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I got through my very long work day with no neck breaks and just my new med. It took until just now for my neck to start hurting.
This is good. I can work with this.
#chatty cassie#tomorrow is going to be an easier day for me at least#minus having an hour long meeting with the executive director of the company#that has been a bit nervous#i know why the meeting is happening and it's not bad#but he scares me a little
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Hey everyone! this is where the zebra is currently with the design.
It has knee braces!! I will most probably be drawing the zebra usually with them on, but it’s no requirement, for example if anyone else wants to draw the zebra :-]. I always like to make sure an animal design has official colors underneath any clothing and accessory anyway. I think this will be final! thank you everyone for your feedback!
As a reminder, aside from why the zebra was requested for this flag, this is also just a zebra with the disability pride flag on it. It’s just a deisgn to fit the flag, with input from other disabled people in our community. It doesn’t mean other animals can’t have designs with these colors, too! I don’t mean this design to be the only mascot for all disabled people. It’s just a silly series i do of pride animals, and at the time, during disability pride month, I wanted to see what everyone wanted me to start off with for this flag!
the goal with my pride animals is to take requests and make people feel happy and seen.. that’s all <:-)
#disability pride#pride animals#disability#disability pride flag#zebras#I’ve been a little stressed about this animal for the past week.. I will be honest with you#The zebra has many stripes and I wanted to try my best to make sure it wouldn’t cause issues like headaches or other things#also.. if]ve been working on this for a while now.. i want to call it done soon!#But now that this is finished#I will start designing stickers and pins to put on redbubble and also for me to print IRL!#thank you everyone! I’ve also learned more than whatbI already knew this week#Even if it was stressful it was fun to see everyone get so excited when I would show updates to the designs#Sorry for a long speech.. I am a very nervous person today#Excuse my typos! I’m a fast typer and tired from the day#ebonytailsart#Thank you yomcloud for giving me your feedback as well. I don’t have a lot of perspective on visual processing disorders and photensitivity#so it meant a lot to me#just like the other pride animals I am very open to making more animal designs for this flag! But I’d like to save it for the future instea#It’s a bit too soon at the moment. thank youuu
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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍���� awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
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Pretty clothes for you! ✨ (Patreon)
#My art#Solanaceae#Satine#Ahh!!! Even with this one being done I'm still so nervous about it somehow!! Haha ♪#It's been so so soooo long since I've participated in an Event that I've forgotten everything I've ever learned or done in one haha#But yes! This is an event piece! DCS put out an art call and I wanted to join and I'm very glad I did! :D#I would consider myself a very casual fan of Solanaceae like it's been way too long since I've reread in earnest but I like to stop by#Lovely art and characters and interesting movement and feelings and problems everyone runs into it's quite cool :D#Satine is probably my favourite of the bunch even if it has been too long since I've properly caught up with everyone!!#I remember always feelings very positive and like - mixed-love? They're complex in a way that I really like#Ahh all the more reason to catch up again! So I can properly express how I feel about Satine /now/ not just partially remembered haha#I'm also just generally a fan of DCS' art style and passion and ah <3#I don't think I've mentioned it anywhere but DCS was one of my Very Big - maybe even Main inspirations to make VargasLovingHours#And then I also get to draw their pretty lad in Satine! Yes!!#I have a lot to feel thankful for inspiration-wise haha ♥#This was a fun outfit to design :D I really wanted Satine to feel pretty 'cause they are!#A kind of cool pink and scalloping I will always choose scalloping if there is an option for scalloping to be chosen#And I got to bring back a bit of the rainbow-opal look I used for Winter King a bit back as well! :D#And mirrors and sparklies and just - yes! Many good and fun things!!#I do think it's a bit funny since those were supposed to be thought bubbles but then I just - forgot to make the little bubble tails lol#Remembered them on the flowers! But not the thought bubbles! Haha oh well ♪#Does not diminish the cutes or the pretties ♫
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This has just been on my mind recently, but if you’re of the opinion that all men are horrible and evil except trans men, you should probably rethink your views.
Cause ‘these people, grouped by a thing they can’t control, are inherently evil. Except for a few of them, they’re the good ones’ is definitely not a good mindset to have.
Like yeah, guys can be shitty, but it not something in our genetics that makes us shitty. Shitty guys are shitty cause they suck, not cause they’re guys. Y’all are reinforcing the us vs them mindset and making people feel like shit cause of their gender.
And I’m not sure the trans guys are too happy with it either, cause saying they’re the exception cause they’re trans shows that y’all don’t really see them as dudes. Like, seriously. Why are they the exception? Give me a reason. Why feel the need to separate them just because they’re trans?
This kind of goes hand-in-hand with how often I’ll see people urging others not to be crazy misandrist, and the only thing they have to say to back up why misandry is wrong is that “you’re hurting trans men too.”
And yeah, it absolutely sucks that trans guys are getting this kind of treatment. But it feels like y’all see trans dudes as the helpless innocents stuck in the crossfire as the good women fight the evil men. Feels like y’all wouldn’t even care about how this is affecting people if the trans guys weren’t affected too.
It just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth, you know?
#bit nervous to post this cause I’m worried people might see this as woe is me whining#but idk this has been on my mind for a bit#might delete later
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505 live at bbc studios, 2010 (x)
#minnie this is your fault#i cannot get over this performance of 505 even a tiny bit#he’s SO nervous and yet he just pours his whole heart into it anyway#i mean#the fidgeting and the trembling hands and the fixing his hair??#the way he's still wearing his bbc visitors badge even though no one else in the band is anymore???#i'm inconsolable#and do not even SPEAK to me about when he misses the mic because he's so busy focusing on getting the words right#this whole performance just makes my heart ache with how much love i have for him 🥺#alex turner#alex gifs#humbug era#arctic monkeys#lulu posts#my gifs#also help why has this just been sitting in my drafts for days 🤦🏻♀️
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disney is a coward so I know they'll never do this, but given what we learned was SUPPOSE to happen between alex and stevie, I would still love a post-eloping for the reboot.
like just imagine alex and stevie as the Cool Gay Aunts(tm) for justin's kids (+ billie). they show up for the holidays and totally shower the kids with magical gifts, including a baby dragon for the boys (which does end up setting fire to their parents bed sheets). milo shows off a magic trick to his friends, using alex (since billie's not allowed to) sneakily casting spells from the bushes so the card really does dissapear from his hand, leaving his friends cheering (stevie smiling but refusing to admit to alex how cute is it). stevie has a motorcycle (which alex thinks is super hot but also refuses to admit) and while the kids aren't old enough for a ride, she does let them sit on it and rev the handles nice and loud while justin panics from the porch. they team up with all three kids to pull pranks on justin and even sometimes get giana in on a few harmless ones. maybe alex even uses her role on the tribunal to get stevie's records cleared, and they both start to advocate for a more fair way of distributing magic between families.
and billie could have an extra adult at her side! I know justin is suppose to fill the pseudo-dad role, but while billie spends her time with the russo's, also gets to spend her summers or whatever with her two cool wizard aunts. they encourage her to keep up with her studies but for the most part they just chill, letting billie indulge in a few sweets (knowing how health-conscious justin has forced his family to be) and sometimes in a pg-13 movie together. when she's there however, the house does turn into a prank war; guests are to be extremely careful when entering and encouraged to bring a separate pair of clothes.
I dunno it would just be super cool; alex and stevie reunited and I think the kids would love her too - plus watching their aunt who's always acted so aloof get all smiley and whatnot and I'm just imagining a scenario with alex and the kids like:
billie: why does stevie call you babygirl
alex: hey who wants to play the quiet game!!
#wizards of waverly place#wowp#wizards beyond waverly place#disney channel#I would LOVE a reappearance of stevie though just imagine it#even though billie has been training something happens where the council finally decides to strip her of her powers like alex warned about#alex and justin try going to talk to the council on billie's behalf but have to leave her behind#and when billie's all alone you suddenly see stevie slink from the shadows with a 'hey kid..'#billie is nervous at first but stevie says she actually wants to help her and that it's not fair what's happening to her#and says if billie comes with her then she can keep her powers and in a moment of worry billie makes the split decision to go with her#I dunno how alex finds out maybe roman sees it happen too late and says some girl took billie#'what girl??' 'I dunno! she was a wizard too - she kept her wand in her boot!'#and IMMEDIATELY alex knows what happened#alex eventually finds stevie and there's this VERY tense moment when they see each other#stevie still mad at alex for 'betraying' her (even if stevie was kinda right but nvm) and who's she's aligned with now#'you workin' for the man now russo? gone soft?' 'at least I'm not straight-up stealing kids'#alex still feeling a bit guilty about what she did to stevie but mad at her for taking billie#there's an almost fight (verbal or magical whichever) but in some outside chaos they loose billie#now they're forced to team up to find her#and although it's cold at first they both warm up again to each other having missed their friendship (even if it was short lived)#stevie quietly admiring how much further alex has gotten with magic and how she's excelled#and alex still having a soft heart for stevie wanting to help the wizards who got abandoned#anyway they find billie but the council is alerted to what happened and is now on their way to them to capture stevie#a cornered alex pleads with stevie saying she can persuade the council to let her go and while stevie's heart skips at that#she knows it's no use and uses her magic to create a pocket dimension to escape or something#but not before kissing alex on the corner of her lips and saying 'till next time russo - give that stuck-up council some hell for me'#freezing alex who's seconds from pulling her back and then disappears#billie enters and unfreezes alex and watches her face slowly turns crestfallen as she realizes#'do you think we'll ever see her again?' 'your guess is as good as mine kid..' '..do you want to?' '....lets head back home.'#WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE
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we saw an enormous giant water bug in the parking lot tonight while walking the dogs and i didnt know you could find them Here much less so far away from any facking water now im terrified.
I feel like when i was a kid and got scared after watching jurassic park bc i thought there'd be a raptor behind every door like I don't want to go to the bathroom rn at 4 am what if the water bug is There.
#ID NEVER SEEN ONE IRL#it was on its back and on our way back home it started fluttering its wings. i did yell a bit.#i still get nervous about tarantula hawks because of the one time we had one right outside the house#WHICH IS ALSO CRAZY I DIDNT KNOW THEY WERE HEREEEEE. WHY ARE THEY NEAR MY HOME.#talkys#ive already been on Roach Mode since seeing one like 2 weeks ago#i get nervous to go to the bathroom at night bc what if i go to turn on the lights and theres one on the light switch.#or i close the door and its on the door.#or if its in the toilet. again. bc that has happened to me.#now i have to worry about the giant water bug too...theyre gonna gang up on me LMAO#<- this is a joke like i know there wldnt be a water bug in there after all this time of never ever seeing one#but like. what if. ykwim. what if.
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how are you so open about G/T with your family i’m jealous 😭 i keep just trying to drop subtle hints i’m just like ‘oh have you seen that movie The secret world of arrietty’ and mentioning g/t movies like epic
That's kind of how I started with it too! It's been so long that I barely remember but when I eventually ended up fully telling them, they said they had already known lol. Which I think means my hints were being picked up on.
You just gotta tell yourself that G/t is just a trope. It's just another interest that people can have, it's not anything weird. And if that's how you act when you tell people, then they'll see that too.
#ask#g/t#giant/tiny#not to say i still don't get nervous telling people#my family is one thing#but like some friends?#and coworkers?#I'm still a bit worried of how they would react#even though everyone i've told so far has just been like#oh cool#so yeah#no reason to be ashamed#and if people do think it's weird?#so what?#my sister thinks it's weird and hates g/t#but like#that's just her own opinion#i don't mind that she hates it#it's not for everyone#and that's okay
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that's such a beautiful sex and magic granny square! i'm new to crochet and have been going ham on crocheting amigurumi but for some reason granny squares are so intimidating to me. one day... one day i will granny the square...
YOU'RE OUT HERE MAKING AMIGURUMI BUT AFEARED OF THE HUMBLE GRANNY SQUARE
#yeah I've been getting really into factoring polynomials and probability theory but#been a little bit nervous to try subtraction#I. believe in you#the daisy I made was highkey a little annoying but the granny square pattern i'm doing rn#is literally just like. the building block skills needed for it are already The Crochet Fundamentals#so like sc hdc dc tc#>has not tried amigurumi yet and it probably is the same in that it's just The Basics
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as someone with hooded eyelids and 2 experience in makeup im a big fan of the “just pop a little bright color eyeshadow in the inner corner of your eye” technique because i think it makes me look like a bird
#kipspeak#I put eyeshadow on and i open my eyes and it disappears :/#lots of fashion items i enjoy because it makes me look like something cool ie big heels -> a gazelle#techwear layers -> an anime character alt outfit#curating my experience with the world recently has been a cool experience :] room decor and makeup and clothes#excited and a bit nervous to try the social aspect of curating my experience with being alive
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i started writing a post-pusher fic last night at like 1 am, might finish it today, might not, but have an excerpt!
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They fall into step beside each other without trying, attuned to each other's bodies like two twin stars stuck in a common orbit; gravity is keeping them both together and apart.
Her heels echo through the mostly empty halls, and his gaze is drawn to her hands—drowning in her dark sleeves, warm, always warm, fitting into his like they were made to. Neither of them speaks, and the silence is comforting after having Modell's commands penetrating his mind.
I could have killed you, he doesn't say, slowly tracing the slope of her nose and jaw as she presses the call button for the elevator, her features blurring in front of his eyes.
There is a version of this story that ends with three dead bodies on the floor, all bullets fired from the same gun, the same hand. Scully still reached out, still took the hand capable of soul-numbing violence, and touched him like she had no reason to be afraid of him. Mulder has never wanted her to—the opposite, selfishly so—and yet he sees her in a different life (a better one), far away from him and without the pain he has brought her.
I could have killed you, he doesn't say, but he brushes against her as the doors close and the elevator begins to move, and his fingers blindly search for hers.
#alex writes x files#txf#the x files#x files#dana scully#fox mulder#scully x mulder#mulder x scully#msr#everyone has been very nice on my other posts so far and i really appreciate that a lot <3#new fandoms always make me a bit nervous
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alexa play gary come home :((
#pens lb#i miss him....#i know playing a goalie while hes hot is a thing. i know that. but whats the long-term plan here? you're going to have#ned still increasing his chances of injuries and fatigue AND a goalie who hasnt played in weeks#its unfair to ned and its setting jarry up to be a scrapgoat in important games#like im not a big fan of the bruins but theyve been doing the right thing in actually alternating their goalies every other game#so the other gets to rest while staying sharp and they're both well experienced.#jarry has 6!!!! shutouts!!!! and thats while being the goalie for the fucking pittsburgh penguins!#you KNOW he can play. you know hes good. why are you purposely setting him up to fail.#and ned has been wonderful! i was so nervous he was going to be traded after not being played for a good bit. i love my eyebrows boy and am#so happy and proud he's been having these opportunities to show how good and valuable he is to this team#but overworking him to such an extent is (once again) setting him up to fail just as much as its setting jarry up to be that scrapegoat#mike sullivan i am shaking you by the shoulders demanding to know what the fuck has been up with these lineups lately
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Call him by his name?
(Quote from Pablo Neruda’s ‘I Do Not Love You Except Because I love You’)
#wolgraha#wolexarch#ffxiv#ff14#final fantasy xiv#shadowbringers spoilers#g’raha x wol#this quote has been rattling around in my brain for days#it really reminded me of that mt gulg scene and I wanted to do something with it#it’s very different from what i usually do so i.m a bit nervous sharing it :’)#my art
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🌹the rose bride and her prince🗡
[Image Description: A drawing featuring Anthy and Utena from Rebolutionary Girl Utena. They are both on the floor, Utena kneels while Anthy sits. Utena’s back is to the viewer, and She holds one of Anthy’s hands with her arm outstretched. The sword of Dios is stabbed through the both of them, and is covered in blood. More blood is pooled around them, and flows towards the bottom right of the screen. Anthy is holding the sword of Dios with her free hand, gripping it by the blade. She is slumped over Utena’s shoulder, her face covered in hair, only one eye visible that looks up at Utena. At the top corners of the screen there are thorny vines, and the bottom corners have piles of roses. The two of them are lit by a spotlight that casts a shadow on the wall behind them. End Description.]
#im a bit nervous posting this cause i know ppl analyze the themes very deeply and im afraid i got something wrong but. i like how this look#rgu#revolutionary girl utena#anthy himemiya#utena tenjou#blood#blood tw#this piece has been YEARS in the making btw#also artist comment i dont think its anthy stabbing the both of them i think its her removing it. like the whole duel and destiny castle#stuff being a burden on the both of them yknow#skench art#stabbing tw#stabbing#impalement#impalement tw
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It was quite worrying walking down the main shopping streets of my city during pride and seeing that barely any of them have any pride flags or anything in the window. Rainbow capitalism will not save us but it is so unnerving when even last year most shops had some kind of bunting in the window and this year it was only three or four. Like idk it feels emblematic of a worsening or idk souring attitude towards queer people that is definitely influenced by rampant transphobia in the uk. Which is why it’s so upsetting when cis queer people join in on transphobia in hopes of distancing themselves from the current social and political undesirability of transness.
#idk idk it just makes me nervous when businesses won’t even trot out a bit of rainbow bunting for one day#like I don’t need McDonald’s to pretend to love gay people but it really does feel like showing support of lgbt people is now seen as a#liability rather than profitable#and I think that that’s ultimately a step back?#idk there’s been a lot of Christian proselytising in town that has been really like gathering audiences and engaging people when most people#used to ignore it and walk right past it and it all just feels a little bit scary#when i say Christian proselytising i mean explicitly homophobic Christian proselytising#which also just sucks to have to hear on your way to work.#I’m a fucking person not a sign of the end times#anyway I had a good time and my city’s pride is quite small and very sweet and it was a good day but like. uh oh.#this has all been said before and better by other people
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