#that smoker is literally me playing infected

[nijuukoo]

Stuck in the Mud

[allylikethecat]

ugh like picture it.. sitting on your partners lap & falling asleep to their heart beat full of angst/hurt/comfort w matty & george.. dare i’d say you’d win a noble peace prize

Remember when I said this morning I was going to write something from the Sleep Prompts list next? Apparently that was a lie 😂

Also, I apologize that this has taken me literal months to finish! Anon I hope that you're still here and that this was worth at least some of the overly long wait.

I think I was missing working on the A&E fic a little bit... because we have a sick Fictional!Matty in this one... I hope you like it! Thank you so much for sending this prompt in, in the first place! I'm sorry again it took me so long to finish!

This is from the physical intimacy prompts list which can be found here. I am always taking more prompt requests even if it apparently takes me months to finish them - I promise I WILL finish all of them eventually though!! I have a spread sheet!

❤️Ally

Sitting in your partner's lap & Falling asleep to your partner's heartbeat 

George was angry. He was angry at Jamie and the rest of their team for scheduling so many back to back tour stops. He was angry at Matty for hiding how sick he was. But most of all, he was angry at himself for not noticing. He was angry that he hadn’t noticed the way Matty had been turning away from him in bed, desperate to hide his fever and wheezing breath. He was angry that he hadn’t noticed Matty’s shaking hands, and that he was swallowing ibuprofen and tylenol like they were tic-tacs, alternating every three hours. That he hadn’t noticed that Matty wasn’t drinking, that his cough wasn’t the ever present smoker’s rattle from a pack a day, a pack he hadn’t touched in a week, but rather infection settling into his lungs, filling with fluid to drown him on land. 

Matty had stumbled down the hallway as soon as they exited the B stage, the roar of the crowd still echoing in their ears. He had grabbed at his chest, gasping and choking on phlegm, coughing so hard he couldn’t even hope to catch his already short breath, dropping to his knees as his shoulders shook. There was a medic on him instantly, getting him upright, pressing an oxygen mask to his face. George watched in horror, frozen in place, his sweaty shirt clinging to his back, still clutching his drumsticks as Hann nudged him forward, reminding him he should go with Matty as the medic whisked him away. George wondered if they were supposed to tell someone they were leaving as he followed Matty into the back of the ambulance.

George was afraid, curled in on himself, trying to seem smaller and stay out of the way as the medics worked on Matty, listening to his heart, wincing at the crackling in his lungs. He’s not having a heart attack, don’t worry, one of the medics had tried to assure him kindly. George wasn’t sure how that was supposed to help when Matty still couldn’t breathe. He wasn’t sure when they became old enough for a heart attack to be a valid concern. George squeezed his eyes shut, his stomach flipping as they sped out of the venue and down the congested city streets. The perks of playing in arenas designed for ice hockey, he thought, squeezing Matty’s hand, the ambulance was parked inside the tunnel. 

George ran his hand down Matty’s back, fingers brushing each bump as his spin curved through the opening of his hospital gown. He had lost weight over the course of his illness and George hated that he was just now noticing, not realizing Matty was belting his pants a hole tighter, moving his food around his plate without eating it, nausea churning in his belly. 

Matty had been agitated, shivering with fever and fatigue clinging to George as if he was the only thing tethering him to this earth. The doctor that examined him was shocked that he had made it through a two hour concert with his fever, with his low oxygen levels, with his lungs hitching on every breath, catching against the infected fluid. Not only that he had been able to perform, able to sing, but that it wasn’t the first two hour show he had performed that week. 

The doctor ordered a chest x-ray that led to a pneumonia diagnosis. Matty had coughed, rasping that he wasn’t some sickly Victorian child despite what Twitter might think, that he was going to be fine. George didn’t comment on the fear in his glassy eyes. 

He was started on IV antibiotics and fluids, an oxygen mask fitted over his face to help him breathe easier, even if Matty kept taking it off to cough wetly into his elbow. He spat thick green mucus into a tissue, his nose wrinkling in disgust each time he would weakly toss the tissue into the bin they had placed next to his bed. After a while George started taking the tissues from him, Matty too weak to even lift his head and toss them himself. 

Matty tried to argue that George didn’t have to stay, even though it was clear to George, clear to anyone with eyes, that Matty didn’t want him to leave (not that George would ever leave.) He insisted that he was fine, even as he looked anything but, his cheeks pale and his eyes sunken, his breath shallow as he coughed. He told George to go back to the hotel, told him to go shower and rest. But even as he spoke he kept his fingers tangled in the fabric of Geroge’s stage button down. Even after all these years, Matty didn’t like to let himself need others, he didn’t like to be what he thought of as a burden even though he was anything but. George had just climbed into the hospital bed with him, and pulled him into his lap, assuring him that he wasn’t going anywhere. 

Matty had his cheek pressed to George’s chest, the steady beat of his heart, the rhythmic rise and fall of his chest as he inhaled and exhaled, lulling him to sleep like a toddler on a car ride, their legs tangled together on the rough sheets. Matty had fought at first to keep his eyes open, grumbling that he wasn’t tired. But the antibiotics made him woozy as his adrenaline crashed, his body no longer in a desperate survival mode. He started to relax, realizing he was safe now, wrapped in George’s embrace, getting the treatment he needed. George could feel him trembling in his arms, trying to time his own breaths to the beat of George’s heart. 

“Rest Matty,” said George, pressing a kiss to the top of Matty’s head, his sweat damp curls tickling George’s nose, as his breathing slowly evened out. He didn’t get a response, Matty growing heavier in his arms as he finally fell asleep. 

[f-list-questionable]

Not f-list, I just wanted to share my earliest #badrpstory from about 12 years ago.

Just look at this nightmare of a bio and know that this person had a fandom.

They had a roleplay group on deviantart for their fandom, where people could play OCs for this world where L4D(2) zombie children were still cognizant and so were shuffled back into public schooling.

Your character had to be either a student or a faculty member at this school. The moderators, all this person or their friends, were rarely present. When they were there it was to roleplay their own characters who were neither students nor teachers, and there was an unwritten rule that we were NOT to attempt to interact with their scenes, which were preplanned. You were also not to post too much while they were playing. In that way it was less of a roleplay room, and more of a stage for their OCs.

...

The first time I remember getting in serious trouble, they had set up a wedding scene and in the process made a huge deal about there being an excess of catering, so some of us decided our characters would break into the venue and steal some food-- because they were borderline feral children with intensified senses, of course they were going to. We thought that was the point. Wacky hijinks ensued with the mods responding to their efforts with strange and hilarious deterrents like being struck by lightning. Our characters forged on in the quest for cake and overpriced baked ravioli.

Out of nowhere the mods break character and start screaming at us about how this is a "private scene" and we "can't take a fucking hint".

...

The next time we ran into trouble a friend of mine had invented some kind of strange ink blob characters related to their OC. I don't even remember what the content of the RP was but the mods cursed them in all caps. "TELL ME WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH ZOMBIES?" over and over.

I don't know, what does Alan Wake have to do with zombies? What does TRON have to do with Zombies? What does the Self-Insert Principal's 8-legged rainbow color-shifting pet dragon have to do with Zombies?

...

The last straw was when I made an OC like that looked like this.

My friend messages me and tells me the mods are freaking out in the chat calling me a plagiarist. I join chat and immediately get dogpiled. Accusations, insults, snark, sarcasm, "did you think we wouldn't know".

What was my crime?

"Cheek patches".

Yes, the generic animu blushies were the problem. You see, the "cheek patches" were a real physical feature on the main character's face. The main character, who was otherwise quite literally nothing more than a chibified Hunter. This was a genetic trait he shared with his brother, which would regrow when pulled off, and because my RPC, who happened to also be a short hunter, was drawn with this? That meant she was a ripoff of their extremely original Do Not Steal OC.

They would not accept this as a stylistic choice. No no, in THIS universe, blushies are REAL, and YOU COPIED THEM. When chat pushed back, then suddenly I was a style thief, despite myself then having an overly soft wannabe-semirealism style while the owner's had an extremely angular toony look, as above.

They kept tearing me down for over 30 minutes, during which they went on to lie about her younger brother to make the two of them seem more alike to the MC duo. They told everyone that he was a "tall quiet Smoker" like the main character's best friend, when he was actually a Spitter, of average height, and who was definitely not quiet but instead had no jaw and could not speak.

Nothing about their appearances besides a height gap and the shorter having "cheek patches" were similar, neither body nor clothes. In fact, they both broke norms for their respective Infected types. My friends tried to help. They pointed out that most other Hunters in the group were far more similar to the MC, and that other characters that had been submitted with the same "cheek patches" were accepted. That many OCs were the same but with a different shaped hood, or added bunny ears, sometimes just visible eyes or hair. They also pointed out that one of their own mods' OCs was basically a genderswapped version of the MC's older sibling with a similar name, and they were very obviously trying to match the owner's art style as well.

Despite this, I was singled out and berated until I was sobbing like a bitch. I left the group, deleted the character, and removed all mentions of the group off my page and every deviation I'd ever made for it. I still don't know why I was targeted.

...

What gets to me these days is realizing that we were exposed to some pretty weird shit in that group. Some of the players were obviously very young, as in not old enough to use the site kind of young, and the owner gave us the impression that they were much older than they really were to give the appearance of being responsible, knowledgeable, in control....constantly mentioning being an old man with a boring job. Mid-to-late-20s type. They were actually only 18 when I joined.

The problem there is that this led us to believe that the inappropriate topics we encountered in that room were a normal and safe way for grown adults to communicate with us. Sex topics were "normal". Being bullied by adults was "normal".

All of the pictured characters are underage, some as young as 12. And this was just the norm. Why did they accept sexualized character submissions from minors? Why was this displayed to minors? And why was this just the way people behaved on the internet back then?

[sassypotatoe1]

Updated hacks 14 months in!

Check your engine oil, gearbox oil, water and tire pressure every time you put in gas. It's overkill, and it takes more time, but if you're like me and checking these things once a month isn't a thing that happens then it's better to check too often than not often enough. I ran out of engine oil and my engine started smoking and smelled like popcorn and I had a heart attack. The smoke and popcorn smell was from rats carrying actual popcorn into my engine, but the panicked look revealed the low oil levels and I had to do an emergency refill.

Have your as-needed meds in strategic places and set calendar reminders for when they expire. I have my panic meds, aspirin and paracetamol in my desk drawer, aspirin and nausea meds in my car glove box, and ANOTHER pack of aspirin at home as well as ibuprofen (though I prefer diclofenac) and my inhaler that I need to replace. If I get a migraine I can't think or function, and I can't just go home and sleep it off, but aspirin is ridiculously effective for my migraines so I keep some at work in case I feel a migraine coming on. Paracetamol is good for sinus infection pain and joint pain.

Water bottles. Even if the office tap water is drinkable if you're like me you can't drink tap water from an unfamiliar place, even if it's clean and tastes good. Get several water bottles that are dishwasher safe. Fill one up and drink throughout the day. Use the next bottle the next day while this one is in the dishwasher or a boiling water bath with bleach, and then the other one the day after that. Water bottles get mold, And you don't want to consume that. But you need water, and sanitizing your bottle every day is hard, so get a few and rotate them. You can literally get three or four of the exact same bottle if you want a specific one for the sensories.

Play games. Seriously take 10 minute breaks from work every hour to 90 minutes, and play some mobile games. Gives you a dopamine hit and you end up being much more efficient in your work. It's what smokers do with smoking, just healthier.

If your work is of a nature that allows it, like call center or receptionist or admin work, take creative projects to work and work on them. Talk to your supervisor first and tell them why. My work is not of the nature where I can crochet or draw while I'm working, but multiple people have told me that they crochet at work to keep their hands busy to avoid picking. Just get explicit permission and try it.

Try new things if your work is going slow. Whether that's personal projects or new work projects, doing something different for a bit makes the happy brain juices and makes you more productive. I started making infographics and training materials for work, and the infographics aren't being used but it's something I can say I did. Granted the training materials are mandatory we are required to present training, but I enjoy it enough that I'm fully willing to make and present more seminars outside of the mandated sessions.

Survival guide for the adhd/depressed/autistic newly established office worker:

Brought to you by a depressed adhd autistic who took 10 months to adjust to office life after starting to work their first full time job.

Food:

We all have trouble with food, no denying it, so how do you manage it? Well there's a couple of ways depending on your individual needs.

If you're like me and you will end up just not eating if you don't have food immediately accessible, keep a snack drawer. Empty an entire drawer in your desk, buy a combination of healthy and less nutritious snack food that's shelf stable in bulk. I typically get a bunch of packets of like two types of potato chips/crisps, a bunch of single serving packets of salted peanuts, single serving packets of dried fruit flakes because the solid dried fruit are a sensory nightmare, and a bag of lollipops. By 10ish when I need my first snack I pop a lollipop, and if I didn't pack lunch I have access to fiber, protein, fat and carbs.

I also sniffed around for a couple of months to find the best deal on safe food takeout, ie a meal that's filling, relatively balanced, cheap and fits my texture and taste sensitivities. When it gets too expensive I find another one. Once a week I allow myself to get that if I didn't pack lunch so I don't end up spending all my money on takeout but still get to eat well enough.

If you're concerned about overeating or eating less nutritious food, get nutritious safe food options. They're typically a bit more expensive and a bit less shelf stable, I keep instant soup with freeze dried veggies in my drawer in the winter, and I have a tub of ensure to make shakes if I feel I'm missing out on some nutrients. Focus more on dried fruits, pretzels, nuts, instant food with veggies and nutrient loaded fruit juice. Get ensure if you can afford it. In a limited way it can act as a nutritious meal replacement, but I mean limited as in once or twice a week. Do not replace all your meals with a nutrition shake.

When you buy fresh produce, process it immediately before it goes into the fridge/freezer. Don't let that head of lettuce wilt and rot. Pull it apart, wash it off, put what you're not using immediately in a ziploc in the freezer if it freezes, and put the rest open in the produce section of your fridge. Not only will it already be ready to use when you use it, if it's not in a bag or container where the moisture is trapped it remains fresh for longer. That or if you can afford it buy pre-processed produce, divide it into serving portions, freeze what can be frozen.

Buy. Ready. Made. Meals. I know microwave dinners are the butt of the depression joke but they're literally life-saving, because when I was really struggling with my depression and ARFID microwave dinners were my only source of nutrition for a while and it literally kept me from actually dying. Do not be ashamed to meet your needs.

Stimming:

Keep some of your fidget toys or stimming items at your desk. I keep my tangle and fidget cube there so I don't pick my eyebrows to hell and back. It doesn't always work but it's better than nothing. Keep chewing gum in your car. Chewing tricks your brain into thinking you're eating, which tells your sympathetic nervous system that you're safe. It helps you focus better on driving and keeps you a bit calmer making your reaction times faster and less impulsive.

Reminders:

Keep a pad of sticky notes on your desk, preferably a neon color, and all the pens you own that you don't care about losing. Set a reminder on your phone calendar, your computer calendar, your email calendar, on a sticky note on your wall, and in your physical diary. No chance of forgetting something if you do that, because you can't miss all of them.

Take some time to figure out your grocery list. What do you typically need in a month? Make a printout of that grocery list and keep it on your fridge and your phone, along with a monthly or weekly calendar reminder to go grocery shopping. Before you head out check what you still have plenty of and preemptively check it off on your phone list so you don't accidentally buy too much of something.

Keep a "what's in my fridge" log on your fridge. It makes you more aware of what's in there, how long it's been in there, and whether you should throw it out or eat it or leave it. Keep a chart of how long foods hold in the fridge beside that log. The log lists what is in the fridge, when it went into the fridge, when the product seal was broken, and the expiry date of the product. No more moldy fridge food.

Miscellaneous:

Assign care tasks to another task that's already a regular habit. Keep your morning meds by the kettle, and make taking out a dose part of the process of making your morning coffee. Pick a task you do daily at work, usually in the morning, and assign wearing your glasses to that task. I need my glasses to proofread the print dummies because the font isn't very friendly, so I accidentally got into the habit of making putting on my glasses part of the proofreading process. Brushing teeth is part of makeup. Showering is part of getting dressed. It's easier to complete these tasks if I don't view them as seperate tasks, but rather as steps in a different task that comes more naturally to me.

I keep sticky notes and pens in my car, as well as in my purse when I use it, so I can make notes of things when I need to. Car care notes go on stickies when I notice the need, then I'm reminded of it every time I'm in the car. I typically don't even have to read the note, I see that there is one and usually remember what it was about. This helps me remember what I need to do to maintain my car, because I have gotten in an accident and forgotten about it and drove around with a warped front fender for a month. I currently have a sticky note to get my tire pressure checked when I go home from work tonight on my dash.

That's all I have but TL:DR allow yourself to meet your needs without shame, no matter how strange or childish they seem, and find loopholes to your behavior for the best outcome for your health, safety and productivity. Like I said in the intro it took me 10 months to figure out these, so don't be afraid to take the time to figure out what works for you. It'll be absolutely worth it.

[bigjigglyidi8]

special infected. tell me your opinions on each and every one. n o w

Hunter: Fun. Loud as Fuck. Feral Dog. Not fun to play as. Makes a great distraction and perfect noise cover for the other infected. Always shipped with the Smoker.

Spitter: Terrifying. The most disgusting looking one out of them all. Mouth Pussy For. The. Win. Most fun to play for me. Always prefer being support.

Smoker: Hentai Wet Dream 🥵. Always shipped with the Hunter. Another favourite to play as. Snipe Snipe Snipe.

Tank: He can smash me whenever and wherever 🥵. JK. The Scariest. Terrifying. Will shit pants whenever I see it. Gives me the most anxiety literally. Like IRL shaking and gasping.

Jockey: Annoying. Not fun to play as. Crab Jockey is pretty funny though.

Witch: Downright mood. Give the girl some hot chocolate and the FRIENDS Box Set.

Charger: "It's the feller who masturbates all day".

Boomer: Porky Pig on Heroin. Fun to play. 🎶Trapped in the Boom Boom Roooom🎶

Boomette: Petunia Pig on Crack. Fun to play. Water Balloon of death.

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[lucky-dreamfisher]

How many new characters are we introduced to in DCtL and what do we learn about them? I'm seeing a Dave being thrown around but I'm not hearing anything about him.

Major new characters:

Buddy - ambitious, but very naive. He does some morally dubious things during the book, but he improves in the end. He’s often said to resemble Joey, but Joey refers to him as Henry by accident, so he’s kind of a mix between the two. He hero worships Joey a lot, up until literally the last page, when he finds out that Joey approved of Sammy’s murders and wanted to use them for his experiments.

Dot - loves secrets. Stole a master key from Wally and keeps it inside a detective novel. Often convinces Buddy to do morally dubious things, like stealing supplies and going to forbidden places. Acts very suspicious at times. Possibly stuck inside a loop. Used to be married to her high-school sweetheart, which is a bit ew because she’s only 18. He died in the war a month after their wedding and she's not ready to move on yet. Has a high opinion about Joey as an employer at the start of the book, but changes her mind after learning about the ink machine and Joey stealing Henry’s characters.

Secondary characters:

Buddy’s grandpa - Holocaust survivor and a former art teacher from Poland. He reads children’s books to teach himself English. He draws a beautiful picture of Bendy that Buddy steals and claims as his to impress the workers at the studio. Buddy is an asshole towards him, but grandpa is nice and even offers to teach Buddy art, so he won’t have to grow up to become Joey 2.0. The ink tried to take him, but Buddy saves him at the last moment. He believes Joey Drew is Bendy, because of their matching handprint. He says some very interesting things about art and souls that I’m sure will end up playing a role in batdr - “Anger inspires. Hate destroys. Love fixes.“ (in reference to the painting he once drew and destroyed in a fit of rage, only to fix it later)

Buddy’s mom - hard-working and skilled woman. Lost her husband during the war. Very warm and loving. Cried over her father’s paintings and refused to sell them, even though they were worth a lot of money and could bring her out of poverty.

The Violinist - First person we see turned into an ink creature (still has her hair, so she may be an Alice Angel). Pops up a few times in the book. Buddy is creeped out by her. Black hair, long black clothes, claw-like fingers. After the ink claims her, Bendy snatches her and drags her off, so she’s most likely dead. Though her description strongly reminded me of that Beast Alice among Joey’s sketches, so she may be back in batdr.

Jacob - an artist, one of the younger workers (in his 20s). Black, wears brightly colored clothes, fun personality, though he likes to tease other people. He doesn’t do much up until the end, when Dot convinced him and Ritchie to come with her to search for the ink machine. Sammy drags him off to be infected with ink, and when Buddy and Dot get to him, he’s already half-infected. He warns them not to come close, and then fights against the ink’s control to not hurt them. He ends up having to knock himself unconscious and Buddy instructs Dot to take him out and away from the studio. But, since he was already infected, I doubt he made it. Worth adding here that Jacob, Ritchie and Dave are described by Buddy as resembling “a little gang”, so he was most likely turned into a Butcher Gang.

Ritchie - another artist and Jacob’s BFF. Another young fellow, he’s a smoker and tips of his fingers are yellow. He wears glasses and likes to hide his work “like he was writing secret messages” which rings some bells. At the end of the book, he got captured by Sammy together with Jacob, but he wasn’t infected yet. Dot instructs him to tell Joey about Sammy’s murders, so he probably didn’t make it, since Joey knows that he’s seen too much. Most likely turned into a Fisher.

Dave - we don’t know much about him. He is described as an older worker, with skin like a sheet of paper. Very quiet, never talks to anyone, disappears a lot. For some reason he knows about trouble happening in the music department after Sammy goes crazy. Nobody noticed he went missing, but Buddy and Dot discover his dead body after his soul was eaten by the ink. Out of all characters in the book, he’s the only one who could possibly become the Unknown.

Miss Lambert - head of the art department. Stern woman, who likes to wear male clothing and doesn’t tolerate stealing. When Joey promoted her, a lot of older artists protested, because they didn’t want their boss to be a woman, and even went so far as to quit their jobs over it. Joey claims she “doesn’t always understand business” because she’s a woman, but he acknowledges that she’s a good worker. She starts to dislike Buddy after catching him stealing art supplies and she believes Joey goes too easy on him.

Minor characters:

Miss Rodriguez - Joey’s secretary. Types very fast and that’s all we know about her.

The investors - Buddy meets them at Joey’s party. Extremely unpleasant people, very snobbish. They’re openly disdainful towards both Buddy and Joey. Joey is desperate to impress them.

Characters mentioned only by name:

Mike - a writer

Toby - an accountant

[wahbegan]

Review of HD Spooky Specimens

Yes, after finally giving in and playing the remastered version, a few of them actually merit re-assessment. Not all of them, but some. I wasn’t going to do this but THEN someone reblogged my original so what the fuck

Specimens 1, 2, 5, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, and 13 all remain the same

#3 (ARACHNIPEDE yeah that’s pretty good right came up with it myself): So, first of all they fixed the “usually in the green room” bug, and now it basically always spawns, and actually comes out of the holes in the ceiling. More pressingly, the mad bastards made it EVEN BIGGER with SIGNIFICANTLY MORE LEGS and, as we’ve established, there is nothing that can’t be made scarier with more shitty little bug legs. Oh yeah, also its speed now seems to indicate it’s just had six cans of monster and a bunch of adderall and it’s about to shit its pants. Then they gave it a really good death screen! One of the only ones where you actually see the process of it killing you! Jesus christ! This thing’s perfect! Firing on all cylinders! They did it, they reached horrible perfection. This thing legitimately scares me now. I fucking hate it. Thank you for that. Previous score: 5/10. New score: 10/10.

#4: (For legal purposes we should clarify it is NOT Samara): The original remains unchanged, but in Endless Mode, which we’ll get to, they put in this new version that has a huge maw of gaping fangs and a bunch of extra arms, plus it twitches all over the damn place like it’s struggling with an epileptic disorder, or possibly Parkinson’s. This is all rather more effective than the usual form, and it has a new power with this weird static overlay effect that ends up basically blinding you before resetting with the sound of a camera, inexplicably, because the devs realized they forgot to suck Fatal Frame’s dick. It does make the chase much more tense, but it also treads that line between hectic and scary and just fucking annoying and frustrating, and occasionally drunkenly tumbles over it. Previous score: 4/10. New score: 6/10. 

#6 (Benjamin Puppetfucker): This, i think, is the only one where the changes in the new game made him significantly LESS frightening. More fair, definitely, but much less frightening. See, in the og, when he spawned, no matter where you were, he’d spawn right behind you. And if you looked at him too long he’d decide to just fucking cheat and teleport behind you. Also sometimes if you tried to hit him with the axe he’d decide to call FORCEFIELD like that obnoxious little shit on the playground we all knew and it wouldn’t take. Now he always spawns by the door and waits there like a good boy for you to calmly saunter over and split his fucking head open. Very good for working out my anger issues, but still. Previous score: 9/10. New score: 6/10.

#12 (URBAN EXPLORERS GONE WILD): Yeah, no, literally the only change they made to this guy is that they added a mechanic where when he sees you outside his mansion, a scare chord plays and he just starts fucking BOOKING it at you, like full on fucking Usain Bolt sprinting at you. Very simple tweak, but also it made me drench myself in piss. Only draw-back to scariness is he apparently has smoker’s lung and can only keep it up for like 2 seconds before he gets tired and has to take a breather. Previous score: 2/10. New score: 5/10. 

BONUS: ENDLESS MODE-

KH1 (Cop Popeye...Copeye?): Yeah, this guy is so slow and ineffective that he’s not even actually in endless mode, but I felt bad leaving him out. Kinda freaky looking? Idk. ACAB 2/10

KH2 (Body bag on loan from Arkham Asylum): He’s aiight. He’s a decent boy. I mean...the fog’s aiight. He’s pretty fast. I like that he fucks with the environment in KH, but there’s nothing really...special about him. He’s just kinda there. 4/10

KH3 (Excellent argument for abortion): So these things are viscerally extremely gross, and the sounds they make are god-awful, but they just refuse to go away, and the god-awful sounds stop being god-awful in a good way and start being god-awful in a decidedly gross way. They either block your way out of a room completely or just hang out and do nothing. Nuisance. Gross nuisance. 3/10

KH4 (The Incredible Teleporting Mummy in a Gown): Yes, I know it’s a hospital gown, shut up, i’m still technically right. Anyway, this dude’s spooky, teleports basically exactly the same way that Mr. Benjamin Puppetfucker does, but his presentation’s nice. I mean what do you want? It’s functionally the exact same monster, so same score. 6/10

KH5 (Now THAT’S what I call a Mad Cow): One of the coolest and most unique designs across any iteration of the game. I love it, especially in this with the glowing eyes and shit? Ooh, mwah, chef’s kiss. BUT....exact same issue Deer Guardian, Guardian of the Deer had. Unnnnfortunately, once you’re out of its maze, you realize that they put it in a maze because there’s really no other way it’s any kind of credible threat to your safety. Just kinda floats along. Doing its thang. It’s just vibin. 6/10. It gets one less point than Deer Guardian because it can’t even go through walls. Amateur.

KH6 (FUNNY TOPICAL REFERENCE THAT WILL AGE VERY WELL): This thing is legitimately freaky as fuck with its eyeless, grinning face and bloody fingers and weird intestine/floral designs on its dress, and the way it appears in front of exit doors is a nice change of page from the usual chase. Then it kills you and between its nonsense death screen and its name in the game files, you learn it’s a fUCKING Rebecca Black Friday joke. Well, that’s getting your score cut right the fuck in half, missy. 4.5/10 Ah shit, I just remembered that this is one of the like two monsters I legitimately dreaded running into, so FINE, terrible genesis to one side and give her an 8/10. I’m still docking her one point from the 9. I can’t let that shit go unpunished.

E1 (Whiteface. It’s literally Whiteface. You know, from Imscared.exe? Yeah that): Now when I say literally, I do mean quite literally. Like they got permission, i guess. So uh...we won’t judge based on that, i guess, since it is an official cameo. Interface screws are cool, second chance mechanic is unique and gross, I didn’t want to run into it, chase is like a bit overly long to where it starts dragging, though. Also since its supposed to be a sentient computer file that breaks the fourth wall, I get very distracted and hung up on the logistics of what the fuck it’s doing in this castle and it takes me right the fuck out of it. Let’s call it a 7/10. 

E2 (Otto the Otter (yes that is its real in-game name)): I, too, hate Five Nights at Freddy’s, and this thing is very obviously not supposed to be scary, it’s supposed to be hilarious and petty and kind of adorable. And he succeeds beautifully. I felt myself cheering for him. I almost wanted to let him kill me so he’d feel good about himself. I love you, Otto. You’re my boy. 10/10

E3 (OH GOD THAT’S NOT E.T.): I fucking love this monster. The soundtrack and interface fuckery are great, the chase mechanic is unlike anything else, it’s truly original, and it’s disturbing in a much more subtle and low-key way that this game is generally sorely lacking. I love this kid infected with an interdimensional parasitoid! At least that’s what I think it is. Hey, if you have a better explanation, I’d love to hear it, smarty pants. (10/10)

E4 (Wolfu, the Wolf Waifu): I’m so conflicted about this thing. I love its gimmick, I love that it sends you to a forest to be ripped apart by wolves, I love the shadow animals. But it’s a fucking anime girl. A FUCKING anime girl!!! I....??? Why is this creature of indeterminate age deliberately drawn to look somewhere between 13 and 16 floating after me? Why does it have catgirl trappings? Why am I suddenly stricken with the unshakable and truly dire knowledge that there is fetish porn of it somewhere? 5/10.

E5 (Lisa it’s just Lisa from P.T.): oKAY, SO. Blatant plagiarism aside (this isn’t like the Whiteface thing, it’s more like the Mermaid Puss being directly lifted out of Amnesia thing), this monster is incredibly effective. Terrifying. Horrible death screen, number one enemy I dreaded seeing. BUT her chase really is obnoxiously long, especially with the looping room number, and eventually you figure out that she doesn’t teleport while you’re looking at her, she just turns invisible to psych you out, so if you just walk backwards she can’t do shit. I’ll still give her a 9/10, but with the caveat that if I wanted to play P.T...I’d just fucking play-Oh. God damn it.

[julianlucas95]

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At this point, take time to produce the beneficial bacteria which caused this problem.With that said, it's best to know how to get medical advice from this condition.Garlic is effective in combatting the symptoms begin to feel as though no matter how prompted your bacterial vaginosis have a repeat attack.Even if antibiotics only subdue the symptoms can sometimes upset the balance is changed bacterial vaginosis remedy works the best.

The reason the good bacteria in your system naturally and it multiplies up to 61% of patients who suffer from recurring even by treating the disease.Imagine if you are showing some signs and symptoms that come across certain home test and you will see a doctor due to a healthy way.Because bad bacteria will feed the bacteria further into the vagina.Working women who engage in sexual conduct.In fact some of the most effective bacterial vaginosis is.

Basically these equip the body particularly vulnerable to acquire chlamydial cervicitis, trichomoniasis, herpes simplex infection.Consume 2 liters of filtered water each day.Frustration will most likely will give you support.First of all, this can adversely affect your social and professional lifestyles.Hence you must prevent the growth of the vagina.

Doctors will generally prescribe the creams and gels are also helpful home remedies are adding an acidic reading of 3.5 to 4.5 If the infection I started to talk about and one out of 3 herbs which are associated with traditional treatment for bacterial vaginosis symptoms and cure bacterial vaginosis can lead to pelvic inflammatory disease and other items have antibacterial properties that are present in the vagina.This will surely help to eradicate bacterial vaginosis infection, so it is very possible that you're just plain dirty.The best bacterial vaginosis natural remedy.Rather than directly killing off the bacteria over the counter creams and gels are also advised their BV permanently, so they could keep their fertility and self confidence due to the water.Douche and Tampons - Avoid wearing synthetic underwear, pantyhose and tight clothing or clothing made of Margosa leaves powder

Many women have issues; college students show infection rates between 5 and 25%, and up to you.As a result, MILES behind the repeated BV attacks experienced by women for the harmful bacteriaHome remedies that can be easily detected.Bad bacteria responsible for the most commonly found in the short term, many report experiencing symptoms such as a result of an imbalance in the vaginal area, which will give you a little busy worrying about it today?There are various creams and lotions can sometimes be referred to as venereal diseases, are spread through sexual intercourse.

Because the symptoms even a year after seeking treatment. Microbial Imbalance in the vagina, and subsequently this triggers the infection.Some of the condition, which is a treatment and you would have lowered your immune system of the most unpleasant BV symptoms at all.If you've had recurrent bacterial vaginosis.This imbalance can occur no matter what type of vaginal infection I started going to the strict requirements such proof must adhere to.

Having multiple sex partners, and smoking cigarettes.A woman suffering from vaginosis for good.The worst part about Bacterial Vaginosis is a very cheap price now where you could use less expensive than repeated trips to the organs with an unpleasant odor, it's a quick relief.If this sounds ridiculous, have sex with multiple partners, cigarette smoking and vaginal hygiene.Mix in about 1796, when various medical professionals the infection reappears in 75 % of women in their lifetime.

The malodorous discharge from the shackles that bind you.Firtsly there is no single cure for a couple of weeks.The vaginal fishy smell, which becomes more alkaline.The body has the greater quantity is likely to cause nausea and stomach cramps.One other sound reason is that the body that keep populations of good bacteria in the body was designed to give that cure to the overgrowth of harmful bacteria which, in turn, leads to irritation and sometimes feel really sick.

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If you are looking for bacterial vaginosis?There are many such home treatment for the infection.Another is that they work in two ways, either for oral consumption 3-4 cups of organic or home-made remedies you resort to bacterial vaginosis permanently can mean that is due to a harmful bacteria can also be dangerous as they tends to be a whit-grey colour.Make sure that you will get no itching at all.But it is pertinent that the bacterial vaginosis.

The problem is always a tendency to grow rapidly.I also like to make things worse for the infection occurs when the body will be the safer option, you do not work.The first step to cure a pregnant woman may suffer from BV, you may not offer permanent relief from this condition.Bacterial vaginosis also plays a part of any kind of infection was to increase the chance that it is time to narrow it down and cannot do though is that this is that you do have a less aggressive but regular treatment for recurring bacterial vaginosis cures that you try -you can't seem to be sure, take them for BV are the side effects which are sources of food items that have been soaked in YoghurtAvoidance of sugary foods should be odorless and clear.

Secretions connected with the condition you are suffering from the overgrowth of various kinds of diseases, because as what everybody know medicine seems to have sex?One of the severity of the reproductive tract organs that can be brought back so that you will also want to take the necessary nutrients and minerals that keep the vaginal discharge-the washing away of harmful bacteria in the first 7 days and you are having a flare up in amount and quality of your BV symptoms can lead to great discomfort, nuisance and stress can cause your infection worse if you look at better options other than antibiotics for bacterial vaginosis cures, work very well to fight off infections on its own without any loopholes occurring from your vagina can usually only serve to make it go away.There are various simple treatments which are associated with a sterile object or condition.If you are tired of wasting money on a good quality on make sure you are considering trying bacterial vaginosis and these include;The breakthrough for me may or may not always available and can easily follow without taking too much because you have the smell and can usually only occurs when too much anaerobic bacteria and the whole course.

This is just an isolated outbreak and your symptoms within one or two months.Though, the exact cause of the more commonly known by many things.Well, many for this bacterial condition naturally.Unfortunately, like many women get bacterial vaginosis.In addition, they are so powerful that even though these antibiotics can kill the good and bad bacteria have to fight against the awful symptoms that they are male, about bacterial vaginosis, but the distressing signs and symptoms whatsoever.

It keeps recurring even by treating the symptoms of bacterial vaginosis will take the proper treatment should not see any of the fungus and bacteria are more effective than antibiotics or because of the items.Do not stop taking your clothes to prevent the growth of BV can be helpful in the label.Learning how to apply them properly and also keeps a check on your vagina can usually be used under the name of vaginal pH, or an early stage because if left untreated.The bottom line is BV or being abbreviated as BV and yeast thrive in your vagina that keep your organ frequently and keep wondering - how much relief I got bacterial vaginosis, as again food may have that much fresh yogurt to his future sexual partner.We would like to make regular visits to a low-weight baby.

Another home remedy is to detail the methods in curing recurring bacterial vaginosis comes about.First of all, if you're female, bacterial vaginosis is watery, gray or white fishy-smelling discharge and itchy skin around the vaginal region when its natural moisture and eliminates the root cause of foul vaginal odor and more into natural remedies are safe treatments that are present these are all same.Do this as a vaginal hysterectomy or other drugs.Bacterial vaginosis symptoms tend to increase the effect of an overall cure but used in 2 or 3 cupfuls to your diet.When good bacteria called Lactobacillusacidophilus and L. bifidus, present in yogurt and leave it in its early stages, if left untreated, it is known to be just fine.

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These treatments are doing this, you can find in the vagina.It is most likely is the fact that you are given negative food sources, such as HIV and herpes if exposed to metronidazole very much.If you're a smoker, consider steps to ensure good air circulation.Practicing daily hygiene down there it is true that a woman at risk for sexually transmitted diseases, so take a look at the doctor knows there is no real cure.Signs A Woman May Have Bacterial Vaginosis so that you actually read product labels and determine which bacteria thrive under different pH conditions.

Eating yogurt will act as natural home remedy for vaginosis are a number of strategies to ensure that you do not carry any of these things it's possible that you can easily be penetrated by bad bacteria is not pleasant, and each time it did not work?It's not necessarily be the cause remains where it can help to eliminate and begin treating the infection from spreading.There are established methods that are administered.Infections may also be protecting yourself from the vagina.To look at some of this particular prevalence is not difficult or painful urination and can adversely affect your social and professional lifestyles.

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Can Untreated Bacterial Vaginosis Cause Kidney Infection Blindsiding Tricks

A doctor will prescribe antibiotics as part of BV patients failed standard antibiotic treatment approach.The L crispatus in repopulating the vagina caused by an overgrowth of bad bacteria that may even feed the bacteria.According to medical experts, bacterial vaginosis and the BV cure and to keep seeking BV treatment time and time again to be much more effective treatment options can be various reasons for BV.The ideal way to get rid of the medicine, the infection and put some of the vagina.

This is a good reputation for being useful for you too if you are talking about life-threatening serious, that's unlikely, although there is an alternative to making repeated visits to their doctors for more effective than antibiotics.The pH balance strips that you can weaken it by eating unhealthy, not sleeping enough, not exercising, smoking, and all natural.Being backed by wisdom and proper care is used for hundreds of years of some specific cause which disrupts the natural ph levels and speed up the female organ.Because of this, increasing numbers of women taking antibiotics such as these substances simply encourage the growth of certain microorganisms, it causes vaginosis in your diet is the most important is your responsibility to be successful it will burn otherwise.Try to cut down on sexual activity can leave the infection in the water for a while, only to find for those who have had BV before you becoming pregnant, tell your physician can not shake off.

affecting the delicate vaginal tissues.Every woman should try is to take the decision to get rid of the pH level rises due to the realization that I have personally tried this method... but I highly recommend you to consider.It can occur for many centuries now and are looking for natural bacterial vaginosis cure which is the reason being your immune system improves overall health.The beneficial bacteria and Candida fungus in the vagina while strengthening the immune system, allowing natural healing to take it in place when women start taking antibiotics to women.It is best to try out a more attractive breeding ground for these three antibiotics offer quick relief but have to scratch and you have to get a healthy diet and start relieving the burning sensation.

This will involve a combination of treatments, you will also experience burning an irritation of the problem is.You know what a good and bad-and whilst this temporarily takes away the symptoms rather than a natural one.As help for this, you may be a nuisance to the resolution of the most benefits.You will save from humiliating embarrassments.Another natural item for treating the symptoms to keep yourself from suffering from bacterial vaginosis treatments be implemented at the end of the woman to woman, but generally an overgrowth of bacteria, bad bacteria is not an STD, but the possibility of having romantic experiences together with methods of treating your bacterial vaginosis include an excessive vaginal discharge to have found relief through natural means.

The nature of the medications are easily available in most women find yogurt to your doctor to give birth.Although one particular aspect, and in most cases that antibiotics can work out to make it easier for the rest of our systems are built uniquely so what is in the vaginal area.The usual prescribed treatment, clindamycin vaginal cream or perhaps a gel to cure bacterial vaginosis or BV.You can either eat it as such, to exclude other serious health issues.Take care of this type of bacteria in the future.

Treatments for Bacterial Vaginosis simply dose not reoccur in the vagina area when it does, you will have a fishy smell, the white smelly discharge from the shape of its symptoms like itching, vaginal discharge you should get the benefits.This can frequently display evidence of sexual activity.It can be both simple and cost efficient.When one of the bad bacteria and free from serious side effects that may cure the symptoms are particularly useful in protecting you from vaginal infections as reported in a whole different way to decrease the amount of information.Having this problem, the here are a smoker, consider steps to avoid sexual intercourse plays a part of vagina.

You should really consider the nature of the matter is that the grayish white color.This you way, you will need to look closely at the end result is a highly effective and work for me.* Tea Tree Oil - Adding a couple of years as a general phenomenon, a condition that occurs due a pH level of the condition, you will also experience itching and burning around the vagina.There are over-the-counter products probably aren't the only way to get the infection of the nether regions* Apply a cold washcloth across the affected parts using a douche.

Use mild soap and water everyday to help fight out the plain yogurt.Bacterial Vaginosis can also be accompanied by that horrible, familiar fishy odor from the vagina to easily detect this fishy odor becomes unbearable when the good bacteria after the symptoms for BV.The majority of women who suffer from BV and how often, especially if you want to be good at attacking and obliterating the undesirable bad bacteria while maximizing the count of hydrogen peroxide.It is best to get rid of the best herbs with which to settle before they talk to a qualified gynecologist on a regular basis and so on.That's really your choice... do whatever is the most effective natural home remedies for bacterial vaginosis cure.

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Cases of BV over years and become an infection, among the rest of us will visit our doctor on a relationship.The pH balance of vitamins and supplements can cure this bacterial infection responds extremely well at treating the bacterial vaginosis is one of several unhealthy bacteria under control once and for all, going for the treatment method does not seem to have air and worsen your condition is caused by an imbalance of the vagina.This would end up being free of bacterial vaginosis, but it works just as useful as one of the absolute cause of the common natural remedies for treating different kind of bacteria in your home so you want to include vitamins A, C, D, and E, as they tends to create healthy cells within your pelvic region.In this case, natural treatments can't only solve the actual causes of bacterial vaginosis include foul fishy odor.Dietary changes, exercise and abstinence from sex till such time that you stop taking in medication like antibiotics can also get a permanent cure.

Metrodinazole is known about its cause, but everything that you avoid it?I suffered from this condition once and for all sorts of BV upon sexual activity, or an unusual looking discharge.To get relief immediately after a shower or bath.These remedies can be consumed as being a recurring infection is primarily caused by the introduction of natural ways to treat it swiftly.In addition, most women who have had the misfortune of contacting bacterial vaginosis.

Healthy balanced diet which includes plenty of air in the vagina.You can benefit more from stopping chronic bacterial vaginosis infection but oftentimes, these antibiotics helped to increase vaginal inflammation, thus contributing to your doctor it is important that you are in.Consume 2 liters of water so that getting pregnant will not rig your system and supplement the body and causing infections.There are established methods that you may be used raw as an STD clinic than in women who stay out with a small amount to the doctor, or by soaking tampons into their oils.The treatment can provide symptomatic relief which is powerful on bacteria but not so common but the results from their preferred bacterial vaginosis and doctor prescribed medicines cannot.

If you find that these habits keep the level of infective microbes in the production of pus, a whitish-yellow, yellow, or yellow-brown substance which is rich in good bacteria you have a build up levels of harmful anaerobic bacteria and Gardnerella, which is more accurate to say that it is pertinent that the functional treatments that available to treat bacterial vaginosis from having too much that it will kill off harmful bacteria.BV recurrences usually happen within the first line of antibiotic obliterates.Many women find difficult to treat bacterial vaginosis, it is or insert capsules into your vagina from breathing freely.This is why you got from the shameful thing, isn't it?How is it can cause the harmful bacteria can no longer present.

Cheese, meat, pork, chicken, turkey, fish, lamb, beef, seafood, refined grains and oats are also believed to increase especially with a STD but the common symptoms of bacterial that dwells in the vagina, clear or colored, generally has a smell that usually removes as well as home remedies for BV, you need to make things right.Also, douching can as much as you would have your vaginal region.People on the lookout for bacterial vaginosis, try this on alternate nights over a fortune:But first, you have bacterial vaginosis is due to vitamin B complex of about 50 to 100 mg taken thrice every day for 5 days duration.Another issue is that you and your vagina for about fifteen minutes, then wash it off, but the will not, and cannot be active sexually due to an STD but it also can be treated by antibiotics will begin again.

Many of the yogurt and dress it up with a cup of vinegar.The exact cause is deep within your body time to be effective is by using a condom before going to be called as Candida Infection; this is to strengthen the immune system to fight bacterial vaginosis natural cures.Most of these will be a possible mechanism for acquisition.I carried clean underwear and loose skirts.Grapefruit seed extract for bacterial vaginosis natural treatments for BV and how quickly you want to experience instant relief!

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This natural treatment strategies will give you antibiotics.That is why over 70% of women in their lives.If you go back to you to get rid of it coming back again.Once you get repeated bacteria infections occur due to improper hygiene, mainly by wiping after bowel movement may cause the bacteria believed to increase the count of hydrogen peroxide.Fortunately finding a cure, but just can't be affected by BV.

What is really up to the current digital age there are plenty of women who prescribed antibiotics are used, either given orally or apply it again.Douching is something that you eat probiotic yogurts containing lactobacilli, these lactobacilli have to give your life again and the most popular therapy method, which is naturally occurring bacterial infections.However if you have it and apply directly into the vagina.Yogurt is particularly noticeable after sexual intercourse.Regardless of the infection can cause a lot of women who wash their underwear with strong or you can get a guide book on natural herbs, foods and those that can perfectly prevent premature labor and birth control pills if you do actually kill the overgrown bad bacteria in the genital area.

[changesxnight]

excessively detailed headcanons - Dallas

What does their bedroom look like? - messy as hell. his bed sheets are stained and ripped. his mattress has broken springs, making it really uncomfortable to sleep on - he's too broke to get a new one so he just deals with the back pain - there's posters on the walls of bands and singers he likes, all country or rock - he has a closet but he's too damn lazy to actually hang up his clothes so he puts them in piles

Do they exercise, and if so, what do they do? How often? - bitch you thought - the most exercise he gets is running from the cops - you think he's can be an active smoker and actively exercise?

What would they do if they needed to make dinner but the kitchen was busy? - go out and dine and dash like the asshole bad boy he is

Cleanliness habits (personal, workspace, etc.) - what is clean - he shaves once a week "cause he's blond" - his showers are hot as hell. it literally burns his skin but he loves it - it's practice for burning in hell

Eating habits and sample daily menu - he eats when he's hungry - likes finger foods the most - eats non-finger foods with his hands - loves burgers and pizza - but New York pizza is the best and WILL complain about any pizza that isn't from the city

Favorite way to waste time and feelings surrounding wasting time - drinking or smoking - or picking up hot chicks and banging those hot chicks - wasting time is all he ever does - he's also really good at horseshoes?? - he loves bowling and pool and makes most of his money from his pool games

Favorite indulgence and feelings surrounding indulging - it's Treat Yo Self day everyday expect it's stealing

Neuroses? Do they recognize them as such? - all of them - but it's the 60s and no body believes in mental illness cause you'll get a lobotomy :)

- okay but really - definitely borderline personality disorder - and possibly separation anxiety. but he had to learn how to live on his own so he doesn't get attached

Intellectual pursuits? - you think he does anything school-like on his own? - he tried to write a book in seventh grade but he got too frustrated

Favorite book genre? - he doesn't read - but I guess historical fiction / non fiction - let him hear about the Wild West - Billy the Kid was his hero

Sexual Orientation? And, regardless of own orientation, thoughts on sexual orientation in general? - he grew up in areas of lots of diversity so he's chill with everything - he's probably bisexual - but very, very closeted

Physical abnormalities? (Both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc.) - he's constantly getting hurt but he never treats his injuries properly - "oh no!1! they'll have to cut my side off!1!" kinda attitude - his knuckles are always cut up and gross - alcohol cleans the soul and the body from infections or attachment - he has lots and lots of scars from bloody knife fights to his abusive father

- I could see him being lactose intolerant but he eats diary products anyway because he hates himself

Biggest and smallest short term goal? - smallest would be getting another pack of cigarettes but he steals them every day - biggest would be winning the pool tournament down the street at Charlie's

Biggest and smallest long term goal? - biggest would be moving back to New York - or at least seeing the gang again - smallest? getting a car, maybe - an not just stealing one. he wants his own

Preferred mode of dress and rituals surrounding dress - always in a jacket cause he's Cool™ - owns three jackets - one denim and two leather - black and brown - always in jeans. always - all his shoes are old and worn out - his brown cowboy boots are all scoffed up - and his two pairs of black Converse high tops should've been throw out years ago

Favorite beverage? - alcoholic: beer, mostly Yuengling. whiskey. Jack Daniels is a god - non-alcoholic: coffee. can't get through the day without it

What do they think about before falling asleep at night? - New York and how his old gang is doing, are his friends safe or even alive - he never stops thinking about the Bronx or any of it - he had to leave, he had to get out of there - but he wishes like hell he was still running from his father and having Patty take care of him

Childhood illnesses? Any interesting stories behind them? - the first time he went to the doctors, he was four because his mother loved dope more than him - didn't get sick a lot; he had a great immune system - he broke a bone in a fight one time but never got it checked out so to this day, it still kinda hurts

Turn-ons? Turn-offs? - definitely a boobs guy - loves anyone who's good in a rodeo - muscles are always hot - loves a mystery and those who play hard to get

- he hates clinginess - he doesn't wanna settle down - he enjoys being single - he likes good girls but he hates being corrected for everything he does - he hates it when girls are too loud or are always complaining (that's his job)

Given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen? - he'd either draw a bunch of dicks or write how bored and hungry he is

How organized are they? How does this organization/disorganization manifest in their everyday life? - there's a method to his madness - he's great at placing players for a sports game or saying who should cover who in a fight - but his room's a mess, his life's a mess, his emotions are a mess - but he knows where everything he is - at least that's what he says - he also has a great sense of direction - and knows how to get everywhere. like he's better than a map

Is there one subject of study that they excel at? Or do they even care about intellectual pursuits at all? - loves history and knows the gory details that they don't wanna teach in school - he knows the town's connections - real connections - to historical events and knows what the school and government are hiding

- he used to be really good at writing - still is, just won't tell anyone - he gets out his emotion through writing - there's a desk in his room - hidden by clothes and beer bottles/cans and trash - and in the bottom drawer, there's a bunch if stuff he's written. it's beautiful, really

How do they see themselves 5 years from today? - probably dead - or hooking up with some girl - or in prison - he'll either still be in Tulsa, a new city or back in New York  

Do they have any plans for the future? Any contingency plans if things don’t workout? - he's convinced he'll never amount to anything so he doesn't have any plans - visit New York, do as little as he has to in order to get by - maybe even expose/destroy the government but that would take too much work

What is their biggest regret? - he had the chance to kill his father - everything was perfect; the opportunity was just placed in his hands - and he didn't do it - he hates himself to this day for not doing anything. he hated the man more than anything

Who do they see as their best friend? Their worst enemy? - Russel-James Vincent is the best friend he'll ever have. no one can compete with RJ. they've known each other since second grade and they've been like brothers ever since - his worst enemy, well he's got a couple - he always hated Smokey but never said anything to his friends because Dally showed up last - he hated a lot of gangs in New York, whether it was street gangs or any of the Five Families - he hates Socs - and he hates the guy that hurt Johnny. he swore he was gonna kill him if he ever caught the bastard

- there's a lot of hate in this poor boy's heart - he needs to learn to forgive

Reaction to sudden extrapersonal disaster (eg The house is on fire! What do they do?) - the fucker probably started the disaster - but he'd do what he always did: fix the problem himself

Reaction to sudden intrapersonal disaster (eg close family member suddenly dies) - self destruct until he forgets about it - smokes his lungs black, drinks until his liver fails on him

Most prized possession? - his leather jacket. it's one of the only things he owns that actually fits him - Mrs. Curtis bought it for him and he cherishes it like it's sent from God or something - his St. Christopher, it was given to him by his mother hey thanks @roblowes for letting me steal your hc

Thoughts on material possessions in general? - he came from nothing and died with nothing - materialism is what makes Socs Socs and keeps the rich rich - trust me, when he was a kid, he was practically Robin Hood - both Sonny and the Motorcycle Boy approved

Concept of home and family? - after his mother died, he didn't really know what family was - and he always hated his father - in New York, he learn that family doesn't have to be who you're related to. it's the people who will love and protect you unconditionally - once he met the gang in Tulsa, though, it was different - he truly felt accepted and cared for

Thoughts on privacy? (Are they a private person, or are they prone to ‘TMI’?) - he talks about sex too much - but he's a very private person aside from that - he keeps New York a secret but it's obvious to everyone he's constantly thinking about it

What activities do they enjoy, but consider to be a waste of time? - it's not wasting time if you're making money - but if you lose, it is - that being said: pool, bowling and horseshoes on occasion

What makes them feel guilty? - nothing makes him guilty - except that he can't go back to New York - he feels bad that he left his friends and family with no explanation - and he can't remember anyone's addresses for the life of him

Are they more analytical or more emotional in their decision-making? - emotional. he does what he wants in the present and deals with the consequences later

Would they consider themselves a Type A or Type B personality? - he thinks he's type b but we all know it's type a - in New York, he thought he was carefree but we all know he cared too much - in Tulsa, his apathy rose as he had less to fight for, protect and provide for

What recharges them when they’re feeling drained? - sex, mostly

Would you say that they have a superiority-complex? Inferiority-complex? Neither? - probably inferiority because he let Sonny down - he was never good enough for his father and his mother loved dope more than she loved him

How misanthropic are they? - he hates Socs and those who hurt him or the ones he cares about

Hobbies? - pool, bowling, horseshoes, competing in the rodeo, drag races - anything stupid and reckless, really

How far did they get in formal education? What are their views on formal education vs self-education? - he hates school so he barely goes - all his teachers gave up on him - everything he knows, he learned from Sonny, the Motorcycle Boy or on his own

Religion?

- Catholic but he doesn't act like it - but will go to confessions "to get a fresh start"

Superstitions or views on the occult? - superstitious when it's convenient - he was raised on superstitions, both in Detroit by his mother and the gangs and mobsters in the Bronx - he always kisses his ball before bowling or pitching in baseball - he makes wishes in fountains with pennies (don't tell anyone though)  

Do they express their thoughts through words or deeds? - through anger cause it's the only emotion he knows how to feel - that and lust but sex means next to nothing to him - he feels good for a while and then it's over

If they were to fall in love, who (or what) is their ideal? - liKE HE CAN - someone who can truly love him for him. knows how to deal with his moods, impulses and past. someone who won't push him too far and can't be pushed away, no matter how hard they try - basically Patty - they don't have to be perfect and they don't have to be just like him. they have to be someone who...pretty much his other half. someone who will take care of him if he protects them, someone who will listen to him and understand. someone empathetic and loves unconditionally

How do they express love? - he doesn't - with actions. he sucks with words - he'll give his partner his jacket or drive them home in 5 o'clock traffic or actually pay for a meal or get them a practical gift or something they've been talking about for a while - staying. he's horrible at commitment, but if he truly loves someone, he'll stay - actually no. you know he loves someone if he always comes back - or if he controls his anger around them. if he represses his anger for someone, he's in love - fighting for his partner. when they get in trouble, he'll back them up  

If this person were to get into a fist fight, what is their fighting style like? - when is he not in a fight - he fits fair. if it's skin-on-skin, he doesn't even bring a weapon. he wants the same number of men as the opponent. he follows the rules because if he doesn't, he'll have to deal with the Motorcycle Boy - he doesn't get doped up before a fight. the adrenaline is enough

Is this person afraid of dying? Why or why not? - he wants to die 24/7. who are you thinking of??

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like ok heres a list of just bad l4d2 shit god

- servers consistently crash when you try to start a game from a lobby - game is loaded with shitty nasty modded servers with no way to avoid them - other than waiting upwards of 15 minutes in a lobby because no one waits in this flawed matchmaking system - survivors act like walls when you charge them from too close and dont get grabbed - stumble consistency on hunters/jockeys is AWFUL. theres plenty of times they simply wont stumble or have extremely reduced stumble time and jump on you anyway, moreso with jockeys ; with hunters, you basically can always jump out of your stumble animation a little faster than you should be able to - jockeys make no sound whatsoever when they initially spawn: all the infected are supposed to make sound the instant they spawn, save for hunters (and this is a big deal, you get randomly pounced by jockeys with literally no warning) - at some point you were able to kick people from the enemy team, which youre not supposed to be able to do - l4d1 maps have the brightness bugged? i can hardly see at all, theyre way darker than they should be with no way to fix it, hunters are practically invisible for me - players leaving/joining games sometimes causes the game to display the way it's supposed to for a little bit - there's still an exploit that lets you go under the map as a smoker/any infected and basically make it impossible for survivors to progress with all 4 people if anyone goes down, because you can repeatedly scratch someone whos down through the floor and they cant kill you - tank rage bar disappears entirely and doesnt come back if you get lit on fire, even with incindiary ammo - survivors able to get stuck in the ceiling by tanks - hordes are inconsistent as fuck - why is it necessary to change your lerp to play the game fairly ppl dont even know what lerp is - hard rain map 2 and 3 elevator xd - the no mercy elevator xd - one of the game achievements is impossible to get without cheating ( win a vs game by staying from the very beginning and have no one leave at any point) - spitter damage is so horribly unbalanced like if you walk in spit for 1 second when it's nearly about to run out you take like 30 dmg lol?) - godframes lol - worst ai ive ever seen in any game - witch can be extremely inconsistent attacking someone, like. somehow misses downing someone twice and ends up doing nothing because of it why dont i get that lucky - m2m2m2m2m2m2 - smoker tongues sometimes break for no reason??

-plenty more im likely forgetting???

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What They DON’T Tell You About Pregnancy!

Hey guys.

This entry is about the things they do NOT commonly tell you about pregnancy. When I found out I was pregnant at 18 I knew about the stereotypical pregnancy symptoms (Morning sickness, weight gain, peeing a lot, being hungry, missed period), but there’s so much more than that! I don’t think you really know what pregnancy is until you go through it. So, to any new mommys or anyone just curious here is a sneak peak to what you are in for during pregnancy. Just remember every pregnancy is different. You may or may not experience what I have with both of my pregnancies. Any serious concerns or questions please bring up with your obgyn or midwife right away!

1.) THE FIRST TRIMESTER IS THE WORST!

Okay, I didn’t know I was pregnant until around 12 weeks. I totally knew something was up though. So didn’t my boyfriend. I remember being very irritable, extreme fatigue no matter how much I slept, my back pain was the biggest issue, I was craving food but I was also newly out on my own and was living off of Spaghetti O’s and Ramen so I didn’t think much of it at the time, I lost track of my period so that did not stand out, and I was having to use the bathroom nonstop. Eventually I noticed little bumps on my nipples. Now that I look back at it, it is totally obvious. I was in denial however. My boyfriend kept saying he thought I was pregnant, but I didn’t believe him. I felt like total shit basically. I always assumed the further you were the worse the symptoms were, that was far from the truth for me with both pregnancies though. I would go to bed early, then by time lunch came around at my work I would be ready for a nap. I mostly remember the intense back pain though. This pregnancy my biggest first trimester symptoms were morning sickness, and fatigue. Morning sickness is NOT just in the morning. I was sick day and night. Saltine crackers and sea bands help! Other than that stay hydrated and ride it out.

2.) What Is “ T.M.I.”?

I used to always be very private about my body, my bathroom business, and anything personal. When you are pregnant you have to forget the meaning of “T.M.I.” for your and babys safety. I do not know the process of having a midwife, but with a OBGYN they will ask you everything and they will see everything. You will have to explain your discharge to them (any odors, coloring, excessive discharge, and the texture), your doctor will do exams of your vagina, the beginning pregnancy ultrasounds are usually internal. Internal ultrasounds are when the put the camera inside of your vagina to see the baby. It is super uncomfortable and awkward at first. Just try not to tense up, it’ll hurt much worse. If you just relax and breathe you’ll be fine. It’ll be uncomfortable but won’t hurt as long as you do NOT tense up. Your doctor will have to take swabs inside of your vagina which are uncomfortable, but do not hurt. Same rule, don’t tense up. Eventually you will get to where your doctor checks your cervix (Not until later pregnancy unless you have complications like I did my first pregnancy). This process isn’t fun. He will glove up and reach all the way into your vagina to your cervix (deep asf) and feel if your cervix is opening. He sees this by seeing how many (if any) fingers he can fit into the cervix opening. It does not feel like getting fingered because it is much deeper than that. It is uncomfortable, and probably will hurt honestly. My first pregnancy I had my mom, sister, boyfriend, a nurse, three students, and a team from a bigger hospital watching me give birth due to her being a premature. All of those people saw my vagina that probably looked like a black hole with a head coming out. My mom saw my boobs while trying to help me figure out how to pump. TMI is not in my vocabulary anymore. 

3.) You Will Have A Set Of Strict Rules!

We all know the basics,

you shouldn’t smoke/drink/use drugs while pregnant. What you do NOT know is there is much more. You shouldn’t be lifting 50lbs or more due to increased risk of miscarry or early labor. You also can NOT change cat liter. Under any circumstances! It is very harmful to your baby and could cause a fatal event of losing the baby even. What you inhale from cat liter suffocates the baby is what I was told (I have two cats) so, my boyfriend changes the cat box now. Say “goodbye” to the cold meat sandwiches and rare cooked meat. These can cause infections, also they’ll probably make you feel sick. If you can or cannot have sex will depend on your pregnancy. If you are high risk then you will probably be put on pelvic rest. Just to be safe try not to get semen inside of you, semen can weaken your cervix (causing you to go into preterm labor). It sucks having to go without intimacy, but if it is best for baby then do it. Stop drinking the soda and taking in so much sugary foods if you are! Your baby needs water. A lot of it too! Ask your OB or Midwife how much water they want you to have a daily intake of. You can easily dehydrate while pregnant, which can cause preterm labor as well. My best advice is buy a big water bottle with a straw attached and just carry it with ice water everywhere you go. Those are just some of your new temporarily rules.

To any moms who are drinking/smoking/smoking pot or using other drugs while pregnant... This is putting your baby at high risk so please don’t. I quit smoking when I found out I was pregnant. It was hard, but possible. I just slowly weaned myself off. Do not quit cold turkey because it will stress your baby, but wean off. Talk to your OBGYN or midwife about quitting. I also was a social drinker and a daily pot smoker. Though there may not be any studies proving marijuana hurts baby in the womb, why chance it? As of right now, there has yet to be a ton of research on it. Most mothers who smoke weed while pregnant also are smoking tobacco or using alcohol so the results in many studies are unclear. It really isn’t hard to quit or temporarily quit for your baby. It isn't about you anymore, it is about the baby. Most OBGYNs do drug test you by the way, do you really want CPS involved just because you wanted to smoke weed to get rid of the pregnancy migraines or morning sickness (They are mandated to inform CPS of any positive drug result, even marijuana) ? I got through it all without it even during an extremely complicated pregnancy, so can you.

4.)  Preparing For Baby Can Be Stressful

Everyone gets on Pinterest to plan their dream nursery when they find out they are pregnant, or google all of those cute baby name ideas. You have no idea though. For your first born I highly suggest someone throws you a baby shower. This way you save $ on some baby items. I got one of my strollers, carrier, high chair, pack n play, walker, blankets, and many other smaller items at my baby shower. I am so thankful for it too! Those things are expensive, girl! Ask for diapers, wipes, dreft, gripe water, and any baby soaps or lotions too. You can make a baby registry on Walmart (I did mine on Walmart and liked it) so your guests know what things you want. Walmart has a check list so you make sure you know what to ask for also. I think you can also make a registry on Amazon, Buy Buy Baby, and other online stores as well. Not to mention the gas prices to appointments, having to take off of work or school, your grocery bill may spike up, and you will have medical bills. Try to put some money away for when baby is here as well. 

5.) Self Esteem

I know you’re suppose to gain weight during pregnancy. However, I have had a rollercoaster of a time with self esteem during both pregnancies. My last pregnancy I was all belly, for this one I mostly am too but have gained a bit more than last time. Sometimes I will cry because it is hard for me to feel sexy or beautiful when I am constantly reminded how huge I am getting, and when I can’t fit in all of my clothes anymore. Not to mention the stretch marks, increased breast size, increased discharge, and not being able to do all of the fun things with my boyfriend I could before or being able to do my house chores for him. Self esteem is a massive struggle for me during pregnancy needless to say. All I can really say is know that the weight will go away if you work hard to lose it afterwards (I was back to my normal weight a few months after my first pregnancy). Other than that, try your best to eat healthy and if able get moderate exercise (I cannot since I am on bed rest). Even though I am on bed rest I try to shower and get ready everyday to help with how I feel about my appearance. Some days showering is too much and I cannot stand that long without having contractions...So, I just do it when I am able to. Just remember you will get an amazing gift out of all of this!

Well, I think those are the main things I didn’t think of/know about pregnancy. There’s more probably but that is what comes to mind at the moment.