#that means im gay and yet i fucking hate that label

[idiotsonlyevent]

it actually drives me SO insane crazy how similar chie and yosuke('s problems) are.

anyone who says they aren't friends or that they genuinely don't like each other don't Get It. they just haven't had a weird high school friendship where you're so similar you sort of hate each other, but also you can't Actually hate each other, because that would mean that you hate yourself (you do) and that you want to see yourself fail (you don't). yes, they wanna punch each other; yes, they're besties; yes, we EXIST!!!

they're both... kinda outcasts? iirc chie is somewhat popular, but she def gets shit for not being "feminine enough" esp in inaba. yosuke is yosuke. junes exists.

chie is labeled as a tomboy/masculine but she doesn't really want to be; yosuke isn't "feminine" per se, but he does generally lack more stereotypically masculine interests, even his role as a "bro character" is missing junpei/ryuji's specific type of 'masculine goofiness'(??), and he is disliked enough that i wouldn't be surprised if he was seen as a (im so sorry) "beta male."

they're both jealous of their best friends, Especially as paragons of femininity and masculinity. chie because it feels like something she can't have (esp as it relates to her sexuality); yosuke because he feels that he needs to attain masculinity for social capital (and to prove that he's straight and therefore 'normal').

and they know this about each other. they have one conversation in their first year and chie has his closeted ass clocked before yosuke knows what bi people are. yosuke sees the way chie looks at yukiko and is like "i've BEEN there" < doesn't even know its gay yet

but also yosuke loves running away from his problems and denying his feelings, meanwhile chie is one of like. three emotionally intelligent people in the investigation team. but also yosuke is smarter than her. this means they are the BEST people to torment each other. they commit gendered homo/biphobic psychological violence against each other at least three times a day. but if one of them hears someone talking shit about the other?? that clown won't see the light of day. only chie can shittalk yosuke. only yosuke can shittalk chie. the rest of the investigation team is on THIN fucking ice.

this is also why theyre not allowed to date btw (to Me). besides the fact that chie is Absolutely Not At All Interested in yosuke, and he'd only be interested in "dating" her to try to prove to himself that he's straight, the only ppl ive seen ship yosuchie are straight homophobic guys who hate their wives/gfs and misconstrue their entire dynamic as "they don't even like each other, they should date" which. die. if youre a yosuchie shipper and a normal person, i salute you, you ARE gods strongest soldier.

[chimericchaos]

Ok this tea may be too fucking hot but like

Maybe the VAST majority of human experience that people define as "normal" is very much a tiny restrictive framework of what humans actually are and can actually be

I think the reason why theres no concrete answer of what separates "man from beast" is because there is actually no fucking line you dingus theyre the same thing. A bagel and a fucking donut. You may be able to ascribe differences in appearance and behaviour, but in reality they really are basically the same thing, and trying to sort things into hyperspecific boxes does more harm than good. Humans fundamentally are the same, and all human experiences so far are human experiences.

I often find myself wishing for something of a post-LGBT era, some utopia where people are just people and what they identify as does not matter as much as the ability to BE. Yes, gay and trans rights do matter very much, but those are no longer "gay and trans rights" but instead basic human rights. I get that people assign labels to themselves in order to feel part of a larger community and to somewhat accurately describe their experience, but there are many times where individuals in communities that seem to share this common thing are really that thing in a totally different way. There is no correct way to be gay or correct way to be trans. There is no correct way to be plural. Everyones experiences will be different. And this is the point I'm getting at: everyone is so fundamentally different that the concept of putting people into boxes makes no fucking sense to me.

And yes this goes for every single person out there trying to dictate how other people live their lives. Identity is not sacred. No one has to conform to any definition of "normal" and they often dont simply by existing. The desire to control the way someone else is and lives, i equate to a kind of citizen-policing, a symptom and product of a system that places value on power and normalcy. Its insane that i seem to live in a world (my own fucking brain) where yes obviously power isnt actually a thing, its just exerting violence under restricing circumstances, and normalcy isnt a thing, its just a framework for the population to create people who add to the current idea of "person" (and not, you know, just do their own thing), and yes of course value isnt actually a thing but is instead a mentally-assigned trait we have given to stuff to aid structures of power and view some things as greater than other things. I dont know why the hell people think they need to work at a job they hate to afford food when you can just? Have a community support network that distributes resources to the people based purely on necessity and relation of community?

I know im talking about a literal fairytale utopia apparently, and we are in a societal transitional period where we only figured out being gay was ok actually like fucking a decade ago, and this period is likely to go on for another 50 or so years before we get our shit together enough to "normalize" the very many experiences of what being gay means, yet this stuff makes a bunch more sense to do than whatever the hell mashup-system we currently have. The only fucking people who seem to share these views are anarchists and even then theres disagreements. Because "anarchist" does not define every persons individual mental manifesto that may differentiate wildly from another person's, or even from the core fucking ideas of the group you are a part of.

Im not going to bother outlining my entire thesis and putting something like post-post-post-post-modernism-anarchism on it. Im not going to define myself as a pansexual nonbinary somewhat median system. The point of it is that those terms dont belong to just me, but also a million people who are very much NOT me. I cant even go onto r/hypersexual and find a single person on there with the same opinions i have (hypersexuality isnt a bad thing actually and the sooner you stop hating yourself for being "too sexual" because thats "weird" and "difficult to make friends", the better because you are actually valid As You Are and while you will not find many people willing to befriend you and understand you and all the stuff that inherently comes with being a friend of you, that is actually an example of a society that is incompatible with the people in it and that needs to fucking change.) In some weird way i end up feeling more isolated in the communities i am supposed to be like, because of that "supposed to be". In reality, you are fundamentally the same and yet fundamentally different from everyone else and it would not be a fair comparison to compare you with Anyone else in Any Way.

I understand that Identity is a construct we as walking bags of slowly rotting meat use to bring us together and understand experiences others have so that we can see ourselves in that position, but like, maybe we need a better construct to form a betrer system where we can understand experiences that are not at all like us actually, and we can have empathy (or something that we ascribe to whatever this "empathy" is) for people who are fundamentally different to us, because in some capacity everyone is fundamentally different to us. We need to create communities of fundamentally different people because thats what we are. While some words can work as quick short explanations of parts of who we are, they cannot replace knowing someone and the intricacies of who they are that you have gained over years of knowing them.

[thoughtsbeewild]

RNC day 1 BORING and how these politicians define unity on coming together.

First of all Marjorie Greene fake white smile, get that shit out of there. her speech and smile seems truly fake, like your trying to hard and people see right through that skit speech.

Second RNC seems like a YEEHAW white thing. Very country very white, no RAP no Lil Wayne no rappers for music, orange man should get Tom Macdonald, put some fucking ghetto flavor to encourage your so called unity, WHAT YOU DONT EXPECT ORANGE MAN BUT IT WILL SHOW VOTERS YOU DONT CARE ITS EVERYONE, BRING A GAY PERSON/TRANSGENDER AS A SPEAKER THAT WOULD BE A GOOD VOTE FOR GAY/TRANSGENDER COMMUNITY BECAUSE YOUR MESSAGING IS SAYING YOU TRULY WANT EQUAL FOR ALL RACE, COLOR, GENDER .. BUT HERE WE ARE SEEMS LIKE SAME THING BORING..

.but yet they put a black representative to speak for color. Who ever coordinated that logic, needs to think more outside the box, get outside the box and show something different that your usual RNC for the country and provide this history for our future generation since we will be no longer living in EARTH.

i guess the difference in Evil Joe Biden puts more the nasty ghetto in front of TV, like what ben shapiro AND TEAM talks about the nasty rises.

People dont get UNITY IS HARD TO ACHEIVE REALISTICALLY, YOUR ALWAYS GOING HAVE DIFFERENT PERSONALITY TO COLLIDE. JUST LIKE YOU CANT FORCE YOUR RELIGION ONTO SOMEONE WHEN THEY BELIEVE IN SOMETHING ELSE. BUT HOW YOU GATHER UNITY IS TEACH RESPECT TO EACHOTHER AMONG THIER DIFFERNT MORALES, BELIEFS AND DEMONSTRATE THAT VIOLENCE IS NOT THE ANSWER OR THE SOLUTION IF YOU DONT LIKE WHO THEY ARE. MAKE A REALISTIC SAYING IN USA AMERICAN PEOPLE WILL BE CLASHING DIFFERENT CULTURES PERSONALITY IN PERSON, ONLINE, SCHOOLS, WORK, ANYWHERE. HOW WILL DONALD TRUMP WITH ITS STATE LEADERS ON THE LOWER LEVEL FOR THE COMMUNITIES HELP SHAPE UNITY? WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY PUSHING FOR CONSERVATIVE VALUES? IM NOT CONSERVATIVE, I HATE DEMONCRAT LYING WAYS, IM JUST FUCKING HUMAN. THATS FUCKING ALL..FUCK THE LABELS RIGHT LEFT, THATS DIVISION RIGHT THERE LABELING WHO THEY SHOULD BE. DA FUCK. i HATE THAT, LET PEOPLE BE WHO THEY WANT , BUT RESPECTFULLY RESPECT EACHOTHER EQUALLY AND DONT CREATE VIOLENCE WITHIN THIER DIFFERENCES OF POLITICS, RELIGION, ETC.

I THINK THAT WILL MAKE MORE PEOPLE ANGRY THAT I SEE FOLKS WILL VOTE LYING JOE BIDEN. YOUR PUSHING A RADICAL CONSERVATIVE MESSAGE. YES KEEP CONSERVATIVE TRADTIONS ALIVE NO DOUBT, LET PEOPLE BE WHO THEY CHOOSE TO BE. ITS AN UNWELCOMING MESSAGE GLOBALLY, WHERE DO THEY ACCEPT GAYS, TRANSGENDER, DIFFERENT SEXUALITYS I GUESS..I DONT WANT BE CONSERVATIVE, BUT RESPECT THIER STANCE .BUT DOESNT MEAN I WANT BE LIKE THEM HELL TO THE NO.

WE CANNOT THINK THAT A PERSON WHO DOES EVIL IS GOING CHANGE CREATE UNITY, NO THEY ARE NOT. SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST A DONE DEAL(AKA CANT BE HELPED), THATS THE SAYING THERE THINGS THAT ARE BEYOND YOUR CONTROL, YA JUST GOTTA LET THAT SHIT GO.

IM TIRED UP FOR 11 HRS, RANTING WHILE WATCHING THIS BORING YAWNING RNC...SLZZZ..IM LIKE ORANGE MAN ON THE GO GO GO. DONT STOP CANT STOP... THAT GUY DOESNT GIVE UP, GOTTA HAVE RESPECT FOR THAT..

[tvranny]

do you know hjow great of a feeling it is to be 99% sure that you’re attracted to men exclusively with a very limited amount of iffiness on that and knowing you’re a trans man and yet due to the latter aspect, being utterly unable to call yourself gay because it makes you feel intrusive and invalid???????????? because it’s a great fucking feeling

[littlebabycrybtch]

“lol how many ppl thought they were ~asexual~ bc of (ignorance, supporting ignorant exclusionists, silencing attempts at ace education) Tunglr” wow fun headcount anyways how many aspecs attempted suicide before age 21 bc adults constantly insisted your identity was fake and you were going to be sexy and normal someday lmfao

[haoaibai]

i’m actually fuming like so much right now

my family saw my gallery w how much I liked women and that im queer

and NOW they’re fucking outing me???

my sis is calling me a lesbian as a fucking insult and my WHOLE family is forcing me to come out

“oh you just came out of the closet” no i fucking didn’t?? i chose to stay closeted bc y’all wouldn’t stop labeling me and calling me horrible insults.

now i have to spend my WHOLE christmas going to cry because im being OUTED. AGAIN.

AGAIN??? and I even said I don’t own them shit and now they’re just outing me completely. telling all my family members about it, even my mom assumes i “ like ” pussy like wtf??

“you didn't even try yourself out w a man yet” I don’t need to knowing that im gay already?? how about you do it to know if youre gay too??

I just didn’t like men from a young age and I would force myself to. no matter how I would try to, I just fucking COULDNT get it.

now youre assuming im turning myself gay just because i chose to stay closeted??

“i saw your snaps and it mentioned that you like women so dont be scared”

tf you mean ”don’t be scared” bruh you out me every time to people putting me in danger.

now I have to fucking stand there, worrying im faking this and hoping to god NONE of my mates from the place I work at, TELLS them that i am QUEER.

oh my fucking god.

and whats worst is that i literally got outed yesterday and I can no longer hide from it cause it’s true and they know?$^%!^!)

i HATE people.

i shouldn't have fucking done any of this.

next time im never putting gay shit in my gallery AGAIN.

i feel so shit oh my god.

but merry fucking christmas guys.

[lilyfreshwater]

i feel like your conclusion about dream is wrong. he did firmly call himself not straight twice in that podcast yesterday and he also said he felt forced into not speaking about his sexuality at times because he'd get a fuck ton of hate if he declared himself as something and then later on changed his mind. but since he's said he's not gay and he's said he's not straight, those two things he's sure enough about to actually say them.

well i guess i could be wrong, but i still have yet to see much genuine queer sentiment beyond joking with george and just saying vague shit on discord. i don't think he needs a label at all, but the way he discusses all of this stuff is still so fucking confusing that i think he still has a lot of figuring out to do and a lot of internalized homophobia to sort through. whether that means he's gay or straight i dont know, but im not giving him special treatment or consideration either way

[phantomswolf]

OKAY GOOD EVENING IM AWAKE NOW

ITS TIME FOR THE STORY SO SIT DOWN OR STAND UP OR WHATEVER im personally laying down coz i have a stomach ache. i’ll also be sharing the gender fuckery for the whole queer image

ANYWAY

ITS LONG SO HERE’S A READ MORE.

the year is 2014. mid august. i’m browsing the dash of my personal blog a bit obsessively, but that was par for the course. i had a vague understanding of queer identities, enough where one of my first ships was a gay polycule and i thought it was awesome and made sense (don’t ask me what ship unless you want a really long winded explanation, but i do still ship it today and it’s still awesome.) REGARDLESS. there there were 2 on there that i didn’t actually recognize!

being pan and aro.

now, if you know anything about me as i am today, you’d probably assume “oh, so you realized you liked every gender?”

WRONG.

I FUCKING HATED THE IDEA OF DATING SOMEONE.

However! it did clue me in on a new gender identity i hadn’t yet heard of at that point; being agender/nonbinary. but that isn’t relevant. for now.

i remember excitedly running down the stairs as SOON as i was like “THERES A WORD FOR IT.” and waking my mom the FUCK UP from her nap to tell her that i had figured out Everything. (not gonna get into how my family was growing up, just know that i wasn’t nervous about telling them at all)

so, a few months go by. in december, i decided that i was going to go by strictly they/them and that lasted… all of a month. because i opted for being GENDERFLUID BABYYYY.

now, this is where it gets fun.

i started kinda feeling like i had to be romantically interested in people (but i certainly didn’t want to). i mean, a lot of my peers began talking about it and dating at that point. it was stressful and confusing and i landed on the label demihomoromantic (SPOILER: this won’t be the last time you see this). it was particularly fun because “hey phantom, weren’t you genderfluid which direction did the homo lean if any?” WOMEN.

author’s note: a safe assumption to make from the beginning is that i was incredibly disinterested in sex. asexuality will persist throughout. i’ll let you know if that changes during this.

a few more months pass. i really didn’t know how to feel about everything and still didn’t really feel attraction. everything was so wild and confusing. i ended up winding back to being agender and aromantic until i was 15. but i will let you know, i cut my hair really short when i was 14 (my hair used to be INSANELY long, like down to my asscrack long. so that’s a fun fact)

the year was 2016. a year i hardly remember in the grand scheme of things, but at least i remember this.

the age i became trans full on! i belieeeeeve i got a binder at this point? i’m pretty sure anyway. and i fucking HATED my body. and i still HATED the idea of dating, but again. pressure. i don’t actually remember what i identified as during this time. stressed?

during this time i was full on sex repulsed. this was an incredibly noteworthy thing about myself during that time. any sexual remark made and i would PARRY that shit.

age 16. this is where it gets funky again. i kinda felt like i REALLY had to date someone. BUT AGAIN: DIDN’T FEEL ANY ATTRACTION, BUT I WAS LIKE “HUH. MEN SURE ARE COOL.” which you’ll find is relatively consistent going forward!

now, a fun thing to acknowledge here is talking about attraction and how it’s relevant to everything here. i really didn’t know what attraction felt like. i was thinking it was like when you had a friend you really liked and wanted to spend forever with. THIS IS INSANELY RELEVANT LATER SO MAKE NOTE. i had a hard time differentiating platonic feelings and romantic ones. what i was feeling here were platonic.

17. more or less the same thing as 16. not much to note here, but it was a pretty fucked up time for me. hurrah!

NOW. FOR THE BIG OL’ 18 YEAR OLD PHANTOM.

JANUARY 2020. My gender just fucking EXPLODED. so i will NOT be detailing that going forward. just know that it’s the same as it is today, but i’m more like. weird with it now.

i also decided during this time that i probably was NOT in fact aromantic. i was in fact very lonely! but still unsure of the whole romantic orientation situation.

But dear fucking god if I didn’t figure that shit out on April 26th, 2020.

why is that specific date so important?

That’s my anniversary, baby!!!

I FIGURED THAT SHIT OUT. I LIKED MEN, BUT MORE SPECIFICALLY I LIKED MY BEST FRIEND. ALL IT TOOK WAS A BORDERLINE GODDAMN BLOOD OATH.

the final verdict:

demihomo (MEN.)

man people thinking my gender identity process was weird aren’t ready for the absolute 180 that was figuring my sexuality and romantic attraction out

[queenofallwitches]

an update and primer:

so the last winter was weird. I had a complete breakdown, went into psychiatric hospital for 40 days in total. two seperate times.

learnt a heap of new things, met a tonne of cool people and had amazing conversations and few fights but overcome my own demons by that.

brain speaking-I have a scarred brain stem and neurological disorder is not a mental diagnosis, but a neurological disorder, proven by MRI scan, ADHD.

also damage to my basal ganglia, and prefrontal cortex.

neurological diagnosis means ADHD is not a "mental" health issue, as some believe, rather a neurodevelopment disorder caused by structural differences in the ADHD brain.

other neurodevelopment disorders include: Tourettes, Autism, Cerebal Palsy, Dyslexia and other Motor and Intellectual Disabilities. (Which recieve, in my view, a lot of insight, media information and stigma reduction by the advocacy networks surrounding these types of disability).

Over the last few years Autism has been over everything, I've seen mainstream media cover Tourettes and yet ADHD is still HUGELY misunderstood, misconceived and misrepresented in media, be in from the angle of documentaries, personal insight of a "typical" case, films, tv, and other media.

one of the first things my dr told me was "in females it rarely presents as hyperactive red-cordial OD child"

which is what my mother BELIEVES, that is because I have an adopted cousin with the ADHD dx who was that growing up, but the representation I'm told is also divergent for women with a higher IQ score than the average IQ. I come in around 142 and tested 123 at age 3 when I was unable to focus, pay attention and had severe trauma. I tested 142 in grade 8.

I'll share my experience as a female who is intellectually gifted, with higher IQ than average, and an adhd brain:

I've been told gifted and talented "genius" children are harder to diagnose because the symptoms present differently, we hide it better (camouflage) and our focusing can be "faked" by mediocre efforts of academic success.. this is true, I would do the assignment the Sunday night hours deadline, last minute, or have my parents half do it for me, plagiarise it (fuck I've killed my whole academic career now) copied but changed my words

from old 1970s encyclopaedias I KNEW they couldn't cross reference (I went through 15 years of school never studying doing homework or assignments and still had top grades).

I literally did not listen, and spent my classes planning the end of the world survival strategies with my GT friend who, basically helped me with my calculus and hard fucking maths, which was the ONLY 50 minutes of the day I put attention into my work.

now I'm going to be heading back to full-time study in the coming months, I get anxious as the pressure of a Bachelor level degree, and the pressure it takes me to perform, is enough to break me down. I've been advised it might be wise to start light (like a basic vet style diploma) and then build up, which is logical, but I keep thinking I'm meant to be doing my thesis by now. which is the kind of pressure one gets as a kid who is told repeatedly, "your intelligence is exceedingly the average and you can do ANYTHING you want"

I wanted to be an astronaut, a storm chaser, and an architect, a town planner and then a journalist. I always held to being a "FBI agent" or spy (I wonder why). so when I found psychology is really a blend of all these things, I kinda found a niche in a psych and social science double degree. but I'm thinking my academic career is LIFELONG, and due to the fact I also want to work in my field alongside my many written thesis coming, I'll be in academics for a long time. I may fail a few things, which I have to come to terms with. I do not fail easily, or readily, but I'm a perfectionist type-a academic who will put my whole life on the line to achieve "merit". I get exams, I get assessments, I read journals super-easy, I talk the talk and walk the walk so well psychologists who are at masters level compliment me on my "knowledge".

when it comes to mental health and trauma, I will always have the personal attachment, called lived experience, which will make failure and burnout, 100 percent realistic. I have to boundary up, bootstraps on, and prepare that yes, my personal "bias" will probably be entwined in this.

which is why I'm looking at the social science for the statistics and thesis writing side of things, and the counselling for the trained therapist side. either way, the degree of counselling requires so much self-insight, and then the social-science will back me away from personifying it. the other choice is criminology, which leads to forensic psychology, which is eternally fascinating. my main concern is the pro-pedophile content Ill be up against, which will look at the anatomy of a shoplifter akin to the devil, and leave the pedophile in the DSM-5 dx "paraphilia" box.

I'm not joining or jumping to anything.

either way I've got 2 year of credit, a heap of pathways and a lot of "academic momentum" from all my life being aimed to be "academic powerhouse". I went through my files and found a lot of awards I'd won in my high school, and top place in the competitions we would be entering in. I remember feeling so sad if I had a "credit" vs a distinction or high distinction, only to see now, a credit in university maths in year 9 is a skillset I don't have anymore so, good on me. or a credit in English, or Science at that age was pretty impressive, considering these tests were random and not studied for.

just a general skills assessment only the top 30 kids in the year were to take on a year by year basis and put out to vet from the top universities and taken by other kids in the same grade around the state.

it puts so much focus on my intelligence, because it's primed to be that way, I know that is true. I know I feel good being academically successful and it gives me a feeling of "achievement" but is it really for me?

I also found 2 letters from my local politicians offering me job placement, work experience and I was 1/4 kids in my 10th grade graduation tom get the letter, and due to my behaviour I pissed ALL the idiots who bullied me off. I was "too pretty to be a nerd" "too smart to be pOpUlAr".

so I made a group of misfits, who are all highly intelligent, creative and my group had the ONLY gay male in the school AND THIS IS BEFORE YOU FUCKING RETARDS MADE IT "COOL". he was bullied badly, so fuck you, you fucks claim "liberalism" but I bet you were the type of idiot who bullied guys like him in high school while you pretended to like my chemical romance and fake cut yourselves. I hate you all, forever.

my grade was full of idiots who were fake emo, who left the scene the moment the scene changed to dub-step and club music. I was there, watching you all, like sonny Moore, went from FFTL to that dubstep skrillex shit he started in 2009.

I dated you, hooked up with you and I went to your gigs. I know who was real and who was fake. I met some of you years later and realised the more emotive ones were the less "alternative appearing".

I can say 1/10000 emo guys from the 00s were genuinely Into the music and scene for the right reasons based on my dating history and this can and will be analysed statistically using SPSS one day to prove a lot. I've had too many relationships from each sub-culture and I have had 4-11 males at a time per public "output" of my energy pursue me over life.

I'm not being cocky when I say I have a long line of "suitors" and its banked back about 50 men. it's been a thing I've avoided as it seems to grow based on my body shape, attitude, appearance, so I am currently out of touch with dating scenes, no interest to try that ANYWAY, given the fact that I have had so many LONG TERM relationships ANYWAY. I can't see another one going well, and at this case, I'm living with an ex but we never went on conventional and now our families label this 3 things: "asexual", "polyamorous" and "open relationship". I'm also "bisexual" but this all to humans outside, looks ridiculous on paper. (wild orgies and lots of swinging or some stupid sex magick probably is what J brother literally thinks we do).

bc humans are intrinsically designed to need to label things they don't understand. we share a lease, not a relationship, and fucking polyamorous, I WISH. there are no girl-girl-guy 3 some, or orgies, or sex magic parties.

this has changed the attitude and perception of this "relation' which Is non-romantic, non-sexual. he can date and likely, will, as can I , and I likely won't date.

I would say 14/15 have had ADHD, or other mental illness and or trauma. which means to me, nothing at all.

I think this "open book" non romantic relationship style of "friends and roommates" not sexual.

attachment is misunderstood by others but works well fro my adhd, meaning I'm not expected to marry, or be a wife in any capacity. he is free to do what he wants, as I am, and open communication is a novel frontier I brought into this in the start, and stayed with for the duration. we fight, but I fight with a lot of people in my life over many petty things. also down to my adhd, I believe, I have rejection sensitive dysphoria, which makes me hypersensitive to rejection, perceived or real.

im not sure if this is trauma or adhd or both. but

I have used sexuality as a weapon in many relationships but it cannot or will not be used here, so I have had to resort to uncovering parts of myself which I never knew, which will stay with me even if he decided to marry and wife up in 5 years, which I'm okay and expecting him to do, and I would much rather that then be trapped in a situation where I cannot be that "wife/mother archetype" as I'm too "femme fatal/other-woman/sex-laced seductress and siren" a "FWB, unicorn, drug buddy, hook-up where im a therapist" or "intellectual and cognitive mind-bender work-study obsessed woman".

both at once and many types of human, including one who is a full-time ceremonial magician of 7 years. I will drink, drug, fuck, fight like males and still be more feminine and high maintenance than 89% of women. I grew up a tomboy and don't mind getting into fun, adventure based situations, like hiking, or anything adrenaline, I would only be reluctant to eat weird shit.

I also have many "neurological" issues including ADHD, and trauma which causes a rupture in the average human and I dating.

I'll tell you how many men have said "you are the unicorn" and then realised what that means, I went as far as canvasing the PUA world back in 2014 after reading the game, a book on PUA, which is essentially, pick up artistry, based on NLP and hypnosis. I did this after reading the copy my ex in 2008 handed me before we dated saying "I gave this up for you". it took me years to open the book, buy when I did I truly believed the only way I would fall in love again, was through PUA. that failed in so many ways but gave me a training foundation for men who were candidates for that, I have trained up J, and the way that sounds is BAD. I know, but I got a lot of value myself, I just don't see it how I wanted to see it.

but that was my original intent, and I achieved this he knows that, knew it was happening and evolved for the best self.

I am thinking we can modulate this into a business model for how I was operating in the BDSM world was mainly psychological, not physical.

I get told all of is incredibly intimidating (I am told) to women and men.

I don't really care anymore, because people have always seen this part of me in the wrong way ANYWAY, but I own who I am NOW. which is what I needed ANYWAY. so it cannot be stolen again, and sexual healing has come from abstinence ironically.

I also don't care what or who is trying to tear up my relations, toxic or not toxic, all people around me will be on a healing journey by default, or cut out of my life, for I am radiating that energy so brightly its impossible NOT to feel that pull.

I will drag your shadows into the light, and make your secrets spin from your lips into my consciousness. its not what I do but its what is design.

I make your weaknesses mountains to climb over. you cannot hide from these in my presence, I won't be this controlling or obsessive female who wants 24-7 attention as I have a life full of meaning without love or sex. I don't want to be wined, dined or expensively gifted, unless specially requested.

I don't want love letters or romantic declarations, this isn't some femnazi bullshit, but it triggers me. I appreciate the efforts and won't make you feel bad about your insecurities, for mine are probably 30 x more pronounced.

I appreciate small things, that most males won't or don't know how to do. like remembering things I've said and being thoughtful. or knowing my silence isn't personal, or a game, but a protective wall. I've had songs sung too me, guitars played, songs written, or things made in ways that are heartfelt. but I've always had them used against me too. so it is the context. I value time, energy, conversations of depth and reciprocal exchange. I also value trauma understanding, my alters and fragments being accepted and valued as me as a whole and a person who is not afraid, or scared of stupid stuff like sensitivity, emotions, feelings as raw as my own. men feel intensely too, lol.

but will only give oral sex 100 times before I don't recieve it, I can communicate now so that wouldn't happen.

but I won't be a bitch about this stuff. I am extremely feminine and care in ways other people, do not, I forget nothing people tell me, so it can be a reward or reverse uno card pull in a fight, but I am not evil or deviant in my relations. I react, depending on how you treat me. I don't need your money, or providing source of income to be okay as I am my own queen, however sharing resources is okay to build something. I don't need to be seduced, but will need to be shown a person is trustworthy.

few cross that.

that will always be time-endurance and testing. there are ground rules I don't play with, or play games. or like being forced or forged into something I'm not. I know abusive and I know safe, and I am a psychology expert, trained psychotherapist and study humans for fun, so I'll always be analysing things.

and I know red flags and I know ego, I know how to placate and please and pleasure, but will only do so, for a bigger and better reason than the mere act of seduction. which is without value and transactional to someone like me, I won't lie.

and I know every tactic in the book, for the book was written by someone like me, many lives ago, and my karma is being burnt for that book.

in terms of walls, I have many, may it be called a maze. or labrnyth.

I will teach you things you never thought you'd know, and change your life in ways you won't ever be able to go back to before. I will blow your mind, sexually, emotionally, intellectually, on all levels, and I'll make your friends and family love me.

I'll bring your walls down and you won't be able to understand this, because you don't understand me, and thats ok.

but I'll always understanding you and make your life better because thats what I do anyway, and people talk to me about things I will never share, as I keep secrets. I am jealous, of everything but, only because I am attached in a disorganised way, and working on that.(I won't even mention how man women or men don't know basic psychology of themselves). I also am a therapist , for my friends and family too.i should not be , but I am. I care, I listen, If you think I'm not listening, I'm still listening. sometimes I interrupt, because I have ADHD and I am horrible at resolute planning, or being "normal". but I don't want to be normal anyway. I need you to recognise and understand my shit, for that is what I do for everyone in my life, and I have helped more than I receive.

I'll probably accidentally give you therapy, but thats fine, because you will uncover your depths and find meaning in this. it's not something that goes bad unless you are fundamentally, evil, even the most abusive relationship I was in, was benefited from this process. yes he's still narcissistic, but he is self-aware. and did I benefit, never, just know the anatomy of self-proclaimed narc and I still can't hate him. will get my civil claim one day.

I will fuck your mind without meaning too. but thats because I fuck my own mind. but the meaning is made in the man- some find this highly offensive or personal (its not). I fuck minds by my own overthinking, or over perception on many levels of reality. so join the ride, or don't come along at all. because once the rollercoaster is in motion, I have no control of what may or may not happen. it's purely experimental.

I am experimental.

and the women who are judging me, are not any better.

look within, and shut the fuck up. self-improve and quit this jealous divide and conquer bitchiness. I HATE gossip, bitches, snitches and fakers.

I look to other women who are intellectually, physically and spiritually "individual". and find value in superior status to my own, which is something my narcissistic ex taught me.

I look for mentors, and teachers and people who will teach me how to improve myself, which I am fearful to reconnect after something is amazing and I can't give anything back of positive value. I am sorry I am working on that.

I won't devalue those below me, but I also need to be mutually benefiting from a relationship.

I dont drag people down, I may disappear if I feel I am doing this by mistake. I am flakey as fuck, and sorry for that. its anxiety and lack of perfectionism, so I am wrong and bad for this. I can change. will change.

if you can find value with my relation, personal professional or romantic, we can move into a symbiotic beneficial agreement based on mutual "terms". but many won't or cannot see this, nor do I impose my bullshit into the lives of randoms at this age.

I don't care if this is cruel, it's real.

I value loyalty, compassion, self-insight/awareness, someone who understands all parts-spirituality, metaphysics while still having intellectual & logical & analytical brain-sight.

I enjoy music, magick and learning new things.

I do not care about appearances I dont think ive dated based on one time. I do value connections and chemistry which is far-few between, I hate fakers. I smell insincerity miles away. but I do respect women who are well-presented, or beautiful, with hair beauty and makeup, I can't do this shit well, so I look up to those who are in professions who do it like art. I find them to be genius level queens who scare me.

I call out bad behaviour and make people uncomfortable if they are repressed. I will change you without even meaning too, I don't even need to date you. its just my presence, over time, amplified by the intensity of the dynamics.

I don't want simplicity, but I also don't need over complexity.

I value passion, independence, creativity, curiosity, problem-solving, deep-disscussions, shared adventures and some occasional risk-taking (lol), sensuality and sexuality for a common cause beyond physical pleasure. I like being taught but not micromanaged. I need my own independence, and need to be trusted with that. I hate being scolded for that like a child, or being pushed to change my ways to conform to societal values. which I will push back and refuse to do. which is not healthy. I don't adult like many others do, but I try to proceed in other ways. and learn to adult like normal people, accept me.

I also value myself, and how I can be celebrated, enhanced and improved vs. the opposite.

I give space, and have boundaries, and understand human psychology, sexuality and relationships in ways few others unless they are trained, can do.

I value MY time. so you can have space to value YOURS. I dont need to be in anyones pocket for a long time. I love being alone, and being around people who are stimulating, but draining people will be drained out of my life quicker than I intend. I am sorry for the people who felt I disappeared, when I was only trying to be 'fair', if I feel I'm a bad influence, I will work on myself until I'm not. I'm still working on it.

I also use this psychology awareness, to enhance communication, connection. you may or may not become an accidental guinea pig. I will be upfront that I am experimental, but that is part of the buy ticket and take the ride. lets work together. not apart.

I am coming from a place of love, and love is what I feel for my animals, which you will be adopting as children.which I want to stop experiments being done on. I love love, in all ways, but hate cruelty of animals and children, violence and suffering. I dont advocate justice, because I find life is fucking cruel, unfair and unjust. by default, so I focus on myself. what can be changed, and what I am able to do in my own locus on control. I will always find myself drawn to the outsiders, the misfits, the vagabonds, the misunderstood. I want to help people who are society, or socially, disadvantaged by trauma and mental illness, but only when I have ability to help myself.

it's a journey.

I will not date anyone who is cruel to animals, outside of specify magical sacrifice, there is not any place for that. nor will I date or fraternise with anything or anyone linked or associated with pedophilia. I won't judge anyone on anything that are outside animal cruelty and pedophilia. I don't and haven't. I keep on good terms with every ex, bar 1 whom I only apologised too this year. it felt good to do that. I change my behaviour.

I am open, but also highly attuned to both logical, factual, empirical , scientific worlds, and spiritual, intuitive, psychic and the "collective unconscious". I walk in both these realms, and I am "conventionally attractive". which puts a lot of pressure on me, to be "stupid". I am always dumbing myself down to fit into normality, but I look ridiculous if I do that so I peacock my intellect.

only to be misconceived.

I give up because I no longer care how anyone but MYSELF can see ME. I won't dumb myself down , but I can enhance you UP. prepare yourself for graded education, evolution and self-growth on mass scales.sorry not sorry.

that sucks for the people who want to be living vicariously through me, for making up to lost trauma years, for family who sold me out for the success I'd bring home, or fake trauma enmeshed friends, or whatever they want or need from me. I value my time and energy, and have given that in abundance, and if you want to be with nut only "one part of me that is alters". I can't provide that now. not sorry.

I have to work on something or not be in a dynamic at all.

I no longer can switch on demand to adapt for you, it will not be effective and that upsets a lot of people. especially now I'm sober. harder to handle this, as I see the world for its ways and why it is, more vividly. I haven't had alcohol for almost 2 months, although, I could drink, I haven't.

I can't do it, anymore. it, being, faking, my selves fronting to impress. I can't. I have no more left to give, and I'm expected by everyone to be a way I can't do it in the way they want.

I will go to another year long outpatient DBT, followed by 10 weeks of A-C-T therapy, and however many ECT OR TMS may or may not help. I'm told it won't (ect) work. but TMS, is something I am open too. but I am telling you, none of this psychotherapy, that will be based on dbt skills, day therapy, intensive skills training, recommencing my studying, and resuming "life worth living" will or can wipe the traumas I've "recovered" memories for.

I will also shut the fuck up, and tell nobody about this if you leave me alone, I told that to my family, and this is open letter to the watchers, stalkers and perps who read this openly as I track the hits on here and have 200+ visits a day every day for the last month. globally. no idea how or who you are but I think its the same people who called the police for the "ayreon song lyrics" seen to be a suicide not last October.

thanks for that wake up call, I have shut the fuck up, since December, more so now. I will burn the journals, or lock them up.

my recovery is not linear, not yet fully integrated and I trust nobody so I don't think my psychotherapy will be deep, I focus on things like ADHD AND my EDNOS. and dbt skills. I won't be talking about sexual traumas.

enjoy the update, and thanks for the "attention".

I have my goals, my work, my meaning and what my life should and could and will look like, but I will not share that with anyone. that means everyone right now.

I've been tested, traumatised and terrorised to the point of not-tolerant of anyone who may bring that back, and banish the fuck out of my sphere every moment I need.

take me as I am, or watch me as I go, which I will go, where I am not wanted I will remove myself, but I will find where I am celebrated because I create that.

I will rise up against all adversity every time but that is survival and that created a resilient and brave woman, in me. who will not be destroyed or decomposed by humans who are fundamentally fucking evil.

I gift you my truth, in progression, and give up the pain of the past.

[theirpartners]

my people, my people.

as a woman, I feel the most attractive when my exterior reads as masculine.

but having a preference for masc women, who typically have a million hang ups about being with other masc women, complicates everything. its torture, having crush after crush on women who will never reciprocate it on the premise of only like hyper femmes. i hate that it feels good to be masculine, but that being masculine means other mascs project their own identity on me. im not dominant. im not hard. i like masculine fashion. i have a feminine spirit. I'm everything twisted together exquisitely. im actually really great. I'm not one dimensional. I transcend assumptions. i transcend your bullshit gender roles. im queer. im gay. i dont do gender roles. being with a woman is amazing, because there are no gender roles. and yet, in the gay scene, everyone's foaming at the mouth over labels, and fucking gender roles. the scene’s not for me. fuck that shit.

it’s kind of heart breaking, but what can I do besides keep it pushing, and keeping being me? if i am myself loudly enough, someone whose soul is on the same path will find me. 

i’ll find my person. 

ill find my people. 

ill find my community. 

I will. 

Because y’all are out there. And im screaming to the heavens for y’all to find me.

[the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see]

i’ve always been jealous of people who are like oh when i heard the word asexual/demi/aro i knew it described me perfectly- like it was never like that for me. you’re so right about trying to fit into a label that i googled and thought eh well close enough. honestly sometimes i feel the world queer isn’t right for me either, but it’s the closest and the most comfortable (like dan mentioned who the fuck invented labels?!! or words?!! i don’t know what the fuck i am!) all this to say i gay

cassie’s a rick stan too, in the beginning of chain of iron she thanks him for letting her use his character name. apparently there’s a nico di angelo in the shadowhunter world. I haven’t read chain of iron yet either though!! i want to read it so bad, but i get the families and characters confused sm lmao.

ahhhHh i’ve seen one of those text memes where magnus is like i hate all shadowhunters and then alec is like hi (this makes no sense i’m sorry lol)

dans video came out! i lost my dinof virginity and daddy dan penetrated me hard with his upload... this is the grossest thing i’ve ever typed out, i hope your proud tree. also i single handedly ruined dan’s pride celebration.

i have so many thoughts about the video but my brain is all sludgy rn so i’ll save them for another ask to save you from reading that mess.

i love you and all our tiny children who randomly pop up on your blog.

mwah! mwah! mwah! (i missed you more so you get three)

also i write these to you right before i go to bed like a little good night letter. that also means most of me is unfiltered indi lol, also kudos to you for always deciphering my typos. i can’t help them i have fat thumbs like daddy dan (okay that was the last one i’m sorry).

i don’t even know what i’m typing anymore but ilysm and you’re so pretty and nice

with a forehead kiss

- indi <3

completely agree, a lot of my friends came out as some form of queer close before and after i did, and they all had specific labels for themselves that they loved, and i was So Jealous of them for already having something they were so comfortable with it, and it made me feel horrible whenever i told them i was changing a label or adding on to something until i quite literally broke down and decided to just use queer bc it was easiest, and then i realized it was "easy" bc i was most comfortable with it. (this led to me crying for an hour on the toilet because why am i so goddamn stupid but technicalities)

oh and that reminded me, i know we havent talked about it recently, but going way back to being queer and having to kind of cut off your heritage, it hits me a lot when im trying to find a name for myself, bc on one hand, i can have an english name and its fine bc its my choice, but i almost feel like im betraying my culture? and i know, deep down, that im not and its fine, but some part of me doesnt believe that. and then on the other hand, the names i find cool, like arjuna or mahesh, work, but then im like do i really want to spend my whole life correcting the pronunciation? bc the thing with picking indian names is that i have to like both the actual way to say it, and the english accent way to say it. and i like Arjuna (even though im not cool enough to pull it off lol) but i dont like the weak way its pronounced by english people. and i definitely like the nickname Aru for it, but i dont like the ahrhoo way english people say it. and i dont want to correct it. and my deadname is telugu and its one where you know what it means immediately, so do i want to carry that theme over to my new name (ex: a name like Anand, or Dharma)? but again, pronunciation. idk im just ranting a bit, ignore me lmao

no yeah, theyre both so supportive of each other!! i just got chain of iron and the dedication says "di Angelo" so maybe a character has that last name? idk, ill read it in a week or so, im super excited!! i get the families and everyone confused but im too lazy to go back and reread so i just suffer 😌 eventually i get enough of a grasp to understand it though, so all's well that ends well

no but thats exactly what happened lmaooo, magnus was like "fuck shadowhunters" and saw alec and was like "...😳 fuck shadowhunters 😏👉🏽👈🏽" and yk, thats valid, alec is a snack tbh. so's magnus but he doesnt need to be told that lmao, he knows.

*sniffs* i am... 😢 so proud 😭 the student has become the master 😓 in all honesty, the video made me cry and i loved it, like there were definitely parts where i was like k move on but the whole thing put together was 😥 im definitely rewatching it at some point (in three years when i have another hour of free time)

feel free to dump i cant articulate anything right now!!

🥰 i love you more, and our tiny children know theres cereal in the kitchen so please dont bother your parents lovelies /j

😊😚 no I missed you more!! *groans fill the air, i am kicked out of the swamp*

🥺 a little good night letter? :(((( thats so sweet, and dw there arent even that many typos (or maybe there are and im too dumb to notice 😌 either one works) (and sTOP)

🥺🥰🤗 thank youuu, but you know you're prettier, and lovely and i love you so much <3

[berri-hopefulspouse]

for whatever you want! 📌 💕 💔 🏳‍🌈 🍀 (I tried very hard to limit myself...)

Genshin Impact time it is then 👀👀 Under readmore tho cuz this is LONG ndfjsjdjsjdd

📌 how did you find your hyperfixation?

I heard of it initially around the launch date of the game, however I remember that I wasn't very interested at first due to the gacha aspect of Genshin. Mostly just because, usually, gacha games don't appeal to me too much. However, when you and a few streamers I watched started getting into it, I started to get a bit curious. Then, one night while bored, I watched one of them stream the game. And I saw just how beautiful the art style and graphics were...and I knew I had to at least give it a try.

💕 tell us about one of your favorite characters and why you like them!

Why must you make me pick one- /j

I feel like I've rambled about Aether & Venti enough to you about why they're my favorites, so let's do Albedo!

Albedo is just??? Literally such a sweet bean. He struggles with loneliness, and isolation, likely due to both his dedication to his studies and his general "colder" scientific disposition. He struggles with the inner apathy in him, that wants to destroy everything in the name of alchemy, and yet he wants so badly to be good. He wants so badly for someone to just save him. And I want to save him from that, even if it means just spending a little time each day making sure he feels seen and loved like he deserves. Not seen just as a great alchemist, or a teacher, or even an artist- but seen as a person. A person with their own struggles, issues, and feelings.

Story quirks and personality aside, he's also just??? So fucking pretty???? Im not even usually into blondes but this game really do be hitting different for me. I just wanna tousle his hair and braid it and see what it would look like if he had his hair down. Plus!!! His eyes!!! Are so soft!!! So focused!!! On everything he does!!! He just seems like someone who could be so graceful and delicate with everything he does, but due to his occupation, he's simply calculated and careful.

Not to mention Klee???? Klee!!!! Big brother Albedo taking care of his baby sister!!!! I just sjcndhxjsjchd aAAAA why am I such a softie for people who are just So Good with kids.

💔 tell us about one of your LEAST favorite characters and why you dislike them.

Okay, I won't lie, the characters I actively dislike are few and far between- but I do have a couple. Most for petty reasons, so I'll talk about someone with an actual justified reason.

ALBERT. MY GUY. YOU FUCKING BASTARD. LEAVE BARBRA ALONE!!! Stop trying to be the r/niceguy for the love of god the secondhand embarrassment ALONE is enough to make me hate you, let alone the fact that because of the recent event you made her CRY?! AND THINK THE WORST??? LIKE! I will LITERALLY send you into Cider lake, do not FUCKING TEST ME! I hope karma brings you fucking justice soon. Like! I know obsessive. But I at least don't fucking stalk people and basically threaten that "the most precious thing to you" is stolen! MDXJSJDAAAAUGH!

This mans frustrates me so INEXPLICABLY MUCH. I will YEET HIM.

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

I always have some headcanons,,,

Aether goes by he/they pronouns, but doesn't exactly put a label on it.

Albedo is ND as fuck. Whether it be ADD or somewhere on the autism spectrum I don't know quite yet, but he's on there somewhere.

Venti has little nose freckles... and a few on his knees from the sun.

Aether is demisexual as hell, while Albedo is just gay as fuck.

(More confirmed but still putting it here anyway) Venti being okay with any pronouns! He don't really care!!!

Barbra being the one to give Ren confidence in their gender & sexuality, just like they did for her 🥰

[Citrus TM Minors Beware]

Aether is a switch, but prefers soft dom, while Albedo is usually a dom. Whether soft or hard really do depend on the level of Brat Ren is showing that day.

Aeth probably has a hair pulling thing. And Albedo probably loves overstim.

Neither of them expect the hell-list Ren has in terms of what they're into.

🍀 do you have any kins or comfort characters from your hyperfixation?

I have some of both!

Comfort charas: Albedo, Aether, Venti, Barbra, and Ganyu

Kins: Sucrose, probably Bennett.

Bonus! Gender Envious: Xiao, Venti, Albedo, Venti, Ganyu, Venti, Diluc, V e n t i-

Thank for the ask Creame! 🥺

[charlieism]

OK WHATS UP FUCKERS IM HERE TO TELL YOU ABOUT THE MOST UNDERAPPRECIATED MOVIE OF OUR TIME

POWER RANGERS (2017)

YES YOU READ THAT RIGHT A MOTHERFUCKING POWER RANGERS MOVIE IS GREAT AND AMAZING AND DESERVES MORE RECOGNITION AND HERES WHY

FIRST OF ALL THE DIVERSITY IN THE CAST IS A-FUCKING-PLUS. WE HAVE:

A BILINGUAL CHINESE TEEN BOY WHO LOOKS AFTER HIS ILL, BEDRIDDEN MOTHER AND LOVES HER UNCONDITIONALLY. 

A LATINA WLW WHO MIGHT BE A LESBIAN BUT HASN’T ENTIRELY FIGURED OUT HER LABEL YET (WHICH IS ADDRESSED AS BEING OKAY IN MOVIE!!!) 

A MIXED INDIAN GIRL SUPERHERO (WHO MAY ALSO POTENTIALLY BE GAY BUT ILL COME BACK TO THAT)

AND WHAT I ADORE THE MOST: A BLACK CANONICALLY AUTISTIC WELL-REPRESENTED TEEN BOY SUPERHERO. WE HAVE A BLACK AUTISTIC HERO BITCH AND ITS NEVER USED AS A JOKE OR AN INSULT!!!!!!!

and then our one nice white boy who said fuck blue lives

ANYWAY SO HELL YEAH REP BUT TO GET INTO SOME VERY VERY GOOD THINGS AND SCENES FROM THE MOVIE WHICH I LOVE

1) THIS SCENE. THEYRE STRAIGHT UP HAVING A CAFE DATE NO I DONT TAKE CRITICISM I JUST THINK ITS CUTE AS FUCK (ALSO I THINK THE YELLOW AND PINK POWER RANGERS LIKE EACH OTHER. SUE ME. ITS P MUCH CANON ANYWAY)

2) THE FACT THAT THE SOURCE OF ALL LIFE ON EARTH......IS BURIED UNDER A KRISPY KREME

3) THE FACT THAT THE MOVIE STARTS WITH JASON PUTTING A COW IN A LOCKER ROOM FOR NO FUCKING REASON AND THAT THIS IS THE FIRST JOKE IN THE MOVIE??? I LOSE MY SHIT

4) MOTHERFUCKING DINOSAUR ROBOTS. I DONT CARE HOW DUMB THIS IS. LOOK ME IN THE EYES AND TELL ME YOU DONT WANT TO CONTROL A GIGANTIC TYRANNOSAURUS REX ROBOT WITH HUGE DESTRUCTIVE CAPABILITIES. TELL ME THAT THEN ADMIT YOURE FUCKING LYING. THERES ALSO A PINK PTERODACTYL ZORD AND IT FLIES SO FUCK OFF

5) JASON BITCH-SLAPS THE FUCK OUT OF THIS GUY FOR BULLYING BILLY AND ITS ICONIC

5A) IN THE END THEY BITCH-SLAP THE VILLAIN RIGHT INTO THE ATMOSPHERE AND SHE FUCKING DIES ITS SO GOOD

6) IMMEDIATELY AFTER KILLING THE VILLAIN THEY MAKE THEIR WHOLE MEGAZORD DO A LIL VICTORY DANCE BECAUSE WHAT ELSE R 5 HAPPY DUMBASS TEENS GONNA DO 

7) BILLY DOESNT REALLY UNDERSTAND JOKES OR SARCASM THEY KINDA FLY OVER HIS HEAD AND ALSO DOESNT LIKE BEING TOUCHED MUCH AND ITS FULLY RESPECTED AND NOT MADE FUN OF HELL FUCKING YEAH

8) THERE IS A LITTLE ROBOT. THIS DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING BUT EVERYTHING IS MADE 10X BETTER BY HAVING LITTLE ROBOTS AND I LIKE HIM SO

DONT AUTOMATICALLY HATE THE POWER RANGERS BC U THINK IT MIGHT BE DUMB BC YES SURE THERE R SOME LOWKEY CHILDISH SCENES BUT OVERALL ITS GREAT AND DEFINITELY WORTH WATCHING ITLL MAKE U HAPPY

TL;DR GO WATCH FUCKING POWER RANGERS (2017) ITS GREAT ITS FUNNY ITS DIVERSE AND RESPECTFUL, YOULL ENJOY IT AND IT DESERVES MORE LOVE

[probablydinosaurs]

GOD i’m tired of people wanting to make young LGBTAQ+ kids suffer all because they have kinds cringy bios. i literally had a augment with a person bc a 11 YEAR OLD had  �� 11 year old bisexual nonbinary kid who doesn't give a fuck about their life. I use all pronouns like she/her he/him they/them, every pronouns in this world “ as there bio. the guy calling them a attention seeking asshole. like there 11!!!!! and there like” they have to know how much the lgbt has suffered and they shouldn't pull that kind of shit” LIKE WHAT??? THERE A KID!!!! and you shouldn't put down young lgbt just bc they don’t know what the terms mean. THERE 11!!! yes a kid shouldn't say there bi. that is weird. but there not a ATTENTION SEEKING ASSHOLE. they just need to learn and explore themselves. being shamed bc they don't know will just make them think there doing something wrong. its the same type of people who say you need to SUFFER OR YOUR NOT TRANS/GAY. like what???? we shouldn't force suffering onto are youth just because we did. just because people in the past did.   just GOD. i hate aggressive lgbt people like this. terfs and just. people who thinl you need to suffer. and that being lgbt is only suffering and that anyone who is happy as lgbt isn't right and your just a attention seeking asshole. LET PEOPLE BE HAPPY WITH THEMSELVES!!!!!! GOD!! like yes. there 11. they don't know any better. they don't know there bi or know what bi means. they don't know there nb or know what nb means. there too young to even have a sexuality/gender bio.  but if they suspect they are or hear if from there friends and go “oh i might be that” we shouldn't shit on them over it. i said i was genderfluid for YEARS and yet im not in the SLIGHTEST. and barely knew what it means but i was YOUNG and trying to find myself. and though misgendering myself and using the wrong labels, i found the right ones. shaming kids only harms them. saying there gender/sexuality is wrong is harms them. even if its to one lgbt to another. 

[kob131]

So the OP of that post just deleted their blog.

Before they claim I tried to harass them- 

I’mma gonna post the response I made to them and link to the original reblog to showcase I did NOTHING to make them reblog.

https://kob131.tumblr.com/post/626185371460468736/modernmythmansion-you-know-what-really-bugs-me

Well good thing I’m not one of the ones who do that.

Too bad you openly say ‘I am speaking for the RWDE Tag which is composed as individuals’ so what you specifically do doesn’t matter.

When I’m expressing my negative feelings and opinions I don’t expect them to listen, I am simply reaching out to those who are just as unhappy, that’s what the RWDE tag is for. Despite what you see on the vile slums of social networks, there are plenty of people who express their thoughts and feelings just to reach out to others and work out there problems

Actually the RWDE tag is for criticisms according to several members of the RWDE tag.

Or is about venting and nothing else? Lot of people love to claim that as well.

You want to proclaim a group is X? Make sure said group doesn’t give conflicting info.

Well not my shit pal. And the ones who I am speaking for are not either.

Too bad they disagree with you. Wanna try saying that to Soku or Dudeblade?

If that’s what they’re gonna say, then say it. Just do it in a way that accepts the reality that they probably won’t listen, and instead use that criticism as well what you liked about the show and create something new.

Can’t, get called egotistical and demanded to be booted if you do.

Same tag did that shit.

Good, because I don’t. In fact you and your ilk love to accuse us of doing that because your definition of threatening and demanding is so broad, and don’t act like you don’t do that, you do that.

“Hey don’t say stuff I don’t do! We can’t be held accountable as a group!”

“Fuck you, your people did this and I’ll hold you accountable as a group!”

Nice double standards you have there.

Tell me, how does one DO expresses their subjective criticism that acknowledges that its subjective and not fact? Please, I would LOVE to hear how its done.

“In my opinion”.

There.

Oh ok, so it’s only okay when your kin do it.

A. Actively attacked RWBY fans.

And B. I call the individuals idiots for the reasons given in my posts.

Your assuming that I have a beef with Jaune, or that other dissenters do have a beef with Jaune as this rabid mob does we are in league with each other. You tend to assume what you want to prove in order to prove something else.  

‘They’re acting in a way I disagree with, they’re not True Scotsmen!’

You never clarified your group and you don’t make any exceptions on who you do consider ‘your side’. Considering the general way you referred to everything- You implied a general side.

Listen to me carefully

And. Who. I. Speak. For. Do. Not. Do. That.

Not me, not Psyga315, not rwde-rwby, not ironpines, not eight-of-penticles, not Adel Aka on Youtube, not us.

And yet I know at least two of those guys (Psyga315 and Eight-Of-Penticles) openly supported that shit. And Adel Aka CAUSED some of this.

Still ain’t buying it,

Well in my experience, RWDE hasn’t done that, and from my experience, there are just as many Stans of RWBY who have acted just as venomous as rabid shippers and those who side with RT seem silent about it. So it looks like we got dirt on both of us don’t we?

Considering I openly act as an individual and actively attack RWBY fans-

Nope, not really.

Also considering your personal experience means nothing outside an individual context-

You willing gave it up.

You could accept the fact that RWDE isn’t a hive mind and I won’t assume all RWBY fans are a hive-mind either.

But of course you sort seem to broaden the definition of “Threatening and Attacking the creators” to any form of dissent.

Too bad you don’t.

But you seem to have a VERY hard time to consider anyone’s experiences outside your own, don’t you?

I have actively disregarded my own experiences for objective fact- That means nothing to me.

If there is an alternate tag besides RWDE I can use so I don’t get lumped in with this mob could you tell me? Because I will happily do it.

claiming you’re speaking as an individual and then using plural pronouns and terms

Not what I said and you know it. Don’t use plural terms and pronouns and saying you speak for a group you do not define.

In fact, if labeling yourself automatically makes you something, could I label myself as a professional fantasy novelist? Because I would love to magically become one by just labeling myself as one.

Too bad that’s not how that label works.

Dude, I’ve seen you been actively hoping against a gay ship in RWBY in the past, and when RWBY shifted gears from Black Sun to Bumbleby, you threw monkey boy right under the buss and sided with the Bumblebee Fans because you need to defend RT so badly.

https://kob131.tumblr.com/post/625914212492951552/im-not-a-homophobe-proceeds-to-pretend-bumblebee

https://kob131.tumblr.com/post/625893206660464640/httpsroosterteethcomgpost5f0047a9-557b-42c0

What was that about assumptions again?

P.S. One of my followers hated me because they were a Bumbleby fan and I am THAT hated in their circles.

If that’s not sycophancy, I don’t know what it

You misspelled ‘consistency’.

In what way am I? Please quote me and dissect it, because just say-so isn’t gonna cut it.

Dude, I’ve seen you been actively hoping against a gay ship in RWBY in the past, and when RWBY shifted gears from Black Sun to Bumbleby, you threw monkey boy right under the buss and sided with the Bumblebee Fans because you need to defend RT so badly.

Make broad generalizations, never bring up evidence, never be specific as to make research hard, bring up a past event to sell to your audience-

How many SJWs have done this again?

Edit: Also deleting their blog and likely running away.

Because you decided RWDE was in league with the mob instead of discern them, you put all those in RWDE as bad, and those not in that tag as good and demand others to play by your rules.

That’s called and In-Group-Out-Group bias, or Us vs Them

https://kob131.tumblr.com/post/626161036319473664/i-just-saw-a-thread-of-tweets-praising

You know, it shouldn’t be hard to make RWBY look worse than FMA. But like every example before hand, a RWBY critic manages to fuck up so badly they make RWBY look better afterwards. Which is I recommend they stop making comparisons- RWBY fans don’t need more bullshit to spread around with the critics shitting themselves and giving them ideas.

Yeah you make a real good example of that.

Also, you make this distinction between ‘RWDE’ and ‘the mob’ ... when the shit I have been listing have been said IN THE RWDE TAG. By popular members too.

Mary Mother of Jesus Christ, how many times I gotta tell you, the internet is a shitty place, we can call this shit out until the cows come home, they aren’t gonna stop.

The world is also a shitty place- That doesn’t mean we give up when people are being shitty. No excuse.

And you people are no different, Allow me to quote a YouTube commenter on Adel Aka’s video Monty’s Vision is irrelevant

“These people are trying to dismiss criticism my claiming they have the moral high ground. Most people won’t insult the work of a dead man and those that do will get shat on by the others who hold Monty as infallibly sacred. Its called a “Threat Narrative”. It works by reducing the: agency, willingness to harm and invulnerability of your side and do the reverse for the opposition. Watch as everyone rushes in to attack your opponent as if they are stomping on a puppy.”

Except that I don’t chew you people out through the moral high ground-

Almost always through factual fuck ups and hypocrisy.

Because they are using the SAME mythology of alienation, groupthink, and authoritarian bullying as they do, even though they hate to hear that. At best, they have command over composure and language, but it’s often used in a smarmy or condescending matter.

Sounds a lot like the RWDE tag (alienating the creators from positive feedback, attack anything that isn’t negative against RWBY and make it so the creators cannot do anything they don’t approve of).

I am speaking for the RWDE tag which is composed as individuals, because I am certain I am not the only one who feels this way, but of course you use the RWDE tag to ghettoize and marginalize us in your con-jobs to discredit us.

Group. Noun. “ a number of people or things that are located close together or are considered or classed together. “ Your talk of the RWDE tag falls under group.

But it’s not just feeling you use but numerous other things like assumed methods.

I don’t need to do any of that- Almost every single post of mine is structured around factual faults beyond any assumption of innocence or straight up hypocrisy, You do it to yourselves, like saying you speak for a specific group of people then a general group like the RWDE tag,

The people I have mentioned before and identified themselves with this tag have CALLED OUT that behavior

And yet you say you speak for the RWDE tag, a far BIGGER group than those people.

But you decide to affiliate us with them anyway because you want to discourage others from listening to us.

You say as the point of my reblog was to call out your inconsistency, nothing about your credibility with you making it about that. Especially since my posts usually tackle you guys on an INDIVIDUAL LEVEL.

Your not our boss, your not our father, your not the police. Quit acting like you are.

First Amendment pal

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