#that feels in character for him idk

[goldensunset]

updates on pla:

-musical commentary! the crimson mirelands themes are both so so crazy good and both bring back a lot of motifs from sinnoh. weirdly enough this may be my favorite region. i think i realized those musical references like while still playing platinum but i never truly appreciated how good all that music is. i feel like there's something else i was going to say about music but some of these references are far too subtle for me for the time being

-volo continues to be unimportant and unimpressive

-there's a MAJOR issue i've realized with my #malefeminist run. it's hard enough when certain mons i love, namely eevee and the eeveelutions, have lopsided gender ratios. but even worse: it occurred to me that my beloved gallade is an all-male species. obviously i'm gonna catch him and the others for the sake of dex completion but i can't use my boy on my team this run :(

-interesting how rei calls irida a girl and akari calls her a woman. how old is she you guys c'mon. she looks young yeah but i'm inclined to do things the latter way personally when there's doubt bc of my personal opinions on the relationships between age gender and respect. that's not important though what's important is that irida is super super autistic btw

-i got hit by like almost every one of lady lilligant's attacks and only even stunned her to properly battle her once. i have never once struggled with that fight that was incredibly embarrassing. but i suppose this is supposed to be the feminist run. but for crying out loud have i ever played a video game before

-losing my mind that one of the default early-game hairstyles for rei is a whole entire fluffy long ponytail. why does the male protag get a better long hair option than the female one. why do all his looks kinda slay honestly. i've got the slight-curled bob on rn

-the 'fancy' outfit series too... gonna get mad real quick here. the tops look super feminine cutesy in either gender version funny enough but the bottoms?? almost the exact same except akari gets these meh shorts and rei gets actual PANTS. thank you. but i deserved to let my girl survive the cold while looking cute too smh... please let video game women cover their legs

[cutter-kirby]

obligatory “cool characterization, still murder” like I’m not excusing him but it does make him incredibly interesting

(*girl gender neutral edition)

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[rubyfunkey]

ponders them...

[sophfandoms53]

Anyway shout out to Dewey who constantly looked like he was having the worst time of his fucking life in the pitches

Just an 11 year old pissed off at the world it seems😭

[yaolmao]

simp

[dykedvonte]

I think depictions of Anya being cruel to Curly or drawing out his suffering are artful and chilling but completely miss the point of the story and her character.

I'm not saying she doesn't deserve to have that "I told you so" moment with him but not in something callous or cold. Even if that is how it happened, she'd immediately feel guilty cause at that point she's not tormenting her tormenter or even the person truly at fault. She's doing something cathartic, similar to how Jimmy likely hits Curly to release rage he can't against the rest of the crew. She'd see herself as no different when she'd come back from the moment and see Curly cowering at her. She wants someone to take responsibility but how does being cruel to the defenseless help? Why would she want the power Jimmy has over her over Curly?

The idea of her extending someone else's pain is just so against the struggles she already faces and how she can't even bring herself to cause someone pain even to help them. Her very desire is to release herself from her own suffering and I doubt she'd even fine some sort of guilty release in being cruel to another.

[doctorsiren]

reigen you should tell him he’s not supposed to eat the green part

[null-doesnothing]

being into sherlock holmes is so stupid like. yeah here's my blorbo, you don't know him. you think you do, but unless you've systematically fallen in love with him through the personal writings of his retired army doctor best friend you really don't. yeah. he's one of the most popular and well known characters in the world. I have interacted with at least 60% of the current fans. hey do you think he associates the sounds of waterfalls with death? do you think he'll ever get over that? I won't. good talk

[cable-salamdr]

So anyways the reason I talked abt Ronin is because I binge watched Possession again and I realized. I have never drawn this bastard man. So here’s that (ignore that I didn’t add his hat it was annoying me)

+ me remembering that the Dobson brothers are all VAs that act in Ninjago as completely different characters and how much funnier certain dialogue gets with that context.

[800db-cloud]

i’ve been wanting to do this since day one

[into-the-feniverse]

It’s Dabi’s birthday over here in the states now so have some doodles 🔥

[littlelightfish]

Disliking Tallchuck is a MAJOR skill issue.

[adnrewminyard]

imagine being kevin day, son of exy, born and bred to be a cog in the well-oiled machine that is the edgar allan ravens. all you know being the routine of practice and practice and practice and performance and victory alongside those you call brothers.

-and then one day you wake up in your estranged father's apartment between a bottle of painkillers and a bottle of vodka and there is a knot of bandages where your future used to be. you don't wake up at 4am anymore. you sleep until noon and vomit the remainders of life as you knew it into unfamiliar toilets. you watch orange and white clash against each other from sidelines you haven't touched since you started growing facial hair.

your brother doesn't ask you to come home. you would come if he asked. the days are longer here and the food is too rich. the colors are too harsh, the language barrier is too much. you speak and no one understands.

they feel sorry for you, but not for what you have lost, instead for what you have suffered. you try to show them what belonging means, to sever parts of yourself to fit inside a uniform, but they don't understand the necessity of the blade the way your brothers did. they don't understand that suffering feels religious if you do it right.

the therapist tells you it's survivor's guilt but the only survivors you can see are on the court in black and red and they read your eulogy after the game at a press conference. you are not a survivor in any way that matters anymore. how treacherous your heart is for continuing to beat when you can't even hold your lifeline in your hand without dropping it.

you want to go home but your key doesn't open the same door anymore. you want to sit beside your brother but there is no space on his side of the table. you want to be a raven but you are a fox.

you grieve for connection until there is a knife where your neck guard used to sit. you grieve for your life until a boy offers to show you how it feels to survive. you offer to show him how it feels to live. he tells you he won't sever parts of himself to fit the uniform, but there are telltale bloodstains in the fabric from long before you asked.

you wake up at 4am again. you take turns vomiting in the toilet, you when the alcohol level dips too low and him when his smile runs out. he doesn't speak your language but he understands it. he keeps the car running when you visit the therapist. he keeps an eye on your back to watch the 02 on your jersey turn orange. the colors don't seem as harsh anymore.

he offers you safety. he offers you belonging. he offers you the only thing he knows how to give, the only thing you know how to take.

he offers you a lifeline. you pick it up with your right hand.

[puppyeared]

(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time

[raiiny-bay]

Love, Dhes

Parker,

It's unfair how time with you feels so short. How the last 10 years have felt like no time at all. I like to think there are other versions of us out there, somewhere. Maybe in another timeline, another universe. I like to think we find each other no matter where we are or what we're doing. That we're together and happy and I get to love you in a dozen different lifetimes. That's what I hope, anyway. And I hope when this lifetime ends, we get to start over and do it all again. Because once just isn't enough. Not for me. Not with you.

I hope the next 10 years pass slower.

Love, Dhes