#thats what got me off of tik tok lol

[shegatsby]

I'm sorry but I have another idea for a story😅 please take your time to write it again and if you do it can I maybe be "♡🌸"-anon? I hope you had a really good time the last few days and weeks and that you're healthy! Same for anyone else reading this! Now onto the idea..

Hannibal and reader are already married and reader is a tattoo artist, one day when Hannibal comes home from work he sees reader sitting on the couch and sketching a tattoo, the tattoo is deer antlers(wink wink lol-) with vines around them, when he asks who the tattoo is for reader says that its for him and then they go on and on about why its fitting for Hannibal and he's just listening to her rambling before he stops them and asks if they could do a heart tattoo with the words Mischa, Readers name and the name of their child. (I know Mischa is from Hannibal Rising but I like to think that the movies are all connected to the show so.. yeah that would be amazing <3) Reader would say that they already thought of doing a design like that and they accidently slide the wrong way on the iPad and Hannibal sees a picture that says "Congratulions for a second child!" and idk, the rest is up to you!^^

Sorry that its so long again but its just super cite and yeah.. anyway, a good rest of the day to all of you! I hope all of you are healthy and stay/are safe! And I feel with everyone thats also a bit pissed at the situation with Tik Tok and UMG🥲

-♡🌸

A/N; Girll I haven't been writing Hannibal fics for a long time but here we go. Thank you for the request. xxx

You were preoccupied and didn't even heard the door. Soft yet determined steps approached you from the back and strong arms wrapped around you, you looked up to meet your husband's welcoming gaze, he he seemed tired because his work was consuming his hours more than usual. His hands were cold due to the fact that it was a harsh winter day in Baltimore, ''Hey.'' you said smiling, ''Hello dear.'' his voice softened. ''How long have you been sitting here and designing new drawings my love?''

You were self conscious about your designs before you could respond he added, ''Who is this for?''

His interest was piqued ''Do you like it?'' you asked testing the waters. Hannibal observed the design on the tablet, it was deer antlers with veins around them, ''Yes, I actually like it but you didn't answer my question dear.'' he replied with a questioning look in his maroon eyes, ''Its for you and I'm glad you liked it.''

He seemed confused, ''For me? Why do you think this dsign is suitable for me?'' he genuinely asked. You cleared your throat before speaking, ''In many cultures, the deer is a symbol of spiritual authority. During a deer's life the antlers fall off and grow again and the aniaml is also a symbol of regretion. In Christian imagination, the deer is a symbol of piety, devotion and of God taking care of his children: men.'' you explained, emphasising on the word ''children'' your eyes glowing with passion.

''And you my love,'' you held his hand, ''you are everything and more to us.'' you meant yourself and your daughter Mischa. As if the toddler had sensed that you were talking about her she started crying from her room. ''I'll get her.'' Hannibal said and kissed your temple gently. In moments he came back with Mischa in his arms, he was swaying her gently, ''Cna you also make something,'' he began and caught your attention, you admired the love he held in his eyes for you and your daughter and your hand went to your stomach without realizing, ''Mischa's name in a heart, maybe?'' he suggested, ''I already have.'' he was surprised that you already had thought about it, ''Can I see?''

You showed him the design you had made few weeks ago, ''And I also have other designs maybe you'll like them more.'' you said and moved to the gallery to show more and he made you pause, he held your hand, ''What is it?''

You got a picture of pregnancy test on your latest photos, 'you looked up to meet his gaze, hi clicked on the picture and saw that it was positive, ''Honey are you-'' he began but couldn't finish, ''Yes, yes I'm pregnant!'' you bolted to your feet and hugged your husband and daughter, Hannibal was holding Mischa with one hand and the other hand moved to your neck and kissed you passionately, you let him dominate the kiss. When you parted you were out of breath, ''I'm going to be a father.. again.'' his maroon eyes were glowing with love and warmth for you, Mischa and the new member of the Lecter family.

[lovelyiida]

OKAY, FIRST: YOU WRITE SO AMAZIING DHWJNDIFEUDIEBFEHDJXK >~<

I hope it's okay for you to take on another request, because I'd love to read something about how the boys ( maybe Izuku, Bakugou or hawks- you can choose) are about to dance with reader, after they saw those couple dance trends on instagram (of course they don't know he's got a crush ;)))

HAVE A NICE DAY/EVENING DEAR! <3

okay first off, THIS IS SO CUTE!! I swear you guys have the cutest ideas oml. I think I'll do Bakugo since I'm so familiar with how I characterize him lol. I'm not really into the pro-hero's yet so this will have to do, I hope you like it :)

also, since you didn't specify, I'm going to do she/her pronouns.

DOING COUPLE DANCE TRENDS WITH BAKUGO consists of a lot of cursing, shouting, and laughter.

"you actually need to put your foot in the back instead of in the front stupid," you laugh out loud, as yet again, bakugo messes up your almost perfect take doing this dance challenge.

"okay how about you fucking show me again, since your the top dancer in japan and shit" bakugo cursed at you, a smug smile pressed against his lips.

you were currently in your dorm room, you blew up your best friends phone asking him if he could do this dance with you. first he replied no, you then replied "okay :(" and not even 5 minutes later you heard a knock on your door.

"he hates makin' you upset," or some shit like that.

Bakugo crashes down on your bed, hands behind his back he looks at you pressing the play button and doing the silly little dance again. you smiled to the camera, at you pressed the stop button.

sitting down on the bed, you click a few buttons and type a couple of things before turning your phone off. Bakugo's eyebrows press together, "are you not gonna show me the video?" he asked.

"Nah, I just posted it" you laugh.

"what? I was in the fuckin' shot!" he shouted, reaching for the phone you shoot back out of arms reach with a chuckle.

"don't worry, you're not distracting anything!" you told him.

so he believed you, until the next day the whole fucking class was blabbering about the video you posted.

it went viral...

as soon as Bakugo walks into class, Mina almost floats from her seat and towards him. "omg, you and y/n are viral on tik tok!! 400K views and 100K likes!" she gushed in joy.

"what!" bakugo yells, Mina hands him her phone, snatching it from her grip he sees the video of you and him.

he watches how you dance, so rhythmically and with so much confidence, you were so cute. thats until he looked over and saw himself gawking at you like an absolute idiot.

he reads the caption of your video, "when your friend is too lazy to learn the dance so you show him how its done."

he lets out a quick chuckle, then he goes to the comments.

oh...the comments!

there were a lot of "THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER" and "if only my man looked at me the way he looked at her" comments. there were also a lot of people who found Bakugo very attractive and asked for his username, but no one has given it out yet thankfully.

Bakugo click off the comments and watches it again. I mean, is he wrong for looking at you like that? you looked so cute! especially during that one part of the dance where you poke your ass out, he notices how he was full-on staring at your ass.

clearing his throat, Bakugo hands the phone back to Mina and find his seat. a light pink blush dusted across his cheeks.

"they're definitely gonna know I'm crushin' on em' now" Bakugo mumbles under his breath.

another hour or so passes until it was lunch time, sitting down with his food, Bakugo notices you walking up to him with a frown.

"shit."

now you think he's some creep, don't you?

he can kiss his chances with you goodbye now.

you sit down next you him, your bottom lips poked out as you look into his eyes.

"Bakugo can we talk about something-"

"I'm sorry, okay? I know you think I'm some disgusting pervert and I swear I'm not! You're just so fuckin' cute and I want you to myself and shit!" he yells, you look at him in shock.

"I...I didn't know you felt that way about me, I like you too" you bite your lip. you didn't know wether or not you should've said that, but you did it anyways.

now Bakugo is the one in shock.

"oh," was all he could say.

with a chuckle, you reach your arms out to hug Bakugo. "If you want me I'm all yours," you muffle into his should. Bakugo melts into your touch, holding on to your waist tightly, hiding his shit-eating grin.

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pinned! midnightslover: uhhhh, is he available-

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[1eos]

its really funny you say the author drew from real life bc recently one of her negative reviews got a lil bit of attention on tik tok for that book & it just tears into her for basically writing a self insert among other things.

i got this ask a few days ago and didnt quite get it but finishing the book and reading the reviews i get it now......it seems that the more you know of rfk the more you'll hate yellowface 😭😭😭 which is interesting....the main valid criticism ive seen so far is that she's been accused of colorism and her self insert was too and it was hand waved away....like that's weird....that's suspicious. and i get what ppl are trying to say...rfk uhhhh poking fun at her critics is annoying and i guess i could see it as trying to change the narrative or point the finger in a different direction but the themes in yellowface aren't wrong? and i don't think an author having a self-insert is inherently bad? at least not in this case....

like. at the start of the novel athena is propped up to be a saint after death even tho no one liked her and then it was revealed she leeches off pain. not good. but she also was a victim of the singular minority thing in publishing but she also didnt go out of her way to uplift other asians in writing. she's a complex character with a lot of faults its not like rfk made her a mary sue that was confirmed to do no wrong. so ppl are mad that she drew from real things and is probably putting some of her real feelings into the mix but i feel like every character gets a HEALTHY dose of reaming and what's 'hand waved' away is real life. like? 😭😭😭😭 cassandra clare is a freak and a half and had a booming career. idk ive read ego inflating self inserts and this didnt really feel that way to me bc EVERYONE is painted as in the wrong you know? the critics are right but they also thrive on negativity. the writers are often awful ppl but theyre also victims of hate mobs. twitter hate mobs are trying to uphold morality bc theyre stupid and twist moral causes into reasons to be hateful. etc. its hard for me to say that rfk was poking fun at anyone specifically just the industry itself...and it is a fucking goofy racist mess lol but i guess it can be seen as hypocritical to critical of the system you're a part of even tho thats the only way u can get critique

scrolling thru more 1 star/2 star reviews i see ppl saying the quippy more fun writing isnt for them which is fine. totally valid. but im seeing a lot of ppl be like 'the characters are ridiculous' and l i think a lot of ppl hate that june is like obliviously racist towards asian ppl the whole way thru and doesn't 'learn'. but i mean that's real life. a lot of white liberals are racist and never want to admit it bc they believe they're good. i dont even think rfk went TOO overboard. that rambly compliments turning into racism thing is just what white ppl do 😭 i saw a few other ppl be like 'why is this book so confused w twitter spats' like?????? are u aware of how writers are now????? they are terminally online and they do weird stunts and actually a yter i like has a series called authors behaving badly and a lot of them are....terminally online white women

anyways reading the negative reviews has been interesting.............theyre REALLY mad abt the self insertism kalgklgkagklglkakglaklkglkgak like damn y'all better not lift from real life for a character or the readers WILL be mad. personally as long as its not egregious or playing the victim i don't mind bc im messy LMAO

[doin-just-fine]

What the brain doin?? PT. 4 of a questioning median system's journey

"A very distinct Co-Con moment"

CW: Talks about bringing younger alters up to speed on when and where they are and them being slightly upset by it. Mentions feelings that fit with depersonalization.

I, DoinFine, am always in front, I am never not fronting, so I don't really have memory gaps. For everyone else, they usually just co-con and I'm not sure how their memory is effected yet.

Yesterday I was mindlessly scrolling on tik tok when I happened across this video. I read it and thought, "it's 6 pm it's not bed time yet lol." and as I was about to scroll I stopped. I felt super stimmy in a good way and I played along. At the end of the little video I felt super proud of myself, while at the same time I felt like I was leaning back and watching myself do this, just casually observing. I noted it and moved on. A little while later another video popped up. This one had some kick. I played along and again at the end I felt super proud of myself for playing but also like I was observing this occurrence, fascinated by it.

After finding a couple more videos like that and getting really excited about certain options in the videos and stuff, I just hung out in this childlike feeling for a second.

I've noticed that when Cloud co-cons, we look around the room a lot. Almost like we're getting our bearings as to the environment we're in. However, we never feel like we're lost or confused about where we are and I think this is because I'm always in front and know where I am. When someone joins me the information I have is also given to them so we don't feel freaked out, but they are still taking in the new environment, hence them looking around.

As I sat there with this younger feeling, we started looking around the room. I thought about the concept mentioned above and wondered if thats what was happening. IMMEDIATELY I felt a quiet thought, beneath my observing thoughts, saying/feeling things along the lines of, "I don't know this place, this isn't my room, I don't know where I am." It was strange. It felt like a mix of being confused and a little frightened not knowing or, better yet, not understanding where I was while also knowing exactly where I am, how I got there and why I was there.

I got the sense that if I hadn't thought about my looking around the room theory, they wouldn't have noticed that they didn't actually know where they were, and that only I did. Oh well. They didn't panic too much they felt more confused than anything. I kinda gave a mental tour of where we were and offered visiting the garden as a distraction, which they liked.

I was toying with the idea that this just might be me just age regressing to relax after a long day of fun, kid friendly, things (we went to the beach and swam around). However, as we stood up someone (idk which one of us) noted that "whoa the floors farther away than usual." Now, I would have just written this off as being part of my vertigo (despite it feeling nothing like vertigo). The only reason I didn't is because I remembered what my partner's kiddo's say when they front. They always mention how tall they feel in the body. That they are expecting a shorter point of view when they stand up.

In that moment from being underneaths my bed covers to standing and being confronted with my size, I understood exactly what they have been talking about. So I started treating this like a co-con kiddo.

We went downstairs and we were about to go to the garden when we heard my cat's collar jingle behind me. I was excited because what kiddo doesn't love petting a cat, right? So I thought about which cat was following behind. As I imagined my tuxedo short hair, I started feeling wrong. So I checked in with my passenger, if you will, to see what was wrong.

Doing this check in felt almost like an emotional self check in when you ask yourself "Ok, where is this emotion coming from" and you see if it's being brought on by a trigger or trauma or insecurity.

I paused and checked in "whats wrong" and then I waited. Usually in the self check in example above you kinda retrace the steps of the emotion yourself. I made sure not to do that here, it almost felt like my co-pilot did it instead, like I was doing it but next to myself?

The conclusion as to why the thought of my tuxedo short hair made the co-pilot feel wrong was because they didn't know that cat. This shocked me. I've had my tuxedo cat for somewhere around 12 years and he's my best friend. Whoever my co-pilot was pre-dated 2010, making them 10 or younger. When I checked in to see which cat they thought it was they thought of a taby cat, I've met a couple taby cats in my time so I ran through a list of the ones we've bonded with, and they landed on one of my childhood cats who passed away when I was around 7. All this communication happened in seconds by the way in a hydraconsious sort of way (as if reading and responding to each others thoughts, which are a combo of visual, emotion based, conceptual, and "verbal" or word thoughts, while still remaining two different consciousnesses)

I had to then inform the kiddo that this pet was no longer around. That was heart breaking to do. As a result they were informed of all the other new and past pets. I could feel that it upset them to learn this, but we continued to the garden to distract from all the new upsetting updates they were receiving.

Thoughts and feelings while in the back yard get a little fuzzy. I just remember noting that this kiddo felt like they had more influence over the front than anyone else that has co-con'd before. At one point we were just staring at the house and I noted feeling like I was the one co-con to the little one. They were in control of the body and what we did. Luckily, I don't think the little one even noticed, cared, or knew what to do with being in that position so we just kinda stood there and zoned out for a little bit.

As we explored the garden for a bit I could feel the co-con fading in and out. The vibes around my house have not been the most fun so I think the kiddo was getting nervous. I was fascinated by this whole experience and didn't want it to end so I took us inside and started making our comfort food and put on some Bluey. Bluey kinda worked and kinda didn't work on keeping them co-con because I also enjoy Bluey on my own and I don't think this facet has ever watched Bluey before. I probably should have put on something from my childhood like The Muppet Show or something if I wanted them to closer to the front. Maybe I'll do that next time.

While watching Bluey I usually let the first episode I watch's intro run all the way through and then I'll skip it on the rest of the episodes. This time I didn’t do that and it's only in hindsight that I'm noticing this.

The first run of the intro felt like DoinFine jamming to it. The second run through felt like a shy observation and practice run, counting out the beats like we were engaging with it for the first time. The third run through of the intro was full little one, we closed our eyes and imagined ourselves in our living room. As a kid at the end of certain movies (typically with banger sound tracks) I would get up and dance to the credits. So, we imagined ourselves dancing like that to the Bluey intro and that was quite an interesting experience. The kiddo went from hanging back a bit to pushing me to co-con so fast. From there, they went back to side lining and eventually they left because we had to make conversation with people.

That was the most powerful sense of co-coning I have had so far. It was very interesting.

Does this line up with anyone else’s experience?

As usual asks are open!!

[angelyuji]

I don’t have a tik tok, sorry 😅

Right!!?? They KILLED the characters development! Especially Five!! I know everyone deserves love but Five with Lila??? (I’m not gonna talk about the actors age cause even tho it’s a big gap, they are a c t i n g, I think people should remember that, there wasn’t even a sex scene between them)

Going back, it was Five the one that made Lila realize she was in love with Diego + he spend 45 years in that apocalypse missing his family every second, are the writers really gonna say to us that THAT SAME FIVE would fall in love with Lila??? I know they spend 7 years trapped in that reality, but come on! AND what Diego said to Five in the van? That Lila told him that “you can’t get pregnant while breastfeeding”? That rubs off in soooo many ways for me… I kinda liked Lila in S3 but not anymore

Plus, the “jokes” about Diego being fat when in reality he’s really fit? I mean, we saw him in the fight with the CIA

Luther got dumber and dumber this season and I hate it! Isn’t he supposed to be an astronaut? Astronauts are smart, right? Plus, they only mention Sloan ONCE! He was so in love with her in the past season (so much that he even forgot Allison) and now he doesn’t even TRIES to find her??? What type of bullshit is that??

Allison… was there… and mad… Well, she and Claire rescued Klaus but… what happened with Ray anyway? They did got divorced? Why? They seemed so in love. But then she was jealous of Sloane… but she didn’t wanted a relationship with Luther either… I mean, she didn’t even tried to talk/flirt with him anymore…

Ben… he was never a part of the Hargreeves, at least for what I felt. Even after saving Viktor. The sudden relationship with Jennifer was SO rushed, even when they explained it. I mean, if Reginald wanted to kill her, why didn’t he did it right away? She was a kid who was found inside of that calamari (English is not my first language, I don’t remember if that’s the correct word, sorry 😅) ANYONE would suspect of her death anyway

Then, the writers “saved” Klaus only to make him a drug addict AND a sex slave again??? What happened to his development??? He WAS at peace with his powers and could even fully control them for what??? I would preferred it if they made him a cult leader again, ugh

I KNOW this is gonna be controversial (like the thing I wrote in the beginning) buuuuuut I liked Vanya WAY MORE than Viktor

I’m not a transphobe I swear! It’s just that I could empathize more with Vanya while with Viktor... I know he was trying to save Ben and Jennifer and that was the right thing for a brother to do(? But like I said, I could empathize more with Vanya

Which leads me to a more controversial take 😅

I think Vanya and Five should have to be the couple that got together and were happy

lol i have an account on basically every social media platform to exist lolol

the whole five x lila thing was sooo weird like ughhhhhhhhh lila and diego were so cute and the whole "i thought you didn't like bracelets???" when he DID give her bracelet when they were in the hospital together??? alsoo five would NEVER betray his brother like that. thats crazy (lets not even talk abt how awk it must have been to film this when lila's actress has known aiden g since he was a minor like)

also diego ripping his shirt off and he's ripped and im like ???? wheres the dad bod??????

yeah allison never even fully used her new powers. i liked allison and klaus's relationship tho like every scene with them made my heart hurt. it did piss me off that they made klaus fall back to drugs and be used as a slave like ugh.

the jennifer stuff was soooo stupid like god idgaf abt this girl at all. also like why didn't reginald kill her???? weak ass bitch reginald and his weirdo wife

i love viktor, sorry, he's so fine i need him. i also prefer viktor becuz vanya was annoying lowkey lmao

also im sorry again but no to vanya x five, i hated luther x allison so much. i liked sissy and also viktor being a man-whore is sooo :)))) need him!!

[girladvice]

Welcome to My Blog!!!

Hello everyone! I created this post as introduction to get to know me and this account. My name is Morgan and I’m a teen girl. If you happened to stumble upon this account, you may be wondering exactly what this account is. I created this account so that those who identify as girls can send in questions without any judgement and they can receive advice from me or anyone who comments. I got this idea whenever I was hanging out with my boyfriend one evening and needed a girls advice on something but I didn’t feel comfortable asking someone I knew. I then started thinking about those who feel the same way and need someone’s advice on girly things. I know there are many advice accounts on Tik Tok but I didn’t see many on Tumblr, which surprised me a little! I want to make this account a safe space for girls to ask other girls questions and to get advice on topics. To ask a question, all you have to do is click the little inbox button on my account home. Whenever you do this, there should be a box that pops up that says, “send me questions.” Fill out your question and hit “ask” to submit! If you’d like to remain anonymous, check off the button beside send that says, “ask anonymously.” With this, there are a few rules for this account! Some of these rules include:

Be respectful. This is a safe pace for people to feel free to ask any questions that they may have!

More of a reminder than a rule but there is NO such thing as a stupid question! All questions are valid and need an answer, which is why I’m here to help :) I don’t have any guidelines of what questions are asked so feel free to ask anything! You can ask questions about feminine care, intimacy, crushes, studying, or anything! If I’m not able to give the right advice for your situation, hopefully someone in the comments will be able to help you. 

Thats it! Those are all the rules/reminders so feel free to ask away! Pretty easy to follow, right?

In this section, I’m just going to write about myself so you get to know me better and hopefully feel comfortable to share anything you want with me! Like I said before, my name is Morgan and I’m a teenager! I do cyber school and LOVE Taylor Swift! I have been a swiftie since the RED era in 2012 and went to the eras tour on 06/17/23. My favorite Taylor album is Evermore and my favorite song is Coney Island. I have two dogs and one cat that I love very much. I am a HUGE nerd and love anything Batman. My favorite Batman villain is Jonathan Crane and my favorite Batman movie is Batman Begins (Cillian Murphy is just so omg). I love the shows Supernatural, Southpark, Gotham, Community, and It’s Always Sunny. If you couldn’t tell by the vibe and theme of this account, my favorite color is… PINK! fun fact about me is that I have secret fan fiction accounts on both Tumblr and Wattpad. I have also been editing since 2018 and I have fan edit accounts on Tik Tok and Instagram! I also have an amazing boyfriend that I couldn’t leave out of my little intro. If I’m being honest, I have no idea what else to write about me and I think I’ve covered everything lol. 

Please send in ANY questions that you may have! In the meantime, I will post some lifestyle posts and some random life advice (love psychology and am possibly considering going into that field when I'm older sooooo).

Love you,

Morgan <3

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[whyareweallawakerightnow]

Holding strong

I haven't spoken to him since last Tuesday, almost a week. This is the longest we've ever gone without speaking to each other. Its surreal. Like im okay, im going through the motions, im living. Im getting up everyday, im doing all the things I need to do. Im working and im taking care of the house and im taking care of myself, the best I know how. Im doing it. Alone. I know I can, I have before. Im good by myself, I can operate solo. It's nothing new to me. Its normal.

I just don't want to.

I don't want to be alone anymore, I don't want to do everything solo. Maybe thats the lesson here. I went to dinner with my friend yesterday and we were talking, I told her about the tik tok. I know she thinks im crazy. I am. I really probably am. I told her that he saw my story about me being sick and he didn't say anything. She told me he's showing me how he feels, I just have to listen. I have to listen. Silence is loud. It's truth telling. I have to listen.

I keep telling myself that but I don't listen LOL.

You know I was thinking earlier about the moment I truly got over P. It wasn't until recently, to be honest. I mean I've been over him as much as I could possibly have been but Im not over what happened. What he did to me. Idk if I ever will be honestly, but I can tell you when I was over him, as a person.

It's when I saw a picture of him, with his wife, and kid. He was wearing a thin silver wedding band. It sent a chill of disgust down my spine. Like actual disgust. It was icky. It gave me the ick. Turned me off completely. Something in my chest, clicked. Idk how to explain it. I got the ultimate forever ick from seeing that. It signified how much of a pussy ass bitch he is. Why it took me seeing that of all things to realize that, idk. But it did. It's always the stupidest mundane things that do it.

While I was at dinner with my friend yesterday we did get on the subject of tarot cards and palm readings. She said she knew a little bit about palm readings and that some lines on the side of your palm tells you how many long term relationships you'll have in your lifetime. She looked at mine, and said I have 4. I said there's no fucking way im doing this shit another 2 times. NO WAY. Take me out right now. I cant do it, I won't. I have nothing left in me. I have nothing to give.

Thats where im at right now.

[ihatebnha]

When you realize your type is primarily men shoved into the dad role- who begrudgingly or not- take care of the people who need them 😳😳 OOP. RIP me thinking about Aizawa, All/Smol Might and other 2D men- retiring 🔥😌

OKAY, hold the phone... hold. the. phone...... i hardly ever have a chance to talk abt this bc idk... i love everyone... but SMALL MIGHT???????? god..... small might fucks MAJORLY.... 

idek what it is about him but.... he’s so fucking hot lmfaoooooo... maybe it’s the weird service dom thing he’s got going on... like he literally used to be the strongest man in the world and now he’s just your typical ol’ dad... or maybe it’s because he’s just so genuinely sweet and caring and tries really hard to be funny... but whatever it is... i love it omg ajfnaskl

(i actually wanted to write for sm/all might a bit ago but the requests i got were SOOO good that i got too scared to do anything out of fear id fuck them up...)

i have a harder time with aizawa because i lowkey hate people like him... but man..... same thing with a grumpy guy who’d literally do ANYTHING for u.... the guy who doesnt speak but refuses to let you hold ANY of the groceries... the guy who is just trying to read his book but gets swarmed with children... 

like people aren’t lying when they say that guys who are good with kids HIT DIFFERENT... honestly... even though i still like him now, if he had short hair .... i’d be on that dick 24/7.... i want to be the milf to his dilf 💔💔💔

and like... idk even endeavor is pretty hot when u ignore the fact that he’s super terribly written... like abuse and everything aside, if he WERE a good dad, he’d just be such a fucking funny dilf... all begrudgingly caring about shit. he’s the guy you definitely get in fights with but he still can’t stop himself from being all “we’re not leaving until you put your seatbelt on,” or “stop doing that by youself!!!” LIKE BITCH, I CRYYYYYYYYY!!!! 

Lmfao endeavor shares those stupid facebook pictures that are like “even tho im mad at you that doesnt mean i dont care”

idk.... my type is still everyone but i def have a special place for this kind of man in my heart... basically... ur taste is GOOD. bye.  

also this tik tok made me think of you legend LMFAOOO...!! 

[with-love-from-hell]

hey babe 😘

I was wondering if you can do some headcanons for what the brothers (and whoever else's) top 3 favorite human-world meme references are (from vine, tik tok, or just random shit on the internet really haha) :3 im in the mood for something a bit more light-hearted. Love you boooo 💞

Hello dear! Yes I will absolutely do this haha.

I'm gonna go for ones they can say out loud or immitate. Maybe in the future I will do some where it's gifs/memes they send in chat lol

The brothers' favorite memes referenced by MC

Genre: comedy, headcanons

Cw: swearing

GN!Mc; No specifiers for gender used

If you wanna know any of the specific references bc a lot of these may be a bit older, let me know and I can send ya the meme or link to the video. These are just definitely some I can see them busting up laughing about haha. S/o to all you chaotic Mcs out there who would absolutely do shit like this at all times. I see you and I respect you. 🙏

Belphie

H.Y.C.Y.BH by Tom Cardy (singing directly at Lucifer when he loses something)

"Are you feeling it now, Mr. Krabs?" (again, directed at Lucifer)

"I cant believe i put on my good crocs for this."

Beel

"Ah." (E.g. the peanut butter baby)

Immitating the Surprised pikachu expression

"All these flavors, and yet you choose to be salty."

Asmo

"A man with an unwashed ass has an opinion again" (directed at literally any of his brothers when they say something stupid)

"___, you ignorant slut." (Name can be changed to be applied to literally anyone)

"Thats hot." (Immitating Paris Hilton and used to reference anything that is absolutely not hot)

Satan

"I won't hesitate, bitch." (Directed at anyone and everyone)

"This bitch empty...YEET!" (and then throwing something directly at Lucifer)

Any reference to those weird paintings of birds ("this jackassery will not stand," "the risk i took was calculated, but man am I bad at math") ("I'd sell you to Satan for one corn chip" is his favorite though)

Levi

"I'm going to break your Nico Nico Kneecaps!" (Directed at any of his brothers when they do something to piss you off)

"My disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined" BECAUSE ITS CANON IN GAME OMG

"DO NOT FUCK WITH ME. I HAVE THE POWER OF GOD AND ANIME ON MY SIDE!" *screaming* (also including all of the movements)(also probably after awhile Mc would replace "God" with "Diavolo")

Mammon

"Do it." (Either in the Palpatine voice from Star Wars or imitating Shia LaBeouf. He loves both)

"It's Wednesday my dudes..." *screams*

Naruto running literally anywhere

Lucifer

Literally anything said/done by Wayne from Letterkenny ("hard no", "I wish you weren't so fuckin awkward, bud", *pulling out a red card when one of his brothers is acting a fool*, "...and I suggest you let that one marinate.")

"I think I died long ago and you _#_ are my eternal punishment." (Number changes depending on how many of the people around you got on your nerves)

"Whoa there friend you might need to slow down." (In literally any situation that's way too intense for that level of calm.) He hates that he finds this funny

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Picture this, Desire babysitting Jed, like one night Rose is absolutely desperate for a baby sitter so she summons her great grand parent then Desire calls reader for help. I'm picturing that tik tok sound

Desire: sooo you want a beer

Y/N : He's eight!

Desire: I don't know what am I supposed to do with him!

Lol kay, ngl i would like to dab more into you as readers trying to het Desire to be a "father" figure to their child but i would like to hear your Requests on that😊

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Babysitting Duties

To say the least Desire cannot babysit to save their life they wasn't really that much invested in it.

So you was surprised when Rose begged you to let their grandpa take care of them after all unity was their grandmother and well Desire told you their little scheme to annoy their older brother you found it amusing but was annoyed to.

"I'll see what i can do Rose i mean Jed is um well you both never met Desire and well They ARE the Personification of desire for a reason.

"Well maybe they played a part in me longing to find my brother." You was quiet wondering if that was possible but you sigh softly. "Okay I'll try to bring them okay" you smiled when Rose hugs you since they never met their other grandparents but knew Desire was an endless like the one named Morpheus.

You told Desire who with quick motion said "No" you pouted "come on you have to at least meet them once in you owe Rose that since you litterally use her to get to dream" you glared.

Desire shrugs before sighing "the plan failed and she is alive so there really was no harm.....fine I'll go but your staying with me"

You laughed and nod "very well love I'll stay with you and please behave"

Desire pulled you close and kissed you softly "i will for you"

Desire and Y/n was sitting with Jed and Rose. To say the least they was surprised to see this is who their late grandmother's lover was. Rose got a call and left to answer it.

Desire stared at Jed before asking "umm you want some wine or something?" Desire was cut off by you scolding them

"L-Love they are only twelve!?" Desire raised an hand in defense. "I don't know what to do with him" Desire said frowning.

Jed laughed "so your and Endless like the sandman" he asked and Desire nods "hmm i am just like my older brother just have more style then him." He smiles

"Well thats true i can tell, so what kind of powers do you have."

You glare at Desire since their powers can be rated 18+ so they shrugs. "I make people want things and even things want things I to have "Magic" to like my big brother. Among other things your to young to understand"

Jed was interested now and asked if Desire can show them "magic" so Desire made a simple candle flame change into different colors before it started shaping and soon spelling Jed's name.

"Whoa thats so cool" they complement and you smile lightly watching them still worried Desire may do something stupid.

You went to talk to Rose and Jed looks behind him watching you leave before turning to Desire. "Um what was grandma like?"

Desire was surprised he asked that question but they answered truthful minus the rated 18+ content and the fact that Rose was meant to sabotage Dream.

"She was a lovely creature, due to some....unfortunate events I stood with your grandmother for a long time and even fell in love."

Of course she started her own company made friends and had your mother" when Jed was about to ask Desire cuts him off "To young child, but your grandmother was a very brilliant woman a shame she had to leave you two so soon." They said sitting back.

Rose and you was by the door frame listening smiling as Desire continues with little stories until Jed asked a question.

"Do you ever Regret leaving or whatever happened?"

Desire looked away almost deep in thought. Rose looked worried Jed may have overstepped and you was worried about Desire since that never really happened often.

"Sometimes.." they would answer finally before standing up and walking over to the fireplace shrugging "but there is nothing i can do now whats in the past remains there."

Jed got up and followed Desire looking up at the tall endless.

"Will you leave us?" Jed ask already liking Desire.

"Hmm im an endless Jed I'll always be with you right here" a perfectly manicured red painted nail pressed against his chest. Jed smiles "great" they said happily and runs off to do something.

Rose walked up to Desire thanking them before running off to check on Jed you wrap your arms around Desire.

"That was sweet of you to share that with him love" you said kissing their cheek. They would smile at you lightly before before looking down at the fire. "I only state the truth.

"Mmm you seem to be good with kids with just a bit more refined appraches you could make a good parent love"

They chuckle lightly "i doubt it but i can certainly try....for you"

"I know my love"

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Taglist: @justaproudslytherpuff , @sherazyjade , @the-masked-scorpio , @sugakookieswithacupoftae16 , @happilydangerousworld , @harlekin6 , @supermegapauselouca

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MHA STREAMER AU

[HERO NAMES = CHANNEL NAMES LOL]

Deku/Izuku - he plays more chill games, less pvp but it does happen! he gives me dolphin energy (being someone who spends a decent amount on in game purchases but doesnt spend a ton.)

Bakugo/Forgot hero name - he got famous after a clip of him raging went viral. he mostly plays pvp and is usually at the top of games billboards. hes mostly well known for his over the top reactions, hes been banned from many MANY streaming sites for swearing too much and threatening people.

Shoto/Todoroki - Rich kid who is pretty, so hes famous. He started streaming because his older brother let him play a game on stream with him and the chat wanted him to start streaming again. He collaborates with Deku frequently!

Red Riot/Kirishima - He was a rlly sad kid who watched a long time streamer known as Crimson Riot. He is enthusiastic and a rlly good sportsman! He is the only person to have beaten Bakugo on stream, which really kicked him off!

Chargebolt/Kaminari - Hes funny! Thats what really kicked him off, some youtube video called “Chargebolt being my spirit animal for 5 minutes and 10 seconds” by a popular meme channel, and he got many followers. He mostly cries when he loses, and frequently plays with Bakugo, Red Riot, Earphone Jack, Cellophane and Pinky!

Earphone Jack - She started off playing VNs and rpgs, but is surprisingly rlly good at FPS’! She had to ban the word “Egirl” from her chat because she was tired of being called that.

Cellophane - He wears a mask when he streams and is known for being really chill and talking with the chat a lot between games. Type of guy to individually greet everyone in chat.

Pinky - Got famous for her fun personality! She gave the group of Bakugo, Red Riot, Earphone Jack, Chargebolt, Cellophane and her the name “Bakusquad” and her and Kaminari run a channel of highlights from their collab streams, though kaminari does most of the editing.

Tenya/Iida - He isn’t even a streamer, just a famous chat moderator whos a bit too strict. His brother does streaming on the side too, which is how he met Deku, Uravity, Shoto and Froppy.

Uravity - Shes cutesy, smart, and very good at gaming. She gets a lot of annoying dudebros in her chat who she can and will argue with while kicking digital ass.

Froppy - She is well known for sticking to her frog theme, and gets frequent fan mail with frog stuff! She always greets the people in chat and doesn’t play much PvPs, but when she does, she mostly heals.

Shinsou - He has a face cam but its rlly dark in his room, so his face is mostly obscured. Gets called unconventionally attractive all the time. He accidentally gathered a fanbase of “Omg do u get enough sleep at night 🥺🥺🥺” girls and doesn’t have a real streaming schedule. He once accidentally played a game with Chargebolt in it and has never felt peace since.

Creati/Momo - She mostly makes merch designs for other streamers and her art account alias is Creati. She has had every deluxe art brand sponsor her.

Hawks/Keigo - Rich boy whos decent at video games, whale, charming, type of guy to have a mostly teen girl fanbase. Very active on Instagram. Ridiculously high sub count. Surprisingly collabs with the group known as the “League Of Villains” very frequently. Got doxxed a million times by random ass people. He plays all types of games.

Dabi/Touya - Faceless streamer, people like his voice. Guys kinda emo. Worlds most sarcastic streamer ever. Extremely active on twitter. Got canceled for calling his friend gay, had to make a twitter post saying he likes men, also gets doxxed a lot, no thanks to Shoto. Plays mostly PvPs and horror games. In the LOV gamer group, started the discord server.

Toga - Vtuber. She plays violent video games. In the LOV. Sets up VCs for the LOV + occasionally Hawks to play random games together. Also collabs with Deku and Uravity sometimes! She is active well known on Tik Tok as well.

Shigaraki - Most of the time he doesnt even have voice on, and never has face on. He barely ever streams in the first place but when he does it gets either 3 viewers or 300,000.

Mr Compress - Literally just gor famous for pranking LOV members with shitty magic tricks. Sometimes streams with the others. He does the editing for the official LOV youtube account.

BONUS!

Fuyumi has a cooking channel! Dekusquad and Bakusquad both frequently have fake internet fights. Once Hawks accidentally screamed super loud on a stream with Dabi while they were playing FNAF.

if u liked this mayb uhhhh hahaha mayb reblog or comment or like

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Can you do a little text with your opinion about the Volturi members? What you like and dislike, they personality, they story... Would be interesting! Kissessss and have a great day! 💜

Imma have a little fun and throw the very young me into the mix to. Let's see child me vs adult me's opinions on the Volturiiii.

Fun fact: I wasn't team Volturi until I was like fifteen. Before that I was team edward... I don't want to talk about that 🤔😒

Also I'm a sucker for villains. If it isn't obvious already, I like the villains more than the heroes. (We all love a bad boy though, don't we?--- TIK TOK NOW IS NOT THE TIMEE.)

So everything i say is just my opinion and should be taken just as that.

Aro: Younger me was like "this...is a terrible person. There really is no need to expand on this." However adult me has been like "GUYS this guy is possibly the SCARIEST character. This man rips off heads AND SMILES ABOUT IT." He gives me child snatcher vibes (from the movies in particular). I thoroughly enjoy the power hungry persona. He's really fitting to be the puppeteer behind the Volturi. Even if he makes it seem it's a group effort with himself, Marcus and Caius. Realistically, Aro gets what he wants and isn't afraid to do what it takes to get it...sorry Didyme. What's even darker about it, WHICH I LOVE, is that he isn't heartless. Smeyer wrote that Aro genuinely loved his sister. It's all good to have a character that's a evil heartless monster but what's more terrifying to me is the ability for someone to do evil despite their love and emotions. It doesn't hold them back and that's what I find particularly frightening now that child me didn't comprehend. Micheal Sheen, from what I remember of his interview years ago, played on the idea that vampires of Aro's age kinda begin to lose their mind. Which, hell freaking yes. However there is one thing I hate for Aro's character that happened in the movies. Breaking dawn part 2. That fucking laugh. Don't get me wrong, hilarious. I can't not laugh but for his character I felt it was too 'hey hey I'm a crazy man hehe'. It was a but too much, even for an eccentric Aro. However, I'm not to mad at it because again, it was funny to watch. I thoroughly enjoy the ‘friendship’ Aro and Carlisle share and i love that it is ‘maintained’ throughout the books. I think it’s just a really nice detail. (I love lore. I am a sucker for it.) The one thing that didnt sit right with me is Aro marrying someone so that he wasnt the alone one whilst his co-leaders were very much in love? Was a little off for me but i suppose that just adds to the character.

Caius: child me would shrink into the seat because what did I do to this man? High key still think I wouldn't want to be Caius' child because imagine doing something wrong and you get that glare? No thank you! Scary angry man. As an adult... "He's an angry boi but...DAYUM WHY IS HE SUDDENLY SO HOT?" Just...don't get angry with me. You'll get annoying real quick and you're too pretty for that. I enjoy the taking-no-shit attitude he has but felt it could have been a little more prominent in BDP2 where Aro asks if Caius' is challenging him. I full believe Caius to an extend would be like "yes, yes I am. Don't be an idiot Aro. Use that braincell!" Which is why I adore the meme vibes I see every now and then of Caius hating Carlisle because why does Aro love that blonde so much? CAIUS HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT LOYAL-- Anyways, I can totally get why Aro wants him on his team. Caius is so angry and has so much hatred that he’s a good asset to the coven, even if not having a special ability.I do find it hard to imagine that Caius is a century older than Aro though. Although I cant picture him over forty years old lol. Although i do personally enjoy the whole Caius x Athenodora route. IT’S TRUE LOVE! Okay so maybe thats a little dramatic but its better than Aro’s lmao.

Marcus: movie Marcus is absolutely not nineteen years old and that's just a fact. If anything, he's the forty year old one lmao. Child me couldn't care about this man. He was the man who said nothing and slumped on a throne. That was Marcus. That was his character summed up. Then adult me rolled in and OMG NO DON'T DO THIS TO THIS SWEET MAN. LET HIM BE IN LOVE. As an adult i definitely became more attached. I feel like i was too young back then to get why Marcus was in the Volturi. He seemed very out of place and like a filler co-leader more than anything. However as i’ve gotten older (and written for him), I recognised that's the point. That’s Marcus’ evident grief. He isn’t there by choice and losing Didyme caused him to fall out of line with the coven. He’s lost point or purpose. Almost like its become meaningless because the love of his life was gone and he couldn't save her.So what was the aims of the Volturi to protect vampire kind when they couldn’t protect their own? He couldnt protect her. I had never heard of anything like bond identification and once i had- i was shook, like it became clear why he had been so necessary in the first place. That really is handy to understand everyones bonds in a coven, he could direct Chelsea and the two alone could destroy covens by bonds alone. Marcus makes the Volturi more realistic in a lot of ways. Like in a family, there is the happy times, goofy people like Felix, the twins representing a close bond. Afton and Chelsea, love that cant be divided. The list really goes on. Marcus represents love and heartbreak, pain, loss grief, the sad moments every family goes through. In that way he makes the coven seem less invincible, a group of people who at the end of the day, have their own weaknesses and immortality doesn’t mean a perfect existence. Especially when, in my opinion, Bella fantasized about immortality and how perfect it would be. Even after her change, she waited for her happy ending because that was somehow guaranteed in some level. Which in the end, she got but not everyone gets that happy ending we all want. I also personally think Marcus is the most feeling of the Volturi, despite being apathetic. A result of heartbreak. It’s shown he can still feel more in his own ways when he voted against Renesmee being destroyed. Furthermore, he advocated that vampire hybrids were a lot like vampires. He made that relation openly before anyone. Its almost as though losing Didyme helped him value a life?

Jane and Alec: Child me thought these two were  badass...and that still remains in my adult life. It’s always been uncomfortable to me that someone so young is so sadistic and powerful. Jane is the older twin with the ability of pain illusion...yikes. Her ability was evident in her human life along with Alec’s. His gift is sensory deprivation and these two were my favourites in the whole Saga. Still kind of are if im honest. I thoroughly enjoy the twins backstory. It has the most detail. I have a tag for the twins. Canon!twins is the tag for the twins in their book age. Unless this tag is present, the twins have been aged up :). They are very much canon but I put a bit more emphasis on tantrums. If they get angry, they both have tantrums. So whilst (unless tagged) they aren't children they can be very childish and these tantrums are pretty deadly. They’re also very possessive? I dont even know if thats the right word i’m looking for in all honesty. Lets say they get very attached if they like you. These two are probably the most secluded out of the whole Volturi.

Felix: Felix! High ranking guard due to strength and speed. I am a major supporter of Felix being a gladiator when he was human. He as a lighter grey cloak meaning he isn’t as high ranked but is so good at what he does that he’s been kept for centuries...and a lot of them. Personality? FINALLY, WE’VE GOT ONE WITH PERSONALITY!! (Im writing these out of order and i’ve just finished a chunk of Volturi members who have personalities as invisible as Afton.) Flirtatious and Light hearted, we love flirtatious and light hearted! Basically a comedian! Helllll yes, keep it going! Extremely vicious and highly aggressive? You know what? I still like it. He wouldn’t be a Volturi without a dark side. Cold blooded murderer. Yes. 10/10. Finally, someone Smeyer seems to actually care about. He flirted with Bella a couple of times in the books and i was FOR IT ALL THE WAY. I was very sad i saw none of it in the movies but im used to heartbreak by now. Im in this fandom after all. We were robbed of a lot. Strongest vampire in the world? I believe you, he’s also a hecking treeeeee. HE DO BE A TALL BOI. He actually makes Demetri look small and that’s still hilarious to me. Demetri is actually tall. However, if it isnt obvious we clearly traded backstory for personality. I cant get both smh. So...as i said before I fully believe Felix was a gladiator back in the day, hence his physique and height and excellent fighting abilities he has even as a vampire but then it kind of ends. I will say from the dawn of time, i don’t think Felix is the most academic man, just because of his era. I also think majority of the Volturi couldn’t read of write in their human lives and had to learn much older, most learning as vampires. Felix was one of these vampires, Although even now he isnt the most great at it. Then a wonderful writer known as @wallwriterstuff included it and now it’s canon in my eyes. I fully believe Felix is a slow reader and writing isn’t his strong suit either. Wallwriter also includes the possibility that Felix could be dyslexic which im all for too. For a very long time i’ve considered writing a dyslexic reader with the Volturi but have always hesitated because i don’t have it and wouldn’t want to upset someone for any misunderstandings or inaccuracies. However what i will say is that i think vampires would be the most understanding to humans with dyslexia. Learning things like that in later development or as an adult is difficult and they wouldnt think any less of you for struggling with reading, writing, numeracy- you name it. You’ll probably find they’re with you in the struggle at least half of the time. He’s also the goofball of the Volturi, even though he’s not really a goofball in our eyes, he’s the closest to a goofball out of the whole Volturi ...Emmett beats him in the Goofball wars.

Demetri: Oh yeah, it's Demetri's turn! So Demetri was previously in Amun's coven. When Chelsea gave him the old razzle dazzle...I've said Chelsea's gift so many times at this point it's getting old. I have two characters left after Demetri 😂😂 Anyway, with that Demetri was like "welp, I'm in the Volturi now." And now that they had a better tracker the previous one was kicked out. He isn’t much of a talker, polite and formal. He’s elegant (more graceful than i could ever be) and charming...yeah he is, you can say that AGAIN. He is also very calm, when next to Felix, i think everyone is calm but you know, we’ll say he’s a very calm person. I like how he was originally in the Egyptian coven with Amun. Given Amun’s goals this a pretty nice detail. NOW LETS GO TO MY VERSION. He’s very charming, calm, polite, formal and even a lil’ but quiet, i kept him pretty canon because he actually had a description to go on :))))))))))  Moving on. Demetri can be a very successful flirt when he wants to be and does have a Casanova reputation. However beyond the charming Volturi guard who has a brutal side like the rest of them, he has a chewy centre, deep down. I added that he had a child in his human life, one he doesn’t remember and very few people know about. He remembers that they died of an illness very young (around six?) but can’t remember what they look like. For that reason he doesn’t like talking about his child, he feels awful he doesn’t remember them and the loss still hits a pang in his chest. 

Heidi: Alright im ready for this one! Child me didn’t necessarily enjoy Heidi? I was rather passive about her. It was all ‘pretty vampire used for her looks’ in my eyes back then and i was never comfortable with that. I’ll get into my take on Heidi in a moment, roll on the backstory!  So Heidi knew Victoria as they used to be coven mates and we’re going to continue on as though Heidi didn’t care when she was killed? Like...its genuinely a burning question in my mind! If she didn't care, could that show the extent of Chelsea’s power in action!? (can we tell im enthusiastic about this coven yet?) It’s quite smart to have someone lure in prey. I wont lie, Heidi has quite the badass role in the coven. I wouldn't have thought about that I reckon. I’ve always thought that showed a kind of superiority. Oh you guys need to hunt your prey? pfft, ours literally comes to us. Her backstory really starts with Heidi being mistreated in her human life...a common theme Smeyer has. It can get old- i wont lie but when i give it some thought it kind of makes sense. Rosalie said it herself in eclipse, if any one of them had their happy ending, they’d be six feet under but i’d love a little bit more creativity. I could go on about how male vampires ended up being changed in comparison to female vampires but i’ll swiftly move on because that’s a whole other thing alone. Heidi was changed out of pity. (Which kinda infuriates me just to type, a pity change? Really? Really Hilda? we’ll see why it annoys me when i explain my take on Heidi.) Heidi was happy in her coven with Hilda, Victoria etc, which is hell yes. We love that. This is around the time she discovered her gift. Vampires were attracted to her and humans fell prey to her easily. Yup okay. I’ll take that. After a newborn vampire caused ‘too much attention’ Aro spared Heidi and Chelsea used her gift on Heidi. Nice, very nice aaaaand that’s where it stops and im left hanging.  Personality time with Smeyer! Lets goooo.  From what i remember and can find- she didn’t fucking have one. Apparently being pretty is enough for everyone.  Which in hindsight, fair enough on a human Bella’s perspective, its literally Heidi’s gift to lure you in no matter what. She could tell you she’s a serial killer (and technically is lmao) and is about to sell your kidneys on the black market as to which you’ll be like ‘sign me the fuck up, want my liver too? Here, let me lie on the table for you. I’m down.’ without even realising what just happened. But even beyond that...Heidi has no personality traits mentioned. In New Moon she appears to be a little flirty which im all for, why the hell not? But...thats it? Thats all I get? Then we get into fanfictions, because i read them growing up. Heidi was depicted as flirtatious, promiscuous and then it varied between manipulative or she wasnt very smart. Which i’m knocking absolutely no one for. I think you can get a badass character who is incredibly dumb. I think all characters are actually valid whether they’re a genius or flat out dumb. I love them all. However it never really sat with me. I was never quite satisfied which i was fine with until i started writing for myself. That’s when i knew i’d have to really think about what my version of Heidi would be or i’d never be happy with my work. That and you also begin to fill in the blanks? The more you write the more you flesh out a character for yourself and so that rolls into my version of Heidi! So for my Heidi, she often gets the same trope of ‘she’s pretty and rich, those types of girls have easy lives who always had everything given to them.’ Then when it’s discovered she didn’t have a good human life. It turns to the next assumption of ‘oh she’s pretty and stupid enough to be used and manipulated’. In a lot of ways, that’s what Heidi wants everyone to think. Underestimate her, please, its all the easier to manipulate you if you do.  She’s actually very smart and her rough human life made her more tough and intelligent. She’s very manipulative and yes she’s very flirty. You can look but you cant touch! She enjoys the attention her beauty gets her but if only these people would care more about what she’s like as a person. She’s not a barbie doll she will play you if she needs to. The only one who’s actually gotten far enough to sleep with Heidi is Demetri and even then the two don’t see each other romantically. They’re good friends who thinks the other is very attractive but that's where it ends. They’re basically friends with benefits some times lmao. However, Demetri got that far because he see’s the intellect Heidi actually has and acknowledges it. He thinks shes a queen who should be treated as such. She could take anything she wanted, a storm that people can only hope to survive in one piece.  Secretly she enjoys a family setting. Whilst she never really wanted children (especially when she was expected to when human), she couldn't help but melt inside seeing little human children with their loving parents. She wants that for all children. Whether that's because she lacked such affection growing up, no one knows. She’s also a really good friend, you bet she’ll have your back. Crappy ex? Well we’ll show them, wont we (Y/N)? She’ll be a bitch and enjoy every second of it. She also loves the single life, believe it or not, you’ll have more difficulty getting Heidi to settle down than you would Demetri which speaks volumes.  So yeah, move past her gift and really get to know her and you might have a very good friend.  I also don’t see Heidi having a preference between male or females and that’s in all honesty. Times have changed and if she is attracted to another female then she wont be ashamed of it. She never has been (Demetri was the first to figure that out, Felix may be the last.) Even when the times weren’t approving of different sexualities, she didn't care. She will flirt with you and find it ridiculously cute if you get flustered.

Sulpicia: Sulpicia was an orphan which i used to develop my own version of her. Sulpicia grew to love Aro which im on the fence about but yup, i’ll take it. You’ll see what happens with my version in a bit lmao. and that’s where it stops. I get no personality again but do you know what we do in this fandom? We create one and fill in the blanks baby! So i write Sulpicia very materialistic and vain, she’s most snobbish of the wives and due to the other two, also considered the meaner one. She didnt have such things as a child being an orphan so when she got the opportunity to have it-she jumped. She isnt easily impressed and married Aro not for love but for immortality, money and status. (He’s only married you for your money, princess Jasmine! HE ONLY MARRIED YOU FOR YOUR MONEY! Damn it tik tok, but make it princess Aro) Which works well, because Aro doesnt necessarily love her either, he just wanted a mate so he wasnt the odd one out.He literally created her because he was like “Yup, you’ll do.” The two recognised they made a great team and image so they kinda grew to love each other? A little bit? Sure we’ll say its love...sorta. ANYWAY, It’s a highlight to Sulpicia being locked in that tower where she doesnt need to see Aro every little moment, it’s better than having a husband who she’d need to see everyday. ...Yeah my Sulpicia is something else lmao.

Athenodora:  Athenodora is one of the oldest vampires in existence which kinda has me shook but I'll take it. She met Caius when he was fleeing from the Romanians, the two travelled together until they met Aro. Whilst on their nomadic travels they seemingly became mates. That's all we know about that. As to which the Volturi coven was made. Athenodora is completely loyal to Caius as well as highly dependent on him and I think that's very realistic given her circumstances. That's where their story ends...maybe for Smeyer but not for me! 😁 So I picture Caius and Athenodora being different sides of the same coin. Athenodora really mellows Caius, she is no where near is violent and sadistic as he is but due to her unwavering loyalty and dependency, she doesn't feel inclination to go against him...also because of Chelsea and Corin but I've said that so many times in this post I think we get the point. I think she's actually more gentle and soft spoken but that being said. She is very reserved and if she were to be angered she'd very much change. She could cut you down with words alone. Caius loves it. However beyond this is someone who is very maternal. Caius would appreciate it more if the two had children but instead it has created empathy. Caius doesn't want that when he can rip their head off. She struggles a little more with the 'no second chances' and that's another reason why Caius keeps her locked away and away from it. These two love each other more than words can describe. After being through so much with someone, the love can only grow. The two would happily risk their life for the other. Caius is saddened that he could never give her the family she wanted. He knows that to this day, Athenodora tries to reign in that side of her. He's a very supportive husband who's very different around his wife. He's much more tolerant, and angry. Simply more at ease. If anything happened to Athenodora, to put it simply...there would be hell to pay.

Didyme: Married to Marcus and Aro’s biological sister. Cute, me likely, keepy going. Her gift was happiness induction. VERY ADORABLE- Dont be as menacing as your brother...please. She was born several years after Aro and was changed by Aro ten and a half years after he was turned. (Dont tease me with all this lore Smeyer, I know what you’re gonna do) Aro was deeply disappointed her gift was just to make people happy- its okay Didyme, we love you. Aro is just...Aro. Her gift made many fall in love with her and its so freaking cute i CANT- but she only felt the same feelings for Marcus. MY HEART IS SO WARMMMM. Unfortunately they were so happy together that they lost interest in anything Volturi and were ready to leave. (Uh oh.) Aro, being the sneaky fellow he is, was like “I’m really happy for y’all of course you can leave. I love you my babies. My best friend and my sisterrrrrrr, I am the captain of this SHIP.” but was actually like “wait, no, no, no, not my Marcus. D-D-Did-Didyme I NEED him.” Think Sid the Sloth from ice age in the first movie when Sid really wants the baby. So this man is like...gonna have to do it to em and murder. He killed Didyme secretly (dunno how he pulled the secret part off- like i know how he did it but how did no one hear or see anything or even suspect anything IT WAS LITERAL FRIENDLY FIRE but we love the drama so continue.) Ironically enough she was very close with Aro and the two actually did love each other, Aro is just...murderous apparently, to the extent that even his sister isnt safe. And that’s it. That’s Didyme. Which im like...alright Smeyer i see you. I like this and expanded on this with my Didyme.  i get the vibes that Didyme is the most innocent and kind of all the Volturi. Losing her meant losing the consciousness within the Volturi making them all the more ruthless because there was no one to say. “Guys, maybe lets rethink this? and quickly because i cant get Caius to put down the torch thats currently on fire.” Losing Didyme made Marcus mostly become passive and would rarely stop anything that happened. I often wonder if that provoked a lot of guilt for Marcus later on. (However thats a spoiler for something im currently writing...;) ) I also think of her as a major daydreamer and the most soft, gentle person anyone will ever meet. Like its difficult not to like her despite being in the Volturi, even the Romanians would have struggled if they met her. So in the long run...i hate nothing about Didyme, only find more and more love lmao.

Corin: So im going to be honest and tell you i have no idea what Corin would look like. I’ve got nothing and when i was younger i wasnt even sure if Corin was male or female. Like a lot of these names, i had never heard of the name ‘Corin’. I dont write for her as of yet because im still trying to figure her out. I think she’s quite quiet, she lets her gift do most of the work for her in keeping the wives, Chelsea and Caius when he doesnt get to go on a rampage, content. She was brought in also after Didyme died but Marcus refused her gift.That’s all i’ve got for her. Her gift is amazing, pretty underrated in my personal opinion since like Chelsea, she really helps keep the Volturi unified but other than that, I dont have much to say about her. :(

Afton:  Another character i basically filled the blanks in for myself. So what we’re told is that he’s Chelsea’s mate and has the ability to disappear . Whilst thats a pretty cool trick...the volturi dont necessarily need it but they have to keep Chelsea happy and she demands that Afton stays so welcome to the family Afton! I also recently learned that if you hide behind Afton and he goes invisible infront of an opponent, you too will also be invisible. I figure that is until the opponent moves and basically changes their perspective but i could be wrong with that last part. That’s all we get so time for my unnecessary input!  SO AFTON IS A TOTAL SWEETHEART. He’s very shy but polite. This is a complete opposite to his mate Chelsea. It’s actually what she liked about him. At first is was just be flirtatious to the shy vampire but when she actually got to know him... she fell hard. It was also Chelsea who had made the first move since Afton was so shy. Of course she’d never say so and Afton would never want to embarrass her so that was never really disclosed to anyone who wasn’t around at that time. She brings Afton out of his shell a lot and it wasn’t long before the two were mates. Chelsea is the light of his life. Hands down. He puts up with a lot for her and is happy to do so. She could ask anything of him and he’d do it and she doesn’t even need to use her gift. He buys are anything she wants almost instantly. He cant help but adore her passionate personality, like how hooked she can get on era’s such as the 1920′s, her love for jazz music and her ability to gush on and on about anything. The two had what the other lacked and that made them an excellent team. I love their relationship. I cant help it. However, as i said before Afton is very shy and tends to keep to himself. Sadly that, paired with Chelsea’s demand to keep him in the Volturi has left Afton a little bit outcasted. All the other permanent guards were wanted and considered important whilst Afton...not so much. Although that isn’t to say the other guards are mean to him or anything. They aren’t! (Except the twins who are...the twins.) Felix and Demetri tried to include him a lot but it was very difficult to break him out of his shell. That doesn’t mean to say they wont invite Afton when he’s around. Chelsea always appreciates their efforts. Afton is notably good friends with Santiago, who often preferred solitude as well. 

(Guard to the left is who I imagine Afton is)

Chelsea: So supposedly Chelsea’s original name is Charmion? When i was younger i didnt really care much about her. I only really knew her gift and that she was the reason Afton was kept in the Volturi, since they were mates. From what im aware Chelsea basically wasnt in the movies/not identified. There wasnt much said about her in the books either. So since then i’ve kind of developed my own persona of Chelsea that could be completely inaccurate to canon but canon was my foundations with characters like these. She was always a red head in my eyes with ringlets, a copper kind of red head. I also pictured her to be small. However the newest addition to her character would have to be the mid-Atlantic accent. I blame Poppy Hill for this one. That character screamed Chelsea to me. She was very close to how i imagine Chelsea to be. So now Chelsea has an accent that i have no clue how she managed to maintain being in Italy so long and being born in Greece. LMAO. We’ll say she was very attached to that time. However, I think the time she joined the Volturi was actually very good for the story. She first came around just after Marcus had lost Didyme and Aro had her use her ability to keep Marcus in the coven. it’s really cool how she could really make or break the coven. Although, Aro was smart enough to not fully rely on her, using Corin’s ability on Chelsea to make sure she’d be happy and stay within the Volturi. Thats where the information on Chelsea really ends Over the years Chelsea has appeared in my writing and so beyond this point, Chelsea’s character is only my depiction.  I figure Chelsea is a talker, like she can talk her way in and out of situations with ease. She enjoys being manipulated and even more so, being needed.Much like her gift, she gets under people’s skin- not in terms that she’s annoying but more so she can figure out people very well. Her mate is the complete opposite and so she often speaks on the behalf of them. Chelsea is very social and charismatic. She along with Heidi are the only two Volturi members who will be out and interacting with humans if necessary. Heidi for her ability but Chelsea purely for her social skills. She’s also the most interested in human culture. She loves the parties- the 1920′s being her favourite era in terms of fashion. She has no issue changing her name and has done so multiple times when the names run out of fashion.It’s like playing dress up! I’d actually love to write more about her. I’ve really grown to love her character, even if i filled in some blanks for myself. I think she and Afton’s relationship is one of the best, up there with Carlisle and Esme- despite the two being very different. It’s a part of their dynamic!

(I always imagined Chelsea to be a red head but Poppy Hill from THOHH is a very close depiction to Chelsea in my eyes)

Renata: A stressed little bean that lives on stress. I remember thinking when i was younger she was the big threat since she was Aro’s shield but now that im older i see...a stressed little five foot bean. I have no idea what she looks like but always imagine her dark hair tied in a tight bun, looking almost painful. Another who wears heels, like Heidi but she is very rigid just as she has been described. Her uncle is a bit of an ass considering he begged her to go with the Volturi so there wouldn’t be a threat. Dude, can you not just...hand over your niece? At least hesitate! Just like that, thanks to Chelsea, she’d give her life to protect Aro and...I have nothing else. Yes it does drive me mad that there are two named guards i know next to nothing about.

Santiago:So what’s known about Santiago is that he doesn’t actually have an ability. He’s just very good at battle techniques and fighting which is why he’s kept around. If they need fighters, they’re top three are Felix, Demetri and Santiago...in that order. Santiago is also much faster than a regular vampire (as shown in breaking dawn part 2- he caught up to Jacob and Renesmee quite fast despite the two having a running start and wolves supposedly being very fast- much like a vampire) That’s all we know of him so then i got in there and this is how I write Santiago. I gave him the background of coming from a superstitious family. Like he would be told tales of demons and witches growing up as well as things like voodoo. He knew an awful lot of urban legends and whilst he stopped believing in the bad luck his family taught him, he still held interest and couldn’t help the instinct of unease when witnessing such things as rituals. It’s ironic really. However Santiago always deems that humans have it all wrong. These forces are beyond human understanding and shouldn’t be played with. In that way, perhaps Santiago still has some belief in things such as superstition. He’s very secretive about it and would never clarify it for you. Santiago keeps to himself and can be quite standoffish. He can also be blunt even if it’s insulting- he doesn’t tend to care. Although he and Afton became quite good friends since the Afton was an outcast and Santiago didn’t enjoy large groups, or most people in general.

[drxwsyni]

lol could you just imagine a yandere having a darling that uses humour to cope tho?? like theyre cracking jokes like "what can i do to allow you to allow me to eat food by myself" "nothing" "nOTHing?!!😳😳 ill suck your dick to eat this plate of pasta by myself come on now" could you just imagineee stockholm syndrome would set in quick with the darling tho but thats okay they have their humour 🤡

i think there’s a tik tok that reminds me of this but the only line i remember from it is just where it goes “i can suck ya dick” when being asked what they can do for them. very out of context ik but i felt it was relevant to the situation...anyways.

So like this is a decent coping mechanism, but you’re gonna drive your yandere crazy. Like they just want to take care of you for christ’s sake. But nope, you’ve got an absolute mouth on you and refuse to take a single thing seriously. They could be chaining you up in the basement and you’d still be cracking jokes like you weren’t their captive. 

Literally you can tell how pissed off they’re getting with how you won’t shut the fuck up with your stupid remarks and you’re just like...

....and you just don’t give a shit about what they do. So your yandere just prays to god that you run out of things to say sooner or later before they lose their mind and snap at you.

[szipps]

Feeling like shit today lul.

I went shopping for clothes but today for the first time I felt extreme anxiety. My parents are, to my knowledge, probably getting a divorce so my mom had my dad buy me clothes for when I go back to school. I don't think I've ever gone shopping alone with my dad so it was awkward. I didn't know where to look for clothes and I didn't have a second opinion like I would if I were with my mom, sisters, or friends. I felt so lost. I'm usually fine in my own skin and how I dress since I know what I want and I'm confortable with it but all the clothes they had just weren't for people like "me". It was all crop tops, flowy dresses, cute thin blouses, etc... The type of clothes you see people on tik tok wearing. Just trendy clothes that in all honesty, just look like a grandmas closet I'm sorry lol.

Anyways, I felt really out of place. None of it looked like something I'd wear and I just felt like a hick wearing my old clothes. My hands were getting so sweaty.

My dad is taller than me too so when we were walking around so I was kind of chasing after him the whole time we were shopping. I honestly hate that he was walking in front of me in the first place. I know he probably didn't think about it and was in a rush because he had some work to do afterwards but it made me feel like a fucking burden and a slug lol.

I felt like shit for being short, not liking any of the clothes, not having any money, and not having anyone to have fun with.

I know what kind of clothes I want to wear of course, I know those clothes aren't what I want to wear at all, I just felt like I wasn't welcome in a way...

Then come the feelings of feeling like I'm unlovable lol.

Of course I know that's not true at all because even the fucking weird kids have dates 💀 but I just feel like I'm so fucking boring and have a shit personality that ill never be able to catch anyone's eye. Also I'm straight and men lowkey terrify me because of crimes against women and just general "boy talk". I hope it easy to figure out what I mean.

I just think that if I was attracted to women I'd have an easier time finding someone to fall in love with, not having to panic because I feel like male culture is completely different than female culture. I don't know if that's true or not but its like were two different species.

My posture is bad, I'm a bit overweight, I don't have good skin, I'm not very friendly, I don't have many interesting hobbies, I'm not really sure what I look like to be honest lol, I'm fucking short, and my "standards" are too high.

I wish I was like my friend. She's really outgoing and has lots of friends. She even asked her boyfriend out first and they've been dating for about 2 or so years now? They're really happy together too.

Now look back to me lol. I freak out whenever I see any attractive boy and act "cool". Cool being uninterested and just acting like normal. Fucking seriously? I just can't imagine anyone legitimately being interested in me because literally no one is. Not even my own fucking friends and family. Feels bad :(

I want to fall in love and date someone cool, funny, and friendly. Hell, he doesn't even have to be even that attractive, I just want to date a good person who I know won't kill or harm me. The bar really is that low, wow.

But at the same time I want to date someone I can be proud off and show off. Fucking embarrassing 🤦 for someone like me to think about.

I really hope I'm completely wrong about the way I see myself but there's something that tells me I'm not. I'm self aware. I know what is proper and what isn't. I'm a damn clown fiesta.

I'm not going to accomplish anything. I won't even get a job and I'm already fucking 17. I don't even have my fucking license. I feel like everyone's leaving me behind. I can't see a future for me and I never have been able to. I don't have any real aspirations and I sure as hell don't want to live in the "real" world. I'm honeslty debating whether I should really kill myself. I'm such a fucking coward lol.

I know this is long already but bear with me lol.

I honestly don't even know if I even want to be friends with my best friend anymore. We've been friends for almost 10 years now and have gone through so much together. Well, I've gone through a lot of what she's gone though. No real pain in my end.

She has a troubled life and I honestly feel really bad once I think about it but most of the time I don't. Shes outgoing, friendly, cool, and basically everything I'm not. I'm not saying I'm jealous of her, I just feel like we're not very connected in most ways. Hell, I'm not really sure why we're friends in the first place. We know eacother really well, yes (thats probably why you're friends, dumbass) but I honestly don't like most of the things she does, which is to say, drugs. Yeah she's a fucking druggie lol. Not really, but she smokes a lot. I wouldn't really mind if she did, but its literally all she does and talks about. I'm not really comfortable nor do I care about drugs.

I hate that she smokes. It fucking stinks and it sticks everywhere. I come home smelling like cigarettes and weed and my mom is very against things like that. I don't think they've smelled it, but it they have, they haven't said anything.

With her smoking comes the realization that she really doesn't give a shit about me. She drags me around to her friends houses so she can get free weed and the like. She drives the car while high, Smokes in the car, all while I'm in the car with her.

Girl, I'm fucking getting second hand smoke over here!!!

Its not like I ever tell her how I feel about it, but its not like I should have to. Normally you don't blow your smoke at people who don't smoke. It's fucking rude.

Honestly, I've been feeling this way for some time, since middle school really.

We just stopped talking and hanging out all through middle school. All our interactions were just sitting together on the bus.

We've been friends since 3rd grade but she always says she didn't have any friends in elementary school. I feel like I wasted my fucking time. I didn't even have many friends but her because the one time I had another close friend, she got really jealous and aggressive towards her. Not that I have any bad feelings towards her then, we were kids, but it just feels like all I did with her then was really nothing at all for her.

I don't ever plan to tell her any bad feelings I feel towards her since I feel like if I did, it be a pretty hurtful think for her. I guess I did it to myself since I never complained and just silent company. I understand shes depressed and is having a really hard time, but it really feels like a waste of time when we hang out since all we do is lay in bed on our phones because she doesn't want to go outside.

I feel like its been long enough now. I've ranted for more than I wanted to lol. My earbuds have run out of battery and I'm in a better mood since I began ranting. My feelings are precious and not something I really want to share, even to the people closest in my life. I know I'm not alone in my feelings since there are way more people in the world than I could ever imagine, and there's bound to be someone who thinks the same way I do. So, I hope whoever reads this gets to be entertained by seeing what goes on in someone else's life or maybe no one will ever read this and I'm just talking to the void, at least ill be getting my feelings straight and sorted somewhere I can look back and laugh.

Goodnight! I hope things get better.

[taylornock]

how cell phones made our lives better while simultaneously ruining them

hi fam!! it’s me, again. are you tired of hearing from me? me too. that’s why I’m here to rant about social media / phone / technology. bc i hate it… but in a loving way???

everyone remembers when they got their first iPhone. seriously. why is that such a monumental moment in our lives? i can hardly remember what i felt like freshman year of high school but can pinpoint the feeling of sheer glee unwrapping my iPhone 6 in eighth grade. i have this thing that is attached to me 24/7 - when I go anywhere (even downstairs) without my phone i feel weird. that is f***ing SAD! PATHETIC. i hate feeling that dependent on what is essentially a pocket robot.

for what it’s worth - phones have done INCREDIBLE things for the world as we know it. for example, this quarantine shit has been testing all of us; and our phones are helping us get through it in so many ways. our phones let us see the faces of those loved ones we are missing, our phones provide us with stupid tik tok content to keep everything light hearted, and our phones let us check in on each other. all amazing things! when we are at school, we have instant access to our lives at home . being able to call my mom whenever i want is something i definitely abuse. “mom, I’m on my way home from Thompson right now and i think i have a brain aneurysm but my bio final is at 11am tomorrow will i make it” … an actual conversation i had with my mom at the end of freshman year. needless to say i was medicated shortly after THAT meltdown. I am such a brat that i don’t know what i would do if i couldn’t text my dad and have him immediately get me the password again to our Uverse account…… god forbid i miss an episode of the bachelor. i have this phone, and that’s what i do with it? abuse its powers to ask my parents for medical advice or a password i forgot? have we lost sight of everything here?

throughout life and especially throughout quarantine… my phone is the definition of a possession that is a blessing and a curse. I’m so grateful to have the ability to bother my friends - whenever i want! the options are endless! i love keeping in touch with people i thought id never hear from again, and being able to talk to so many people in my life and make my heart swell. now, when a conversation with someone other than my two roommates (shoutout parents) is so rare ⎯ that phone is my weapon and i use it to help flatten the curve: flatten the curve of covid19 and flatten the curve of my mental illness 🙃 [humor is a coping mechanism okay let me live] but like, i KNOW i’m not the only one that looks at my screen time and immediately wants to die. how can i honestly be looking at my phone for that long? picking it up THAT many times?????? my phone is the best distraction and also the most toxic - it makes me feel better but has a tendency to bring up all my issues and blast them into the reflection of my blue light glasses...... its called fashion look it up.

to give some examples - let’s open up my most used app: snapchat. I go on snapchat with the best of intentions - to see a memory from a year ago that makes me smile. to respond to my friends and see what their mood today is based on the look on their face. to creep on snap stories and see what everyone’s cooking and doing with their lives. somehow, tho, after spending a few minutes on the app.. i end up with a pit in my stomach most of the time. the person i want to respond hasn’t responded in 4 hours. oh god lets overthink this- they don’t like me anymore and are no longer interested in speaking to me and only respond every once in a while out of pity or because they are uncomfortable. everyone hates you. oh and GOD FORBID someone leaves me on open??! I am not funny nor interesting nor worth a reply - suddenly, i have equated my value to receiving or not receiving a photo of someone’s blank stare. this is extreme, and this is dramatic. but trust me —— this is the hamster wheel always turning in my head. I’m not even going to touch on snap maps; that feature is pandoras box and someone better fucking shut it.

second most used app is instagram. i scroll for hours, i have time limits set for the app acting like i’m actually going to listen to them and get off. lmaooooooooo. i love looking at aesthetic stuff and dogs and food and recipes and my friends’ beautiful faces. but you know what i don’t like? constant nudges to compare myself to others. oh look at her having a party with all of her friends even though we aren’t supposed to be. am i a loser for trying to be safe? oh look at her washboard abs, i’m never going to look like that and will never live up to the standard of beauty society has set for me. look at all of these people in their happy relationships. why can’t i have that? it goes over and over and over. its not like i sit there and think of these things just like that, its a precedent in my mind when i stare at everybody else that i am going to size my own life up against theirs. for years i followed every single elite model / VS angel on instagram to motivate me to do better - to start being psycho about what i did to my body so i could be as gorgeous as them. what kind of fucked up mindset is that? i would literally watch their footage of them eating rice and vegetables once a day and try to copy it. i would watch their runway walks obsessively trying to recreate them in heels alone in my house - like that was all i could imagine doing with my life. did i ever stop for a second to look at that photoshoot of gigi hadid and wonder if she was happy? wonder if the constant pictures she saw of herself ever made her insecure? what was i doing? the day i unfollowed those girls was a monumental day in my journey to a better self image. i didn’t realize the people i thought were my “motivators” were actually my triggers. i have grown to a point in life now that i would much rather eat a stack of chocolate chip pancakes that make me dance in my chair like an infant than practice my runway walk and shame my body in the mirror. and i am so freakin happy! 

i could go app by app for hours. but moving on to the next thing i hate about cell phones - how they have destroyed our biological methods of communication. you hear about those psychos who think the world is destroyed by technology and we are going to be overrun by robots. but hey, I’m with the psychos on this one. i have this amazing friend, Trevor Wright, who without fail at EVERY dinner announces “phones off friends on” and collects our phones into the center of the table. yes, we are 20 year old adults. yes, we hand our phones over to Trevor and let him yell at us for trying to see if ~that person~ snap chatted us back. i have so much respect for him because of this. there is nothing worse than staring at your phones when you could be having a good conversation about life, about love, about laughter + memories, about “do you think hellen keller is real?” anything, bro, anything. anything but snapchat messaging your hoe of the week or mindlessly playing tetris to twiddle your thumbs. we all need to start loving a little harder, and the first step to doing that is to communicate better. communicate smarter. I’m guilty of alllll of the above, don’t get me wrong. and I am ADD asf and constantly playing mindless games just to stimulate my brain. but i need to stop that! even writing this is taking some time away from the dumb shit on my phone - and encouraging me to communicate how i     r e a l l y   feel to my homies that will read this. communication - especially body language - is fascinating. I’ve studied it in  psych, I’ve learned the neurological bases of behavior and why we do what we do. I’ve learned how much our life experience impacts who we are as a whole...and it! is! fascinating! i also think that’s why i love film so much. because it can capture the raw moments of your friends just being your friends, of you just being the person you are, and the world around you just existing as it exists. i love the raw moments; and not just because indy blue posted one youtube video of her slow mo laughing and now thats the only footage i find myself shooting. 😚

im not quite sure what this post is, lol. but - just a rant on technology. so listen to me:

take advantage of technology + social media! it CAN BE GREAT. for so many reasons. but, don’t let technology + social media TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU. stay true to you - know how to communicate with yourself and your loved ones without the use of a robot. remember that feeling when you setup up your first iPhone? imagine if you could feel that again, with your phone nowhere in sight. if you don’t know how to communicate with yourself yet, start by journaling. WRITE! TYPE! SPEAK! do what you want. getting your thoughts down even without an audience is so crucial to understanding yourself and others. if you don’t like to write, reflect. breathe. meditate. make art. do what makes you feel at peace, and do whatever makes you feel like the world makes a little bit more sense than it does. 

IF YOU ARE READING DOWN TO HERE, I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU, SAY IT BACK! LIFE IS A FUCKING HIGHWAY. AND IM SO GLAD YOU’RE ON MY INTERSTATE. <3

xoxoxoxo

gossip girl

[ihatebnha]

If the reader being with Shoto wasn’t chaotic enough imagine if they were with Touya. Like what circus it would be

NO I’M GLAD YOU BROUGHT IT UP BC IVE BEEN DYING TO TALK ABOUT this for a fucking HOT MINUTE … you don’t even know… 

I definitely want to write about nice!Touya (basically just Dabi who wasn’t abused) more in depth eventually… but I totally imagine him as such a little shit who’s all goofy and everything… like super teasing and embarrassing but definitely a big simp at the same time… (honestly like, Rodrick vibes tbh with his white and black hair and everything) 

I honestly love thinking about it too because I also see family!AU Touya as sharing a lot of the same mannerisms as Shoto (based on how Shoto mentions seeing bits of himself in Dabi in the manga)… Like it makes me laugh to think about how they’re kinda the same boy in different forms… 

Both of them don’t want to be around their dad, they both want to piss him off, they both like their girlfriends (both of which are you)(remember, Rick and Morty in this bitch)… LIKE LMFAOOOO they’re definitely brothers if I ever did see them. 

God tho, you’re so right… being with Shoto is nothing compared to what Touya puts you through when you’re at their house… 

Dude won’t do ANYTHING without you; if he’s not at home, he’s at your house, if Endeavor can’t reach him on his phone, he’s calling you… Like the only reason he ever agrees to go on any vacations in the first place too is because you’re allowed to come… like he definitely gives me big Tik Tok “I’m not going if y/n’s not going” vibes… 

(Mans probably calls you his wife too just because… that’s kinda what you are already LOL) 

Also, just like Shoto, he’s NON-STOP fucking you just to piss Endeavor off… on the bed, on the couch, in the shower, he does not give a fuck... and honestly at some point there probably has to be an intervention. Natsuo and Fuyumi just pat you on the shoulder when they lead Touya away to talk to him about his… libido… problem… 

Honestly though, shit doesn’t even work because he pulls the “it’s a big boy thing, you guys wouldn’t understand” card… to which Natsuo wants to kill him (as if, and I’ve said this before, he ALSO wouldn’t do the same)(tbh all Todorokis are the same) and Fuyumi can’t figure out why he wants her to suffer… (Shoto thinks it’s gross but he’s like, TBH mood)

Honestly, they probably even start snitching to Endeavor… who, even though is highly disturbed, also knows he can’t stop Touya and has kinda a soft spot for him, anyway… 

(Touya: stay out of my business and just close your ears idk)

ALSO like… when Endeavor yells at you both, it’s a little different from when he yells at Shoto because, in this case, you’re both a bit older and it’s really more like a daughter in law type situation (not that it’s not with Shoto, just that Endeavor in that sitch is literally praying you guys graduate college or something first)… 

So if you’re out with the family and whatnot, Endeavor is less so about to yell at you about grades and more so about to make sure the both of you don’t embarrass him in public by being rude or gross.  

I also see Endeavor as the the type of dad who, if Touya’s asking for money, he’s like, “buy y/n something nice, too” when he’s pulling out his credit card sjkdfjas;dlksj (to which you and Touya come home with matching nails and tracksuits and the Japanese equivalent of Cheesecake Factory for everyone). 

(Like idk why but I also keep imagining you all at, like idk, the shoe store or something getting new shoes for the year, and Endeavor is forcing you to get a new pair, too)

And it doesn’t stop there, either… Touya does things like ask you to hand feed him at dinner (the both of you trying not to laugh the whole entire time), getting all fake handsy and mushy with you in front of others on purpose, French kissing in the car, holding your butt when you walk, etc.… it’s honestly kinda cringe. 

(Not that he would actually do this but… Touya who jokes about gets your name tattooed on him just to bother Endeavor… like tbh he doesn’t know what he expected)(Imagine if he actually did this tho… my cooter is wet ngl)

(AND THAT ONE EPISODE OF KARDASHIANS WHERE SCOTT SHAVES KOURTNEY’S HOOHAA… thats’s Touya bye) 

ANDDDDD OMG, don’t even get me started on when you actually participate in family fights with Touya… when you’re with Shoto, the both of you mostly just try to sneak away to fuck… but when you’re with Touya, you guys really get down and dirty yelling right back. 

Touya literally pops a boner whenever you get sassy with any of his family like I’m definitely crying. You tell Endeavor to shut up and Touya immediately has to drag you away because he thinks it’s hot LOOOOL 

(If Touya’s in trouble, you’re in trouble for not stopping him basically LOL)(You guys are the “you got this, baby!” Couple when either of you are yelling

Anyway… I need to wrap this up but… Family!AU Touya…. Yeah…. No thoughts… just him...💙