#the ' i know i did the wrong thing but u cant judge me for that' of it all

[jrueships]

ill be having such a good time then Boom, someone says something

[elliscousland]

additionally, i think it's important to note that the emotional & moral complications only matter to him bcs they actively affect him. once he's played his part in any context he beats himself up relentlessly abt the things he did but if anyone were to approach him w the same concerns he would Hypocrite Up & just be like YOU WEREN'T FUCKING THERE!!! like there just being this automatic defense that comes with being perceived bcs he can't always remember the details bcs of a mix of mental illness & trauma so he's never sure what perceptions are & aren't valid.

like he KNOWS he made bad decisions!!! he wont forgive himself for that!!! but he unfairly expects others to because they weren't the ones who had to make them.

this of course changes on a personal level when he is being perceived by someone he gives half a fuck about. but his instinct with strangers is to revert to being defensive. it's more complicated than i have the brainpower to talk about here but ellis isn't a great guy. he's not a bad guy either. he sucks & he's beautiful & he's awful & he did his best. his best just wasn't all that great.

also thinking about how ellis pursues The Horrors in the moment of any crisis because he sees them as an effective means to an end where he or his loved ones might live. he doesn't think about the moral or emotional implications until his actions have already passed & he is actively experiencing them

[personasintro]

i know mentioming kiko triggers most of the readers but i think yall should grow tf up like shes my roman empire and i think about her a lot u know 😔😔 when this chapter, where she told jungkook the truth, came out i hated her just like others and i was like "shes so evil like how can she do this to jungkook". but as time passed i just realized that shes the realest character because if i were in the same situation i might have done the same thing(?) Like i dont know exactly what id do but because of fear i couldve done the same so i cant really judge her. like we all know having a child is a big responsibility and she was scared and of course she wasnt ready for this and obviously its her body and her choice and she did whatever she thought was good for her. I think throwing a mud at her and criticising her is too much because she suffered enough already and i truly dont understand why do yall hate this woman so much?? I mean yeah she shouldve told jungkook everything because jungkook really deserved to know and we all knkw he would understand her and her choice but she was scared and not ready. Like we cant even imagine the pain she was going through because as i mentioned before having a kid is a big responsibility and she was the one who had to carry the baby for 9 months and give birth and everything and she was not ready. like yeah jungkook would be on her side but so what?? his support would be a great help but mothers still have to go through pain, fear, uncertainty and so many emotions and i think men would never get this (im sorry, i know jungkooks an amazing man but he still wouldnt get it okay???) and i trully feel sorry for her and of course the way she handled the situation was so wrong and i do not support her for that, for example, for lying to jungkook, breaking up with him without telling him everything, then lying to him that she cheated 😭😭like she was so stupid for that and she made him suffer so much like imagine u told him u cheated on him and he still wanted to give u a second chance,even though he was in so much pain??? like i understand him and yes he deserved to know everything and she was so wrong for getting back to him and still makkng him believe she cheated but I feel so sorry for both of them and i really understand kiko and her fears and im her apologist because everyone makes mistakes and obviously she wasnt a perfect person. I hope she will be happy in the future because she dont deserve all this pain.

thank you for sharing your thoughts on this! we've had quite a lot conversations about her character and to be honest, she might be one of my favorite characters i've ever written. not because I love her or anything, but because she's so interesting to me. and i've said this before many times, but i guess people perceive things differently based on the point of view which is completely understandable – if the story was about them, kiko being y/n – some opinions and reactions might've been different. i do believe there would be many opinions of what she did and it being not right, but i guess readers would show more mercy with the way of how they talk about her character or they would definitely not use so many curse words ahaaha

[bunnihearted]

im straight up not allowed to make a single mistake by my family. my sisters do things all the time, even sometimes with ill intent, but they never get scrutinized or bullied for it. but as soon as i make on single thing wrong im an evil cruel bitch who "plays games" and "thinks it's fun to mess with them". anytime i do smth wrong it hurts so i wanna kill myself. why would i do these things for fun?? they never ask themselves why i did smth or how it happened, they just immediately draw the conclusion that i did it with malicious intent and on purpose. they've made me so terrified of doing anything at all bc im scared i'll even breathe wrong. and now when im in such a vulnerable mental state i accidentally slipped and made one mistake. and now im basically being burned at the stakes for it.

they've never shown me compassion or patience. they never let me change - bc they have decided that i do it for fun and everytime i do smth it's bc im a bad toxic evil person. i feel so suffocated here i dont know what to do. i feel like such a terrible person who's nothing but a burden who'd do everyone a favor if i just died. but no. whenever i've expressed my suicidal thoughts to my family, they say that im incredibly selfish for even saying such things and hurting them. i dont even threaten suicide, i've told them calmly at other times when i've tried to talk abt my mental health bc ppl always say that u should talk abt it LMAO. whatever i do, they judge me. whatever i say, they dont believe me. that's what hurts the most. they dont believe me. bc they think im not making mistakes, they think im playing and having fun bc im a bad person. that hurts so fkn much. they have no idea what's happening in my head, and they also wont listen to me when i try to explain.

i cant do this anymore. i'll never heal while i live with these ppl. i hope i one day become strong enough all on my own (since the healthcare system wont help me. my family wont help me.) to move away and just be alone forever. no one around me to hurt me or believe the worst of me. im tired. i want someone to be gentle and understanding. to listen to me. to believe me. is that such an awful selfish thing to wish for? i'd do it in return to, i'd never take smth and not pay it back tenfold.

[shinakazami1]

hope tsp is an option but stanley or mariella for the character ask thing !! dont know if i ever heard ur thoughts on mariella :-)

I'LL DO BOTH. SQUOOTE I LOVE YOUR WORK YOUR THOUGHTS ON THE GAME EVEN WHEN I'M NOT MUCH IN THE FANDOM WEEEE jumping around u

MARIELLA (ladies first)

How I feel about this character

This bestie is in just one ending and got the whole fandom do great yuri. Slay queen. Slay.

Serious though - the fact she's representing the need for normality. The way she's so caught up in judging Stanley instead of checking if he's okay. She just accepts he's dead. She CANT check. That would disturb her schedule. It would ruin the routine. She has to reinforce herself as The normal one.

She's the good one. She has the morale. Others don't understand life as much as she did. She is good. She's okay.

Doesn't that sound familiar?

Both her and Curator judge their counterpart because they need to be better. They need to be OK.

In the Bucket version, she projects her sanity onto the Bucket. It's representing order, control, good mindset. The backflip is just the way we sometimes feel when someone else's life seems worse. Yes, yours in comparisment looks better.

But the fact right before that, Stanley is stuck in a looping hallway, losing his mind, feels like that's what's happening with her, too. She has to be in control, otherwise, she spirals.

Search for order and normality.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

I said so before but - romance,,, eeeh. I like Curiella, don't get me wrong, but it's not an OTP.

In my Jester AU - each of the members has fake memories of their life. Mariella had ones about being Stanley's ex wife. I wanted to make it so that the search for normality is in the wife stereotype. She doesn't love Stanley, but she doesn't understand why he doesn't love him. What she has done wrong fitting the role she was supposed to play so well. She had an image of being so perfect and she can't confront stanley about it, as anytime he comes close, he dies.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

I like sometimes making her concious of 432 since she spends time with Curie. I also think her and Stanley's relation could be interesting.

My unpopular opinion about this character

Again, dunno what's unpopular. But here are some headcanons

- Mariella is stuck in a loop like others. Depending on my Aus, she either uses the time well for herself or spirals out of control outside of it.

- She knows she only resembles a human but isn't one. That's another 'normality' she searches for.

- she loves her outfit a lot. Feels proud of it.

- mentioned earlier but I headcanon she was the one who was supposed to play the role of wife, before she got scrapped to Insanity.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon

Again - I love the writing in the game, it's hard to even ask for something more. She plays her role well.

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STANLEY

How I feel about this character

Lort. A lot. Truly a lot and squoote , you're one of folks who made me respect him even more through your interpretations of him being his own. The trailers esp, bucket escape pod when he's in a cutscene, being himself. He is more than a vessel and yet, he's stuck with us. He has a mouth yet he can't scream.

Anyone having their Stanley see a version of themselves in him. I know two main ways of looking at him, either very silent bland guy, or very opposite to the Narrator.

I'm Team - inhumanity. You can see it in my writing often. I consider him as a model that knows he is not a human. That in a way, he accepts his fate. He's okay with playing his role, he lets you control him. And yet, there is a lot of anger. Resignment. Hatred. Sadness. Freedom.

I adore protagonists like him. Looking bland but having lots and lots to offer.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

NarratorxStanley and 432xStanley. But well, in my aus,,, love is an interesting thing.

With the Narrator - they are in the front. They're both seen. They both live the story the most.

With 432 - he talks to us but he used to be an employee. I like to write universes where player left and all that's left are them. I hope to write one more fic for them cus I been insinuating this relationship for a while and not long ago wrote an epilogue for a fic.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

BucketxStanley. Cus Bucket represents the Narrator. And objectum freaks. It's silly.

My unpopular opinion about this character

- he DOESN'T hate Narrator nor loves him. It fluctuates. They both do. They have to play a role, they're coworkers.

- He can form his thoughts but we can't hear them. He observes how we play as him.

- he roams around when we are not looking. It's his right to do so. People think of Not Stanley ending as the normal Stanley. I think of it as him playing his role. He is a vessel but, what happens in his mind, is his. And none of our business.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon

Nothing again. Davey Wreden wrote a wonderful story and I respect it.

[yappinggggg]

Wanted to share my thoughts on who everything did stuff wrong and why :>

(I havent finished the novel just yet so there might be some errors)

Also: Spoiler warning

The count and countness:

Their intentions were right but what they did wasn't really right. I mean- i understand completely that they didnt want harm Deon and all... but come on- Deon didnt even know about any of that. They could have sat him down- or written him a letter- and explain why they treated him differently than Cruel. Or maybe shown that they cared in a bit more obvious way? Of course no parent is perfect but i think they really messed it up while they could have still saved Deon somewhat

Duke Illuster:

This man is unfixable. What he did was so- idk how to put it into words. His greed alone was the reason Deon even got involved with the demon king, emperor and the war. Dude could have done something else but he seems to desperately want some powers fast. He should be tortured the same way Deon was - he should feel what its like to be in Deons position. (He wouldnt feel it exactly like Deon but somehow grasp it)

Next on to Nemeseus:

I really dislike him and ill explain why.

First of all: he simply blamed poor Deon for giving himself a split personality- like dude? He was a CHILD- what did u expect? He wanted to live and that was the only way he managed to survive!

Second: he only tried stepping in to check up on Deon when it was too late- u saw him the whole time. U witnessed what he saw and did on the battlefield- and u feel that u have the right to judge Deon?

Third: he called a broken child a monster(i mean Deon here)- what did this man expect Deon to do? He wanted to live- can u blame him for choosing this?

Emperor:

I think what showed the most how f***ed up this man is is that he killed all his siblings because of something he didnt even verify if that was true. He had the ability to do that- even if he was mad and blinded by emotions at the time- there was a better way.

Theres also the part where he actively manipulates Deon and gaslights him but i dont think i need to say much to this- we all saw what he did :>

The princess and prince:(yes,they get included)

The fact that they decided to just accept what their uncle did and forgive him is pretty messed up, if u ask me. Sure- family is family, but come on guys. He killed ur parents even when he didnt know if he was right fully killing them.

And they decided to just- help him with his plans? Support the things he did to Deon?

Not only support: they actively tried hard themselves to manipulate Deon

Of course: they are still young and so on but i think they could certainly have made a better decsion.

But i cant really blame them for choosing to stay and support their uncle- afterall they only had him and themselves. They also probably wouldnt have lasted long either if they hadnt accepted their uncles offer. Their chances of living a good life would literally drop down so much

Demon king (cant leave our toxic king out of this):

This man is a demon so he obviously is known to be cruel and so on.

Also since he had lived for for a thousand years so he is obviously bored to death- and he doesnt care about life anyway so why would he start caring for Deon? And why would he care about the fact that he ruined Deons life?(at least took part in it)

Edit: adding to the dk

So i found out that he actually cared for Deon....

Like what :D THATS NOT HOW U TREAT THE PERSON U LIKE but he was nice to Deon most of the time so he may get forgiven (lmao)

[Sorry,i dont know much about the demon king right now so i cant say much about him ):>]

[pumpkinsy0]

idk how to describe this post, but just describing characters psyche lol

darry,dally, and tim- they have little to no genuine support system and have to harbor everything they go through pretty much alone and bottle shit up cause growing up quickly sucks

tim- his parents werent rlly parents, so he had to emotionally mature fast and understand what they did wrong in life and in having kids so that he could better take care of angela and curly, he learns quickly that looking out for ur own blood can save ur skin more than yknow it, his parents arent around rlly anymore and he doesnt exactly know where they run off to even if they come back home for a few days but he knows theyll never learn that

angela- she canonically had a break down about her life being actual dogshit and bryon says that in the morning she’ll go back to her own stone cold strong self cause thats just the way she is, that's just the way she's learned to go through life

literally every singular one of the characters LMAOOO- its self explanatory HOWEVER i will highlight darry here

curly- faces a shit ton of oppression (even if u dont agree w him being queer hes still black to me but if u dont see him as black hes still a poc and a greaser) so hes just learned to do whatever he wants bc no matter what he does hes always gonna b judged so y not live life to the fullest and in a way that makes him happy, he’ll still be shunned, but at least he’ll be happy

tim- i cant properly find the words to explain it, but someone needs to check up on this nigga fr, a good portion of the neighborhood is religious, especially the older ppl yet they always judge him for one thing and another, nobody is rlly genuinely hoping (or in this case praying) he gets better

curly- shameless reminder that i ship purly, so I thought about curly saying this to pony for a sec cause i think cures that type guy to just explore the world any way he wants and he'll do anything to get someone to join him in on it

this is also for very obvious reason two bit, soda and if u squint, steve

darry- he cares for pony sm it comes off to pony that he doesnt care at all, pony needs his space to breathe and darry doesnt wanna let em go

the shepards but most particularly angela- for some reason she held her parents in a high light cause unlike some kids in the neighborhood they had them both, curly and tim knew this wasn't rlly the case very quickly and as angela grew up, bit by bit she knew what they meant and would lay or even cry in bed over it

TAKE AWAY THAT THESE R COUSINS PLS ONLY PAY ATTENTION TO THE WORDS THATS WHAT IM TRYNNA HIGHLIGHT HERE IM BEGGING U

purly- either way u chose who's who the other has always felt like they weighted other ppl down (for ponys case) or like theyre just to far gone to be helped (for curlys case), they still love each others company because they see the other as being worth it/deserving of it

however if u dont ship purly or can't get over em being cousins this is literally darry and pony or johnny and pony for like the same exact reason

[cartoonrival]

Nrto/Brto for 3 10 & 17?

bro literally the wider naruto fandom sucks so bad idek where to begin

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

i dont have a specific example so instead im gonna give a general gripe about a trend that ive seen in many takes over time

the black and white thinking and refusal to think for half a second about characters other than ur faves Reminds Me Of Something!real ones know. the way people talk about any character with any sort of greyness to their morality kinda makes me crazy and i lowkey think ppl bring up kishimoto TOO MUCH in their discussion of the storys themes bc while obviously like its important to talk abt WHY he wrote it the way he did esp wrt nationalism and all, i think also it sort of dulls ur ability to think anything complex about it if u blame everything u dont like or think was "sloppily done" on kishimoto. judging every character based on kishimoto's morals instead of their own if that makes sense? its not like "the wrong way to do things" i just personally find it really boring when thats the only way youll look at a text. like no wonder you guys are constantly making jokes about how naruto sucks and you'd never recommend it, you wont even allow yourselves to think about the story as its own piece of art beyond just "kishimoto wrote it this way because he sucks" like do you ever think maybe youre killing some of the fun of media analysis... i think its why so many people hate sakura or kakashi or itachi or anyone else. and this always comes out in the way ppl characterize bc theyre like Um I've Fixed Them :) and then its the blandest shit ever because you absolutely refuse to work even slightly WITH the story you claim to love, only fighting tooth and nail against it.

some examples of what i mean w this: basically any conversation about itachi that tries to categorize him as either good or bad. basically any conversation about sakura that tries to do literally anything or nothing with her. people making sns blandly romantic as if the insane and inventive ways they talk about their feelings for each other in canon isnt genuinely part of what makes it so maddeningly fascinating and awesome. anyone who thinks kakashi is a bad teacher. its just this refusal to meet the characters where they are and think of anything in terms of the text itself rather than exclusively in a meta way, ie "this is how it would be if it was good." no its not. you just made it how it would be if it was bland and obvious. dont you literally think the fact that the guy writing it was accidentally writing his characters to be struggling against the same shit that he was struggling against irl and struggling to keep Out of his writing is like. wildly fascinating and part of waht makes the story intersting to pick apart. but ok. this also applies to aspects of boruto primarily sasusaku and naruhina marriages. no one gets it like i doooooo

10. worst part of fanon

everybodys always shipping kakashi with someone and its never even guy. if youre gonna ship kakashi it had better fucking be with guy bc theres gen srs no one else he would be caught dead romancing with and i cant even see how you could read any of his other relationships as romantic. he doesnt even HAVE a relationship with iruka. i get that not every ship has to have canon support but its all either 1) literally not even interesting to think about or 2) what they have actually going on is way more interesting but see my response to question 3. its the same with gaara honestly the more i think about it the more annoyed i get about the ignorance surrounding just-short-of-canon aroace gaara ToT like if u didnt know then ok... but you should learn because its awesome. i just thinking the shipping culture in the fandom is annoying like everyone has to be shipped with someone and that seems to come before their genuinely interesting relationships. and those genuinely interesting relationships are sanded down into something normal. idk this is a gripe that goes w Many Many fandoms but i feel like w naruto its particularly bad largely on account of See Previous Answer. ppl are like "its written this way bc kishimoto is homophobic i will fix this" then they make it suck because shockingly ik kishi actually wrote a good as fuck story if deeply flawed

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

ill be fr i dont gen seek out fics or art independently to be 100% sure that stuff i'd be looking for isn't out there somewhere. but i think ppl really really should just. think about sakura more. i literally love her sm but ppl won't think abt her beyond either 1) she sucks and i hate her (but this is because of kishimoto's writing and has nothing to do with me! if i rewrote naruto then she wouldn't be there 😌 this is a kindness to her and not because i cant be assed to think about a woman for 5 seconds) or 2) girlboss!!!! like.... is that scene in the land of iron not BIBLICAL to anyone else....??? is her devotion to someone she's lost faith in out of loyalty to someone she loves and is losing her ability to understand not FASCINATING???? TO ANYONE ELSE???? IS THE WAY SHE PICKS UP THE TRAITS OF HER TEACHER THAT HE SPECIFICALLY IS NOT MEANING TO PASS ON TO HER NOT HEARTWRENCHING???????? you people suck. instead you write ooc sns over and over and draw kakashi without his mask kissing fucking obito

[water-mellie-seeds]

If you genuinely want to start shit with me about it then you're free to unfollow i genuinely do not care about this stupif petty arguement anymore i exist outside the weird as fuck rules of media consumption on the internet. I want you to know the absolute truth about something. To preface just because this IS the piss on the poor website this is NOT us condoning proshippery or condoning the actions of any less than savory creators or pieces of media we happen to watch or talk about.

We actually quite liked some of the new hazbin hotel and we finally watched and enjoyed helluva boss. And we do still watch south park. And other pieces of media that apparently make you a terrible person for even looking at. For south park I have since i was 9 maybe 10 and it actually helped me to UNLEARN the shitty things i did and thought as a kid in a small town with heavily christian parents. In my very early childhood, my mom used to have basically fucking neo-nazi type ideals thanks to her parents and I had to unlearn all of that on my own because she didn't unlearn it before having kids and 'problematic media' helped. It helped me see what Not to do and what Not to say. And whatever! Sometimes its actually fucking funny and that's fine too! The jokes you have the right to laugh at. And im sick of like. People not getting that you can like something and not everything about it. And im ALSO sick of people dictating whats bad media and whats good media. Why cant we just go back to it being MEDIA. the death of media literacy and the weird holier than thou attitude behind finding a piece of media that has the least amount of controversy is just exhausting. The whole practice is so ridiculously detrimental and im serious. Like 10 odd years ago no one cared what you watched and no one Especially measured your moral standing with a fucking stupid tv show and i don't know when that shift was made but it makes me so genuinely upset because you're not going to find that perfect and pristine show. Everything has something wrong with it. You can acknowledge that and just, move on. It's incredibly easy.

Im not always eloquent as I'd like to be but i feel a lot better coming clean that yeah, Sometimes I find comfort in media that isn't super sweet and sanitized and I owe it to south park and things like it for teaching me how not to act,and especially how some of the things in my life were not normal or okay. However, never would I praise it.

Thank you, i didnt want to keep up some kind of unspoken ohhh i hate those fans lol vibe and confuse people who actually do think like this and who do judge people's morals based on what they consume. So if this is a thing you do and knowing this about us changes how you view us, it is more than okay for you to unfollow or break mutuals,etc. We will be in no way offended.

There's a lil more in tags if u wanna look @ those

Normal posting will resume after i get home from my party!

anons will be off tonight for obvious reasons<3. If you're really aiming to send a death threat though, this is not the case for any of our other blogs so if you're dedicated enough, find em♡ whatever gets you off

[liamsunshine]

Hello I’m live blogging Niall on The Voice s23 so enjoy the ride, the one or 2 people that will see this 🤍🧡

The actual very first thing u see is a sign that says One Direction <- in the direction Niall & Chance go and I think that’s very cute of them 🙃

Niall and Blake are already being cute w each other in the first blind, I can tell I’m going to adore whatever their relationship is about to become. Adam who?

HIS ACCENT HAS GOTTEN SO THICK AGAIN I LOVE HIM SO MUCH JFC

Niall, raising a finger with a shit-eating sweet smile after Kelly tries to sell: “I’ve been in a group! 😃😃😃”

Blake and Niall giving us 1d crumbs ok ok ok <3 (:

“Old head young shoulders, Kelly.” Im so fucking in love w him shut up niall pls god

Niall fits in so well with all the other judges and his sense of humor is so perfect for The Voice… like this show has done well bc it brings in judges and contestants that are very down to earth and balanced and genuinely good… that’s all Niall baby

Not Niall but wow I was crying over that sweet guy and his wife

“Blakey-boy” IM CHEWING THE COUCH

“I kept saying NIall, NIall.” “He musta been saying my name wrong.” pfffffttt

Niall’s Blake impression. NIALL’S BLAKE IMPRESSION. NIALL TELL ME YOU’VE BINGE WATCHED THE VOICE WITHOUT TELLING ME

WHAT DID I SAY:

- “This is my son. My son is…” *brings Niall in for a hug* “You’re good you know that?”

(Kelly: “We should celebrate, like there should be some form of tequila”)

- “Come on son, let’s go get ‘em.”

- “Let’s go dad.”

WHERE IS THE GIANT BRIGHT SCREEN WITH NIALL’S FACE AND WHY ARENT THEY SHOWING IT

Kala is so talented and SO up Niall’s ally… OH MY GOD NIALL YOU LITTLE SHIT I LOVE HIM HE WAS PLANNING THAT SO WELL

AJD THE WINK!!!!! Hehsidjdjhddhehbd

Did he just fall in love like actually? I’ve never seen Niall look like that omg

Oh Niall the hoodie… why did he go grey lmao

Kelly calls him “Ireland”????? Omfg

HE’S SCHEMING LOL “ I just want to go grab a guitar and write a song with you.” Oh my god???? That’s a proposal in Niall-speak????????? Kala u r living my dream

His Blake voice wow oh my god… it’s making me feel things. his giggle… i feel like it’s 2012 and im 1d blogging over graining interviews

“Where’s my lawyer?!” tell me u cant hear him say it and tell me u dont know what it reminds u of :)

STOP GUYS THEY PLAYED “PERFECT” AS HIS BG SONG WHEN THE CONTESTANT CHOSE HIM 🥺🥺🥺 IS THAT ALLOWED????? 😭😭😭😭

The actual scheming that went into that church boy who??

“I can’t fight One Direction.” Kelly ur so right.

Blake is proud of his son 😩❤️

Hand kiss???? Holy shit Adam ACTUALLY move over it took you seasons to get a neck kiss from Blake… w the pace that Niall’s moving they’ll be hooking up by the summer

SCREAMING IT WAS JIMMY FALLON goooood he’s my favorite night time host!!! And he’s so talented!!!!! Even w his impression singing he was good lol. I was hoping it would be Adam but this was great <3

Anyway that was my reaction and I’m even more in love w him I can’t stand it. Can’t wait for next week for more 1d crumbs. And for Adam to appear. And for Blake and Niall to get matching bracelets. It’s gonna be great.

[my-mt-heart]

Ok im gonna try to bring a bit of positivity here even if it might not seem like it at first lol. U might have seen (but i think u avoid twitter right?) Carol being attacked these last few hours/days regarding Sophia/Ed. How she supposedly let Sophia being sexually abused by Ed without doing nothing. How she screamed to Shane "stop!" and cried when he beat up Ed. Meaning she was weak and ridiculous, again.

First of all i think (correct me if im wrong) that its considered canon that Ed didnt abuse (sexually, that is) Sophia... yet, because he died, but he would have had tried to had he lived because he saw her "growing up" and was a sick psycho. And Carol acted on it by having Sophia taken physically far away from her father if i recall well (dont have the exact scene in mind hence why im vague).

Second of all, this is bullshit obviously. Those people have never been abused and it shows. How its hard to leave, because you still love him and actually believe him when he says he wont hurt u again. Because he's a "great father" and "only" hit you and not ur children (its stastically rare i think but it does happen). I've worked with a lot of women beaten up by their husbands (and believe it or not, a few man with their wives too. Even husbands with husbands or wives with wives. Again, more rare but still here) and all combinations exist: women dont give a shit anymore, wont forgive, and only wants to leave and/or ptotect their children, woman who cant leave because they still see the "amazing" man he was for the first 10 years, or the first 3 years. Or says things like "he was beaten up when he was a child by his dad so its not his fault. "

ALL combinations exist, no one knows what its like to be in the head or the heart of a beaten 's wife/person, and no one should judge someone's way of coping with it, dealing with it, reacting to it. It is NEVER the victims fault, even if in the case of a beaten's wife, she stays with the husband.

Sorry, so, this disgression to say that Carol was insulted yesterday and so on for staying with Ed and not protecting Sophia.

The goods news (and here comes the positive part lol) is that for once, everyone was coming at these assholes (who, yes, happened to be Richonners, but NO, not all Richonners are this way, absolutely NOT).

And when i mean everyone, i mean even those who usually dont say shit when Carol (and therefore Melissa) is called ugly and/or too old for Daryl. Even those who dont ship caryl and/ or dont particularly like Carol are saying "ohh hell noo, too far, u re not victim blaming Carol here, absolutely not". Even the "kind of official fan accounts" followed by stars of the show.

So, while i wish she was defended more often already for the ageist and sexist part of the attacks she suffers, its still comforting to see that this time, everybody or almost see how too far they have gone and reacted accordingly.

Sorry if im clumsy in my way of writing or presenting things, english is not my native language, hope i did ok.

First of all, thank you for all you've done for survivors of domestic abuse and for sharing your insight. I heard about the incident through the grapevine and it was nice to go back and see all the support Carol was getting from all sides :)

Even though we have to be responsible for what we say on SM, I don't think it should just be left up to the fans to create a safer environment for them (and even cast and crew) to interact with each other. We should also put pressure on AMC to stop fueling the sexism, ageism, racism, etc. seen not just in one particular subset of the fanbase, but across the board. For example, how about making Carol the same size as Daryl in the key art so people can literally see her as a lead character? How about abandoning the ambiguous language around Caryl's relationship so people can understand that, yes, a middle-aged woman with gray hair can be the middle-aged male lead's love interest and vice versa? How about hiring someone who actually supports their characters and their relationship to run the official SM accounts? That's the kind of change I'd love to see.

[legobatjoker]

btw omg okay dont wanna say remembered bc its not smth i forgor abt ofc but last night i did suddenly have a moment of omg world aint ready. bc omg world aint ready !! actually one thing tht made me remember is that i never listened to shake the sheets fr bc i wanted it to be the thing of u imagine ur fave song in tht scene like u said so didnt listen to it when i first read the fic and then i forgor to right after so i listened to it just now and it is a p good song id say !! altho one thing abt me is that i was nott imagining any song i liked as the song mentioned throught the fic 😭 part of it is tht the authors notes did set it was set aroubd 2005/2006and ik they also said u can imagine it being set later if you wnat but i allso literally cldnt do that even when i was trying to so yk my songs releaased before 2006 knowledge is not that great also its kinda funny that the fics like imagine ur fave song here !! but then it is nott vauge enough with its descriptions that u can do that FGHGDHD also . not that there would rly be one that wld fit the descriptions of the song in the fic . esp one (esp since ithink there are actually none released before two months before prom in 2006) that was released early enough . but if you give me an empty space and say put ur fave little belvoedest song here . im going to pick a taylor song. and the tihng abt that is that i literallyyy cant do that i cannot do that. and not bc its embarrassing even or w/e (its actually sm worse than just being normal embarrassed) its like. okay this insane but one thing abt me which is so bad and need to work on but one thing abt me is until proven otherwise i feel like literally every person ever wants to/will wnat to push into active traffic for liking taylor swift. and i literally wasnt even thinking it wld be that bad with a fucking fanfiction becuase its a fucking fanfiction before i got ot that point like i thought i was gonna be able to relate a taylor song to it and yet it appears this complex does also appy to literal characters in a fanfic so i was reading the fic and trying to put any song that i like (ignoring or trying to the like songs being released when it was set issue even) and that would fit for the song in the fic but i was trying to like thing of songs i liked including taylor songs but whenever i thought of some any taylor song first of they wldnt fit lol but also id feel so like. omg the characters l would want to push me into traffic if they knew i was associating a taylor swift song here. the author also probably. everyone else reading this fic also aswell (other than u !!) even tho i ltierally wld not judge anyone else at all for associating a taylor song there infact id think that was soso slay i was so in my head abt the very like. fabric of the fanfic judging me abt it i cldnt do it and gave up associating a song there while also not even knowing the author was thinking of 👍🏽 but also !! idk if iv asked u but i am curious abt what song you like had in mind reading the fic love? :0 bc i do think it is rly cool in theory to have a fic where u imagine a song u rly like as the song the character love but unfortunatly i am too insane for that both in not having a song that fits the specifc standards in mind and also just having smth wrong with me. but i rly do wanna hear the song u associated with it !!!

the war song of all time is<3 well it is miss americana<3

[daisyvisions]

hey daisy as a another sangyeon ult & a korean woman i wanted to give u more context to why sk women r so mad abt the bj thing. its not that we’re upset he made a sex joke or that his humor was vulgar/dark/etc, its the specific word he used for bj. it’s not a common word & is rly only learned from watching corn. thats the issue, bc specifically asian corn is almost always misogynistic & objectifying, & when a sk man uses that word it’s insensitive bc of it’s context involving objectification.

(this is not to say that watching corn or saying the word makes sangyeon a misogynist, i dont agree with those ppl accusing him of blatantly being one at all. one mistake doesn’t define a person)

i dont condone all the extreme misinformation n hate twds sangyeon n the rest of tbz but i just wanted to clarify. as a sk woman before a deobi i cant defend him for using that word, but i will recognize that he made a mistake. and that’s okay, we r all human that makes mistakes, but i hope instead of completely defending him & saying he did nothing wrong, as deobis that care about him we should hold him accountable & let him learn to be a better person by letting him know his word choice was hurtful.

even if he didnt say the word, the bottom line is that things are unclear, women r hurt, n even us (k)deobis r looking for a statement &/or apology n we shouldn’t invalidate the women who r upset 🤍

first off, I apologize if how I came off sounded like I didn't care about the deeper meaning of the word and how it affects sk women!! I totally understand the context and ofc as to why people (esp the sk women) would be offended

I guess I'm really more of pissed off at those who were spreading the info so quick without stopping to think first or those who immediately say "where did he learn this from" as if he's a child (if that makes sense?)

that's really what made me bothered the most that I guess there is some kind of double standard with idols for some fans (not all), like they demand for shirtless pics but when the idol is seen with a vape or says a cuss word they get angry - that will never make sense to me

For this scenario with sangyeon, this is a special case ofc since the word that was supposedly said had a deeper meaning than just the simple phrase, I totally agree that IST should've at least cleared our what was happening instead of just deleting since at the end of the day, a lot of the things that get recorded and posted are the company's doing.

Again, thank you for the context! I'm not mad or pissed off at all with the backlash towards the word, but more of the fans / non-fans who were quick to judge and who were hypocritical about it (again, had it been a different word)

[poems-of-a-lover]

nick watches spiderman (cont.)

im gonna make another post bc i have a feeling im close to hitting the text limit on my other one but we're still on the first movie!! im gonna try and get thru this movie soon bc i HAVE to get to the second ones before my demons get me

okay where we are rn ben just died and peters in his evil era tryin to find the guy who did it

like hes just goin up to random dudes and beating them up bc he thinks its The Guy when its not

and every time i watch this movie i forget if they find him or if the plot point is abandoned bc peter has bigger problems by then KJGSHLKGJHSKH guess we'll remember together

peter falls thru a roof and these guys just let him go. like they leave him there. to be fair what were they supposed to do but still.

this is where we get the inspo to make a suit!! he sees a wrestling poster and is like "that could be me =D"

agh i wanna look like him so BAD bro i wish that were me

shoutout to him STEALING FROM OSCORP to make his web fluid thats so funny

this handstand moment is apparently judged by a lot of fans as him becoming spiderman but theyre SO wrong that doesnt happen until later in the film in my opinion

like thats just my opinion but other ppl can be wrong ig /lh

also how did he get this police radio. how do any of the spidermans get their radios. did they take them from officers. can u buy them. whats goin on here.

omggggg its captain stacyyyyy he'll be important later

like. incredibly important. GKJHSGKJSHGKJ we'll get to him in a minute.

"spandex.....spandex.......everything.......spandex......" i love peter so much

HE'S MAKIN THE SUITTTTT HES GOT THE SUIT NOW!!!!! THE SUIT OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!

i love this suit sooooo much its so textured and i love the logo its so fun

this car thief scene is rlly the scene of all time i love it

so many good peter lines from this scene

"seriously? u rlly think im a cop? a cop in a skin tight red and blue suit? yknow, u have got the mind of a true scholar, sir" PETER PLEASE BE NORMAL

this head tilt. the peter head tilt. in this context its kinda menacing but hes so me coded bc i also do the head tilt thing KHGSKJDHGKJ

the first time i saw this scene and for a while after i thought he told the cop "i just TOOK 80% of ur job" after he took the gun but he actually says "i just DID 80% of ur job" bc he webbed the criminal and i was so disappointed bc i rlly thought he was making a solid dig at the police force but hes just being petty KJGHSKJGHKSJ

ugh him talking to may here makes me sooooo sad. "u dont have to wait up for me, yknow" "yes i do" SHE LOVES HER NEPHEW PLEASEEEE

shes so worried for her nephew. seeing him hurt just destroys her. this boy is all she has. she lost her husband, her brother, her sister in law, and seeing her nephew come home at god knows what time just beat up and wounded must be so heartwrenching and she cant do anything bc he wont talk to her. i love tasm may shes so interesting.

"aunt may please, please go to sleep." "i cant sleep! dont u understand? i cant sleep! peter, listen to me. secrets have a cost, theyre not for free. not now, not ever." SOOOOO TRUE QUEEN. I SENSE A THEME.

AND THEN HE JUST WALKS OFF. LEAVES HER THERE. AJHGJSKGJAGFSJHF

oh yeah they're pushing curt to start human trials when they cure isnt ready, oscorp is so incredibly corrupt and its done so well in both films

"people die. even norman osborn." AKJGHKJSAGH SOOOOOO TRUE. YES. I HATE NORMAN SO MUCH.

also sorry for just quoting this movie so much it has so many good lines that i could talk about for the rest of my life

oh yeahhhhh this guy wants to start human trials??? at the veterans hospital?????

ugh theyre talking about plot that we dont learn until like the second film so its not important yet but its such a cool thing later on

PETER AND GWENNNNN I LOVE THEM

she really cares about him and it makes me so happy

shes inviting him to dinner!!!! with her family!!!!! its a family hes never met eating a meal hes never heard of but still its with the girl he really likes so hes gonna just deal with it and show up anyway

ugh normans doing things /neg

hes doing human trials. on himself. lets see how this goes HGKJSDHGKJL

oh hi peter. dinner date time.

he brought gwens mother flowers???? KWHGKSJGHSKJHGK theyre a little messed up bc they were in his bag while he was swinging but still!!! he brought flowers for this girls mom hes so sweet

"you must be peter" "dad this is. peter." thank u gwen

oh yeah i failed to mention that the captain of the police department is gwens dad if u didnt catch that from his last name

curt has his arm back!!! the cure worked!!!! hoping and praying that nothing bad happens and he just gets to live a normal life and be happy from now on

he has to go catch the one guy that i forgot the name of (edit its dr ratha) from going to the veteran hospital but the cure is backfiring so hes like. goin thru it. lizard moment.

anyway peter cant cut fish corrcctly

hes never had a fancy meal like this!! hes a little dumb!!!

uh ohhhh theyre talking about spidermannnnn yikes

this is what it feels like to talk politics with relatives

"if i wanted the car thief off the street, he wouldve been off the street" "so why wasnt he then?" PETER. CHILL. UR TRYING TO DATE HIS DAUGHTER PLS BE NICE

"its called strategy, im sure ur aware of the term strategy? maybe u learned about that in school?" MR STACY U ARE ALSO NOT HELPINGGGG

"i think he stands for what u stand for, sir. protecting innocent people from bad guys." banger line right there skajfhksjd

peter still apologized and said that he didnt mean to insult mr stacy but still ksajdfhkjsd cmon peter be nice

BIG PLOT HOLE HERE. peter webs gwen and pulls her closer and she goes "youre spiderman?" before he kisses her. HE HASNT GOTTEN THAT NAME YET. NO ONES CALLING HIM SPIDERMAN YET. WHERE DID SHE GET THAT.

ugh it gets me every time like where did that come frommmm

peter pulling away completely and turning around when her mother catches them is so funny hes trying to be respectful

uh oh crime time

HE JUST JUMPS OFF THE ROOF. BYE.

so yeah curt connors is now a giant lizard monster thing trying to find dr ratha and?? kill him???? okay yeah kill him he just threw his car off the bridge

peter has this moment of either going after lizard or helping save this mans son and he goes to save the kid and i love peter so much

hes also very very good with kids. he convinces this little boy that his mask has special powers to help the kid get out of the car safe and its so sweet

like this kid is terrified and honestly so is peter but hes staying calm and convincing this kid that this mask will make him stronger so he can save him. THIS is the moment i was talking about. this is when peter becomes spiderman.

the moment he gave that kid back to his father alive and safe is when he became a superhero. thats also when he coins the name. but this exact moment is what made him into the actual hero rather than just having the name. he gets home and he stares at his mask bc now he knows he has an immense responsibility to save peoples lives and keep them safe.

i love this movie

oh yeah mr stacy issued an arrest warrant for spiderman after the bridge attack thats so silly of him.

more petergwen lets goooo

"does it scare you? what you can do?" "no." "...youve got to lay low." "no, cant do that." "youve got to. i mean, why?" "because of last night. those people on the bridge. whatever was attacking them wouldve killed them. so i gotta go after it." "thats not your job." "maybe it is." SUCHHHHH A GOOD CONVERSATION. UGH.

OKAY IM GONNA. LEAVE THIS ONE HERE. ive finally got motivation so im gonna keep it going in a reblog like right away but im gonna stop this post here before it gets too long skjhfksjd

[grumpycakes]

Things my mother does after I vent to her while probably having a panic attack and clearly not being my highest rational brain:

- tells me that edits to art aren’t me and I shouldn’t take them personally

- that sometimes issues are on the team communicating the desired work to me

- and that I should accept help and tips from my coworkers cause they might know processes better than I do!!!

Which is. On so many levels, insulting at MINIMUM. That

1. She thinks I don’t know this

2. She thinks I haven’t been fine with edits

3. She thinks I haven’t been accepting all tips and help since I’ve been mostly self taught and have already learned AT MINIMUM 5 new shortcuts I didn’t before

4. She thinks for SOME FUCKING REASON I NEED HER TO TELL ME ANY OF THIS WHEN MY BRAIN IS ALWAYS A L W A Y S LOOKING FOR EVERY LITTLE THING I DID WRONG AND HOW TO DO IT BETTER

5. THAT I CANT JUST BE EXHAUSTED AND FRUSTRATED BY EDITS TO SOMETHING THAT TOOK ME 3 HOURS TO MAKE. AND ANOTHER 3 H O U R S TO REMAKE ALL BEFORE WE’VE EVEN SHOWN THE FIRST DRAFT TO THE CUSTOMER TO SEE IF THE ORIGINAL WAS EVEN A GODDAMN PROBLEM. AND ON THE DISCOMFORT OF A SALES REP WHO WAS A DESIGNER AND JUST “wanted things square”. AND IMMEDIATELY TRIGGERED BY ANOTHER ARTIST RED LINING MY WORK IN ESSENCE CAUSE SHE WANTED TO SHOW ME A CONCEPT I FUCKING UNDERSTOOD BUT DIDNT WANT TO TAKE ANOTHER 3 H O U R S ON STARTING AR 4PM.

WHILE BEING SLEEP DEPRIVED

WHILE BEING TRAUMA TRIGGERED

WHILE HAVING EXCRUCIATING CRAMPS

6. THAT SHE IS TELLING ME, AFTER HAVING A SPIRAL NIGHT FOR FEELING LIKE A FAILURE THAT DOES EVERYTHING WORNG. That I HANDLED THE SITUATION W R O N G. Kinda like!!! I MIGHT HAVE LEARNED!!! TO NEVER TRUST MYSELF!!! FROM!!! SOME!!! OF!!! THESE!!!!!!!! PATTERNS!!!!!!!!

Anyway, trying to breathe. Finished the 3 hour RE EDIT already. Just, needed to scream in a place where I don’t feel like I’m gonna be judged or inconveniencing anyone.

[theuniverseawakens347]

okay so we leave one sectour together… Chloe and hailey

… ya go into the next… ur given options to do x y n z… ya DECIDED WHO TAKES WHAT PLATE N HOW MUCH YA WILLINGLY TO DO

Chloe: well I like sex so I’ll do that BIG FAN of Beyoncé she’s there more…

Halle: well I believe in starseeds spiritual over god so I’ll do this one…

ya go two two different rooms … to different times before ur final destination until you get uncomfortable and want to turn back.. so they put you in a room of what feels watered down from where you just came but it’s masked w the same sin .. devils red dress.. now you in that sector and realizing … this don’t feel right… ima go chat to the top dawgs,.. but my fan base my money my idols what will they think.. I WANA fit Ina me have a fan base… I don’t wan be a Kesha I don’t WANA be Amanda bynes or Brittney… I WANA keep my money w my control … well Chloe you never had control over it … bank n loans., checks n balances ..,

ur name alone is a business ur mom is ur house but she got bankrupt when ya came to America … NOT ALL WILLINGLY SOME STOLEN.. damn dash to JAYZ and JAYZ to 50 cent back.. ya hold heads educate those lost souls… but ya know which ones GOT TRUE INTENT TO MAKE AND DO BETTER AND NOT AVOID DEATH ROW.. or crimes oushed onto someone else .. like Lee garlington been harassing my family since she was 10 .. her mom step mom family friends to my elders.., they passed AND FUCKING HER FAMILY UP IN THE SPIRITUAL WORLD… OTHER DEMINSIONS..

I’m trying to give you grace n dignity here WITH ME… but ya won sneak diss and torture your soul and blame me…

as a creator “ we are made in the reflection of god” … whatever that Bible versus is.. some are starting to see the BIBLE GAVE A SKELETON FOR A SANDWHICH AND YA DRESSD IT HOW YA DEEMED FIT .. you got options of toppings to try you thru away the lettuce and veggies bc “ too healthy” so you choose heavy meats all the time and carbs…n juice…

UR PLAYING GOD IN UR OWN LIFE.. YES… FREE WILL TO BE BETTER N DO BETTER…, GODS WILL STEPS IN WHEN YA NEED A REDIRECTION.. QUESTIONING UR SOUL NEW DOOR APPEARS… YOU EITHER WALK THRU IT AND SEE WHATS ON THE OTHER SIDE… OR YA KEEP ON THE SAME MISERY ROAD …road map for visual learners… I’m leaving missing pieces of purposes … metaphors symbolizism.. analogies… same thing LIFE IS A REFLECTION OF MY BUTAINED BRAINED.. I MADE AN OVER VIEW OPTIONS TO SEE US THRU… how can we trust it …MY FAMILY FROM MY SOUL HAVE ALWAYS GOT ME until some unknown walks in and even then THEY STILL WORK BEHIND THE SCENSE…

ur lesson when you walked away from good and chose bad ( god to Satan fallen angels.. U GET PUNISHED)

TRUST THE UNIVERSE ITS GOT YOU.. UR INTENTION IS TO TRUELY BE BETTER UR TAKEN CARE OF … THERES ANOTHER SIDE OF THE TAPE FRANK OCEAN CAYENDA? A AND B… but you stopped that trac waiting for me… something if life or record label.. or maybe you made it but it ended being another project.. you did or didn’t like kehlani to music woke Interview ..

AND THOSE RUNNING FROM MURDER FREESTYLE RATSHIT MIC…. THATS ALL YOU DOING .. YOU RUNNING DROM UR VICTIMS AND SCARED CUZ IM SPEAKING WHAT YA GRANDMA USED TO TELL YOU … N. C EAZYIINK LLC JUSTIN OF LONDON BEING GREEDY FOR KONEY CAUSE YA LIVED IN WHAT YOU DEEMED FILTH LISTENING TO the WRONG SOUL.. YA KILLED MY FAMILY UR “friends” AND UR KIN.. U ORGANIZE CRIME FOR EVIL MALICIOUS INTENT… YOU CAME IN W WANTING BETTER HALLE BAILEY.. AND GOT TO THE POINT OF FUCK IT THIS IS COOL I CAN GET AWAY W WRONG.. ALSO SPIRITUAL LAW… MY TEAM CAN READ BETWEEN UR BARS TO SEE WHO YOU SET UP FOR MURDER AND HOW YOU DID IT … THATS A DIFFERENT SECTOR FOR MY HIGHER FAMILY FOR THOSE JUSTIN OF LONDON CONCERN THAT LYRICS CANT GET YOU TRIALED OR JAIL TIME… UMM. WHEN YA ROPE IN SPIRITUAL LAW YES IT CAN… ALSO ALEXIS MIGHT HASPVE HARASSED YAL AS HERSELF .. IM NOT DISCOUNTING THAT.. IM SHUFFLING MY BOARD ON WHAT TAKES PRECEDENT FOR ME IM AWAY FROM MY FACE TO FACE TWIN FLAME TRISTAN BARTON… SO I DONT WANT TO JUDGE IN FULL DEPTS SO IM KEEPING IT SURFACE AS MUCH AS I CAN UNLESS THE PASSED OVER NEEDS TO THROW IN SOME INFORMATION.. YA SEEN ME TALKING W LEXI.. ABOUT MARONDA IAN BABY MAM CA$h IMPOSING AS LEXI TO HARASS.. PARTLY HOW SHE LOST HER LIFE RATSHIT MIC YA HELPED THEM HARRASS OTHERS IN HER NAME OR GOT THE SAME THING TO YOU… ALL PARTS WILL BE LOOKED AT… BUT IM ON A ISLAND MILES AWAY FROM THE BASE… TF YOU WANT ME TO DO.. I ALREADY SAID I FEEL LIKE A BAD LEADER FOR THAT THATS ANPERSONAL OPINION… WHILE FAMILY TELECOMMUNICATES FOR THE WAY THIS IS SET UP IM NOT ACTUALLY DOING A BAD JOB… U PURPOSELY TRYING TO TAKE ADVANGE OF ME AND MAKE ME LOOM LIKE IM DOING PREMEDITATIED MURDER ON YA … MY SKY FAMILY SIT AT THE TOP OF UR CARTEL AND GANGS LMAO AND THEY DONT MOVE UNLESS I SAY TO MY SKY FAMILY SIT AT THE TOP OF THE WHITEHOUSE.. WATCH DOGS WAITING FOR ME TO WAKE,,, ITS ABOUT THE NEXT “rank” WHO WRONGED US TO STEP TO ME AND HELP… THOSE WHO “accidentally” walked devils road … UR LOOKING FOR A WAY OUT TO BE CLEANSED.. IM GIVING YOU THE BLUEPRINT.. U CHOSE TO NOT HEAR ME…

How you started hating God in the first place … Satan two.