#the 911 for mental health

[mybrainvoid]

To any suicidal followers I may have: This is a sign to not kill yourself. You are loved and the world is special because you are in it. Keep holding on.

-PLEASE REBLOG THIS YOU MAYBE ARE SAVING SOMEONES LIFE

You are special and amazing , If you need to talk or some help send me a dm and I will talk to you.

[sherry-cleo-salvadore]

No, but I really need a Karen Begins so bad - like where was she born, who her parents are, what's her maiden name, what inspired her to be a rocket scientist, her journey of becoming a literal rocket scientist, what made her such a straight-to-the point person on her first date set up with Hen, what was going inside her head before Chimney called her saying 'Hen is dead' - like everything - please, after 7 almost 8 seasons of badassery and being one of the greatest love interests of all time she has rightfully earned a Begins episode, Tim 😭

[titstatstummy]

the only thing i need for bucktommy in s8 is for one of them to straddle the other's lap. I don't care if they're making out, if their shirts are off, they can be just sitting like that fully clothed, cuddling, heads on each other's shoulders, whatever. i don't care who's straddling who. i just need them one beefcake on top of the other like that

[dragonpyre]

Bat-1-1. It's JayRoy hours here, folks

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7

[buddiebeginz]

If you're making anti Ryan Guzman posts right after the man just talked about a su*cide attempt kindly block me. No one is saying you have to be a fan of his or even forgive him for past mistakes but maybe have an ounce of tact and keep your opinions to yourself for 5 minutes or at least keep them out of his tag.

[chuuzmii]

omfg i stg some of you guys have this weird need to put Buck on a pedestal because why did i just see a post saying "buck has been there for all of eddies horrific breakups he knows what hes capable of" and "buddie cant happen rn cus buck cant fix eddie"... has buck not also had shitty relationships? am i tweaking? has buck not had issues in his relationships? im confused? and I fond this whole narrative that Buck can't date Eddie while he's struggling mentally sooooo weird like people do not date to fix each other.. they date because they LIKE eachother no matter the others issues.. Buck hasn't even "fixed" himself idk why u guys are so caught up in this idea that hes going to want to "fix" Eddie. He's already been there for Eddie through all his other mental health breakdowns do u really honestly think if they start dating THAT is going to be the reason their relationship cant work?

its just so annoyinggggg watching u guys try to act like buck has never done anything ever.. like hes not an angel hes JUST SOME GUY!! HE MAKES MISTAKES!! Literally nobody on 911 has been 100% correct EVER! why do u guys want him to be perfect so bad.. perfect characters are boringg i love watching him and the others make mistakes while trying to do what they think is right

[i-am-true-believer]

Hello, my sweet fanfiction readers, the late night scrollers, the mid day day dreamers. I feel like todays a good day for a check-in. It's been a bit hasnt it?

So, take a deep breath. This is a safe place to land. In a world of strife and hate, I promise here is a safe place. This is a no hate, judgment free zone.

Have you eaten today? Drank water? Have you moved around just a little bit? I'm proud of you for waking up today, for trying, for choosing to keep living when life is so hard. Your comfort character is so proud of you too. They're so happy you exist, and they're waiting for you. They're ready for your next adventure, your next story. They're waiting for you to read about their lives and their romances. They're so excited! What's it going to be today? Found family? A/B/O? enemies to lovers? Whatever it is that helps you through the day, I'm so glad it does. Remember, if there is an infinite number of universes, then there's a universe where your comfort character adores you beyond anything else. No matter what your brain is telling you, I promise you are loved, you are important, and you matter.

Remember your comfort character believes in you and so do I, the girl who's scrolling with you, giving you a safe place to land. If you need a friend I'm here, if you need somewhere to vent, someone to gush about characters to, I'm here. I hope tomorrow is better than today and that you remember how loved you are. I hope you find the fic or post that makes today a little bit easier.

❤️💛True💛❤️

[tommykinard6]

TW: past suicide (not main character), past attempted suicide, suicidal ideation, mental health crisis.

The water was dark and choppy below his feet, dangling over the river from where Eddie sat on the bridge.

It was one of those bridges with a good footpath, but tended to be deserted at night so a car only passed Eddie every once in a while. None slowed, not seeing his shadowy figure leaning against one of the pillars. His car was pulled onto the shoulder just off of the bridge and he’d been there just long enough to wish he’d brought a jacket, but not long enough to convince himself to leave.

What was he going home to? An empty house? To a life that no longer felt worth-

No. He shook his head to disperse the thoughts, but he didn’t get up, kicking his feet as he looked at the water far beneath him.

He barely heard the footsteps before someone sat beside him. He turned, ready to say any excuse or to run in case the person was weird, but any words he had died on his tongue when he saw Tommy Kinard sitting beside him. The older man was watching him with a carefully blank face, but his eyes were worried.

Eddie waited for the other man to speak first and an awkward amount of time passed before he realized it was on him. “What are you doing here?”

He then kicked himself. He could’ve struck up a friendly conversation, said anything else to get that worried look out of Tommy’s eyes, but he didn’t and the look only grew deeper.

“Passing by, saw your car. Could ask you the same thing, Eddie. Perilous place to stargaze.”

“I’m fine.” And maybe it was something in his tone or maybe Tommy was never going to be fooled anyway, but his answer only made the worry lines in his friend’s face deeper. “Really. I’m just clearing my thoughts.”

Tommy hummed and looked down at the choppy water below just as a gust of wind washed over them. Eddie shivered. “There’s a nice park across the bridge. That’s a pretty good place to think. Been there a few times myself. Less dangerous than here. Less cold.”

“It’s not too bad.” Eddie was, in fact, freezing, but he could barely feel it. He felt a flicker of irritation that Tommy was still there. He just wanted to be left alone. “Seriously man, I’m good. You on your way to Buck’s?”

Tommy hummed an affirmation. “Yeah, but I’m in no rush. Might sit here for a minute, if you don’t mind. Pay my respects.”

Eddie couldn’t help the curiosity, even over the growing irritation that he tried not to examine too closely. “Your respects?”

“Mhm. Lost someone here about seven years ago.”

“A call?”

“Nah. Someone more personal.”

“I’m sorry.” The irritation died down as he took in Tommy’s distant look.

“He was a bastard, but he deserved better.” Tommy turned to look at Eddie and the younger man felt a little too seen under sharp blue eyes. “Wouldn’t think it, but it’s not an uncommon place to pitch yourself off of. We attended more than a few calls here, back when I was at the 118.”

The irritation flickered back to life and Eddie swallowed around a lump in his throat. “Yeah. We got a call like that last week.”

“Did they survive?”

“No. DOA.”

Tommy hummed softly. “Sorry, man. Those are rough.” He nudged Eddie’s shoulder. “Probably should head back, man. You don’t want to fall in.”

“Seriously, I’m good, man. Thanks. I’m just going to hang out here.”

To his annoyance, Tommy didn’t move. Eddie stared out over the water, shoulders tense as he waited for the other man to either leave or say something. He finally did, voice tentative as he asked, “You doing ok, Eds?”

The irritation snapped into something bigger. “I’d do a lot better alone, Tommy. No offense man, but I really don’t want company right now.” He dared to look over at the pilot and the man’s blank face made him snap, “Seriously, man, you’re acting like I’m going to throw myself off!”

“I did.”

It took a moment to register in Eddie’s brain, but when it did, the irritation flickered out like an extinguished candle. “What?”

“Rather, I tried.” Tommy’s face was stony and he wasn’t looking at Eddie, eyes turned towards the water. “The guy I lost here seven years ago was me, Eddie. Or rather, the man I used to be. And I tried to throw the rest of me in with him. This very spot. It’s the deepest. I jumped from where you’re sitting now.”

Eddie was lost for words, jolted out of his own head for the first time in a while. “But you’re alive.”

“I never hit the water.” Tommy looked down, fiddling with his hoodie string. “Someone caught me as I stepped off, dragged me back onto the bridge no matter how much I screamed for him to let me go.”

Eddie tried to wrap his brain around it, the little pieces of a picture he had no idea existed with the man sitting next to him. “Why?” His voice sounded wrecked.

“I thought my life was over. I thought everything I’d worked for, everything that I’d fought for, was gone. I’d faked being someone I wasn’t until I was and that person was someone I despised but I thought I was protecting myself until that night. I thought I’d given up everything and it was all for nothing. I was going to be ostracized from the only family I had. So I came here to end it all.”

His voice was matter of fact, but quivered slightly towards the end. Eddie floundered for a moment, feeling like he’d been pushed off of the bridge into the cold waters below. “But you were saved?”

“By the person I thought was going to end my life. By one of the people I thought I was dying to avoid. He’d followed me here, knew what I was going to do. He…” Tommy paused, swallowing harshly. “He hated who I was. He wanted me to hide who I was. But he didn’t want me dead. So he pulled me off of this bridge and took me home and didn’t allow me out of his sight until he knew I wasn’t a danger to myself anymore. And then he left my life. He hated who I was too much to stay, but he didn’t hate me enough to let me die.”

There was a lot to unpack there. And if Eddie was a good friend, he would ask more questions, listen to Tommy. But he didn’t think he could be a good friend to anyone right now, including himself. “You think I’m here to jump?”

“You have the same look in your eye that I had in those days leading up to me stepping off of this spot. I don’t know if you’re here to jump Eddie, but I don’t think you’re going to catch yourself either. Like hell am I going to leave you here. So please, Eddie, let me take you off of this bridge, alright? Because I’m not leaving until you do.”

Eddie looked down, lump in his throat as he watched the waves. “But…”

“Trust me, man. It’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Because it’s temporary. Chris is coming back and you guys will sort it out. You have a family that loves you and friends that want you. And you have a hell of a lot to live for. So you’re going to come back with me to Evan and you’re going to stay with us. Tomorrow we’re going to call your therapist.” There was a pause. “You have a therapist, right? Cause if not, we’re getting you one.”

Eddie nodded slowly. “Frank.”

And he shouldn’t expect Tommy to know who Frank was, but the man nodded immediately. “LAFD Frank? Good man. We’re calling him.”

Eddie turned to look at Tommy, shivering slightly as he felt the next gust of wind. “But you and Buck-“

“Don’t even think about it. Evan wants you there too.”

“You haven’t told him though.”

“I don’t have to. Eddie, will you let me get you off this bridge?”

And every fiber in Eddie’s being screamed at him to say no, to pull away. But Tommy was there, gaze unwavering and determined. He wasn’t going to take no for an answer. Eddie wasn’t even sure he wanted him to anymore.

He was so confused. He was so tired.

“Ok.”

[poughkeepsies]

I keep seeing people say buck has never gotten a breakdown moment and every time I have to reply well what's all this then

[ranbling]

So, 'cause I still keep seeing post about how Eddie needs to work on himself before being in a relationship, let's switch that narrative to Buck

Buck who keeps falling into relationship without any thought and being in a hamster wheel. Buck who hasn't worked through his issues with his parents, and his abandonment issues. Buck who still gets too jealous when someone threatens his bonds with his friends and family. Buck who died and hasn't processed it. Buck who still thinks it's his fault people leave him. Buck whose problems got magical solved after being kissed by a man. Buck who is still in a hamster wheel, but apparently living his best life just because he got a relationship with a man who is condescending and leaves him on the curb.

If you think Eddie needs to work himself before entering a relationship then you should apply the same logic to Buck too

[shaunashipman]

I'm gonna fucking vomit.

they put the fic in my inbox.

I already have them blocked and they got one of their friends to put that shit in my inbox. I never clicked on the fic I just used the skin to block it, so I didn't even realize what it was for the first few sentences.

I'm literally fucking crying rn, and I don't cry. these people are sick. fuck you hunybody. fuck you thatbuddie. fuck everyone else who is downplaying this.

this is the 2nd piece of pedophilia that has been put in my inbox. I'm not even counting the one accusing tommy of being a pedophile.

I don't even know what to say anymore. I haven't turned anon off because I've got I don't trigger as easily as some and figured it was better to just block and report, but I think I'm gonna have to.

fuck I'm genuinely shaking

[happyhauntt]

i'm no longer allowed to read time loop buddie fics because every single one has left me with irreparable emotional damage to the point where i'm still in physical pain every time i think about them

[doctorkinney]

wip wednesday

"I was at the pier when the tsunami hit. And there was this kid by himself so I tried to protect him. God, he's awesome. He was actually the one reassuring me, telling me about these cool space facts and trying to make me laugh. But I lost him, Christopher—that's his name—and I'll never forgive myself for that.

So it is him. It really is the guy who saved Christopher. It warms his heart that he didn't mention his son's cerebral palsy and instead focused on his personality.

"Wait are you Buck?"

"Yeah. What— how do you know?"

Eddie exhales. "That was my kid. Christopher.

"Fuck. I'm so sorry. God, I'm sorry."

"You saved him. That's how he remembers it.

"Eddie," Buck says in a broken voice and Eddie just wants to take all his pain way.

"And from what I heard, you didn't just save him. You saved others. You did good, Buck. You're so good. Thank you."

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[bi-bi-buckleydiaz]

Yeah yeah buddie this bucktommy that…

Can we talk about how BRAVE it was for Ryan to open up about his MH issues on a PUBLIC platform ?? I don’t even like to talk about my issues and thoughts with my FAMILY and he opened up to the PUBLIC about it. Can we focus on that for a little bit? And tell him how inspiring and brave it was? Because it is. I’m just really in awe of him right now for doing that and being so honest and letting men know it’s okay to be open with your friends and if those in your circle aren’t accepting or helpful that means they shouldn’t be in your circle.

I just think it’s really awesome for a man to be that open.

[stolenkissesdiaz]

ykw actually no this makes perfect sense for eddie bc diva has no idea what time and place mean when it comes to buck. like oh yeah i’ll call u out in the middle of a grocery store. i’ll use ur government name in a hospital post me almost dying when i tell u if i die u get my son. i’ll refer to you as my best friend to someone else for the first time canonically, while sitting in a fucking confessional for the first time in twenty-three years. regular day for edmundo ramon diaz i fear!

[wannabanauthor]

For those of us who started watching 9-1-1 again or for the first time because of the BuckTommy kiss, you are valid for wanting to watch the show only for that. It might help to look up summaries of what happened on the wiki to get a better feels for the characters to help in your shipping experience, but it’s also okay if you only watch BuckTommy scenes.

You’re allowed to enjoy fictional media in whatever way you want that’s not illegal. There are no gold medals given out for how you watch it. At all. You’re allowed to like what you like and discard the rest for whatever reason.

Me personally, I cannot emotionally handle all the drama in the show. I watched S1 and most of S2, and it was so heavy that I looked up to see if a pairing would happen and saw that it didn’t, so I quit the show because it was not worth emotional rollercoaster it put me on.

I work in mental health in my real life, and I have seen so many horrifying things in charts that I do not need to seek out emotionally traumatizing fiction outside my designated PMS days where I let my emotions run free.

Seriously though. I’ve been struggling with feeling like not a real fan of the show, but then I realized that it doesn’t matter. I’m not here to impress online strangers who definitely don’t sign my paychecks or pay my bills. I do that on my own, so I don’t give a fuck how people perceive me as a fan.

I’m 32 years old, and I have experienced a lot of loss in my life over the past 11 years. So many deaths of loved ones and funerals. Let’s not even discuss the performance punishment at my previous job that stressed me out so much that I was ready to leave this earth twice, and my parents had to intervene to talk me down. My mom, my former work mom, and stepmom all got cancer a few years ago, like one after the other, and survived. Do you really think that I need to watch the entire show and know all the details to be a proper fan? Especially with how heavy 9-1-1 can be?

So for my fellow fans and shippers of BuckTommy, enjoy the show however you want. There’s no right or wrong way to watch a show. Engaging in fandom however, is a different thing all together. But it’s perfectly fine to ship what you ship and ignore everything else. I’ve done it with several shows. Hell, some shows got my attention because of ships, and I stayed after the show went downhill because of the ships, but then eventually stopped watching. Or most of the time I quit when I see my ship sinking because I’ve been there when my ships had one character killed in a triggering way that relates to their marginalized status, and that has led me to have real life emotional breakdowns.

So take care of your mental health, and watch shows for whatever reason you want. People might judge you or look down on you, but that’s their fucking problem. Not yours. Why are they so obsessed with you anyway?

Have a wonderful weekend, folks, and remember the block button is there for a reason.