#that recognizes someone may believe the entire opposite to what you do and you don't have to agree w them but you do need to respect them

[theghostofashton]

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[shinobushaori]

Hey! Idk if u do take requests but if you do-

Can i request a female reader who's usually loud, confident and bold? kind of like rengoku friendly in a way. But when it comes to shinobu she gets visibly timid? and shy then shinobu gets confused by this because she sees reader act the opposite with everyone else and this makes her wanna know more about it and yeah It's ok if you don't take requests. Thank you, have a nice day. 🥰

A/N: I do take requests!! and I was kind of shocked that someone actually did. There's a bit of lore in the beginning, just for the build up! Also, I definitely made this deeper than it should be but it was so fun! What a cute idea btw, hope it's as you envisioned it. Featuring Jealous Shinobu if u squint bc why not hehe. I believe in oblivious Shinobu supremacy too >;3

TEA

kocho shinobu x female! reader

warnings: thoughts of suicide (in a freaking out, idiotic way), otherwise none.

word count: 2.3K

"My.."

Shinobu blinks at the sound that entered her ears. The triplets' laughter echoed throughout the huge estate and she was ecstatic to hear so. Typically, it would be the groans of injured slayers, blood and misery resulted by vicious demons and she was glad, for once, that the noise came from something so pure and positive.

As she rounded a corner, a sight welcomed her. The three girls happily circled an individual she didn't recognize.

A smile, an actual genuine one she couldn't hold, stretched her lips seeing the innocent interaction.

"[Name]-san! [Name]-san, did you save the kitty?" Naho spoke out, giddy on her place with both Sumi and Kiyo nodding their heads.

The female, who was notably lacking the uniform to identify what specific employment she's in, simply raised her arm to flex. A smug expression on her face, "Of course! Climbing the tree was easy enough. Kitties are usually unfriendly when in distress but if you remain calm, they will too!"

Shinobu couldn't help but giggle hearing the declaration and she was instantly discovered, seeing how four heads snapped her way.

"Shinobu-sama!" She smiled and patted the girls' head respectively when they came crashing towards her.

"Good afternoon, girls. I didn't interrupt, did I?" Kiyo immediately shook her head, "Of course not, Shinobu-sama! We were just chatting with [Name]-san. She was looking for you but you were away an hour ago, so.."

"Oh!" Shinobu averts her attention to the oddly quiet woman and sees her frozen in place.

"My apologies, I didn't make you wait too long did I?"

Suddenly, this made you quickly stand up on your spot. A flushed red tint, one Shinobu assumes to be embarrassment, entirely covers your (s/c) skin. You bowed, "You did not, K-Kocho-sama!"

You fully straighten yourself afterwards, rather stiffly. "If anything, I should be the one apologizing for my sudden disrupt appearance.."

Shinobu tilts her head as you take a deep breath, "M-My crow was left injured and unable to deliver the letter but Master insisted to talk to you personally, so.."

"Oh my, that's unfortunate," She claps her hands but the sight of you flinching due to it confused her, "..but if that's the case please don't fret. It must be urgent if it was Master himself that said so. We can have tea in my office?"

"Y-Yes!"

-

"I see.." Shinobu spoke as she brews her tea, seemingly in deep thought. Truly your story was unfortunate.

"Oh uh, yes. I may not look like it.. but my sister was a healer back in my village. Although, she wasn't a professional, I learned a lot from her. She treated the others in our village until no one could treat herself. Although, in the end it was all futile because of the demons.. Still, I respect her as a doctor."

Shinobu smiles at your words, she sets down her tea aside before facing you. "And you too, are respectable, [Name]-san. I appreciate your act of wanting to help out."

You perk at the mention of your name, the existing blush worsening on your face. "Ye-Yes! Thank you, Kocho-sama!" Then you deflated on your seat, "But.. no pressure of course! I could be a kakushi if you don't want me here as a helper. I originally wanted to be a demon slayer but.."

Shinobu watches as you frown, looking down at your bandaged palms. "..Master recommended the opposite. Although my months of training would be a waste, I think he's right that my path isn't for demon slaying."

Shinobu hums, staring at how you stiffen on your seat when your eyes catches hers. You've been doing that a lot the time the two of you were conversing.

".. You're a great person, [Name]-san. Seeing how you've already bonded with our girls, it's safe to say that you belong here, in the Butterfly Estate, with us."

And seeing the teary eyed look on your face, she pulls you in a short hug. She feels your head nod.

"Thank you, Kocho-sama.."

She hoped you wouldn't be uncomfortable around her anymore.

-

The weeks passed, months later on and Shinobu wasn't wrong on her judgement. You really did fit with the Butterfly girls, as if you've been here for so long and she couldn't be more happy.

You're friendly, warm and passionate. An earnest person she couldn't help but adore.

You fit perfectly with the triplets, interactions often than not leading to a hearty conversation about your journey. With Aoi, you complimented her brooding personality. A, "Lighten up, Aoi!" leaving your lips everytime she kicks out you for stealing food. With Kanao too, who you often converse with. Albeit, one-sidedly but that didn't seem to dull you at all, it motivated you to talk more even.

With your lively presence, you absolutely lightened up the already hearty estate. Laughs and shouts often echoing and the burden of chores were lessened as well. You were helpful and more than eager to do chores for other people. And she could see the girls, herself included, appreciated you a lot.

That said, it isn't the same with Shinobu at all.

"U-uh!? Kocho-sama, I-I'll take care of it!"

"O-Oh, uhm. I suppose you're right. H-Have a nice day, Kocho-sama!"

Like at all.

Did she do something wrong? Everytime you were talking to someone else, you seemed like yourself. Happy go lucky, loud and bold.

And yet, everytime Shinobu appears near you, all your personality is thrown against the wall and all left is a timid, soft spoken person and this frustratingly bothers her to no end.

She did find this odd side of you cute, if it wasn't for the possibility that this is your way of being uncomfortable around her.

She takes notes that with authority, one could appear intimidating but she makes out herself anything but that. And this theory is debunked when..

"Kyah!! [Name]-chan!!"

The thuds of familiar footsteps were difficult to ignore, much less the squeal she could clearly hear and recognize.

It suprised her how you were particularly close to her fellow Hashira.

"Mitsuri-san?"

The sight of the strong and beautiful Love Hashira hugging you tightly, your feet dangling on the air, weirdly irritated Shinobu. Maybe she just didn't like her workers in an uncomfortable place?

"Wahh, Mitsuri! How have you been!" The wide smile on your face as you hugged the woman back is definitely far from uncomfortable though.

A vein popped out of Shinobu's forehead.

Mitsuri, who plants you back on the ground turns around feeling Shinobu's presence. She, bless her heart, visibly brightens up at the sight of the smaller woman and runs up to hug her as well.

"It's been so long, Shinobu-chan!!" The dark aura around Shinobu scattered, sweatdropping at her friend's tight hold. "Yes, yes it's been a while." Mitsuri finally lets go of her while the purple eyed woman scans her being.

"Are you badly injured?" The question seems to bring Mitsuri to reality as almost immediately, tears swell up her eyes. She took both, you and Shinobu's hand, with her left hand and held you both as she cried out in pain.

"Wahh.. this mean demon definitely purposely made me fall! I thought I already beheaded him but! but! suddenly I fell to the ground and broke my armmm!!!" She whines loudly and Shinobu hums seeing the poorly done makeshift cast.

Mitsuri pulls you closer, "[Name]-chaaaannn, I missed you so much! You were always there to patch me up everytimeee!!"

This definitely took Shinobu's attention, she tilts her head with a smile. "Ah?"

You, who were consoling Mitsuri heard Shinobu say. Sweatdropping you explain, "Uh, my trainer's estate was close to Mitsuri's and uh- we became friends. She gets bad cuts often."

Shinobu simply hums in understanding. She watches as you reassure the Hashira that you will help and make her an actual cast.

And suddenly, for some odd reason, she goes on her day absolutely irked.

-

You jog into the kitchen, clearly tired. Consoling Mitsuri is usually easy enough but not when there's other whining patients as well. You sigh as you slip inside, before smiling at the variety of delicious food.

You salivated on the spot and just as you were about to secretly take something- Aoi, who was always there, spoke out. "Do you want to wash the dishes for five hours straight again?"

"Aoi-chaaannn, stop being so mean!!" You whine with a teasing smile.

She loudly sighs and gives you a plate of brewed tea. "You'll have your lunch only if, you deliver this to Shinobu-sama first. Be polite, she was somehow mad the whole day."

You felt your legs seemingly transform into jelly and that hot, familiar feeling settle itself in your stomach unwillingly. Heat and blood transfers into your neck and ears at the mere mention of her name.

"A-Aoi! I-I- the girls should be able to easily do it! Why me?!"

Aoi raises a brow before scowling, "Because you're an idiot! Stop acting pathetic and move on from your crush on Shinobu-sama if you're not gonna act on it!"

"Guh!" You spit out blood hearing her harsh words. Setting the tea aside, you quickly try covering her mouth to shush her. "Stop! Someone could hear you!"

She rolls her eyes and push you away, "As if anyone with a brain can't see that you practically fall on your knees around her."

"Aoi!" You tremble at the thought of anyone, Shinobu out of all people, hearing Aoi's loud declaration.

"Just go! Or no lunch today!"

She kicks you out of the kitchen and you sniff, you can't do this! You don't even know where Shinobu is!

"She's in her room, by the way!"

And with Aoi's last shout, you wanted to bury yourself alive.

Her room! Not the office, nor the engawa she's usually on- Her private room! No, you'll fucking die before you can even knock on her door! Actually, you'd very much prefer to die.

Alas, the rumble in your stomach was too hard to ignore. This could go smoothly if you just.. be calm. Yes, exactly. Just knock, greet, then leave.

Yes.

So easy.

Knock, greet, leave.

Knock, greet, leave.

You fasten your pace until you were standing in front of her room. The plate on hand trembling alongside your sweating arms.

Knock, greet, leave.

Quick! Raise your arm!

Knock, greet, leave. Knock, greet, leave. Knockgreetlea-

Shinobu suddenly appears. "Oh, [Name]. Good afternoon, do you need something?"

"KNOCK." You hand her the plate.

"GREET." You bow before-

"LEAVE." You immediately ran out of her way.

Shinobu watches this all with widen eyes. She calmly places the plate down, a dark smile on her face before she, herself, runs towards the direction you went to.

"Fufu, let's see if you could run away from me this time, [Name]."

-

You huff and pant, clinging onto the roof of one of the warehouses. You absolutely bombed that simple task! How the hell are you gonna face her now!?

"I'm gonna kill myself.." You mutter as you hugged yourself.

"Oh my, I'm not gonna approve that, my dear~!"

"Huh?" You blankly stare at the fluttering familiar haori as someone's feet landed in front of you.

"Am I hallucinating?" Shinobu giggles, taking your arm before you could escape as you squeak at her hold.

"Ko-Kocho-sama-"

She leans closer to your head, your face erupting into different shades of red but Shinobu ignores this and stares at you. "[Name].."

Your breath hitch.

You know she's waiting for your response. So, you gulp and answer with your trembling voice. "..yes, Kocho-sama?"

"Be frank with me, will you? Why.." You follow the movement of her fingers as it sets itself on your cheek, tapping it.

"Y-Yes?"

You basically melt at her touch when you hear her giggle.

"Why are you always avoiding me, hm?"

Your brain froze and seemingly got clogged. Inwardly, you prayed to whatever existing god to kill you via heart attack in this exact moment.

Actually, with the most breathtaking girl cradling you? That might just be possible.

Not wanting to make her wait, you respond. "I-I don't.. know what you're talking about!!" Your widened eyes look away as you spoke.

You hear her purr and take you by your chin, forcing you to make eye contact. Her purple eyes makes your stomach drop and heart skip.

"Didn't I tell you to be frank with me? It's an order from the head of the house!" She chirps and leans closer, her breath warmed your steaming face as you finally gave in.

"Pretty.."

Shinobu blinks, tilting her head and leaning away. She watch as you cover your face between your hands.

"You're too pretty to face, Shinobu-sama!"

Shinobu's own face and neck heat up at your words. "What?" She couldn't believe what nonsense you were saying.

You peek out of your fingers shyly, "You're so pretty.. everytime I'm around you, I can't seem to think of a singular coherent sentence. It's absolutely embarrassing.."

"Eh?" Shinobu feels the warmth creep up more.

"I-I'm sorry if it seemed like I was avoiding you! I wanted to keep a strict relationship with you because it felt like I was taking advantage of your kind gestures!"

You sigh, fists forming itself. "I understand if you don't want to talk to me now. I know, It's especially weird since we're both girls-" You look up at her and stiffen seeing the bewildered plus flushed look on her.

"Ko-Kocho-sama-!?"

Shinobu raises her hand, successfully shushing you. She looks everywhere but your eyes and for the first time, you see her usually chirpy and sometimes flirty demeanor take a shift.

"How about we.. start fresh.."

She looks up at you and your heart beats faster. "..with tea, perhaps?"

Blinking, you pinch yourself to see if this is all just an absurd dream and yet it wasn't. It absolutely wasn't.

Not wanting to make her wait than you already made her, you nodded with a shy smile.

"I'd love that."

[evilbihan]

As someone who values philosophy and underlying themes of art, I find the duality of fire and ice interesting when applied to characters.

For instance fire is seen as a warm and protective element, but few care to look beyond the warm glow to see the hunger and cruelty of fire. I think this can apply well to characters who wield fire. They can be warm and kind on the surface, but underneath is rage and passion. This can definitely be seen in Kuai Liang. Everyone is drawn to the fire, but doesn't see the burning rage.

Naturally ice is very much the opposite of all this. Ice is frightening and cold. It looks like it doesn't care about anything beyond its cold judgment. Yet people who have almost died of the cold say it lulled them to sleep. It's the only element to take you sweetly in a way. Ice underneath has a deep beauty and kindness in it. With Bi-Han we see him as icy and snappish (heh cold snap), but we also see that his whole motivation is for his clan. Yet the writers don't let us see the kinder side that comes from that dedication and love. It's annoying how they have kept him so flat when ice is such a deep and philosophical thing. (I'm sure my bias is also showing I love ice and winter.)

This is so true and I couldn't have worded it any better myself! Fire is destructive. Fire provides warmth, but no one ever speaks of what it takes in return. Fire is selfish. It consumes. Get too close and it will burn you. Fire knows no mercy. All those things are, in one way or another, also applicable to Kuai Liang. His intention to protect the realm may seem noble, but his vengeful nature is destructive to both himself and those around him. Kuai Liang is selfish and merciless in his pursuit of vengeance.

Ice is indeed in many ways the kinder element. Don't we apply ice to burns and bruises for it to numb our pain? Is it not the ice that selflessly melts and waters the ground we live off? The cold only becomes a threat to those who venture into it too deep. As you already correctly said, Bi-Han cares about his clan and means to protect it. He is only a threat to those who interfere with that goal. His desire to give the Lin Kuei a better future is no less noble than Kuai Liang's, but few can recognize this because ice can seem unfriendly and terrifying, yet the cold shows mercy. And what is Bi-Han if not merciful?

Sub-Zero: Surrender and Shao will show mercy. Mileena: If you believe that, you're a fool.

Sub-Zero: Walk away while you can. Raiden: I'll never give up, never surrender.

Sub-Zero: We have no cause for dispute. Kitana: You aided Shao's attempt to steal the throne!

Some fail to see the beauty and kindness of ice the same way they fail to see the cruelty of fire.

Now, for your final point, I'm afraid I must disagree.

Yet the writers don't let us see the kinder side that comes from that dedication and love.

You are partially right with that statement, but I do think we get to see glimpses of Bi-Han's kindness, such as the examples I provided above (you can find more in this post as well as this one), people just tend to intentionally ignore them for some reason. Bi-Han asks both his brothers if they're unharmed, he expresses regret over Sindel's death, he seems reluctant to fight Kitana... Personally, I think he is a far more complex character than people give him credit for. Could the writing have been better? Absolutely. Is it the writers' fault that Bi-Han is misunderstood? Not entirely. I would mostly blame that on the fandom's media illiteracy.

(As a side note: Ironically, my favorite season is summer and I can handle heat better than I can handle the cold and yet the ice/winter themed character ended up being my favorite.)

[linkspooky]

Hi! Thanks for your tremendous work, it's always a pleasure to read your blog! I just wanted to ask your opinion on Hidden Inventory / Premature Death Arc. I know this one is important to make parallels on different characters' stories, but I for me this arc is a surprise. I mean why would Gege suddenly make us involve in the future? 🥲 I just don't understand how he could come to telling us the stories from the past. Do you find it fitting?

Jujutsu Kaisen is a story primarily about cycles: the previous generation giving way to the newer one, spring turning into summer. In particular it's about the passing of the torches between generations. The elders in Jujutsu Society resist what is natural, they are such hardline traditionalists they often sacrifice the young because they refused to give way and let the new generation replace them.

Gojo Satoru's ideals which are in opposition to the elders state that not only should children be allowed to live out their youths, they should surpass their elders. Gojo is staunchly opposed to say, the elitist Zen'in who believe themselves the strongest, or even Sukuna the greater sorcerer of all time, in the fact he wants the kids he's raising to grow stronger than him.

On the flip side, Jujutsu Kaisen is also about negative cycles, like the curses which can never truly die so are exorcised only to be reformed. It's also about the cycle of abuse, such as Toji being abused by the Zen'in, only to abandon his own son in turn. The flashback arc is necessary, because the problems the current generation are facing started with the previous one. These problems persist because the cycle is unbroken.

Tengen in their explanation states that the distortion that caused Kenjaku's plans to succeed in the modern day happened eleven years ago, and he lists two reasons why, first Zen'in Toji who was not affected by cursed energy, and second Geto who could control curses.

Toji is hailed as the destroyer of destinies because he's free form cursed energy, but as for a more meta-textual reason why Toji gets as much focus in story as he does, is because much like Maki he's a product of the worst abuses of sorcerer society.

There's a reason for this line here when Toji appears before the collected members of the Zen'in Clan, Naobito the head, Maki the Toji of her generation, and Megumi who was almost sold to them and is Toji's son who he abandoned therefore another link in the chain of abuse.

All of these characters are effected by the cycle of abuse in the Zen'in Clan, yes, even Naobito and later on Naoya who appear to be at the top. It's that whole "Toxic Masculinity harms men" thing too. Naobito was not born a drunken, abusive jerk and he was likely not a good father in any capacity considering the way Naoya acts.

They're all trapped in the cycle known as the Zen'in Clan, and they all stare on in envy to the one they think is free, Toji, who escaped and became the sorcerer killer. Toji who, the whole clan was secretly fearful of because they believed he had the capability of killing them / also according to Naoya's take looked down on him because he was an otherworldly strength they did not recognize and tried to suppress him to make themselves feel superior.

Either way, Toji is someone who they have put down their entire life because he wasn't born to meet their standards, because he's something new and different from tradition and the big three houses are the worst traditionalists of Jujustu Society. The Toji they all fear however, is a monster created by the Zen'in Clan themselves. Despite being abused by toxic masculinity, Toji is also toxic masculinity incarnate. He drinks, gambles all of his money away, he's an absentee father, and his greatest onscreen time is shooting a girl who's about Mai's age in cold blood. If Mai was the ultimate victim of the Zen'in Clan's toxic masculinity, then Riko is also the ultimate victim of Toji's masuclinity which didn't just target sorcerers but reached out and targeted innocent girls (Riko) and children (Megumi).

The explanation of who Toji was in the past, how he both killed Riko and drove the wedge between Geto and Gojo's friendship creating the first dsiruption in the cycle is important because in the modern day the Zen'in Clan has not broken the cycle. The abuse of the Zen'in Clan is so bad, that one generation later they've already manufactured another Toji.

While Maki's rise to power is glorified a little bit too much, in story the fact that the cycle has repeated itself is not a good thing. Maki's lost her chance of happiness and reconciliation with Mai, she's won against the Zen'in but it's a pyrrhic victory, she's now strong at the cost of everything else. As I said before Mai is also a clear parallel to Riko, someone who just wanted to live a normal life cut down in the prime of her youth by a member of the Zen'in, who's death then sparks another person to spiral.

They're just girls who longed for an ordinary life and be together with their loved ones, and Maki and Geto are both haunted by the fact that they were unable to save them in the aftermath. Geto's actions are spurred by the way the world carelessly killed Riko, and Maki gives up on reforming the Zen'in Clan and chooses destruction after they swallow up Mai.

The flashback chapters do more than just give parallels between say Gojo and Geto's friendship and the current friendship between Megumi and Yuji, or even give us Gojo's backstory and insight to his character they also go to great lengths to show us how much things have not changed in the modern day Jujutsu World.

While the distortion that drove Toji to do what he did began in the Zen'in Clan, Geto is basically driven by the faults of Jujutsu Society as a whole. The death of Riko is his eye opening moment where he learns the truth of their society, the young are sacrificed for the old. It's not just the fact Riko died, but afterwards he witnessed crows of people appluading for it, and Toji acting like that death was nothing. There's also the fact her death / sacrifice was ordered by Jujutsu Society in the first place, but Geto thought he could overcome that cycle with strength alone until he couldn't. Geto's monologue that leads to his slow breakdown even refers to being a sorcerer as "an endless cycle."

The three years of Geto and Gojo's youth is referred to their spring, whereas Premature Death takes place in summer. Not coincidentally, in story Summer is referred to as the worst possible season for curses because curses accumulate during that time.

Jujusu Kaisen is about cycles, and the inability to escape them. Geto and Gojo's springtime of youth turns to summer, Geto begins to have doubts because of his inability to protect Riko, and his witnessing of sorcerers dying around him.

It's not just Geto's superiority complex, or his increasing antipathy for the weak normal people who demand sorcerers exorcise curses for them because they can't defend themselves. Geto also bears witness to the continued death of children around him. It's not just a hazard of the job, sorcerer society continually sacrifices young people to uphold the strict traditions of the elders.

Geto is moved by the mistreatment of the young in a way Gojo is, Riko's death is what opens his eyes, a few days Geto goes to the village he witnesses the brutal death of Haibara and Nanami's own feelings of helplessnes to stop it, and then his breaking point is when he sees two twin girls who are sorcerers ganged up on and imprisoned by an entire town, the same way that the indifferent crowds cheered for Riko's death and the same way sorcerer society considered Riko an expendable sacrifice to maintain Tengen.

Sorcerer Society's callous indifference to both the deaths of their sorcerers, but especially the young is what drives Geto to his breaking point. This is also the source of Gojo's ideals, because he realizes something went wrong with Geto and he doesn't want that mistake to repeat.

“For people like us, we naturally know how to get rid of the poisons within their heart. But for youths who hold onto a lot of sentimental feelings, it’s another matter altogether. Their heart might collapse just from getting struck by poison once.” “Isn’t it an adult’s duties to rid poison from a child’s heart? As a teacher, you should know this better than me, right?” [Light novel 1: Ressurection Puppet]

In Gojo's case he is actively trying at least, to raise kids in a way that they won't break like Geto did. It's the loss of Geto which inspires his current ideals. However, to dwell on this briefly Gojo is also still a very flawed mentor because he's a product of the system who raised him.

Kenjaku comes back in the form of Geto's body to defeat Gojo. Then Sukuna ends up taking Megumi's body away from him. There's a pattern here, two people who Gojo has a strong connection too have their bodies taken away from him. In Megumi's case this is where Gojo has failed to break the cycle because of his stated intetions, because Gojo didn't adopt Megumi to help him after his father died, Gojo swooped in to take Megumi because he was a potential weapon he could use against the elders.

The flashback arc ends with Gojo making his slightly predatory deal with Megumi, by threatening his sister's happiness unless he complies and lets Gojo train him instead of the Zen'in. Megumi is shown to be a child that's continually having trouble growing up throughout the story, because of his broken home situation.

The ending of Hidden Inventory could have been Gojo learning his lesson and breaking the cycle in regards to Megumi, but he deliberately did not, and so once again the problems the main characters are facing now is created by the failures of the past.

Gojo Mr. "I can totally beat up on Megumi, it's fine."

In this case though, Hidden Inventory is also about how the problems of the past are plagueing Megumi's life, because the primary villain of it is his father, and the ending of the whole arc is us seeing his first encounter with Gojo. Megumi is in this case the latest youth swallowed up by the old, because Sukuna is quite literally a member of the previous generation physically stealing his body away from him to prolong his life long after he died.

Tsumiki's death is also a repeat of the death of Mai Zen'in, and Riko Amanai. It's once again the death of an innocent being swallowed up by the toxic masculinity of Jujutsu Society, all while the person who wanted to protect them is completely helpless to stop it. Gojo also took responsibility for Megumi, and Tsumiki both and later on couldn't live up tot hat responsibility, Tsumiki is dead and Megumi is possessed.

The Hidden Inventory flashback arc is there to establish what is basically the beginning of the cycle in the story, so we can see later on how this cycle is repeating itself again and again without being broken even this late (200 chapters) into the story. With the eventual hope that if the adults like Gojo can't fully break the cycle, then the kids he raised will be able to do so in his place.

[neptunes-sol-angel]

Hey Sol-Cherubs! I've had this sitting in my drafts for a while but just didn't have the stability over the past few months to finally finish it. This is a pick a card for those having a tough time soothing themselves over a betrayal that happened to them, I hope this helps and gives space for those to validate their emotions but also see the situation from a different perspective to help them heal and move on.

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Pile One ⚔

If you had it your way? "If there's an open position for the devil's advocate, then I'll be it. If Karma's really a bitch, then how can I make her my apprentice? God if you're actually real, I think it's time to send the floods and bring back Noah's ship" If you had it your way, regardless of the religion that you practice and believe in, you'd want a higher power to "correct" this person. I feel like this individual is some sort of "fallen angel", someone who had great potential in being a trustworthy companion in your life, making good deeds to hunanity, or both, that ended up becoming the total opposite. Perhaps, one of the main immoral acts that this person committed, is putting you through some psychological torment that could have made you feel trapped in a mental spiral about your identity and self worth. They could have even weaponized personal information such as your trauma and insecurities that you confidentially shared with them, against you as a manipulation tactic. The vengeance that you want for this person, strikes to me as something that you're kind of wishing for, as if you're not entirely confident that justice will be made, or that if there actually is a higher power, that they'd consider your injustice as something that's worth putting attention towards and balancing. The kind of correction that you want this person to have, relates to some sort of reality check, where the feathers of their deceptive wings get plucked one by one to expose who they really are. This isn't even about other people seeing this person's exposure, you feel that the only way for balance to be restored is if this person recognizes and finally checks their own behavior. This person could have a stubborn ego that's pretty much fired up by delusion, or could have a habit of concealing their toxicity by latching onto others emotionally or spiritually. You don't want this person to catch a break, I'm seeing you kind of wanting them to be placed onto this wheel and spinned around for eternity which could represent internally how they made you feel, but also I'm envisioning the karmic retribution, as them trapped in a fun house, alone, filled with mirrors that expose their inner monstrosities.

How the universe is actually working this situation in your favor:

Instead of being passive in this situation to let a higher power get this person, the universe is actually using you to directly serve this person with a taste of their own medicine. The purpose of this connection since the beginning, was to be each other's mirror. You could feel like this situation has brought out the the worst in you, you may even be right, but this is actually cycle that's supposed to finally help you step into your power. The characters Eleven and One are what I think of for this pile, and also the planets Venus and Saturn. This encounter demonstrates the different ways of things being similar, but not exactly the same, and that there's always a choice. This person was used to restricting others with their superiority complex, until they met someone like you who let's your own energy speak for itself. Do not demonize yourself for the anger that you feel towards this person, but let it be known, that how this person treated you and the misuse of their talents is a habitual thing for them to do to others. The reality check is coming, but what's different is that it's not supposed to be something that's reoccurring, this cycle has gone on too long and this ending is actually what's supposed to be the nail in coffin for this person to change or remain stagnant in the consequences of havoc that they wreaked.

Pile Two ⚔

If you had it your way? If you had it your way, you'd dunk this person in chaos, pull them back up for air, and then dump them back in when they think that shit's sweet. I'm seeing this pile relating to a romantic connection from either the past or something in the present that's past it's expiration date that you need to end now. When they hurt you, they fumbled a big bag, so revenge in your image, would be for this person to literally fumble bags by getting massive hits to their finances and partnership deals. I see that person could have gave you a lot of false promises, and apologies with no changed behavior or sincerity. If they're with another person now, you want them to be dogged out by that individual. This could look like seducing them until they're comfortable as if they've found their dream person that'll elevate them higher in life, to actually being wiped out dry of whatever assets they had. This could be a massive financial loss, or an assassination to their confidence and charisma that they're used to fooling others with. This could even look like you partnering up with their lover to make this person's life a living hell. How the universe is actually working this situation in your favor: The universe is going to orchestrate an ending whether you like it or not, to get you away from this person. You or anyone else cannot be this person's karma in this situation, because they're already on the road of demolishing themselves just fine. If you see this person happy and at peace as if they're being rewarded for their behavior, they are not. This is a person that regardless of how brazen they are, that lacks self love to the point where they are incapable at the moment of treating others right, and will continue to ruin their relationships both professionally and intimately, until they do the inner work that is needed. This person is all talk, but you can only get but so far with words, people in their friendships, family, and career life are going to pick up on how foolish this person is and will follow suit in separating themselves from being associated with this person. It's going to hurt trying to move on with someone you really wanted to work things out with, but for your greater good, see this rejection as redirection from a sinking ship. This situation will teach you to not follow people and proposals at a face value, and to not destroy yourselves (tit for tat) to get back at someone.

Pile Three ⚔

If you had it your way?

If you had it your way, you'd set the whole building on fire. I keep seeing that scene with Tanisha from Bad Girls Club singing "I ain't get no sleep, cause of y'all, and y'all ain't getting sleep cause of me!". This could be a workplace that did you dirty, or in general something that you invested a lot of time, money, loyalty, and self sacrifices in that dropped and replaced you as if you were nothing. Perhaps this pile is for those in my audience who were known as the golden child of the family, working so hard to please people who don't value you outside of your achievements. You want to burn everything, flaming hot to the ground, so that you can finally lay on the ashes and just rest. You want something, anything, even a reset if it means getting your time back. How the universe is actually working this situation in your favor? Maybe the hard work didn't get you where you wanted, but use the knowledge learned and experience gained, to create something in your control and authority, in the right way. You know what it takes to build this new start, and you know what not to do when you acquire this newfound power when you're in a position to lead others. But more importantly, the universe is giving you an opportunity to slow down, and to not be humble when it comes to what you have to offer in this world ruled by transactional relationships and the rise and grind lifestyle. This is teaching you to nourish yourself in the way others didn't, and start investing in your freedom and tapping into your potential. You weren't meant to follow others, you're meant to lead, don't try to burn others dysfunction, it's not your responsibility to, let them have it. Redirect your energy into fulfilling your purpose, reclaim your life again.

[austinslounge]

You'll not have me sympathizing with that ugly ass bitch who is holding Austin's dog hostage all these years. Not that bitch who made shady comments when he was getting dragged for his voice. Not that bitch who was abusive to him! I don't like Kaia either but y'all don't bring Vanessa here to justify your hate towards her.

I love it when complete strangers on the internet who weren't even in a relationship try to re-write history or think that they know a couple's entire relationship based on rumors they've heard on the internet. 🙄

Listen, I go by an entire picture and things that I've seen with my own eyes in order to make up my judgment about someone, because people are usually multifaceted, and typically are not all angel or all devil. Most people are very nuanced and have many different levels to their personality.

Take a seat, because I have lots to say.

1) First of all, Vanessa isn't "ugly". If anything, she's probably more naturally beautiful 👀

2) You know that Vanessa is holding Austin's dog "hostage" how exactly? 🥴 Were you actually there when she and Austin had a conversation about the dog? 🤔 Let's just use common sense here for a second. If anything, she probably kept the dog after the breakup because she knew that Austin would be busy filming "Elvis" for months, and didn't want the dog to be jumping from home to home. No doubt, the dog grew very attached to Vanessa while Austin was busy working. Darla was living with Austin and Vanessa for years after his mother died, and it would have probably been more stable (and healthy!) for the dog to not be left for months without its owner. You do realize that Austin got sick right after "Elvis" filming ended, and then he also went right into MOTA filming right after right? If anything, Vanessa has provided a stable, loving home for the dog, especially since Austin doesn't have any immediate family members who could have watched the dog for him while he's busy filming on location. It's actually probably helped Austin that he doesn't have a dog to worry about or take care of as his sole responsibility while he's busy working and building his adult career in Hollywood.

3) Wrt to the shady comments.... I personally don't think that Vanessa should have been doing that. So I definitely agree with you there. I feel that when a breakup occurs in the public eye, it's best for both parties to take the high road and keep things civil. I don't condone Vanessa's shady remarks towards Austin or her petty behavior after the breakup. To me, it was dumb, unnecessary, and wasn't a classy way to handle a breakup at all. At the same time, I do recognize that people are only human, and that most of the "shade" she was throwing was coming out two years after they broke up, around the time that she was having to see him everywhere due to "Elvis" prep. Having to see an ex all the time after a breakup isn't always easy. To me, the fact that she was still triggered by Austin two years after a breakup reveals to me just how much she must have loved that man. You're not behaving that way unless you are HURT. The opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference. While I don't think Vanessa behaved her best during this time, I still recognize as a woman how it feels to go through a breakup. This was a man that she loved for nearly 9 years. Perhaps the breakup came suddenly? We weren't there. We don't know what transpired or what things were said when they broke up. I'm not making any excuses for her behavior, I'm just sharing a different pov. I still don't think she should have behaved that way -- especially towards a man that she dated and supposedly loved for so long. It was petty, it was immature, it was uncalled for, but at the same time, can we really say that we've never been hurt by a breakup before and behaved in ways that probably weren't our finest moments? 🤔

4) "Abusive"? So, you're choosing to believe one or two random reports on the internet which may (or may not) be true, over a span of a nearly 9-year relationship? 🤔 Do you really think Austin (a man who has plenty of options) would have been with Vanessa for nearly 9 years if she had really been an abusive girlfriend? Are we talking about the same Vanessa who helped Austin with his sick and dying mother? The same Vanessa who was always so super supportive of Austin so publicly, was over the moon for him when he got the Elvis role, and who always posted sweet msgs about him publicly on social media? The same Vanessa who threw Austin birthday parties? Do we also REALLY think that Austin's older sister Ashley would have been so close with Vanessa (even had her in her freaking wedding!!) if Vanessa had really had a history of being abusive and a jerk towards Austin? 🤔 Think about that for a second. Do you really think Ashley would still be following Vanessa on social media to this day if Vanessa had really done something so utterly bad to Austin during (and after!) their relationship? Do you think Austin's mother would have loved Vanessa if that were the case? Are we talking about the same Vanessa who seemed to love Austin to pieces and couldn't keep her hands off of him? The same Vanessa who was there for Austin through his depression, through his mom's death, who supported him with love throughout his career? The same Vanessa that Austin looked deeply in love with and actually seemed happy around? That one?

5) Nobody is bringing in Vanessa to justify their "hate" for Kaia. (I don't "hate" Kaia btw -- I just don't think she's the right match for Austin) Some people just notice the stark difference in how Austin looked with Vanessa for 9 years, vs how he looks with Kaia in his "less abusive" relationship. 🙄

Look, you don't have to like Vanessa -- in fact I completely understand why some fellow Austin fans might even dislike her (she's done a few side-eye worthy things over the years imo). But to paint Vanessa with a huge wide negative brush like she's some character villain in a movie is just weird to me.

People have ups and downs. Sometimes, people say and do things they don't mean. At times, couples have fights. It happens. We weren't in the Aunessa relationship. We don't know every single little thing that happened.

All I know is what I see with my own eyes, and to me (to me), Austin looked far happier with Vanessa for years (and even Lily Rose Depp) than he has looked with Kaia. JMHO

I know some fans want to villain-ize Vanessa in order to make themselves feel better about the breakup or about his current relationship, but I'm just going by the photo and video evidence, and there is nothing that I've seen that gives me the impression that Vanessa was "Abusive" towards him. And unless Austin himself comes out and says that about her, all we're relying on is hearsay over the internet, especially when we've never seen any photo or video evidence of the sort, nor seen anything in Austin's body language to imply that in all the years that they were together.

[lilyoffandoms]

I started writing a few months ago around May

And before revealing anything I want to say that I understand the effect of AI on the creative field.

The thing is starting out I didn't have any idea if the story I constructed was good and I would be in a desperate need of feedback so I used AI for it but I never used it to write stuff just for feedbacks and how to improve etc. As of lately I have been carrying this guilt that in a way I have wronged someone. I know my loneliness and incompetence doesn't excuse what I have done but is there any way I can redeem myself because I do feel really bad and I don't support AI generated stuff and I never used it in my work.

I just feel so guilty.

First off, congratulations on starting your writing journey! That’s an exciting and terrifying step. I’m proud of you for doing it. That’s amazing of you!! 🎉

To address the rest:

Guilt and redemption are tricky words with a ton of religious baggage behind them. I’m not one to say there is need for redemption because one is guilty of doing something. We all do stuff. As much as I despise AI, I would probably not say one should be called ‘guilty of using it.’ To be guilty, I believe, you must have committed some crime (which you haven’t) or broken some code of conduct (which is often morality based and my morals are not everyone’s morals). Plus, who am I to make that accusation?

Yes, one can use AI but it’s not a crime to use a tool that is made legally available and the usage of which is legally allowed. Do I think the AI collection of learning sources is flawed and illegal? Yes, I do. Do I think everyone that uses AI is complicit in those crimes? No, I do not. Do I believe we are morally obligated to do better by artists? Yes, I do!

I think there are laws, like the preservation of copyright and ownership laws, that should be applied to AI that are not currently applied. But laws are always slow to catch up in these cases.

I think we, as a collective, need to work harder to preserve the humanity and soul of art. And I think that starts by not using AI until there are laws in place that protect the human creatives over protecting the technology and money grabbing corporations profiting off the backs of artists.

It’s a beautiful thing to create and that’s being stolen from us by AI generated content that gets slapped with the label ‘art’. Art is losing its soul. Artists are losing their livelihoods because of this trash.

And it seems to me like you maybe share this stance. Otherwise, I don’t think you’d have written your fics entirely of your own nor do I think you’d feel the guilt you do. Please don’t feel guilt over using something.

Forgive yourself. You’ve clearly come to recognize the fault in using AI generated content as it currently stands and that’s what I think matters the most. Don’t continue to beat yourself up over something in the past you can’t change. You’ve grown, you realize the mistake you maybe made (and I don’t know if it was a mistake tbh), and you are still here standing, and hopefully, writing. That’s an incredible accomplishment!

Forgive yourself and focus on where your choices have brought you because that’s a beautiful thing.

On a personal note, the things I share here about AI generated content are mostly opinions I have formed in talking with artists and writers (and being one myself) and diving deep into this issue. However, they are mostly just my opinions. Just like, anyone else that says the opposite of me, they are mostly opinions.

Now some of it isn’t opinion. The theft of art and the outcome of that theft is very much fact. As are the lack of laws surrounding this issue. I’ve just taken those facts and formed my opinion on what we should be doing as a society to do better by artists and writers.

One final note, it’s alright to feel guilt, it’s okay. I am sorry you feel it. I know that weight but please know it’s okay. I am also sorry you are lonely. I know that emptiness but please know you can always come here when you feel that, if you’d like. I’ll try and make it feel less lonely.

I am always happy to read anything you put out into the world whether to provide feedback or just to reblog and gush. Because y’all writers are amazing creatures that deserve all the love!!

YOU deserve all the love and support!

[dernarrleid]

continuation from here

Relishing in the cold stare of a woman never perturb Kenzou before. The words falling from his lips, he meant them in earnest, understanding the nuance behind the work he performed day in and day out yet scolded himself on their delivery. Choosing who to save, it was easy to stay objective in a system who's design made the incoming of patients fair, taking away another element of all powerful responsibility aside from the conspicuous. Fundamentally, life wasn't in the same colors or variations for certain individuals over others; many had not the privilege to venture out and discover this notion. He supposed it's why there's a near permanent misunderstanding between people of what the meaning of said existence was, as the battles of hopefulness and nihilistic ideals wage on indefinitely. It doesn't entirely explain why most of his run ins with decidedly head strong, free-thinking persons question his character in a way almost condescending. The Irina he had searched for, the profile heard only from a man too cowardly to go on record, yet to damn good at his job for Kenzou to ignore the tip off. The @zorkaya he'd met instead.

Not to be deluded by her distinct features, the pure color of her hair paired with the crystalized, sunny twinkle seemingly disemboweling the fabric of his ideals from a few words exchanged. Across from him lie the proverbial serpent to his dove. Kenzou does not think so highly of himself in a personal sense, absolutely not, remaining completely neutral in his perception. To the defense of savings lives, it may only be faced head on. In the past, his ire while at bay grew each time his concurrent morals were challenged. Which fair, word of mouth often served the impression of his auspicious skills, never probing his beliefs since the medical world had no room for differing interpretations. However, the sheltered upbringing gave way for perhaps the ultimate form of prosperity. He'd been practicing inadvertently.

"It's a flaw I'm not proud of, but the more I believed in it the more it never failed to unsettle me. Outside of a professional environment one has to abide by their own set of morals." Kenzou says, mildly. Ridiculousness settles upon him in his surroundings, staring at the floor where his shoes stood out above all. The extravagance in her prim mien, only familiar with money in a detached sense considering his travels, he'd be rolling in it if his materialism was anymore than it was currently. Extremely aware of how terribly odd they come given they traditionally have no inhibitions left. "Whether I'm alive or on the brink of death, I'm not doing a thing for you." Rather callously put, although something tells him she wouldn't mind in a non-murderous way. Surprisingly, most of his interaction were the opposite. "My life is in the hands of my patients... you don't seem like the type to require any immediate attention."

He shuffles the soles of suede shoes on the wooden tiles underfoot, taking the glass before him if only to peer at his reflection. Self conscious wasn't the correct wording, hair a bit disheveled both from his roots with the beginnings of stubble prinking his chin. In stark contrast, he sighs to the air. "Have you ever felt the need to stray away from this world?" He questions tentatively. Recognizing a smile, not truthful, from miles away never mind the few feet between. The drink swirls in hand, thumb and index finger spinning the steam of the glass. "A man I'd been helping," saving, "he mentioned you in some capacity before his procedure. I... had to see for myself what kind of person you were—why he was so afraid. He wanted me to give you a token of his time with you, said I'd have no trouble seeing how beautiful you are." Reaching into the breast pocket stuffed with a handkerchief was a poorly written letter, manuscript by someone on the verge of death.

The way it was frantic burned together—anyone would have concluded the note held a powerful infatuation behind it. Why for a Ms. Zarya he'd no clue. Pleasantries fell short via his time to even make the trip and her demeanor; reading the letter was one thing different from the reality of his first encounter. He hoped it was his last. "He was wrong."

[kateeorg]

Mmm... not to harsh on anyone's vibe, ship what you ship, but I can't help but point out a few huge differences between Helga Pataki and Draco Malfoy, just because the idea fascinates me:

As discussed in episodes like Helga on the Couch, Helga acts the way she does because she gets no attention at home. She lives in the shadow of her "perfect" older sister, her parents are caught up in their own personality flaws (her father's ego, her mother's absentmindedness/implied alcoholism). In turn, Helga has no respect for her parents - she calls them by their first names and regularly insults them.

Arnold was the first person to be nice to her, but she's so afraid to be vulnerable her affection comes out as aggression. This aggression spills over into every other relationship she has.

Draco is the opposite. Draco is beloved by his parents. He is the only child in a family that prides itself on carrying on bloodlines. Sure, the ideals Draco was raised with were not good ones, much like with Helga's family, but he was never neglected. And he never disrespected his parents - if anything, he idolized them too much. Narcissa and Lucius both eventually betrayed Voldemort for Draco, too, that didn't come out of nowhere. There's a reason Harry compares Draco to his cousin Dudley when they first meet. Draco is spoiled, and that is the major impetus for all his actions, including against Harry.

Likewise, Harry was the first person to snub Draco rather than the first to notice him. Draco walks around expecting to be respected for his pure-blood status, expecting someone powerful enough to defeat a Dark Lord would of course want to be his friend, and being sorely mistaken, embarrassed, in front of a Weasley no less. He acts from a sense of wounded pride more than a place of neglect

Though both have a fear of being embarassed and vulnerable, where Helga acts because she doesn't want to be more vulnerable than she already is, trying to make up for a major inferiority complex, Draco acts because he has never been vulnerable. Not really. Not until Half-Blood Prince, when he starts to see the reality of the ideals he's been brought up with. He truly believes he is better than everyone else. and anyone who challenges him on this faces his wrath.

Another difference? Draco has lackeys to do the dirty work for him. Or he threatens to get his father involved. Helga? Helga's self-reliant - she will take you down herself Xd

However, there is one big way they are similar that needs to be stated:

Their dads.

Lucius and Big Bob are both sort of blowhards, obsessed with reputation and looking good. Where Bob puts nearly every ounce of his affection into his business, Lucius cultivates his position at the Ministry and on the school board, both unafraid to throw their weight around when they don't get their way. Helga and Draco are both affected by their dads, mirroring their toxic behavior in ways that inadvertently hurt them. But while I think Helga recognizes this on some level, but doesn't know how else to handle things, even sometimes resisting her dad's beliefs and actions, Draco has a total blind spot until late in the series, completely buying his father's ideology. Fanfics may say otherwise, but there is little in-text evidence Draco didn't 100% buy into the idea his family was superior.

So while there are some marked similarities between them, Draco and Helga are not the same character. But the parallels of these two 90s bullies are fascinating nonetheless, especially since both showed potential for change in different ways.

Now the version of Draco that appears in the AVPM series? THAT'S an entirely different story.

Excuse me but WHY are Helga Pataki and Draco Malfoy literally (almost) the same person?!?!

I never watched Hey Arnold growing up, (I don’t think they showed in the UK?) But my goodness let me tell you– when I discovered this character I was screaming!!!! My drarry-filled brain exploded!

So yes. This is headcanon now. Thank you.

Rant over😂

[nerdsideofthemedia]

I've come to terms with bb but I still want to know when it was decided to be endgame. I don't buy the "planned from the start" thing since everything in show points to the exact opposite. Maybe the volume commentary after the fact will finally put the matter to rest...or muddle things up further lol. given the likely possibility of them lying ) if it was planned from the start there should have been hints from the start they shouldnt have began hinting at bb halfway into the series ( and attempting to use bb being a same sex ship as a shield and claiming anyone who didnt see evidence just didnt see it because it was a w/w ship makes me roll my eyes "I recognize that BB is likely to become a canon ship. But given that it's a stupid-ass canon ship, I've elected to ignore it."

Have you ever gotten around to reading from start to finish the one giant post dedicated to you that goes into length about your harassment and it is now linked to in all my rwby post in the wordpress blogs, @megashadowdragon (yes, I am almost certain that is your actual real account even if my evidence is circumstancial)? Should I put a link to your tumblr profile too?

You've claimed to be in your late 20s, how the fuck can you be that old and still think it's acceptable to harass someone over a ship? and for months, no less. The only time you left me alone is when I had cut all means to do so. I shouldn’t have to do that. Have you been checking on my account every week for the last month to see when you could strike again? Get the fuck over it. BS sunk for good in early V6 (yes, the Renora/BB parallels are very clearly intentional and no, they didn’t change their minds mid-volume – that would have been likely impossible). V9 is starting in a couple of months.

If the writers told you every single hint they had to reveal BB, you would not believe them, so don’t bother feigning curiosity and pretending you’re open-minded. A person who thinks Adam attacked Yang and associated the word love without any planning on the writers' part is someone who could not care less about what the writers were trying to convey. A person who sees Yang getting associated with the ex and Sun getting associated with the unrequited love doesn’t think it says anything about story is naïve at best. And a person who keeps sending me to a goddamn post (that I’ve even quoted verbatim in one of my posts) that says “Like seriously if I was writing two characters that were only meant to be platonic, I would never write a scene like that. The implication of those words are too strong.” but tries to pretend this only applies to Renora and not BB is a deeply homophobic one. I have yet to understand how the hell you fail to see that that post makes actually a massive amazing argument for BB being planned from very early on. 

Nothing can be applied to Renora without applying to BB too. 

It wasn’t just the Renora scenes that were written by writers, the BB scenes also were, including the flirting and wink, the ship named Pride, the ex attacking and using the word love, yet classmate for Sun, Yang paralleling Pyrrha when they both helped the object of their affection in the dance arc, the Arkos/BB parallels in V3, etc. The writers decide everything. If they wanted Sun to fight the ex and not be associated with unrequited love, that would have happened. Don’t bother pointing Adam didn’t fight Sun when they were alone, that’s why he used the word classmate because the fight could have happened any way the writers wanted it to happen. If they wanted those 2 to fight (or with Blake) and use the word love, they would have.

The writers decide everything. If they wanted to associate Sun with the ex instead of the unrequited love or if they wanted to associate him with the word love instead of classmate, they would have. 

Instead of writing a post responding to all your nonsense for the 124539th time, 

let’s decide what to do with you. 

I’m guessing reporting you to tumblr is worthless because you harassed me using several accounts that no longer exist (mysteriouslypaleenthusiast, reallydelicateturtle, red2sposts, ravenstarsblog, violetcloudsworld, pleasantbarbarianfire, makofan and now lightningemperorsworld). Let’s not forget the multiple anons and the b@gmail.com and the m@gmail.com. Still, reporting to tumblr and see if they have ways to check it’s you and see what they can do about it, not off the table.  

Here’s my suggestion: you stop harassing the BB community (the entire community, not just me) and I let bygones be bygones. 

Or maybe, I inform your community (yes, I have also saved the usernames of the people you are constantly asking to bring down our posts because you can’t do it yourself – to be fair, neither can they) and let them know what you’ve been up to and how you’ve been using them to harass us. Unless of course, they already know, but they’re garbage so they don’t care. I may be willing to take a shot and find out.

Oh, and you can stop with the nonsense of being offended because I called you out on your homophobia. You don’t want to be called out on it, then stop being homophobic. For starters, stop harassing real LGBTQ+ people because your fictional straight ship didn’t become canon. 

If most saw it coming and you didn’t, then the writers didn’t fail, you did. Also, the hints didn’t begin mid-series, they have been there since the red fucking trailer. By the end of V3, a good chunk of the audience had called it. By the end of V6, almost no one thought BB wasn’t going to be endgame. 

You are one of the few exceptions. If that doesn’t scream volumes to you about your lack of understanding of storytelling/how much you live in denial, then nothing will. Live in “I’m right and everyone else is wrong” for as long as you want, but don’t ever bother me or anyone else ever again.

For the sake of honesty, I will say that I do not know if @megashadowdragon​ is the one behind the harassment of several BBers. I know with almost certainty they are behind mine, but I cannot be sure they have other victims since the patterns aren’t the same (at least, not the victims I know of). This been said, add them to the list of suspects.

I suppose I thank you for not being a complete asshole to me for the last 2,5 years, when I actually wrote the post that has you screeching for months. And now I say fuck you for being a complete asshole to me for the last 4 months because of a goddamn ship. Yet you have the fucking gall to pretend we are the toxic ones.  

TLDR: act your age (which you claimed is late 20s), and stop harassing people over a ship. No one owes it to you to pretend they did not see BB coming just because you didn’t. No one gives a shit about what you ship. Ship whatever you want as much as you want. Want to have an entire tumblr page just for BS? Go right ahead. What you cannot do is force your garbage ship down someone else’s throat. 

[sonyascatmom]

What's surprising to me here is that no one, not even those who do believe in spiritual realities, is talking about the effect of the symbols themselves.

While i agree with chelledoggo that it's not our business and Satanists should be allowed to practice (and yes they technically are recognized in the US, as if that were the issue here), and I personally don't even believe Satan is anything but our own faults, I wish they would choose symbols that aren't historically full of negativity. Can't they have the Stussy S for Satan or something?

Because Satanists may not believe these symbols have power, but I do. Satanists may think the symbols stand for freedom, but I see the opposite. I see symbols that stand for the tyranny of material limitation over the freedom of the spirit. I feel uncomfortable with them. I know that is not what Satanists mean by them, but it is what they mean. And it is what I feel when I encounter them, and it's actually kind of upsetting. I didn't even shop from Target's LGBTQ+ line-- which I did otherwise want to do, being queer myself-- because I don't want an inverted pentagram printed as a label or anything, not on my clothes. Not in my space. Not on me.

It is wrong but wholly unsurprising if someone reacts to the clash of psychological and spiritual energies going on here by committing a hate crime against it. If I have love for Satanists, it is a love tinged with pity, because they don't take their symbols seriously, and so they're going around wielding the spiritual equivalent of a chainsaw without watching where they're going. They're displaying a millenia-old provocation of harmful ideals and trying to prove that it doesn't do any harm. And then they're surprised when it does provoke anger and harm-- when someone goes off their rocker with hatred towards it.

There is a lot of emotion packed into symbols. Don't you flinch when you see a hate symbol? ANY symbol provokes subconscious reactions in all who see it, and there's a whole entire history for these symbols that existed before the Satanic Temple decided that, since they didn't believe in jackshit, they'd just fly the worst symbols all over the place to show that they weren't bothered. The trouble is that these symbols still do have meaning to everyone else!

So while they may have the political right to do it, I question the wisdom of doing it. Let's not get so sidetracked with the First Amendment that we miss the other side of the conversation: How about Satanists go and come up with their own brand-new symbols that don't contain so much negativity and bondage towards the human race. They shouldn't have a problem doing that if they don't believe symbols mean anything other than what they mean by them right now, right? And then we allow those into public spaces, rather than the traditionally negative ones. And THEN I'll be surprised to hear someone flipped out and did a hate crime against them.

If you don't want to be attacked by others, don't use symbols that are powerfully negative for others. It doesn't excuse the beheading but it sure does invite it. Surprise, not surprised.

saw the Baphomet-beheader is being charged with a hate crime and before I leave I just want to urge and encourage my fellow Christians to continue hating Satan and Satanism ✌️

[butch-reidentified]

Hey, Since you want to abolish gender, what’s your opinion on the concept of ”gender identity”? As in, an internal feeling of being a woman/man despite physical body. Do you think it exists, or do you think that trans are people not genuinely men/women but are rather just females/males with sex dysphoria? Like, do you not regard them as the gender they ”identify” as? And if not, do you still respect their pronouns and identity even if you do not believe in it?

Hey anon, sorry it takes me so long to get to asks. I want to answer them only when I have time and energy and a fairly clear mind, but unfortunately that isn't often. I don't believe in gender identity, as gender is fundamentally something people made up and not something we are born with. Every single difference between male and female people beyond our physical bodies is totally made up by human beings.

That said, I absolutely believe in sex dysphoria as a neurological condition and am working on research into a neurological model of sex dysphoria. I don't think everyone who expresses dysphoria has this neurological type, but I am pretty convinced at this point it exists. It is interesting, though anecdotal, that I and the majority of my friends with neurological conditions experience neurological sex dysphoria - by which I mean it's a *physical* feeling akin to phantom limb in a sense. I have phantom-like sensations where male genitals would be on my body, and the inverse of them when it comes to things like breasts.

I recall a study a while back which I haven't been able to find again recently which showed this phenomenon on fMRI. Female individuals with sex dysphoria touched "neutral" parts, and the brain processed it as one processes touching their own body. But when they touched their breasts, it was processed as one processes touching an external object, almost as if they were an accessory. This is how I felt exactly when I had breasts. It was physical, not mental, discomfort. I didn't care about their size or appearance or whether I LOOKED like I had a flat chest or not. They just FELT like someone had attached a prosthetic to me in my sleep and I couldn't remove it. Annoying, sure, but not much emotionally beyond that. But physically very uncomfortable and felt like not part of my actual body. I constantly accidentally bumped or injured my breasts because my brain wouldn't process them as present at all times.

However, I've also met trans people who very obviously internalized messages as a child meant for the other natal sex. Trans women who have always exhibited deep female socialization, and trans men with male socialization. Those I've met seem to lack the majority of the socialization of their natal sex as well. These people are very rare in my experience, but they do exist. I've known a couple of them well enough to be unable to deny it. This suggests to me that in such cases, there may be some unconscious aspect even as a child that involves a self-perception as the opposite sex, and thus the child surrounds themselves with opposite-natal-sex adult role models as well as friends and peers. The socialization intended for them doesn't seem to truly "stick," but the socialization not intended for them largely does.

To this extent, I think some nuance is warranted when it comes to differentiating sex and "gender" (though I'd prefer to ditch that term as this really isn't what it means, and create a new term instead). I don't view all trans women as entirely men, though certainly many of them - those who are misogynistic and entitled and fetishistic and obviously male socialized, for example. I recognize all trans women as male and all trans men as female, but I also do see some as "just/only" their natal sex, whereas others, like those I described above, I place more into their own category. Trans women who aren't men in my mind are simply trans women. Their own unique category, which I feel is necessary. They tend to be some degree of anti-gender, and fervently supportive of the women's rights issues they have grown up seeing cause harm to all their role models and closest peers.

I do refer to these individuals as she, and as women in a less literal sense (especially if we are in the company of people unaware the individual is trans). But to me, man and woman should just refer to our sex, so I prefer to simply say they are trans women - and many I know are gender critical themselves and also prefer to just be called trans women. The former category, the clearly male socialized, it's more case by case. As long as they're respectful and good to women, and not a jackass or fetishist, I'm pretty flexible on pronouns. I do use he in certain cases, and sometimes they if I'm not quite comfortable using "she" but do feel that the person's behavior warrants respect.

It's also a matter of perception to a degree. If someone looks or behaves aggressively male, I simply can't get my brain to think "she." But there are definitely trans women I've known where I can't get my brain to call them "he" as well.

I know this is super duper long, and please feel free to ask for clarity if needed. I can get so in my head and not communicate clearly/coherently at times, but I've enjoyed thinking through this and writing it out.

[takadachanfansofficial]

Why I don't think Yuki is the traitor

i personally don't think the whole "yuki is a traitor" theory makes a whole lot of sense for two reasons

1) she has no motive to ally with kenjaku

as we've learned in the recent chapters, kenjaku plans to force the evolution of humans throughout japan and culling games is his way of doing so. he wants to push cursed energy to its highest potential. yuki, however, believes in forgoing cursed energy altogether. she recognizes cursed energy as the root of the problem. to eliminate curses, you have to break free from cursed energy entirely

yuki and kenjakus goals are in direct opposition to one another. (also note the visual contrast here, yuki surrounded by white and kenjaku in black)

not to mention she literally despises him. remember what she says when its first revealed who kenjaku is

what does she stand to gain by allying with someone she hates and whose goals are the exact opposite of hers?

2) she's never been loyal to the school in the first place and i find it hard to believe she would have access to the kind of information the traitor would have

we know that the traitor has to be someone who is pretty high ranked, well trusted, and has access to confidential information. yuki, although a special grade, doesn't fit that criteria. from the beginning she's never been on anyone's side but her own.

while she may not hate the school she doesn't hide the her dislike of the system. its clear she doesn't get along with the higher ups. the way i see it is if i was a higher up of jujutsu society, yuki tsukumo is one of the last people i would trust with top secret information. yuki is definitely one of the more morally gray characters but that doesn't necessarily make her a villain or a traitor

anyways those are just my thoughts on it, id love to hear what you guys think 🙏🏽

[narcissusneverknewme]

I don't know if you're actually looking for advice here so please ignore me if you're not, but here are a few relevant thoughts and some options for phrasing.

it is totally possible to be respectful and firm.

Talk to your parent first, if possible (I'll leave that entirely to your judgement). The conversation with the parent should start with a simple explanation of your boundaries and hopefully end with a quick 'I appreciate your support on this.' Returning to the SO:

Often it is best to bring the topic up rather than wait for it to become relevant, as telling someone they have overstepped after the fact can make them uncomfortable.

I would absolutely recommend trying to have that conversation before the SO moves in.

Most people respond to discomfort with defensiveness (very unhelpful, puts you on opposite sides). Saying "hey, I know you're thinking about moving in. There is something we should talk about first." or something similar can establish a setting for well-handled disagreement and, ultimately, compromise (helpful, positions you as working together rather than against one another).

saying things like "you're not my parent" or "you have no right to order me around" should be avoided until it is unambiguously (to your judgement) necessary. This happens when more sophisticated expression has failed. — By sophisticated I do not mean fancier. You are not fighting an enemy until lines are crossed that make you enemies. Rather than "you have no right to order me around" explain "(I respect you as a person but) do not recognize you as someone with any authority over me."

When it does become necessary to lay down a hard-line, do so calmly and firmly. Mean it, and focus on facts. Do not make threats and DEFINITELY do not bluff.

We never take low blows or cheap shots at people we hope to have a positive working relationship with in the future.

Discussing how you will react to violations of your autonomy is not necessarily a threat, and neither is clarifying the effect it will have on your relationship. Keep your own intentions fair, and forefront in your mind even when you start feeling emotional, frustrated, or emotionally injured

Never, ever say something you want heard while driven by the desire to hurt, punish, retaliate, etc. If you yell and scream, for example, it is human nature to remember only the intensity of your address and forget most or all of the content.

Honesty is important. Choose words that are not hurtful but which are honest. If you want your dad's relationship to succeed it would be nice to say something to that effect, but if you actually hope it will crash and burn say something else that is Nice But True.

Ex. "I'm happy for you and [parent], and I think its great that you want to take the next step. "

with regards to finding words to express the limits of her authority, you have a few options. Since you may have to change course with the flow of conversation or explain it more than once, try writing a few down ahead of time. Understand that the more visibly you protect her interests/have her back, the more likely you are to get somewhere

Some ideas:

"If we're going to live together it's important to me that you understand you have no authority over me. You can expect the same politeness and respect I expect from you, but you cannot expect obedience or deference."

"I need you to show the same respect for me and my autonomy that I show you. I am under no obligation to you. I want us to get along and I believe you do too, so I hope we can show one another that respect."

if she tries to argue with you and insist that she does have right to tell you what to do, be willing to get more direct and to express your real opinions. Prepare statements for this also. These might include arguments like:

"I don't work for you"

"I would prefer for us to be allies/a team. Please do not make that impossible by trying to control me or give me orders."

"I understand some people believe that you owe anyone older than yourself obedience and deference, but I completely disagree. That is not compatible with my values and how I live my life." (something in this vein explains that she won't be able to change your mind. It frames it as non-negotiable and something you are willing to insist on. Again, avoid lying or manipulating.)

"You aren't related to me."

avoid being petty, make only statements and arguments that are meaningful rather than just calculated to win

Don't say things you aren't willing to stand by, and be prepared to end this discussion without everything being solved forever. It may take multiple conversations for her to understand that you are setting a boundary, not attacking or "starting drama." The trick is to always stay FIRM and as non-combative as the situation allows. Be less combative than your opponent and move towards de-escalation whenever possible.

I genuinely recommend doing a little bit of research into mediation practices before hand. a couple of hours of reading and preparation might make a lot of difference in your ability to navigate this conversation with her, and could make your life significantly better in the long term as well

hmmmmmmmmm how does one politely explain to their parent's SO that they have no authority over you and if they were to move in their status would scarcely more than a roommate

[cordytriestowrite]

A possible prompt could be Victorian Era Loki? I don't know, that was the first thing that came to my head, apologies if that isn't helpful 😅

Oh my god this was actually so helpful! Taking me out of my comfort zone and racing against my dying battery I managed to actually write something! I hope you enjoy!

Rumors

Loki x Reader

One Shot

In Asgard, people talk.

It was compulsory amongst the small populace to spread rumors, happening as frequently as commenting on the weather. Every family had a moment of gossiping noteworthiness, and no one person was immune, not even the Odinsons.

"I hear he sends letters to a young lady in Midgard."

They say about Thor as the gaggle of busybodies observe the man in question between the moving bodies of dancing, whispering couples. It was Thor's party and it had been the subject on everyone's lips after obligatory pleasantries. You had heard this fact one hundred times and in one hundred different ways. 

"I hear she's a scientist."

You had heard that bit too. 

"Well, I hear he almost refused his father's inheritance for her."

Nothing about this conversation was new to you, and yet you couldn't escape it. You could see everyone's lips moving, making the same words over and over again. They made you dizzy, made it hard to breathe. 

"Excuse me." You offered out of a requirement of decorum, but didn't actually wait for anyone to acknowledge you before slipping away.

Thor's party was supposed to be a mid-afternoon garden party, but the weather had turned nasty the day before and the grounds were still soft and damp keeping the party-goers packed inside. The sky was a slate grey wall of mauldin clouds and the air was sticky with rain but it was thankfully silent and thus preferable to being warm and dry inside.

But silent did not mean you were alone. Somehow amongst the dancing and schmoozing and gossiping the youngest Odinson had managed to slip away as you did. There was a cool nod from him, then an answering curtsy from you, and then more silence.

It was so rare to be in the company of another and not speak, maybe that's why you felt the need to fill the silence with the very dribble you had been escaping.

"I heard your father didn't even consider you for this inheritance."

If Loki was hurt by the rumor he did not display it openly. He simply raised an eyebrow and glanced out across the lawn.

"Why would a man pass his legacy on to a son that is not his own?"

Now that was news to you and you could not hide your shock. Loki Odinson was not a son of Odin? This fact came so easily to Loki. How could no one else have made any uttering of this claim; true or false?

"Ah, so that hasn't made its way out to the masses yet then?"

You shook your head, suddenly wishing you had kept your mouth shut. You would rather an awkward air lay between you than the weight of what you now knew. 

Loki's demeanor changed entirely, as had yours. He was now facing you full, eyes roving your face and he indulged in reading your thoughts through your eyes. He wore a small smirk that only grew when he spoke again. 

"So what rumors have you heard about me then, darling?"

Placing his hands behind his back he stepped closer to you then began to circle you slowly. You felt dizzy all over again and no amount of deep breathing slowed your racing heart.

"Or should I be asking what rumors about me you have spread yourself."

"No." You denied swiftly. Wanting to stamp down any impression Loki had that you were the cause of any hearsay. You thought you heard him chuckle, but it was so breathy that it may have just been a breeze on the back of your neck.

"Tell me."

"I heard you weren't considered for Odin's inheritance…" 

It was a cheap way to stall considering it was the same rumor that put you where you were now, but you needed to borrow time to consider yourself. This was Loki's home, his brother's party, where you were a guest, and this wasn't idle gossip between uninvolved parties. This was looking Loki in the eye and repeating every word you had heard about him. Oftentimes rumors were not flattering or tame. What you could say here could have you removed from the party or worse. 

"Yes, you've said this one before. What else?"

He was standing directly in front of you now. No longer circling like a vulture over a slowly dying animal. There was amusement on his face, pleasure in making you uncomfortable, and it was enough to urge you into speaking. With a deep breath and a hard gaze you looked him in the eye and began to repeat.

"I heard you cling to your mother's skirts like a child."

Loki simply shrugged.

"I love my mother. As we all should. What else?"

"I heard you almost got your brother killed."

Loki laughed openly, but briefly, like a memory came and went simultaneously.

"Thor is perfectly capable of doing that himself. What else?"

"I heard you practice...dark arts?"

This was a rumor even you didn't believe, but Loki kept asking and you felt compelled to keep giving information.

"I see nothing wrong with reading about other religions or practices. What else?"

You stumbled for a moment, overloaded with new information about Loki. For all you had heard of him you realized you never truly knew him, that you had never truly spoken to him until now. Is this all it took to know if gossip was true or not? Was it as simple as asking the person in question? Or was it only simple because of who you were asking?

"I heard you were a liar with a silver tongue."

"I assure you my lady my tongue is but muscle and blood." 

When had he gotten so close, crossing the line of what was appropriate of two single members of the opposite sex? If anyone were to join them outside or peak through a window the whole party would know within the hour. The threat to your reputation forced you to take a blind step back.

"Anything else?" He probed.

Loki was offering you an escape, had recognized a line was crossed perhaps, or maybe had just grown bored of the conversation, but you weren't bored and you weren't uncomfortable. You felt exhilarated and oddly free in this exchange. Plus, there was one more rumor the fluttering in your heart begged you to repeat and hear the truth for.

"I heard you...keep the company of men and women. Married and unmarried. I heard you-"

You hadn't realized you had taken another step back until the damp dirt below your heel set you off balance. Fighting the heat in your cheeks you accepted Loki's outstretched hand and allowed him to guide you back onto solid stone, only he did not let go of your hand once you were steady.

"I believe you have found a rumor more exciting than the truth." 

You looked at Loki then, felt his fingers hold your hand gently, thought about how he had chosen those words more carefully than any other, how he had for once deflected from answering. You needed him to answer.

"And what is the truth?"

Before your eyes Loki reverted back to staring at some far point beyond away from your gaze, the corners of his lips landing in a natural frown. It was now your turn to offer a graceful exit from this conversation. You pulled your hand gently from his. Loki's eyes met yours almost instantly, as if some part of you had to connect to him.

"The truth is, for me, whether man or woman, attraction arises from truly knowing someone and letting them know you in return."

He extended his hand to you again and without hesitation you offered your own. He bent low, meeting the back of your hand with his lips. Warmth spread through your body from the appendage, making your own lips tingle and when his eyes met yours just above your hand your breath caught in your throat.

"It was a pleasure getting to know you, my lady."

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[masterthespianduchovny]

Okay. I'm back. And I had a realization: I think the reason why I am so defensive of Sydney is that I recognize myself in her. This dawned on me when I was reading an article about Industry, and about how one of the main characters is so ambitious and overachieving (because she lacks qualifications and makes up for it in talent and intellect). But the thing is that she fucks up (a lot!), is kind of cold and aloof, and is ruthless and cutthroat (which makes sense. She works at a bank and everyone else is like that too). And so many people hate her for it. And for some reason...I don't. I want her to win. And I feel the same way about Sydney. I don't think Syd is cold or fucks up a lot. Is she imperfect? Yes. Is she overly ambitious? Definitely. But she is honest and creative and real. But I think a lot of people don't understand that desire to be the best. Not necessarily because you are above people (which, in all of its egoic foundation, is kinda nice haha) but because you're proving something to yourself. You're acknowledging your limitations and saying, "I'm beyond that. I am better than my own weaknesses, even though I still have them." It's not necessarily about hubris or arrogance or cockiness. It's knowing that you put in the work and getting that confirmation that you are the shit, precisely because you did the work and the self-reflection. And I think for Sydney, for Harper (the Industry character), and a lot of other, girls, especially Black girls, it's easy for people to see all of the work you do and dismiss it. People do it all the time. They negate it. Me, personally, I think I got comfortable believing I wasn't good enough because my work was negated for so long. It became like a self-fulfilling prophecy. It affected everything. But now that I've lifted that veil and realize that people bank on me thinking I'm not worthy, I have become obsessed with excellence. I have become obsessed with producing the best and being the best. And I can say I am the shit because I do the work. And deep down, characters like Sydney and Harper see that in themselves too and are active about it. And I think people like to throw out judgments because they don't get it. They don't relate to it; they find it alienating, not welcoming, and not something women should subscribe to. It's the opposite of deferential, subservient, meek, and modest (and because a self-assured Black girl is an affront to everyone apparently). But the work, and the drive behind that work, never lies.

I’m a series of contractions. I think I’m talented as fuck with grand ambitions, but my own (perceived) limited and insecurities limit me. It also may be undiagnosed ADHD and depression (meaning most likely).

Even if someone can relate to it, it’s definitely a black girl thing. Either we sink or we swim, and if we swim, we know the sky is the limit. We know we’re talented and refuse to allow others to tell us others. It’s quite funny, despite my own insecurities being an albatross, no one can tell me who I am and what I can achieve. No one can say shit to me if they haven’t proven themselves (as in I’m wrong about something or need to reconsider a stance). And consistently this approach has paid dividends. Because people love talking over you, telling you you’re wrong, and telling you about themselves when they know Jack shit. Entire years will go by and things people told me I was wrong about, they adopt my opinion and/or was proven right.

Being a black girl isn’t just sinking or swimming, it’s swimming against the tide with weights around your ankles. It’s people telling you you’re not good enough at what you’re doing despite them not being able to do it and are jealous that you can.

You don’t have to work twice as hard, you have to work THRICE as hard.

It’s why I never talk down on myself or say I’m not smart. Because I know I am. And I’m esp not going to talk down on myself when I know mediocre whites people have a head start in life and I’ve seen it myself. What’s funny is, as much as people try to shit on black girls and women for our intelligence, determination, and such, I was known as the smart girl in high school and college. I wasn’t the valedictorian or even close to it, but hell, people would listen to me talk in class and knew I was intelligent. Even now, complete strangers are amazed when I break certain things down to them or know specific info that only industry people know. The way I break information down, compare and explain how it’s applicable in other things, or am able to process certain information…

I know I don’t know everything, but at times, yeah, I have a chip on my shoulder because I’ve always had to prove myself in ways others didn’t. I have to know what others don’t and now it’s a habit. Just like you, I too am obsessed with excellence and obsessed with the best. Even obsessed with hard work and reflection. Hell, even obsessed with proving things to myself.

But we’ll never make sense to a world who doesn’t want to understand us. However, we give more grace, understanding, and consideration to women like Harper and Sydney because we get it! We love it! And whether or not it’s irrational, it’s why I get annoyed when people say they don’t like Sydney (likely Harper too) because she reminds them of someone they didn’t like or who annoyed them. And, I don’t know if they get it or not, but when you’ve spent most of your life swimming against the tide with weight in your ankles, some people just aren’t going to like you. Because you’re not concerned about that or their opinion, you’re concerned about doing what you came here to do.

Chile, I remember one time some white girls got upset because I THOUGHT they were wrong. I didn’t say it and had specifically shut up not to start an argument, but because they knew what I thought about their stance, they were upset and bothered. Lol. Or how I got accepted into study abroad program and my roommate didn’t tell me, despite the fact that she got the idea from me. She was being all secretive and shit and it’s like, “for what?” I could’ve helped her.

We defend them like we wished someone had defend us. We’ve always had to do that—be our own protectors and look out for ourselves. Always wanting to be understood or not misunderstood. So many assumptions about us and people refusing to change their stance because their minds are made up. And it’s so disheartening at the same time, to excel and be one of the best and have very few appreciate that due to fucked up reasons. It’s isolating as well.

😔