#that i watched abt 2 or so years ago
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save me old flipnote studio MVs.......
#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones#is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme.........#its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid#i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over#theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later#especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure#interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries..#god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and#cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE#CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus#on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with#and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR#i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with#strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid#someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from#the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors#ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK#lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too#now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here#UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS#yapping#nostalgia
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WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME BURROWS END WASNT FREE
#I DIDNT TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT IT BUT STILL. SOMEONE SHOULDVE WARNED ME BEFORE I GOT COMPLETELY INVESTED#I know next to nothing abt dimension 20 I’m pretty sure I just saw a post abt burrows end specifically MONTHS ago and was like 👀👀👀#opened a tab with the first episode to watch later and promptly forgot about it#until last night! having a bad night and was like hrm what if I just watch smth#and I’ve been reading watership down recently!! finally got my own copy bc it was my favourite book when I was like NINE#so I am fully primed to fall in love with a story abt little animals rn and man#I am OBSESSED with this and also realising yeah I’m at a point where I could get very into tabletop rpgs now#what if. what if I just get dropout. what if I just do that. would that not be fun. I would like to see the stoats do stuff#i am so in love with Ava and her player and I understand so much more about brennan lee mulligan now. and VIOLA#viola may be my favourite character I’m obsessed with how she interacts with other characters.m#i NEED to know what’s up with thorn’s cult thing. and also thorn. what is going on there#hrrgrhehh the thing that’s holding me back is I’m allergic to subscriptions#impermanence. even though I know it’s fairly unlikely I’ll wanna watch it again any time soon I don’t like the idea that I’d have to like#in a couple years pay for it again or not be able to bc I can’t afford it even though I already paid for it once#I’m a books + cartridge games guy and it shows.#okay. I will chew on this. the price is not unreasonable and I have coincidentally also been looking at make some noise clips#it does not help that I basically never watch things but my favourite podcast is also ending within the next month (2 episodes left)#and this IS primarily audio so I could cook + watch mayhaps. and I’ve heard good things abt all other d20.#they have a 20% off first year deal on. annual would make me less stressed long term if I end up liking this bc cheaper + choice premade#and would also mean I can do it now and not feel bad abt wasting the first month bc I won’t be able to watch much for a few weeks#fuck it I’m allowed to make frivolous purchases sometimes I will simply swallow the subscription distaste#more stoats >:)#that aside all the players are incredible I’m pretty sure when this is done I’ll wanna watch other seasons just to see what else they do#okay go do the thing I believe in you you can spend money sometimes#luke.txt#update I downloaded the app. I am putting off the decision for another day now bc it’s 1:21am and I have not been thinking clearly <3
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Lalaloopsy……lalaloopsy save us….save us lalaloopsy
#im watching Lalaloopsy commercials and…..#these dolls are my life they always have been I love them#they came back like 2 or so years ago and we all should’ve been lit and crazy abt this#💬 beca.txt#sigh I love these little commercials and imagine the play sets they could make if they were as relevant as Barbie#;;(((((
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one of the biggest mistakes of my life was not watching jojo rabbit in theatres swear to god... one of my top 5 movies
#i wanted to watch it actually but i didnt because i was a fucking loser with no friends and no car (too young for lisence)#and idc abt watching movies alone i love doing shit alone unironically but bc i had no car id have to go with my mom or dad#and i was like fuck no not worf it tf this movie think it is? the lego movie?#and now i finally watched it like a month ago and found it it literally is same level of amazing as the lego movie#shit makes me crazy you know that its good when i say its as good as the lego movie okay#cowboy robooty who was chronically obsessed with the lego cinematic universe for like 5 years#im still one of the strongest warriors okay but i cant be the strongest anymore bc the lego movie 2 should not exist and YES. REX DANGERVWST#MAKES ME A LITTLE CRAZY I LIKE HIM SO MUCH OKAY. BUT AUAGWHSHS THE PLOT AND AND THE MESSAGE AND THEY HAS LITERALLY ONLY HALF A SECOND OF#GOOD COP BAD COP. WHERE TF WAS HE?!? HES PART OF THE GANG!!!!#AND THE WHAT THEY DID TO WYLDSTYLE OHHHH MY GAWWWDDDEJNSKWLS#AND THE WHATEVRAWANNABI MARRYING BATMAN BULLSHIT.......................... JUST IGNORE LEGO BATMAN MOVIE... OKAY THEN.#Sorry. robooty crazy as usual u know me heehee!#but yes i fucking love jojo rabbit and i am still obsessed with the lego movie and...#well i think the lego movie is one of the greatest movies made of all time.#so lego movie is second favorite movie and jojo rabbit is swimming around in top 5#number one is a secret ee hee hee!
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guys... this crown replacement is gonna cost me almost one thousand dollars out of pocket with supposedly "good" dental insurance. it's over for me.
#what the fuck is america for real#i swear to god i just blanked on the phone when this man told me this was the estimate. like u have to be kidding.#i paid under 300 like. a couple years ago. prices cannot have gone up that fucking much#what a predatory ass system im abt to lose my whole fucking mind like#what is this crown thats going in my mouth made of??? fuckignfjmdl rarest substance on earth???/#pain has subsided the past 2 days so watch me just not get this shit done and permanently ruin my mouth idgaf ill just die#the united states straihgt up wants me to its fine
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trick to fun dialogue is just to make it a little hard to understand. maybe thats a cheap trick but i dont care
#or not even that hard necessarily just like it takes like 2 listens. it takes attention#and what 'harder' is is subjective depends on the type of dialogue you hear a lot and your vocabulary level#watching the nevers right#and im watching this scene and theres this character who exactly hits this spot for me#like 5........wait 5 years ago is not as far as i think it is.........7 years ago (ugh) i woudlnt have understood what she was saying#like i'd know all the words separately but iwouldnt have understood what she was saying at all#but rn im like oooh this is the exact balance between obscuring your meaning and substance#i think oftne in my writing i obscure more than there is substance#there usually /is/. /some/ substance#theres usually substance. just theres more complication than there is substance. here the balance is better#bc someone needs to say these words hfkghgj#the other day while reading scripts im making myself rewrite i was like 'i coudltn do this in a fic. iwouldnt get away with this'#lines that work in a script (bc they'll be acted) fall flat in fic bc we dont have the luxury (or limitation) of actors#but it really made me think abt like..what you need to do in a script for television vs in a fic based on that television you knwo what i#mean? different things you need to work for. WE need to work for that the characters sound like Them. that we can Hear them#tv gets that almost free. the words will be in the right voice in the right body that gets you like 60-70% of the way#less sometimes depending on the specificity of the character&circumstances i was mostly thinking abt the doctor who maybe has more leeway#and tv has the limitations of 1) needs to be sayable. but also 2) needs to be flatter i think#you cant put 5 meanings in every line bc theres plot that needs to keep going and sentences need to stay short#so you get a lot of character work for free i think but in return you need to rein yourself in in that way#anyway idk these observations were just based on like me rewriting the 14 specials and going 'this line fucking sucks in fic' fhgkjhgkjgh#not that it was a bad line! just. boring .meaningless. doesnt add. filler noise. i dont have TIME for that in fic. i lose people#idc if i lose readers i dont know abt that but i lose myself honestly very short attention span keep every word interesting#scripts are fluffy and repetitious. repetitive. but repetitious sounds funner#anyway its fun trying to match that tv need with my own lines that i add in#not too obscure. needs to be sayable. but with my own 'half the spices cabinet in my single cup of hot choccy' approach to writing#(and hot choccy)
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grrrughrgurh i keep seeing puss in boots stuff n i have to stop myself from going innsane i wanna watch it sooooooo bad
#i love puss in boots so much whahhhbaisikajc#watched the first puss in boots today even though i said id do it like. 2 weeks ago LMAO#im ngl fuck that egg#its been awhile since ive actually been excited to watch a movie#OH SHIT WAIT WHENS THE SPIDERVERSE COMING OUT I FORGOT ABT THAT#OH ITS THIS YEAR... that was a movie im also very VERY excited to see#like. i didnt care abt spiderman that much but then i saw spiderverse and my whole life has changed i love it so much#i should def rewatch spiderverse#not right now tho.. its almost 12 and i need to sleep#its been hot all day and now its raining abit and its making everything humid i just wanna go to bed#goodnight !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I was tagged by @niteview to post my comfort movies & tv shows!! hi lissa <3333 thank you so much for tagging me!!! i LOVE this!!!!
Movies:
me: *holding my old cartoon dvds and crying* ALL OF THEM
(in no particular order)
1- Howl's Moving Castle
2- Captain America: The Winter Soldier
3- Avengers Endgame
4- A Simple Favor
5- Crazy Rich Asians
Bonus: The Phantom Of The Opera (havent watched it in a hot minute but i would not be the woman i am today (weirdo) without this movie)
TV Shows:
(in order)
1- Bones
2- Suits
3- The Originals
4- Children Of Nobody (also known as Red Sun Blue Moon) (kdramas count right?)
5- The Witcher (specifically season 2)
Bonus: The Time Traveler's Wife (2022)
Tagging: @uh0paque @joosgf @starlightfantasy @haechannabelle @biboramp3 @nunutual (i wanted tag my new svt moots too but im shy🫣💕)only if you guys want to!!!!!
#i could honestly list 20 movies.... like most of the classic barbie movies. a lot of older disney movies...#some 2010s teen comedies like Wild Child and Saint Trinians... i love these two...#my top comfort movies used to be La La Land and The Fault in our stars for years sdjlsdjf i had an emo phase#for tv shows id say mostly the first 3... like ive watched bones and suits a BILLION TIMES START TO FINISH#i debated putting spn in there but i only rewatched it completely once. it was a comfort show when it was ongoing but i didn't care->#-> that much after it finished#there are also a couple of new shows i really like but i didn't put them there bc idk if theyre gonna become comfort shows but#i really loved watching Only murders in the building :((((( cant wait for next season#also Blue eye samurai... literally has been living in my head rent free since i binged it like a week ago or so#im lowkey embarrassed abt the bonus show but... yeah. i know the concept is super weird but... theo james <3#i swear me having only 2 white actor crushes who are both british IS A COINCIDENT (the other is henry cavil (mostly as geralt))#no one believes me...#anyway. i will shut up now <3#tag game#mentions
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dude do you have any idea how rare you are reading homestuck in 2023 with No knowledge going in?? i want to study u under a microscope
hope u keep having fun!! im living vicariously through your liveblogging
!!!!!!!!!!wheh!!!!!!hehehweh!!!!!!
#my asks#yeah im surprised too ivw like. passively know abt the existence of homestuck but#i didnt know ANYTBING about it#this happens 2 me a lot i get into rlly popular media from years ago that i somehow have evaded spoilers for#i think its some mystical force protecting me Or my fantastic ignorance#homestuck#im glad ppl are having so mucu fun reliving homestuck through my liveblogging !!!!!like watching a baby butterfly being born …!!
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Hi! I hope you’re doing good in life! So it’s spooky season so I have an ask related to that. I don’t know if you play horror video games, watch horror movies/shows, or read horror books, but if you do, I have to ask: What is the most disturbing book, or video game or show/movie that you’ve played/watched/read? In my opinion, there is two types of horror: the ones that scare you, and the ones that traumatize you. If you can think of any book, movie, or game that really kind of fucked you up, I’m curious to know if you feel like answering. I hope you have a good day and a good life.
Hey, I’m doing good and I hope you are too!
the answer ended up being really long lol
Woof, this is honestly a pretty hard question, since I can't really name any horror (or otherwise) media that actually left me kind of fucked up for a bit, at least not to the degree where it affected me for a while. I probably haven't been really fucked up by anything since I was a kid, so I'll try and recall what a few things fucked me up back then...
Off the top of my head I know that two different spongebob episodes got me bad, the first being one with that tunnel of love thing (tho tbh i havent seen it in a while so it might still spook me today) and the one where i'm pretty sure for whatever reason squidward gets locked in some small locker and has some kind of fucked up dream, whatever that was. I remember there was an eagle in that one. the eagle terrified me. (i looked them up, and the first episode is titled 'tunnel of glove' and the second is 'squidward in clarinetland'. with how badly that second one got to me, i'm surprised i ended up learning to play the clarinet at all)
other than that, i think the courage the cowardly dog episode 'the house of discontent' got me pretty bad, too, but i think everyone who saw any amount of that series as a kid has at least one episode that got them fucked up.
there's probably a handful of scooby-doo stuff that got to me when i was a kid, but i could not name any specifics (asides from charlie the robot's original episode, christ) because i think i managed to see just about every bit of available scooby media around that time.
nowadays stuff still does kinda fuck me up, but it's usually only for brief bits of time. the most recent example I can think of is cowboy bebop's 20's episode, pierrot le fou, which is honestly some great horror, especially how it uses the show's typical format and flips it on it's head, but i wouldn't necessarily say it got to me because of it being scary, more because of the way the ending disturbed me for a bit. it was the only episode that had me stop afterwards and really look into it for anything other than clarifying a character's gender, lol.
the endings of both neon genesis evangelion and end of evangelion had me shaken, the latter more so than the former, but not really due to horror aspects, though. i did have to take a walk after finishing end of evangelion. i don't really watch horror movies, i just... read the wikipedia plot descriptions of them.
honestly, i think some of the more popular youtube analogue horror series have gotten to me worse (likely due to the fact that they can get a bit more fucked up than, say, a tv show or movie), specifically the walten files (which i did watch) and the mandela catalogue (which i just watched wendigoon's vids on), and those two and mostly because facial distortion is generally just an incredibly effective form of horror imo. a lot of the time (esp with the childhood examples) the way i was 'fucked up' was that id be in be visualizing the stuff that scared me, and both the mandela catalogue and the walten files had me doing that for a bit.
now that i remember it, i was really scared of fnaf when it first came out. i first learned of it second-hand from seeing some other kids looking into it, and the bits and pieces i put together about it really scared me.
honestly, it's usually straight-up disturbing sequences or imagery that gets to me the most, and i know my limits well enough to generally identify and avoid that stuff, which is probably why i don't have too many recent examples. i've got one or two examples of non-horror movies that fucked me up as a kid, but that's mostly because they were wildly inappropriate for someone of my age (at the time) to be witnessing, so that's a different sort of topic.
i mean, i think i generally have a decent tolerance for fucked up stuff in media, anyways, i mean, i enjoy berserk and haven't really been too upset or disturbed by what happens in it (look theres some nasty shit in there im not saying its not that bad) so there's definitionally some kind of line that media needs to cross to really get to me nowadays, or it just needs to be a specific kind of fucked up. books generally don't do that for me so i don't have any book examples. no games, either, though shadow mario and the haunted house segments in super mario 3d world scared me so much that i had to make my mom do the levels for me, and i'm pretty sure scooby doo: first frights scared me a bit when i first played it on ds.
other than that, though, I just think that, in pokemon x, the story that an npc tells you during your first trip to route 14 and then the strange office building encounter with the animation-less hex maniac creeped me out pretty bad.
yeah, it's kind of hard for me to think of anything (recent) that actually really fucked me up or anything. most stuff just scared me, never really fucked me up or figuratively traumatized me in recent years.
#asks#zeldanamikaze#salty talks#i think for media to really fuck me up there has to be some kind of intense emotional aspect to it or have some specific visual stuff#my enjoying of berserk is proof that it takes specific stuff to really get to me. the way i tested if id be fine reading berserk is so#fucked in hindsight. i straight up looked up the two most infamous eclipse chapters online and read them to make sure id be fine#what the fuck. i just dove in head first fucking god#anyways yeah. like berserk is generally fine for me but cowboy bebop episode 20 did have me a lil fucked up. its so good#ive been looking more into horror stuff recently and i have a lot of respect for (well-executed) horror games like damn. i wanna play#silent hill 2 so bad. it's a really interesting genre when pulled off effectively on a level deeper than just 'oh look at this scary thing'#anyways. i recently watched mononoke and its not really horror just kinda unsettling. its so fucking good#tbh tho there are some fanfics ive read that did actually fuck me up (which is why i kinda have an aversion to angst)#but i didnt want to talk abt those bc i dont want to name names or anything. theyre good fics they just affected me pretty negatively#generally its more like. freaky irl things that fuck me up but thats not fun to talk about its just like. depressing#sorry it took so long to reply to this i hadnt really sat down to write it or anything an just. couldnt think of much lol#anyways ig bottom line is that its more likely for non-horror stuff to fuck me up? or its gotta be specific stuff idk#i played a few hours of portal 1 at a friends house years ago and for some reason it creeped me out a whole lot#strangely enough i dont think scooby doo mystery incorporated fucked me up when i first watched it#i think there was like 1 episode that scared me more than the rest but it was never too bad#and that show is regarded as likely the most actually scary scooby thing. its rlly good#im pretty sure scooby doo was my first (or one of my first) special interest#also (similarly) i dont really get nightmares too often my dreams are just kinda really weird most of the time#i did actually have like. a scary dream recently but i dont know if id fully call it a nightmare
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#2 whole weeks sobeR let’s talk abt it#this the longest I’ve gone without a crumb of weed in my system in 5 yrs and the second longest in 8 yrs#For a long long time I thought I was self medicating the adhd but turns out I was making it Significantly worse#I have an attention span now I can watch tv without scrolling on my phone or playing w fidget toys#My apartment has stayed perfectly clean for the past 2 wks#haven’t rly struggled with eating or sleeping routines are v important wit it tho#been relying heavily on safe foods I’ve eaten the same exact thing every day for 2 weeks but it’s fine#ashwagandha helps me not wanna peel my skin off in rage#time moves INSANELY slower when ur not h*gh every waking second of the day these have been the Longest 2 wks of my life#but also I have So Much more time to do things and SO much more energy to do the things#I thought being anxious and exhausted was just my constant state of being but turns out that was Also just the weed#The insane nightmares have been The hardest part but most of the time my dreams are just weird#Feeling emotions is weird I’ve cried more in the last 2 weeks than I have in the last 2 years#I cry about good things I cry about beautiful things art as a whole is just so moving#self regulating after stressful things like work or staying with my parents is definitely New as w as decompressing after socializing w ppl#I do things like paint and journal and make silly little bracelets now#Idk man it just hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be#A few months ago me and ******** were talking about how we’d actually k word ourselves without it#turns out the jazz cabb was making my depression and anxiety so much worse than it actually is#shits literally fine#Anyways don’t let ppl tell u u can’t develop an unhealthy relationship w weed I was h*gh every waking second of my day for 5 yrs#Last time I tried this I immediately became an alcoholic instead this time I don’t even feel the desire to have a single little drink#Overall I have A Lot more self control in every single area of my life#I don’t waste my money on dumb shit I can eat normal amount of food like a normal person#The thought of buying my favorite cookies and only having like Two of them used to be such an unreasonable concept to my little brain#I don’t know if this is gonna be a permanent thing I definitely know I can’t do it habitually#just like I learned I can be normal about alcohol if I don’t keep it in my house and only do it when socializing for special occasions#anyways if ur thinking about taking a break from ur favorite substance maybe give it a try#thx for coming 2 my ted talk if u read the whole thing I luv u take care of urself
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so despite the ending being kind of garbage . hfjone was really a stare at the wall after the last episode kind of show
#made me sorta nostalgic bc a couple years ago i used to be soooo into object shoes#shows*#so i went into it like. ah ill just watch this short silly one for old times sake#nah its. psychological horror and dread time !#damn.#i do wish the end wasnt. that. that was so. :( . i was hoping we would get to see everyone go home like they wanted#but at the same time. damn there was some good existential dread moments in there#i want 2 know more abt bryces afterlife. what was up w his mom/sister.#i wamt . charlotte to go back and apologize to her friends.#there was like. no . conclusion. to anything#like. damn. :(#reaction time
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out of every piece of shit character in the history of media, the cigarette smoking man is one of the MOST pieces of shit, imo. legit he’s so fuckin annoying the way he’s always just hanging around without doing anything except making some face as if he’s concerned about something, even during relatively normal conversations
he’ll just sit somewhere in the background, make The Face, smoke his stupid-ass cigarettes and then fucking leave them everywhere too. he even made an oversight(?) and left them in krycek’s car which allowed mulder to connect the dots that krycek was lying
and then he’ll go around the place as if he’s got authority to tell people what to do even though the viewer doesn’t yet know who he is or who he’s actually working for. some of the other characters know, but all the viewer sees is just some apparent lackey who thinks he can give people orders and it’s just?? bro who the fuck even ARE YOU THOUGH???
how come nobody in the show knows his goddamn name either? even when he’s in skinner’s office, skinner never says what his position is, or even some kind of (fake) name to refer to him as. did he seriously just show up at the fbi headquarters one day like “hi i’m gonna hang out here now, jsyk” “umm okay. name?” “let’s just say i’m ‘the man’“ - and nobody there cared to background check him or something? granted, some of them do know who he is, but obvs not ALL of them do. is no one curious about that or are they just afraid to ask questions? (okay probably the latter) i swear though, there has gotta be a group of agents who would really like to know what this guy is even contributing with to the workplace. bc as far as i’ve seen (season 1-2), all he’s done is what i’ve described above. well, those things, and collecting (aka. stealing) evidence of aliens etc. and hiding it away in that big storage room-thing. fucker.
this is why it was the best thing ever when mulder was in skinner’s office and skinner was like “get the hell out” and you thought he was telling mulder to get out, but turns out he was saying it to the smoking man! the look on his face when he understood that skinner was talking to him was one of the tv-show moments of all time, i swear.
anyway, i hope there’ll be some comeuppance in future seasons for this annoying-ass gent. don’t disappoint me, show
EDIT: watched “one breath” (great ep btw) today and at least mulder got to threaten this bitch some! LET’S FUCKIN GOOOOO
#x-files#cigarette smoking man#(no hate on the actor obviously. the character just grinds my gears)#fyi i did watch season 1-2 years ago but then it fell off#now me and my friend are rewatching it all from the beginning and have reached season 2 yet again#so yeah i'm a little bit late to this party (as usual)#so anyway i was always annoyed by this guy but now i'm finally putting it to words#speaking my truth. amen#just like when i made a similar post about krang from TMNT#also i am loving skinner's little redemption arc#and man. i had vague memories abt deep throat's successor being a douche and let's just say--#i was right. he's such a douche like wtf
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#tbd#just thinking a bit before i sleep#today was mostly a good day but. i think i'm still tired yeah i feel like disappearing#just. sit by the sand n watch the waves. lose myself in the sight n the sound n#just sit there until the sun comes up n#thought abt it n i haven't been doing well at all lately but fiction's been a great comfort. n. stuff online in general like my friends her#i think that nightmare i had of being completely replaced n forgotten hurt me more than i thought. burying the pain was a mistake but i#don't want to make others worry#n.. that feeling of worthlessness n regret n feeling lost n utterly confused. forgetting myself n everything#peaked 2 nights ago. when i.. nah when i accidentally did That yeah#i really don't want to think about it anymore but i know it isn't smth i shld just keep to myself but#it.. haunts me so much. whether i reach out or not it'll hurt. n i'm willing to just shoulder the pain alone. i'm used to it anyways#n i'm so confused bcs despite my disposition or wtvr when it comes to reality. fiction tells me a different story#both are truths. they can coexist n they do but#goddamn i don't want to think of it anymore. i just want to.. live in that moment forever#those moments. under the starry sky. the cold night that warmed my heart or#the sight of the dawn this morning. the moon n the horizon. the clouds yonder n#dusk earlier as well. the wonder i felt for life as a whole; a feeling i missed all too dearly#time's going by far too fast. listening to edge of dawn is making me emotional rn oh my god#december's nearly over. the year is. so much is on the horizon n i'm both simultaneously anticipant & hesitant to face it all#it's a bittersweet feeling when you're living n going about your day like i've been recently but it feels like a dream#n soon i'll wake up. the gentle rays of the early morning sun will quickly turn into scorching heat. n then#i'm tired of writing even though i cld add more to that but hmm. the cycle goes on n on. morning then night then the morrow comes once more#until a point where all these days accumulate n.. yeah#yk what i'll just go to sleep instead. i'll just do more tmrrw n. yeah. i'll try to stop or distract myself before these thoughts get#too much like two nights ago or smth. i'll try to sleep peacefully tonight#distract myself from some aspects of reality in just this moment temporarily.#despite how tired i am i'm still so hesitant to rest n sleep but i'll push myself to do it now. gn. i'll just do more tomorrow
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#'thats very uncharacteristic of you.....are you dying' dhfjkhgh#they just got away from a trap the fbi set for them#so what i didnt realise a few years ago when i was watching this show wiht my dad on netflix is that it's basically just abt relationships#it's like. spy stuff as avenue for relationship stuff#it's very obvious now on second watch#but whats great is i like relationship stuff now so :) i dont mind#also im obsessed with these two#theyre like not married but partners#like they explicitly never got actually married they just got the papers with their fake identities#and theyre sooooooo good together#like. who can resist a very competent team that work very well together. not me#and like theyre a little bit separated rn which is kinda boring to me tbh but like theres enough interesting stuff that i dont really mind#bc they also each still do the like. fake relationships for the spy stuff#so he just got married to some poor woman whos a fbi secretary and she was there AS HIS SISTER#as well as their handler bc he needed to have relatives fgkjghj and he doesnt have any bc hes. a fake person#anyway that was fun and theres no jealousy or anything there bc Theyre Good Spies#but then also he slept with like some old flame from russia on a mission and now theyre sorta separated#which bores me but we'll get through it. pretty sure they get back together#my dad and i got like 3 seasons in and then they took it off netflix so. pretty sure theyre back together in season 2#shes almost gonna die now maybe that does it you know#anyway. real partnership fake marriage i eat that shit up#theres no romance but theres so much trust#theres even trust when they break each other's trust bc there HAS to be#it is delicious chefs kiss
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your most hated internet horror series list 🙏
THANK you for asking, sorry i missed it
im currently playing a fun game with my sister where we're just watching everything on this list that said 'rate analog horrors' (which is my least favourite genre) it is so tedious and horrible. highly recommend. as you can see, the mandela catalog received its own little section because while it is better made than a lot of these, it ruined the genre so entirely through its popularity that i cannot forgive it (its also gauche as shit so i don't feel that bad). this list is also funny because it only contains stuff made in the past 4 years so i dont get to put my old favies on it.
if you want 'so bad its funny to watch it' the classics of the genre like mandela and walten are always a go to. a couple of extras i would include for you are grub and snitch and the boiled one phenomenon (not listed). love it its so cute
if you do a watch party make an 'analog horror' bingo sheet. put shit like 'blue VHS' 'same VHS filter every time' 'spooky murderer' 'weird text to voice' 'police tape censoring stuff that it makes no sense to censor' 'stupid fucking code i am not going to open a second tab for' 'child made this' 'one person is voice acting the whole thing' 'i think tech was more advanced than this in 2004'
tell me some of ur faves i'd love to hear
#currently swamped will make a proper beloathed list and post it laters#ones that i enjoyed are above this#the majority are not listed#most of them are DNF because they were going nowhere interesting#did watch all of grub and snitch. iconic#the ok tier means it has some stuff in it that i enjoyed.#or like i was impressed by how it was made#ik a lot of people like broadside beach and it was impressive in its making but its story was so fucking cliche and the codes were so annoy#ng#dont get me wrong i like an ARG. i like an ARG when the codes fit into the story telling. and its a story worth telling#felt like a HUGE waste of my time#what else on here do i need to defend my opinion on#the monument mythos? i feel thats self explanatory. loved the start then it got stupid#the stupid lacey one. its so clearly made by a child i dont need to expand on that#oh blorngo horn is nothing its just up there because it was funny#and i think chezz only got a boost for being early to the punch. i dont remember much about it i watched it like 2 years ago#birdhouse got a push because it was so clearly some kids passion project and they put so much love into it it was sweet#fnaf vhs is high because i dont know. i let my sister put that one on i do not know jack abt fnaf#the 'nice drawing' genre should be above :/ but its niche so i didnt want it in the way of our sorting
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