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Just played 3.0 today and I have a lot of thoughts about Phainon...
Imagine Phainon finding out you were hurt because of his carelessness and him making up to you...
"You should keep your man on a leash. Let him hurt himself begging for your forgiveness" You already know that Mydei- one of the Chrysos Heirs- the crown prince of Kremnos and your brother have a bit of a temper but never this much.
"I'm sorry but I don't understand what you mean, Lord Mydei" you shake your head, wanting to deny his view of yourself and Phainon. You look down at your bandaged arm and frown, the attack on the city left you wounded alongside many others. Still, you doubt he has his mind on anything beside yourself at the moment. That is why you are hiding from him, nestled in a corner of the public bath house, away from people's gaze. Yet, Mydei found you easily like he always does" We are merely... acquaintances"
The crown prince chuckle before raising his cup, pouring the pomegranate juice down the water, dying it red like blood. "Still in denial? You are gonna regret saying that"
His gaze now on you, his smile remains yet it waver. "Dear sister, he's gonna ask for forgiveness, be it killing himself or covering your house in the ashes of our enemies"
"Phainon... enough. This i..is enough." You try to push the man in front of you away yet he remains the same. You can't see anything anymore, and you feel like you are gonna get sick.
"Calm now, my dear. I'm still not satisfied. You must have been so scared. Let me comfort you." Using his own body, he pinned yours against the wall with his arm raised above you. The wound on his arm- the same as yours is still freshly bleeding, torn apart by his own hand. The blood falls from it, drenching your head, face and shirt in red. The smell, the wetness drives you mad with fear.
"Mydei told me that in Kremnos, when someone faults their partner and wants to ask for forgiveness, they need to inflict a certain amount of pain on themselves before being forgiven by their love."
Phainon then gazes down at you, eyes full of devotion and madness in his eyes. "But my dear, you are too forgiven. I let you get hurt despite the strength I carry, despite being by your side."
"So until I drench you red from head to toes, I am not forgiven."
Mydei doesn't look really surprised, seeing Phainon after that day, wearing a collar.
"Not much of a leash, but this will do for now" Phainon smirks, passing Mydei. The wound on his arm is half heartedly wrapped, still drenched in blood.
#hsr phainon#hsr phainon x reader#phainon x reader#yandere phainon#yandere phainon x reader#yandere hsr#amphoreus#hsr#phainon#I'm looking forward to pulling this man#-(•~•)√ serving food
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I'm talking more the 'holy' roman empire replacing all local religions and cultures with Christianity by the sword, killing anyone who resisted, the whole thing that jumpstarted the religion after an initial spread throughout the empire. It may have spread naturally at some points, especially in the years before being adopted by the empire of the time (and i dont know enough to say it was a natural spread even then), but for most of it, it's been through violence and oppression. This goes back further than white supremacy and paeudoscientific race bullshit, though it also did merge with that.
I shouldn't be surprised that neonazis are trying to make it about them, but I'm mostly surprised they aren't more on the empire side of things. I didn't even know they were being weird about this too. They usually love Christian domination. Hitler sure was all about those 'western values'.
It was more about absorption than eradication and replacement back in holy roman empire past (and even more so politics), but it was still violent, and it was still forced, and it still did away with other cultures. Genocides typically target specific groups, but theirs was a more general absorption and conversion of anything not them. Still a form of genocide in my mind as the end result is the same, with the original culture and people lost with time, but that much is arguable I will admit. Again, the very ways that oppression manifests have changed a lot over the centuries. They would have and actually did do all that without Christianity as an excuse as well. A lot of the empires history predates Christianity altogether. But back then, full genocide was way more costly. Much easier to conquer instead so rebuilding is easier in a pre industrial world. These days they can level a block and pave it over in a week, but that wasn't always the case.
Come to think of it, it does makes sense why neonazis are latching onto this. They're always afraid of foreigners doing to them what they do to foreigners. Every accusation is a confession with them.
But there hasn't really been a period of history since then where Christianity and military haven't been linked. And I'd argue that one can't meaningfully consent to adopting a religion that will punish you for not adopting it, even indirectly. And even if it doesn't, the cultural osmosis is hard to resist, kind of like how the US infects everything. It's coerced at best.
This isn't to say that Christianity invented the idea by any means. But it's spread has been tied to imperialism from very close to its beginning, and has been going strong for over a millenia now.
If I'm actually just way off in my history please let me know though, because I'd like to learn more. None of this is meant in a hostile way, but i cant convey that with words on a screen that well. But this has been my understanding of history as of now, based on what ive learned. But it wouldn't be the first time I've had to unlearn some stuff, so if you know more please don't hesitate to share. I would like for there to have been a time where people actually adopted and spread the religion because they believed in the values of that religion. I've just never seen any sign of it.
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i have been trying soooooo hard to resist his charms but for the past month or so it's like first has been on a one man mission to ruin me. like what do you mean first said he's the most similar to kant out of all his characters because he loves physical affection even if it's just linking pinkies. what do you mean he cried because he felt so bad that he couldn't get his best friend the present he wanted for his birthday. what do you mean the first director he ever worked with was mean to him and threatened to cut him from the show so now he goes out of his way to be kind and patient and understanding with his younger less experienced colleagues. what do you mean khaotung said first is so nice to everyone he meets to the point that sometimes he's taken advantage of. what do you mean the username that first uses on the game he plays (on an ipad while at the gym btw) is basically the thai equivalent of 'pookie'. what do you mean the thing first was most thankful for in 2024 was feeling like he was becoming more himself than ever before and having people who supported him as he explored and figured himself out. like does he know how brave it is to do that. does he know how brave it is to admit that. does he know that he has broken something in me in the most beautiful way. does he know that he is so charming and lovely and has such a warm almost childlike energy about him. does he know how beautiful and rare and wonderful that is. does he know that i have unfortunately imprinted on him like a baby duck and now i have to stay with him forever. does he know that.
#i know the some of this isnt new but it's hurting different. i meant hitting different actually but it definitely hurt different too.#and i know i say it a lot but first really does remind me of jungkook in a way#they both have this sweetness and this kindness and this unrelenting warmth that's almost unbelievable like how are you this lovely#and don't get me wrong they definitely have differences but it's just. such a wonder to me. that people like that exist.#generous. warm. would do anything to make other people happy even go their own detriment. which is not a good thing but it's like#wow you have so much love in you i can see it in everything you do. every touch and every smile. and that's so fucking beautiful to me#anyway that's my baby fr now yall definitely not allowed to be mean to him otherwise i will start being mean back and i don't want that!#like at first i was like oh i just think firstkhao are neat but now it's like oh dear i love them fr i fear
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thinking a lot about soft! Vi 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫 maybe even thinking about being babied 😵💫😵💫
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soft!vi who has a tough exterior but she always finds herself letting her walls down for you at the end of the day. when she's sighing from exhaustion, slipping into bed just ready to sink into oblivion. she just wants to roll over, ignore your curled up body that lay next to her. but she doesn't, she couldn't. no matter how tired she was, she needed you, needed your body melting into her like liquid in her hands. so she does just that, scoops you closer to her, her touch gentle in contrast to her rough and callused hands. she'll kiss the top of your head, all of your face. she'll whisper the sweetest things in your ear until she falls asleep, even her snores gentle.
soft!vi who you find humming as she does domestic tasks, like when she's cooking or cleaning. she's not even aware that she does it, solely focused on the task at hand. you think it's cute, never bringing it to her attention in hopes she'll never stop. once you found her going through the mail, humming an awfully familiar tune. you watched with admiration as vi sorted through the bills and the junk mail. "look, babe, they sent me a letter about my car's extended warranty." she laughs, pausing her humming to lift up the letter she was reading. "what idiots. they really think i'm gonna fall for this." she chuckles again, going back to her assortment of mail and her humming resumes. you just want to preserve her in a little box and keep her forever.
soft!vi who plays with your hair while you do some off hand task. not really doing any specific hairstyle, just moving strands over other strands and then letting them fall back into their place. you don't mind when she does, pretending you don't notice. it was the silent moments that you held deep in your heart, and so did vi. vi's hands would more often than not eventually make their way out of your hair, sliding down your body. she would grip your waist, or your hips, or massage your shoulders, or sometimes even slip her hands under your shirt to feel your warm skin. it wasn't even sexual, not when she would cup your breasts or kiss your neck as she did, she just loved having her hands on you in any way possible.
soft!vi who has a hard time just saying how she feels. she just can't get the words out to save her life. so you'll find little things around the house a day or two after an argument. flowers on the counter when you wake up. the dishes washed and dried. that shower curtain you've been meaning to install for months now? vi did it. it's sweet really, little things to let you know she still loved you or she's not mad at you because you both know she'll never say it out loud. or even when you two weren't arguing, you'll still find things like this. cookies she picked up for you on her way over. or when you caught her reading that book you were talking about earlier in the week. but your favorite is when you find little notes left on your fridge stuck by the (carefully picked, seriously it was no coincidence she picked those every single time) heart magnets. sometimes it was just a little drawing and sometimes it would be sweet words like 'miss you' or 'thinking of you'. it made your heart swell every time.
soft!vi who tries to make you breakfast in bed when she stays over at your apartment but you usually wake up to a smoke detector going off. it's sort of amazing at how she's such a good cook but such a bad one at the same time. like she'll burn the toast but make a perfect 5 star meal with bacon, eggs, and pancakes with a chocolate ganache. you didn't even know what a ganache was until you stumbled into the kitchen with worry only to be met with vi's crooked smile holding an entirely black piece of toast. "i was trying to make breakfast." and then she proceeded to explain what she made. "so you made all this, but... burnt the toast?" you weren't mad just... in awe. how do you burn toast? but you laugh anyway, kissing her nerves away.
soft!vi who babies you in the least condesceding way possible. she knows you like to be independent, as does anyone, but she can't help babying you every once in a while. it's simple things really, you didn't even notice at first. she'd grab things from you. "that looks heavy, let me do it." and would not even give you a chance to argue. she'd carry you anywhere, holding you in her arms like there wasn't a worry in the world. she'd wrap you in a bunch of blankets if you were napping on the couch, making sure you don't wake up cold. (you might wake up hot though.) she'd grab your cold hands in her warm ones to warm you up. it was just little things but vi always made sure you felt cared for.
#⚙️ ⋆ arcane#vi arcane#arcane#vi x reader#vi#vi league of legends#league of legends#arcane x reader#arcane s2#violet arcane#vi smut
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THEY'RE SO FAKE!!
charles leclerc x australian!cricketer!male!reader
request: Hey can I request a Charles Leclerc x male reader(cricketer reader) fake/pr dating smau
summary: fake, real, pr, true love ... who's to tell? certainly not you and your boyfriend.
warnings: swearing, minor hate comments, parental favouritism (lighthearted), mentions of kitchen fires (minor), i don't know much about cricket so this is brought to you again by my parents watching it all the time :)
charles_leclerc
📍 hungaroring, hungary
liked by pierregasly, lewishamilton, and 892,736 others
charles_leclerc wrapped up in budapest! next up, spa 😘
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user1 HOLY HARD LAUNCH BATMAN????
user2 we lost charles???
user3 be fr we never "had" him in the first place
user4 such a shame, i thought he was a respectable driver ... this user has been blocked by the creator
user5 good race! not quite a podium, but we're so proud of you <3
user6 FORZA CHARLESSSSS
user7 LECLERRCCCCCCCC
user8 is he dating that really hot cricket guy?
user9 yes! y/n l/n!
youruser
📍 brisbane, australia
liked by oscarpiasti, patcummins30, and 245,482 others
youruser belgium was pretty cool, but i'll take the pitch over the track any day 💪
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user10 what is this dry ass caption, dad?
user11 calling it right now, they're a pr stunt
user12 or they could just be private?
user13 to anyone wondering why us y/n fans think this is shifty, he's usually wayyyyy funnier than this
user14 you don't deserve charles! this user has been blocked by the creator
user15 this is the weirdest crossover i've ever seen
user16 if this is a pr stunt it's pretty weird bc i don't really see what either charles or y/n gain from publicly being in a gay relationship?
user17 attention ig 🤷
charles_leclerc
📍 circuit zandvoort, netherlands
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charles_leclerc does he really love you if he won't go stargazing on batting cages with you?
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user18 LOVE???
user19 well nobody can say charles doesn't move fast off-track ...
user20 this HAS to be pr bc in what world does charles post without his filter or a kissy face emoji 🤨🤨🤨
user21 he's not good enough for you this user has been blocked by the creator
user22 has anybody else noticed that charles and y/n have both been deleting hate comments about each other and blocking people left right and center?
user23 yes! as they should tbh
user24 kinda disrespectful if you ask me
user25 user24 good thing we didn't!
user26 i'm glad to see that even if (ha) this is a pr relationship, they clearly have a lot of respect for each other
youruser
📍 autodromo nazionale monza, italy
liked by jackdoohan, scuderiaferrari, and 334,920 others
youruser cricket fans are insane enough, these ferrari people are next level
oh yeah, and we won :D
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user27 y/n fans i see what you mean he is funny
user28 help why does charles look like he's high AND drunk at the same time 😭
youruser the holy spirit of enzo ferrari possessed him
user29 please god never let ferrari media training near this man
user30 loving all the f1 fans realizing that y/n is actually just an incredibly weird guy who happens to be able to throw a ball well liked by charles_leclerc and others
user31 loving all the cricket fans realizing that charles is actually just a little goofball who happens to be able to drive fast liked by youruser and others
user32 they're already at the stage of liking funny comments about each other, they grow up so fast 🥹
charles_leclerc
📍baku, azerbaijan
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charles_leclerc maybe next year baku 😘 congrats to my son of course ;)
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user33 i can't believe they're keeping the adoption joke going still
oscarpiastri mega race, dad 💪
youruser charles_leclerc i thought leo was your only child
charles_leclerc well i may have missed one
olliebearman ollie bearman erasure!!!!!!!
user34 y/n is either extremely gullible or extremely chill with charles' grid children but either way it's funny
youruser secret third option: a cheeky fuck
ausmencricket can confirm 👍
user35 that second picture called me single in every language those two idiots speak :(
user36 at first i was like CHARLESY/N!!! as a joke, but bro ... i don't think it's a joke anymore ...
user37 these posts feel less and less fake every time 🤨
youruser
📍 singapore
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youruser end of pre-season means less f1 ... but more cricket!
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user38 when did you become a photographer mr. l/n
youruser when i started dating a pretty boy?
charles_leclerc heheheheeehehe 🥰🥰🥰🥰
user39 oh they are UNBEARABLY cute
user40 praying for y/n's teammates bc i've never met him but i know that man is the biggest simp on planet earth
user41 praying for the grid bc i've never met charles but i know that man is the biggest simp in the world
user42 ^^ i only believe in a higher power when shit like this happens
pierregasly to everyone who thinks they're disgustingly cute online, imagine being there in person 😑
user43 did- did pierre just confirm that charlesy/n is actually real?
user44 i wouldn't read into it. he's probably just in on the pr stunt.
charles_leclerc
📍 circuit of the americas, usa
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charles_leclerc austin, you were kind to me 😘
one more win and lifetime with you in the bag <3
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user45 oh this isn't very pr-relationship of you charles
lewishamilton congrats👏 excited to share a team with you next year brother!
user46 sebastianvettel aussiegrit fernandoalo_oficial jensonbutton lewishamilton nicorosberg are you guys jealous that charles embraced the gay and didn't deprive himself for years
youruser this is WILD
youruser keep going
user47 lmfao he is such a menace 😭
leclerc_pascale proud of you, chouchou. make sure to bring my favourite son home with you next time!
charles_leclerc why does he get to be your favourite :(
arthur_leclerc yeah, we're your real sons, maman!!
leclerc_pascale he can cook without almost burning my kitchen down.
charles_leclerc ...
arthur_leclerc ...
charles_leclerc understandable, have a nice day 🫡
user48 the leclerc bros fighting over y/n being the favourite-
user49 is y/n really the only one who can cook?
user50 i think i speak for all cricket fans when i say in what world can y/n cook??
youruser this one 👍
youruser also it helps that the standards are VERY low
youruser
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youruser what started out as a fake relationship rapidly turned into the best thing that ever happened to me.
love you charlie, can't wait to spend forever and ever and ever with you x
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user51 so you're telling me they're real life fake dating to real dating???
user52 so half of us were right to begin with and half of us were right at the end?
user53 seems pretty fair to me 🤷
user54 fake charlesy/n believers 🤝 real charlesy/n truthers
user55 these pictures of charles are all so Boyfriend
youruser he is very Boyfriend :D
charles_leclerc youruser you're very Boyfriend too 😘
user56 crying they're so cute 😭
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author's note: as said at the beginning, i don't know all that much about cricket but i tried lol. really the only sports i know about are soccer/football and f1. still, hope you like it anon!
comments + reblogs appreciated!
: photos from pinterest!
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highkey need submissive namgyu 🙁 and more sub thanos??! loved the oneshots u made sm 🙏
IM SICK OF THERE NOT BEING ANY NAMGYU GIFS RAAHHHH
Submissive Headcanons! (Namgyu/Player 124 Edition)
warning: smut and all things of the like | not proofread | lowercase intended | sub! namgyu | dacryphilia | bondage | edging | orgasm denial | oral (m! receiving) | overstimulation | this is my interpretation of this character, please be respectful even if my opinions on the character differ from your own
character: namgyu (player 124)
A/N: IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE 😈🙏 just like we need more sub!thanos, SUB NAMGYU IS A MUST IN THESE STREETS. i’ve been straight up anticipating another request for him, and trust more sub thanos will be upon us
MDNI! 18+ content under the cut, readers discretion is advised
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➣ will be on his hands and knees begging for your pussy. this man will go full simp mode just as long as whatever he does results in you on his dick
➣ i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again: namgyu is clearly touchstarved. he needs your hands on him at all times, and your touch alone turns him on to a degree you don’t fully understand
➣ needs to be degraded, absolutely craves it. you may even throw some of the stuff he says to you when he’s topping in bed back at him like:
“finally putting that slutty body of yours to good use, huh?”
“why don’t you show me exactly why you deserve my pussy, hm?”
“are you close? it’s a shame you won’t be cumming ‘less i say so then..”
“that’s it— whine like the little bitch you are.”
➣ loves when you tie him up
➣ there’s only one thing he loves more than being tied up actually, and that’s being gagged.
➣ will cry when you edge him that doesn’t mean stop
➣ is very affectionate in aftercare. he needs to be the little spoon, even if he’s taller than you are
➣ tie this man up when you give him head, it’ll be pure torture for him not to be able to grab your head while you take the full length of his cock in your mouth. double whammy if you tease him here by bringing him to the edge of release and then stop out of nowhere
➣ he’ll definitely repeat the stuff you say to him amidst the fucking™️, think stuff along the lines of
“yes— i’m your fucktoy”
“yeah, yeah i’m mommy’s good boy”
“i love when you use me, god yeah”
➣ you will not be able to understand a single word he utters when you overstimulate him, he’ll be too far gone to care about being coherent to any degree
➣ still goes crazy for the hair pulling, maybe even more so when he’s subbing
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thanks so much for the namgyu request! i really do like writing for him and i had a lot of fun thinking up these headcanons
as always, any advice/constructive criticism on how to improve my writing is appreciated and requested! thanks for reading and have a great night/day lovelies ❤️
tags: @gongyoosgf @gabbystinks
#squid game#squid game 2#fanfiction#squid game smut#squid game x reader#x reader smut#player 124#nam gyu#player 124 x reader#headcanons
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How about when you're having a blah off day and you just want to get spicy with your boyfriend to block everything out but he wants to talk it out and make you feel better *emotionally* and that's just so annoying (but also kinda turns you on even more). soft joey seems like that kind of boyfriend.
.............................. you bitch (i love you) Wordcount: 4.3K (tw/cw: 18+ descriptive smut, a little hurt/comfort, reader has hair long enough to fall into joe's face, sunday scaries for The Future)
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Half the Hurt, Twice the Joy
Joe barely gets a foot in the door before you’re on him.
“Heyhmp–…”
His keys are still stuck in its lock, and you’ve already attached yourself to Joe by the face. You’ve not seen him for two days, and even though that’s by no means the longest you’ve gone without each other, every second was one too many.
Long day.
Long week.
Too much time spent alone thinking about how you’re becoming more and more convinced that you’ve made a grave mistake and are now stuck in a career you don’t want, climbing a ladder you don’t want to climb. It’s a huge pit of endless anxiety with upcoming deadlines you aren’t going to be able to make, don’t really want to make, and you know you’re going to have to face the music sooner rather than later.
Which is terrifying.
And you, understandably so, don’t really want to think about it anymore. You’ve done enough worrying for the week, maybe even the whole month.
What you do want to think about, is Joe.
“What’s going on?” he manages between kisses.
“Missed me, mmh?”
You can feel how Joe smiles against your mouth as he tries his best to work his way inside with you hanging off his neck. You don’t really make it any easier when you use the leverage to pull your legs up and around him as well.
You had missed him.
A lot.
Last night you’d felt too lonely to safely be alone. Had nearly called him at 2 am.
Hadn’t.
But nearly had.
Having him here now comes with a new surge of emotion that’s easy to hide away in fumbling fingers and biting kisses.
Joe has to lean back to balance himself, and groans at the sudden extra weight he has to carry, dropping his bag to make sure he can hold you up, both hands spread wide on the underside of your thighs.
He gladly accepts your kisses, but when it goes on for too long, when it all starts feeling a little too urgent, he can’t help the slight worry that creeps up his back.
When you feel how he wants to pull back a little, you easily move on and kiss down his jaw.
Find his neck.
Use your hands to push his coat down his shoulders as you hotly breathe, “Been waiting for you all day.” into his skin.
You hadn’t. It’s only been just over an hour since you’ve gotten in. But the sentiment of it is true.
Joe’s coat gets stuck on in his elbows and he’s forced to put you down if he wants to take it off properly. Your feet find the floor again with a dissatisfied grumble, but your arms remain around his neck which you use to pull him down in a bid to keep kissing him.
Which Joe does.
Easily so.
Who is he to argue a welcome home like this after a couple of weird days at work where he didn’t really do much, but somehow still feels exhausted? He blindly reaches to hang his coat over one of the hooks, and he tries two, three times, but then has to break away from you to look at what he’s doing.
It’s then that he gets his first real glimpse of what you look like.
It’s clear you’ve been crying and even clearer that you’ve wiped the skin under your eyes raw in order to hide it from him. He can see the remnants of mascara smeared close to your hairline, and frowns at the sight.
“Hey, what happened?”
You move back in to kiss him some more, use force to pull him back down by the shoulders, but he works against you and fights it.
“You been crying? What’s wrong?”
You redirect focus and get up on your tippy toes as you start undoing the buttons on his shirt.
You don’t want to talk.
Don’t want to think about everything bad. You’re mentally exhausted and need distraction. Want to think about nice things. Or, even better, don’t want to think about anything at all for a little while.
Just want to exist in your body.
Feel nice in your body.
You know that Joe knows how to do that.
Joe always makes you feel so nice in your body.
“Take your shirt off,” you command, ignoring how Joe’s hands reach for yours to hold as he tries for eye-contact that you’re not giving him. He’s not so much kissing you back anymore.
“Darling…”
You’re undressing him, and he lets you, but he doesn’t help.
“What’ve you been crying for?”
You yank on his sleeve to slide it off his arm.
“Hey.”
The skin of Joe’s chest feels as soft against your lips as it looks. Joe’s warm. Smells nice. You want to feel him all over, and so you do. Frantic hands move from Joe’s stomach ‘round to his back where your nails softly scratch towards his spine whilst your lips press into different spots on his front.
Don’t get him wrong.
Joe likes this.
Joe likes this a lot.
He can’t help the foot that takes a step forward when one of yours takes a step backward, his body blindly following you further into the flat. He melts under the attention. Wants your back-scratches to last for hours – they make his whole body tingle. Make his hearing go funny.
But he would at least like to know if there’s something wrong that he should know about, yet you’re ignoring him.
He knows he’s going to have to push you a little. He’s going to need to push you just enough.
It’s an inner battle that, just before he’s about to step over the threshold to the bedroom, makes him take hold of your arms to pull them from the hold you have on him.
“Hey, talk to me. Come on, what’s going on?”
With both your arms held out wide by strong fingers, you’re still able to press kisses where you want them. It hurts your shoulders a little, but you press as much of yourself as you can manage into him whilst you mouth over his clavicle.
Turning his face away from you does nothing – you’re not stopped until Joe pushes both your arms back until they can no longer bend and you have no choice but the accept the space Joe is trying to create.
“Nothing,” you quip quickly, avoiding eye-contact. “Come here, I want to k–” you try leaning back in, but are immediately pushed back again.
“Nothing?” Joe smiles as his eyebrows knit upwards. “Baby, look at me… hey.”
You don’t want to look at him.
You want to kiss Joe and for Joe to kiss you back, and you want the strong grip he’s got on your arms to be moved to your waist where his hands can sneak under your top before he pulls that over your head and undresses you, and you want–
You’ve got your eyes trained on his chest. On the sparse bit of hair he’s got there.
“You’re starting to scare me.”
A small huff of frustration leaves you, and you fight the urge to roll your eyes. Joe doesn’t have to be scared, jumping to stupid conclusions, making this much worse than it is or it needs to be.
For a short moment, Joe think that you’re considering opening up to him for the simple fact that he’s annoying you, but then he watches as your eyes fall down until it looks like they’re closed and you take a deep breath. Very slowly, you let your head fall forward until it bumps against his chest.
Fine, you think. Forced to be a sensible adult before anything else – like a sexy minx of a girlfriend – you do your best to muster up the right words to tell him that maybe you’ve done your whole life wrong and you don’t think that there’s a way back to undo and fix it.
It’s quiet except for the sound of your breathing, shallow and uneven.
Joe feels in your body how you give in and he’s quick to loosen the grip he has on your arms that he’d been pushing back. You look like you desperately need a hug. Both his arms slowly circle around you, one across your back whilst the other places a hand to the back of your head where he pets down your hair before planting his chin on top, pressing you against him.
It’s almost enough to make you start crying again.
“What made you cry? Hmm? What’s wrong?” he asks, soft and caring. “Let me help.”
He needs to push you just enough.
You take a shuddering breath, entirely unsure of what to say. Of how not sound stupidly dramatic.
Joe is generous with his touches, but it’s caring and emotional and everything inside of your body screams for a want of something else.
You don’t want care and emotion.
Don’t want to say words. To talk.
“I don’t–…” you voice cracks before you’ve even really said anything. Joe lets his hand slip under the curve of your neck to tip your head back.
He’s met with two wet eyes that try their best to blink back tears, and he can’t help how the sight of you makes his own face drop.
“Come on, let’s go sit.”
“No, I’m fine, I’m–”
“Let’s go sit anyway.”
You get guided over to your living room where Joe sits down on the sofa and then welcomes you onto his lap. Sitting down sideways, you shimmy down enough to lay your head on Joe’s shoulder as he wraps both arms around you to hold you close.
“It’s obvious you’re not fine. Remember how– didn’t I tell you we’re a team? We fight battles together, don’t we? Joint effort, always. Half the hurt, twice the joy. Teamwork.”
A frustrated huff of air escapes you.
“What’s so hard to say, hm? You know it’s just me…”
And just as he says that, something occurs to him.
“Oh, fuck. Is it me? Did I do something?” Joe asks, and you understand why he asks, but it doesn’t stop you from making an annoyed face at him in retaliation, pulling back a little so you’re sure he receives it. Not everything is about him, and if he thinks he’s being funny: he’s not.
Joe doesn’t think he’s being funny, though.
Joe’s trying to push buttons to see which one is going to make you open up. There’s bound to be one that’ll get you to. He shakes his head at your frown, face sort of filled with concern for you. A tiny pinch appears in his brow as he softly whispers, “Did someone do something to you?”
His gaze plunders into your soul when your eyes flick up to look at him, quickly shaking your head because, no, no one did something to you to hurt you.
“Honestly, no. It’s nothing. It’s–…”
You’d just been left alone too long to think too deep about all the things you weren’t happy about and now everything was all… wrong. But you were going to have to sort through everything on your own first, you thought. Process it in time. Let it all simmer for a second.
You shake your head again and give a small shrug.
Joe seems a little pleased at your nonverbal answer as he lets his fingers trace featherlight along your jaw. You’re not giving him much else to go on, though.
After scanning your features for a long moment, searching for clues he doesn’t find, Joe nods to himself. There’s no real sense of fight in him since there doesn’t seem to be any left in you either. He can tell that you’re not entirely with him, a hollow shell of yourself.
“Can’t have you so upset and not know what it’s about... you’re far too pretty for that.”
You smile at that. It’s only small and terribly closed off, but Joe sees it. He gently shakes your face with his hand in hopes of that smile brightening a little more, but it doesn’t really work. Joe watches you closely, and sees your lips part softly to speak but before you have the chance, he uses his nose to nudge your head back a little so he gets access to the sensitive skin of the column of your neck.
Maybe you’re right, you know?
Maybe pushing you was having the opposite effect right now.
Maybe there’s something to say for a little comfort before dipping into this big deep pond of confusing feelings you don’t really seem to know how to articulate quite right.
Time to give you what you were so clearly after the second you laid your eyes on him.
He’ll get to the bottom of this after you’ve cheered up a little.
He’ll push you for an answer when you feel a bit better.
The gasp Joe hears at the touch of his lips to your neck is small, just a little one, followed by a sigh that turns into a soft hum. You let your head fall to the side to grant Joe even better access as he slowly mouths up along your jaw towards your ear.
“So, so pretty.”
Joe captures your lips with his gently as both his hands slip down to your sides to pull you closer by the fabric of your top.
Joe feels how hesitant you are at first. How you’re holding back in your kissing, unlike how you were kissing him when he just got in, probably afraid he’s going to pull back and ask you what’s wrong again if you get too into it.
It’s why he does his best to not break away from you as he manoeuvres you on his lap, encouraging you to move until you’re straddling him, one knee pushing into the sofa either side of his thighs. Both his arms then curl around your middle to pull you flush to his front, his head tipping back to rest against the sofa.
You remain careful, but Joe’s topless, and his skin is warm, so you let Joe kiss you, and let your fingers dance down his arms and grab onto both his biceps.
It’s not until Joe croaks, “Take these off,” into your mouth with a finger curling under the waistband of your jeans that you truly understand what’s happening. Your breathing changes immediately, and the sweet relief of being able to give in to your urges as Joe does the same feels tangible in your body.
Joe feels how you relax and has to hide his smile into the way he kisses you before he helps you up enough to take your bottoms off.
Feels good to give you want you want.
A clumsy ordeal follows where your fingers find the button of your jeans just as your eye falls onto the one on his, which prompts you to bend and reach for Joe’s button to undo instead of focusing on undressing yourself. Joe doesn’t stop you, and instead helps you out. You end up yanking on each other’s blue denim until a burst of giggles bubbles up and out the both of you.
“What are we doing?” Joe laughs, facial expression stupid when he lifts his hips up and undresses himself.
“Just helping. Teamwork.” You wriggle denim down your hips and let all of it pool at your ankles where you barely get your feet out before Joe’s hands slip behind your thighs on either side. He squeezes you gently to guide you back onto his lap as he slips down the sofa a bit more.
Joe grins up at your smile, happy to see how it lingers.
You’re both still in your underwear, and you’re still wearing your top, but there’s something so nice about Joe’s hands that sneak under the soft cotton as you lean down to kiss him again. This time, there’s nothing careful or gentle about the way you latch yourself back onto Joe. He responds with his tongue that works its way into your mouth, swiping against yours and making you moan outwardly.
That makes Joe jump inside of his underwear strong enough for you to feel, and it encourages you to press your hips down firmly to feed pressure where you’re both after it.
Your own action makes you gasp slightly, and you feel how Joe’s hands tighten against your outer thighs, fingers digging into the expanse of fat there as you move against him.
He helps you tilt your hips in little thrusts and, fuck, this already feels so good, he wonders why he tried postponing it.
It’s only fabric dragging over fabric, but your fingers dig into his neck where you hold onto him as your open mouth hovers just in front of his own, your tongue teasing at his lips.
When your hands start sliding down onto his chest, Joe knows what those hands are wandering towards.
He beats you to it.
Curling a hand around from behind, Joe pulls at your underwear to expose you. He has to blow your hair from his face when you still and look down to see what his other hand is about to do.
Joe runs a finger along and through, dipping slowly, carefully testing. He can’t help staring up at your face, wanting to see you react from up close as his fingers find where you’re most sensitive and make you flinch.
“I know,” he soothes, watching your eyebrows crease at his touch. “I know.”
Joe’s touch is teasing, fingertips barely slipping in before he pulls away again, and it doesn’t take long for you to grow impatient. You let a hand slip down along Joe’s stomach until it reaches his underwear to disappear into.
Just before you pull him out to put him on full display, Joe suddenly slips two fingers in fully, making you gasp at how they curl inside. Your head drops back and Joe bites back a chuckle at how he can feel that you’re trying to restrict yourself from moving your hips.
“Yea? That feel nice?”
You nod and breathily confirm.
“Ye– yes.”
It does feel nice. It does. But the high pitched moan that rips from your chest when Joe feeds pressure with his thumb from the outside at the same time surprises you both.
Joe sinks down the sofa more as you tower over him, and he loves this view.
Loves how he gets to slip a hand up your top to see it appear again at your neckline where he can spread his fingers widely around your neck.
Loves how quickly you become unable to keep your head up by yourself, how it tips forwards and back, hair falling every which way.
Loves how he gets to see and feel your chest expand with every ragged breath you take, knowing that every single noise you make is just from how he’s pleasuring you with his fingers.
He wants to make you come like this.
But not before you’ve talked to him.
“Look at me,” Joe urges as his hand finds the back of your head to cradle the weight of it. “Open your eyes.”
You manage to, head tipping forward now, eyes meeting the same intense gaze staring back at you. Your hips are gyrating against Joe’s hand unashamedly now, your hand in his underwear still there but definitely forgotten about.
“That’s it.”
Joe has a way of making intimate situations feel a thousand times more intimate by using his eyes to connect. He makes what could be just easy pleasure and quick release a palpable thing that brings you into the room with him and then keeps you there.
There’s nothing but this.
Nothing but right now.
All other concerning thought gets shoved aside and all you want to do is to stay here. Feel like this forever. Vulnerable, but determined, breath hot and heavy, throat releasing sounds on its own accord. It’s overwhelming in the best of ways, and you can see in Joe’s face that you’re in the same boat.
Teamwork.
Joy shared doubles.
“Yea, yea. Thaaat’s it.” Joe encourages, elongating words, witnessing how you are genuinely trying your hardest at keeping your gaze locked on his. It’s a real task, because your eyes keep wanting to roll back. Keep wanting to unfocus.
“Want you to tell me what’s wrong.” Joe pushes.
Your breath squeaks like you’re in pure agony. Which, in many ways, you are. Yet, somehow, an intense conversation doesn’t feel out of place at all right now. You are as comfortable as you are going to get in this shared vulnerability.
“I don’t,” you say softly, gasping as Joe’s hand feeds more pressure and slows in pace, “I don’t– it’s… it’s just–”
“Just what?” He interrupts. “You just felt sad?”
You nod, because that’s right. But it’s not enough for Joe.
“Why did you feel sad?”
“Scared,” you force out, eyes half-lidded and slowly glassing over. They want to close so fucking badly.
“I was scared.”
“Hey,” Joe taps your cheek and connects his forehead to yours as he pulls you closer to him. You’re quick to blink back into focus, and your hand in Joe’s underwear comes back to life. It makes Joe flinch a little, swearing under his breath as you blindly push his underwear down before his clipped voice asks, “You’re sc–scared?”
Sometimes people take the wrong turn and can’t find their way back on their own.
“Yea, the future… it’s–… the future is–”
“Big and scary?”
“Mmhm.”
“Future is big and scary.”
“Y–yea.”
You’re working hands at each other whilst your foreheads touch, looking each other in the eye until you become blurry, and even though you’ve barely shared anything real, you kind of feel lighter for it already.
Shared sorrow halves.
Joe was right.
“I want–…” you start brokenly, and momentarily Joe thinks you’re about to share more. He’s made you feel safe enough, seems to have pushed you just enough, so it’s not a weird assumption to make.
“Fuck. I want–…” you try again, but your brain’s slowly turning into absolute mush.
“What you do want, baby?”
Instead of answering, you instead grab hold of Joe by the base and guide him towards where his hand is still making you feel good at a steady pace.
You want him inside.
And who is Joe to tell you no at this point?
He sighs, burying his face into the side of your neck as he lets you guide him to where you want to feel him stretch and fill you out fully. You only have to line him up before he shakily seems to lose control of his hips as he pushes up. Both his hands find your hips to dig fingers into soft flesh and you finally reach and pull your top of over your head.
With more skin to look at, and more curves to grab at, Joe doesn’t hold back. Open mouthed kisses leave a wet trail along your chest whilst his hands wander, squeeze and pulling at you all over.
This is what you wanted.
The perfect distraction from it all.
You don’t have to do much work at all with Joe bucking up into you from underneath, and when he puts his hand back to work like it had been before, you start feeling how everything good builds inside rapidly.
Joe concentrates hard on holding off, sparing looks from where he can see himself disappear inside of you, back up to see your blissed out face as he slowly unravels you.
Soft, barely able to really hear, he keeps uttering the words, “That’s it.” over and over as he feels you grow tighter around him.
You feel it coming, and yet, it still surprises you.
You orgasm loudly, louder than either of you expected, prompting Joe to cover your mouth with one of his palms as his hips jerkily work him towards his own orgasm. Completely out of it, you bite into his fingers, and with a broken moan and eyes squeezed tightly shut, Joe spills himself inside of you.
For a moment after, you both catch your breaths, and Joe can feel how you’re still spasming when he pulls out. The second he does, you move to get up, but Joe grabs hold of you before you can leave him. He curls a loving hand along your jaw and cups your face, his fingers around your ear, and you immediately lean your head into his touch with a soft sigh as you close your eyes.
“You okay?” Joe asks tenderly.
“Mmhm.” You ond.
“I think you’re right,” Joe says before he takes a deep breath, and you open your eyes, a little confused at what he means. “The future sort of is big and scary, isn’t it?”
Oh, yea.
You kind of forgot you’d said anything.
“But you know that you don’t have to do the future on your own, right? You’re aware that I’ll be there.” Joe’s not so much asking as he is telling you, his other hand coming to cradle your face on the other side, and all of it is so corny.
“Shared joy doubles, and shared sorrow halve–” you can’t help the soft giggle that escapes you, interrupting him. It doesn’t exactly help that you can feel him leaking out of you either.
“I mean it.” He’s dead serious.
“I know you do.”
Joe scans your face as you give him a small smile, and he’s unsure if he should push it further. He kind of feels like he’s pushed you a lot already, and when he looks at you a little longer and sees how your smile slowly grows, he decides: it’s enough.
You turn your face in his hands to kiss inside of his palm, thankful, slow-blinking and at ease.
Makes him smile in return.
Yea, it’s enough.
the end
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Definitely not the last part, I like this au a little too much, I think. And you, guys, seemed to like the first part so here’s some more
Unsweetened Lemonade AU (part 2)
part 1 || part 3
Warnings: bullying, allegory to abuse, eating as coping mechanism, Punk!Ghost x Nerd!Reader, violence
Simon walks back home wrapped in soft scarf, still faintly smelling like you.
He’s warm for the first time in what feels like forever, his cheeks no longer burning from harsh English winter winds, nose no longer numb from cold, dull headaches he always gets in winter subsiding.
It’s unnerving and new and he’s not sure if he wants to snatch the scarf off or hold on.
Fucking bliss.
But scarf is warm and it’s soft and it’s enough to keep him from getting hypothermia on his way home.
It’s nice. It’s bloody lovely and he doesn’t know how to feel about that.
And maybe Simon should have tossed it away as soon as he got home but he doesn’t.
He can’t really afford to throw away the first nice thing he got (he’s got it, right? It’s his now, you won’t take it away, won’t you?) in a long time.
Simon folds it neatly and hides it under the mattress, fingers lingering on warm fabric of it, uncomfortable tightness in his chest making it harder to push air down his throat.
It’s nice. He’s not used to nice.
He can’t get used to nice. He can’t afford to get used to nice and hope and dream and- (hope is a silent but very sadistic killer. Hope takes away everything, pulling out every thread of your being until you are naked in the snow and your lips are blue and your cheeks freezing and you feel like begging and crying and pleading).
No, nice isn’t for Ghost. Just not in the cards, probably. Wasn’t meant to be for someone like him.
Still Simon isn’t sure if he can just leave the fluffy thing at home, not with the way dad is ravaging around the house, nitpicking at every bloody thing, going through their things and ruining-ruining-ruining.
Simon feels like everything that his dad touches gets stained.
Gets dirty and broke and useless.
Turns into rubbish.
Simon feels like rubbish a lot nowadays.
Simon packs the scarf in his worn out backpack, thrusting it deep at the bottom of it. He isn’t sure he’s ready to wear it out just like that, at least not this close to home. Or close to you.
It feels like weakness. Why does it feel like weakness?It’s just a scarf. It’s his scarf now, he can wear it, it doesn’t mean anything.
Simon allows himself a weakness when he smokes behind school, scarf wrapped around his neck, fabric clinging to harsh lines of his face. Smoke gets soaked up in fabric quickly, like it’s definitely his now. Smelling like him, clinging to him, keeping him nice and warm.
No one can take it away from him now. Not even you — he’ll fight if he needs to, but he’s keeping the bloody thing.
Ghost is greedy for any scrap of kindness that he can stomach, tender bloodying insides of his heart ready to absorb every crumb and every drop.
He’s so hungry for it, always so fucking hungry — it never goes away, no matter how much he eats. No matter if he can eat at all.
He makes himself go back inside before the bell rings, shoulders square and tense — almost an instinct now, sometimes he doesn’t even notice he’s doing it.
School is the same grey nothing — teenagers can be cruel but Ghost is one mean dog of a lad.
Disproportionate and angry, limbs too long, palms too big, punches never pulled and teeth always bared.
And it’s nothing, it’s just one of these days when people are bored and when you get the usual cruel thing thrown in your face, like you aren’t even there.
Like it’s okay to stain someone like that.
And Ghost isn’t your friend, you are no one to each other — opposite sides of the same “loser” spectrum, he just wears his better (or he thinks he does, not like anyone has enough guts to tell him otherwise).
Ghost is no one to you and he doesn’t do nice, he’s the furthest thing from knight in shining armour because frankly, maybe something is fucking wrong with you since you never fight.
But then your things are getting spilled on the floor and someone steps on the notebook — cover worn-out, well-loved and there’s sudden aching rage in your eyes that makes a hungry mutt part of him lean in.
Oh.
Oh.
So there’s someone inside that shell of a person. The lights can be turned on, eh?
Mutt inside him raises its big head, tugs air in, smelling your anger, smelling your tears, smelling the blood pumping in your ears so loudly it’s difficult to breathe.
Because it’s too early, it’s too much, it’s too hurtful and you can’t help it but you are madmadmad, angry sharp tears prickling in the corners of your eyes, palms curling in first (silly, you don’t know how to fight, you never fight, what’s use in your fists)
And there’s no actual way you could do something in your situation and your bully’s boot presses harder on the notebook, pages starting to tear under deliberate malicious pressure.
Simon doesn’t think twice before his fist connects to your bully’s face, sickening crunch of the bone visceral in suddenly quiet hallway.
Simon hits so they won’t even think twice. So they never get up and fight. So they stay down.
Where they fucking belong.
And no one stops him. Part of him scoffs at this in irritation, because of fucking course.
Just like no one stopped the asshole who has been making your life hell.
No one wants to get in his way because everybody knows that Simon “Ghost” Riley is aggressive cunt with chip on his shoulder and deep seated eyes of a feral mutt.
You don’t look at him when you scramble to get away, further, frantically pushing your things back in your bag — notebooks and stationary all over the less than clean floors. God, what their janitor even does on the clock, look at the state of the damn thing.
Simon doesn’t say anything but picks up your notebooks and pushes them in your hands before leaving without a single word.
It’s nothing, just favour returned.
Now you can’t ask for the scarf back — he’s paid it off.
Ghost can’t handle people being nice to him. Ghost isn’t sure he wants to handle people being mean to you either.
And it would be the end of it, but for some reason during lunch you plop down across from him, sinking feeling in your stomach when he sends you a glare.
But you aren’t moving anywhere — you want to eat in peace and no one in their right fucking mind would try to disturb perpetually brooding Simon Riley when he eats.
So you sit with him and don’t scurry off when he huffs out air in short annoyed pant, brows furrowing, eyes boring into you.
But you don’t talk to him and don’t look at him and don’t try to extend your hand.
You just want to eat in peace. You just want a moment’s quiet. A moment’s security.
So Simon doesn’t bite and deliberately doesn’t look your way either.
You two aren’t friends and he’s not a bloody knight in shining armour — you probably have nothing in common. Ghost is not planning on finding out for sure.
But for some reason you push towards him your apple, making it roll across the table with the same sound Simon hears in his head when he’s overwhelmed.
It practically falls in his lap and then on the floor before he manages to catch it.
Simon wants to ask what the fuck you do you think you are doing.
Simon wants to snarl and make you choke on your fucking pity, because he doesn’t need it.
But you aren’t looking at him, you are doing your best to stare down on your plate, shovelling food with the same raw desperate intensity he knows all too well.
You don’t look at him and you don’t extend your hand.
So Simon doesn’t bite. Simon takes the apple and hides it in his backpack, not saying anything.
Just another favour to repay later, that’s all, right?
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One of the reasons that I consistently push for critical engagement* with entertainment media (novels, TV shows, fanfiction) is that it is really easy to fall in the habit of only engaging critically with things being said or done by people you already disagree with. This can let rot grow and fester in your communities, with people refusing to recognize that their community members may be carrying out or perpetuating harmful behavior or systems.
At the risk of temporarily sounding contradictory, once you put some initial effort into it, lot of critical engagement doesn't need to be as active as you think. You don't need to go into every piece of entertainment media looking for flaws or issues or things to pick apart, and you don't need to sit there fifth-grade-English-class-style after each piece picking apart the meaning of all of it.
What you can do is start to recognize trends, tropes, and rhetoric that mimic, mirror, or resemble racist / sexist / ableist / antisemitic / imperialist / fascist / etc. viewpoints, so that you can spot them when they pop up.
Then, when something flags to you because it looks like a piece of rhetoric or a stereotype that you recognize, you can stop and think about it, without having to use all of your brain otherwise scanning the book for All Of The Things.
For example, I was recently reading the Tales of the High Court series by Megan Derr. I really enjoyed the books, and I thought the way that they handled gender and queerness was really interesting. But I also got to the end of the series and thought, huh, the way that these books handle imperialism felt a little more pro-imperialist than I expected. So I spent a bit of time thinking about why it felt that way. I still loved reading the books, and I would recommend them. But I would do so cognizant of the fact that they show some pro-imperialist leanings, even if (given how other parts of the series are framed) I don't think that was intentional.
Once you're used to spotting theses patterns in entertainment media, it will also make them easier to spot in non-entertainment media (e.g., speeches, lectures, news media), and vice versa.
I see white nationalist rhetoric, pro-imperialist rhetoric, anti-democratic, biological essentialist, racist, sexist, ableist, antisemitic, etc. rhetoric and tropes show up in all sorts of ostensibly progressive entertainment media all the time, and as long as we keep uncritically reproducing and continuing these patterns, we will never be able to break free of them as a society.
*This does not mean criticism, it means thinking critically about it
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Now that I am not an anon anymore I have to share a Leeknow headcannon I have.
I think that (especially husband Lee Know) does those little sexy dances he does on you.
Whether you are just chilling on the couch and he just gives you a little lap dance or you guys are cooking something. Istg that man will do those moves and wiggle his eyebrows and wink at you while he does it.
There’s a reason the others said he has the most rizz (also I kinda hate the word rizz but idc rn)
Love ya💗🫶🏼
LEE KNOW ONE-SHOT
🍯•[your favorite]•🍯
Warnings//genre:: mentions knives (cooking) smut, lap dance (?) Oral (f rec) creampie, kitchen sex, praise and degradation
Pairing:: dom!husband!minho x sub!wife!reader
A/N:: HEHE okay so I've thought of this prompt before for minho (and other members) but I never committed to it bc it is such a hard prompt to write for in my opinion but since it was a request I had to. but I love stepping out of my comfort zone!! tbh best part of reqs is when I lowkey doubt if I can even finish writing the fic
Skz masterlist:: 🍯
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As much as Minho tries to act like he's all cool and stern he is a little manwhore for attention, especially attention from his lovely wife. You'll be anywhere and he's glancing up at you 24/7 and anytime he gets the chance to brush his shoe or arm up against you, he'll take it.
Currently you're in the kitchen, cutting up some vegetables for dinner as the pan sizzles beside you. Minho comes up behind you, pressing his body up against yours, and wraps his hands around your waist. "Smells good baby," He cooes in your ear, resting his chin on your shoulder. "What is it?"
"You'll have to wait and see," You smirk and he rolls his eyes with a little huff. "That's what you always tell me," You shrug as Minho rolls off of you, leaning back against the counter next to you. You notice his staring gaze as you stay laser focused on mincing the vegetables to perfection.
"You're so hot when you're focused," He tilts his head as he continues to stare at you, eyes never wavering. "The way your eyes stay fixated, the slight furrow of your brows, the way your lips look so relaxed and natural," He rubs his thigh up against you as you try to focus. "C'mon baby, look at me," Minho raises his knee higher, brushing up against your inner thigh and you jump, the flow of your hands interrupted. You turn to look at him and there it is, the mischevious little grin.
"Minho," You say in a warning tone, like Minho was getting into something he wasn't supposed to.
"Mmm, yes?" He smiles, as if he was innocent.
"I'm trying to cook dinner," You sigh and he fake pouts before smirking.
"And I'm trying to get you all riled up, is it working?" He chuckles and you huff. He in fact was turning you on, way too much. You good feel the stir in your stomach, the excitement bubbling up and threatening to spill over and make you do something you'll regret. "Come on~ Dinner can wait," He takes your hand, plucking your fingers off the knife, before setting the knife down.
"You're so..." You try to come up with some kind of insult but the way he looks at you, that little grin and eyes full of promise and lust, you just can't resist. "Fine," You huff and turn off the stove and you watch as the smile spreads across his face.
"Yay!" He cheers before taking your hand, pulling you over to the dining table. He pulls out a chair. "Sit, sit," He encourages with that little grin and you know what you're in for.
"What do you have in mind?" You sit down and look up at him.
"Your favorite," He smirks and you look a little confused. What did he mean by your favorite? That could be a lot of things really. Suddenly the room filled with some of your favorite songs Minho plays during intimate hours and you thought that's what he meant by your favorite, but he started dancing. Not some kind of jig, a slow sensual dance that highlighted all of his best physical features. You found your eyes drawn to his hips. The way he moves them in a slow yet powerful thrust showcases his practice with such movement.
"Minho," You say under your breath, utterly inticed by his hypnotic and erotic dance.
"Shh, baby," he approaches you on your little throne, putting a hand to the head of the chair and the other to your lips. "Just watch, your eyes tell me everything," He trails his hands down to your thighs before grabbing your knees and parting your legs. You jump at the sudden urgency in his actions compared to his slow sensual dance. He makes quick work of your pants and panties. The music still rings in the back ground as his lips approach your aching core. He lifts your legs up onto his shoulders, making you slip down the chair a little.
Minho grins at your little gasp before bury his head between your legs, taking one long lick up your folds. A soft moan escapes your lips at the relief of his mouth on your throbbing pussy, but Minho doesn't keep it relaxing for long. He follows the pace of the music, as it gets more intense so does his methods, slurping and sucking on your folds.
"Minho!" You jump as his nose presses up against your clit as his tongue pokes in and out of your slit as far as it can. You grab a fistful of his hair as your head falls back, your chest heaving more and more with each moan. Minho brings his hands up to spread your folds a little more, pulling at the skin before sticking his tongue in deeper. You let out a little squeal as you feel his tongue rubbing up against your g-spot and his nose puts pressure against your clit. Your legs tremble with the intensity of your orgasm as the song comes to a perfect end.
Minho licks up your mess before pulling himself up to his feet, standing over you. As the next song begins he practically sits on top of you, grinding his bulge against your dripping cunt, soaking his pants in your wetness. You feel the throb of his cock, begging to be released.
"Do you want my cock baby?" He teases and you nod with a whimper.
"Yes, please," You look up at him as he grinds his hips against yours, following the music once again.
"You're gonna have to beg a little more than that angel," He chuckles and you whine at the torture of his cock being right there but not inside you.
"Please minho," You plead, tugging at his shirt like a kitten. He tilts his head as he looks down at you, seeming amused by your pleading tugs. "I-I need your cock, minho~" You whine, a little louder this time and he smirks, clearly loving this dynamic. You bring your hands down to his black jeans, kneading at the fabric separating the two of you.
"You're so cute when you beg," He chuckles before stepping back. He takes off his shirt in the slowest way possible, teasing you as every inch of fabric reveals more and more of his toned body. He then unbuckles his belt, sliding it out of the hoops before tossing it aside. His jeans then follow suit, left discarded to the side. "Get up darling," He takes your hand and pulls you up before bending you over the table. He runs a hand over the curve of your ass before leaning down, his cock pressing up against your thigh. "You're gonna take everything I'm gonna give you, right?"
"Yes," You whine softly making him chuckle lowly.
"Good girl," He pats your ass, not hard, but just as a form of praise. He rubs the head of his cock against your folds a few times before finally easing inside you. He nestles his cock nice and deep, resting there for a while as you moan softly. He begins to slowly move in and out of you, once again following the pace of the music, but each thrust is deep and hard, making the table jiggle. As you rest against the table your eyes roll back, your lip tucked between your teeth.
"Just like that," You moan, "It feels so good," Your voice is higher pitched than usual, showing your desperation and pleasure.
"Yeah? You like that?" He smirks, his voice taunting. "When I fuck deep," He punctuates his words with a deep thrust, your body jumping up the table.
"Fuck!" You bury your face into your arm. "Yes, please don't stop!" You cry out as his hips move faster. The thing about Minho's thrusts is that he doesn't just go fast and hard, he has a method to how he thrusts, almost like rolling his hips, so his cock rubs up against all the right places. You feel your legs begin to tremble again, shaking beneath you.
"You close baby?" He teases, whispering in your ear, "But we just started baby," He chuckles, his hand slithers around to your clit. "It's alright, I'll have plenty of time to tease you later tonight," He growls in your ear as he rubs your clit harder and faster. "c'mon baby, let it out," He encourages in a low voice as your head begins to spin. You feel the crash of your orgasm as you let out long and high pitched moans. "Good girl," He praises before letting out a groan, emptying inside you. "fuck, yes, take it baby," He buries himself inside you, riding out the waves of pleasure with you.
After catching your breath he pulls himself up and gently slips out of you. "There, how you feeling now?" He smiles as he watches you get up, your head spinning.
"Above the fucking clouds," you chuckle and he laughs at you.
"So what were you cooking?" He says as he walks over the counter, still naked, making you chuckle to yourself.
"I was going to surprise you with your favorite meal for dinner," you smile as you sit down on the chair. Minho puts on a little apron to cover himself before washing his hands and continuing to cook dinner for you.
"Gosh, well I guess I spoiled the surprise,"
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Sleepover with each batfam members
A/n:I did not put in Cassandra or Steph since I don’t know much about them and I don’t want to miss characterize them from the little information I have( I’m going to read the comics soon trust) try to spot my favorite character!!!
None of the pictures belong to me!!!!!!
( you can think of it platonic or romantic i think it works either way🤷♀️)expect maybe for Alfred.idk
Summary:you’ve managaed to convince the batfam to take a break for once, lets see how it would go
Alfred👴🕴️
Place: Wayne manor
Its rare for Alfred to take a hour or day off but when asked with those pleading puppy eyes it was hard to say no to the one he considered his child.
He considers you like a children of him tho he does with everyone but more or so with you. But when you first asked him his immediate response was to direct you to dick or something else in the house but you insisted it be him.
Tho initially states that he is “ too old” to be having sleepovers and has a lot of things to do that doesn’t stop him from making your favorite cookies and other snacks( you going along with progress)
Out of curiosity you ask him about his childhood and you guys end up watching shows and movies that he used to watch back in the day. That something else that you never knew about him but he surprising used ( and still) loved telenovelas
Somewhere along the movie or show you fall asleep and wake up in the crips morning of sunrise with food (and freshly baked cookies) at your bedside and a small yet subtle smile from Alfred.
Bruce Wayne🦇
Place: Wayne manor
It's really rare for bruce (cough cough!) batman, to the have the night off but today is different. Most of the villians are locked up and stayed that way
He was planning on working on a case since he still had work but when you asked him he couldn't just refuse since he promised you a long time ago he would make time.( he could take back his promise to you at a perfect time) plus it wasn’t every day that Gotham was quite ( mhmm wierd).
I think he would be type of guy of guy to put action movies and skip to the action part just to analyze them (he woukd never admit but he takes a little bit inspiration from them).
Also Maybe some disney movies for old times sake since he probably liked that before his paresnt died. But he would be attached to them since he got to watch too many and it was more of a new thing back then. ( damn he’s old)
As for snacks probably popcorn for the both of you and a bit of wine for him tho if you want some he would probably serve you some. ( unless you are a child of his or something)
The rest of the night goes pretty well. Sometime the batboys “accidentally” stumble upon your movie and start joining in.
Dick is the first one to join and then the rest come in as if in queue ( in age too). After a while He apologizes and leaves leaving you with the remaining batfam. Alfred stop by and hands you guys some snack in a tray of freshly baked goods.
After the movie is over you excuse yourself to to find Bruce and you find him in the batcave , leaning on the chair and taking a Power Nap. His screen displays a case that recently happen so you leave him be.
You don’t happen to notice that on the very top corner of the monitor is a live video of you and and the batboys watching the movie with you no longer there.
Barbara Gordon💻���🦽➡️🦇
Place: Barbraa’s house
I have a feeling she would like action horror or romance and if you guys had a hard time choice one, you would try via coin flip.
Head for horror and tails for romance
HEADS WIN!
You guys ended up watching a horror movie which probably wasn’t a good idea. Gotham was slow and calm which most people would expect you to be relaxed and calm but that made you guys even more worried. Like nurses say “never say it’s a slow night” since it means something big is going to happen
For snacks you guys would definitely order pizza and fries with a side of soda. Probably not the healthiest but who cares a movie night is the perfect time!( you guys would later regret that since you end up spilling food from a jumpscare)
In the end you two end up being too scared and paranoid that you guys ended up watching Barbie
( specifically barbie a Christmas coral and Barbie: a mermaid tale) on dvd and some how falling asleep on the floor, cuddling each other for safety
Listen you might be judging but even tho both of you are skilled, hard to crack people because of your double life , it still doesn’t stop movies from scaring you.
Dick Grayson🤹♀️
Place: bludhaven apartment
You guy would definitely have the sleepover in one of his apartment in bludhaven ( my mans rich or daddies movie but it could be his police officer salery🤷♀️)
He would like to have everything prepared in advance so that you guys don't have get up and miss parts of the movie. You guys would probably also do skin care like clay mask with the bandana that holds your hair out while gossiping or just talking about stuff and future.
(He definitely tried juggling your skin care products to see if he could still do it. Nope but close enough).
I feel like you guys would be watching a random romantic movie and since none of you guys read the description that one of the main love ingress going to die so you two ended up crying in the end ( him more than you)
For this one he would bring out one of his favorite cereals from his cereal collection which is littered in limited addition cereals.
For snacks Definitely pizza but instead of regular you guys get the spilt one. Half pineapple and half your favorite toppings. He ends up finishing his side and takes some of yours.
Afterwards you guys head to sleep but a new movie pops up peaks your interest ( something about superheros and you guys watch it until he falls asleep.
You bring his drowsy body and place it in his bed and head to sleep yourself
You aren’t too sure why he insisted on having the sleepover even tho he had a long day tomorrow. Well you did mention wanting to have a sleepover but that was months ago
Doesn’t matter tho cuz I’m the morning you woke up with glowing skins( same with Grayson) and an added chain to memories of connections
Jason todd🔫💪
Place: his place and out
In my opinion instead of just hanging out at his house/apartment or at the wayne manner i think he would like to watch a movie in the theater maybe hangout a bit in shops and then go to his place and watch a movie when you guys are cozy and relaxed
This one is a bit complicated but i think he would like to watch a slice of life first. It would only to see how it would look like to live a normal life and worry about normal problems (his death).
•You guys would maybe make home made hot/chile dogs and that was when you fortunately found out that Jason liked to grill. Surprise right?(HE CAN COOK GUYS)
The night would go pretty quickly going movie after movie but then Jason would urge you to go to sleep becuase its bad for your health to to stay up too long. It wasn't fair why'd he have treat you like a child it was only 3 am( same tho)
With reluctance from you and lesson on why sleeping is important from Jason you went to sleep but not before telling him to do the same. He nodded and with a soft hum later back and closed his eyes.
What a lair he was
Tim Drake💻👾
Place:Wayne manor
It didn't take too long to convince this man to have a sleep over with you as he had just finished a project that he had been working on for a week snd wanted a bit if time to relax(shocker. dw guys he just invented a way to teleport lol).
Im not too sure what types of movies he would like but i really think he would like super hero movies or shows and stuff that makes you learn so you guys would maybe put on shows like odd squad or wild krats. after a while you guys would change it to movies like karate kid and all you would hear is Tim cheering for the main character.
You guys would eat a lot of junk for that night like donut, ice cream ( nepolitain icecream), chips, soda etc and of course coffee. One of guys had the bright idea to mix the food together as a small experiment on the side and eat it. Probably not the best idea but at the moment it sounded fun.
Even tho all the hyper foods were severed and you needed a way to take your energy out so what’s better then movement
Just dance and Mario cart it is!
It was a surprise when drake pulled out his Nintendo to play a game snd suggested to play a bit.
You were crushing it at both games , too bad he crushed you at Mario kart but you got your come back in just dance.
it wasn't a surprise that Tim would fall asleep after that despite die to the insane amount of coffee he was running on.( you took away his coffee)
You let him sleep, wrapping a blanket around him and take off any accessories he might have like earbuds and stuff that might hurt him
In the morning it would be Alfred that find you guys and tucks you two into bed . You guys never never know that there’s a small photo of that morning in plastered in Alfreds memory book with both of your names at the bottom surrounded by familial names and photos.
Damien Wayne ⚔️🤺
God damn, why was it hard to talk to this boy about.
It took about a whole month of you asking for him to finally but reluctantly gave in. He always said that “sleepovers were a waist of time” when he could be doing his better stuff ( he didn’t have anything better to do)
The sleepover would definitely take place in his room. Like hell he would risk anyone see you guys having a sleepover especially by dick (he would tease him none stop)
The words that he would say over and over again were "sleep overs are for kids, very childish i would never be caught watching a cheesy kids story". Little did he know what you had in store for him.
When you started putting on the lion king he stood up and almost left. If it wasnt for alfred pointing out how he had accepted the deal and couldn't back out now or he wouldn’t be up to the Wayne standers. ( Alfred’s the best). They seem to hurt his ego a bit and grumpy sat down next to you
He sat very reluctantly and seemed very disinterested for the start of it until scar killed mufasa ( scar kinda reminded him of his gramps, maybe just the looks?)
After that he locked in like crazy maybe even being more interested in the movie then you.
Alfred would make some Sabich Sandwich( vegan? This do before batcow)
You'd definitely fall asleep like 3/4 into the movie and Damien would let you. He couldn’t let you see the rang of emotions he went through in those few minutes.
In the morning you woke up in Your bed with a note on your bedside table, reading a great time watching and a possible discussion on the events of the movie+ an invitation by him to another movie night in secret
He wouldn’t be able to live if Jon or his brothers teased him on it or worse started to join
For next time is waiting to watch zootopia or maybe something else?
#dc fandom#damien wayne x reader#tim drake x reader#dick grayson x reader#damien wayne#dc fanfic#dick grayson#dc#tim drake#bruce wayne x reader#bruce wayne#batman x reader#batfam x reader#redhood#red hood x reader#jason todd x reader#jason todd#nightwing#nightwing x reader#red robin#red robin x reader#dc robin#robin x reader#alfred pennyworth#platonic?#romantic?#plotonic#romantic#sleepover#dc comics
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Omg thanks, friend!! I love me some jealousy/flirting myself, can't help it. It steams me up. ❤️🔥
Oh yeah! I thought doing both sides would be a fun exploration, thanks to the prompt.~
Oh my goodness this line in the Dean section, just made me giggle and kick my feet.
Ooh if you liked that line, you might like this headcanon (Dean's section). It was like, maybe the first or second HC I wrote in this style. lol
I've never seen Big Sky, but to me it seemed fitting that Beau's was a mom from the PTA who doesn't know the meaning of the word BOUNDARIES 😂. But oh my word not the brushing away the cookie bits with her hand. NO! I wouldn't let that slide 😤
The sheer AUDACITY, amirite? 🤣🤣 My mouth would be hanging open like--
This part in the Soldier Boy/ Ben section made me smile, because I do believe that Ben would go way too hard on someone who looked at the reader or touched them, but it really is because he genuinely cares. Also it made me cackle when you wrote "Because it's quite literally to save their dumbass life" because OH yeah. These men trying to shoot their shot while the reader is trying her upmost not to have them get shot by her super hot boyfriend.
Ahaha that was my thought process for sure! He wouldn't act that way if he didn't care, let's be honest. And LOL yup, you'd have to cut men to the quick in order to save everyone a lot of grief. 😅😅 Bruise an ego, save a life. (or at least an arm)~
And the mention of the "unfamiliar twinge of guilt" really hits home with Ben, because yes he does flirt a little, but he's learning what it means to be in an exclusive relationship with someone. That being said, I would still lose my mind over the flirty winks, the physical contact, and pet names with other women 😅.
Oooh yes, I feel like that's something we've both explored in writing SB/Ben. For me it's been mostly in the BMD-verse, where Ben has had to content with the unfamiliar feeling of remorse. LOL though those flirty winks would certainly cost him in the BMD-verse. I don't think BMD Ben would be doing that with the reader next to him. 🤣🤣
Russell's version was also wonderful, because he is more laid back, but I could definitely see him breaking someone's nose for saying the wrong thing to his girl.
Oh thank you!! I had fun with Russell in this one. My instinct with him is that he doesn't let a lot of things show on his face that he's fazed, even if he's got a volcano about to erupt under the surface. 😏
Oh goodness I'm melting. This was so CUTE! 🥰
Aw yay!! Honestly I was thinking of the Every Second Counts-verse for that line. 🥰🥰
All of these were so accurate and well written my friend! I can't wait to read your new headcanon about Body Insecurity as well 😊
Ooh you make me blush, my friend. 🥰 I try my best to keep them as in character as possible. I hope you enjoy that HC as well!! It's pretty self-indulgent for me despite it being a request. 😝💞💞
Headcanon: Flirting (And Jealousy)
Pairings: Dean Winchester x Reader, Beau Arlen x Reader, Soldier Boy/Ben x Reader, Russell Shaw x Reader
AN: This one was requested by one of my lovely Patreon members, @lacilou. And surprise! For the first time, I'm trying out adding Russell Shaw to the lineup because I thought he'd be an interesting addition for this prompt. 💜
Prompt: How would Dean, Ben & Beau react to either other men flirting with us or them obliviously/cluelessly letting other women flirt with them? And how we would react to them -- like how they'd make it up to us, their excuses, etc.
HC: How Dean Winchester, Beau Arlen, Soldier Boy (Ben), and Russell Shaw would react to someone flirting with you. (And others flirting with them.)
Tags/Warnings: Established relationship, oblivious flirting, unwanted advances, jealousy, some toxic masculinity (you know Ben 🙄), but ultimately lots of fluff, and some spice too.~
Dean Winchester
Dean isn't one to get jealous...at first.
He knows you're hot as hell. He pretty much expects guys to try and shoot their shot.
Plus, he's secure enough in his relationship with you to know you wouldn't consciously entertain someone who's flirting with you.
He also knows you're strong enough to take care of yourself, even with a persistent asshole.
However.
The second a man gets into your face or tries to put his hands on you, Dean's stepping in -- either to twist the man's arm nearly out of its socket, or deliver a swift punch between the eyes, or his personal favorite, grabbing the back of the guy's neck and slamming his face onto the counter.
Dean finds the sound of bone breaking against varnished wood, followed closely by the heavy tripping thud of a body to the floor, deeply satisfying.
You heave a sigh. Not because you're all that annoyed at Dean, but because you tried to warn the guy.
Now, Dean knows he used to be...well, a "ladies man," putting it mildly. He's improvised more panty-dropping one-liners than a Magic Mike stripper. His success rate is 9-and-10 (because there's always room for improvement).
He directs all that flirtatious, playful, sexual energy on you. He's fallen for you, committed to you, and once he makes a decision with his heart, Dean Winchester doesn't have an unfaithful bone in his body.
However.
He can't altogether stop women from flirting with him. Like at one of the many diners you, Sam, and Dean stop to eat at after a hunt.
"Let me know if you need anything else, okay?" the waitress says. She brushes her hand up his arm and squeezes his shoulder, giving Dean a too-bright smile that leaves nothing to the imagination (at least to you).
He smiles back at her. "Thanks, sweetheart."
It's like a reflex. He thinks he's being polite. He doesn't even follow the path of her hip-swaying walk with his eyes -- like he certainly would've before he met you.
You still stare at Dean incredulously. When the woman walks away, he smiles at you as if nothing happened. Sam wisely keeps to himself and sips his beer, hiding a smirk.
Dean notices the way your lips are pursed, bitchface activated. "What?" he asks.
You cross your arms. "Really?"
He frowns. "What's the matter?"
"Really. You need me to tell you not to let that woman eye-fucking you to put her hands all over you?" You shake your head. More dryly you add, "Right in front of me, too. I gotta give it to her, she's got brass balls."
Dean is bewildered, but then he replays the moment in his head and realizes that you're right. He kinda fucked up.
He sees the way you're getting all testy, and he has to chuckle.
"Okay. I'm sorry, sweetheart. My bad."
He reaches for your hand and manages to uncross your arms. You're stubborn in your irritation, but Dean is the king of persuasion, giving you teasing, flirty bedroom eyes and waggling brows as he pulls you towards him.
If you're still reluctant to soften, he adds, "Come on, don't be a sourpuss. Come 'ere."
Eventually he breaks you, making you laugh and hit his arm with no real force behind it.
Even Sam shakes his head, seeing how his brother manages to pacify you by sliding his arm around your shoulders across the booth. Dean leans in and kisses along your neck. He inhales your scent and hums in pleasure.
Sam clears his throat. He has to awkwardly look away.
"Gonna forgive me?" Dean asks, his lips moving against your skin. "Though I gotta admit, I kinda like it when you're jealous. All growly and fiesty. Got myself a little tiger."
You roll your eyes, but your lips tug at a smile. Your face warms in a blush, especially as his hand wanders under your jacket and teasingly up your side.
You slip your fingers into his hair, making sure to give a sharp little tug on it for good measure. He just laughs.
Oh, you'll forgive him, but maybe you'll make him do a little more penance when you all get back home.
Beau Arlen
Beau is a jealous man from the onset when a man flirts with you.
His lips purse, his jaw clicks, and he keeps a firm eye on the situation. He doesn't like it.
But to his credit, he tries not to act on it right away, letting you handle it the way you want to.
However, like Dean, the moment someone gets into your personal space or tries to touch you, he's pulling out some Sheriff moves.
If the man grabs at you, Beau's got his arm twisted behind his back so fast, he can almost feel ligaments popping. Beau gives a calm, but firm warning before sending the guy on his way. (He'd like to do more, but the department frowns on excessive violence.)
Maybe part of you gets annoyed at the show of jealousy, but a larger part of you can't help but be turned on when he protects you. You know it's not because he thinks you need protecting, but because he wants to.
"Can't help it, darlin'," he's said. "It's just how I was raised."
But you're the one that bristles when Danielle, a PTA mom at Emily's school, flirts with him. She laughs at his corny jokes with her white teeth and her perfectly layered and coiffed blonde hair.
She even gives him an extra cookie from her offering at the school's bake sale. (She knows what most of this town knows -- that the way to the Sheriff's heart is all too often through his stomach.)
Beau just nods along, smiling polite with that charming grin of his, totally oblivious while he eats. The last straw for you is when she wipes a bit of chocolate from the corner of his mouth.
Your mouth falls open in shock. "Are you shitting me?"
You accidentally say it out loud, earning not only your boyfriend's surprised look, but Danielle's guilty one as well. (And some of the kids.)
Blushing in embarrassment, you pivot on your heel and start packing up your supplies for the bake sale.
That's when Beau realizes that he fucked up.
He politely excuses himself from Danielle and goes to help you (wiping the crumbs off his face and licking chocolate off his thumb). He can tell you're feeling more than a little icy towards him, but he tries to make up for it by doing all the heavy lifting, bringing back things to the car, and helping you with the bags before he calls Emily over.
It's a long car ride home, awkward and tense. Emily can tell something's off between you and her dad, but when she asks about it, you claim nothing's wrong.
Beau knows better.
He waits until the three of you get home to the apartment you share with him, and after putting the bake sale stuff away, he follows you into the bedroom.
"Sweetheart--"
"What the hell was that, Beau?" You come in hot with it, and Beau is quick to try and ease your tension with an apology.
"I know. I'm sorry."
"Couldn't you see that she was eyeing you like a honey-glazed ham?"
Beau's lips twitch at a grin, but you're not amused. You cross your arms and give him a warning look. That's when he wises up.
"Okay, you're right. I'm sorry." He chances taking a few slow steps towards you, raising his brows and keeping his hands up in surrender.
You eye him narrowly, but you let him get close enough to slip his arms around you. He gathers you against his chest and presses a lingering kiss to your cheek.
"I mean it. Won't happen again," he promises. His hands mold to the curve of your waist and squeeze gently. His lips move, burning a sweet path along your jawline, your chin, over the apple of your cheeks, and finally your lips. You breathe into it, and you can't help but cling to the front of his buttoned-down shirt.
"Do me a favor," you say quietly between kisses. "Don't eat Danielle's cookies."
Beau smiles against your lips. "Don't you worry, darlin'. From now on, I'll tell her that I've got some good cookie at home."
Soldier Boy (Ben)
Oh, Ben doesn't fuck around.
...Well, in the sense that he can't tolerate another man even looking at you flirtatiously, or otherwise with any kind of intent.
Depending on the severity, at best, it'll have Ben shooting the man a stony look of warning.
At worst, it ruins the day -- namely with the sound of bone snapping and a man's sobbing howl of pain.
You try to get him to tone it down ("For God's sake, Ben. It's fine. Just relax."), but this is one thing he well and truly doesn't budge on.
Ben is possessive. Because you're his. His to touch, and his to protect.
In his mind, it's fucking simple.
Whenever you get irritated with this brutish, knuckle-dragging, caveman mentality, you try to remember why he does it.
It's indicative of how much he actually cares about you.
Because if he didn't, he wouldn't really give a shit if other men were flirting with you. (He'd just find another woman to try and charm back to his apartment.)
So you've learned how to try and finesse these situations so that Ben doesn't notice.
You've also stopped letting down men easy, proverbially cutting off their dick and balls with your words.
Because it's quite literally to save their dumbass life.
But when other women flirt with Ben, he takes it all with indulgent smiles, throwing in a wink and a sweetheart every now and then.
He doesn't blame them for flirting with him, checking him out. He's Soldier Boy, after all, and in his mind, it's not his fault they can't help themselves around him.
However, a smile and a wink is all that he allows himself.
If he truly cares about you (and though he doesn't often express it in words, he does), then the unfamiliar twinge of guilt stops him whenever he almost accepts a woman's alluring invitation--spoken or unspoken.
His mouth might spew arrogance and gilded lies, but his actions too often betray what he really feels.
And what he really feels can't be any more clear than when he goes after you, instead of indulging the woman who basically undressed him with her eyes, whispered sultry, sexy offerings in his ear, and invited him to go home with her.
Seeing you take off out the double doors of the club, Ben rolls his eyes. He brushes the woman off without a backwards glance, and follows you out into the night air. He grabs your hand before you can get far in your heels.
"What the hell's the matter now?" he asks dryly.
You turn on him with an incredulous look.
"That woman was practically sucking your neck, Ben!"
"All right, don't fucking overreact. You're getting hysterical," he says, before guiding you back into his arms.
"I'm not fucking hysterical, you ass!" You push against his chest, but he doesn't budge, nor does he let you go. This isn't a good area, and he doesn't want you out in these streets at this time of night without him at your side.
"Ben," you say sharply. You look up at him in irritation, but he just smirks and strokes your side with his thumb.
Yes, (in his mind) you're being a little difficult, but he thinks your jealousy is amusing, adorable, and kind of hot all at the same time.
Ben doesn't bother with saying anything more to convince you. He just slips a hand behind your neck and kisses you soundly.
He invades your mouth with his tongue and devours you, reminding you that you're the one he wants.
He waylays you with his strong hands framing your body against his, and with his sinful mouth, until you finally melt into his embrace.
He's chosen you countless time before, and he knows he'll keep choosing you, for as long as this lasts.
Russell Shaw
Russell always clocks the "situation" right away when a man starts to flirt with you.
He's not one to make a scene of it at first, depending on the time and place.
But he is quick to sidle up to your side, pointedly slip a hand along your waist, and greet you with a deceptive smile.
"Hey, sweetheart. Let's grab that table over there. 'S more comfortable than the bar."
He glances up at the man, sharpness hidden well behind his green eyes. Whether the guy picks up on it or not, Russell is making a mugshot in his mind -- and he never forgets a face.
You eye him knowingly, but you let him guide you away. He's kind of cute when he's jealous, and it doesn't take much to spark that well of protectiveness that lies in wait just under his skin.
Russell isn't easily fazed by most things, but one sure way to provoke his temper (and those rougher, darker shades of him that he tries his best not to show you) is for a man to push his luck with you.
It really wouldn't take much effort at all for the former soldier to have a man clutching his bloody, shattered nose, let alone to dump his broken body in front of the closest hospital. But somehow, Russell manages to curb those darker urges. (Again, don't tempt him.)
But when another woman flirts with him, you're the one who starts to have steam coming out of your ears.
Russell doesn't miss much. He recognizes the sultry inflection in the woman's words. He catches the subtle, sensuous gleam in her eyes when she rakes him up and down with them.
He also notes the moment you look over and realize what's happening.
Regardless if you're looking or not, he tries his best to stay distant, but polite, even as a warning twinge of "aww shit" runs up his spine.
He tries to play things off with an amiable smile and being purposefully oblivious.
Until the woman gets bold, slipping her hand over Russell's and up his arm a bit, before she withdraws, tilting her head with a sweet-as-pie smile.
Cue Russ's awkward laugh/clearing of the throat. Before he has time to fully pull away and just come out with the, Sorry, I actually have a girlfriend -- you return to his side and pointedly grab his hand.
"Come on, honey, we'll be late," you say, giving him a tense smile.
The aww shit feeling is back, but Russell just nods and falls into step with you.
When you two have enough privacy to hash it out, you let him have it.
"What the hell was that?!"
Russell can't help but chuckle. "I'm sorry, sweetheart. I tried to keep it classy, but that woman was persistent. Not that I blame her--"
"Oh, shut up." You roll your eyes (not that you really blame her either). Then you stare at your man in annoyance, crossing your arms. "I didn't see you trying all that hard to fend her off, huh, Romeo? If another man had touched me like that, you would've broken his fingers off, like a fucking caveman."
Russell's brows raise at the dig, but the way you're getting all testy is kind of cute (and also kinda hot).
"All right. You got me there," he says. He slips his arms around your waist and tries to soften you with a charming grin. "Come on, sweetheart. You know I'm not going anywhere."
"Do I?" you blurt out, before you have a chance to reign it back in.
Russell's contract jobs take him all over the country -- all over the world. Yes, he's on his way out, he claims. He wants to settle down with you, or so he says.
But you have no idea of knowing what he does when he's not with you.
All those days out on the road, crashing in skeevy motels, winding down at dive bars -- has he ever been tempted to "sample" the local fare? Has he ever...
Russell's amusement fades, sobering into a frown and a furrowing of his brows. He hums in disapproval. He doesn't like what he's seeing in your eyes: doubt, most of all.
"Hey," he says. It's a serious tone you don't often hear in his voice. He curls a finger under your chin and tilts your face up to meet his.
"I'm gonna need you to listen to me, and listen good," he says. You frown at that, but he brushes his thumb across your cheek, a small, but tender caress. "You and me, we've got something good. I know what that means. So you can believe me when I say, I'm in this. I'm right here, even when I'm not here."
And he smiles at you. "That make sense?"
Slowly, you start to smile too. "Not really," you laugh.
But it does. You know what he's trying to say, and...you believe him. Your fingers curl in the front of his shirt.
Tentatively, you lean up and press your lips to his; just a sweet, slow meeting.
Russell cups your cheek and leans in for a deeper taste, a deeper conviction of every word he just said.
I love you, is what it really means, even if he's not able to say that just yet.
AN: 😮💨 Well, there we go! lol I love me a protective man. 💜 Hope you enjoy this set of headcanons!
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I've been thinking the kind of writing I do and the kind of reactions it gets. Some authors get goofy comics of their works. Me? I just got a comment on my Captain America: Winter Soldier fic that I helped the reader understand 9/11. I am, by the way, delighted by that.
I struggle to describe my own writing style. It's wordy, I know that, and favors a LOT of detail, to its benefit and detriment. I'm indulging this tendency for my current fic because it's fanfic and I am having a lot of fun seeing what details I write that I end up elaborating on, but my number one style goal this year is to work on brevity and a snappier pace. My style is so introspective; characters spend a lot of time reflecting on themselves. I put a lot of work into making my characters complex, even at times contradictory because I think that's true to human nature. And by god, do I think about a story's themes. Do other writers think about themes this much? Sometimes I'm like, hey brain, I'm actually good on themes. Would love to get some plot.
Not to entice all the sapiosexuals out there, but I take a very cerebral approach writing. (This does not btw mean that the fic itself will be particularly intelligent.) I'm not saying this is a good or bad way--it's one way to write. My writing can feel very cold to me. Very same-y as well. That's why writing SQQ pov is so fun, it's such a radically different voice than my usual.
The fic I'm writing now was supposed to be a lighthearted fic that was an excuse for me to practice writing a sex scene. Almost 80k words in, it's so super not that. I just can't resist the thrall of complication. Although you know, as I'm writing this, I'm not exactly sure what an "intellectual approach" to writing even means to me. I use big words? I overuse semi-colons?
Maybe it's the way that I'm so language-forward in my writing. Like, what I love doing is crafting a sentence. Someone described literature to me as writing where the main draw is the author's technical accomplishment in executing their style. I definitely favor authorial voice, to the point where the stories I write that I like least feel like balsa wood gilded over. It looks nice, but you quickly realize it's weak as hell.
There's works that clearly value style over plotting, and vice versa. You need both when you write--all plot with no style reads like a synopsis of itself and all style with no plot is imagery in pursuit of nothing. Both very boring in their own way. It's interesting how totally which one weighs more affects every part of the story. Mrs. Dalloway is not a fast-paced page turner, and a thriller doesn't halt itself so we can read really beautiful, pointless paragraphs about how the color of the sky evokes memories of a long ago time when you were so different.
Maybe what I mean is that my stories tend to evolve out of the ideas that I'm exploring. In the fic I'm writing now, I had this core conceit of misunderstanding: people failing to interpret something without knowing they're doing so. In a way, the entire story is about the hard work of moving from misunderstanding to understanding. Getting information, interpreting it, having that interpretation challenged, exploring what that challenge provokes, moving either closer or further from "the truth". Shen Qingqiu misunderstands basically everything, and basically everyone misunderstands Shen Qingqiu. What situations can I make that center on misunderstandings? I also think a lot about the concept of fault--how have people failed in the past, how are they failing in the present, and how do you make up from what you have done wrong? Do you get to just move forward? Are you always at mercy of whatever you did in the past?
So a lot of the plot of the story stems out of ways that I can bring those ideas to the forefront. When I get stuck, I think of different ways these concepts can manifest. Ming Fan's getting a whole plotline because of this. I like my writing, I do, but I’ve really been thinking about the way I write affects what I write. And then in turn the reactions I get to my writing. And then I wrote this whole post because ao3 was down and I couldn’t post my chapter. And now here we are.
Also general DVD commentary on OOC fic--I hit such a roadblock because we're very close to the point of the story where Big Things are going to happen, and I could not decide on exactly how those things should occur. I had about three ideas that I was excited about. None of them were compatible with the others and each would have very different emotional implications. It's hard to write when you're essentially juggling three different drafts. The only way I got myself to commit to one was promising myself that I could always write AUs of my own fic. I honestly doubt I'll get around to doing that, but who knows. Maybe someday there will be a fic of (spoiler warnings ig for things that aren't going to happen) this fic's version of sqq and lbh in the endless abyss together.
Also you would not imagine the amount of thought I've given which conversation should happen before the abyss and where each character relationship needs to be. I have dithered like crazy. And there's so many relationships I'm working with. I'm keeping track of Shen Qingqiu's relationship with: Luo Binghe, Liu Qingge, Yue Qingyuan, Mu Qingfang, Ming Fan, Shen Jiu, Qing Jing Peak as a whole, a couple of OCs, the System, and his concept of self. Mu Qingfang has not been on screen for a minute but it's not because he doesn't haunt my plot outline. Sorry, bud, everyone else just keeps getting more pressing stuff.
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hi!! i just wanted to try and clear something up with you bc i really need to know? what are your thoughts on eridan as a whole? bc i love your art and i love all your equius stuff (youve made me rethink him as a character that i initially wrote off, a lot like how i used to do with eridan before i re-read the comic) but the hitler joke in one of your humanstuck doodles really rubbed me the wrong way and i couldnt decipher if it was just supposed to be taken as a write off joke or if it was supposed to be exaggerated. theres a really massive misconception within the fandom that eridan is/would be a neonazi and tbh i cant keep following you if you believe that. he's my favorite character and it just makes me upset to see popular artists in the fandom still not reading further into him beyond the surface level and perpetuating fanon that makes volotile people in the fandom harass ampora fans. nothing against you personally, as i dont know you personally. i just would really like to know your full thoughts on him as a character.
hello! no, i don’t think humanstuck eridan (edison) would genuinely be a neo-nazi. i do think he’s definitely falling down that alt-right pipeline, but he’s not too far gone.
i do think he might actually say things like this, but a lot of what he says he doesn’t really understand or mean. he’s trying to sound smart, or cool, or edgy or whatever, but it’s not really working, and it only makes him look like an asshole. he’s mainly echoing things he’s picked up from his environment, namely the spaces he hangs out in online. in homestuck, every troll is based off of a specific type of internet archetype. (angry screaming guy, leetspeaker, roleplayer, etc.) each of them, at the beginning of act 5, is a parody of different annoying or strange types of people you meet online. this is his.
as for my thoughts on eridan’s character as a whole, as a troll in homestuck, i still don’t think he’s a genuine nazi. i think he’s similar to equius in that, again, he says a lot of things that he doesn’t really fully mean. they’re just ingrained in him due to his highblood upbringing.
i think that something that bears repeating is that all of these characters are 13 years old. i think that hussie did a pretty good job of writing them based on this fact. when you’re 13, you’re pretty much at the peak of insecurity and self-consciousness and desire to seem cool and interesting to others and society as a whole. you’re really just starting to try and explore your identity and establish yourself as your own person. all this considered, you still really don’t know what you’re doing at all when you’re 13. you’re desperate to prove yourself, to seem capable and strong.
i think a lot of the highbloods’ (vriska, equius, gamzee to an extent, eridan) behaviors make sense when you consider their environments and upbringing. they don’t think the awful things they do are actually awful, in fact, this is the behavior that’s expected of them. society’s told them their whole lives that this is the way they’re supposed to act, so they act accordingly. i’m not saying it makes their actions excusable, but i think it makes them make sense, given their circumstances.
sorry if my point started getting away from me at the end there. in conclusion, no, eridan is not a nazi. i think to say so would be a little silly. even the people eridan kills, he doesn’t do so because of their blood color (to my remembrance). he kills them because he perceives them as a direct threat, and because they’re in his way. (and i believe feferi technically attacked him first, right?) the solution he jumps to is violence, because that’s what he’s been accustomed to. it’s the first and easiest thing he can think of.
again, of course this doesn’t excuse his actions; it doesn’t excuse any of their actions, but it does explain them.
#ask#homestuck#eridan ampora#i’d like to talk more about edison/human eridan but it’s better left to a different post#there’s a lot with him that i’ve established but never actually drawn or talked about so i would like to actually do that at some point
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Honestly I did have some points re: other themes of the story but given how massive and, if I do say so myself, damning, the colonialism post is I think they can be addressed pretty succinctly. Here's what I've seen and a quick debunking:
Theme of self-sacrifice (as either a good or bad thing): would have been nice to have actually explored the party's grief and anger after FCG died then. Again, I can understand why this might not have happened given the real-world situation but that still means said theme wasn't well-explored.
Theme of the inevitability of change: as discussed, change will come regardless of the outcomes for Predathos, due to unprecedented international cooperation, revelations about the nature of Ruidus, and aliens. Unleashing Predathos doesn't really add to the theme - it's just more change. It's perhaps a more drastic change, but still, more of same. I'd also add that the fact that most of the party really hasn't changed a lot or their transformations have been rushed through to get to the moon plot also undercuts this theme, as does the focus on the titans - is this radical change, or is this a desire to return to an idealized past that the party never knew and which may have never really existed, which is a pretty conservative/reactionary viewpoint? I'd also add that generally a message of "change is good", "change can be good", or "change is inevitable" is best conveyed by a change that either happens no matter what and the characters or party must cope with it; or a change the party must make with significant drawbacks that, and this is crucial, they grapple with in terms of implications. I've sideswiped Rusty Quill Gaming a few times and they had, frankly, a structurally sound campaign with plenty of time for character development that simply failed to stick the landing of this message because the DM didn't bring up the issue until the last session. The fact that Bells Hells have had a billion circular conversations with themselves about this and never considered any implications truly cuts this theme off at the knees.
Theme of The Power of Friendship: even people who genuinely love this campaign have pointed out it fails to spend enough time developing character relationships and that the party members are often oddly silent when it comes to their commonalities. Watch a late game C1 or C2 episode that isn't all combat and the party is joking with each other or checking in to a degree that would be unprecedented with Bells Hells. I happen to think that the Power of Friendship is a perfectly good theme if we are talking about shows aimed at young children and is eyeroll inducing if it's the main theme on a show for adults but like...if this is the theme where the fuck was the downtime to develop it.
Theme of the difficulty of making decisions: this seems to be where a lot of people have landed - that actually Bells Hells' hesitancy is GOOD because there's no easy answers here. The trouble, of course, is that those same people have been banging on the KILL THE GODS drum much of the campaign and in some cases still are (and were, as of a few days ago, still on about how this is an anticolonialist work). Which is it? Is unleashing Predathos something that could have horrible consequences for the party and in the long term for Exandria, thus actually backing up the idea that this is, indeed, a diffficult choice? Or was it OBVIOUSLY the answer the whole time? And within the narrative why wasn't the aftermath or even the immediate impact of those possible decisions explored? It's rather like the inevitability/importance of change theme - doesn't hit if you haven't spent time considering what will happen. Bells Hells has been almost entirely focused, in fact, on the past and present and their own personal grievances that they never actually considered the world they might want to make. Which makes for a good tragedy, for what it's worth, but means their dull handwringing over the outcomes fails to hit because they never once thought about the outcomes.
Theme of power: hits better if you didn't have Keyleth on speed dial. hits better if the world didn't shower you with money and gifts from the start of the campaign. hits better if the fact that (for example) Ashton was relatively powerless for much of their life and then the second they got power went fucking nuts with it were explored. Hits better if we actually considered that the people of Gelvaan were terrified of Imogen and with just cause given that she nearly killed two of them in a way none of them had access to. Hits better if Laudna had actually leaned into Delilah. Hits better if they spent even a fraction of the time among commoners as they did among world leaders. Definitely doesn't hit if a rapid rise to power is seen as an excuse for one's behavior rather than as a condemnation of one's power.
If there's a potential theme I missed, please feel free to let me know but I think that covers everything I've seen and why, again, the building blocks were there but the party's general "meh" response to almost everything and the weird pacing puts a damper on pretty much any message.
#anyway are we like. done here.#cr tag#the other thing about every single theme here? done infinitely better by c1 or c2 or both.#particularly campaign 1 if i'm being quite honest#c2 i think says more interesting things about power and change#but c1 nails sacrifice and tough calls
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I don’t have access to my laptop that has all my posts on it, so bear with me. I agree with you that a lot of this discourse comes from people substituting themselves into what they feel like is the jc-wwx relationship, so they expect wwx to divulge all his trauma to jc because “well they’re brothers and I’d want my sibling to tell me things because I love my siblings, therefore jc must love wwx and want the same.” However, I don’t agree with anything else, because I think that this is a misreading of wwx’s character and the scenes listed. For one: jc and wwx are not brothers, no, not even adopted. Wwx was not adopted. They do not see each other as brothers and are never shown in the novel to view each other that way. Jc and wwx have a friendship that devolved almost completely into a superior/subordinate relationship that then ended the moment wwx defected from the Jiang.
I say this in a later response in this very post thread, but everything post-fall of lotus pier isn’t about whether wwx wants to share his hurts but whether he can. We see pre-fall wwx complain about hurts and injuries all the time, with friends and strangers alike. So to that, jyl not wanting to answer a personal question about love has nothing to do with whether or not wwx would share his pains with her, because her aversion to the romance question is about her avoiding her own hurts surrounding jzx, not wanting to brush wwx off. Wwx wasn’t asking about romance for himself but about her feelings about it, because he wanted to understand why and how she could continue to like jzx despite his mistreatment of her. Jyl is allowed to brush that off, and wwx is fine with her having done so. On the other hand, wwx can’t share his post-fall traumas with jyl (or anyone else) outside of being upset about the Jiang Clan massacre because anything else would invite her to ask questions that could lead to revealing the golden core exchange. He can’t allow that to happen.
Moving on, wwx isn’t “annoyed” with mianmian for crying. Mianmian isn’t crying over having almost been injured; she’s crying because wwx got injured by taking a hit meant for her. He’s trying to tease her out of her hysteria by purposely misattributing what’s actually upset her, which is that she feels responsible for his injury—an injury that is not her fault and he does not want her to self-blame for.
And finally, to your point about wwx not accepting jc’s apology: a running theme in the novel is debts owed and repaid through verbal and non-verbal acknowledgements. Lwj takes issue with wwx thanking him because he takes it as wwx acknowledging owing him a debt. Wen Qing and Wen Ning have that same idea around thanking and apologizing. The part that’s missing from your guanyin temple scene analysis is right after wwx refuses jc’s apology, the narration says that there has been so many bad events between them that one can’t know who is truly at fault, i.e. who really owes who. Wwx isn’t brushing off jc because he doesn’t care about things that jc did or doesn’t want to revisit his traumas, but because to accept jc’s apology would mean that wwx is accepting a debt from jc, continuing their debtor-debtee relationship when all wwx wants is to finally be free of any and all entanglements with the other man. It would also be shameless behavior completely ooc for wwx.
What’s not ooc for wwx to do is express his hurts and seek comfort. We literally see him do this all the time with lwj and with jyl in some early flashbacks. The few times he holds in his pains are when the situation makes it inappropriate for him to seek attention over them—such as when he brushes off his brand in the cave because he feels like lwj’s broken and chewed on leg is more urgent, the situation with mianmian, or when lwj gets upset at him for taking on jin ling’s curse mark. Of these three examples, in 2 of them, wwx didn’t even remember his injury because he’s been distracted by a more pressing matter. Outside of that, he looks for validation and comfort from those he cares about, and there’s nothing about him being “socialized as a man to not dwell on his emotions” that prevents this. Remembering the good and not dwelling on what others owe you ≠ not dwelling on your emotions wholesale.
Why does fandom act like wei wuxian kept it a secret that he was thrown into the burial mounds? He’s said it twice so far, and both times it’s been to jiang cheng (and once to lan wangji). Is this another frankencanon thing where people just can’t remember what’s been said in which adaptation vs. the novel?
#mdzs#your points made sense i just don’t agree lol#i don’t think wwx has bad communication skills or coping mechanisms#he is just in a situation where he was forced into isolation#all to protect one man’s ego in order to fulfill a life debt#he was in a bad situation from the start#but the way he acts pre-fall is markedly different from how he acts post-fall#and how wwx acts in his second life is markedly different than how he acted post-ssc in his first life#there’s a reason for all this that cannot be chalked up to:#’he doesn’t communicate’
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