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walkman-cat · 6 months ago
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3. How did your oc discover themself? Did something cause them to question, or did they always know?
7. Is there something that could cause your oc to question their identity? What?
14. Do you have ocs on the aro or ace spectrum?
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:D thank you for the ask!! (I’m gonna answer these for the jackstory, because a big portion of the story is about the characters discovering their identities and also because it’s on the brain wbwbw)
3. How did your oc discover themself? Did something cause them to question, or did they always know?
Markos didn’t find out about aromanticism and the word aromantic until well into his friendship with Jack Conan, but once he did it put a lot of things into perspective.
When he was younger, whenever someone asked him if he liked someone or if he had a crush, he’d usually name his friend Circe (she was very vocal about how she liked women from a young age, so she was a safe option as there was no chance of Markos’ “crush” being mutual), for example. Or when Leslie (his other closest friend) confessed to him he didn't like her back and was repulsed of the idea of being romantically involved with her, even though he’d tried very hard to like her romantically.
Markos has a lot of internalised arophobia he has to deal with (he was super guilty about the Leslie situation, which paired with his depression and low self esteem really did a number on his friendship and his mental health)(he thought there was something fundamentally Wrong with him for a while), but eventually he feels comfortable in his aromanticism :D!
7. Is there something that could cause your oc to question their identity? What?
For Jack Conan, it was their friendship and feelings towards Markos that caused them to question their identity the most.
They always had trouble discerning their emotions, and couldn’t determine if their feelings towards him after they’d gotten close were romantic, platonic, or something in between. (There were a Lot of sleepless nights where they debated their own aromanticism and were overthinking everything).
They eventually get sick of the spiralling, label the feelings as alterous and themself as oriented aroace, and call it a day. (And they do become qpps with Markos aswell!!)
14. Do you have ocs on the aro or ace spectrum?
So many wbwbw!! I usually unintentionally end up writing characters as aspec lol. Here are some lists for 3/4 of my stories wbwbwb!
the undiscovered country (aka the jackstory):
Jack Conan Ong (oriented aroace)
Markos Elefterakis (aromantic)
Arsinoë Elefterakis (aspec, but she finds out waaay after the jackstory ends because during the jackstory she’s 7-11 years old and Does Not Care)
eidolon vetch:
Orpheus Alabaster (demiromantic ace)
Cecil Meyers (ace)
Kit Allister (aroallo)
Matchsticks Kelly (aro)
the blinkstory:
Blink (aroallo)
Arthur Scrimshaw (aro)
Eurydice Scrimshaw (aroace)
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faithfulren · 7 months ago
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you have always admired izuku midoriya from afar, inspired by his unwavering determination despite being quirkless. seeing him bullied by his classmates, you decide to offer your support secretly. you start leaving encouraging notes and small gifts in his locker, hoping to lift his spirits and show him that he's not alone. izuku is initially surprised and touched by these gestures, and as time goes on, he becomes more curious about his mysterious supporter.
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you watched from a distance, heart aching as izuku midoriya endured another round of taunts from his classmates. the ever-present bullies, led by katsuki bakugo, never seemed to relent. yet, Izuku stood firm, his resolve unbroken despite the cruel words and occasional shoves. his determination, even in the face of such adversity, had always inspired you.
izuku didn't know you very well, but you knew him. how could you not? his dream to become a hero despite being quirkless was something you admired deeply. it stirred something within you, making you want to reach out, to support him in any way you could.
that's how it began, small, simple gestures. the first note you left in his locker was scribbled hastily, your heart pounding as you slipped it between the slats. "keep believing in yourself. you're stronger than you think." the next day, you watched anxiously as izuku found the note. his eyes widened in surprise, a faint blush coloring his cheeks as he read it. you saw the brief, precious smile that tugged at his lips, and it made your heart swell with warmth.
you continued this secret support, each note a little more personal, a little more encouraging. "your dreams are worth fighting for." "don't let them bring you down. you have the heart of a hero." alongside the notes, you started leaving small gifts a keychain of all might, a new notebook for his hero analyses, a pack of his favorite snacks. each time, you stayed hidden, watching his reactions, feeling a mix of joy and nervousness as he accepted each token with growing curiosity.
one rainy afternoon, you saw bakugo cornering izuku again. your fists clenched in anger, but before you could intervene, a teacher appeared, dispersing the group. izuku was left alone, drenched and shivering, but you saw the determination still burning in his eyes. that evening, you left an umbrella and a warm scarf in his locker, along with a note: "for the days when it feels like the world is against you. you're not alone."
the next day, you noticed izuku lingering by his locker longer than usual. he took out the scarf, running his fingers over the soft fabric, and for a moment, he looked around, as if hoping to catch a glimpse of his mysterious supporter. your heart raced, but you stayed hidden, not yet ready to reveal yourself.
weeks passed, and the notes continued. you saw a change in izuku, he seemed a little more confident, a little more hopeful. it made you happy beyond words to know you had a part in that change. but as time went on, you knew it couldn't stay a secret forever.
one morning, as you approached izuku's locker with another note, you found him standing there, reading something with a puzzled expression. his head snapped up as you came closer, and you realized with a start that he was holding one of your notes. his eyes widened as he saw you, and your heart skipped a beat. had he figured it out?
"y/n?" he asked softly, his voice filled with a mixture of hope and uncertainty. "is it… is it you?"
you swallowed hard, but the sincerity in his gaze gave you courage. "yes, izuku. it's me."
for a moment, there was silence. then, slowly, a smile spread across izuku's face, a smile that was brighter and more genuine than any you'd seen before. "thank you," he said, his voice trembling with emotion. "thank you so much. you don't know how much this means to me."
tears welled up in your eyes as you took a step closer. "i just wanted you to know that you're not alone, izuku. you inspire me, and i believe in you. i always have."
izuku's gaze softened as he reached out and gently took your hand in his, his touch warm and reassuring. "thank you," he whispered, his voice filled with emotion. "i… i believe in you too. and i'm really glad to know that i have someone like you by my side."
in that moment, standing together in the bustling hallway, you felt something shift between you, a spark of deeper connection, a bond forged through kindness, support, and mutual admiration. it was the beginning of something beautiful, a budding romance that neither of you would ever forget.
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gravehags · 6 months ago
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all vacant and waste
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Pairing: Cardinal Copia x f!Reader (Curator!Reader)
Rating: EXPLICIT, MDNI
Tags: picnics, car sex, confrontation, terzo being terzo, sister imperator ruining the vibes, sister imperator being a complex human being, copia standing up for himself and his girl, FORESHADOWING, mst3k reference
Words: 4,829
Summary: And the two of you were having such a nice day.
a/n: another lore fic but with bonus smut!! and family drama!! enjoy!!
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When you awaken you’re surprised to see that it’s nearly noon.
Copia’s side of the bed is cold and you frown as you stretch and throw back the covers. Getting up, you pad to the kitchen, which is empty. You’re about to turn around and go get your phone when you spot a note on the counter written in a familiar decisive, loopy scrawl.
Amore,
Thank you for your candor and your affection, last night and always. I have a few things to see to this morning but when you are done getting ready (take your time!), meet me downstairs in the Papas’ kitchen - I’d like to pack a lunch and go for a drive. I will keep you in my morning prayers and hope that your sleep was as surprisingly restful as mine.
Ciao xx,
C
Your shoulders sag in relief as your heart swells - how funny the two of you both slept so well after such a harrowing late night conversation. You wonder if his dreams were anything like yours. With a loud yawn, you stretch once more and head back into the bedroom to get ready. Copia told you to take your time but you don’t want to leave him waiting too long and besides, you’re eager to see his face. Your morning routine runs efficiently and you select a short thin-strapped yellow floral sundress to wear after opening your window and gauging the weather. Grabbing your phone, your purse, and your keys you head out and down the stairs. When you approach the hallway leading to the Papas’ kitchen you can hear loud arguing in Italian. Hesitantly, you approach the doorway and knock against the frame.
“Morning, gentlemen.”
Copia, along with Secondo and Terzo, turn to look at you. When all three behold your outfit for the day all fighting ceases in order to coo and compliment you. You, however, are too focused on Copia’s outfit. He looks very priestly today in his black clerical shirt, slacks, and dress shoes and you can feel your face warm at the sight. Judging from the way his jaw goes slack at your outfit, he’s feeling the same way.
“Bella, look at you! All this wasted on il Cardinale, ah what a shame.”
You give Terzo a stern look and shove past him to go see the aforementioned Cardinale.
“Good morning, my love,” you murmur, kissing him once on the lips and once on the cheek, “Don’t listen to Terzo.”
“I rarely do,” Copia smirks and out of the corner of your eye you see Terzo make a rude gesture. Secondo snorts derisively as he slides a large basket across the island counter to you.
“For your picnic, piccolina,” he says, pointing to a loaf of sliced sourdough, a generous container of fresh mozzarella and basil, a jar of marcona almonds, and two bottles of aranciata rossa. You smile and stand on tiptoes to place a kiss to his cheek which again, has Terzo making a rude gesture.
“Grazie mille, Secondo,” you say, “No tomatoes with the mozzarella and basil?”
“With this one?” he scoffs, jerking his thumb towards Copia, “Never. Ask him to tell you about what Terzo did to him when we were kids.”
“Don’t remind me,” Copia grouses as Terzo chuckles sinisterly behind him, “are you eh, all ready to rock and roll, tesoro?”
“Whenever you are. Secondo, thank you so much, you’re the sweetest. Terzo…stay out of trouble, per favore.”
“I won’t make any promises,” Terzo comments airily, while sticking out his cheek for a kiss which you daintily apply. “Go,” he murmurs in your ear, his hand on your back, “enjoy your time away from here, huh? You and the rat deserve it.”
“‘The rat’ can hear you, figlio di puttana,” Copia growls, muscling in between the two of you with the picnic basket. You give the Papas a wave and you smile as you hear Secondo chastising Terzo on the way out. 
“By the way,” you say as you walk side by side down the hall, “you look delicious today.”
Copia scoffs but his ears turn red all the same.
“If I didn’t know any better, amore, I’d say you have eh, a thing for men of the cloth.”
Now it’s your turn to go red but you still grin at him.
“Now why would you think you know any better?” you purr, reaching out to squeeze his ass. The act has him gasping in faux-scandalization.
“Amore, don’t start something you can’t finish,” he says as you approach the front doors to the abbey.
“Later, then,” you wink and the two of you cross the threshold to make your way to his car. It’s beautiful out, as you thought it would be, but as you slide into the passenger seat you clock thunderclouds on the horizon.
“So where are you taking me?” you ask as he pulls out and down the driveway.
“I know a spot,” he smiles.
“Oh?” you turn towards him and rest your arm on the back of the seat, “Take all your girls here, huh?”
That makes him laugh out loud.
“Only the very special ones. So that is to say no one but you. I used to drive out here when I first started living here so I could clear my head and get away from the clergy drama. It’s been a while since I’ve made it out here. Too many eh, obligations now.”
“I’m sorry,” you murmur, reaching out to stroke his hair, “You deserve more days off. I’ve always said you’re the hardest working person in the abbey.”
He smiles softly.
“Second-most employee of the month awards,” he says, puffing out his chest.
“Oh Cardinal,” you coo, “Competency is very sexy, I–wait, second? Who has the first?”
“Eh, some guy named Kevin. Or Jesus. Depends who you ask.”
The two of you travel in silence for another fifteen minutes before Copia turns down a dirt road. The car comes to a stop next to a small, grassy clearing and he puts it in park before slapping his thighs.
“Here we are,” he announces and you both step out. As you move further into the grass while Copia takes the basket out of the trunk, you note a picturesque stream weaving in between the large oak trees. You inhale deep - it’s been a while since you’ve been out in nature - and the myriad of scents and sounds refresh you.
“Beautiful, isn’t it?” he says, as he stands beside you. You nod and turn to take the blanket from him. You move closer to the water’s edge and spread it out, plopping down on the plush greenery. With a groan he takes a seat beside you and you begin doling out your meal. Your conversation is…lovely. Worlds away from the one you had in bed last night. You’re swapping childhood tales when you’re reminded of Secondo’s words from earlier.
“So what’s this thing with you and tomatoes?” you ask, popping an almond into your mouth.
“Eugh,” Copia says in between chews of bread, “Fucking Terzo. I don’t like raw tomatoes - never have. And yes I know, I know I make a poor Italian but when I was little, I don’t know maybe eight or nine, and Terzo was older - the right age to act like a little shit - he took a tomato from the gardens and chased me around the abbey with it. I was crying, he was laughing and when he finally caught me and smushed the tomato into my mouth I broke free, gagging. Before I could make it to the nearest bathroom I puked all over this ancient cardinal who had the misfortune of standing nearby.”
“Oh no,” you say, covering your mouth, “Copia that’s awful!”
“It gets worse,” he says, smiling despite his words, “This cardinal - his name was Carlo Udinesi - stood there filled with rage and told me, ‘you will never come to anything within this Ministry, ratto bastardo.’ He died not long after that. I remember his funeral and I remember wondering if my puke is what had pushed him over the edge.”
“Ominous,” you say with a laugh, “And not to bring up last night but very Damien Thorn of you, my love.”
“It was, wasn’t it? That’s where I got my tattoo from, you know.”
You tear into a piece of sourdough.
“I had wondered,” you smile, “Just chalked it up to you being a horror fan but I love it even more now.”
“It was a bit of both. Terzo convinced–”
You feel a large, heavy drop land on the back of your hand, followed by another, and another. As the two of you were engrossed in conversation you hadn’t noticed the storm clouds rolling over your heads.
“Shit,” you sigh, “we better pack up.”
Copia nods and stuffs the remainder of his piece of bread in his mouth, rising to his feet with you. Before you know it the sky opens up as you’re putting the food back in the basket.
“Cazzo!” Copia shouts as you ball the blanket up and he gestures for you to hand it to him, “Get in the backseat, I’ll put this shit in the trunk!”
By the time you make it back to the car and open the door, throwing yourself inside, you’re soaked. Copia joins you a minute later and slams the door, panting.
“Good thing you didn’t wear your paints today, huh?” you grin, “You’d have looked like a drowned raccoon.”
He reaches down and pinches your thigh.
“Very funny, amore. I think I would have looked eh, metal.”
“Oh I’ve hurt your feelings,” you murmur, “let me make it up to you.”
It takes some finagling but you’re able to pull yourself up and swing your leg over his lap to straddle him. 
“Signorina, in the backseat?”
You smile wickedly.
“Mmhmm. Want you in the backseat like I wanted it New Year’s Eve on the way to dinner. Besides, how am I meant to resist when you look like this.”
Your fingers make quick work of the top few buttons of his shirt and his hands come to rest on your ass and squeeze.
“When I look like this? Amore,” he growls, leaning forward to lick a stripe up your neck that has you shivering, “almost told the brothers to fuck off so I could have you on the counter in this sweet little dress earlier, huh? Little tease.”
He captures your lips in a lewd kiss, tongues sliding against each other in a way that has you whimpering into his mouth. When you finally have to separate for breath he grins up at you.
“Ah, this is a familiar sight, eh dolcezza? Speaking of New Year’s Eve.”
You giggle warmly and nod, pressing open mouthed kisses to his neck. When your teeth drag along the sensitive skin there you feel his cock kick against you.
“Cazzo, diavoletta mia. Have you–ah–have you always been so hungry for me?”
You pause in your efforts to suck a mark into his throat and pull back.
“Always.” you breathe, flexing your hips against him, “Wanted you from the moment I met you.”
“Likewise,” he sighs as you reach down to fiddle with his belt, button, and zipper, “when you walked into my office that day, unholy fuck. P-pretty little thing and so sweet. I k-knew you were special immediately.”
“Well,” you say, easing the thick length of him out of his underwear and rubbing your thumb against the head, making him gasp, “we were made for each other after all, hmm? Destined for one another. Destined,” you murmur as you shift the gusset of your soaked underwear to the side, rubbing your cunt on him, “to love and protect and fuck. So says your Unholy Father.”
Copia’s mouth hangs open as you raise yourself onto your knees and position him at your entrance, impaling yourself upon him with agonizing slowness. When you finally have all of him encapsulated in your tight, wet heat, he moans and his hands slide under the hem of your dress as a prayer is pushed from his lips.
“Ave Sathanas.”
Your breath comes in little pants as you cup the side of his face and run your thumb along his sideburn.
“Ave Sathanas,” you murmur, “for giving me you.”
Gently you ease yourself off him and take him back in, your mouths sharing breath. You’re trembling as you set a rhythm, riding him with increasing force as you moan wantonly. Between the rain and your actions, the windows of the LeSabre have become steamy and it only reinforces the filthiness of your act.
“Amata mia,” Copia grunts, thrusting up into you in time with each roll of your hips and making you see stars, “w-wore this pretty dress for me on p-purpose, huh? W-wanted this all along.”
Your laugh is breathy and borderline hysterical as you bounce on his cock.
“Mmm fuck–knew you’d love it. I was–ah–gonna fuck you outside on the blanket til the r-rain came. This is even b-better.”
The last word comes out of your mouth in a higher octave as you pant and whine, your thighs burning even as Copia massages them. When one of his hands slip between your legs, his thumb making tight circles over your clit, your back arches and thrusts your breasts into his face. Not missing a beat, he leans forward and sucks at your nipple through the thin fabric, eventually losing patience. Growling, he takes his unoccupied hand and tugs the strap and the front of the dress down until you’re falling out, his hungry mouth latching onto your hardened bud. Your eyes roll back as he plays you like a fiddle - cock pumping into you, fingers on your clit, lips on your breast - moaning into the humid air inside the car as you cling to him. He pulls off you to gasp for air, groaning.
“Cazzo, d-dolcezza, you’re close I can f-feel it.”
He’s right, with every rut of your hips and swipe of his thumb your cunt clenches around the thick length of him. He begins murmuring to you in Italian and you catch a few words here and there - good girl, perfect girl, mine - and when you look down into his eyes he gazes up at you with such raw adoration it pushes you over the edge. You don’t even realize you’re crying until his hands are on your cheeks, swiping away the tears as you ride out your orgasm. 
“L-look at me, amore mio,” he breathes, and you do as he asks, cupping his face in your hands. You watch as his jaw hangs open and his breaths come short and sharp, pupils blown as he fucks up into you one, two, three more times and cums with more of a wail than a moan. 
“I love you,” you whisper, pressing your damp forehead to his, “I love you, I love you, I love you no matter what.”
You know your grip on him has to be borderline painful and when he reaches up to take your hands in his and press them to his lips, you sob.
“Thank you,” his voice is small, and he sounds like he’s holding back on tears of his own. “Amore mio, thank you. Sei il mio tutto. I would do anything for you. Anything.”
You hiccup and nod, wrapping your arms around his neck and drawing him close. His hands roam your back, tracing patterns as you breathe in the faint orange blossom scent of what remains of his hair pomade. You’re not sure how long the two of you sit like this - until your thighs start to ache and long after he’s gone soft inside you - but when you finally pull apart the way he looks at you brings a small smile to your face.
“We uh,” you sniffle, inelegantly wiping your nose with the back of your hand, “we should probably get back.” Your words are punctuated with a full body shiver that has him tutting and easing you out of his lap.
“You’re going to catch a cold like this, dolcezza. Half naked, hair wet. I’ll get you back to where it’s warm.”
“Grazie, nonna,” you murmur, giving him a wink before opening the car door. It’s still pouring outside but the fresh air after the humidity of the vehicle is nice, and it smells wet and green out. You don’t even mind getting a little more damp as you move to the passenger seat and Copia slides in beside you, eyes a little dewy.
“I eh, I don’t think I said it back but…I love you too.”
“I know.”
He chuckles.
“Okay Han Solo. I just have to say it out loud sometimes, huh? If only to remind myself that I uh, have somebody to love, sì?”
“My love, I will never complain about hearing it. It’s nice to be loved. Even though I’m um…still not really used to it, you know?”
You try to muffle the shiver that shakes you but Copia’s sharp eyes have caught it and he’s fretting again as he starts the car.
“Well get used to it, amore, because I’m gonna be so annoying about it I–”
The two of you look out the windshield. Or…try to. The glass is entirely fogged over from your activities and you let out a bark of laughter as Copia sighs heavily.
“There’s a rag in the glove compartment, can you…”
“On it.”
The two of you make it back to the abbey eventually, laughing as you run through the rain from the row of garages to the front door. When you step inside the marble entrance, it’s chilly and you grip Copia’s hand and start to drag him in the direction of your apartment.
“Come on, bello mio, let’s go dry off and put a movie on and…what’s wrong?”
Copia has stopped in his tracks and is staring straight ahead at the figure marching towards the two of you. You’d know the clack of those heels anywhere and your blood runs cold as Sister Imperator approaches, lips twisted in a disapproving grimace.
“I was under the impression that you two were under the weather. What a miraculous recovery you’ve made.”
You glance sideways at Copia, whose face is a mask. His eyes though, are filled with fire.
“So I took a personal day. Frankly, Sister, I think I deserve it every once in a while.”
“You have obligations, Cardinal.”
“Oh? And spending time with my Sathanas-approved mate isn’t one of those obligations?”
Imperator pulls back as if she’s been slapped and your heart sinks. Yes, the two of you had planned on confronting her about her demands but you wanted to be able to talk first. Plan. So much for being prepared.
“Both of you, my office, now,” she says, deadly quiet before turning on her heel and walking away.
Copia gives your hand a squeeze and when you look at him with anxiety written all over your face, his brows furrow.
“Together,” he murmurs.
“Together,” you confirm.
Sister Imperator doesn’t wait for the two of you, simply anticipating that you will obey her and follow. When Copia opens her office door she’s sitting behind her desk, hands folded on the surface and a venomous look on her face. The two of you sit down opposite her and she eyes your still clasped hands with disdain.
“I think this goes without saying but you’re fired,” she states curtly while looking at you. Your jaw drops and heart plummets but Copia barks out a harsh laugh.
“No, she isn’t,” he says, a faint sneer playing along his lips. “Because if you fire her, I’m leaving the church. And you can’t lose your precious pawn, can you…madre?”
She’s looking at you once again, her face pale and drawn.
“You–you told him everything? After I said–”
“How could I not?” you say and you hate the way your voice shakes, “How could you tell me all of that and expect me to keep it to myself? To suffer in silence with that knowledge about the only man I’ve ever loved? How could you think he didn’t deserve–”
“Your suffering means nothing to me, girl,” Imperator spits and Copia looks enraged.
“Her suffering is everything to me and you will not speak to her like that, capisci? How could you be so cruel to the woman your son loves? To tell her she was chosen to be a broodmare regardless of her personal desires?”
“She can be replaced,” she says, looking over to Copia desperately. “Cardi, we found her, we can find another.”
“Find…another…?” he says, blinking at her. “She’s…she’s not a broken toy that can be discarded and…how could you say such a thing?”
A silence descends on the room, punctuated by you sniffling and angrily wiping tears away.
“I love your son,” you say, voice cracking, “I would do anything for him. He knows this. I love him not in spite of what he is but because of everything he is. He’s a good man, a devoted cardinal. But he deserves better than to be pushed around on the Ministry chessboard his whole fucking life. He’s forty-nine years old, Sister. That’s forty-nine years you could have spent acting like his mother - caring for him like a mother would. But you–”
“Don’t you dare presume to tell me what I have and have not done,” Imperator says quietly, icily. “Do you think I wanted it to be like this? That after I gave birth I wanted him to be wrenched from my arms and treated like an orphan? To be told by Ministry officials that I was just a vessel and my claim on him was null?”
You blink back tears and with some surprise you realize she’s doing the same. You’ve never seen her so upset and judging by Copia’s face, neither has he.
“I’m sorry.” you murmur, “Sister, I am so, so sorry they put you through that. It’s not right and you deserved better.”
A tense silence settles between the three of you.
“Does my amore not deserve better?” Copia says softly. “Does she not deserve to have autonomy over her own body, as the Olde One deems? I’ll play my part, but spare her this horror. Let her stay by my side as an equal partner, let me keep her safe. Consider this the only favor I’ll ever ask of you, mother.”
Sister Imperator fishes a handkerchief out of her pocket and wipes at her cheeks, eyes avoiding both of you. When she finally does look at you, there’s something deeply sorrowful in her gaze.
“I wish your father was more like you,” she says, glancing over to Copia after a moment. “Maybe things would have been different.”
“My…my father…?”
“Don’t be silly, Cardi, I’m sure you pieced the puzzle together by now. You were conceived in a ritual involving Papa Nihil being possessed by the Unholy Father.”
So Copia was right. You look over to him and his face is twisted in anguish, devastated to receive confirmation on what he suspected his whole life. You take his hand in both of yours and squeeze tight. Imperator’s gaze flicks between you both and she lets out a heavy sigh.
“Okay,” she says to herself softly, as if making up her mind about something, “Okay. Plans…plans can be changed. In the end this…setback…affects very little, I suppose. I’ll have to speak to Mr. Psaltarian and the rest of the Council about this but…yes this should work.”
The weight in your stomach begins to lift and Copia looks over to you.
“You’ll respect my wishes, then?” you ask tentatively.
“Yes. Yes, dear I believe you’ll–everything will be fine.”
Dear. Well it’s a significant upgrade from girl, that’s for sure.
“Thank you,” Copia says, “Sister. Mother. Whatever. Thank you.”
She nods, but she looks preoccupied with other thoughts.
“Why don’t you two take the rest of the week? Give you a chance to clear your heads. I-I understand this has been a lot to digest.”
“I eh, thought I had obligations?”
Imperator gives Copia a tired look, perhaps the most motherly you’ve seen her thus far.
“I thought you deserved time off, Cardi? If not I can always send you the budget for–”
“Eh, no. We’ll take it. Thank you, Sister.”
The two of you rise and Copia leaves but you stand in place looking at the woman before you.
“Thank you,” you say so quietly, you’re not even sure she heard it until she nods. She opens her mouth to speak but shuts it again, clearly second guessing what she was about to say as she waves you out. When you shut the door behind you, Copia is leaning against the hallway wall and staring at the floor.
“Hey,” you murmur, fingers reaching out to brush his side, “you okay?”
He inhales deep and exhales through his mouth before reaching for you.
“I’ve never spoken like that to her before. Pretty sad, huh? Almost fifty and–”
“My love, you were wonderful,” you say, gathering him into your arms, “I’ve never seen you so furious, it was magnificent.”
His shoulders shake in your embrace and for a heartbreaking moment you think he’s sobbing but when you pull away he’s got a grin on his face.
“Amore, you make me so brave,” he says, cupping your cheeks in his hands and placing a kiss on your forehead. You chuckle, putting your hands over his.
“Do you think…” you murmur, lips twitching into a smile and he cocks his head, “do you think when Meatloaf was singing about doing anything for love but not that, the ‘that’ was having the Antichrist’s baby because–”
“Sathanas, you only just dodged this bullet and now you’re making jokes? Incredibile.”
Chortling, he starts to walk down the hall and you loop your arm through his.
“Leave me alone, it’s how I process trauma. And I no longer think your mom actively wants to murder me in my sleep so I’m celebrating a win here, love. But…would you really have left the church for me? Did you mean that?”
Copia stops and turns to you.
“Assolutamente. In a heartbeat. A life here without you in it would be meaningless, amore. You are all that matters to me now and if that means finding a new job and a new home, well. With you I can do anything. And don’t you worry, I would never let her hurt you. Never,” he goes quiet for a moment and then speaks again, “Makes you wonder, though, you know. About what she has in store for me.”
“Hey,” you stop him, arms on his biceps, “whatever it is it’s your choice. It’s your life. No one is destined to fulfill any kind of contract, not even you. Whatever you choose, I’ll be right here beside you.”
He smiles, nudging your chin with his thumb.
“Let’s go take a hot bath, huh?”
You groan.
“Oh that sounds divine. And put on Mystery Science Theater 3000?”
“Which episode, though?”
“Antichrist’s choice tonight.”
He rolls his eyes.
“Manos.”
“The Hands of Fate? Classic. Hey, is it weird I always had a thing for Dr. Forrester?”
Copia stops in his tracks and you look at him innocently.
“Maybe it’s the whole evil thing. And the mustache.”
He calls you a name in Italian under his breath and you spend the rest of the walk back to your apartment begging him to divulge it. When the two of you reach the door he finally breaks.
“I said ‘birichina mia’.”
“And what does that mean?”
He sighs.
“Eh, ‘my naughty little one’.”
Your mouth forms an ‘o’ and you bite your lip while opening the door to your quarters.
“Get that bath started and I’ll show you just how naughty I can get, hmm?”
Copia grins at you wickedly.
“Twice in one afternoon? You spoil me, amore.”
“Hmm I suppose I do,” you say airily, lifting the hem of your damp sundress over your head and tossing it onto the floor. Copia’s eyes go wide as you pinch at your pebbled nipples and he backs clumsily into the doorway of your bedroom.
“Well go on,” you purr, shimmying out of your underwear. “Get to it, Your Eminence.”
You’ve never seen him move so fast as he hustles into your bathroom, untucking his shirt along the way. By the time the two of you are slumped over and spent much later in the now tepid bathwater, he’s softly singing something in your ear while your eyes drift closed.
“Is that one of Terzo’s songs? ‘Bible’?”
“Eh, yeah,” he sounds sheepish so you reach behind you to scratch his scalp soothingly.
“You’ve got a nice voice, my love. We should do karaoke one night.”
He chuckles.
“Oh no, I’m not built for performing, amore. Too much pressure.”
“Who knows,” you murmur, leaning back against him, “you might surprise yourself one day, hmm?”
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moonstruckme · 1 year ago
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hi! i hope you're having a good day<3 i was wondering if you could write a remus x fem!reader where they aren't really dating but everyone knows they like each other (them included) where r has kinda mean friends? like, they leave her out of everything and she constantly feels bad about it. and ever time she tells remus he's like "you should drop them, you deserve better" and he's just trying to get her to see that she deserves better?
Thank you <3
modern au
Remus Lupin x fem!reader ♡ 736 words
Remus can feel a heaviness building where you sit on the couch next to him. 
He lets his eyes slide subtly in your direction, and you’re frowning at your phone. Not an upset frown, no pursed lips or drawn brows, just a slight downturn of the corners of your mouth. You look defeated, and Remus can’t abide it. 
“Everything alright, love?”
Predictably, you soften like butter at the endearment, and your expression as you turn to him is kind if not happy. “Yeah, I’m good,” you say, and Remus pretends not to know it’s a lie. He waits. Your eyes drop to his shoulder, one thumbnail picking at the other distractedly. “I just wish…I wish that if my friends were going to hang out without me, they’d at least not post so much about it.” 
A familiar ache starts up in his chest. “Oh no. What’ve they done?” 
You shrug like it’s little to you, but he sees the way you press your lips together, the faint redness creeping up from your neck. He hopes you don’t cry, if only to spare his delicate heart. 
“They’re all at Hannah’s place, I guess. Going to go see the new movie premiere.” You laugh. It sounds raw. “I actually asked them if they wanted to go do that tonight, and they all said they were busy.” 
The frailty of your voice works like glass shards, cleaving Remus clean open. “Darling,” he says, and he doesn’t care that you’re not official enough to acknowledge the endearment in its full capacity. You both know he means it well enough. His hand slides atop yours the way one tempers one ingredient by adding a tiny bit of another before the rest. You soften at his touch, and Remus goes all the way, curling his arms under yours to give your back a firm squeeze. “I know you’re sick of hearing it from me, but they really don’t deserve you.” 
A tiny drop of warm wetness slides from your face to his shirt. His own fault, really, but if a good cry is what you need he’s ready to indulge you. “I just want to know what it is about me that makes me so terrible to be around,” you weep, and Remus crushes you to his front unthinkingly, a protective ire swelling within him. He wishes he could go to your friend’s house and give these girls a talking-to right now, but you probably wouldn’t thank him for it. He settles for dragging his palm up and down your back, hip to shoulder and back again. 
“Don’t say that,” he pleads with you. 
“I know, I’m sorry.” Your sigh is a stilted, shuddering thing. “I’m putting you in an awful position. I don’t mean to fish for compliments.” 
“I know,” he promises, his hand stopping where Remus can feel your heart beating through the material of your shirt. “And I’m not saying it out of any sense of obligation, but you really are lovely to be around. I mean” —he pulls back so you can see his face, hoping the sincerity in it will make some headway against your self-doubt— “would I be here if you weren’t?”
You give him a small smile, thin-lipped. “You’re very nice.” 
Remus laughs, wrapping his fingers around your upper arms and barely restraining himself from trying to shake some sense into you. “I’m not that nice. But okay, Sirius would never hang around anyone he didn’t actually like, can we agree there?” He takes your silence for acquiescence, and, with a gentle smile, goes on. “Every one of our friends sees how kind, and smart, and lovely you are. They” —he shoots a pointed look at your phone— “are the only ones who don’t. That’s how I know you’re not the problem, sweetheart,” he says, softer now. “They are.” 
You look him in the eyes as you take a deep breath. This one goes in and out steadier than the last, and some of the tension in his own chest eases. “Thank you,” you tell him. 
Remus can’t help himself; he pulls you in for another hug, selfish to his core. “No thanks necessary,” he says firmly.
“I guess the only thing to do,” you say, voice muffled against his shoulder, “is to stop trying to make plans with them and hang out exclusively with you.” 
Remus laughs. He doesn’t hate the sound of that.
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targaryenrealnessdarling · 2 years ago
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Hey I’m not sure if you’re doing requests right now (if not then please just ignore😭) if you are doing requests I was wondering if you could write and Aemond x Wife Reader where she’s with child, in where the dinner scene takes place but when Jace goes to hit Aemond the reader tries to stop him and jace blond in anger pushes her and she falls to the floor and starts to bleed (the child is okay in the end) and it the whole table goes quite! Please and thank you!! I love your writing sm💕💕
'If looks could kill'
A/N: I got this request ages ago so sorryyyyyy~ I was unsure how to approach this one as there is a very similar fic by the wonderful @aemonds-war-crime and I was really weary and making it not too similar, hopefully I did it? lol
Go read theirs cos honestly it's better anyway
Warnings: mention of miscarriages, hurt reader, protective aemond, childbirth / Ao3 link
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You raised your arms out in a silent plea, feeling too heavy and weak to be able to pull yourself up. Smiling up to him, you wiggle your fingers.
“A little help?” you say in a half-mischievous tone. 
“Hm” Aemond responded with that half-smile before bending at the knees to take your hands to pull you up. 
You feigned a groan of pain as you came to your feet, one hand stationed under the large bump as if for protection. It took no effort from Aemond at all to pull you up and he smoothed his large hands down your side. He stood before you in silence, but you could feel his eye over your form, beaming with pride at the bump that touched against him. So much so, he placed his palm to it and closed his eye. His expression was so peaceful you would think he is falling asleep, but with a soft laugh you lay your own palm on his face, softly stroking your thumb against it. 
When he looks down at you, there is a flash of worry.
“Are you sure you are well enough to do this?” he asks.
Without a beat, you nod, hand still finding its home on his face. 
It was only natural that Aemond was worried for you throughout this long and tortuous pregnancy. He had concerned himself with your wellbeing the entire time, making sure the right foods and the right care was provided, lest the servants feel the wrath of a Targaryen soon-to-be father.
It made you regard him with love and trust the way he took care of you. But a tug of sadness was always there.
Before this pregnancy, your marriage had been plagued with a few miscarriages, some later than others, but still painful nonetheless. The first had been the most painful to your emotions and every one after had chipped a little piece of you away with it. But what worried you the most was the extent at which Aemond seemed to hide his own feelings from you. He was always there for comfort when it happened and you desperately wanted him to at least tell you what was on his mind. If he was grief-stricken, would he tell you?
When this pregnancy came around, there was a deep, dark and hurt part of you that thought it would not last. You thought to not get any hopes of passing a particular milestone and many nights you were crying in Aemond’s arms just praying for the Gods to end it if it was not to result in a baby. To spare you the sadness and grief at another lost child.
But days, weeks and months passed and you only swelled more. You would pull the dress under your bump in the mirror to see how big you had gotten and a motherly pride would overwhelm you at the feeling of growing Aemond’s child and heir inside you. 
You meet Aemond’s gaze, half-worried, “Are you going to be alright?”
He sighs deeply, “I shall have to be”
You send him a sad smile, resting your hand on top of his, “And you will not antagonise them?”
I raise my eyebrow when Aemond doesn’t respond, a smirk appears on his face.
“I am not sure if that’s a promise I can make”
You huff a laugh and press a quick kiss to his lips, closing your eyes to savour the feeling of him alone with you before you were to share the evening with Rhaenyra and her children.
“Just try and be good” 
You smile, knowing that he most certainly will not. 
Between waddling to the table and feeling the kicks of the baby against your insides, the evening wasn’t so bad. There was a bit of squabbling for certain and some glares exchanged, namely by Aemond and Luke, but you supposed it was to be expected. Nobody had expected them to be the best of friends after all. 
You pushed the food around your place, feeling your appetite dwindle as the night went on. Even the comfort of wine didn’t seem to touch the discomfort you felt at the baby resting on your pelvis. But nothing seemed to cause more discomfort than when Viserys was escorted from the table back to his chambers. The atmosphere changed entirely and there was a thick layer of tension to the room, threatening to snap at any moment.
You watched as Jace invited Helaena for a dance. It would have been nice to see had Aegon not adopted a sour frown at the sight of the brunet’s hands on his sister-wife. Perhaps he felt embarrassed, you were not sure, but it was certainly of no bother to you as you closed your eyes, one hand rested at the bump. A habit adopted only in the last month or two.
You jumped slightly and opened your eyes when Aemond squeezed his hand over yours, looking at you with concern.
“Are you alright, my love” he asked.
You nodded slowly, “Just tired. I may retire soon”
Aemond tapped your hand before pulling back, passing a scathing look to the younger brunet at the other side of the table. Your eyes watch your husband as a roasted pig is brought to the table, and to your discomfort, is placed right before your husband. You close your eyes, hoping Luke isn’t stupid enough to retort to it, but when Aemond turns to see Luke and a hateful smirk makes its way to his face, you know it was too late for the kind words of a wife to bring him back.
Luke immediately ceases his laughter when Aemond’s fist makes contact with the table, standing with his cup. You open your mouth to ask Aemond to calm down, but the words tumble from your husband’s mouth before you get the chance. Everyone in the room has their eyes trained on Aemond. 
The tension in the room is as tight as a bowstring. 
“Final tribute” he finally says. His deep voice resonates throughout the room, authoritative and well-meaning in his eyes.
“To the health of my nephews”
His eye meets Jace, who is sending daggers at him from across the room, “Jace” Aemond says.
“Luke”
The younger brunet pretends to feign indifference, but he must know as well as everyone else, he is afraid of what his Uncle might do or say, given the circumstances of their relationship. 
“And Joffrey”
The table braces themself for more. You look up to your husband on the off chance he is looking down at you to ask him to stop, but he is far too deep now.
“Each of them handsome, wise…”
Alicent looks as if she might throw up anticipating what Aemond then says.
“...strong”
“Aemond” Alicent scolds in a soothing voice, her panicked eyes meet yours. Both the women in Aemond’s life give one another a silent plea that all this end, but powerless to do anything to stop him. And in some strange truth, perhaps Aemond deserves to have this word in some way.
“Come, let us drain our cups to these three strong boys”
Jace’s return sounds angrier even though he is to your back and you cannot see his face, “I dare you to say that again”
“Why?” Aemond barks back, “T’was only a compliment. Do you not think yourself strong?”
You had enough and you rise from your chair as Aemond rounds the table to approach Jace. 
“That is enough, Aemond” you scold quietly, placing yourself before him. 
Aemond attempts to go around you, but Jace is already advancing and before you know it he is almost right before you. He looks blind with rage, almost unrecognisably so and there is something in his eye which seems unhinged, as if not thinking clearly. 
Instinctively, you step in front of Aemond, arm reaching across as if you could offer any protection despite Aemond’s clearly larger frame. But Jace’s eyes only land on his Uncle and without thinking he places his palm flat on your shoulder to shove you out of the way to land a punch to the side of Aemond’s face. 
You gasp out as your hand reaches out for the table as you tumble, your weight off balance due to the bump before you. But your eyes widen when your hands miss the table and you topple over the chair to land square on your front on the cold, hard stone floor, landing with a groan of pain.
Hands flat on the stone floor, it takes you a moment to really realise what has happened. Everyone in the room takes a breath and is completely silent while they watch you come to the realisation of what had just happened. Pushing yourself from the floor shakily, you realise you have landed on your bump and a sound halfway between a cry and a choke escapes you as you feel the familiar ache in your womb. 
You look up to Aemond with glassy eyes and his form is entirely still, his face stoic and you see his eye flit from you to Jace. His whole body is charged with something and you realise exactly what it is when in just a second he had Jace pressed against the wall, his dagger pressed against the older brunet’s throat. His expression is not crazed or angry and you are surprised just how calm Aemond looks as he threatens Jace’s life.
Jace blabbers incoherently, making half-apologies. All on deaf ears.
Alicent rounds the table in a jog to kneel by you and she goes from helping you to a more comfortable position, to wiping away the tears on your face. 
“You dare harm my wife, bastard” Aemond spits, pinning the smaller boy to the wall with ease.
You grip Alicent’s forearm, a new wave of pain crashing through you, taking every ounce of strength with it. She looks down at you with furrowed eyes and out-of-breath you say,
“What’s happening…?” you ask, feeling a warm sensation between your legs. 
Rhaenyra and Daemon only watch from the other side of the table as the scene unfolds. Daemon has one hand resting on his sword’s handle, just in case anything goes too far, a sickening smirk on his face.
You look up to Aemond to find he is already staring down at you. The previous anger now turned to complete shock and concern at the situation that has befallen the evening. With a soft sheen of sweat on your face and the lines of tears that had run down your face, you meet his gaze with concern and fear. This feeling you knew and you shook your head, it could not be another, could it? Could the gods truly be this cruel?
Alicent is jittering with anxiety and pulls Aemond off of Jace, having spaced out with the blade still at the brunet’s throat. 
“Aemond…” you let out a quiet sob as he kneels to you, “...something is wrong…”
Without thinking, Aemond brings your body into his arms, rushing you with an entourage of people to your chambers. Before he has a chance to question, the family are pushed to the other side of the door, various maesters and midwives all filing in to fill their stations. It was like preparing for battle.
Concealed on the outside, Aemond was entirely inconsolable and paced for hours, flinching whenever you made a sound that evoked pain. He felt his fist clench so hard he thought the bones may give out, and he imagined bashing Jace’s head through for merely laying a hand on you in your delicate condition. Oh the things he would like to do to that boy.
But the sheer anxiety of your situation had him obediently outside your chambers. The family could only wait for those fated doors to open. Alicent grasped her son’s arm in comfort, eyebrows furrowed in worry.
Aemond had been sitting outside the doors for hours now and to put it bluntly, he had made himself sick with worry for your wellbeing. He had heard very little through the thick doors, and this seemed to concern him even more. His eye looked up to find Alicent pacing the hallway before him, seemingly attempting to soothe herself. 
One side of the door opened and the maester poked his head out and almost immediately Aemond stood to attention, lending his ear to the maester to whisper. It was the dead of night and in fact may have been very early the next morning, and the Keep was completely silent, even the whispers of the maester seemed to echo.
Face blanched with worry, Aemond was allowed into the room. His gaze scanned the room in a panic, eventually landing on your form, sitting upright in the bed you shared together. Your tired eyes met him and gave him a soft, but exhausted smile, one hand underneath a bundle held tightly to your chest. Your husband’s ghostly white expression never faltered once, fully expectant for all this to be some cruel dream. 
You extended a hand out to him and swallowing heavily, Aemond dragged his feet over to you and shakily reached out to touch you. You pulled him to sit next to you, but his gaze was stuck on you the entire time to observe you. Your shift had been abandoned and a silk robe had been tied around you as you laid in bed, multiple cushions and blankets stacked upon one another to create the soft mound to rest your body against. 
Your face was flushed and a thin layer of sweat was still evident on your brow, but all the same, your smile warmed him. You huff a laugh as you lay a hand against his face,
“My love” you say, bringing him out of a trance-like state, “this is our daughter” 
His eyeline follows yours down to your chest, where a small bundle of a baby was suckling against your chest. A warmth that was not previously there spreads through Aemond’s heart almost painfully and some semblance of colour is once again painted at his cheeks.
His index finger reaches out to stroke the infant’s head. Halfway between a choked sob and a laugh rattles through Aemond’s chest. The infant was small, but flushed with a pink flush, looking healthy. You leaned forward to stroke his hair and he leaned against you, placing his forehead with yours. A silent act of love.
He grasped your hand tightly, not wanting to let go.
“Well done, my love” he said quietly, “I thought the worst”
You look back down at your daughter, who made a content sound, “I did as well” you admit.
After a few minutes, Aemond stood and straightened his clothing, turning towards the door.
“Aemond” you call after him.
His purple eye lands on you once more, softening instantly.
“Don’t hurt him too badly” you smile.
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prettypeppermint · 1 year ago
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swan song.
for t. shelby. a continuation of 'the gift of silence. (how sweet the sound)'
Sacrifice was your greatest gift. It clung to your name like a drawn bowstring, pregnant with prospective yet surmounting to nothing. You gave to your family until their deaths pried your outstretched palms away; you gave to your future self through tired feet and hard-earned sweat. Now, you've given to Thomas Shelby. Your very own love language.
You would give just about anything to take it all back.
He was kissing you--tasting you. He was asking for more and more of you every day through his longing gaze and patient fingers. You hated making him wait for something unattainable.
He wanted you a certain way--pliant, moldable. Soft.
He wanted you only to take from you. He wanted to collect you piece by piece.
A giver and a God.
"Tell me," he muttered into your mouth, tasting the way your thoughts grew sour on your lips. He read you in a way not kindled through love but through years of hardened business.
You pulled away half-heartedly. Your mind wrapped around him and you needed air.
"Say you love me," you ordered, staring into the core of his glacier-capped irises. There was no hope--no apprehension. You've digested every unspoken word already. You knew.
He peered down at you through his heavy line of lashes. "What--are my acts of service not enough?" he said lowly, an air of an insatiated euphemism in his voice.
A swell.
A silence.
An atonement.
"I love you." His finger traced a lock of hair into the canyon of your ear.
"I don't believe you."
A scoff seared through his teeth--a breath through the cornice of his lips.
"I've been thinking recently. During the day; during the night"--you began walking aimlessly around his office, fingering book spines and swiping the dust off of ledges--"during that ungodly hour before work. And thank God I have, because now I know you've been lying to me."
Thomas analyzed you--dissected every syllable. He listened.
"When you look into my eyes, I see nothing but her in yours."
It always goes back to Grace.
The lack of pain in your voice irked him on a deep, almost irrational level.
"At first I was hurt--confused. But now"--you circled back to him--"now, I feel nothing. I am nothing." You waited for him to interject despite knowing he never would. Sometimes, you were too painfully clear of his character; of just how much control he had over you; of how many ways he could hurt you while protecting you--love you while losing you.
"Then I realized: I'd rather be yours than nothing. Isn't it sad--a lass like me? Maybe I should first learn how it feels to be my own--to know every crease of my skin and grow comfortable in my flesh how you've grown so comfortable in mine."
The man you loved, whom you had sacrificed for one final time.
Your muscles yearned to reunite with him, but you held your arms to your sides in protest. "Thomas Shelby, you love me how a man should, but not how a woman should feel loved."
And now you'll spend the rest of your life chasing a notion--a concept--made only somewhat tangible by a man who could give you no more than all of him. Now you'll lose yourself searching for someone to search for you. Now you'll see him in all the men who fail in forgivable ways and love kindly.
A piece of him you will keep; a piece of you he will throw away. Until the next.
"You love me," he states, seemingly unphased. "And I love you."
"You don't know what love is, Thomas. How could you, when you've never loved anyone more than they've loved you?
"That's the ultimate testament of the caliber of a man's heart. It was never me, Thomas. It's her name you whisper in your sleep. Hear it. Accept it. Remember my voice saying it. Cling to it for the rest of your goddamn life so you never tell another woman you love her again."
For the first time, he noticed, you sounded defeated.
For the first time, he saw the vices of Birmingham shade your rural clarity.
Your voice sounded different without the usual fight in it; it revealed the exhaustion you forced down with cigarettes every morning and night. Suddenly the violet shadows under your eyes introduced themselves. Suddenly you looked 5 kilograms emaciated.
It was then that you became another woman in Thomas Shelby's life. You were no longer of the Kilkee coast or the sweetened countryside. You were ruined, and now you were just like the rest.
No girl who ever got tangled up in Shelby business ever makes it to London.
A swell.
A silence.
An empty impenitence.
"Goodbye, Thomas."
While he waited for you to fight for him, you once more decided to give.
Twice more, he took from you.
You wanted to feel his warmth against your lips once more. You had suddenly wished you'd savored your last kiss. "I hate what you've made me," you whispered.
He hated how the words sounded--how they tainted your tongue.
"You hate what you've become for me," he corrected.
You gave him a lonely, far-off stare, as if you were looking straight through him. He knew he had lost you.
You ignored his previous remark: "I hate how you made me think it was safe to fall in love with you."
You hadn't realized your eyes had welled up with an undeniable glaze until you felt a drop of glass wetness fall from your cheek. "I hate how you've turned me into another one of your women."
When Thomas didn't move, or walk closer to you, or even soften at your unraveling, you felt sour all over. Suddenly, you wanted it to hurt.
"No one has ever loved me in my entire life," you said to yourself, almost inaudibly. It sounded so ridiculously girlish and naive, unlike anything he had ever heard you say before.
A swell.
A painful one in the grit of your heart.
You felt heavy as you slowly turned and left his office.
He found you passed out in the chapel, your chest sprawled across the altar, your palms still clasped together in weak prayer. A mistiness clung to your eyelashes. He was once again reminded how much he loved how you looked in your sleep: like a soft lull of the shore had washed over you and cured a light peace into your soul.
He stood over you, counting your breaths and watching your lungs expand with life just to expel it. You smelled of ash and rosaries and beeswax. A tear rolled over the apples of your cheek and onto the peak of your nose.
"Silly girl," he rasped lowly before sitting on the floor and pulling your limp form into the cradle of his chest. His palm met the crown of your head to pull you further into his weight, his other hand hooking around the lonely bend of your waist. He felt his shirt seep with moisture, and he knew you were awake.
"She was a piece of my past I can't go back to take away," he said, his chin resting atop your head, voice bitter yet smooth like coffee on a good day, "But if any part of her had led me to you, I wouldn't go back to change a moment of it even if I could."
Your shoulders shuddered silently, and your sobs permeated directly through his chest and into his heart. He always knew just what to say, to the point it scared you.
"Give it time," said Thomas, petting your head in rhythm with your heart, "Give it time."
While you gave, he invested. He invested in all the times you've chipped away at yourself for him, and he kept them in his heart until the next time he would use them--like a business transaction.
But could you blame him for loving you how he knows best?
To understand his love was more than enough. Yet, your consistent upturned and empty palms rendered you greedy.
He collects your wet cheeks between his hands and brings you to look up at him. In his eyes, you saw the end of a road.
Was this all there was? Maybe so.
"Let's get married. Right here, right now"--he swiped his thumb across the slick of your undereye--"That way you'll be mine to keep. No more goodbyes."
You felt the Lord's eyes on your kneeling form. An odd feeling of shame and acceptance washed over you and clogged your chest.
It was then that you knew: loving Thomas Shelby was never going to be beautiful. It wasn't simple or painless or any of the things love should be. And it would never be the same kind of love that it was yesterday.
But what could you do? What could you do if you loved him nonetheless?
If you would always be loved how broken women are loved?
x.
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undertale-fic-librarby · 4 days ago
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Any Classic Sans x Reader recs? 👀
Smut is welcomed!
Howdy, thanks for asking! Here are some fics that might fit what you're looking for!
Lonely Eyes by TooObsessedForMyOwnGood (Mature, Complete)
I made this entirely and got up to about chapter 11 before deciding to post it. I've been into undertale since the day it was born and OH MAI GAWD. Excuse me if i happen to make any typos along the way. Hopefully not as I will be editing and reading these over as best as possible. Don't expect frequent updates after chapters 10 and/or 11. Also, i'm sorta new to posting stuff on here, so please forgive me if i'm slow with this sorta thing. The first at least 9 or 10 chapters will be short and more of a slow burn type of thing, but hopefully I can make them longer in the future. here we go guys. ______ It had been at least 15 years since the last human had fallen down. They'd been a mercilious human, one that had dusted almost every monster in the underground. Leaving the rest to lose hope as their king, queen, and all of the royal guard had been taken down by a measley human. A child, at that. Now, the next human to fall was one that had no intentions of such things, but Sans was prepared to put this one down much quicker if they proved to be a threat. Though, they both find out quickly that things were going to be much different then they'd both planned.
You're Not Alone Anymore by alexrun (Teen And Up, Incomplete)
I'm just gonna say this right off the top - I am not entirely sure where I'm going with this fic but if you like fLUFF AND SKELETONS YOu are in the right story!! >w> Uhm I suppose this is a very domestic plot with the whole "monsters living with humans but human don't like 'em" thing, also you are a little bundle of insecurity and anxiety who doesn't have a lot of friends and is just trying to make it through the day ;v; Enojy!?
Integrity (Sans Undertale x Reader) by xylocorpse (Not Rated, Incomplete)
Y/N L/N. A young adult who helps monsters settle in on the surface in your free time and is shit with making friends. On this beautiful day in particular, you happen to be helping two brothers move in and find yourself drawn to them. Thanks to persistent efforts (by you) you find that your life is permanently marked with new faces and new events that you hope will be for the better. .... and what's wrong with having a huge crush on a skeleton along the way? ALL OF THIS IS A HUUUGE SELF INSERT LMAOOOO. i have the fattest juiciest crush on sans and there is not enough love for classic on here. so now i have to do it myself. (but the reader being lowkey a loser is not me i am very cool irl)
Seren(dip)ity by Absent_Enigma (Teen And Up, Incomplete)
Life is pretty swell on the surface, Sans supposes. There have been no resets or reloads for years. No drama or violence from the human populace that monsters now live amongst, but for some minor complaints and scuffles. It’s just a bit lonely at times now that Sans’ friends and brother explore what the surface has to offer. Your life gets a little better when you enter into a tentative relationship with a funny skeleton monster who makes you laugh. It goes well, chip-dip fiasco and all. Five years later and the relationship is going steady, with less cultural misunderstandings now, as you and Sans go about daily life together. [Drabbles of you and Sans, in an established relationship, with little to no angst. It’s self-indulgent fluff, honestly]
Can we stay here? by TiredInBed (Mature, Incomplete)
You just recently moved to Ebott for college; it's nice here. The seasons are varied, the town is lively, and the school you're going to is manageable. The only thing that seems to be missing are friends and lovers. It feels so hard to get involved with anything or anybody new these days. They're all isolated in their own little world, and it's hard to become important to somebody. That's why when you get spontaneously involved with a new group of friends, you're happy! And when you meet a special man in Sans, you're overjoyed to watch your relationship blossom. You slowly forget what life would be like without them, the daily chaos of your new reality becoming very comfortable. You like it here in Ebott; you think you might stay.
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cosmiic-world · 2 years ago
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Hey ! If you're ok writing that, could you possibly do what kinks you think the bothers have
I really like your account!
yes of course! i was actually thinking of making something like this so thank you anon!! i'm glad you asked and i hope you enjoy!
p.s there is some mentions of afab reader in mammon's, beel’s and asmo's (maybe also a tad in belphie’s)
some may be shorter than others and i sincerely apologize 🤧 also i’m very sorry it took so long!
lucifer
degradation - gets off on the whines you let out when he calls you his little slut. enjoys it just as much as you do.
praise - likes to praise you and be praised. makes his heart swell when you tell him he's doing so good.
submission - hear me out. when he's having such a rough day and you just wanna take care of him :(. will let you take the lead and lets out the most heavenly whines you've ever heard.
bdsm - bondage and sadism fr. seeing you tied up does something to him <33
roleplay - will dabble in it from time to time, especially when he's helping you with homework or something school related hffhdhfhdj
pet names - calls you darling or kitten sometimes.
punishments - loves when you misbehave because it gives him the go ahead to teach you your place. punishments range from spanking to extreme edging/denying you your orgasm.
humiliation - loves how red you get when he teases you or calls you a dumb slut. "you wanted to have dick in you so bad, huh? say it. let me hear you."
impact play - goes hand in hand with punishments but he loves when your ass gets so red with his handprint :((
mammon
praise - loves when you praise him. he gets a lot of shit from his brothers so when you call him a good boy or reassure him during sex, he absolutely loves it :((
exhibitionism - very posessive and easily jealous. will fuck you in public and purposely make it hard for you to keep quiet. purposefully leaves your door unlocked when fucking you just to have the thrill of possibly having someone walk in, especially since his younger brothers have the tendency to barge into your room.
degradation - only very little and when he's in a very specific mood. he's sensitive when it comes to this so make sure you reassure him with aftercare :(
oral - LOVES eating you out. loves when you grab his hair and tug him closer. loves the taste of you and can never get enough! it's like he has his own 5 star meal.
auralism - gets turned on from your moans and whines. loves every sound that you make and will make sure everybody can hear the symphony that is you.
sensory deprivation - mostly loves when you blindfold him. gets excited when he can only hear your footsteps and doesn't know whats next.
choking - loves to choke and get choked. he loves the hazy feeling he gets from your hand around his throat and loves seeing you in such a daze from him choking you.
a switch - very easy to dominate him, no matter what he says. his pride may be big but trust me, when he crumbles and submits to you, it's the best.
worship - speaking of submission, when he is subbing, he LOVES to worship you, calling you his goddess and can never get his hands off of you. loves kissing every inch of your skin. also loves when you worship him, especially when he's in his demon form and your hands roam all over his demon features.
leviathan
dacryphilia - loves seeing the tears fill your eyes when you take him. even more so when he fucks you with his tail.
humiliation - receiving but very little or he’ll cry. if he does end up crying, will need reassurance and cuddles afterwards :((
mutual masturbation - he’s in LOVE with this. usually it makes hims feel dirty but oddly, when you do it with him, it makes it more hotter. he cums faster too.
cockwarming - loves when he's grinding on a game and you're there giving him support from your spot on his lap.
breeding - goes absolutely FERAL at the idea of getting you pregnant.
praise - lives for you calling him a good boy, etc. makes him feel better and more confident in himself and as a result, will fuck you harder <3
roleplay - esp w cosplays. he found out he loved fucking you in cosplay when you dressed as a sexy character from his favorite anime.
switch - mostly a sub but either when he's jealous or angry, he will decimate you. absolutely feral when he's dominant.
asmodeus
lord where do i start.
voyeurism - loves the thrill of fucking you in public. he's definitely the type to finger you underneath the table in a restaurant, smiling innocently as you struggle to form a coherent sentence. "what she meant to say was..."
dacryphilia - loves making you cry from how good he fucks you, it just makes something inside him snap.
somnophilia - consensual! sometimes he just wants to fuck you but you're too tired :(( likes to wake you up by fucking you <3.
auralism - loves hearing your moans and cries. when he hits that spot and you just let everything out <33.
bondage - sees it as an art form almost. gets creative with the intricate designs and loves seeing it on your body.
spanking - loves seeing handprints on both his ass and your ass :( will also smack your pussy (only if you like it)
degradation - loves calling you a dumb little slut and his cumdump. always makes sure not to cross the line and if he ever does, he profusely apologizes.
praise - balances out degradation with praise <3. will even praise you while degrading you. you don’t know how he does it but he knows how to work you up with simple praise.
choking - sometimes does it to get a good grip on you while he pounds into you. loves it when you grab his hand and push harder into your throat.
switch - he loves to dominate you but loves it when you dominate him just as much. he loves when you order him around and degrade him. he’d worship you if you asked him to.
pegging <3 - loves when you fuck him so deep with your strap. sometimes he’ll use a magic spell so you feel just as if it were an actual dick, moaning as you pound into him and feeling him clench down so hard. gets dizzy from you hitting his prostate so good.
fingering - loves to finger you and watch as you cum again and again just from his fingers.
overstimulation - loves to make you cum so much that you sees stars and loves it when you overstimulate his cock. loves when you ride him and you just can’t help but milk his cock dry :(. loves to hear your whines and cries from the amounts of orgasms he’s bringing you to.
oral - another good pussy eater <3. loves to taste you and could never get enough! he could spend all day just eating you and he has done it before. 10/10, would do it again.
satan
bdsm - definitely sadism and bondage. he loves seeing how you look tied up and helpless and will even experiment with magic. he'll definitely see some spells that intrigue him.
degradation - will be semi-harsh with you but apologizes during after-care <333
teasing (does this count as a kink..) - he loves teasing you in public and gets you SO needy to the point you beg. will degrade you for wanting to fuck him so bad as if he didn't work you up so badly.
power play - loves being in control and seeing you submit so easily. especially when you're on your knees and looking up at him with your cute doe eyes.
pet play - definitely has a collar with his name engraved on it with a cute little bell and some cat ears. maybe even a tail butt plug.
dumbification - LOVES when he fucks you so good that you can't even speak. his heart swells when you lay in his bed, mumbling about everything and nothing.
beelzebub
food play - cliche, i know but he likes to lick shit off of you like whipped cream or honey. once he used golden hellfire newt syrup. you couldn’t walk for almost a week after that.
oral - ANOTHER pussy eater <333. includes a little somnophilia, because he loves to eat you out even while you’re asleep (consensual of course.)
size - something about you being smaller than him. he’s able to toss you around like a doll and it awakens something in him. almost cums on the spot when you’re riding him and you’re struggling to take him in your tight cunt :((.
hair pulling - loves when you pull his hair, whether its when he’s eating you out or when he’s fucking you so good and the first thing you grab is his hair <3
marking/breeding - he can get VERY possessive so he loves to leave hickeys on you, EVERYWHERE. thighs, chest, neck, everywhere. both visible and unnoticeable. breeding you makes him absolutely feral. it motivates him to pound you into oblivion.
overstimulation - he doesn’t mean to do it he swears, sometimes he just can’t get enough and doesn’t wanna stop! especially after such a rough day with all of his school council work :(
slight voyeurism - he loves to fuck you in the locker bathrooms after winning a game of fangol. he just can’t wait until you get home and he still has adrenaline pumping through his veins, might as well get it all out now.
belphegor
somnophilia - another cliche yes, but! he loves to fall asleep with his dick so deep in you and he wakes you up with desperate thrusts.
fingering - he loves when you sit in his lap, especially at dinner or in public, he sneaks his hand underneath your little skirt and teases you before fucking you with his fingers underneath the table. loves to watch you struggle trying to keep your noises in.
choking - yes. you heard me. and no not because of that lesson. he just loves the way his hand looks wrapped around your little throat! he can’t help himself.
breeding - another possessive one. a teensy bit yandere but nevermind that. the image of you with a baby bump popped into his head one time and it was burned into his memory. ever since then, he���s always came inside you claiming “it’s less of a hassle.”
cockwarming - going back to the first one, he loves falling asleep in you. it’s so warm and it makes him feel so cozy.
auralism - loves to hear you moan and it’s probably his possession talking but he always wants everyone to hear your beautiful sounds!
bondage - only when he has to. i.e when you cover your mouth with your hand as to not make noise. he doesn’t like that so he ties your hands and pins them down.
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yourpalmickeymouse · 8 months ago
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Hello Mickey! How ya doing pal? (Hope you’re having a swell day)
I wanna ask, what do you think about your nephews Morty and Ferdie? I assume you’re kinda close with you considering well. You’re their uncle and I feel you do fun stuff with them sometimes. And another question is, what’s your current job right now? Do you enjoy it (or do you feel you wanna do something more fun. That you clearly enjoy the most)?
That’s all! (Sorry if it’s too long) see ya later Mickey :)
-Sunny ☀️
Hiya Sunny!
I am havin' a swell day! Thank you for askin'!
What great questions. I would love to answer 'em both.
Oh, I love my nephews Morty and Ferdie. They're just so fun and energetic and every time they come over and visit, I just know that my day is about to be 100 times more interesting. They can sometimes... get into things they shouldn't. But I also was a mischief maker back in the day, so I have no standin' to say anything. In fact, I actually see a lot of myself in them. Just like me, they can go overboard sometimes. But they also have hearts of gold and are usually clever enough to fix it, or at least know when to get help. That's usually when I come in 😆.
I know the boys can sometimes seem as if they are the same person, but they're pretty different. Morty, who tends to dress in reds, is definitely the more rowdy and brave one. He's usually the one findin' the trouble in the first place 🤦. But it comes from a strong drive for life and so much excitement for what the world has to offer. He has such big dreams and hopes and honestly, I hope he goes far. Unfortunately, he doesn't always think through what he does. He tends to run into things head-first and without warning, but he has good instincts that help keep him safe. And a lot of times his spontaneity is just what the situation needs 😉.
Ferdie, the one wearing more blues and sometimes wears glasses, on the other hand, is more shy but is extremely smart and mature for his age. He's usually the one being dragged into trouble by his brother🤷, but I think he enjoys the adventures they go on, just as much as his brother. They help him come out of his shell and be more prepared to face the unknown. He prefers when things are more planned out and can be hesitant to unexpected changes. But it is because he cares about havin' a good future. He was just askin' me about good colleges yesterday and he's not even in high school. He has a very bright future ahead of him and I cannot wait to see where he goes 🌞.
As for your second question,
I'm actually currently workin' as a Detective for the Mouseton Police Department. And honestly, things seem okay so far. I used to have another job, but they weren't treatin' me right and wouldn't let me grow in the ways I wanted to. It was tough movin' from that job as I genuinely thought that it was my dream, and revolved so much of my early life around it. But it wasn't makin' me happy, and I kinda think I misattributed some of the positive experiences I had with my sister, who is still workin' in that field, with my feelin' towards the work. Honestly, it can be tough figurin' out where you belong. And even I still feel like I haven't figured that out yet
Luckily my new job is definitely a step up. For starters, the people I work with are much better. I was already pretty close with Chief O'Hara as he was my neighbor growin' up. He tends to be very supportive and even recommended me for the detective role (even though I think I might be a bit underqualified, I didn't realize how high rank of a position it was 😓). But he says he trusts my skills and convinced the others that it was a good idea. So I guess I better not mess this up. There's so much pressure.
Though I mostly work with the other two detectives. Brick can seem a bit intimidatin' on the outside. He's pretty big. But you'll soon learn that he's neat once you talk to him. If you ask questions 'bout Texas, he'll be your best friend in an instant. Though be prepared to listen to him for hours, haha. Casey on the other hand... Well... He can be a bit of a... challenge sometimes. I think like me, he's also under a lot of pressure, and that causes him to be a bit stubborn and hesitant to get help. He apparently was really strugglin' with cases before Brick and I came into the picture and it probably felt like an attack on his pride when we came to help. But I think he genuinely cares and wants to do a good job. And with the right push, he can do a swell job.
However, it isn't just the people that make this job a step up. I actually think I am enjoyin' the work more. There is just something 'bout investigatin' and solvin' crimes that clicks with me. Every time we get a new case, I don't wanna put it down until I have it all figured out. Maybe O'Hara was onto something when he hired me. And even better yet the work I do is actually helpin' people get justice which is what I really care about. I've always wanted to make the world a better place, and I feel like I'm doin' my part with every sinister scheme I stop and every person I help.
Though, I can't say everything is perfect. While I do enjoy my work and the people I work with. There are quite a few elements of working with the Police Department that... I am not sure how I feel 'bout. It's honestly hard to talk about. I just don't want O'Hara to feel like he made a mistake. But I also want to make sure I'm doin' the right thing.
But hopefully, that answers your questions! 😄 This was pretty long, but I wanted to give you my best answers.
I hope you have a swell rest of your day, Sunny!!!
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e-dubbc11 · 2 years ago
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My dearest Ericca. A huge, huge congratulations on the 200 followers. So well deserved ❤️
You are an amazing writer and an even better friend. I'm so thankful I have you in my life ❤️
As for the ask, I know you sometimes want to do some Billy angst, so here goes:
“i wish i could love you, i know you’d be good for me, but i can’t.”
Thank you so much for all your amazing stories, especially your amazing Billy ❤️
My dear sweet Lily, I am very grateful to have you as a friend. Thank you for sending this in and thank you for following me and enjoying my fics, your comments and compliments make my heart swell. This is angst with not exactly a happy ending, I really hope you like it. ❤️
Love Me
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Pairing: Billy Russo x F! Reader
Warnings: couple of swear words, angst, not exactly a happy ending
Word Count: 1.5k-ish
The giant stuffed frog sat in the corner of your bedroom. You didn’t have any other place for it, it was so big. He had won it for you at a fair upstate, he told you he would win it for you, his confidence level always so high.
“You would have to get a perfect score to win that thing, Billy.” You told him with slight doubt in your voice.
“I’ve had a little bit of practice, sweet girl.” He said with a smile.
He did get a perfect score, he won that stuffed frog like he said he would and you were sorry that you ever doubted him in the first place. He even carried it around for the rest of the day for you, he was so sweet.
Billy Russo was handsome, charming and when he smiled at you, there were butterflies in your stomach for days. The state fair was your first of many dates but it was one of the most memorable.
When the ferris wheel stopped suddenly at the top, your stomach dropped because you weren’t expecting it.
“Are we stuck?” You asked?
Billy glanced down for a minute and brought his gorgeous onyx eyes back to you. “Looks that way.”
“The view from up here is beautiful though.” You said.
He never took his eyes away from you. “Yes it is.”
“The view is THAT way, Billy.” You said to him with a little laugh.
Quickly he looked out towards all the trees that were starting to change colors with the change of season but just as fast, he turned back to stare at you. “Yeah but I like this view better.”
“Oh you are very smooth, Mr. Russo.” You said sarcastically and narrowed your eyes at him.
“I’ve never been stuck at the top of a ferris wheel with a beautiful woman before.” He said.
“Nice try, you probably paid them to stop it at the top, didn’t you.” You crossed your arms across your chest.
He chuckled. “It’s only because I thought this would be the perfect spot to kiss you for the first time.”
His words caused your arms to drop and your body to relax but you were still a little nervous as he inched his face closer to yours and with his hand cupping your cheek, he softly pressed his lips to yours. You couldn’t recall any other time when a man did something that romantic for you…ever.
Even though it was a little bit cheesy, that was probably the moment you fell for him. You had fun with him, he made you laugh, and he looked at you like you had hung the stars in the sky.
The dates that followed were amazing. Dinners, shows, after work drinks at places that normally wouldn’t think twice about not letting you in but with Billy Russo, it was “no problem” and “right this way, sir.”
He had swept you off of your feet. Your dates progressed to being more intimate, take out, sleeping at his place, breakfast the next morning…all things couples do. But he never ever said you were a couple, he never told you how he felt about you, and even after five months together, never told you that he loved you.
After an evening out, you couldn’t take it anymore and you just needed to talk to him about it. “Billy…what are we doing?” You asked him.
He looked at you confused. “What do you mean, sweet girl?” He asked.
“I mean this…” You pointed your finger back and forth between the two of you. “You and me.” You raised your voice a little.
“What? I thought we were having fun, right?” He said.
The anger you felt through your body was about to boil over. Did he have any feelings for you at all? Were you just a piece of ass to him? An escort that wasn’t getting paid? This was shattering your heart into a million pieces.
“Do you care about me at all, Billy?” Your eyes started to well up with tears.
Billy sat forward on the couch, one elbow resting on his knee and running his fingers through is hair. He set his drink on the table and turned to look at you. “What kind of question is that, y/n? You know I do!”
“Oh do I? You’ve never said it, not once!” You said as your tears were on the verge of spilling over.
He was speechless, a few strands of his dark brown hair fell down into his eyes. “I just—I can’t.”
“You can’t WHAT, Billy?” The tears finally spilled over and ran down your cheeks.
He was silent for a minute, trying to think of what to say to you, and he took your hand inside of his.
“I wish I could love you, I know you’re good for me, but I can’t.” He said.
The words that came from his lips infuriated you. “You CAN’T?!!!” Jerking your hand away from his, you stood up and headed for the door.
He seized your wrist and prevented you from walking any further. “Don’t leave, y/n! Please don’t go, baby.”
“Let me go, Billy.” There was acid in your tone.
He delicately dropped your wrist from his grasp and you walked out.
That was a month ago and here you sat in your bedroom, alone, staring at a four foot stuffed frog and it was staring back at you. You had barely left your apartment in the past month, and that was only because you had to go to work.
But that’s it, you’d go to work and come home. You didn’t want to see anyone, go out with your friends, or see your family. You were too much of a mess and didn’t want to explain anything to anyone. It hurt too much.
The first time you noticed someone watching you was on your way home from work one day about a week after you walked out of his apartment. He had an earpiece in his ear and was dressed all in black. He followed you to your apartment and then he would leave as soon as you went inside.
Someone made sure you got home from work safely every single day. No harm ever came to you, they just followed you home and left. The only thing that made sense was this was all Billy’s doing.
And yet every day, you would come home and just stare at that frog like it was some sort of magic conduit that was going to tell you that Billy was sorry and that he did love you. But his words just kept repeating over and over in your head “I wish I could love you.” At least if he told you he was just using you and there were zero feelings between the two of you, it would have been easier.
He took you out, you laughed together, you had fun together, and he even started opening up a little more about his childhood. He wouldn’t have done all of that if he didn’t have feelings for you.
There was still no contact with him, he let you be but he still had people watching you to make sure you were safe, he always hated the idea of you walking anywhere alone.
At one point you acknowledged they were there and just started having them walk with you instead of behind you. They were pleasant, polite, did their job and left. You never mentioned or asked about Billy and they didn’t say anything either.
One rainy afternoon, there were flowers waiting for you outside your apartment door, a vase full of beautiful lilies. There was a card also, inside the envelope it said “I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry is still not I love you, Billy Russo.” You said out loud inside your apartment. You didn’t know whether to be angry or sad, although both of those emotions seemed appropriate right now.
After setting the flowers on your dining room table, your phone started ringing. You didn’t recognize the number so you declined the call, but then they called again and again, you kept declining and after the fourth time, you finally decided to answer.
“What?!!!” You answered.
“Don’t hang up, sweet girl.” Billy said. “I borrowed Frankie’s phone.”
You walked into your bedroom to put your shoes away, the eyes of the stuffed frog followed you wherever you went in the room. “Why are you calling me, Billy? I don’t wanna do this, ok?!” You practically shouted into the phone.
“I wanna talk to you, y/n.” He said.
You snapped back at him. “Yeah well what the fuck do you wanna talk about?”
Walking into your closet, you heard a sudden knock at your door.
“Ah shit! Someone’s at the door, hold on.” You said.
When you opened the door, Billy was standing there with the phone still held to his ear.
“I wanna talk about how much I love you.” He said dropping the phone to his side, his under eyes dark with purple circles like he hasn’t slept since you left his apartment that night.
With your phone still held to your ear and tears in your eyes, your voice hitched as you said
“I’m listening.”
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gravehags · 17 days ago
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all vacant and waste - the natalie edit
Pairing: Cardinal Copia x f!OC (Curator!OC)
Rating: EXPLICIT, MDNI
Tags: picnics, car sex, confrontation, terzo being terzo, sister imperator ruining the vibes, sister imperator being a complex human being, copia standing up for himself and his girl, FORESHADOWING, mst3k reference
Words: 4,853
Summary: And the two of them were having such a nice day.
a/n: LORE AND SMUT AND LORE AND SMUT AND
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When Natalie awakens she’s surprised to see that it’s nearly noon.
Copia’s side of the bed is cold and she frowns as she stretches and throws back the covers. Getting up, she pads to the kitchen, which is empty. She’s about to turn around and go get her phone when she spots a note on the counter written in a familiar decisive, loopy scrawl.
Amore,
Thank you for your candor and your affection, last night and always. I have a few things to see to this morning but when you are done getting ready (take your time!), meet me downstairs in the Papas’ kitchen - I’d like to pack a lunch and go for a drive. I will keep you in my morning prayers and hope that your sleep was as surprisingly restful as mine.
Ciao xx,
C
Natalie’s shoulders sag in relief as her heart swells - how funny the two of them both slept so well after such a harrowing late night conversation. She wonders if his dreams were anything like hers. With a loud yawn, she stretches once more and heads back into the bedroom to get ready. Copia told her to take her time but she doesn’t want to leave him waiting too long and besides, she’s eager to see his face. Her morning routine runs efficiently and she selects a short, thin-strapped yellow floral sundress to wear after opening her window and gauging the weather. Grabbing her phone, her purse, and her keys Natalie heads out and down the stairs. When she approaches the hallway leading to the Papas’ kitchen she can hear loud arguing in Italian. Hesitantly, she approaches the doorway and knocks against the frame.
“Morning, gentlemen.”
Copia, along with Secondo and Terzo, turn to look at her. When all three behold her outfit for the day all fighting ceases in order to coo and compliment her. Natalie, however, is too focused on Copia’s outfit. He looks very priestly today in his black clerical shirt, slacks, and dress shoes and she can feel her face warm at the sight. Judging from the way his jaw goes slack at her outfit, he’s feeling the same way.
“Bella, look at you! All this wasted on il Cardinale, ah what a shame.”
Natalie gives Terzo a stern look and shoves past him to go see the aforementioned Cardinale.
“Good morning, my love,” she murmurs, kissing him once on the lips and once on the cheek, “Don’t listen to Terzo.”
“I rarely do,” Copia smirks and out of the corner of her eye Natalie sees Terzo make a rude gesture. Secondo snorts derisively as he slides a large basket across the island counter to her.
“For your picnic, piccolina,” he says, pointing to a loaf of sliced sourdough, a generous container of fresh mozzarella and basil, a jar of marcona almonds, and two bottles of aranciata rossa. She smiles and stands on tiptoes to place a kiss to his cheek which again, has Terzo making a rude gesture.
“Grazie mille, Secondo,” she says, “No tomatoes with the mozzarella and basil?”
“With this one?” he scoffs, jerking his thumb towards Copia, “Never. Ask him to tell you about what Terzo did to him when we were kids.”
“Don’t remind me,” Copia grouses as Terzo chuckles sinisterly behind him, “Are you eh, all ready to rock and roll, tesoro?”
“Whenever you are. Secondo, thank you so much, you’re the sweetest. Terzo…stay out of trouble, per favore.”
“I won’t make any promises,” Terzo comments airily, while sticking out his cheek for a kiss which she daintily applies. “Go,” he murmurs in her ear, his hand on her back, “Enjoy your time away from here, huh? You and the rat deserve it.”
“‘The rat’ can hear you, figlio di puttana,” Copia growls, muscling in between the two of them with the picnic basket. Natalie gives the Papas a wave and she smiles as she hears Secondo chastising Terzo on the way out. 
“By the way,” she says as they walk side by side down the hall, “You look delicious today.”
Copia scoffs but his ears turn red all the same.
“If I didn’t know any better, amore, I’d say you have eh, a thing for men of the cloth.”
Now it’s her turn to go red but she still grins at him.
“Now why would you think you know any better?” Natalie purrs, reaching out to squeeze his ass. The act has him gasping in faux-scandalization.
“Natalia, don’t start something you can’t finish,” he says as they approach the front doors to the abbey.
“Later, then,” she winks and the two of them cross the threshold to make their way to his car. It’s beautiful out, as she thought it would be, but as she slides into the passenger seat she clocks thunderclouds on the horizon.
“So where are you taking me?” Natalie asks as he pulls out and down the driveway.
“I know a spot,” he smiles.
“Oh?” she turns towards him and rests her arm on the back of the seat, “Take all your girls here, huh?”
That makes him laugh out loud.
“Only the very special ones. So that is to say no one but you. I used to drive out here when I first started living here so I could clear my head and get away from the clergy drama. It’s been a while since I’ve made it out here. Too many eh, obligations now.”
“I’m sorry,” she murmurs, reaching out to stroke his hair, “You deserve more days off. I’ve always said you’re the hardest working person in the abbey.”
He smiles softly.
“Second-most employee of the month awards,” he says, puffing out his chest.
“Oh Cardinal,” Natalie coos, “Competency is very sexy, I–wait, second? Who has the first?”
“Eh, some guy named Kevin. Or Jesus. Depends who you ask.”
The two of them travel in silence for another fifteen minutes before Copia turns down a dirt road. The car comes to a stop next to a small, grassy clearing and he puts it in park before slapping his thighs.
“Here we are,” he announces and they both step out. As Natalie moves further into the grass while Copia takes the basket out of the trunk, she notes a picturesque stream weaving in between the large oak trees. She inhales deep - it’s been a while since she’s been out in nature - and the myriad of scents and sounds refresh her.
“Beautiful, isn’t it?” he says, as he stands beside her. She nods and turns to take the blanket from him. She moves closer to the water’s edge and spreads it out, plopping down on the plush greenery. With a groan he takes a seat beside her and Natalie begins doling out their meal. Their conversation is…lovely. Worlds away from the one they had in bed last night. They’re swapping childhood tales when she’s reminded of Secondo’s words from earlier.
“So what’s this thing with you and tomatoes?” she asks, popping an almond into her mouth.
“Eugh,” Copia says in between chews of bread, “Fucking Terzo. I don’t like raw tomatoes - never have. And yes I know, I know I make a poor Italian but when I was little, I don’t know maybe eight or nine, and Terzo was older - the right age to act like a little shit - he took a tomato from the gardens and chased me around the abbey with it. I was crying, he was laughing and when he finally caught me and smushed the tomato into my mouth I broke free, gagging. Before I could make it to the nearest bathroom I puked all over this ancient cardinal who had the misfortune of standing nearby.”
“Oh no,” Natalie says, covering her mouth, “Copia that’s awful!”
“It gets worse,” he says, smiling despite his words, “This cardinal - his name was Carlo Udinesi - stood there filled with rage and told me, ‘you will never come to anything within this Ministry, ratto bastardo.’ He died not long after that. I remember his funeral and I remember wondering if my puke is what had pushed him over the edge.”
“Ominous,” Natalie says with a laugh, “And not to bring up last night but very Damien Thorn of you, my love.”
“It was, wasn’t it? That’s where I got my tattoo from, you know.”
She tears into a piece of sourdough.
“I had wondered,” she smiles, “Just chalked it up to you being a horror fan but I love it even more now.”
“It was a bit of both. Terzo convinced–”
Natalie feels a large, heavy drop land on the back of her hand, followed by another, and another. As the two of them were engrossed in conversation they hadn’t noticed the storm clouds rolling over their heads.
“Shit,” she sighs, “We better pack up.”
Copia nods and stuffs the remainder of his piece of bread in his mouth, rising to his feet with her. Before they know it the sky opens up as Natalie’s putting the food back in the basket.
“Cazzo!” Copia shouts as she balls the blanket up and he gestures for her to hand it to him, “Get in the backseat, I’ll put this shit in the trunk!”
By the time Natalie makes it back to the car and opens the door, throwing herself inside, she’s soaked. Copia joins her a minute later and slams the door, panting.
“Good thing you didn’t wear your paints today, huh?” she grins, “You’d have looked like a drowned raccoon.”
He reaches down and pinches her thigh.
“Very funny, amore. I think I would have looked eh, metal.”
“Oh I’ve hurt your feelings,” she murmurs, “Let me make it up to you.”
It takes some finagling but she’s able to pull herself up and swing her leg over his lap to straddle him. 
“Signorina Sinclair, in the backseat?”
Natalie smiles wickedly.
“Mmhmm. Want you in the backseat like I wanted it New Year’s Eve on the way to dinner. Besides, how am I meant to resist when you look like this.”
Her fingers make quick work of the top few buttons of his shirt and his hands come to rest on her ass and squeeze.
“When I look like this? Natalia,” he growls, leaning forward to lick a stripe up her neck that has her shivering, “Almost told the brothers to fuck off so I could have you on the counter in this sweet little dress earlier, huh? Little tease.”
He captures her lips in a lewd kiss, tongues sliding against each other in a way that has her whimpering into his mouth. When they finally have to separate for breath he grins up at her.
“Ah, this is a familiar sight, eh dolcezza? Speaking of New Year’s Eve.”
She giggles warmly and nods, pressing open mouthed kisses to his neck. When her teeth drag along the sensitive skin there she feels his cock kick against her.
“Cazzo, diavoletta mia. Have you–ah–have you always been so hungry for me?”
Natalie pauses in her efforts to suck a mark into his throat and pulls back.
“Always,” she breathes, flexing her hips against him, “Wanted you from the moment I met you.”
“Likewise,” he sighs as she reaches down to fiddle with his belt, button, and zipper, “When you walked into my office that day, unholy fuck. P-pretty little thing and so sweet. I k-knew you were special immediately.”
“Well,” she says, easing the thick length of his cock out of his underwear and rubbing her thumb against the head, making him gasp, “We were made for each other after all, hmm? Destined for one another. Destined,” she murmurs as she shifts the gusset of her soaked underwear to the side, rubbing her cunt on him, “To love and protect and fuck. So says your Unholy Father.”
Copia’s mouth hangs open as Natalie raises herself onto her knees and positions him at her entrance, impaling herself upon him with agonizing slowness. When she finally has all of him encapsulated in her tight, wet heat, he moans and his hands slide under the hem of her dress as a prayer is pushed from his lips.
“Ave Sathanas.”
Natalie’s breath comes in little pants as she cups the side of his face and runs her thumb along his sideburn.
“Ave Sathanas,” she murmurs, “For giving me you.”
Gently she eases herself off him and takes him back in, their mouths sharing breath. She’s trembling as she sets a rhythm, riding him with increasing force as she moans wantonly. Between the rain and their actions, the windows of the LeSabre have become steamy and it only reinforces the filthiness of their act.
“Natalia mia,” Copia grunts, thrusting up into her in time with each roll of her hips and making her see stars, “W-wore this pretty dress for me on p-purpose, huh? W-wanted this all along.”
Her laugh is breathy and borderline hysterical as she bounces on his cock.
“Mmm fuck–knew you’d love it. I was–ah–gonna fuck you outside on the blanket til the r-rain came. This is even b-better.”
The last word comes out of her mouth in a higher octave as she pants and whines, her thighs burning even as Copia massages them. When one of his hands slips between her legs, his thumb making tight circles over her clit, her back arches and thrusts her breasts into his face. Not missing a beat, he leans forward and sucks at her nipple through the thin fabric, eventually losing patience. Growling, he takes his unoccupied hand and tugs the strap and the front of the dress down until a full, pale breast is falling out, his hungry mouth latching onto her pebbled and taut bud. Natalie’s eyes roll back as he plays her like a fiddle - cock pumping into her, fingers on her clit, lips on her breast - moaning into the humid air inside the car as she clings to him. He pulls off her to gasp for air, groaning.
“Cazzo, d-dolcezza, you’re close I can f-feel it.”
He’s right, with every rut of her hips and swipe of his thumb Natalie’s cunt clenches around the thick length of him. He begins murmuring to her in Italian and she catches a few words here and there - good girl, perfect girl, mine - and when she looks down into his eyes he gazes up at her with such raw adoration it pushes her over the edge. She doesn’t even realize she’s crying until his hands are on her cheeks, swiping away the tears as she rides out her orgasm. 
“L-look at me, amore mio,” he breathes, and she does as he asks, cupping his face in her hands. She watches as his jaw hangs open and his breaths come short and sharp, pupils blown as he fucks up into her one, two, three more times and cums with more of a wail than a moan. 
“I love you,” Natalie whispers, pressing her damp forehead to his, “I love you, I love you, I love you no matter what.”
She knows her grip on him has to be borderline painful and when he reaches up to take her hands in his and press them to his lips, she sobs.
“Thank you,” his voice is small, and he sounds like he’s holding back on tears of his own. “Natalia mia, thank you. Sei il mio tutto. I would do anything for you. Anything.”
Natalie hiccups and nods, wrapping her arms around his neck and drawing him close. His hands roam her back, tracing patterns as she breathes in the faint orange blossom scent of what remains of his hair pomade. She’s not sure how long the two of them sit like this - until her thighs start to ache and long after he’s gone soft inside her - but when they finally pull apart the way he looks at her brings a small smile to her face.
“We uh,” she sniffles, inelegantly wiping her nose with the back of her hand, “We should probably get back.” Her words are punctuated with a full body shiver that has him tutting and easing her out of his lap.
“You’re going to catch a cold like this, dolcezza. Half naked, hair wet. I’ll get you back to where it’s warm.”
“Grazie, nonna,” Natalie murmurs, giving him a wink before opening the car door. It’s still pouring outside but the fresh air after the humidity of the vehicle is nice, and it smells wet and green out. She doesn’t even mind getting a little more damp as she moves to the passenger seat and Copia slides in beside her, eyes a little dewy.
“I eh, I don’t think I said it back but…I love you too.”
“I know.”
He chuckles.
“Okay Han Solo. I just have to say it out loud sometimes, huh? If only to remind myself that I uh, have somebody to love, sì?”
“My love, I will never complain about hearing it. It’s nice to be loved. Even though I’m um…still not really used to it, you know?”
Natalie tries to muffle the shiver that shakes her but Copia’s sharp eyes have caught it and he’s fretting again as he starts the car.
“Well get used to it, amore, because I’m gonna be so annoying about it I–”
The two of them look out the windshield. Or…try to. The glass is entirely fogged over from their activities and she lets out a bark of laughter as Copia sighs heavily.
“There’s a rag in the glove compartment, can you…”
“On it.”
The two of them make it back to the abbey eventually, laughing as they run through the rain from the row of garages to the front door. When they step inside the marble entrance, it’s chilly and Natalie grips Copia’s hand and starts to drag him in the direction of her apartment.
“Come on, bello mio, let’s go dry off and put a movie on and…what’s wrong?”
Copia has stopped in his tracks and is staring straight ahead at the figure marching towards the two of them. Natalie would know the clack of those heels anywhere and her blood runs cold as Sister Imperator approaches, lips twisted in a disapproving grimace.
“I was under the impression that you two were under the weather. What a miraculous recovery you’ve made.”
Natalie glances sideways at Copia, whose face is a mask. His eyes though, are filled with fire.
“So I took a personal day. Frankly, Sister, I think I deserve it every once in a while.”
“You have obligations, Cardinal.”
“Oh? And spending time with my Sathanas-approved mate isn’t one of those obligations?”
Imperator pulls back as if she’s been slapped and Natalie’s heart sinks. Yes, the two of them had planned on confronting her about her demands but Natalie wanted to be able to talk first. Plan. So much for being prepared.
“Both of you, my office, now,” she says, deadly quiet before turning on her heel and walking away.
Copia gives Natalie’s hand a squeeze and when she looks at him with anxiety written all over her face, his brows furrow.
“Together,” he murmurs.
“Together,” she confirms.
Sister Imperator doesn’t wait for the two of them, simply anticipating that they will obey her and follow. When Copia opens her office door she’s sitting behind her desk, hands folded on the surface and a venomous look on her face. The two of them sit down opposite her and she eyes their still clasped hands with disdain.
“I think this goes without saying but you’re fired,” she states curtly while looking at the younger woman. Natalie’s jaw drops and heart plummets but Copia barks out a harsh laugh.
“No, she isn’t,” he says, a faint sneer playing along his lips. “Because if you fire her, I’m leaving the church. And you can’t lose your precious pawn, can you…madre?”
She’s looking at Natalie once again, her face pale and drawn.
“You–you told him everything? After I said–”
“How could I not?” Natalie says and she hates the way her voice shakes, “How could you tell me all of that and expect me to keep it to myself? To suffer in silence with that knowledge about the only man I’ve ever loved? How could you think he didn’t deserve–”
“Your suffering means nothing to me, girl,” Imperator spits and Copia looks enraged.
“Her suffering is everything to me and you will not speak to her like that, capisci? How could you be so cruel to the woman your son loves? To tell her she was chosen to be a broodmare regardless of her personal desires?”
“She can be replaced,” Imperator says, looking over to Copia desperately. “Cardi, we found her, we can find another.”
“Find…another…?” he says, blinking at her. “She’s…she’s not a broken toy that can be discarded and…how could you say such a thing?”
A silence descends on the room, punctuated by Natalie sniffling and angrily wiping tears away.
“I love your son,” she says, voice cracking, “I would do anything for him. He knows this. I love him not in spite of what he is but because of everything he is. He’s a good man, a devoted cardinal. But he deserves better than to be pushed around on the Ministry chessboard his whole fucking life. He’s forty-nine years old, Sister. That’s forty-nine years you could have spent acting like his mother - caring for him like a mother would. But you–”
“Don’t you dare presume to tell me what I have and have not done,” Imperator says quietly, icily. “Do you think I wanted it to be like this? That after I gave birth I wanted him to be wrenched from my arms and treated like an orphan? To be told by Ministry officials that I was just a vessel and my claim on him was null?”
Natalie blinks back tears and with some surprise she realizes Imperator’s doing the same. She’s never seen the older woman so upset and judging by Copia’s face, neither has he.
“I’m sorry.” Natalie murmurs, “Sister, I am so, so sorry they put you through that. It’s not right and you deserved better.”
A tense silence settles among the three of them.
“Does my Natalia not deserve better?” Copia says softly. “Does she not deserve to have autonomy over her own body, as the Olde One deems? I’ll play my part, but spare her this horror. Let her stay by my side as an equal partner, let me keep her safe. Consider this the only favor I’ll ever ask of you, mother.”
Sister Imperator fishes a handkerchief out of her pocket and wipes at her cheeks, eyes avoiding both of them. When she finally does look at them, there’s something deeply sorrowful in her gaze.
“I wish your father was more like you,” she says, glancing over to Copia after a moment. “Maybe things would have been different.”
“My…my father…?”
“Don’t be silly, Cardi, I’m sure you pieced the puzzle together by now. You were conceived in a ritual involving Papa Nihil being possessed by the Unholy Father.”
So Copia was right. Natalie looks over to him and his face is twisted in anguish, devastated to receive confirmation on what he suspected his whole life. She takes his hand in both of hers and squeezes tight. Imperator’s gaze flicks between them both and she lets out a heavy sigh.
“Okay,” she says to herself softly, as if making up her mind about something, “Okay. Plans…plans can be changed. In the end this…setback…affects very little, I suppose. I’ll have to speak to Mr. Psaltarian and the rest of the Council about this but…yes this should work.”
The weight in Natalie’s stomach begins to lift and Copia looks over to her.
“You’ll respect my wishes, then?” she asks tentatively.
“Yes. Yes, dear I believe you’ll–everything will be fine.”
Dear. Well it’s a significant upgrade from girl, that’s for sure.
“Thank you,” Copia says, “Sister. Mother. Whatever. Thank you.”
She nods, but she looks preoccupied with other thoughts.
“Why don’t you two take the rest of the week? Give you a chance to clear your heads. I-I understand this has been a lot to digest.”
“I eh, thought I had obligations?”
Imperator gives Copia a tired look, perhaps the most motherly Natalie’s seen her thus far.
“I thought you deserved time off, Cardi? If not I can always send you the budget for–”
“Eh, no. We’ll take it. Thank you, Sister.”
The two of them rise and Copia leaves but Natalie stands in place looking at the woman before her.
“Thank you,” she says so quietly, she’s not even sure Imperator heard it until she nods. The older woman opens her mouth to speak but shuts it again, clearly second guessing what she was about to say as she waves Natalie out. When Natalie shuts the door behind her, Copia is leaning against the hallway wall and staring at the floor.
“Hey,” Natalie murmurs, fingers reaching out to brush his side, “You okay?”
He inhales deep and exhales through his mouth before reaching for her.
“I’ve never spoken like that to her before. Pretty sad, huh? Almost fifty and–”
“My love, you were wonderful,” she says, gathering him into her arms, “I’ve never seen you so furious, it was magnificent.”
His shoulders shake in her embrace and for a heartbreaking moment Natalie thinks he’s sobbing but when they pull apart he’s got a grin on his face.
“Natalia Sinclair, you make me so brave,” he says, cupping her cheeks in his hands and placing a kiss on her forehead. She chuckles, putting her hands over his.
“Do you think…” she murmurs, lips twitching into a smile and he cocks his head, “Do you think when Meatloaf was singing about doing anything for love but not that, the ‘that’ was having the Antichrist’s baby because–”
“Sathanas, you only just dodged this bullet and now you’re making jokes? Incredibile.”
Chortling, he starts to walk down the hall and she loops her arm through his.
“Leave me alone, it’s how I process trauma. And I no longer think your mom actively wants to murder me in my sleep so I’m celebrating a win here, love. But…would you really have left the church for me? Did you mean that?”
Copia stops and turns to her.
“Assolutamente. In a heartbeat. A life here without you in it would be meaningless, amore. You are all that matters to me now and if that means finding a new job and a new home, well. With you I can do anything. And don’t you worry, I would never let her hurt you. Never,” he goes quiet for a moment and then speaks again, “Makes you wonder, though, you know. About what she has in store for me.”
“Hey,” Natalie stops him, hands on his biceps, “Whatever it is it’s your choice. It’s your life. No one is destined to fulfill any kind of contract, not even you. Whatever you choose, I’ll be right here beside you.”
He smiles, nudging her chin with his thumb.
“Let’s go take a hot bath, huh?”
She groans.
“Oh that sounds divine. And put on Mystery Science Theater 3000?”
“Which episode, though?”
“Antichrist’s choice tonight.”
He rolls his eyes.
“Manos.”
“The Hands of Fate? Classic. Hey, is it weird I always had a thing for Dr. Forrester?”
Copia stops in his tracks and she looks at him innocently.
“Maybe it’s the whole evil thing. And the mustache.”
He calls her a name in Italian under his breath and she spends the rest of the walk back to her apartment begging him to divulge it. When the two of them reach the door he finally breaks.
“I said ‘birichina mia’.”
“And what does that mean?”
He sighs.
“Eh, ‘my naughty little one’.”
Natalie’s mouth forms an ‘o’ and she bites her lip while opening the door to her quarters.
“Get that bath started and I’ll show you just how naughty I can get, hmm?”
Copia grins at her wickedly.
“Twice in one afternoon? You spoil me, amore.”
“Hmm I suppose I do,” she says airily, lifting the hem of her damp sundress over her head and tossing it onto the floor. Copia’s eyes go wide as she pinches at her hardened nipples until they’re a pretty dark pink and he backs clumsily into the doorway of her bedroom.
“Well go on,” she purrs, shimmying out of her underwear. “Get to it, Your Eminence.”
She’s never seen him move so fast as he hustles into her bathroom, untucking his shirt along the way. By the time the two of them are slumped over and spent much later in the now tepid bathwater, he’s softly singing something in her ear while her eyes drift closed.
“Is that one of Terzo’s songs? ‘Bible’?”
“Eh, yeah,” he sounds sheepish so Natalie reaches behind her to scratch his scalp soothingly.
“You’ve got a nice voice, my love. We should do karaoke one night.”
He chuckles.
“Oh no, I’m not built for performing, amore. Too much pressure.”
“Who knows,” she murmurs, leaning back against him, “You might surprise yourself one day, hmm?”
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sarioh · 1 year ago
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Hello Tumblr user Rio Sarioh! If you're bored; do you have a favourite book you like to talk about? What is it about, why do you like it? Or perhaps a movie or show of which you enjoy the writing? A fairytale? A poem?
Wow, creative writing. Any thoughts on that? Pretty swell, in my opinion.
Hope you have a nice vague nine hour time window and that your thing arrives in good condition!
HEY tumblr user tt04sty hope u r doing well and thank you for the ask. also my Thing has indeed arrived in good condition so thank god i didnt have to wait all day for it. to be frank questions about my favorite media make me feel like a deer in headlights bc for whatever reason whenever i get asked this i somehow forget every piece of media i've ever consumed or that has had an impact on me in any way and i don't know why. safe answer though is probably everything everywhere all at once which i know might come as an absolute shock to everyone (<- wrote a 16k word fic inspired by it) but generally just any media that is very Wacky and Surreal visual-wise but with a central theme of love and connection gets me really bad because i am very predictable and also a little pathetic. also as a gay asian living in the west with a very stereotypical asian mother you can probably understand why the movie had such an impact on me LOL.
also creative writing... i've only done one work of creative writing in the past few years and that was wind back the clock which i think about genuinely all the time. writing Character Study is the most cathartic and fun experience in the world to me and i prolonged publishing that for SO long because i just wanted to keep working on it forever. my writer's problem is that it takes me about 60 years to come up with an idea that i am captivated enough by to be able to put it into writing and actually stick to it for more than a day and that has only happened one single time in my 2 years in mcytblr. but by god i would kill a whole man to be able to do that all over again because i am regrettably a stem major and have not written an essay or anything else creative in years and while im enjoying it i do feel like im missing out on a crucial part of being a Person. i miss writing so much you have no idea. and i feel like the further i go into this Degree the more my Meta Analysis brain starts to rot and get replaced by Numbers and Formulas and Snippets of code. i'm losing my touch forreal
as far as other media goes... to be perfectly honest i have not been consuming much lately just because i have been very busy irl but i did just finish reading the red rising trilogy for the first time which was cool... also have probably watched about 200 hours of animal documentaries over the past few months LOL. actually on the topic of books i am going on a flight soon and will have a 9 hour stopover so if anyone has any book recommendations of ANY genre i would love to hear them. please tell me all of your favorite books i want to read them all
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sidekick-hero · 2 years ago
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Listen, the phenomenal @legitcookie wrote a little steddie gym!AU ficlet not too long ago that I love to pieces. That's why I couldn't help but add a little something in her universe. What can I say? You inspire me 🫶
I hope you like it, Jen 💜💜
Eddie and Steve are…friends. One day, they had been strangers and the next, boom. Steve had been his friend.
A friend who patted his shoulders, his back, and that unforgettable time even Eddie’s ass when Eddie had done an especially good job at squatting.
Who would have thought that was all the motivation Eddie needed to actually put the effort into his workouts.
Well, Eddie would have thought. He’s only human.
Point is, he and Steve had become friends.
And if they sometimes flirt playfully with each other – well, that doesn’t have to mean anything. Steve is a friendly guy and Eddie has working eyes and that’s all there is, thank you very much.
Because Steve is straight. Steve likes to talk about boobies. To Eddie. Who doesn’t really get the appeal but can’t say so because then Steve would stop touching him and flirting with him and he can’t have that.
So whenever Steve starts to talk about boobs, Eddie tries to just grunt or nod or say something vaguely appreciative.
“I just love the way they move, y’know. They’re so…jiggly? You know what I mean, right? Like, they’re soft but also firm.”
“Uh-uh. Yeah. Jiggly. Love that.”
“Right? It’s the best when they bounce while they sit in your lap, man. The fucking best.”
Eddie tries very hard not to think about Steve in his lap and how his manly tits would look with the glorious chest hair that keeps teasing him through Steve’s V-neck shirts.
“Eddie, are you alright? You haven’t said a word in, like, five minutes and you should maybe – “ Steve gestures to the left corner of his own mouth and Eddie mimics the gesture unthinkingly. His hand comes away wet. Gross.
“Yeah, uh – sorry. I was thinking about laps. Laps are – great. Really great.”
Steve looks at him with furrowed brows but doesn’t say anything else. Good save, Munson.
It’s later, in the locker room, when they're getting ready to take a shower, that Steve brings it up again.
“Why do you always act so strange when I talk about girls, man?”
Eddie drops the shirt in his hands.
He gulps and his voice is higher than usual when he asks “Strange?”
Steve gives him his bitchiest don’t-bullshit-me-man look. It’s very effective.
“I just don’t know what to say, really. That’s all.”
“Well, you could tell me what you like instead of just grunting or nodding along to what I say.”
Something about Steve’s tone irks Eddie. He says it like it’s so easy for Eddie to tell Steve 'I like to watch things bounce, too, Stevie – only, I’d rather watch a bubbly butt bounce in my lap than some tits.'
Oh, that would go over swell.
“You don’t really want to know what I like, Steve. You can tell me all about bouncy tits, I don’t understand what you need an answer for from me.”
“No, really, man.”
Fuck, the earnest puppy dog eyes TM. Eddie hates it when Steve pulls those. He’s powerless against them. “I really want to know, Eds. I thought we were friends. Tell me?”
Big, wet brown eyes, a mouth that's pulled down with shiny lips slightly parted.
Steve goes for the killing blow and Eddie drops dead at his feet.
“Dicks.”
“What?”
“Dicks. I like dicks. And butts. But yeah, there definitely has to be a dick involved, other than mine of course.”
Steve’s eyes are big as saucers as he stares off into the distance at that. It looks like he’s buffering, so Eddie lets him and tries to not spiral.
After what feels like forever Steve looks back at him. “But why?”
Okay, Eddie did not see that one coming.
“I don’t know? I just – do. Why do you like boobs?”
“I just told you upstairs. I like how they look and how they feel when I touch them. How a girl will go crazy when I play with them just right.”
Eddie can see it and even if the boobs in the equation do nothing for him the thought of Steve’s lips wrapped around a nipple while his big ass hands are full of pliable flesh?
Good thing he still wears his shorts.
If Steve wants Eddie to paint him a picture, Eddie can do that. Screw it.
“Yeah, right. Well, same for me. Just, y’know, with dicks. I like to look at them, like to see how much the other dude wants my touch. How hard and hot their flesh is when I get my hands on them, how silky the skin of their dicks feels. Most of all, I like how it feels in my mouth. Or in my ass.”
Steve’s eyes drop to Eddie’s lap and Eddie’s dick gives a treacherous twitch like it wants to say hello to Steve so bad. Down, boy! Eddie thinks.
“I never – “ Steve gulps and his Adam’s apple bobs convulsively like his mouth is too dry to really swallow. He’s still staring at Eddie’s dick where it’s slowly thickening inside his shorts. Such a whore for attention, his dick. Eddie knew it would get him into trouble one day.
“You never what, Stevie?” Eddie just has to ask, has to poke the bear. His survival instincts had always been for shit.
“Never thought about it like that.” Steve's eyes snap back up to Eddie’s. “Can I see?”
Eddie laughs. He can’t help it, the situation is absurd. “Why would you want that? You have one yourself or have you forgotten that?”
The blush on Steve’s cheeks is a delicious red and Eddie’s sure his skin will be hot to the touch. He wonders how deep he can make that blush go. But despite the embarrassed red in his cheeks, Steve's eyes are nothing but determined.
“No, ‘course not. But it’s different when it’s not your own, right. So, show me yours. I wanna know why you like it so much.”
The. Fuck.
Eddie has no idea what's happening here. It’s crazy. It’s stupid.
He has to do it.
So, Eddie whips it out.
And Steve?
Steve gasps and says "That's a penis!"
Eddie stares at Steve in disbelief before cackling like a maniac. “You – fucking – asshole” he gets out between gasps for air, still laughing.
Steve is laughing, too. He laughs so hard tears are streaming down his hot red cheeks.
“Sorry, man. Really. I just – your face, man.” Steve leans on Eddie’s shoulder, unable to stand up any longer by himself.
When they both come down from their laughing fit, Eddie realizes the position they’re in. They’re both shirtless and Steve is almost draped over his front, leaning his weight on Eddie. Eddie’s shorts are down his thighs and he’s still holding his half-hard dick in his hand.
Steve rests his forehead on Eddie’s shoulder and looks down at it.
“I don’t know, I don’t think I see why you would like to look at it. It’s just – not pretty?”
Eddie makes an offended noise and Steve backpedals. “No, I mean, dicks are just not pretty. Not yours specifically. Sorry.” And he does sound sorry – like he somehow hurt Eddie’s feelings.
He did, kind of. But that’s not Steve’s fault. “It’s fine, really. You don’t have to like them.”
“Never said I didn’t.”
Eddie must have heard wrong. “What?”
“I never said I didn’t like them. Just that I don’t think they’re pretty. But I want to find out if I like – what you like. How they feel. What they can do.”
Steve kisses Eddie’s bare shoulder and goosebumps erupt all over Eddie’s pale skin.
“It can do something, right?” Steve asks as he pokes Eddie’s dick. It twitches slightly at the contact and Steve makes a satisfied sound in his throat.
Eddie quakes. “Excuse me. I show you what it can do, alright.” He huffs indignantly.
Steve grins like the cat who caught the canary.
“Yeah, I fucking hope so."
Steve puts his shirt back on and saunters off towards the exit. "Come on, we can shower at mine. After you showed me what it can do.”
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I hope you like it, Jen 💜💜
Inspired by a talk I had with my gym buddy @baronsamediswife (yes, we really do talk about these things at the gym, oopps).
Also shout out to @yournowheregirl for making some excellent points about boobs on our Discord.
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blueberryinko · 1 year ago
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Juicy Labour
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A story done for the great @gimmeabigpush who I’m very grateful for for letting me use her midwife OC, Sara and her spouse, Syd.
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Sara waddled towards the living room. The twins were sitting in a good position, though with them being right against her pelvis, it made her back ache some. Her partner, Syd was nearby, playing with Sloane. Sara was a couple days away from giving birth, and they needed to discuss their birth plan.
“Hey honey.” Sara murmured, sitting herself on the sofa with a sigh. She felt like a balloon, her stomach tight and heavy with the twins. Syd let Sloane play on the carpet, joining Sara at her elevation. “You feeling alright?” They asked her, concern etched on their features. “Yeah, just had to pee for the eleventh time today.”
Syd chuckled. “You’ve dealt with a lot more than that babe.” They remembered the various predicaments with Sara’s previous pregnancy, and while she wouldn’t have changed anything, she would sure have liked it a little easier.
“We need to talk about the birth plan.” She told Syd, who agreed with her. “So, another home birth like we discussed?” They confirmed with Sara, who was checking her bag for everything they might need, pads, fluids and other things. They’d prepped the nursery two months earlier, thank God, and were ready for their new arrivals. “Yep, and we have the other midwives on speed dial.”
Syd seemed cautious about something, which Sara noticed. It wasn’t like them, so she gave them a quick but gentle prod to the thigh. “Hey, what’s up?” She noticed Syd’s cheeks flushing rose, and she wondered what they could possibly be thinking about. “Sorry hon, it’s silly, don’t worry about it.” They reassured her, but Sara was insistent. “We don’t have secrets, remember? You can speak your mind around me.”
“I know. I was just wondering something the other day. We watched that old Charlie and the Chocolate Factory movie, right?” Sara wondered where they were going with this, but concentrated as Syd continued. “When we got to the Inventing Room and the whole blueberry thing happened to the girl, you said “That’s me on the way to the Delivery Room.” And I, well..” Sara was starting to understand where their mind was, snuggling closer. “Yeah?”
“I have a thing for it.” Syd admitted. “Not the scene like that, but the thought of you swelling up like that. I did some looking around on the internet, and Walmart does a gum just like it.” Sara thought of herself like that, big, blue and round. She’d imagine she looked ridiculous, but something about the way Syd said it stirred something in her.
“Okay, do we know if it’s safe for pregnant women to have?” She asked. Syd scratched their head. “I had a glance at some of the reviews, and they said it was mostly safe, but if you want more research I’m open to it?” The hope in Syd’s voice had Sara wanting to fulfil this desire, and she leaned over them, getting the laptop.
After browsing for around twenty minutes, Sara hummed. “All the studies say it’s good to go for pregnant women, there’s even a doctor here that says the usage of it is even beneficial in labour.” She remarked, impressed by the findings. The twins kicked, movement showing atop her shirt. “Seems they agree too.” She joked. Syd’s face was so much brighter now, and Sara made sure to memorise it. She loved when they were as happy as this.
“Alright, so changes to the plan then. I’ll go and get the gum tomorrow, and then when I go into labour, Sloane goes around the neighbours’, yeah?” Sara planned out. She was going to make these little ones’ entrance into the world special. Syd wiped a stray tear, kissing her cheek. “I love that idea.” They enthused. Sara once again let herself fade into a fantasy of herself as a blueberry again for one more moment, and knew she wanted to do it.
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She’d purchased the gum. It had been sitting in her pantry for the last two days when Sara felt the first proper twinges of labour. “Babe,” She signalled to Syd, who gave her a look. “Yeah, go time.” She said at their look. Syd kissed her cheek, and Sara gave them a slightly pained smile. “Go take Sloane around next-door, and I’ll prep the gum, yeah?” Syd hugged her, rubbing her bump. “You got this, okay? And if you wanna back out at any point, tell me.” With Sara’s promise in mind, Syd took Sloane next-door.
Sara felt hot, sweat beading at her chest. Looking down at her clothes, her top and shapewear leggings, she wasn’t sure they’d survive the expansion, choosing to strip down to her underwear. Her jeans were a small struggle, but eventually they were off, and she padded to the pantry, retrieving the gum.
“Expansion will be slow-acting, pumping recommended for pregnant consumers…” She read carefully. “If needed, call Oompa Retrieval Team for emergency assistance- really, they exist?” Sara blinked, chuckling to herself. One of the twins shifted minutely, and she groaned. “Ouch, you!” She murmured. “You’re gonna be a boxer when you’re older, aren’t you?”
She moved back to the living room. She’d read there would be quite a large amount of leakage, so they’d made sure to move the rug and replace it with a plastic covering. And if needed there was the pool set up in the other room.
Syd returned from the neighbours, practically vibrating with anticipation. “Everything good?” They asked, their pink dress fitting their form snugly. Sara liked that one very much, “Everything is perfect.” She replied. Syd beamed, giving her another tight hug, kissing her enthusiastically. “You’re amazing…” They breathed, marvelling at their wife. Sara smirked, “I know,” she joked. Unwrapping the gum, she felt a slow contraction roll through her. “Here we go.”
Popping the gum in her mouth, it took a moment for the flavour to hit, but it really did a moment later. “Oh, wow!” She murmured, swallowing a mouthful of juice. “It really is blueberry! I know that sounds dumb, but that’s a lot!” She giggled, feeling a little fuzzy around her body. Syd’s jaw dropped slightly, and Sara wondered what they saw. “C’mon, how do I look?” She asked, slightly nervous.
“Your nose is turning blue…” Syd’s awed tone made her blush, and she checked her reflection. Well, she was more blushing purple now anyway. Indeed it was, her belly also gaining a plush cobalt hue, spreading slowly up her body. A light pulse ran through her, not painful in the slightest. “Syd.. I think that was another contraction, but..” She placed a hand to her belly, testing it gingerly. “It wasn’t painful..” She stood there, watching as the blue tint painted itself over her entire body, looking like an alien when she checked herself in the mirror. Even her eyes had turned violet.
“That’s amazing!” Syd was fascinated. Here was their wife, swelling up for them while in active labour, and she looked like a goddess. “It must have some form of epidural effect.” Sara sat on the couch, a little surprised when her ass hit the fabric a couple seconds before she expected it to. “My ass is getting bigger too!” She commented, poking the plush cheeks. She’d had wide hips before, but now that her butt was starting to outgrow her underwear, they were even wider than before.
Syd sat on the couch with her, rubbing her belly as they dipped two fingers into her panties, checking her dilation. “A centimetre. We have a while yet.” They guessed, and Sara huffed, laying back as her stomach distended further. “Feels like Thanksgiving dinner..” She rubbed her belly as the twins shifted again. She wasn’t certain, but she thought she might feel her womb expanding too, giving the babies more space. “Oh, babies..” She rubbed her hips, her shoulders getting chubbier. “How does it feel?” Syd was curious, in awe as they patted Sara’s tummy, watching as their hands got further apart as she grew.
“Like.. like I’m really stuffed, but all around..” Sara was surprised at how pleasant it felt. “Like I’m in a hot tub, but the hot tub is me…’ She heard gentle sloshing from her body and sighed, the couch creaking below her. Wet spots appeared on her bra, purple and sticky. “O-oh! I’m.. lactating juice?” She shouldn’t be surprised, the reviews had told her that online, but all it felt was similar to letting down milk. “Syd, help me get my bra off?” She requested. Syd slowly eased Sara forward, taking note of the juice starting to fill her back muscles. “Almost there Sare-bear.” Syd comforted, popping off Sara’s bra with a quick unlatching of the pin.
“Oh! That felt so much better,” Sara let out a breathy moan, a hand going to her back. A dull contraction rippled through her again, and she breathed deep. “Ooh..” Syd came around her front again and kissed her. They both looked down at her breasts, noticing her leakage. “Well, it’s not juice, it’s more.. blueberry milk?” Syd commented. Sara laughed at the absurdity of the situation, poking her boob. She gasped at the sensitivity, another spurt of milk releasing from her nipple. “That feels so weird. It’s like I’m pumping but it’s doing it all on its own.”
“You’re amazing, mama.” Syd got down on their knees, massaging spots on Sara’s belly that were becoming supple and taut. “How are you feeling? Want me to check again?” Sara cooed, her biceps becoming slightly stiff as they billowed with juice. “Feeling good, feeling.. oohhhh…” A slower, powerful ripple coursed through her body, a low, primal moan escaping her lips. “So plump.. check me again.” She said. “This baby’s impatient.” Syd angled Sara back. Her belly was big enough that it looked as if she were carrying quintuplets instead of twins, and they had to dive a little underneath to check.
“Two centimetres hon. You’re doing great.” Syd emerged from around her belly, and Sara whined. “I wish it was going faster.” Syd chuckled. “I know hon, but you can’t rush, remember? Take your time, you’re running this whole thing.” Sara nodded, feeling impatient. “I know, I know.”
Sara felt her hips widening and slid her thighs outward, her hands digging under blue, fruity flesh to separate them, groaning. “Could-could you get the birthing ball hon?” She asked Syd, who was more than happy to oblige. They ran off for one moment. She could feel leakage from below, but this was different. It definitely wasn’t amniotic fluid, instead it felt sticky and.. juicy? “H-huh.” She was leaking from both zones. She probably should have expected that.
Syd returned soon after, and Sara attempted to get up from the couch. A literal ton of juice kept her from doing so, pinning her to the cushions. “Oh Jesus!” She huffed, her body jiggling and wobbling. “Syd, h-help again…” She felt like she was making so many demands of them, but Syd was more than happy to help. They grabbed her arms, beginning to lift her off the couch. “Okay, we’ll make it like a pendulum, yeah? Back,” They rocked her back into the couch, then pulled her forward again. “Forward.” She went forward, lifting a little off the couch.
“Back,” Syd coached as Sara was heaved back onto the couch, and like a swing Syd then used the bloated flesh of her back to bounce her off the coach, falling forward into their chest. “Forward!” They groaned as she stumbled, her cervix stretching wider as Sara lost balance. “Whoa, shit!” She squealed, though Syd’s sturdy arms wrapped around her fluffy, juice-ballooned tummy, feet driven into the rug to keep her from falling over. “You’re okay, you’re alright.” They comforted as Sara moaned.
“Feels.. feels good, feels really.. really low…” Sara was sweating, but every contraction that rumbled through her felt like a weird form of watery massage, dropping the babies further down into her pelvis. Her thighs were being absorbed into her juicy, expanding form. “C-can you.. please?” She waggled her hand, pointing around her hip vaguely towards her underside. “Yeah, sure baby,” Syd murmured. To hold her upright, one of their hands stayed wrapped around her torso, the other holding up her underbelly as they kneeled underneath her.
Moving their supporting hand, they used their fingers to check Sara’s cervix. “Okay hon, four centimetres!” They shouted up to her. “You’re doing so freaking amazing, you know that?” They encouraged her as Syd rose back up. “I think we need to set you on your belly, you’re gonna fall over at some point, or you’re gonna end up literally on your crotch.” They told her. Sara was so big, so pregnant, so berried up it took a lot to even move. Her shoulders, biceps were long gone, and she was left with her tiny forearms waggling as her calves started to buckle.
“O-okay baby, you got me?”
“I got you,” Syd confirmed, and slowly, very carefully, they lowered Sara onto her belly. “How’re you feeling?” They asked her. Sara cooed. “Big.. just.. very.. very big.” Syd chuckled, massaging the taut spots where her skin had gone firm. “You look it, no offense.” They joked. “None taken,” Sara assured, knowing how accurate Syd’s observation was. Her limbs swelled to vanishing point, swallowed up by her turgid expanse as her hands and feet settled into divots, her womanhood filling out and finishing the transformation. “Hoooohhhh..” She huffed, her eyes rolling back in her head a moment.
“Fuck, feels good…” Sara bit her lip, her toes curling at the sensation of hundreds of gallons of juice crashing around inside her. The first baby was right there, wanting out and yet Sara could still feel she wasn’t dilated enough. Syd stayed around her front for a few minutes, rubbing her breasts, which sat on the floor leaking into the plastic cover. “Yeah? Our babies?” They asked, their fingers pressing into her plush, taunt sides and making her moan. “F-first one is literally right there.. need opened up…” Sara explained, a pleasant contraction rolling through her like she’d swallowed an ice cube.
Syd thought for a moment, before coming to a conclusion. “Okay hon, I’m gonna put you on your feet, yeah? I’m gonna see if we can get you waddling for a bit, how about that?” Sara wondered if she’d even be able to waddle at this point, her feet were so far apart and so immobile as she currently was she failed to see how she’d move even a couple steps.
Syd’s hands went to her breasts again, and began to lift them. They had to dig their feet in to get Sara rolling upwards, and as she felt her toes touch the floor, Syd moved their grip to her belly, pressing down as gently as they could, and with as much force as they could muster, helped Sara’s give move backwards, and the juice inside her finally displaced, putting her back on her feet. Sara gasped, feeling the balls of her feet finally back on solid ground and marvelled at the feeling of so much weight shared in all areas of her circumference.
“O-okay, starting to waddle now.” Her belly was most certainly leading the way. It was almost like pre-transformation, but instead of her legs going to either side of her belly, it was her feet having to literally hop and rotate her entire body a step forward, then rotating her body again and landing the other foot that other step forward. She got the hang of it, but the weight of the tons of juice inside her meant she was sweating juice by the bucketload, and as she moved around the tarp, she felt her cervix widening.
“Syd, Syd, Syd, oh.. God, it’s working..” She was in ecstasy, the epidural effect of the juice making the experience practically painless. She was already getting tired of waddling, and she felt so much pressure in her labia. “Back on my belly, back on my belly..” She urged. Syd was quick to move around her back area, and Sara stopped waddling, letting Syd roll her back onto her belly. The gravity had helped, and as she felt Syd’s fingers dip into her folds, she gasped.
“Nine centimetres, you’re so close!” Syd congratulated. Sara felt powerful, she was as big as a small smart car, and just as wide, and yet she’d never felt more alive. “Almost there!” She replied, breathing in rhythm as she flapped her hands in their divots. She got an idea, trying her best to rock the juices around inside her.
Slosh, churn, gurgle.
Her body was loud, and yet serene. Her body rocked like a cradle, and Sara felt her cervix widen once again. “Oh my God, I’m gonna push!” She exclaimed, already bearing down. Syd was in position, and watched as Sara began birthing their second baby. “Here we go hon, I’m right here.” They coached her. Sara remembered all the other births she’d attended, remembering her own teachings. “Feels decent, feels like a bowling ball inside me.” She stated, sweat beading her forehead.
“Mama bowling ball and baby bowling ball, huh?” Syd joked. Sara giggled, she must look absolutely ridiculous. Another contraction rippled through her, and she bore down, setting her jaw. She felt something happening down below, and gasped, realising what it was. “S-Sara.. you’re crowning..” Syd felt their jaw drop, watching as the head began to emerge.
“Y-yup, I feel them!” Sara was very well aware of it, but this time it felt bizarre. Last time she gave birth, it’d felt like a ring of fire, like all the stories, but this felt more like pushing out an air bubble, in a strange way. She dripped juice from her folds, and Syd massaged her pubic mound, a slow v-motion making sure the baby was comfortable as it began slipping out. “How’re we doing back there?” She asked. Syd called back over in a joyful tone. “So well Sara, c’mon honey, you got this!”
She stayed right where she was, not that she could move of course. She felt her pelvis shifting, her feet curling as her entire body tightened. It was like she had been plump and taut, now she was as hard as steel, her entire body focused on getting the baby out of her. “Low sounds, c’mon.” Syd coached, and Sara groaned. “Out of me, c’mon baby!” She urged, pushing down. Her lips bulged, and she felt the baby right there, right at her entrance. “Come OOON!” She shouted, and she felt the baby’s head leave her with a gush of juice.
She heard a loud cry, and let out a sob of relief of her own, beginning to tear up in earnest as she pushed the rest of their body out. “And there’s one!” Syd announced as they carefully cut the cord, helping Sara to push the remainder out. Once they were certain everything had been safely extracted, Syd brought their second child around to Sara’s front.
“Oh, hello baby!” Sara gasped, setting eyes on their baby. “Hello Vee!” She watched as Syd took the baby to their crib, cleaning them off and making sure they were settled in their basin. Now it was time for the twin.
Sara felt different with this one though. The second baby was being stubborn and slow. Syd returned to her in no time, and watched her brow furrow. “Hey, hey, what’s up?” They questioned, concerned. Sara whined. “They’re not coming fast enough,” She wept. She wasn’t in any pain, but the pressure of bearing down was getting to be a bit much. Syd grabbed the towel, wetting it with some cold water and pressing it to her forehead. “Hey, hey, every birth is different. And you’ve been a fucking star through this whole thing.” They reassured her.
The hormones were getting to her. “Oh Syd!” She sniffled. “I feel so good, but this is taking so long, I want them here with us..” Syd shushed her gently, putting their forehead to hers. “You got this, you have this all in hand, you know that?” Syd was in awe of their wife and what she had done for them tonight. “You blew up like this all for me, on such short notice. I was sure you’d say no and I would’ve been completely fine with it, but you just stormed right ahead. You’re a freaking legend, Sara, and I’m so lucky to have you.”
Sara bawled, though soon calmed herself, letting out a small hiccup. “A-any ideas for how we can get this moving?” She asked, wondering if some gravity would help. Syd hummed. “I have an idea. Remember how the girl in the movie was rolled around?” Sara let out a wheeze, what else could happen today that they hadn’t thought of already? “Alright honey, just be delicate, please?” She requested.
Since she was already on her belly, Syd meandered around to Sara’s side, their hands going to her sensitive skin. She cooed, another contraction rumbling through her. “Hooohh…nnnnfff…” The strange pressure felt like a water balloon in her gut, and she breathed through it. Syd stopped. “You sure about this?” They checked with her, to which Sara nodded. “I’m sure, roll me.”
Syd’s hands on her felt weird as her weight gave, and her vision began to spin. The juice spinning inside her was colossal in both motion and sound, being rolled around the living room in circular direction. “Whoa..” She gasped, flapping her hands. The vertigo was unreal, and she listened to the churning and gurgling emanating from her innards. “It’s like I’m a beer keg.” She felt the comparison was apt, and Syd chuckled.
“You wouldn’t be out of place in a Venusian wine cellar then.” They joked. Sara giggled, and then went quiet as another contraction pulsed. It ached a little, but she was handling it. “Alright, alright, alright.” She huffed, balling her fists. “Put me on my lower belly please hon.” She stated. The doorbell rang, and Syd quickly set Sara on the tarp before attending to the door.
They came back a moment later with three bags of McDonalds, to Sara’s confusion. “The neighbours ordered dinner for us again. We’ll pay them back for everything, right?” They asked her. Sara felt tears dripping down her cheeks again, nodding furiously. “How is Sloane?” She asked.
“They’ve been set down for the night, had their food and was very well-behaved.” Syd confirmed. “They’re absolutely fine.” Sara sighed in relief. She missed their eldest baby, and couldn’t wait for them to meet their siblings. “I didn’t tell them about your current state though.” Sara was grateful for that, despite liking her new form, she wasn’t sure it was something she wanted to share yet, maybe ever. “Thanks babe. Thank you for being so good with me.”
“Of course, you don’t need to ever thank me just for helping you.” Syd said. “You’re running this so well, and our next little one is almost here. Just a little longer huh?” Sara nodded, breathing. Soon, she felt the next head pressing at her labia. “Oh, shit, here they come.” It was like the head suddenly slid into place, and she cocked her head. “Okay Syd, that rolling around dislodged them, I think. I’m ready.” Syd nodded, heading around Sara’s underside.
Working her feet in their divots, Sara attempted as best she could to widen her stance. Her body was vibrating, shaking. “Nnnfff come on baby!” She encouraged. “Just come down, come to Mama and Bibi..” She bore down again, and felt her lips bulge. “That’s it Sara, come on.” Syd murmured. Sara blew air out through her cheeks, puffing them out. “D-do we have some noise? L-like ocean noises or something?” Syd hummed. “I think I’ve got a meditation playlist, hang on.”
Syd grabbed their phone from the sofa, opening Spotify. “Rain noises?” They asked. Sara nodded. The soothing sounds of a thunderstorm soon filled the room, and as evening began to set in the windows, the lights came on. Sara pushed again. She was exhausted, but she knew beyond a doubt she could do this. “Come on Supermom..” She joked, feeling a sense of power flooding her form. She growled, bearing down as the head bulged her lips.
Syd worked her linea viola, feeling the movements coming from her womb. “They’re in a good position, head-first, shoulders right there.” They confirmed. Sara moaned at their touch, continuing her routine. “Burger please?” She requested. She had been fed all her fries already, but she was saving the burger for now. Syd fetched it for her after washing their hands, feeding her. “They’re right there.” She muffled through her chewing, nuzzling against Syd’s cheek. “So close…”
“I know babe, I know. You’re so strong, just focus on me and my voice.” Syd was enamored with their wife’s body, her pushing and the low, primal noises, guttural and straight from the throat as she pushed. As Sara finished off her burger, Syd slipped back around her undercarriage, ready to help with the baby.
Sara moaned again, determined. The baby began bulging out of her lips, and she let out a frustrated yell. “I can do this, c’mon!” She even balled her fists, pulling them further into her body and sucking in her feet like that would help. It was actually doing so, the pressure being focused downwards into her birth canal. “Rrraaaaarrrgh!” She yelled, and with a pop and a gush of fluids, the baby’s head emerged from her body.
“Oh!” She yelped, a sudden pang of ecstasy making arousal flood her entire body. She felt Syd latch onto the baby as it kept emerging. Every slight push got the shoulders further out, and she was progressing quickly, looking like it was ready to tumble right out. “Oh my God, that’s fast!” She gasped. Syd was making sure the baby was all good, noting no cord yet, which was a good sign. “Yep, but fast is good, you’re doing great.”
Sara hummed, bearing down yet again with a mighty heave, her body bucking gently as she pushed. “Okay, okay, got it got it got it!” She groaned, the shoulders emerging and then the torso. One last push had to do it, right? “Come on Sara, you’re so nearly done!” With those final words of encouragement from Syd, Sara’s brow furrowed, and she yelled. “Come on come OONN!” She yelled, and with a final burst of fluids and blueberry juice, the final baby tumbled right into Syd’s hands.
“Sara, you did it! Our little Bree is here!” Syd crowed, and both parents burst into tears yet again. While Syd cleaned up the baby, Sara pushed out the final bits of afterbirth, the cord having been cut cleanly just minutes before. She grunted and groaned, liquid gushing from her vagina and dripping down her belly. The tarp she’d been positioned on through the whole of her labour was undoubtedly ruined, soaked with blueberry juice. She was exhausted, and yet so proud of herself.
Syd opened the window. “The twins are here!” They announced, the whole street hollering and whooping with a loud cheer from the neighbours. Sara laid there on her belly, still round. “So, when does this die down?” Syd approached her again, rubbing her sides. “In a day or so, or we could pump it out of you tomorrow. Which one would you prefer?”
“Ehh.. wait a day or so.. I’m shattered.” Sara yawned. It had taken an entire day for the twins to arrive, but now they were finally here. “Yeah? I’ll leave you to it. You did it!” Syd cheered, kissing her cheek. “Just go to sleep, yeah? I’ll handle the babies from here.”
Sara was more than happy to go to sleep, content in her new motherhood. Tomorrow they’d figure out which way they wanted to juice her, for now, she was knackered. Her eyelids shut, the cries of the babies fresh in her mind as a soft smile settled on her face.
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mayhemwrites · 2 years ago
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heyyyy would you be open to maybe doing like a kanej first kiss after like a lot of healing and stuff?? idk im just in such a mood for kanej fluff rn :)) btw i love your main blog and i think ive read some of your writing and ita really good so thank you ❤️
omg, thank you so much!! that's really sweet of you omg
hope this is cute and fluffy enough 💕💕💕
kanej first kiss: “not like this”
The first time it happens is in a bathroom. Kaz changing Inej's bandage, his breaths short and sharp. Both terrified. It's only a moment of connection, of touch, before Kaz pulls away from her. She can't say she isn't disappointed. She also can't say she's surprised.
And then she leaves. Goes away from Ketterdam, which is all she's wanted for five years. Away from him, which is something she never thought she'd regret as much as she does.
She loves what she's doing now. Loves knowing that she's making a difference, stopping people from getting hurt.
She's just always conscious that without Kaz, it feels as if there's an ever-present hole in her heart.
So she comes back to visit, exactly one year, ten months, and seventeen days after she left. (Not that she's been counting.)
He's waiting at the dock for her, like he always is whenever she lets herself daydream about her return.
How had he known? Well, he's Kaz. He knows everything. She pushes away the thought that he came to the dock regularly, hoping for her to come back. That's not possible. This is Kaz. Resolutely unsentimental. (Even if he had told her that he loved her, right before she left.)
There's a wound on his face, dried blood on his jaw. Without thinking, she puts a hand to his face, fingertips brushing his chin as she inspects it.
This time, he doesn't pull away. Doesn't flinch at her touch. The wound isn't half as bad as it looks. So her worries were unfounded - he'll be fine.
Inej breathes a sigh of relief. Kaz will be fine. He always is. And she always worries that one day his luck will run out.
She goes to drop her hand, but before she can, she feels his gloved fingers on her wrist.
"Don't," he says.
"No?"
"I... I can manage this, now. I've been... working on my issues, let's say."
So she keeps her hand where it is.
Then - what is he doing? He takes off one glove, then the other.
He puts his own hand on her face, and even though he tries to hide it, she can see his smile. A small smile, one that doesn't come out very often. She's only ever seen it once or twice.
He looks so proud of himself, and her heart swells. There's a flutter of something in her stomach. For once, it isn't pure dread. Something else. Pure joy.
"Is this okay?" he asks.
She looks up at him, and hopes he can tell just how much she loves him from the look in her eyes. "Yes. Yes, this is more than okay."
He takes a shaky breath. "Actually, there's... something else that I think I'm ready to try. If you want to."
"What?"
"A kiss. This may sound unusually sentimental, but as I've been working through... everything, over the last two years, I've been finding more and more that I desperately want to kiss you."
Her heart stops, then starts again, thudding against her ribcage.
He desperately wants to kiss her.
He desperately wants to kiss her.
"Yes. Please," she says, her voice slightly breathless.
And he closes the gap between them, his lips on hers.
It's nothing like she's ever felt before. Inej has been kissed before, but not like this. Not as if she's everything somebody could ever want - and not just because of her body, or her talents, but because it's her.
Kaz loves her. She's conscious of everywhere they're touching - her hand on his face, and his on hers. His hand on the small of her back, holding her steady. She reaches up to run her free hand through his hair, and smiles with satisfaction at the shocked-yet-pleased look on his face.
She pulls away for a brief moment, to whisper: "I missed you. Every second of every day, I missed you."
"I didn't think you would," he admits. "I missed you too, though."
"Did you really?"
"Why do you think I was at the dock?"
Her eyes widen in surprise. "You- did you know I was on my way back?"
"No," he says, shaking his head almost sheepishly. "I hoped you would, though. Every day, I hoped. Selfishly, yes - I heard about everything you've done, and you do much more good out there than you ever did here. But I missed you."
It's as if her brain has short-circuited.
He missed her.
He hoped she would return.
He missed her.
There are no words for everything she feels. How she didn't think she would get to have this, not since she was a little girl. She'd thought she would have to be alone and independent forever.
But now she has Kaz to lean on, and that's exactly what she does.
She leans into him, relaxing. She lets him hold her, knowing he won't let go of her. His arms wrap around her waist, and she knows she never wants to leave him again.
After a minute, she looks up at him. "I want to kiss you again," she tells him softly. "May I?"
He nods, and when she looks into his eyes and kisses him, she knows he's hers forever.
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mo12mo29 · 8 months ago
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Liuan’s Mother’s Day Gift
Summary: Liuan decided to give Macaque a Mother’s Day gift.
I meant to post this yesterday but it was really late so I went to bed.
Notes: I made this short little random story in honor of Mother’s Day. I love my mother very much and I appreciate everything she does for me.
A mother can be anyone, they can be biological, or not biological, male or female; it's the nurturing spirit and unconditional care that truly define the essence of motherhood.
Remember to tell your mother that you love and appreciate them. Hope you liked the story. Happy Mother’s Day to everyone!
In the heart of Fire Flower Mountain, Liuan scampered through the trees with a small, neatly wrapped present in her hands. She was determined to show her gratitude to Macaque, the wise and gentle monkey who had cared for her since she was born and since her mother died. Despite the fact that Macaque was not her biological mother, Liuan felt a deep bond with him. He was there for her when Liuanna couldn’t be. He had taught her how to climb trees, forage for food, and navigate the mountain with grace and agility. He had been there for her through every stumble and triumph, guiding her with patience and love. Although, Liuan felt bad eveytime Mother’s Day would come, because knowing that her bio mother was not around, she knows that Macaque misses her. Liuanna was the first love that Macaque had and to lose her so suddenly, Liuan knew that it was too much for Macaque.
As Liuan approached her home, she saw Macaque hanging out under their favorite tree, it was the same tree where Macaque and her bio mother would hang out. His black/violet fur shimmering in the dappled sunlight. Liuan smiled as she called out to him
“Mom!” Macaque looked and saw that Liuan was calling out to him and stood up from his spot. “Happy Mother’s Day, Mom!” she called out, bounding up to him with a grin. Macaque’s eyes widened in surprise as Liuan presented him with the gift. It was a bouquet of Macaque’s favorite flowers, along with the flowers were some of his favorite fruits.
“For me?” he asked, his voice tinged with warmth. He almost completely forgotten that it was Mother’s Day and he was not expecting to get a gift from Liuan at all. Liuan nodded eagerly, her heart swelling with affection.
“I know you’re not my real mother, but you’ve been like a mother to me in every way that counts,” she said earnestly. “You’ve taught me so much and always been there for me. I know Mother’s Day is hard for you, Mom,” she said gently, using the affectionate term she had always used for Macaque. “I just wanted to remind you how much you mean to me, and how grateful I am for everything you’ve done.”Macaque's eyes glistened with emotion as he accepted the bouquet and fruits from Liuan's outstretched hands.
"Thank you, Liuan," he murmured, his voice thick with gratitude. "You've brought so much light into my life." Tears welled up in Liuan's eyes as she watched Macaque unwrap the gift. She had worried that her gesture might not be enough to express the depth of her gratitude, but seeing the joy in Macaque's eyes filled her with relief and happiness. As Macaque gazed at the bouquet, memories of Liuan's mother flooded his mind. Liuanna had been his closest friend, his confidante, his everything. Losing her had been a blow that had left him reeling, but in Liuan, he had found solace and purpose once again.
"Liuan," Macaque said softly, his voice choked with emotion, "you've given me the greatest gift of all—your love and your presence in my life. I may not be your biological mother, but I will always cherish the bond we share. I am so proud of you to take on the role of being your mother. Although I miss your mother dearly, not a day goes by where I don’t thank her, for giving birth to you.” Liuan threw her arms around Macaque, holding him tightly as tears of joy streamed down her face. In that moment, beneath the shade of their favorite tree on Fire Flower Mountain, they were not just mother and daughter, but kindred spirits bound together by love, loyalty, and the enduring power of family. As the sun dipped below the horizon, casting a warm glow over the mountain, Liuan and Macaque stood together, united in their shared journey through life's ups and downs. And as they basked in the tranquility of the evening, they knew that no matter what challenges lay ahead, they would face them together, as a family.
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