#thank you for everyone who reached out

[lovely-w0unds]

I’m still alive

[milk-lover]

Sobbing uncontrollably reading through a dissertation about the college experience of students with ADHD. It is like reading a report about my life that just says over and over "My experiences are real. My hardships are real. I am not lazy, I am not dumb. My struggles were not my fault, and they were not a moral failing. The failure was with the system, not with me."

Here's a line that got me in particular:

"Hotez et al.(2022) compared the health, academic, and non-academic capacities of a nationally representative sample of U.S. first-year college students with ADHD and without ADHD. Students with ADHD self-reported lower academic aspirations and more feelings of depression and overwhelm, ranking themselves lower in their general emotional health. The fact that students with ADHD scored in the highest 10th percentile for many non-academic traits, such as artistic ability, computer skills, creativity, public speaking, social confidence, self-understanding and understanding of others, compassion, and risk-tasking, suggests that this population has strengths that are frequently underappreciated in academia."

(the paper is a thesis called "Understanding the Collegiate Experience for Students With ADHD" by Gia Long, 2022)

[scramratz]

I knew that Japanese futon I bought 2 years ago would come in handy

[warmfuzzyanimal]

thank you

[pseudophan]

there's been a lot of interest already in the cookbook, a staggering amount actually, which is very exciting!!! because so many people want to get involved though i need to figure out the best way to do this, to avoid repeating dishes and making sure at least the majority of them are actually feasible for dan and phil to make and eat lmao. like do i think they will actually use it.. ehh.. i have my doubts.. but nevertheless we will treat it as if they will, just in case

obviously they have to be relatively easy, that's not to say they all need to be absolute beginner recipes though like lets give them some credit, but at the same time also nothing suuuper complicated

there's also the part where phil hates or can't have like half of all foods, that's another challenge. on that note, does anyone have a comprehensive list of things both of them have said they don't like/can't eat? or even dishes they say they enjoy a lot? phil shouldn't have dairy (though that doesn't necessarily mean zero dairy in any dishes, just maybe let's try to limit it), doesn't like cheese, mushrooms, soup, olives, what else?

anyway my main point i was gonna get to at the start of this post before it got away from me is i think i'll make a google form where you can submit what dish(es) you would like to contribute and then i'll look through them all and figure it out from there. i'm guessing the best way of doing it would be to get everyone to provide multiple options so that if a dish gets repeated a lot we can still try to get as many people as possible involved. whether the final pick is one recipe per person or not remains to be seen, it's hard to tell exactly how many will actually participate in the end

sorry this was supposed to be a short post just going "i'm making a google form", i promise there will be more info and less rambling coming later

[bonefall]

Lil' Update

I got about 50 people who reached out to be involved as guest artists, and narrowed that down to 42! That's a lot of people!

I'd like to try to involve almost everyone at least once, taking into account for everyone's strengths, interests, and skill level. So here's the agenda I've got planned;

FIRST, the mostly-finished posts in my drafts are getting revamped, finished, and assigned. I'm currently working with the artists who've claimed Instruments and StarClan 102 to get those ready, and then moving on to Parasites, Welcome to ShadowClan, and Flax Processing, and a couple others. I've got an artist in mind for each-- though it's possible that plans might change based on availability.

AFTER THAT, I'm going to tackle some of the most important and requested guides, as well as the topics in my drafts that need more massive re-writes. Boar Hunting, Winter Preparations, How Scent Works, etc. I don't have artists set for these yet, so if you're on my list, I will be approaching folks randomly once there's a presentable draft ready to show.

All the while, I am still subject to the whims of Whatever Thing I Want To Write About At The Time. SO if you're on my list, I might leap at you at some point to offer you something relevant to the examples and interests you shared with me.

So if you're someone who reached out to me and you suddenly get an interest in a new topic, or want an excuse to practice a specific subject, or I mention something offhandedly while answering an ask that you find interesting, feel free to shoot me another DM so I can add it to my notes.

LASTLY; This remains open. If you want to hop into my list at some point, the opportunity will remain available for the foreseeable future.

(Being a "guest artist" isn't a limited slots sort of thing-- and it's also NOT a "one and done" deal where everyone only gets one slot. It's more like giving me your info so that I know you'd like to be involved at some point. Here is a link back to the original details.)

[ingravinoveritas]

Follow-up to this post from yesterday: I made it through the surgery! Had something of a rough time in recovery, as my body is not used to narcotics/anesthesia, but very happy that I got to go home last night and didn't have to stay over at the hospital. Also incredibly relieved to report that they didn't have to remove one of my ovaries! I was so afraid of surgery for a long time, but I am beyond grateful that every nurse and team member was so kind and professional and answered all of my questions. I don't think I fully processed everything that happened until today, as I did not cry once yesterday, but I did finally cry this afternoon. Feeling sore right now and standing up from sitting is nothing less than an exercise in masochism, but so, so happy with how well things went. And my absolute heartfelt thanks to everyone who left such encouraging, kind comments on my other post--it means more than you could ever possibly know... ❤️

[poughkeepsies]

everything's still messed up but I got a job interview for my first EMT job today and went on a really nice date with a hot pilot so january isn't taking me out just yet

[leqclerc]

Happy new year everyone 🫶🏻🥂🍾

Not even exaggerating 2024 has been the worst year of my life to date 🙃 So I really hope 2025 is better or at the very least not any worse because I really can’t handle that I fear 😭

Sending love and hugs to everyone! ❤️��

[raytm]

like this & mention a muse & i'll send u some asks as a treat

[qkmlh]

Midoriya Izuku. You will always be famous and beloved to me. Thank you for everything, Horikoshi-sensei.

[hikaruchen]

Commissions!

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The Process ✨

[osachiyo]

hi🧍🏽‍♀️

[camojacketfag]

juan pls tell me you're not dead

and if I was? What then? lol.

No. Truth be told. The holidays are always incredibly fucking stressful for me. I choose to disappear and remove myself from existing before involving myself in some rudimentary portrayal of a special holiday that requires me to seem merry and fucking bright. I just want to be left alone while I read my books and play my little farming simulator games. My OCD is the only part of me that becomes lifelike during these months and god knows I shouldn’t actually pay it any mind which leaves me completely disconnected from everyone and everything and truth be told, that’s just how I like it. I think on another note I just also needed to assess what it is I still stand for, and who I stand for. Winter always reminds me just how lonesome I can become. More so than just seasonal depression, I start reflecting on the years past and wondering where it is I’d like to end up. I miss my friends who never text back. I miss my parents who I’ve long outgrown. I miss my naivety and stupidity and drive I’m afraid I’ll never get back. Yet change is lifes greatest gift, I believe. Before, I used to spiral and fall headfirst amongst my hardwood floors and chaotically declare I would go back to who I used to be no matter fucking what. Now, I realize, that part of me is lost, and admired, but not retrievable. Change demands its acceptance and to look back and acknowledge I’m no longer as scared, or as weak or as confused, and it’s such fucking blessing man. That’s what the end of a year brings. It’s up to us to accept it and understand that the future, no matter how strenuous and frightening it may seem, is gifting us with opportunities and perspective our younger selves only ever dreamed about. Here’s to a more found self and a poignant vision in the images I choose to share on here in the upcoming year. ❤️

[the-kingshound]

Hey, I hope everything is alright :) It's been a while since you've posted anything. Sending hugs and well wishes, and hoping to hear from you soon just to make sure you're alive xoxoxo.

Hi! I want to thank everyone who sent messages to check on me, you were all so sweet❤ I promise I'm ok, I've just been very busy with what life was throwing my way, so there's that.

I'm making slow progress on the game but hoping to do way more before the year ends.

Oh and in just a few minutes I will officially be 25 (here it's not the 18th yet)

[icewindandboringhorror]

currently at That Point which occurs once every few months where one briefly begins pacing around the house teary eyed contemplating selling their own organs or becoming an online scammer or getting on anxiety meds so you can bear the risk taking required to be a hitman or so on and so forth.... why must everything so Expensive... Surely all would be healed in life if only I had one big plate of lasagna and a simple loan of $40,000 ... auoughhh....