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#just got kicked from a discord server#was posting funnies when someone said 'hey that's not funny that's uncomortable actually'#and i was like 'o shit u right sorry'#(i mean there was a little back and forth before that but it was like less than 5 messages between the two of us)#and deleted the original message#and then im like okay moving on i have more funnies#and start posting them#and then i go back to post more and the server is gone?#i just. )))):#what did i do wrong. was i supposed to like be more upset about it for longer before i went back to the funnies?#that just seems unproductive#but like. they could've at least told me that???#or whatever it is that i did wrong?#how am i supposed to fix things and do better if nobody tells me how im fucking it up?#idk#ik im vagueposting and that seems immature but like. i dw call anybody out in case this is all a misunderstanding#and also i just. maybe one of y'all knows where i fucked up based on context#maybe one of the people in that server will see this and dm me like 'hey here's what went wrong'#idfk! i have no idea what to do here#im just floundering#waiting on the callout post that im hoping will never come
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this is from a post i don't think i agree with the bulk of anyway, but here's a small detail that i nevertheless want to quibble on:
watari very much did not send information to wammy's!! in fact, the function of "the big red button (trademark pending)" was to delete absolutely all the information on the case.
furthermore, none of L's progress was passed on to mello or near; it is stated very plainly that near had to collect information on his own for several years before forming the SPK. the reason roger knows about L's death is that there is a countdown on one of the computers L owns which will send a message to wammy's if he does not use it / reset the timer for long enough. this is why, though L dies on November 5th, the successors aren't told of his death until December 5th.
#death note#op tagged it as “anti near” and “anti mello” so i don't think we'll see eye to eye which is why im not going to engage with the post#directly; it seems unproductive to attempt that discussion. just attempting to provide some clarification on a minor detail here.#no shade to op they can feel think & post whatever they please 🤝🫡 but this specifically is not quite right
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all i'll say about Noah's video is that i think it's weird people are calling it a "bad apology", because it's not even an apology video. the only thing he says is that his opinions have been misconstrued and that he doesn't want people to die, which, yeah, he already said before. there's no sorry, from the video alone you wouldn't even know if he's aware of what he did that made people turn on him so fast in the first place
i know the norm nowadays is to call any response to an issue/a situation an "apology" but sometimes it's just a statement, which is what this is. if he was genuinely "apologizing" he'd have to address the actual things he did, like keep misinformation up, even after it's been disproven and worst of all the "zionism is sexy" thing. what he's doing is just cautious backpeddling by saying everyone got him wrong. just a pretty obvious pr nothing-statement sadly
#seen some people say to watch his 'apology' and just... why are you calling it that#he only doubles down on not wanting anyone to die which is something he's already said before#i didn't expect him to actually reflect and do a 180 in a few months so i'm not surprised#if he ever does change his mind i'd expect it to take a few years at least#but well... just seems like a damage control press statement he's making because of ST production starting up again#my opinion on it in case you're curious#but also obligatory holy shit it's tiring to see people immediately jump to wishing death and disgusting things on him and his family#unproductive as hell#posting online about how much you want a celebrity with a shit moral complex to get hit by a car or something is Still not activism#shockingly#so nothing's changed essentially#that 1 minute video really did nothing who would have thought
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My issue is, I'm seemingly incapable of writing oneshots. I'm so eager to explore various ships, but only come up with epics. Why can't I ever write a short story, or two?.. Some angst. Some smut. Some fluff, with a relationship already estabilished. Hell, I'd probably feel much more productive.
#diary pages#writing journal#fanfiction writing#fanfiction writer#writer problems#writers on tumblr#ao3 writer#like thanks maladaptive daydreaming for turning everything into tolkien level universes -_-#at certain points if becomes really unproductive#while i could be the opposite - i will not fit everything into the stories#so why not take some scenarios and turn them into oneshots/short stories#my ao3 would be... fuller#and not only contain unfinished stories mainly chapter 1 of them#honestly this seems like a great practive with original works too#short stories in general#but also short stories from your universes that allow you to feel them more closely than just working with the plot#you truly entwine with the world not only in your head but also in writing
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#tw vent#I am so. so tired#this week hit me like a freight train#I have final coursework to hand in in less than a week and I'm stressing because I was most definitely not given enough time to do it#and everything inside me is telling me I'm going to fail and I'm pretty sure my teachers think so as well#all my friends are high achievers who always get high grades and put their soul into their work and then there's me. Constantly failing#I try so hard but no matter what I do I never make any progress and I'm afraid I'm going to be stuck here#and that eventually my friends will move on academically and maybe socially and I'll be left behind and feel like a scared kid again#I can't go outside for a walk to try and calm myself down because I fucked up my ankle#so I'm sat here in my room surrounded by work I can't seem to even escape for a second#I just wanna explode#I'm getting to the point where I'm just being unproductive because all I do is sit in bed and rot#and if I'm not doing that I'm at work or at school#and of course I can't even sleep. I can't even rest for a moment#this is shit man#so utterly shit#mel's thoughts
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still thinking about how one of my first yyh meta posts got reblogged onto an sjw cringe comp blog in the year of our woke 2022. truly tumblr dot com, the last bastion of progressivism, has fallen (<- sarcasm) and also i'm kinda baffled that they didn't choose like. me putting yusuke in a skirt or something
#the post was a joke about how sensui might've been lackluster/bad DID rep i liked that all 7 of them were on board with wiping out humanity#like a LOT of my yyh content would make really good fodder for this kind of blog and they went for THAT?? damn#i could probably run a better sjw fail blog than them. i won't bc i choose to spend my time on equally unproductive yet nicer things but#like. guys my he/him nb bi arospec yusuke content is RIGHT THERE. the trans hiei stuff. the kuwameshi rants GUYS IM PRACTICALLY#SPOONFEEDING YOU DELICIOUS NUTRITIOUS CONTENT AND YOU CONTINUE TO SHOVEL DIRT IN YOUR MOUTH INSTEAD#note: i don't think i've actually posted about yusuke being arospec but it might actually be my strongest hc about him#nb yusuke is mostly bc it makes me happy and a tiny bit bc of his approach to gender social norms and group divisions#i think he would think gender is stupid yknow? why the hell should he be a man just bc a bunch of ppl decided it for him?#i think it touches on his anti-authority + anti-chivalry thing well. he has a certain kind of openmindedness to him (emphasis on 'certain#kind' there) visible in his approach to fighters and demon-human relations#bi yusuke is bc he has some of the most 'yeah obv i'd fuck a dude guys are hot. this is an opinion everyone has' energy i've ever seen#but i think arospec yusuke touches on his arc (esp his relationship with keiko) much more prominently#anyway i think it only ended up on there bc someone rbed it talking about a limitation in my perspective (judging 90s rep by 2022 standards#and while i think the points raised were largely valid the guy who made them seems to have been in that kinda circle#also this post reminded me that i (probably?) haven't made a joke on here i've been making to myself for years so im gonna go post that now#anyway most of you weren't around for that so i thought this would be a fun bit of lore to share
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At anyone who works as a doctor or with elderly patients--should you be correcting alzeimers/dementia patients when they say or recall things incorrectly?
#bc bestie and her family keep doing it and it seems largely unproductive#she just forgets and then keeps doing it#it just seems like theyre stressing themselves out lmao#and i dont do that when i interact with this person
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the way that terry sounds like an addict getting his first hit in years with the way he says "danny boy"
#help. like. writing. is hard. and the important part is enjoying it#so i keep giving myself deadlines and not meeting them because the words are coming#but just a bit slower#but like. better for having more time to simmer. but at the same time my brain is like. 'do it faster'#'unproductive'#fucked up how we can't go from mentally ill to totally normal and well adjusted once we make our mind up. like. lol.#ive been normal for 48 hours why aren't i fixed yet.#when the addict brain meets the depression brain#somehwat related but i really do want to do some sort of meta piece on daniel and how his 'rivals' almost all seem#to have issues with addiction. like specifically with johnny's alcoholism because i just think there's so much untapped potential#also the wayy daniel serves as a replacement for them in a way. (definitely terry)#sudden image of terry singing toxic#'i need a hit baby give me it'#it = his ass#im tired but i want to get this chapter done before i quit for the day and at this point im just procrastinating lolol#wip thoughts
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i haaaate this
#when people dont know that things are bad and ask you a question that would require you to say 'things have been catastrophically bad'#and it just seems like an unnessecary cry for pity to say all that. but acting like shits normal is equally unproductive if not worse#like ive always been one for the quiet exit. just hard to be like 'oh yeah uh i actually tried to hang myself a week ago#so i didnt really bother to make plans next week'
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the utter DESIRE to WRITE SOMETHING vs the mortifying feeling that NOTHING IS RIGHT OR GOOD ENOUGH and the IMPOSSIBLE TO RESIST urge to just waste my entire life fucking around online unfulfilled
#sometimes i equate that to my mental illness#like when it's HARD then of course fucking around watching silly videos is simpler than#actually pushing myself to write#and especially when i question if i even DESERVE to write#but i just HATE myself for my lack of focus and constant time wasting lately#it feels like all i want to do is be SO unproductive and yeah you don't#have to CREATE 24/7#but i can't focus on a book i can't write#all i seem to want to do is watch unsatisfying little videos cause it's easier#it's so disappointing#maybe working so much more is a factor but that's depressing
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i think it's okay for individuals to not have opinions and well-thought-out solutions for every issue on this planet. has anyone else heard of this
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okk, I've been at a major blank for the castle infiltration chapters I had been writing. Normally I just write whenever I get the inspiration to, though it's been almost 2 months now and I still have absolutely nothing for that story. I do not think I'll continue that story; if I do, it probably won't be anytime this year. I do have a new hyperfixation and story idea though so that will probably become my whole blog. I'll start posting about that soon!
hopefully
#i had been so excited for that castle infiltration story but ive been so unproductive on it for so long now#everytime i think of it i just think back to how unproductive ive been in general with life and stuff at the moment#its made me really hate thinking about that story which sucks because i really loved the characters#and i had big plans for the story and everything#this stuff just happens though ig#and at least i have a new story now that i can direct my attention to#that way i can feel at least a little bit more productive#really hoping that i don't give up on that story idea too#i didnt even think that i liked writing that much until i stopped#and realised that it was kind of the only thing i was using to validate myself and feel productive so im not just wasting my days#i guess im probably setting myself up for disaster with that#i seem to have this really big fear of not being productive with my time while everyone else around me is#i feel like ill just wake up one day and ill be like 10 years older despite having accomplished absolutely nothing#only being able to 'show off' things that i did when i was a kid#im trying to break that mindset but it may be a while#for now ill just keep writing#sorry for the massive rant in the tags it wan't supposed to be that long lmao#not writing#castle infiltration#ok thats enough tags
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i wonder all the time if you wanted me to die too
no, never anyone else especially not when i was younger. just myself.
#i strongly hate a lot of people nowadays ive been shown time and time again that humans are horrible awful people#it takes a lot for me to trust anyone especially people i dont know#i am even spiteful and angry towards my family when they slight me#just my whole life is full of stress and anger and its so unproductive i cant do anything about it it seems like#i have good moments sure but the bad is outweighing that by a lot especially lately#if i could just stay home and do the things that i want to do i dont think things would be so terrible#but my job genuinely takes my whole heart and soul and crushes it on the regular theres so much death and everyones burnt out#nobody likes it there and the higher ups just turn a blind eye and enforce even stricter rules and the people doing the most suffer more#sorry this turned into a whole rant im just not doing very good lately#i nevwr wish death upon others unless they're hurting children animals deliberately thats kinda my one thing i think#only myself
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Weirdly therapeutic art activity I did earlier today! When u get The Guilt or something similar, you can write the words "The Guilt" or that sth similar on a drawing thing of some kind (painting, collage, game notes for 3ds, etc) and then cover up the entire area with symbols of your choice. I did eyes, and rotated through the three colors on game notes for 3ds. Then, after you can't see the original words and you want to stop, use some material or color you've not used at all (like the eraser tool, newspaper, or even bright orange paint if that's more your speed) to make a big, central symbol and write "It Will Be Ok" on the lines of the symbol or filling it in, your choice.
Here's my example :3
#tw eye contact#tw eye imagery#this started because i was thinking about unconventional angels and i like drawing eyes#and i thought “what if i tell the guilt to shut up in a new way” bc for me the guilt is unproductive#its literally guilt over existing and every mistake ive ever made. even things that nobody would call mistakes.#so i wanted to draw this#to try and quiet it#and it worked! i just followed my gut and it made the guilt almost unnoticeable until my nap#so i do feel a lot better now#of course mileage may vary and only do this if you want to#but quieting and correcting the thing that eats away at me seems to have helped a ton so maybe itll help you?
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I'll have to track down through my pile of essay video viewing this morning but I heard a quote from who I think might have been Judith butler about how it's futile to define what a lesbian is and I've been feeling that since I heard it this morning
#thinking about how straight has only been given definition in terms of othering Gays.#i dont laabel myself any ore because its just seemed so unproductive to do so#im gay and trans what more do you want from me#im not quite butch all the time and if you pull up a kinsey scalle to see if im allowed to say Dyke then ive already ran off with your girl#and he and i have matching lavender faggot tattoos now#badger rants
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i have a reoccurring daydream of snapping my fingers and letting my teacher feel all my worst symptoms when she tells me that my pain isn't a justification for not working and i should just be able to get past it and "be responsible"
and god do i wish i could just do that instead of biting my tongue and politely telling her that's not how it works :(
The disabled person's dream: a machine you can hook up to people (mostly doctors and family members) that lets them feel your symptoms firsthand so that they finally believe how horrible you feel
#i'd appreciate being listened to and believed#but people can't seem to fathom that some people are just in some kind of pain all of the time#and that yes it is debilitating even if we are “used” to it#lmao#hate feeling unworthy because i'm unproductive
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