#tbh i wouldn't put it past Crowley

[saika077]

Sometimes I wonder if Night Raven College have other teachers besides Crewel, Vargas and Trein. Like, did they ever imply that there are other teachers besides them or is NRC just incredibly understaffed???

[roxannepolice]

I have a hot thoschei take: I don’t think most of doctor who tumblr is ready to confront the idea that Missy allowing the Doctor to “fix” her was almost more a form of self-harm for her than anything else. Which makes the confrontation between her and the Master even more upsetting to me than if it was a simple ‘Missy good, old Master bad and sabotages her goodness.’

It’s more like looking on your future self and seeing her restrain herself further and further in ways you’d rather die than do, in ways that are slowly erasing what makes you/her yourself/herself. and when you realize that she will happily push you into this fate, too, (and has the audacity to preach about it), how else can you react but cut her loose.

And it also makes Missy and Twelve more interesting to me, because you can’t really argue the Doctor doesn’t know that he’s contributing to this. He locked her in a box. He knows her far too well to really believe she’d want to live so long in confinement, but he does it anyway. I don’t even think it’s that divorced from love or a need for them to come to an understanding; the Doctor just wants it to be completely on his terms and for the first time ever, that control is entirely possible and he doesn’t even have to feel guilty about it because she’s letting him.

Anon, I'm kissing your brain. And wish I could transplant it into Moffat's head.

I suppose my own brain is a bit too of a "they are characters in a text, serving a purpose to the point made by the author, not self-aware people making choices" bitch to really view it this way. But I absolutely agree this whole situation was much more effed up than fandom gives it credit for. I mean, the basic message of the vault arc is "here's the fool-proof way to develop empathy: a human lifetime of solitary confinment! Let's just ditch all those resocialisation programs in prisons and put all violent criminals in solitary boxes with only psychologists visting them! :DDDD".

Yeah, ok, that last point was a bit over the top in social engineering area even as far as fan bashing is concerned. And, tbh, I think a positive side of the vault arc is the not-sure-if-intended idea that it in fact wasn't decades of solitary confinment with Twelve coming to banter through a locked door only actual interaction with Bill that had Missy introspect, but wtv, it all just needed to go tragic in the end. I think the really unawarely messed up part here is this underlying insistence on. well, basically writing the Master as Darth Vader. There's still good in you, I can feel it!, as in just go back to being a child that I will be idealising in the penultimate episode, which frankly sounds to me the extact same as GO2 Aziraphale asking Crowley to just go back to being angels only even nicer :) (sth sth angelhood as a metaphor of pre-selfaware childhood when you can't even tell yourself apart from other people and especially God-the-Parent). Basically, the big idea being the Master's villainy isn't a result of conscious choices of a hundreds year old eldritch horror only not hearing the music whatever that means.

Of course, it was backwards engineered, in a "ah, but what if there really, really, reeeaaaallly wasn't any other way for the Master to survive than as the Doctor's prisoner?" way, which could work considering how survival focussed the character is (like, surely that wouldn't be worse than becoming a cat? or a 90s effects goo snake? or a man eating emo electroskeleton? or a tooth?)... but then we have a "yeah, but there's like an evil past that does value their independence (and evilhood) over survival, ain't that tragic?" ending.

Basically, I think the problem is not so much Missy accepting being the Doctor's prisoner, as not trying to escape even freaking once? Like, if we started off with her being dishonest about the whole teach me to be good :((( and then easing into living like this, this might have been an interesting idea? But yeah, as we are, you're right, it just. Comes off as trying to amputate a limb that got caught in a mousetrap rather than snares...

[fungifanart]

If you got an open floodgate for Cerezo I am HERE to ask a million and one questions. Firstly. How does nearly getting shot alter Riddle and his story? I cannot imagine that he is near as uppity. Also has Cerezo gone through the adventure in the forest with Cheshire? Is that why he reacted so badly? Cause of what he had to do to his original teacher? Also and this is important. Did he dance like a drunken aunt at a wedding to demon slave Heka? Is his demon Madama Butterfly or does he have a different partner like the variant Bayos? Also did he keep the running joke of Heka sucking at volleyball? How does Crowley react to the demon summoning since he was there for chapter one and the overblot?

Oh HELL yeah, brother! Strap in. *BIG INHALE*

Tbh, I think Cerezo's version of events wouldn't SUPER alter the story. After the gunshot, Cerezo admonishes Riddle for making assumptions and looking down on someone for their past, but Riddle, despite being reasonably frightened, still doubles down on his head-assery and disregards his points since they came from "some barbaric freak with a gun", which leads to Ace standing up to him, etc, etc.

I had OG Bayo in mind when I was first making Cerezo, so he didn't go through the events of Bayonetta Origins, since it takes place in the Brave timeline that splits off from Bayonetta 1. Cerezo's reaction stems from a HC of mine that parents/childhood are both VERY sensitive topics for most of the Bayos (considering how their fathers were absent due to exile and their mothers were branded as criminals, leading to them being ostracized for most of their childhoods), meaning that shitting on them for it, especially in the way that Riddle does it, is just Not A Good Idea in any capacity.

This one's just personal preference, but I imagine Cerezo waacking/jazz dancing for his Demon Slave.

His OG pact-bound demon is Madama Butterfly, but he does favor Hekatonchier for summoning, or at least he DID before the blot put it out of commission for the rest of the overblot fights, forcing him to diversify. (Also yes, it did flub the final serve of Riddle’s phantom and resort to just punching it)

Everyone's reaction to the demon summoning, including Crowley’s, was essentially:

Both from the demon and from the loss of clothes. This basically reaffirms Crowley’s decision of making Cerezo a Beast Tamer and leads to him making Grim his "Year/Career-long project" where his final exam for each semester will be to demonstrate how well he commands and works together with him as he would with one of his demons.

[viperwhispered]

Woe! Unfortunate magical accident upon ye, your OC has now been cursed with reverse telepathy🧠📢People around them can hear each and every internal thought being broadcasted. Oh no! Hopefully they can find someone who can undo this pesky spell, or just to keep them company until it wears off!

-🔮✨diodellet (hopefully im doin this magic nonon thing right)

Ty for the ask dio! Oh boy if this isn't a concept (that makes me feel like I'm putting poor Emi through a wringer, oof).

First thought: oh my goodness Emi is going to die of embarrassment. Plus she very much thinks with words, too, so no saving grace of having mostly images or something like that in her mind.

A lot depends on when and how this happens, tbh. In the middle of class? Better hope she’s thinking of class material, or her doodles, and not of Jamil, the teacher’s mannerisms or something else potentially embarrassing.

Or if it’s like an alchemy accident, then oops to whoever is involved for hearing about Emi’s frustration without a filter. (I feel bad for Grim if he's involved in some way, because she probably would be thinking something along the lines of "great, yet another thing going wrong because of this idiot" 😭. Tho tbf, the same would probably go for ADeuce, too.)

Though I suppose the saving grace is that in most cases, Grim is likely to be around, and would probably be pretty quick to be all “what are you talking about” or otherwise react, so the broadcasting would not last for long without Emi being aware of it.

Especially if she was alone or with just Grim when it happened (like, let’s say one day Emi wakes up with the broadcast thing happening), Emi’s instinct would very much be to hole up alone in Ramshackle - either sending Grim out as a messenger to the faculty / infirmary, or sending messages on the phone she got from Crowley if we’re past the first winter break. Or calling people, if the thoughts are only getting broadcasted to her physical surroundings.

Still, Emi would want to avoid other people overhearing her thoughts at all costs - it’s such a loss of control, and she’d very much hate having her inner world revealed like that, without her having much power over it. It'd feel pretty violating to her, honestly, all these things just spilling out.

Not to mention those thoughts where she herself is like "come on brain, what a rude / inappropriate first thought, that is not what we want to be doing".

If Emi had to be out and about, she’d probably try to focus on like counting in her mind, or trying to go through the lyrics of a song - or perhaps the ring-verse from the Lord of the Rings. Trying to make sure that at least she won’t be broadcasting any untoward thoughts about anyone, or otherwise won’t slip out something that she wouldn’t want to say aloud.

Alternatively: everyone can hear how she’s hashing out how to phrase the explanation of her situation to like the school nurse or the faculty. Or maybe she'd purposefully try to just loop the explanation in her mind, to explain things before she gets too many weird looks.

Of course, even then she’d get distracted enough to have other idle musings slip in, always quick to scold herself or apologize for anything "wrong" that she catches herself thinking.

Even with all that in mind, I think Emi wouldn’t mind having Grim around too much. Partially, of course, it's by necessity - she may ask Grim to spend some time elsewhere, but can't really kick him out of Ramshackle.

But also, in some sense, Grim’s opinion is not so important to her, because with him she’s not trying as much to project a good image or impress him. Like with how much time he spends with her, Grim already sees her all casual and homey, and most of what’s going on with her in general. So it’s not as much of a big deal with Grim, even if he hears something "weird". Though she still wouldn't be happy about thinking anything too personal / intimate with him around.

(She would be hoping the ghosts will keep their distance, though.)

As for Jamil, their relationship would have to be pretty far along for Emi to feel even somewhat comfortable letting him come over in person. Like, probably a year or so of dating for her to be at least okay-ish with Jamil coming over, though she’d still be kinda hesitant. Early relationship Emi, however, would be just way too worried of being somehow weird or off-putting.

Though considering the amount of masking Jamil does, and his own liking of privacy, I want to think he wouldn't feel too slighted, at least if he has some time to think about it. And at least they can still keep in contact via the phone.

Basically, the faculty (or anyone else who's the right kind of authority figure to perhaps be of help), ADeuce, Trey, maybe Riddle (she might be lucky and he knows something helpful), Jamil and everyone else (Malleus if his phone isn’t fried and they’ve actually exchanged phone numbers finally) is getting contacted via phone, unless she absolutely has to be somewhere in person.

So yeah, unfortunately Emi’s private enough that this kind of a situation will lead to her just holing up (and very much trying to chase off like ADeuce if they decide to turn up anyway - though she’d probably be somewhat more tolerant of Deuce than Ace, since she’d feel like he’s less likely to be judgy if she thinks anything “weird”). So hopefully someone can figure out something out before too long (meanwhile, Emi's trying to crash course herself on like mindfulness and meditation and clearing her mind, which of course is something you can quickly pick up, especially under duress).

For Emi's taglist, tagging @diodellet @scint1llat3 @moonyasnow @bibi-cha

If anyone else would like to be tagged for Emi / jamemi things, just let me know!

[katiefrog217]

10 Questions for Fic Writers

Thanks @eviebane for the tag!!

No pressure tagging: @bellisima-writes @knifeforkspooncup @thatskindarough @nik-knight @onceuponapuffin @quoththemaiden

1. How many works do you have on AO3? |

Currently two!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

8,934 if I added right. I've written well beyond that but it's not published or published to AO3.

3. What Fandoms do You Write For?

Currently Good Omens! Back about 10 ish years ago, I used to write a lot of Hetalia and Pokemon (if you were on DA/Quotev and read reader inserts in the 2010s, I'm sorry) and also had a short stint with Yuri on Ice. If we go for never published stuff, Inuyasha.

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do! I try my best to at least - I really like interacting with comments and seeing what people have to say!

5. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Actually yes - quite a few times! Tbh I wouldn't be surprised if they are still being stolen to this day by random Wattpad users (it was always fucking Wattpad). My fic "Just the Way You Are (BTT X Reader) [yes I was that songfic author - again I'm sorry] was stolen quite often, along with a few others. As a result I'm quite protective over my fics - used to do line editing so I could put my name extremely small in the text so when it was copy pasted my name showed up multiple times haha.

6. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No! I haven't actually - did some creative writing prompts between people in discord before and am part of an ongoing project but as of this moment I haven't. Have helped my girlfriend with her own stuff but that's for the most part her own thing.

7. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Fuck I have to pick ONE? Sweating rn uhhhh... I have two of equal measure I can think of off the top of my head: AziraCrow (Aziraphale x Crowley - Good Omens) and Hualian (Hua Cheng x Xie Lian - Heaven Official's Blessing).

8. What are your Writing Strengths?

If I go off what people tell me: heavily immersive and visual writing. And characterization. And short form story writing.

9. What are your Writing Weaknesses?

My inability to focus on a single project, along with my terrible habit of starting fics on a whim before abandoning it because I have no idea where the story was going in the first place. My ADHD makes my motivation come and go like the wind so I can go months without updating anything, and led to a lot of my old ones getting abandoned. I also have a terrible habit of dragging scenes out because I tend to want to explain a lot of things, which leads me to procrastinate a lot when I can't think of how to describe what I want. I'm trying to get better at it. Oh, and a personal pet peeve of mine is not being able to write a fic under 5k words, because I don't like publishing shorter fics, especially self contained ones. I admire people who are able to publish shorter stories a lot, I just personally get really anxious over putting out something that wasn't at least 5 word document pages long as a chapter.

10. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

If we count unpublished and never seen the light of day, it was Inuyasha. It was a fic called "The Golden Arrow", which was based off a dream I had somewhere in the early 2010's. The only one who saw anything for it was a school friend of mine, and while I generally remember the gist of it, it's been lost to time for the most part, as it was written on an app on an old phone I have but lost the cord to.

If we wanna talk actually published to the internet, I'm pretty sure it was Pokemon.

[edgarallennope]

Hey. I want to say I loved that analysis you wrote about Crowley becoming gradually more bitter and spiteful against heaven and god. And I wanna ask you. What do you think about Crowley's relationship with God in particular? I mean, looking from afar, he looks suspicious towards heaven and god, but I do think he views these two entities in different ways. For him Heaven is pretty much the same as Hell, but painted as nice guys. But God? I don't know, I think the hole is more deep.

ABSOLUTELY I think the hole is more deep. Tbh, I hadn't intended for the meaning of that post to be about an anger and bitterness that was specific to God and Heaven, I meant more in general, perhaps including humanity, but...it makes sense. I'm thinking specifically about his reaction to the crucifixion, his 'oh, yeah, that'll do it', his cold resentment of the human choice, but he knows that was Heavens doing (Aziraphale's line on policy decisions). Similarly, The Spanish Inquisition, something that made book!Crowley drink for a week solid, likely happened without any heavenly influence, but still happened in Her name.

I think a large part of Crowley's resentment towards Her is those who claim to speak for Her, and those who stay fiercely loyal to Her with no input. The Archangels, the more overzealous humans, the Metatron. Eventually, Aziraphale too.

I have been thinking heavily on a scene from Season 1 since seeing Season 2 and writing that meta. it's when Crowley and Aziraphale are sat on that bench in Tadfield, drinking wine, and Crowley asks him;

"Do you think She planned it like this, all along?"

To which Aziraphale says;

"I wouldn't put it past Her."

At the time, I didn't think too much about these lines, but now I wonder how Crowley meant that. The immediate thought is, or at least was for me, that "ah, of course She meant for it like this all along, how ineffable! Classic Her!"

But now I think, similar to the realm of the two exactly's, they both meant very different things.

I think Crowley asked it meaning "This is so typical of Her, to not speak to anyone and to forge Her solutions from pain and heartbreak and death. It's ridiculous. Even by forging our own side, we're still playing Her game."

And I think Aziraphale answered it meaning "Of course she did! She has had a plan all along, and it means everything is going to be okay! That's how she plans everything!"

Crowley doesn't have that blind faith, that level of trust. He still speaks to her, we see that in Season 1 (one of my FAVOURITE favourite scenes), but he doesn't expect an answer. A far cry from the angel we meet in S2E1 who works very closely with upstairs. He asks Her, desperately, to show him a Great Plan. It is not something he'll take for granted, or take on trust, never again. It's something he knows he can't have, and I think that will never stop hurting.

I do believe he still has a very distant affection for Her, despite everything. Despite the fact he can't understand Her. He knows that She isn't to be understood. That She Herself is ineffable. I think his anger, his bitterness, is reserved for the people who believe they can understand her. For the Archangels and humans who follow her will blindly. For Aziraphale, who expects a system as corrupt and blind as Heaven to be fixable because She made it.

Crowley is an optimist, a character trait that I regard as his most tragic. The book says as such, and goes on to say that he knows that the universe will always take care of him. The world, the one he had a hand in making. Not God. Crowley understands that the world has expanded far, far beyond Her reach. God cannot cure the sick and save the dying. God cannot prevent war or famine or pollution or death. God cannot save Crowley when his bosses decide he must be punished. It's not that I think he hates her, not really. He understands what She is, and he mostly accepts it. He knows he can't rely on her, and that it's not because he's a demon. He knows that nobody can anymore.

[breezydaysoflife]

For the ask game!! A, J, N, V!

A: Of the fanfic you’ve written, which is your favorite and why?

You are a cruel, cruel person for this one- you know that?? Wants and Needs has almost 30 fics, how am I supposed to choose? I'm not gonna, that's how- you get 3. First is Needy- a very early fic that was written when I still had no idea where W&N was going, but still one of the ones I reach for when life gets a little too much. Second, The Past, The Future. The Crowley was Raphael fic. I love the emotion I put into it, the characterizations of both the ineffables- it's definitely one of the ones I'm proudest of, even now. Third(and yes, finally, I've already cheated enough), Drunken Nights Lead To Conversations. The banter when they're drunk, Crowley letting himself ask for what he wants, Aziraphale's easy acceptance of said wants- I just can't get enough of it tbh, and I think it's one of the perfect examples of what W&N is all about.

J:  What’s your favorite fanfic trope?  Have you written it?

Ooohhhh fuck this is a hard question, I usually just read whatever I can get my hands on, mostly, but uh... recently I've been really drawn to human AUs I guess? Mostly bcs a lot of them don't conform to/reference s2 and I need a bit more time before I'm able to read anything related to s2 more then once every 2 weeks or so./lh I haven't written any, mostly because they just don't fit how I like to write and my style.

N: Any fic ideas brewing that you’d care to share?

Mostly The Wedding Fic rn! I have. So many thoughts. It's gonna be 7 chapters, and I'm already having a blast planning their perfect ceremony. I also have some stuff for the ✨side series✨ I'm playing with, but I scrapped the last version of that fic for Reasons and I haven't started the new one yet

V: Are there certain comments you’ve received on your stories that have stuck with you?

Hmm. I wouldn't say it's specific comments, though I'm sure if I dug through literally all of them I'd rediscover something that really hits the feels, but I definitely remember people. There are at least a few usernames I see pop up in my inbox almost every time I post something, and knowing that they're there and still enjoying my work always brings a smile to my face.

[good-omens-classic]

Some thoughts on the notes and comments on this post

pinkestpigglet

This is a really intresting take. I think I personally prefer the right to be weird theme as an asexual neurodivergent person who's constantly being told she makes the groups she belongs to look bad. And like, I'm not allowed to join the military. For a very stupid reason. I don't want to join the military but like chose non violence doesn't apply to me when Id have to fight for the right to chose violence.

This makes a lot of sense! I think this illustrates perfectly why the differences in themes might make one version or the other appeal to different groups. Casual readers/viewers probably will not care about this, but. Well. We aren't on tumblr because we're casual about it.

botanycrewmember

#kudos to op for pushing back against the reading of aziraphale and crowley being 'quirky' instead of downright rebels

#also a huge part of the original work is the constant reference to the cold war

#a&c's rendezvous is constantly being compared to ussr agents meeting with nato agents

#the novel is outright mocking the rigid definitions of Good and Evil

#and A&C are fighting to stop innocent people becoming collateral in a cosmic arms race

#good omens

#uncle terry i miss you neilman is pulling out the teeth you put into your book

I think this is actually a really relevant point to bring up, because Neil Gaiman himself has said in the past that the novel was in 1990 and satire of the cold war, whereas the TV show in 2019, nearly 30 years later, is about much different anxieties. He said that the changes were to make it more about modern concerns about things like large corporations and bureaucracies. This isn't necessarily wrong, but it is different.

This is something that Neil Gaiman seems to like playing with in fiction, the idea of updating things for "modern times." This was a huge theme in American Gods, and it makes a lot of sense how the horsepersons were written in the book when you know Neil Gaiman wrote most of their scenes while Terry Pratchett wrote most of the Aziraphale and Crowley scenes.

This is pretty creative, but I...personally don't really like it that much, because it feels dismissive. I talked about that in this post a while back. (It feels extremely relevant because, for example, Neil Gaiman dismissed Pestilence as not really a big issue anymore...just before the COVID19 pandemic.)

I personally wouldn't say Neil "pulled the teeth" out of the story, although it definitely doesn't bite the same way it did on the topics in the book, it does bite on some new ones (Which I personally am not interested in, hence why the TV show doesn't really do it for me)

These tags from @blursed-disco from the other post about God being a woman are also relevant here

#tbh my main beef with tv!omens is how it waters down any political message the original held

#and making it into an individualistic narrative where god is just RANDOMLY a woman with no repercussions

#and aziraphale and crowley are just RANDOMLY the only supernatural beings capable of thinking creatively or forming attachment

I think you have a very good point about the adaptation shifting into a more individualistic narrative. The book felt very much like setting up a force for change for everyone, where Aziraphale and Crowley are just the first ones brave enough to speak up about how things aren't right, whereas the TV show makes it seem like they're literally the only ones capable of thinking this way.

The scene in the TV show where Crowley offers to run away to the stars with Aziraphale. Oh my lord do I have mixed feelings about that. I gasped when he said that. It's cute. It's sappy. It's heartbreaking. It's poignant. It's so out of character.

Crowley loves the earth. Aziraphale loves the earth. They love sushi and old books and old cars and humans being weird and good and bad and wonderful and horrible all at once. I've talked about this before, but acting like Crowley would be happy in space as long as Aziraphale was there is doing a disservice to the deeply loving and humanist nature of the themes in the original work. This is one thing I'm not gonna say is just my personal preference/appeals to people differently, because objectively Good Omens is about loving and celebrating the earth and humanity. It's going in my basket with "Crowley should have revived the dove" as things that fundamentally change what the story is about.

The TV show does feel a lot more individualistic. Which, as we saw in the first point by someone who prefers the new version, isn't necessarily bad, it's just a different story. Terry Pratchett, from my experience, is much more into writing stories like the book, whereas Neil Gaiman is more into writing stories like the TV series.

I saw a post a while back (which I'm not going to find and reblog because I don't want that OP to feel like I'm being unnecessarily argumentative or critical of their post) that said Good Omens (TV version) is about Crowley and Aziraphale fighting for the right to be harmlessly weird, and that's why it resonates with autistic people a lot

I think this is an analysis of the TV show that has a lot of merit, but I think it also illustrates how the miniseries adaptation very subtly changed the main themes of the original work

In my opinion, and the reason why I gravitated towards the original story, the book's main theme isn't about being "harmlessly weird," but rather choosing love, kindness, and humanity when violence and hostility is expected of you.

This is why the TV show being sort of a workplace or office resonates less with me. GOmens to me has been about soldiers defying orders, not office workers defying to make water cooler talk because their co-workers aren't understanding.

However it's not like the latter isn't a story worth telling and there's a lot of overlap because both are about rejecting conformity and the status quo

However I would quibble that challenge the status quo is not "harmless" and often causes trouble for the people in power.

To me the point of the story is "the people in power need to have trouble caused for them," rather than "we're not causing trouble for you, leave us alone."

I think this is probably, once again, because Terry was there for the book but not the miniseries. He has a way of writing rage-against-the-machine-by-choosing-kindness-and-understanding characters that I don't see in Neil's writing.

For me personally I liked the book but lost interest in the TV show because I grew up in a culture that expected me to honor violence and engage with everyone else with suspicion and not be weak and trusting. And unlearning that to understand other people, learn how to choose kindness and reject the idea that we have to fight took a lot to unlearn that brainwashing.

I hope people gravitating towards the TV show are having their own journeys with it ☺️

[messycunt]

everyone fawns over hucow!Epel, calling him cute and doting over him... it makes him so mad!! he wants everyone to see him as a big, strong, manly man! he gets all huffy with his handlers and starts nipping when they call him cute. imagine: Crowley assigns him a new handler because the other ones are sick of getting headbutted and nipped. in comes his cute new handler, and they're so perfect! they treat him well without being condescending and he really thinks he's finally gotten the perfect handler! then... he gets called cute again. Epel decides to show them how manly he is and make sure he never gets called cute again.

fun epel facts: there's concept art that was displayed at an exhibition showing epel fully cross dressed, it's p cute actually 

his final design also looks almost exactly the way his grandma did when she was younger

cw: josou seme, afab reader, dubcon(reader kinda lets Epel get away w it even though they're not feeling it tbh), hybrids(hucows), male lactation, doggie style, name calling(stupid mutt, bitch, slut etc), slapping, hair pulling, blackmail,

Having been warned that your assigned cow was extremely difficult to work with, that he had run through almost a dozen handlers and that you'd probably quit in a few days had you high strung on your first meeting.

After meeting him you were confused to say the least. 

Epel was polite, soft spoken, and aloof at times. It seemed to be an intentional attempt at distancing himself from you.

But he opens up to you in due time.

You see him as an equal. Unlike his past handlers you don't patronize him. He loves that.

He tries showing off for your attention often but even if his attempts aren't successful he's still going to try. He wants you to think he's cool!

Maybe the stars just aligned at the right time or Vil just trusts you enough to take care of Epel the same way he would but he's less helicoptermom-y now that you're around, much to Epels delight.

Vil will be Vil but at least he's not forcing his way into almost every facet of Epel's life anymore.

Still, not much else has changed.

It's not that he doesn’t like doing shows, he tells you. It's that they treat him more like a heifer than a bull.

He's forced to wear those stupid frilly outfits for shows, all lacey and tight, just to put on performances for venues full of older men. He hates the way they look at him.

He can't wait until his growth spurt finally kicks in, then he'll finally be taken seriously as a bull.

Milking him is easy.

The machines tickle him on good days and make him a little sore on bad ones. depending on which type of day it is he will be either staring into space blankly or blinking away frustrated tears from overstimulation hoping you don't notice.

His milk has a subtly sweet taste.

Unlike with his past handlers Epel doesn't mind taking baths with you, especially if it means getting to spend more time with you in the main house. 

It means alot to him when it's you. Leaning up against your neck while basically feeling him up while washing him is almost like heaven for the boy, almost. 

He wants more but you must not see how frustrated and wanting it leaves him.

It makes him so angry with you truthfully. He wants you so bad and you wouldn't even consider him in a million years.

"See! I ain't some precious lil' calf that needs protectin' so stop treatin' me like one ya bitch!" Epel shouted from behind you, yanking your head back by the hair he held in his balled up fist. 

Droplets of water falling from his still damp lavender pelt onto your back in time with his thrusts.

His movements are frantic and unskilled. Too worried about clumsily chasing his own pleasure to care about much else.

The cold tile of the bathroom floor was uncomfortable to kneel on to say the least, and the hard marble of the tub pushed up against your chest uncomfortably. 

The constant jostling of your body didn't make it easier to ignore.

But you didn't say as much. Trying your best to keep quiet, you don't say much of anything.

Maybe this was your fault? you had no way of knowing a quick compliment would set him off the wrong way but… maybe you should have?

Maybe letting off some steam would be good for him? the poor boy must be so pent up right? maybe it's best to let him go at it till he tires himself out.

Epel's slender hands moved from gripping your hair to desperately tugging at your hair to gripping at the fat of your hips in an attempt to keep his frantic pace.

"I really did think it would be different this time. But y'er no better. Patronizin' me just like the others" he said between pants.

A harsh slap against your thigh echoed in the bathroom before he went back to pulling at your hips.

His continued attempts at pushing his dick as far into the back of your cunt as physically possible became even more frantic, if that was even possible, he was close.

 "But maybe ya' are different. I never had one of those pretty ladies let me mount them so easy before! Y'er jus' like a stupid mutt in heat."

That comment did earn a defeated whimper in reaction from you

With that Epel's petite body stiffened up and he emptied himself of all he had inside of you. White filling your insides in excess and leaking down onto the bathroom floor to form conjoined puddles. 

You didn't even bother to try sitting up.

Not that you could easily with his wet warm body laid out against your back. You took this time to catch your breath while you had the chance.

His softening cock still lay nestled inside of you

"Don' fall asleep on me" he slurred " You still gotta clean me up okay? It'd be a shame if Crowley and Vil found out that the sweet new girl they trusted so quickly was a good for nothing slut that couldn't control herself around even the smallest bulls wouldn't it?"

Sitting up and pulling back enough to slip himself out of you Epel stretched.

The high pitched whine he let out as he did was cute, not that you'd verbalize that, you learned your lesson.