

it means so much that you would write all of this up, even what i'm sure are very hard things to write

i feel really blessed and touched ;-; 💕

also to everyone else that has ever felt strongly connected to or can relate to or feel seen with any part of my game

i'm really glad

so many of my own experiences are in this game as well

being able to see yourself or at least parts of yourself in both the things you experience or the things you create is so important...

[melrosing]

add the copenhagen trilogy to the my brilliant friend subgenre 😔 the childhood section REALLY hit like the first two books of my brilliant friend (less of a focus on female friendship—though there is a bit of it—but really captures that mid-20th c european working class childhood haunted by poverty misogyny and political upheaval + fantasies about getting away and strong prose) if u have any other recs PLEASE lmk because i'm also in my brilliant friend withdrawal ahhhh

ooh thank you so much for the rec! my friend actually also recced it to me a couple months back so I think I should really check it out soon. currently im in the middle of an mbf rewatch cos think im already anticipating the withdrawal after S4 💀

I wish I had more recs that hit in exactly the same way…. I liked Swing Time by Zadie Smith which was I think quite directly inspired by MBF (as in I think Smith outright says it is?? not certain but I know she loves MBF either way). and that’s about two black British girls growing up together in London. the first couple of acts I remember being fantastic but then Smith gets distracted by a bizarre subplot involving a secondary character that imo derails the book. still a great final chapter. also rec NW and White Teeth by Smith. Book of Goose by Yiyun Li is like if you simplified MBF to its barest essentials, good enough read but all the way through I was like I knoooow that’s what inspired this. so plot wise those are the nearest things I know but some other books that are maybe not quite the same hit but kind of scratch a similar spot for me:

The Country Girls trilogy by Edna O’Brien - this actually has a lot of similarities with MBF, it’s a Bildungsroman about Irish girlhood etc, studied this as part of a modern Irish lit module at uni and have thought about it often since

Patrick Melrose quintet by Edward St Aubyn - another Bildungsroman about the title character growing up in an abusive household and fighting through the trauma of it in adulthood, this also has an amazing HBO adaptation that I would rewatch if it weren’t so fucking painful lol

anything by Natalia Ginzburg - know Ferrante likes Ginzburg and I am a recent convert. I think her understated and straightforward style is very effecting and her stories are also generally portraits of the postwar Italian middle class

I’m Supposed to Protect You From All This by Nadja Spiegelman. if you know Maus (the graphic novel), this is a memoir by the writer’s daughter about her mother’s side of the family. it’s my favourite memoir I think I’ve ever read and kind of transformed the way I saw my own mother and grandmother lol

Breasts & Eggs by Mieko Kawakami - also has a lot of interesting conversations about womanhood, gender and sexuality and there are scenes in that book I think about all the time

Pachinko by Min Jin Lee - everyone and their grandmother recommends this but imo it is that good. yet another Bildungsroman but about a Korean woman living in postwar Japan

anyway might be loads I can’t remember rn but any of the above I really rec! also I’m like one away from reading everything of Ferrante’s and I haven’t found a dud yet. second fave for now is The Days of Abandonment which I think some day would make a great art house horror film lol

[scyfozoa]

Tell about your ocs pls 83

HI ofc i will !!! rn im Very fucking hyperfixated on my genshin oc so it will be abt him ...

his name is kou! hes an half adeptus (his father was an adeptus), and hes half liyuenian - snezhnayan.

he has been living in liyue his whole life – when he was 5, his mother had to leave liyue and go back to snezhnaya, due to her being in the fatui. they were in a very bad financial spot and she had no choice but go back. so in the end, she left kou with his father, who of course she trusted the most in the world. but sadly, she was wrong.

it was only a few months after when kous father basically got bored of taking care of him. he didnt want to have a child constantly being in his way, so he decided to just abandon him, leaving him in some private orphanage. (he thought of other ways to get rid of him though – leave him with another adeptus ( which wouldnt work because kous father was not liked by the other adepti; or send him to the house of the hearth – he didnt want to travel that far).

due to the fact that kous mother was constantly on the move, she didnt have an address that letters were sent to – instead, it was passed from one fatui agent to another. so when she finally recieved the letter from her husband talking about how he abandoned their son and is leaving them both, already 3 and a half months have passed.

immediately after, kou's mother went back to liyue, even if for a single day. she got kou out of the orphanage, and brought him to one good friend she made in liyue – baizhu, who only graduated from the akademiya a few years prior. (im still an akademiya student baizhu believer okay let me cope) from that day onwards, baizhu has been taking care of kou.

now all grown up, kou has been working in the bubu pharmacy for baizhu. he feels as if he has to repay him, despite baizhu constantly reasurring him otherwise. they dont really see each other as father-son, more like uncle-nephew (kou calls him uncle zhuzhu btw😭😭)

kou is a very secluded person, mostly due to his trauma from being abandoned as a child and the abuse he endured in the orphanage (which i wont get into here). also add autism to the mix and being trans, so the young adeptus feels like theres gigantic walls between him and literally everyone else.

when he was younger, he thought he didnt fit into the human society because of being a half-adeptus, and vice versa. but no matter what he does, he cant fit into any of them (its autism. i project HARD onto him.)

about relationships – other than the close relationship he has with baizhu, he sees qiqi has his little sister. but other than that, he never had any "real" friends – that was until gaming came into the picture, introduced to him by baizhu. he was frequently delivering stuff from to the bubu pharmacy to make as much money as possible, as it was right after he ran away (i hc that gaming ran away at like nearly 15 years old, and that hes 18 when we meet him ingame; him and kou are the same age, kou only a few weeks older).

the two of them instantly felt connected by each other, despite their personalities being complete polar opposites. but they had their similarities – very troubled family situation, feeling like they were alone in the world (+ both of them were early into their transitions - yes all my faves get hit with transgender beam. gaming included. kouming t4t to me.)

the two grew extremely close, being each others absolute best friends in the whole world, but with time, their friendship grew into something more – and they have been dating for a few months now.

thanks to gaming, kou started to open up to more people and made some more friends :3. hes good friends with xingqiu, bc bookworms. kou tells xingqiu about snezhnayan literature often.

other than that – kou's relationship with his mother consists of a monthly letter from the latter. both kou and his mother want to have a normal relationship and they miss each other terribly, but kous mother has to stay in the fatui due to now being a really high ranking fatui operative, directly working with the 7th harbringer, sandrone. (well its quite a stretch to call their relationship a purely work based one, but ill save that for a diff post about kous mother. iykyk) so once a month kou is visited by two fatui agents sent by his mother to check up on him – aleksander and adrianna. over the years all three grew really close, kou often dragging the two to visit his favourite spots in liyue.

last relationship – kou has an older sister. his mother was married once before, having a single daughter, but due to personal conflicts and her previous-previous husband not liking that she was in the fatui, they divorced, the daughter staying with her father. shes 9 years older than kou, travelling thru teyvat looking for inspiration for her clothes – she runs fashion shows all over teyvat, often collaborating with the chioriya boutique.

these two only recently started to get close after their mother made them meet up – ever since, they frequently write to each other and kous sister loves to send him clothes she sew for him. i dont have much more about her atm tho, still designing her.

ok . sorry for yapping a lot. and sorry if some rhings r confusing, i still dont have names for kous parents and his sister 🥲 heres some kou art, im working on his full ref sheet + splash art right now !!

[lumilasi]

I figured that since I won't be likely to draw Evena much despite her being semi-important, a bust shot portrait is honestly enough of a ref; She's just wearing a gown with sandals most of the time as well, and her hair is the most important design element due to the lore behind it.

....I did think of drawing her wings too, but RN I have no ideas for how they'd look exactly, so I'll add them later sometime. They'd likely just be varying shades of green mantis-like wings. Naturally

Her bio below:

Age: she's considered to be in her 50:ies by fae standards, is likely older from human perspective.

Nicknames: Eva

Family: Husband Kenzo, Brother-in-law Yuuji, Daughter Avane

Friends: Marci Raye (her husband's former pupil)

Love interest: Her husband Kenzo

Former special operative working under her then-future-husband, Currently being treated in a mental health temple

Personality:

She used to be a very calm and patient person with a good sense of humor, and ability to stay calm under pressure. She was also fairly parental towards everyone she was responsible for, such as her younger teammates or Kenzo's (former) young pupil Marci.

After the incident where she and Avane almost died, Evena slowly became bitter, erratic and easily provoked, to the point she became a danger for herself and her family. She is now very quiet and prefers being left alone, or at least she claims so most of the time. Her mind is a mess and she's often not thinking very rationally.

She struggles with feelings of guilt (for not noticing the threat on time and not being able to protect her toddler in her mind), abandonment (for being placed in the facility, even if it treats the patients well enough/having her husband not visit her much anymore, OR her daughter) envy (feeling like her husband cares more about his job than her/sometimes even gets jealous over Avane still getting attention from her dad) and anger towards Kenzo, blaming him what happened. (it was an unforeseen incident that neither could have really predicted, and when she is more clear headed, she understands and knows this too)

She sometimes, in her more irrational moments, even blames Ava and is jealous of her for "turning out fine" despite going through the same situation. Even though she was way too young to even remember what happened. She does remember her mother lashing out at her dad for seemingly no reason more and more, though....

Abilities:

She was an excellent archer and sniper, being able to hit her targets accurately from very far away.

She can summon and hide her wings at will, or at least used to be able to; nowadays she struggles to pull them out.

Evena was always a good tactician and able to think and plan in the moment.

She had a fairly good close-combat skills too, though preferred long range weapons and stealthy approach.

Weaknesses:

Her trauma has made her unable to utilize majority of her fighting skills now, and she'll sometimes have random flashbacks that'll cause her to either panic or have a violent fit.

Her relationship with her family has strained due to her bad mental state, as she tends to lash out and argue with both, sometimes with irrational accusations. Evena always hates it when it happens afterwards, but she is really struggling with herself; her mind is fighting against her as she puts it sometimes.

She can't summon her wings properly anymore, and is insomniac as well.

Extra Facts

Avane is trying to get her dad to realize that him avoiding her is making things worse, but so far she's had no luck with it.

Yuuji is the only one who still visits her regularly, and also the only one she doesn't really lash out at much, given he wasn't directly involved in the incident.

Evena has been in the facility since Ava was 7, the incident happened when she was 3. She did get to leave occasionally during the past 19 years, but seemed to always relapse when she did.

During those 4 years before she went for psychological care, Evena essentially tried to grin and bear it, not want to admit she'd been traumatized despite the sings becoming more and more obvious overtime.

There is a theory that the reason why she's not getting better may also include a spiritual angle on top of psychology; some doctors speculate the werewolf who attacked them might've cursed her before he was killed by Kenzo & Marci. If this is the case though, they haven't yet found signs of it. (This is in fact true, it is part of the whole overarching story, where Ava finds out with her boss' Jurou's help that this is what's hindering her recovery)

Ava hasn't told her mom about her boyfriend Roman, given he is part Werewolf. She is worried about her lashing out over it, or even trying to attack Roman in worst case scenario.

Kenzo does still love her deeply, but he doesn't know how to handle her situation, hence he's started avoiding her and burying himself in his work to ignore the problem.

[novaauster]

HELLOOOOOOOOO im reading the narines fic and thought id live react here bc i just KNOW im gonna have THOUGHTS let's go!

"The prince--king--piece of shit-- is obsessed" off the bat i love your nate characterisation like his povs always have that snarky edge to them and u got that off the bat

"He’s in his dressing gown. White silk, tied with a wound-dark sash at his waist, open down the navel. His snake, Kidaro, is slung around his neck like a priest’s stole, warming itself on his skin." THIS FREAK RIGHT HERE HAS CAUSED EVERYONE ALL MANNER OF PROBLEMS TONIGHT. TOXIC YAOI WONT FIX HIM BUT IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT IT ALL

"a fanatic to the hate that he inherited" LOVE this wording

THEY'RE SUCH CUNTS TO EACH OTHER I LOVE IT

IT'S THE KIND OF DARKNESS YOU PRAY TO HMMMM

the way the signs of respect and fear are overlapping ohhhh i love that

'“It is a small room in which nobles and officials debate policy decisions…” Herines launches into an automatic explanation before remembering who he’s talking to. “You’ll see, raven.”' actually laughed out loud at this bc it's SO HIM. herines is a nerd first tyrant second

THE FIREEEEEEEEEE OMG

"A clear-headed Herines is a dangerous Herines, one that looks at him, curious, like something to dissect, one that could figure out that Nate can heal himself but he can’t regrow an amputation. He can’t survive a decapitation, and Herines’ dagger is long enough to try it." your writing is so captivating im literally here like OMG WHAT NEXT at every sentence they're CRAZY crazy

"'I fucked your brother" THE WAY MY HANDS FLEW TO MY MOUTH. INSANEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IM GOING INSANE

'declawed' is an excellent way of describing nate when he hits his exhaustion

NATE IS GETTING BATTERED RN OH MY GOD MY BOY GET UPPPP YOU'RE EMBARRASSING US 😭

also having nate repeatedly break his bones to escape his restraints is such a cool move bc it's SO something he would do

"What made you?" "You did." YOU'RE PAYING FOR MY THERAPY

THAT WAS A RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCE. YEAH I BASHED HIS FACE IN WITH AN OIL LAMP AND HE KILLED ME WITH THE SASH OF MY OWN ROBE BUT WE ALSO FUCKED NASTY. WE EXIST

genuinely that was so so so good i literally had heart palpitations i was so excited i cant believe there's tbos fic on ao3 now im losing my MINDDDDDDDDDDDd i will reread this 5 more times tonight probably

omg tysm!!!!

nate's characterization is extremely fun, if there is one word i'd use to describe it's instigator. he's not stupid but he will always say the bitchiest thing possible at any possible moment and i love him for it. rin is also such a freak i can't fathom what is wrong with him. what mommy issues will do to an mf in charge of a country on the verge of civil war. i was extremely proud of the fanatic line

"it's the darkness you pray to" was also a fun one, yeah. nate's relationship with the gods that gave him his powers and then abandoned him. darkness, something that might be profound and beautiful, but still by definition hinders any human. the overlap between respect and fear as a result of nate's trauma as an oppressed wiser and a violent rebel

rin's nerdiness was just delightful. like yes he wants to dissect nate like a cow's eyeball and yes he uses his intelligence for evil. but that is by nurture, by nature he's just curious. and it was very intentional that the things that make him snap are the thought that nate might've hurt drako and then later that nate is hurting kidaro

"declawed" was definitely a choice of words, i was googling "synonyms for harmless" because harmless is not at all how i would describe him, and eventually it came to me. and yeah he's really getting battered. it's hard to balance or strike with your hands cuffed behind your back. F in the chat for my boy

"what made you" "you did" the drama. the intimacy. the way rin is searching in the wisers for an origin to the cracks in his family but his family made the cracks in the wisers instead. nate might be an instigator but rin is a tyrant and he sees that when he looks in the mirror. they're character foils your honor

again, thanks for the ask!! :-D

[thisismyachinganchor]

my feelings from a text..

I guess, I’m just angry. I guess I feel like I shouldn’t be angry about feeling alone in times like this but I am. I never told you but the last time I saw my mom she had her life together. She used me, she used our situation for herself and despite the both of us being affected by the strain, the lack of food, the lack of financial security, when I saw her she was able to get out of it. Her credit went up, she paid off her debt, and she gained the trust of people in our family who before I moved to Maryland had so much to say about her and how she showed up in our relationship. The day I stood up to everyone about the dynamics at play in our family, they dogged me. I had a cousin who told me, “ fuck your trauma.” And when I tried to confront it I was responsible for why he said it in the first place. I’m responsible for why I’m going through the shit I’ve been through and still go through. She gets none, I mean NONE, of the weight of what any of this feels like. To be abandoned, to have no/minimal family to go to when you’re in need or you just wanna be held or told everything’s gonna be okay. I have to experience being on my own everyday of my life. & I’m not talking about the everyday adult shit. The shit I can handle. I’m talking about waking up and never receiving an apology. One time my mom told me I’ll tell you I’m sorry but I won’t keep apologizing because once should be enough. I’m just tired.. and I’m pissed off. I’m 30 years old and I know, I know I need to be strong rn but how do you explain not being strong enough when you’ve felt like an adult your whole fucking life. I couldn’t even be a kid cos I was living with a bitch who sucked as much life and joy out of me because she had none. I’m just tired of carrying all of this on me. Sometimes I wanna hit up my family and say fuck them fr. Like y’all failed me and everyday I gottaswallow that shit cos society don’t gaf about what I got going on. I gotta keep pushing. It’s exhausting. I’m exhausted

[puseynegus]

My feelings from a text..

I guess, I’m just angry. I guess I feel like I shouldn’t be angry about feeling alone in times like this but I am. I never told you but the last time I saw my mom she had her life together. She used me, she used our situation for herself and despite the both of us being affected by the strain, the lack of food, the lack of financial security, when I saw her she was able to get out of it. Her credit went up, she paid off her debt, and she gained the trust of people in our family who before I moved to Maryland had so much to say about her and how she showed up in our relationship. The day I stood up to everyone about the dynamics at play in our family, they dogged me. I had a cousin who told me, “ fuck your trauma.” And when I tried to confront it I was responsible for why he said it in the first place. I’m responsible for why I’m going through the shit I’ve been through and still go through. She gets none, I mean NONE, of the weight of what any of this feels like. To be abandoned, to have no/minimal family to go to when you’re in need or you just wanna be held or told everything’s gonna be okay. I have to experience being on my own everyday of my life. & I’m not talking about the everyday adult shit. The shit I can handle. I’m talking about waking up and never receiving an apology. One time my mom told me I’ll tell you I’m sorry but I won’t keep apologizing because once should be enough. I’m just tired.. and I’m pissed off. I’m 30 years old and I know, I know I need to be strong rn but how do you explain not being strong enough when you’ve felt like an adult your whole fucking life. I couldn’t even be a kid cos I was living with a bitch who sucked as much life and joy out of me because she had none. I’m just tired of carrying all of this on me. Sometimes I wanna hit up my family and say fuck them fr. Like y’all failed me and everyday I gotta swallow that shit cos society don’t gaf about what I got going on. I gotta keep pushing. It’s exhausting. I’m exhausted

[thedevilsnewsky]

TLDR; Natsu has an avoidant attachment style (my headcannon thank you) and growth isn’t linear though Lucy has helped.

Natsu was raised by Igneel but was shortly abandoned by him and the guild he was raised, did just that; RAISED HIM. They did not teach him to self regulate, and in fact (I think) he was known to live alone at a young age with Happy. He was hyper independent at the beginning of the series and showed a lack of interest in relationships with his guild mates beyond a superficial friendship/understanding. To add on Lisanna’s “death” provided more cause for him as child and now adult at the beginning of the series to not get too close to people. Of course people tried to comfort Natsu, but because he’s emotionally unavailable he rejects that comfort or brushes it off. Additionally, Fairy Tail showed how Natsu is overcoming his attachment style and fears of intimacy through his relationship with Lucy. Lucy was the first one besides Lisanna to really try to get to know him. Not only that, Lucy actively called Natsu out on his bullshit and at least tries to hold them accountable in an emotionally mature way. This is a different treatment from how Erza would go about him (she’d just hit him or tell him what to do, when they were younger.), Gray has his own issues and Happy is a child. Lucy is canonically the least screwed up one of her friend group. Natsu has abandonment issues, and thus an insecure attachment style. Erza, for the part of the series, could not talk about her own emotions let alone help others with theirs because of her own trauma. Gray has tried to kill himself, multiple times throughout the series.

Lucy’s anxiety is the most manageable mental health problem on the team. Lucy is also quite sociable and empathetic. She saw through Natsu blasé attitude and got him to open up to her. Natsu then became more willing and accepting of others throughout the series and thus deepened his relationships with Gray, Erza, and Wendy. Natsu has changed because of Lucy’s influence and there’s no doubt about it that he loves her more than a friend.

It’s just, growth isn’t linear and at the time of Tartarus was not emotionally available enough to depend on others. It’s why, he left, Natsu left because not only did blame himself- it’s also how he self regulates.

“Well why did he bring Happy?” ‘Cause that’s his kid- and Happy does not push Natsu like Lucy does. Also HAPPY IS A CHILD.

Likewise, avoidant attachment style people sabotage themselves quite often in romantic relationships. Natsu has had plenty of times to confess or make moves he just hasn’t because he doesn’t understand the true meaning of his feelings for Lucy and he’s still scared of that type of intimacy.



I do not know the current state of the manga rn; I know the anime is out for 100yrs Quest, so I ok with being wrong due to new information or Mashima’s inconsistent writing.

discussions about the aftermath of the tartaros arc are always just either "natsu was completely in the wrong for leaving lucy and she should've been angrier at him!" or "natsu owed lucy absolutely nothing and was completely justified!" well, may i suggest a secret third thing: natsu was wrong for not telling lucy in-person about his plans to leave, but it's understandable given the fact that he just watched his father die and was coping with the helplessness of not being able to protect his loved ones in the only way he knew how. AND if natsu had known about aquarius + the guild being disbanded he wouldn't have been so quick to leave. and lucy has every right to be hurt, but she also doesn't hold any long-lasting resentment against natsu because she KNOWS why he did what he did. she gets it. and natsu KNOWS he hurt lucy, he just doesn't know how to apologize in any other way than getting the guild back together once he realizes how lonely lucy has been for the past year. nuance, people.

[x-other-souled-x]

Dumb ramble time!

Gonna hit whatever cones to mind so this is probably going to be disjointed, but we are having a Lot of Thoughts rn cuz we relaxing hella. Also our phone keeps trying to autocorrect real and correctly spelled and used words into other words, like "we ARE having" became "we ATE having" and many instances of changing "you" to "i" and the other way around, so if there's any of that in here we didn't catch then oops my bad we are zooming and the breaks are broken OKAY GO!

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Thinking about it, in the case of introjecting characters, we tend to only pick one guy out of the cast to come live with us. Except in the one case we yoinked The Twins, even tho one of our other introjected members is also canonically a twin and he didn't get his brother. This does sometimes cause feelings of longing and loneliness despite any type of potential exomemory being extremely rare with us.

In-system romantic relationships feels like a touchy subject with us. I mean amongst ourselves anyway. When you have some members who staunchly believe thats "not a real thing" and that it's harmful, but then the majority of the rest of the system is like "nah who gives a shit, it's comforting". It hurts my head whenever it comes up because everyone is so damn opinionated in here. We have some of what would be called "problematic relationships" as well, but it sucks we can't really talk about them. It's not like it's anyone else's business so that helps, but it feels like when you're suppressing expressing yourself. Sucks. What if my love language is being publicly gross so everyone knows how much I'm gonna smooch up my partner?

I think it's stupid when others try to hold traumatized people to some impossible standard of being a "good trauma victim" as if the traumatized beings won't be fucked up in some way. Yes yes responsibility is not being handwaved away here, I'm no talking about that. I mean how hostile some ppl are to dark and taboo themes in fiction and that presenting itself in system members sometimes. Like how I see way too much pedantic bullshit about how any system member who identifies themselves as a younger age than the body can NOT have a sexual drive or they are actually somehow gross and a bad victim. Be for fucking real, will you?

Unfortunately the cozy position we were in to type has been compromised. (Totally chill, normal way.) So although I'm sure we have more to say, we must abandon our comfy post and face the world.

[general-kalani]

" ⭐"

{ Prompt from here! }

ALRIGHT SO I'll do this by current fandoms AND characters I write in so LETS BEGIN

Under a read more because it's long!!

Don't want to read it? Here's the overview:

Most likely people I'd throw at Audrey: Knoxx, Hammerlock and Wainwright, Mordecai, Steele, TK, Zane(?), Harlock, Bruno(?), Muckenberger, Reinhard and Kircheis, Kesler, Sheryl(?), Gloval, Claudia and Roy, Domel, Berger, Dietz, Gimleh(?), Vance, Sanada, Nazca(?)

Hmu if you wanna discuss anything!!

Azur Lane: Honestly if Audrey wasn't SUPER out of place there, the Belorussiya would've taken Audrey under cannons and protected the shit out of her. So we ignore Azur Lane for that reason of it being WAY too much of a crossover lmfao

Borderlands: We still DO have the potential of Knoxx and Audrey I mean really that's just super funny potential and Steele is also in this area (albeit a little injured).

Vince is a little shit WAY too often so he'd die in the first meeting.

Hammerlock and Wainwright would adopt her on the spot I am SO SORRY LMFAO they'd only glance at her and be like "well she's in the family now."

We don't talk about my man Blake we know her distrust of Hyperion ;-;.

Katagawa would also die on first meeting with her.

Mordecai would be a real threat for teaching her how to fire a sniper and revolvers that's a fact so THAT'S a big potential!!!

TK MY MAN CAN WE JUST APPRECIATE HIM PLEASE-

Ned should not be allowed in the same galaxy as her honestly I fear for her if I throw Ned in there LMFAO.

And Zane is. Zane so yk wild shenanigans there

Far Cry: Honestly if I wasn't afraid of how triggering Far Cry 5 is (and possibly even more trauma for Audrey SHE DOES NOT NEED MORE) I'd already be saying "Joseph and John Seed!" Because I have the most muse for them rn

Harlock / Leijiverse: Honestly I feel like Harlock would be a great parental figure! Ignoring the whole 'dark matter' immortality thing, being a pirate and a few other things.

Emeraldas??? Complete opposite, she'd see Audrey as the child she abandoned back on Earth (Mayu) years ago and feel guilt so she'll turn her back on Audrey unfortunately

Legend of the Galactic Heroes: Anton and Oberstein is VERY "uh oh" territory because Oberstein would see the kid and either: Question why she's not in school, wonder why she's not ALREADY in the military (trust me I was blindsided when I found out there was like. A 13 yr IN THE MILITARY-) or just ignore her.

Bruno? PROBABLY adopt but don't count on it because he's a busy man and he sometimes forgets to self-care.

Bittenfeld is an immediate no because he's so brash and aggressive they wouldn't mix well!

Muckenberger would adopt on sight he can't handle orphans being orphans AND would try to keep her out of the war!

We don't look at Ovlesser though.

Reinhard and Kircheis are PERFECT to adopt her and spoil her. Especially with the Kaiser bs Reinhard has, man has a lot of money. Unfortunately though she'd have a LOT of expectations (as well as if she was with Muckenberger) since Reinhard and Kircheis are wonderful, amazing commanders and well. She'd need to fill that expectation.

Kesler my SON he would adopt her, make sure she was safe and make sure that while she is kept away from the war, she at least has a father figure in her life. Reinhard and Kircheis as well as Muckenberger can try but they're all a mess compared to Kesler and his AMAZING parental skills. Personal hc ofcofc

Schenkopf we do not let her anywhere near Audrey. Not because of anything HORRENDOUS but she doesn't need to see a man constantly hit on her adopted parents. And he's a bad parent LMFAO

Macross Frontier: SOOOO Sheryl would be amazing if Audrey wanted to yk ASPIRE to be a singer (like replace Ranka with Audrey type thing LMFAO) but past that??? Once again it's not the greatest for potential writing

Robotech: Oh my man Gloval KNOWS how it was to grow up pretty lonely. Man grew up on vodka and stale bread in his childhood he would adopt Audrey and well, the SDF-1 DOES have a civilian habitat on board so he can def keep care of her. And not him? Someone else on board could totally do it!

Claudia is the best aunt Audrey would ever get (with her boyfriend Roy ofc) and there is no changing my mind that they wouldn't spoil her badly. Roy can even teach her to fly and that's more threatening to me than anything else I've written so far LMFAO

Lisa would be atrocious. Both because she doesn't like kids and finds them a nuisance but also because she's a woman focused on work and nothing else. Sorry Audrey ;-;

Breetai, Khyron and Exedore; all 3 don't know what the fuck Audrey is, wants, but depending on verse they're either seeing her as a threat or just ignoring her because they really don't know what the fuck to do with her

Sins of a Solar Empire: Rebellion: The consensus from all of them is similar to Azur Lane, in that it just WOULDN'T work out. Extra worse because they're spaceships, not ships like in Azur Lane.

Space Battleship Yamato: Dessler would honestly see her and wonder why she's not in the military and then, depending on verse, hurt her because she's Terron and he's lost his gd sanity so that's a no-go LMFAO

Domel would treat her the best. He's had a kid before, he knows to be gentle and stuff with them. Plus bird. Who doesn't want bird??? Would keep her out of the military, no child soldiers with him around no sirree

Berger is the weirdest older sibling platonic relationship because he's so depressed but tries to be strong about it ESPECIALLY with her around. Mans has a DEATHWISH but I love him because he's just a lil guy who I adore so much, probably has the most potential ngl

Heiny and Wolf are ignored for this experiment-

Dietz already has a kid, Melda so he would probably just adopt her on the spot too and not even blink an eye until two days later because he was apparently drunk when he just adopted her (he was sober, he's lying)

Gimleh we ignore because he would either: Indoctrinate her into the Blue Shadow, put her in as a child soldier, or kill her. There's no in-between.

Gettoh just nods at her and walks off-

VANCE has such pops material. Literally his nickname (thank you Odyssey) so whether she'd like it or not he'd be the most natural to call a dad because of his personality. Would also keep her out of the military and would spoil her

The Talans Ghader and Velte are also ignored for this experiment-

Sanada!!! He has a Borderlands verse as well as lotgh verse but she'd hate him JUST on those verses so we stick to sby verse; which is that while he's quite stoic, serious and focused on work. He'd probably make her a lab assistant and run her through the ropes and while he would give others a stern word here or there he's much more 'gentle' in his weird science sense with her

Gairen, Zwordar and Nazca is just child soldiers round three, absolutely no except with Nazca because AGAIN weird older brother-younger sister platonic relationship yk