#testosterone thoughts

[honeycrispps]

having crushes as a guy is so different like Jesus fuck GET A GRIP DUDE

[depressedhobo]

Day 2 of 1 tube of T-gel a day: just finally upped my dose to a full tube a day. Deciding to keep a record of my observations.

~ an hour or so after I dose in the morning, I can feel it kick in harder than before

~ significantly more energy

~ that speed-like sensation of "woahhh bruhhh I gotta just sit and center cause woahhh bruhhhh" (I'm a recovering addict)

~ more difficulty thinking in my own Southern/West Coast accent and thinking more in my father's East Coast accent instead, which is irritating as hell lol

[nonegenderleftgalaxy]

Its called a happy trail because it makes me happy when I see it :)

[pansyfemme]

big news tho. my body hair has managed to spread enough to connect my chest hair to my happy trail. you cant even understand what a big deal this is

[casper-ghostly]

[m1ckeyb3rry]

i know it’s kinda sad that none of the top six wanted to room with rin and while i do feel bad for him i can’t even blame the others for it 😭 like yukimiya shidou and karasu (and otoya in a month or so i believe) are all old enough to vote, take out loans, get married, and rent property LMAOAOA if i were them i wouldn’t want to room with some fuckass bossy rude kid in his first year of high school (sorry rin fans but that’s the vibe he gives off in verse i’m p sure) that’s basically glorified babysitting but instead of getting paid they just have ego watching them at all times 😓

[uncanny-tranny]

I'm going to be real, I've been on testosterone for multiple years and my levels have been very consistently high and whatnot, and yet I haven't gotten to the point where my testosterone "makes" me act in possessive, creepy ways toward women. Not even the women who are drop-dead gorgeous to me!

And that's because it's not about testosterone. It's about the way you choose to interact with women. When you devalue them already, no amount of testosterone is going to influence you further.

[waxdream]

In flatland, are the irregular shapes a metaphor for disability or being lgbtqia+? Or intersex? Or all of them?

I only ask because the narrative seems to draw inspiration from both. Gender in Flatland is determined by whether or not you're a shape or a line segment. The lower classes of triangles are irregular, and they are dehumanised (deconfigured?) To the point that they are considered to have smaller brains by the narrative based on angle size. I personally think that due to flatland's satire, and hints throughout the text, A square is an unreliable and biased narrator who is indoctrinated fully in the society of flatland. So what he says about the angle of triangles, and the smartness of women, shouldn't necessarily be taken for granted. I would be interested to know if the part about the triangles is a reference to phrenology and how stupid it is, but I digress.

Irregular flatlanders are reconfigured at birth. This suggests it's considered a disability, however, the irregularity doesn't seem to be disabling. In fact, the only effect it has on the person is that it makes their class impossible to determine - something which would have social effects. We also only see evidence of male children being born irregular, which is a common stereotype of autism, and the coupling with 'social detriments' being the result of irregularity, it could lead to this conclusion. However, I doubt that Abbot was commenting on this in 1884, though that doesn't prevent modern readers from taking it in this direction. I just think that he wouldn't have written 'reconfiguration' into the story, a deadly process of creating "regular" children if it was a metaphore for disability - it was often a lot more common after all to hide disabled folk away. Although, if any historians out there know about parallels in victorian society, I'd be really interested.

I'm most convinced by my reading that Abbott was talking about intersex children when writing about reconfiguration. Most of Flatland is a social commentary after all - following the wrongs of victorian society on how classes are treated, with a larger focus on women. Now, with sight recognition in flatland, women are mistaken for squares from certain angles, and sometimes for circles. Imagine if you will, an irregular semicircle - a male who would often be mistaken for a woman. Considering the sexism Abbott talks about in this world, I think that irregularity being a metaphor for being intersex is plausible. Especially since the children are reconfigured at a very young age.

When I first read the book, I read irregularity as a disability and nothing more. But now I'm thinking about it more, I really would love to know other's opinions. The book is old, and I'm not sure if my thoughts are plausible - but then again, it seems implausible that the book is mocking the sexism in victorian society. Yet it does - lots of evidence points to Abbott being a protofeminist writer. It's not a stretch to me that he might hold a stance against the mutilation of intersex children. Or perhaps a stance against conversion therapy. Let me know I guess :)

[honeycrispps]

I forget/don't realize I have panic attacks recently because of just how different they feel on testosterone.

[leensor]

[starshapedspider]

trying to figure out older Morty’s design. boy why are you so circle

[queerstellium]

literally nothing better than admiring him after "i need you so bad" sex. boxers down around one ankle, hair messy, can't even form a sentence without that dazed puppy look,, hips in the air, still just barely grinding,,, cleaning up after and telling him how he took it like a good boy for you,,,,, uggggghhhh i need him

[mimi-ya]

thinking about when my friend’s mom had a stroke and she suddenly became responsible for all of the medical decisions of both her mom and grandma, had to quit her job, and pack up her entire childhood home to sell it and literally had no other family to help her…

and her boyfriend would really give her shit for her legs and pussy not being shaved consistently…

men really have the audacity sometimes

[skunkes]

ive talked about this before but social vs self perception is crazyyyy im looking for old scenic photos ive taken and also found selfies and when my hair was short i LOVED looking at myself but hated thinking abt how others saw me (especially after seeing candids of me) now my hair is long and like. Its fine i guess but I think the selfies ive posted on here are the only times ive taken pics of myself ykwim. And i avoid mirrors LMAO

[isa-ah]

i think we also need to address the elephant in the room that yes, there are people who seek gender affirming care who later realize they are cis- but that a vast majority of people who are detransitioning do so out of social pressure. whether its familial, spousal, work, school, sports, politics, resources, etc; any trans person you ask can probably explain to you in detail what exact precipice would make them detransition, or at least understand someone else doing so. its fucking hard and its fucking scary being trans in this country- not just recently, but continually. it really can be beaten out of you. not being trans, but any ability you have to pursue recognition for being trans. how many of that 1% of people decided they were cis, and how many of them decided they just werent strong enough to be out?

[fite-club]

it’s still so sad when trans guys are like “transandrophobia is real, i lost my support systems when i started taking T” like i’m sorry baby but that’s just transphobia. they don’t particularly care that it’s a man you’re transing into, it’s the transing at all that makes those people stop being around you. losing friends/etc after transition is not a transmasc-specific experience, it’s a trans-specific experience. i’m not downplaying anyone’s struggles when i say this i’m literally pointing out the systematic oppression you experienced and calling it the correct name