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Sea Cryptic! Danny AU- Pt.4
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Danny was sitting in the back, his backpack obnoxiously taking up the seat next to him, when the door to the lecture hall creaked open near silently.
“What are you in here for?” Danny asked the guy who crept into class. He sympathetically took his backpack off the Seat of Shame and allowed the guy to sit down. Funnily enough, they had the same hair and eye color.
“Gen Ed. Undecided. You?” The guy grunted quietly back.
“Environmental studies. I’m Danny.”
“Tim.”
With the implicit understanding of two people in a required class they could not give less than two fucks about, Tim and Danny tuned back into the lecture. When the class was assigned group work, Danny looked over to see Tim softly snoring, head slammed down on the table.
“Tim. Wake up, dude.” Danny poked his shoulder.
“Huh? Class over?”
“Nah, we got group work. Discussion board.”
“Oh shit, thanks for waking me up. Wanna team up?”
Danny shrugged. “Sure. We should aim to post it in the middle so the professor doesn’t read our answers to the class.”
“Yeah, sounds like a good idea. Any idea what we’re talking about?”
“Kind of?”
“Good enough for me.”
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Tim Drake kept seeing Danny Fenton around on campus.
“Danny! Dude, what are you doing?”
Danny turned, gloved hands full of crumpled trash. “Picking up after the student population, apparently.”
“Didn’t think environmental studies was that serious.”
“Global warming is very serious, you jerk,” Danny smirked at him, crossing the grass to put the trash into the trash can. “Reduce, reuse, oil shouldn’t be spilled in water and all that.”
“Basic stuff,” Tim grinned. Nice, he basically had a friend past Bernard now!
They were friends, right?
“And yet humanity fails to comprehend it. Incredible. Incredibly stupid that is.”
“They get it. Major corporations just don’t care.”
Danny sighed. “True that. You on your way to your next class?” He took off his biodegradable gloves off (nitrile and nylon, baby!) and chucked them into the trash.
“I’ve got free time, actually. Prof cancelled for his daughter’s surgery.”
“Oh, shit, that’s rough! You wanna go downtown and join the strike?”
“A strike? What for?” Even as he asked, Tim hiked his bag higher onto his shoulder, ready to go. They fell into step as the two left campus.
“Apparently, Quillan Pharma was doing some shady shit at their manufacturing plants. I think it’s like killing kids, and pouring toxins into the ground.”
“Oh, shit.”
“Yeah. Oh! Poison Ivy’s gonna be there!”
Tim blinked. He casted a sideways look at Danny. Sure he’s been here long enough to know… but it couldn’t hurt to check. “You know she’s an eco-terrorist, right?”
“Okay, but like… people suck sometimes. And all she’s asking for is like don’t kill the planet. And she doesn’t do that whole mind control thing too much anymore! The Sirens are so cool. Plus, one of my best friends at home might actually kill me if I don’t try to get her autograph. Poison Ivy is like, Sam’s personal hero.”
Tim snickered. “Yeah, okay. Mind if one of my friends join? His name’s Bernard.”
“The more the merrier,” Danny nodded. “Ooo! Hot chocolate. Want some?”
Danny bought three drinks as Tim trailed behind, texting Bernard.
“He said yes.”
“Cool! We should meet up somewhere before the drinks get cold.”
Well, Danny got the autograph. Tim got a new friend, and Bernard got a drink from his crush.
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“Oh, you’re the glowing dude that Batman always talks about!”
Danny blinked, eyes scanning the wing-like cape and the yellow emblem on the hero’s suit. Danny was indeed glowing, stars and nebulas freckling across neon green skin, and glowing hair the color of a white dwarf star, tinged with the blue from his ice core.
“I… have absolutely no idea who you are,” Danny lied, like a liar. He’s found a surprising niche of entertainment in messing with the local vigilantes and he’ll be damned if he missed this opportunity.
He heard a snicker from the comm lines as Red Robin visibly brushes it off.
“I’m Red Robin. Why are you picking up trash?”
“Picking up after you humans, apparently.”
The both of them blink, feeling a weird sense of déjà vu. A moment of awkward silence passed before they both shook it off.
“Are you here to help? No offense, but the track record for you people is terrible.” Danny strode over and grabbed a bag. He opened it, and shook it at Red Robin’s face. “See? Batarangs, these odd bird looking ones, the R’s. Seriously, pick up after yourselves!”
“Oh, woah, can we have these back?”
Danny yanked the bag back before Red Robin could get close. “Pay me. These were incredibly tedious to pick up. Especially the batarangs. I mean, I even found a whole bunch of old rusted ones in the middle of the bay. What did you do, dump an entire bag in there from the air?”
Red Robin sighed and took out a wad of cash, with tracking fluid all over it. Danny grimaced, smelling the odd scent on the money. “That’s not real cash. It smells off. Are you trying to give me counterfeits because you’re broke?”
Red Robin gaped, oddly offended. “No! They’re real!”
“Doesn’t smell like it. It’s stinkier than the trash. Go get the one with the money, the litterer. Tell him I’ll be back the next full moon. I don’t want to talk to you anymore.” Danny grumbled, disappearing on the spot to watch Red Robin flounder with the stack of cash and the piles of dead bodies on the shore.
“What the fuck even is my life these days?” Red Robin wondered out loud, stuffing the cash back into his pocket. He looked over the plastic wrapped bodies and slumped, sighing.
Oddly enough, Danny felt a sense of sympathy. Well, he’s not getting paid for sympathy. He’s not getting paid at all tonight, actually. Danny flew off, plunging once more into the depths of the significantly cleaner waters, and used his ice to scoop out oil stains.
Danny glanced around and sighed. He had a lot of work to do.
——
“So you’re saying he’s like a werewolf mermaid fae child immortal god thing, right?”
Bruce grunted.
“B, what the hell are you smoking these days? You know drugs are bad, right? Do we need Superman to give you that PSA?” Jason snickered.
Tim, massaging his arms from having to haul an ungodly amount of dead bodies, grunted. He’s so similar to Bruce that it gave the people currently in the cave hives.
“He said full moon. I don’t think we can track him with regular stuff. The bugs kept shorting out.”
“Oh boy,” Dick sighed. “Don’t fall off the spiral cliff, Tim. You’ve got midterms to think about so no stalking the guy.”
“Yet,” Tim shot back, changing out of his suit.
Bruce grunted, setting aside a huge stack of cash.
#let Tim Drake go to college you cowards#he got his GED in this one boys#let Tim fucking age#danny phantom#batman#tim drake#dc x dp#dcxdp#dpxdc#danny the tired college student#bamf danny phantom#siren au???#sea cryptic Danny#bro I had war flashbacks to discussion board group work#terrible why do I do this to myself#the batarangs in the middle of the bay was from when Bruce tried to kill the joker and himself#Danny: people just can’t clean up after themselves these days#sea cryptic! danny au
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ShuAke Week - Day 7: Goro or Joker palace
this comic is a follow-up/expansion on the premise I threw at the wall in this piece. Something, something, Akiren makes bad descisions and they come to bite him in the ass. Cognitive Akechi is unamused.
#shuakeweek2024#persona 5#goro akechi#ren amamiya#shuake#akeshu#akira kurusu#behold! my terrible handwriting#now some people may think that I was insane to do ten pages of a fully rendered/painted comic#and they would be correct#why did I do this to myself#I'd say “I'm never doing this again” but I know in my heart that that's an obvious lie LMAO
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hate to say it, but part of ending the stigma around sexual assault means not assuming every woman blames herself. yes, female socialization encourages it, but that doesn’t make it a given, and the goal of all of these campaigns is to eventually diminish the proportion of women who do blame themselves. it is entirely possible, and increasingly common, for women to experience sexual assault and not feel shame or guilt, which we should be happy about. but instead, there are only so many times you can hear “you know it’s not your fault, right?” before it sounds like “it was your fault”. and there’s only so many times you can hear “don’t blame yourself” before it sounds like “you should blame yourself”. because it feels good to say, doesn’t it? sure, you don’t believe she’s guilty, but you do believe she should feel guilty, so that you can disabuse her of the notion. just something to consider.
#i think we are very pleased with the idea of female shame#even among people who genuinely do not believe women are at fault for being assaulted#you are still meant to pay the penance of suffering and self destruction#god fucking knows why#“i got mugged” “aww don’t blame yourself for walking around with those fancy shoes and visible wallet okay? it’s not your fault”#you’d be like girl what. i didn’t fucking say it was my fault but your mind sure jumped there fast 🤨#“my mom died” “wow. do you feel terrible crippling shame for everything you’ve ever done wrong in your life?#up to and including causing your mom’s death? because that would be totally wrong if you did”#like how could that possibly be an appropriate response#genuinely i think the feeling that i was going completely insane post-being raped because no one would believe i didn’t blame myself#was like. solidly half as traumatic as the actual event#like. it is okay not to feel guilty and shameful. it’s great actually. you’re not having the wrong response.
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first makeup test for orin!! don't look at the wig i couldn't be bothered to glue it down
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#orin the red#i wish there was better lighting it looked SO GOOD in real life#there is Nothing in this wig yet bc the stuff that's meant to go on top of it isn't done yet which is why it looks terrible#i have 2 weeks to finish this outfit bc i found out i actually can go to mcm so i'm Fucked#it's not the flesh armour. it's Worse#it's More#bc i hate myself#but it'll be so cool i have to do it#if you're at mcm london please say hi i met so many of you last time#i'll also be dorian for at least one day >:))
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yaoi more like wowee
#vocaloid#vocaloid fanart#hatsune miku#初音ミク#confessions of a rotten girl#i got boreddddd#soryr i know nothing about the bible i just only saw that one comment pointing out that one lyric referencing a bible verse so i used that#i just really like the song#i wonder why#looks at my other art hrmmmmm i wonder i really do#also sorry my handwriting is terrible#i’m exposing myself in a way through this#sighhhhhhhsnifffffhichic#chibi's art/rkgk
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Quick re-do of a 4 year old piece
#to test my abilities... no jk#I mean kind of lol#I WANTED To test my abilities but then I couldnt think of anything#so then I just redid an older piece#I remembered the old one started black and white and then I did effects over it so I did that again#cause I just wanted to play around with lighting#and I think its pretty obvious how much I've improved#I also only spent like an hour on the second one#wasnt trying to make anything amazing here#just trying t make something that reminds myself how growth can look and feel#important stuff to do as an artist#I'm still sick btw lol#I love how when youre losing your voice everyone goes 'wow you sound terrible'#I get why. I sound terrible. but its so fucking funny like. culturally#like holy shit what the fuck is wrong with you !#but its polite and empathetic#I havent been getting work done on account of is sick#actually not entirely true#I did a good bit of work for we were legion and some for TTA too#but it was just no drawing work#all writing work#which theres just a lot more of to for wwl than for tta#anyways#we were legion#zagan#art redo#art improvement#spent easily twice as long on the original thats a skill upgrade roight there
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I've watched season 2 of arcane many times now, and that last scene of Viktor and Jayce never fails to amaze me. Once you know exactly what's going to happen after a few rewatches, you start noticing little clues and symbolism across the show which make the scene so much more delightful but that's not even what makes me feel so impacted at the end of it. With all the sincerity I hold in me, this is one of the most beautiful and purest depictions of love I've ever seen.
The scene sequence works so well. It's perfect. It's raw and tender and caring. Overflowing with all the abstraction of what love is.
The artistry is breathtaking. The colours of a ruined world contrasting with the lively shades of flowers against Jayce's stone figure. The clean blue from the sky, the polished and ancient figure of mage Viktor against the rough edges and vibrancy of defender Jayce.
The celestial colours of their bodies detached from any materialistic accessories, Jayce's face being so much warmer in contrast with Viktor's much paler complexion. The gold from the different souls, the thin strands of consciousness gathering at one moment. Galaxy in its most humane form if that's even possible.
Everything is beautifully harmonized to fulfill one goal, which is to frame the connection of Jayce and Viktor.
I can't get enough of looking at Jayce's face throughout this whole scene. His eyes speak for his heart louder than anyone could comprehend. Understandment, care, longing, affection. A need and a want to let Viktor have his love. He's telling Viktor that he's there and he won't leave again, wherever Viktor goes, he will too. And Jayce knows Viktor isn't like him. Viktor won't simply take love and gulp it down.
No, Jayce understands that he has to do it slowly, wrapped in tenderness but full of determination. It stands out to me just how, when reaching for Viktor's shoulder, Jayce's hand hoovers for a little bit before grabbing it. He's giving time to Viktor, but he's also assuring that he's there. For him. With him.
Viktor is confused, is scared, his eyes are desperately looking at what he has done, and what it could've become, how could it be that he had been so wrong? And why was Jayce talking to him about wanting his partner back when Viktor himself doesn't know if he could be anything remotely similar after everything? Why was this man overflowing with so much affection when Viktor was, until a few seconds ago, trying to get rid of it all? Viktor gets taken down from this polished, higher power mindset and is thrown right at the core of human emotions, barely able to hang on to it.
But it's okay because Jayce will hold Viktor until he can stand for himself.
Jayce tells him it's okay. He does it by looking at him dearly. By holding his open hand carefully. By placing the gem in it securely. No matter what happens, it is okay.
The gem is reactive and powerful and holds so much to it. Their lives, their projects, their dreams. Magic in raw form, full capacity.
When both of their hands are placed on what started everything, they both look at each other one final time. This is it. They know what's about to happen. But it's okay. It really is. Because there's nothing else they can do to fight their destiny this time. Because there's really no point fighting this time.
Jayce pulls Viktor, a call for him. I'm here.
And Viktor responds to his call. I know.
They are together. They've always been together, their connection preserved into a small gem stone. Into so many others, across so many other possibilities and timelines. Whether it failed or not, it has always been there. Raw and sincere.
This time, despite the circumstances, it did work. Not everything is perfect, but it doesn't have to be. That's the beauty of it all, as Jayce said himself. The world will keep moving even after they're gone. Broken as always, but never stopping.
Theirs souls are intertwined across what we call time and space. If forever has an ending, then it will be rewritten. Their love is bigger than any terms we might choose to describe it. Their bond is far greater than any anomaly or magic blast.
They're safe, embraced by the deepness and vastness of the universe. Nothing will separate them. It started with them and it finished with them. Always them, only them. Together as partners.
#damn i rambled way too much#jayvik#viktor arcane#jayce talis#jayce x viktor#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 spoilers#i tried so hard not to get caught in it#but the jayvik monster came for me#i could choose happiness but no#celestial tragedy it is#it's always the doomed motherfuckers#why do i do this to myself#it's not funny#i poured my heart in this#jesus viktor pls bless us all#maybe i need to be hammered by jayce#that sounds terrible#i really need to be saved
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actual life goal is forcing spirkers to acknowledge bones at all
#the number of times i’ve just barely held myself back from going ‘hey u do realise there is a Man inches from them right’#u don’t even need to ship mcspirk i just need u to acknowledge that he exists and he is there and he is spirk’s closest friend#like god y’all see the fucking camping trip and it’s just ‘oh look spirk’ bitch what. what.#anyway current urge is to literally make a museum-style things just showing off Bones but i might actually make an online archive#simply because he gets so terribly ignored and not just by the fandom either#like why does paramount do so much with the fucking GORN but doesn’t touch bones. why do star trek analyses look at spirk#and not at my guy who is there for damn near all of the stories. everyone i speak to irl who knows star trek has at least once looked at me#and asked who tf i was talking about when i said bones was my favourite. how do people not know who he is.#star trek#bones mccoy#leonard mccoy#leonard 'bones' mccoy
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the juppet !! i just realised he is jerma posing i swear that was unintentional...... i spent so long digging thru muppet concept art and looking at old puppet designs just to end up doing a rly simple drawing but. i love joehills!! i have only been watching them for like 4 years but their videos r so special to me :3
#i would love to do a more complex drawing inspired by muppet concept art at some point... just wanted to give myself a bit of a break#i've been spending So much time on these drawings every day n it's not really sustainable for me to be spending multiple hours every day#when i have so much work i should be doing...... but i rly enjoyed this silly little muppet even if it's v simple for my standards#tbh i'm surprised i even made it this far into the challenge.. we're like two thirds in ?!!?!#i've only ever completed an art challenge once and that was inktober in 2018... and those were SIMPLE drawings#my standards are a lot higher than they were 6 years ago... but also there's extra pressure because i'm posting these#and i know i don't Have to post them but. it's a way of keeping myself accountable because i am terrible at that without outside motivation#omg why do i always ramble So much in tags this is ridiculous i'm so sorry if anyone actually reads these....#anyways i rly hope my people drawing skills r improving..#i doubt there will be noticable difference but i hope i feel at least a little more confident by the end of this#hermitaday#horsemeatluvr does hermitaday#horsemeat gallery#joehills#joehills fanart#joe hills#joe hills fanart#hermitcraft#traditional art#unedited sketchbook drawings 4 the win (i've given up on scanning n editing these or even taking them in proper lighting... too much effort)#i'm just a little guy
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Safety.
#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#artists on tumblr#my art#digital art#I couldn’t get this picture out of my head#I had to draw it#in the end I really like the colors#i had to draw these two because I couldn’t stop thinking about them#curly did nothing#so now that’s all he can do#anya finally stuck up for herself in the worst way possible#but in a way#everything they did was understandable#they made terrible mistakes#but I probably would have done the same#that’s why I hate this game it’s too good#I can be mad at the characters all I like#but with how it makes me think#it also feels like beating myself up#aside from jumbo of course#he’s a special case#don’t feel to bad about mentally picking on that one#throw him in the blender actually#anyways I might make this into another Timelapse video but I gotta get to my computer to do it 💔#cw: gore#cw gore#tw gore
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Please tell me that it's not just me that gets triggered when people turn the page while slobbering on their fingers? When Peri did that, I just shuddered with disgust. Like, what the hell?? He’s only in his 20s and he already acts like a boomer. He definitely acts older than his parents. Both in appearance (I'm talking about his style of clothing) and in terms of psychological age.
Also in my mind: "Peri,Please don't do this. Don't even dare. Don't. No. Please. Nooooooo-
#fairly odd parents a new wish#fop new wish#fairly oddparents#fop#fop peri#I can't help myself#this is just terribly DISGUSTING#why do some people do this 😭#STOP.#SPILYING.#YOUR.#FINGERS.#sorry
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my thing is, i want to talk to people. i want to be good at socialising. but i've never really had much practice, so i don't know how? i don't know how to carry on a conversation. it makes me nervous and anxious and makes my stomach hurt and it tires me out. i would love to have a constant back and forth. it'd be swell lmao
unfortunately. i cannot and it's confusing. i want to talk, but i can't. and i also don't want to? mental illness cocktail gets in the way
like earlier i was going to speak to people, i'd typed a couple messages out!! but i figured they wouldn't want to talk to me which is fine i know that's likely just the anxiety. so then i thought "i know, mitigate the risk!! i'll ask if people want to chat about a specific topic with me so they have to opt in" and then panicked because that would mean people would talk to me? which is what i wanted? LMAO
confusing and irritating, so i made a meme
#anyway... weird post but sometimes writing things out makes it easier to have to think about it#also it's my blog so i can do what i want u-u#anyway i'm trying to understand myself and how my brain works to try and make things better and easier!!#but it's not very easy lmao#and socialising is one of my biggest issues#it's terribly needy but i often need people to outright tell me if they like me or are ok talking to me#it's why i've never really infodumped i think i panic that i'm just... talking over people or boring them#same with social gatherings like i will not assume i am invited to participate unless explicitly told#which confuses a lot of people in my family i think#finnie shouts into the void
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i think it’s Stan’s time to shine (he deserves more love and i’m here to fix that)
#stanley pines if you can hear this i’m free on thursday#what if i just laid down and thought about him forever#why do i even write tho#stan please be my therapist#im trying so hard to improve my english and grammar#or make stuff interesting#sorry i promised myself ill never vent online#but every single thing i make is terrible#i have so many feelings about this man and nowhere to put them#i hate everything i write#stan deserves better than this but like also i need him to comfort me
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God these absolute potatoes. What is going through people's mind when they drop their pants to shit on things in spaces where people are trying to appreciate or celebrate things!!!
#if you are going to make a post about how you never want to watch a film by taika waititi and they're probably all ~terrible~#then don't tag it with his name and all the names of his films!!#yes I can block you. but why do people do that in the first place?#and in a way it's weirder if it's a youtube comment etc#the comments are full of people talking about all the things they love about the video or song etc#and then there's always the people who actually take the time to type out how much they hate it#if I don't like something I say to myself 'oh okay. not for me.' and move on???#SUCH NEGATIVE SOUR PICKLES!!
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"BPD makes you have low self worth" well apparently not because my brain still insists that things that have nothing to do with me surely are because of me :/
#feel horrible. this isnt about me. something terrible happened and you're more worried about feeling upset? about worrying they hate you?#this is why i hate plans. something always happens#what if they leave? what if i never hear from them again? what if they change? what if they take their life? i cant be there with them#i cant help i cant keep them safe i cant hold them i can't but its not about me why am i so selfish? why do i make it about me?#hate myself a lot rn. i wanna fix it but i cant. so what the fuck do i do? i know its out of my control but i need to do something#i know ill just make it worse im so fucking stupid#sad thoughts#vent blog#sad blogging#vent#vent post#venting#actually mentally ill#actually traumatized#personal vent#actually obsessive#bpd vent#bpd feels#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#bpd
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it hits me sometimes that kai is canonically SO smart and yet he spent years in an abusive household never once thinking they were truly plotting against him. like ?? the twisted up bullshit of the parker family has me gnawing at the bars of my enclosure constantly istg
#yes my parents hate me but they would never do THAT#one day i'll prove my worth to the coven and it'll all work out#THE SMILES IN THE CHRISTMAS SWEATER PHOTOS i'm going to fling myself from a bridge#if joshua truly felt he was a horrible terrible danger to the others WHY THE FUCK was he home alone with them ??#matter fact WHYYY were their weapons in the house#you're telling me HE didn't know about those stupid anti siphon spells ??#sure jan#kai parker#gemini coven when i catch you
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