#that one group in your school thats full of queers... yeah thats them

[plutoslvr]

i am an advocate for pretty boy ives actually i think people forget or ignore that and his pretty boy privilege goes out of the window via W&W club association and is something that only happens to him. the only people immune are people actually in the W&W club which consists of a lesbian, two guys who for sure have secret third thing going on and a closeted bisexual who thinks his identity issues come from being a vigilante in his spare time

[juni-ravenhall]

updated these since the old ones were from 2020. not much is different, erased with white a bunch of options to make it easier to look at for me, changed some minor numbers that dont rly matter bc its not that easy to put those numbers down anyway.

some talk thats mostly about their relation to me and stuff about me instead of stuff about them below ⬇ (actually i should fill one of those out for me myself too. that could be fun)

i adjusted junis brother a bit focusing on just how hes like at the moment of having been rescued to jorvik, rather than thinking about his potential "real personality" if he was able to heal and become a more developed person instead of just full of trauma. i do want to eventually do something with the concept of what if he healed, or what if he hadnt been abandoned in pandoria to begin with? if hes intj like me (his behaviour is based on how i am when im completely broken down, which sadly has happened a lot in my life) then what would it be like to see him healthy and happy? its stuff id like to think about more eventually

also filled in that juni is enfj. back then i wasnt so sure what parts of her were different than me, over time i developed it and she really clearly became enfj. we both share high Ni aka my dominant function as intj but her dom Fe plays into the whole constantly being in contact w ppl thing - im also very caring and loyal, and i genuinely want to save everyone on earth and want everyone to be healthy and happy. i want society to be fixed (and ive got the ideas) and i want ppl to be kind and loving to each other. me and juni share that. but for me, i cant really handle talking to normies much bc their reality is just too different than mine. juni has no problem socialising with anyone, even if she ofc also has ppl shes the closest to and others who she might not get along with as much, its still easy for her bc Fe just has that harmonising feelings thing with others that i dont have (and being a dominant extrovert function, and not being ND, shes also not as exhausted by socialisation).

for me with low Fi i just dont really get much out of socialising for socialisations sake. its part of why i cant handle being on discord servers and stuff like that. i dont "vibe" with people in that way, i want to actually have interesting and intimate conversations and learn more about my friends, their backstory, their problems (can i help them?), their deep and genuine feelings (not stemming from copying others and peer pressure, group-think is extremely irrelevant to me and i dont view people differently if theyre supposedly in-group or out-group - im interested in everyone as an individual). for my whole life ive just been too different and for many reasons not been part of normie's society, so its just really alien to talk to normies. (as in, the abuse and isolation, the disability, the ptsd and depression, the queerness, and also just being intj, not really having a normal brain. i often wonder if the ppl who say bad things about mbti - besides the obvious "job and school mbti use is bad" yeah it is - have known what its like to just not be able to relate to almost anyone around you ever when it comes to personality. even online, even in a nerdy group, even in a place with ND people, even with queer people, even with disabled people, youre still different. you still cant relate. for me, finding out that im just a weird personality type was really important, and then i was able to study other ppl's personality types and now i actually get why people behave the way they do and why society functions the way it does for better or worse. which is a great thing to understand imo. the "omg mbti bad bc jobs and school and the tests are dumb" is one thing, but studying the functions and really truly diving into how other people function and how theyre different from you and how you all work and how the human history of the world has happened, is beautiful to me.)

as a low Fi person, with a focus on 1-on-1 connection rather than groups, i focus on talking intensely to the beloved weirdos on my computer, or posting my rambles and reading you guys rambles in return. u guys prob dont even realise, but for a lot of u, i remember like... u posting about ur job or school one time. what u posted about that u wanted to do or what ur upset about. i think about what ur ocs symbolise, why u write them that way, what part of ur personality and your lived experience, your feelings, makes u project this or that on characters. i think that a lot of ppl treat social media as a more shallow and "a drop in the ocean" type of thing, but for me, even ppl ive not talked to much on my dash, if youve been my mutual for some time, i think about you and remember things about you. if you post music i listen to it both to see if i might like the song but also bc im interested in what you like. i like learning things about people around me, the same way i like learning things about the world in general and spend obscene amounts of time studying and analysing the world both in its current and past. its an intj thing because its about my dominant Ni function, which loves analysing patterns and taking in information to process. but i dont mean that in a cold way, its an intimacy and friendship to me to learn things about you and understand you. not to "vibe" but to really know someone and see the puzzle pieces of their life. im very much about all the puzzle pieces that makes you You. im not saying its wrong to vibe and chill instead of analysing your mutuals like puzzles, just that this is something thats very different from how i am, and its been hard for me in life to relate to the way most people are.

idk if anyones reading this but some of you also prob noticed that i will pop out of nowhere and talk to you about some random thing you posted thats interesting to me, or send you a message of support if youre going through hard times. i remember when you posted that you were really sad and i notice that youre having a hard time when you post that youre sad again a month later. idk, its hard for me because im not always very emotional in a way that other people understand. i can come off as cold or quiet which in turn can come off as disinterested. but i just wanted to write it somewhere, to put out into the cosmos, that actually i care a lot about the little creatures on my dashboard and i hope that you notice even if my personality and behaviour is a bit different than what people are used to. people project mean things on me sometimes because im confident, for example, or because i stand up against things i think are harmful. because im not "loyal" if i tell a friend that theyre being rude, or im "rude" if im saying capitalism is bad. i can be projected as controlling (telling people "no" when theyre mean) or self-important (being confident in my skills and analysis) and other negative traits which is really unfair to do to someone just bc theyre different. to me i view everyone equally and i will tell off a friend if i have to, without meaning anything unkind by it. idk. ill stop rambling now bc its too much again (high Te will also do that) but i just have feelings and thoughts about that my beloved mutuals dont even know that theyre beloved and that my way of expressing myself is weird and its hard to live in society based around ppl who are very different than me in many ways. but learning mbti / jung functions was really great for me to feel understood and to understand others.

[safebubblebycyg]

the marauders flat (a modern muggle au):

☆ they all met online

☆ they were university kids with shit jobs and needed an flat to stay in

☆ so they all decided that each other would do

☆ james and sirius came from rich kid london, remus came from a cottage in the middle of nowhere, wales, and peter had lived in the middle of scotland all his life

☆ they met each other through a tweet peter retweeted on his page (not that any of them would admit that it was a thanks obama meme)

☆ they all started talking, the topic of needing a place to live came up and bam! peter found an flat near the university they were all going to, two bedrooms, two bathrooms

☆ they all moved in on the same day, simply so everyone could settle down and get to know each other more

☆ since they really only had an idea of their online personas

☆ james worked for a small coffee shop and was a business major, peter was a marine biology major and volunteered at the local aquarium, remus worked at a library and was an english major, and sirius worked at a lush and was going to an onsite cosmetology school and went to the makeup program

☆ on the day they moved in they had to decide roommates

☆ sirius and remus got a room together (aNd thEy wErE roOmMatEs) and peter and james got a room together (peter and remus didnt trust sirius and james together considering both had been pelted them with water balloons upon arriving at the flat)

☆ they all worked surprisingly well together

☆ james brought coffee home when he could, remus brought records home (his library had small selection for checking out), peter had unlimited access to the aquarium and brought all of them to see the dolphins from time to time, and sirius brought home self care products all the time so self care nights were frequent

☆ oh but we're missing one thing, THE GAYNESS

☆ peter came home one day to the sink full of dishes. DESPITE NOT KNOWING IF THIS WOULD SUMMON EVERYONE, HE TRIED THE ONLY CALL HE COULD THINK OF "GAYS!!"

☆ they all came running before they could think twice about it

☆ so, after discussing that leaving your empty ice cream bowls in the sink was gross, they all sat down to chat about their ✨sexualities✨

☆ peter is your favourite friendly acearo, sirius is genderfluid and vv queer, james is a pansexual king, and remus is your local trans bi boy

☆ all just kinda nodded, i mean, considering that they all followed harry styles on instagram and sirius could be heard screeching about him across the flat on a daily and james screamed back. remus was constantly mumbling about lily james being hella pretty but was also always mumbling about timothée chalamet and peter just gave a disappointed sigh everytime

☆ so yeah, queer, broke, university kids, what more could you ask for?

☆ RELATIONSHIPS THATS WHAT MORE YOU COULD ASK FOR

☆ sirius and remus were falling so hard that james and peter got sick of it

☆ it started with james and peter leaving the flat so the two could be alone, but that quickly shifted to leaving out candle lit dinners before they would leave

☆ they took the hint after peter made a lava cake and james had rose petals leading to their bedroom

☆ peter and james came home that night (the two usually went and sat at the coffee shop james worked at) to remus and sirius cuddled up watching some movie about magic, they didnt really specify

☆ oh, but poor jamie, single as can be

☆ until sirius got sick of his whining ("you whine more than remus when he forgets to take off his binder, good lord, im going to get you a partner")

☆ sirius delivered. with their younger sibling.

☆ "are you actually- you set me up with your sibling?!" "yeah, reg is fantastic! they're nonbinary, drink their coffee with more sugar than necessary, and study almost as hard as remus!"

☆ okay, to be fair, the date went pretty well

☆ they both went to a local diner and back to the james' flat to eat ice cream and watch criminal minds

☆ sirius took many pictures of them curled up on the couch the next morning

☆ oh, the double dates were constant (and peter usually had to help remus and regulus put drunk sirius and james to bed if it was an especially late night)

☆ eventually they all got sad that peter wasnt going out with them soooo...they decided that he needed a third wheel buddy

☆ and no one would have done better than james' best girl friend, lily evans

☆ she was already dating someone and was very willing to go out and sip on shit wine with peter every night

☆ and they were a happy little group (:

☆ occasionally remus would lay on the couch after a long day, while complaining about his binder, asking for someone to come massage his ribs

☆ sirius would demand self care night and shove everyone into the bathroom they shared with remus and throw in bath bombs and fancy salts while handing them all a face mask

☆ peter loved to try baking new things and always made someone try what he had made, asking if he should write down the recipe or if something needed to be altered (remus was always up for it, especially anything chocolate)

☆ james was a sucker for board games and was stupidly good at them too. any night that everyone was free hed rope them into a game of clue or headbandz

☆ and they were all happy in their flat, making their way through life (:

[ma-lark-ey]

Nick Close had never been a very fantastic child. That much was very obvious. Granted, most of the dumb and illegal shit they did was for their fathers attention (however rarely that option actually worked), but it was still dumb and illegal shit.

Tonight was not one of those dumb and illegal nights, however; tonight was still a night Glenn Close could never find out about. Nick prayed he'd never find out about.

Nick had always been closed off from their father. How couldn't they be? When they were little, it was always Nick and Momma at home, while Daddy was on tour or doing shows. Glenn only started being home once in awhile when Mom died. And yes, Nick calls him Glenn. Glenn was never... He was never 'Dad.'

And this, this was certainly one of the things Nick kept tightly closed off from their father. That thing being one of the biggest secrets Nick may ever keep; their gender.

Nick didn't *mind* to be a 'he,' don't get them wrong. Some days, they really enjoyed being a 'he.' But today? Today... Nick was a she. And she couldn't deny that. Some days she felt so fucking confident in her body, like she could throw on a baggy t-shirt and slightly too-big pants with a beanie and fight god. Others, her body felt like someone else's and she wanted to rip her skin off and start over. Dress like those beautiful alternative women she saw on TikTok. With the demonias, fishnets, skirts, ripped up shirts, messy hair. God, some days she didn't know if she wanted to be them, or be with them.

Tonight, she definitely wanted to be them.

She had done up her makeup in the most extravagant way she knew how, eyeliner to the gods. Fishnets under a faux-leather, checkered print pencil skirt she found thrifting with Grant a few days ago. She had one a torn up old t-shirt she'd cut into a croptop and not to mention her Docs. She felt like she could fight god with her chain belts and dramatic jewelry.

Nick knows Glenn would never care if he knew his 'son' sometimes felt more like his daughter, but she wasn't ready to give him that kind of trust. Grant? Grant got that kind of trust. Henry got that kind of trust. The twins got that kind of trust. But not Glenn. Glenn hasn't proved he'd deserved that yet.

And maybe Nick didn't want to take the time to explain why Grant sometimes called her Nickie beyond "Its just a nickname, Glenn."

And she was okay with that. She knew that she wasn't ready. Maybe she'd never be 'ready,' and Glenn wasnt in her life enough for it to matter.

...

Why'd the front door just open? Why is Nick hearing a car lock? Why is the front door opening? Glenn's not supposed to be home from tour until tomorrow. And here Nick is, in the living room. Looking like a pretty well passing woman. She had learned plenty of tricks over her last two years of presenting feminine some days. The lanky, stickman build the had was the one thing Glenn had given to her that she was thankful for.

But the genetics of Glenn Close that were gifted to his child were not the problem at hand. The problem at hand is that *Glenn's home.*

Glenn's home. Glenn's home, and Nick is not in her Glenn Mode. She's vulnerable. Vulnerable to a lot of questions she doesn't want to answer tonight. Doesn't want to have to explain where all this women's clothing came from, nor why she's dressed as one. It can't pass as drag, but she's obviously not in drag makeup. Fuck. Fuck it all. Fuck her life and her shitty decision making skills. Fuck Glenn for never communicating his plans. And fuck the stunned way he's staring at her now.

The awkwardness of the room was palpable at this point. Nick felt like a deer in headlights. Nick felt like melting into the floor and disappearing from the world. Nick felt like her whole world was about to collapse in on itself. What if Glenn hated her, what if he didn't want her to act like this or be this person, what if-

"Well, don't you look nice. Got a date or something, kid?"

Thats... That's not what Glenn was supposed to say. That's not what he's supposed to say! He's supposed to be upset or revolted or-

"I- I uh..." No. No don't cry. Fuck. Why are you crying, Nicholas? Nicole? Fuck what even if your name right now?

Glenn's here. It should be Nicholas. That's your name when you're a boy. But its a girl day. You want to be Nicole today. Glenn is here, and you're Nicole right now. And Glenn is here. And you're Nicole. And Glenn-

She heard a bag drop on the ground and footsteps come toward her. She stepped back and tried hide behind her arms. No words. She can't speak.

Oh fuck. Oh fuck. Oh fuck.

She remembers the time she went to school in feminine clothes and a couple of guys almost jumped her, before Lark pulled a knife on them and got them both suspended.

Hands grab onto her shoulders, a gentle hold. She can feel the calluses on Glenn's fingers from his guitar. When was the last time he held her?

Her knees feel like jello. She remembers when she started posting on her second TikTok, open about her gender and pronouns because she didn't have to keep up a cisgender face when her dad didn't have the account. And how transphobes sent her deaththreats until she blocked all those words from her comments and the DMs got disabled.

She's a few inches taller than Glenn in her platform Docs. Which she realizes when he pulls her into a gentle hug. She feels makeup running on her face. And she's crying. Why is she crying?

She remembers being ten years old standing at moms grave, standing next to Glenn. Just after the burial. It was the first time she'd seen him cry.

Her chin's on his shoulder now, his arms around her upper torso and holding her against him. She realizes she's shaking. That he's just holding her. He's holding her. Daddy's home.. He's giving her a hug...

She remembers the last time Glenn had hugged her. At Mom's funeral. She was sobbing at her grave, and so was Dad. He pulled her into him and held her so tight. So tight she thought he'd crush her. But he just held, like she was the entire world. Like if he let go he'd loose her to. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, hid her face in the mix of long hair and his suit jacket. He felt like her whole world in that moment, too.

Nickie brings herself back to what's happening. Glenn's holding her, her arms are awkward resting on his back, He's clutching her by the shoulders. She remembers these hugs. The hugs that he used to give her every time he left and came home. The ones he gives where every second of it is embued with love. It felt like that now.

She could tell he loved her. But those words felt like lies in her head.

Lies. Lies. Lies. So many lies. So so many lies.

"I'll be home by nine, Nick." It was a lie, Glenn didn't come home for three more days. "I promise I'll be home on your birthday." He wasn't. "I'll be there." He wasn't. "I'll make it, promise." He didn't. Everytime. Everytime, where Glenn shouldve been, it was Mom. And when Mom died, it was Henry. Or Ron. Or Darryl.

But he's here. Right now. And he's holding her. It doesn't make it okay, it doesn't excuse it. But he's holding her. Her knees go weak, and she crumbles. He crumbles with her.

She sobs, he doesn't force her to say anything. She doesn't return his hug, he doesn't expect her to.

"You're supposed to be mad." Nick mumbled after she doesnt remember how long. Glenn gives a light chuckle and adjusts his grip on her.

"And why would I be?" He asked, not protesting as Nick shoved him off and shuffled back a few inches. It felt weird to be so close to him after sixteens years of so much distance.

"Why wouldn't you be?" She spat, crossing her arms and staring at the ground. "Nick's fucked up again. That's my whole brand! Being a total and absolute fuck up! The disappointment! The druggy, the- the... The mistake." She felt more hot tears behind her eyes. She could feel Glenn staring at her in concern.

"Nick, you are not a fuck up. Or a mistake. Or whatever else. Nick, you're my baby, and I-"

"Then why did you leave? If you're gonna pull that bullshit, and say you love me no matter what, and that I'm your little girl, and that- that you wanted me from the very beginning and wouldn't give me up, why did you leave? Why dont you care now? When you come home, and woopsie! Your son's dressed up like some goth chicken. Why are you acting like everythings fine!? Everything is NOT fine, Glenn!" She hit the floor with her hands and growled in frustration. It wasn't fine.

Glenn stared down and took a deep breath. Then he sighed. "Yeah, I can't blame you on that one, kiddo. Alright, full disclosure, Nick. I already- I knew. I knew about the pronouns, and the name. I knew. Henry told me."

"H- Henry... Did what?"

"He told me. Soon as you told him. He called me that night, let me know what you had said. We have a rule in our group, we've had the rules since Grant came out. If one of the kids comes out as anything, you tell the other dads. Especially if its a name and pronouns thing. Cause, we agreed that since well, we were all kind of one bug cluster fuck of parents to each others kids, it was better if everyone knew who was what. So we didn't fuck it up."

"So you have a rule to out kids to their parents? That's-"

"No! Not any kids. Its just you, Terry, Grant, and the twins. Just you five. Because, here's the thing, Nick- Nickie? Whatever. Us dads? We arent- we're new to the whole queer scene. Its not as normal for us to just fliparoo what pronouns and names we call people as it is for you guys. So, we would practice to each other. When you told Henry you liked being called Nickie, he came to us and essentially said, 'I'm gonna say Nickie to you guys as often as i fucking can do I don't end up deadnaming.' "

Glenn took Nick's hand into his and held it tight. Nick still felt like punching Henry in the fucking face for outting her to Glenn.

"You know that I love you, Nick." Her body went rigid at that. And she looked uo at him, glaring as hard as should mister with how fucking teary eyed she was.

"Do I? Do I know that you love me, Glenn?" And his face fell. It was like she just sucked his soul out of him. Good. That should be one hell of a wake up call.

"Nick, of course I love you. What would ever make you think I didn't love you?" Nick but her lip, thinking over her words before she said them. She thought on a lot of things.

"You left. My mom died, and you left. My *mother* was dead and you went back to touring in a matter of weeks. My mother was dead, and I was ten years old. And I was home, by myself, for weeks. Glenn, I was alone for months. Sure, there the nanny. But that wasn't Mom or Dad. I needed my parents. I needed my dad. I needed my dad to give me a hug, promise me it'd be okay. That we were okay. And he fucking left. He walked out that door, didn't come back for months, only called every three weeks. Missed birthdays, holidays, soccer games, and whatever the fuck else. Why on gods green earth would I think that you loved me when you fucking abandoned me, Glenn? Why? Would you think I loved you if I fucked off to god knows where after being home for just a couple days? Huh? If when I found out you'd been up in drug city with your mates and getting caught by cops doing a bunch of stupid shit, all you got was a slap on the wrist and a phonecall that last three minutes?"

Glenn stared at the ground for a long time. He didn't speak. And he pulled her back into a hug, practically dragged her across that distance to hold her again. Hold her like the whole world depended on Glenn never letting go again. Like if he let go everything would come crashing down, like Nick was the entire fucking world and he just wanted to protect her. He held her like he had when Mom died.

"God, Morgan... He's just like you." He mumbled, clutching Nick so tight she couldn't breath. She didn't care he used the wrong pronouns, she didn't care he'd barely even addressed the elephant in the room, she didn't care her heel was digging painfully into the back of her other leg. Her dad was here. He was holding her. He was making sure she knew he loved her. Dad finally came home.

Glenn let out a painful sob into Nick's shoulder, he said something. Nick thinks it was an apology, but between the sniffles and the hiccups and layers of clothing, its impossible to tell. Glenn pulled her up into his lap, held her like he would when she was five or six. Her head on his shoulder, his arms around her middle as he sat horizontal across his lap. Her legs were too long to curl up like they used to, so they sat awkwardly half-stretched across the floor. It was nostalgic in a way. It felt Glenn was just realizing how many years he'd wasted. How much time with his child he had lost.

"I'm sorry, Nick. Im- I didn't realize. I'm so fucking sorry, Nick." He was still crying. Crying more than Nick had ever seen him cry. She could hear the self-hatred and the regret in his voice. She reached an arm around his neck and pulled him that much closer.

"Just don't leave again... Please, Dad." Nick doesn't remember that last time she had called him 'Dad.' But, it felt right in that moment. It hasn't felt right in a long long time.

[karmanticmoved]

1-85 uwu

j esus okay

1. describe yourself.

uh,, emotional ig, dumbass, quiet, exhausted all of the time, v queer, healthy mix of feminine and masculine, insecure, and not tha t great tbh. kinda a pussy ass b itch

2. if you could go anywhere for a week all expenses paid where would it be?

idrk. maybe somewhere like a hella nice beach in another country, maybe somewhere in europe. i like travelling but i hate the travel to get there and have no money so i havent put thought into it. maybe hawaii or somewhere like that.

3. do you have siblings?

the one thats still alive is my half brother

4. what is your favorite constellation, why?

orion maybe bc i don't know a lot but i can see that one from my bedroom window even in the city n idk. its comforting. or scorpius cause i'm a scorpio

5. favorite color.

yellow, pink, or blue.

6. what kind of music do you listen to?

almost anything. whatever catches my interest.

7. favorite flower. (you can name as many as you want cause flowers are awesome)

forgot what i said last time but those

yellow carnations i think?

8. if you could do magic, what is the first spell you would learn?

maybe smth to put myself to sleep immediately bc f uCk

9. favorite childhood memory.

my summer camp memories are pretty great. also memories of my dad and i going fishing are good.

10. have you ever been cheated on?

i mean in theory i couldve been bc online relationships but no. n im polyam and have identified as such for a majority of my relationships so no.

11. if you could describe your perfect room, what would it be?

big but not too big, yknow? like big enough that it can be filled and have room to walk around and lay on the ground or whatever but not Empty. and a pretty big bed to stretch out on, n a closet in the room. multiple windows w blackout curtains so theres light but it can be blocked out. n fluffy rugs or carpeting but preferably rugs in case smth spills so we can get it out of at least Remove the rug. and probably a cat tree thing in corner for dipper. n a computer desk and actual lights that light up the whole room. but probably,, fairy lights too bc full lights too bright. and i kinda want a pink room but blue or yellow work also. a nd pride flags on the walls + posters and various other stuff bc plain walls are boring. and tons n tons of b ooks too.

12. favorite animal.

river otter

13. what was the last photo you took of?

cat

14. do you believe in soul mates?

i'm not sure. i do kinda think there are people who you will like. really really click with and who become so important in your life that they're like. apart of u yknow? but i don't think that anyone as an individual needs to keep those people in their life forever. they arent destined to stay with them, and they shouldnt force that relationship (platonic, familial, romantic, or whatever) even if they were close for years and years. screw destiny. youll have people you care about, and sometimes you have to break that bond to save yourself, and thats okay. there will be other people who can and will be just as important. that got kinda off topic skbsks. i don't think theres really like Destiny soulmates. but there could be like. soulmates in the sense of for however long we're together, we're soul bonded. even if its not forever. does that even make se nse skbsns

15. do you hang toilet paper over or under?

over is the one thats socially acceptable right

16. your go to place to eat & your favorite thing to get there.

idk theres a place near a movie theater closeish to my house and its a nice little cafe and i dont eat there bc i dont eat much in general but i get their bubble tea and i love. raspberry bubble tea w rose popping bubbles. its comfort drink.

17. do you believe everything happens for a reason?

no. sometimes shit happens for no reason, and its bullshit, but you can't reverse it, so you gotta figure out how to move on from it.

18. guilty pressures?

im assuming thats meant to be pleasures

umm,, idrk. i don't know what exactly i like that would count as a guilty pleasure so,,

19. favorite mythical creature, why?

merpeople are s o cool i fuckin. love funky aquatic pals hell yeah. maybe im just Water babey but. they're rad. dragons are also hella cool bc like dragons???? theyre scaly and prett y and can breathe fire or have wings and kill u?? also like selkies bc again. water. but i used to hear a lot of stories abt them and theyre so nea t

20. something most people don’t know about you.

i have the potential to be a huge asshole and also kinda Wish to fuckin murder someone sometimes but. i act nice most of the time anyway.

not murder murder but i can get angr y enough that i just wanna Stab smth

21. where did you grow up, what was it like?

grew up kinda near the edge of the city, still in it but not like the main city area. in western washington. it was kinda rly boring, i used to spend a lot more time outside or just by myself playing with leaves or toys or whatever. when i had friends i played make believe w them even when outside of school. so yeah. boring id say.

22. do you believe aliens exist?

sure.

23. what was your last google search?

other than names for some actors n stuff, i was looking up various star wars things

24. what did your last relationship teach you?

the one that like. ended? i guess thatd be. be careful with your own feelings and try to figure them out before jumping into anything, and also don't try to force smth that in reality isnt really working.

25. would you relocate for love?

honestly yeah

26. do you hold grudges or forgive easy?

both. it just depends on how badly i or someone i care about was hurt by it. more likely to hold a grudge if a friend was hurt by someone d eep enough to leave a lasting impact or if they don't get a genuine apology i will be 🔫🔫. or if the person keeps hurting them. even if that person is also my friend.

27. favorite book.

favorite graphic novel is bloom by kevin panetta

favorite books in general are autoboyography, more happy than not, and what if its us. all gay. i know. its okay. im a kinnie.

28. do you consider yourself an extrovert or introvert?

introvert by far

29. have you ever kept a journal, do you now?

i tried once. i probably will have to once i go see a therapist, or at least one for my Bad Thoughts

30. top 5 favorite movies.

in no particular order

little shop of horrors, love simon, coco, it (2017 and 1990), and shazam! ig? maybe others but i definitely Forgot all the shit ive watched

31. do you believe that everything happens for a reason?

no

32. what is your greatest fear?

definitely gotta be all of the people i love hating me and abandoning me or secretly hating me and then leaving me without saying anything. and the worst part is im always afraid its gonna happen babeyy

33. favorite alcoholic beverage.

im baby

34. most embarrassing thing you’ve done.

im embarrassed by my own existence. i don't remember the Most embarrassing thing

35. do you believe in ghosts?

not until i have proof that i can actually trust and believe in

36. what is the best and worst part of your personality?

idk ig im nice. but im also. very easily set off on certain emotions especially the bad ones which sucks like especially jealousy bc i dont wanna!! feel jealous!! tho i think that ties into my greatest fear bc my brain immediately tells me im useless to everyone and they hate me. but. sometimes i get jealous and then feel bad for that and then hate myself for all of it. bc my friends deserve to hang out w other people and care about other people im just fucking stupid babey !!

37. should you split the dinner bill?

i rly don't get why you wouldnt tbh like if u both wanna be there u should both pay. but if one person gonna pay it should be the person that asked.

38. are you a good liar?

most of the time. when it comes to my mental health i can either lie great or im literally breaking down in front of the person so

39. what keeps you up at night?

depressing thoughts. anxiety about everything. wishing i could cuddle and fall asleep w jay. sometimes i just cant sleep bc im too restless.

40. would you rather go without your phone or music?

music. i need my phone to text my friends and i Need my friends

41. do you believe in god?

what god would let the world get to the point its at. what god would allow people to do such fucked up shit.

no. i don't.

42. how do you relax when frustrated?

cry, take a nap, take a shower, listen to music, cuddle dipper

43. what’s something that offends you?

when people go "oh yeah i support gay rights but im still gonna eat at chick fil a bc its good" like i get so fucking. pissed off by that. youre not gonna fucking s ta rv e without their goddamn chicken. i know a bi person who goes there and says its okay bc they dont Directly Give Their money to Specifically anti gay organisations but im just. ugh. fucking pissed bc there are other places to get food just avoid the one place for fucks sake. their food is good it doesnt matter. its like saying yeah pewdiepie is a bad person and nazi and a racist asshole but his videos r funni haha so im gonna watch him anyway

44. favorite food

i hate myself whenever i eat food

45. if you were on a 10 hour flight and could sit and talk to any person the entire time, who would it be?

@destinedformuchmore or @pinaplelee

46. when do you feel the most confident?

never? but ig i feel confident when working on tech construction during theater tech. as long as i know what im doing.

47. what do you do in your free time?

sleep. draw. cry. play video games. talk to my friends.

48. is there anyone who has completely lost your respect

matpat did for being a dick abt neopronouns and making a transphobic joke and only apologizing when a cis person told him to. not when hundreds of trans people did. and also other jokes that are inherently offensive to various groups. a n d for making extremely not Child friendly jokes in his videos which are very much targeted towards kids. say what you will about the target audience, there are a lot of children who watch them. please stop making creepy nsfw jokes if you won't even swear, sir.

49. have you ever broken someone’s heart?

i guess so yeah. but she also broke mine first.

50. did/do you play sports in school?

i did. i don't anymore bc highschool sports are bullshit but. basketball, ultimate, and soccer.

51. when are you happiest?

talkin 2 jay prolly

52. coffee or tea?

tea

53. what is one possession you own you wouldn’t want to live without?

my binder. or my stuffed cat puppet thing ive had since i was 7

54. what is the first thing you notice about a person?

their general emotions, mostly. like if theyre in a good mood or if theyre bored or distracted or whatever. or if they seem interested in actually talking to me

55. what is your favorite season, why?

fall. my birthday, the atmosphere is nice, it's pretty, its hoodie weather.

56. what makes you laugh?

stupid little comments or jokes my friends make tend to make me laugh a lot harder than i should but jabdn

57. are you a clean or messy person?

a mix. i Cannot have some things messy or i will ksjqkd. Die but i don't make my bed too often bc its ha rd when its against 3 walls.

58. what is important for a successful relationship?

communication communication communicati

talk about ur goddamn problems n keep talking to each other.

59. what was your upcoming like?

if thats supposed to be upbringing

idk, very relaxed. pretty easygoing and kinda boring.

60. favorite holiday?

any holiday in december rly. i don't celebrate a Lot but the atmosphere and others celebrating is nice to see. i kinda wish my parents did more to embrace the jewish part in our family blike. whatever. christmas is fun.

61. what is the first thing you’d do if you won the lottery?

give half of it to my parents. and then probably use it for plane ticket

62. what’s the best pizza topping combination?

hawaiian pizza. pinapple n canadian bacon ty

63. favorite outdoor activity.

frisbee

64. how are you? honestly.

not great. i want highschool to end.

65. would you rather go camping in the woods or stay at a beach resort?

idk. camping is fun but if i get to stay at the resort for free i would rly love 2 stay at a resort tbh ive never done that

66. what is the most beautiful thing in nature?

waterfalls. or rivers or just. water in nature. and very green forests. aNd snow.

67. favorite type of candy?

none

68. if your life was a book, what would be the title?

i can and will do arson, an autobiography

69. what movie quotes do you use of a regular bases?

i quote john mulaney and whatever my obsessions are pretty regularly

70. what was cool when you were young but not cool now?

silly bandz. pokemon cards. these weird unicorn figures i collected

71. what’s the craziest conversation you have ever eves dropped on?

im mostly the one having the weird conversations

72. what’s the most interesting documentary you’ve ever watched?

i watched one about dogs and cats and their evolution which was lit

73. what’s the worst hairstyle you’ve had?

when i let the lady just go fuckin ham on my hair bc i was watching spirit that horse movie and didnt wanna stop so it was. rly bad bangs and hella short in back but not the sides

74. what do you like to cook?

whatever im hungry for. i don't have the energy to cook a lot

75. what’s the coolest animal you’ve seen in the wild?

really pretty tropical fish

76. what’s the funniest tv show you’ve ever seen?

idk. i rly like schitts creek its pretty amusing

77. do you usually follow your heart or your head?

heart at first but my head if things get bad

78. what is your favorite quote?

"i have a splitting headache and i think i'm dying. how are you?"

or a character just saying "try harder" when another failed to do smth.

this is supposed to be deep or whatever but im in a Mood

79. what’s the weirdest crush you have ever had?

once had a crush on a character in a minecraft parody lmao

80. what’s your love language?

sending shit that makes me think of them. n just. making tons of stuff for them both online and irl like bracelets.

81. do you ever feel alone?

oh yeah. all the time. im not but it feels like i am which sucks

82. ever been bullied?

yeah

83. are you usually early or late?

late bc of my parents rip

84. what kind of art do you enjoy most?

drawing, or writing. also theater.

85. what do you wish you knew more about?

i just wish i could remember everything ive learned more about. i know a lot i just forget all.

id like to know more about forensics tho

[cityofnumbersix]

Electric Moment Chapter 2

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From as early as he could place it, everything within Katsuki's eyeline had been fire and brimstone. From the earliest hours of the morning, as the sun drowned the edges of his bed through the broad window along his bedroom wall, to the deepest hours of the night when he lay in his bed, eyelids slowly falling, his belly whirled with heat, his fingertips prickling with the onset of an explosion from within that never seemed to manifest with anything else but emotions and words. Everything he said dripped with petrol, turpentine and nitroglycerin, and exploded upon contact with the air, and it never seemed to have a halt point. That's the way it had always been, but right now, with his lips hanging open ever so slightly, eyes stuck on a single figure of a delicate girl layered in leather and black, his mouth had nothing.

"So, what'a'ya say?" He heard her speak again, and this time his brain was actually moving, so much so that he could practically feel it's movements as it turned and twisted in order to process the information.

She'd just said Electric Moment.

Katsuki knew who they were. Anyone who listened to music with any sort of consistency in Japan right now knew their name. They were an up and coming punk rock band with a post-rock sound and unique twist that not even the biggest of music buffs had quite yet been able to pinpoint. They were going to be big, huge even, yet still held an indie following underground due to their roots and masked identities. People spoke about them in forums, on the trains, standing by a vending machine in a business suit with a cigarette in hand. So what the hell did this group of delinquents have to do with them, surely they weren't Electric Moment? This had to be a con job.

"Electric Moment? The band? You have to be fucking shitting me." He scoffed out, chucking his empty beer bottle towards Izuku, who caught it with fumbling hands and placed in gentle into the bin beside him.

"I shit you not, sir. Electric Moment's hiatus period is drawing to a close, and we're kind of down a guitarist, for, unfortunate reasons and I want you to take the spot." The girl in front of him explained, staring up at him with eyes vaguely intense enough that it made her seem taller than she actually was.

"And you're trying to tell me...you guys..." he muttered, motioning to the group before him, eyes running over each figure with careful eyes, "Are Electric Moment?"

"What? Does it really seem that crazy?!" Denki suddenly piped in, pressing his fists closes to his sides, glaring in Katsuki's direction.

Denki had never been the sort of person to take on an insult well, and it seemed this guy was full of them. Now, any smart person would take this as a sign that future conflict may arise, that a guy with a terrible attitude, not matter his talent, wasn't the type of person that you wanted working in a group towards a common goal, especially one as starkly important as this one. Yet, for some unknown reason, something inside Kyoka felt still, calm in a way she hadn't been for months. When she looked at the fire burning in Katsuki Bakugou's irises, she knew he was the piece she had been searching for, even before N's departure.

"Yeah that's what I'm implying Bleach Brain." Katsuki shot back, "I didn't think signed bands still spent their time in dodgy bars looking for talent these days."

Kyoka let out a quiet laugh, straight from the pit of her belly, eyes pressing together in momentary delight. She didnt exactly blame the guy after all. When they were on stage, when their faces were hidden from the crowds, Electric Moment felt so far from who they were in the free air of their daily lives.

On stage, Denki was D, and angelic drummer with stark white hair and a studded medical mask, but in his everyday life he was an IT student that worked part time at the local Sofmap where he spent his time flirting with any living being to make their way past his counter.

Under heavy lights Eijirou was K, an energetic bassist with messy indigo locks and a red bandana masking his face from those around. In reality, he was an unemployed Sports Health student that enjoyed the gym and Sunday morning entertainment.

The there was Hanta, otherwise known as S, who took the backstage due to stage-fright, but played like he was born to hold an instrument. His hair silver, shinning under the high beams like stars, dull duct tape wrapped loosely around his facial features. Walking the streets however, he was a bubbling ball of hilarity that spent his days studying to be a nurse and driving his friend's insane with offhanded jokes that they hardly ever understood.

And Kyoka, when Kyoka was on stage, she was J. With bandages wrapped around her face, long auburn hair adorned in lace and studs. J's voice would project across the crowd, and drag people in from all around the room. She sung from deep within her chest, and the music would flow through her blood like venom, piercing her heart, forcing it to beat out of time, faster and faster until she feared she may lose herself. On stage, J was everything, but once she stepped off, she was Kyoka again. Kyoka wasn't really sure who she was when she wasn't singing. Everyone told her so many different things. She was a cafe worker, a music student, best friend, sister, daughter, queer, punk? But she didnt really know who she was other than that. Not that it really mattered. As long as she had Electric Moment. As long as she could sing. Thats all she really needed to be.

She couldn't blame Bakugou for not believing that the same people that dominated the stage, that made music that somehow reached people in ways they never could have dreamed, were the very same people she had spent her time with in the halls of her high school, making jokes and neglecting study. She wouldn't believe it herself if she didnt already know.

She chuckled her laughs to a stop, looking up at Katsuki from under her fringe, which only made the boy synch his eyebrows together. Maybe this girl really did have a screw loose, maybe they all did.

"Yeah, well, I roll old school, plus a little birdy may have pointed me in your direction" Kyoka explained, flipping her head to look directly at Mina, who only grinned back with glee, shooting the punk girl a wink.

"Well, they definitely aren't lying..." Mina began, turning to her roommate, arms reached back behind her back, as she tipped herself forward on her feet excitedly, "Katsichi my darling, meet my best friends from high school back home."

Katsuki only blinked, watching Mina as she swung around like some sort of deranged child. Not that it was usual for her to act in that fashion. He had grown use to her erratic and overbearing behaviour quite early on in their forced "friendship". In all honest, he was convinced she probably wasn't even human.

She rolled her head to the side, scrunching her eyes up once more, before speaking again,

"And" she continued, moving to wrap her arms around the taller boys slim, yet muscular shoulders, "Who also happen to be the members of Electric Moment."

--

"I can't believe he said yes!" Mina exclaimed, her fingers reaching deep into the mouth of a mug, wiping it clean of suds and water as she spoke.

"Well...he didn't exactly say yes per say. If i remember correctly it was more like 'yeah, sure, whatever, just give the details to E.T. and get the fuck out of my face'" Kyoka quoted, rolling her eyes as she watched her erratic friend from her place at the cappuccino machine, wiping around the edges of the bench to clear away an excess of stray milk left from their earlier morning rush.

"He still agreed, which is kind of something for him, he's usually more defiant."

Kyoka hummed lacklustre in response, her focus turning towards the front door of the cafe at the familiar sound of the entry bell rung through.

"GOOD MORNING LADIES!" a harsh bellow followed, as three male figures made their way inside. Kyoka heard Mina laugh from at her side, causing her to turn her attention to their new patrons. Denki, Eijiro and Hanta, the later being the one to have announced their arrival, the others looking less than impressed with his boisterous tone, palms pressed flat to their ears.

Both Denki and Eijiro looked utterly horrible. They were dressed far sloppier than they normally would when going out in public and the bags under Denki's eyes spoke wonders about how they were probably feeling. On the contrary, Hanta looked immaculate, he always had been better at holding his alcohol.

"Morning boys, seems you all had a good night then?" Kyoka teased, moving to pick up a jar of pre-sorted coffee beans.

Denki grunted, pressing his fingers through his frazzled hair. The butterscotch coloured sweater he adorned, far too large as it reached just past his knees, sheltering his shorts and hiding them from view. At least Kyoka prayed that he was wearing shorts. He was usually the one that took a hangover the hardest. Kyoka had been able to tell earlier in the morning as she woke for work, the boy's pants and jacket scattered across the floor of their small apartment, the bathroom door pulled shut as the pain sounds of unwilled vomiting left not much to the imagination.

"Best night of our lives so far." Ejirou replied, walking towards the counter, sunglasses sitting high upon his face to shield himself from the unwanted light surrounding him, that probably only proved to make his head feel worse.

"Oh, yeah, maybe it was for you lover boy..." Hanta cut in, smirking in the direction of his red-haired friend. This drew Eijiro's attention, but not to the boy in question. Instead he turned himself to face Mina, the sections of his fringe that couldn't quite reach to fit along with the rest of his hair in the band upon his head, swaying along with his movements.

"Speaking of which you traitorous wrench!" He hissed toward Mina, slamming his fist down upon the counter in a faux anger, "How dare you keep this from me! We are suppose to be connected in a sacred vow that prevents shit like this!"

"What ever are you talking about Eiji my darling? I would never keep anything from you..." Mina wisped, holding her palm over her chest where her heart was presumed to hide beneath the protection of her rib cage and pale blue blouse.

"How dare you hide your sexy roommate from me! You're gonna tell me someone like that was living within the same walls as you for over two years and you failed to mention it once!"

"Actually...I do believe we did have this conversation at one point..." Mina corrected, moving to lean forward across the counter, her face so close to Eijiro's that she could presumably feel the warmth of his breath against her own.

"And you said, and I quote, 'eh', and I'm telling you for a fact that the person you introduced us to last night was far from it!" He growled, glaring into Mina's golden eyes, "I practically creamed myself just looking at him..."

"First of all, fucking gross." Mina muttered, scrunching her face up in disgust, "Second of all, in my opinion, Katsuki Bakugou is more than worthy of an 'eh'"

"You have to be kidding me!" Eijiro cried, pulling himself back from the counter, waving his arms towards his other three friends, who stood to his left, Denki cradling a freshly brewed black coffee within his palms, "Back me up!"

"Well..." Hanta began, moving his arm to scratch softly at the back of his neck.

"I think he's a lot more an 'eh' that for sure." Denki stated, filling his friend's chest with a broad sense of pride, before the feeling was dashed completely by the blond's next words, "He's a fuckin' ass. I wouldn't have my dick anywhere near that jerk."

Eijiro was stung. Out of everyone, he was sure that Denki would be the one to back him up. Just like him, he'd been completely battered down by the other boys performance. Drawn in to the way he played, his presence.

"I mean, he was hella hot...'til he opened his mouth..." Denki added, before leaning back to take a sip of his slightly cooled beverage.

"Bro..." Eijiro whined out in dismay, turning his sight towards Kyoka in a pleading gaze.

"Don't bring me into this." She stated quickly, backing away from the coffee machine, cloth in hand, "I'm way too gay for this conversation."

"None of you would understand..." Eijiro gushed, laying himself upon the counter dramatically, "Clearly none of you have the same eye for perfection that I do. Like...the moment he walked on stage, it was like lust at first sight."

"His eyes were like fire, and that wild hair and every time he moved his quads pulled at his jeans...and...fuck...I'd let his crush me to death with those thighs..." His eyes were closed now, far more focused on attempting to recall finer details through the opaque fog of tequila and beer. Eijiro hummed, sinking his teeth down into the skin of his index finger's knuckle.

"Stop. Being. Gross. In. My. Workplace." Kyoka cried, pulling Eijiro from his daydream with a series of hard strikes to his arms and face with her dirtied cloth. Eijiro jumped up immediately, whipping his glasses from his face to scowl in his small friend's direction.

"She's right Kirishima-san, this is a public cafe after all." A familiar voice suddenly chimed in, causing the group to turn towards the back of the cafe, where stood the door to the back entrance -and the manager's office.

There stood Fumikage Tokoyami, the young, yet reliable son the owner, and also the full time manager of the cafe. His dark hair was pulled back in a neat bun, white-collared shirt tucked gently into his pants, covered again by a smart black vest. Not much different to how the goth boy would dress normally, but with far less clutter. In the workplace Tokoyami was a very professional worker, though it sometimes took a lot of patience to remain that way, especially with his bountiful harvest of overzealous staff and their friends.

"Sorry Toko..." Eijiro mumbled quietly, reaching to take hold of a tall glass of ice-chocolate that Mina had probably made for him, while blatantly ignoring her best friend's unnecessary mental breakdown.

The cafe in which Kyoka and Mina worked was a quant establishment only a short work from Todai-Mae Station in Nishikata. It had it's busy periods, and its quiet ones too. Both girls enjoyed working there almost as much as their friend's enjoyed visiting. It was decent money for a part time job and they even had a few regulars that could get Kyoka talking a little more than she normally would to the people that came through. Instead she mostly chose to man the machine, mixing drinks, cleaning. Small talk and customer service were more something that Mina was best at, and here she excelled.

"Just make sure to keep you behaviour civil, in case of other patrons." Tokoyami hummed, before stepping back towards the door, mountains of paperwork awaiting him in his office.

"Fumi-chan is such a novel gentleman, why couldn't you fall for someone more like him Eji?" Mina questioned, tilting her head towards Eijiro, batting her eyelashes towards him.

"Because my bro likes them hard and angry, like a boiled egg." Denki stated, winking in the pairs direction, causing Kyoka to tilt her head in confusion. The statement made no sense, but Denki hardly ever did. She slapped him with her cloth.

"C'mon Mi, I know you can help me out. Least give me his Line details or something...or even his phone number..." Eijiro begged, walking back towards the counter once he knew for sure that Tokoyami wouldn't be coming back out for a while, at least if they kept the noise down, "C'mon..." he whispered, reading to take her hand in his, squeezing it between his own.

"Mm, I might have them...or I might not...seems like those are some pretty personal details you asking me to give out. He might get angry with me." Her eyes glimmered with mirth, her tone teasing as she spoke.

"Snapchat? Does he have Snapchat? I'll even take that! He's apart of our band now! It's important that we are able to keep in touch...for emergencies."

"I have his number." Kyoka added.

"So do I." Hanta chimed in.

"Wait...you're telling me that the two of you are allowed to have his number, but I'm not?!" Eijiro was disheartened. They really didn't trust him that much? What did they think he was going to do? Scare the guy off?

"Look..." Mina spoke gently, reaching to place her fingers beneath Eijiro's chin, "You're my baby, and I can't keep things from you, especially when you're making that face. I can get his Snapchat for you..."

"On one condition."

--

If there was one place that Katsuki could feel calm, without the feeling of guitar strings beneath his fingers, it was in class. Sitting in a lecture hall, his glasses sitting neatly upon the bridge of his nose, as he took perfectly organised notes on subjects that interested him greatly, was his solace. If his world was fire and explosions, then his classes were the ice bath that chilled his flaming skin.

But not when his phone was buzzing off end, the small object inching ever so often towards the edge of his desk, his eyebrow twitching in time with it's rhythm. Normally he would ignore it, let it go off until his class was over and he had time to actually read the onslaught of generally irritating bullshit that floated across his LED touch screen, but it was a study period, and the sound wouldn't stop.

(Snapchat) Shitty Deku 11:24 New Snap

(Snapchat) Shitty Deku 11:32 New Snap

(Snapchat) Frogface 11:51 New Snap

(Line) SHITTYDEKUFUCK 11:53 Hey Kacchan! I'm so sorry to ask, but can you bring some eggs home after class? I would, but Ochako has me on house arrest! Thank you!

(ラブライブ ！) NEW UPDATE!

(LINE) Angel Face 12:19 Hey

(LINE) Angel Face 12:19 Hey Kacchan

(LINE) Angel Face 12:20 Hey Kats you should reply to me

(LINE) Angel Face 12:20 I know you're busy, but its an emergency

(LINE) Angel Face 12:23 Okay if you dont reply now I'm doing what I want

(LINE) Angel Face 12:28 Mina says she needs your snapchat. Reply now and I wont give it to her

(LINE) Angel Face 12:32 Three

(LINE) Angel Face 12:33 Two

(LINE) Angel Face 12:34 One

(LINE) Angel Face 12:35 Ur funeral my dude

(Snapchat) Friend Request 1:06 You have a new friend request from Red Riot!

Katsuki's could feel his finger's begin to pull together, but he hardly realised that the force of his fist was breaking his pencil until the the staggered wood and broken lead were digging into his skin.

Fucking Ochako.

--

Over the years Kyoka had grown use to seeing Mina in a state of pure bless, but right now, as she walked across the cafe, observing her pink haired friend sit comfortably upon a cushioned armchair, before placing a warm hug of hot chocolate before her, she was sure she'd never seen the girl this happy.

"Pretty pleased with yourself, huh?" She questioned, poking her tongue out the side of her lips, before turning her attention towards what Mina had also been gazing at for the last half an hour, which was Eijiro Kirishima, walking around the spans of the cafe, apron wrapped around his waist as he served customer's through the afternoon rush, "I can't believe he agreed to work the rest of your shift for his damn snapchat handle."

Mina shrugged playfully, reaching to take a spoon a mini marshmallow from the rim of her mug, placing it neatly upon her tongue, "I would have given it to him anyway, it's just more fun this way.

"Y'know, its actually kind of good at this..." Kyoka observed, her eyes following Eijiro as he flitted around the room, placing the order's down carefully, greeting people with a bright smile and charm that only Eijiro could pull off. He was a natural with people, it's part of the reason she knew he was made to be a personal trainer. He could get anyone to perform any act and make it seem like the best experience in existence.

"Holy shit...you're right..." Mina mumbled, her eyes flicking with a gentle mischief, before she bounded from her chair with a sturdy intent, bolting toward's the back door.

"Hey Fumichi! I have a life changing suggestion for you!"

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NOTES

Hey Tumblr! So I’ve been working this system on Ao3 as well, so I thought I would drag it on here as well, which will allow me to also think things which will be helpful I hope, so anyways, for people who are unfamiliar any Japanese places/stores/products/etc that are mentioned! Im going to be making sure to add that here at the end of each chapter as well as links to anything mentioned that might be important to the story such as songs, just for reference:

In the last chapter I mentioned that Kacchan, Deku and Ochako are childhood friends from Hakone. Hakone is actually are small township about a thirty minute bullet train ride from Tokyo. If you're interested in seeing what it looks like you should look it up, because it's going to be a little be relevant down the line ;)

Shinjuku, Roppongi and Nishikata are districts in Tokyo. Shinjuku and Roppongi themselves are actually pretty popular when it comes to night life and drinking. 

Sake is a Japanese rice wine, but that ones pretty well known, so I dunno if that even needs to be here.

Also I mentioned that Denki works a part time job at Sofmap, which is an electronics store branch in Japan. They're also really great for cheap video games and gaming accessories. That's where most of my stuff comes from! Click here to check out their online store if you're interest.

Also SMS isn't really a thing in Japan, but with the invention of smart phone, most people use the LINE app for messaging and even phone calls, so thats why that is mentioned.

Also the notification that Kacchan gets in Katakana actually says Love Live ! Which is the title of the Love Live! Game app. (Yeah, he went there. May also play it myself lmao.)

[sucktacular]

something really cool i only found out literally YESTERDAY after my boyfriend told me so uh because i didnt actually withdraw from my first semester in my second year of college (i just stopped going because shit happened and MAJOR depression) until they auto withdrew me in the second semester and apparently that goes on your transcript if you dont actually withdraw DURING the semester so it was nice to see when i went to look at my transcript after applying for a college program for this year at another college that its right there with a shit eating grin i went from deans list the previous year to 41gpa that year and I’ve been freaked tf out since....... that looks SO BAD i sent them a message to see what i have to do, or if I can, expunge that semester from my transcript because of my circumstances and my literal not knowing all i ever was told is “withdraw by this point so you can get your money back!” but it was too late at that point in the semester i didnt know it also meant hey you pay moneya nd get to keep a failing mark on your transcript if you dont withdraw! anyway i hope itll be okay..... i hope it doesnt look as bad as it feels man college was my peak preformance i got like deans list??? a student leadership award??? second year i even went on as class fucking president but thats so fucking fake because my class was literally 4 ppl and no one else wanted to raise their hand so that isnt really a big achievement hasghask honestly the leadership award isnt either because it was literally just for the queer group and there werent really any active members all be it maybe like 4 people regular and ona  good day a full table i went to a lgbtq youth leadership summit for the group basically got to go to ottawa for free and stay in a hotel and hang out with gay ppl that was nice but the best part to me was getting to try out pronouns with strangers that would respect them 100% becase it was said you can change your pronouns anyday thats valid af and i wasnt sure about my gender yet so i was like HECK YEAH LETS TRY HE/HIM  and no its better than she/her but it still felt wrong i like that i got that chance because a lot of ppl probably fucking dont and thats really sad you get to tell ppl yeah call me he/him but if you decide thats not cool ppl are going to judge you unless youre in a safe space God iM OFF TOPIC anyway yeah i was depressed for mostly my last year of high school ad the year after that between college and during college but i got a lot better during college and then it was my fucking peak as a human i felt really good and i was working and I did good! it was nice! but then i fucked up and went to see my sickness and i got HEAVILY depressed for three or so years, dropped outta college instantly took a year off got a job still depressed and skipped a lot of work days because i wanted to KMS hard af then eventually i kinda slipped away from my sickness and then this nice person came around and well basically in the past year ive been rebuilding myself and relearning what healthy relationship shit is and fuck man its been a long ride

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What novels or book series would you recommend?

oh fuckin boy dude so many. 90% of what i read is either gay or scifi/fantasy or both, and some are technically for a younger audience but still great, so thats what most of this is which hopefully you’re cool with here goes

this got super long so i’m putting it under a cut. bolded titles are the ones that i’m super recommending, though i love them all

novels

the coldest girl in coldtown by holly black - vampires! a trans character! a bi character! one of the most novel approaches to vampires in fiction that i’ve seen! 10/10 would recommend

the darkest part of the forest by holly black - again, holly black is one of my favorite authors. this one’s got faeries (the proper vaguely unsettling kind that i’m all about) magical music, girls embracing their sexuality, girls being knights, interesting sibling dynamics, and a super cute m/m pairing

les miserables by victor hugo - ok yeah, it’s like 1400 pages long and historical fiction, but i love les mis a lot ok. it’s gotta be on this list just because it owns my ass. it’s like a old drunk french man trying to tell you about the june rebellion but he keeps getting distracted by things like people’s personal lives, the intricacies of the parisian underworld, and how much he wants to fuck the sewers. it’s wonderful

the night circus by erin morgenstern - magical circus that mysteriously appears for days at a time and then vanishes? a competition between young magicians drawn out for years? a wide variety of fascinating side characters? (i will say that the synopsis available for the book is somewhat misleading, as it’s actually less about our two protags and more about the circus itself. but that’s what makes it so enchanting)

the song of achilles by madeleine miller - retelling of patroclus and achilles story to be explicitly romantic. will make you feel like you’re floating on clouds and then rapidly crush your soul. sort of a happy ending? but it’s still a tragedy. their ending is the same as it was in the illiad so if you’re not prepared for that then maybe don’t read

good omens by neil gaiman and terry pratchett - a demon who’s not very good at being a demon and an angel who just wants to collect his books in peace thank you very much try to sabotage the end of times. absolutely hilarious

fairy and folktales of the irish peasantry by w.b. yeats - the best collection of irish faerie stories by one of my favorite poets. if you like creepy and tricky faeries i would def recommend checking these out

rootabaga stories by carl sandburg - another collection of folktales, this time inspired by the american midwest. kinda weird, kinda zany, very neat

the poison eaters by holly black - a short story collection of faery stories that are sometimes creepy, sometimes touching, sometimes gay. my personal favorite is about a library science student who finds a book collection where the characters come out at night and interact, but they’re all really great

series:

alex rider adventures by anthony horowitz - teenager gets recruited by MI6 as a spy, has incredibly high success rate, gets pretty fucked up along the way but damn those one liners tho, maybe have some self preservation alex? just a thought

all for the game by nora sakavic - about a fake sport called exy that’s kind of like indoor lacrosse but more violent. contains: crime families, found families, an aspec protag, girls kicking ass, unhealthy levels of sass, wonderful slowburn m/m that you can’t even see coming for a long while, and a happy ending for everyone!! i came for the gays and ended up reading all three books in two days. also you can get the whole series for less than five bucks on kindle! (note: tw for rape, physical abuse, torture, ptsd, child abuse, drug use, alcoholism, some use of slurs, mentions of past self harm, mental illness)

artemis fowl by eoin colfer - more faeries, but this time they live underground and are way more technologically advanced than humans. the first book focuses on our anti-hero trying to catch one and steal their gold, and they quickly become allies and solve faerie related cases together!! one of my favorite series growing up, and i cried in the middle of the hallway at school when i finished the last book

camp half-blood series by rick riordan - does rick riordan write a lot of mythology books? yes. do i love them all? yes. neurodivergent kids! kids from a huge range of racial and ethnic backgrounds! queer kids! collect them all! ft. greco-roman mythology and a lot of stupid jokes

emelan series by tamora pierce - ok this is easily one of my favorite series of all time. non-western high fantasy setting (picture greece/turkey, china, tibet, mongolia, scandinavia, etc type settings), following four young mages who have unique kinds of magic as they train and grow their skills and become powerful in their own right. only one of the kids is definitely white (jury’s still out on sandry), one is a lesbian, one is ace, one is pan, all four are raised by a loving f/f couple, body diversity, one of the best found families i’ve ever read, feminism, discussion of racism, classism, cultural identity, war, and so much more. it’s so so good and so under-appreciated please read all of the emelan books 

the dark is rising sequence by susan cooper - full disclosure i have not finished this series yet but i’ve re-read the first book a million times. it’s a neat take on arthurian mythology, with dark forces trying to take over and kids getting shit done

diviners by libba bray - psychic teenagers in 1920s new york! i’m a slut for prohibition, but these are also super fun and have likable and real characters, and doesn’t only focus on wealthy white people having parties which is nice. the occult! government conspiracies! historical references! genuinely scary situations! it’s rad!

the enchanted forest chronicles by patricia c. wrede - i adore this series so so much. it’s about a princess who’s father keeps telling her that she can’t have hobbies like fencing or cooking or conjugating latin verbs because they’re unladylike and insists that she marry this doofus prince that she couldn’t care less about. so she runs away and volunteers to work for a dragon and proceeds to send away all the princes that try to rescue her. it’s genuinely funny, has a really neat magic system in the later books, great female friendships, cats, dragons who have no time for your gender roles, and wizards who are the most ridiculous group of antagonists you will ever see

the infernal devices by cassandra clare - i really really do not like the author of this series but it also broke me so it must go on the list. if you’re familiar with the mortal instruments or shadowhunters on freeform, it’s set in that universe in the 1870s in london and it’s very steampunk and very angsty and it made me cry a lot

the kane chronicles by rick riordan - see: camp half-blood series but egyptian

fablehaven by brandon mull - oooooh fuck me up i love this series. this is another one meant for slightly younger readers but all of brandon mull’s series are so wildly imaginative and i’m a slut for world building so. the premise is basically that there are secret preserves all over the world that house magical creatures, and five of these preserves have vaults with artifacts that when brought together make a key to this massive demon prison. an evil society called the society of the evening star is trying to get the artifacts to open the prison, and a different group who is allied with the preserves called the knights of the dawn is trying to get to them first to prevent this from happening. there are dragons, light and dark powers, crazy convoluted vaults to get through, and some really cool creatures and characters

beyonders by brandon mull - this guy again! this one’s about a parallel world called lyrian that people on earth can only get to through small liminal windows, and usually can’t get back through. the story follows two kids, jason and rachel, who get stuck in lyrian and end up becoming major members of the resistance against the evil emperor maldor. just like fablehaven, the world building is insane and you’ll fall in love with all the characters. this is yet another series that made me cry in the middle of class when i finished it

the kingkiller chronicle by patrick rothfuss - this is series is long as all fuck and the last book isn’t out yet but it’s my #1 favorite series of all time. i found out about it bc a cashier at a local grocery store held up the line to write it down for me and i never went back. parts of it are achingly, hauntingly beautiful, other parts are hilarious enough to leave you in stitches, others make you want to pull your hair out. there’s sass, recklessness, beautiful and deadly girls, an overwhelming love and emphasis on the importance of music and storytelling, magic that’s more like science, ethnic adversity, student loans, a thing that might be a cow or might be a dragon depending on who you ask, and more quotable lines than you could dream of. the audiobook by nick podehl is also fabulous, and lin manuel miranda is producing and adapting it for the screen and maybe stage at some point in the future!

a modern faerie tale by holly black - guys. i love holly black. almost everything she’s ever written is on this list. this one is fairly self explanatory by the title, but it’s gritty and dark and has those lovely creepy faeries that she’s so great at writing. also a surprising m/m couple in the last book, both of whom are characters in the other two installments. (tw for drug use/addiction, brief sexual assault, and probably other things that i can’t remember right now)

the raven cycle by maggie stiefvater - also in my top 3 favorite series of all time, i cannot begin to describe this series. i first read it while up in the nc mountains which improved the experience to a surprising degree, but it’s stuck with me for the last several years. basically 5 teenagers go in search of a dead welsh king, but along the way there is magic, psychics, ghosts, a sentient forest, dreams becoming reality, curses, teenage shenanigans, classic cars, swearing, church, kisses and not kisses, illict hand holding, a baby crow, bisexuality, a death list, hitmen, and nicknames and it will consume your heart before you know what’s happening to you (tw child abuse, implied sexual assault, substance abuse, dissociation, mentions of past suicide attempts, body horror, gore, and disturbing scenes esp. in the last book)

six of crows by leigh bardugo - a team of criminals band together to break into an impossible fortress, fall in love, con an entire city, and get rich. set in the same universe as the grisha trilogy (which is also good but not as good as soc), this is basically a heist followed by a con, but pulled off by ruthless teenagers and with the help of magic

curseworker trilogy by holly black - crime families, magic that can only done through touch so everyone wears gloves, moral ambiguity, and a twisted romance. one of holly black’s best and most underrated series

baccano! by ryohgo narita - this is a japanese light novel series which has been adapted into an anime, but is much more extensive in print. the plot is extremely convoluted, but an absolute ride spanning several centuries, although the bulk of it is in the 1930s in nyc and chicago. there’s an elixir of immortality, crime families, trains, a solipsistic assassin and his mute assassin gf, serial killers, a demon with a catch phrase, murder, explosions, adorable couples, gambling, a gang leader named jacuzzi who is always terrified, killer corporations, and much much more

no.6 by asuka asano - another japanse series, this time focusing on two boys, one who grew up in a utopian city, the other who grew up outside the walls after the city destroyed his life. they meet when they’re 12 years old, and several years later, they’re reunited when the outsider rescues the city boy from arrest. they, along with a pimp and a nonbinary dog hotel owner, try to expose and overthrow the government. also ft. drag performances, mice who like shakespeare, killer bees, and boys falling in love.

the merlin saga by t.a. barron - my favorite take on arthurian mythology, chronicling merlin as he comes into his power. there’s a vividly magical island, giants, amulets, talking trees, stones that will try to swallow you, a swamp witch, celtic deities, huge wicker hats, poetry, new kinds of fruit, people that are also deer, and human’s long lost wings.

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‘Schitt’s Creek’ Creator Dan Levy Talks Queer Journey

Oh, sure, Dan Levy gets excited. Really, he does! The sparkle may not be written on his face – cherubic, distinguished, writerly; one with features much like his actor-dad, Eugene Levy – but inside you can bet he’s screaming. It’s a Canadian thing.

Our conversation takes place on a day in mid December, the day after Pop TV’s Schitt’s Creek, his farcical and heartfelt sitcom about a family stripped of their riches that is lovingly created as a gift to this godforsaken world with his father, has picked up a Critics’ Choice nod for Best Comedy Series and Levy is screaming. Really!

“We have a limit to how excited we can be about ourselves,” he says, snickering. He continues, Canadian-modesty fully intact: “But it’s a thrill.”

The thrill humbly extended to a tweet written by the out 35-year-old conveying gratitude for the show’s recent wins when GALECA: The Society of LGBTQ Entertainment Critics awarded Schitt’s Creek with two honors, TV Comedy of the Year and Unsung TV Show of the Year, during their annual Dorian Awards. (Full, proud disclosure: I’m a member, and I voted for Schitt’s Creek in both categories.)

Get Levy talking about Mariah Carey – the diva inspiration for one of season 4’s sweetest and gayest lines, pertaining to his onscreen boyfriend, Patrick (Noah Reid) – and he won’t stop screaming. We spoke about the Elusive Chanteuse’s prominent place on Schitt’s Creek and about what’s in store for his lovably dramatic character, David Rose, mom Moira (Catherine O’Hara), dad Johnny (Eugene Levy) and sister Alexis (Annie Murphy) in season 5. Plus, this season’s coming out story that Levy says was an emotional shoot and “my proudest episode.”

I was feeling such disappointment when the Golden Globes and the Emmys didn’t acknowledge Schitt’s Creek yet again this year. So, this Critics’ Choice nod must feel like, “Finally, awards committees are catching up to the rest of the world.”

Slowly but surely we’re cracking into that illustrious group of shows that get nominated for things and it’s a wonderful feeling. We’re a very small show, and I think for very small shows that don’t necessarily have huge resources to promote themselves for award consideration, a nomination from the critics at this point is fantastic. It means it’s been word-of-mouth, and I think the fact that we are also streaming on Netflix has cracked us open to an entirely new and different audience as well.

And listen, our team, first and foremost, just wants to tell really interesting stories and wants to have fun when we go to work every day, and that has always been the goal for me as someone who’s running the show. The minute you start to look outside and think, “Oh, we’re being recognized for this; people are putting us on lists,” it’s wonderful but it can really change the experience of making your show. Suddenly you’re more concerned about, “Are things living up to the standards that the media have kindly set for us?” And that can be really intimidating.

So I try not to pay attention as much as I possibly can; especially when we’re making our show, I try to disengage from all of that so we can really focus on what’s ultimately going to serve our characters. But I’m not gonna lie: It’s been a joy over the past couple of years to see our show up there in the ranks of other shows that I have long admired myself. So I’m just ultimately bursting with pride for our team.

How are the Roses coping with each other during season 5?

Season 4 was a really emotional chapter in this family’s trajectory and we were able to really peel back some layers and show a lot of growth. Season 5 is really about having fun. The guards are down a little bit, which means we can have more fun with our characters, we can put them in stranger situations.

We tried our best to pair characters this season with characters that have never been paired before and really take stories outside of the box and expand our world a little bit, so this season was always intended to be the shiniest and brightest and boldest we’ve ever done. But I’m just really excited because there’s so much in store in season 5. It’s bursting with life and joy and I can’t wait for, particularly, a few episodes.

David does a lot of things this season that, for me, as a gay kid growing up, were horrifying: tree-climbing, baseball. What was your favorite David adventure to shoot this season?

The fun thing about David is he’s someone who has put on such a front for so long that he has really, over the course of his two years in this town, allowed himself to just get in better touch with himself and expose himself to vulnerability in ways that he never would have. So something like the first episode of season 5 (laughs) – constantly feeling the need to prove his relationship and how far he’s willing to go for it – was really fun. I mean, the day was grueling and I was stuck up there (in the trees) for, I think, seven hours…

So by the end of the shoot, your face was David’s. You weren’t even acting anymore.

(Laughs) The character and me as a person really came together in those moments. But yeah, I would say the excitement of our first episode back is really an indicator of what’s to come.

I can’t believe these characters are just now trying on Moira’s wigs. How did that not already happen?

The idea was, for us, that she needed to be on a totally different continent in order for David and Alexis to even dare touch that wall, because of all the things, all the buttons you can press with Moira, those wigs are everything (laughs). So we thought it could be really fun, considering no one’s ever tried them on. And we never ever really touched it, but that was really out of respect for Moira, who was holding court in her home. Now that she’s away we can all sort of have some fun with it, and getting to select which wig we got was a really fun process too. I tried on that little blunt, blonde wig that I wear in the episode and thought, “Well, this could be good for my real life!”

Will there be more Mariah stuff? And also, how much Mariah is played on set?

A lot of Mariah is played just in my life, which seeps into my professional life. She tweeted about the show last year after the Mariah Carey reference in our season 4 finale.

You recently celebrated that tweet’s anniversary on your IG.

I’ll be celebrating that anniversary for years to come. I lost it. There’s been some amazing people who’ve said some wonderful things about the show, but the Mariah Carey tweet, to me, was like, I don’t even know how to process that. I think back to being a teenager, putting up Mariah Carey posters on my bedroom walls. It was a full-circle moment.

The last time we chatted you told me that one episode in particular this season made you cry. Why is it so meaningful to you?

It’s a layered thing. I find it sometimes quite emotional to be in the position that I am in, to be able to tell queer stories and show them on a mass scale, to write moments and stories, and in this particular case a love story, that seems to really affect people. It’s hard not to think back to a time in your life where you didn’t have that kind of freedom. For me, I think back to high school when I was still in the closet and wondering if I would ever be able to live out in the open. To now be in the position that I am, getting to write what I find to be a really lovely queer romance that millions of people get to watch, it’s quite profound.

And how about the episode’s impact on you?

It’s a particular moment that I had to write that is something that most queer people go through and articulating that, dramatizing that, is just a very meaningful episode for me and for a character in our show. It’s a coming out episode. So getting to write that and trying to find a way around that kind of story that’s been told several times in film and television and literature, finding a dynamic way into that story and out of that story, was probably the greatest joy and challenge I’ve had as a writer for TV. And now that we’ve cut and polished the episode it’s my proudest episode we’ve done as a show.

Given that you understand the weight of this show on your audience, I’m guessing David and Patrick will never break up.

(Laughs) Um, I don’t ever want them to, but you never know what happens. All I know is that we do understand what our fans are enjoying and we certainly wouldn’t want to do anything to jeopardize their loyalty.

It’s the first successful relationship I’ve had in a while and it’s not even mine.

Funnily enough, me too.

For the Schitt’s Creek: Up Close & Personal tour, you and some cast members are touring various U.S. cities. How did the idea for the tour start and are there any Tina Turner musical numbers?

(Laughs) The idea for the tour started mainly because I think so much of the success of our show is based on the enthusiasm and the word-of-mouth that has come from our fans. And the feedback that I’ve received from our fans has been so much more than, “We love your show”; it’s long letters about how this show has provided sort of a safe space, a happy space, a joyful space in dark times. We seem to have a relationship with the people who watch our show and love our show that is slightly deeper than I think the relationship that a lot of people have with the shows that they watch on TV.

Shooting the show in Canada, we don’t ever really have access to a lot of our fans. We shoot for three months out of the year and the rest of the time is me editing or writing the show, and a lot of the response and feedback we got from fans was a desire to interact with the cast, and so we started developing this idea. It’s a Q-and-A, it’s very casual. We show some things we’ve never shown before, we show some behind-the-scenes stuff, we show some bloopers, and there may or may not be a musical performance that may or may not involve a Tina Turner song sung by someone who may or may not play my boyfriend on a television show (laughs). But for us, it’s a great way for us to meet our fans and for the fans to come and say hi in person. We did our first in Los Angeles a little while ago and it was incredible. There was so much love in the room.

Regarding the writing, do you think in terms of meme-able moments in the writers’ room?

No, no! In fact, there was some kind of Instagram sticker – you know the GIF stickers you can use? There’s one of Moira that apparently had like a billion views or something insane, and I’m always sort of amazed how people have taken moments from our show and turned them into these little internet memes, because when we’re writing we never really think about that. But it’s quite an expressive show (laughs), so I understand how it would be very easy to take some reactions from our cast and make some sort of universal reactions of disgust or confusion.

I used your face when I was disappointed by the Golden Globe nominations.

(Laughs) I’m so happy that I could be there for you in that time.

Has working on this show and writing queer characters with your dad bonded you in ways you didn’t expect it to?

I honestly don’t know, actually. The show has been sort of wonderful in the sense that we have been put in a position where we get to see each other every day. I think just going through the experience of making this show and seeing its success has been a wonderful thing for the two of us.

There are just times in your life when things happen that you’ll never forget and you know that you’re sort of in the middle of doing something quite special and lasting, so I know that whatever I do after this show, we’ll always have this time together, we’ll always have this sort of chapter of our lives that we got to immortalize on screen, which is quite lovely.

source https://hotspotsmagazine.com/2019/02/28/schitts-creek-creator-dan-levy-talks-queer-journey/ from Hot Spots Magazine https://hotspotsmagazin.blogspot.com/2019/02/schitts-creek-creator-dan-levy-talks.html

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‘Schitt’s Creek’ Creator Dan Levy Talks Queer Journey

Oh, sure, Dan Levy gets excited. Really, he does! The sparkle may not be written on his face – cherubic, distinguished, writerly; one with features much like his actor-dad, Eugene Levy – but inside you can bet he’s screaming. It’s a Canadian thing.

Our conversation takes place on a day in mid December, the day after Pop TV’s Schitt’s Creek, his farcical and heartfelt sitcom about a family stripped of their riches that is lovingly created as a gift to this godforsaken world with his father, has picked up a Critics’ Choice nod for Best Comedy Series and Levy is screaming. Really!

“We have a limit to how excited we can be about ourselves,” he says, snickering. He continues, Canadian-modesty fully intact: “But it’s a thrill.”

The thrill humbly extended to a tweet written by the out 35-year-old conveying gratitude for the show’s recent wins when GALECA: The Society of LGBTQ Entertainment Critics awarded Schitt’s Creek with two honors, TV Comedy of the Year and Unsung TV Show of the Year, during their annual Dorian Awards. (Full, proud disclosure: I’m a member, and I voted for Schitt’s Creek in both categories.)

Get Levy talking about Mariah Carey – the diva inspiration for one of season 4’s sweetest and gayest lines, pertaining to his onscreen boyfriend, Patrick (Noah Reid) – and he won’t stop screaming. We spoke about the Elusive Chanteuse’s prominent place on Schitt’s Creek and about what’s in store for his lovably dramatic character, David Rose, mom Moira (Catherine O’Hara), dad Johnny (Eugene Levy) and sister Alexis (Annie Murphy) in season 5. Plus, this season’s coming out story that Levy says was an emotional shoot and “my proudest episode.”

I was feeling such disappointment when the Golden Globes and the Emmys didn’t acknowledge Schitt’s Creek yet again this year. So, this Critics’ Choice nod must feel like, “Finally, awards committees are catching up to the rest of the world.”

Slowly but surely we’re cracking into that illustrious group of shows that get nominated for things and it’s a wonderful feeling. We’re a very small show, and I think for very small shows that don’t necessarily have huge resources to promote themselves for award consideration, a nomination from the critics at this point is fantastic. It means it’s been word-of-mouth, and I think the fact that we are also streaming on Netflix has cracked us open to an entirely new and different audience as well.

And listen, our team, first and foremost, just wants to tell really interesting stories and wants to have fun when we go to work every day, and that has always been the goal for me as someone who’s running the show. The minute you start to look outside and think, “Oh, we’re being recognized for this; people are putting us on lists,” it’s wonderful but it can really change the experience of making your show. Suddenly you’re more concerned about, “Are things living up to the standards that the media have kindly set for us?” And that can be really intimidating.

So I try not to pay attention as much as I possibly can; especially when we’re making our show, I try to disengage from all of that so we can really focus on what’s ultimately going to serve our characters. But I’m not gonna lie: It’s been a joy over the past couple of years to see our show up there in the ranks of other shows that I have long admired myself. So I’m just ultimately bursting with pride for our team.

How are the Roses coping with each other during season 5?

Season 4 was a really emotional chapter in this family’s trajectory and we were able to really peel back some layers and show a lot of growth. Season 5 is really about having fun. The guards are down a little bit, which means we can have more fun with our characters, we can put them in stranger situations.

We tried our best to pair characters this season with characters that have never been paired before and really take stories outside of the box and expand our world a little bit, so this season was always intended to be the shiniest and brightest and boldest we’ve ever done. But I’m just really excited because there’s so much in store in season 5. It’s bursting with life and joy and I can’t wait for, particularly, a few episodes.

David does a lot of things this season that, for me, as a gay kid growing up, were horrifying: tree-climbing, baseball. What was your favorite David adventure to shoot this season?

The fun thing about David is he’s someone who has put on such a front for so long that he has really, over the course of his two years in this town, allowed himself to just get in better touch with himself and expose himself to vulnerability in ways that he never would have. So something like the first episode of season 5 (laughs) – constantly feeling the need to prove his relationship and how far he’s willing to go for it – was really fun. I mean, the day was grueling and I was stuck up there (in the trees) for, I think, seven hours…

So by the end of the shoot, your face was David’s. You weren’t even acting anymore.

(Laughs) The character and me as a person really came together in those moments. But yeah, I would say the excitement of our first episode back is really an indicator of what’s to come.

I can’t believe these characters are just now trying on Moira’s wigs. How did that not already happen?

The idea was, for us, that she needed to be on a totally different continent in order for David and Alexis to even dare touch that wall, because of all the things, all the buttons you can press with Moira, those wigs are everything (laughs). So we thought it could be really fun, considering no one’s ever tried them on. And we never ever really touched it, but that was really out of respect for Moira, who was holding court in her home. Now that she’s away we can all sort of have some fun with it, and getting to select which wig we got was a really fun process too. I tried on that little blunt, blonde wig that I wear in the episode and thought, “Well, this could be good for my real life!”

Will there be more Mariah stuff? And also, how much Mariah is played on set?

A lot of Mariah is played just in my life, which seeps into my professional life. She tweeted about the show last year after the Mariah Carey reference in our season 4 finale.

You recently celebrated that tweet’s anniversary on your IG.

I’ll be celebrating that anniversary for years to come. I lost it. There’s been some amazing people who’ve said some wonderful things about the show, but the Mariah Carey tweet, to me, was like, I don’t even know how to process that. I think back to being a teenager, putting up Mariah Carey posters on my bedroom walls. It was a full-circle moment.

The last time we chatted you told me that one episode in particular this season made you cry. Why is it so meaningful to you?

It’s a layered thing. I find it sometimes quite emotional to be in the position that I am in, to be able to tell queer stories and show them on a mass scale, to write moments and stories, and in this particular case a love story, that seems to really affect people. It’s hard not to think back to a time in your life where you didn’t have that kind of freedom. For me, I think back to high school when I was still in the closet and wondering if I would ever be able to live out in the open. To now be in the position that I am, getting to write what I find to be a really lovely queer romance that millions of people get to watch, it’s quite profound.

And how about the episode’s impact on you?

It’s a particular moment that I had to write that is something that most queer people go through and articulating that, dramatizing that, is just a very meaningful episode for me and for a character in our show. It’s a coming out episode. So getting to write that and trying to find a way around that kind of story that’s been told several times in film and television and literature, finding a dynamic way into that story and out of that story, was probably the greatest joy and challenge I’ve had as a writer for TV. And now that we’ve cut and polished the episode it’s my proudest episode we’ve done as a show.

Given that you understand the weight of this show on your audience, I’m guessing David and Patrick will never break up.

(Laughs) Um, I don’t ever want them to, but you never know what happens. All I know is that we do understand what our fans are enjoying and we certainly wouldn’t want to do anything to jeopardize their loyalty.

It’s the first successful relationship I’ve had in a while and it’s not even mine.

Funnily enough, me too.

For the Schitt’s Creek: Up Close & Personal tour, you and some cast members are touring various U.S. cities. How did the idea for the tour start and are there any Tina Turner musical numbers?

(Laughs) The idea for the tour started mainly because I think so much of the success of our show is based on the enthusiasm and the word-of-mouth that has come from our fans. And the feedback that I’ve received from our fans has been so much more than, “We love your show”; it’s long letters about how this show has provided sort of a safe space, a happy space, a joyful space in dark times. We seem to have a relationship with the people who watch our show and love our show that is slightly deeper than I think the relationship that a lot of people have with the shows that they watch on TV.

Shooting the show in Canada, we don’t ever really have access to a lot of our fans. We shoot for three months out of the year and the rest of the time is me editing or writing the show, and a lot of the response and feedback we got from fans was a desire to interact with the cast, and so we started developing this idea. It’s a Q-and-A, it’s very casual. We show some things we’ve never shown before, we show some behind-the-scenes stuff, we show some bloopers, and there may or may not be a musical performance that may or may not involve a Tina Turner song sung by someone who may or may not play my boyfriend on a television show (laughs). But for us, it’s a great way for us to meet our fans and for the fans to come and say hi in person. We did our first in Los Angeles a little while ago and it was incredible. There was so much love in the room.

Regarding the writing, do you think in terms of meme-able moments in the writers’ room?

No, no! In fact, there was some kind of Instagram sticker – you know the GIF stickers you can use? There’s one of Moira that apparently had like a billion views or something insane, and I’m always sort of amazed how people have taken moments from our show and turned them into these little internet memes, because when we’re writing we never really think about that. But it’s quite an expressive show (laughs), so I understand how it would be very easy to take some reactions from our cast and make some sort of universal reactions of disgust or confusion.

I used your face when I was disappointed by the Golden Globe nominations.

(Laughs) I’m so happy that I could be there for you in that time.

Has working on this show and writing queer characters with your dad bonded you in ways you didn’t expect it to?

I honestly don’t know, actually. The show has been sort of wonderful in the sense that we have been put in a position where we get to see each other every day. I think just going through the experience of making this show and seeing its success has been a wonderful thing for the two of us.

There are just times in your life when things happen that you’ll never forget and you know that you’re sort of in the middle of doing something quite special and lasting, so I know that whatever I do after this show, we’ll always have this time together, we’ll always have this sort of chapter of our lives that we got to immortalize on screen, which is quite lovely.

from Hotspots! Magazine https://hotspotsmagazine.com/2019/02/28/schitts-creek-creator-dan-levy-talks-queer-journey/ from Hot Spots Magazine https://hotspotsmagazine.tumblr.com/post/183119013920