#thank you for helping me grow up

[aly-s0ares]

i’m not come to you as a heartbroken person or a jealous person anymore. i genuinely care about you. whether it’s as a friend or a lover or someone from a distance that you’ll always wonder “what if” about, or someone you just hate, i care about and i know there’s nothing i can do anymore to make you realize i do. i don’t wnat to fight, i don’t drama. i just wnat you to know the truth and to liberate yourself from toxicity because even when you don’t realize it in yourself, i see it. and i’ll always tell you straight up even when you hate it, when something you are doing or someone in your life is harmful to you. because soemtimes even when the love is pure, you still have to be tough and you have to hold someone accountable and you have to be honest.

i love you. and even though you made the choice to not love me back, i want you to be genuinely loved by whoever you choose to love. because i just want you happy even if it’s not with me. because i know, i don’t make you happy like i wished i did.

and even though i am working on myself and creating a life that makes me complete and more secure and something im proud of, i know you didn’t choose me and its hard to accept, but i respect it. however, i want you to feel dignified and not humiliated and i wnat you to feel safe and not scared and i want you to genuinely love and to be loved in return and not have it be for looks on the internet or for them to care more about how they look more than how they care about you.

it’s hard to love you this much knowing that you don’t love yourself and want to fix things for yourself so you can be genuinely happy.

[nevermeyers]

I find it very realistic that Megumi wants to try to live for someone else again instead of for himself directly. I mean it. It will take him a long time to recover from what he has suffered, which was too much for a child (because he is still a child!!). At first I thought Megumi was going to pick himself up, but looking at it from another perspective and analyzing my own experience with mental health: it makes sense. Megumi needs help. And he will get it. Yuuji and his friends will teach him to live for himself. The ending of Megumi's character is a new beginning, unlike the others.

Btw, did y'all notice his scars are Sukuna's? The way i'd kms on the spot, poor boy :( he's going to live with the curse of remembering every time he looks on the mirror

[louroth]

All this nervous energy just running off of you as long as you. keep. moving. The adrenaline feels lovely as it surges, past the last set, into another, and a third— you're going for failure, aren't you?

Always.

It is not enough to coast the high of enough. It has to be more. There has to be the tenuous sigh of relief as your body scrambles to survive within the frame you've made for it. Just one more. Another.

The weights fall to the floor with a clatter and your mouth splits into a wide grin of approval as everything— your vision, your limbs, your spirit— trembles, quakes: the good kind of exhaustion. The ceiling is the loveliest view you've ever seen— you did it. The something you can do. Colors dull in comparison to it. As you lay on the mat, tracing worms of fracturing color that twitch with your heightened breath, a face steps in, swirling your vision into whirls of lights and traces of sweat. A smirk, a raised eyebrow— distant, not staring, but aware. He hefts his own weight. Flicks his focus to your red, flushed face. Meets your eyes for a fraction of a second before curling the iron once more.

"A sight for sore eyes."

You, at a lack for words, trace an eye over his form. He rolls his lips. You flick a brow.

And that is all there is to it.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Aw! XL cooking reminded me of when I was working with children and they'd get nightmares/scared of monsters, so was go to the garden and make Monster Soup! Anything that looked good would go into the nearest source of water (often a bird bath) so that the monsters would know we are kind people and stay outside and not come inside. Also the monsters would think of us as friends and protect us instead of scaring us. Now I'm hoping that I have turned any of these kids into bad cooks bc I was like that flower looks good! Toss it in! 😅😄😄😄

Thank you for reminding me of this memory!

I'm-In-Love-With-The-Monster Soup.

[triglycercule]

oh yeah before i forget cute mttpoly headcanon because i said so: when killer finds out (through SOME way of means. he has his ways) that dust and horror like something then at every chance he can he goes and finds that thing for them :3 because I SAID SO AND IT'S CUTE ‼️‼️ (something something killer has no idea how to properly show affection and appreciation after believing his whole life was meant to cause pain and suffering to those close to him and now that he's trying he does silly goofy stuff like this hehe,,,,,,, dust is DROWNING in piles of fluffy blankets and books. horror cannot keep up with eating the amount of snacks killer keeps stealing for him 😞😞😞)

[serxinns]

Guys I got important news.....

TODAYS MY BIRTHDAY

Shout out to my mom and dad for performing a spiritual ritual to make me on this day

And my aunt for giving me 50 bucks now im gonna go inhale it like I'm Mr krabs

[skeletoninthemelonland]

😭😭

[choshasan]

caught up to Blue Period chp. 71 today, spoilers...

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As a Young artist™️✨️ Blue period is one of the manga that makes me suffer the god damn most bro. It is fucking gut wrenching.

Blue period is the reason I decided I was gonna work my ass off and attend an art university (specifically try and reach TUA)

And the reason I imediately gave up on that dream.

I picked it up when the anime came out on netflix, and back then, I was starting my journey as an actual artist (I got put in art class at my highschool), I had just started learning digital art, I was getting out of my "I want to be a rebelling delinquent" phase and that anime gave me dreams and aspirations.

And then. Then I continued the manga. And as funny as it is, my life coincidentally followed close to Yatora's.

Family that struggles with money, lowkey overbearing mother, having dreams but not knowing where to start from and taking messy steps into trying, discovering competition,

And I? Was too blind to notice because I was just focused on how weird and hot Hashida is...

And for a while, I put down the manga, feeling constantly exhausted, depressed and what I didn't know at the time, was (autistic) burnt out. From everything.

I got lost. I couldn't bring in straight A's anymore, I couldn't even get out of bed, I was breaking down every morning that I was forced to go to school, having mental breakdowns, crying in the bus on my way there, losing sleep, living off of coffee and monster energy and redbull, having nothing to comfort me anymore the way things like manga and anime and video games used to, they all felt exhausting. And the worst? I couldn't write nor draw anymore. I was so exhausted of everything, my two favourite things became a burden to me. And I felt lost. If I didn't have art? Then what the fuck had my life ammounted to?

And eventually, with enough time and support from my friends, I got back into the things I liked, still feeling pretty lost over everything, but having the energy to find the things I liked again.

And I picked up manga again, and I picked up blue period again.

And where had I happen to leave off?

Right before Yatora meets No Marks and Kirio. And that helped me find some sence in my confusion as I read on. I learned that there isn't just one clear path to being an artist, that there are no rules to art, and that everyone finds their own answer at some point as to why they make art, no matter how small and trivial or great and philosophical it may be.

I know for me, I have two reasons to make art, 1. it makes me happy, and it gives me a sence of self. And 2. art has consistently saved my life throughout multiple periods of my life. I find peace in art, I get to experiance emotions no one else can make me feel and no one else can feel for me. With art, I don't need someone to explain to me how I should be feeling or reacting, it all comes naturally. Art is the one thing you cannot strip humanity from, and that no matter where you go, will be present. Art is beautiful, and it's ugly. It's trivial, and it's philosophical. It can be anything and everything. Art is natural. And I love art. Art makes me happy. I'll forever be thankful to one of the manga that saved my life and gives me drives, consistently reminding me why I make art, and giving me a drive to keep going.

Anyway...

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[ryanstillwrites-if]

so glad you finally found an apartment also WHAT THE HECK CONGRATS ON BECOMING PARENTS????? SO HAPPY FOR YOU I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!!!!! SENDING CYBER HUGS FOR BOTH YOU AND YOUR GRACIOUS LADY!!!

thank you! honestly i still cant really believe it, like me? a PARENT?? i can barely keep myself alive and ive had almost three decades of practise. but it's okay, i have at least seven months to get my act together... wish me luck!

[maegalkarven]

I'm thinking about Isobel who came back from the dead a hundred years later, who came back to the lands cursed and her father fallen into madness.

Who eminates a barely indistinguishable whiff of rot and Myrkul's power. Who was touched by the forces so repulsing she wishes she has never come back.

And who still has Moonmaiden's favor and her blessing.

Like by all means Selûne had every right to punish Isobel for her father's sins, esp considering what Isobel is, undeniably, the cause of Ketheric turning into the villain he became. Or rather, her death is.

Instead Selûne grants her enough power to battle the curse and create a small safe harbor amidst darkness. More power than the most have, as priest of Selune!Tav might comment.

Instead Selûne favors her, loves her.

Isobel is the indirect reason Aylin is enslaved and the lands are dying under the curse, and Selûne never turns her back on her.

Idk it just makes me emotional

[anonyhun]

I think in destressing, I am learning to be free. Free to be cringe...

[meatriarchived2]

yknow im probably going to sound a bit overdramatic for a moment with this sorry but,

ive said like two lore streams ago or w/e that im not going to let myself get as heated as i did at the start with how gun's been handling ( read : forgetting she exists ) maria all this time bc at this point i consider my portrayal of her an oc, as i essentially feel across the board with my other texas muses frankly but like.

i do think, while i was obviously thrilled to no end that they announced maria & she was playable etc, i do think the execution of her in-game really sincerely disappointed and pissed me off so badly. like yes end of the day shes a bunch of pixels etc etc whatever sure but its like. genuine frustration at how absolutely sidelined she has been since day one. and i know theres plenty of valid arguments for other characters receiving similar treatment ( ie. sonny ) in a variety of ways, and i do get the angle of maria initially serving as a haunting of the narrative, haunting her friends and sister and being more of that sort of invisible presence rather than physically there in the moment like they all are - but its severely disappointing to see just how little they give a shit about her, both in lore & in gameplay etc.

model-wise? shes completely fine i adore how she looks and everything shes beautiful shes adorable shes exactly as babygirl as i hoped and imagined her to be & look. but shes otherwise both so underwhelming and so borderline useless ( being generous ) and her ability is just the most uncreative pointless thing i feel they could have thought to give her. like. theres so many pieces i can rip apart for just that alone but i dont wanna yap for an eternity lmao

i just wish they gave an ounce of a shit about her. and like sure yes they could easily alter things or add on things on for her in the future etc. sure, yeah, fine and all but its just... i dont think im going to forget how sloppily put together they made her. or how they've consistently forgotten & disrespected her all these months. and with them branching away from her & the friendgroups' story into other victims' as time passes, their already sheer-ass attention spans are only going to grow thinner across the rosters and i guess in my eyes theyre just never going to make up for any of how they treated her character. and like yes thats fine bc i & others will do her infinitely better justice than they ever will but its still just like... its still disappointing.

like so much went wrong with that release day that i think i was just trying to cling onto the excitement of her just being playable but everything else, certain other complaints etc i wont get into, made me think that disappointment in how she was executed was an exaggeration on my part bc im too attached to her lmao and so i kinda just internalized the disappointment i think but it really is just like man. i feel like ive lowkey been in mourning of her since she was released. no faith at all that they are ever going to give her an ounce of dignity outside of how her model looks.

and again. i know i and the fandom do her infinitely more justice than they ever will at this point and that fact alone does make up for this all, i just wish she was remotely fun to play as and didnt feel like such a slapped together, zero-thought, near copy-paste non-asset in-game. i play her bc i love her but she also just makes me fucking sad LMAO

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[hojetsala]

So I had a dentist appointment today that I was dreading. But on the way I had a random encounter that made the whole trip worth it.

I was riding up the elevator and at the top stood a lady. She addressed me and asked me for a favor. She asked if I would ride the elevator back down with her, because she was scared to do it alone. It was just a fear she had. So I said sure and we rode back down together. I told her of my dentist fear to take her mind off it. At the bottom she thanked me and left and I rode back up.

Only later did it occur to me. I am not usually brave enough to tell most of my friends that I am scared and need help. This lady did this to a total stranger!

No wonder she was scared to go in the elevator. Her massive balls of steel were above the weight limit.

[byanyan]

so anyway, thanks for reading my little dissertations on byan's gender. sorry for not writing again today, i'm just. i'm fuckin goin through it rn man

[antihibikase]

Crazy how I really only started sharing most of my irl matters here because I felt like I had to justify the posts regarding my horrific mood swings, bouts of depression, why I'm always on edge, etc. It's not really because of pride or anything- I just really know how easy it is for people to see me ask for money, and take a look at what my hobbies are, and come to a conclusion that I must be faking what I say to get money for toys/plushies. I'm not. The money I get from paypal as a result of my posts asking for help always goes to my parents- for bills, for food, and until a couple of months ago, for overdue rent. The only other times I asked for money for myself are because I was either starving (and again, that money goes to my family; it would kill me if only I ate and they didn't), or that one time my tooth was hurting so bad I couldn't sleep or eat at all.

The only time I use money to buy toys/plushies is because it's either allowance I saved up, or it was from commissions; not emergency posts. And even then, I always have savings put aside just in case my family needs it.

[musubiki]

does lime ever cry about anything or is angry more of his emotion? cause in all the childhood limochi comics mochi seems to be more the overflowing emotional one and lime is the more repressed on even back then. does that change at all ?

good catch!!! youre correct little mochi was VERY much the cry easy child. even if it was a little inconvenience or when she was angry the tears would flow!! not that she was a whiny brat but any time she got upset she couldnt stop the tears lol

and yes lime channels his negative emotions into anger. baby lime was very "haha REAL men dont cry!!!" type and even as he got older he recognizes "okay yeah everyone cries no big deal hahah" but theres still that underlying mindset. that being said hes a very dry anger type, so it takes a lot to actually get tears to come out, usually the only people hed ever cry for or to is his family + mochi.

the only time we actually SEE him cry is whatever the point is where all his pent up resentment about mochi leaving all of them without any word or warning comes out!! and as SOON as his eyes start watering he just freezes he cant even get anymore words out once he gets to that point

(and actually tried to up and run once the tears started but mochi wouldnt let him. and thats the only time we see lime cry -w- )