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bitchfitch · 2 years ago
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the YouTubers i make fun of for being really really normal but act like they aren't in kinda cringe 'hello fellow teens' meets 'please like me please like me please like me' way have released a stained glass making video........ I'm posting this half because I'm working rn and can't watch it right away and know I'll be sent links to it, and half because i kinda want to live blog a viewing of it
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kevinsreviewcatalogue · 1 year ago
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Review: The Hunger Games: The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes (2023)
The Hunger Games: The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes (2023)
Rated PG-13 for strong violent content and disturbing material
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<Originally posted at https://kevinsreviewcatalogue.blogspot.com/2023/11/review-hunger-games-ballad-of-songbirds.html>
Score: 3 out of 5
The Hunger Games was my jam in my college years. Even being just a bit older than its target demographic of teenagers, it was a series of books that I readily embraced as an antidote to the big young-adult literary sensation of my own high school years, Twilight. No sparkly vampires or Mormon abstinence messages here, no, these books were dark satires about teenagers forced to kill each other, like an American version of Battle Royale or a post-apocalyptic version of The Running Man, and what's more, they were actually shockingly well-written. Even if you were the kind of guy who'd never otherwise pick up a YA novel, there's no denying the appeal of that basic premise. And then came the film adaptations, which ranged from good to damn close to classic, even if splitting the last movie into two parts was kind of a dumb idea, and all the commercialism that got attached to the series was quite ironic given the messages in the books. It's those messages that are the big reason why I'm still nostalgic for the series today, long after the YA dystopia boom has passed us by. Suzanne Collins may not have been a subtle writer, but she was a smart one, and her books, for all their pulpy sci-fi flair, were fundamentally about how difficult it is to organize a revolution against even the most obviously unjust system, and how people you think of as allies may in fact have very different goals that stand opposed to your own -- a lesson that a lot of young people raised on the series and other teen-lit wastelands had to learn themselves as they organized against real-world injustices later in the decade.
Naturally, with the 15th anniversary of the original novel having recently passed us by, somebody decided that the time was right to revisit it. Three years ago, Collins, after having held off for years, wrote a prequel novel, The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes (a title evocative of the trend of epic fantasy novels that took over YA literature after the sci-fi dystopia boom), about the main villain of the series that explored his youth, the early years of the titular Games, and how they intersected to turn him into the bastard he became. I haven't yet read the book, but if the movie is any indication, I want to. It's a big and bloated movie that I thought could've stood to be trimmed down in some places and padded out in others, but it's one that boasts a star-making performance from Rachel Zegler as its heroine, an interesting new twist on its series' setting, and the same thoughtfulness that elevated the original trilogy above its peers. It had my attention from start to finish despite its length, and I'm not at all disappointed by my return to the world of Panem after all these years.
Set about 64 years before the events of the first book/movie, this one is set around the time of the 10th annual Hunger Games -- which is to say, ten years after the "Dark Days", the brutal war between the Capitol and the Districts for control of Panem, the post-apocalyptic wasteland formerly known as North America. The Capitol won the war, but ten years on, the scars are still visible. The film's retro-period setting was designed to evoke the 1950s with the technology and aesthetics on display, and in practice, it specifically evokes '50s Europe on both sides of the Iron Curtain, a time when the British were still winding down their wartime rationing, the cars were tiny econoboxes, the soldiers carried G3 rifles and traveled in Unimog trucks, the new construction replacing the bombed-out ruins was mostly shit-ugly brutalist monoliths, the old elite sought to maintain an appearance of propriety by dusting off old prewar fashions, and the scars of the war were still fresh in the minds of the younger generations. It's how I imagine a post-apocalyptic world that hasn't completely forgotten 21st century science would actually look once it had the time to start rebuilding itself, retaining some elements of modern technology (color TVs, certain plot-relevant biological weapons) but lacking the means to rebuild past a mid-20th-century level of technology, infrastructure, and industry; that would have to wait for later.
It was a creative choice that highlighted not only that this film is a prequel, but also the continuity between Panem's history and what it had become in the original trilogy -- because if "modern" Panem is an exaggerated parody of 21st century Western society, then it stands to reason that "historical" Panem might resemble a similarly grotesque version of what that society looked like seventy years ago. The world of Panem has always been part of the appeal of The Hunger Games, and this film did a lot to flesh that world out, showing us not only what it once looked like but also, more importantly, how it came up with the sick idea of the Games in the first place and how it might have possibly thought it a good idea. Watching the prologue set during the war, it took no time to realize the deprivation that the citizens of the Capitol experienced, and how pissed off they probably were when they finally won their hard-earned victory and peace, the future consequences of such be damned. The Capitol looks down on the Districts the way that Europeans at the time looked down on their colonies, or the Soviets looked down on their "fellow workers' states" in the Warsaw Pact (above all else the German "Democratic" Republic).
If the film's aesthetics look backwards, however, then its themes look forward, specifically to the life experiences that a lot of the books' readers in the years after their publication. Coriolanus Snow was, in his youth, a student at an elite academy competing with 23 of his classmates for a university scholarship, with the recipient of the scholarship decided by having the students each mentor a tribute in the Hunger Games, the winner being the one who puts on the best show for the citizens of the Capitol. Again, Collins wasn't subtle, and neither is this movie. The students' struggles may not be as life-or-death as those of the tributes, but direct and obvious parallels are drawn from the start, highlighting how the Capitol's system grinds down even the children of its own elites and turns them into the worst possible versions of themselves as they compete for favor and stab each other in the back. We see Snow, initially motivated by a desire to provide for a family that lost everything in the war, slowly but surely shed his morals as he comes up with a number of what would become the Games' signature concepts (particularly making the tributes into celebrities) and develop a star-crossed romance with his mediagenic, hot-headed tribute, District 12's Lucy Gray Baird. I liked Tom Blyth as Snow, watching him transform from a naive but well-intentioned rich kid into somebody who's willing to throw everybody and everything around him under the bus to advance his own interests, such that, by the time he finally, triumphantly returns to the Capitol at the end (not really a spoiler in a prequel telling the villain's origin story), even his own dear cousin Tigris barely recognizes what he's become.
The real MVP in the cast, though, was Rachel Zegler as Lucy Gray. Implied to have been thrust into the Games thanks to a corrupt mayor in District 12 and her getting on the wrong side of a love triangle involving said mayor's daughter, from the moment she made her grand "screw you" entrance I was immediately rooting for her. Zegler gave the kind of "star in the making" performance that Jennifer Lawrence had for Katniss Everdeen, albeit playing a very different sort of character who has to learn the opposite things that Katniss later would. If Katniss was an outdoorsy survivalist who the Capitol turned into a glamorous romantic figure, then Lucy Gray is a theater kid (specifically, part of a group of traveling musicians known as the Covey) who has to learn how to fight, but one whose charisma and presence become an asset, especially once Snow realizes their potential to sway the audience to her side. Zegler carried a lot of this movie on her shoulders, from her multiple musical performances (putting her background in musical theater to great use) to her being the one who initially forces Snow to confront the ethics of the Games, with the breakdown of their relationship marking the last straw in his descent into villainy. Mark my words, Zegler is going places.
The supporting cast, too, was filled with standouts. Viola Davis devoured the scenery as the loopy scientist Dr. Volumnia Gaul who helps design some of the Capitol's bioweapons, Hunter Schafer had a small but memorable presence as Snow's cousin Tigris who watches his transformation, Jason Schwartzman played the Games' host Lucky Heavensbee like a snappy yet flippant '50s game show host, Ashley Liao made Snow's rival Clemencia such an obnoxious and cocky jackass, and Peter Dinklage playing Snow's dean at the academy as basically Tyrion Lannister as a bitter prep school headmaster, but I'll forgive it because there aren't a lot of people who play "I drink and I know things" better than him. Josh Andrés Rivera in particular got a lot to do as Snow's friend Sejanus, somebody with roots in District 2 who, even after his family got rich enough to become citizens, never forgot where he came from and voices the loudest objections to the morality of the Games. When it came to the tributes in the arena, the film sadly didn't take a lot of time to flesh out the ones not named Lucy Gray, but there were still highlights like the butch District 4 combatant Coral, Lucy Gray's District 12 partner Jessup, and the District 11 guy Reaper whose scary name turns out to be not at all indicative of his personality. The action was up to par with some of the best scenes from Catching Fire, director Francis Lawrence having lost none of his touch since the last time he worked on these films, with the bloodbath that opens the Games in particular being a hell of a one-take action scene shot largely from Lucy Gray's perspective.
Where this film ultimately let me down was its structure. It is a big movie, and there eventually comes a point where it rapidly shifts gears into something completely different, pulling Snow out of the confines of the Capitol and out into District 12. And if I'm being honest, it felt like a completely different movie from the one I'd been watching until then. It was still a good movie and an interesting story, but it felt like a whole new chapter of Snow's life where the problems he'd encountered in the first two acts, while still there, got pushed into the background as new characters and problems were introduced and Snow got sucked into the personal drama of District 12's inhabitants. I would've liked to see another scene of him interacting with his friends and family back home and keeping tabs on what's going on in the Capitol, as well as, more importantly, an scene or two in the first half of the film establishing some more of the people in Lucy Gray's life before she's chosen as tribute instead of throwing all of them at us in act three, especially given how it's all but stated that some of this drama was why she wound up in the arena in the first place. It would've been a minor change that likely would've added only a few minutes to the admittedly long runtime, but it would've alleviated a big problem I had with the third act of this movie, suddenly being asked to care about people I'd only just met knowing that there isn't a whole lot of movie left and there isn't much time to flesh them out.
The Bottom Line
This movie has a lot of, well, movie to cram in, and I'm not sure it entirely stuck the landing, but overall, it's a welcome return for a series I love, elevated by an outstanding lead performance by Rachel Zegler. Whether you're a diehard Hunger Games fan who was one of the first to snatch up the book this was based on the day it came out or a total newbie to the series who only knows it from memes, I recommend this movie.
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worldismyne · 2 years ago
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The fandom culture in the past was a time and we're still learning...
This is 100% my opinion based on my internet experience growing up.
A common take I see coming up is that late 00s early 10s fan culture was cringe and problematic. It's usually to do with things like Yaoi fan-girls and genderbend. (there's probably others that fall in this category, but these were the main ones that came to mind.) I just think there's something to be gained by asking why these online phenomena happened rather than writing it off as bad and don't look back.
This is a something I've been thinking about a lot lately as someone who grew up with the internet.
Which is that, at that time, a lot of us were kids/teens seeking representation. We were growing up in a time where trans/queer characters weren't readily on TV. We didn't have the language to describe the dysphoria or ostracization we felt; or a jumping off point to explore things like gender expression safely.
So we took to the wild west that was the internet, we came across fetishized examples of what we were searching for and latched onto it without critically analyzing why.
It led to people regurgitating foreign vocabulary we didn't fully comprehend and while others tried to co-opt it into what they found into actually were looking for. And yes, I mean regurgitate, whole and unanalyzed, fiercely defended without an alternative readily available.
Because the truth is sometimes Stacy, age 13; was looking for a role model on how to live as a queer man; and now is a married 20-something that really doesn't want to think about the years they latched onto uke/seme junk when really they were looking for gender expectations for cis/queer adult life.
That genderbend is very appealing to a young person that didn't realize they were gender fluid themselves; and liked the idea of their favorite characters living in both spaces simultaneously but was forced to share the same spaces with shippers that just wanted to 'no-homo' certain ships.
It was hard to look for stuff without getting bombarded by overly fetishized stuff made by straight creators for straight consumers. And adults were reinforcing that it was all part and parcel irl. (Legit wasn't allowed to say lesbian at the dinner table growing up, because the very idea of a queer relationship was assumed to be inherently sexual in nature by my parents' generation; we see this still argued about at Disney all the time)
Fandom was and, in some ways, still is one of the easiest 'safe' (as is safe from family) places to explore those topics of identity and idealized futures.
I think as my generation's gotten older, we've realized that we need to create safe places in fandom explore queerness. That it's important to divorce queer stories from fetish (though they aren't always mutually exclusive. I's the distinction that matters). And there's been more of a push for genuine queer rep on tv (especially kid's media)
I've found tumblr to be relatively kind compared to other platforms like tiktok, or amino; but some fandom tags are still a homogenous mix of nsfw, sfw, and fetish.
I 100% agree it's on creators to properly tag their stuff. To help people filter out things they don't want to see. Things like safe-search only work if human beings cooperate.
But I also sincerely urge people to not to mindlessly consume fandom content. It's a sure-fire way to accidently absorb notions/vocabulary you don't fully identify with or understand. Normalization is a passive action, not a conscious decision.
Those bad habits in art/writing/etc, they're hard to shake unless you look back and critically analyze why you like/hate the things you do. And it's still really easy to pick up flawed ideas wandering around anywhere on the internet. It's a constant process, and everyone goes through it regardless of age or orientation. Internet culture is always changing
Also, look back at what you make. The commonalities between your OCs and yourself. What about those ideas actually appeal to you? What ideas are you recycling out of habit because that's the way every other thing like it was made? It's the only way to make new spaces/tags/etc for what you want, versus settling for what's already there.
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the-bjd-community-confess · 3 years ago
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Dear 'Anime Bad' Anon: I Want To Help I pity your situation, so please have a list of weebshit that isn't moeified, or wherein the cutesy art-style serves a greater purpose. (Note: though they won't be soft marshmallow uguuuu, they may still have issues in other ways. Some may have aged badly with regards to how society views or portrays groups or beliefs, some may have upsetting content and dark themes, and some may simply not be to your taste. Note: Anime is a genre, not a monolith, and the disparaging stereotype that it's all cute girls uwuing over their brother s-s-senpai!!! is as much of a disservice as saying all western movies are just vapid cash grab superhero movie sequels with no inegrity or thought put into them. There are indeed a lot of superhero movies, but they're not all identical schlock (megamind vs venom vs kick-ass),  but even more than that, there is a wealth of creative endeavor just beyond the veil of Marvel's cape: just as there are plenty of good anime if you dig past the isekai high school harem wish fulfillment genre that no one wants to keep making but people keep making because it prints money to a very small demographic of the animation equivalent of a mobile game whale thereby allowing this frankly quite-small industry to work on engaging and worthwhile series where the budget permits, Regardless,)
Mushi-shi: -Pros: gorgeous animation, tranquil vibes, episodic stories so you can cram in an episode between classes or on your lunch break. highly recommended by the literal-who typing this out. -Cons: some themes or stories may cause emotional distress, learning to tell apart Urushibara Yuki's characters is a learning curve.
Baccano-Pros: meticulously-researched 20s-and-30s-era mafia violence with a hint of the supernatural, as a treat, told anachronistically with flair and jazz music. practically made to be binge-watched. the novels are finally getting translated into english as well. -Cons: lots of characters to keep track of, fair bit of blood and violence, some scenes or themes may be upsetting, lots of jumping around between different time periods. See Also: Durarara, another series by Ryōgo Narita with a ton of characters and a plot with more threads an overpriced sheet.
Cowboy Bebop-Pros: incredibly well-regarded, space bounty hunters are cool, episodic series that slowly takes on a plot towards the end, fantastic animation, scoring, and even dub work.  -Cons: some scenes or themes may be uncomfortable, some parts have not aged quite so well, the smart doll version of the main character is ugly, you're gonna carry that weight.
Trigun-Pros: starts lighthearted, develops an increasingly investing plot as the series goes along. fictional westerns are cool. this world is made of love and peace -Cons: some scenes or themes may be upsetting, and probably will be. gun violence is naturally present, but that ain't all of it.
Hellsing (standard or Ultimate. or Abridged)Pros: vampires killing nazis. the original adaptation isn't bad, the second adaptation (ultimate) is generally viewed as an improvement. abridged is a youtube parody version that was so popular the voice actors reference it in convention interviews.Cons: a Lot of violence, even trending to the gorey side of things. Uncomfortable Themes Everywhere, but it's a horror-tinged action series about killing nazis, so that's to be expected. 
Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood-Pros: while the original anime was quite good, the second iteration is a large improvement. does to alchemy what naruto does to ninjas: It's Basically Battle Magic. the plot starts on a strong note and doesn't let up from there. -Cons: there are distressing scenes and themes that may or may not be tolerable to the viewer. there are moments of cheesecake and even an occasional joke or a moeblob here and there, and it's not all doom and all gloom all the time, but this doesn't detract from the abject horror-despair that comes to permeate this series as it progresses. finally understand why people on the internet respond so negatively to the name 'nina'! 
[Mod: many more recs/reviews under the break, worth reading for those who like more obscure anime and animation]
Grave of the Fireflies-Pros: you will remember how to cry. it's a good reminder that one country's 'triumphs' often come at the expense of another country's people.  -Cons: this movie is incredibly dark, do not watch if you are in a bad headspace. see also: Barefoot Gen, a similar tale but this time from the perspective of an actual survivor from Hiroshima.
Michiko to Hatchin-Pros: an actually diverse cast of characters tangled up in a messy and very humanizing story, interspersed with Shinichiro Watanabe's particular flare for adventure. -Cons: some scenes or themes are very likely to be distressing. can be tricky to find, too.
Mo no no Ke (not the ghibli movie, though it is also quite good.) -Pros: incredibly unique art style and pacing that draws heavily from japanese theatre traditions, every screenshot is wallpaper-worthy. -Cons: may cause motion sickness. it is a psychological horror series, and one that does not need blood, nor gore, to cause visceral emotional response in the viewer. scenes and themes will be distressing- as really, that's the point.
Tokyo Godfathers-Pros: a transwoman, a (self-identified) homeless bum, and a runaway teen girl find a newborn in the baby on christmas. incredibly wholesome, somehow, and grounded in reality, with wonderful animation from the tragically late satoshi kon. -Cons: it is grounded in realism, and sometimes, people are dicks. mild transphobia warning, too, but in-universe- the transwoman herself is portrayed with kindness and allowed to be her own (wonderful!!!) person. still, viewer be mindful.
Kino no Tabi (the first series is my preferred, the second is shinier but lacks emotional impact- in my onion.) -Pros: mostly episodic, very unique series that can be gritty where it counts and kind where it matters. -Cons: some scenes or themes might be disturbing. finding it's not easy, either, and unfortunately, i don't think the novels are being translated right now, either.
Spice and Wolf-Pros: it's mostly about economics. there are shenanigans, a harvest god, and a slowly burgeoning romance, sure, but it's still mostly about economics. -Cons: there are moments of cheesecake and comedy, and moments that may cause distress to the viewer. it may or may not be to your taste.
Puella Magi Madoka Magica-Cons: yeah i know, it's moeblobs.  -Pros: you're gonna watch 'em die, though, in case that may interest you. it's quite a good subversion of the magical girl genre overall. somehow volks hasn't made an MDD of anyone from the series and i will never understand how that didn't happen.
Wolf Children: Ame to Yuki-Pros: watch a family grow together as a newly-single mother does her best to raise her twin children after the tragic loss of their father.  -Cons: keep tissues handy. certain scenes or themes may be uncomfortable.
Lupin III (Red Jacket, Ghibli, and the new 3D animation are all A+) pros: heist comedy elevated to an art form before half (or more!) of the people reading this were born. the english dubbed series that used to air on adult swim is a treat. cons: this franchise started in THE SIXTIES, so naturally, some shit has not aged well. certain series (fujiko mine) are darker than others in themes and material. the 3d movie that released recently is an excellent starting point.
Samurai Champloo-Pros: breakdancing samurai, a fascinating roster of characters, and a superb soundtrack by the tragically passed Nujabes. -Cons: it was made in the weird era of the transition from analog to digital animation and so the /series master/ was animated at a painfully low resolution, so even if there's a bluray out there (I haven't looked,) it will be an upscale, which doesn't always look the best. as well, there are scenes and themes that may make the viewer uncomfortable here and there.
The Works of Studio Ghibli Oh, I'm sorry, Ponyo too suffused with childhood wonder for you? My Neighbor Totoro not depressing enough?  In addition to the infamous Grave of the Fireflies, Studio Ghibli has made a wealth of movies that aren't aimed squarely at the kodomo (children's) sector. -Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind: climate change existential dread, the movie -Castle in the Sky: government obsession with obtaining weapons of mass destruction destroys everything beautiful, the movie -Pom Poko: human-caused deforestation and urbanization is destroying the natural world and all that live in it, the movie -Princess Mononoke: industrialization will be the death of everything beautiful in the world, the movie, with a side of sometimes everyone (and no one) is the villain when everyone is simply trying to survive -Howl's Moving Castle: The Physical Manifestation of Depression is a Liquid Ooze, the Movie, also War Is Bad It's not all depressing, but let it never be said that Hayao Miyazaki was subtle. Whisper of the Heart is a good coming-of-age story, Kiki's Delivery Service is a classic, Tales from Earthsea is divisive among fans of Ursula K. Le Guin but I personally liked it. From one studio alone there is a wealth of opportunities.
And that's really the point. These are just some from the top of my head. There are so very many options outside of the cute-girls-doing-cute-things genre that I couldn't list them all if I was here for a week. Or as Madoka Magica so ruthlessly showcases, even series that appear a certain way on the surface might not be what you bargained for once you look into them! These are all (I think) mostly older, mainstream-appeal series that should be easy to track down, too -- there are all kinds of singular animations like The Diary of Tortov Roddle, crowdfunded experiments like KICK-HEART, Masterpiece World Theatre renditions of classic (western) novels that never get talked about, films like A Silent Voice that confront social issues- and of course, series like Rozen Maiden that helped popularize this very hobby!
There is literally an ocean of content to explore from Japanese creators alone, and it opens up even more if you look into works from other parts of Asia- just look at how popular manwha have become, or Chinese animations like Leafie, a Hen Into the Wild! It's a genre unto itself, with all the breadth of content and inter-industry problems that come with it, and without any of the respect that similar art forms have been granted over the years. The way an entire culture's art form is often disparaged, disregarded, and belittled- and by extension, the way most of Asia's animated endeavors are often rolled up into that reductive dismissal along with anime and manga- is honestly Not Great, and there is absolutely a thread of xenophobia that runs through it. The industry has so very many problems (low wages, poor training, overwork of everyone ever, archaic financial modules, the exclusivity and breadth of merchandising necessary to turn a profit and how it leads to consumer burnout and disconnection over time, and yes, the way minors are portrayed not just in anime, but in Japanese media in general- and how much of that is actually bad (some of it is indeed,) and how much if it is cultural difference (I've heard people call the scene where the family in Totoro bathe together problematic because of the nudity, but I've also only heard people say that from the West)
-- none of the actual problems affecting the people who produce this medium are gonna improve when the general response to "animators frequently have to live at home to survive" is "that's what happens when you're a weeb."  It's 5am and I'm gonna point out the problems in the narrative around how we discuss this genre of entertainment because it's important, damn you! Regardless, thank you for coming to my unasked for and overlong TED talk about animation on a doll collecting drama blog, feel free to call me a pathetic weeb etcetera on your way out- but while you do so, might I suggest you also go watch a choice animated series! My current go-to is Bofuri, which is a cute-girls-doing-cute-things moefied isekai series that I refuse to apologize for watching. Be free. (The battle scenes are great and it captures the feeling of learning to play a new MMO with your friends better than most video-game-based anime I've seen in a long, long time. does anyone even still remember .hack? how about serial experiments lain...?)
~Anonymous
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foxymoxynoona · 4 years ago
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Amended Ch. 2
Read Chapter 1 here
SUMMARY: Getting into a bar fight is the least surprising part of Isabella's return home. She sure doesn't expect to run into her childhood friend turned high school enemy, now not just surprisingly a law-abiding citizen but a police officer. Things seem to be going great for him, but Isabella is struggling with more than a bar fight. A single mom with a sick grandmother, an alcoholic mother, an abusive ex, and a short fuse herself, matters are not helped that Jungkook seems to be everywhere. All the time. Especially every time Isabella messes up. Can she really believe him when he says he just wants to help?
Police officer! Jungkook x Single Mom Childhood Friend Named OC
CW: abusive parents, alcoholism, abusive exes, descriptions of childhood abuse, domestic violence, sexual abuse, illegal acts, side character death, discussions/references to underage sexual activity/alcohol use/drug use, teen pregnancy, explicit sexual content
Also hosted on AO3 under foxymoxy. Not sure if I’ll keep posting on tumblr or not, but I thought I’d try it out!
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The morning had not been going well. At all.
The kids had overslept. 
Ok, maybe Isabella had overslept too.
Grandma had not overslept but had been in a bit of a mental fog, so Isabella had plied her with bananas and water as suggested by the nurses, while running around frantically to get the kids’ things pulled together. While they dawdled, of course, as if they had nowhere in the world to be. They couldn’t find their socks. They didn’t want frozen waffles for breakfast. They didn’t want to go to their first days of school, they wanted to just watch cartoons while Isabella struggled to be a morning person like most days.
But she’d done it, she got them dressed and fed and out the door, only having to double back for forgotten bags once. And while it was a whirlwind drop off at two different schools, she made it, and made it home just as Grandma was finishing her morning coffee and ready for a lift to her bible study, and just in time to shower to get dressed for her first day of work.
Except she’d underestimated how far the bible study was, and realized as soon as Grandma was shuffled inside that she was going to be late. For her first day of work. So she booked it into high gear…
And it landed her here. Pulled over to the side of the road with the cop car lights flashing through the back windshield. She let out an angry groan and let her head rest against the steering wheel. Now she would definitely be late.
A knock on her window got her to look up, only to huff, “You have got to be fucking kidding me.” She cranked her window down, actions snappish and pissy, as Jungkook waited with raised eyebrows and a narrow stare.
“Isabella.”
“Are you fucking kidding me?” she sighed again, in case he hadn’t heard her earlier.
“That’s my question,” he said. “Do you have any idea how fast you were going, ma’am?”
“Thirty.”
“Bullshit,” he snorted.
“Do you know how fast I was going?”
He glared and answered, “Fifty-four in a thirty.”
“Not me, officer.”
“Isabella--”
“I’d like to see your radar gun readout and a clear photo of--”
“Isabella,” he sighed and made an exasperated noise. 
“There was another car going much faster than me, probably you picked that one up.”
“Used to arguing your way out of tickets, huh?”
“I doubt the other way out of tickets would work with you.”
“Oh? And what would that be? Maybe… not speeding and earning them in the first place?” he suggested. And he just looked so fucking smug. 
She gave him an equally smug grin and prompted, “Radar read out and dashboard cam, please.”
“License and registration, please.”
“Jungkook,” she grunted. “I’m late for work. It’s my first day.”
“Work, huh? Where’s that.”
“Target. Ever been? There’s a pharmacy, they have vaseline that could help you get that stick out of your--”
He sighed and rested his hands on the window frame, “Isabella. Why are you antagonizing me? I’m a cop. You’re speeding.”
“You are a cop, but I was not speeding.”
“Goddamn you are as infuriating as you were in high school.”
“Look,” she sighed, deciding to try a different tactic. “Fine, you want to try the other way? There’s a gas station up ahead, behind the dumpster there aren’t cameras. My backseat has a kid booster but you can probably turn your car cam off, right?”
“Jesus Christ,” he groaned, pushing away from her car and scratching at his hair. “Can you stop trying to bribe your way out of a ticket?!”
“Oh. So you admit that sounds like an appealing bribe? I just meant it as a friendly offer but--”
“Ok, look. I’m going to let you off with a warning this one time. Do you hear me?” 
Isabella bit her tongue so as not to point out that she vaguely thought she recalled him telling her the other night it was her one warning. Instead she made her eyes very big and nodded.
“Yes, sir. Thank you, sir. Officer, sir.”
“Just because if I give you a ticket I have to stand here and deal with you for fifteen more minutes.”
“I am so grateful--”
“But look, slow down, ok? You’re going to hit someone and this tin can you’re driving isn’t going to protect you. You can’t show up here and just break the law when you feel like it.” 
She bit her tongue so hard it hurt. That was rich, real rich coming from a delinquent she’d covered for plenty of times. Probably he knew that, because he arched his eyebrow and waited, as if to see if she could resist. She lifted her chin and set her jaw and held it in. He watched her a moment longer.
“Have a nice day, ma’am. Take it easy.” He patted the roof of her car like a true and genuine police asshole, and sauntered back to his vehicle. Isabella cranked up her window.
“You fucker, you definitely didn’t actually have me on radar and how dare you preach at me about--”
The siren blipped once, cutting off her monologue. She glared at him through the rearview mirror and quickly pulled away, waiting until she’d lost him behind a turn to take off again, in an attempt to make up for lost time and not lose her job on the first fucking day.
It wasn’t until she parked she realized she’d forgotten to take her wallet out of one of the kids’ backpacks before dropping them off.
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Isabella’s legs hurt. Her back hurt. Her head hurt. She was too tired for this. She kept glancing at the clock, but there were hours left in her shift still. Ezra and Lily would have arrived at afterschool care by now. The nurse would have picked up Grandma from bible study long ago. Everyone was fine. But she was tired and desperate for coffee and didn’t have a break coming up any time soon.
She plastered on a smile, ringing up the woman in her line, but the woman was on her phone and not paying attention anyway so she let it slide away. The woman bought razors, deodorant, several bottles of wine, a carton of Goldfish, and a box of tampons. Isabella rang everything up, turned the bags on the carousel so the woman could loop them over the hand holding her car keys, and held the receipt out. 
“Have a nice day,” she said.
“Uh huh,” the woman nodded and walked away, flicking her hand a little like Isabella was a gnat. 
She hadn’t looked at the next person in line yet, just reached for the bag of shrimp chips and then immediately froze.
“Are you fucking--” She looked up as she spoke, knowing instinctively it was Jungkook, but trailed off upon finding him holding a little girl. He raised his eyes and gave her a crooked grin.
“What was that?” he asked. The little girl stared at her with similar wide eyes.
“Uh… are you following me?” she asked, deciding to ignore his look. “I told you where I work. Are you checking up on me?!”
He gave her a teasing glare, “Are you always this paranoid?” She rolled her eyes. “You didn’t card that woman.”
“Oh my god, are you kidding me right now? She was clearly over 21.”
“I don’t know,” he tsked, looking after the woman. “White people, it’s hard to tell your ages.”
Isabella licked her lips in annoyance to keep from saying worse, and then smiled at the little girl, “Your dad is a real charmer, huh?”
The girl’s face instantly screwed up and she argued, “He’s not my dad, he’s my uncle!”
“Ah. Oh!” Before she could even ask, Jungkook’s older sister set one final thing on the belt, then did a double take.
“Isabella!” she greeted. “Hello!”
“Um, hi Youngsoon.” Isabella immediately blushed. Youngsoon was even more beautiful than she’d been as a young adult. Youngsoon had always been so beautiful and cool. Isabella had spent a lot of years lamenting she couldn’t be a beautiful Korean woman like her, certain Jungkook’s older sister belonged in the movies. Embarrassed, she quickly began scanning items.
“Jungkook didn’t mention you were back in town. How are you?”
“I’m well,” she answered reflexively, only glancing up. She did not appreciate the smug grin Jungkook still had. What did he have to be smug about? She glared at him.
“She thought Uncle Gukka was my dad,” the little girl giggled, flinging her arms around Uncle Gukka’s neck. 
“Yuck,” Jungkook teased, scrunching her face up at her. To be fair, the little girl was clearly a Jeon. But it made sense that she was a baby Youngsoon; she was beautiful, just like her mother, not goobery like Jungkook… well, like he had been when they were younger, anyway...
“Sora, this woman is an old friend of Uncle Gukka’s,” Youngsoon said with a smile. “She was Uncle Gukka’s very first friend in America.”
“Your first friend was a girl?” Sora asked with surprise.
Jungkook gave her a serious look and said, “I didn’t know it at the time.”
“Hey,” Isabella glared. But she didn’t stop scanning items, in a hurry to finish up so they could go away. She was very nervous now having Jungkook and Youngsoon both here. Jungkook she didn’t mind aggravating but seeing Youngsoon left her feeling… insignificant.
But Youngsoon, perfectly at ease chatting, continued, “Have you moved back permanently?”
“I don’t know,” she admitted. “We’re here with my grandmother right now. I just-- it was easy to transfer to the store since I already work at Target, so I’m just picking up some shifts…” God, it was mortifying. Mortifying. Not only was she standing there scanning their items in her stupid khakis and red polo shirt, but talking about picking up shifts… Youngsoon had been in medical school back then. And now Jungkook was a cop. 
“We?”
“Oh, um… me and my children.”
“Oh! How old are you children?” Youngsoon continued. “I have two --Sora here is--”
“I’m five,” Sora announced.
“Five,” Youngsoon finished with a fond smile. “And I have a two year old boy.” The last item had been rung up and placed in the bag and Isabella had succeeded in not looking at Jungkook for several minutes now; even when Sora had spoken and she’d reflexively look at the little girl, she’d managed to blur his face from view. Gukka’s very first friend in America. What a silly thing to mention. Pokemon. They’d bonded over fucking Pokemon.
But Youngsoon looked at her expectantly and Isabella had always admired her so much and found herself admitting, “I have two. Eight and four.”
“Oh, are they in school? Or will you not be here that long?”
“Yeah, I-- they started school today actually. Since I don’t know how long we’ll be here, I didn’t want them to miss out.”
“Is your younger one in kindergarten?”
“No, Pre-K still but through public school.”
“It was their first day today?” Jungkook asked, tricking her into looking at him. She gave a nod and turned to push the button on the screen as Youngsoon pulled out her wallet to pay. She tried not to sulk but thought that might be why he snorted and then sighed, “You shouldn’t have been speeding.”
“It’s my first day of work too and I was going maybe three over--”
“Twenty-four over,” he clarified. 
“Show me the radar receipt.”
He let out an exasperated sigh, “I let you off with a warning, didn’t I?”
“Yeah because I said--”
“Not because of anything you said,” he corrected instantly, giving her a wide-eyed and pointed stare. 
“--you wanted me to shut up,” she grinned cheekily, grabbing the receipt as it printed out. 
Youngsoon gave her a gentle smile though, because she’d always been kind, and assured her, “Mornings are hard. Sorry it sounds like a tough one.” She took the receipt. “I’m really glad to run into you though. We should get our kids together for a play date! Sora and your youngest are so close in age.”
“Oh. Um…” She hadn’t expected that. Why would she suggest that? She’d hurried so Youngsoon could finish being polite and leave.
“Let me give you my number,” she said instead, digging around in her wallet and then pulling out a business card. “You can text or call my cell that’s listed there.”
“Ok. Um, thanks, sure. Things are a little busy right now but--”
Jungkook snickered and made a face at his sister, “Soona, she doesn’t want to bring her kids around.”
“My kids are wonderful,” Isabella defended hotly, feeling anger charge through her body. Her cheeks flushed with it. It surprised him, he didn’t hide that from his face.
“Uh, I-- I didn’t mean it like that,” he assured her. He shifted Sora to his other arm and scratched his cheek. 
Sora seemed oblivious to the awkward exchange as she asked Isabella, “Do you have a boy or a girl?”
“I have one of each. My daughter is the one close to your age.”
“Does she like princesses or cars or both?” Sora asked. Youngsoon laughed gently and pressed her hand to Jungkook’s arm to nudge them along, but motioned to the business card in Isabella’s hand.
“Do call or text.”
“Ok. Yeah. I will.”
Jungkook didn’t say anything more, even goodbye. He’d picked up both bags though after dumping Sora to the ground; she took her mother’s hand and waved to Isabella as the three of them left the store.
Isabella’s cheeks blazed as she turned her attention to the next customer, an older woman who looked vaguely familiar but didn’t seem to recognize Isabella. That was good. She hadn’t thought about how many people she’d see at Target, she’d just been thinking about the ease of picking up shifts and making money because she needed to. 
Embarrassed, she tossed the business card in the trash under her till.
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Isabella stretched out on the couch next to Grandma once the kids were in bed a half hour later than she had wanted. That wasn’t too bad. The house felt strangely silent without their voices and pounding footsteps rattling the walls, but it was nice to be able to let out her breath and relax and not try to look like a Responsible Adult. 
Grandma hummed happily and laced her fingers into Isabella’s hair, holding her tea mug in the other hand.
“That better be decaf,” Isabella warned.
“My, you’re a bossy little thing,” Grandma chuckled. 
“I just don’t want you having caffeine nightmares, and you’re barely sleeping as it is--”
“Yes, yes, I know. Nothing but sleepy herbs in this. Would you like some?”
“I’m so wiped, I won’t need any help falling asleep.”
“Go to bed now.”
“Nah, I’ll sit up with you a little longer,” Isabella insisted and sat up, certain the way her grandmother stroked her hair would put her to sleep otherwise. She’d gone so many years without getting to sit with her grandma like this, she wouldn’t trade it for a little extra sleep now that she could.
“Well I heard all about the first day of school from the children at dinner, but how was your first day of work?”
Isabella shrugged, “It’s just Target. It’s the same everywhere you go-- hey, you know who I keep running into?”
“Who?”
“Jungkook. Do you remember him?”
“Of course I remember him.”
“Did you know he’s a cop now?”
“Yes, I knew,” her grandmother confirmed, smiling and nodding. “Why is that so surprising? He’s a sweet boy.”
“Uh, he was sweet when we were eleven. Then he became a raging asshole…”
“Bella,” Grandma scolded, giving her a look about her language.
“Grandma, he was a troublemaker in high school. What the hell made him become a cop? He hated cops! He never showed the slightest interest in becoming a cop and now suddenly he’s lecturing me about…” She trailed off, not wanting to admit to her grandmother about what she’d been up to and realizing she almost had.
Grandma gave her a coyly arched eyebrow and pressed, “About what, my darling granddaughter?”
“Nothing.”
“Maybe the fight you had last Thursday--”
“Grandmaaa,” Isabella sighed. “I don’t want to talk about it.”
“I’m sure you don’t! But I know what a hangover is, my dear, and I don’t think you were using make up to cover bites from an amorous lover--”
“Grandma!” This time she broke off with a laugh and gave her grandmother a gentle, playful shove. “What do you know about amorous bites?”
“Oh, to be young and think you know everything--”
“I’m not young, I’m old,” Isabella sighed and let her head drop to her grandmother’s shoulder. “I stopped being young when I was fourteen. I just have a hard time believing Jungkook grew up enough to be a cop. He still seems like a smarmy asssss...” She’d tried to change the word to something else and couldn’t think of anything on the spot, just dragged the s out awkwardly long.
“Nonsense. Being a cop doesn’t mean you grew up, it just means you passed some tests and they gave you a badge and a gun.”
“Oof. Careful, Grandma! That sounds remarkably progressive. What will the old ladies in your bible study group say? How dare you flaunt authority?”
Grandma laughed and admitted, “Perhaps it is a little tough when you find yourself so much older than authority.”
“I bet he can’t even grow a beard yet.”
“He tried, briefly, a few years ago,” Grandma admitted, grinning when Isabella giggled. “You’re still very young too, sweetheart, you just grew up fast. But someday you’ll look back in disbelief of how young you still were right now, thinking like that.”
“Don’t talk cryptically, Grandma. You’ll make me panic.”
“No, no, I won’t die on you tonight,” the older woman teased, earning a glare from Isabella. “I just find your disbelief he grew up and started a career is amusing. You grew up and got a career and have two children!”
“I hardly think working at Target counts as a career. I’m not even a manager.”
“You could be!”
“No,” Isabella sighed. “I can’t be. I take too many sick days. I mean honestly I was probably about to get fired at my store in New York. It’s a blessing you wanted me to come home. Don’t think for a second I did it for you.”
Grandma grinned, “Oh yes, of course. My selfish granddaughter, only ever doing things for herself.”
Isabella sighed. She knew her grandmother was teasing her. But she did feel selfish. All the time. Every part of her life felt like jumping from one selfish decision to the next, hurting everyone within reach. That was her legacy, wasn’t it? Even her two children, who she would have moved heaven and earth for, suffered because she just couldn’t quite get her shit together. And why couldn’t she get her shit together? Because she kept making bad decisions. Even now, she really had uprooted her children to move home because selfishly she wanted whatever time she had left with her grandmother, even if it meant dividing what little energy and attention she had for her children even further. And selfishly, too, it was a break on rent, which she’d been struggling to make before.
“I didn’t mean that,” her grandmother whispered. “I’m teasing you, Isabella. You’re a good girl with a big heart. Be kind to yourself. I’m glad you’re home, I’m just sad a mini seizure is what brought you home.”
“It wasn’t mini, Grandma.”
“And don’t be too hard on Jungkook. I think he’s made a sincere effort to leave his high school behavior in high school.”
“It would be easier not to be hard on him if he would stop following me everywhere. I swear, he’s like a plague. A shadow!”
Grandma grinned, “Then it’s just like when you were twelve again.”
“God, I hope not. Twelve is the worst age when you’re a girl.”
“It’s not too kind to boys either.”
“Jungkook came out on the right side of it.”
“Oh, do you think he’s handsome now?” her grandmother asked, and Isabella felt the snicker against her scalp.
“No. I meant after puberty, the girls in high school did! He’s ugly now.”
“Isabella.”
“So ugly. Stupid face.”
“Isabella,” her grandmother laughed.
“What! He was probably thinking the same things when he saw me. Wow, she got ugly and old and fat--”
“Ok, missy, I’m cutting you off,” her grandmother said, nudging her to get her to sit up. “Go to bed.”
“What! Cutting me off from what, I’m not drinking anything.”
“From thoughts like that. You are beautiful and hard-working and you have two perfect children.”
“I know, I know.”
“You are kicking ass.”
“Grandmaaa,” Isabelle laughed. 
“I’m eighty-six, I can say ass for once.”
“That’s twice!”
“Ah, better call Officer Jeon to arrest me--”
Isabella pretended to vomit, “Never call him Officer Jeon again. He’s an idiot. He’s so… smug. He thinks he’s better than me--”
“Bella, honey.”
“Hm?”
“You’re not sixteen anymore and neither is he. Let it rest.”
Isabella didn’t quite know what her grandmother meant by that. There was plenty she could imply. But while she had no problem assuming intent on Jungkook’s part because he’d been such an absolute asshole in high school, she didn’t want to read anything in what her grandmother said now that could either defend Jungkook or embarrass herself. 
“Fine,” Isabella conceded. “Anyway, I probably won’t see him again. Unless he really is stalking me and then I’ll get a restraining order.”
“That’s my girl,” Grandma laughed and kissed her forehead. “Now to bed. We have to do this all again tomorrow.”
“Wait, the kids have to go to school again?”
It made Grandma laugh, and Isabella was glad to see that. Honestly maybe it was all a little hammed up, even talking about Jungkook, because her grandmother was in constant pain at this point, and any little smile she could get from her was a victory. 
“Ok, let me help you up to bed, Grandma. Tomorrow is another day. I’m sure it’ll be better.”
“So, guess who’s back in town?” Youngsoon brought up at dinner. Jungkook groaned and threw his napkin at her before she said anything further, earning a pinch on the arm from his mom. It wasn’t even weekly family dinner night, so Jungkook had thought it would be safe to go to his parents’ place to mooch food, but Youngsoon had also decided to come over with her kids because her husband had a night out with the guys or whatever. 
She’d waited until they were halfway through the meal, once the kids had finished and run off to play noisily in the living room, to bring it up. As if just to lure Jungkook into the false sense of getting away with it. But at his parents’ curious prompt, Youngsoon answered,
“Isabella Desmond. She’s staying with her grandmother.”
“Isabella Desmond! How is she?”
“Why are you looking at me?” Jungkook grumbled, shoving tempura in his mouth. 
“You already knew?”
Jungkook made a face and admitted, “Yeah, I already knew… she’s… struggling, it seems.”
“Struggling how?” his mother pressed. “It must be hard with her grandmother in poor health…”
“Working at Target doesn’t mean she’s struggling,” Youngsoon countered, leveling a look at Jungkook.
“No, I think she’s struggling because-- I don’t know,” he shrugged. On second thought, he didn’t want to get into it. “Just seems like she has a lot on her plate.”
“She’s got two kids,” Youngsoon informed his parents. “Eight and four, she said. I asked her to give me a call for a playdate.”
“Ah, that’s good. It would be good to see her again. She was always such a good friend to Gukka,” his father said. Jungkook sighed and rolled his eyes, earning a swift kick from his mom beneath the table even before his father teased, “Even when Gukka was not a good friend.”
“I was always a great friend. I’m still a great friend. I let her off with warnings twice.”
“Twice? One was for a speeding ticket. What was the other one?” Youngsoon immediately caught because of course she did.
Jungkook gave her a smug grin, “Sorry, can’t disclose, official police business.”
“Well if she calls you, please invite her over to supper,” his mother suggested. “Her and the children and her grandmother. It would be good to see them all again.”
Jungkook clicked his teeth and said, “She’s not going to call you, Soona. And it’s for the best, just let her be. She’s not in a good place right now.”
“Ok.” Youngsoon gave him a serious look. “Then… help her.”
“I did. I gave her warnings twice.”
“That’s not helping, that’s enabling--”
Jungkook sighed, “She’s not my responsibility.”
“It’s not good,” his mother argued. “She was such a good friend to you when we first moved here. It felt like I didn’t even have a son anymore because you were always off in that treehouse playing together. We bought that Nintendo just to lure you both into the house.”
“Ma, we were twelve and also it was a PlayStation, you can’t just call all video game systems Nintendo. And we don’t owe each other anything because we were old Pokemon buddies. She’s not doing me any favors either.”
“What favors do you want her to do?” Youngsoon asked, bright-eyed.
“Ma, Soona’s being dirty.”
“Soona, behave.”
“I’m just--”
“Yes, I know, I know.”
“She’s pretty, mom. You should have seen Gukka’s grin when we saw her in Target--”
“Bull--- hockey,” Jungkook glared. “She’s a menace. You should have heard her talking her way out of the parking ticket. Demanding to see the radar gun…”
Jungkook’s dad grinned, “Well? Did it work?”
“Wha-- it worked because I was being nice and gave her a warning.”
“You didn’t have a radar gun,” his dad nodded.
“She was clearly speeding but… no… I didn’t…”
“Ah, she was always a clever girl,” his mother laughed. “I hope she is ok. Keep an eye out for her, Gukka. You say you don’t owe her anything? We always owe kindness to the people who were kind to us.”
“Yeah, yeah,” he sighed, shaking his head. “I let her off with a warning twice… I don’t know what more you want me to do…”
“Whatever your heart says you should,” his mother beamed at him. Absolutely infuriating. 
Fortunately Soona’s kids ran shrieking into the room, bickering about who broke the TV remote, and Jungkook was saved from further interrogation.
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kingofthewilderwest · 4 years ago
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One of the major flaws of HTTYD 3 in comparison to its predecessors is how childish the movie felt. The first two movies had the occasional joke but were still extremely mature in their storytelling. Have you read the article "Dreamworks execs have an incredible reason for why their films are unpopular" ? It came out a year after the second movie, and explains why they dumbed down the third.
It’s an interesting article and I’ve always thought there was some truth in the opinion: to their detriment, DreamWorks’ latest films haven’t focused on the creatively wild, often more mature spark that made things like How to Train Your Dragon, The Croods, Rise of the Guardians, Megamind, or The Prince of Egypt quality films. As the article writer notes:
Animated films, if anything, attract a much broader audience of older children, teens, and adults than they ever did in the Eighties and Nineties. Ironically, DreamWorks’s own films in the 2000s played a significant role in expanding the public’s perception about animated features. Now, DreamWorks is betting against its own history as they try to get back on track.
That said. Many of the earliest DreamWorks productions have a somewhat mature appeal to them, but I feel like DreamWorks has long played the game of wide audience appeal commercialism. For a period of time, they balanced their “artistic” or “venturesome” films against their “safer cash” films. The fluffier Turbo was released just one year before HTTYD2; Kung Fu Panda 3 and The Boss Baby were released a year apart, too. There was a sense of balance, letting the fluffier, probably more kid-appealing films earn money, while allowing them to take risks on more unique ventures. I’m not sure if that was their actual strategy, but regardless: balance of maturity. (And for the record, calling some DreamWorks movies “fluffier” is not intended to be an insult; I myself love their Mr. Peabody & Sherman).
And I think the reason I was so hardcore on board the DreamWorks train is that, whether it was an ill-conceived mistake (Shark Tale) or a big “what the fuck” (Bee Movie) or feeling somewhat adult (Antz), DreamWorks was willing to take those risks. DreamWorks was willing to be quirky. And DreamWorks was willing to put heart into everything; Mr. Peabody & Sherman definitely has heart to it, as does Home, as does Turbo from what I remember (only saw that one once).
I feel like advertisements for Trolls and The Boss Baby is where my friendship circles started to feel less enthused about DreamWorks. At that point, I saw some trust failing for DreamWorks’ creative direction - that DreamWorks was dumbing down their movies for children rather than making fluff family films with heart. The key phrase is “dumbing down.” There’s a huge difference between writing children’s stories and dumbing down for children. And that’s what this article writer was calling out, too.
Ghibli movies are written for children. Disney 2D animated films bring awe to children. How to Train Your Dragon understood that lots of its audience members would be children. But you breathe life into a quality story that children and adults can enjoy! Making a bunch of crappy jokes dumbed down to children is stuff like... at its worst... Norm of the North. When you’re making something shoddier, with half-assed fart jokes, because of an implicit idea children’s media doesn’t have to be as quality... because children allegedly aren’t going to notice quality... that’s where we run into problems.
Now, I’m not going to say whether or not I think DreamWorks has actually begun dumbing down its films. I know that’s the impression in my peer group. I know that’s an impression I’ve felt inside my heart, too. But I haven’t seen Trolls or Trolls World Tour or The Boss Baby so I can’t judge. But I think it’s safe to say there has been a gradual shift over time. And that escalated post-2014, where we got this from DreamWorks execs:
…the company's slate changes are more realistic/in-tune with the evolution in changes in the box office market as the 2012-2014 film challenges were tied to films which skewed older right as the box office began to see changes whereby animation demand was increasingly skewing younger as kids began to age out of the genre earlier. While we view the ability to reduce P&A as more difficult given the need to advertise to two distinct groups (kids and moms), the combination of both cost reductions in production and a younger skewing slate, do position the slate better in our view.
And my impression is it’s escalated lately (but I only have a small sample size of films, so I take what I say with a grain of salt). I remember during the NBCUniversal acquisition in 2016, fans feared DreamWorks would lose its sometimes mature, sometimes quirky heart. That the company would be in a downfall state for quality.
I had hoped that HTTYD3 might be a bastion against efforts to commercialize with cash-easy, not-as-heart-ful “kid” appeals. THW grossing a lot of money could help leadership remember that diverse audiences, not tiny children, can and do watch animated films - 3D animation’s just not a guaranteed success because it’s a more saturated market. It could at least let the tradition of some DreamWorks gutsier creative films perpetuate.
And I do think that THW doesn’t have as many problems as, say, The Boss Baby probably does, when it comes to “kid-specific appeal”. I feel like the tone in THW has a middle ground. THW was never going to be as dark as HTTYD2; DeBlois made that clear since the release of HTTYD2; but I do think there might have been an effort to lighten tone in places (ergo the large number of gag jokes that cluttered the film). There’s absolutely mature ideas inside THW: the concept of parting ways with someone you love because it’s better for both of you... that’s meaty... that’s something that even adults grapple with. Hiccup’s flashbacks with Stoick have the simple but in-depth storytelling mood I know of the How to Train Your Dragon brand. So I would phrase it as it’s not a case of complete dumbing down so much as it is some imperfect tonal choices and plot focuses (too much spotlighting on the Light Fury romance, for instance, and not weeding out an excessive amount of jokes... that again... cluttered the film). The first two HTTYD movies feel like carefully honed storytelling, capturing the essence of what their story needed. The third needed tonal and content reorganization. The presentation of stakes and plot progression weren’t on par with the first two films. The Hiccup-Toothless separation didn’t pack a hard punch to me because the steps we took to get to the end weren’t the tonal footsteps we needed.
There’s a reason I charged to theatres the weekend Abominable released (mind, this was before the map controversy over the film came out). I was hoping Abominable could be a DreamWorks film with art and heart. And you know? I think that Abominable was one draft short of being *INCREDIBLE*. The problem is it was one draft short. It stayed superficial instead of diving into the meat. The plot pacing was slow because we didn’t get into the meat, the characterization felt awkwardly paced and whiplashy because it didn’t get into the meat, and the humor felt childish rather than taking full advantage of things like character relations. But the inside heart - the inside potential - of Abominable is monumental. It’s still not a bad film! If they’d gotten that next draft, Pearl and DreamWorks could have had a piece on par with Megamind and The Croods. I absolutely believe that. If I had time, I would rewrite Abominable in fanfiction and show how much potential this thing had.
DreamWorks is no longer a young studio exploring whatever the crap it wants because it’s the new guy finding his voice or rebelling against the other voice. DreamWorks is an established powerhouse. And with establishment comes a certain degree of safety-playing and standardization of content. I don’t expect we’ll get as many wild tone shifts as Bee Movie (11/2007) to Kung Fu Panda (6/2008) or How to Train Your Dragon 2 (6/2014) to freaking Penguins of Madagascar (11/2014).
That’s not to say DreamWorks does or doesn’t make quality films. I admit I don’t have high hopes on some things like The Boss Baby 2. I do have my fingers crossed for The Wizards of Once; I hoooope that DreamWorks can treat TWOO as they did HTTYD... something with simple, powerful, overflowing, artistic heart.
Who knows. Guess we’ll see.
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allsassnoclass · 4 years ago
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I saw your tags and had to ask; what are your thoughts on what 'boyband' means? 💙
Oh blue heart anon thank you for indulging me because I have a lot of Thoughts
So! What constitutes a “boyband?”  Is it just a group of lads making music together? (No, because that’s just over half of the bands these days.). Is it lads making music together where all of them sing?  Is it required of them to not play instruments?  How mandatory is dancing?  We don’t have definitive answers to these questions because society lumps any group of young, attractive men in a band with a largely teenage, largely female fanbase as a “boyband.”  The boybands of the 90s danced, but One Direction did not.  5SOS was considered a boyband for a long time despite the fact that they played their own instruments and wrote their own music, as well as how their genre leaned more towards rock than the bubblegum pop characteristic of most other boy bands.
Boyband is not a label based on specific traits in a band, but rather based on fanbase and marketing.  According to Google, a boyband is “a pop group composed of young men whose music and image are designed to appeal primarily to a young teenage audience.”  You can apply this to literally any band you want, but I also think it’s important to look at this definition with the idea that bands can start as boybands then grow out of it.  The Beatles were a boyband, because they were marketed towards and popular with young women, but they aren’t considered as such now because their primary fanbase is pretentious men.  5sos, by this definition, also used to be a boyband.  They were young, attractive guys making music that appealed to a younger teenage audience because they also were teenagers.  They also undoubtedly were marketed to be appealing to a young teenage audience at the beginning.  However, by this definition I wouldn’t say that they’re a boyband anymore, seeing as they continue to market themselves towards others their age (young adults now, not teenagers specifically) and their music is geared a bit older with the content and language.  They don’t sing a lot of songs from their early albums because they, and the fanbase for the most part, have grown.  A band like Fall Out Boy, however, is not really considered a boyband despite a strong teenage (mostly female) fan presence, because they do have enough of a variety of fans and because they have never been marketed towards teenagers specifically.
“Boyband” honestly is a really obsolete term because it’s simply used to point out bands geared towards teens or younger audiences and try to talk down about them because of it.  Society as a whole doesn’t value things which primarily young people (especially young girls) enjoy.  (Seriously, teen girls get made fun of for everything, from Ugg boots to boybands to Starbucks to half of the YA lit books that become popular in those circles (see: Twilight).) Slap the label “boyband” on a band and suddenly they’re not taken seriously, which is why a lot of bands rebel against that label.  It’s great to see bands like One Direction talk so highly of their fanbases as a response, but I hate that they have to do that.  There’s nothing wrong with being marketed towards teens, and boyband shouldn’t be a negative descriptor of a band, but we’re still not quite at that level I don’t think.  The accomplishments of boybands are dismissed due to their fanbase (like how all of the chart success One Direction experienced is due to their “crazy” fanbase who are all obviously in love with them and not because they do have some absolute bops and, especially in the later albums, really smart and really skillful songwriting).
Boyband as a term itself doesn’t necessarily bother me, I just don’t like how some people use it as a negative adjective rather than a neutral one.  There should be no shame in producing content that teens like!  There should be no shame in that and I don’t like how that is sometimes taken as a negative!
Anyway those are some of my thoughts about boybands.  Hope you’re having a good day my friend <3
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caretaker-au · 5 years ago
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Subterfuge
Interlude: Kindness
Spring 2031
Today should have been a wonderful day. After all, it was a day that Chara had been dreaming about for the past 3 years, loading and reloading, hoping fate would deliver to them another human soul. And today, it had. Lounging comfortably beneath the gnarled black tree in the ruins, the human was practically waiting at their doorstep. They were female and older than the previous children, somewhere in their early teens. Some sort of fabric was wrapped around their leg where blood was seeping through, but otherwise they seemed unharmed, an unfaltering smile gleaming beneath their green eyes and long lashes.
But of course, Chara could not be so lucky.
Spoiling the sight was the human’s monster companion. Probably still in grade school, Chara recognized the monster as being the son of the Whimsun family. Undoubtedly responsible for the human’s survival, the fairy monster seemed to realize his guilt and hid behind the shoulder of the human.
The teenager hadn’t seemed to notice the monster’s discomfort, instead acknowledging the caretaker’s arrival with a cheery, "Hello! You must be Chara!"
Chara bristled at the familiarity. "You. What is your name."
"Oh!" the child chimed, "My name is—"
“Not you.” Chara interjected, pointing past the human, “Him.”
The winged monster poked his head into view, eyes downcast. “Wh--Whimsy. I’m sorry, Chara, I know I’m not supposed to be here... please don’t tell mom and dad.”
“We will see about that. Come here.”
Whimsy fluttered towards Chara, casting an apologetic look back. Arching an eyebrow, the human leaned forward as if to stand, to which Chara barked, “No. Stay.” They winced a little at the order but complied. Chara turned their attention to the monster and spoke in a hushed voice, while keeping an eye on the human behind him.
“When did you come here, Whimsy?” Chara asked.
“Lunch time… around noon.”
Chara checked their watch with a frown. It was already past 2:00 pm, and they had created a save point only an hour ago, not early enough to stop Whimsy from trespassing. 
“And the human. When did it arrive?”
“I don't know. I found them under the big hole in the ruins, calling for help.”
The timing couldn’t be worse. No matter how many times they reloaded, Chara was stuck in this uncomfortable confrontation between the three of them. Unfortunate save times happened occasionally, but rarely were they this bad.
Fidgeting in the silence, Whimsy continued, “They’re hurt, Chara..”
“It doesn’t matter if it’s hurt,” Chara said, lowering their voice further, “You know what happened to Asriel.”
Whimsy’s eyes widened, “What happened to Asriel?”
Lovely. This monster was too young to have witnessed Asriel’s injury or to be told the gory details. Chara sighed, exasperated. Later they would have to make an appeal to the education department to include such information in schools. Speaking of, the young human was watching them, brow furrowed as they tried to listen in.
Chara pulled a key out of their pocket, locking the front door of the house they had passed through to come here. “Walk with me, Whimsy,” they said, gesturing for him to follow. Whimsy nodded as Chara walked toward the human beneath the tree, then right past them. “Remain there. I will be back for you.”
“Goodbye, Whimsy!” the human called out, “I’ll see you soon?”
“Good… goodbye…” Whimsy responded. If he was going to add anything else, he didn’t get the chance. Chara reached out their hand to lead Whimsy toward the southern exit. Together, they walked down the hall on their left, where another open doorway led to the city of Home.
While the Ruins had been left to crumble, Home was still bustling with life. In this room, they could overlook the glowing city scape under the vast cave ceiling. Unfortunately, the glittering view was obscured by a heavy metal gate that wrapped around them like a cage. Chara knew that small monsters like Whimsy would be able to fit through the bars, but they didn’t think anyone was brave or stupid enough to enter the Ruins without permission. Not only was it against the law, but the gate was erected to protect Home from humans. Entry through the gate was only permitted with Chara serving as a scout and escort.
Now out of earshot of the human, Chara scolded Whimsy for entering the Ruins, explaining in morbid detail what happened to Asriel. Unsympathetic to Whimsy’s look of horror, they went on to threaten reporting him to the authorities and his parents for breaking the law. As Chara hoped, Whimsy collapsed like a house of cards, apologizing and begging Chara not to tell. Chara made the young monster a deal, promising not to report if him if he swore not to tell anyone about going to the Ruins or seeing the human. Using one of their keys, Chara opened the gate for Whimsy, who solemnly passed through.
“Wait…” Whimsy said, eyes pleading, “Don’t be mad at them, okay? I know humans are dangerous, but this one is really nice…”
Chara opened their mouth to argue, but stopped, changing tactics instead, “I will bear this in mind. If it-- if they are as harmless as you say, I will let them go.”
“Really?” 
Chara smiled, “If I deem them worthy, then of course.”
Whimsy sighed in relief, but his assurance was short lived as Chara reiterated that if anyone found out about their trespassing, there would be severe consequences. Whimsy headed home, and Chara locked the gate, waiting until the small monster was out of sight before letting out a sigh.
Finally. Back to business.
Chara startled upon returning to the black tree in the yard. The human had raised themself to their full height, and they were tall. Freakishly tall. From a distance, Chara would have mistaken the child for an adult if their face and gangly limbs hadn’t given them away. Wrapped around their waist was an apron, dirty with food and mud, and the child fidgeted with a heavy cast iron skillet. Did they always have that? More importantly, why did they have such a thing?
Chara took a moment to smooth out their robe. They considered setting a save point, but decided against it, in case they would need to reattempt the talk with Whimsy. Chara approached the child with their best smile, but judging by the skeptical look the child gave in return, it must not have been convincing.
"Hello child," Chara said, "I would introduce myself, but it seems you already know who I am. Nevertheless, my name is Chara, the caretaker of these ruins. It is unfortunate that I was not the first to greet you."
The child shifted their weight, eyes glancing to the doorway behind Chara, "Where is Whimsy?"
"Home."
"The town called Home, or his own home?"
Chara's smile faltered. Just how much had Whimsy told her?
"Both." they answered, their tone short, "And it is time for you to go as well."
The child's eyes widened, "You can take me home? But Whimsy said--!"
"Whimsy does not know what I know." Chara turned on their heel, facing back to the ruins, "Follow."
The teenager hesitated for a moment before choosing to obey, catching up to Chara in a few paces. Their stature put them a few inches taller than Chara. Troublesome.
There were several rooms between them and their destination.  Chara would have been content to walk in silence, but their curiosity got the better of them. They spoke without turning around. "Tell me. Why do you have that."
"Have what?"
Isn't it obvious? Chara glared over their shoulder, eyes fixed on the pan the kid was swinging as they walked. "In your hand. Is it a weapon?"
"A weapon?" the teenager repeated incredulously, "No, no, this is for cooking, obviously! Though I probably look pretty strange carrying a pan around, huh?"
Chara doesn't answer, setting their eyes back on the path. Out with it already.
"You see, I was camping with my friend and we wanted to try cooking over an open fire. We'd never done that before so once the fire was going we were trying a bit of everything: potatoes, chorizo, even pancakes! Most of the stuff got burned pretty bad, but we managed to eat a few treats before… before…"
Chara heard the human’s steps slow to a stop. They looked back, and the young camper was hugging the pan to their chest, eyes downcast. For the first time since they arrived, the child looked small.
Chara resumed walking. "Keep up."
The child did as ordered, following without a word until they reached a wide room covered with cracked floor tiles. The floor was still intact, evidence that Whimsy did well guiding the child through it. Considering the circumstances, it was probably for the best. After all, Whimsy was not strong enough to witness the death of a human. Few monsters could.
Chara faced the child once more and pretended not to notice that the human’s eyes were red and puffy. "You already know how this puzzle works. Follow carefully."
The teenager nodded, stepping into each of Chara's footprints as they lead the way, "Hey, Chara..." 
The child didn’t notice Chara wincing at the unwanted familiarity, "You sort of remind me of my friend. You're both so serious and quiet, and to be honest, you two have this weird sort of resemblance. Like, of course you don't look the same or anything, but you feel familiar because of it, you know?"
"I don't."
"Oh… okay, well…" the child exited the puzzle of broken tiles after Chara, tilting their head to the side to look at the caretaker’s face, "Either way, it's… it's nice,” they smiled again, nervously looking away, “I keep telling myself, if you are anything like my… my partner, then I know that even if you don’t look it, you’re actually a really good person deep down."
Chara was a bit taken aback by the sudden compliment. For the first time since their meeting, they returned them a sincere smile, "That's kind of you to say. I think I am as well."
The teenager relaxed, relieved to get a positive response from Chara, "I'm sure you are! Should we keep going? My friend needs me, and I've spent too long here already."
"Of course," Chara hummed, "But first, take a look back and say your goodbyes. After all, this will be the last time you see the Underground."
The child gave Chara a quick quizzical look, before turning to face the puzzle, "Yeah, I guess you're right," mindful of the cracked floor, they stepped to the right to better see through the doorway on the other side of the room, "I was so focused on leaving I didn't really appreciate it here. You know, I wish I could have stayed a little longer. Maybe do something nice for Whimsy."
"That can be arranged." 
The human’s head began to turn—perhaps to ask Chara what they meant—but before they could open their mouth, Chara pushed them forward by their shoulders. The child sprawled across the cracked floor which shattered like thin ice, revealing the ten foot drop underneath. A shriek escaped the teenager's lips before momentum and gravity dragged them into the field of spikes poised below.
Chara would never get used to the sound.
Not wanting to get pulled in with their victim, Chara had backed away from the edge, safe against the wall behind them. They watched the dust curl around the broken chasm in lazy spirals, and noted that while their heart rate was elevated, they felt strangely calm. Like killing a rat that had been tearing apart the pantry, completing the grisly act was a welcome relief.
Combing their hair back with their fingers, Chara took a few slow measured breaths, basking in their victory.
Four souls. No—five, including themself. Salvation was nearly within reach.
interlude: kindness // end
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thejustmaiden · 4 years ago
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I'm not against SessRin as the ship itself, rather I'm against the idea of it being canon. I wouldn't even care if InuYasha was of a more mature genre. Yes, the trope is very popular even in hentai, yaoi and yuri. However, all of these genres are explicitly for adults - the type of audience that are well capable of seperating between fiction and real life, knowing what's wrong and right. Yasahime's still cleary targeted at a younger audience - kids that can still be easily affected by fiction.
Hey, nonnie! I really appreciate the ask. Apologies for the slight delay. 😊
I read what you had to say, and I think you bring up a very valid point that I don't see being discussed enough quite honestly.
Because you're right, Inuyasha is geared towards a younger audience. That explains why it was the very first anime for many of us growing up.
Ironically enough, some of you who like me stayed up late to catch it on TV remember that Inuyasha came out on a network called "Adult Swim" of all things. haha (I gather that had more to do with the occasional foul language than anything else.) Cartoon Network- what Adult Swim is known as during the daytime- shows children's programs and Inuyasha wouldn't have been exactly appropriate on there either.
Now let's take a quick look at the other anime shows I remember that would come out on the line-up along with Inuyasha. Cowboy Bepop and Ghost in the Shell are the first two that come to memory. If you aren't familiar with those, readers, I encourage you to look them up and see how they're described in comparison to Inuyasha. They both tackle some pretty dark and heavy adult themes. Inuyasha, on the other hand, is based off a shonen manga aimed at young teens, boys specifically.
I'm not personally familiar with the yaoi and yuri genres myself, but from what I do know, a lot of their stories center around sexual romance and homoeroticism. Inuyasha may include some romance, but by no means does the author insert explicitly sexual elements into her story. Fans who are mature to handle that kind of content can if they so choose to-- bring on the fan fiction and fan art! But can the series itself be justified in doing so? Well, I hope not since the average Inuyasha viewer is only just a teenager.
You're correct, fiction is capable of influencing and shaping how some kids learn to view and make sense of certain events. I'm going to give you a real life example here. Keep in mind, readers, that this is an extreme case that obviously wouldn't apply to everyone or every situation. The purpose of recounting this tale is to demonstrate that young minds are more vulnerable to the influences around them, be them real or imagined.
Years ago there used to be this internet urban legend called "The Slender Man." In 2014, these two 12-year old girls (so roughly the same age many of us started watching Inuyasha) became obsessed with this fictional character and wanted to prove to everyone he existed. In order to do that, they made up their minds to kill one of their classmates to please him. They ended up stabbing the victim numerous times, but she somehow miraculously survived. The two girls who were found guilty of this crime ended up being admitted into mental health institutions. Please feel free to read up more on this yourself. It sounds creepy, I know, but how the community came together to support the victim and her recovery was a touching ending to such a horrific story.
Like I already mentioned, this was an extreme case that almost resulted in murder. Death, however, isn't the only bad outcome that can occur. Child abuse in all its complex forms is a serious outcome, too. It should go without saying that no child watching Inuyasha should accept the idea of a young girl (like themselves but maybe younger) being pursued later once she's "old enough" by the same male authority figure who was her main protector during their travels. You could tell Rin felt legitimately safe and happy for the first time in a long time while in his company. I also like to wonder if that's because Sesshomaru reminded her of someone she knew before her family was killed. But who really knows? After all, kids are very trusting by nature. Let's be honest, the happy-go-lucky Rin would've followed just about anyone who saved her! It just happened to be Sesshomaru, which of course I'm grateful for. So tell me again, why does this protector-ward dynamic they've got going on need to turn romantic?
Seriously, why are viewers expecting a romance to happen anyway? It's not like we have been given any solid indication to suggest that these two are destined for it. Allow me to explain why I believe that is. Sessrin fans anticipate a romance in their future despite the lack of foreshadowing, because this trope IS popular. (But only in series geared towards adults- like you said, nonnie.) In other words, it's been so engrained in our minds that it's a completely normal direction we should come to expect a relationship between an older man and a young girl/woman to take. So even though it hasn't been hinted at much if at all, it's apparently bound to happen regardless.
A young woman who decides to be with an older man isn't the issue here, BUT there's a fine line and at times the stories we tell will tread that line and test its boundaries. Case in point: shipping Sesshomaru with "Adult Rin" although we've only met and gotten to know her as a young girl up until now. In many instances, adult!Rin supposedly only has to mean she's old enough to bear children. If it was the norm for a girl to have kids at 15 or 16 in Feudal Japan, then that must mean we should not only tolerate it but celebrate it too, right?
Yes, fiction is a creative outlet to explore and push the boundaries from time to time, but we must be careful of what messages we're sending and who the target audience is. Would it really be wise to portray in a positive light a teenage girl getting pregnant with one of the people who helped raised her's babies on a show for teens? That's not my idea of a wholesome family lesson I'd ever want to teach my kids or have them learn elsewhere.
What we're essentially doing is telling the young Inuyasha viewers that it's totally normal to sexualize and romanticize a young girl's future without her say. That it's okay to speak for her and decide that's what her character would want even if we haven't met this adult version of her yet. What about Rin's hopes and dreams? How about we wait to see how she is as a grown-up first before we come to such big conclusions. Wouldn't you say you're jumping the gun a bit, shippers?
Nobody is saying you can't picture it, alright, but to claim it's the only obvious progression- because evidently there must be one for some reason?- of the relationship Rin's formed with Sesshomaru is absolutely absurd. If that's the case, then basically all the other "who's Sesshomaru's baby mama" theories are just as plausible as yours if not more so.
Also, guys, we really ought to stop stating that Sesshomaru will never have the capacity to care for another human being besides Rin like it's a fact. I'm aware that to many the appeal of this ship is that she was the first one to break through that icy exterior of his, so that must translate to a love that transcends and what not. If she wasn't a child he guarded like his own first and foremost, then this ship could have potential. That's not the case though, so moving right along!
Right, so who says his affection towards humans has to stop at Rin? Why can't the mom- if there is a mom- be some new character? That's really not reaching- yes, even for Sesshomaru. Knowing Rin, she's probably the one who introduced them! Plus, it's not like we don't have other canon sources that already show us Sesshomaru coming to the aid of humans. He has saved and protected Kagome on a few occasions that we know of so far, as well as Kohaku. And no, he didn't just protect him because Rin asked him to. Perhaps that was why he did at first, but please give Sesshomaru credit where credit is due. He is not the cold heartless demon we once believed him to be. How else do you think he is capable of activating Tenseiga's powers? Yeah, no, Sesshomaru grew to care for that kid, and Kokahu wouldn't have stuck around him for as long as he did if he didn't believe Sesshomaru didn't have his best interests at heart. Well, in Sesshomaru's own special little way that is. 😆
I got a little sidetracked- my bad! I suppose it's all relevant when you think about it. Alrighty, nonnie, I hope I adressed your ask the way you wanted. Please feel free to drop by again! 🖖
Reminder: Do not plan to engage in discourse on this blog if you are going to be disrespectful. The views I'm expressing aren't "an attack," so there's no need to get defensive and aggressive. I've even had a few Sessrin shippers themselves tell me I make valid points and that I do it in an upright manner. So if you don't believe me, then maybe you'll believe them. Thank you!
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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaoldretired · 5 years ago
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some p!g-drv3 theories (spoilers obvi)
First of all I think people demonize the pg versions wayyy too much because its a good way to be le sexy in like fanfictions. And i get it, villains are hot or whatever. and also hs is a horny age to be. But even the edgiest and horniest of teens aren’t like. that sexual/monstrous. its kind of insane the portrayals people are placing
maybe this could also be like me being older bc when i was early hs i was like yea its fair to place these super mature portrayals on a 18-22 year old they are like adults but young and now im that age and im like woah there pardner. might be an age/maturity thing. 
also like its normal for people to relate to and portray characters their same age in a similar fashion, but when adults write more sexual content about the dg kids i get hella fucking sus
idk where i was going with that first comment i guess its like a preface and in the end i think its important when characters especially teenage characters are morally grey not because they’re mature and dark/brooding but because they are still young and learning. fuck im older than like most of them, but im still young and learning. its good to be in turmoil and confused, especially the drv3 cast. they are more confused than anything.
which i think is a reason why people would join dr because if you are completely loss and in turmoil, it is appealing to be given a purpose in life and amazing talents/abilities. despite the morals of danganronpa, it is a simple reality to be told who you are and what to do
OK ONTO HEADCANONS (not doing all bc i dont have thoughts about all)
first of all i understand changing stories but i think, deep down, you can’t change fundamental personalities/values. so while the backstories might be different i think, in the end, a baseline is always the same
SHUICHI being a Bad Boy is like canon obviously but i dont think he’s as manipulative as people make him out to be. i think he falls in the more the bully role that like. mae borowski or tf2′s scout filled before they grew up. rough background, bad anger issues, lots of emotional turmoil, and the only way he knows how to deal with shit is by committing crimes and beating the shit out of people. and, similar to those characters, drv3 represents an older, more emotionally sober yet equally confused version of himself. the urges are still there as foreshadowed in the dialogue. i think he struggles with guilt, mostly survivors, but there is still a lasting impact of guilt of what he did in his past, even if he can’t remember.
KOKICHI is a child. a piece of shit motherfucker child but a child. I really do think he’s like one of the youngest people in the cast. he reminds me a lot of when my brother doesn’t take his adhd medicine and takes jokes way too far and does mean and cruel things because he thinks its funny and that its just a fun joke, but is hurting people. he desperately wants approval, which is why his leader role is so interesting because in the dr narrative he has the approval he craves and so he is satisfied. still, he does try to impress characters like rantaro and values his opinions a lot, even developing a brotherly relationship in the time they knew each other. this being said, its established kokichi was bullied before, but i dont think he’s like. the wimp people make him out to be. i think he’s more of like the class clown who desperately uses humor to make people like him, and ends up resorting to be the butt of most of his jokes. you don’t just develop a good sense of humor out of a brainwash, and that’s not something you can program in. i think that was a remnant of before, and he’s so good at bullying people and coming up with roasts - i just think that in p!g the roasts were about him.
KAEDE is baby but her p!g personality seriously reminds me of any ~quirky/edgy~ girl in a teen coming of age story who tries to be edgy and cool and act like she doesn’t care but deep down, she really does. if she didn’t have an empathetic personality, she wouldn’t want to end the game. i also think she has that self-identifying QuIrKy personality because its like she lives in her own narrative, practically announcing this story is about her and she is the protagonist. i know i used to self narrate like that and distinguish how i was different when i was like. 15-16. she has a tumblr. 
I really like the theory where KAITO is a make-a-wish kid who was better when he was younger but relapses later in teens. he never used his wish before, so he decides to use it now to be on danganronpa and become the hero he always wanted to be. i also think he might have joined as a way to raise awareness about adolescent healthcare. definitely the type who puts on a “heroic” character to make everyone else feel better about the fact he is literally dying of a terminal illness, and keeps that act up till the end. 
i think KOREKIYO is still a serial killer. i think honestly a reason why he mightve auditioned for danganronpa is because he is a serial killer. maybe his sister found out and he felt so much shame that’s why he auditioned. he probably mentioned why in his interview because duh, tell them im a serial killer and then only reason im coming clean is my sister found out and im ashamed, that is like a guarantee to get on the show.  i LOVE the theory that his sister is still alive, however, and has to watch her brother go insane because they wrote her into the story as the villain. because technically, she brought on this guilt, and is the reason why he auditioned - as a way to cause despair, twist it around so she’s the one to blame for his insanity. also, because its pretty accepted DR members become celebrities, kork’s sister is totally bombarded with paparazzi and is demonized in the media. she might end up writing a tell-all memoir about kork’s actual childhood and personality. quiet kid, thoughtful, interested in anthropology, she never thought he’d hurt a fly. watching her brother go insane probably destroyed her. 
I also think, timeline wise, kork is probably one of the oldest members along with rantaro. tbh i think kork actually graduated hs and went on a gap year doing the whole “hitchhike around the world to discover myself thing” which is where he began killing people. he was getting ready to go to college when his sister found out about what he did. this is when he decided to go on danganronpa instead of university. this would help explain why he knows so much about other cultures/travel/been so many places with so many memories/killed/is knowledgable on a level most other students are not. this would place him at like, 20-21, where everyone else is like 15-18.
ok so there’s two p!g RANTARO, p!g before 53 and p!p!g before 52. i’d like to establish now i think rantaro is the oldest of the characters, seeing as though he was already pretty old to begin with in 52, it takes time between television seasons, and he was in another game. so im placing him like 21-23, similar to yasuhiro in d1 being so much older than everyone else. i do think, in all iterations, rantaro was pretty much raising his sisters, though i don’t think he had twelve like the story (i think that’s an exaggeration, his sisters mean a lot to him, lets make him have a TON and then lose them all and feel GUILTY) rantaro joined the first game, partially to get money for his family and hopefully establish them as celebrities and let them have a comfy lifestyle, even if he doesn’t live...and also to finally ahve some sort of experience without his siblings tagging along. if he’s been raising his sisters all his life, he’s never had like something that’s JUST his. that’s his adventure. 52 is his ULTIMATE adventure. ahaha. mostly for money, kind of dreading it, still a tiny bit excited
ok p!g rantaro between 52 and 53 probably came back broken. he did the signings and appearances, but mostly wanted to spend time with his family and make sure they were set up. i think he knew the whole like few months between seasons he had to go on another show, but he did’t tell his sisters. his family found out when they saw a billboard with his face plastered on it hyping up the return of a fan favorite. yikes!
ok i get it a lot of people hate HIMIKO but i think she’s not nearly as similar as other “useless” characters in other games. its like, pretty clear she’s depressed, and the only thing she’s holding onto with dear life is magic. lack of hygiene, lack of personal care, constantly tired, social interaction exhausts - she has depression, but she’s not an UWU depressed character. so people find her depressive traits (which are some of the most realistic portrayals of mental health in the series) SUPER annoygin. she joined dr because she was completely lost and needed some sort of direction in her life, even if she’ll die for it. the thing is, even with direction, her mental state didn’t change because she wasn’t getting legitimate help. it’s like that one SNL skit that’s like. same sad you from before but in a new place. i also think she knows the magic is not real, because how could she not. i think she’s so adamant that it IS real, less as a way to convince others, and more of a way to convince herself. it’s like really super cruel that team danganronpa took a girl who is desperate for meaning and gave her literally a meaningless, fake talent.
i also kin himiko and find her a comfort character because i feel seen by her, replacing her useless talent of magic with mine of like shitty film making and comedy. i am seen.
related i don’t think she’s nearly as ugly as everyone says she is, i think she’s probably just depressed and takes absolutely no care of her hygiene and sleep and looks like sick and greasy all the time. same queen.
honest to god i think RYOMA’s backstory, tennis and all, is like 100% real and he’s the only one who keeps all of his memories except for the fact this is a tv show. i think he rolled up, a hot fucking mess, and the danganronpa team were like damn. we cannot improve upon this. 
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chcrrysprite · 4 years ago
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why do you ship ste/rek? chemistry and whatever else aside, isn’t it immoral? derek is in his mid twenties at the beginning of the series and stiles is 16. stiles is a minor until s6 :/
i’m not entirely sure where i said that i currently ship sterek (i’m guessing that it was implied in one of my other answered asks about malia, where i mentioned previously reading sterek fanfic) but before i start, i want to make one thing clear: i kind of...don’t. 
i do think that stiles and derek can be a cute and unproblematic ship when it’s applied in two ways - a.) an alternate setting/universe, such as coffee shop au’s and those kinds of things, or b.) taking place during/after season 6b as a post canon, of-age pairing. that being said, i don’t really ship stiles and derek that much in other contexts. i completely understand where you’re coming from and i recognize that your valid concerns are very widely shared.
i don’t really know why exactly i shipped stiles and derek so much when i was first getting into the fandom, since i’ve moved onto other ships and i honestly forget a lot of what happened between them, but i’ll try my best to explain why i did from what i can infer. 
1. stiles and derek was a popular ship that a lot of fans really seemed to love, so when i started watching teen wolf, it was something that i was looking out for because i assumed it would be cool. 2. in the beginning, before characters like liam, theo, and malia were introduced, stiles and derek were my two favorites. i probably just liked the idea of them being together, especially because they were funny in their shared scenes. 3. i liked the idea of bi!stiles. 4. i wasn’t really thinking about the concerns and morals of their relationship that much.
i think it’s important to note that i think a lot of viewers were (and still are) confused by the actual canon ages of the characters in the show, since teen wolf writers have been known to have really dropped the ball on making the timeline make sense...like, at all. derek hale’s age was one of the worst examples of the timeline getting screwed up, leaving some people with the impression that derek was in his mid-twenties in the pilot episode when it was later implied that he was only nineteen in season one. the only real “confirmation” we got about derek’s age in the early episodes was scott or stiles saying something about derek “graduating a few years ago” from high school, which points more to him being nineteen than something like twenty-five when they first met him. 
now, that isn’t me trying to defend the season 1 shipping of stiles and derek, since either way, it’s underage - i just think that since a lot of people thought that derek was only around nineteen, the three-year age gap between them didn’t seem so intense, so they were willing to overlook it. i think that a lot of the shipping that went on around that time was fueled by the fact that a lot of people didn’t actually know how old any of the characters actually were, since all of the information was still to be discovered and everything was kind of open to interpretation.
so, anyway, that’s some of my reasoning for why i shipped sterek despite the issues with it - i just kind of...wasn’t thinking about it that seriously.
and since this is a controversial topic and one that divides a lot of the fandom, here’s the bottom line about sterek for me:
i think that it’s totally okay and unproblematic to like sterek when they are both of the age of consent and stiles is not portrayed as a minor. however, i also believe that content creators who have made questionable sterek content without knowing the full extent of the age gap and the concerns involved should not be attacked and accused of being p//dophiles or creeps when they genuinely did not understand the depth of the situation. (i’m by no means implying that this question is doing this to me - you’re totally fine!! i’m talking about the people who will relentlessly go after people with no respect or thought to their words at all.)
what i don’t think is okay is pretty logical: i think it’s creepy when people purposely seek out content that portrays stiles as a minor because the underage stiles fantasy is part of the appeal to them. i think it’s creepy when content creators purposely and knowingly create art and fic that has derek as an adult and stiles as a young teenager as part of the appeal, especially when it is extremely explicit and sexual in nature. i’m talking about the fics that have stiles playing some innocent child and derek playing a predatory older man. those are really concerning to me.
i really haven’t thought that much about sterek in years, so i’m honestly kind of glad that i got this question to clear up what i think about it now. i hope it makes sense to you. 
and just a reminder - I’M IN NO WAY TRYING TO BASH STEREK SHIPPERS who do it in a respectful, educated, non-purposely-creepy way. ship your ships and create your content, and be happy with what you do. i love my fellow writers. <3 
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idolish7rabbitchats · 5 years ago
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Nanase Riku: Wonderful Octave Rabbit Chat Part 2
Tsumugi: Everyone, thank you for gathering when you’re busy! I thought that I would collect requests for “RADIO STATION ‘Twelve Hits!’” here.
T: To manage the chat and check the contents, us managers will also participate. Please take care of us!
7: I’m looking forward to the requests from everyone! Please take care of me!
100: It’s worth thinking about the request if you say that~!
8: Eh? You’re thinking of it now?
100: I already thought of it tho. (ゝ∀・*)
1000: You already thought of it huh.
7: Momo-san’s requests are fun ones that always hype up the show! I always think they’re amazing!
100: Riku, you’re cute. (*>ω<)ω<*)
100: What kind of request would be good? Shall I ask for your order as an exception?!
1: Excuse me. Can you please not spoil our center?
9: Please do it as usual.
3: Denied by the guardians lolololol
2: They shut it out immediately (lol)
7: Iori and Tenn-nii, are you guys always going to treat me like a kid?!
7: [Angry Kinako Stamp]
100: I’ll go with the request I thought about properly lol
T: I’m looking forward to what requests there will be! Then, this time I will ask starting from the youngest again. 
T: From Tamaki-san please!
4: Kay.
4: Tell us your unfailing funny stories.
7: That means the funny story which makes everyone laugh no matter who heard?
4: Yeah yeah. Your best one.
7: Got it! What should I talk about? I have a lot of funny stories!
6: Requesting for Riku to tell a funny story… Tamaki is a gambler huh.
3: When Riku says, “I have a funny story so listen!” sometimes it’s something we don’t really understand lol
7: Eh! That doesn’t happen right?!
4: Totally does.
1: It does.
7: Eeeeeh?!
1: Nanase-san, you laugh too easily sometimes. 
2: Last time when you were talking about mishearing “ikura” and “okura,” you were talking like it was really fun right? Even we laughed infectiously too (lol)
10000: Since you talk with laughter, it’s fun to listen huh.
4: Rikkun talking passionately is funny and I like it!
7: I thought everyone laughed because the stories were funny... 
7: And Sougo-san?! You think my stories are funny right!
5: Eh.
5: R-Right. It will be really catchy for some people!
7: Seeee! 
3: Riku is positive huh! lololol
6: Sometimes, Sogo’s kindness is sharp as a knife.
T: Ikura and okura’s unfailing funny story amused me…!
T: Next is Iori-san please!
1: Yes. From me it’s “Try the request with all your might.”
1: There are a lot of fans who like to see an energetic and hardworking Nanase-san. I’m still  thinking about the request, but as a radio show, it will be something huge.
2: Oh, as expected. It’s a good request that can show Riku’s nice appeal.
9: It’s a wholesome, fresh request that’s suitable for teen male idols.
7: Your request huh. I wonder what it will be!
1: It would be nice if it’s something like playing musical instruments like we have done in “IDOLiSH Night!”
1: I just thought about it but for example, mimicking the voice of the bunny at the production office.
9: I feel like that’s totally different tho.
Anesagi: It is.
1000: Doesn’t that just mean you want to see that Riku-kun?
10: I see, I get it! Because Riku-kun copying the bunny would be cute huh!
1: Inot
1: It’s not like that.
1: It’s just an idea.
1: I just wrote it down the idea that listeners would like because I thought about it.
7: If Iori wants to see it, I’ll mimic Kinako!
7: Myu! Myu~!
1: I’m saying it’s not. (Mad) (Mad) (Mad)
T: There will be many things you can do, it will be hard to choose…! Is there anything that Riku-san wants to try?
*T: Like a super hard recipe?
7: Like making curry from spices? We could do a curry party with everyone after the on-air!
1: Isn’t that too hard to try over the radio?
7: Right! Cuz it has to be something that can be understood with just the sound huh.
8: I thought making soba would be good but it seems hard huh.
4: Making pudding?
7: Everything seems interesting!
3: It would be hard without any visuals. Let’s keep those ideas for “IDOLiSH Night!”
1: I’ll think of something short and that works with only the sound for “Twelve Hits!”.
7: Thanks, Iori! Copying Kinako is fine too!
T: Iori-san, thank you for the specific idea! Next is Riku-san’s request for yourself please.
7: Yes! My request is “I want to show what I like about IDOLiSH7!”
7: I want to hear what IDOLiSH7's good points are and what the members like and such!
6: It’s a wonderful request! :-) Please thoroughly talk about what kind of me you like :-)
3: We’re talking about everyone! lol
7: A point I like about Nagi is even though you are older than me, you’re sometimes acting spoiled; I have lots of others!
6: Thanks, Riku. To makes you happier, I will become Riku’s younger brother from today onwards. I’ll be spoiled as much as you want.
6: Riku-oniisan. 
7: Waaah! I’m happy! Doesn’t Nagi being a younger brother sounds amazing?!
5: Just hearing how he called it, it’s more like a neighbor than an actual brother…?
4: Nagicchi, me too!
6: I will gladly call you. Tamaki-oniisan.
4: Oooh! Somehow good!
4: Nagicchi, you have a younger brother talent.
7: I get it! 
6: :-)))))
7: How about Iori asks him?! 
1: Please don’t play weird games.. I’m fine. 
6: Don’t hold back. Iori-oniisan.
7: That’s great huh, Iori! That you’re a big brother!
4: Isn’t it great.
1: What is this conversation?!
3: Our kids are cute lololol
10: It’s lively and cute. It feels like I’m seeing my brothers in my hometown!
100: Being like a big family is nice huuh!
1000: Everyone wanna be our kid?
2: Hahahah. It’s an interesting joke huh.
100: Yamato’s face is straight isn’t it lol
6: If I have brothers like everyone, I won’t get bored everyday X-)))
T: A big i7 family seems fun! lol
T: So then, next can we hear the request from Kujou-san please?
9: From me, “I want to hear Nanase-san’s goal for now.”
7: Goal meaning as an idol right…?
9: Of course. How do you want to be as an idol from now on, I wanna hear from Riku.
100: Suddenly it’s serious!
8: Like Tenn, it’s a serious one huh.
10: Yeah. It’s something only Tenn would ask huh.
7: My goal as an idol huh… 
7: I want Tenn-nii to hear me too. About how I feel when I’m on the stage and what I want to deliver to them when I’m singing!
7: I want Tenn-nii to understand my way.
7: I’ll definitely pull this request!
9: If you actually pull this request, I’ll listen to your determination seriously.
7: Expect a lot from me!
T: Kujou-san, thank you for the serious request!
T: Next how about a request from Nagi-san?
6: From me it’s “Please tell me what ice cream you like.”
7: Ice cream? It’s fine but, that’s your request?
6: It’s because I ate Riku’s wafer ice cream the other day. I’m sorry… For an apology, I’ll buy what Riku likes.
6: It was an unavoidable tragedy. Please complain about this to the summer heat.
7: It’s been really hot lately huh! Lol I thought I ate it without realizing cuz it was so hot!
2: It’s only Nagi who could bring this request in this serious atmosphere.
6: Wafer ice cream is godly. (∩´∀`)∩
8: And he’s not regretting at all (lol)
9: Even though Gaku did something similar recently.
8: I did? I don’t remember eating someone else’s ice cream.
9: It wasn’t ice cream. You didn’t remember so it means you don’t feel sorry after all.
10: Maybe, was it when Gaku mistook Tenn’s toothbrush and used it?
8: Huuh? It’s about that again? I noticed that right before I use it, it’s fine since I didn’t actually use it right?
9: Huh, now you shift to a defiant attitude?
10: Well well. We’ve written everyone’s names properly on them now so they won’t be mistaken anymore!
5: TRIGGER-san writes their names on their toothbrushes?!
7: Did he write “Tenn” on it…?
10: He wrote “TENN”!
9: Ryuu, you don’t have to say it.
7: Tenn-nii, it’s in English huh! So adult!
1: It’s more like a child though.
8: I wrote Yaotome. 
10: I wrote Ryuu!
Okazaki: TRIGGER’s gap makes us feel their affinity!
Anesagi: You guys are not kindergarteners right... Please make now’s conversation off the record. 
T: Y-Yes! I got it! Next is the request from Sougo-san please.
5: Yes. From me it’s “Let me hear a scary story.”
5: Since it’s summer, I thought a chilling request would be nice. Riku-kun has a sixth sense, so it seems like you have a lot of stories.
7: Feels summery! Please leave it to me!
4: I woooooon’t!!!!!!!!
3: This time it was canceled by Tamaki!
4: SO-CHAN WHY YOU DO A SCARY REQUEST?!!!!
5: I-Is that bad? I thought it’s seasonal and nice...
7: It’s fine, Tamaki. I won’t do that scary of a story! It’s not like ghosts are always doing scary things anyways.
7: Just last week, something interesting happened in the dorm bathrooms!
3: I said no bathrooms!!
2: No to the bathroom.
1: Bathroom is not good...
7: Eh, is that so? Then, I’ll talk about the bath! 
3: That doesn’t really change it lololol
1: Um, Yotsuba-san froze like a rock...
7: Waah! Tamaki, I’m sorry! I didn’t intend to scare you..!
5: I’ll prepare earplugs so that Tamaki-kun doesn’t hear.
10: Sougo-kun, you think about your partner huh!
100: Is plugging your partner’s ears and continuing to talk about the horror stories thinking about them…? lolol
1000: The attitude of not changing the request is so rock, nice.
7: So that Tamaki won’t feel scared, I’ll tell a fun ghost story…!
10000: That’s not a horror story anymore lol
T: I’m a little interested in a fun ghost story... 3: But anyways, Tamaki seriously doesn’t move..!
6: Let’s wait for him to reboot :-)
5: I’m sorry. Can we take a little break?
5: After Tamaki-kun recovers, I’ll give him a presentation of the summer horror stories and demands as a radio show project. If it doesn’t work, I’ll think about different request.
7: Sougo-san, let’s give him a presentation together! Because it’s a request you thought up for me!
5: Thanks, Riku-kun.
T: So then, let’s take a little break!
7: I’ll contact you when we can start again!
V2:
T: There will be many things you can do, it will be hard to choose…! Is there anything that Riku-san wants to try?
T: How about a farming experience?
7: I think it would be super hard but I wanna try! Freshly harvested vegetables seem especially delicious! 
1: Isn’t that too hard to try over the radio?
V3:
T: There will be many things you can do, it will be hard to choose…! Is there anything that Riku-san wants to try?
T: Tap-dancing Riku-san seems cool!
7: I-Is that so? Since you recommended it to me, maybe I’ll try it…!
1: Isn’t that too hard to try over the radio?
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sophygurl · 6 years ago
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Hi! I was just browsing through my activity and noticed that after I responded to your ask about ships a while back, you reblogged and shared your thoughts about Spuffy. I'm so glad you were able to read my opinions and understand them, even if you didn't agree with them. I just wanted to stop by and ask what your thoughts and feelings are on Spuffy? I'd love to hear your perspective :)
Oh wooooow, you have no idea how happy you just made me! I feel like I talk about spuffy quite a lot but without ever really saying much of anything because inside of me it’s just a lot of (!!!!!>?>>?!!?!>fjhghhf?!?!?!?!!?) YKWM? Like feels central exploding all over the place and it’s really difficult for me to put into coherent words. 
But I’ve also been wanting and meaning to write some serious spuffy meta and kinda dissect what it all means to me personally, as a survivor, for some time now. And like. Especially with all of this purity culture stuff coming to a head, it feels like a good time to take the time to try and do it because, yea, shit not only doesn’t have to be pure to be helpful - but sometimes the darker stuff IS the Most helpful. 
And I really did appreciate your perspective about the relationship because you talked about the ways in which it did and didn’t work for you without ever shaming anyone for the way it does work for them? And I wish we could all do that more. 
So thank you so much for sending me this ask, and asking for my perspective because sometimes all it takes for me to finally settle down and write something I wanna write anyways is to be asked by someone else to do it! 
This is absolutely gonna get long so have a read more cut.
For context, let me start by saying that I didn’t watch Buffy when it first aired - it was, mmm, I wanna say about 10-11 years ago when I decided to try it out. And while I was watching it, I was also in the midst of doing some heavy duty therapy work on my PTSD stemming from childhood sexual abuse and then some further traumas in my young adulthood that happened because of poor processing of said abuse. I’m not gonna get into details about my personal traumas except for some specific ways in which they relate to the lens in which I watched and processed the relationship between Buffy and Spike. BUT, due to that lens, there very well may be triggery content in this post. 
My experience watching Buffy, in general, started out with me being really unsure what the draw was in season 1 and then slowly getting more involved in the characters and relationships and mythos as the series developed into a more mature and nuanced show. I was really hooked by season five, and season six is my favorite, with seven a close second. 
I liked Buffy, the character, okay in the beginning but it wasn’t until she started really going through and processing her traumas that I started to personally connect to her. So season six was like, my jam. She was raw and stripped down to the nerve, and cycling between like outright rage to pure numbness and just lashing out trying desperately to feel and to make sense of her experiences and I was like - yea, Buffy, same, Same. And then in season seven she starts really contextualizing her trauma and using the pain of it to give herself more power and then sharing that power with others and it was just … fuck, I can’t even begin to tell you what that meant to me. In that last episode, I felt her handing me back my OWN power - like I FELT it - it really … anyway. We’ll get there.
And then there was Spike, who I loved right away. I love me some snarky villains. I love me the bad boy who has hidden depths inside of him. I love the villain who doesn’t … really fit the mold of the other villains in-verse. I love the villain who doesn’t mind working with the heroes if it fits his agenda. Basically, Spike was fictional catnip for me right out of the gate.
I adored Spike and Drusilla together for a lot of reasons, but for Spike to develop beyond just Big Bad, he had to fall out of her orbit, so I was okay with that ending.
On the other hand, I was never into Buffy and Angel. Watching the series as an adult, it just felt creepy to me how this old vampire basically stalked a very innocent-seeming to me teen Buffy. Their romance reminded me of girls I knew who fell for older guys when I was in high school where the older guy seemed sort of dangerous and mysterious and I get the draw from Her perspective - but not necessarily his? I don’t know, I just personally never really bought them being truly in love - they were sort of practice relationships for one another? Her as a young teenager, and him as someone just starting to re-learn humanity. I never Disliked them together… I just never shipped it. The idea of them being one another’s One True Love’s was just sorta meh to me. 
So when Spike started having his crush on Buffy? I was so ready for that. Because it was so silly at first, right? It was not serious. It was creepy and weird and wrong. But in a way that appealed to me. 
How do I explain? I guess, it had to do with all of the reasons that Spike was Not Like All The Other Villains/Vampires. Angel was always different but ONLY because he was cursed with a soul. It was a thing done TO him and when he reverted back to Angelus he was literally a whole different person and did not have any desire to turn back into Angel. When he was Angel, he was all brooding and guilt-ridden and terrified of his other self. 
But Spike was always different just because he was different. This didn’t mean he had a soul or a capacity for love or the ability to be a Good Guy. It just meant he worked a little differently than the other vampires. I truly think he loved and was devoted to Dru. I don’t think she was capable of returning that love in the same way. 
So, anyway, Spike is back and he’s split with Dru because Dru could just … tell … something was off and Spike was wanting to deny that but then suddenly - crush! Not love, not attraction, not lust, not desire - a freaking schoolboy crush.
But of course it was creepy because hello - soulless vampire who has never had a healthy relationship of any kind in his LIFE. But he starts doing these odd things, like wanting to comfort Buffy when he sees that she’s upset and being willing to take care of Dawn when no one else was available and HE doesn’t get it either, but somehow he’s becoming a slightly more decent person because of this weirdass crush? 
IDK, that’s appealing.
And let me clarify. It’s not appealing to me because I see myself in the Good Girl who can make a Bad Boy into a better person. That is never what’s appealed to be about these types of relationships. 
In large part because of my abuse, I see different layers of myself in each character. 
I went through a large portion of my life pretending very hard to be a Good Girl and then when I finally came out of denial about the abuse realized that was because inside I felt like a very Bad Girl and then as I pursued more recovery realized it’s all a lot more complex than that but really I’ve been more of a Decent Person who felt like a Bad Person trying really hard to be a Good Person. I hope that makes sense.
But the point is. I see myself in both the Good and the Bad characters in these sorts of push-pull love-hate dynamic relationships.
And what I love about spuffy, specifically, is that they’re both … both. Eventually. I’m getting ahead of myself. But yes, Spike suddenly wanting to be decent here and there because of his weird developing feelings for Buffy appealed to me - and especially to part of me that feels Bad. I’m Spike in this scenario, not Buffy. 
But I’m also Buffy, being really grossed by this Bad Person’s interest in me. When Buffy throws her money at Spike and says he’s not good enough for her - that’s me hating myself and saying I’m not good enough. But it’s also, strangely, me taking a stand and saying I’m worth better than the ways in which I was treated.
Gods, this whole abuse recovery dichotomy can be so confusing to explain because like. I never abused anyone. But the ugliness I feel inside of myself has to do with what happened to me, and also with what I know people in my family have done to others. So there’s this idea of Badness there. And the idea of there being forgiveness and redemption for that Badness is very very appealing.
And at the same time? There’s this beauty inside of myself that I always thought I was faking but that it turns out - is fucking real and precious and important. And standing up for that broken beautiful part of myself and saying no to being used and abused again is so powerful.
So in that scene? I’m the ugliness in Spike being hated by Buffy but I’m ALSO the powerful beauty in Buffy standing up for herself.
You can maybe see how this all gets even more tangled up the further we go, yea?
So Spike gets chipped and becomes a part of the team - all the while simultaneously reminding them that he’s still a Bad Guy AND slowly becoming a slightly better person because of his interactions with them and his feelings for Buffy. He’s not even close to redeemed, okay, he’s still a villain. He’s just a more and more intriguing villain, an anti-villain, even, eventually.
And then season six. And Buffy comes back. And she’s broken and raw and needing something that her friends cannot give her. She is needing to connect to the darkness inside of herself, and who is waiting there for her? 
And so yea, okay, hatesex is very appealing to me just inandofitself. It’s like double the passion and it’s animalistic and there’s something so sexy and gratifying about two people just using one another with equal force, yk? 
And Spike and Buffy are physically matched perfectly. She can take all her anger and pain and rage out on him without permanently damaging him. And she’s NEVER been able to let loose like that before. Her first time with Angel was a more tender and sweet moment and then - welp - turns out they can’t do the do. And otherwise she’s been with humans who she’s had to hold back with. There was zero holding back with Spike. 
So from Buffy’s perspective, there’s this amazing relief and release and yea, even, empowerment in being able to just freely let herself go in this way. 
From Spike’s point of view, it was about more. And here is where I feel for him because, at this point he’s still not really capable of love in the way we talk about it as being something from a soul. He’s chipped but not soul’d. He has strong feelings for Buffy that no vampire (besides cursed-soul Angel) should be able to have. But it’s not … quite … love. It’s passion and it’s care and it’s wanting and it’s even becoming something like friendship. But it’s not love, much as he thinks it is.
But he does Think it is. And he’s thinking it’s the same for her, but she just can’t admit it, yet. The hatesex to him … is just  … sex. And he fully believes he’s winning her over. And so her constant rejection of him as a fully human person with a soul and feelings guts him - even as he’s still trying to convince himself that he does love her and she does somehow secretly love him back. 
The fact that she keeps using him physically, and also keeps coming to him for emotional support, supports this belief and keeps him from understanding the reality of the situation.
Now, I think I mentioned than when I was watching this for the first time I was in heavy duty therapy mode yea? Well, there was another even heavier duty therapy mode a good tenish years prior when I had first admitted to the abuse I experienced and got really good and fucked up and made some bad personal decisions and here is where some of that comes to play because I saw myself in this scenario - again from both sides.
I am Buffy learning to enjoy the pleasures of my body and sexuality for the first time but also making really bad decisions about who to share that with because I am still so new to processing my trauma.
I am also Spike - longing for something more and better and being told (by myself) that I was not good enough, that I was bad, that I was not a full human person who deserved good things or good relationships.
(There, there, pastme - it does get better)
Back to first-time-Buffy-watching me. And I am enjoying the HECK out of the spuffy sex and I am feeling for poor pining Spike and feeling for Buffy who is hating herself for what she’s doing and also shipping them like WHOA because there is so much about their dynamic that is just sexy and fun and FEELS everywhere. 
But I knew Seeing Red was coming, because I did have a few things spoiled for me just by existing in the world for years without having watched the show yet myself. I really didn’t wanna watch it, or the rest of season six. So I got into a spiral of just watching the earlier parts of the season over and over - specifically the musical and through the 3 episodes of heavy spuffy sex. I did a LOT of processing during this time and then eventually girded myself to watch what I knew was coming. 
And Seeing Red is awful. Traumatic. Triggering. Terrible. But also, like, gods, did it make sense for where these two characters were at this point in time? I didn’t feel like it was contrived or somehow put in just for the heck of it. It made sense in the narrative. Spike legitimately just did not get it. He did not realize he was attempting rape until … finally … he did. 
And the horror of that, the horror of realizing that he almost did that to the ONE person in the world that he has ever cared that much about? Broke him. Sent him off on a magical quest to get his fucking soul back.
No one did that. Even Angel was Cursed with his soul, right? No vampire ever wanted to get their soul back - even had enough non-ensouled feelings to have the ability to want such a thing. Not to mention going through the trials of actually getting it back.
Season seven Spike is such a different beast. He’s messed up from the soul-thing, but I honestly believe Most of his messed-up-ness came from what The First was doing to/through him. Because … gods, okay.
When Spike goes through the flashbacks and recognizes what his trigger is? (Like the show legit uses PTSD terminology here - it was a Trigger) He processes his Own old traumas and he is able to tell Robin basically - fuck it, I know who I am. I know I did terrible things without my soul, but I can’t and won’t beat myself up for that (for example the way Angel does) because it wasn’t entirely my fault and all I can control now is who I am now and what I do now.
Now THAT spoke to me as a trauma survivor. Stop hanging on to all of this so-called badness inside, forgive yourself, and move on. WOW. Fucking powerful. 
And what he DOES choose to do is to be there for Buffy in any way she will allow him to.
Ensouled Spike is no longer creeping around her or making weird assumptions about her or trying to Get something From her. Ensouled Spike defends her when others attack. Ensouled Spike holds her all night when she needs it and gives her pep talks and asks what he can do to help and accepts when he can’t help and just stands there quietly willing to do battle With her. 
I just … phew… that makes me emotional. 
Because, again, I look back at some of those dysfunctional relationships I got into in my early 20′s and like. None of those fuckers would have done anything like that. 
And my attraction to the Fictional Bad Boy with a Hidden Heart of Gold was never about expecting any of them to. I was with them, unconsciously or even some cases consciously, on purpose to punish myself or to work out past traumas with or just to Feel Something. I never expected or even necessarily wanted deep love from them.
So, here’s the thing. None of those fuckers would have done anything like that for me. Nor I them. 
So Spike slowly gaining his redemption through his willingness to become a better person because of his love of Buffy? Fucking spoke to me.
And Buffy slowly accepting the darker parts of herself through her willingness to let Spike into her orbit because of her feelings for him? Fucking yes. 
And when she hands him the - shit it’s been a long time - that medallion meant for a champion? And he doesn’t think he’s worthy, but she says she knows he is. Fuck!!! That is ME accepting ME, okay? All of myself, the good and the bad, the ugly and the beautiful, the messed up and the slowly healing. All of it. 
And when he sacrifices himself in the end??? When that’s how she’s finally able to defeat The First? All that power sharing with all of the other women was *chefkiss* but it also took Spike. Spike who stormed on the scene in season two with snark and a twisted sense of love and no desire to ever be a hero? That Spike!? Sacrificing himself and STILL NOT BELIEVING BUFFY LOVES HIM. 
Because by then, let’s be clear, she did. Maybe not the same way he loved her, but she did love him. And he doesn’t believe it, can’t believe himself worthy of that love. But he sacrifices himself ANYway?
THAT Spike? Is no longer asking anything in return. He gives all of himself and won’t even accept her statement of love in return. “No, you don’t. But thanks for saying it anyway.” Just AUGJH?!? You know??? 
That was me … redeeming me … for me…. 
So anyway. 
I just want to add that AS I WAS WRITING THIS OUT, I got another ask in my inbox stating “People who like problematic or villainous characters are apologist for shitty people and should rethink their life because they’re shitty people.”
And this is the exact WRONG time to come for me like this because I just poured out my entire traumatized abuse surviving soul into the internet to explain why watching a problematic villain evolve and learn to do better helped ME to contextualize and process my fucking trauma. So fuck you. People who write anonymous hate without knowing the full story are being shitty and should rethink their actions because they’re shitting on actual REAL LIFE COMPLEX INDIVIDUAL PEOPLE. 
The end. 
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areyougettingenoughoxygen · 5 years ago
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Guess Who Write Tonight’s Show?: Space Ghost Coast to Coast and a History of Stopping (or Starting) the Insanity
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Hands down, I can attribute my sense of humor and possibly my love for pop culture in general to the Cartoon Network-to-Adult Swim television show Space Ghost Coast to Coast. I’m not sure if it’s due to the nostalgia I had towards the show, or if it’s just because it’s so damn funny, but SGC2C is a show that I could watch on repeat and never get bored of, and I get bored of things pretty easily. As a kid, I remember Cartoon Network not being available on every cable package like it is today, so pretty much the only time I would get to watch it was during weekend stays at my grandparents’ house. I’d sit in the downstairs area and play with my Legos, staying up way too late, and watch shows like O’ Canada (a show that was comprised of Canadian produced shorts), Cartoon Planet (another show featuring the Space Ghost crew), and of course, Space Ghost Coast to Coast. As I got older and Cartoon Network was more readily available, Space Ghost Coast to Coast went from Cartoon Network to Adult Swim, and my parents forbade me from watching anything during the adult-only programming block (although I do remember sneaking and watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force episode “Mayhem of the Mooninites”). Once I got to middle school, while I couldn’t stay up late when Adult Swim was on, I received the first seasons of Aqua Teen Hunger Force and Space Ghost Coast to Coast on DVD. My friends would talk about Adult Swim, and I’d try to insert jokes from Space Ghost, and they’d respond “Oh we don’t watch that, we watch Family Guy.” Even though I started watching Family Guy to fit in, I found myself more drawn to the absurdity that was Space Ghost Coast to Coast.
Apparently, I wasn’t the only only one who didn’t have Cartoon Network in their home. It has been stated by the creators of Space Ghost Coast to Coast that during the beginning, they would watch the episodes at the office because none of them had Cartoon Network at home. The series was produced because Cartoon Network, a network originally comprising of archived cartoons, was wanting to produce original content for as cheap as possible. They wanted it to also appeal to adult viewers, with the idea that the market hadn’t yet appealed to this market. This became a reality by using footage and content from previous Hanna-Barbera series Space Ghost and inserting it over new backgrounds and imposing interviews over that. Matt Maiellaro, Andy Merrill, Khaki Jones, and Keith Crofford all wrote the earliest episodes while Mike Lazzo headed the program and Michael Cahill edited it. All of these people would be instrumental in the future Adult Swim block, but they got their first big start with Space Ghost Coast to Coast.
The premise of Space Ghost Coast to Coast is simple to explain, but things in the show never turn out to be as they should. Space Ghost interviews the guest, Zorak plays the music and antagonistically bounces off what Space Ghost says, and Moltar attempts to direct the show. At the beginning of the series, the show stays true to theme while placing various jokes within the shows. The first episode created, “Elevator,” sticks to having Space Ghost interview funny lady Judy Tenuta, my ex’s guide to taking shrooms Timothy Leary, and lover of baking chocolate pies Ashley Judd. You’d see hints to deviation in early episodes like in the first episode aired “Spanish Translation” where the cast’s proclamations would periodically be translated to Spanish and a faux evil nursery rhyme album starring Zorak and Moltar was advertised, or in “Batmantis” where Moltar had been kidnapped and Space Ghost attempted to have stars from the Batman television show help out Zorak’s alter ego Batmantis, but for the most part Space Ghost Coast to Coast operated in that there would be guests and comedic moments came from the interviews. It’s been said that the second season’s episode “Fire Drill” (which features an intro with Space Ghost complaining about sending gift baskets to Cartoon Network, created from simply taking voice actor George Lowe’s rantings from the voice booth) is when Space Ghost Coast to Coast’s premise took shape: making a comedic cartoon where interviews are taking place that becomes pure insanity.
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While adult animation and humor was hardly new in the 90s with shows like The Simpsons and South Park being mega hits, Space Ghost Coast to Coast pushed the boundaries unlike any other program. The earliest example of this in my estimation would be the episode “Transcript,” in which the show deviates from its editing of interviews to present the interview with musician Jonathan Richman almost word-for-word how the interview actually went. The episode that aired a week after, “Sharrock,” was simply an episode that played the musical stylings of departed Sonny Sharrock, with the guest being Thurston Moore of Sonic Youth posing as a guest named Fred Cracklin. One of my favorite episodes of the series is entitled “Pavement,” named after the band who performs during the episode. The episode’s premise was that Space Ghost had written the show himself so it becomes more and more outrageous as the episode goes on (an example is Space Ghost promising that The Beatles would replace Zorak as the musicians of the show, only for Pavement to show up with Space Ghost claiming that they’re The Beatles because the people watching the show are too stupid to know the difference), but the story of the episode behind the scenes was that periodically the writers would just pass around the script after a few minutes had passed and had to continue the story that had already been written.
The longer the series was on the air, the more and more they tried to push the boundaries of comedy, with the fifth season of the show introducing several episodes like this. The winners of the Haiku In For Space Ghost contest ran by Cartoon Network got to be interviewed for the show and appear on an episode of Space Ghost, only for their episode (entitled “Joshua”) to be a long parody of a corporate instructional video with the interviews being presented in the last minute of the episode. “Warren” was an episode that’s ending was the exact same scene as the beginning, and when it originally aired it aired the episode three times in a row as a continuous loop of an episode, with the joke being the length of the episode. “Waiting for Edward” had an extended minute-or-so introduction that was simply a black screen with the word “Waiting” visible to the audience. These bits of anti-humor became the precedent for what was to be expected from Space Ghost Coast to Coast, as well as what was to be expected in the future Adult Swim block.
The sixth season had even more jokes based on this anti-humor movement. “Snatch” (written by the future creators of Sealab 2021, Adam Reed and Matt Thompson) advertised at the end of the airing that the ending would be sold at an eBay auction, with it being revealed in the future that the ending was simply a message with letter dancing around to a comedic tune and eventually spelling out “THE END?” “Curling Flower Space” was presented as the end of an episode supposedly named “Brilliant Number Three” with Jerry Springer being interviewed, only for the episode to be three different accounts of how a previous Sarah Jessica Parker interview played out. What may be the most outrageous display of special Space Ghost Coast to Coast humor would be the “Fire Ant” episode. A week before “Fire Ant” aired, an episode titled “Table Read” had aired on Cartoon Network, showing the voice actors rehearsing for the upcoming episode “Fire Ant.” That was it. Once “Fire Ant” aired, it was shown as a half hour episode, with the second part of the episode being over ten minutes of Space Ghost simply slowly following an ant to its home.
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Almost two years later, Space Ghost Coast to Coast was moved from late night Cartoon Network to...well, still late night Cartoon Network, but a more edgy and adult late night Cartoon Network. Adult Swim, headed by the people instrumental over the years in making Space Ghost Coast to Coast, debuted in 2001 with shows similar to the Space Ghost Coast to Coast in that older Hanna-Barbera properties were taken and had new situations crafted for them. A more adult and edgy block seemed the perfect fit for Space Ghost Coast to Coast, but while a few curse words were added, the heart of the show remained the same. While only five episodes were created for season seven, eight episodes aired. This was thanks to “Kentucky Nightmare” being used three extra times in the form of the episode “Momentary” (an episode where the producers’ moms are providing commentary for “Kentucky Nightmare”), the episode “Momentary - Creator’s Commentary (an episode where the creators provide commentary for “Momentary”), and the episode “Momentary - Jellybean” (an episode where the creators just make a bunch of noise over “Momentary”). If it sounds crazy, that’s because it was crazy. But it was so crazy that it was hilarious.
Space Ghost Coast to Coast sadly didn’t receive many episodes in the Adult Swim era before ending (only 15 if you count the “Kentucky Nightmare”/”Momentary” rehashings), and its finale in true SGC2C fashion was promoted as an “Unfinished POS.” “Live at the Fillmore” is the only episode where not a single interview happens (the show has no budget, so Space Ghost suggests to interview the old Susan Powter interview from “Spanish Translation”), and as the episode continues it is obvious that it isn’t fully animated. The episode at the credits has no credits visible, and at the very end shows the credits for “Kentucky Nightmare.” The Adult Swim era of Space Ghost Coast to Coast ends where it begins. Sure, the series was revived later for website Gamefly and featured Space Ghost interviewing video game personalities, but the show that it was was dead and gone.
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While Space Ghost Coast to Coast itself may be long gone, it has lived on in other Adult Swim programs. The Brak Show is a direct spinoff with Space Ghost appearing every now and then. Aqua Teen Hunger Force itself is a semi-spinoff of Space Ghost Coast to Coast, with the first idea for the team being seen in the SGC2C episode “Baffler Meal.” ATHF shows mention of its roots in both the episode “Carl Wash” in which the villains of the episode are Carl and Carl Jr. from SGC2C episode “Chambraigne,” and in the feature film where a missile launches and directly hits Space Ghost. Space Ghost cameos can be seen in every episode of Perfect Hair Forever, and in most episodes of Off the Air. A Robot Chicken sketch showed the counsel of Adult Swim being comprised of executives and included Space Ghost as a member of the counsel. While not directly tied, Eric Andre cites Space Ghost Coast to Coast as the influence for The Eric Andre Show. Various different advertisements over the years on Adult Swim have also featured Space Ghost interviewing a representative or mascot of a company.
Eric Andre has stated that Mike Lazzo is uninterested in ever bringing back Space Ghost Coast to Coast, and with the passing of C. Martin Croker (voice of Zorak and Moltar) in 2016, it seems as though a revival of the show is impossible. It’s a shame, as Space Ghost Coast to Coast is the grandfather of modern adult comedy in my opinion. Its redefinition of what comedy is and its forceful nature of making its viewers reconsider what is funny and what isn’t is the new standard of comedy. What made it a hidden gem during its length on television would make it a standout nowadays. When I think of something being beyond its time, Space Ghost Coast to Coast is a standout.
Should I be talking about a small cult classic like Space Ghost Coast to Coast as my first musing, something that several people reading this probably haven’t even watched? I believe it’s necessary to talk about Space Ghost Coast to Coast if I’m giving you a depiction of how I’m going to talk about things and why. I’ve been able to understand numerous cultural references and personalities thanks to the show (every time Carol Channing is referenced on Rupaul’s Drag Race my only point of reference to her is when she flirted with Space Ghost). The show has also taught me more about comedy than anything else, teaching me that the joke isn’t in what you say, but the context and how you say it. You all may not have heard of Space Ghost Coast to Coast before, but I thank it for the way I communicate and the way that I enjoy pop culture.
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If you want to check out the show, it’s available almost entirely on adultswim.com for free now, and will be on the HBO Max platform when it launches in May 2020. The early episodes may be hard pills to swallow at first, but the roller coaster gets better and better the longer you ride it.
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nookishposts · 5 years ago
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Shifting
As far as I can recall, I did all the things one is supposed to do when encountering black ice. But I lost control of the lightweight little Ranger, even with bricks in the back for stability, and the safest bet was the ditch. There was a lovely fresh skiff of snow this morning, I watched the chickadees dust their perches on the feeders as I had my coffee and toast, ready to leave for work. I stopped at the end of our driveway to put recycling and garbage to the roadside, and on my merry way, began the short drive down our dirt road out to the highway, like every other day. The road has a couple of bends and rises, but nothing challenging. Yet it was a small combination of the two that got me. I was just under the speed limit. The bed of the truck started to slide sideways and I gently corrected but it slid even further the other way and for the life of me I could not, for the very first time ever, get the wheels back where they needed to be. I did manage to keep from rolling or hitting any signs, trees, or mailboxes, coming close to doing all three, but instead landed sort of backwards in a shallow ditch. I checked that all parts of myself and the vehicle were still attached. And then,no matter what I did, I could not seem to get it back on the road. I finally after 10 minutes of swearing, called my Beloved to come drive while I pushed, while  a kind neighbour stopped to offer assistance as well.
It all came out okay, and but for a stiff neck I am just fine, as is the truck. But the experience shook me up a lot more than I would have predicted. I am used to being the calm and collected friend that other people can call on when they are in a spot. But my legs trembled and my hands were not steady and I was rattled. It was daylight and there were people around. The best circumstances one could hope for. Of all the silly things I’ve done in my life, how come this little blip was the one to actually scare me? Not so much scare but unnerve and  make me feel suddenly very vulnerable. Everybody and everything turned out fine. Except me.
I am a fairly level individual with a reasonable head on my shoulders, a pretty strong body, and a few well-functioning brain cells at my disposal. I’m the one you want in a crisis; if I am going to fall apart, it will come well after the crisis is over, the dust has settled and everybody is safe and sound. But this little incident has left it’s mark. I called work to explain, and then came home. A short walk with the dog and a fresh cup of coffee did nothing to soothe me. I am not an alarmist, but somewhere in me, a warning bell is still clanging. This is the new bit.
When we are kids we are all but fearless, willing to fly face first into every new experience and if we should fall, well, there’s usually somebody there to catch us,; we recover with a hug and a dust-off, are soon off and running to the next fresh hurdle. As teens we knowingly push our boundaries, test our limits, compete in an arena of hormone-fuelled acts of derring-do, pretend to laugh in the face of risk. We feed our physical and social and intellectual muscles as we venture onto the threshold of adult responsibilities. And for a while, we are so consumed by the practicalities of setting up a home, getting a job, buying a car, dating and mating, that we just assume (short of a freak accident or illness) that we are reasonably together.
Then a day comes when doing something physical that used to be routine, becomes more of a challenge. The laundry basket gets heavier, the stairs get steeper, the snow shovel reminds you that you have a lower back, and staying out till the wee hours has lost it’s appeal. So, we get a little more mindful, pledge to exercise, eat better, get more rest, and that helps considerably. We are back on the ball. We joke about getting a little slower , a little older. We count our blessings when contemporaries are suddenly all caring for their parents and having knee surgeries and wearing bifocals. It begins to dawn on us that we will not bounce back from everything as we once did; that no matter how smart or fit we happen to be, our bodies and our perspectives are changing. We begin to realize as well just how much we have to lose, and how precious it has all become.
I had a little wipe-out on the road. Big whoop. But I could not seem to get myself out of it and the more I tried, the more I found I was spinning my wheels unhelpfully. I kept thinking “I can do this”, except that I couldn’t. And the spin-out didn’t bother me nearly as much as the recognition that I was stuck and couldn’t fix it myself. I suppose ego plays a role, but the fact that I did all the right things one is supposed to and none of them worked, pissed me off, and then really hit home. That’s when my knees began to dance and I fumbled my phone, and I slipped getting out of the driver’s seat. Metaphorically, I felt for a minute like there was no real drivers’ seat;  not a victim of anything, just the recipient of a body-check of reality.
When I called work and their first reaction was to make sure I was okay, I humbly blessed them. Then they told me to go home and take care of myself. I am the white-haired one on the temporary project team. Given a bit of latitude I suspect. And kindness. But for today, my share  of the heavy-lifting can go to the younger ones, the ones who do it every day for a living. I am content to sit this one out, just this once, quietly, in some recovery hours with tylenol and a hot pack. While I think about how best to respect and make something useful of my newest experience in vulnerability.
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comicteaparty · 5 years ago
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September 21st-September 27th, 2019 Creator Babble Archive
The archive for the Creator Babble chat that occurred from September 21st, 2019 to September 27th, 2019.  The chat focused on the following question:
How would you describe the target audience for your comic?  Did you intend to aim at that audience, or did it just happen?
Deo101 (Millennium)
My target audience for millennium http://millennium.spiderforest.com/ was and is LGBT youth. Specifically teens. I know when I was a kid reading a story where gay people are just kind of... There? No jokes, no stereotypes, more than one... That would have helped me a lot. So I'm trying to make that for other kids! I think the story has reached a much wider/older audience then I intended, but I know it has helped at least some LGBT youth/young adults and that's all I could ever ask for.(edited)
spacerocketbunny
The target audience for Ghost Junk Sickness is definitely queer youth and young adults! Much like what @Deo101 (Millennium) is saying, basically we wanted something like the cool action scifi comics we read when we were younger with good queer rep that's integrated and normalized in the universe! As it turned out though, the audience we reached has been all over the place ranging from older women to big biker dudes?? Every time we go to cons we can never guess who'll purchase a book because the range is so varied! I'm sure we still reach the original target to an extent but the rest is all over the map it seems! I don't think it's a bad thing, it's just been pretty unexpected
Deo101 (Millennium)
Not bad at all ^^ more like a pleasant surprise!
spacerocketbunny
Exactly!
Deo101 (Millennium)
I think those other, older people are also looking for a story to reach their inner child... And I think that's great
mariah (rainy day dreams)
Lol, I feel the similarly way about my own story. My goal was definitely to make something me as a kiddo would have loved, which essentially would have been shonen stories but with a female majority cast. I think I already figured my target audience would be similar to me, but I've been consistently surprised by how many male identifying folks like it. I guess I do like that they can hang though X) Anyway, these are my floppy, post work out thoughts. Hopefully they make sense.
LadyLazuli (Phantomarine)
The target audience for Phantomarine (http://www.phantomarine.com/) was never super clear from the beginning - I just wanted to make something I'd like as a teen. Luckily (or unluckily! in terms of describing it to people ) the story is a mishmash of a bunch of different genres. It's not quite a ghost story, not quite a pirate adventure, not quite a fantasy epic, but it has elements of them all. And it does seem to have attracted people who like those different genres. It may not be easy if I ever want to publish it properly (it's a little difficult to describe my 'brand' ) but as it is, it's got everything I would have liked when I was between 14 and 18.
My happiest surprise is hearing about the younger kids who have read it, understood it, and really enjoyed it. Knowing that 10-12 year olds can appreciate my work is really awesome. I try to keep the language and scary/questionable content at Harry Potter levels, but I like having some of the depth/maturity of stories like The Golden Compass. If they like Phantomarine now, I really hope they find extra enjoyment with it as they grow up. It's going to be a ride!
mariah (rainy day dreams)
Gosh, I get that feel of being multi-genre and not knowing quite how to describe your Brand X') I feel like I've gotten better at defining it over time but it's still a struggle to briefly describe what my thing even is some days. Also Golden Compass I'm always excited to find other comic folks who were also influenced by that series.
LadyLazuli (Phantomarine)
It's my gold standard for the right blend of fantasy, reality, and maturity. It's just the best
keii4ii
The target audience for Heart of Keol (https://heartofkeol.com/) is extremely tiny, but it does have appeal for people outside of that niche. I make it for myself, and the relevant aspects of "myself" here are: a) Grew up in Korea, is living (or has lived for an extended period of time) in a predominantly English-speaking part of the world b) Bonus points if they spent some time living in rural Korea c) Is into slow burn drama about characters who could be described as being "genuine" and probably "lawful" as well d) Likes the aesthetics of fantasy settings, but is more into the mundane, almost slice of life, side of drama e) Is very much into reading between the lines for more emotional stuff. Reads a lot of heart from sceneries, possibly more than from faces. (I have face blindness and this affects how I experience comics both as a reader and as a creator)
Obviously people who meet both a) and b) are gonna be harder to find! But if one can meet c), d) and e), that's enough to enjoy the comic the way it's meant to be enjoyed, or so I hope.
The reason a) and b) matter is because it affects how the setting/aesthetics come across. To someone like me, the old Korea setting feels homey, warm, nostalgic. It's like a shorthand for "sit down and enjoy this heartfelt slow burn tale." But to others, Magical Asia might feel exciting and exotic, which isn't really what the story is meant to be, so there may be some dissonance.
seetherabbit
I haven't given much thought about the target audience for Vulperra. (https://vulperra.com/) other than then it's probably for people who like adventure, fantasy and cartoony-ish animals
Cronaj
My target audience is kind of all of the place. Initially when I began scripting my comic, Whispers of the Past, I was really into anime and manga, especially ones like Attack on Titan that were a gritty fantasy. However, since then, my style and story have changed tremendously. My target audience now tends to be young women, aged 15-25, who enjoy detailed world building in high fantasy and are definitely into family drama in story telling. Initially, I wrote the story to fit certain perameters that I myself enjoyed. For example, I am particularly obsessed with the idea of the mundane meeting the fantastical and amazing. The quiet lull of ordinary life juxtaposed by the rigor of magical entities. I specifically focus a lot on drawing beautiful artwork for the panels, because I myself am a picky-pants when it comes to selecting comics I want to read. Another one of my obsessions is a fantasy setting so detailed that you feel like if the story ended, the world would still live on. (One of my inspirations was the Inheritance series by Christopher Paolini, in which the author essentially wrote several languages, similar to Tolkien.) In reality, my readers tend to be women aged 30+ (probably who watch k-dramas like I do), and a lot of D&D players. It's fun really, discovering how much of my own hobbies bleed into my stories.
AntiBunny
Early on with AntiBunny http://antibunny.net/ I was hoping for fans of scifi and film noir. What I got were fans of classic cartoons and furries. Which is fine by me really. Furries are nice people who are passionate about their hobbies (and spend money).
Jonny Aleksey
A superhero audience was always the intention for J-Man (http://jonnyalekseydrawscomics.com/the-undefeatable-j-man/), but specifically, right now, I'm aiming for something all ages. Slightly teen drama, cartoony but grounded. My inspirations were Spectacular Spider-Man and the DCAU so anyone who likes that is the readership I expect. Hopefully I can reach people who are on the fence about superheroes. The all ages aspect is something newish relatively speaking. When I started my webcomic I wanted to stay away from the "deep real edgy" tone I made when I was in high school (shiver). It took me a bit to really get that tone down. I don't use curse words and only mild blood, but occasionally stuff that borders on teen+ go through. (there's one instance in #5 where J-Man's face gets burnt by the villain that might've been a bit much) I don't think the all ages banner is going to restrict me from telling certain storylines/character development. Just means it won't be excessively grim.
Erin/Leif & Thorn on Kickstarter
The target audience for my webcomics is LGBT nerds who want stories that give them strong feelings, and who like SF/F, anime, competent characters that don't have to take turns with the Idiot Ball to keep the plot moving, and cats. Admittedly that last bit might be redundant, since everyone on the internet likes cats.
Ash🦀
I’ll be honest with you, I’m the target audience of my comic. (http://www.fwmgofficial.com/) it’s not out yet (it’ll be out October 31st) but as the writer I’ve had a lot of time to think about it. Mostly, it’s just targeted to young adults and autistic people. I never got to see people like me in comics, so I wrote a comic where an autistic person can be the hero too, even in his own way. For me, I figure whoever likes it likes it and that’s good enough for me. (also furries. Definitely targeted furries)
Kay Rose
@Ash🦀 cant wait to read it!
Ash🦀
QwQ thank you!!
MJ Massey
So far Black Ball is pulling in a mix of people who like the vintage aesthetic (1920s and art deco with some old-school macabre for some reason?) and people who like shonen manga, which is great. Even if Black Ball isn't specifically macabre or strictly shounen (though I myself have made shounen battle manga-esque comics in the past)
DaemonDan (The Demon Archives)
Audience of my comic... Per Google it's 18-35 year old men from the US and Russia XD Which makes sense given it's a pretty hard sci-fi with a lot of military action from dudes in power armor and etc. Though I try not to go too "high octane action!1!" and explore more psychological elements too.
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