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syluriar · 1 day ago
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please...help me - sylus x mc!reader. part 1
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sypnosis: you call sylus to escape caleb.
a/n: i know i'm not the only one who thought this, a lot of us sylus girlies wanted to call out man and get him our of sjyhaven ASAP. so i wrote this little fic for that, and as you can tell by the title this is just part 1. ofc that means there'll be a part 2, maybe a part 3??? let's wait and see :)
warning: caleb being possessive (yandere??). mc (you) feeling uncomfortable and scared of caleb. hurt and some comfort by sylus (i luv you<3 ). this is rushed and like all my fics, have no grammer check.
word count: 990
RING RING
The vibration of the phone rang loudly through the bathroom, the one place Caleb grants you privacy. More than one you were thankful that he wasn’t here, his duty calling him out to do some work, work that you don’t question anymore, exactly how he likes it.
“I’ll be back soon, Pip-squeak,” He said with a tone meaning for warmth, but you feel the opposite, especially when he looks at you with a smile, the one you remember from your childhood, but it’s not the same anymore. 
“Don’t cause any ruckus, ok? We don’t need a repeat of last time.” 
You shudder at the memory, the way his hand had gripped your wrist and dragged you to your bedroom and placed you not so gently on your bed, scolding you not following his orders and locked you in. He would only allow you to come out for food and he would watch you the whole time you ate, sending shivers of fear down your spine the more it went on. It lasted for two weeks, after that you had a bit more freedom, but every night he would announce it was time for you to sleep and lock you in the bedroom, the next would be the same.
And you hated it. You hated how different he was, how much he had changed since you last saw him. Where was the Caleb that joked around with you? The one that always picked you up when you were feeling down? The one that would wipe away your tears and hold you close? 
Where’s one where you felt safe with? 
Gone. He was all gone, and he scared you. You couldn’t stay here any longer, to try and get the old Caleb back. You had enough of being ordered around and being scared. 
RING RING
Despite Caleb’s watchful eye you managed to snag a new phone as he confiscated yours, checking though all your data to make sure you couldn’t leave, Luckily you thought he would do that and got rid of anything that would get you into trouble; contacts, messages and pictures in your camera roll. So far he hasn’t commented on anything which you pat yourself on the back for.
Another thing your proud of is remembering a phone number, just one that you know would get you out of here.
RING RING
“Please pick up…” You whispered desperately. You have called the number twice now, and you hope people are right when people say third time's the charm, because you needed as much luck as possible right now.
RING RING - 
“I must say your persistence to get hold of me is both annoying and -”
“Sylus!” You couldn’t hold back the happiness as you heard his voice, it had been so long since you last heard it.
“...Is that you, sweetie?”
“It is.” You answer, the endearing name making you blush instantly. 
“Who’s phone are you calling on? Did you get a new phone and not tell me?”
“I’ll tell you that later but I need you to listen to me.” Time was of the essence, and you didn’t want to waste any of it. “I need you to track this phone and come help me.”
“Help you?” His tone held confusion. “What trouble have you gotten into now?”
“Don’t ask. I just need you to come to Skyhaven and get me out of here, fast.” You spoke hastily, you might have sounded desperate, but right now you don’t care. 
“You sound weird, kitten. Are you alright?”
Trust him to take notice. “Please, Sylus. I can’t get out of here and I’m….” You take a deep breath, tears threatening to spill. “I’m scared.”
His answer was instant. “I’m coming, sweetie. Don’t worry, I’ll get you out in no time.”
It’s like a weight is lifted off your shoulders, your heart is lighter and a smile graces your lips. “Thank you. Please hurry Sylus, I don’t like it here.”
“I can tell, sweetie. I’ll destroy everything if it means getting you out.”
“Maybe don’t go that far, there are innocent people here.”
“The ones that hold you against your will are nowhere near innocent.”
You grimace as you think about Caleb, a small piece of you feeling guilty for this, but you needed to get out of here, and if that meant hurting Caleb to escape…then so be it.
Looking at the time, you realise you’ve been left on your own for a while, and Calen would be due back soon. The last thing you wanted was for him to find you like this. “I have to go now, but I’ll see you later?”
“As soon as possible, sweetie. I’ve been making arrangements since you first said you needed my help.”
You end the call quickly and stash within your period products, you knew that Caleb never came in your bathroom, but just in case he changed his mind, at least you knew he wouldn’t search through them.
But now your body is full of nerves, you can’t believe you managed to get through to Sylus, even more so that he’s coming to get you. You just have to wait and keep playing Caleb’s game till he comes, which he assured you will be as soon as possible. In Sylus’ language, that could be within a few minutes to an hour. You hope it’s the first option, but you were determined to wait if that’s what it took.
Before leaving the bathroom you remind yourself to go back to your usual personality that Caleb likes, if he see’s any of your happiness he’ll question it, and you don’t know how long you can lie and fake it for. 
So you lower your excitement, lose your smile and take a few deep breaths to calm your beating heart. Once your assured that you’ve gone back to the obedience look, you open the bathroom door - 
“Have a nice phone call, Pip-squeak?”
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wholoveseggs · 2 days ago
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Huhu, it's me again :) Happy New Year to you and Eggs. I have another idea once you are through with what must be a very long list <3 - So, Reader and Elijah had a romantic whirlwind encounter while she was extensively traveling Europe, living her best life. They agreed to keep it on a first name basis and on keeping things casual. One morning, she just disappears on him. Back in the US, she is taking up a new job/ studies where she meets Klaus, and they start dating (semi casual). Once he introduces her to his family for Thanksgiving, she sees Elijah again, and whatever happens after is completely up to you :) Thanks in advance.
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18+ ---- {Masterlist} {Tag-List}
{Elijah Mikaelson x f!Reader && Klaus Mikaelson x f!Reader } When your new life in New Orleans collides with the past you tried to outrun, you come face to face with the man you never stopped thinking about. And worse? You are sleeping with his brother.
♡♡ Once again you give me the most brilliant ideas @originals23~ thank you and I hope you enjoy! ♡♡
8.4k words {whoops} - Warnings: so much smut (there are THREE scenes in this one ~lol I may have gone overboard), unprotected sex (I know, I know, vampires can't reproduce... but reader doesn't know they are vampires...) fingering, oral (f!recieving), casual sex with Klaus, little but of angst, lot's of unresolved sexual & emotional tension, reunion sex, semi-public sex, Elijah being intense and possessive in the hottest way, Klaus being a messy but well-meaning && inappropriate use of a side table...
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Your arrangement with Elijah was simple. Or at least, it was supposed to be.
You met by chance on a sunny afternoon in Florence, your tables at a café so close your elbows nearly touched. A passing comment about the wine turned into a two-hour conversation about art, history, and the fleeting beauty of life. His voice was velvet, his presence magnetic, and by the time the waiter brought the check, you were hopelessly charmed.
Keeping things uncomplicated was your idea. First names only. No talk of the future. Just two people indulging in the moment. But there was something about Elijah. His poised elegance, the way he made you feel seen. Made sticking to those rules harder every time you saw him.
Tonight was no different. Except for one thing. This was your last night in Europe, and he didn’t know. You hadn’t told him you were leaving and that the version of yourself he had come to know. The carefree traveler. The woman with no roots… she would disappear as soon as the sun rose. A part of you wanted to tell him, but the words caught in your throat every time you thought to speak. You couldn’t bring yourself to ruin the fragile perfection of what you had, even if it was destined to end.
Now, standing outside the door to his suite, you felt that familiar pull, equal parts excitement and dread. The lock clicked, and the door swung open before you could knock. Elijah stood there, immaculately dressed as always, his dark eyes glinting with amusement.
“Second thoughts?” he asked, a teasing smile on his lips.
“Never,” you lied, stepping inside.
The suite was extravagant, warm and rich, but it was his presence that filled the room. He gestured for you to sit, though you barely made it to the sofa before he pulled you into his lap, the contact sending sparks dancing under your skin.
“I was going to ask how your day was,” he murmured, his lips brushing against your ear, “but I know you don’t tolerate small talk.”
“Not when there are better things we could be doing,” you breathed, pulling him in for a kiss.
A soft sigh escaped you as your lips met, his strong hands holding you steady, your heart beating in time with his. You were in freefall, tumbling down the rabbit hole of his affection, and as he deepened the kiss, the last shreds of your resolve fell away.
He was so, damn, crushingly good in bed. He knew how to take his time, to read the smallest shifts in your body and adjust his rhythm. When he touched you, the whole world faded away, until all that was left was the two of you, wrapped up in each other.
You tugged his shirt out of his pants, pulling on the buttons of his vest in an effort to undress him faster. He chuckled, sitting back, watching you fumble.
"I can do it," you muttered, blushing as you undid his buttons, his skin hot under your fingers.
He shrugged off his jacket, and you ran your hands up his arms, across his chest, his muscles firm and taut under his crisp shirt. He was always so impeccably dressed, his clothing clearly expensive and well-made. You’d noticed it from the start, how he carried himself like a man born to luxury, but never flaunting it—just letting it linger in the details. It made you wonder what he did for a living, how did he earn his money? You knew so little about him, yet you were about to have his cock inside you.
You quickly peeled off your dress, watching his reaction as you tossed it aside. You loved how he looked at you. As if you were the only woman in the world, his gaze filled with admiration.
"I like it when you watch me," you admitted softly.
"I'd rather have my hands on you." He replied, running his palm along your thighs, his fingers trailing dangerously high, stopping just short of where you needed him.
You let out a quiet moan, and he chuckled at your response, moving his hands under your hips and picking you up, placing you underneath him on the bed. You watched as he slid his belt from its loops, tossing it onto the floor.
"Can you keep the rest on for now?" you asked, your voice quieter than intended. "You look so good in a suit.”
"As you wish." He grinned as he unbuttoned his pants, freeing his erection, and your heart fluttered. He reached over to the bedside table, retrieving a condom.
"No," you protested, your brain-to-mouth filter long gone. "I want to feel you."
The moment the words left your lips, you knew you had gone too far. The two of you never talked about this. Hell, you didn't even know if he wanted kids. Or had kids. Or birth control. Or anything personal at all. Yet, there was a part of you that didn't care. A reckless, desperate part that wanted to feel him come inside you, to take whatever piece of him he was willing to give.
He studied your face, and you were certain he would tell you no. Any reasonable man would. But then, he dropped the condom and kissed you, a slow, lingering kiss that made you squirm.
"If that's what you want." He murmured, pulling you even closer.
You nodded, clinging to him. Your hips rose to meet him, and his hands gripped your thighs, spreading you wider, as he slowly entered you.
This was such a bad idea. Having raw sex with a stranger. It was the kind of decision that would've gotten you a stern talking-to from your mother. And yet, you'd never been so turned on in your life.
He moved inside you, a languid roll of his hips, and a whimper escaped you. You wrapped your legs around him, urging him closer. You felt drunk, delirious, overwhelmed by the feeling of his skin against yours, his hard length filling you, stretching you, pushing deeper with each thrust.
It was different this way, more intense, the intimacy heightened. You suddenly regretted asking him to leave his suit on. You wanted more, the need for closeness clawing at your chest. You tugged on his shirt, until he took the hint, leaning back to shed it, his hips still moving, keeping a perfect, maddening, rhythm.
"You don't know what you want today, do you?" he said, his tone playful.
You always enjoyed a bit of dirty talk, but the sound of his voice now. Soothing and authoritative, the slightest edge of teasing… had your head spinning.
"Hush," you chided, trying to regain your composure.
He chuckled, his hands sliding up your sides, his fingers intertwining with yours. "I'm sorry," he said, though he didn't sound sorry at all. "Tell me what you want."
You moaned, the warmth in your belly coiling tighter. The way he held your hands, steady and sure, felt too intimate, too personal. But you didn’t pull away. You couldn’t.
"Do you want me to go harder?" He leaned forward, his lips brushing against yours, curling into a teasing smile. "Deeper?"
You nodded, closing your eyes as he adjusted his angle, his cock hitting the spot that made your toes curl. You were close, and he seemed to sense it, his hips rocking into you harder, the bed creaking under his weight.
"Do you want me to come inside you?" he whispered, his voice rough, his words sending a fresh wave of desire through you.
It was a foolish, insane, stupid idea, but lord, did you want it. You wanted to feel his release, the heat of him filling you.
Your eyes fluttered open, meeting his, the intensity of his gaze overwhelming.
"Yes," you breathed, "please."
The look in his eyes changed, as if a switch had flipped, the gentle teasing replaced by something deeper. It was the thing you were both trying to avoid, the emotion lurking just beneath the surface.
He let go of your hands, bracing himself on the mattress, his thrusts slowed, his pace deeper, drawing out the pleasure, the air between you charged, thick with anticipation.
"Say it again," he commanded.
"Please," you moaned. "I need-"
He silenced you with a kiss, your hands moving to his hips, clutching his ass, urging him deeper, faster.
He buried his face in your neck, his breath hot against your skin, his thrusts growing uneven.
"Please," you whispered, your fingers tangling in his hair, "come inside me."
A groan escaped him, and his body stilled, the feeling of him pulsing inside you making your whole body tense, a white-hot pleasure surging through you as you both came undone, clinging to each other as if the world would fall away without the other to anchor you.
He collapsed next to you, and you curled against him, resting your head on his chest, his heart beating fast and strong under your cheek.
You weren’t sure what this was, the two of you tangled together, basking in the afterglow. He wasn’t usually a cuddler. In fact, he’d never asked you to stay the night. Yet, here he was, running his fingers through your hair, his arms around you, holding you close.
You could hear the traffic outside, the bustle of the city. It felt surreal, as if you were watching yourself from above. The woman who’d begged him to come inside her, who craved his touch, wasn’t you. She was a stranger. A shadow of the person you pretended to be.
The thought sent a jolt through your chest, and you pulled away, sitting up and reaching for your clothes.
“It’s getting late,” you said. “I should-”
“Stay,” he said softly, his hand trailing slowly down your back. His voice was quieter than you had ever heard it, almost hesitant, and the word stuck in your chest like a splinter.
Your eyes darted toward the door, the urge to flee overwhelming. What the hell were you thinking? Reckless. Stupid. You’d never planned for this to go so far, to feel so real. Yet, when his hand slid down your back, the warmth of his touch anchored you, quieting the chaos in your mind.
You found yourself nodding, cuddling back against his chest, as if the heat of his embrace could fix everything.
“Just for a little while,” you said, trying to quiet the voice in your head.
“Mmm,” he murmured, and you could feel him smiling against your hair.
The sun had set, the sky turning a dusky purple, the streetlights casting a warm glow on the buildings below. And the two of you had fallen asleep in each other’s arms, feeling safe, content, and hopelessly in love.
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The first rays of dawn spilled through the windows, painting the room in soft hues of gold and pink. Elijah lay beside you, his features softened in sleep, one arm draped possessively across your waist.
You had been watching him for a while, a bit of a creepy thing to do, but he was just so handsome, even with his hair disheveled. You let your mind wander, imagining him being yours, waking up next to him every day, sharing meals and adventures. You wondered what his favorite color was, if he liked cats, his thoughts on politics. All those small details that would help bring him to life.
You also wondered what his life was like, who his family was. Maybe he was married? Cheating on his wife with you? The thought was a cold splash of reality. Of course, he was probably married. A man like him would never be single.
You sighed, running your fingers through his hair. This was such a mistake. You didn't know a damn thing about him, yet, here you were, fantasizing about a future together.
Carefully, you slipped out from under his arm, your heart aching with every movement. You dressed in silence, the weight of what you were about to do pressing down on you. Standing at the door, you glanced back at him, your chest tightening at the sight of him sleeping so peacefully.
You wanted to stay. You wanted to whisper the truth, that he was like something out of a dream. But you couldn’t. Because dreams didn't last. They didn't have roots. And you had a life to get back to.
So, instead, you turned and walked out the door, not letting yourself look back.
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The New Orleans heat was relentless, thick with humidity, wrapping around you like a second skin. The streets buzzed with music and conversation, and even after months of living here, the city's energy still caught you off guard. It was a stark contrast to Europe, where everything felt steeped in quiet history. Here, everything moved fast. Loud, unpredictable, alive.
You had built a life here, found a job you actually enjoyed, and for the first time in a long time, things felt normal. A fresh start. And yet, no matter how far you ran, how many new routines you built, the ghost of the mysterious Elijah  still lurked in the quiet moments. Not often. Not intentionally. But in the space between thoughts, his presence would slip in. His hands, his voice, the way he had looked at you…
You didn’t dwell on it…
Or at least, you told yourself you didn’t…
Instead, you threw yourself into your new life. And a big part of that life was Klaus.
Not in a romantic, sweep-you-off-your-feet way. That would be a disaster, and you knew better. Klaus wasn’t a boyfriend, he was more of… a friendly force in your life. Someone you got drinks with, argued with, occasionally rolled around in bed with. He was charming in a way that made people want to orbit around him, and somehow, you had ended up in that orbit.
You met him at an art gallery downtown, where he had been swirling a glass of red wine and smirking at a particularly ugly modern piece like it had personally offended him. You had made some offhanded joke about abstract art being a scam, and he had laughed, a sharp, knowing laugh, like he was having the exact same thought.
After that, he had a way of showing up. Inviting you out, dragging you into conversations about history and art over whiskey, introducing you to the chaotic energy of the city’s nightlife. You got along. He was fun. He had a mean streak, but you knew how to handle men like that. It was easy.
And maybe, if things were different, you would’ve let something more happen between you. But you both understood what this was…Just company, just passing time. Just a friendly hookup until real love came along… If it ever did.
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The soft breeze drifting through the open window did little to cool the heavy heat of the room. The sheets were a tangled mess, kicked aside during the night’s events, and beside you, Klaus lay sprawled out, one arm thrown over his face, his body lazy and sated.
You stretched, the slow ache between your thighs a familiar, satisfying reminder of last night. It hadn’t been anything deep or meaningful, just fun. Easy. No expectations, no promises.
Klaus was good company, someone who understood the unspoken rules of this arrangement: pleasure, no strings. He was charming, sure. Attractive, obviously. But you both knew what this was.
As if sensing your eyes on him, he stirred, his hand sliding absently across your stomach. “Mmm, already awake?” His voice was thick with sleep.
“Fortunately, for you,” You smirked, shifting to straddle his hips, your palms pressing against his chest.
He grinned, eyes still heavy-lidded. “Eager thing, aren’t you?”
“Only because you’re so damn easy.” You dragged your nails lightly down his torso, reveling in the way he tensed beneath you.
Klaus chuckled, but it turned into a low groan as you rocked against him, teasing. His hands settled on your hips, fingers digging in just enough to let you know he enjoyed it.
“If you’re going to keep teasing, love,” he murmured, voice rough, “you better be prepared to finish what you started.”
“I always finish what I start.” You reached for the bedside drawer, rolling on a condom before sinking down onto him, the feeling of your bodies connecting making you both exhale.
The rhythm was familiar, something you both knew well by now. You took what you needed, moved together in a way that was more about chasing pleasure than anything sentimental. Klaus let you take control, his hands gripping your thighs, guiding your movements but never demanding.
It was good. The kind of effortless chemistry that kept you coming back to him.
But then. It happened.
One second, it was Klaus beneath you, his sharp smirk, his blue eyes watching you with hunger.
And then. The stranger that you couldn't get out of your mind. Elijah.
His face flickered into focus like a mirage, his dark eyes holding you in that way that had once made your breath catch.
You froze, a jolt of panic hitting your system like ice water.
No. No.
Your pulse thundered in your ears as you blinked hard, trying to shake it. When you opened your eyes again. Klaus. Just Klaus. Watching you with mild confusion.
"Are you okay? Do you want to stop?"
"N-no."
"Are you sure? We don't have to keep going if-"
"No. Just give me a minute," you said, swallowing the knot in your throat, your mind scrambling.
This had never happened before. Never. But there it was. An image of him burned into your memory, overlaying Klaus, taking the place of your reality.
Klaus halted your hips and sat up, his brows knitting with concern. "You're trembling."
"Sorry." You shook your head, forcing yourself to meet his gaze, though it felt like your whole world was shattering. "Just... got distracted."
"By?" He was giving you a look, somewhere between concerned and amused, his curiosity obvious.
You sighed. He was going to push this.
"Promise you won't get weird about it?"
"Of course not, love."
You swallowed, trying to ignore the sick feeling in the pit of your stomach.
"Someone else."
Klaus chuckled, a warm, rumbling sound. "Don't tell me, the thought of me alone isn't enough to satisfy? That will hurt my ego."
"Don't be ridiculous." You rolled your eyes, fighting the urge to squirm. "It's not about you. It's... an old fling."
"Oh?" His expression shifted, his tone more serious.
"Yeah, someone from when I was traveling. Just... popped into my head, that's all." You shrugged, a feeble attempt to make it seem unimportant.
"I see," He studied your face, his gaze unnervingly steady.
You braced for him to ask more questions, maybe to get jealous or offended, but instead, he flipped you onto your back, a wicked grin on his face.
"I guess I must not be doing my job correctly," he murmured, pressing a kiss to the spot on your neck that always made your toes curl. "I think we can remedy that."
He was a bit rougher with you this time, a bit less playful, his movements filled with a purpose. Like a challenge. He wanted to keep your mind from wandering. And, hell, it worked for a while. The way he was kissing you, moving inside you, touching you, it was so intense. So present.
You moaned, tangling your fingers in his hair, and he pulled away, his gaze searching.
"Is that good?" he asked, his voice softer than usual, the hint of a smile on his lips.
"Yeah," you breathed. "Very."
His hips picked up their pace, his lips hot on your skin, the tension building inside you with each thrust.
You came undone, Klaus following not long after, collapsing onto the mattress beside you, his breathing ragged.
"Still thinking about that old fling?"
You chuckled, swatting his shoulder. "Shut up. Don't be jealous,"
"Me? Never."
You sighed, glancing at the clock. "I need to get ready for work,"
Klaus shrugged, rolling out of bed, stretching, and pulling on his clothes. You watched him, the way he moved, the confidence he exuded.
He was handsome, of course. He was the kind of guy you'd notice immediately, his features chiseled and striking, the perfect amount of scruff. But it wasn't just that. There was something else. A certain... charisma. A presence that made you feel as if he could command a room, the whole city, without even trying.
"Are you coming out tonight?"
"Hmm?" You blinked, his question catching you off guard.
"Tonight, to the dinner party." He cocked his head, looking at you expectantly. "Unless, of course, you've decided to spend your evening pining after someone who isn't here."
"Oh. Yeah, sure."
"Well, don't sound too enthusiastic, love."
You laughed, swatting his arm. "Stop, you know I'm going. I'm actually looking forward to meeting your siblings, mostly to get dirt on you."
"That's a dangerous game, darling." He smirked, leaning over to kiss your forehead. "But, if it makes you happy, I'll see you tonight."
"See you."
He gave you one last grin, the door clicking softly as he left.
You flopped back against the pillows, letting out a shaky breath. Trying to erase a specific pair of haunting brown eyes from your memory. You weren't the type to be hung up on anyone, especially a stranger you hooked up with months ago. Yet, here you were, feeling like an absolute idiot.
You shook your head, getting out of bed, ignoring the way your legs trembled.
This was stupid. A minor setback.
You would move on.
You had to move on.
Right?
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You knew Klaus was rich. But you were aware just how insanely wealthy he truly was. It was something that should've been obvious, considering the way Klaus threw around his money, but seeing his ridiculously lavish compound in person was a completely different experience.
The place was huge, sprawling, elegant in a way that only an ancient estate could be. The architecture was stunning, and you were fairly certain the entry hall alone was the size of your apartment.
"You live here?" You glanced over at Klaus, taking in his nonchalant expression.
He nodded, "It's not too shabby, is it?"
You laughed, "Not too shabby? This is insane."
You took in the artwork hanging on the walls, the ornate furniture, and the grand staircase that seemed to stretch on forever. It was the kind of place people only saw on tv. You felt underdressed, almost as if you had stepped into some kind of dream.
"Come, the food is almost ready, and I want to introduce you to my family."
Klaus led you through the winding halls and corridors, until you finally reached a large dining room. There was a massive table, laden with food, and sitting around it were a dozen or so people, chatting and laughing.
Klaus cleared his throat, catching the attention of the room. "Everyone, this is Y/N, my... friend."
A chorus of greetings echoed through the room, and Klaus gestured to a particularly attractive group sitting at the far end of the table.
"These are my siblings, Rebekah, Kol, and Elijah."
You froze, the blood draining from your face as they turned to face you.
It was him.
The man you had been trying so hard to forget, the one whose presence had taken over your life. The same dark eyes, the same gentle smile, the same strong, capable hands. Those hands.
The memories hit you in a dizzying wave. The feeling of his skin, the taste of his lips, the way he held you, the way he looked at you, memorizing every detail.
Elijah was a ghost. A shadow. Someone you would never see again.
Until now.
His face paled, his expression mirroring your own shock. The two of you stood there, staring at each other, the rest of the room falling away.
Your heart hammered in your chest, your mind reeling. How? How the fuck was he here? Was this a dream? Some cruel joke the universe was playing?
You opened your mouth, then closed it again, unable to find the words.
The silence stretched on, growing heavier and heavier, until Klaus finally cleared his throat, breaking the spell.
"Sit, please. I have more guests coming soon."
You sank into a chair next to you Elijah, your hands visibly trembling. This was a nightmare. An absolute nightmare.
Klaus walked away to greet some more guests, leaving you with his siblings. You snuck a glance at Elijah, taking in his stiff posture, his jaw clenched, his eyes fixed on the wall in front of him.
The tension was palpable, the air thick with unspoken words. You couldn't bear it, the weight of the silence, the way his presence was overwhelming, intoxicating.
"Y/n, that's a lovely name. How did you meet our brother?" Rebekah asked, her voice slicing through the silence like a knife.
You blinked, struggling to compose yourself. "We met at a gallery. I was, um, critiquing some of the art, and he agreed."
Rebekah chuckled, "Sounds like Klaus."
Elijah remained silent, his expression unreadable. Rebekah gave him a strange look, then turned her attention back to you.
"How long have the two of you been together?" she asked.
"Oh, we're not. Together. We're just friends." You managed a small laugh, trying to hide the panic in your voice.
"Klaus? Friends? Impossible," Kol interjected, his tone teasing.
"Well, we're friendly," you said, avoiding the subject entirely.
A waiter came by and filled your wine glass, and you thanked him, downing half the glass in one go. The alcohol was a welcome distraction, burning a warm path down your throat.
"How are you liking New Orleans?" Rebekah asked, her tone a little more casual.
"It's amazing, honestly. The energy here is unlike anything I've ever experienced. The people, the music, the history." You paused, the corner of your mouth lifting into a small smile. "I can see why people fall in love with this city."
Rebekah smiled, "It does have its charms."
Klaus returned, settling into his seat beside you, his hand resting on the back of your chair.
"So, what have you been discussing?"
"Oh, just the usual. How we're all shocked you've found a friend," Kol said.
Klaus snorted, "Hardly. I have plenty of friends."
"Yes, but they're not usually women," Kol retorted.
"That's not true Kol, he also has Cami," Rebekah chimed in.
Klaus removed his hand from the back of your chair, his cheeks growing slightly pink. He looked down, busying himself with filling his plate, his posture defensive.
Kol let out a laugh and pointed down to the other end of the table. "What's wrong Nik, don't want her to hear?"
You followed his gaze, landing on a pretty blonde who was chatting animatedly with some of the other guests.
"You didn't tell us Camille was coming," Rebekah said.
"It didn't seem important," Klaus muttered, not meeting anyone's eyes.
You had no idea who this girl was, but clearly, Klaus had a thing for her. You could practically feel the awkward tension radiating off him.
He was sweet, but a little rough around the edges. It made sense that he'd be a bit of a mess when it came to his love life.
You couldn't help but smile at that.
"She's beautiful," you said sincerely, nudging him playfully.
Klaus sighed, finally meeting your gaze. "You think?"
"Definitely." You paused, watching his face soften a little. "Why don't you go talk to her?"
Klaus shook his head, a wry smile playing on his lips. "You're not supposed to encourage me, love."
"Why not? Isn't that what friends do?" You grinned.
His eyes narrowed, his expression playful as he leaned in close, his lips brushing your ear. "If I'm with her I'm not with you. Where would that leave us, hmm?"
Before you could respond, Elijah abruptly stood, his chair scraping against the floor. "Excuse me."
All of you watched him walk out of the room, his sudden departure startling everyone.
"Is he alright?" Rebekah asked, her tone worried.
Kol shrugged. "He's been in a mood lately."
"You know how fussy he can get about dinner parties," Klaus said, his tone dismissive.
The rest of the dinner was a blur. You tried your best to engage in conversation, but the weight of Elijah's presence was suffocating, drowning out the noise. He had returned halfway through the meal, his expression stony, his movements stiff and calculated. He didn't look at you, not once, but you could feel his gaze on you, heavy and intense, every time he thought no one was paying attention.
Klaus had taken your advice and made a point to speak with Cami, his body language betraying how flustered he was. He was trying so hard, and it was equal parts amusing and heartwarming.
It was almost enough to distract you from the fact that Elijah was in the same room.
Almost.
As the meal came to an end, the crowd started to thin, people milling about the room, talking and laughing.
Klaus was engrossed in conversation with Cami, his eyes never leaving her face. You smiled to yourself, happy to see him making progress.
You scanned the room, noticing that Elijah was nowhere in sight. Without thinking, you excused yourself, walking through the grand hallways, searching.
You didn't know what you were looking for, or why. But the thought of him being so close, yet out of reach, was too much to bear.
The house was enormous, and as you wandered the hallways, you realized just how impossible it would be to find him. You went up a few floors, finding rooms filled with more art, more artifacts, more history. It was mesmerizing, a window into a world you had never experienced.
Finally, you reached a hallway lined with bedrooms, each one as opulent as the last. You were about to turn around and head back downstairs when a door opened, and Elijah stepped out, freezing as soon as he saw you.
A long silence stretched between the two of you, the air thick with tension.
He was even more handsome than you remembered, his dark hair slightly disheveled, his face flushed. He looked upset, his jaw clenched, his posture stiff.
You swallowed hard, fighting the urge to run. To flee and never look back. But you couldn't. Something in his expression kept you rooted in place.
"Hi," you said softly, your heart pounding in your chest.
"Hello," he replied, his voice smooth, but laced with an emotion you couldn't quite identify.
"I'm, um, sorry to bother you. I was just... looking for the bathroom." You winced, realizing how flimsy the excuse was.
"Right." His eyes searched your face, his brow furrowing.
"Sorry," you repeated, shifting uncomfortably under his gaze.
"There's no need to apologize," he said, his expression softening a little. "I'm sure this is all... unexpected."
"Yeah, it is," you breathed.
Another tense silence passed between the two of you. Elijah looked conflicted, his eyes filled with an emotion you couldn't decipher.
"You didn't tell me you had a brother," you said, the words tumbling out of your mouth before you could stop them.
Elijah's eyes narrowed, but there was a hint of amusement in his voice. "We didn't exactly do a lot of talking about our personal lives,"
Your face burned. "Right, yeah. Sorry, I wasn't... trying to accuse you of anything," you stammered.
Elijah sighed, running a hand through his hair. "No, I'm sorry… That was a poor choice of words."
You nodded, chewing on your lip. The two of you were both obviously uncomfortable.
"Look, I... I don't know what to say, really. This is... weird. Like, insanely weird," you said.
Elijah laughed, a sound that was a mix of relief and nervousness. "Agreed."
You took a deep breath, steeling your nerves. "I... honestly didn't think I would ever see you again."
"I didn't either."
"And now..."
"And now."
You hesitated, your heart thumping in your chest as you took a tentative step forward. "What are the odds, huh?"
"Quite low, I imagine."
You laughed, a soft, breathless sound. "I guess the universe had other plans."
Elijah's expression shifted, a hint of vulnerability breaking through his mask. He looked conflicted, as if he wanted to say something, but couldn't bring himself to.
Instead he took a deep breath, his voice softer, gentler, "I'm glad you're doing well,"
"You too," you managed, fighting the urge to reach out and touch him, to close the distance between the two of you.
"I should probably get back," you said, not really wanting to.
"Of course," he murmured, not moving away from you, his gaze intense.
You lingered for a moment, neither of you willing to break eye contact. It was strange, surreal. A feeling you couldn't put into words. It pulled you in, and before you knew it, you were moving towards him, drawn by some invisible force.
His hand came up, wrapping around your waist, pulling you closer. His lips met yours, soft, but urgent, and you melted into him, the familiarity of his touch making your heart ache.
You weren't sure how long you stood there, kissing him, holding him, your hands tangled in his hair, his body pressed against yours. It was like no time had passed, the two of you falling back into the same pattern, the same rhythm.
He guided you backwards until you hit a side table, your back pressing against the polished wood. He lifted you, his lips never leaving yours as he sat you on the edge, his body caging you in.
His hands slid up your thighs, pushing your dress up, his eyes darkening as his fingers brushed the lace of your underwear.
You pulled back, just enough to look into his eyes, your hands grasping the front of his shirt, needing to feel the warmth of his skin, the beating of his heart.
"I haven't been able to get you out of my mind," he murmured, kissing down your neck.
"Me neither," you admitted, a small moan escaping your lips as his teeth grazed your collarbone.
He lifted your thighs, planting your feet on the edge of the table, spreading your legs wide, his hips pressed flush against yours.
You could feel the hardness of him, the proof of his desire for you, and it sent a wave of heat straight through your core.
You wanted him. Badly. More than you could ever remember wanting anything.
"We shouldn't do this here," you breathed, his lips tracing the shell of your ear.
"I don't care," he whispered, his fingers tugging at the hem of your dress, sliding the fabric up to your hips.
"Someone might see."
"Good," he said softly, his lips curling into a smirk, just inches from yours. "Let them see."
You gasped, arching your back as his fingers found the wetness between your legs, his movements slow and deliberate, teasing you. He slowly circled your clit, drawing lazy patterns, his gaze fixed on your face, taking in every detail, every reaction.
You tugged on his shirt, trying to anchor yourself, to keep from getting swept away. Your heart was hammering, the heat building in your core, the anticipation making you dizzy.
He pushed a finger inside you, then another, his movements firm and steady, his thumb circling your clit. He was taking his time, drawing it out, his eyes never leaving yours, his gaze filled with something raw and intense.
It was that same feeling as before, the one that made you do things you wouldn't normally do. The one that made you feel alive.
Your legs trembled, your body trembling as he brought you to the edge, only to pull back. His fingers teased your entrance, before sinking deep inside you, curling and hitting that spot that made your vision blur.
"Fuck," you gasped, gripping his shoulders, trying desperately to hold on.
He grinned and moved to his knees, his eyes locking on yours, and it was almost too much. The sight of him, kneeling before you, his dark gaze burning into yours, his fingers still buried inside you.
He pulled his fingers from your core, the emptiness almost unbearable, and his tongue flicked over your clit. You cried out, a strangled, broken sound, and he chuckled, the vibrations making your toes curl.
He licked and sucked and teased, his movements perfectly measured, knowing exactly what to do, where to touch. He devoured you, his lips and tongue working in tandem, his fingers sinking back into you, stretching you open, filling you.
You felt yourself hurtling towards the edge, the pressure building, your legs shaking, your fingers tangled in his hair. He looked up at you, his eyes blazing with a mixture of desire and hunger, and it was all too much.
You came, your vision whiting out, his name a strangled cry on your lips. He kept going, working you through the aftershocks, his touch gentle, coaxing, until finally, he stopped, pressing a kiss to the inside of your thigh.
"Beautiful," he murmured, his voice hoarse.
He stood, and you caught a glimpse of the bulge straining against his trousers, before he leaned down, his lips meeting yours, the taste of yourself lingering on his tongue.
He kissed you, deep and slow, and you felt the loss of his touch acutely, the emptiness inside you almost unbearable. You reached for him, fumbling with his belt, desperate to feel him, to have him inside you.
"I can't believe we are doing this," you muttered, laughing nervously as his zipper came down. "Again," you added, the word barely a whisper.
"Neither can I," he admitted, a small, wry smile on his lips.
"This is insane."
"I'm well aware."
You slipped your hand inside his trousers, the feel of his bare skin against yours sending a jolt of pleasure straight through your core. He let out a soft groan, his hips pressing against yours, his body urging you on.
"Don't get me pregnant," you half joked, your voice a strained whisper.
He laughed, the sound rich and deep, the warmth of his breath fanning across your cheek.
"I won't."
You tugged at his trousers, pulling them down just enough to free him. His cock sprang free, hard and throbbing, and you wrapped your fingers around his shaft, stroking him slowly, the velvety skin sliding under your palm.
He pressed the head of his cock against your entrance, teasing you, his lips brushing yours.
"Do it," you breathed, the need coursing through your veins.
He thrust forward, filling you completely, his fingers digging into your thighs. You moaned, the feeling of him inside you, stretching you, consuming you.
He set a slow, deliberate pace, trying not to cause the table to creak and rock. It was sensual and maddening, the feeling of his cock easing in and out of you, his breathing ragged, his hands holding onto you for dear life.
The pleasure was overwhelming, your body tightening around him, drawing him in, trying to keep him there. He pressed his forehead to yours, his lips grazing your jaw, his hips snapping into yours, harder and faster, the filthy sounds of your bodies colliding echoing through the empty hall.
He buried his face in the crook of your neck, his breath hot and labored, his hands moving down your back and under your ass, pulling you flush against him.
Your fingers twisted in the fabric of his shirt, your eyes squeezed shut, your entire world focused on the feel of him inside you.
It was like nothing else mattered, nothing existed except the two of you, joined together in the most intimate way.
He held you, his movements growing more frantic, his thrusts uneven and jerky, and you could feel him coming apart. He bit down on your shoulder, his fingers digging into the soft flesh of your ass, his cock pulsing inside you as he spilled his release.
The two of you stayed like that, awkwardly settled on the table, trying to catch your breath, to come down from the high.
After a moment, he straightened, tucking himself back into his trousers and running a hand through his hair, his cheeks flushed.
"That was..." he trailed off, searching for the right word.
"Intense," you offered, as he helped you stand.
"Indeed," he murmured, a small, satisfied smile on his lips.
He pulled you in for another kiss, his fingers tangling in your hair, his lips soft and warm. You melted into him, losing yourself in the feeling of his body against yours.
After a long moment, he pulled back, his eyes filled with an emotion you couldn't decipher. He cleared his throat, the moment breaking, the reality of the situation crashing down around you.
"Well, I should... um, get back," you said, the words hanging in the air, awkward and stilted. "Before anyone notices we're gone,"
"No need, we all heard you two," Klaus' voice echoed through the hall, startling you both.
You turned to see him leaning against the door frame, his arms crossed over his chest, a smug grin on his face.
Your cheeks burned with embarrassment, and you hastily fixed your dress, Elijah stepped in front of you, blocking the sight from his brother.
Klaus let out a laugh, "oh no need for all that Elijah, it's nothing I haven't seen before," he drawled.
"What are you doing here?" Elijah demanded, his tone laced with annoyance.
"Well, I was looking for my Y/n. You wandered off and then I heard these distressing sounds coming from the hallway. So naturally, I came to investigate," he paused, his eyes roaming over your body, his gaze filled with a mixture of amusement and curiosity. "And here you are,"
"I, uh, got lost," you offered weakly, still a little stunned.
"In his pants?" Klaus smirked, his gaze traveling between the two of you.
You were speechless, not quite sure what to say. It was humiliating, being caught like this, exposed and vulnerable. There were clearly a lot of complicated feelings between the two of them, things that had nothing to do with you.
Elijah wrapped his arm around your waist, it surprised you, the way he pulled you against him, as if he was claiming you. You glanced up at him, the look on his face unreadable. He seemed unfazed by Klaus' accusation, his expression carefully neutral.
"If you must know, we ran into each other," Elijah said evenly, his hand stroking the small of your back. "We know each other from... Another city."
"Oh, really? How serendipitous," Klaus replied, his tone dripping with sarcasm.
"Yes, it is," Elijah said simply, his posture relaxed.
Klaus shook his head, his eyes darting between the two of you, the realization slowly dawning on him. "Wait... That hook-up you were telling me about? The old fling you couldn't get out of your head? That's... Elijah?"
You nodded, your cheeks burning so hot they could melt ice.
Klaus began to laugh, a deep, genuine belly laugh. He wiped at his eyes, his whole body shaking with amusement. "This is too much. This is... I don't even know what to say."
Elijah sighed, his jaw clenched, but his eyes amused. "I would prefer it if you didn't say anything."
"Oh, come on, this is funny," Klaus said, taking a step closer. "You're the reason she was all hung up and miserable,"
"Miserable?" Elijah frowned, glancing down at you.
"Klaus, stop," you pleaded, the humiliation making your chest ache.
"What?" He shrugged. "I'm just stating facts. You were a mess because of him."
Elijah's eyes searched yours, his expression conflicted. His hand was still on the small of your back, and he rubbed it in small, soothing circles.
"Niklaus, if you don't mind, I wish to have a private conversation with her," Elijah said, his tone firm.
"Alright, fine, but do try to keep it down, hmm? We have guests," Klaus winked at the two of you, turning on his heel and heading down the hallway.
You watched him walk away, then you leaned up and kissed Elijah on the cheek. "I'll be right back, okay?"
He nodded, his gaze following you as you walked down the hallway after Klaus.
"Nik!" You called, catching up to him.
"Yes, love?"
"Look, I'm sorry," you said, trying to gauge his reaction.
"For what?" He looked genuinely confused.
"For... sleeping with Elijah," you said, a little unsure.
Klaus laughed, his expression light and teasing. "We were never going to work out, love. Our hearts belong to others,"
"I know," you shrugged. “But still... He's your brother,"
"And you love him," Klaus said simply, a small, knowing smile on his lips.
"What? No, I... I don't even know him, not really," you protested.
"You will, and he'll love you, too," Klaus said, his voice surprisingly gentle.
"It doesn't matter. It was just... sex," you tried to explain.
"Was it, though?"
"Yes," you insisted, trying to ignore the nagging voice in the back of your head, the one that knew he was right.
Klaus shook his head, his gaze softening a little. He pulled you in for a hug, his arms wrapping around you, holding you close.
"Listen, it's none of my business. But if there's something between the two of you, some spark or whatever... Don't let it go. Life's too short for regrets,"
You pulled back, looking up at him, surprised by the sincerity in his voice. "Thank you, Nik,"
"Of course," he replied, a mischievous twinkle in his eyes. "And do try to be a bit more discreet, hmm? You two aren't exactly quiet."
You groaned, burying your face in your hands, trying to hide the blush creeping across your cheeks. "I'll try."
He laughed, and then headed back downstairs to rejoin the party. Off to find Cami, no doubt.
You took a deep breath, steadying yourself, and made your way back to Elijah, his eyes fixed on you, an intensity in his gaze that made your heart race.
You reached out, taking his hand, his fingers lacing with yours, and he led you to his room, the door closing softly behind the two of you.
You stood in the middle of his bedroom, the air thick with tension, everything was happening so fast.
"So," he began, his voice low and soft.
"So," you echoed, a nervous smile tugging at your lips.
Elijah exhaled, slow and measured, but there was no hiding the tension in his posture. “Are you going to run again?”
The question hung between you, weighted with more than just tonight.
You swallowed hard, your fingers twitching at your sides. You owed him the truth.
“Elijah…” You took a step closer, your voice unsteady. “I ran because I was scared.”
His jaw clenched slightly, but he stayed silent, letting you speak.
“I told myself that what we had was casual. That it didn’t mean anything. But then you started looking at me like I was something more.” Your throat tightened. “Like I mattered. And that scared the hell out of me.”
His expression softened, just a fraction, but his silence pressed against you like a weight.
You swallowed hard, forcing yourself to keep going. “I didn’t know how to handle the way you made me feel.” Your voice was quieter now, raw. “I thought if I ran, I could outrun it. But I didn’t. I never did. Because no matter where I went, no matter what I did, you were always there.”
A beat passed. Then two. And then his hand was cupping your cheek, his eyes searching yours.
“And now?” he asked softly, his voice barely above a whisper.
“And now…” You took a deep breath, your heart pounding in your chest. “I’m standing here. With you. And I don’t want to run anymore.”
His thumb brushed against your cheek, his touch gentle but firm. “Good,” he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. “Because I’m not letting you go this time.”
You leaned into his touch, your eyes closing as his lips met yours in a kiss that was both tender and desperate. It was a promise, a commitment, a declaration of everything you’d both been too afraid to say.
When you finally pulled back, his forehead rested against yours, his breath warm against your skin. “Stay,” he whispered, his voice rough with emotion. “Not just tonight. Always.”
Your heart swelled at his words, and you nodded, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes. “Always,” you echoed, your voice steady despite the emotions threatening to overwhelm you.
You kissed him again, slow and sweet, the familiar taste of him flooding your senses. He was everything you'd been missing, everything you'd needed. There was so much more left to say, but it would have to wait. In this moment, there was only the two of you, tangled together, a promise of something more. This was where you were meant to be, you were sure of it.
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~Epilogue
The first thing you registered was warmth. The kind that seeped into your bones, wrapped around you like a quiet reassurance. You stirred, blinking against the soft glow of morning light filtering through the curtains. The sheets were tangled around your legs, the scent of him lingering in the fabric.
Elijah's arm was draped over your waist, his breathing deep and steady against the back of your neck. The weight of him, the solid presence at your side, was grounding in a way you hadn’t expected. You hadn’t realized how much you missed waking up with someone... not just anyone, but him.
For a moment, you didn’t move. Didn’t breathe.
Because this felt… real. Permanent.
And for the first time in a long time, the thought didn’t terrify you.
You shifted slightly, your fingers ghosting over his forearm where it rested against your stomach. He stirred behind you, his grip instinctively tightening, pulling you closer.
“Second thoughts?” His voice was husky with sleep, laced with quiet amusement.
You smiled, a warm flush spreading through you.
"Not a single one," you murmured, turning in his arms, your gaze meeting his.
"Good," he murmured, his hand sliding up your back, pulling you flush against him.
It felt... Right. Like you'd always belonged here, in his bed, his arms. Like he'd always been the one, waiting for you.
There was no more running.
No more fear.
Just this.
Just him.
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✧・┆drunk on love — lyney
— it's the evening of lyney's birthday when you receive a call to retrieve your drunk partner from the lovely hands of his friend group's.
this piece is set after the story of red lines, although it works as a standalone read~
content warning: lyney is drunk. he's silly, but he's drunk.
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Your eyes are barely open when your phone rings. You’ve been trying to finish correcting your master thesis for the entire evening, after sending your boyfriend out to spend his birthday with his friends. Taking a glance at the caller, as well as the time, you notice it’s Wriothesley. 
You answer the phone, worry already seeping into your mind. “Hello?”. There are so many things that could’ve gone wrong… given Lyney’s ability to handle alcohol. 
“Hi,” Wriothesley says breathlessly, sounding more than exhausted. “Sorry to be calling you so late.” 
“It’s alright, what’s up?” You interrupt, drumming your other hand on your keyboard. “You sound miserable, man.” 
“Tell me about it…” He says voice muffled as if he’s covered his mouth with his hand. “I hate being the designated driver on nights like these.” 
“They made you the designated driver?!” Shock fills your voice. “You didn’t drink, did you?” 
“I didn’t, don’t worry—“ Wriothesley laughs. “Quite amusing to see this lot completely drunk. I mean, Neuvillette has been crying about Furina breaking one of her nails for the entire time.” 
“Ahh, gotcha.” You nod to yourself, hoping that the man will get back on track soon. “Do you need my help with something?” You ask. Wriothesley calling you is not something that happens regularly. At most, he'd only send you embarrassing pictures of your boyfriend. 
“Lyney’s been calling out for you since he took a shot of whiskey. I don’t think I can take him, Furina and Neuvillette home without a drink myself in between…” 
As if on cue, Lyney — the man in question — seems to notice he’s being talked about that. You can hear a sudden movement followed by a cheerful laugh. 
“Hi, baby!~” Lyney’s voice seems more joyous than ever. Yeah, that man is as drunk as a kite. “I miss you so so so much!!” 
“Having fun?” You ask, a small smile gracing your face. Given how stressful the winter season was for everyone involved, with the ever-nearing period of defending their scientific titles approaching, you felt nothing but happiness that Lyney went out to celebrate his birthday with his friends. 
“Not the same without youu…” With how he's speaking, there must be a small pout on his face — his eyebrows knit. “No, no no… Wrio, let me talk man…” Ah. Wriothesley must be making a deal with your boyfriend to retrieve his phone. 
“As I was saying,” The sole sober person speaks. “You’d do me a huge favour by coming to pick your prince.” 
“I’ll go put on my shoes and be on the way.” You say. “Just send me the address. Oh, and don’t allow Lyney to drink more, alright?” 
“Will do. Thanks, and sorry, again” 
The message containing the group’s location comes the moment you end the call. Dressing yourself in anything comfortable, you’re ready to head out and take Lyney’s car. Ever since getting your driver’s license, he swore the only car you’d ever need is his. 
Luckily the road is not too crowded, nor glistened from the rain despite all the inside jokes of Neuvillette’s tears causing it. You arrive without much issue, already spotting the group as you pull up to the parking lot. 
Wriothesley is busy balancing an asleep Furina and Neuvillette who keeps on sobbing, head supported on his shoulder. Lyney’s standing on his two feet, zipping up his jacket. Lovely. Perhaps getting him back to the house will be easier than expected. He seems to spot you, approaching as you park the vehicle. 
His eyes curve into straight lines as he breaks into a smile. Swaying from side to side, he throws himself into your embrace, burying his face into your shoulder. “Missed youuu”
“One child less to care for?” You ask Wriothesley while patting Lyney’s head.
“Unless you turn the car around…” He chuckles, readjusting Neuvillette’s position. “Thanks for the help, really.” 
“Happy to help, Wrio.” With that, you split — each of you heading to their car. With the way you’re both basically dragging other people, it does take a while. “Message me when you’re home!” You shout as he’s settling his friends into the backseat. 
“You too!”   
“You’re going need to let go of me, Love.” You say, still patting Lyney’s head. It’s been almost five minutes of you standing out in the cold, your partner too clingy to allow you to drive the two of you back. “I promise you, once we’re home you’ll get all the cuddles.” 
The blonde turns his head, looking directly at you. It’s unfair, you think, that even underneath this lighting, he still looks like a statue. His hair is unusually curly, and a pair of glasses is balancing on his nose. Not to mention the pure delight in his violet eyes, matching the warm, albeit drunk smile. 
“Pinky?” He extends his finger, looking determined. Of course, he’d make you promise something as silly as this. You quickly interlock with one of your own, moving afterwards to open his door. 
“Get in,” You smile, holding the door for him. “You’re the passenger prince today.” 
All you can hear back is the tiny gibberish thoughts of a drunken man. You help him with the safety belt, and only when you confirm he’s actually buckled in, do you take your designated driver’s seat. 
For the first time during your ride, it’s completely quiet. You’re unsure if Lyney’s fallen asleep, but checking the overhead mirror tells you his eyes are very much awake. His head sways slightly as if he was listening to music. 
“What’s on the playlist?” You ask, leaning your head towards him, as to signal you’re talking to him. 
“Marry you.” 
You blink, momentarily distracted by his response. “Marry you? That’s what's in your head right now?" You tease, stealing a quick glance in his direction. 
Lyney nods enthusiastically, though the movement is a bit too exaggerated in his tipsy state. “Yep! As Bruno says… It’s a beautiful night,” he slurs with a dreamy smile. “I wanna marry youuuuu.” His voice, although off-key, is filled with unmistakable affection, and it takes everything in you not to laugh.
“You’re so drunk, baby.” You say with a chuckle, shaking your head at him missing some of the words.
“But I’m honest!” He protests, his pout returning. “I think we should… should get married. Like, tomorrow. Or maybe today? We’re both free today!” 
“Lyney,” You sigh, though you can’t hide the grin tugging at your lips. “You’re not even going to remember this conversation in the morning.” 
“Will too!” He insists, crossing his arms in a huff, though his coordination betrays him and he almost smacks himself in the face. “I’ll remember everything. Like how much I love you, and how I wanna spend all my birthdays with you. And how…” His voice trails off, softer now. “How you’re the best thing in my whole world.” 
Your heart squeezes at his words, even if they’re fuelled by alcohol. “Alright, my sweet drunk prince,” You say gently. “Let’s get you home first, and then we can talk about this… grand proposal of yours.” 
“Promise?” He mumbles, already starting to doze off. 
“I promise,” You reply softly, glancing at him through the mirror again. His eyelids are drooping, his lips curled into a content smile as sleep claims him. 
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date of posting — february 2nd 2025
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genderqueerdykes · 6 hours ago
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A bunch of intersex people on here got pissed and blocked me because I said that PCOS is a serious condition that requires medical treatment a lot of the time. They were arguing saying "People just don't like how it makes you look, they hate that we don't look cis! It doesn't need medical treatment at all!"
Except it does. PCOS raises your risk for cancer, it causes pre-diabetes, it makes your hormone levels all fucky, not to mention the acne! The list goes on and on. But apparently I am intersexist for pointing those things out. Literally every other person I know with PCOS has been blown off by doctors and left to suffer, like they will have incredibly painful cysts and insulin resistance and doctors will drag their feet and make excuses not to help? "Just lose weight." "Pain is normal it's probably cramps"
I had to fight so hard to get them to realize I had an actual cyst and that was why I was in so much pain! The treatment is for your health, like laser hair removal is aesthetic but the actual medical treatment is IMPORTANT. I fucking hate that people are saying you should forgo it entirely. They are spreading medical misinformation.
But apparently I'm intersexist. It pisses me off. I'm not the only one either I've seen them dog piling others who point this out. Can you say something on this? People are going to put themselves needlessly at risk just to prove that they're intersex enough, "you're only gaslighted by doctors into thinking you need medical treatment". It's so fucking stupid. It's not the same as genital mutilation or surgeries on intersex babies. It's for your fucking health...
god i just let out the longest, most existentially exhausted sigh. i am so sorry you had to go through this. this is 100% those people assuming the absolute worst and jumping on you for it. i actually have a lot to say about this as well, so thank you for taking the time to send this ask.
this is reactionary behavior. there is no rationale, only emotion. i think they are misinterpreting you on purpose in order to be able to go off on you. i think that's all there is to it. like they're reading what you're saying and going "oh so you think all intersex people should try to have their conditions 'CORRECTED'???" and crying intersexism, failing to realize that a lot of intersex variations are literal health conditions that can and do make a person sick. these are fucking MEDICAL CONDITIONS, y'all! it's not JUST about your genitals & hormones! it's not JUST your secondary sex characteristics! hormones affect so much more than just your primary and secondary sex characteristics, they actually affect way more of the body than most people realize!
i'm not afraid to say it anymore, but a lot of intersex people on here are just straight up fucking bullies. i actually do not interact with too many other intersex bloggers on here because i do not like the amount of hostility & outright transphobia. so many intersex bloggers on here are proud to be transphobic as fuck. like it just absolutely fucking disgusts me that so many intersex people on here are taking the route of rude disenfranchised asshole who thinks it's okay to be mean as fuck to other queer people because we don't have a lot of visibility. that's not other queer people's faults. stop assuming every other queer you meet is going to be intersexist. stop pouncing on people who aren't hurting you.
They were arguing saying "People just don't like how it makes you look, they hate that we don't look cis! It doesn't need medical treatment at all!"
THIS is what's intersexist as hell because a lot of people with PCOS do not have an outward appearance that would indicate that they have an intersex variation. a lot what goes on with PCOS happens inside your body. how the hell are you supposed to be able to see someone's cysts just by looking at them? you have no idea if that "perisex cis woman" standing next to you at the grocery store is actually perisex, or if they shave their facial hair and make sure they don't look like they have a five o' clock shadow because they don't want facial hair. some intersex people DON'T like "looking intersex". some people get body dysphoria from their hormonal imbalances. not every intersex person "LOOKS" intersex.
Literally every other person I know with PCOS has been blown off by doctors and left to suffer, like they will have incredibly painful cysts and insulin resistance and doctors will drag their feet and make excuses not to help? "Just lose weight." "Pain is normal it's probably cramps" I had to fight so hard to get them to realize I had an actual cyst and that was why I was in so much pain! The treatment is for your health, like laser hair removal is aesthetic but the actual medical treatment is IMPORTANT. I fucking hate that people are saying you should forgo it entirely. They are spreading medical misinformation.
100%. this has nothing to do with you saying that someone needs to have their intersex condition "corrected". i can't believe someone would just tell you that while you're trying to convey that you quite literally needed medical care. PCOS can be a very painful condition to live with. as a teenager, i was having such heavy periods that i was having to change pads every 45 minutes. i HAD to see a gynecologist about it. i had low iron. it was making me anemic from the amount of blood i was losing. it wasn't just a routine trip to the OBGYN, i was having a serious medical issue and i needed help for it. i wasn't trying to "CORRECT" my intersex condition, i was trying to address a symptom that was caused by my intersex condition. now THEY tried to "correct" it with estrogen, but that's not what i was trying to do. i just wanted to stop suffering.
and you're right about diabetes & insulin resistance. this is extremely common in PCOS. hormones heavily affect that part of your health. like what, are people expecting someone with PCOS who develops diabetes to not seek treatment for it because that would be them "CORRECTING" their intersex condition and being "intersexist" somehow? was me seeking help for bleeding so much i was anemic intersexist? this is ridiculous. a lot of intersex variations come with health problems. we're not saying that being INTERSEX is a health problem, but intersex variations can CAUSE health problems, and nobody should have to just deal with that because it's somehow intersexist to seek medical care.
i'm really sorry you experienced that. on god, so many of the intersex bloggers on here are just straight up bullies. i'm just saying it. it's people taking other people's lives personally and getting offended when another intersex person doesn't shut up and listen to them and agree with them blindly. i've seen way too many intersex people on here who are proud to be aggressive assholes. why are we doing this to other intersex people? we shouldn't cannibalize our own. god fucking damn. it's not community if we're tearing each other apart.
let other intersex people decide what they do and don't do with their bodies. if the way another intersex person governs their body upsets you, move the hell on. stop making it their problem.
im so sorry you had to go through this anon. you deserve to be able to talk about YOUR OWN EXPERIENCE AS AN INTERSEX PERSON. it find it absolutely disgusting that there are people on here who want to try to talk for you instead. unreal. i hope you have a great week anon, stay safe, and i hope that things are going better for you in terms of your health.
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mysticstarlightduck · 17 hours ago
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Reminder that I am open for art commissions!
As mentioned in my new writeblr intro, I now am officially open for art commissions - I have been meaning to do this since the middle of last year, but I've had several health emergencies since then that kept me from actively doing it.
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thyminell · 1 year ago
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Tell me yer jag headcannons
Yeah! Of course! Thank you for asking! I’ve had these done for a few days but have been really busy with real life!
Spoilers for both Cattails and Wildwood Story and Jag’s reasoning for coming for the Wildwood
-Part of their love for licorice is due to the fact that one of their parents would occasionally bring them one. It was… an acquired taste to say the least but eventually they grew to love it!
-Arthur would occasionally come and talk to Jag while they guarded. Arthur would try to tell them some grand tale about how they caught the biggest hare any cat had ever seen or something along those lines. Jag did appreciate the attempts to socialize, really, they did, but not while they are trying to protect Arthur and the rest of the Domain
-Arthur and Jag are also cousins but their conflicting personalities and schedules can occasionally result in arguments, typically from Jag
-Jag’s tail is shorter in Wildwood Story due to Ursa, who was a major reason why Jag left the Mountain Domain. Jag snapped at them about how they were a tyrannical leader, leading to Ursa striking back at them. Most of Jag’s injuries healed but their tail became infected so Luna had to remove part of it
-The above action was the last time Jag saw Luna or any other Mountain Domain cats as they quickly left to join the rest of the group leaving to the Wildwood
-Jag and Talon mutually respect one other for both being dedicated to their duties. This means that Krampy wanted to get to know Jag as well. Jag greatly respects the other cat’s ability to heal injuries but occasionally gets worried at the thought of their experiments causing harm to the colony or themself
-Jag doesn’t like Zephyr due to their flashy nature. Additionally, Jag doesn’t really understand why they’re famous
-Whenever a new cat joins the colony, Jag interviews them to see if they are a security risk
Hope you like these! Have a good day and night! ^^
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JIN HUGS JIN HUGS! for @jinstronaut ♡
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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months ago
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your art is absolutely amazing
i just went thru all of the poorly drawn mdzs and it was amazing seeing your art develop!
you just made my morning, thabkyou <3
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Thank you so much for the kind words, and for cheering me on as I continue to learn!
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moonshynecybin · 6 months ago
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who do you think would deal better with being isekai'd into omegaverse, marc or vale? alternatively which is more compelling
most beautiful ask. in the world. so funny. ummmm i think. vale is maybe more compelling because his issues with it would be. perhaps unsolvable and endlessly complex. guy who is a lil weird about gender, not terribly into the concept of marriage, and is pretty fundamentally adverse to being. shall we say emotionally legible/vulnerable. exposed. and omegaverse as a genre is all about exposure. its all. giving into the base instincts of your body and those same instincts giving you away to the object of your affections. its going into heat and the person youre in love with is the only one available to help you through it. its scenting someone and that being a crystal ball of their emotions and bodily state ESPECIALLY ie how much they want you specifically. its needing someone so bad you are literally insensate. its getting bonded 5ever and ever irrevocably, OFTEN in the heat of an instinctual moment without the relationship negotiation that happens irl. a genre centered around a betrayal of the body/heart to the mind, in many ways
now imagine you didnt actually grow UP in an omegaverse so you have no toolbox to DEAL with all that. sensory input off the SHITS. and. like suddenly and without WARNING now vale can feel in his CHEST exactly how distressed marc marquez is about every one of their interactions. and how much he wants his ass. like truly every part of his hind brain is like jesus christtttttt i should be inside him right tf now im a terrible alpha. and then the higher part of his brain is like what the fuck. what the fuck. i am not responsible for marc, what the fuck. and oh hey theres a bump on my penis i need to ask people about this right the hell now. thats vale. so i see this as a somewhat fraught comedy of sex errors where his ADHD ass is treading horny water trying to learn alpha manners and also. much more complexly. not fall into all of the traditional alpha expectations/roles. that little trap of gender. because at heart vale is a little trickster who loves to buck expectations!!! and maybe his journey here is realizing that he can just be himself comma sex freak. and that leaning into those "alpha" traits doesnt mean he is conforming lmao he can still have his own unique version of his family. learning the norms of a society and what makes sense to him and what still doesnt. sorting through the weeds of it. and that being vulnerable rules sometimes. and that marc loves him. because that last one is kind of hard to ignore now... again because of that emotional and physical vulnerability that comes with the genre... honestly him knowing all of that about marc without having to actually TALK about it may solve some of their problems tbh. like why work through all that verbally when you can sniff them and then fuck them. kind of the omegaverse fantasy in quite a few ways
marc. jeez louise. i think would HATE it more. at first. control freak 9000. maybe has to miss races for heats. suppressants arent legal. experiencing weird omega sexism if we want to go that route OR. my favorite. has been lying to the press about his status since he presented. tiniest 15 yr old youve ever seen: im an alpha ! :3 uh sure bud. sure. i bet. SO actually maybe he falls into a world where hes just been white-knuckling it for the last billion years during race weekends and most of the paddock kind of KNOW (scent blockers only go so far...) but are lowkey afraid to call him on it dlkjdfljldsfd... similar to vale in this scenario, he sort of has to learn how to omega— and when his heat hits during summer break and his ass start leaking in the middle of the spanish equivalent of walmart, he finds a psycho little ziploc bag of sweaty vale shirts under his bed and he genuinely is like girl what the hellllllllllll.... wiggin out. and his next heat he turns up to race with truly NO practice managing it all, so its way more obvious than normal and the farce is growing thinner and vale literally pulls him aside to be like hey are you GOOD ? but in that valentino not that i care about your ass kind of unspeakably divorced way and marc is like woag. bc a pheromone truck just ran him over. eyes glassy face flushed sweaty as hell mouth a little open.... and he opens his mouth to make an excuse and nothing comes... and then obviously they fuck like its the end of the WORLD
and like i DO think marc pulls out of it more cleanly than vale overall, bc something in HIS lizard brain would be deeply soothed by like. excelling at being an omega. getting an A + in being a bottom. doing that for vale, specifically in the context of pushing his body to the absolute LIMIT to do it.... hes locked in. its go time. and then theres the insane possibility of vale putting his mouth on his neck and them getting basically soulbonded forever where they have to have crazy sex every few months ? hes like ummmm okay. i could get used to this for a while lmao
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definitelynotshouting · 2 months ago
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In the least possibly pressury way, as in feel free to ignore this if it isn’t something you want to do, this is just purely bc i reread the hunger au and am hungering for more - do you have any updates on how the next chapter is going?
Also (this is the same anon who asked how Impulse confronted Grian a little while ago btw in case ur seeing a slightly pattern) would you feel like expanding on how the other hermits or non hermit lifers felt when they found out Grian made the life games? Or how they feel about the state he’s ended up in? (tho i completely get that that is probably a thing ur going to explore anyway im just having thoughts)
Anyway this is such a good au, ur writings fantastic and im loving what ur doing. As a writer myself I may be taking some notes on how u r writing these characters because the way you make us feel exactly what they r feeling is incredible!
I wish i could give more updates on hunger au's progress but to be completely honest with you anon, my irl life kinda uh 😅���� just completely imploded right as i was getting back into the groove of things. I am making progress still, but its slower than i'd like-- by necessity ive had to emergency pivot my attention to more pressing matters going on rn 😭😭😭😭 trust me when i say its probably frustrating me more than anyone else at this point
I appreciate the compliments a lot tho!!! All of yalls encouraging words mean the world to me and make getting through these difficult situations a little bit easier❤️❤️❤️ i wish i could say more about how the hermits reacted, but thats actually MAJOR spoilers that im very excited to show you guys in-fic, so for now all i can really say is that you'll have to see :]]
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skibasyndrome · 4 months ago
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#not to be a broken lil man on main#but I was on the phone with my dad for 30 minutes just now (that's a lot for a phone call with him) and like.... damn. yeah. i do have one#parent who's not horrible huh#we talked a lot about my plans for the future...... which I only now told him bcs scary and bcs........ I never ever during my 25 years of#being alive got the impression from my parents that something like this would be an acceptable career choice or something they'd support#and I mean. my [redacted] of a mother is the best example for how. not alright it is with her that I'm doing something that's not very...#traditional for this family#but anyways. my dad was absolutely fucking lovely#to the point that I get getting teary eyed and felt my throat closing up cause. huh. i guess in his own way he does love me and believe in#he asked me to send him a link or a pdf of my first conference report because he wants to keep it somewhere 😭😭😭😭😭😭#I'm....... ouch. ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch#you know the ghosting I am really good at with tumblr chats (sorry guys. ilu. I just suck at communication)???? i'm also extremely good at#that with whatsapp chats and just. not calling my irl loved ones#so idk. hearing him say he understands and just wanted to make sure I wasn't upset with him and like. wanted to know if I was doing okay.#damn. okay. damn#idk#this was such a good talk and he was so suppertive and non-judgemental and I actually told him about my birthday and how my mother's call#upset me and he was like. yeah. same. and like... he's basically gone no contact with her as well as it turns out#idk. I really should give him more credit and like... I feel like there's so much shifting and change and development happening while I'm n#not there and sometimes it's hard to remember that he actually /could/ understand some things. just cause I've always been so used to not#sharing anything about myself because it wasn't safe when I was younger and... idk........ lots of emotions going on rn#so glad we talked though. so glad#simon.out.#if you read all this.... idk man.... sorry for oversharing but thanks for caring ig <3
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acebytaemin · 11 days ago
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I want to hear about your fave recent scientific discoveries, Ana!!
what do i know abt science though LMAOFIODJF
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xolaanii · 1 year ago
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Hello guys, I've been debating asking this for a few weeks but I was honestly way too embarassed. However I am now desperate since all attempts to find a job have not gone wel. I truly need help to finish paying my master's tuition fees so I can finally finish my thesis once and for all. right now 200 euro is my goal because I've managed to save up some money myself but any help would be super appreciated.
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Again I'm so sorry for asking this since I know so many of us are going through difficult times and just a reblog if you want would be enough thank you so much!
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to be fair, even if there are a lot of "no"s or "never heard of it"s, this blog is also an amazing peer-reviewed watch-list
ever since I started following the blog back in october, there are 2 shows I could now vote for as "yes", simply because the enthusiasm of the fans in the notes made me curious
'really does wonders for someone who's anxious about getting invested in new stuff
anyways, lots of love to you for managing this blog, and lots of courage too! I think we all get it can be overwhelming, but hey, it's a fun little thing you do for people (including yourself) to be entertained and share their interests with others, not a full-time job, so allow yourself to relax about queue management or whatever! if some people ever get upset, which I hope nobody will, well, it's on them
aaahh anon you are so so so lovely :') <3
i genuinely mean it when i say that it makes me happy to see people actively engage with the polls and maybe try out the submitted shows, it's the main objective of this blog!
and i get you, i'm particulary picky when it comes to tv, way more than with movies, so the tags are certainly a useful tool to see if something in my watchlist is worth my time ahaha
hopefully you'll keep finding value in this blog, and find more new shows that fit your taste ^^
thank you again for this ask, you are so sweet, i hope you have an amazing day/night :)
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cetoddle · 14 days ago
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some people are so mean for no reason. which i knew. but still.
#specifically. as a bug lover. people go out of their way all the time#to squish a bug in front of me or tell me about all the bugs they like to kill and things like that#knowing that it upsets me to hear things like that. and then they make fun of me when i cry#i don’t get it i really don’t#one of my other coworkers called me down to look at the ‘giant scary bug’ that was allegedly ‘chasing’ her (it was a pill bug)#so i escorted the bug outside and she was like making fun of me the whole time#she then proceeded to tell me about all kinds of bugs she’s killed lately and even a baby snake#i thought i actually about to start crying again i couldn’t even politely excuse myself i haf to just walk away#and then she calls after me and i was like what. thinking maybe she might apologize for how upset she obviously made me#and she just starts complaining about how her foot hurts#maybe it was mean but i said i don’t care and kept walking away#and then she said she was going to go out and squish that bug just to spite me#like??? that’s just not funny. it’s literally so easy to be respectful of other people#like you wouldn’t make those jokes about a cat or a dog so why is it okay when it comes to bugs or worms or snakes or rats or any other#creature that isn’t ’appealing’ to you#it just really upsets me. the way people treat bugs and other animals#and then use it against me knowing damn well how much it upsets me to hear that stuff#and make fun of me for getting upset? i’m the ‘weird one’ or i’m ’too sensitive’#like it’s not funny. it’s just not. it’s fucking rude and it pisses me off#people like. my sister. are okay#i know she doesn’t like bugs but she respects that i do#so i try to be respectful in return. she lets me talk about my favorite bugs to an extent#and i leave out the details i know she’s especially sensitive to#i never just send her a picture of a bug i always ask if it’s okay first#it’s so easy to just not be an asshole i don’t know why it’s so hard for some people..#anyways. if you don’t like bugs that’s fine. i encourage you to learn more about them#because i think a lot of people just don’t like that they don’t understand them#but if you can’t then that’s also fine. please just don’t be a jerk to those of us that like bugs#this has been my rant for the evening thank you everyone for coming. dies.#snow.txt
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seventh-district · 9 months ago
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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
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