#tbh i am quite proud of germany this year

[all-timepanic]

My top 17

01. Finland

02. Croatia

03. Serbia

04. Germany

05. Czechia

06. Moldova

07. Norway

08. Slovenia

09. Austria

10. Australia

11. Ukraine

--------- these ones aren't as important to me but I do not carr for the others at all soo ---------

12. France

13. Belgium

14. Portugal

15. Albenia

16. Armenia

17. Sweden

[dorefasolsido]

38. Should've done this at the beginning of the year, but anyway...

What Happened In the Past Year???

How many relationships were you in?

None. I don't think I'm a relationship person at all.

What did you do for Valentine's day?

I don't really remember nor do I celebrate it. I think that was a day after I came back from Germany, so probably just adjusting to life back here.

Did you recieve your driver's license?

Lol no, I actually renewed it. It's been 10 years since I got it.

Did you graduate high school?

Nope. Did that in 2014.

Did you graduate college?

Not that either. Done with college in 2020.

Did you move out on your own?

I'm already more or less moved out on my own.

Did you get arrested?

Nope.

Did you get a speeding ticket?

Nope.

What was the best thing you got for Christmas?

I don't actually remember what I got. Tbh, we don't really exchange gifts on Christmas here, we do it for New Year's sometimes and sometimes not even then.

Did you fall in love?

Nah.

Did you become an aunt or an uncle?

Kind of, just not directly. Two of my cousins had babies in 2023.

Did you have a baby?

Absolutely not.

Did you get engaged?

Nope.

Did you get married?

Nope.

Did someone close to you die?

Luckily, no.

How many funerals did you go to?

None.

How many weddings?

No weddings either.

Did you turn 18?

Nope. I turned 28 ;-;

Did you turn 21?

Nope.

Did you turn 30?

Thankfully no, but it's coming.

Did you have a car accident?

Nope.

Were you old enough to vote this year?

Yes, and I did.

How many jobs did you have throughout the year?

Hmm, I switched from my old job to a better one and had 2-3 extra gigs on top. Ugh, but I seriously need a break from all the work.

Did you get a new pet?

No new ones.

Did you get cheated on?

Nope.

Did you cheat on someone?

Nooooo.

Did you start at a new school?

No.

Did you make any new friends?

Not friends, but I met quite a few new people.

Did you get a new car?

Yes, actually. Well, it's not new, but I finally got my parents' old car so now I can drive instead of always using public transport which largely sucks. I got it at the very end of the year, in December, so it's still all pretty fresh.

Did you drastically change your hairstyle?

Yes, I cut my very long hair very short. And at the beginning of the year I accidentally dyed it black so had to bleach it again to dye it purple. Quite a few changes lol

Did you go out of the country?

Yup, a few times.

Did you keep your last New Year's resolution?

I never make those.

What was the best movie you saw in theaters?

Hmm, I think I only saw Barbie and Oppenheimer, so in that case I pick Barbie. I really enjoyed it, and I really loved how it was basically this huge event we all participated in.

What was the best book you read?

I'm not sure when I read Sayaka Murata's Earthlings and Convenience Store Woman, but those two books changed my outlook on everything.

What was your greatest accomplishment?

Translating a book. I'm really glad that happened, but I guess it's a testament to my deteriorating mental health that I didn't feel nearly as proud and happy about it as I thought I would when I saw it published. Mila from 2/3 years ago would be so thrilled. And I am, just, I don't know, 2023 wasn't my year.

What was the best cd released this year?

CD? Well if you mean album, personally, Jimin's Face was my favourite, along with Agust D's D-Day.

Did you get a new tattoo?

No, but I am seriously considering it.

A new piercing?

Yup, in September.

Are you still dating the same person you dated at the start of the year?

Yes, which is no one.

The Lasts of the Past

How old were you on your last birthday?

28.

Who was the last person to tell you "I love you"?

I don't even know. I don't hear that very often.

Who was the last person you spoke to in person?

My mum.

Who was your last missed call?

Idk, some unknown number.

Who was your last phone call to?

My mum a few days ago before I came to visit.

What was the last movie you watched?

I honestly don't know.

The last song you heard?

Parabola by Tool in the car. That's the one I remember, though I might have heard others in the meantime.

The last book you read?

Battle Royal by Koushun Takami.

The last place you went?

For a walk and to a cafe.

The last time you cut your hair?

I think it was in November?

The color of the last shirt your wore?

Red.

The last person you hugged?

My mum's friend as a greeting.

The last thing you bought?

Uhh, I honestly can't remember now. But this reminds me I have to buy those absolutely delicious noodles soon.

The last time you went to the doctor?

A super long time ago. Like, years ago.

The last time you went swimming?

I believe last summer.

The last game you played?

Witcher 2, probably.

The last person's house you went to?

Hmm, I can't remember last time I visited someone's home tbh.

The last un-related guy you hung out with?

Probably my friend's boyfriend. We all hung out together.

The last un-related girl you hung out with?

My classmates from my German classes.

The last family member you hung out with?

Mum.

The last movie you saw in theaters?

I genuinely can't remember now, but I should see Dune soon.

The last time you went to Walmart?

No Walmarts here.

The last time you went to Burger King?

Also no Burger Kings... I think.

The last time you went on vacation?

In November, and I desperately need another one.

The last restaurant you went to?

Moon sushi.

The last thing you ate?

Chocolate.

The last thing you drank?

Water.

The Firsts of the New Year

Who was the first person you kissed?

No one.

Who was the first person you told "I love you" to?

Also no one.

Who was the first person you spoke to?

Idk, I was with my friends and sister, so one of them.

Who was your first phone call to/from?

I'm not sure, maybe my parents.

Where was the first place you went?

Home from the club I was celebrating in.

What was the first thing you bought?

No clue.

Who was the first person to wish you "Happy New Year!"?

My sister.

What was the first thing you ate?

Chicken from this one place near my flat next morning.

The first thing you drank?

Cola, cause I was drinking Cola whole night. Designated driver lol

What color was the first shirt you wore?

Grey.

What were the first shoes you wore?

My black boots.

What was the first electronic (not computer or cell) device you used?

I really don't know.

What was the first movie you watched?

No clue.

What was the first song you heard?

Whichever song the band we went to see was playing next.

Who was the first girl you hung out with?

My friends and my sister.

Who was the first guy?

My friend's boyfriend. 

The first relative?

My sister.

What was the first thing you did when it became the new year?

Yelled "Happy New Year!" and hugged my sister.

What the Future Year Has In Store

What are you most looking forward to in the New Year?

Concerts, mostly. Hopefully I will plan a good trip or two as well. And idk, tbh I don't look forward to all that much, 2023 left me feeling pretty meh and 2024 didn't have a promising start at all.

But I am making some necessary changes, so we'll see how that goes.

Are you getting married this year?

Lol.

Are you expecting a child?

Definitely not.

Will you be getting a new job?

I don't have such plans, but who knows what the future holds.

Will you be starting a new school?

I'm thinking of finding a language school that offers Japanese once I'm done with German.

Will you be moving to a new place?

Nah.

Will you get your driver's license this year?

No, I have it already.

Will you turn 18?

Way past that sadly.

Will you turn 21?

And that.

Will you turn 25?

And that.

Will you turn 30?

Not yet.

Will you turn 40?

Nope.

Are you going on a vacation this year?

I am planning to, yes. I already feel that I'm going to lose my mind if I don't go anywhere soon.

What movie are you most looking forward to coming out this year?

I'm not sure, maybe Dune?

What book?

None specific, I just want to finally get through more of my list.

What music album?

Hobi's Hope on the Street and whatever Jin releases!

Do you expect to find love this year?

Definitely not.

Did you make a New Year's resolution?

Not really, but there are things I want to do. I just don't want to call them New Year's resolutions because I know for a fact I wouldn't be able to stick to them then.

Have you kept it so far?

Refer to above.

Will you be going to a wedding this year?

Maybe? I have no idea yet.

Will you get a new car?

Not anytime soon, I think.

Will you buy a house this year?

Lol no.

Do you expect to be with the same person at the end of the year?

Not exactly the same, no. Even if changes are small, I don't think I'm exactly the same at the end of each year.

Are you starting the year off single?

As always.

What do you most want to happen this year?

I want my mental health to improve, that's probably number one thing.

What are you most excited about this year?

Concerts I'm going to.

[alexalblondo]

(1) I love Lewis, don't get me wrong for what I'm about to say, but sometimes it feels like he's trying to embrace all causes without thinking critically of all of 'em and I attribute that not to something pretentious about him (quite the contrary), but by the fact that he's the most socially conscious of the drivers, which must be draining for him and a shame to all the others. I say this regarding the immigration phrase he had on his shirt that now I saw inspired the ones of Vettel and Mick.

Whew, okay, this is a lot! But thank you for choosing to share it with me, I guess? 💕

I don’t know a lot about what happens in Sweden and Finland and tbh I don’t have the time to get into it right now, so I’ll trust you that all of this is a thing, okay?

Okay, so I wrote some stuff here already but I just erased it as I am currently realizing I don’t actually feel comfortable talking about this. Not because I am afraid of backlash or anything but because I lack a lot of knowledge but the knowledge and experiences I have a vastly different to yours and while I don’t wanna invalidate any of your feelings ... I just feel quite different about all of this

A few things I do wanna say:

1) please be clear on who we are talking about here as saying immigrants like that is kind of wrong when what we really mean is: refugees! And while I don’t know if that is what Lewis meant seeing as his shirt says “Immigration is a good thing” ... I know it’s what Seb and Mick are referring to with “No Human is Illegal” and I am fucking proud of them as germans for wearing this slogan when neo-nazis are on the rise like that in Germany currently

2) I do have to agree that I think Lewis sometimes should look at all the facts before saying sth though I am not thinking about this but rather his comment on “Black Friday” last year coming from slave trade which as far as I know is wrong? ... but I also think it’s not even his fault because everyone always expects him to have an opinion on an every issue in mankind and tbh I’d rather see someone try and care but get it wrong here and there than people so afraid they’ll say the wrong thing ... they just don’t say anything at all anymore!

3) I also wanna comment on the things about integrating because I do think we are doing a disservice to immigrants and refugees alike if we go: oh, it’s a cultural thing, in the same way that rhetoric is damaging when we are talking about the Mazepin video or Robert Shwartzman saying women don’t belong in racing (not that these things are all the same but just the general vibe)! Also remember that when we are talking about integration of refugees ... we are not talking about people choosing to leave their country cause they like another better or they think they’ll have a better chance somewhere else like immigrants but rather people forced to leave their country ... and they leave their country and not their culture which - even if they may have more traditional gender roles - is not rape

But anyhow, non of that is on topic I think so I’ll just end here and share this now

Anyways, have a good day

[melekseev]

alright, so here’s my final top 43 with minor commentaries that no one asked for. also this is probably... not common, bUT WE LOVE SOME DIVERSITY. this is obviously personal taste, but im just gonna say i would die for all the songs in my top 10

43. Russia - alright, so this wasn’t originally this low on my list at all, but after hearing it live... holy shit. i feel really bad for her, but her vocals were tragic, to the point where i don’t even understand how this happened. sh00k

42. Georgia - okay see, this is just not working for me. this is the only song this year that i can never listen to all the way through, and for some reason it depresses me. it honestly gives me funeral vibes.

41. Iceland - oh, Ari. honestly i just find it all too cheesy, especially when you add his personality, given he’s a bundle of sunshine, too, and then it’s an overdose of sugar. the song is rather dated, and this is another one that kind of makes me feel... hhh. just, must we?

40. Germany - okay, look, this one i don’t have a great excuse for other than tthe fact it doesn’t do anything for me personally. i tried to like this song so much though, i swear i did, but the more i hear it, the more i dislike it. this is the one where i usually go out to grab a snack or a drink while it plays, because i just... i don’t like it, i’m sorry.

39. San Marino - *rubs at temple* listen originally i gave them the benefit of the doubt but the way they are suffering live makes me suffer, too. the awkward rapping, that mess of lyrics, the weak vocals.... it’s not great.

38. Israel - plot twist. this was originally my last, so compared to that this is still better. but i just reeeally don’t like this song. it annoys me, actually. makes me laugh, but when i see the odds it makes me cry. also, honestly, her live performances did nothing for me - other than the high notes in the very end, it was... whatever it was. i really can’t comprehend why everyone’s eating this up, but you do you guys.

37. Romania - i swear i sort of keep forgetting this song exists, oh my god. it’s just kind of a mess..? i don’t really know what it wants to be, maybe they also don’t know what it wants to be. in the very least she sounds good live.

36. Latvia - so this song... is also something that’s just sort of there, but i don’t feel a single thing. i’m not too fond of her stage presence when it comes to it, either, with all the dramatic hairflips. am i the only one who thinks she’s like jessica rabbit?

35. Lithuania - aww, Lithuania... puts me to sleep ;;; she has a nice, unique voice but i find myself incredibly bored during her performances. i was watching the amsterdam live and i didn’t even notice she switched to Lithuanian at one point, only when i saw the recap. probably not a great sign.

34. Belgium - she kept dropping on my list anyway, and after hearing her live, she just somehow got down here. first of all, honestly it has great quality - doesn’t grab me the slightest, though. i find the chorus disappointing...? “echoes echoes and goes...” i always keep expecting a bigger, powerful drop and i’m somehow let down every time. and her vocals live, just... oooooh no.

33. Sweden - *buries face in hands* Justin Bieber...? this song is something that we’ve all heard like 1000000 times before. furthermore, i can’t be the only one who’s annoyed that he doesn’t sing his chorus live, he just whispers over it? like...

32. Czech Republic - okay, this kind of goes hand in hand with Sweden for me. i like Miki, but this is very, very... i don’t wanna say outright cheap, so let’s just say basic. basically talk dirty to me. honestly, it’s basically the exact same thing. one of the many. next!

31. Estonia - she actually went quite up on my list, because i appreciate her talent, and couldn’t question that even if i tried. i mean yes, i’m honestly not into opera... but it’s not horrible. although in the end it becomes a bit too much for me personally.

30. United Kingdom - SuRie is amazing, i honestly love her so much for her personality?? icon. buuuut the song is still not great and it’s just an inch away from tipping towards annoying - but, i can enjoy this one.

29. Poland - it’s okay for what it is. they are having fun. but i don’t want to give it more credit than that, it’s something you can hear every day in a club, on the beach, on the radio... been there done that. also... *whispers* okay JOWST did it much better, i’m soRRY

28. Australia - fun, up tempo, catchy BOP. do i feel more than that? no, not really. Jessica is adorable, though ;;; i wish this was... more.

27. Finland - her NF performance did not convince me one bit, but the studio cut and her Amsterdam performance elevated her a bit on my list. but still not... enough? it’s... it’s okay.

26. F.Y.R. Macedonia - this grew on me, to be honest. i still don’t know if i really like the three-songs-at-once thing, but i learned to enjoy it.

25. The Netherlands  - okay, so country is not my type of music at all, and he’s only here because i think it’s a decent entry, and he's really good live.

24. Slovenia - i really dig her voice, and i like the verses, and LOVE the pre-chorus. she’s great on stage. the only reason she’s not higher is because the chorus itself is... sigh, it leaves me a bit disappointed.

23. Moldova - they literally jumped 17 places ahead on my list, and i regret nothing. i woke up on them, even if it took a while. once that tacky performance from the NF was out of the way, i was into it. THIS MAKES ME WANT TO HAVE FUN WITH THEM, OKAY

22. Malta - another BOP, but it just works better for me than Australia, personally. i was worried about her live but i think she delivers. it’s often stuck in my head.

21. Cyprus - BOP after BOP. it’s good, catchy and fun, definitely works for what it is, and i always jam to it.

20. Croatia - okay, i really really like her voice?? there’s something about this specific female vocal that i love, and tbh the song isn’t bad at all.

19. Spain - i prefer the studio cut with them, honestly. i find it to be a really lovely song, but when they do it live i just don’t feel connected with them, because they are busy connecting with each other. there’s nothing wrong with that, they are adorable, but it’s just as high as it will go for me.

18. Ireland - listen, i love his voice. it’s so sweet... the melody stayed with me from the very first listen. i am well aware he will get lost in the semi, but i appreciate him. this is really good.

17. Austria - so here’s the thing, this was originally in my top 10, but i just kind of got over it? he is also good live, but that’s about it. the song is good, i dig the hozier vibes it has, it’s a radio friendly tune... i just like 16 other songs more.

16. Azerbaijan - okay this song gets a lot of hate, and i GET that this is just esc pop, but a good one? i really like her voice?? and the power the song has in it? i don’t know, i was so sceptical about this but i replayed it right after the first listen - it makes me feel good.

15. Norway - listen i love Alexander Rybak, but i was also so sceptical about his comeback, because why, you already won? but the live performance was honestly so good, like listen, this guy’s charisma is ON POINT. i still love the violin. i still love him. i won’t rate him higher, because yes, the lyrics could be better, but i still enjoy it a whole lot.

14. France - oh, i love them. very easy to get into, it’s lovely. not something that makes me catch my breath, but i really appreciate it still because i honestly love listening to it.

13. Armenia - Sevak is so on point vocally, um...? this song is a huge grower for me, and at this point i seriously just... it’s so good.

12. Albania - I’M STILL MOURNING THE PRE-REVAMP VERSION HHHHH.... but i still love it, and love Eugent aswell. he has amazing vocals, and he would definitely deserve a good place.

11. Serbia - okay okAY OKAY I LOVE THIS SO MUCH??? the ethnic vibes, the whole... composition, their voices, it’s one big massive yes.

10. Switzerland - *cries softly* listen i fucking love them? Corinne’s vocals are EPIC. this song is just really good, although people are sleeping on it like they are knocked out. but they are doing great and i’m very proud of these Zibblingz. damn.

9. Ukraine - wELL I LOVE MÉLOVIN, WHO WOULD’VE THOUGHT. he is a Performer™. his voice is amazing, and this song just doesn’t leave my head, i don’t even care about his ‘aghdshfdfzgz’, he’s that good.

8. Denmark - talk about epic? this whole song just raises me to a whole another spiritual level tbh. i can just close my eyes and see the sea and... hear the soundtrack of a fantasy movie, and i’m all for it. also, he’s REALLY good every time.

7. Bulgaria - i loved this song to begin with, but their live performance really gave it the last push. they harmonize their vocals in such a beautiful way, and i was afraid it wouldn’t work so much live, but it does. it really does, and i’m loving it.

6. Hungary - i can’t believe my country makes it to my top ten like... the 3rd time in a row, considering i never liked our entries before. but honestly AWS is.. wow, i was shook from the moment i first heard the song, and i LOVE how daring we’re being lately. i’m incredibly proud of them. they have so much energy, and in Amsterdam, they were definitely my favorite - i’m shocked. they deliver, they are an explosion. Örs’ vocals are AMAZING, and they never falter, even if this song is so demanding in that aspect? fucking... respect.

5. Montenegro - i aggressively love this song, maybe even love it more the more people ditch it. this is so dramatic and epic?? he is another singer who delivers vocally whenever it’s live? this song is... i LOVE the balkan sound, the musical-esque melodies, the power in his voice, just... i personally love it more than Adio from Knez, come fight me.

4. Portugal - i feel entranced every time. she grabs me, and doesn’t let go. this whole song is like a sweet dream, to be honest, and i love it sooooo much. i adore when isaura joins in. i just... it goes straight to my heart, god bless. beautiful.

3. Greece - this song... is so magical? like, pure magic. i’m so happy greece is finally doing it right, i’m... yianna is an actual greek goddess, and her voice... dude. this is art.

2. Belarus - definitely my most played song this year, oh my god. (okay, i might play Navsegda a bit more, but Forever is amazing too) the revamp didn’t ruin it, it gave it more personality. i love his tone changes? i love his soft, beautiful voice, and how he plays with it? guys alekseev is brilliant, and i would actually probably sob if he didn’t make the cut. this song does things to me. just.. wow.

1. Italy - there is not one other song this year that makes me think ‘winner’. just... there isn’t any other. it has everything; two amazing male vocals (and that contrast between them, gOD THAT CONTRAST!), an amazing, original song, an important message, the soul... what more do you want? this is a masterpiece. makes you stop and listen. honestly, if they don’t win, i really don’t see the point.

[creakingsweetbaytree]

☝, 😳, ✏, ✂, ✌, 🎤, 🎶, 😒, 💭 (other than ice cream), 💘, 👟, 🌎, 🌀, 📅, and 🚘 (if you're into cars)?

☝ - How tall are you? 

5′5 I think!

😳 - Age you get mistaken for?

A lot of people used to say I look my older brother's age, at least when I was 11 & she was 14. If that still stands I guess I’d look 20 :ooo

but, y’all let me know if you think I look a certain age

✏️ - Want any tattoos?

I don’t plan on getting any but maybe future Laura will disagree :O

✂️ - Got any Piercings?

Nope!

 ✌ - Want any piercings?

I really want to get my ears pierced ;

🎤 - Top 5 favorite bands?

*rubs greedy hands together*

Regina Spektor🎹, Nicole Dollanganger🔪, Marina & the Diamonds💎, Lana Del Rey💋, and Beach House☔

🎶 - Top 5 favorite songs?

This is always changing (I am too much of a music fiend) but I’ll say my current ones for the above bands

Regina Spektor ~ Be Like A Clouds (I used to not like this one much, tho I still downloaded it. Lately, I quite love it)

Nicole Dollanganger ~ Chapel

Marina & the Diamonds ~ Lonely Hearts Club

Lana Del Rey ~ In My Feelings

Beach House ~ Lemon Glow

���� - Biggest pet peeve?

People who are mean & proud of it 

People who mock religion, especially if they use it as an aes too

When people talk over other people and just ignore that someone was in the middle of talking

when my cats walk over my boobs b/c they are always sore (idk why)

💭 - Favorite foods?

Aw you remember my favorite food

Lately I have been IN LOVE WITH corn muffins. Most pasta (spaghetti, marconi w/ bacon ‘n’ tomato sauce) & I love cheese (I’m planning on one day going vegan so that is something I’ll miss a lot)

💘 - Top 5 celebrity crushes?

There are two with this symbol for some reason so I went with the one I thought you meant

Pete Holmes, Namjoon (BTS), Seungyeon (CLC), Eunbin (CLC), and Lana Del Rey tbh (I want a gf whose a christian witch for real)

👟 - Favorite shoe(s) to wear?

comfy tennis shoes are always nice! I do love heels but I don’t have many or good reasons to wear them

🌎 - A country you would visit?

Most anywhere except Australia lol (the bugs tho)

Britain, Canada, Puerto Rico, and Germany each have different reason I wanna visit them. I am pretty open to traveling some day, when money isn’t an issue

🌀 - Favorite type of weather?

Overcast or just after a drizzle is really nice. Also when it’s getting dark the sky keeps changing colours

📅 - Favorite time of the year?

Spring, love it lots, and summer (school is out, I usually have good times then, and it prompts me to run.)

🚘 - Dream car(s)?

I’m not much into cars but, as most every Ohioan, I love a good early 2000s Jeep.

Thanks Nat, this was super fun

[sveasauvageon]

You can try and take away my crown But I will never let my kingdom down When I put it on, it's on for real Damn I wear it so well || HSWW

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Title: lyrics from "Crown", performed by Jamila Velazquez, Raquel Castro, Yani Marin in the second season of "Empire"

REQUESTS: [x] OC Name: Svea Sauvageon [x] House: Slytherin [x] Role in the Quidditch Team: chaser [x] Year: Seven

[x] Wins in the team: okay, I know just a number will do here, but I did a bunch of math for it, so I'm quite proud of myself rn. 6 Quidditch games are played per year at Hogwarts, of which each house participates in 3. Svea joined the Quidditch team in her second year (as first years are not allowed), and up to the end of her 6th year, she would've have played in 15 games total (on the assumption that she played right from first joining the team and was never benched due to injury). She wins at least one game a year, her stiffest competition coming from Syn Lothbrok and Minah Delacroix, so out of those 15 games, I'd estimate that Svea's won between 10-12 games, a 66-80% success rate. (Again, did the math on that, and I am so proud of myself.)

[x] Is your character a good leader for the team? Does her/he loves the challenges, the competition and is a great motivator?

Svea would make an excellent captain. She's a natural leader and high-achiever, she orders people around as easily as she breathes, and constantly pushes for more, not just out of her herself, but as well as those around her. She considers herself to be the best of the best, and therefore everyone around her must also meet that standard. She's also a mom-friend, her pushing and striving to be better than everyone else does not just come out as harsh orders, but she spends time with (most) of the team to help them get better and deal with their problems, whether Quidditch related or not. She maintains friendly relationships with most of the Slytherin Quidditch team and has functioning, workable relations with the rest. She does have deeply ingrained politeness and does not outright belittle people without a justifiable reason, so despite any deep seated dislike she may hold for a member or members, she is more than capable of swallowing it and working together to achieve victory.

Svea's been on the team for a long time now, having joined in her second year (when students are first eligible to apply), and has participated in every game. She was inspired to join and try out for Chaser by her step-mother, Iliana Vyacheslavovichna Drubetskaya, a former star chaser of the national Russian Quidditch Team (she retired 10 years ago due to injury). Iliana was the one who sparked Svea's passion for the sport, introducing it to her when she was a child and they often attended matches throughout Europe. Amongst Svea's banked happy memories for patronus producing is a Quidditch match between Russia and Germany she attended with Iliana and Lili (her younger sister). Svea's an aggressive and tactical player. She treats the game like war, and her favourite strategy is to be aggressive, and to be smart. The more land you take, the more you've won. In Quidditch, she applies that concept to points and the snitch. She's not so concerned about catching the snitch, as she is with outscoring the enemy team, and one of her primary goals and efforts is to have chasers score 150 points and above so that they can still win the game regardless of who catches the snitch (as well as win the cup, since you get that based on overall score and not number of games won at Hogwarts). Beaters are a significant part of that strategy, she'd split them up. Have one fly wildly throughout the pitch and hit who they can, and have another play protector/assassin by the keeper (well, as near as the rules allow). She'd also have the entire team come to her family's estate in Sweden during breaks and holidays to practice year round and would help team members keep up their grades. Natural talent is nice, but if you don't hone your skills, you're worthless to the team, and if you don't keep your grades up, you can't play.

Svea's got good sportsmanship, and does not let her competitive nature in the sport spill out in other situations, and even maintains various positive relationships with members of other teams. One of her best friend's is a beater on an opposing team (Syn Lothbrok of Hufflepuff House), another of her close besties is on Ravenclaw (Minah Delacroix), and her boyfriend is seeker on yet another opposing team (Henry Clark of Gryffindor House). So she is more than able to leave all competitive tension on the pitch and cozy up to the "enemy" without an ulterior motive (literally, and in all three of those cases tbh). However, despite being able to keep competitive heat to the pitch, Svea is unlikely to be cooperative with a captain she sees as being beneath her, whether by age or social standing or a combination thereof. Svea effectively believes herself to be and acts like a Queen without a kingdom (if you don't count the Sauvageon estate and family in Sweden, mind you, she's still just the heir to that). She's not going to take orders from a plebeian, and she's certainly not going to accept the authority of an inferior. With a captain whom she views as inferior to herself, she is going to be incredibly disagreeable with and will constantly correct them during meetings and practice. During a game, she is most likely to usurp command, and do as she pleases. She would only begrudgingly accept "orders" during a dire situation.

______________________ Mentioned not-mine oc's: Syn (@.ghostpastey), Minah Delacroix (@.maybones), Henry Clark (@.lady-stoneheart)

[shawoluvs]

about the blogger~

I was tagged by the wonderful @tiniestwitch​ (seriously go check out their blog, they’re great) and basically here’s a little bit about me~

Nicknames: Holl’s the one I go by most.

Gender: Lovely Lady or female, if you want to get scientific.

Star Sign: 🐂 TAURUS 🐂 and proud.

Height: I’m about 5′’2/5′’3, I haven’t been measured in a few years but I haven’t grown in years either :’).

Time: as of writing this: It’s currently 10:54pm.

Birthday: I’m born in the jolly ol’ month of May, I’d rather keep the exact date to myself~

Favourite Bands: Considering this is my kpop blog I will stick to kpop groups for this list. SHINee, of course, as they are my one true Kings and I shall love them always. Red Velvet are my ultimate Queens- or as if this comeback should I say LGBT Coven Empresses? Either way I love those girls. I have a lot more so I’ll just refer you to me fave groups page, as that about sums it up.

Favourite Solo Artists: I’ll stick to kpop again and go with my gorgeous saviour Taemin, the dark fairy prince and gender stereotype smasher is by far my fave. Of course, I love Jonghyun as a soloist too, his music is always so beautiful and he drops some real bops so if you’ve not checked out his stuff you totally should (btw White T-Shirt is a great alarm song, gets you pumped in the morning), and Taeyeon probably wins out for my lovely ladies.

Song stuck in my head: Sea by Golden Child. It’s my personal favourite on their debut album, I love it so much, it’s such a great song with such summery vibes and the vocals are so on point. Not to mention they do that great thing where they do like a false build up? Where you think you’re going to drop back to the chorus but then it circles back and there’s another slow verse. Anyway if you’ve heard it you’ll get what I mean, and I love it!

Last Movie Watched: The Hunger Games, Catching Fire. I’m watching it right now :’).

Last Show Watched: Probably Star Trek: Discovery. GREAT SHOW.

When did I Create my Blog: Quite recently? I can’t be exactly sure, I got locked out of my old blog which I had for years and remade to this one a little while back. Since then I’ve also created various blogs focusing on various things to basically organise my blog a little more.

What do I post: This particular blog is all kpop with a few dramas thrown in!

Last Thing Google: Loona, I was checking to see if there’d be anything else on our next Girl of the Month :’).

Do you have other blogs: Yes, I have a few other blogs. This is my primary blog and purely for kpop but I also have kimitokara, which is a blog dedicated 100% to anime/mange. I also have a personal/multifandom blog which is mainly TV shows etc. that’s called reduciome.

Do you get asks: Occasionally, not so much, but I’m always welcome to them!

Why did you choose your username: I changed it a few months ago when I decided to officially make this blog purely kpop and was also listening to Red Velvet on repeat (as if I still don’t, hahahaha).

Following: 337, I basically followed all the blogs from my old personal before I made this one and should really do a sort out soon because so many of them haven’t been active in a long time.

Followers: 42 on this particular blog :’) An acute amount, which works for me~

Favourite Colours: Purple, green, black, pink, blue etc. etc. I have many tbh, it changes a lot but I always come back to purple (bless ASTRO tbh).

Average hours of sleep: Probably about 6/7.

Lucky number: I’m a complete freak who basically really likes even numbers, or numbers that end in 5 or 7.

Instruments: I tried the violin a while back and loved it tbh but gave it up to focus on exams etc.

What I am wearing right now: Penguin pj pants and a dressing gown.

How many blankets: Just one at the moment, though as it gets colder I tend to put an extra on.

Dream Job: I’d love to be a writer, though I’d also love to teach but abroad somewhere, if I weren’t such an anxious numpty I’d travel all the time.

Dream Trip: South Korea, Japan, China... tbh I’d love to see anywhere in East Asia, I feel like the cultures are so different there and it’d be a great experience. I’d also love to see more of Europe too though, I went to Germany once and loved it so I really want to go back.

Favourite food: I love rice, pasta and basically lots of carb-y food. Yay to bread! I also really love cheese and lemons.

Nationality: British~

Favourite Song(s) Now: Chaotic - Loona (ODD EYE CIRCLE), Rise - Taemin, Sea - Golden Child, You Better Know - Red Velvet, Difficult - ONF and a billion more tbh.

Ok so I’m going to tag some of my lovely mutuals, feel free to take part if you want to!: @confundo-on-cormac, @duckiesteasmiles, @xumoon, @17dad & @kflowergirl

[frei-und-schwerelos]

do all of the broadway asks. all. of. them.

hahah whew anon I won’t repeat the ones I’ve already done but here it goes. 

1. What was the first musical you saw?

The Lion King in 2010.

2. What musical got you really into theatre?

The first wave was caused by Les Miserables, then the revival and what really got me into it was Wicked. 

3. Who was your first Broadway crush?

Samantha Barks whelp

4. Name three of your current Broadway crushes.

Alison Luff, Alyssa Fox and Jodie Steele tbh. (Jodie technically isn’t “broadway” but eh) 

5. Name four of your dream roles.

I’m a technician so a stage manager at Wicked. : )

6. Favourite off-broadway show:

Songs for a New World and The Last Five Years.

7. Favourite cast recording.

In terms of how often I listen to it, Hamilton and Wicked Germany.

8. 2013 Tony opening number or 2016 Tony opening number?

2013 by a little bit.

9. Favourite show currently on Broadway.

ajsfka;lfjk;qljklfk ngl Wicked

10. A musical that closed and you’re still bitter about. Rant a bit.

Matilda. But Broadway is a business so jfljqwoiehfoppfkenl

12. Worst stage to screen adaptation?

The Phantom of the Opera?? I really don’t have an opinion on this.

13. Favourite #ham4ham?

Schuyler Georges

14. A musical you would love to see produced by Deaf West?

oo Newsies or Pippin? 

15. If you could revive any musical, which one would it be and who would you cast in it?

Next to Normal in London. Please. (Even though it’s quite “American”)

16. If you could go to a concert at the 54 below, who’s would it be?

Any Elphaba’s

17. Do you watch broadway.com vlogs? Which one is your favourite?

I am very biased towards Kara Lindsay, but that vlog was damn enjoyable. 

18. Make a broadway related confession.

I sometimes question why I like Wicked so much. If I think deeply about it for a while, the plot holes, characterization and arcs infuriate me to no end. Yeah, it did completely change my life and for that I’m grateful. bUT after Willemijn and Jenny leave, I’m probably gonna take a massive step back until another Elphaba fully captures my heart. If it ever happens considering how in love I am with Willemijn’s Elphaba. That being said, if the Jackie Burns rumours are true, Imma stick around until the inevitable Jessica Vosk takeover. 

19. What do musicals mean to you?

It is responsible for a lot of who I am today. I propagate the fact Wicked made me “realise” I was gay (and trans), plus helped to discover technical theatre which has become a home of sorts. 

20. Express some love for understudies and swings!

I AM STILL SALTY I MISSED SEEING JODIE STEELE LIVE. HER VOICE IS JUST JAFKELWQLFJQL AND DAMN PROUD SHE WAS ABLE TO FINISH OFF THE TOUR AS THE “LEAD” DOING 6 SHOWS A WEEK FOR A MONTH. Also chookas to Olivia Polci for her Elphaba debut. insane she’s gone this long without it. 

21. Best Disney musical:

Beauty and the Beast.

22. Which Disney movie should be made into a musical?

Imma cheat and not do disney but animated in general. Prince of Egypt all the way. Deliver Us never fails to send chills. 

23. Which musical fandom has the funniest memes?

Hamilton. Or as my friends call it, “Hemes”. They also have history to play with so it’s broad and varied. 

25. Name a Broadway star you would sort into your Hogwarts house.

Like I said before, I have no clue.

27. A Broadway duo you love.

I love virtually everyone. 

29. If you could make a jukebox musical, what artist or genre would you pick?

FALL OUT BOY! : ))))) 

30. Favourite role played by _________________?

uhhhhh ?? 

33. Current showtune stuck in you head:

Flash, Bang, Wallop from Half a Sixpence. Their West End Live performance was the best from this year and Charlie Stemp is only 23??!?!?!. 

34. A musical that has left you thinking about life for a long time or deeply inspired you.

Les Miserables probably.

35. If you could perform any ensemble number, which one would you pick?

One Day More or One Short Day hehehehehe. 

36. Name a musical you didn’t like at first but ended up loving.

Hamilton.

37. What are some costumes you’d love to try on?

Enjolras’ lmao. 

38. Favourite dance break.

Turn it Off? I’m more of a song person anyway.

39. Favourite Starkid musical.

Aren’t really familiar with their work.

40. What’s a musical more people should know about?

does Elisabeth count lol. 

41. What are some lines from musicals you really like?

“Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise” is the one that has stuck with me the most. 

42. Name a Tony performance you rewatch and rewatch.

Honestly, Something Rotten’s. 

[amarpelosdois-blog]

ESC ‘17: my thoughts on the final

now that Eurovision is over for the year 😥, I’ll share my thoughts about all the acts in the final.

Israel: an okay performance, not an especially great one though. I did think it was a nice way to start the show.

Poland: I saw a comment somewhere, long before Eurovision week, saying that Kasia was basically singing really passionately about nothing in particular. I’m inclined to agree. I like Kasia, I think, but Flashlight is kind of a pointless song imo.

Belarus: love this! they were so cute and so happy and this deserved more points, okay? especially since they sang in Belarusian! for the first time!

Austria: see above, it was happy and he’s cute and deserved better! I don’t know how Nathan didn’t even get a single televote point! he was good!

Armenia: I really thought Artsvik was going to do better, but tbh the performance fell kinda flat. she and her dancers could have used more of the stage, I think, and it would have been more effective.

Netherlands: I was kind of indifferent to this song up until I saw it performed. O’G3NE is great and I cried a little.

Moldova: okay how exactly did this get 3rd? was it Epic Sax Guy? it’s a top-10 performance, I guess, but imho not a top-3. it seemed to go on way longer than 3 minutes.

Hungary: holy shit YES, I’m soooooo glad Joci was in the top 10! he deserved it! don’t know why the juries slept on him though…

Italy: y’all probably won’t agree at all but I think 6th was the right placing for this. I mean, it was good, but - like Armenia, as well as a few others - it fell flat and didn’t quite measure up to the hype or expectations.

Denmark: poor Anja, stuck between Italy and Portugal :( the song’s kinda generic but I liked it and she performed well, I thought.

Portugal: ♥ Salvador is adorable and he did soooooo well! this was actually only my #2 of the night but I think he’s a well-deserved winner, and he made history in multiple ways (first Portuguese victory since they started competing 53 years ago! in a language other than English for the first time since 2007! and the highest scoring Eurovision winner ever - even if his points were converted to the previous system of voting!) and I’m proud of him!

Azerbaijan: another act that fell flat. this was one of my favourites in studio but I just wasn’t really feeling the live performance, I would have preferred something that stuck more to the aesthetic of the music video, I guess.

Croatia: I wasn’t expecting this to do as well as it did. hell, I wasn’t even expecting Jacques to qualify. but I guess it was so extra that it ended up working somehow?

Australia: this was the first time I genuinely enjoyed an Australian entry. I didn’t care much for the staging but I thought Isaiah sang the shit out of his song and 9th is a well deserved position.

Greece: let’s be real this should be Finland …yeah I really didn’t like this. it felt kinda cheap and like a throwback to 2012, in a way. I like Demy, it’s just a shame about her song.

Spain: didn’t like this either. I hate to say that any act deserved last, but… honestly this kinda did. sorry Manel :(

Norway: underdog of the season?? started off as kind of an unexpected winner of MGP, ended up in the top 10 and I’m really happy about that!

UK: Lucie should have been in the top 10 - though 15th is still better than the UK has been doing as of late. I cried a little at her performance too.

Cyprus: I liked the staging, even though some of it felt borrowed from Belgium ‘15 and maybe Russia ‘16. however, I think it takes a pretty strong performer/song to make it work, and Hovig just wasn’t the right fit.

Romania: yodel rap works a lot better than it probably should. the whole thing was kinda tacky but somehow they pulled it off.

Germany: not last? wow! this was pretty much “generic: the performance” imo, sorry Levina :(

Ukraine: ah, this year’s token rock song! kind of a letdown and if Ukraine had to compete in the semis this year I don’t think they would have qualified.

Belgium: yet another that fell flat in my opinion. Blanche needed a little more movement, I thought - not a whole lot more, it’s not that kind of song, but she just stood there a little too much.

Sweden: I just really didn’t like this, but these days Sweden could probably be top 5 with literally anything they sent. Robin seems soulless imo and the song kinda skeeves me out. 

Bulgaria: Kristian my love, you did amazing ♥ yeah this was my #1 of the night. something about this worked for me more than any other performance. as happy as I am for Salvador (pretty damn happy, he was my #2 and has been one of my favourites the whole time), I bet I’d be even happier if it were Kristian who walked away with the trophy.

France: I liked this a lot more than I expected, given that the studio version didn’t do much for me. the English in the chorus still sounded off (probably because the French last line doesn’t rhyme) though, and Alma should have gone with a solid-coloured dress because I thought it seriously clashed with how busy the background got at times.

[supermassivesschwarzesloch]

All the flower questions

Daisy: how old were you when you had your fist kiss? I don't really rememver, but i was 19 when i had my first kiss that meant something. I think i would even consider that one my first kiss.Carnation: if i handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer? Linkin park? Like i am always down for tøp and p!atd but i love linkin park so much and i haven't seen them live yet.Jasmine: what colour looks best on you?I don't know? My mom always says it's blueish/greenish colours but idkFoxglove: Name three facts about your family.I have relatives in germany, france, norway and america, my family always ends up talking about slaughtering chickens on family gatherings like???? And i am really happy to have such a big and accepting family.Allium: what's the best thing you can cook?I can't cook to save my life. The only thing i am not bad at is creme brûle. It's nowhere near perfect but it tastes amazing. Sometimes.Orange blossom: if you could pick the gender and appearence of your child, would you?I don't think i would. I don't even want children lolCalla lily: if you died right now what song would you want to play at your funeral?I'm always thinking 'the light behind your eyes' by mcr as a funeral song but also 'edge of night' from the lord of the rings moviesOxlip: would you ever get into a long distance relationship?I am in one. It sucks. It is so hard to not be able to see each other but my gf is so worth it, i do not regret it.Primrose: favourite kind of soup?Okay okaay, this is a tough question because i love soup. My favourites include broccolisoup, noodlesoup and potatostew but my all time favourite has to be my family's chicken soup. It's so good!!Daffodil: what's the most thoughtful present you've ever recived?Uhm... i am really brain dead right now, can' t think of something right now...Rose: are you currently in love with someone? Yes!!! My beautiful girlfriend!!!Amsonia: would you ever become a vegan?No tbh Peony: what's your favourite hot beverage?Hot chocolate!!!!! I am addicted.Tulip: for your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?I don't know what it's called in english but in german it's called bienenstich and it's so goodMyrtle: do you like going on airplanes?I don't mind.Hibiscus: did you ever play an instrument? If so what?Never.Zinnia: whi was your best friend when you were six years old?I had the same best friend for almost the first 18 years of my life. We don't really talk anymore tho. I think she hates me.Poppy: what colour was you childhood home??????Hydrangea: starbucks order?I don't order starbucks. Too expensive.Violet: do you like where you are from?It's quite nice but it's not that i am immensly proud or somethingLocust: what was your favourite book as a child?When i was really really young it was 'das wheinachtsfest der wilden tiere' a book about diffenrent animals cellebrating christmas together, and then later it was 'nijura- das erbe der elfenkrone' and it's still one of my favourite books. Probably always will be. I also loved the harry potter series.Rhododendron: what's the scariest dream you've ever had?I remember one time i dreamt that me, my gf and some other people were in an old abandoned hospital (in some kind of postapocalyptic world i guess?) And i was helping people settling in for the night but then it became dark and as soon as it got dark there were these creepy doll like creatures? And the other people i was there with were sleepping and so was my gf next to me but i was awake and saw that creature creeping between the hospital beds? And the it came closer to me and i was so scared? And i tried to pretend i was sleeping but that thing knew i wasn't???? Then it killed me and i woke up, but i could not fall asleep after...Queen Anne's Lace: would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?Carve pumpkinsMagnolia: favourite kind of candy?Probably choclatey thingsAster: would you rather be cold or hot?I'd rather be cold casue then i can steal my gfs warmthMarigold: do you listen to what's on the radio?No. I only listen to the radio when i have to.Heliconia: do you like it when it rains?Yes.Azalea: what's a movie you cried while watchig?What's a movie i didn't cry while watching? I cried while watching imitation game, the theory of everything, mulan and so many more i can't think of right nowDandelion: do you think you are important?Personaly, no. But i think i am important to some people.This is very long, i'm sorry. I'm out.

[putschki1969]

♫ My music history ♫

This post was inspired by @symph0nia-pendragon who wanted me to do this ^_^.

I can’t say I have much of a history when it comes to music, Kalafina is my first love so to speak!! Of course I have liked songs here and there from all kinds of artists in various genres but I have never actively sought out more music from one particular singer/band (until Kalafina came along that is). I have always been more of a sountracks-kinda girl.

Oh well, anyways, let’s give it a shot! Keep in mind though, this is gonna be short (okay, scratch that, it ended up being quite long) and probably boring as hell...

As kids my sister and I would record the score as well as the opening and ending themes of our favourite shows with our cassette recorder. Our tastes were quite different, I was mostly into shows like X-Files, ER and Star Trek all of which my sis couldn’t stand but we both LOVED the old World Masterpiece Theater animated shows. Of course back then we didn’t know they were Japanese anime, we just enjoyed the different stories and the pretty animation. I am not sure about the US/UK but those serials were SUPER popular in Germany/Austria, they got aired back to back for years here. We collected all the OPs, EDs and insert songs and tbh, I enjoy listening to them up to this day, they are just THAT good. They were German dubs though, sometimes completely different from the Japanese original. For example, there was an incredibly sad insert song in one of the German dubbed episodes of “Tico of the Seven Seas”, it was originally the rather cheerful Japanese ED theme but the lyrics were altered to match the scene for which it was used. I am still crying like a little baby whenever I listen to it! ｡：ﾟ(｡ﾉω＼｡)ﾟ･｡ I would love to link you to more of them but I am afraid they wouldn’t make much sense to you. >_< Have one of my favourite scores instead! It’s “Journey to Milan” from “Romeo’s Blue Skies”.

We also collected the soundtracks of other other animes we watched (Sailor Moon, Dragonball, Pokemon, Digimon, etc...). Some American/European animated shows as well, most notably “The Animals of the Farthing Wood”, we were obsessed with this as little kids!! We really liked the score of the theme song and during various sad scenes! Random fact, my first school bag was part of the “Farthing Wood” merchandise. I was so proud to have it! (btw, in case you are wondering what I am carrying here, it’s a “Schultüte”)

Of course we also grew up on the soundtracks of Disney movies and various other animated films. I think we owned all the OSTs that were available at that time. Here are two lovely examples of amazing scores => Lion King - King of Pride Rock (by Hans Zimmer), Pocahontas - Farewell (by Alan Menken); The score of The Land Before Time (composed by the late James Horner) remains my favourite up to this day!! Just listen to “Discovery of the Great Valley”, it’s PERFECT!!!

Around this time I started to become properly aware of different composers and I realised that I really liked a certain style of music. I singled out a handful of composers that kept making amazing soundtracks and that’s how I ended up getting a ton of OSTs by Hans Zimmer, James Horner, John Williams and Jerry Goldsmith. Here and there I like a few other composers but these are my favourites, I just love their style, however repetitive it may be according to some people >_> In some ways I think I am the kind of person that needs recurring themes o.O

And yeah, that’s pretty much what I have been doing up till now. I mostly stick to soundtracks that stand out to me. My sister introduced me to some songs by Yuki Kajiura, including some of her soundtrack pieces. One thing led to the other and I was suddenly knee-deep in the world of Kalafina XD (find out more in my “First Impression” post).

So yeah, aside from Kalafina, the only thing you’ll find in my playlist are soundtracks.

Okay, no, that’s not true. I’ll occasionally like a random song/”musical piece” (probably because I have heard it in some context). They can be songs from all kinds of genres, from all kinds of artists, from all over the world. There is quite a lot of variety actually. I’ve liked the most random things, be it an insert song in a K-Drama/J-Drama, a Bollywood item song, one of Britney Spears’ older songs, an opera aria, a classical symphony, etc...the weirdest things really...

I guess there is some stuff that I really don’t like...jazz for example, I just can’t seem to like it. Any sort of indie, punk or psychedelic music, ughhh, not my thing at all...I am also not a big fan of music that lacks harmony, the more “dissonant” and all over the place, the less likely I’ll find it appealing...

[violetsandloveletters]

A very long Q that’s taken a while to pass some time...

Do you actually love your grandpa? Grandad, of course, I love them both so much. Do you actually love your grandma? Nan & yes, again, I love & value them both so much, i’m very close to the grandparents on my mums side & honestly both my nan & grandad on that side are both my favourite people. Do you have Facebook? I do & I hate it, I only have it to see pics from my family in America & Spain tbh. What was the last thing you posted on someone’s wall? I wished someone a happy birthday but can’t remember who... Do you have MySpace? I did but haven’t used it in years, sucks that I lost all of my pictures on there. Loved that site tbh. What is your favorite kind of music? I love such a huge range of music tbh, like 80′s, Fall Out Boy, Arctic Monkeys, I listen to Motown when I clean... Honestly a bit of everything. Favorite soft drink? Pepsi Max is my everything quite honestly. Favorite food? Five Guys, chicken teriyaki from Yo Sushi! Krispy Kreme doughnuts, a decent cake- I love food so... Have you ever felt replaced? Of fucking course & it fucking sucks. Have you ever worn false eyelashes? I have & they are a bit of a pain. Do you ever regret making a friend? Yeah for sure. Can you cure mental illness? I don’t think you can cure it, learn to cope somewhat I yeah but I know for a fact that the shit I suffer with on a daily basis will never be cured nor will the trauma/shit just go away. Is God good? Athiest... Cats or dogs? I love both. I have a cat called Hades & would love a dog too someday. Do you play video games? Sims 4, I’ve loved Sims forever! Do you take medication for mental health? Yes I do. Can you really be racist to a white person? You can be racist to anyone... Do you have a favorite hair accessory? What does it look like? I’m boring so either a black scrunchie or the plastic spiral hairbands that don’t kink your hair & I have so many of them. What’s your favorite type of insect? Erm Dragonflies, caterpillars or bees. What’s your LEAST favorite type of insect? Maggots or spiders & moths are a love/hate. Who was the last person you Facebook messaged? What did you say? What’s his/her favorite food? My friend Skye, can’t remember & I loved with her for a while so I should know this but she’s part Italian & an amazing cook so anything she cooks for herself i’m sure. What was the last song you listened to? Does it mean anything to you? Apart from the stuff we have at work which I kinda shut off from unless it’s something decent, Billie Eilish ‘Ocean Eyes’, i’m in love with it. Have you ever slept in a water bed? Nope. How do you feel about having sex during your menstrual period? I mean if it’s not heavy it doesn’t bother me tbh, you just can’t do much fun stuff lol. Does your ex have a job? Yeah. Have you ever slept in a car? On car rides yeah, I think I have with an ex once before though when we were supposed to camp but it was cold. What was the last term of endearment you used (babe, hun, dear, etc)? No idea, babe? How often do you use Flickr? Not for like 10 years. Have you ever been on a blind date? No. Do you have a crush on the last person you texted? No. Have you ever got into an argument with the last person you kissed? No. Have you ever liked somebody who was nice to you, but horrible to everyone else? Not sure really. How’s your appetite atm? I’m not hungry, I feel like i’ve just been eating for the sake of it since being ill the other week. Out of all the conversations you’ve had recently, which one has made you smile or laugh the most? No idea, can’t think of once honestly. Do you look decent in your most recent photograph? No idea what it was. What is one vacation destination that many people think is just fabulous but which you personally have no desire to visit (or revisit)? Ooh tough question, somewhere like Turkey or Germany. If you were five years younger but knew everything at that age that you’ve actually learned over the last five years, what is one thing you would definitely do differently? Be stronger & don’t put up with any shit from anyone. What serves as the greatest motivation for you in your daily life? My cat & that is literally it & the chance to have a child I guess but Hades for sure. What activity that you have to do every once in a while that you dread the most? Travelling to my mums, she lives about 5 min drive away but I don’t drive & it takes like 40mins by bus or longer by train. When people hear what you do for a living, what is the most typical question or comment they give you regarding your job? Idk, they like the shop but I hate having to explain why i’m on lower hours because of my health cos it’s kinda shitty at 27 when I used to work full time as a store manager. If you were left alone for one hour with nothing more than a pen and a notepad, what would you be inclined to draw or write during those 60 minutes? Not sure, it depends on my mood at the time I guess. If you could witness anything at all in super-slow motion, what would you want to see? No idea. If someone were looking for you in a bookstore, in what section would they be most likely to find you? The art history section or the bit with tarot cards & astrology & stuff. What do you forget to do more often than anything else? Take the bins out when I leave the house so I have to go back up to get them or leave post on the side & forget what they are about. If you could teach everyone in the world one skill, what would it be? How to important it is to make sure that just because you don’t agree or understand what someone else has said/is going through, doesn’t mean it’s not real/irrelevant. You’ve been offered the chance to paint a billboard along a highway with any message you choose, as long as it’s only 10 words long. What is your message? No idea, something inspirational I guess. Would you ever travel to Africa? Nah, don’t fancy it. Whose house were you last at? Mums. Have you ever had a near-death experience? Overdose I guess. Have you ever met anyone who was overly addicted to a computer game? My brother is obsessed with PS4 & I love Sim 4 & can be on it for hours. Have you ever been fingered? Lol. What do you do the most when you are online? Youtube, research random shit, Tumblr, look for stuff to buy/can’t afford or look for places to live in my home town as I wanna move back. What video game have you played the most? SIMS 4 how many times do I have to mention this game :| Do you have scars you don’t like to talk about? I don’t have anything to be ashamed of if that’s what you’re asking. What is something you and your significant other do that may seem weird to others? No idea really. When and why did you last cry? Earlier, I cry literally all the time lately. When was the last time you drank? Alcohol? A long time, after being with D & his issues I hate it even more than I did before. Do you wear jewelry a lot? Earrings, belly bar & nose ring I never take out, I have a anklet I wear pretty much every day as well as my Tiffany ring & Tiffany bracelet from D & a necklace from my mum that says ‘Love you to the moon’ or an amethyst pendant on suede. I have like a small selection of random valuable jewellery I switch between rather than loads of costume cheap stuff apart from the 20ish chokers I have... Who in your household do you not have a good relationship with? None? Who in your life are you scared to lose more than anything? D, honestly I would die, same as Hades, they are my family. I nearly lost my mum in April & it was horrendous, but any close family really or my best friend. Honestly, would you rather be single or in a relationship? A relationship for sure. Do any of your friends not get along at all? D & my best friend possibly? What are your 3 favorite internet sites? Youtube, Tumblr & maybe ASOS haha. Have you ever gotten anything autographed, if so by who & what was it? No idea, can’t think of anyone. Do you prefer Walmart or Target? I’m in the UK so neither. Who is your favorite model? Anyone male with long hair & a nose ring ha. What have you done that is out of character for you? I’m not sure really, i’ve changed a lot over the last few years & don’t take shit & will say exactly how I feel & have become very angry whereas before I used to be shy & bite my tongue a lot more than I used too. But physically I went to a concert on my own last year which was the ultimate ‘fuck it, i’ve gone mad’ moment as I was on the train there & tbh it was traumatising. What do you feel strong enough to protest about? So many things, I feel very strongly about a lot of things I just have never had a chance to actually go to a protest. What’s the biggest blooper you’ve never lived down? Fuck knows, probably getting drunk years ago & blacking out. What is the best thing you have done just because you were told you can’t? I mean it’s not saying I can’t, more shouldn’t, but me & D getting Hades. What are you most thankful for? My family, D, Hades and the NHS. How do you feel about thrift shops or flea markets? You can find some good shit. What do you like to put gravy on? Anything I possibly can! My fave midnight snack atm is yorkshire puddings & gravy or another of my faves is jacket potato with cheese & gravy. Have you ever gone canoeing/kayaking? Yeah, for a school trip once & I loved it. What one thing in particular makes you feel good about yourself? Compliments of how I look & compliments on my boobs haha & also how much of a nice person I am & that i’m always there to listen & just nonjudgemental. What is priceless to you? Love & the good people I have around me. What is one thing you know about your family history you’re proud of? I’m not sure really. Do you keep a budget? Yeah I do, I use an app cos that’s waht you do when you’re an adult with many bills & your own place haha. What makes you feel rested and refreshed? Having CFS/ME it’s hard to say because it’s a bit of a roll of a dice tbh, some days I could have an amazing night sleep or a relaxed day off but the rest & refreshed feeling could be short lived/non existent. A massage or a relaxing bath with Lush products helps clear my mind somewhat though. Who depends on you the most? My cat, & I guess my mum since she’s been unwell over the last few months. Could you ever be someone’s bodyguard? Im petite & 5ft with size 2 feet... Has one of your biggest fears come true? Yeah, being cheated on. Have you ever let your mom or significant other fight a battle for you? No. Did you create a checklist for your ideal spouse? No lol. I like what I like. Have you ever ridden on a subway or train and what did you like about it? Yeah quite often, I love getting the train into London cos it’s just chill. Do you have to experience something to fully understand it? Somewhat. What embarrasses you instantly? I’m so easily embarrassed & so self conscious so literally anything. Do you think you could be a firefighter, why/why not? No, same as the bodyguard thing, i’m too small & have ME so the fatigue stops a lot. What do you think should be censored? Can’t think tbh. Are you related to anyone famous or historical, if so who? William the Conqueror which means the Queen too & Danny Dyer, Alexander the Great. Would you ever donate a kidney to anyone, and who? I would & family I guess, haven’t really thought about it Have you ever fired a gun? No. What is the main quality you think makes a great parent? Hard to choose just one, just being a great teacher & loving & caring for them & helping the kid grow into a great person & always being there to guide & listen. Who is a female role model in your life? My nan. What childhood dreams have you neglected? Not really childhood but I wanted to be a dermatologist & I regret not training to do that, What do you have trouble seeing clearly in your mind? My future, when you loose the will to live a bit or suffer with trauma/suicidal thoughts or have a botched life/childhood it’s very hard to see anything clearly. The way I perceive people or myself or life will always be tainted I think. Would you travel to space if possible? Would be very cool, though space food looks rancid. Are you an optimistic person? Depends on the circumstance, I like to think im optimistic when it comes to relationships or D or whatever but in general im not. Im a logical person. Do you consider yourself more realistic OR idealistic? Bit of both. Have you ever felt bi-curious? Never, I like dick & dick is all it’ll ever be. Are you a fan of U.S. President Donald Trump? Not really. Do you know anyone with autism, mood disorders or learning disabilities? Erm me, hi! I suffer with multiple mood disorders. Are you green-eyed? Bluey green I guess. Would you consider UFC fighting and WWE real sports events? Not sure. Have you ever had an immediate relative pass away of cancer? No. Would you rather work in an office, warehouse or on a retail shop floor? I currently work on a retail shop floor, but i’d prefer an office I think. Do you have a favorite wild animal? Why? I love wolves & tigers because they are both stunning & bats. Do you have any unusual, uncommon phobias? Mould, im terrified & me & my brother have trypophobia which is holes. Do you prefer Android or iPhone? Iphone. Are you a fan of sweet, sour, salty, or savory snacks? All, depends on the time of the month & mood, probs sweet & savoury are top. Do you believe climate change is real? 100000000% Do you believe in evolution OR creationism? Evolution! Do you think people can really predict the future? Hmmm, idk, I do believe in tarot & shit so... Have you been to a lot of shrinks? We don’t call them that here but psychiatrists & psychologists or councillors, yeah. How often do you clean your room? I have a whole flat to clean & once a week, usually Mondays are my ‘get my shit together for the week’ days. Any movies coming out soon that you want to see? It’s out now but Once Upon a Time in Hollywood. What was the last fear you overcame? Not sure.  Have you ever hurt yourself trying to crack a body part? No. What’s the worst part about winter? My bedroom gets freezing so forgetting to put the heating on & freezing my ass off in the morning. Or when you layer up but have to travel on the tube or in shops & it’s fucking boiling. Also when it’s icy & trying not to trip over. Summer? Our houses in the UK are made to keep heat in not out so when it is a hot day we don’t have aircon & shit. Spring? Hayfever & the days where it’s warm enough to wear sandals. Fall? I love Autumn. Are you allergic to anything? Quorn & grapefruit & avocados/nuts can give me migraines. How many times have you changed a diaper in your life? Lots when my little brother was a baby. Which country has the most fascinating culture? Japan is crazy but I love anciet history so does ancient Greek & Rome count?. Who does your favorite song? Fuck that’s the most difficult question ever. When was the last time you wore makeup? Today. Do you prefer males or females or both? I have men issues but females apart from my best friend & family annoy me & most of my friends are men & so’s my cat so... Where in your town do you go when you wanna chill with a few friends? Me & my bestie would go to London. Where’s the best place to get coffee? I don’t drink coffee but I love a Costa. Have you ever seen someone struggle with an addiction? D, it was hell. In May I lost a friend because of addiction too & it really struck something inside. When was the last time someone gave you flowers? My nan brought me pink roses for my birthday this year & roses are my favourite. Do you like cranberry juice? Only in a Woo Woo cocktail.. Do you play any zombie-killing video games? No. What is the dominating genre on your mp3 player/iPod? 80′s everything! Do you have a book shelf? No. What website do you spend way too much time on? Youtube or Netflix or Now Tv on the telly. Do you like wind chimes? Yeah. Do you have a fetish? Maybe... Do you have a pet fish? No, I’ve had a few in my time though, my first pets were goldfish called Michael Jackson & Bubbles. Do you like kettle corn? Popcorn? Yeah. Do you enjoy classic rock? Looove! When was the last time you went for a walk, just cause? Never lol, probably the last time I went to my grandparents house as they live practically on the seafront & it’s just lovely where they live. Do you listen to Type O Negative? No. Do you have any fillings or cavities? No. Have you gotten your wisdom teeth taken out yet? No & hopefully don’t ever have too. Do you actually read privacy policies when signing up for new things? I skim over yeah. Did you have a lot of birthday parties when you were younger? If so, did you invite everyone in the class? Yeah, my first party was the class but after it was friends. Do you like when things are color coordinated? YES & i’m very OCD about it. Have you ever participated in one of those “guess how many jelly beans, mints, etc. are in this jar!” contest? if so, have you ever won? Yeah, and no. Can you juggle? No. Have you ever mistaken a ringing phone on TV or in a movie for your own? Yeah, How often do you use bobby pins? Whenever I do a messy bun so often. Do you live on an avenue, road, drive or something else? Street. What are your school colors? The first was blue, the 2n’d was red & the 3rd was green. Have you ever taken a picture with Santa when you were little? Yeah. Have you ever rolled down a steep, grassy hill for fun? Yeah when I was younger. Do you like Nerds candy? Never had them!

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Strasbourg

So last week I went to the European Parliament in Strassbourg. It was quite the unique journey. I got to meet a lot of crazy, but awesome people and also got the chance to learn that the world is not as pink as it seems. We went to Croatia (Zagreb), Slovenia (Postojna), Italy (Trieste), Switzerland (Zurich), France (Strasbourg and Colmar), Austria (Salzburg). What I think about the people? 

The people in Croatia were really nice. They are funny, they love making jokes (at least from what I saw). Zagreb is beautiful and I love how the people there brag about the city - there were too many billboards on the streets that said “Zagreb“. The people love their city, they love what they are doing. 

I didn’t really have a chance to meet the people in Postojna because of all the tourists and the fact that we didn’t spend much time there, but it seemed to me they were really calm. They are helpful and full of joy. They don’t look dissappointed, ever, and they are comfortable with you starting a regular conversation without knowing them. 

Trieste, oh my god. It was soooo beautiful. They have these huge jellyfishes in different colours. One was orange, another was purple and there were like 5 different jellyfishes in a single square meter. We all know how Italians are really vain. Half of the people in Trieste were dressed in official clothing, costumes, even when they were just out for a chill afternoon. They were kind of aggressive though. 

If I had the opportunity to talk about German speaking countries, it would take me a while. Zurich was one of the greatest cities I’ve ever seen. Is it expensive there? Kind of. But not really. The food was expensive and overrated, but I still got the chance to buy two books at a normal price. The people were so sweet. They looked at us as if we are aliens just because we were tourists. They don’t really talk to you a lot. They look like they’re always late and don’t have time for you. Their German accent is awfully cute, but understandable and a lot better than Austrian German. 

I never really liked France, although the people there are talkative and really understanding. They loved talking to us. Especially if one of us just went and talked to them in French - the moment they hear French, they start smiling to the ears. They smile a lot, tbh. I guess they are happy people. 

I’ve been in Salzburg two times. Austrians are proud, vain, really funny and talkative. In Salzburg they didn’t like us very much. They were kind of distant. One I talked to rolled his eyes when I told him we’re Bulgarian. From past experience I know that Austrians are rude in general, but they can be talkative and really nice if they get to know you and they need 5 minutes to do that.

How did I like Euroscola?

I didn’t. I just learned that politics is not my thing. They made us spend 10 hours in the building with no chance of going out for a 5 minute break. They didn’t even let us drink water because of all the microphones and headphones. Finnish people are so smart. They know what they want, they know how they feel, they’ve got ideas and are always ready to share them and protect them with a long list of arguments and examples. Romanians were kind of quiet. The people from Luxembourg were awesome on the other hand. They were smart, spoke in a lot of languages and you could just feel like you could talk to them about anything. One of school-mates did a really great job representing our school and country. An MEP even told him he was going to become a good Eurodeputy in the future. We were all so happy for him. 

My thoughts about the trip

It was short. I wanted more. And one night we went to Germany. I was so happy. Now that I am finally home, I don’t feel like I am home. I feel bored and agressive. I don’t want to be here. It’s just all the same and I miss Germany, I miss home. Sometimes I just feel like I would’ve been better if I was like one of those girls in American movies that change schools every year because their father always has to change work places. When I stay in one place for more than 30 minutes (let alone 18 years), I get this ball of agression in my stomach, I feel annoyed, because I really want to be somewhere else. That’s how I feel about Bulgaria. I just want to move to Germany and never come back. I also feel so strange speaking in Bulgarian, I want to speak in English and German.  Basically, I want out. 

[cpt-s-america]

Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!! Tagged by @akumastrife

1: Are you named after someone? Nope! 2: When was the last time you cried? Oh like 20 minutes ago. It’s a thing. 3: Do you like your handwriting? My handwriting can be kind of pretty sometimes. It’s an odd mix of print and cursive usually but my print has gotten much prettier since becoming and elementary teacher. 4:What is your favorite lunch meat? Uh ham? That’s the only one I really care about tbh. otherwise I’m strictly a pb&j kind of girl 5: Do you have kids? I currently have like 370 students or something like that. I think that’s enough for like 7-10 more years when I start thinking about kids of my own (either by birth or adoption) 6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Uhm…sure? I’ve never really thought about that actually. I don’t think about my own needs or what I like or want enough, I’ve been realizing, so I have no idea if I would like myself as a friend. Need to work on the self awareness clearly. I try to be the best friend I can be as often as I can. So maybe. With a try? 7: Do you use sarcasm? Sarcasm? Whaaaaat? Nooooooo Uh yeah. I’m overly sarcastic but hopefully not bite-y-ness with it. 8: Do you still have your tonsils? Yeah no one’s taking those suckers out unless a million percent necessary. I’m too irrationally scared of what that would do to my singing voice. (Thanks, Hey Arnold) 9: Would you bungee jump? I would rather skydive. Skydiving seems much less scary for me, honestly. Bungee cords are cords that could wrap around you (or your neck) mid-jump and shit like that 10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? I honestly am unsure? Probably captain crunch berries at the moment. 11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Is that a real thing actual human beans do? 12: Do you think you’re a strong person? Never strong enough. But stronger than I previously anticipated for myself, and working really hard to be as strong as I can. 13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor? I’m lactose intolerant, so I don’t get the real thing anymore. However, I used to LOVE strawberry ice cream and would kill (ok not kill but do a LOT) for a good lactose free strawberry ice cream. 14: What is the first thing you notice about people? Their eyes. 15: Red or pink? Uhm. Both? Sure. Why? What is this??? 16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? Skip 17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? I am in my sleep t shirt, so no pants or shoes. 18: What was the last thing you ate? Ha a deviled egg. Learned how to make them this last weekend and am quite proud of myself clearly since I made them again. 19: What are you listening to right now? My fan 20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Emerald green? Or lime green. Definitely a type of green. 21: Favorite smell? How my nana’s laundry used to smell. Sweetpea. Vanilla. Garlic. 22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My sir, I think? I don’t like being on the phone much, so I would assume him but it could have been Leslie. 23: Favorite sport to watch? Swimming, ice skating, gymnastics. And dance. 24: Hair color? Brown. Gets a little blonde in the summer. 25: Eye color? Brown. Sometimes I try to convince myself they're hazel. But brown. 26: Do you wear contacts? And glasses. Cannot see without one or the other. 27: Favorite food to eat? Creamy rigatoni with chicken and spinach. Also pretzel bites with ranch. 28: Scary movies or comedy? Depends on the situation. I like both as long as the horror movie isn’t all about gore. 29: Last movie you watched? Fantasia 30: What color of shirt are you wearing? Red 31: Summer or winter? Spring. 32: Hugs or kisses? Depends. The sir, kisses and hugs. Otherwise hugs but imm skittish like a cat, so sometimes hand hug or high five, man. 33: What book are you currently reading? The Virgin’s Lover (historical fiction about Elizabeth I). That author’s name escapes me and the book is too far away now that I’m curled up in bed. Alas, I have failed. 34: Who do you miss right now? Oh, so many people. That’s what happens when you move from the Midwest to Alaska knowing nobody at the start. Beth and tyler and nine and jess/trev for sure. And my sir, who is away at flight school. Lately I’ve really been missing my Nanie a lot too. Not sure what’s bringing that on. 35: What is on your mouse pad? Do you mean the nearest solid surface I can find? 36: What is the last TV program you watched? West World (gotta rewatch that shit man!!) Intermixed with Project Runway because my sir’s mom got me to watch it for the first time a few months ago and now I love it and have to watch it all. 37: What is the best sound? The crescendo of a piece of music to the peak of the song, piano solos, the French horn, the gentle heartbeat i can fall asleep to (the sir’s), my mom’s laugh, women’s voices in 3+ part harmony, an arrangement of songs or a composition coming together exactly as I’d hoped (or better), the word poop (leave me alone ok? It’s so fun to say with the vowels and the “p”’ sound ugh makes me laugh all the time), Go the Distance from Hercules. 38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? Beatles. Someone is going to hit me over the head for being the music teacher who cannot name a Rolling Stones song. Whoops… 39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? From Indiana to Germany for my foreign exchange program. 40: Do you have a special talent? I am fairly decent at arranging music. I can also make my tongue into a clover. 41: Where were you born? Somewhere in the Indiana side of Michiana (I still get weird about saying exactly where on the internet DX) 42: People you expect to participate in this survey? Expects is sub a strong word. The two people I would tag immediately have done this. There are some people I assume might do it? Probably @chanceuse-et-heureuse and @crazywithasmile. Maybe @ningylittlequodgefelph? If you wanna do it, followers, consider yourself tagged.