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Following the latest spicy happenings, I just wanted to share again my own perspective on fandom etiquette and tumblr interaction for folks who follow or engage with me on here. I've been clear about my boundaries here, and people who choose not to respect that get what they get. I tend to write with a clear perspective and let my words speak for themselves, and while I love to discuss and even have friendly disagreements, I don’t bother responding to folks who are clearly not engaging in good faith. I block when it rises to the level of blatant rudeness or when someone is developing an unhealthy fixation.
That said, there’s really no need to be dramatic about getting blocked on tumblr. Blocking doesn't mean anything except that you don't want to engage with a person or their content anymore, for any number of reasons that are all perfectly fine and valid, because this is your curated space. It doesn't make us sworn enemies. We're all just internet strangers and no one owes you their time and attention.
If you couldn't tell, I am a fandom old. I've been in and around various fandoms, on tumblr and in lots of other online spaces, for multiple decades. I used to dwell in Western fandom spaces in the era when TV and book series were much, much longer and people had flame wars and knock down, drag out fights over canon interpretations that lasted for literal years. In comparison, today's version of fandom bickering is much milder, and extreme sensitivity about even the gentlest of critical analysis is just silly to me. In terms the youths will understand: some of y’all wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me.
I’m not here to be popular with everyone (that’s not possible nor a healthy goal). I’m here to write about the things I care about and connect with other folks who also enjoy discussing those things in a similar or complementary fashion. If that’s not you, and you want to unfollow or block to protect your peace, that’s completely fine and I’m not holding a grudge.
So let me be clear. Once I've blocked or been blocked by someone, I am not bothered about what they're saying or doing. I'm not squatting on their blog on the web to read their posts. I'm not asking friends to keep tabs on their commentary so I can respond to it. I'm not creating side blogs or burner accounts to slyly continue following them. I'm not going on anon to send them mean asks. All of that is weirdo behavior and deeply disrespectful of a boundary that’s been set. Once I've blocked you, or you've blocked me, I am just not thinking about you at all.
#i'll add this to my pinned post so i don't have to keep saying it#and i’ve turned anon off for the time being until a couple folks calm down#btw my haters should know that every time they do this my follower count goes *up* not down#yall are messy bitches who love drama and i respect it#tumblr etiquette#fandom stuff#shan shouts into the void
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Genya Shinazugawa: A Fish In a Birdcage
It's my favorite boy's birthday and today I want to celebrate why he's possibly one of the most talented characters in the show while still being considered one of the "weakest."
In case it wasn't immediately obvious, Genya is my favorite little guy from Demon Slayer. Everything from his design to his abilities to his personality and story just speak to me.
For this analysis I wanna focus on a little bit of everything, starting with his design.
So from the get-go, the first things you notice about the boy are the huge ass scar on his face and his scrunkly little mohawk. The scar immediately tells you that he has a history. It's an unspoken message of survival and overcoming suffering.
As for the mohawk, well you have to look a little deeper into how Japanese media portrays hair. For early media, it's a sign of refinement and status. To the point that one of the many hallmarks of evil in Japanese folklore is unkempt hair. For the mohawk specifically, it's a symbol of rebellion and a strong, edgy personality.
His clothing is purple and black. Interestingly, purple was, for a long time, banned by commoners to wear as it was exceedingly hard and expensive to get ahold of. By late Edo and early Meiji the tides changed to where it became quite fashionable among common folk to wear purple to the point it got the nickname "old purple" or kodai murasaki. (you can read about it here) But purple can also represent strength.
His sharp eyes, small irises, and furrowed brow all point to a very aggressive design. And! I'd like to note that he's using a katana here, which I'll get back to later in another post!
So! Now, we see Genya's traded out his katana for his iconic gun along with a wakizashi (a shortsword used by samurai primarily for finishing blows, fitting as that's exactly how Genya uses it in canon).
There's a modern misconception that samurai were wholly against the use of firearms during their active periods, but history and art show quite the opposite (here). And seeing as Demon Slayer takes place during the Taisho era, when Japan was seeing a lot of "modernization" and were specifically adopting a lot of Western values, it makes sense to implement a character using a more modern and Western weapon (even his outfit is more of a western style with his pants being a straight cut instead of the traditional samurai hakama that the others wear!).
His hair is grown out and more tamed though still in a mohawk style showing that while he's softened, he still has a strong personality and rebellious edge. Another thing I find cool is that the author gave an in canon reason for Genya's hair length in the Kimetsu Gakuen extra; he uses it to gauge the strength and direction of the wind to redirect his shots.
We also see that he's shot up in height and filled out in physique, a very nice nod to how his demon eating abilities affected his body in the long term.
Overall, Genya's design is efficient without giving everything away. It leaves out the subtle details like his hidden gentle nature and his sharp mind and good heart; which I'll elaborate on now.
One misconception I see floating around a lot is that Genya is below average intelligence. This is probably for three reasons: the extra in the Kimetsu Gakuen universe where Sanemi tells Genya to "get better at his math" and the part in the data book where it says Genya is "never calculating." The third reason is that there's a bit of a stereotype that thug/punk=stupid.
But in Kimetsu Gakuen proper we see that Genya is actually making really good grades.
But test grades aren't everything! Even in canon we find out that Genya is incredibly observant. During the Hashira training arc, Genya says this: "Well, not that Himejima-san is exactly good at teaching it. You need to watch and learn and swipe it for yourself, all right?"
This implies that Genya taught himself the Repetitive Motion technique by just watching Himejima do it. He is a master marksman and described as the ace of his high school shooting club able to make real time adjustments to his aim based on how the wind blows his hair.
Not calculating just means he's not one for scheming, not that he's incapable of critical thought. And Sanemi getting onto him for his math scores is him being a hardass as Genya is within the top 15 in his grade.
He is still a child at heart, something he desperately tries to hide and that is readily apparent in the Japanese version. Specifically in the way he oscillates between using "Nii-chan" (the childish way you'd refer to your older brother, as expected in especially young children or women) and "Aniki" (the rougher way of saying it, translates more as "big bro").
As for his gentle nature, I already made a whole post on how I believe Genya stepped in as the homemaker of the Shinazugawa family. (Which you can read here) He's also described in the data book as regaining his "gentle nature," telling the audience that he was a soft hearted boy growing up.
Look at his soft smile here when he sees that Nezuko is okay! He genuinely cares about their well-being despite Tanjirou having what Genya desperately wants but can't have: family, strength, the ability to use breathing.
He apologizes to Kanata and steps in to help the caterpillar girls in one winged butterfly. He may have a brash exterior, but he's got a heart of gold.
However, out of anyone, no one hates Genya more than Genya hates himself.
Which brings me to my next and main topic: Genya's abilities and how it makes him a fish in a birdcage.
From the very first introduction of Genya's ability, the very narrative sets Genya up as "talentless." "He doesn't have the physical talent to use breathing techniques." As a result, his nichirin blade never changes color. He makes up for this by using his gun, but when he's put into a tight situation, that's when his more unique ability comes into play.
Before we get into that, I want to delve into what the breathing techniques are and what they're supposed to do. For that we go all the way back to the beginning where we meet Makomo who says this: "Total Concentration Breathing accelerates your blood circulation and your heart rate. That causes your body temperature to spike, making you as strong as a demon while being human." So we can conclude that the goal of TCB is to achieve demonic strength.
Which brings me to Genya's most unique and prominent ability; Genya can eat demons to temporarily gain the powers of a demon without fully becoming one. So, if Genya can't use breathing but can gain the strength of a demon anyway, then there should be no problem, right?
Well, it seems that the demon slayer corps is built upon a rather strict honor code and places a heavy emphasis on tradition. Genya not being able to use breathing and having to rely on tainted, evil power, to have to stoop down to a demon's level and consume flesh, in the corps' eyes it makes him lesser. And Genya seems overly aware of this.
He says that Shinobu makes a disgusted face when she sees him and he likely relates it back to him being breathless and eating demons. In one winged butterfly, after he's unable to find the words to reassure another demon slayer he thinks this: "He really was broken. He couldn't do a single thing properly. This was probably why his brother wouldn't look at him."
Hell, even Inosuke throws in his two cents, calling Genya a "wimp" for being unable to use breathing techniques (of which Genya gets really defensive about and starts a fight). He thinks of himself as weak in the infinity castle and unable to really do anything until he remembers Tanjirou's encouragement.
It's safe to say that Genya's self esteem is in the toilet.
He, arguably, has access to a technique that's far more potent than TCB in that it not only gives him the strength of a demon but also gives him the healing and abilities of a demon without the downside of actually being a demon. But because it isn't TCB, he's constantly put down and belittled.
He's meant to fly to the top of the cliff when his real strength lies in swimming up the waterfall. He can still get to the same places but he's looked down upon for his methods.
But there's a legend about a carp that swam upstream against all odds, that leapt up the falls of the Yellow River at Dragon Gate and became a Dragon. It's a story of perseverance and transformation and it's one Genya achieves in his last moments.
Genya achieves his ultimate power; unlocking a blood demon art of his own while still retaining his humanity (and yes, he is still human at this point, Kokushibou confirms as much). It's the ultimate demon hunting technique, parasitic roots that paralyze the target and suck the blood, preventing the target from unleashing their own BDA.
His only thoughts in that moment being that he won't let any of them die. Genya sacrificed everything for his brother, ultimately achieving the goal he had when he was just a child: to protect his Nii-chan. And his brother finally lets his guard down to, switching to the more babyish language (he refers to himself as Nii-chan, saying "Nii-chan will fix this") and it's only then that Genya lets his guard down too. In his last moments, Genya got to be his true self.
A kind, fiercely protective, and loving boy with strength that went beyond what was ever expected of him. He is, possibly one of the strongest characters in theory with so much unexplored potential. His design is solid, telling viewers a lot without giving everything away, his story is compelling (especially to people who are gifted in the "wrong ways") and his personality is complex.
There's a reason I can make so many posts about this character alone and why I have more planned for the bestest boy. But for now! Happy birthday Genya!
#ramblies#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#genya shinazugawa#kny analysis#kny genya#shinazugawa brothers#genya#I may or may not do this for every character's birthday if this does well#i did not proofread this#so have an unfiltered brain dump on genya
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01/05-08/2025 Daily OFMD Recap
TLDR; OFMD Recaps on Mastodon; David Jenkins; Rhys Darby; Taika Waititi; Samba Schutte; Wee John Wednesdays/Kristian Nairn; Rachel House; Dominic Burgess; Kristen Johnston; Hugo Pierre Martin; Aotearoa Treaty Principles Bill Submissions; Articles; AdoptOurCrew: Call To Action; LettersToSeaForSeason3; Fan Spotlight: Jax/North FL OFMD Cosplay/ Fandom Meet Up; Love Notes/Resources;
== OFMD Recaps on Mastodon! ==
Some awesome news! The absolute sweetest person alive, Lowrah (https://gaypirates.club/@lowrah) has been kind (and brave) enough to join my team and create an OFMD Recaps for Mastodon! She has offered to help crosspost the recaps over to Mastodon (blorbo.social) and manage that which I appreciate so much because I am completely inept at that site! She's also the one helping me with all the alt text (that I am behind at updating tumblr with sorry!) so please send her some massive love if you see her around because she is helping me out so much right now! One thing to note -- Since she's on the other side of the world for me, the recaps cross-posted there will be a bit delayed, so please bare with us :) Thank you so much Laura for all your help! You can check it out here!
Source: OFMD Recaps Mastodon
== Cast & Crew Sightings ==
= David Jenkins =
David's giving us some interesting updates on the eve of the first cancellation of S2.
Source: David Jenkins bsky
= Rhys Darby =
Rhys was in Auckland recording the first Cryptid Factor show of 2025! For all of you Cryptid Factor fans out there, he's also finally gotten to come in contact with the Sir Ed YETI Expedition backpack!
Source: The Cryptid Factor's IG
= Taika Waititi =
The Golden Globes celebrations were this past weekend and Taika was everywhere!
Source: Loop Mag
Source: Instagram
Source: VasJMorgan's Instagram
= Samba Schutte =
"14 years in LA today✨ Arrived on Ethiopian Christmas with one suitcase and 5 guiding steps I had come up with in my hut while staying in a remote Kenyan village, for my future self who would eventually make it to Hollywood. Hope you’re proud Past Samba🫶"
Source: Samba's Instagram
= Kristian Nairn and Nathan Foad =
Some great news! Wee John Wednesday is back on Wednesday the 15th! This news also has some clown potential, so please clown responsibly everyone!
Source: Adopt Our Crew Bsky
Kristian is also going to be attending MegaConLive in Dublin on January 18-19, 2025! Get your tickets at megaconlive.com!
Source: MegaConlive Instagram
= Rachel House =
Rachel House was out with friends looking badass!
Source: Maria Lewis IG
= Dominic Burgess =
Dominic is back from the UK and posted some great "Beef" pics from Skeleton Crew. He fits the Star Wars Vibe so well!
Source: Dominic's bsky
Dominic and several of our other cast members live in California so a lot of folks are being affected by the fires. I'll try to post what I can about safety/news but for now, looks like Dominic and family are prepared.
Source: Dominic's Bsky
= Kristen Johnston =
Our "The Widow Evelyn" is now on Bluesky too! Special thanks to @jilliansauers for catching her!
Source: Kristen Johnston's bsky
= Hugo Pierre Martin =
Our friend and crewmate Hugo Pierre Martin is on Bluesky now! HPM's Bluesky
Source: HPM's Bluesky
= Aotearoa Treaty Principles Bill Submissions =
Now, I generally try to keep "politics" out of the recaps because this is meant to be a positive space for the fans-- but I do know that A LOT of our cast and crew are affected by this bill personally so I do want to throw this in there. It looks like you don't actually have to be a resident of Aotearoa to submit your feelings on the bill. Here is helpful linktree with things you can say and how to submit that I tracked down via a post Rachel House reposted.
Source: NZGreenParty
== Articles ==
Thank you @adoptourcrew! You are article maniacs! So many in so little time! Thank you for always sharing!
Source: Adopt Our Crew's Bsky
== Call To Action From AOC ==
January 9, 2024 marks the first cancellation of S2 of our beloved Show. Our fan-crew, @adoptourcrew has asked that you help support our show by: 1. Taking Action 2. Sharing your love 3. Showing your pride. In short-- sign a petition, share something about the show, tell the world how it affected you! If you can get the #OurFlagMeansDeath, #SaveOFMD and #AdoptOurCrew in there, that's great too! Show all the new and seasoned fans how much you love the show!
Source: Adopt Our Crew's Bsky
== Letters To Sea For Season 3 ==
The Letters to Sea for Season 3 campaign that was being spearheaded by the darling Molly, aka aproperpirate, is finally coming to fruition! Tomorrow is the day the letters should be arriving! Molly had a special message to share re the letting writing campaign!
Source: AProperPirate's Bluesky
== Fan Spotlight ==
= Jax/North FL OFMD Cosplay/ Fandom Meet Up =
Florida crew! One of the Truly Docked members @ladymekaella is hosting a little get together in Jacksonville on Jan 19! Wanna join in? Follow them on facebook! Deets below!
1/19/2025 11am - 2pm, Atlantic Beach, FL 32233
Source: Truly Docked Instagram
== Love Notes / Resources ==
Hey Lovelies, I know 01/09/25 is going to be a very mixed feeling kind of day for everyone. It's the anniversary of the first time S2 was cancelled. It's going to bring up a lot of sad feelings, and you should absolutely sit with those feelings and embrace them. It was a rough time for all of us. There's no shame in feeling that grief again. I know I didn't show it much, but I cried so many times. Seriously, like SO MANY TIMES. My parents asked me if someone whacked me in the face with a shovel (which, thanks folks, I feel so pretty) but it was true-- I was devastated. It was a slow burn for me too because I wanted so very much to keep up hope. Seeing you all really push for the show helped keep me going-- and helped me learn more about how to cope with that kind of grief (and it was grief for so many of us because the show meant so very much-- and changed some of us at our core). No matter how tomorrow makes you feel though, I do want to remind you what came of it. This beautiful community rallied together and did some absolutely AMAZING things this past year (I wish I hadn't been sick this past two weeks cause I wanted to get you some stats). From billboards, to faxing, and calling in to Max, and Netflix, and Amazon, and Apple TV, to raising a SHIT TON of money for SO MANY charities-- to making beautiful works of art and fiction-- to making our cast and crew (not just the actors) feel loved and impactful-- this cancellation brought SO MANY OF US TOGETHER. People stepped out of their comfort zones-- talked to people they didn't know, reached out to streaming platforms and learned to use their voices in ways they'd never done before. We all built our own little communities within the fandom, bit by bit-- and those little communities have spread so much love, and kindness, and made life worth living for so many of us. It's been almost a year for my recaps too-- those officially started on Jan 13th, once again, because of the cancellation, and because of the camaraderie of the crew and all the support we all gave each other. Jan 9 is probably a tough day for most of us, but it's also the catalyst for so many wonderful things, and I'm so very grateful for it in a way. I've gotten to know so many of you, gotten to experience your joy, and participate in your struggles, and vice versa. I've met so many people from all over the world I'd never have once dreamt I could meet-- and I know SO MANY of you have too. This fandom is one of a kind-- and this special show and it's cancellation brought us together. I am still in full clown mode at all times, and I believe S3 is an inevitability, it's just a matter of when-- but no matter when it happens, I'm grateful we got this past year together, and all that came with it. So thank you lovelies. Thank you for being a huge part of my life, and turning it in a much better direction I could ever have thought possible given where I was. Lean on each other tomorrow, okay? We got through this past year together, and we'll get through whatever happens going forward, as a crew. Take care of yourself lovelies, drink some water, and get some sleep. Love you <3
= Resources =
Outside of the fandom in my day job, I work for a company that works with 211's and non profits, and so resources are really important to me. I have a lot I'm aware of, but if anyone has more they'd like to share around, please let me know! I'm happy to spread the word to help people get support they need right now!
For those of you in California or who know some folks who are-- please be sure to download the Watch Duty App, it keeps track and notifies you of nearby fires in real time.
In addition here's some additional info on go bags if you are in the evacuation areas:
instagram
Source: Brown Issues Instagram
Also looks like Airbnb will be pairing up with LA 211 to offer shelter for those evacuated from the Palisades fire. You can visit www.211la.org for more information.
instagram
Source: Drew Doege's Instagram
As I hear more resources I'll try to share more in the recaps/on socials. I hope you all are staying safe out there!
#daily ofmd recap#ofdm daily recap#ofmd daily recap#our flag means death#ofmd#rhys darby#taika waititi#save ofmd#ofmd daily recaps#adopt our crew#samba schutte#dominic burgess#rachel house#letters to sea for season 3#kristen johnston#hugo pierre martin#long live ofmd#crew for life#fire resources#Instagram
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🌨 Weekly Tag Wednesday - January Randomness 🌨
Tag gamessssss are back!! Thanks @mybrainismelted for making the game this week and thanks for tagging me!!
Name: deanna🌱
Age: noel
What were you doing last night at 12AM? i was asleep fuck yeah 🙌 (this is an achievement for me)
What word do you still have trouble remembering how to spell? Brocolli. Broccoli? Broccolli? That one. <- okay using Kat's because this is one for me for sure, i often cop out and justt call it brocco. but also another one is vacuum. wait did i just fuckin get that that on the first try??? never in my life......
You accidentally ate some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they gave you the super-power of your choice! What is that power? okay sorry to steal again but yeah teleportation!! i just think its the most useful for the most variety of things!
First thing you would buy if you won the lottery? a house that is not falling apart!
Who is your favourite author? i usually just say Trick Weekes because the masked empire and da:i solas remain some of my favorite shit ever written
What’s the tenth photo in your photo album on your phone? Can you explain?
yes we had a blizzard and i took a photo of our buried front yard!
What was your favourite breakfast cereal growing up? How about today? maybe...kix?? cinnamon toast crunch?? my current fav would be honey bunches of oats with almonds but i also really loved that one as a youth too.
What outfit did you wear growing up that you’d be mortified to be seen in today? i dont know i've always been a relatively plain-style clothing person. certainly wouldnt look good in a babydoll tee, but i dont know if i'd find it mortifying 😆
and now i'll tag some folks to play along if you'd like! otherwise please take this little snowflake ❄️that i give you with love🤍
@michellemisfit @jrooc @suzy-queued @energievie @too-schoolforcool @gardenerian @lazystargazy @creepkinginc @palepinkgoat @blue-disco-lights @callivich @gallawitchxx @salesmain @gallapiech @crossmydna @spoonfulstar @echotrees @gallavich-annise @mmmichyyy @the-rat-wins @loftec @wehangout @femboymilkovich @sickness-health-all-that-shit @sgtmickeyslaughter @heymrspatel @darlingian @ian-galagher @sam-loves-seb @rereadanon @catgrassplantdad @lingy910y @spookygingerr @transmickey @vintagelacerosette @kiennilove @iansw0rld @softmick @francesrose3 @c-nord @burninface
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"How can you act like nothing happened?" + buddie if it inspires u <3333
Hi, April! Indeed it did inspire (just took a hot second to get all the details and i hope you like it) 💖🫶
What happens to them after? Buck had asked Dr. Salazar. They just go back to their same old lives? Go back to being the same old people?
Some do.
When he was in her office, posing that question, he doesn’t even consciously know if he had Eddie’s experience in mind. Well, one of Eddie’s experiences.
The soul shifting instance of Eddie falling in the middle of the street like a ragdoll. Not to mention the others. Eddie being buried alive under forty feet of earth. Eddie being trapped in a burning house, surrounded by fire on all sides.
Buck’s had his fair share of near misses, they all have. So why does Eddie’s nonchalance bother him so much now? Is it because this time Buck actually died? For ‘three minutes and seventeen seconds’, Eddie corrected Chief Williams. He previously told Buck ‘you think you’re expendable, but you’re wrong’.
One time Buck asks what death was like for Eddie, and he answers as casually as if Buck asked about his day.
Then I thought ‘this is it’. This is the last moment of my life. He shrugged. Then I woke up in the hospital.
Buck barges through the front door. No knocking, no checking if Eddie has company. He finds him folding towels at the dining room table, humming to himself.
“Hey, Buck. Wasn’t expecting you… today.” Eddie trails off as he notices Buck’s demeanor.
“How can you act like nothing happened?”
“Excuse me?” Eddie pinches his brows together in that way that Buck knows he’s flipping through a mental rolodex of recent memories. “Is this about the casserole last week? Because of the-”
“What? What about the- you know what? Nevermind, that’s not why I’m here.” Buck folds his arms across his chest, adding, “But we’ll come back to that.”
Eddie nods slowly, hand drifting to the laundry basket to pick up the next towel. “So, why are you here?”
“Because, Eddie. You told me I wasn’t expendable. You made me Christopher’s legal guardian if something happens to you.” He sniffs, angry that his emotions are choosing now to break loose, after weeks of feeling numb. “For Christ’s sake, you knew exactly how long I was dead.”
The assertion makes Eddie flinch, makes him stare a hole into the floor, astutely avoiding Buck’s gaze.
“But you- you never wanna talk about it. Not when it comes to you.”
“Maybe,” Eddie’s tongue darts out to wet his lips, he cocks his head in annoyance, and Buck knows he’s onto something. He’s struck a nerve. “Maybe, because there’s nothing to talk about.”
“Oh no? Y- you get shot down in Afghanistan, buried alive, shot again in LA, have a fucking breakdown and there’s nothing to talk about?” Buck steps forward, standing directly in front of his best friend, forcing him to look up. “Okay, well what about Chris needing therapy after the tsunami? Huh? What about going to dispatch because – you thought – Chris didn’t want you to be a firefighter anymore? Hell, that eventually got you to patch things up with your old man. But all those other things? Just another day in the life of Eddie Diaz. No need to stick around, folks, nothing happening here.”
“Christopher is different, Buck. He’s my son.”
“And you’re my best friend. My partner.” My person, he doesn’t say, wiping away the tears rolling down his cheeks. “Doesn’t that mean anything? We’re all just supposed to deal with it if it’s you, and pretend to live our same old lives?”
Eddie purses his lips, backs away. He doesn’t even look in Buck’s direction when he says, “Please leave.”
Buck freezes. “What?”
“Get out, Buck. Before I do say something and we both regret it.”
He could fight back, keep prodding at the singular bruise spread across both of them. He wants to, wants Eddie to yell and scream. Something. Anything. In the end Buck isn’t sure why he doesn’t. All he knows is that in the space of a breath all the fight leaves him. All the fire and outrage deflates, making him feel emptier than before.
When he reaches the front door, Eddie still won’t look at him. So he listens and turns the handle, walks over the threshold. He keeps going until he reaches the jeep, until he’s sitting in the driver’s seat, until he’s several streets away and sure no one will see him. Then he crumbles. He falls apart, wracked with sobs he knows will leave his body hollow and aching later.
And he wonders- should he have kept pretending, too?
send an angsty prompt
#these boys have soooo much to answer for#buddie#buddie ficlet#hippo gets mail#angst prompt#open ending#hippo writes#lonelychicago#april tag 💞
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FUUKA 🫶
#that’s it that’s all I have to say today folks#persona 3#p3#persona 3 reload#p3r#persona 3 fuuka#fuuka yamagishi
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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)
#svsss#bingqiu#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#lbh#sqq#i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss#the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently#and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything#it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg#as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it#everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person#each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it#at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same#and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical#because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING#aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying#but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line#anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series#i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix#i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship#bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once#bizarre#my art
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✨important ko-fi update✨
i figured out how to fix my ko-fi unsubscribing problem without deleting my whole acocunt (i just went through and unsubscribed everyone who was still subscribed and then turned off the option to be a monthly supporter 🎉 )
(it turns out it was a very easy fix/answer to the dilemma i was having lol - there was even an official walkthrough from ko-fi)
so!! instead of just deleting my account completely, i've gone and made all the stories there public, so everyone can read them if they'd like! the links to the google docs where the fics are are in the summaries of the posts in the gallery tab of my ko-fi. they vary from familiar aus we've talked about on tumblr (like wine party au and divorce lawyer au) to aus that have fics on ao3 (like pbatmb & stacy's mom au) to aus that i created really just for ko-fi (like jedi healer anakin au & mermay au)
when i get around to posting the fics on ao3 from ko-fi (sometime in 2025, depending on my serotonin levels), i'll delete the fic from the gallery. but this way people who had access before because they were supporters get to keep their access even after their subscriptions expire!! and folks who do want to read the stories but couldn't because of budget get them too 😊
#kit's ko-fi#happy saturday#obikin#so if you did save all those links cause i told you to i am so so sorry#but i promise i did a ton of empty-minded clicking and refreshing today too#but anyway for all subscribers i did go through everyone and make sure all subscriptions said 'canceled'#but if you get billed for the next round please let me know so i can figure out the refund process!!#and for everyone else: enjoy! 🤗#and if you wanna buy me a coffee as i write my last essay for my first semester of grad school#i would not say no i would say thank you thank you thank you with multiple virtual kisses#only 4 more days to go folks#these last few tags have just been for me tbh im gnawing at the bit to be done
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(shut up shut up shut up shut up-)
(they’d give good hugs…)
#minute doodles#delete later#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#daycare attendant#fnaf dca#my sona#minute sona#shut up no one say anything just stop talking#(we like hugs and there was no one around)#(also our emotions have just been all over the place lately and this was one of many results)#anyhow#these are from september i think#We need them today cuz#things are#hard for us rn#The thoughts and the#Yknow#(Sorry for venting like 12 times on main this week folks)#Delete later#sun fnaf#moon fnaf
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Fernando Alonso arriving on Media Day ahead of the 2024 Singapore GP | 📸 by Denzyl KY
#fernando alonso#autumn posts#I always will love a photo of a camera showing a photo ✨🙂↕️#sending everyone so much good energy today#the uncertainty for Daniel is making my heart so heavy but I am going to try to believe everything will work out!!!#it can be so stressful so I hope everyone is doing okay#qualifying my next tag by saying I believe Tarot card readings are more for illuminating vs predicting anything#like helping see within yourself more than examining the future#but a deck that I've been poking at for years did give me the Chariot when I asked about Daniel's future#and I have been clinging to that all morning ahhhh#so yeah realistically answers will come in time and there's no way to know for sure now#but I believe the best is yet to come!!! defiantly hopeful 24 7 365 🙂↕️💞#anyways this is just me yapping before I gotta run to the office!!!!!!!#hoping to peek in when I can but thanks y'all always I love the tags folks leave so much 🥺💞#even just the idea of folks liking photos and my silly gifs I always smile!!!!! thank you!!!!!#hope its a great Thursday wherever you may be!!!! 🏙️🌆🌃💕✨💖✨
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When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings
#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem#in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together#and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier#WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH#i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd#and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i#waves my hands around manically#for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins#in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone#and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control#one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings#that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded#and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all#like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need#to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level#AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING#anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have#and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh#yapping
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yall ever see a fan take so racist you have to leave the app
#just saw someone say its homophobic that jayvik didnt kiss.#im sorry. jayce ABANDONS MEL. THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE. WHOM HE IS DEVOTED BODY AND SOUL TO. FOR THIS WHITE TWINK.#AND YALLS PROBLEM ISNT THE SIDELINING OF A BLACK WOMAN BUT INSTEAD HOMOPHOBIA THAT THE MEN DIDNT KISS?? what the fuck is wrong with you#i havent seen the finale yet but im. i dont have words. could you at least Act like you see Black people as human. as worthwhile.#every Black arcane fan im so fucking sorry yall have to see this shit all the time jesus christ#i am Tipsy i am doing Crafts and i am going to start hunting twinks for sport#mossy speaks#delete later#'its homophobic and a bad sign for future mlm rep' WHAT ABOUT THE SIGNS FOR FUTURE BLACK WOMEN REP HUH? WHAT ABOUT HER? WHAT THE FUCK?#unbelievably take from all angles. jesus fucking christ#arcane spoilers#i think idk who gives a fuck#also for anyone who wants to try it im a cane user ok. none of yall care abt viktor being disabled but in case u want to care about it today#dont. what happened with jayvik sidelining mel isnt about us disabled folks its just not.
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Had a moment today that exemplifies how my family thinks but like, in a way that’s just very sad and makes me glad I don’t think that way.
Showed a relative the amazing painting that friend did for me, and her first response was “you’d be able to sell that for some good money!!!”
Like. No????
For months I’ve discussed this creative trade with this friend, we’ve talked about what the other wants, we’ve gotten excited about it and traded progress pics as we work on it for each other, gotten stoked over making plans to get to the post office and seeing the other finally get it, and it’s just been a very wholesome and very fun project. It took six weeks for us to complete these projects, and now I have something on display in my room that makes me very happy, that’s objectively beautiful, and that I know a friend put a lot of effort into making for me and was THRILLED when I adored it.
And my family’s immediate line of thinking is “make a few quid from it lol”.
I can’t imagine the headspace it must take to go through life like that.
#I mean same relative said something similar when I met Nikki Sixx#very long story short he was my idol growing up his music got me through a lot#got to meet him on MC’s ‘final tour’ in 2015#I was 18 I was so nervous but so thrilled#he was so insanely kind to my teenage self#listened intently when I explained how his music got me through a lot#and how I was setting out to become a writer even tho my fam disapproved#he encouraged me he gave me the pick he used to play that entire gig#he liked our pic together on IG and encouraged me and was INSANELY lovely on FB when I later posted a pic of my tattoo of his autograph#(and if u kno him u kno he gets prickly on social media to folk who deserve it so like)#just went completely above and beyond to encourage me and be so so SO kind#I excitedly tell this same relative about it all#I’m on cloud 9 bc my idol encouraged me to chase my dreams#this same relative got angry at me because I didn’t ask him for tickets to their final ever show in LA#like#this man just proved the saying of never meet your heroes entirely wrong#he repeatedly went out of his way to be kind to me#when all he really had to do was smile and pose for a photo and sign my shit#and she wanted me to then ask him to fly me out to a sold out gig for free#like he would have told me to fuck off and it would’ve ruined the entire thing#bc it’s just such a glaring display of ungratefulness and I’d never be weird enough to ask anyway#and she was LIVID with me insisting ‘you don’t get it you don’t ask!!!!!’#and this was ten years ago and this exchange today just showed me nothing has changed#like how can you just cheapen the value of things like this to make a few quid or to go to a free concert#I couldn’t live that way#and she consistently alienated people from her and can never work out why#it’s honestly just very sad
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Anyway. Harpy Hare animatic with Moxora and the Hexbloods is anyone else thinking about this.
#where have you buried all your children.....#they will die and be afraid mother tell me so I say....#mmm#Im having a normal one today folks#hex buds my beloved
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regulus black headcanons because i love him <3
he never really eats in the mornings, only before quidditch matches (the times he didn't eat, they lost the match, so it's kind of a superstition at this point)
is the only one between barty, him, and even, who knows how to tie a tie
nursed a small crush on lily evans at some point but would die beford admitting it. the only one who knew about it was pandora, because she was the kind of person who knew how to pick up this kind of signs
has really neat handwriting, it's one of the things he gets praised for. no matter how quickly he jots down his ideas, his handwriting is really readable
he's a really, really quiet person. he has days where he can go on twenty words a day. he prefers quietness, which is why he hangs out with evan (who is louder and more sociable) the least out of his friend group
snape is his personal bootlicker, just in case. he knows regulus is powerful and influential, and he needs to get a taste of it
every time he "escapes" to the greenhouses "to check how the plants are doing" he gets high with peter. they had a small friendship over their school years that dissipated when peter graduated, and which turned into resentment when peter joined the death eaters
he has curly hair, but loose curls, not the tight ones. pandora loves running her hands through them, she says it's calming (it's also calming for regulus)
he has a haircare routine (that no one knows about besides barty, and he only knows because they share a dorm) and sleeps on silk pillowcases in order to keep his hair looking the way it does
he has chronic resting bitchface, and he smiles very rarely. does not know how to smile with teeth. he looks like he's grimacing whenever he tries to do it.
very polite and graceful; he swore once or twice in his life, and he only swears when he's extremely angry
really tall for a teenager
#and that is all for today folks. also i have about thirty followers left to 2k and i am so. god. i don't even know what to say i am#KWJDKSJDJE. yeah. that's how i feel right now.#regulus black#regulus black headcanons#my writing#headcanons
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head in my hands (<- she is thinking about the dreamcatcher dystopia and apocalypse trilogies)
with dystopia it's like. (scream) the world is so full of hatred and vitriol and every time i am reminded of it, it seeps further and further into my veins and i'm worried it may consume me. the witch hunts are constant and ever worsening, and all that ever comes from them is more contempt and more regret. what is this poisonous masquerade all for. does anyone else hear this, i'm calling out to you, i'm begging for relief and for catharsis. i need this to reach you, i need you to hear the cries of the people who are suffering. i'm shouting alongside them. (boca) do you speak to your mother with that mouth. would she be proud of the things that you're saying. look around you - the angels are dying and the casualties grow with every spiteful word. sometimes kindness starts with silence when all you want is to fight fire with fire. my heart is pierced for you again and again, and i don't know how much longer it can be like this. i want to help you, i want to let you breathe again and give you relief from the harsh words that have strangled your lungs. i want to make this world better, and i want it to start with us. (odd eye) the world is broken, this is not a fairytale. utopia has never existed and it never will. do not believe the sugarcoated lie of perfection because it is impossible to grasp. the world is dark and you will not find what you're looking for if eternal peace is what you seek. open your eyes to reality, and you will make it a better place - not by dreaming, but by doing what you can.
and then with apocalypse it's like. (maison) our home is dying, our planet is dying, our people are dying, but i feel so detached from it all. i need to come down to earth, i need to keep pushing for change in every way that matters. your conscience is drying faster than the droughts plaguing our land, don't you see that we need to do something about this. please someone fight for us - the task is enormous and the stakes are daunting, and i'm coming down to rescue you but i can't do it alone. you have to help save yourself. (vision) the world is a scorched-earth battlefield and we are its foot-soldiers. we must press on and fight now that we've come this far. everything is painted in shades of moral gray, but we must act decisively. i am reaching for your hand in the trenches, i am sending a message to you, i am giving you a vision. do you copy, have you clasped my soot-stained hand. the work is hard, but we must reload and keep going. join us and fight alongside us. i am not asking, i am not begging - there is no time for either. ([reason] i am with you always, in war and peace, in hatred and in love. you are why i fight. i have spent years being beaten down, and you have, too, but it is your companionship that buoys me, brightens my darkness, makes this world worth it all. you are my reason. don't let me stop fighting.) (bon voyage) we have fought the good fight together, my friend. the war wages onward, but our assignments have changed, and we must part ways. i will carry every lesson you have taught me within me. the battlefield lies fallow until the footprints recede. the flowers are starting to bloom again and the colors are coming into focus. a part of me will always be drawn to you even as i leave you, even when you are long gone. travel well, my friend. may our battles not be in vain and may we both find rest. i hope i will see your face in peacetime.
#i have a normal amount of thoughts about music i promise#and this is WITH a language barrier i can't even fathom how much more feral their discography would make me if i was fluent#anyway um. they popped off so hard with their recent trilogies and they did it so well. thank you leez and ollounder thank you deukae#anyway um. go listen to dreamcatcher if you like sick instrumentals and tolerate kpop even a little bit.#scream boca odd eye maison vision and bon voyage you are all so special to me. perhaps doubly so for reason#also for the dndads folks in the audience their sound is so gothweeb to me. btw#yeah if you like video game soundtracks and anime osts and vaguely horror flavored things. them#also if you like pretty women as well. probably goes without saying since they’re a kpop group but they are very pretty#music#dreamcatcher#happi rambles#hi mutuals i bet you weren't expecting a kpop post from me today. or ever. i'm full of surprises to the point where i surprise even myself
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