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Hello!! I hope you are doing well, wanted to say I love your work !!
Can I request how the BSD boys (Dazai, Kunikida, Ranpo, Chuuya, Fukuzawa etc) would react to gf!fem!reader saying “I am just a hole” after they did something attractive? Something fun and suggestive ehehe~
No brain, just horny!
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Summary: No one cared about you being down bad for you bfs since everything's mutual, right? (Dazai, Kunikida, Ranpo, Fukuzawa)
Genre: fluff, maybe crack, def suggestive themes, maybe a tiny tiny bit of smut. Who knows 💀
Warnings: yall gonna be horny after this 🤓
A/N: was kinda difficult to think of fitting scenarios but i had fun writing this!! Also thank you for loving my work, anonnnn 💕💕💕💕
Part 2
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Dazai Osamu
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WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAAAAAAT 💀💀💀💀
HES HORNY 24/7, DONT EXPECT HIM TO HOLD BACK LMAOO 💀💀😭😭
okay okay so lets say yall are at the ADA office
hes done with annoying the shit ouf of kuni and now hes just sitting on the couch, literally bored out of his mind
Kuni tells u to tell "that dumbass idiot of a boyfriend🤩" to finally get back to work so u go up to him
u know that scene where he leans his head back onto the grave and slowly tilts it back down and opens his eyes while having that soft smile on his face? oda's only purpose was him dying so we'd get that scene, crying fr 😭😭😭
Yeah hes doing exactly THAT as he notices your presence infront of him, flashing you a smile and only for it to spread even further as he notices your dazed face 💀
"Oh, bella? Too lovestruck to talk to me, I see. Can't help it that I'm just so hands-"
"I'm nothing but a hole for you"
I DONT KNOW HOW SOMEONE COULD EVEN SAY THAT 😭😭 THATS SUCH A WEIRD THING TO SAY AND SO DUMB BUT NO ONE CARES 🥲🥲🥲
AND HIS HORNY ASS DOESNT GIVE TWO SHITS EITHER 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️
his eyes are fking bulging as he hears you say that infront of him
ACTUALLY shocked that you had the guts to legit say that outloud and luckily no one rly heard that except him he wouldnt mind if the whole ass office wouldve heard that, we KNOW 💀
you manage to get a good laugh out of him before he just shoots you that god awful handsome smirk before he suddenly stands up
Towering over you, he leans in and whispers "Never thought you'd be so dirty to say stuff like that during working hours. Not that I'm complaining! I'm glad to have such a strong effect on you, bella~" got me blushing fr😳😳😳
Its too late to realise what you've just said. Your fate has been sealed.
OFF TO HORNY JAIL YALL GO 💀💀🗣️
no jk but nah nah he wont stop there
Youve awakened the fking horny beast in him and how could he refuse his love offering herself so blatantly while your coworkers were literally in the same room?? 🤩😋
He just takes your hand as he proceeds to leave the office
Kuni just yells "Oi, where the hell do you think you're going?! Only told you to tell him to work! Not join his stupid shenanigans!! 😡😡"
YOU KNOW that ur bf just turns around and shoots him that annoying ass smirk, only to say
"But Kunikida, we are off to work actually! Nothing you'd be able to do anyway. Tell me when you've found something interesting in all that paper work of yours! Can tell you that our job will definitely be more fun than that~ 😁😁"
You can only give poor kuni a sheepish smile as atsushi just deadpans at the both of you, muttering a "good luck 😐" towards you as your bf just drags you to his car because your job's gonna be too loud to do at the ada and going home wont be an option since dazai's not patient in that sense 💀💀💀
Already sending prayers to you for having to go back to "work" while being sore af and dazai looking like he got out of a 10 day wellness vacation 😭🥲🥲
dazai's actually gonna spare our poor kuni by kinda doing some paper work but our man will be forever traumatised bc hes not oblivious 🗣️
Especially after seeing your neck littered with hickeys 😭😭 u cant hide them, youve got a damn mosquito as a bf 💀
kuni just tosses a bottle of water your way without looking at u bc he thinks its not modest to shamelessly look at them 😤 I LOVE U KUNI
"thanks, i guess" is all you'll hear from him bc at the end, you DID get dazai to work but at what cost 😭
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Kunikida Doppo
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Flabbergasted. Shocked. Disappointed. Shamefully not too hard to turn on. 💀
His first reaction is gonna be like u just told ur mom u forgot to do the laundry 😭
DEF gonna scold your ass off for saying such things in such an inappropiate setting
its not your fault hes being so hot during work 😤😤😤😤
Tell him off for being so handsome!! 🤩
Wont stop his scolding but u cant take him serious when hes fumbling over his words
Still manages to thank you for ur compliment even though its embarassing af 😭 no way would he refuse such kind words from his love 😋
So anyway it could go two ways with him
The first would be if yall wouldnt be alone at the ADA
You go up to him to ask him about a report you need help with
Ive never seen kuni tie his hair up but... imagine catching him doing that...
With the hair tie in his mouth as he pulls his hair back and like...
It makes u think of the times you'd yank it back during yk what 🤭
So he notices you gape at him and is all like "🤨 are you alright?"
Cue to you just uttering "Damn, kuni. You only gotta ask. Am just a hole for you anyway" out of nowhere
LMAO you can just hear dazai cackling from the couch as your bf just looks at you like 😳 with his mouth agape and everything
Dazai just walks up to you to pat your shoulder
"Kunikida, you've got quite the daring girlfriend!" "SHUT YOUR ANNOYING MOUTH UP"
kuni just quickly ties his hair back and BROO he nearly feels so violated and exposed 😭😭😭😭
Why would u do this to him AT WORK 😭
Ngl u and dazai prob team up to annoy him to death like hes just so fun to TEASE 😤
Anyway he just tells you to get back to work and when u tell him you need some help, he begrudgingly does it bc its important but you can still his hands shake a bit and his face is red as he tries to give you advice on ur work skskksks 💀
Be ready to get scolded for HOURS when yall are on ur way home 🤓
But dw u know how to shut his beautiful mouth up 🤭😋
But if you do the whole thing while yall are alone at work bc kuni decided to stay a bit longer then THATS a different story
Lets say he does the same thing again as above ^ and u say the same thing
He'll def turn a bit red and tell you that you cant say stuff like that during work!
"But kuni, we're alone and no ones gonna come back anyway. It's nearly 8pm after all."
The sun's setting and the only light that softly illuminates the room and it just steals ur fking breath bc 😭 hes so gorgeous with his hair open 😭😭😭
But u can still see his gaze on u, making ur knees weak bc BROO
horny jail for kuni too????? 💀💀💀
jk but he'll clear his throat and just say "a work place is still a work place so i cant let this inappropiate behavior just go like that..."
You're like standing infront of him and he grabs you by your waist, softly kneading it as he tells u to sit on his lap 😭
"Will teach that mouth of yours how to behave. Maybe after this you'll be a bit more tame. Think that idiot has been a bad influence on you like he has with everyone but don't worry. I'll be sure to teach you everything again."
I'll let you imagine the rest here 🤭🤭
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Edogawa Ranpo
man just wants to eat his candy in peace, get ur horny ass away from him 🤨🤨🤨🤨
u thought dazai's a whole bitch???? Nah nah this is a MAN CHILD right here
This man wont give u what u want, nah he'll let u suffer alone LOL 💀💀
if this happens at work then 🤷 honestly depends on what mood he is i think
its a hot day in yokohama and the air conditioning is not rly helping yall
so u kinda wanna go grab some ice cream during ur break and u dont need to think twice about asking ur bf to go with u
fr he'll be SO annoying if u dont take him with u 💀 but dw he obviously knows why u r approaching him rn 🤩
but he takes a while to catch on why u just stopped and looked like a fish rn like a combo of this :0 and 😳
he just goes "🤨"
"Damn, the bathroom's close. 'am just a hole for you anyway so let's go" u legit go 😨 after realising what u just said
How no one hears that, idk but this hoe DEF heard u well
U r even more scared bc he just sits there and doesnt react but oops
only needs some sec before he opens his eyes and smirks at u 🤭
"Eh~ You've got guts, Y/N. Saying naughty stuff like that during work hours. Not that I mind though. Just shows how smitten you are by the World's Greatest Detective~"
"N-"
He just waves a finger at u like you're a lil kid getting scolded rn 💀
"Ah ah ah, don't try to refute that fact. Can't blame you for your reaction after all. It's still funny to me that all it took was me losening my tie, gliding a hand through my hair and open up a button of my shirt. ~ "
He just gets up and gives you a peck on your cheek before walking ahead
"I still want that ice ream though! If it's good then I'll give tending to your needs a thought!" 💀 THIS BITCH
but dw he'll make sure to show u how smitten he is after that bc ur mouth just tastes better after some sweet ice cream, right 🤓??
but u know whats the best combo with saying that sentence?
a jealous ranpo 🤩
like ok quick scenario
lets move this outside of work, ok?
So yall are walking around and some random dude decides to hit on u and hello 🤨cant he see that u r legit holding hands with the world's greatest detective??
u kindly tell the man to fuck off but nah hes not letting u chill
wraps protectively his arm around ur waist, clearly showing him that YOU. ARE. TAKEN.
"with that scrawny lookin dude???" bro hes got a death sentence 💀
time for ur bf to show him his skills 🤭 which means threatening him to expose everything about him
immediately tells him where he lives, what he does for a living, where he likes to shop, where his parents live. E. V. E. R. Y. T. H. I. N. G
he just smirks and puffs his chest slightly out as that dude just fking runs off bc id be terrified too 😨
He deserves it tho ✋
"What a fool! Thinking he could challenge ME?! The greatest detective to ever live! See how terrified he was!" hes fking cackling before stopping as he sees ur face
brothers and sisters, we are LOVESTRUCK
and that hoe cann see that right away 💀
"Thank you..." like should we say how hot that was???? maybe 😳😳???
"And?" AH obviously he got us 😭
but we too embarassed to say smth but NICE, theres a nearby alley so u know where hes dragging us 🤩
Pressed up against the wall and hes just centimeters away from u as he asks again
"That wasn't everything you wanted to say, right~? Of course you find me" hot" but just wanna hear it from you, love."
"FUCK, am just a hole for u" 💀😳
goes wide eyed for a sec before chuckling and saying "Well, that wasn't what I wanted to hear but I'll let it count!"
His eyes travel down your neck before finally saying "Hm, I've got an idea in how to make everyone know that you're taken. I deserve a little treat after having saved you, no?" 🤭🤭🤭 got me blushing fr
Anyway problem solved, no one made moves onto u after that and it might turn into a habit before yall go out for the next times 🗣️
But no one's complaining hihi 🤭🤭😳
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Fukuzawa Yukichi
oh god where do i even begin 💀
i gotta hold myself back from getting off topic when it comes to HIM 😭
honestly this man has seen and experienced so many things, u gotta do a lot to catch THIS man off guard 💀💀
bro he had to deal with mori's ass in his 20's for too long and STILL deals with it till this day 😐😐😐😐😐
not to mention the agency is like his fking orphanage at this point 😐
Already enough that his first child is still a child with his thirty years of living on this damn planet 🤓
lets say u work at the ADA as well and now yall r holding a meeting to go over some details for a random mission
Idk if its just me but... the way he sits there and is leading that whole shit, telling em what to do and how they could handle it the best way, while encouraging everyone to work hard n stuff... idk....
Its just so HOT 😳😳😳🤭
like hes so charismatic, fuck dazai, yall cant compare ANYONE to this man 😭😭😭😭😭😭 no wonder everyone follows him, id lick his shoes too 😭😭 HORNY JAIL FOR ME?????
anyway he dismisses everyone and the both of you are the last ones to be in the room bc u r just sitting at the table and staring at him like 😳
Dw my girl, hes been noticing the way you've been looking at him the whole time
"Is everything alright, my love? You've been staring at me for quite a while now."
"N-No its nothing 😳"
nah no need to hold back bc we know our knees r gonna buckle the second he takes ur hand
AND HE DOES 🤩🤩
his eyes slightly crinkle at the end as you can see amusement dance in them
"I know that look when something's on your mind. I'll respect your decision to not tell me but I'd like to know what it is."
honestly your red face is already proof enough whats on ur mind but how can u hide it when hes just looking at you with such an intense gaze UGH I LOVE THIS MAAAAAN 😭😭😭😭😭😭
"W-Well the way you just handle everything with ease even though its a lot of pressure and i dont know...it's just really admirable but also hot when you tell them what to do. wouldnt mind you doing that in the bedroom too, you know. id be a hole for u anytime like this... "
u tryna mumble that shit out of embarassement but he clearly heard you 💀
And he does go wide eyed out of surprise because DAMN thats still pretty straightforward and was kinda the last thing he'd thought you'd say but honestly... he doesnt mind it 💀
in facr hes liking it a bit too much for himself 💀💀 but who is he to complain? Especially when his lover is being so honest with him?
" So you want me to be a bit more authoritative in the bedroom? I-It might be a bit awkward for me to do so but if it's something you desire then we'll gladly try it out together. We should be done with the mission around the evening but if not then..."
you feel his hands gently cup your face as he presses his lips against yours before pulling a bit too soon for your liking
"Then I hope this will suffice until then. I'll be sure to thank you for your patience after everything's over."
THE ONLY THIINNGG
THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DO IS SAY YESSSS 🤩🤩😭😭😭😭😭
IDC IF IM NOT SPEAKING FOR EVERYONE BC
We WILL wait for him OKAY 💀💀✋✋✋
he just strokes your hair lovingly as you try to hide ur face bc hes just too blinding
anyway as the both of u get ready to leave, yall just hear quick shuffling behind yall bc OOPS
THE DOOR WAS OPEN 💀
THE KIDS DIDNT LEAVE LOL 💀💀 THEY HEARD EVERYTHING
"😳☺️🤭😏" u can choose which ADA member would make which face 💀💀💀
ngl u prob sometimes call them ur children and BRO
ranpo actually annoys u for some candy ngl 💀
u once punched dazai's gut bc yk he'd ask the stupid question like
"if you're our mom, would that make you a milf?"
send him back to the MAFIA trash can he came from 🤩🤩
jk but might write a oneshot about him even tho hes difficult to write 💀
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will def do a part 2 of this bc it gives me an excuse to simp for these men 💀
#bsd x reader#bungou stray dogs x reader#bsd dazai#dazai x reader#bsd kunikida#kunikida x reader#bsd ranpo#ranpo x reader#bsd fukuzawa#fukuzawa x reader
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what the hell are we.
sukana x black reader pt2
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Last thing he said to me was i gotta earn his heart. That's sum bullshit. I dont even care no more, Dick wasnt even that good. He fucked me and left me, like some whore, I can'g believe that shit. But it's been 3 months already. I decided to date a man by the name of Muja Akutski. He's my everything for real, buh he be playing with my feelings and ofc niggas ain' shit gurl so i shit you not, Dick ain' good at 'll. I can't stand that shit.
" Yo, y/n, bring yo ass up in here." He called out from the living room, my living room btw. " Whats up baby?" He stared at me for too long, and i could tell he's pissed off, and i was confused of why, as usual. " Why u ain' clean tha kitchen." I was quick " Cause i ain mess it up muja, the fuc', Don't bring yo goofy ass ova here, of u gon fuck my house up, u gotta clean shit up." Slap!!
i looked up teary eyed, As usual, i get hit by him, But i cant leave him, i leave imma want sukana dick again, i can't get ova it, as much as i want to. But back to the problem.
" Muja what the fuck? ." He looked at me crazy, " Crazy ass bitch ain' gon b talkin crazy to me when i fuck yo pussy righ." I rolled my eyes and replied quickier than a rat eating a crumb " Yo dick lame anyways boy, Get the fuck out my house muja."
" No bitch." i know how to get his ass though y'all. " I'm calling Yujji and gojo if you dont get out." He had a bit of fear in him but then he's seen as bold for a minute, " Call them bitchass niggas ova y/n, I dont give a fuck."
i pull out my phone nd dial they number. Burrrrr......burrrr, Burrrrr..."uh hello"
" toru' , this nigga keep hitting me and calling me names, please come over and beat his ass toru". he looked upset in the phone but he rains hell on me the next minute, " y/n, i'm sorry, me and yujji are on a mission, and i'm showing him stuff out here in yokohama, Call ryomen."
thats no.
" Its fine toru, i'll hand-." Yujji pops up and he says " Y/n if u dont call ryomen i will, I'm not letting this gremlin touch u nm! Call him y/n."
" Muja leave.". I already know what he's gonna say. " Why should i leave im not scared of a punk ass nigga, Bring ryomen, Such an ugly ass name, Tell him i whoop yo ass."
burrrr....burrrr.....burrrrr.....
" wsp mamas?"
i hate when he does that. " Sukana, can u come to my dorm." i turn away from muja and cover my mouth to the phone, " I am being hit by muja again-." Muja starts breaking stuff in my room and house in general. " Yeah im on the way."
Muja finally decided to throw a vase ag my head, " ja, Stop this shit please, sukana gonna handle yo shit, Act like u have sense or you gon die, Stop breaking my shit!!!!!!!! I work hard for all of this." he goes breserk, " What to fuck gojo for the fucking money to but u all of this? Ur a dirty ass hoe, U bitch, U AINT NUN BUT I USED UP SEX TOY TO ME ANYWAYS, I AINT NEVER SEEN SOMEONE SO EASY-."
we hear a laugh from the front door and see sukana already invited himself in " your sex toy is funny. i suggest u leave right now.".
Muja raises his hand to me, " U fucking bit-." i hear a slice. and i see muja head fall to the ground. but he still capable of breathing and talking. " U wanna talk about sex toy and shit, I rmb last time y/n called me a lil boy, well u have one right here mamas..". " lets give him sum rq."
We were already in my room, when ryo start touchin on me, " Sukana stop ! You left me last time and now u wanna put ur dick inside of me again? Nigga your crazy as fuck, Get out.!"
" Mama i aint leave u."
"thats exactly what u did."
" lemme make it up.".
In no time, Im faced down, Ass up, In front of the living room mirror with sukana fucking my brains out again. " 'kuna...mghn, can't take more, sensitive.". "nu uh baby, we gotta let this broke trick see how good i can fuck you, show u how yo real man fuck u other than a little side shit.".
His head infact is set up prettily on the nightstand next to the couch, stilk alive watching this unfold with tape on his mouth. Im clenching around his dick, about to cum, but i know better, he tells me when to cum, i dont call the shots.
" dont know why u left this bitch in my pussy anyway y/n, yk i'm the only to hit this shi, so i need you to count after each lash upon ur ass mama, and count."
SLAP !
" ah ryo."
"count"
"Mghn ahh! one."
As he keep putting lashes across my ass while fucking me senselessly, my pussy is clencing around him so good, i start feeling him tighten up and his rhythm gets sloppy.
" kuna can i cum."
" nu uh, come ride this dick for me baby."
he slides out and sits on the couch, sukana puts his hands on my waist and turns me around, I have my knees on the couch, and i'm still facing the mirror, as i lower myself down, my pussy is still senstive, so i try not to sit completely but sukana pulls me down. " baby, dont fuck with me, dont run from the dick baby, sit the fuck on the dick and take it, U took fuck bitches dick well, whats wrong with mines, bouce on this shit."
i start crying for real now, i feel everything.
" s'kuna please, Please i cant, 's too much."
" u can baby, ur strong, strong enough to shut up, and fucking bounce."
as im bouncing, moaning and crying and whining. I feel it, fucking.
" kuna kuna kunakunakunakuna AH MNGH AH OMG."
squirt all over his dick, the mosy lewd noises start, when i go back to boucing, sobs, moans. i hear sukana groan in my ear, and he praises me, he pulls me back while i ride, pinching my tities while fingering my clit, he keeps fucking my pussy.
" f-fuck, y/n, g'na make u a mama, tired of playin'"
muja starts losing his shit but sukana didnt care, He nutted in me, still going.
" gonna look so pretty with my baby y/n."
muja lifeless head now rolls, and stops in front.
" are u staying this time kuna."
" yeah, i'll stay with u."
#sukana x reader#2010's-2019's anime#90s anime#anime edit#anime#anime gif#anime style#animecore#obanai x y/n
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the painting i continued (from longer than a year ago) has too bright white highlights so i need to get rid of them AND quite possibly it would be nice to just give up and do whaeter and get on the train just ot look at all the stations i havent seen before nd cvt and listten to whip your kids on repeat again and again and have no money to afford to eat and find someone who is just so ?? and mean but not in that non self absorbed self absorbed way and stupid because everyone has too much to look forward to and too much to complain about and that makes everyone so yucky and hypocritical and ughghurejne me whenni have work tmr ALSO need to print out more movie photos AND anyone i meet gets so human and i get sick of them so easily but not myself so i will always be alone and thats a good thing unless im not listening to music then it is not so good bc i can hear my breathing an feel my skin also what even is life without music its just ------------------ no ty i do not want to be like amber or ritchie but oh i did thrift their shoes and also jasons but hes kind of an L WAIT that makes so much sense anyway that scene where they are walking in the store with the heavy combat boots that have been discontinued (why?) and a shotgun wow! imagine being tricked by a soda can what a loser anyway the sehleves ive built are really nice and after doing that with hands blistered and joints sore i realised i can fit everythign insdie it and oh god im gonna lose absolutely everything! and thn something even WoORSE hit me that none of this even means anytnign, what the flip, imagine this format will stop and we only live in the real world what then maybe just maybe musicals make sense and then i bash my head into my desk HOW COULD U FOR A SECOND THINK MUSICALS ARE OKAY blood is spurting just likein that scene in longlegs dilf, jokes no maybe nicholas cage hes too pasty this has gotten long uve recently discovered this rly underground and unpopular artist michael jackson yea nobodies really heard of him sigh WHY DO I HAVEA FRENCH BOOK OH GOD IM GOING TO HELL people should put everything ive ever ever made into a bible because that is all i am and i am so happy that is true so yea put this in as well and all my assigmnets and paintings and digital art from 2019 and old drawings and scribbles and south park doodles and short stories ad gore and all the deleted notes of measurrements (sigh why phone) and dont forget all the photos and the annotations i rubbed out later cuz they sounded dumb and too personal remember always to make ur writing as obscure as possible because people always look to make everything about them hey emotions are really stupid our brains are amazing at finding information so much of it but our conciousness is preoccupied with other stupid stuff like education and being horny so all we get is emotions that have been processed information so hey our thinking brain really is in the back seat and we cant change it yk im bnad! im bad! u knowit really really bad megamind... evan peters is eyeing me rn.. i did a really good job of diverting my mental problems its actually really good but i am hoping we can get back to them once they get fixed and maybe this dependence wiol go away too right maybe and wait a darn second are you telling me i wont find myself a tim burton anti hero what the flip unbelievable may i get a refund never sell your doc martens just break them in please the blisters and pus and blood will pass and they will be great i swear unless theyre the max platform types then u might have to keep getting pain but thats okay god dont tell me i need to work in the future although when i watched the movie for the 2nd time in cinemas there was 3 seconds where there was a doctor with a mask and wowww maybe i shld become one of those but i dontthink i have the right motivation maybe neurobiology maybe quantum mechanics mabe maybe even both like quantum mind god thats interesting but only after biology i need to get worried abt climate change and then realise OH MY GOD NOTHING MATTERS BUT OUR MINDS and thats
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I agree abt the white knighting. u and some anons r quick to criticize the language ppl in terras use but when asked to introspect abt it urself, u refuse cause it’s ur blog ur opinion ur rules. that’s hypocrisy to me. i aint burying my head in the sand like u say, this is a genuine criticism and if u r gonna ignore it then I think that’s petty. all ur being asked is to look back and try to understand where anons r coming from, u call some ppl white knights and meat riders for bringing up valid concerns even if they also agree terras r bad. U don’t just do it on posts where ppl actually are white knighting.
alright lets dissect every recent post i have called whiteknighting
Post 1
“Oh yeah. A villain bc they revoked the right to THEIR OWN WORK... Whatever shall the world do? However shall we survive the fact coy didn't want them using THEIR WORK after going back on a deal”
hey look speaking of whiteknights
youre missing the forest for the trees here, terra staff was completely willing to remove coys assets but they wanted to act like a toddler stomping their foot shouting “NOW NOW NOW” that they broke in to the site and vandalized it. but sure, your immature petty pos idol can do no wrong
what about this is ignoring?
their argument: “coy is not a villain for wanting their art taken down”
my argument: “nobody said that, cal was perfectly fine taking the artwork down, they just said they cant do it in a heartbeat. coy is in the wrong for breaking in to the site and doing it themself with no consideration for how it will affect the species.”
Post 2
“It's so funny how obsessed y'all are with coy and civ... Get over it bro”
wow its almost like… their actions have a direct consequence on the species…whoooaa
Their argument: “why do you guys care about this”
my argument: “because people have put time and effort into this species, cal and his new team are trying to pick up the pieces and have gone a lot further than ever before with coy and civ at the head. coy being a dipshit has a direct affect on how the species will operate, specifically in this situation by taking away all the old pet species which people may have cared about and wanted to make characters out of.”
Post 3
“You mean.... The site THEY MADE? oh noo, how dare they remove their art from the site them and their partner made... Boohoo.... Boo boohoo.... Stan petty Coy”
come in my inbox again with these room temperature iq takes and im blocking you. they barely did shit for the species and you know that, and coy themself admitted they never had anything to do with the site they just wanted to make their dumbass plain white dog adopts to rake in cash while doing no extra work to put the pieces together
repeating: cal and staff were PERFECTLY FINE taking off all of civ and coys assets, however you cant fucking do that with the snap of a finger. i know this must be incredibly difficult for you coy supporters out there but lets TRY to use our brains for a min
their argument: (ignores my counterpoint from Post 1) well THEY made the site initially. i dont care im still gonna stan coy.”
my argument: “oh ok cool, i can see you are not actually willing to engage with the argument and just want to be inflammatory, and i dont feel like dealing with you if you arent going to use critical thinking. (reiterating my point from post 1)
for this post in particular, i would also like to add that in the transferring of species ownership, there are cetrain things that can be assumed to change ownership along with the transfer. (this is not the first time a species has ever been transferred in ownership). for one, the site. obviously thats needed for species functions so it now belongs to cal. another is NPCs, other species when transferred will give the NPCs to relevant staff because they are an integral part of species function. in this specific instance, the pets, since they were never a part of the original agreement they are assumed to move ownership as well. coy can make the argument they want their art taken down, thats perfectly fine, they could even say they want their designs taken down, but again, the problem is that this is not something that can just be done at the drop of a hat. you need to find replacements and create new assets. breaking in to the site and vandalizing it because you wanted to be a bitch baby and have no patience is immature and wrong. the site has changed ownership. you do not have agency over it anymore, you dont get to go in and delete things without asking.
lets compare this to an oc you trade on toyhouse. lets say you own this OC for a year, and you have drawn a good amount of art for it. then you trade it away, boop, gone, not yours anymore. lets say later on you dont want your art featured on that OC’s page. problem is, that art you drew is embedded within the character’s profile code. you have the full right to delete the art, but you cant just break into the OC’s profile code and fuck around with it yourself. you have to ask the new owner to take it down, and they say of course, but youll have to be patient so they can redraw a new asset for the code.
granted, this example falls short in some ways, but you get what im trying to say
anyways, the point is that if youre going to refuse to engage with the argument then im not going to engage with you. i truly do not understand why you guys are ride or die-ing for these shitty posts that have absolutely no substance
#closed species vent#terralien#closed species#terraliens#vent#coy and civ are over party#whiteknight
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dts s5 e6-8
e6: -having flashbacks of having to defend oscar to my mom for this why does the show try to lean into otmar's perspective so heavily GROSS -nah im full tinhatting i do not remember this whole bit where everyone hypes up oscar in interview before he has his lil chat with mark netflix u slimey lil bitches -oh if i was here when this news broke summer break 2022. i would've been inconsolable. i'm sure it was nuts, ballistic. maybe it was good i wasnt there. idk if i could've handled it akldkfjadslkfjasdkfj -lando saying "i already am (leading the team)" was not that rude it was just the TRUTH sorry -daniel speaking italian is so important actually -"ive been in this sport for 25 years i know what im doing" king that only makes the fumble THAT much more embarrassing COME ON -otmar talking abt how well oscar took all the shit we offered aren't we owed a contract? reminds me of timeshare schemes like actually just u paid for xyz if you dont have a contract in place he doesnt owe u anything maybe do contracts better next time :) -unfortunately zak brown is right!! its a pr disaster is the 5 million worth it!!! and they didnt even get the 5 mil!!! how do lose ur job speedrun masterclass here!! -i do wonder how much netflix inflated daniel's chances for the alpine seat, bc from what i've heard it wasnt really in the conversation. idk i wasnt there but it would make sense for netflix to lean heavily into this narrative -did not realize liam was sitting Right There when pierre was askin abt the gossip aldfjaslkfjaksjdf -the way how in season 1 its like NO DANIEL DON"T LEAVE RED BULL i feel the same way abt pierre going to alpine. like ofc it made perfect sense at the time and you cant fault him for it but like no babygirl its bouta implode PLEASE -rip all the tiktok edits that were muted in the umg purge that paired "good luck to oscar" with "if a man talks shit then i owe him nothing." thank u taylor couldn't have said it better myself -"do you regret anything that's happened?" "um. no :)" U TELL EM BABY
e7: -i'm sorry but geri seemingly getting boiling water from a tap to make tea is so fucking insane rich person cursed -was originally gonna include this funny shot of christian standing looking out a balcony like sharpay evans in high school musical in my s5 gifset but due to recent events i will not :) -i just think. that including this whole bit abt how much checo loves his family in the same episode as the monaco gp where he allegedly cheated on his wife was a CHOICE. interesting. -lewis's monaco 2022 outfit is one of his best outfits ever. its so iconic 2 me -HI ALEX -so many cinematic parallels to discuss. s1 max putting it in the wall in practice and ruining his race to prove he was faster than daniel. known parallels to brocedes ALLEGEDLY trying to sabotage eachother by crashing in that corner in monaco. hmm hmm hmm. much to think -im sorry the sainz collision is just so goofy. i remember watching the replay of this quali and being bamboozled. befuddled. deeply amused. what a stupid fucking sport -'for fucks sa-........okay this is typical monaco isnt it" MAX GETS IT -i honestly dont mind wet monaco races just bc by nature of the track its on average slower therefore less dangerous. i'll take a wet monaco over a wet spa any damn day -ferrari's double pit fuck up is PEAK embarassing ferrari strats. like to do a bad strat is one thing but to just mess up the strat ur trying to do. peak biblically cursed charles leclerc moment
e8: -god i wish i got more into yukierre. i see the appeal. unfortunately they just dont give me brain worms -many thoughts. um i think focusing on yuki's temper is just. unfair. like sure he should work on it but thats an issue with many young drivers its not a unique failure on his part -i have given thoughts on japan '22 before i'm not rly gonna rehash but i really wish the didn't gloss over it on dts. i think it was an important moment in the sport to have a big conversation abt rain safety. -oh this nyck supercut is gonna be painful knowing where it goes :/ -god remember when ppl thought nyck was gonna lead the team? leave yuki in the dust? even /i/ had him above yuki in my preseason predictions isnt that insane? -"im happy, i'll take that, that you'll miss me at least 2 or 3 minutes" god forgot the most romcom ass shit since sebchals we'll start by holding hands -nando n lance having this crazy crash and now a year later they're fucking on the reg. happy 4 them
#i'm ahead of schedule now on purpose so i dont have to worry abt it when pst starts!#i will likely finish 2moro WOO#she speaks#dtsrewatch
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the txt members as brainrot
(fuck @/always4gowon u trump supporting bitch i hope u and you mama fall down the fucking stairs, poorly educated prolly a casserole eater (white person) fuck. u dont understand how politics works and u should not have an opinion. i wouldnt be surprised if ur IQ was under 70 because ur dumbass self brings religion into politics but the thing is u believe in a religion that has more sexual abusers and pedophiles than normal, well educated, independent, mentally stable people thats js crazy imo!! hope u get mental help cause something aint right in ur brain, you think slower than the average person and i wouldnt be shocked if u was a white female who lives in Delaware. fuck your racist ass and fuck ur mama for raising you like that)
i dont fuck with the trump supporting individuals, this post WAS but is not inspired by anyone that i know of. idgaf if u “made” this trend or wtv, until u show and tell me you political beliefs and views this post is my idea idgaf
thank u for reading that and i dont give 2 shits if u agree or not, as a woc i have the right to say this idea is mine until you show that ur beliefs are the same as mine. im not giving any credit to a fucker who wants abortion gone, immigrants gone, groceries higher and who brings up religion when we are discussing something that could genuinely affect more than 3 billion lives
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doing the txt members cause i didnt script a friend group in my txt dr, and no i do not affiliate myself with that weirdass ho. lets continue on though
YEONJUN | 연준
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fein, lunchly, thats what they called me in highschool
“fein fein fein fein” how about u start feining for a job!!!! IM TIRED OF HEARING FEIN
“5 minutes before we go on stage” “fein fein fein fein fein fein feinnn ohhh yeah fein fein” i have unwillingly picked up this habit
“did u guys see that four legged beast over there” “thats what they called me in highschool”
i cant say Shit around rhis man without him saying “thats what they called me in highschool” YOU ARE 25 YEARS OLD.
“i like my cheese drippy bruh” how about i slap u into next week u poorly educated bafoon
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SOOBIN | 수빈
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gap gap wap wap, 𝓲𝓶 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 𝓿𝓻𝓸, sigma/beta/alpha
2 am at the dorm, the sounds u will hear is
loud clicking noises (beomgyu playing games)
‘hmmm’ every 5 seconds (yeonjun deciding on what clothes to buy)
laughing and giggling (tyunning watching a tiktok together)
and soobin saying “gap gap wap wap” for the 289th time that day (KEEP IN MIND THAT ITS TWO AM.)
“𝓲𝓶 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 𝓿𝓻𝓸” ur born in 2000 and im born in 2002 if we think harder about this i have the right to sue u
instead of u saying “𝓲𝓶 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 𝓿𝓻𝓸” to me how about u get a girlfriend and say that to her u LOSER.
“ur definitely a beta and im definitely an alpha” im employed what does this mean?
“isn’t hueningkai so sigma” uhmmmmm what
BEOMGYU | 범규
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livvy dunne, baby gronk, gyat, everything.
most brainrotted of them all. hes too far gone
“oh my gyat what the skibidi!! livvy dunne got a sigma gyat and vro i just saw this edit an epik moa made of me and i look like such a mogger in it instead of a POTATO ;-; 🤫🧏 THOSE WHO KNOW💀💀 gimme mah kookey :c”
he uses any and ALL brainrot from ALL OF THE YEARS. how are u using vro and talking like ur role playing in “Adopt and Raise a Cute Baby🏠” ???
nothing he says makes sense at this point.
TAEHYUN | 태현
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i forgor, perchance, paracetamol, galvanized square steel
he’s secretly brainrotted dont let his magic tricks fool u.
“hey taehyun” “wait i forgor” “HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😭😭😭😭😭😭😂😂😂😂😂”
it was a SPELLING MISTAKE. NOT ME ACTUALLY SAYING I FORGOR.
“i forgor but this might perchance be paracetamol” he MIGHT use sigma every once in a while
“paracetamol, paracetamol, perchance paracetamol”
LORDDDDD SHUTT ITTTT IVE BEEN HEARING GAP GAP WAP WAP, FEIN, GYAT, RIZZ, AND PARACETAMOL ALL DAY.
he tries to be all big, buff and mysterious but if u say perchance he bust out laughing and suddenly everyone can hear him.
he genuinely watches those galvanized square steel videos because he thinks he needs to know how to build a house for 1.982 decilion people.
“perchance this is galvanized square steel and can u get me some… i forgor oh i remember! can u get me some paracetamol?” and keep in mind, HES LAUGHING AS HES SAYING THIS ??
HUENINGKAI | 후닝카이
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rizz, sus, BOII 🫱🫱🫱, 👌
ik u saw that clip of hueningkai saying taehyun is lizz king.
he uses rizz on a daily basis
“you have so much rizz on stage..” STOP IT.
“this is so sus.. like among us his evil laugh”
i fear he says “BOII” whenever hes playing games with yeonjun
“look at my shoes dude… 👌” you are 22 years old not 12 years old.
“should i turn to my left or right when i do this?” “ur left side looks so sus today.. ur right side has so much rizz!!!”
I ASKED YOU WHICH SIDE LOOKS BETTER NOT WHICH ONE HAS MORE RIZZ.
#fuck trump#reality shifting#shiftblr#shifting community#shifting#shifters#shifting blog#law of assumption#desired reality#loassumption#huenistar#huenistar tubatu#huenistar hates trump#trump go kys#fuck u and fuck ur ugly ass orange skin#kamala harris was a better candidate from the beginning idgaf#fuck trump supporters
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There r 2 types of people who get tan in this world. Those who get tan and lose ot completely within 20 minutes of being inside, and those who still have summer tan lines on their foot in november even though they've been wearing socks for the past 2 months. Because there's nothing better than wearing fancy heels and still having a shoresh tan.
הי חנה. בגלל ביטולים בטיסות אחרי החגים, אני אגיע ביום חמישי הקרוב ואהיה בלימודים בשני ה11.11. אני מסודרת כבר מבחינת דירה- אהיה בדירת שותפות עם חברות בעיר. אז השבוע שאני אגיע אני מתכננת לסגור עבודה והכל. אני לא עושה סטאז' השנה. כרגע אני מתכננת לעשות שנה הבא. בקשר לסמינריו��ית באמנות, יש לי כמה רעיונות אבל קצת קשה לי. חשבתי אולי משהו בקשר להבדלים בין אמנות יהודית במדינות של אשכנזים בניגוד למדינות של ספרדים, כאילו איך הסביבה השפיע על האמנות. כי עם אוכל יש השפע
משהו מגניב:
In heaven theres a different torah
Maybe i need to do stag in a chareidi school. But im not chareidi.
It really hurts me. Because if u want to say, cutting funding for tuition is ok, then u cut for everyone. Thats fine. Its frustrating but if theres no money, there's no money. But singling out haredi ppl because they didnt serve?! Then cut out funding for special needs, they didnt serve either. Like, u cant do that. U cant single out a group like that. Theres guys in yeshiva learning really for the sake of soldiers, and theres soldiers who are in the choir. And also, we literally give stuff to gaza. Like no, we cant cut that, lets burn our own hand? I'm not charedi, im just balanced. This isn't balanced.
But u need to take one with the other. They are pushing for another law that makes the law against arabs supporting terror- the support part broader
says that arabs cant b in the kneset
And the chareidi ppl wont sign it if the law that it wont affect working mothers will pass.
Make a teach your daughters sign to go on my bedroom wall with the french vogue pictures and articles on it- going around and a tan color and paint writing on it.
So whats ur style? Artist. Artist should be a category. One day ill look like i came out of hogwarts. I have grunge looks, lumberjack lesbian looks, 70s looks, i just came from paris looks. I have a sweater i wear only because it makes people smile. And i live in a van road tripping looks. And my clothes can range from size small to size XL. It depends how much i want to eat that day, how bloated i am who gave the item to me, how it fits. I have sensory stuff but i love good materials. If i wanted to, i could wear only
At the end of last year, i learned how to say "i painted trees because i had a need to paint trees". Its as simple as that. "Because i wanted to". Because thats what an artist does. I'm not supposed to need school to give me assignments to activate the brain scales. They start u off on the bike, now ride. One of my favorite quotes is "just maje art. Let others decide whether they like it or not. Whether its art or not. And while theyre still deciding, make more.
Stairs
Pergola
Lattice
As a funny person, i dont believe in cancel culture. Even as a jew, i dont believe in cancel culture. When ur assaulted by a guy, theres a fine line between telling ur friends he has the power to do stuff that isnt ok.
Ill do the water for me, and if thats not right, ill do a tree.
Do trees and trees and more trees
I said i wanted trees and trees and more trees
Summer evening scent
Santal 33
Summer daytime scent
Acqua di gio
Winter evening scent
Winter daytime scent
Tocca florence
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Am i off my head?
I dont know whats wrong with me lately
Jesus Christ, total psycho…
Blah blah blah blah i literally don’t care, um
Guess I’m going to work in a radiology….
I’m so depressed because i found the best stuff for my stupid store and someone tried to cock block me
I need, to get that stuff.
I’m so mad. Like, you don’t understand it’s so stupid but its the fact it was taken away from me that matters
And i need to take pictures of the brand / manufacturer angry emoji
I took an Ativan so hopefully I’ll chill out and then maybe i can somehow sneak off to the store and everything will still be there???
I remember the items… i just DONT REMEMBER THE BRAND AND ITS IMPORTANT
BECAUSE IT FIT REALLY WELL AND IT WAS NICE MATERIAL AND ITS EVERYTHING I WAS LOOKING FOR
AND THEN I’M LIKE OH WELL GUESS I’LL INVENT SOMETHING NEW
BUT LIKE, EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT AND YOU RUINED IT SO YEAH AND THAT TOOK ME LIKE FIVE HOURS
AND I WAS GOING TO HAVE SO MANY HEAD BANDS
ANYWAYS AHHHHHHHHH I JUST NEED A SOURCING AI TO GIVE ME WHAT I WANT BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO SEARCH FOR IT FOR SEVEN HOURS AGAIN PLEASE LORD JESUS HELP ME AND THEN IT COMES IN THE MAIL AND ITS NOT THE EXACT SAME AND ITS NOT THE EXACT SAME PRICE
I JUST WANT TO GO TO TJ MAX
AND THEN I WANT TO GO TO TK MAX
AND HANG OUT WITH JORD, AND BY HANG OUT I MEAN, BECOME HER,
IS THAT, SO MUCH TO FUCKING ASK
OH BUT I SHOULD INVENT SOMETHING NEW AND APPRECIATE WHO YOU ARE BLAH BLAH BLAH
I DONT GIVE A FUCK I JUST WANT TO BE PRETTY AND LIKED IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR
FUCK BUT I HAVE TO DEDICATE MY ENTIRE LIFE TO IT
MEANWHILE I CANT SPEND ANY TIME LIKE DOING ANYTHING ELSE LIKE
THERES ONLY SO MUCH ENERGY FOR ONE PERSON TO DO IN A DAY AND I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING ALL ON MY OWN
AND ITS JUST, TOO MUCH TO POSSIBLY MANAGE ‘FLAWLESSLY’ LIKE AND THEN ON TOP OF THAT YOU KNOW
YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS AND YOUR GOALS AND YOUR BLAH BLAH BLAH
THERES JUST SO MUCH STUPID SHIT TO FUCKING WORRY ABOUT AND I DON’T CARE ABOUT ANY OF IT
AND this tantrum is also because of being broken up with, i broke up with him, he still wants to be with me but i can’t tolerate it like I’m too annoyed and have to fix everything just for like 1 morsel of validation in the form of fucking me like thats not a relationship right so
Where the fuck is my super happy fulfilling relationship
And I’m just pretending to be happy and i go to church and sing songs and clap a long like yayayayay yeah love life1
Meanwhile everything is just…. Compiling like getting worse and worse everything getting worse and I’m like
And everyone else is fine
And i have to pretend to be fine
But its all just….. so frustrating
I can’t get it right like i can’t do anything right
And I’m abused and gaslighted and confused
And traumatized and fucked up
And i just want to slam my door so hard it comes off the hinges and the door frame around it breaks
I want to kill a futon
I want to punch and scratch and kick and scream into the floor and throw my shoes through glass windows
And tear everything apart my clothes, the kitchen, the glassses
I want to throw everything outside and light it ablaze in a big fucking fire i mean even the couch
And i just have to pretend to be calm and take a lot of pills that make my life suck more
So that I’m not so unstable that i scream and cry actually on the outside
And instead just have a whacked out brain on the inside
It’s like ‘oh ur mental illness is Maskable, so u should be fine’
And like that’s not how it works.
I have ocd do you know what that is even like
I have ptsd
Like
Holy fuck, if i don’t take my meds for 4 weeks, i turn into a ball rocking back and forth and sobbing
I don’t even KNOW about what
I can’t even hold my own MEMORY together and i dissociate
I can’t, keep track of myself like
I’m so disorganized, mentally my focus…
I’m a mess like, i can barely speak sometimes I’m so, tangled up in it
I’m not even crying right now I’m just stating the facts
And then I’m going to plainly eat dinner
And take a ride on the boat around winter park
And pretend like this is all i could of ever asked for
And pretend to be nice, and try not to show how depressed i am on the outside
Masking it with, overcompensatory happiness…
This time, just chill. Let’s just chill and, talk it through. And we’ll get there.
The thing is, everything is what they want me to do, and nothing is what i wanted to do
I am controlled like a sim in sims 4
It’s that bad
And i don’t know…. I’ve just been coping. But like,
I need, help like, i don’t know how to get out of the bind I’ve been in it is so long…
And then its like, okay once you get out like, what. Do you do then?
What do you give a fuck about then
Because before it was all about surviving like
How to i 180 out of survival mode and become like,
This brand new person that’s suddenly capable of so much, all my dreams and such
I had to witness them die in your hands, my dreams did
I watched my friends die
I sing about it with total rage and disgust, contempt,
Intense sorrow, tears come out sometimes.
I’m so angry all i can do is play a song, or sing a song
And people fucking clap along.
I just want peace i want to be left alone
I want everyone to shut up, you know
I want time to stand still
I want to correct my mistakes…
I want everything to be perfect as it should of been
Letting go of that childhood that could of been
Accepting the reality of what really happened
Is so very difficult
Halloween is triggering because it’s just a big reminder of childhood
And all the things that went horribly wrong, and i blamed myself for all of it.
Now my inner child wants to dance, wants to take part in all the things i missed out on
Being5, 8, 10, 12, and 15, and 21, and 25. You stole my life from me.
Trying to make me somebody else… set me free. From judgement.
Set me free. From the money.
Set me free.. my spirit inside.
Set me free from all my afflictions, addictions,
Tortured beguiled soul, rotten and discontent,
Set me free from my contempt
And mistakes, and emotions
I can’t believe another person tried me, after everything I’ve been through, demons keep showing up at my door
With smiling faces
When will there be somebody
Who i can trust
I feel like i am in the book of Eli, in the last days,
Carrying some secret book around
That no one understands
And only god is watching… as i wait for the years to pass by,
I pretend and parade another sharade
As i grow closer to, death
Being screwed over in the end
Just like alll the rest of us.
Life feels like a losing game you just can’t win
So i laid all my cards out the table, and forfeit.
People think I’m crazy, i swallowed a pair of dice, and spit them back out, in your whisky on the rocks
And told you to go fuck yourself, and wiped my mouth with your black tie
I hate you, skin dragging, sacks of shit,
Growing older, decaying, rotten in the dirt
Left to die
And what’d they leave us but a gassy decaying carcass
Fuck you and the comfortable death bed you rest on
I spit on your grave. You gave us nothing. And left me with everything to carry.
Fuck your flowers and mourning
My therapist wants me to cry about it
And get high about it,
Smoking weed and taking klonopin,
I could drink a bottle of red wine a night, it doesn’t matter to me nothing numbs the pain
I’m most often just trying to knock myself out
Your abuse and control is is loud
And im stuck, inside a tiny heart shaped box
Screaming to get out. Like cobain…
Silently loud,
All the symptoms are there.
It’s obvious, witnesses to bear.
How long do you think i can keep going like this.
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hello. i am a dedicated hanner. as such, here are my reactions to every husband!han point 😇🙏 thank you so much for this ate keisy ily <3 to the others, pls take this with a grain of salt and look away 👉👈
first of all, CHOKING HAZARD???? but second of all, thats ☺️ so ☺️ cute ☺️ i ☺️ might ☺️ bash ☺️ my ☺️ head ☺️ into ☺️ a ☺️ wall ☺️
i would actually bawl my eyes out if my husband made me a whole song for our wedding day so liKE JISUNG BABE PLEASE GIVE ME A CHAN-
stop ,,, im a bit bossy when im tired so that would be lowkey my dream but oh 💔 someone doing stuff for me bcs they want to is so endearing 💔 hannie ilysm 💔
CUDDLES !!! HOME BUDDY !!! my brain is WIRED to like that stuff. in conclusion, jisung should marry m-
PLEASE HE WOULD BE SO SMUG ABT IT TOWARDS THE MEMBERS I FEEL LIKE... go on and brag about me bb im urs 😚💓 lets be clout chasers together jk
me and him could have a karaoke battle on a random wednesday morning (afternoon maybe .... idk if we're willingly awake so early oof) and i'd be the happiest person on earth. therefore, i would be a great wife to ji-
ngl i lowkey feel like hyunjin could be a parasite in our house (endearingly) 🧍♀️ like in a way i could see him being at the living room at the most random hours just being like hey glad ur here. anw i ate ur leftovers btw (i would let him tbf)
I AM SO SCARED TO FIGHT WITH JISUNG TBH. it would be so heated but then become cold af right after ... then we end up crying together bye
dw baby i'll let myself lose if its u 🥰 so lets actually get marri-
DAWNT PLS.... CRYING JISUNG IS MY WEAKNESS LIKE I WOULD FOLD RIGHT AWAY 😓😓😓😓
what i would give to experience this. just cuddling in comfortable silence. with jisung. oh my head 😵💫
OK BABE THATS 2/3 OF MY LOVE LANGUAGES THIS CAN WORK OUTTTTT
"be bbama's mother" he said. "i wont get jealous of our child" he said.
i would do that. i would totally do that. that sounds like something i would actually do. jisung i will get down on one kne-
CHEESECAKE WARRIORS RISE !!! 💯💯
he triggers my cuteness aggression so bad whenever i see him eat i just want to take care of him and actually LEARN how not to be a menace in the kitchen just so i can feed him and watch him eat and fawn over him and compliment him and admire him and see him happy and see him full-
he has oversized clothing too... king thats OUR wardrobe now 😎
I LOVE. I LOVE LOVE LOVE. HIS DEEP VOICE SO MUCH. IT SCRATCHES SOMETHING DEEP INSIDE MY BRAIN THAT JUST MAKES ME HAPPY WHENEVER I HEAR IT. I GO FERAL OVER DEEP VOICE JISUNG.
with that face? oh babe i would find ways to kiss u all the time u dont even know my confused quokka. fuck pls marry m-
nooooooo 💔💔💔💔 napping with jisung 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 im in shambles that i cant do it irl im gonna pop a nerve
HING. IM GONNA SOB. YES PLS PLS PLS I WANT IT SO BAD HNGGGHHHH 🥹🥹🥹
i feel like i would spoil him a lot too 😓 i like giving gifts... let's just spoil each other jisung
IF ITS U???? LETS HAVE A SOCCER TEAM IF U WANT BAE !!! but my thoughtful king 😿💗 oh ilysm
tbh jisung's vows to me feels like they would be so poetic yknow??? im actually getting jealous of who he ends up w irl cz wow if i dont get that hozier vow level treatment im gonna commit a katy perry hot and cold mv.
ok bae, thats supposed to be MY lines 🤨🫵
this is so perfect. imma sob myself to sleep. thank you ate keisy.
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chan | lee know | changbin | hyunjin( han )felix | seungmin | jeongin
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Husband Han who asked the baker and chef to put the ring inside the cake. You thought it was kind of old school and yet you cried when you saw the ring. He went down on one knee in front of the crowd as the waiter/waitresses came for assistance. “Will you be the mother of Bbama?” “Yes!”
Husband Han who wrote a song that he’d use on the day of his wedding proposal. The lyrics consist of words about his feelings, how deep his love is for you, how thankful he is, and how you are his favorite person apart from his Minho hyung. He went on the small stage of the restaurant and grabbed a small piece of paper so he wouldn’t forget what he had written.
Husband Han whom you can order around. He complains but still does whatever you ask for. Sometimes he just obeys quietly or if he’s in the mood, he looks like a kid who’s happy to help his parents with that adorable and proud smile plastered on his face.
Husband Han who loves to stay home and watch your favorite movies then proceeds to cuddle you all day. He also buys things that will serve good for your convenience and cause less effort. He is a home buddy for a reason.
Husband Han who is happy as a clam when you visit him while he’s at work especially when you bring him and his members with a ton of food.
Husband Han who is a loud introvert and hits high notes effortlessly on a random Wednesday morning.
Husband Han who overreacts, and screams at any small inconvenience when he gets a chance. Hyunjin would be the one to cover his mouth because his ears suffer the most.
Husband Han who has a lot of feelings and takes everything to heart (playfully) during a nonsense argument and will say some things nonstop until both of you just laugh them off. Yet also the type to be calm and straightforward that would pierce your heart if it’s serious especially when he does have a point.
Husband Han who sometimes doesn’t listen to you and is stubborn.
Husband Han who apologizes hours later after thoroughly thinking of what he did or said wrong during the fight. He would hug you tightly when he sees you crying and say “I love you” instead of “I’m sorry.”
Husband Han who listens attentively to your worries and gives you useful advice. If he feels like you don’t want to hear anything and just sit there in silence, he will hold your hand or bring you into his arms while kissing the crown of your head.
Husband Han whose love languages are physical touch, quality time, and words of affirmation (through the songs he wrote).
Husband Han who gets jealous when you pay too much attention to BBama instead of him. He would sulk at the corner and refuse to talk unless you baby him until he decides to forgive you.
Husband Han who gets sentimental when sad so you let him lay on you and bury his face on your neck while you hum his favorite tune or just play with his hair while whispering some things that he needs to hear. He loves it when you do that.
Husband Han who loves cheesecakes especially when you’re the one who made them. He’d devour them immediately with some iced coffee he got from Seungmin.
Husband Han who gets round when he eats something or just mainly his cheeks are the cutest that you want to kiss, pinch, or suddenly goes nom nom nom.
Husband Han who doesn’t mind you wearing his clothes. He loves them on you.
Husband Han whose voice you want to listen to all night after a long day because it’s soothing to hear and brings you comfort, especially when he is talking softly and in a gentle manner.
Husband Han who gets undeniably shy when you kiss him, especially when you’re in public. He is all giddy and a blushing mess, expect to make out with him when you get home.
Husband Han who can sleep everywhere that you get jealous but he would ask you first if you want to cuddle until you fall asleep in whatever comfortable place you’re at.
Husband Han who texts or calls you before going home from work just to ask how your day went and if you want him to buy something. Sometimes you do it the other way around. It’s a must in this marriage.
Husband Han who spoils you a lot.
Husband Han who respects whatever decision you make, especially when it comes to the thought of having kids. Just like anyone else, he doesn’t pressure you and wait until you’re the first one to initiate the topic.
Husband Han who promised to love you and never leave until death do you part.
Husband Han who thinks that having you in his life is the greatest gift he could ever have and the best thing that ever happened.
Husband Han whom you love, protect, and spend the rest of your life with along with Bbama.
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#my compatibility with jisung is a bit on the fence irl#cz i think we act too much alike it could clash?#BUT IM SO DETERMINED#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH WHAT DO YALL EVEN KNOW#this was so great ate keisy (sobs)#cielle's recs — 🍾 !#headcanons.hanji 🐿️˝
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#everything seems like a lot lately and ive been dreading my therapy appointments cuz this new dude that i switched to#just. gives off weird kinda vibes nd refers to how i talk and think as beautiful and its. a lil weird??????#like thats??? thats weird right??????? thats not just me not being used to praise or w/e??#i dunno iv e been burnt out for weeks nd whenever i manage to wrangle some energy together its spent just#sitting and thinking and i cant turn my brain off nd theres a million other things going on bc my moms being worked to death at her job#at a toy store cuz shes doing the work of seven people and talks about how she notices shes slowed down#and shes upset about it and its like ma'am you got run over by a car and get the ass end of everyones bullshit#ur allowed to go slow nd shes like 'no.......i must go to the gym and work myself even more..............' nd its like nO??? MOM.#and we were at this party for my little cousin and nobody was wearing a mask nd my aunt was all 'oh everyones been either#vaccinated or tested negative for covid' and im like 'thats nice i dont trust any of u regardless tho' nd its just#every week things and stuff happenes(tm) nd i dont know how to process it if at all and im just dissociating more often than not#im at the point of 'this may as well happen and if i die i jsut fucking die bc im not gonna live to see my late 20's or 30's anyway' sgnskmg#like im jsut. tired of trying to be positive and look on the bright side of things. im tired of like#expecting the bare minimum to go well or at least okay and being surprised when it doesnt.#i dont have the energy to try and socialize and when people do reach out to me im so burnt out i cant think of a decent response that isnt l#like. some cookie cutter shit or a conversation ender or whatever the fuck because just??? whats the point??#like in general whats the point?? everythings running itself into the ground so why should i even fucking#try and act like everythings normal. everythings ending and coming to a screeching halt#theres no use in trying because some bullshit is going to come along and fuck everything up like it always does#and i'll be right back at square one or whatever the fuck because nothing fucking matters in the long run#because there IS no long run- theres no point in trying to do anything because there isnt going to be a future to think about#i dunno!!!!! i dunno lol im. fucking tired and hate having a body and having to be a person lol
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if anyones curious, heres a big ol list of anime horror ive enjoyed that dont revolve entirely around cute children being harmed for shock:
paranoia agent: an awesome single-season show thats perfect to binge-watch imo. it follows the interwoven stories of several victims of the phantom figure known as shonen bat who takes the form of a child in rollerskates and attacks strangers with his beat up baseball bat. the only thing that seems to connect these victims is that they are visited by him in a moment of absolute desperation, and somehow their lives seem to improve after being attacked. to say anything else would ruin the mystery. give it a shot. this series owns and the intro music is iconic.
perfect blue: i feel like everyone who likes animated horror already knows about perfect blue but if not, you absolutely should. a suspense heavy, brain-breaking thriller about an ex-pop-idol who quits to become an actress, only to be haunted by a mirror version of herself who is less than happy with her decision. her grasp on reality starts to slip as the pressures of her new job and a string of violent murders slowly chip away at her sanity. definitely mind the content warnings for this one.
yamishibai: an anthology series of short scary stories presented with fun, simplistic animation. every episode is fairly short iirc so its very easy to just plow through the whole series. especially good if ur the type to enjoy a classic ghost story.
serial experiments lain: sort of hard to explain. this is another like Classic. it is about a highschool girl so i am sort of breaking my own rules here but like the vibe is entirely different then what you might expect. its a trippy, deeply weird series from 1998 about the ways technology may begin to encroach on our lives and shape our identity. i really love older media that speculates about the ways our relationship with tech might develop in the future. if you like scifi and psychological aspects to your horror, you will probably like this.
pet shop of horrors: i havent actually seen the anime so i dont know how well it holds up but i was obsessed with the manga as a Youth and id recommend at least giving the series a look. anthology-like with a connecting thread of a spooky pet shop where rare exotic and sometimes deadly creatures are sold.
lily c.a.t.: its alien except its not. scifi horror about the crew and passengers of a spaceship whos interstellar journey is thrown off course by a shape-shifting alien invader. literally if you like alien or the thing or anything like that, this is that but animated. i think the strongest thing about this one isnt necessarily the horror of the alien itself but the horror of being stranded, far from home and trapped in a confined space with a bunch of near strangers and a massive yawning void just outside your window. there are some moments in lily cat that just made me think about how huge and unforgiving not only space but the passage of time is and im honestly still a little freaked.
akira: i mean, obviously. i dont know what i could say about this that hasnt already been said except this is the movie that made me start getting into body horror. its beautiful, its horrific, its a fucking staple of dystopia fiction. i guess you could argue its more scifi/action than traditional horror in a lot of ways, but some of the stuff near the end (that i def saw when i was too young to be watching this) taught me a whole new definition of fear so. do with that what u will i guess.
there are a couple more i cant remember the names of right now so ill come back to this if my brain ever decides to start working again. almost all of these contain some really heavy subjects so be careful and seek out content warnings if you need to.
also i dont really care about subs vs dubs arguments but a lot of these are on the slightly older side and as a result some of the english voice acting work is... not great. either way do what feels right to you just keep that in mind.
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only talked abt this in rbs before but it lives in my brain and i need to fully DISSECT
tv and movies and books etc dont need to be endlessly hopeless and end in despair to be good!!! you dont need gratuitous violence and death and misery to have character arcs or plotlines or a good narrative!!! in fact, over using that shit can makes writing predictable and lose meaning!!!!!
if everyone expects certain characters to just be sad all the time and never have anything go right theyre not going to be shocked when more bad shit happens. it can totally negate the emotional value of the characters struggles if they Never have any wins. (even super tragic characters we usually start by seeing them doing well?? and then descending to shit??? not just starting shit. shit through the middle. and shit at the end. where tf wld the story be. u cant have an arc if its flat😭)
interrupting character arcs with death can be a good strat to emphasise the sadness of a character death OR it can just make the writing seem wasted which is what happens in most cases
killing off every character isnt shocking its boring.
HAPPY ENDINGS ARENT BAD WRITING. WRITING HOPE IN FICTION IS REALLY SLAY ACTUALLY. STOP MINIMISING HAPPY ENDINGS JUST BC THEY DONT RIP UR HEART OUT. NEGATIVE EMOTIONS ARENT THE ONLY WAY TO BE EMOTIONAL ABOUT MEDIA. (look at how many people cried over heartstopper. emotional. no deaths(except immys dog #rip) and happy endings)
SO NO. GIVING WILL BYERS A TRAGIC ENDING INCLUDING DEATH OR TURNING AGAINST EVERYONE HE LOVES OR HAVING THE PEOPLE HE CARES ABT SUDDENLY OUT OF CHARACTER NOT CARE ABOUT HIM WOULDNT BE GOOD WRITING. MAKING EVERYTHING HE FINDS HAPPINESS IN SUPER SAD ISNT GOOD WRITING. ITS BORING AND STUPID AND I HATE IT. will byers defense foREVER. anyway just let him be happy and let him have his bf it will work out much better for both of them. "mike should reject him" no actually ur wrong bc ur wrong.
AND HONESTLY. SAME FOR STEVE IDC IF PEOPLE SAY HE HAS TO DIE TO COMPLETE A CHARACTER ARC. DEATH ISNT THE ONLY CONCLUSION FOR EVERY SINGLE CHARACTER. like if he dies thats fine but saying its the only valid progression for him?!??!?! stupid take.
#i call it the game of thrones effect#and its ruining everything#people genuinely think character arcs should end in death#people say this about steve harrington all the time and its like sure okay but you dont Need to have him die to complete an arv#arc**#stupid concept#characters dying=\=good writing#will byers#byler#i feel like you guys understand this better than most#will deserves a happy ending frfr#most of them do tbh#ANYWAY. SOMETIMES CHARACTER DEATHS ARE NECCESSARY. USEFUL TO STORY. ADD TO PLOT. ETC#BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST BORING WRITING#'oh we want to make emotional scene so lets kill someone again' nothing says poor writing like over reliance on killing characters#steve harrington#sorry this is a bit of a mammoth compared to my other posts but guys i have so many thoughts
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CHEEEEESSSYYYYY !!! so good to see u back in my notifs<3
awe im so glad ur thanksgiving was fun! yesss i love the holidays too!! its just a time thats so full of warmth and love<3 im sorry urs felt off tho ): screw the calendar, u celebrate whenever ur feeling in the spirit bestie 😤 also that sounds like a such a lovely time with ur friend o: what movies did u watch??? what are ur faves??? i watched a few silly netflix romcoms for christmas last year and honestly it was kind of a vibe hehe. sometimes u just need to watch something fun! :D my holidays were very chill this year. my parents got me lotr in 4k which is AMAZINGGGG and i got to hangout with my friends and they bought me BOOKS!! i love books. ty for asking 🥺 wbu? what did u receive!!
omg has ushijima come out as the hq fave front runner ?? i love that we all have one hq favorite to takes up all our brain space. u cant help but love most of the cast i feel like. BUT THERES ALWAYS ONE WHO JUST sits on top of ur brain and constantly pokes at it like this cat who wants attention
now what kind of ushijima thoughts are u having bestie whats taking up ur brain share pls!!!!! 👀👀👀👀 i wanna KNOWWWW
ALSO A LIL PIROUETTE?? UR SO CUTEEE 😭omgggg ok i havent had wedding thoughts yet but now its definitely gonna be ruminating in my brain... also sorry but he would nottttt give a shit about u disliking him. or anyone else for that matter! and i love that about him<3 ill throw hands about it tho (but not with u.....everyone else tho better watch it !!!!!!!)
wanting to consume everything u know about the hq fellas is SOOOO REALLLLLL. stoppppp timeskip!suna......... its a good thing suna is always on his phone bc we can just text him while we're speechless. like ya i cant look at u and ur pretty eyes and ur stupid hair and ur fucking hot smirking face but i WILL send u a meme about how bad i want u 😩
that would just be my own personal strategy of course. he will fall in love with me thru my usage of memes i will make him 😤 he will reply with his own memes. itll be like our own meme mating dance...
ugh i really wish they would adapt the full rest of the manga bc ur right, u will miss a lot of things. although the movie they released last year did hit a lot of the Big Moments from that arc...i dont think it would quite feel the same for people ONLY watching the anime bc u miss so much of the buildup ??? like those are the big moments bc of everything that led up to them !!! and ughhh they just announced the second movie is in the works too. how can u adapt half the manga and then just drop the ball so hard with the rest of it ??? esp when its clearly popular and doing well ?? give the fans what tHEY WANT !!!!
and omg thank u for ur kind words on my colorings, thats so sweet!! i appreciate U<3
man i really do gotta reread and catch up with kn8. im just soooo bad with ongoing manga. i never keep up with them 😭
hOW CAN I BE EXPECTED TO CLAIM A FAVE? sorry im full of love and desire and yearning ????? ( <- basically contradicting what i said about having One fave earlier. dont worry about it. maybe thats hq specific ok)
u and me have to hold STRONG on switcherland. also thank u for having me here its very nice and beautiful
ALSO i did see the s2 promo. lowkey could not believe it. like ok u fixed him maybe BUT WHY IS HE SO FAR AWAY?? BRIN GHIM CLOSER?? LET ME LOOK AT HIM U KNOWWWW THATS ALL I CARE ABOUT
wait omg id love to hear the song send my way pls !!!
"literally nobody in bluelock likes him. he doesn't get along with anybody. he's such a dreamboat. 😍 my man." has me GIGGLING i love it i support u two may u be very happy (unhappy?) together
of course ur so welcome!! im wishing u such a joyous 2025 may it be full of only kind things for u darling<333
also i got so much art.... ;]
Mishmish!! Who are your hq faves, and do you have any bluelock faves?
Also I never confirmed this but are you perhaps just sliiightly more narumi nation than bowl cut island?
hiiiii cheesy!! :D
im sooo sorry im normally faster at responding but unfortunately ive been SICK with covid for the past several days ): but thankfully i just started feeling better today so now i can replyyy (:
TSUKKI WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER ONE HQ FAVE<333 🥰
i love everyone tho and my answer for favorites might change slightly here and there bc of that but. i also rlly like nishinoya, THE MIYA TWINS!!, sugawara, iwaizumi, and kuroo
oikawa kind of took a seat in my brain a few months back and hes just been chilling there so idk maybe him too asdfghjkl
i need to do a full reread of hq !!! maybe itll change more...or maybe theyll stop rotating around so much asdfghjkl....everyone is just so good and lovable!!!!!!!!
also that is a TOUGH question. i think right now i would have to say im a lil more part of bowl cut island 🫣🫣🫣 i mean the anime came out this year and i got to fangirl over him so much publicly (im so sorry everyone who witnessed that..). aND FUJI WAS KEEPING US FED WITH SUCH GOOD HOSHINA FICS. AND SHE EVEN USED MY NICKNAME IN THEM SO LIKE. YEAH IM OBSESSED.
maybe its just recency bias. idk ask me again whenever the next season comes out and they hopefully fix narumis design 😭
but i LOVE them BOTH so much
aND AS FOR BLUE LOCK. ok i read a little bit of the manga like 3 yrs ago ???? and i dont remember having any standout faves ): i dont think i read enough of it to really have one tbh!! i have thought about revisiting it at some point though....
tell me about ur faves tho!! ur hq faves and blue lock faves and whether u are more narumi nation or bowl cut island 👀
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Hello, Zak. I just want to say thank you for your content, it makes me super happy and your analyses have become a solid part of how I perceive the NXX.
Non-ToT related ask: what do you recommend for beginner fanfic writers and content creators (for ToT and fics in general)? I'm thinking of posting more on my blog but I'm not experienced in using Tumblr or writing. (please do not misinterpret this as self-promotion!!! i just need advice owo.)
hullo!! thank u so much for the kind words, waaahhh, im glad u enjoyed my works :DDD
and no worries, i dont see this as a self-promo and also oooohhh!!
i'll cut ur main ask up into parts, hehe!!!
the only writing advice i'll ever give: read a BUNCH
i think this is important for all kinds of writing, fanfic or not. the bedrock for writing is reading.
go to fics other ppl have written that you personally really love and enjoy. go through it again, this time taking note of the bits that struck you in any way.
like, if theres a line that hit hard or a fic thats structured in a way that you found interesting or a certain kind of characterization that you cant get enough or anything that piques your interest, take note of it
and then look deeper and pick it apart. try and figure out how the author pulled that off in the writing. look at the things you yourself enjoy reading and study how they managed to do the things that impressed you
to word it differently: study, HAHAJKJADBFKSD but it's a fun kind of studying, since ur sources are texts you like!!
the "pick it apart" method is a more active kind of way to "study" but in general, even reading without that active mindset still enriches the writer brain. subconsciously, you'll gravitate towards doing things in writing that you enjoyed reading from other stories. reading is fuel for a writer
like, in my opinion, no writer at all can grow by just staying inside our own head. we grow by looking around and learning from things that resonate with us
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in terms of what u wanna write, just go wild, write what you want
idk if this is something that resonates with you, but when i was starting out writing for tot i was HELLA ANXIOUS cuz the stuff i wanted to write (found fam shenanigans, shipping uncommon ships, several thousands of words of character analyses) wassssnnnttt exactly the stuff i saw everybody else in the fandom writing. if this is something u arent worried/anxious about then hell yea! skip to next part! but if it is, then i tell u this:
write it anyway. even if it feels like something nobody else wants. if you want it, write it anyway
because fandom surprises you. it surprised me! turns out theres a whole lotta people who like the stuff i thought nobody would be interested in
additionally, write what makes you happy and what youre interested in cuz it really shows in the writing itself. i cant rlly explain it in words, haha, but like...i can tell when somebody is super passionate about their piece in the words of the piece. enthusiasm brings life into writing and enjoyment in general is, in my opinion, the whole point of fandom anyway :D
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tumblr is a mess tbh, do you want an ao3 invite?
tumblr. is a mess. however, among the social media websites right now, it's actually the best for written fanworks thanks to the lack of word limits and the blog focused structure of the whole site. that being said, it's a niGHTMARE keeping things organized on tumblr. my masterlist of totworks doesnt work anymore on desktop cuz i broke thru the link limit kjbkHBSKF IT ONLY WORKS ON MOBILE NOW and i had to move the whole masterlist to a gdoc for desktop accessibility kabfskafa.
so if youre writing fanfic, i VERY MUCH recommend getting an ao3, if you dont already have one. and if you need an ao3 invite to register for an account, send me a DM! cuz ive still got three invites in my account, im very willing to send you one :DDD
buuuuuut, i do also make a lot of fanwork thats not technically a full fanfiction piece (hcs, analyses, minific rambles, etc.) and those do seem better just staying on tumblr. so for posting writing on tumblr, use tags!!!
some main tags for tot that i think would be useful to totwriters are:
#tears of themis
#tears of themis fanfic
#tears of themis headcanons
#[character's full ENG name]
#tot [character's ENG first name]
#[character's full CN name]
#[character's full ENG name] x rosa
#[character's full ENG name] x reader
tho if ur blog is new and has just be created recently, keep in mind that theres a tendency that your posts wont show up in these tags until tumblr has "ensured" that youre not a bot akjbfkjsfas. tumblr whack like that. how to make tumblr realize ur not a bot is by following a some other people and reblogging a bunch of posts. interacting with other blogs, basically. this is non-bot behavior and will pull ur posts out of the nether and into the tags eventually
other stuff that might be helpful would be adding a wordcount at the top of the post (apparently ppl like this? akbfkjfksa i had no idea until i joined this fandom) aaaand a title and/or short description of the post that gives an idea on what the post is about
i see other totwriters on tumb doing cool stuff with like, banners and formatting. those seem nice!! i dont do them personally because im not great at visual aesthetics KBAJSFKSAJFSA but if it interests u, go for it!!!
OH ALSO, if ur gonna be posting a lot of fanworks on tumblr, making a masterlist with links of every post is a great idea!!!
i think thats all ive got? kjKABKJFAS forgive me, i just clocked out of work, so my brain might be a little scrambled.
i hope this helps!! and i send best wishes to you and your writing :DDD
#iceysghost#asks#im less versed with the reader ship tags since i dont write reader ship but thats what i saw on posts sometimes!!
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if i say that i think “monogamy conflicts with the inherent nature of human beings” it does NOT mean that i think it’s a Bad and Unnatural thing. it literally links back to our whole, We Are Social Creatures DNA thing im always talking about. this is gonna get long but i am trying to make a point.
why is it considered “cheating” if you meet someone who gives you a little bit of that ~ butterflies~ feeling? the idea is that if u have my boygirlfriend and u meet someone who gets ur heart racing? ur not allowed to even feel that kind of physical attraction for anyone else bc it's Cheating. im sorry. WHAT. it makes no sense whatsoever. as an analogy, if u have a sex dream about whoever, would it be okay for someone to make you feel bad about it? about things your unconscious mind came up with in a dream state? no bc thats not how it works.
but this is my logic here.
when i told my friend, “it’s okay you can have a little attraction to men...as a treat....” like whats wrong with that? nothing? doesnt make you any less lesbian! bc its so not in the way str8 dudes fetishising wlw think their magic dick is whats missing from ur life. easy there mr testosterone u can be replaced by a zucchini.jpg (sigh. i have to say it im sorry. please do not put any fruit or vegetables or other edible phallic objects in your private parts. there are toys. there are many many safe to use toys). and not in the way that “sexuality is fluid” or “its a spectrum” or “everyone is a little bi” NO shut up. maybe its that ur attracted in the ‘gender envy’ way or the ‘platonic crush’ way or even the ‘your vibes are so sapphic’ way lmao. like why is half of hozier’s fanbase made up of wlw???? he has the vibes idk what to tell u its pretty soft boy syndrome thats my type anyway 😌
so if i were to say “its okay you can have a little attraction to a pretty person...as a treat..” in that youre not doing anything wrong, it doesn’t invalidate your exclusive/monogamous relationship or identity, and im not talking about it in the sense that you would act on it or are fantasising. i just mean in the way that you have eyes and you experience attraction (romantic and/or sexual) and trying to deny yourself that is only gonna result in more repression and guilt? what are you, catholic? (for legal purposes this is a joke) (or is it?)
some people just radiate the kind of energy i am drawn to. some people have the physical attributes of the people my gay ass 6 year old imprinted on. in the healthiest relationship i have ever been in, to a guy who wasn’t ever actually interested in Men, i had maintained “if you wanna go fuck a guy, im not stopping you. i have none of the physical attributes you would be looking for, hypothetically speaking,” etc etc like. it’s kind of the opposite of the Straight Fear "my bisexual SO is gonna leave me for [person of same gender as them]” and this is just me, because i dont care. there wasn’t any infidelity but i’d openly gush about girls even from the beginning and he dgaf lmao i love his apathy sometimes go girl give us nothing! we were the blueprint idc
there’s just. this idea. its the way the straights (eh, or at least, misogynistic brainwashed incel type men) have been talking about "im fucking my SO but thinking about other people" like thats just the message ive been getting. correct me if im wrong. pop culture and all. uhhh. cant.. relate? just because someone else made u HORNY???? if ur horny, look at ur right hand. now look at ur left hand. now look at the technological advancements of our time. ur welcome. sorry im not into using people to scratch the itch! if i wanna fuck someone its bc theyre hot and im into them! im not gonna be secretly thinking about getting railed by rachel weisz. and no matter what anyone says there is intimacy!
im saying that its completely normal to experience that ‘alterous attraction’ and hey maybe it is my primal-evolutionary ADHD brain but if it is, it is Correct. that you can ‘look respectfully’ and you can feel your feelings (even if said feelings last two minutes or a week or a year or two) i’ve been saying “i love too much care too much feel too much” (derogatory) but then i turned around and said “i love everybody because i love you” (affectionate)
its the “i fall in love a little ol' little bit every day with someone new” and “i love you” / “it’ll pass” and “nothin' lasts forever but this is gettin' good now” and “you are my favourite what if / you are my best i’ll never know” and “wanting was enough / for me it was enough” and my personal favourite peak lesbian brain experience “i see girls in my building / i see girls on the train / i've got the girls on my mind all the time” im sorry but have you SEEN women? exactly.
this idea that promiscuity is okay for men, but definitely not for women, and you’re not allowed to have sex or even want to have sex with people. plural. people. just. because. its fun. holy shit. we are, the entire world, fucking repressed. we can talk about it like when you're in the beginning and ur all over each other bc it's new and exciting and it's infatuation! there's something fun about that! it’s the Primal Instinct and idk why we’re meant to deny that either. because it’s not just that. its not just the dopamine.
why do we form bonds with the people we fuck when our brains are like, “fine. here, you can have a little oxytocin... i’d rather you do it in the house bla bla bla” as if we’re gonna sit here and pretend that it doesn’t get better anyway???? you become physically familiar and it's in the same way we talk about love languages “we’ve had one, yes. what about second love language?” and that’s the physical one akdgjakgh IM SORRY. we learn about each other’s love languages and sex languages. it checks out idk
but back to the main point, that We Are Social Creatures.
i mean, even if are monogamous by choice, because we evolved in the way that both parents take care of the children - but so do their neighbours and their siblings and friends like this is the ‘destroy the nuclear family norm’ essentially and its such a westernised concept. it just doesn’t make sense to me!! and im not trying to push a non-monogamous agenda or whatever, as with everything in life, it is about freedom of choice (without judgmenent, risk of physical/mental harm, etc etc)
but we’re talking about queer history and gay pride because homosexuality has existed for centuries. sorry the straights whitewashed history ig. but why is it far-fetched to say, actually, what we call now ‘queerplatonic relationships’ or ‘collectivist culture’ or that proverb about how ‘it takes a village to raise a child’ like. im pretty sure these things have also existed for centuries. we’ve just been brainwashed into thinking. that they’re unnatural, immoral, or otherwise Wrong and Bad.
but in the way i was rambling and talking about why are we going against our nature and i said “what. its like there are rules for human beings that were not created by a human being. im sure im onto smth here 👀🤭” without realising where i was going and im like. ah. yes. religion. excellent.
what can i say, im a rabid anti-christian hopeless romantic sexual deviant<3
#emma.txt#the qtp essays#its just a tag let it do its thing#the polyam agenda is actually the opposite of christian missionaries#get in loser we're healing from church-enforced cishetnorm culture no more internalised lesbophobia/biphobia <3#idk what the mlm are doing i dont go there
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