#thank you all for 80 followers again :D

[realjrwiquotes]

thank you all for 80 followers!! :D

thank you all for the support and submissions! i really appreciate it :D

[spaghettiisinmysoul]

Since you asked so nicely: D-Delicate pleasures with Poolverine. uwu

I did it I did it! I finished the fic!!!! 🤩 this is also probably gonna go on my ao3 (skettibiscuit) so go ahead and follow me on there if you like how this one is written!!! Update: IT HAS BEEN POSTED!! I have two other poolverine fics in the works cause I can’t get them out of my brain lmao

Without further ado, Delicate Pleasures, a prompt from this post! (Thank you zaynie ily)

They’d just gotten done infiltrating some Big Bad Guy’s Big Bad Hideout with his little Bad goons all running around trying to kill them. Emphasis on trying. You’d be amazed at the wonders Adamantium blades do on the bones of two hundred or so scrawny guys in matching outfits. There was even an incredibly catchy 80s ballad playing in the background (probably only in Wade’s head, but you get it,) while it happened. You really had to be there…

But now, here they are, having just barely caught their breath and taking a break before heading home to their shitty apartment. At least they’d get to see the dog again once they get there.

Once the stars start to get boring to stare at, Wade turns his head to look at his counterpart. Sitting against the wall with his eyes closed and legs spread wide the fuck open. Wade’s got the best view in the house, and he doesn’t even know if it was on purpose. But Logan looks so peaceful right now, he could very well be asleep for all he knows…

He carefully, quietly gets up. Tiptoeing crouch to get next to Logan. He looks like a baboon trying to steal treats from the bigger baboons at the zoo. It’s wild shit, he’s seen it. If they’re not quick enough the bigger one will just beat the shit out of ‘em.

…That metaphor works a little too well in this situation, doesn’t it?

He gets close enough without a scratch. Logan hasn’t even moved. Now what? He got this close. He didn’t have any plans for what comes next.

…His hair looks soft. The sweat and blood dried from the wind up here on top of this building, and it’s a little poofier than usual. He could try something very funny and very stupid.

He gets up to sit on the ledge, and gently scratches the top of Logan’s head. You know those little metal things on a stick that you push onto your head and it makes your bones rattle? He’s trying to get that kind of effect.

Logan growls a little, but it’s quiet, and maybe a little inviting. Oh, it definitely is, because he tilts his head back and upwards, silently asking for more.

Wade’s eyes go wide and, well, he can’t stop now. So now he’s stuck here, petting his teammate like he’s a dog. He basically is. Sleepy little guy…

They’re sat like this for a while. Wade with his fingers all up in this gorgeous head of hair, and Logan making quiet little noises of approval that almost sound like one wrong move will make Wade lose his fingers. But it’s worth it to hear those noises, and they’ll grow back anyway.

It’s quiet, and soft, and delicate, which isn’t a word often used to describe anything these two do together. Usually it’s manic and violent and utterly batshit insane, the kinds of things they get up to. But no, here they are, peaceful. For once.

He continues for a while, until his hand starts to get tired, and slows to a stop, with his hand just planted on top of Logan’s head. Another growl comes from him in a moment, and he looks up at Wade. Not necessarily mad, but maybe a little annoyed. “Why’d ya stop?”

“Got tired.” He smiles down at him. “I can do it some more at home. We should probably get going, huh big guy?” He scratches his head a little more roughly, but Logan doesn’t seem to mind the difference and closes his eyes again.

“Mm… Yeah, good idea.”

[xiaq]

How did you and B meet?

I'm sure I've talked about this before, but here's the Official Story from our reception invitations:

Erica met B through their mutual friend G while rock climbing at the Austin greenbelt in April of 2019.

Erica had just purchased a new camera and 80% of the photos she took that day were of B. She shyly sent B the best ones and noted he was a lovely subject. B said, “thanks bro” and used those pictures for his Bumble profile.

It was an auspicious beginning.

At the time, B was living and working in Austin while Erica was a PhD student in Dallas. She often visited “home” to see her parents and climb, so they met up regularly over the next two years.

When the pandemic hit, Erica moved back to Austin to work on her dissertation, and isolated with a small group of climbers that included B. They also started playing D&D together.

Erica’s character was a chaotic neutral half-elf bard who cast spells and cantrips exclusively via limerick. Her go-to solutions to problems they encountered were seduction, inciting political rebellion, befriending monsters, and stabbing.

B played a lawful good half-elf paladin who found Erica’s character extremely vexing.

In real life, however, they had quite a bit in common, and started spending time alone outside of group climbing and D&D meetups. Later, they would discover they had a mutual romantic interest at this point, but neither acted on it since Erica had accepted a visiting professorship in Colorado. She moved in July.

When Erica returned briefly to Austin over spring break the following year, she spent most of her time with B: climbing, hiking, grilling at her parent’s place, and staunchly denying there was anything happening between them even if she wished there was because honestly, mom, he's never shown the slightest bit of interest in me (her father scoffed loudly from the other room).

She decided to move back to Austin at the end of the school year. When B (and G) came to visit her a few weeks before she moved, Erica decided to be brave and make her intentions known. While watching a UFC fight with B on the couch, she tucked her toes, lasciviously, under B’s thigh.

Shockingly, he did not respond to this unequivocal romantic overture. But he did help her remove all the temporary wallpaper on her ugly rental cabinets before they left, so that was nice.

The following month, when Erica moved back to Austin, B asked if she’d like to come over for dinner after climbing. She agreed because she wanted to procrastinate unpacking and also she was slightly in love with him. The following day, he asked if she wanted to have dinner again. She did.

“Wow,” Erica said to her mother that morning, “I guess B is really lonely since G moved. He’s been asking me to hang out with him a lot.”

“You're an idiot,” her mother said.

That night, B asked Erica if she'd ever thought about them dating.

“I’m thinking about it now,” she said, cavalier, suave, blasé, and not nervous at all.

This wasn’t a lie, but she had also thought about it once or twice prior to that moment as well.

“Great,” B said, “How would you feel if I kissed you?”

And Erica said, “Yeah, I’d feel pretty good about that.”

A few weeks later, B casually showed Erica an empty shelf in his bathroom cabinet and an inviting space in his closet and a couple spare drawers in his dresser and she, equally casually, moved in with him.

Over the next year, the apartment’s decor and Erica’s diet improved drastically. They traveled, they climbed, they spent time with each others families. They lived, laughed, loved and reduced, reused, recycled. Shortly after moving into their new house, combining bank accounts, making each other their medical powers of attorney, solidifying their retirement plans, and discussing whether getting married would have tax benefits, they realized most people got engaged before doing…a good portion of those things. So they planned to propose to each other.

Christmas of 2022, they took a road trip across Colorado. B proposed to Erica on the gondola in Telluride; two days later, Erica proposed to B on the Train to Cascade Canyon in Durango. They both said yes.

In August 2023 they will elope, with their dog Deacon as a witness, to Mt. Rainier national park.

In November 2023, they’ll celebrate with their friends and family at a backyard reception that will include food, drinks, swimming, croquet, corn hole, axe-throwing and a bounce house (the axe-throwing and the bounce-house will be on opposite sides of the lawn; if it's cold, the pool will be heated). They hope you’ll come and share their joy with them.

[undertale-fic-librarby]

Hi

Do you have any reader in Undertale fics?

They could be romance (slow burn with angst if so) /(AUs also count) or with no romance.

Preferably completed if possible and with a good,long plot (so like 20-80 chapters) because it feels like I’ve read most fics like this and I can’t seem to find any more.

Thanks if you answer this.Remeber to drink water and take care of yourself!

Howdy, thanks for asking! Here are some fics that might fit what you're looking for!

The Fallen Player by TreeKami (General Audiences, Complete)

We follow YOU, the Player, on this epic Undertale story. You get sucked into the game on your computer and have no idea what to expect. Will you be able to get back home, or will you be stuck forever, never returning to your world, glitching out inside the game? You will meet all your favorite characters hoping that they will spare you and help guide you on your journey back home.

The Lost Echoes by F311 (Not Rated, Complete)

A kid strolls into the basement of Sans the Skeleton. They don't notice until someone demands to know how they got there. You know everyone, but they don’t know you. Everyone is stressed out in their own way. (MC is just named and has glasses, appearance is up to readers :D)

Even monsters have hearts by FireBright (Teen And Up, Complete)

Cutting the story short you fall down into the Underground. After regaining consciousness and your strange sense of humor you decide to explore this wonderful cavern filled to the brim with magic, monsters and secrets!

What Matters is the Soul by Silencium1 (Teen And Up, Complete)

You fell asleep in your bed at home, and woke up in another bed, made of golden flowers. You don't know how you got into the world of Undertale, but there is a more pressing situation. What is wrong with your Soul?

Mending a Soul by 1StarShine1 (Mature, Complete)

After your life started spiraling down, and you were fed up with everything you took a trip up the fabled Mt. Ebott; the one that some say you never return from. What you hadn't expected was to fall in the world of monsters with them showing the love and kindness you haven't seen in years. Can you find true happiness again, and maybe even love?

[dozing--zzz]

intro post

hello, i go by dozing/doze on here (hermit is fine too if you still wanna use that)

im seventeen and a switch in the sfw tickle community. ive ran a few other blogs in the past, but abandoned them out of self-hate. i have not too recently accepted and embraced this about myself, and after lurking for a while, i have started a new blog.

i view tickles as a fun, silly, bonding activity for friends, lovers, or family, and just a cute part of the human condition. i adore seeing people laughing. i love laughs a lot. maybe a little too much.

i occasionally do tickle art and (rarely, but sometimes) tickle writing/scenarios. this blog will likely mostly consist of random thoughts, art, cute stuff i see or think, or other interactions within the community.

i love talking with others in the community like me, so never hesitate to dm me or anything. id love to chat and make a few friends here.

*unfurls a long scroll*

fandoms

(bold = currently my favorites, strikethrough = dormant, italics = just got into it)

atsv

minecraft

adventure time

steven universe

little big planet

sanders sides

critical role (campaign 2)

hermitcraft

fantasy life (3ds)

commentary youtube

studio ghibli

harvest moon: tale of two towns

pokemon (sun/moon or sword/shield mostly)

avatar the last airbender (animated)

my ocs + original universe

big hero 6

octonauts

wild Kratts

gravity falls

d&d

delicious In dungeon

inside out 1 + 2

the lego movie

bluey

9 (movie)

acnh

teen titans go

marvel

these change like.. every week, so definitely be sure to come back to it every so often if you're curious. i usually bounce between all of these things, however, it's very rarely that the list will expand.

other stuff i like

70s-80s/vintage aesthetic and fashion

70s-80s (and a bit of before/after) music

alternative styles and music in general

found family tropes

anything really paganism/witchcraft related

mythology

nintendo and old games

writing, reading, drawing

conlangs/other made-up languages

silly animals like deer, crows, beetles

uhhh i might add to this

dni/other iffy things

if you apply to any of the following labels, please do not interact with me or my blog. thanks!

NFSW or partially NSFW blog (unless you have tags i can block)

age 30 or older. if i meet you before then and you are a good person and we know eachother when you turn 30, i can make an exception.

feet-centered blog or someone with a foot fetish. you do you, i have no problem with whatever you like, but it is not my thing and makes me uncomfortable.

prefer solely/mostly heavy bondage or tickle torture and/or have a blog centered around it, again, you do you but it scares me lol

homophobic, transphobic, misogynist, sexist, etc. need i explain. i am under the trans umbrella and gay. so if you don't like it fuck off respectfully

think witchcraft/pagan religions are "of the devil" or evil or whatever. i am a practicing witch. i respect and try to understand all religions. please do the same to me.

proshipper or a proshipping supporter.

a vore enjoyer sexual or nonsexual. sorry and no personal hate to you but that stuff terrifies/disgusts me

enjoy/create irl tickling content. yes, this includes youtubers, actors, kpop groups, etc. they're real people and i feel that it is weird and icky to make that sort of content without their consent. thats a real person

these may change as i grow and i will likely do a post indicating it. thanks for reading all that.

anyways, even though im not technically new, i hope you all welcome me back to the community.

[autisticlancemcclain]

fic rec friday 13

welcome the the tenth fic rec friday! where, on friday, i rec five of my favourite fics.

1. i was always yours (even before you knew it) by paladarns

Lance thought Keith was just an asshole. Lance has always thought of Keith as an asshole, all throughout traveling into space in a large mechanical lion, all throughout bonding moments. All throughout becoming closer as teammates and friends.

Even now, with his hands pinned above his head and Keith’s thighs straddling his waist, Lance thinks Keith is an asshole.

Lance had always thought he could see right through people, but now he’s starting to think he has a bad judgement of people.

---------- a fic in which keith is obvious and lance is a bit of a gay nervous wreck

takes place as if season 1 is the only season to exist but its now years later

so many things to love about this fic. so so many. so i am going to list them. a) secret relationship bc i love that shit and eat it up every time, b) ‘takes place as if season 1 is the only season to exist but its now years later’ -- paladarns my love thank you for this truly excellent description of where i write my fics like 80% of the time. c) keith has game, and d)  HE WAS ALWAYS KEITHS EVEN BEFORE HE KNEW IT IM SOBBING BEST TROPE BEST TROPE

2. Wake Up, Sleephyhead! by @transbakugou

Keith has never loved someone like he loves Lance. Lance is his sun, his stars, his happiness. Their hands fit together like they were created to do nothing but hold each other, and he fits perfectly inside of Lance's arms. But he can never let anyone find out how much he loves this boy, how wholly and endlessly. Who knows what the Galra would do with that kind of information?

One morning, the lie comes crashing down around them.

Maybe it won't be as bad as they feared.

i love gay whipped klance and truly every single fic that has ever been written based on a vine is truly amazing, this fic is no exception. also secret relationship lol i am a sucker

3. Something Secret by @kingswriting

It was funny at first. Their arguments became more banter than actual disagreements, yet the entire team continued to assume they were at each other’s throats.

And Lance knows they’re not. He is fully aware that every sharp word, every sly smirk, every heavy handed push, and everything in between is anything but malicious.

But that doesn’t mean he doesn’t miss the softer side of things.

Or, Lance and Keith are in a secret relationship, but honestly want to omit the 'secret' part.

okay u can always tell what tag im following obsessively at certain times lol. for yall i present yet another secret relationship fic. ahem. this one is cute! banter and flirting and misleading and kisses and GOD its so sweet

4. Things Held Sacred by yarrie

So maybe, just maybe, Pidge was right. Maybe, just maybe, Keith had shot himself in the foot with his first attempt at resolving the blanket-hogging situation, because now Lance seemed to think it was a game and the rules were: steal the blankets, get sex.

To be fair, Keith hadn't exactly been...dissuading him very well.

okay so heres how this works. every fic rec friday so far has been from a specific collection of mine called ‘rereadables’, which was literally started because of this fic. i dont even know what specific part of this fic gets to me so hard, but you know when you read something that makes your stomach go all swoopy? and you can’t stop smiling? thats this fic! i remember i finished it for the first time and then i scrolled right back up to the top and read it again, then again, and again. like i cannot get over this fic. it gives me butterflies every time

5. Communication is key, they say by @ellana17

They already had communication issues before… Or: a malfunction with a healing pod leaves Lance able to speak only Spanish for a few days.

the idea of lance getting stuck in spanish and then almost immediately using that to flirt with keith without him knowing. like. i love that SO much that is quite possibly one of the funniest concepts to exist

that’s it for today!! i’ll see y’all back next friday for the next fic rec post!!!

[dootznbootz]

hello, sorry it's me again, you've basically become my comfort blog-

I was on reddit and out of curiosity typed in "Circe rant" because idk, I was feeling salty about the book.

I saw a post that had some legitimately good reasons and indicated that this is all just the person's opinion.

But when I checked the replies everyone was just disagreeing with them and being very rude?

Like, they complained about how the book doesn't feel feministic because Circe isn't that likable of a character? And then half the replies were "Uhh she's supposed to be morally gray" "I disagree, Madeline told her story very well." "What gave you the impression this book was supposed to be feministic??"

(Disregarding half the reviews on the cover are calling it a "great feministic piece")

I was kinda pissed so I went to post my own thought about why I really dislike Miller's take on Circe. And 80 present of the replies were just flaming me-

Some guy said people can interpret her anyway they want because she's not real. Someone said I should be more humble and that I just don't like Circe as a character (which is not true). And so on.

Something I've seen is that the Circe book fans are so sensitive good god- Whenever someone criticizes their book they go full defensive mode. Trying to reason with you when most of the time you're the one who actually knows more about the actual character-

They act like all of our concerns on the book actually have a reason and make sense? Honestly, props to us for being bold enough to voice our concerns on a book that basically has a cult following-

Again, really sorry for coming here to bother you. I'm just salty and I genuinely really like your takes

That's really sweet that you feel safe and comfy on my blog. That's what I'm trying to be. Thank you 🥹

You're not bothering me <3 I can understand being salty about the book. It makes me salty too. It's why it's honestly good to block the tags and avoid most of that stuff. Make friends and find the community that actually understand what actually went down in the Odyssey and what happened to Odysseus. There are plenty on here! :D Also quite a few who have really neat and fun stuff about Odyssey Circe while still being respectful of Odysseus!

I don't recommend trying to fight with these folks. It's frustrating but they're not gonna change their mind. As they don't want to. Inform and educate sometimes especially if people ask but don't waste so much energy on it. It's not good for you. It's okay to vent and rant but I don't recommend searching it out. <3 You'll just stress yourself out :D

I think the book is almost like, the most "basic angry feminist shlock in a bland and easy to consume can for pre-teens" book, you know? And that's why so many people cling to it. I can see SOME people taking comfort in the anger maybe?? But idk. Anyways it has so many classic "YA shit". Girlboss who has "no flaws and can do no wrong" who actually isn't a very nice person (what's with so many characters being so mean and moody???), the mean, MEAN men who are just soooo awful to her and try to push her down. The other women who are just slutty and so dumb. They don't get it. etc. etc.

I think it's a lot of younger fans who are JUST starting to see a lot of "adult shit" and it's scary so it's nice to have...idk this?? I don't understand it. As I was never really one to be into that or really even behave that way. Odysseus is much relatable and hopeful as insane as that is.

[hammill-goes-fogwalking]

ESTONIAN SONG RECOMMENDATIONS 🇪🇪✨🕶️ -1970s, 80s-

with tiny reviews from me, hehe

side note: I have no relation with this country, no friends/family from there. I'm currently going through a weird nordic culture & geography hyperfixation, accept this. hahah

^ the title means "north, south, east, west" which only lets us assume what the song's meaning is about... this one's intro has a slightly vdgg-ish sound (similar to their aerosol grey sound 💅🏻) then it turns into a climax which finally reveals as a prog finale with soft nuances (9/10)

^ oh I love this one, a magical storytelling tribute to the (Hindenburg?) zeppelin incident. Opens with a German rhyme about uhm... Graf von Zeppelin, a break separates it from the rest of this song. What you then hear is a typical 60s dreamy psychedelic rhythm that takes you into its own ban, with changes and breaks it's finally develops into the perfect desaster. The zeppelin destroys & kills. Hidden boyish rebellion follows. In the very end the situation calmed down, the psychedelic mist returns & fills the air again

(9/10 with bonus points for the singer's "zeppelin zeppelin awrwrerwrgszwgbbrbbrbrbr screams" check it out)

^ resistance against whatever the challenges of the late 70s-80s ESSR were: breaking out. A 180° degree change from the previous songs, complete different musical style, punk, the anger more obvious, the "Eesti" influences obvious as well. Unpopular opinion: the song gives off Leningrad Cowboys flair, ok make up your own scenario. x (6/10)

^ another whole different genre. I really enjoy the warmth of the sound, the feeling that you're part of the party (don't tell me I'm the only one who hears this :D) City pop vibe, not a glimpse of the communistic troubles. Though the song & all others from this compilation [GROOVE of ESSR] didn't age well!! (5/10)

more recs splashed into this post because yeah

Ornament -70s proto metal-

Gunnar Graps -Eesti Iron Maiden hahah not really-

Velly Joonas -eastern funk-

that's by far not everything, but thanks for reading, yooo

[fancoloredglasses]

Star Trek, part 4: The Next Generation (Making the Federation even more Mary Sue)

[All images are owned by Paramount. Please don’t sue me]

The introduction of the Enterprise-A in Star Trek IV opened up the possibility of new adventures of the USS Enterprise, so when it was announced in 1987 that a new Star Trek television series would be starting, fans were hopeful that the crew of the Enterprise would go from the big screen back to the small screen.

They were very wrong.

(Thanks to Great80sTV)

Star Trek: The Next Generation (or simply TNG) takes place 80 years following the original Enterprise’s five-year missions. Gene Roddenberry is once again at the helm of the show, though he is assisted by Rick Berman, who would become the official showrunner following Roddenberry’s death.

The Federation of the 24th century is, if possible, even more utopian than before, having signed a peace treaty with the Klingon Empire (even if more than a few Klingons aren’t happy about it)

The latest ship to carry the legendary name, the USS Enterprise (NCC-1701-D) is a Galaxy class starship, capable of longer missions into deep space. Warp technology has progressed far enough that the formula for warp speed had to be amended. Now (according to fan publications) the calculation is to a power of 5 (meaning that Warp 5 would be 5 x 5 x 5 x 5 x 5, or 3,125 times the speed of light. Using my Alpha Centauri example from my review of the original series, it would take about 9 1/2 hours at Warp 5 to reach Alpha Centauri from Earth, a much more reasonable time frame.

In addition to better Warp and defensive technologies, the Enterprise had a new technology known as holodecks, that made life-like imagery that the crew could touch and interact with, as a way to keep the crew from going stir-crazy. And the holodecks never, ever, ever had anything go wrong inside. Nope. Never. Not even once. (excuse me as I stifle several giggles)

Two other things that were different than previous Enterprises.

(Thanks to April 5, 2063)

Since the Galaxy class was designed to go farther out than was previously possible, crew quarters are large enough to allow the families of the crew to join them on board. Because of this, the saucer section can be detached from the Engineering hull to allow the civilian population to be evacuated in cases of extreme peril.

One other change was in the uniforms.

(Thanks to The Hollywood Reporter)

Starfleet has replaced the uniform used for over 70 years with an almost “throwback” uniform with the uniform color matching divisions (though red is now operations and gold is now service; but don’t worry, we’ll still call the doomed security personnel “Redshirts”)

You will note that the uniforms are all onesies. This will be changed by Season 2 (along with several minor changes as the series progresses, almost as if whoever designed the uniform didn’t plan for the comfort of the wearer)

Now let’s meet this new crew…

The Enterprise’s commanding officer is Captain Jean-Luc Picard (played by Sir Patrick Stewart, a Shakespearean actor who had never seen Star Trek before auditioning) Stewart takes the gravitas he learned on stage and brings it to the 24th century, setting the tone of the series to something a bit more thought-provoking and less fist-provoking (just one question: why is a French starship captain talking with a British accent?)

Picard’s First Officer is Commander William Riker, who tends to be more Kirk-like in his command style. He’s not the type to get into a brawl or anything, but he’s more the smooth-talking type who leads his team when danger presents itself. He tends to lead missions that are away from the ship, preferring the Captain stay within the relative safety of the Enterprise.

The Second Officer and Chief Navigator is Lt. Commander Data (played by Brent Spiner, who previously was known as recurring character Bob Wheeler on Night Court), an android created by Dr. Noonian Soong capable of independent initiative. Despite rumors to the contrary, Data earned the rank he holds. His journey of learning to be as human as possible often puts him at the center of humorous situations (like when he tried growing a beard) He (and it’s been confirmed that he is male, with all of the plumbing to match) is incapable of showing emotion or using contractions, and often gets so wrapped up in what he’s saying that he has to be cut off by whomever he’s talking to due to not knowing when to stop spouting facts.

Some time during the series (it’s never explained in or out of canon when or how), Data acquired a cat, which he named Spot (despite the fact that the cat had stripes) There were four different “Spots” throughout the series and NONE of them looked alike (plus Spot’s gender changed at least once) Spiner has gone on record saying he hated doing scenes that included Spot, as they always took three times as long to shoot due to the cat not cooperating.

The Ship’s Counselor and advisor to the Captain is Lt. Commander Counselor Deanna Troi (played by Marina Sirtis), a member of a telepathic race known as Betazoids (she mainly uses her abilities as an empath, preferring not to use telepathy) Troi is actually half-Betazoid. She previously had a relationship with Riker that ended amiably, which comes back into play every now and then.

Her mother Lwoxana (played by Majel Barrett) is infatuated with Picard, much to his chagrin.

The Chief Helmsman (and eventually Data’s best friend) is Lt. (later Lt. Commander) Geordi La Forge (played by Reading Rainbow host LaVar Burton) La Forge is blind (due to a blind girl wanting a role model on Star Trek and Gene Roddenberry having an ironic sense of humor by making the pilot blind) The object that looks like a banana clip (because that’s what it is!) is a VISOR (Visual Instrument and Sensory Organ Replacement), which is connected to implants on La Forge’s temples that feed his brain sensory data, including infrared and ultraviolet emissions. Starting in Season 2 (following Season 1’s “Chief Engineer of the Week”), La Forge is transferred to Engineering where he remained through the remainder of the series and beyond.

Lt. Worf (played by Michael Dorn) is the first and (thus far) only Klingon to serve on a Starfleet vessel. He was the last survivor when the Romulans attacked a Klingon outpost when he was a boy. A Starfleet crewman found him and raised him. He is still very much a Klingon warrior, though tempered by Federation ideals.

He serves on the Enterprise as…well, I’m not entirely certain what his duties are at the start of the series other than to be the Token Klingon.

[FUN FACT: The prosthetic Dorn wore in season 1 was stolen after the season ended, so a new one had to be crafted but wasn’t an exact replica, which is why he looks different from Season 2 onward]

The Chief Medical Officer is Commander Dr. Beverly Crusher (played by Gates McFadden) Unlike Dr. McCoy, she doesn’t have any memorable catchphrases. Her husband was killed under Picard’s command years prior. She and Picard have unresolved romantic tension throughout the series.

Since families are allowed on the Enterprise, Dr. Crusher is allowed to bring her son Wesley (played by Wil Wheaton, who was previously known for Stand by Me) aboard. Wesley is a child prodigy who…

Look, I’m just gonna say it. I never liked Wesley (though I’ve gotten a lot of respect for Wheaton since he left the series) because he was pretty much a Mary Sue. He knows more about every aspect of the Enterprise than officers who’ve spent years to earn their posts. Despite being a teenager, he refers to the crew as “grown ups” rather than “adults” and (at least in the early parts of the first season) threw tantrums when the people in authority wouldn’t let him get his way.

That being said, he managed to somehow gain the respect of the crew (especially Captain Picard)

(Thanks again to April 5, 2063)

Last, but certainly not first, we have Head of Security and Tactical Officer Lt. Tasha Yar (played by Denise Crosby) Yar comes from a colony that had broken down, now ruled by the strongest. At times it seemed like there could be romantic leanings between Yar and Worf (and there WAS a sexual encounter with Data!) however, this never came to fruition as the season 1 finale will explain.

(Thanks to Frustrated Idealist)

It turns out that Denise Crosby had the same issue that Nichelle Nichols had (her role was essentially window dressing), but unlike Nichols, Crosby didn’t have a famous comedian to urge her to stay so she left the series. With Yar’s death, Worf was moved to her position (which really should’ve been the case from the start, given he’s a Klingon)

In addition to Wesley’s field commission and the transfers of Worf and La Forge (oh, and Riker grew a beard), there were two casting changes for season 2.

Backstage tension between Gates McFadden and the show’s head writer (who had gotten more authority as Gene Roddenberry started stepping back) caused McFadden to be fired. In canon, Dr. Crusher was reassigned to Starfleet Medical (though Wesley stayed aboard for some reason)

Replacing Dr. Crusher is Lt. Commander Dr. Kate Pulaski (played by Diana Maldaur (who had appeared in an episode of the Original Series and was best known for falling down an elevator shaft on LA Law) Dr. Pulaski was far more gruff than Dr. Crusher (more similar to Dr. McCoy, but without the catchphrases), and proved to be unpopular. She was replaced when the writer left and Rick Berman asked McFadden to return for season 3.

Finally, we come to the other Nichelle Nichols story she enjoyed telling.

There was a young black girl who saw Uhura and was amazed there was a black woman on TV who wasn’t a maid (this was the 60s, so that kind of thing was almost unheard of) She would be inspired to become a stand-up comedian, and eventually a popular movie actress. When TNG started, she went to Roddenberry and told him she wanted a role on the show…ANY role!

That little girl’s name?

Whoopie Goldberg, who was given the role of Guinan, the bartender of the Enterprise’s Ten Forward lounge. Guinan is of a race with cosmic-ish abilities (when the Enterprise is involved in a temporal event that changed history, Guinan was the only one who knew something was amiss)

Also over the course of the series we got interactions with Original Series crew members...

Admiral McCoy (retired, now over 130 years old)

Captain Scott (retired, who was suspended in time for over 70 years)

...and Ambassador Spock (well, Vulcans do live over 200 years)

It’s the interactions between the cast members that sets the series apart from the Original Series, and it truly is an ensemble cast; every cast member is given their chance in the spotlight on a number of episodes (particularly Data (in his quest to try to be more human) and Worf (as he tries to find his place between two cultures))

With the Klingons more-or-less friends, Starfleet needed more recurring alien threats to deal with (the Romulans were still around, but were quiet during the early seasons)

The Ferengi are a race that personify the absolute worst a capitalist society can be, prioritizing profit above all else (they even codify it in their code of “ethics” known as the Rules of Acquisition) Unfortunately, rather than being the threat they were intended they turned out to be little more than comic relief.

The Cardassians are a militaristic race bent on conquest (there are certainly a lot of those hanging around in the galaxy, aren’t there?) They tend to be cruel to those they conquer. However, to prevent a war the Federation ceded a number of Federation colony worlds that once belonged to the Cardassians, leaving those who chose to stay to fend for themselves against their new rulers (this may be the first crack in the utopian facade the Federation shows) Many Federation citizens (including a number of Starfleet personnel) formed a resistance group known as the Maquis, who are dedicated to freeing the colonies left to the Cardassians. Both the Federation and the Cardassians treat the group as terrorists.

Q (a member of the Q Continuum, played by John deLancie) is an omnipotent entity who appears occasionally to attempt to teach the Enterprise (and more importantly Captain Picard) about the fallacies of humanity and the dangers of What Lies Beyond. Many times his antics are played for laughs, but unlike the Ferengi there is always a dangerous undercurrent to Q’s games. Unfortunately, his antics have gotten Q in trouble with his fellow Q, and at one point he had been stripped of his powers and made human for a brief period.

Q is directly responsible for introducing the Federation to the gravest threat to the galaxy…

The Borg.

The Borg are humanoid beings that have been enhanced with cybernetics and, due to their hive mind, are able to adapt quickly to dangers (a phaser will down a few Borg, but they will quickly adapt and be able to repel future blasts on that light frequency) Any time they encounter a new species, they assimilate the species and their technology into their Collective.

The series ran for 7 seasons, beginning and ending with Q putting the humanity on trial (with the crew of the Enterprise playing the role of defendant for the entire race) The series laid the groundwork for two spin-off series set in the same era (plus at least one that debuted after 2010, so I won’t be covering it), but those are tales for future reviews.

If you would like to watch the series it’s available on Paramount+, PlutoTV, or behind your favorite paywall. If you would like to see an episode reviewed, please let me know!

One quick note before I go: I would like to show the tale of the first Meeting of the Generations (which occurred during the filming of Star Trek V), as told by Wil Wheaton.

[DISCLAIMER: This is told entirely from Wheaton’s perspective, and I’m sure William Shatner has a different take on it, but given all the stories about Shatner over the years, I’m inclined to think this is closer to the truth]

(Thanks to Eric Webb)

[divergent-paths]

I just went on DA to find you (and read all the lato league stuff, younger Alex was a really cute kid) and I was wondering, is there more stuff about Alex than just the lato league comics? It felt like the last one had a lot of references to things I didn't know so I'm curious. Is there maybe a story about how he got the scar? Or will it come up later? (In that case I'm not asking for spoilers btw)(I'm just really curious, the lato league stuff was fun) (wait is Alex in someone else's lato league stuff too then? Gtg check, bye)

Alex doesn't like answering questions about the scar, so have a cameo from Franz & Fubuki (Gramps & Aunt Fuu as Alex usually refers to them), who still seem to feel guilty about it years later lmao

It's another long ramble for this ask, so it's all below the cut~ The tldr is that there is more stuff I've done/drawn, but it's focused on the adults related to Alex, rather than on him directly. The one other story he was witness to (Frostsmitten) is incomplete because of a 1-2 punch depression-burnout combo, but I am looking to work more on it again this year finally.

As for prior stories, Alex is young enough that he's only been the star of one adventure, which was Lato, but there's a number of adults in his life who have been through many crazy shenanigans and he was brought along for grampa's crazy new year's romance in the snow (Frostsmitten), and the planned follow-up (FS2: Freezer Burn). But! While I am currently teasing about old references and such, anything in Divergent Paths that becomes necessary info *will* be explained when the time is right for the story. I like to tease things out to allow people to theorise on the story as they read, but I know eventually you've gotta' come out with a straight answer and that's best done when it finally means something to the characters. So we'll get there!

As for reading the story I mentioned above, well, haaaahhh... It's a tale as old as time. Depression+Burnout destroyed me, and last year (2023) was really the first time in years that I felt any semblance of my old energy, and it's still in process of working back up to those old levels. Frostsmitten (link here) is about 80% done/uploaded, and Freezer Burn has its concepts and timeline done, but no pages drafted yet.

So where does that leave us nowadays... Well, last year I was actually touching the old pages that remained to be finished and chipping away at them when the mood struck me, and I think I'm up to moving along that story this year between posts here on the tumbles. Definitely no schedule though, absolutely no promises, certainly no guarantees. I only end up embarrassing myself and disappointing people when I say 'it'll be out on xx date!' :'D

Anyways, I've rambled on long enough I think :'D Thank you for the interest in my other works, I really do appreciate it. It's not an exaggeration to say that everyone's comments, compliments and excitement is giving me life here. <3

[vashsscoreboardofpain]

WELCOME BACK SPORTS FANS TO "VASH'S SCORE BOARD OF PAIN" :D

We are almost at the end of Stampede vash's run! Will this episode be enough for the debutant to hit 100 points?

Let's find out! Episode 9!

Stampede vash opens this round by pulling out the flashback card again. He immediately gets 1 "bed event" point for listening to his sisters cry in pain and agony. Because now we know his sisters were in pain, it is going towards his tally. He follows the noise and finds his brother. This moment seems to be going smoothly until he gets 1 "traumatic event" point after watching nai kill people. not even 7 minutes into the episode and the contestant is already pulling out the big points.

After talking a bit and nai's 2nd round of killing (the 1 "traumatic event" point counts for both rounds of killing) stampede vash secures 1 "action" point for once again his lack of action the moment luida arrives. he lets nai order him to kill luida and then taking his gun to kil her himself. Nai is walking, the audience holds their breath, AND WE GET 1 "ANGRY OUTBURST" POINT FOR STAMPEDE VASH. This is the 2nd one we have seen all season! He strikes the point by throwing himself at nai and yelling at him. Truly a moment everyone was waiting for. The contestant struggles but he is thrown aside by his brother (1 "bad event" point because he hit his head enough to be out for a few seconds). Nai prepares to kill Luida, but LOOK! THE CONTESTANT STANDS UP AND STRIKES ANOTHER "TRAUMATIC EVENT" POINTS THANKS TO HIS BLACK HOLE IN HIS ARM. The other contestants look in shock at the debutant. The audience cheers. The suffering division agrees to give Stampede vash an additional "traumatic event" point because his gate (aka the black hole) is swallowing people and for someone who doesnt want to hurt anyone, thats kind of disgusting.

NOT EVEN A MINUTE PASSES AND HE STRIKES ANOTHER "TRAUMATIC EVENT" POINT. THIS ONE BROUGH BY NAI AND HIS GREAT IDEA OF CUTTING HIS ARM. Truly what a flashback. Such rich life history. He faints, and Nai tries to reach him, and WAIT! THE DEBUTANT AIMS A GUN AT HIS BROTHER??? The suffering division decides to count this as an "action point." The suffering division is aware this may be weird, but under the regulations of the "Suffering Championship" in the 80s, an "action point" can be given if the act shows the contestant making rushed or not planned decisions on a though situation. The situation here is that stampede vash would never hurt his brother, but he needs to defend luida somehow. Additionally, he knows he would never be able to defeat nai, but his self-sacrificing nature came in clutch.

After nai leaves and the debutant faints, we return to the present! Not even a minute in the present and Stampede vash already lands a "yikes statement" point for asking luida what does she mean by "his friends."

He keeps striking points while hes with brad and wolfwood. He strikes ANOTHER "YIKES STATEMENT" POINT WHEN HE SAYS HE WONT KILL ANYONE EVER AGAIN AND THAT HE WILL SAVE EVERYONE. Will this guy ever run out of sad things to say?

Stampede vash prepares himself to hit a final point before the round is over, and he lands a "bad event" point because his childhood home was attack by zazie and the wams.

WHAT A ROUND. The contestant managed to land 11 points. His new total IS 101 POINTS, HOLY SHIT HE DID IT, AND WE HAVE 3 EPISODES LEFT. THE CROWD GOES WILD. THE SUFFERING DIVISION WONDERS HOW DID HE GET THAT MANY POINTS IN LESS THAN 10 EPISODES. REALLY A MOMENT FOR THE HISTORY BOOKS.

If you dont want to miss the debutant making history, keep following #vashsscoreboardofpain for more!

UNTIL NEXT TIME SPORTS FANS

[captain-clueless]

Welome to Hellfire || Eddie Munson

Summary: Y/n has been wanting to join the Hellfire club for awhile but she runs into some trouble... Someone might just come in time to help.

Warnings: Bullying, cursing, Jason

D&D. One of the best fantasy role-playing games of the 1970s and 80's. It was a game that you had played previously with your neighbours until last year anyway, as they decided it was time to pull away from D&D. It had crushed you. You weren't one to get along with many people; you barely had friends at that, but your neighbours always were welcome to you for joining them.

Over time, you had developed your character to a more suitable field to you, and you were just finishing the final edit you would be making of them.

You had a mission you hoped to achieve by the end of the term. To join the 'freakshow' of Hawkins High - Hellfire club, led by no other than Eddie Munson.

When you first joined Hawkins High, you were of course, nervous. You had no friends, no one to hang out with, no one to talk to or sit with at lunch. You had sat at the end of a table and were just about to take your first bite out of your sandwich when someone decided they wanted to share their food with everyone else. You now know that someone as Eddie Munson, whom you had soon heard of, their D&D hellfire club going around.

Every break or lunch, you always raced to sit in the cafeteria to ensure you could sit down at the following table to the Hellfire Club. You knew it was wrong, but you couldn't help but eavesdrop on their conversations about campaigns and their characters, yet sometimes you regretted sitting close to them. You want to avoid hearing some of their conversations while eating lunch.

Even so, lunchtime had and always would be the best time. You were tiredly seated in the English classroom, making notes while finishing your character design sheet. You had been watching the clock for half an hour, waiting to hear the heavens say it was lunch.

You could've sworn time went in slow motion for the last 5 minutes. After the excruciating time left, the bell finally rang, and students began piling out of the classroom like a stampede. You put everything away apart from your design as you knew you'd be getting it back out again anyway.

Emerging from the classroom was always the scariest part. A hoard of students? Yeah, no thanks.

You carefully glided across the hallway and into another corridor, which was a lot quieter. You began making your way to the canteen. At least you would have been, but a sudden pull to your back was all you needed to fly on your butt. Your character sheet gripped into your hand - you would not be letting that go.

You hear snickers come from behind you, and your blood runs cold. Jason Carver and his goons. Enemy to you, Eddie and Hellfire. "Well, well, well. Look at what we have here. It's Hellfire's Club's biggest fan." You exhale unsteadily to a breath you didn't know you were holding. You sit there on the ground as they circle you like predators hunting their prey.

They stand before you and look down at you as if you're some kind of filth they've just stepped into. You finally look at Jason with an exhausted look in your eye and stare at him while he and his goons snigger. You try to hide your character sheet behind you, but Jason quickly observes and hastily snatches it.

"Looks like we got ourselves another freak for the show." You quickly try to take it back, but one of his goons quickly pushes you back down on the floor this time though you hit your head on the floor. Fucking Jesus Christ knocking on Hellfire's door. Pain spread through your head like wildfire. The knock made you dizzy and sent a whirl of sickness spiralling in your stomach.

Faint steps could be heard strolling towards you at a unique pace, which stopped right behind you. Long brown hair comes into your view…chains too? Eddie?

"My, my Carver…Didn't know you had a thing for bullying girls now." You sit up slowly and reach for the back of your head instinctively. It wasn't bleeding, at least, but still, it was gonna leave a hefty bruise. A little dumbfounded, you look up at Eddie, yet he looks down at you softly and smiles. Oh.

"Well, aren't we lucky today? Two freaks in the same day."

"You know now that you mention it if you stay long enough, maybe we can show you our 'satanic rituals'. Actually, wait…" Eddie smiles mischievously and walks towards Jason, who scrambles backwards a bit. "As you would be our most honoured guest, you could participate! How does that sound, hm?"

"Shove off Freak. You do anything to me or my guys, and we will destroy you, Munson." Jason pushes the paper into Eddie as well as shoving him back.

Eddie twirls around dramatically and points to Jason, "OH, NO! I'm SO scared. Help me, help me! Quick! I need reinforcements!" Jason sneers and turns around with his goons hot on his tail.

As soon as Jason is gone, Eddie walks over and offers his hand to you, which you nervously take. Are my hands sweaty? He gently helps you up and sorts out a few wild hairs on your head, "You alright, sweetheart?"

"Uh..yeah. Yeah, I'm sorry. Thank you for the help." You look down at the paper Eddie is still holding, which brings his attention to it. Please don't look at it. Please don't look at it.

"This what he was going at you for?" He looks at the drawing, his pupils dilating into focus on it. Goddamn you, Eddie. You awkwardly mess with the bottom of your shirt as he continues to study the piece.

After what felt like a lifetime of waiting, Eddie looks at you with something you haven't seen before. Adoration? "You know, y/n, this isn't the first time I've seen you with this." He glances at the paper and traces the lines, "It's incredible. I wasn't expecting you, no offence, to be into Dungeons and Dragons. You know, the game that promotes satanic worship." He laughs and nudges you with his elbow. Eddie passes the sheet of paper back but doesn't let go, "Well, maybe I'm into that sort of thing," you gleam at Eddie, who still has a cheeky smile.

Suddenly, Eddie flings himself to the floor and grabs at your hands, "Y/n L/n, may I offer you the best opportunity of your lifetime?" You look in panic as everyone stares at the 'freakshow'. "May I have the honour of welcoming you to the Hellfire Club?" Did….Did I hear that correctly? Did he just ask me to join Hellfire….?

Almost instantly, you forget everyone around you as you look at Eddie.

"Yes"

You see every one of the Hellfire club at the table, anxiety gobbling you up whole as Eddie swings his arm around you lazily and slowly guides you over to the table. He slows down a little, feeling you tense under his arm the closer you get, "It's gonna be okay, yeah? Nothing to worry about."

You look at Eddie with nerves running through your veins. You take a deep breath and nod, which Eddie takes as a signal to carry on.

"Everyone!" The whole table cheers at Eddie's arrival, "I would like to introduce you to our newest member of the Hellfire Club. Y/n L/n."

[daryfromthefuture]

intro :)

i realized i never made an intro post so here it is lmao-

hi tumblr, my name is dary! i go by she/her pronouns, but feel free to use they/them as well, i don't mind :D

i'm 18 years old and from europe (my timezone is gmt +1)

as you can see from my blog, my main interest is the back to the future franchise :] i do things for the fandom like writing and drawing; you can find me on ao3 under the same username (daryfromthefuture) and on instagram under @/rynaaa_a.

talk to me about bttf in general but specifically (bold = main fixation):

⭐1940s doc/manhattan project lore

⭐1950s doc

⭐bttf the musical

⭐bttf the game

⭐doc and marty's friendship (!!!)

some fun facts about me:

i learned to skateboard because of marty mcfly and my favorite drink is pepsi (WITH sugar)

i speak english, german, russian and like basic french (english being my third language learned out of these)

my favorite subject is history and 20th century history is another big interest of mine

writing is my favorite thing to do ever and i want to write movies someday

my favorite bands are huey lewis and the news & queen

i'm taller than mjf by three inches

i ran out of fun facts, may add later LOL

thank you for checking out my blog! i'm always open to making new acquaintaces, so feel free to message me :D

fanfic directory under the cut!

FANFIC DIRECTORY (status: September 22, 2024)

MULTI-CHAPTER:

Until I Get Home: Stuck in 1885 AU fic, focusing on Marty and Doc's relationship and how it evolves when exposed to various different circumstances during their time in the 19th century. Words: 100,100, 30 chapters. Status: Complete

Fourteen scraps of paper: Fic focusing on filling out the 30 years between 1955 and 1985 in the Lone Pine timeline. Words: 11,243, 5/18 chapters. Status: On hiatus (dunno whether I will pick it up again tbh...)

November: Smaller, slice of life fic set post-trilogy. Marty gets sick and Doc takes care of him. Words: 4,636, 3 chapters. Status: Complete

We Do Need Roads: Road Trip fic also set post-trilogy. Doc takes Marty on a road trip across the country after the latter graduates, which gives them a great oppurtunity to catch up. Words: 19,016 (estimated to be around 80K), chapters 5/20. Status: Work in progess

The Perils And The Promise: A rewrite of Jules Verne's "Around The World In 80 Days" with the BTTF characters in the main roles (man I love ridiculous AUs). Words: 57,111 37/37 chapters. Status: Complete

TRINITY TRILOGY

Three stories set in a universe in which Marty accidentally ended up trapped in the 1940s and follows Doc as he goes through the Manhattan Project and the years after. Together, the stories will take up around 135,000 words and 60 chapters. Hyperfixation has quite the power guys lmao

Most People Were Silent (45,352 words; complete)

A Few People Cried (45,024 words; complete)

A Few People Laughed (17,868 words; WIP!!)

ONESHOTS

Time Waits For No One: AU of BTTF 3 in which Marty comes down with pneumonia during the week in 1885. Words: 10,054

Flight Of Fancy: A character stufy of Doc, focusing on his relationship with science and the development of the flux capacitor. Words: 6,022

The Weight Of Us: A small "crossover" (is it really a crossover if it could be canon) with Oppenheimer (2023) in which 1940s Doc and Robert talk in August 1945. Words: 1,129

He Didn't Start The Fire: Prequel oneshot about Marty and Doc's early friendship days and how the teen reacts upon finding out that Doc worked on the Manhattan Project. Words: 5,459

Double Visions: Doc and Marty have a heart-to-heart after the events of BTTF: The Game. Words: 2,028

A Day At The I.F.T.: In a universe in which BTTF: The Ride is canon, Marty visits the institute of future technology. Words: 1,764

Time Heals All Wounds: Oneshot set in 1931. Young Emmett and Marty shenanigans. Words: 1,031

Nighttime Inn: Miitopia AU oneshot in which our hero Marty talkes to Great Sage Doc post-final battle. (have I meantioned I love ridiculous AUs)

Meet The Family: post-trilogy oneshot focusing on Marty's inner conflict about the whole Doc and Clara thing

[aquariium-ediits]

Aqua's 50 60 70 80 90 100+ Followers Event!

Took long enough, but I've finally had the motivation to host an event! I'm truly thankful for every one of y'all, I didn't really think I'd get more than 20 followers on here. I'm sorta in disbelief there's 100 of you guys.. Amazing! :D

Event details under the cut <3

By popular demand and "I'm not writing all that for a coin event", this will be a randomizer event! ..At least, I believe that's the name?

Basically, you can send in a character and I'll use a wheel spinner to decide what edit type you get of them! You can also add a theme or aesthetic if you'd like, but that's optional.

For this event I ask that you only request for sources that are on my source list, and not my grey/blacklist or things that are currently unavailable (strikeout on my rentry). I don't typically deny requests, especially if they're for my source list, but do keep in mind I can and will deny a request if I see fit.

During this event, which will last from the 28th of June to the 12th of July, I ask that nobody sends in normal requests. Any non-event requests I get during this time will be denied upon me seeing them.

Examples for a request; "may I request shiho hinomori with a pink theme?" or "for the event could I request dabi? tysm in advance :D"

Aand here are all the possibilities for things you can get! Click on the image to see the full thing, the top++bottom got cropped a bit. I'm aware not everything I normally offer is here, I just feel as though names, titles, etc are.. Very specific? Like, if someone wants them, they'll request them, and I haven't gotten any reqs for those yet so. It just didn't feel right, lol.

That's all, hopefully I haven't left out any important details? If something needs clarifying feel free to send an ask! <3

Ps; Because of this awesome occasion, I'm taking the time to add a bit of self promo.. Once again mentioning that now I have a side account, @aqua-palette , meant for socializing and rbs, so current mutuals may occasionally see me interacting with them on there! I'm cool I promise! :3 although I do have a bad habit of forgetting to reply to asks if I get them while I'm busy

[protective-mama-bear]

80 Followers!?–

Where did you guys keep coming from? 😭 why u liking this blog, you're making me too happy‐

Thank you for loving this silly lil blog of mine, never expect someone would love Lovesick Bobby. To be honest, i thought Lovesick wouldn't be popular but oh, how wrong i was TuT

While i know may be a bit dramatic over this but to me, this is special! I always been so scare and anxious when showing my art, my opinion or anything so joining this tumblr, i thought i would be... well, ignored or people not liking my art but all of you guys have been so kind and nice to me, even liking my art which i thought 'why they loving this? This ain't good ToT'

Especially to my friends that i have talked to, this... this touched my heart so much, all of your guys nice comment and everything. God– i think my eyes is watering and i'm in school–

Once again, thank you so much for liking this blog and being patience with me, i'll try my best to make you guys happy or satisfy with my arts! Also my headcanons of Smiling Psychopaths :D

[nooneandeveryone]

I've been trying to organize my thoughts regarding my own artwork and webcomics. I still carry a large amount of bitterness for the field of work.

I often felt disregarded, as a person. The feeling was very very similar to a maladaptive D/s relationship. Y'know, the kind where no one knows the importance of aftercare.

But the point is, especially regarding the webcomics, it was a one sided relationship. I got very little useful feedback. Or acknowledgement. I hung in there for about five years, then another two a few years later.

I liked my work, hated deadlines, and burnt out.

I have never truly recovered. I've worked to. I've been trying.

One of the things that turned it bitter..... I never made good money via the webcomics. Most of the time I never got a cent. Later I got a trickle via patreon but we're talking around 15 bucks a month at the highest. Thanks fees.

The only money I made was on commissions. Even my best paid gig was low pay.

Now, I'd like to note, I had some lovely clients. More than one paying double. That was fantastic. But unfortunately those are just a sprinkling.

Overall, aside from that handful of clients, it was a very demoralizing time in my life. I would spend upwards of 30 hours on a page. Not counting the time it takes to write.

I made more at Dollar General per hr.

Now why even bring up the money? Why not just do what you love?

I have CFS/me, I have extremely limited amounts of energy per day. I am unable to pull all nighters. Well, I can but the consequences are debilitating. I am forced to think about what I do with my time. I have to weigh the cost/benefit with everything I do. It's a very complex web.

When I experience a CFS/me crash, it's like the flu. Or strep throat. I simply can't do anything aside from resting. The brain fog is such, if I were to watch a movie, I won't be able to follow it. Worst cases, video games, even phone games are too hard.

So, the effort I put in to make something has a high cost if I want to keep a regular schedule.

Suffering isn't noble. Pushing through will bring my downfall. It's just needless. I never got the financial incentive to meet the workload. I never got the recognition to meet the workload. My joy of creation was crushed.

I've clawed back about 80% of that joy. I used fanfic, fanart and self-indulgent ocs. I felt more accepted and appreciated neck deep in fandom.

the culture behind webcomics is poison to me.

I still enjoy them and may even produce one again.

I am just so exhausted.