#thats what im aiming for anyway lol
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"I see you in them, you know," she said quietly in the hush of night.
Link hummed, curious. A quirked brow and shift to pull her closer into the crook of his shoulder.
"In the bruised knees, picked-patchy eyebrows, and accented mixed-handed signing. The little patchwork kid with the expressionless vacancy that visits from time to time," he could feel her expression change as she spoke. He could feel the frown and furrowed brow.
"And in the absolute devotion to their hearts' calling. Reaching out for connection. Caring so deeply," she was smiling now, "and showing it in the most comfortable ways. The crashing into people, the little hidden trinkets, the braids and wrapping others in your things. It's all you. All of them are like you."
"I'm happy," she squeezed tight, "I am so happy. To see you all be happy, be loved."
#hyah-txt#who is she? which link? what timeline? who is she talking about?#he friends :)#vague link#thats what im aiming for anyway lol#not super specific au thing i see it like whoever or whichever is applicable#i was just habing some very stimmy link feels#not necessarily shippy but if u want itnto be go ham i guess#legend of zelda#multi links kinda au is the original intent byt its flexible
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WE GOTTEM BOYS
#hate my home lcs lowkey. or well thats kind of strong but they reorganized everything sometime recently and its soooo unintuitive#this was on the shelves but i couldnt find it -- which before i also couldnt find 1 and 2 so i had to go behind the counter#but the guy this time got confused and was trying to set up a pull etc but im living at school so it would only be over breaks blah blah#way too complicated a concept for them and my mom was like double parked outside xyz#thankfully the other guy stepped in and just got me one off the shelf which again. horribly organized im so sorry. before they had it split#up by brand and now they dont but the store is segmented weird and their alphabetical is so stupid like AWW is under W not A which i checked#but lowk W is kind of hidden and then they have a whole section of like variants thats kind of in the way??? just its NAWT the move guys#also i just feel like theyre generally kind of unhelpful and i hate how the store is laid out sm#its also RIGHT across from the grocery store and has big windows aimed right at the comics selection like guys plssss i do not need the mom#of someone i knew in middle school witnessing me here rn. be so fr#i just like the other one better bc it makes sense and is in this little basement under the target and theyre super friendly and love#talking. i go to look for smth and we make a whole lil conversation nerding out abt multiple things likee#i read saga bc of them lol#i bought me historica hardcover there and the next time i went i mentioned to them i liked ww and they were all like#“omg you need to read historia its sooo good” like girl I KNOW RIGHT!!! (to the 40yo man)#i mean the one dude there is a total tom king warrior which like oop but hes nice so its okay. let him push some woman of tomorrow i can#handle it lol. anyways like the college one way better but havent been since september bc the AWW drops keep mostly coinciding w my trips#home and all. someday#what was i saying. oh yeah my potatoes are ready bye
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man idgaf about what treville and richelieu have going on (mostly nothing) (they dont like each other but they work together a lot bc of their jobs.) (i guess treville holding onto a sense of honour whilst working with the cardinal is interesting but like that's not. thats not really those two having something interesting going on). lets talk about the king and the cardinal man.
#the way the king sometimes resents the cardinal's influence but is so easily manipulated to feel lost without it.#the fact that he'll openly acknowledge the cardinal wants him to rule unfairly and play favourites. with a fond look on his face#''i will disband their whole regiment if that's what it takes to make you happy. only please don't leave me alone'' with tears in his eyes#all of which was exactly what the cardinal was going for and he just gets away with it!#the queen finds out he was trying to have her Killed and she says yeah fuck you obvi but i wont tell the king tho bc he loves you ?#i'm not saying any of this is like romantic to be clear lol. it's just very interesting#i mean i dont think it can probably be categorised really. but im definitely not calling it that#it is super interesting though the way the cardinal needs to undermine the queen and place himself closer to the king to succeed in his aim#it would be somewhat appropriate for sure to say its kind of a parent-child relationship in some ways but that's definitely not all of it#in terms of the way the king relies on him and his guidance. but again thats not all of it and he's not a child. or not actually a child.#and i could say this about any of the relationships between men on the show but of course Because they're both men that means the#Possibility of it being anything but fully platonic is not something he can acknowledge and for that reason whether it is or Not there's#still going to be a level of repression and denial that just complicates things. even though/if theres not truly anything to deny#meanwhile honestly i think the cardinal is personally being normal about it even tho he's a freak about a lot of other things#i mean idk that was my impression. i am sorta-watching through s1 again so maybe i'll develop my ideas on that#anyway#me.txt#musketeers posting
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i prefer posting my thoughts on here i rlly get lost in some void n also i rlly .
#also all of u are just as weird or insane as mw on Some Level 💜#u dont survive on this hellsite qithout being a fuckijg OddBall .#anyway. met a guy wgi knew t1975 tn. he commented on my dhirt and asked my fav sonf#ACTUALLY he asked if my fav song was xhocolate#so i absolutely pulled out a deepcut (this must be my dream - IT is my top 5 so im not wrong#but being out knctje spot like that had me panixking#fav is avtually roadkill#but anyway his was cohoclatw but also guys whixb is Classic taste#he was so cool loved ralkibg tk him#sucked to not get his socials#also im not even . idc what it looks like w me leavinf not long after he does#to be fair i was starting to get bored bc i wasnt drinkijg + pool tables werent Free n it was gettibg Crowded#so i ended up leavinf like 10mins after he left . but i was overstimulatwd at that point#i knew my rwasoning for going up#i wasnt dissappointed . i canbadmit that to myawlf#embracing all the yuxkiness that i feel abt . this like the obessiveness and .#u I now what its doing some good for me in a weird way .#i am ashamed how deeo this well goes ill admit but . shame is a useless emotjon or wtv kurt said#god this show is fucmibg . its damaged my pysche but if ut hasnt . rlly made me take a look at some thibgs sometimes 🤺🤺#but antway . at a point where i can deal with this#and not be too bothered by his appearance or ppls opinions vc it Doesnt Matter. none of it rly fucking matters#its all fucking talk know oje knows SHIT Bt me ans even then i dont xare bc i know myself#well enough and i know . what i can do abd what im aiming for and all of this is just Muck i have to wash off#bc i know what haopenes and i know this inside out better than anyone (i literallt experienced it First Hand)#none of these bitches were even around when it was haopening too like thats whar has me kixking my feet some way#like . i Know these people. i Met them Several times over the last 3yrs. but to them??? i wasnt as Prominent#ubtil like . the last 8 months . maybe 9 .#and same goes w that fucker. not a lot of these ppl Met him until After we split last year lol#minus like . 2 i think? maybe 3 ?#anyway . wild.
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Congrats on sending that application!
THANK UUUUUU
#it was to a dominos and my partner is a gm in training at a different branch and i have over a year delivery driving experience#already and know Exactly How Low Their Standards Are so im not worried about getting it‚ mostly just that my brain will still be too mushy#to handle a job again#but i mean since it is just dominos and im only aiming for part time it hopefully shouldn't be too bad#and i do not care if they don't like me bc my resumes already pretty good as is i don't need a glowing review from dominos#esp bc i could just put my bf down as a dominos reference and theyd probably just Assume i worked for him and call him#instead of the store i actually worked at KWNDLABFKSBFJD#which is v good bc having seen a lot of what goes on behind the scenes on the manager side via my bf. i already know i am#going to cause problems LMAO#i have the Transgender Working In Very Liberal Area Right Next To Very Conservative Area Protection Aura#wherein the bosses here are So Very Scared of getting in trouble for bigotry and want to look sososososo woke. that i can get away#with being way more blunt abt when shit sucks lol#bosses don't really know what to do when The One Openly Transgender One directly calls out unfair expectations to their face#and to be clear i do mean liberal as in Liberal we're still very much in the North Idaho Splash Zone so like#open bigotry doesnt happen and the public will be on your side if it does. but boy do they know actually nothing about it#you know the type i mean kwbfksbfkd#like the best example i can think of is a couple ppl at my last job still she/her'd me long after i started passing as male#and me Being A Transgender™ had made the news rounds#and my other coworkers wouldnt correct them and would just he/him and they/them me back#which im fine w bc thats how my pronouns work is just. idk whatever you think‚ if you wanna she me you can just look dumb LMAO#but crucially 99% of my coworkers Didnt know thats how that worked‚ they just knew im A Transgender and look like a man#and that everyone else didn't use she/her for me anymore‚ so like an actually left place would rightly assume#they were doing it deliberately to be shitty and correct them‚ whereas here theyre just like. ah im sure they just havent noticed#since you went by she/her when you started here#and its like no i dont think the beard i grew halfway through working there went unnoticed actually#given that Thats When The Universal He Himming Started#im rambling again sorry for this word avalanche irt a simple congrats i got distracted JEBFKABFKSBFKDBFMD#anyways. tyvm it was stressful and i still dont want to do it but its out of my hands now so i have to follow through and at least give it#a try and i appreciate the encouragement‚ it rlly did make me feel a lot better just seeing the ask#gibberasks
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#i was hungry today so i think my appetite is coming back despite the pills#and im not sure if thats a good thing#i still cant focus so i mean. lol. lmao even#at least i cant make myself start tasks and my executive dysfunction is as bad as ever#now i have the issue of if i keep getting hungry like before im gonna gain weight again and i dont wanna#look theres nothing wrong with being fat or chubby and god knows im not aiming to be a stick figure but oh my god i dont want to gain weigh#i should work out and get fit like a normal human and that means i should eat right. but i still have that nagging feeling#i love myself. i do. i have the dissociation thing where i cant recognize myself in the mirror tho. and its not good this time.#usually i dont really mind since its like. you know like its not me anyway so what does it matter if that girl is fat or not#but im really self conscious and feel gross and i dont know why it all started back up again#i want to measure it. want to weigh myself. want to count calories and check with measuring tape#but i really shouldnt and i know that if i do i will trigger such a bad episode i might end up in the fucking hospital#i need to hold out until this episode goes away. i need to stand it all until i get my head back together.#i dont wanna get malnutrition or lose weight so fast my skin gets flappy#but every little thing i eat ends up nagging at the back of my head about how if i eat more ill get fat and noone will like me then#its not true. i know its not true. and i know fat people are gorgeous and i am already chubby so what does it matter#but i feel horrible. i dont want to look like this or feel like this or be like this#i want to be the best i can be. i want to reach my full potential. but its not exactly working. i swear to god i wanna love myself#i want to be loved. i want to be adored. i want to be the one someone picks even if the room is full of gorgeous and competent women#i want to be the first choice and for the person to see me as the most beautiful person in the world#to be the first choice and to be everything someone wants and needs. to be the ideal. to be the perfect one even with my flaws#i want someone to look at all the ugly sides of me and look at my fat and my emotional fuckery and my ugly crying and still love me#i want someone to love me so wholeheartedly i wont ever feel like theyd like someone else. that theyd pick someone else. that im not no.1#i want to be that person you do a double take of. to be the one that people get jealous of. to be the spotlight. to be the prettiest one.#its egoistical and selfish and childish and mean and dumb and naive and self absorbed i know. i know that it is#but its still there and its embarrassing . but im not gonna pretend like i dont have these thoughts and feelings.#im not smart or pretty enough to stand out. i dont know what could make me special. i dont know what i do that makes me unique.#what am i? who am i? how do i get better? i want to be better. i want to be better i want to be better i want to be better#i want to reach a new level i want to reach their level i want to be at the top i want to be special i want to be better i want to be proud#i want to be genuinely proud and special and outstanding enough to not feel insecure or inferior anymore
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sometimes i think back to my last roommate situation and i just……. like rich ppl are so wild its on another level. like everything about pretending to be poor and needing to control the ppl around them is so true it makes me really sad. idk man i wanted to believe it would work out and that they were ~ different ~ but the longer im living on my own the more i reflect upon how genuinely dystopian it all is,,, the people with the most opportunity and influence really squander it bc they dont view anyone as of consequence as their are, theyre so held back by their individualism its maddening
#anyways ive been playing a lot of fortnite on tha weekends#the new season is so fun and im excited for the lego release#me rafa and cameron have been playing sm#weve also been going bowling a LOT too#and! ive finally saved up for an apple pencil#today were getting breakfast at in n out LOL#like i cant emphasize the joy that floods into your life when you stop holding onto controlling or understanding what other people are doin#theres a bew godzilla movie and it looks really good :3c and im getting rafas ears pierced for an early chrismas present#yes i got paid this week can you tell LOL#while im here chatting#work is so hard ugh but the paycheck is literally exactly worth it in my mind ughhhgghghhh#thats the worst#its easy to leave when the pay and hours are shit but its SO consistent rn#my bills are always paid on time and i have left overs for little treats#nothings gonna break my striiiide last year this is exactly what i was aiming for its crazy#okok byeee#my face
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since i have seen this argument pop up again and again and now its used to defend the minecraft movie
i really hate the argument that something, be it a movie or a game, can be as shitty as it wants when its primarily aimed at kids (or people THINK it is aimed mostly at kids) bc its 'just for kids'
like children are lesser an stupid? like they arent incredibly impressionable and deserve good movies? im not saying they should only watch critical acclaimed drama movies, but you can make a movie 'for kids' AND make it good, its been done before, sure there will always be shit movies, and thats fine, but dismissing any kind of criticism towards them bc "its just for kids" feels so unecessarily mean spirited towards children, like they are little people in wildly different stages of development!! they can think too!!
'kids' itself is such a wide range that i feel its not very useful as a category anyway, a 5 year old isnt the same as an 11 year old, both of them should get good things, and both can watch or play things they may not completely understand yet! i grew up with shrek, and while a big parody and haha fart humor movie, they (1+2) have an incredibly strong core, i didnt udnerstand them fully when i was little, so what? i still enjoyed them, i felt more connected to them than any disney movie (bc hey .. the monster is the main guy and no they dont all turn into conventionally pretty humans as the ultimate reward- i felt othered throughout my life too) and i still do, theres jokes and themes and meaning i understood fully only when i was rewatching them as an adult, i still enjoy them even at 27
and like, shouldnt it ESPECIALLY matter what children watch? (not in the puritan brain worm way) bc they are ... people in development?? do you think if they just sit down and watch shitty movies and play games that dont challenge them at all, be it thinking critically or emotionally, all day it wont have an affect on them??
(im sorry to bring up totk again, but that 'its for kids' argument has been used to defend it so much too, and its so incredibly annoying to me, ah yes, its puzzles are all skippable or easy as shit bc its main target are kids and children are stupid and shouldnt be challenged ever, the story is a simple fairytale type deal maybe to you, but contains alot of harmful stereotypes that have led to real world harm and its repeated unquestionably while offering nothing intersting to think or engage with, theres a reason alot of childrens media contains alot of stereotypes to propaganda even but its just for kids of course its not propaganda bc kids are stupid and cant understand that lol BECAUSE they are so impressionable, if a series 'for kids' only lets the girls be in frilly pink dresses and do 'girly' stuff do you not think that wil affect how they think about themselves??
if they keep seeing the light skinned blonde heroe stab the unquestioned evil arab stereotype bc he wants to take over your holy land bc hes just 'evil' and is never ever humanized in any way and only presented as a monster, while the good little maiden princess does everything she can to support her hero in shiny armor with big sad doe eyes and pretty little white dress- do you not think it will affect them? if it were an isolated incidence perhaps not much, but its a stereotype perpetuated to such a degree that you think its just 'how fairytales go'? yeah, you have been influenced by these portrayals, they are working as intented- and if they are used as such in media without the writer intending to influence you that way? thats even worse bc it means it has been so normalized to think that way people dont even realize it- while alot of real people in the world are ganondorf, they are demonized and dehumanized, others think of them as inherently evil.. but its just a "simple fairytale"
yes i know children can also question things on their own, but you shouldnt assume that comes naturally and then also in just the correct way, i questioned why i was just doing whatever the talking boat told me to do when i first played windwaker as a kid, but more bc i liked how ganondorf looked and hated being told things to do without a good reason being given (autism much?), 'evil' didnt do it for me, but that doesnt mean i knew he was an evil arab stereotype, i didnt like tetra turning white as zelda, bc i thought she looked cooler before and i didnt like 'girly' things myself, not bc i knew it was whitewashing
-not saying media should be free of anything 'problematic', the problem is how its presented and never questioned or engaged with critically and then that stupid argument being used to dismiss it like children are both unable to think and not influencable somehow-)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#minecraft movie#i know i went on a sorta rant there again#i just saw epic tm dunk posts about people criticising the minecraft movie#and you know i have opinions#man i can never shut up#.. anyway im gonna go and repot my plants
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thank you so much for the transmisogyny reading post! im definitely gonna be reading into those. in a similar vein, do you have a recommended reading list for decolonization/anti-imperialism?
Do you mean molsno's post? def cannot take credit for that but yes I have a couple!
high-level recommendation is discourse on colonialism by aime cesaire (this link goes to a pdf that is a collection of essays, you can skip to cesaire's essay). probably one of the most formative essays for me personally in terms of how i think about colonialism
decolonization is not a metaphor by Tuck & Yang is a famous article in decolonial scholarship and will likely come up pretty frequently if you're reading academic work. if you read that article, i recommend following it up with Slavery is a Metaphor by Garba & Sorentino - its a Black critical commentary by two marxist scholars i believe on Tuck & Yang's work, working through the anti-Black thinking that is present in the work, particularly the deeply problematic conceptual attention given by Tuck & Yang to slavery when historicising and analyzing settler colonialism in North America. These are both academic articles and they're both jargon-laden so your mileage will vary
I originally included decolonizing transgender 101 by b binaohan on here before realizing that it's already in the linked post above lol. in that post is a link to the full book that i'll repost here (usually you can only find the introduction online) so definitely make use of that. anyway great work, very accessible and insightful, makes direct linkages between white supremacy, settler colonialism, and transmisogyny in a way i found extremely helpful
i read beyond white privilege: geographies of white supremacy and settler colonialism during my master's about four years ago (jesus christ the passage of time!!!) and found it very insightful - the authors talk about white supremacy as a process rather than a historical event, as well as talk about some of the conceptual limitations of the popular focus on white privilege (as opposed to white supremacy) that i found very helpful for me personally. its another academic article
I've been recently introduced to Anibal Quijano's work, particularly the Coloniality of Power. this is an extremely theoretical work that focuses on the construction and universalization of race, the 'invention of Europe,' modernity as a colonial construction, and a bunch of other pretty dense topics. thats not to scare you off, but its probably the most theory heavy article i've linked here
this list skews towards academic work because that's what im most familiar with (all the links i provided are open-access links so you should not need institutional access to read them). For books, you can read Wretched of the Earth by Frantz Fanon or Orientalism by Edward Said, they're both pretty foundational decolonial texts and are also pretty formative for me. Fanon's work is on decolonial struggle and the pathologization of colonized people, Said's work is on the construction of "the East" to justify and reproduce Western hegemony.
Hope this was helpful! I'm by no means an expert and this is only scratching the surface of scholarship on the subject. I'm still in the process of reading, but hopefully this is a good starting point for you!
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Reading SVSSS: Chapter 4
For those who don't know, I am reading SVSSS for the first time and sharing my thoughts!
If you have not read it, there will be spoilers! Consider this a warning.
Also- if you want to follow along, I am aiming to post updates daily. You can find all the posts in the tag bloopitynoot reads SVSSS. You can also check out the intro post for context on my read.
aaaaaaand i'm back for another chapter! Again at my desk with my reading buddy (Charlie) tea for this chapter is a soy matcha latte.
So, I thought the conference was a few days from when Shen Qingqiu/Shen Yuan was in the cave, but im assuming it's annual? Since he was in the caves for a year? p191
Ah JK. the top of the next page - the conference is every 4 years 192
I'm actually so stoked for this demon blood reveal. I want to know how its spun in this "version" of the story p 193
I love how confused shen yuan is, he's still over here thinking he's the villain when he has so clearly been upgraded to Love Interest/Damsel in Distress. IDK what to tell you pp193-194
Okay so now luo binghe is 17. Question though- do we ever actually get an age for Shen Qingqiu? p195
This kid is still here simping. Actually at this point I dont even know who is the simp. Luo Binghe is openly heart eyes and Qin Qingqiu isn't even aware of his own feelings but the way he describes future luo binghe is too much LOL. It is a trainwreck to read. p195
Binghe: *all flirt* Shen Qingqiu: shit. fuck. ah. I need to not fuck this plot point p196
LOL at Shen Qingqiu taking the carriage "I'm frail and indisposed" x3 twink energy p200
not the snacks too LOL p200
oh no! Luo Binghe thinking that Shen Qingqiu has any feelings at all for Liu Mingyan p201
But also then trying to make Shen Qingqiu jealous. Oh boy.
Let's take a second to appreciate how clear and concise the point system is for the conference. like this was well thought out- I love it. It's also giving a bit of hunger games spectator energy p205
This guy (Shen Yuan) already knows the outcome, and yet he's going to gamble (AND GAMBLE BIG) anyways p 208
I cannot with this group following Luo Binghe "my feet hurt :(" p215
why the foot fetish material 💀 217
RIP to the OG timeline's harem- the have been felled to the Demon Realm's Nu Yuan Chen p218
omg this is a massacre p220
awww at liu qingge not letting Shen Qingqiu join the fray. I feel like these two probably have a shit ton of fics pairing them p223
THE HEAD SPIDER WHAT pp226-227
Shen Qingqiu's entrance though!!!!!!!! p227
Shen Qingqiu is even getting the flower poison plot (points for my love interest/damsel in distress plotline) "Stop. Do not pass go. The girl you're supposed to pick the flower for, Qin Wanyue, is right next to us, watching- and you want to deflower it in her presence, and for a big, strong man to boot? Leave your wife some dignity, all right?!" p231
oooo now we get details on who the spy is. Enter Shang Qinghua p233
Shang Qinghhua deserves an Oscar for this performance 236
And more damsel shen qingqiu 242
the miscommunications! oh gosh why is this scene so painful. They're talking about two different things. pp247-248
Oh no. Shen Qingqiu/Shen Yuan is not okay :( p257
oh no oh no oh no -> heartbreak points?!?!?!? this is so sad p259
OMG WAIT WHAT AN END TO THIS CHAPTER. THE AUTHOR IS HERE TOO???????????? WHAT THE HECK!!!
RE: Who the spy is- A SPY WITHIN A SPY?
Thats all for today!
The twist really twisted me at the end there. AH. I can't wait to read more. Will they work together? will they be mortal enemies??? Will this be the author attempting to usurp Shen Yuan????? I DONT KNOW????
#bloopitynoot reads svsss#svsss spoilers#mxtx svsss#svsss#I am shaken#what a turn of events#I truly wish I had the time to read more today#but I also want to make this a mindful process#DANG THO
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ok so heres what inspired my new 2025 Go Apeshit motto, its fully just me being petty
yesterday at work i saw a sign that someone posted in all the bathrooms on my floor that basically said "@ all boys: stop pissing all over the floor of the stalls" and it made me laugh bc being the janitor that literally mops the piss off the floors everyday, i agreed w the message even tho i had to take them down. so anyway i posted a pic of this sign to my ig story and a friend of a friend who i am not even THAT close with, certainly not close enough for them to feel comfortable doing this-- sent me a way too long message that was basically like "yeah well my partner who has a penis told me that its actually really hard to aim and control the stream flow" and i. lost my fucking mind LOL?!? like literally friend of a friend thats too woke explaining dick anatomy to me and also by extension is belitting me for wanting to complain about a part of my job that just happens way too often?! lol, lmao even! and honestly i had no plans to even reply because just. what the actual fuck. they sent their message at 7:30 fucking AM and i didnt see it until noon because i have push notifs turned off... and this is why!! can you even imagine if i had woken up to that notif on my phone. id kill myself in front of them lmfao. anyway so yeah i DID reply and i was like "yeah so a bathroom you share with your partner is completely different than the unisex stalls of the high school that i work at as a janitor where i do literally mop up piss from the floor every day." and they replied a few hours ago to simply say "wait youre right! that is gross" LIKE........ DUDE. ITS ALMOST LIKE YOU SHOULD HAVE DELETED YOUR ENTIRE MESSAGE IN THE FIRST PLACE!!? so i pushed back AGAIN. and the last msg i sent was "okay so you prob didnt know im a janitor which is fine but im just genuinely perplexed why you felt the need to defend the ppl this sign was about when you knew nothing about the situation. i only posted it bc it made me laugh." like actually i am just gonna start scolding people for not even fucking thinking for a SECOND before or after they type out a long ass stupid ass message just to be like, performatively woke in my dms. lmfao. i truly cannot handle this interaction.
#personal#the friend we have in common btw is QUINN my best friend in the whole world so honestly i need to tell him about this asap lmfao#mostly bc i genuinely dont know if he would be on my side in this situation since he ALSO has a habit of being performatively woke#its just that i tolerate him more bc i like him more than this person who fucking dm'd me lmfaofjdkdhkshdjdhdjdhsjhs
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i think skz know how they can use their star charm to woo people anyone they want but heres my personal thoughts on each membernot that it matters at all i just dont get if there is a real ship why their hard core fans force them to kinda become gay without considering the idol themselves? not saying they cant be gay at all but there is a difference between what the fans delusions want and what the members personally want
but heres my thoughts anyway
felix, bisexual. i think felix tends to lean towards a more genderless type image and i think he would not care who he loved as long as they are a decent person towards him he can sway anyone into loving him be it man or woman so i will say bisexual for him he just has that aura about him that make anyone love felix even if they arent a fan of the group as a whole
lee know again bisexual i think bro just doesnt gaf either way he will date whom he loves and if its han then great but i dont think he would willingly choose him right off the bat despite what some of their fans think but he does seem to lean more towards being comfortable around men than women? i could be wrong ofc but im saying both mainly due to his very dont give a fuck attitude, if he likes someone i think it wouod take him by surprise tbh bro doesnt seem as romantic as the other members
seungmin straighter than a ruler. need i say more?
changbin also straight. bro is a walking bank account too so i would not be surprised if he is very generous maybe too generous with his love for women and helping others out
bangchan no doubt about him dude is straight, he acts so awkward especially around some twice members i think he may have a crush on them very very easily / anyone whos foreign enough for chans liking will get chans approval immediately
IN i'd say hes straight maybe bisexual? but same with lee know i dont get romantic vibes from him right away i just dont think he would care to date right this minute but he definitely loves the attention he gets from female fans very much
han? either very gay or bisexual tbh, hes another oddball of the group tbh i dont really know much about him and i think hes very self fulfilling so not really romantic material at the moment thats why i said hes either very gay or bisexual at the very least or just not interested in dating, he plays into the parasocial relationship way too much from what i have seen of him so could be either. if i had to compare he is the harry or louis of the group someone whos just weird asf lol
hyunjin straight but also could be bisexual again i think hes a bit of a toxic mess especially in the readings ive read about him he seems all over the place hot and cold so could be straight or bi but i wouldnt pin him as good dating material
oh wow thank you for sharing your thoughts I appreciate it and yeah I could see what you're saying so let's discuss it a little
for felix, I agree that he's giving bi or even pan but I think what he wants to present himself might be different from what he wants romantically or sexually. he's definitely aiming for that unisex, androgynous look but for his interests I can see women but I'm not sure about men. one thing for sure is if he's not a part of community he's fully an ally
for leeknow, we know he does have female friends and he seems comfortable when he was working with minju sullyoon and nolto's casts. I think main reasons are the industry itself and all the crazy fans, he's a pro idol (his word lol) he wouldn't share with us much about female friends oh and also isn't it better to be close with women than only men? a group that consists only of men isn't really a nice thing to be around lol
seungmin? no notes 🤣 I think he's also a walking bank account like changbin and maybe chan as well
for jeongin, hard agree with the female fans part, he's evidently enjoying it
I think han was super straight back when they just debuted like the first few years. rn? not so much but still gives off straight vibe with a hint of something else. maybe he's gone through some self-discovery, he does seem like he's more comfortable in his own skin
I agree with you on hyunjin but I don't think I'd use the word toxic, he's just hopeless romantic which yeah, not really a good dating material
again all of this are only my opinions nothing absolute I could totally be wrong and if that's the case I'll change my opinions lol
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wow people need to chill lmao. I feel like people complaining about drama on tennisblr are the ones perpetuating the drama. like, the only reason there’s drama at all is people bringing stuff over from twitter and reddit imo, there’s been so many screenshots from there. I personally think you have a fun idea!
eh i definitely see where people r coming from, its not a totally unusual story for confessional blogs to spiral into discourse over time, but i will say usually thats for much larger fandoms. i will also once again say that some of the knee-jerk reactions r probably due to me pitching it as a confessional blog style operation, when im aiming for something a lot more lighthearted and just like.. banter u know? I’m a serial lurker so i like the idea of opening the floor up for anons, and i do think most of them will play nice!! is it probably not at serious as some of the previous anons have made it sound? maybe, but I do appreciate the concern for me and the community. I too want to keep this place mostly nice to be in!!!!!!!
I will note that I don’t necessarily think it’s useful to blame the drama on tumblr on stuff migrating from other sites. Sure, there’s an amount of culture shock when people first join tumblr and so might not know the customs (like appropriate tagging), but things like screenshots of other socmed is just a natural part of all socmed at this point. The threads might have begun somewhere else but once they’re posted here they’re part of tumblr baybee. I don’t think it’s really necessary to single out tumblr as this supposed safe haven from the horrors of twitter or reddit fandom bc like it’s not lol there’s plenty of discourse here it’s just easier to avoid it!!! filter the shit out of ur dashes besties!!!! Curate ur experience!!!! Learn that searching shows u all posts that contain that phrase in the body of the post OR the tags, u have to go to the tags tab specifically if u only want to see post tagged with what u searched!!! This is is a total tangent but I have seen so many people complaining about anti posts showing up in main tags but bestie that’s why u gotta filter it!!!
anyways, thank u for the support!!!! I have gotten a bit attached to this idea now djdjjd I might work on a rules post tomorrow !!!!!
#sorry for totally losing the thread here bestie half of this is nawt related to what u said 🙈🙈🙈#anon#mouse man national confessional booth#ask
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fwiw that rude commenter is a transphobe, a post a few down on their blog is real blatant (and in that vein I think their comment was less a judgement of your anatomy and more saying Charlie is 'too' muscular/angular)
It's rude and out of pocket REGARDLESS but I also think you're a little hard on yourself! You even said, you hadn't illustrated exactly what you were after with her, and you hadn't intended for a collection of doodles you happened to still like to blow up. You're entirely right that we should all be drawing more than conventionally attractive people, but idk. It's a process and you're a great artist who's working toward it! Don't feel like you have to answer this btw I mostly wanted to let you know that commenter was a double idiot and started rambling. Hope you have a lovely day!!
oh absolutely! i have a feeling you're right abt what they meant considering i saw the transphobic comment they made a couple posts down on their blog lmao but i wanted to add that part anyway. and i appreciate your words a ton, but dw im not hurt or upset! i get a lot of weird comments all the time, i just wanted to use that one as a platform to bounce off of a thought ive been having lately. i wouldn't post a negative remark like that unless i wanted to use it for something. the actual comment was mostly irrelevant to the point i wanted to make, which is also not meant to be super serious, just a thought soup to stir around
and i mean my interpretation of my art as purely objective, i think its important to think critically about yourself and in general. from an objective standpoint, i dont believe the way shes drawn is too out of the norm and is fairly tame (disregarding her ox/bull parts lol), thats basically what i was aiming for with that section. i constantly get stuck in a rut without improving by much because im usually just drawing to doodle after a school day and not rlly with any purpose. i tend to keep drawing the same things out of habit and it gets stale really quickly. so i know my faults and im rlly looking forward to getting better!
also rq, what you said about how we need to draw more than conventionally attractive people- while i do agree with that, in my post i was more saying its important for people to be more open-minded about how they view gender expression and attractiveness in general, myself included! i dont think how i drew charlie was very revolutionary, but ive seen so many tags speaking otherwise. which is either reflective of how small the bubble is for whats acceptable or maybe i have a skewed perception of things? for example if having a bush or something is gender envy we need to look at ourselves. bush is so normal to me. (which i dont if thats what even drew ppl to it BUT. just as an example). would those same people say the same if i drew a very fat woman with a beard, unibrow, etc.? i have no idea. but i have had my eyes opened so many times before its incredible. little things ive never thought about before through new perspective. so thats why i want to encourage it too. i hope that makes sense. thank you so much i hope you have an equally lovely day!! 🫶🫶
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Venting and rambling about ai art discourse
Feel free to ignore this + this isnt an invitation to argue back and forth with me about ai
My tag system on main for years now has been
#art = abstract art
#representational art = all non-abstract art
( + #dreamscape = art that can't be neatly categorized as abstract or representational + art that reminds me of dreaming )
Bc at the time I created this tag system i was very fed up with abstract art and modern art being dismissed as Not Real Art by some assholes and i wanted to put abstract art first in my space and have representational art be the one that needs a descriptor to differentiate it from "normal"/"real" art
Currently holding myself back from doing something similar to be petty about the never ending ai art backlash/discourse
Haven't been posting my abstract art or ai art online much lately but i still make a lot of both (+ getting back into writing and prob won't be posting much of that either). Sharing art online, other than with close friends, seems like hell to me rn.
Maybe someday i'll start posting my art again it just sucks that anytime i go on any social media from discord to youtube theres an 80% chance i see people shitting on the artistic mediums that i'm most passionate about
And its not like the ai hate train has slowed down the rancid attitudes around abstract art lol, not that I'd stop making AI art if abstract art was more respected
Abstract art is the easiest and most rewarding way for me to express myself creatively and it gels so well with my perfectionism issues bc perfection is Not the point (except when it is, but then its an artistic choice not a constant obligation for every piece). A piece about grief doesnt need to have perfect straight lines or symmetry, the art can be messy if it suits the tone I'm going for.
And AI image and music generation is very exciting to me! I've always been curious about what it would be like getting to see the creation of a new way of making art and its been very cool being able to somewhat follow AI innovations since 2018 and then get to experiment with it myself once more ai tools became accessible!!
Whether im the ai art im making is abstract or representational, i love not having full control over the result! I love bouncing ideas back and forth with the AI. I love having to combine my visual art skills and my language/description skills.
I use midjourney et al. the same way I'd make my OCs in dressup games while brainstorming ideas. Mindless doodling that can often lead to writers block breakthroughs.
I also use midjourney et al. to make quick vent art when I'm feeling strong emotions just like I'd do in my sketchbook or in my digital art apps.
And sometimes i'm using ai to spend hours trying to make something very specific i want to create.
Idk its all just tools to me. Midjourney. Paint Tool Sai. Pen and paper. I get the same joy/relief out of making art with all of the above
Im not aiming for fame or money, i make 0-200$ a year from art, usually 0. I just want to have a little corner of the internet to share my images and reach a handful of ppl who appreciate them and want to discuss abstract & ai art with me thats it. Im not coming for your art job, i dont allign myself with corporations aiming to further disadvantage workers in artistic industries or artists who freelance
Anyway reason #2 i slowed down on posting art is grief has been kicking my ass these past 4 years. Lots of deaths in the family + death of a friend. some relationships were fractured and im grieving those as well.
Reason #3 is started full time library job in november 🎉 its wonderful and its exhausting and im still finding my rythm after years of being chronically un(der)employed and/or in college, but hopefully once life settles down more ill have more and more time to spend on art and writing
Havent vent posted in ages and it feels weird doing it on one of my art blogs so im going to end this with two of my recent(ish) pieces on grief, first made in onelab (not ai, android art app i make 80% of my digital art in) and second in midjourney
Thanks if u read all/most/some of that :)
Think i just needed to be like "man this sucks" so i can move on to "anyway! Art time >:)"
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It's an rp inspired by pawnstuck, basically it's called "The Gambit" and occurs whenever a session goes stagnant by falling completely flat, i.e all players supposed to enter are unable to enter in any timeline, in this case due to the lord of doom messing around with prophecies and rule setting
Sburb, in it's aim to produce an additional universe Merges the lands of Prospit and Derse together into Carapacia. The carapacians which usually act as the warriors act instead as potential players for their sburb, sboard in this case,(the pawnstuck inspiration is clear here) in this, the two carapacian sides are relatively friendly, but at the same time, are still two monarchies sharing control over one planet.
At which point sburb activities continue, but with pawns, and sometimes carapacian royalty joining the session to produce a new universe, the session's moons being inspired by the chess variant: Quadular. With their own species: The Scalar(basically draconic chess pieces)
This is the basics of it
Ngl i havent read Pawnstuck so i am a little lost on the references but i think the premises sounds great, yesterday i had a really bad headache so i couldnt answer inmediately but now reading it in the morning i like the structure of the session
I find it cool how you used a chess variant for the moons as Prospit and Derse arent the moons now (for what i understood) so you searched for a way to filled it up and one that sounds pretty cool if i say so.
Also i like how this is like a game mechanic in case of no player able to enter, i wished i had that hindsight while writting my stories and not just going ''fuck it we ball'' lol
Anyway idk if your searching for opinions or if youre trying to create a fanadventure/comic or just wanted to talk about a cool idea you had (i do all three dont worry) but i will tell you that if your trying to create is as an adventure, write all down, all the ideas and have documents for this
Dont be like me and go ''i will have it in my head'' because god is it messy lmao im just starting to actually try to have a schedule around this and it helps a lot .3. anyway good luck with whatever your planning or if your not planning anything thats good tho, because god is it hard, its hard and no one understands/jk
Edit: I just read the RP i may be stupid (Anyway write all down anyway)
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