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a-hazbin-reader · 1 year ago
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What are the twins names
I never gave them names ☺️ Names are usually a personal preference for people and I didn't want to impose on it too much
All Alastor would ask is that the baby girl has his mother's name in some shape or form but I left most of it up to the reader
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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago
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(also feel free in the tags to clarify Why you made the choice you made!! :0c)
#polls#tumblr polls#For me I think the top ones would be the House. The Money. or the Friend Group. But I ultimately might would go for the house#JUST becuase it would be my Dream House which means it would already meet mostly all of my specifications#and what I might be looking for. which would save a lot of time searching or customizing/rennovating.#Also because I could use that as a way to leave the US lol.. like .. if I get to choose my dream location.. couldnt I just choose some othe#country?? But I wonder how that works. Can you legally 100% have full ownership of a property in a country yet not be a citizen of that#country?? Would you show up and be like 'erm.. i own this house.. so i shall now live in it' and theyd be like 'uh no. you cant live here#despite owning the house. leave.' ??#So I think the initial process of 1. scraping together funds to actually MOVE myself and my most valuable belongings physically#TO another country. and 2. figuring out how to STAY in that country . might end up being difficult.. BUT. if I could just work that#part of things out then.. dream house?? security for once in my life?? stability?? :0#Though the $1mil is enticing it's also like.. I feel .. with the way housing prices are now... that's not much???#it's a lot I guess if you plan on like.. investing half the money and staying in an apartment for 5 years while you grow your wealth#or something. but if you're a 'I Need Stability NOW' ready to settle down person who would be most interested in owning a property rather#than nice clothes or a car or whatever other investments you could make then.. eh..?? It seems like unless you're okay with living in#a small town or kind of far away from the city - even some SMALL houses in majorly populated areas in the US will be like#$600.000 - $900.000 or something. like that would be MOST of my money. Which I know you could just pay partially and make#payments on it but idk.. in the option of just outright owning the house it seems like it'd end up being cheaper.#Plus I would want to own it fully asap because I'd be afraid of losing it somehow otherwise. like it being taken for medical bills or#something. which I thought was supposed to be - not IMPOSSIBLE - slightly more complicated legally if you actually have#paid off the house in full. I guess the issue then would be utilities and property tax and such. But I feel like thats overcome-able??#Like I could just stipulate that my Dream House has a little furnished addition or something and then find someone#with money and be like 'Look you can live in this extremely nice area with amazing ameneties and updated everything and ALL you have#to do is give me money to cover the utilities and property tax.'' or something like that. Like the little furnished addition is nicer#than the actual house. they have their own pool and spa and movie room or something and Ill also cook all their meals for them#or whatever (how luxurious it would be depeneds on how high the property tax actually is/how much I would need to entice them into#why it's a good deal for them to pay it for me lol). idk... something like that.. ANYWAY#I asked a few people I know though and one of them answered they'd rather have a romantic partner. the other one said they'd like#to be able to choose someone to die lol.. So I'm curious what people value the most
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kristiliqua · 12 days ago
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some ultrakill fans flaming people for playing on lenient/harmless is so funny to me because here i am in my little corner playing on harmless with Also 100% damage reduction (in major assist settings) because my severe anxiety cannot handle the idea of me taking any damage at all . i am wearing my propeller hat and eating my lollipop and i am having fun :3 (and maybe one day i can ease that anxiety and play without major assists)
#me when my crippling anxiety is crippling fr#listen . its not as if i Want to get fucking heart palpitations whenever a few goddamn filth spawn in a room#its just how it is . and the only way to ease my irrational ass anxiety is by becoming fucking invincible#I KNOW ULTRAKILL IS SUPPOSED TO BE A (at least somewhat) STRESSFUL AND FAST PACED GAME !!! do not get me wrong#but holy shit man . do not underestimate my anxiety#fucking minecraft survival stresses me out when i encounter a fuckin skeleton (unless its multiplayer . then Suddenly all is ok . stupid#ass anxiety bruh fml)#prelude was stressing me out . PRELUDE . THE FUCKING TUTORIAL#im hoping i can ease up and slowly raise the damage taken to at least like 50% . eventually#im on 1% damage rn because even raising from 0 to 5 was scary LMAOO#like its not as if i want to play it the fuckin baby way . i WANT to be able to actually play ultrakill with damage n shit#but i just have to ease into it ig . because i cant even play video games without my anxiety screaming at me smh . fym my anxiety is a#permanent fixture in my life ? bullshit#im just hoping i can play Normally someday . eventually . because while playing with like 0 damage is more fun than being stressed out 24/7#it Is ofc . a little boring (bc No Shit) .#i want to challenge myself and i will . eventually#surely if ive done all a b and c sides in celeste i can do ultrakill on harmless haha right#ignore the fact that theyre two completely different games and that ive never played an fps in my life#and also that i have 15k deaths in celeste LOL (at least the idea of dying in that game isnt terrifying . shrug)#intense games like ultrakill just aint for everyone . thats why the assist options are there and why there r easier modes#theyre there for losers (/lh) like Me !!!! and i appreciate that theyre in the game bc i Do rlly like ultrakill#and i Do rlly want to play it (‘properly’ someday) . its js that ppl have issues like motion sickness or anxiety#and if they need assistance or an easier difficulty to enjoy the game then thats fuckin fine#literally who cares . ive watched so many videos on ultrakill now and ive seen all the tech n shit and know all the lore#its not as if i dont know the game enough to play it properly lmao#but sigh . at least i can do fun movement tech (except boosting . havent tried yet idk) like slam storage#movement is ez . combat is Hard (but not in the usual way like aim . just Anxiety™)#im ranting so much im such a yapper . anyway#ultrakill#kristiliyaps
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What can I say? They're my favorite.
#twdg#twdg clouis#clouis#twdg clementine#twdg louis#sometimes they creep back into my mind and i'm like 'ah yes' like a crow admiring a pretty stone they found years ago and kept#also thank you pi for the screenshots. i used to have a whole folder full of them but that was when i was doing themed nights#the source for these is me i just have a random document full of dynamics and ship things i enjoy because.....i dunno i like keeping track#and so many of them apply to clouis but there's also an overlap of with clouis and rose/alistair [my warden from origins and alistair] like#alistair's romance route is like an evolved matured and extended version of clouis sksksks gee i wonder if i have a type#look you present me with a character who deflects with humor and isn't taken seriously by the rest of the group and the longer you know the#the more you realize how high they've built a wall around themselves and how *unwell* they really are and how they're not as sunshine#as they present themselves and also they avoid leadership and responsibility until they grow closer with someone who pushes them#and they end stronger and more balanced as a person while finding the affection they've craved#and also there's the daddy issues#present me with that character as a romantic option and i'm in no questions asked okay i don't want the mean broody one that's meh to me#i want the one that has every reason to be broody but chooses not to be because they have a completely different defense mechanism#and a warped sense of themselves and self-esteem issues they leave unaddressed until forced to face them#i'm just saying i'm aware that i have a type i'm always going to gravitate toward clouis nearly checks all the boxes#also the lack of clouis these days? my crops are thirsty and i have too many ongoing projects to do anything about it other than this sksks#so until i make time to finish my long ass louis/clouis analysis this is the best i can provide for now
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vickyvicarious · 2 years ago
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Dracula Declarations of Love
There is so much love, and so much talk of love, in this book. It's extremely hard to pick a favorite, but let's give it a go (or just get emotional over a bunch of quotes lined up together).
I tried to stick mostly to declarations/talk about (rather than acts of) love, primarily to focus on specific quotes and help me narrow it down to just twelve (still a big challenge). Before anyone asks, no, "I too can love" is not on here because Dracula's version of love doesn't stack up to the others for me in terms of emotional impact. And these were definitely chosen by my personal preference of specific quotes; there are a bunch of other great words of love that didn't make it in. Also, important note - this is not exclusively romantic love by any means.
The whole quotes don't fit in the poll, so please read below before you vote.
Full Quotes:
11 May, Lucy: "Oh, Mina, couldn't you guess? I love him. I am blushing as I write, for although I think he loves me, he has not told me so in words. But oh, Mina, I love him; I love him; I love him!"
24 May, Quincey: "If that other fellow doesn't know his happiness, well, he'd better look for it soon, or he'll have to deal with me. Little girl, your honesty and pluck have made me a friend, and that's rarer than a lover; it's more unselfish anyhow."
19 August, Mina: "I have cried over the good Sister's letter till I can feel it wet against my bosom, where it lies. It is of Jonathan, and must be next my heart, for he is in my heart. [...] I must write no more; I must keep it to say to Jonathan, my husband. The letter that he has seen and touched must comfort me till we meet."
24 August, Jonathan and Mina: "Then he took my hand in his, and oh, Lucy, it was the first time he took his wife's hand, and said that it was the dearest thing in all the wide world, and that he would go through all the past again to win it, if need be. [...] Well, my dear, what could I say? I could only tell him that I was the happiest woman in all the wide world, and that I had nothing to give him except myself, my life, and my trust, and that with these went my love and duty for all the days of my life."
24 August, Mina: "Lucy dear, do you know why I tell you all this? It is not only because it is all sweet to me, but because you have been, and are, very dear to me. It was my privilege to be your friend and guide when you came from the schoolroom to prepare for the world of life. I want you to see now, and with the eyes of a very happy wife, whither duty has led me; so that in your own married life you too may be all happy as I am. My dear, please Almighty God, your life may be all it promises: a long day of sunshine, with no harsh wind, no forgetting duty, no distrust. I must not wish you no pain, for that can never be; but I do hope you will be always as happy as I am now."
7 September, Arthur: '"What can I do?" asked Arthur hoarsely. "Tell me, and I shall do it. My life is hers, and I would give the last drop of blood in my body for her."'
17 September, Mina: "Jonathan asks me to send his 'respectful duty,' but I do not think that is good enough from the junior partner of the important firm Hawkins & Harker; and so, as you love me, and he loves me, and I love you with all the moods and tenses of the verb, I send you simply his 'love' instead."
30 September, Mina and Arthur: '"I loved dear Lucy, and I know what she was to you, and what you were to her. She and I were like sisters; and now she is gone, will you not let me be like a sister to you in your trouble? I know what sorrows you have had, though I cannot measure the depth of them. If sympathy and pity can help in your affliction, won't you let me be of some little service—for Lucy's sake?" [...] "I know now how I suffered," he said, as he dried his eyes, "but I do not know even yet—and none other can ever know—how much your sweet sympathy has been to me to-day. I shall know better in time; and believe me that, though I am not ungrateful now, my gratitude will grow with my understanding. You will let me be like a brother, will you not, for all our lives—for dear Lucy's sake?"'
3 October, Jonathan: '"Nonsense, Mina. It is a shame to me to hear such a word [unclean]. I would not hear it of you; and I shall not hear it from you. May God judge me by my deserts, and punish me with more bitter suffering than even this hour, if by any act or will of mine anything ever come between us!" He put out his arms and folded her to his breast; and for a while she lay there sobbing."
3 October, Jonathan: "To one thing I have made up my mind: if we find out that Mina must be a vampire in the end, then she shall not go into that unknown and terrible land alone. I suppose it is thus that in old times one vampire meant many; just as their hideous bodies could only rest in sacred earth, so the holiest love was the recruiting sergeant for their ghastly ranks."
11 October, Mina: "You are nearest and dearest and all the world to me; our souls are knit into one, for all life and all time."
31 October, Mina: "We are truly in the hands of God. He alone knows what may be, and I pray Him, with all the strength of my sad and humble soul, that He will watch over my beloved husband; that whatever may happen, Jonathan may know that I loved him and honoured him more than I can say, and that my latest and truest thought will be always for him."
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stephofromcabin12 · 14 days ago
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How do you think Dionysus would react to one of his kids being fearful about the fact that he’s a god, like in the sense of making him upset in any way would result in some sort of Divine Punishment type of thing? They don’t know him well enough personally to know otherwise and also just haven’t adjusted to the way campers generally treat him somewhat flippantly so it’s just a lot of anxiety
He'd either
Find it really funny and heavily lean into it, because he's got to make his own fun around these parts.
Find it concerning/annoying and try to disprove it, because what does he look like? HIS dad??? Oh gods, no. (and probably fail if he's anything like LC!Dio is)
Be completely ignorant to it. Like just blind to it in the way the gods are sometimes. Oh, you were scared of him? He just thought you were really cold all the time, hence the shaking. He's got a lot of kids with sugar addictions and anxiety, so trembling could mean literally anything to him.
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seilon · 14 days ago
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kinda wild to think about the fact that the clinic im getting top surgery at is arguably the best in the country. im mostly going there because i live in norcal so its one of the closest options. just a crazy bonus that it happens to be like. the highest rated more or less in the whole country
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cconfusedkat · 6 months ago
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Ok so um. Eventful first day. I have a blended schedule so i have short school days
Everyone is chill in algebra 1 nd academic literature ,,
History and english arw gonna be a bit of a problem cuz the 16-18 yr old boys are. Yknow. Probably gonna annoy me to death
And uhh homeroom is just homeroom
I masked really hard though nd came home sobbing just cuz im not gonna be used to masking again in a school setting,,
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caeslxys · 9 months ago
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What didn't gel for you with the ritual? Was it how Delilah is still... kinda around? Or how the characters reacted?
The Delilah thing has me concerned but I felt it was an overall positive for Laudna, and I'm just curious of your thoughts!
oh I'm actually elated delilah is still around, if she were perma-gone I would've honestly had more problems with it 💀
not because it isn't a wonderful thing for laudna! it is! I'm so happy she has more control over her life and choices!! she deserves it so much!!
but. as someone deeply invested in that narrative. that its been built up for about 100 episodes (I believe it was 4, when delilah was first officially revealed?) and was (semi-)concluded in a ritual that took less than an hour to complete, that they discovered less than a full game ago, and that they proceeded to then not talk about at all in any significant way was deeply disappointing. a culmination that should have been this massive emotional upheaval fell overall flat to me bc of how rushed it felt.
But that's just me! and some of it was my own expectations and my own distaste for the pinion as a solution since well before they realized that's what it could be. but at least she's still there! so it's not truly over yet!
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dykedvonte · 6 months ago
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I also am adoring your posts of Mouthwashing
The more I start looking in the main tags, the more annoyed I am feeling
I just discovered Mouthwashing like 3 days ago, and this fandom (mostly) has already made me want to stop interacting
I still haven't seen these supposed Curly did nothing wrong, people. I have seen most people saying he is awful or people like you who agree he messed up but isn't bad
Anya and the baby just makes me really annoyed because people don't want fun
I think if she had the choice she would have aborted. I think if she lived then she would have given up the baby (for many reasons).
However I like kid fics and I know real life people have kept their rapist's baby from them telling their stories on the internet.
Like you don't have to like the fics and I wish there was more anguish she has when keeping the baby (Real Life Messiness)
It feels tiring to be here because of policing
I just saw a post that was like "Welp this is the fastest, I have dropped a media from the creators protecting the wrong type of people." (Shippers, I believe)
Like idk the fact that creators are telling everyone to chill maybe is a sign people
Oh shoot sorry for ranting
Back to you
I think your analysis posts are fun to read because it feels like you understand the characters
Also, you just seem chill
Have a good day/evening/night/etc
This fandom hates when people try to talk about the unhappy parts and unhappy endings to some of these issues. Like so many of these complaints are strictly about seeing stuff you personally don’t like or don’t want to and either not blocking it or searching for what you want.
The only one I can agree with is the calling Anya keeping the baby a happy ending au. I know what people mean when they say it, just that they survived and made it out, not that the situation she is in is actually happy but it’s in the same vein of better outcome aus. People get real mad about semantics and refuse to actually understand each other or see other points of views. It’s honestly sad for a game/story with so much to discuss.
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warmfuzzyanimal · 2 years ago
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some rare not-furry art, featuring my baldur's gate / dnd weirdgirl, prim :]
i'm looking forwards to developing & drawing her a lil more as i progress through the game!
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echthr0s · 6 months ago
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hey Siri at what point in Rogue Trader do I finally get to do real ass heretical shit
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insanechayne · 3 months ago
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#I feel like I’m losing my fucking mind#moving out here and working in this hospital is what got me out of homelessness and at first it was wonderful#but now it feels like I’m going to end up getting pushed right back into that kind of shitty situation#work is fucking with me and it feels like there’s no way to fight back against being treated like garbage#if they fire me it’s wrongful termination and I can get a lawyer but that still takes forever#and it’s a small town so there’s very little jobs around anywhere and what is available isn’t the easiest shit to get into#I need to have a backup so I can jump ship if needed or just move to something else if I do get fired because I can’t afford to be out of#work for any amount of time at all#but with there being so little around it just feels almost pointless to try at all and like the end is inevitable#if I end up homeless again I will kill my self I am not about to do that shit ever again#if my dad’s social security/disability would come in already then there would be some breathing room to look things over and start again if#needed but that’s taken over a year or year and a half already with no change or anything coming in#so at this point who knows if or when he will get any money and be able to be self sufficient in any way#everything in our lives depends on me and I’m being crushed under all this pressure and I just don’t know what to do anymore#I feel so lost cause all the paths I saw for my life have all blown up and I’m left with nothing once again#trying to start over and rebuild is nearly impossible when you don’t have the tools or materials needed to do so#and there’s no one in my life I can rely on to help me or fall back on if I need it#everything is just me and if I make any mistakes I’m just fucked and free falling#how do you keep going when you have so few options and no ideas of what to do?#how do you find your way out of the smoke from all the bridges around you that burned?#personal
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blackswallowtailbutterfly · 10 months ago
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Still haven't messaged my mom back. And I don't think I'm going to.
#you know how they say time makes you look on the past with nostalgia and that's why elderly people think so fondly of past decades? not me#there are moments I look back on with nostalgia sure but the overwhelming feeling of looking back on my childhood is just whatever I do#wherever I go whatever happens that will not be my life again. my memory is long I made a promise to myself I intend to keep I don't forget#support you having your grandkids if their mother is deemed unfit yes. take the older two myself if it comes to it yes. move provinces to#live with you to look after the five of them together where you would be my only adult connection and there's a language barrier and I have#no work history and I'd be between five hours and nine hours away from any other connection I have answer's an absolute fucking no. I've#seen how you are with my sister how you were with my brother. who do you think they call when they've had enough of you? do you not#remember most of the beatings I took was because I was standing between you and my brother? of course not because according to you you#never did beat me but if you think I'm not aware that would turn on me again the second I'm no longer distant and just visiting if you#think you'd find nothing to complain about because you've built up this golden child ideal of me in your head and want to forget how it was#when I was actually in your care you are very very wrong. I remember. I know that inconveniences a lot of people who want to forget#unpleasant things about themselves. me too to be honest I have memories I wish I could erase but I can't especially with regard to my#sister. I defended my brother but not her. not enough. and it's probably why I give so much to her now more than I should because it's#enabling but it is what it is I guess. I won't use my memories against anyone just for the sake of it but I absolutely fucking will#to protect myself or others. you want a redemption arc without admitting to anything? keep being patient and kind towards#your grandchildren even if you end up having to take them and if you can't do it for all five of them then accept that it's better for the#older two to be with me. that's it. those are your options: the older two are with me so you only have to look after the younger three or#you need to buckle down and learn from your past mistakes to look after the five of them and all that is *if it even comes to that* which#as things are it's not in danger of that! it was a regular fucking visit to monitor the situation that's all; they're not getting taken#literally every time she freaks out about something it's a 50/50 chance it's actually something or she's invented a completely#twisted version of events
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im-the-banjoman · 4 months ago
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If I could pick how I die, I'd die from old age. I'd live to be a hundred, or almost, and I'd die when my body can't hold me any longer. It would be peaceful, I hope, somewhere I feel safe to let go, with someone I love nearby.
I have lived in California for my entire life. America has a sexist, racist, misogynistic, rapist, homophobic, transphobic felon for a president and his billionaire bestie just did a nazi salute on live television. The Republican party is already trying to pass laws criminalizing my existence as a trans person. Oh, and now it's okay for people to call me mentally ill on Instagram because another billionaire is so determined to keep deepthroating Trump's boot that he's changing Meta's community guidelines.
I'm trying not to dwell on it, but I feel like I can't talk about it with anyone. Most people I mention it to (at least, most cisgender people) always tell me "we live in California, we'll be fine" and it's really hard to explain that it's not just about me. It's also about my trans siblings across the country, and the millions of people who will further lose access to lifesaving healthcare, and the people of color being directly attacked through the ICE raids.
It's the attitude I see all over the country that reminds me that the people running this nation either, at best, don't acknowledge my existence, and at worst will try to justify destroying it. It's the people putting "your body my choice" online because we keep losing rights. It's the countless trans people who have already been murdered for their existence, and who are under attack now, and who I know will be hurt later on. It's the knowledge that our government is for sale to the highest bidder because Trump, like so many people who voted for him appreciated, is a businessman.
The first time I came out as trans to someone was my brother, on November 6, 2023. Exactly one year later the presidential election put Trump back in the White House on a platform that promised what is essentially a genocide of transgender people, *my* people. I've been on testosterone for five months now and I'm mostly thinking about how I should get my legal ducks in a row so that when push comes to shove, I have a passport that says "Benjamin" and a birth certificate with an M on it.
I shouldn't be this fucking terrified for the future! I'm twenty-one! If I make it through the next four years unscathed it will be a goddamn miracle. I'm not gonna kill myself because that's basically what they want, another dead trans person, but I don't want to keep wondering how much money I'd have to save to move north and get out of this country when I can barely afford my car insurance.
And I keep thinking about how people in Germany are warning us, we're going down a disturbingly similar path as their country did in the 1930s. And thinking about the blood family I have that probably thinks that everything that's happening is either good or godly, or a sign of the end of times.
I just want to grow old. That's all I want. I want to grow old and every single fucking day that feels harder and harder.
I want an America that will let me grow old.
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bismuthburnsblue · 7 months ago
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I still feel like i have a lot more research to do before i set plans in motion... but i think my Lady Stede costume is a toss up between a robe a la francaise or a robe a l'anglaise. (the design comes down to whether im wanting watteau pleats, essentially)
from what i can see, most the dresses in the show (or the ones im looking to take inspiration from anyway) are francaise- Evelyn's dress & Mary's wedding dress clearly have the back pleats. but. the yellow dress Mary wears when she shows stede the painting (and Stede the boat) sparks the most inspiration in me, and ive watched the clips numerous times, and i dont think? it has pleats.
basically what im saying is the costumes in the show are a little inconsistent and also vary the style up, so im not bound to any one style. historically, im thinking that the people in Barbados would be drawing more of their styles from England, rather than France, but i still dont think that actually limits me, just something to consider in my research.
things i know i want:
engagantes (sleeve ruffles)
a decent amount of trim (though not too much, as none of stedes costumes are that ott)
a contrast stomacher (which means it needs to be open front, i think?)
...and thats as far as ive made it. all superficial things really, but important points to look for when im looking extants, i guess.
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this is all day 1 research, so i have a good ways to go before i really start to understand my options, but id love an opinion on what you think?
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