#tama is driving me crazy today

[biff-adventurer]

FFxivWrite2023 Prompt #28: Blunt

“It’s more of an art than a science,” said S’dennmo, watching S’mila pour tea for her guest. “The same approach won’t work for just anyone.”

“Okay,” said Ever, fire in her eyes, “but what if I really, really want to offend this person? Surely there is an easy way to do so?”

S’dennmo burst into giggles. “Who’s gotten on your nerves this badly? You never stoop so low!”

“They stole my name, S’dennmo! They stole my name and now everyone thinks she’s me!”

“But she’s not though? Her name is Violet Starbreaker?”

“It’s exactly the same!”

“It means the exact opposite! Honestly, it’s like she’s out to get you? Except she couldn’t be, because she doesn’t even know you.”

“I wouldn’t be so sure of that,” said Ever with a huff. “She looks at me smugly and undercuts what I say at every chance she gets! I don’t even think she’s a real sprout!”

“You sound super jealous. Which is super unlike you!”

“I’m not jealous! I just… I know something terrible is going to happen!”

“Okay, well…” S’dennmo sat back in her gilded chair, tapping her chin. “Hey, you’ve got a sprout spy. Why don’t you take her to the guild with you?”

[benefits1986]

Shades & Shakers

NGL, Leo szn 2024 is not a ghost month, yes?

My first hero is my Prep teacher. I think, I've talked about her previously or it may just be another thought bubble. She carved a tiny home for me and my purple Prep Joey mates back in a small and highly progressive school ages ago.

Today, I remember her and should our paths cross again, I'd give her a solid hug and for sure, I'll cry. Teacher Rosa hailed from Leon Guinto and damn, I must say that it kinda seems a "premonition" looking back. One that I didn't ever see coming and one that shaped my worldview even when I'm not totally sold about being cloistered in the halls that once cradled the wounded soldiers of WW2. However, as I come in peace, this makes sense.

Maarte ako e. Hahahaha. Masungit pa. (Parang normal naman 'to sa mga hinubog sa Leon G. Street like Teacher Rosa pero siya, 'yung sungit niya sa mga bagay na may kwenta, unlike ako na sa lahat masungit.) And what I'm super sold about after ages of loathing this chapter was that, mukhang tama ng nanay kong dragon. She housed me there for four years to prune me as bonsai --punggok na, pudgy pa, ako e. LOL.

Still curious as to when I'd see my first official social group as a daldal kahit saan bitch. Very interesting.

Best Lesson from Teacher Rosa: Just be you but try to hold your tongue at times. Also, you can read well even when your mom tells you that you'd have to perfect reading words with "b" and "d". You can do it, but stop being frustrated about the tiny things. Keep your high energy, but don't be too rowdy.

Note to Self: SHEMAY. OO NA. Eto na since 1986. Bakit parang ganito pa rin ako? Hahahaha. Shet. Next.

My next highlight for today, sa ngalan ng pakikibaka with a heart is my second dad. He's my OG mentor and one of my benchmarks. He came from Katips and is a loud and proud promdi. While he came from an alta fam, he worked his ass off to get a scholarship kasi nga 'di daw sila mayaman. LUL. He tried LS but gave up because the vibe did not sit well with him. Sungit din niyan. Hahaha. And whenever he wants to steer me in a direction that I deem directionless, the battle gears are high and mighty. There was even an era when I loathed him talaga. What I like most about my second dad is that he's keep slaying shit.

From the crazy and colorful world of being an expat in the 80s and surviving the market crash nung 90s, jusq. He's now working with the grassroots people to power up their cooperatives with AI. Then, he'd teach me the pitfalls and perils of halo marketing. Now, we'd deep dive-ish into the prompts he's pumping. How crazy does this boomer go? He's building business models and modules with the bot gods. I find it funny that now, he's keeping up with me. Well, kinda. Marketing and finance expertise niya along with social responsibility. He's actually one of the may panaka ng market leader sa botika with the tagline since the 90s. Wala ng ibang clue because he's super underrated.

Recently, his ask from me was to build his LI profile. Tawang-tawa ako. I told him na why now lang? And if he wanted to go with the social selling route. Ako na. Maiba naman bilang he's immersed in the barrios and the barangays most of his days and nights. He chuckled and said that he doesn't need LinkedIn to light things up. TACCA. Apaka ugh talaga. Pang-add lang daw talaga nung mga nagtatanong from his network. That's it. Iba rin naman ang angas. LOL. Pero 'di pa rin ako papagiba kasi sayang 'yung leads na magenerate niya kahit 'di na raw siya workaholic at 70+. Hahaha.

He lambasts my Lego affinity and biking. Tanda ko na raw for Lego, pero joke lang 'yun syempre. Sa bike naman, dapat daw scooter or big bike tapos cruising in the countryside. Sabi ko, wait lang sa scooter. Paparating na. Also, mag-drive na raw ako ulit as a gala person. What I like best about my second dad is that he's so not out of touch. Apaka pak niya diyan. Pero kitang-kita ang blue vibes niya 'pag nasa debatehan szn kami. No one's backing down talaga. As in. Kahit magkamatayan na. Ganernsss. But, we agree to disagree saka mas 'di na kami rarasisbumba now. Siguro dahil sa AI? Labo. LOL.

Best Lessons from Second Dad: Don't let them butcher you. Butcher them but be classy kahit basura kausap mo. Bawasan mo rin kasungitan mo, minsan. Highlights ko sa kanya are Lessons from Geese and this quote he shared: You plant a tree not to enjoy its shade. Saka 'wag na raw ako mag-LS lalo sa hood niya. Hahahahahaha. 'Di ba? Pakialamero siya talaga lagi akala mo anak niya akong totoo. Sa AI na lang daw ako mag-focus. LOL. Very Jesuit pero ugh. LUL.

Recently, we talked about my will to die. OPAK. Sabi niya, 'wag daw muna akong excited. Masyado raw poetic mga attempts ko. Gago e noh. Baka raw sa anti-climactic way pa ako ma-deads, so kapit lang daw ako. Siya 'yung boomer na legit progressive. Hindi siya cancel mode in all levels pero may wisdom saka may sense. EAT SHIT KAYONG MGA BOOMER BOMBERS. CHE. And that I just need to strengthen my core people and actually ask for help. May tawa pa 'yan plus reminder to get checkups with his network na trusted niya. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Shemayyyy. Note to Self: Pag-isipan ko pa mga sinasabi niya. Hahahahaha. LELS. And also, reminder to get our shit done na rin this Leo szn. Let's go. Another super important thing is to remember that the new coding language is ENGLISH so, tara naman sa finance side of things lalo sa marketing emerut. It's time. Eto na. Lapag. UGH. Side Note: Was going over my documents for something I need to work on and poof, oks naman pala letter grades ko sa Finance and Quatech. OPAK. Gulat ako, honestly. Kadire. Hahahaha. Maka-podcast nga beyond Rotten Mango na about progressive financial emerut. Sana may oks and legit na progressive.

So what?

The Venn Diagram of my two heroes of the day is no less than Rissaaaahhh Honti. Ayoko na lang mag-talk because, we don't meddle na sa mga bagay na nilabanan natin pero tapos na. Finish na. Galing-galing niya. HUHUHUHU. IYKYK. Ganda pa ng singing voice saka nag-scuba sa Batangas. HIHIHIHI. Ganda niya pa in person as a fangirl na 'di na silent. LOL. Pinaka love kong anecdote from her mismo is one time, naputulan sila ng kuryente kasi nasa work siya as a single mom. OPAK. KK --Kulasang Katips na legit right there. O baka kasi nakikiusap ako sa Meralco lineman na sorry na talaga kasi nga nasa meeting lang ako at nalimutan ko na namang magbayad ng bill with abot ng pang merienda niya at ng pamilya niya. HAHAHAHHA.

Let these lessons and notes be reminders to hang onto to the frameworks from humble sticks and stones, with blood, flesh and bones. EME. Hahahaha. Akala mo naman apaka profound ano po? LOL. I'd really have to just keep going and trust the process amidst my superlative trust issues that circle back to my trust issues with myself. HAHAHAHA. Ang lala, but we're on track naman. Sana tuloy-tuloy lang kasi naman ang spirals ay spiraling. But, sa ngalan ng life outside Manila at iba pang kaganapang emerrruttthhsss, okay, fine. Tara na talaga. It's time.

Also, always choose to be kind BUT firm. And keep my shoulders strong kahit masakit talaga because alam mo naman as a degenerating noona na talaga tayo.

And of course, sa ngalan ng pananalo sana naman ng 2ne1 concert sa kahit saang lupalop ng JP. Jusq. Napaka hirap, mhie to the point na susugal na ako sa mga legit scalpers. Sign up pa lang pota kang Jap characters ka as a wala namang alam sa kahit anong form ng pagsulat o pagbasa. UGH. Sobrang strict pati sa mga bagay na dapat simple lang. TAKAYO TALAGA. Also, narealize ko, Japan didn't happen earlier this year, because eto na tayo. HIHIHIHIHIHIHI. Sa Kobe kaya para makabike sa Kyoto? EMEEE. CHOZ. Abangan!

PS: Bilhin ko na ba talaga 'yung last na kulang na LS pero sobrang taas na nung reseller price. POTA. Or hanap na lang ako sa Japan. Hahahahahha. Abangannnnn!

[animesmutfest]

Tamaki x Fem Reader

Tamakis POV:

As I drink my tea my phone rings and it's from bunny (you). I answered excited "hey gorgeous what's up?" I say excited. "When I get home you better be ready for me" she says in a serious voice. Now blushing as I knew what that meant I simply respond saying "yes mam" and she hung up. That means she's upset or sexually frustrated. Or both honestly and when shes riled up she can be scary. But there was a part of me that liked her being dominant in bed. I look at the clock and noticed she should be home in about 15 minutes. I drink some water before showering and sat on the edge of the bed with my towel around my waist. Soon I hear the front door open and slam shut. Her heels clicking towards our bedroom and the door slowly opening. She wastes no time taking off her shoes and jacket as she walks over to me and kisses me roughly. I kiss her back and moan a bit as her tongue slipped into my mouth. After a few kisses she pulls away just a little.

Neutral POV:

"So tamaki..." you say trailing his lips with your own. "Y-yes mam?" He stammers. "When we're you going to tell me about that slutty new coworker of yours?" You say walking to grab your cuffs. His face now flushed red as he remembers who you speak of. "I-I honestly didn't think she mattered bunny. You know I'd never give anyone that kind of attention" he says. "Well let me let you in on something. She's been telling people how she wants to fuck you. And guess what honey I'm not to happy about it." You say growling a bit at the last part. "I swear bunny on my life I had no idea of such things!" He says defending himself. "Oh don't worry love I know you would never betray me like that but it has put a weight on my mood today and well I just want to fuck you so hard that your moans turn to whimpers" you say cuffing his hands. His heart now racing at your lewd words. "P-please bunny... use me how you want" he says softly while looking at you with lust filled eyes. "Good boy" you say taking off your shirt and pants leaving you in just your bra and panties. "You look b-beautiful bunny" he says. "Thank you baby" you say before kissing him deeply. You straddle him lap and connect the cuffs together behind his back so he cannot touch you. Your mouth moves down to his neck as you leave marks all over him causing him to moan in pleasure.

You loved how one day he could be an absolute monster but if you say you are calling the shots he completely bends to your will. It's the best of both worlds to have a submissive and a dominant husband. You lay him back on the bed and take off his towel revealing his hard cock. You kiss his stomach and slowly trail your tongue down to his cock. Sliding it in your mouth as you slowly bob on him. "Aahhh b-bunny that f-feels so good!" He moans as you slurp him down. His body tensing up as you deep throat him. "She knows I love touching her this is torture" he thinks to himself as you slide his cock down your throat. "B-bunny p-please I need to touch you!" He cries out in ecstasy. You ignore him and pick up the pace as he tries to buck his hips into you. You push his hips into the bed so he can't more and suck harder than before. "Fuck baby I'm gunna cum!" He moans and just as he was about to release you stop and pull him from your throat. "Bunny w-why'd you s-stop like that? I was about to cum" he whines as his cock twitches. "You don't cum until I allow you to" you say smirking. After he had calmed down just a bit you take him back into your throat going just as hard. "Y-your driving me insane bunny!" He moans throwing his head into the mattress. And just as before as soon as he was about to cum you stopped. You did this about five times, edging him then stopping. He was a mess on the bed squirming and tears brimming his eyes. "I think he's had enough" you think to yourself. You grab his cock and stroke it slowly as it twitched in your hand. "Whose dick is this baby?" You say seductively. "It's yours!! B-bunny please let me c-cum!! I'm losing my mind please I'll do anything just let me cum!" He cries. You smirk and shove him back in your mouth once more. His body trembles from constantly being denied sweet release. "F-fuck bunny!! Please... I need to!" He moans gripping the sheets under him. You take him as deep as you possibly can and grip his thighs. Moments later his cock swells as it has every time he was about to cum. "C-cumming bunny!! Please don't stop!" He yells and you comply not stopping for him. "Fuuuckkk!" He cries as he shoots his cum deep inside your throat. You slurp up every drop as you remove him from your mouth. His body littered with sweat. You kiss his cock before pulling him up and undoing his cuffs.

He grabs you and throws you on your back on the bed quickly tying your wrists to the headboard and your ankles to the a pole to keep them open. His eyes filled with anger and lust as he climbs between your legs. "You are such a naughty bunny" he growls before ripping off your bra and panties throwing the torn fabric on the floor. "Now it's my turn" he says opening his mouth to reveal his tongue has been changed to a thick tentacle. Your eyes widen at the sight and he smirks loving the fear in your eyes. He then remembers something. He grabs a silk scarf from your drawer and covers your eyes with it. Going back to your legs he admires your wet pussy before laying on his stomach and running his fingers through your folds. You jump at his touch as your sensitive from earlier. "So wet from just giving me head. So fucking sexy" he says slapping your inner thigh. He stick his tentacle tongue out his mouth dripping with saliva and slowly licks your pussy from top to bottom. You moan feeling it slither across your clit. He then slips the whole thing deep inside your pussy making your body jolt. "F-fuck!" You moan aloud. Begins to fuck you with it going as deep as he can. Your legs even tremble a bit from the pleasure. He rubs your thighs softly as he pulls out slowly and begins sucking and lapping on your clit. "Ngh~ mmm T-tamaki" you moan softly. The cups on his tentacle sucking on you adding more pleasure. Your fist balled up as you feel yourself close to cumming.

He stops devouring you leaving your body feeling needy. As you can't see him your heart beat pounds through you chest in anticipation. Suddenly you feel him grab your waist and rub his cock on your pussy making you gasp a bit. “I’d rather make you cum with my cock sweetheart” he says smirking. He slowly sink himself into you making you throw your head back. "So t-tight" he moans before pulling out and thrusting hard into you. It was amazing honestly, it was painful but the pleasure was even more overwhelming. Your toes curl and your body tenses up as he stretches you. Normally even during sex he was never a talker but tonight he was an animal. The vulgar things he moaned in your ear as he pounded you drove you mad. You couldn't speak only cry out and moan at the animal he'd become. "T-tama I- mmmnph~" you moan weakly at him. “What happened to my dominant little wife huh? Or is it that you just wanted me to fuck you senseless from the start?” He says as he slows his thrusts a bit. “N-no I~” you moan but was cut off by a rough kiss. You both moan into each other feeling pure pleasure. “What was that baby? Use your words” he moans before slamming back into you. He reaches up and removes your blindfold. Your eyes a glowing white from too much pleasure. He smirks at how gone you looked from him fucking you. “So fucking beautiful” he moans as he grabs your hips again to deepen himself. You throw your head back as you were close to cumming. Your pussy clenches down around him causing him to growl a bit. “Cum on me while I fill you up bunny” he moans as he feels himself about to cum. Your moans grow louder and louder until you finally release around him and just as he said after another hard thrust he cums deep inside you. “Shit! So fucking good baby” he growls as he rides out his climax. He pulls out slowly and releases your arms. Your body falls on the bed as your body twitches. He watches in amazement but feels himself getting turned on again.

You get enough strength to get up and stumble to the bathroom. You turn on the shower and get in letting the water fall on you head. “Damn that was amazing” you think to yourself as your legs still shaking. You quickly clean yourself up before hearing the door open. You look to see your husband coming in the shower. But something was off it’s almost like he was feral. He looks at your naked trembling body and gets on his knees. “W-what are you doing?” You stammer. Crawling to your feet he lifts your leg over his shoulder still looking at you. “I’m sorry bunny. But I need more of you” he says. You look at him as he slowly licks up your pussy. You moan and jump still sensitive from literally ten minutes ago. He moans tasting you more and more. Your hands slowly reaching for his hair. He laps at your clit at a nice pace as he strokes his cock to your voice. You could feel yourself already soaking wet. “Mmmmmph tamaki your driving me crazy today” you moan as your breathe gets heavy once more. “Good” he says as he slurps up your pussy juices. The noises turning you on even more. “I want you... to cum on... my face baby” he moans into you. You were close already and that sent you over the edge. You grip his hair and gush on his mouth as he slurps it up. Without another word he picks you up and takes you out the shower and sits you on the sink. He kisses you passionately as you wrap your hands around his neck. “Can we do it again bunny? I don’t know what’s come over me but I need you” he pleads as his cock throbs against your stomach.

You look him in the eye as you grab his cock and slide it in yourself both of you letting out moans. “T-thank you baby” he moans before he sets a slow but deep pace. You both blush as you tried to keep eye contact but you shut your eyes from the pleasure. “You look so gorgeous when your mind melts from me pleasing you bunny” he moans to you as he speeds up. “I love when you make a mess of me daddy” you moan back causing his eyes to widen as he grips your waist and pounds you. Your moans turn to cries of pleasure and your toes curl. “C-cumming baby! Ahhh god~” you cry as you cum hard on his cock dripping some out a bit as well. He doesn’t stop or slow down though instead leaning close you your ear a whispering. “That bitch could never make me feel like you do bunny. I’m yours and yours alone” he moans as he licks your ear. You dig your nails into his skin as your body shakes. Suddenly he thrusts so hard that he enters her cervix causing them both to moan loudly. “There she is” he moans before repeatedly thrusting like that. “Y-yes baby! F-fuck me” you cry out as tears of pleasure roll down your face. Turned on even more he grabs your neck and chocks you as you reach another climax. Your eyes roll to the back of your head as you squirt a bit on his lower stomach. He smiles in delight at the mess you made. “I’m gunna fill up this tight little pussy baby” he moans as his thrusts become sloppy and needy. “Fuck yeah bunny I’m cumming!” He moans throwing his head back as he shoot straight into your cervix filling you up completely. As before he slowly pulls from you panting. With weak eyes you look at him panting still and cum dripping from you. He leans over and kisses you tenderly. “Can I do it one more time?” He asks drooling over you.

[samwrights]

I have a feeling we’re gonna start spiraling real hard into NSFW territory. Everyone here is aged up, and we ain’t afraid of the word cock on this blog. That being said, bust out your holy water and your vibrators and enjoy the semi-lengthy read!

Shinso;

There was nothing better than curling up on Sunday mornings with Toshi.

Even better on the days he felt like making breakfast for the two of you, but those were few and far between.

Not that you were complaining because when he was in the mood to be a doting partner, he was incredible.

Your personal favorite was having your head in lap while he absentmindedly played with your hair.

Today was not one of those days.

Rather than playing with your hair, his hands were gripping a PlayStation controller with zero intention of letting go.

Goddamn Final Fantasy just came out.

“Toshi, I’m hungry.”

“Go make breakfast then?”

Doesn’t even bat an eyelash. Sigh.

You wait patiently before making your move; you weren’t that much of a heathen that you’d interrupt your boyfriend in the midst of battle.

As soon as the screen cuts to dialogue, you’re on his lap and kissing him hard before your lips travel along his jaw just the way he likes it.

Intermittent biting with rough, open mouthed kisses.

All the while, you’re unabashedly grinding your hips into his, thankful to whatever higher power that exists above that he was only wearing boxers.

“Ohoh, so you’re that kind of hungry?”

“Only for you, Toshi.” Your mind goes blank before being filled with a hazy cloud and you’re now resting your head on his shoulder, unmoving.

Oh this fucking asshole just used his quirk on you!

“At least let me save my game first, kitten.” Is all he responds with, propping his chin on your shoulder to continue looking at the screen.

His goddamn hips are still grinding into while he does it too—cheeky mother fucker.

Todoroki;

Date nights with Shouto Todokori are every bit of a dream boat as you’d imagine.

Whether they were nights in or nights out, he always somehow managed to make them absolutely perfect.

However, nights in were your absolute favorite, solely based on the fact that you didn’t have to wait to get home before ravaging your boyfriend.

It was date night—the two of you were cuddled up on the couch with now empty boxes of takeout littering on your guys’ coffee table while watching some corny romcom on the television.

Full of food and happiness, you snuggle up to Shouto while he’s sprawled out on the couch, your head resting somewhere between his stomach and his chest.

Todo’s hands are absentmindedly playing with the hair at the nape of your neck and part of you is wondering if he’s doing it solely because he knows that it’s your weakness.

“Shouto...” you simper.

“Yes, baby?” He was definitely doing it because he knew it got to you. Confirmed it with the way you looked up at him, seeing list dripping from his pupils.

Without another exchange of words, you adjust yourself so that you’re in his lap, straddling his waist, arms loosely dangling off his shoulders.

The action is reciprocated, as he is cradling your back with his chin resting on your shoulder.

“Be patient, sweetie.” Is all he says before his eyes pretend to focus on the film.

“Don’t wanna,” you mumble against his collarbone, tentatively giving the skin a lick. Despite the rumble in his chest, Todo protests.

“I’m warning you, princess.” His voice is firm, and so is he, but you never were one for patience. You place open mouth kisses just below his ear, nibbling at the slightly loose skin because you know it’s going to drive him crazy.

“Sweetheart...” your tongue dances along the shell of his ear and he can clearly hear the broken breaths leaving your lips.

“Love you, Sho.” Your words are sweet, despite the salacious drip in them.

“I told you to be patient.” He growls, snapping one hand from your waist to gripping your chin. “Guess I’ll just have to punish you.”

Tamaki;

“Baaaabe!” You call out as soon as you enter the threshold of yours and Tamaki’s shared apartment.

“Living room, sweetheart.” He knew what that distressed call was.

Tamaki sets his book down on the coffee table in front of him as he hears your keys jingling while you take your shoes off before you throw your keys on the entryway table.

Immediately, you climb into your boyfriend’s lap, straddling him and wrapping your arms around his neck.

Were you not in a bad mood, Tamaki would be a red-hot, spluttering mess. Low key he still kind of was, but he knew that in this moment, you just wanted comfort.

His arms encircle your waist, pulling you nearly flush against him. “Bad day?” You nod into his neck, letting the steady rhythm of his heart beat calm you down. “Wanna talk about it?”

How in the hell did you get so lucky?

But Tama feels you shake your head no, so he settles for just holding you until you feel better.

“You’re so sweet to me, Tama,” you mumble out into his neck and despite his skin muting the words, the sprig of praise sends goosebumps down his arms. “I don’t know what I did in a past life to deserve you.”

Sweet little Suneater’s grip on your waist tightens, the words of praise going to straight to his cock. Mentally, he’s scolding himself because he should be focusing on comforting you.

But you feel him start to grow harder and your need for comfort is ebbing away, being replaced with the need to just feel him.

“Always so good to me, baby.” A groan rumbles in his throat, the vibrations moving against your tongue as you swipe the muscle slowly along a vein in his neck. “I love you so much, I should thank you for comforting me.”

You emphasize your statement by biting down on his neck before returning to lavish it with your tongue. You always did love leaving hickeys on him. “Thank you for taking care of me, Tama. Want me to return the favor?”

Tamaki’s more than thankful his hero costume hides his neck—it grants you the freedom to bruise every inch of his pale skin. But he can’t fucking take it anymore, and he needs to feel your lips on his.

“Love you,” is all he says before he smashes his lips onto yours, accentuating the statement with the forceful grind of his hardened cock over your clothed apex.

Bakugo;

“Babe, pay attention to me.”

Bakugo fucking hated when you were in this mood of feeling needy—needy to the point where you’d interrupt up while he’s doing homework.

“No, woman.”

“Pleeeeeease, Katsuki.”

“No, we have finals that we need to study for!” Yeah, fine. He was right about that.

But the only thing finals was gonna fuck was your GPA.

Knowing that your wonderful, and you say that wholeheartedly, boyfriend was going to stick to his word, you figure that desperate whores call for desperate measures.

That’s how the saying goes, right?

Regardless, you scoot yourself closer to Bakugo on the couch until your shoulders are touching, pestering him just enough to move away from the textbook and notebook was hunched over.

“The fuck did I just say?!” He snarls, looking at you fully.

“You’ve been so tense lately, baby. More than normal.” You say slowly, slithering into his lap so that you could straddle him.

Arms moving like a snake, you rest them on his broad shoulders, your hands gently grasping the cloth of the sofa.

“You need to relax,” the last syllable of your sentence leaves your lips salaciously before latching onto the blonde’s vein in his neck. “Just let me take care of you, babe.”

His crimson eyes shut briefly, forgetting all about organic chemistry for a moment and reeling into the feel of your teeth grazing his skin. “Fuck,” he grits out under his breaking resolve.

His hands grip at your hips, grinding them further into his rapidly hardening cock through his jeans. “That’s what I was trying to do.” You tease, nipping at his earlobe.

Your fingers work their way down the front of his thin muscle tee before they’re met with the tops of jeans—somehow calmly and frantically unbuttoning and unzipping them to give him some breathing room. “Still wanna study for finals?” Your face to face with Bakugo, your lips just out of his reach with your noses still touching.

He’s wearing a very displeased, disgruntled, snarl. “You aren’t even going to make it to the testing room when I’m done with you.”

Kaminari;

In hindsight, Denki should have known.

He should have known that, with the way you’d been so damn clingy while the two of you were out with your guys’ friends, you were plotting something.

With the way you refused to let go of him or the way you pressed long, slow, tender kisses along his jaw,

Denki Kaminari should have seen this coming.

Or maybe he did and he was more excited for the impending treatment than he let on.

“Fuck!” He hisses as you bite down on the flesh you have between your teeth at the base of his neck.

Currently, you have him pinned down on the couch with you straddling his waist and your hands gluing his wrists to the fabric.

Your tongue laves at the now swollen flesh in a futile attempt to ease the pain. He was definitely more excited for his punishment.

“Should have been a good boy while we were out, Denki~” your words are damning, thick with lust.

“I was!” He protests and, while this behavior wasn’t exactly left field for you, he knew there was an underlying issue fueling it.

“Uh uh,” you tut, moving from one collarbone to the other to give it the same treatment. He hisses again when your canines sink down—he knows you broke skin. “You told Jiro she was pretty.”

Denki has a love-hate relationship with your fragile ego and your insatiable envy. At the moment, he’s loving it almost as much as the way your plush lips trail kisses up his neck, biting as you go along.

A part of him wonders how he’s going to explain all of the fresh, angry, purple and red bruises at work tomorrow. Another part of him wants more.

“You belong to me, don’t you Denki?” You’re goading him with subtle touches of unbuttoning his shirt in addition to the hard bites and broken capillaries in his throat.

“Of course, baby.” It’s meant to come out as reassuring, but all that leaves his lips is broken whines.

“That doesn’t sound very convincing, sweetheart.” Despite your tone, his shirt is off now, giving you an entirely new canvas to mark up.

“I can show you better than I can tell you.”

Iida;

Oh, Tenya.

He was such a straight-laced good boy. It made teasing him that much more fun.

You’re sly and subtle that he never notices when you’re in that type of mood.

Or so you think.

You’re both just nonchalantly watching a movie together with his arm draped over the back of the couch over your shoulders.

He’s very textbook.

As the movie continues to play on, you start scooting closer and closer until you’re casually just sitting in his lap.

“What are you doing....” Iida knows something’s up now, but you’re just gonna play coy.

“Nothing,” you say innocently, adjusting yourself so that you’re straddling him with your arms around his neck before nestling your head into his chest. “Making myself comfortable.”

For a short while, it is rather comfortable, but you’ve got a different endgame in mind.

Your fingertips start to brush the back of his neck, fidgeting with his hair before they ghost over his neck and down his chest.

“Honey...” his voice is low and dangerous and rumbling with his rich timbre.

You ignore the literal choke that leaves his throat when your lips travel from the base of his neck to the spot where his jaw meets his earlobe.

“You’re being so good for me, Tenya.”

His hands are on your hips like a vice before he caves, nearly flinging both of you off the couch.

Thankfully, he’s got you cause you actually probably would have been hurt.

But he’s carrying you to your guys’ room now, all the while biting at his collarbones and telling him what a good boy he is. Definitely has a praise kink.

[koi-has-joy]

My Chubby Little Bunny...

Tamaki Amajiki x Fem!Reader

Words: 1,749

Warnings: Smut, male dom, praise, affection, slight angst

    It had been a long day for you both. He had been patrolling since early in the morning and you had been called into work on your day off. But that was the life you both signed up for and honestly you didn’t expect anything less.

Finally arriving home you saw Amajiki lounging on the couch in your shared apartment playing Slime Rancher. Noting his dripping hair and the way his clothes clung to his physique you were already becoming impatient. With the stealth of a panther you shifted between rooms without alerting your boyfriend of your presence. Swiftly you changed into the most comfortable and sexy pair of panties you owned as well as one of his hoodies and some baggy sweatpants. Glancing at the mirror in front of the bedroom door you fixed your glasses and tied your hair into a messy bun. 

Walking across the hallway into the bathroom you then spent a little time washing your face, putting on perfume, brushing your teeth and cleaning your various piercings. After you were finished you decided it was time to go greet your lazy suneater. 

     Strolling into the living room where he was laying you chose not to say anything, but you did want to be close to him. Standing in front of the screen that he was so fixated on he paused his game and opened his arms. You found yourself between his arms and on his lap in an instant. When he wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into him he began to rub your back. With a sigh of relaxation you spoke into his chest “Hi honey, how was your day?” You tried to sound as normal as possible. 

“My day was alright. What’s wrong bunny?” His voice was like honey, sweet and smooth. Of course he noticed, he always does. Right then you wanted to cry, but for what reason? 

“Today some hate mail came through the agency directed at me.” 

“Oh baby, you know what they say isn’t true. They’re just trying to make you feel bad.” Hugging you tighter he spoke directly into your ear. 

“That’s the thing Tama. I think this time they’re right. And I know I shouldn’t be bothered by something this juvenile, something this childish but- ” You were rambling and speaking too quickly for him to understand. So, with a sigh you slightly shook your head as you thought for a moment. “They said that I was too fat to be a pro hero.” 

“W-well they don’t know shit, that’s why they aren’t pros themselves.” He tried to make you feel better but he knew you weren’t going to budge. Moving his large hands to cup your cheeks he turned your face to look at him. “You are not fat, period. You are all muscle and could probably kick anybody’s ass if you wanted.” That alone made you chuckle. Slightly lifting the weight of doubt from your heavy heart. 

Looking at the ceiling to hide your reluctant smile from his previous comment. Tamaki seized the opportunity and started to kiss your neck, moving his hands to your hips to keep you in place.  Light, feathery kisses that made your skin tingle, every now and then he would stop to suck or lick a particular spot.

“Tama that tickles!” Pushing lightly on his shoulders he leaned back, allowing you to look into his loving eyes once more. Glancing between his lips and his eyes you surged forward and captured his lips into a searing kiss. Unconsciously you rolled your hips against him, luring a deep moan from within his chest. Swiping your tongue against his bottom lip, he quickly returned the advancement by dominating your tongue. He’s normally not this demanding. As you were thinking to yourself Tamaki moved his hands to grip your ass. Breaking the kiss with a slight gasp you wrapped your legs around his torso as he stood and carried you into the bedroom. 

Setting you gently on the bed he cupped your face and nuzzled his nose against yours before taking a step back to remove his shirt. Running his fingers through his indigo locks you thought to yourself once more. How did I get so lucky? Interrupting your thoughts of admiration he spoke more confidently than you ever thought possible. “O-okay, y/n. I’m going to show you h-how much I love my chubby little bunny.”  With a smirk he pounced, his hands were on you massaging, squeezing and caressing all over. 

A flood of heat rushed to your core as he desperately striped you of your sweatpants and discarded them to who knows where. Sucking in a deep breath as he noticed the lacy indigo colored panties that covered your heat. “Is this what you wanted Bunny? For me to s-show you how beautiful you are? Is that why you wore my favorite, Bunny?” He didn’t need a verbal response because you had covered your face with your forearms. Laying on your back you felt his hands slip beneath his your hoodie. “And no bra? What a s-slutty little bunny I have.” He took your pert nipples between each thumb and rolled it. A soft moan came from behind your arms causing Tamaki to do it again and again. 

The slew of appreciative mumbles and moans gave Amajiki the confidence boost he needed to do as he wanted. Lifting your shirt he plunged beneath it, licking and kissing all around your stomach and up your chest. Taking a nipple into his mouth he grazed his teeth over the mound relishing in the way you arched off the bed and into his touch. Wrapping your arms around his head as he sucked on your breasts you were driving him crazy. A particularly harsh bite just above the swell of your breast caused you to yelp and bite your lip. Finally retreating from under your shirt Tamaki removed the remaining garments from you both. 

“Tama, you’re too good to me.” You held his face and saw nothing more than pure, inclusive love. When he slid his hot member across your dripping slit you nearly choked on the breath that you were unconsciously holding. 

“You’re wrong you k-know. You deserve everything and more baby.” Placing one hand on your hip, the other guiding his aching member to tease your hole. Collecting your juices more and more as he would insert the head only to immediately retreat. The amount of self control Tamaki was showing was insane, he wanted so badly to fuck you into oblivion. Until you forgot what was making you upset, until you could think only of him. Tired of his relentless teasing you pushed your hips down onto his length a little releasing a grunt from him. “I’m in charge here.” He flashed you a smirk before he completely sheathed himself inside of you. 

“Ah-fuck, Tam-” he covered your mouth with his now free hand before he whispered into your ear. 

“You’re fucking t-tight bunny.” He painstakingly pulled himself from within you. Clawing at his back as he slowly began to move, you were moaning against his large hand. “You take me so well. What a good little bunny.” Feeling a wet stripe against his palm he leaned back to look at you. Your eyes were begging him to go faster, to make you feel good. Unable to resist he withdrew once more before slamming his hips against yours. The sound of skin against skin filling your ears behind the symphony of grunts and praises from Tamaki. 

Uncovering your mouth he used his hand to caress your body. Every curve, scar, stretch mark was acknowledged and praised. He loved every bit of you and that was clear. Through every passionate thrust, pant and mumble, Tamaki showed you just how much he appreciated you for who you are. 

Wanton moans and feeble attempts at sentences permeated through him. Feeling the way you were clenching around him, Tamaki gripped your hips with both hands to hammer into your cunt with a newfound vigor. “Are you close Bunny?” He had found the soft spongy spot in your core and he continued his assault. “God, I can feel you drawing me deeper into you. Can you cum for me? Cum around my cock, please baby.” With sudden urgency he began to rub circles into your clit, freeing a scream of pleasure as he pushed you closer to your release. Capturing your lips with his, he swallowed your sounds reveling in the way he made you a mess for him. You tangled your hands into his hair to keep him devouring you. 

His ministrations slowed as you came, guiding you through your high and softly coaxing you back to this moment. “Thank you for being such a good girl.” he punctuated each word with a grunt and a particularly rough thrust. Growling your name he too, reached his high as removed himself from your core and thick, white lines sputtered onto your stomach. 

Taking in the sight of your blissful and relaxed face Tamaki stood and went into the bathroom only to come back with a glass of water and a warm towel. He cleaned you off first, taking extra care to make sure everything was gone, then he wiped himself. Stepping into the closet in the corner of the room he grabbed a very large blanket and headed back toward you. Wrapping the blanket around you, softly he picked you up and carried you back into the living room setting you down on one end of the couch. He retreated into the bedroom once more and came back with his underwear on and the glass of water in hand. Pressing the cold glass to your lips you sipped gently, with a hum Tamaki set the glass down in the kitchen before joining you in the living room. 

Turning the TV on he put on your favorite romance movie and parted the blanket and your arms as he rested himself between them. He rested his face against your bare chest, wrapped his arms around you as best he could and lightly nuzzled into you. Closing your arms around him you were both snuggled warmly into the blanket and with a warm sigh you kissed the top of his head before drifting into a restful sleep. 

Once he was sure you were asleep and snoring softly he breathed in your scent deeply as if it gave him courage and uttered “I love you y/n.” 

[balancingdiet]

Tabula Rasa

Detective Conan & Magic Kaito Characters: Shinichi/Kaito Words: 2000 ish Chapter: (1) ... (15) (16) (17)

Shinichi always finds his neighbour weird. But he didn’t expect to find his neighbour lying on a patch of grass and donned in Kaitou Kid’s costume, too.

The distance between Beika Street and Kuroba’s old hometown was considerably near, but it wasn’t the case between the latter and their current residence. And the distance only amplified when Shinichi didn’t have his car and had to walk to take the public transport.

But despite how Shinichi had to change a couple of metro lines before he finally reached the station to get off, he didn’t find the journey very long. Perhaps it was because he was lucky enough to get a seat in every cabin he entered, or that he didn’t bother to check the time on his watch or phone…

Or maybe because his mind had been so preoccupied about the scene at the clock tower the entire way home.

Shinichi originally wanted to bring the blue rose for reasons he wasn’t sure. As an evidence? For safe-keeping? But in the end, he didn’t. He only stood in the same spot when he first saw the bench and stared at the rose for a long, long while before deciding to head home. The rose’s presence was already enough to prove his intuitive sense correct, and he found no rights for him to touch the rose, much less remove it from the place it was meant to be.

“It’s a gift for someone.”

Hands in his empty pockets, Shinichi walked out of the station and down the familiar streets. This was also the first time he noticed the large space and distance between each of the street's lamppost, making the residential area darker than the others. Nonetheless, it was again another observation he made when he wasn’t driving in his car, but for the first time, he wasn’t sure what to make do with this random information he had—

Ah... At least now he knew if any of Kuroba’s doves ever went missing, the best time to find it would be during the night; from a distance away, Shinichi could already spot a white dove sitting on his mail box.

“Hey you,” Shinichi called out as he approached.

The dove stared at him.

Shinichi looked over at Kuroba’s house. There were no lights on. “Where’s your owner?” he asked.

It cooed.

Shinichi sighed, not at anything but himself for his idiocy of trying to get an answer from a dove, again.

Deciding an alternative method of communicating, Shinichi unfastened the latch and tentatively took out his mail, and at the last moment, he waved it in front of the dove. But besides looking at Shinichi with its beady eyes, it showed no reaction.

“Since you didn’t steal my mail, I supposed he’s fine? ” Shinichi glanced at Kuroba’s house again. “Or maybe he hasn’t even reached home yet.”

The dove cooed.

“Thanks for the reply,” Shinichi mumbled as he began flipping through the mails. There were bills, bills, another postcard from his mother…

“Hey,” Shinichi said as he stuffed the rest of his uninteresting mails back into the mailbox and leaned a little closer to the dove. “Do you happen to know who this person named Aoko is?”

“…”

“It isn’t hard to know this person is important to Kuroba, but I also have a feeling that she’s…” Shinichi bit his lip, feeling the end of his throat tightened at the thought of the word. He lowered his gaze and stared at his hand—the hand he remembered Kuroba clung so tightly onto during that night he fell.

“I’m so… so sorry.”

Shinichi tried to swallow the lump in his throat, but that pain and tightness didn’t go away; it moved to his chest instead.

The dove cooed.

Shinichi glanced up. “Yes I’m alright—“ He blinked, staring questionably at the dove for a few seconds. “Uh, were you asking me if I’m alright?”

It cooed again.

“I think I’m going crazy.” Shinichi rubbed a thumb between his brows. “Anyway, who exactly are you? Hiro? Curry? Or Tama—”

“It’s Tamago.”

With how fast he turned his head, Shinichi thought he might snap his neck.

“You—” Shinichi backed a few steps away from Kuroba and scowled. “Why did you creep up behind me like that?”

“I didn’t,” Kuroba said as he took a bite out of the chocolate bar in his hand. “Don’t pin the blame on me when you’re a scaredy-cat.”

“I’m not a—” Shinichi shook his head; he had much more important questions on hand than replying Kuroba’s insults. “Since when were you behind me? And how much have you heard?”

“Now I’m curious.” Kuroba tilted his head. “Should I have heard something?”

“No.”

“Huh.” Kuroba glanced between Shinichi and Tamago. “Did you two badmouth about me?”

“If that would satisfy you, then yes, we badmouthed you.”

Kuroba gasped and theatrically placed a hand over his chest. “I thought I’m your best neighbour,” he said, before looking at Tamago. “And I just fed you your favourite sunflower seeds less than half-an-hour ago. Is this how you repay me?”

Half-an-hour ago? Shinichi glanced at the snack in Kuroba’s hand. “Where did you go?”

“I went to get myself some treats.” Kuroba raised his half-eaten chocolate bar before revealing his pocket full of other sweets. “You want one?”

“No.”

Shinichi figured if he continued to pry about how much Kuroba had heard, he would only be digging his own grave throughout the conversation. But it was hard to figure out the answer from Kuroba’s reaction, or rather, from the lack of it. Not to mention when Kuroba's side hobby and talent involved disguising as people on a casual basis too…

Kuroba raised an eyebrow after he finished stuffing his sweets back into his jeans. “Are you okay?”

Shinichi blinked. “Why did you ask?”

“You look constipated.”

“I’m not.”

“If you’re not constipated, then I guess it’s one of the three reasons that make you act like you’re constipated.” Kuroba lifted a finger. “One, you’re upset about the aftermath of a case; but I didn’t see any news about murders today, so I guess not.”

“I—”

“Two.” Kuroba gestured to the mailbox. “Tamago didn’t poop on it. So that’s out.”

“Hasn't pooped sounds better," Shinichi warned. "Since you fed it half an hour ago, it might happen anytime soon.”

Kuroba rolled his eyes, but his face grew serious again as he showed the third finger in the air. “Three.” Kuroba paused. “It is because of Mouri Ran?”

Shinichi stared back in silence.

“So it’s about her.” Kuroba lowered his hand. “Have you gone to find her?”

“Speaking of which.” Shinichi crossed his arms in defiance. “You didn’t tell me that she came.”

“I couldn’t possibly break the promise I made with a fine lady like her, can I?” Kuroba grinned as he took the last bite out of his remaining chocolate bar before crushing the wrapper in his hand. “So, since you know about this, it means you did find her.”

“Yeah.”

The scrunching sound in Kuroba’s hand stopped. He looked perfectly still— almost like a statue.

“Then,” Kuroba began, “did she forgive you?”

Shinichi nodded.

In an instance, Kuroba’s face split into a huge smile, and it was filled with so much relief and bliss that for a moment, Shinichi almost forgotten if it was he or Kuroba that was forgiven by Ran.

“That’s great!” Kuroba said.

Shinichi nodded again.

The excitement in Kuroba’s face died away as fast as it came. He furrowed his brows as he observed Shinichi. ”Shouldn’t you be feeling happy about it? What’s with your reaction?”

“What reaction?”

“Like this.” Kuroba then drooped his eyes and showed a pursed lips.

Shinichi frowned. “I don’t look like that.”

“You need a mirror.”

“No.”

“It’s not a question.” Kuroba whipped out one from his sleeve and showed it to Shinichi’s face. Indeed, Shinichi looked exactly like what Kuroba had mimicked, much to his annoyance.

“I’m fine.” Shinichi pushed the mirror away.

Kuroba scoffed before looking at Tamago, who had been sitting on the mailbox silently all these while. “Looks like somebody is moody.” Kuroba not-so-subtlety pointed at Shinichi.

But Shinichi wasn’t going to react or rebuke to Kuroba’s taunts; there was actually nothing else for him to say, because in truth (and how strange that Kuroba got it right), those three reasons should be the only three reasons that could ever make Shinichi upset, but there was a fourth one—one that Shinichi could never let it be known.

At least not to Kuroba.

Besides how time doesn’t heal all wounds, words can reopen them too.

So how could Shinichi possibly tell Kuroba that he knew everything—about his unconscious apology, the hospital conversation and the blue rose in front of the clock tower—and that he was also upset and frustrated at himself for the lack of his abilities to pull Kuroba out of his sad, sad misery?

He didn't want to be that guy again.

“Um…” Kuroba leaned back and cast Shinichi a side-long glance. “Are you really pissed though?”

Shinichi rubbed a hand down his face, hoping to wipe whatever expression Kuroba was seeing to think of that thought. “I’m not.”

Kuroba nervously hummed, before pulling out a candy from his pocket and gave it to Shinichi. “Maybe this can help?”

Knowing it would do better to accept than reject, Shinichi wordlessly took Kuroba’s offer and popped the sweet into his mouth.

”Feeling better?” Kuroba asked.

Shinichi had to swallow the sweet, to stop a sudden lump that was threatening to rise in his throat again. He looked at Kuroba’s curious and unblinking gaze, and wondered why, even when his own life wasn’t exactly full of sunshine, Kuroba could still be concerned over Shinichi, and even foolishly offering a sweet so it would make him feel better.

More than that, Kuroba even talked to Ran.

And he encouraged Shinichi to talk to Ran too.

“Thanks, Kaito,” Shinichi said.

(And it wasn’t just for the sweets.)

It was as though the world stopped for a second, and then Kaito blinked. “Di-did you just call my name?”

Shinichi smirked; it felt like a privilege to hear Kaito stutter for once. “I did.”

Kaito fished out a handful of sweets from his pocket and laid them out in his open palm. “Are these poisoned? Or are they actually drugs?” he muttered.

“They are nothing but diabetes,” Shinichi said.

Kaito looked at him, askance. “You’re being really weird today. Did Mouri Ran hit your head or something?”

Shinichi ignored him and gestured to the sweets. “You shouldn’t eat these junks at night.” He turned to Tamago. “Try to control your owner if you can.”

Tamago cooed.

Kaito narrowed his eyes at his dove and grudgingly shoved the sweets back into his pocket. “Betrayal.”

“I’m heading in.” Shinichi walked past Kaito and towards his house.

“Are you sure you don’t want to check your head?” Kaito yelled at Shinichi’s back.

“No,” Shinichi answered over his shoulder. “But you should check my mailbox after your dove flies off. I have a feeling it’s going to shit on it soon.”

As if cued, Tamago suddenly stood up, waddling its butt around for a while before departing off to Kaito’s balcony.

Kaito stared at the mailbox. “Oh.”

Just one word was enough to make Shinichi laugh.

“Do you need company?” Shinichi asked, but he didn’t wait for Kaito’s reply as he’d already turned and started walking back to the mailbox.

“Wow, how kind of you,” Kaito muttered. He then pulled a cloth out of one sleeve and a bottle of water from another.

Again, like always, the supposedly simple clean-up that wouldn’t last more than five minutes somehow turned to fifteen and eventually dragged to thirty. And in between, there would be jabs, laughters, and if Shinichi was a little lucky, he would get to know another random, yet surface-level thing about Kaito that day.

Maybe Shinichi didn’t have the power or ability to relieve Kaito’s pain, but maybe he didn’t need to do anything either. All he had to be was simply Kaito’s neighbour, the one whose mailbox got shitted on a lot, the one who needed reminders to water his plants, and the one who would agree to eat fried rice at each other’s house.

And maybe being just like the way they always were was the one and only best thing Kaito could ask ever for.

[urikang-blog1]

Happy Birthday

Dear KP, I dont know if at this point, we are already in good terms with each other or if we are still apart and that we have decided to be apart, but I just want to greet you Happy 28th Birthday! Another year. Another gift of life and I do hope, na happy ka today. I am writing this on May 20. Second day since we broke up. I am crushed. When you left last Saturday after our fight and after we have decided to break up I felt like the door echoed and I felt the door shut like it shattered my heart to pieces. I sat there for I think an hour and sent you messages of what I felt. To be honest I was really sad to see you take it that easily. Without even asking to talk and to work things out. Just saying okay and leaving. Like it was nothing. For me that is the saddest part na okay ka na. Na okay na sayo na wala nalang tayo. Na yung 3 years na pinagsamahan naten sumuko ka na rin. You didnt even leave a message saying your thoughts or saying sorry. Napagod ka na siguro talaga. But you know, I realized na tama ka. na di si Chenee yung may kasalanan. Tayo and when I say tayo, that involves me as well. Ako. So I am really sorry. I am sorry for being an awful partner to you for the past few months especially nung LDR tayo. Im sorry na minura kita ng ganun. Kung pinaramdam ko na di kita kailangan. I feel like nagsuffer ka ng sobra given na wala ako tapos ganun tayo tapos mdami kang issues na naglabasan while wala ako. Which you have communicated to me and I knew but still inimpose ko parin sayo na ayusin tayo . Kahit sobrang kailangan mo ng support ko. Sorry if I failed at doing that. Sorry if I pushed you away by insisting that we fix things and that we dwell on our issues. I was waiting for you na amuhin ako. To make me feel like you want me and that you are sorry. A gesture of some sort para makabawi ka sa kasalanan mo sa mga masakit mong sinabi at sa ginawa mo. Pero ako di ko inisip na may mali rin ako pero ikaw di ka nagaantay ng gesture from me na bumawi. Gusto mo lang maging okay. Gusto mong maging normal. Para makabangon tayo. para maging maayos. Na alam mo siguro kung gnawa ko siguro hindi tayo umabot sa kung nasan tayo ngayon. Hindi ka siguro naghanap ng comfort ng iba. Kasi nandto ako as your partner para makausap mo. Sorry if I havent been a partner to you. Sorry na pinairal ko yung ego ko yung selfishness ko and for demanding na may gawin ka gaya ng lage mong gnagawa. I cant deny it hinahanap ko talaga yung efforts mo. Dati kasi pag nagaway tayo I will find you sa bahay at the end of the day to patch things up so we can talk or if not you are already up to something at gumising ka pa ng mas maaga sakin para maghanap ng bulaklak at pumunta ng dangwa o magisip ng kung anong pakulo maamo lang ako. Hinanap ko yun. I cried last night kasi akala ko, nasa side ka ng bed ko gaya ng away natin dati. I was hoping na sana totoo. Sana andun ka wanting na maging okay yung mga bagay.  I dont know what happened what made you stop. Was it that you got tired? naubusan ka na ba ng fuel? Dont you feel like Im worthy of that? or na di mo nalang talaga ako mahal gaya ng dati? pero gaya ng sabi ko sayo I am equally responsible for that. You got tired because of me. Because I feel entitled. Because I felt like you have to prove that I am special because you had to always prove something and I understand that is tiring. thinking about it probably it felt like a chore given that you have already established that certain expectation vs siguro na dati freely mo syang gnagawa which is because gusto mo not because gusto ko. Nakakalungkot isipin yung fact na ayaw mo na na gawin yun pero I do understand na oo nakakapagod nga sya. Now regarding Chenee. When I was back tracking your messages I saw that your conversations started yung day na nagaway tayo dahil minessage ko sya. I dont know if you were trying to patch things up/compensate hence you started to message her. na akala ko, sa undertsanding ko di mo gagawin. So that again, I am responsible too. I pushed you to do that. I pushed you to talk to her. And I pushed you to hide it from me by talking somewhere else. It broke my heart when you told her na nasa slack ka lang sa phone. That she can reach you somewhere na wala akong visbility. Like you intended to do that. I dont know if naplant ba sa isip mo na may interest sya sayo so you took the chance? pero to me I felt like she was a threat and I made her a threat and now she is. I have let my insecurities take over me. and so yeah. I pushed you towards her. And now, may ganto na. Nagsinungaling ka na. Tinago mo na. Na kung iisipin mo siguro kung hanyaan ko lang. Siguro walang ganto. Siguro. Pero I wouldnt accept siguro na wala lang sya. Na wala ka lang pake sa kanya kasi obviously sa chats nyo may level of concern ka. na ang hirap tanggapin. and you even defended her. Pero wala na akong magagawa dun. anjan na at Im responsible din. So I do apologize for all of these. For the half ass relationship weve had for almost 3 months now. But I do want you to know na I do care for your happiness. Sorry if I have been really selfish. And youre right you dont just break off things like that like it was nothing. I have loved you for 3 years more than 3 years and I just ended it with a snap of the finger. I have been vile. I have said mean things and for that I am sorry. And if were not okay at this point, I totally understand. Because you didnt deserve that. Namanhid ka kasi naimmune ka sa dami ng away naten kaya wala nalang kaya natitiis mo nalang. Ang hirap tanggapin pero yun na yung nangyari. But I want you to know that I have loved you and that I am still loving you despite all of this. Despite the pain and the hurt and the chaos and the mess and the conflict. Im sorry If I have treated you like crap and for not giving you the respect you deserved. I am an awful partner and for that I am sorry. I really think that you deserved better. Not a crazy, toxic partner like me. And if Chenee is like that, and if you wanted to pursue her, I wouldnt blame you and its okay. This is me letting go of you and all of the hate and looking back at the memories and the moments that weve had. Everything that you have done for me and the people I love. For being my partner and my bestfriend. For being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, for being my home. for being my world for almost 4 years. I feel bittersweet as I am writing this, because I am in pain and I really miss you. I really miss the old us. I miss the happy us. The crazy about each other us. Ngayon kasi we just drive each other crazy.  I really felt like we got tested kasi nga diba smooth seas dont make good sailors. If we didnt survive it then there is a reason. Baka I was in your life and you were in my life to be a lesson. Ang sakit isipin tho na yung 3 years and yung amount ng love all for a lesson. A hard lesson. That relationships are hardwork. Being a relationship is a decision and a choice you make, every single day. No matter how difficult. No matter how hard. No matter how tough. But I do hope that you know that I really loved you more than I loved anyone else and I really wish na maging happy ka. Wala akong pinagsisihan sa pinagsamahan naten. It was picture perfect specially nung nasa bubble tayo. We were a good team. I know we could have been really good parents. I know youre going to be a really great dad and a good husband and anyone you will love will be really happy and I am glad kasi even for a short while naranasan ko na mahalin ng ganun. Mahalin ng walang reservations. Mahalin ng extra mile. Salamat, baby ko. Salamat mahal ko. Salamat. Ang sakit sakit na sa sulat na to nagpapaalam ako sayo kasi feeling ko nasa cross roads tayo. Climax ba. Yung point na di alam yung kasunod. Pero isa lang ang alam ko mahal kita at sana sa panahong nakasama kita, hindi man sa latter part ng relasyon naten naparamdam ko kung gano kita kamahal at kung gano ka kahalaga sakin. Kung wala na talagang tayo at this point sana matupad mo lahat ng gusto mo. Too bad wala ako to celebrate today or to celebrate the next milestones of your life. You are a good person with a really really beautiful heart and I thank you for the love and know that you deserve the best things in life. Thank you for the years that you have shared with me and for loving me and giving your all to the point na wala ka nang mabigay. I am letting you go and I am hoping you would come back but I wouldnt impose. Kung bumalik ka man gusto ko na kusa at na gusto mo talaga hindi dahil sinabi ko or na nirequire ko. Gusto ko na bumalik ka kasi narealize mo na gaya ko hindi mo rin kaya na wala ako sa buhay mo at na gusto mong ayusin at gusto mo na tayo parin sa dulo.

If we are still together, know that these are my thoughts and my realizations while we are apart and you know what I wish I could turn back time so we can relive those days na di tayo okay o na nagtitiisan tayo. I am sorry for this phase. I really am.

Mahal na mahal kita. I love you Uri

[straycatboogie]

2022/08/31 English

BGM: 詩人の血 "ドイツク"

This morning I thought I couldn't go out of my room. I even thought that I would spend all this day doing Twitter. But that usage of time must be very useless. I want to enjoy reading, listening to, and watching. I also had to spend the money on the antigen test. So I went out of my room and visited the hospital. After spending the money, I went to Aeon as an activity of my morning duty and tried to read a book. But the book didn't come to my mind so I gave up, and I googled some apps to output my thoughts because I thought I had got inputted various things too much nowadays. But finally, I couldn't find any good ones so I decided to manage my output with the apps I already had.

I remembered that I had felt afraid of going out to this town once, especially during the period I just had come back to this town. Because I thought that I would meet classmates if I went to the town. They would laugh at me and say "You must be crazy", "You should die soon", and finally they would 'do' terrible things to me... Today I had such a terrible delusion. But now a lot of people stand by me. And I have trained the pride or self-love to separate myself from that kind of delusion. I already have fine self-love so shouldn't be afraid of...at least, the depression won't drive me crazy. I felt such a change so thought I am getting growing up. People might change in that way...

After taking a nap, I cleaned my room because I had made a promise to the staff of the group home. At first, I never thought I wanted to do that. But in fact, I had learned from my work, I had this idea. "however the motivation drives me, I should start from somewhere and do the duty step by step. Then, that would tell me what I should do the next". So I touched a book and moved that, and did the duty patiently. Then I could put myself into the work and do cleaning my room steadily. The BGM was "犬の約束" by a band called Tama. We made the promise as I could do my duty for about 30 minutes a day, and I shouldn't work more. Maybe doing the duty I have not used to, I got wet with too much sweat and felt too hot.

That night, I went to the 'danshu' meeting. There, I talked about the antigen test and also the PCR test I have done. Another member said to me "You are right" and that makes me fine. I went back to my group home and spent doing Twitter until I went to bed. I could never read any books as usual. I might need the duty of outputting the things I have, and I can't handle them. 'Outputting' might image you the word 'vomiting', then I exactly need that action of vomiting the junk in my mind and cleansing it. Thousands or millions of voices try to control me. But I need to face my chaos and try to 'vomit' them with my pen. I need no hurry...

[phgq]

Duterte hits ICC anew: ‘Drug war is my campaign promise’

#PHnews: Duterte hits ICC anew: ‘Drug war is my campaign promise’

MANILA – President Rodrigo Duterte on Monday night lambasted the International Criminal Court (ICC) anew for wanting to investigate his administration’s crackdown on illegal drugs. 

In a taped speech, Duterte defended the anti-illegal drugs campaign, saying he was elected precisely to eliminate the narcotics trade as part of his campaign promise.

“I did what I am bound to do. That's my election promise. Pag 'yan ang suwerte inabutan ko (If that’s my fate), so be it. 'Yun na 'yun (That’s it),” he said.

Duterte explained that his drug campaign was meant to protect the people from drug lords and coddlers whose illicit trade has caused dysfunctional families.

“Yung (The) human rights, I said do not destroy my country. And if you destroy the youth of my land, you are destroying my country so that I will kill you,” he said.

Duterte, meanwhile, questioned the global body for interfering in other countries' affairs.

“In the first place, why are you interfering in the affairs of my country and other countries? And who gave you the authority? By what divine law gave you the authority to prosecute me in a foreign land tapos ang nakaupo puro kayong mga puti na ulol (and then all of you seated there are white people who are crazy),” he said.

According to the President, the ICC has no jurisdiction over him since the country’s courts are functioning.

“We have the courts here are functioning and if the courts say I will go to jail, I will go to jail. Walang problema 'yan (That’s not a problem),” he said.

Last December 16, Duterte said he is not afraid of suffering the consequences of his drug war, insisting that it is being done for the greater good.

“Ako, magpakamatay ako sa prinsipyo ko. Kung iyang prinsipyo ko na ‘yan ikamatay ko, okay 'yan sa akin. Ipakulong ako habangbuhay, okay sa akin 'yan. Ginagawa ko ang tama (I will die for my principles. If those principles will be the death of me, it’s fine by me. If I’m sentenced to life imprisonment, it’s fine. I did what was right),” he said.

ICC prosecutor Fatou Bensouda's office earlier released a report saying there was a "reasonable basis" to believe that Duterte and his subordinates committed crimes against humanity in the drug war.

In 2018, the Philippines withdrew from the ICC after Bensouda pushed through with the preliminary examination of the communication filed by lawyer Jude Sabio before the international tribunal.

Sabio’s communication accused Duterte of perpetrating crimes against humanity for thousands of alleged extrajudicial killings of drug suspects since the anti-narcotics drive was launched on July 1, 2016 until March 31, 2017, but he eventually dropped the communication he filed before the international tribunal. (PNA)

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References:

* Philippine News Agency. "Duterte hits ICC anew: ‘Drug war is my campaign promise’." Philippine News Agency. https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1125867 (accessed December 29, 2020 at 04:38PM UTC+14).

* Philippine News Agency. "Duterte hits ICC anew: ‘Drug war is my campaign promise’." Archive Today. https://archive.ph/?run=1&url=https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1125867 (archived).

[chill-billy]

Colombian Boys, Careful Duo Strategies, & Critical Studies on Old Photos — Apr 12th, 2020 12:18:11pm

Update: I successfully changed my url!

Konting kilig lang ulit hehe. Such interaction! Let’s call him Boni (first-name-related). I don’t think anything serious about him will ever pop up, seeing that he’s almost halfway around the world. He’s so cute. I really do have a thing for facial hair, it turns out.

A few months ago, I made it to the Diamond league, and I realized that it wouldn’t be as easy to fight for the top spot. So for weeks, I’ve tried to bring myself to a lower league to unleash the...skills I learned when I was journeying to just taste the boss level. I have 8 hours to go before this ends, and I creeped up just barely behind the first placer. Florence was online earlier; I really hope she doesn’t find my closeness as threatening as I would if I were in the same position. I considered surpassing her, but I feel like that would make her stronger, or at least more eager to win. Tama lang to. Irina, steady ka lang jan.

I’m not crazy.

I worked out for a full 2 hours today! I don’t remember the last time I did so. I’m happy with myself! I finished Chloe’s arm and back videos, which were my personal favorites from the past 5 days. And I also finally completed the 2-week shred video right after. Granted, with a few tweaks, but there was no giving up today. After that, I did some simple yoga with Trisha, Ali and Paolo. Not a depressing note, but I cried when Trisha, Ali and I went into child’s pose. I have no idea why. But it felt more liberating than stressful, as if the things the yoga lady was saying about releasing everything and understanding our bodies actually subconsciously got to me. It was really great. I might incorporate 2 or 3 yoga routines in my day from now on.

This morning, Facebook hit me with one of those “8 years ago” posts. I ended up stalking myself for all my old but privatized albums from 2011 and earlier. Ugh. I can’t believe our old hard drive is inaccessible. I wish we’d get it fixed. I really hope and pray we haven’t lost all the data in it. Anyway, I sent a bunch of photos to my sister for my parents and her to see. I couldn’t resist looking at other old photos on Facebook, so I went to Tita Nanette’s and Juliana’s accounts to look for some, and I wasn’t disappointed. Sorry I stalked y’all. It was all in good intention. Here’s a sample of the photos I dug up on mine!

Good night! I have an early day tomorrow. I have a leaderboard to win.

Update (April 13, 9:24am): I just woke up and I want to cry HWHAHAHA

[ilkkijangege]

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We interrupt the Chad Chronicles for a special programming.

I had lunch with my mom today, because she is working on Mother's Day and I really wanted to be honest with her about everything.

So I told her, "let's talk about life, I'm nearly 25." She said, "Oo nga eh, ano ba gusto mo?" I replied, "Wala naman..." Then she suggested I should just celebrate in a hotel with my friends.

Then I asked her "Kelan first boyfriend mo?"

Mom: After college, when I was already working. Pero nasa states na sya, may asawa at anak na din. Pero madami nag liligaw sakin, meron nga gusto mag pakamatay. Meron nga isa, bata pa si tita (bunso) mo, ung manliligaw ko nasa bahay tapos pumunta sa sala tita mo, nag kalampag ng kaldero. Nahiya nga ako.

Me: I want to start dating this year...

Mom: HA? bakit may boyfriend ka na ba?

Me: Wala pa!

Mom: So sino dedate mo?

Me: Ewan ko...

Mom: Don't look for it! It will come to you. Si daddy mo na meet ko sa Saudi, dumating lang yan. Pag professional ka na at solicitor ka na. Baka nga solicitor pa mapang-asawa mo.

Me: Ayoko ng solicitor! Mag dedebate debate kami!

Mom: Hindi naman siguro! Kala ko at 34, magisa na lang ako habang buhay pero gusto ko ng anak.

Alam mo, feeling ko ibang lahi magiging biyenan ko. Kasi nandito tayo. Expected ko na un.

Basta gusto ko, bumibisita sa bahay, mabait, educated at walang bisyo. I hope you don't meet them in the pub.

Me: I like someone from work....

Mom: Wag kang mag bigay ng motibo ha. Hayaan mo sila. Anong lahi toh?

Me: Irish pero lumaki xa sa Belgium, Switzerland and America dahil sa dad nya. Mayaman ata sila..

Mom: Alam nya ba Filipino culture? San sila nakatira?

Me: Ewan ko! Taga Enniskerry. (I wanted to say sa isang exclusive village pero I didn't want to sound like a creep)

Mom: Ung mga taga country side mababait yang mga yan. Ano tinapos nya?

Me: Nag History and Archeology sya sa UCD

Mom: Aba UCD, matalino.

Me: Tapos nag Master's in Marketing sa DIT.

Mom: Gwapo?

Me: Ok lang naman.

Mom: Why?

Me: Ok naman xa.

Mom: Matangkad?

Me: Sakto lang.

Mom: Mas matanda sayo?

Me: One year lang, birthday nya kahapon.

(I wanted to tell her I bought him hot chocolate sa SB but I didn't want her to think something more. 😂)

Mom: Ahh, ano trabaho ng parents nya? Sana mabait sila

Me: Di ko nga alam eh, nag move around nga sila dahil sa dad nya.

Mom: Ano apelyido?

Me: Sobrang Irish.

Mom: Ano Mc Mc??

Me: No! *Says his surname*

Mom: TRAVELLERS YANG MGA YAN!

Me: Hindi tlga! Mayaman ata sila!

Mom: Magaling mag English?

Me: American nga eh!

Mom: Ilan taon xa tumira dun? May passport xa?

Me: 3 years tapos bumalik sila dito para sa Leaving Cert nya. Wala, pero eventually gusto nya bumalik ng states.

Mom: Ay, malay mo ikaw din mapunta ng US. May bisyo?

Me: Wala naman, video games lang.

Mom: Good. Edi araw araw xang umuuwi sakanila?

Me: Oo, nag ddrive xa.

Mom: Malapit naman sainyo Enniskerry.

Me: Oo, 10 minutes drive daw.

Mom: Ilan kapatid nya?

Me: 3 lang.

Mom: Oh, small family din sila. Ilan taon na kaya parents nun? Baka mas matanda pa ako sakanila.

Me: Di ko alam 😂

Mom: Pinaka matanda xa?

Me: Oo.

Mom: Pareho pala kayo.

Mom: Bsta bata ka pa, 25 ka lang, you have your whole life ahead of you. Di naman ako nanay ni Sarah G. Kung saan ka masaya.

Me: Na aano lang ako sa nanay nila *my friends* Gusto bisaya daw mapang-asawa nila.

Mom: Bakit naman? Yang destiny hindi natin mapipilit yan.

At some point in our conversation, she did ask me if Chad is single and I said yes, it seems like it naman.

Then my mom was just really telling me how white people give up easily and are likely to be more depressed. But I told her it depends on the person and that I feel like as migrants, we really just work hard for things because we're used to it. I think she just really wants to warn me because the majority of interracial relationships within the Filipino community ends up in separation or divorce. I really do not want that tbh.

But she said she'll be happy when I start dating pero sad kasi I am the Unica Hija and I told her si Paolo din naman only boy hahaha

My mom said maganda naman ako, may ichura so she is not worried about me at all. It will come when the time is right.

I am glad I had this talk with my mom because I really just need to remember to be patient and that I really do have the rest of my life. I am 24 and still very young. My mom said she was just starting out at my age and that I shouldn't be worried.

I also told her about how she was 23 when she left the Philippines for Saudi Arabia and how I am 24 but still here. She told me that she had to do what she had to do because she had so much responsibilities then, whereas with me, I have no brothers/sisters to pay college for.

But she kinda got excited for me and my love life, she was all like "baka mag asawa ka na wala pa tayo mortgage." I laughed but I told her I really want to get a mortgage while I am still single haha

But I was telling her how I have really prioritized my studies and career na it's time for me to do this.

Basta I am happy na my mom took this really well. Kala ko magagalit xa pero hindi naman.

Then when we got home, my dad was watching this show and in the middle of it, one of the hosts said it is okay to love and be in a relationship but do not take it too seriously when you are still young. I was in the kitchen when this was said and I just heard my mom say "TAMA!" Swear, the timing of everything was crazy haha

Hay naku, sana mag date na kami ni Chad 😂 chossss

[heroes-writing]

I read on your initial post that you're still taking OPM requests? If that's accurate, can I requests a scenario involving Saitama's first kiss with a chronically bashful S/O? I'm happy you're back, btw! Your writing and thoughts are always so well thought out and heartfelt. Keep up the nice work. ('u')b

AW YEAH! A REQUEST FORMY BEST BOY! And I’m happy to be back as well!

Word Count: 603

Your head was burrowedinto the crook of Saitama’s arm as you strolled down the darkened streets. Somethingthat felt more wild and energetic than butterflies swarmed in your stomach. Hishand was firmly grasping your own and it was driving you…a little crazy?

You supposed it was theheat and the feel of his callouses, the sureness of how he held your hand in hisgrip. A feeling nagged at you though, that told you all his little touches todaywere trying to prepare you for something. You stumbled every now again withoutyour sight to guide you, but your boyfriendheld you up with no problem. He was carrying all the grocery bags one handedtoo, and of course, he had no problem with that either.

He kept squeezing yourhand reassuringly, and you kept squeezing back in reply—Like a littleconversation of touches, you tried to convey just how much you liked him. Steamseemed to drift up from around your ears at his thumb stroking your own. Hekept glancing over at your red and flushed face with growing concern.

“There’s no one outsidethis late at night, [Name].” he smiles kindly, “No one can see us. There’s noneed to get all shy.”

He bends down to try anddislodge your face from his arm where you’re hiding in safety away from theworld’s all-seeing gaze.

“It’s just embarrassing…Saitama.Public displays of affection are so difficult, I swear.” Your voice is mumbled,and your stomach drops again as you stumble.

“What happens when wefinally make out? Are you gonna-“

“Make out?!?” To thatyou lift your head, looking at him with a what looks like concern and shock.

“Ah–” He watches as youbring your own hoodie up and down over your red face. “Even just kissing oh my gosh–” You yank at thedrawstrings and your face is obscured by the pucker of your egg themed hood.

“…Now you’re beingridiculous.” He deadpans.

“You say these things with such a straight face.” Youfeel his arm wrap around your head in a loose lock. “You’re just sensitive.” Thenyou hear and feel a slight pressure on your head:

“MMmmmmwah.”

“ARE YOU KISSIN-“

You yelp as he hugs yourhead with both arms, you feel the load of groceries in his other hand nudgeyour back. You hear and feel the peppering of kisses on the top of your head intheir dollops of warmth and sweet pressure.

“Tama!!” It’s hard todescribe the embarrassment you feel. Like you want to hide, but you also wantto cuddle into his embrace more deeply.  

“Saitama can you please?”

His free hand pulls yourhead free from your hood. You’re certain your hair is all messed up, but he’snever been one to care. He’s smiling in amusement and there’s a hint of somethingelse that makes your cheeks burn.

“Can I kiss you?” Heasks.

You gulp and your mouthdoesn’t know what shape to take. So, you keep it shut and try not to look awayfrom him. You’re blinking hard though and he’s close.

“You can kiss me.” Youfinally say, and he has one of his arms behind your head, before he’s pressinghis lips to your own simply. His lips feel soft and his nose is bumping intoyours a little—He’s warm, warm, warm.

You disconnect a littlewetly, and wrap your arms around him tightly.

“Was that okay?” He asksand you chirp a happy yes against his neck.

When you get home, maybeyou’ll be a little braver…

[thevirgovigilante]

Pairing: Tama Tonga x Reader Word count:1,447 Prompt:“I swear, I’m not crazy!” Warning(s): Cyber-bullying, ANGST A/N: Part 1

Everything that was coming out of Tama’s mouth hurt, it was like venom being injected into your body repeatedly and you couldn’t do anything about it. Revealing your pregnancy to Tama Tonga caught him completely off guard, so much that he actually denied the baby. He made it seem like you’re a whore and that the baby could belong to anybody and that you’re just trying to pin it on him because you actually don’t know who the father actually is. You sat there and let him talk, you let him say all of his disgusting assumptions and it began to dawn on you just how much of a fucked up person he really is. Then Tama stopped speaking, he just inhaled and exhaled at a rapid speed, then he breathing went to a slow and calm pace. You thought maybe he was acting out in the spur of the moment and that he would apologize to you but then he said: “Stay away from me.” and left the restaurant.

 You were at a loss for words and couldn’t wrap your head around why Tama would act out like that, you guessed that people react in strange ways when they find out they’re going to be a parent. After that you didn’t contact Tama and he didn’t try to contact you whatsoever. Your family helped you throughout the pregnancy and then the day finally came for you to give birth, the only people who stayed was your brother and sister stayed with you in the hospital. You gave birth to a healthy baby girl, but you didn’t have any names in mind for the child. While thinking of different names for her there was a knock on the door, the door opened revealing Tama Tonga.

 Your brother and sister almost launched themselves out of their seats when they saw him but when you raised your hand up they stopped. Surprisingly, you weren’t agitated by his presence but you knew there was no reason for him to even be here “Can you two give us some privacy?” your head shifted to your siblings who still haven’t taken their eyes off of Tama. They were both reluctant but eventually left the room. You looked back down on your daughter, who was sound asleep “Is there something you wanted Tama? For someone who wanted me to stay away from them I’m shocked you came to me.” Your words stung. Who could blame you? Tama acted like a fool and denied his child.

 The room was silent for a few seconds and when you looked up Tama was in tears which caught you completely off guard. You were speechless, you’ve never seen him cry and now you didn’t know what to do. This sight had you completely bug eyed and that’s when you had to speak up “What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you crying?” The man just fell to his knees and kept repeatedly apologizing, saying how he never wanted to hurt you and he was shocked and scared about becoming a father. Tama wouldn’t stop crying and apologizing and after a few minutes you couldn’t handle it anymore “Ok! Stop crying. It’s starting to get really annoying.” Could you actually forgive him? He abandoned you and your baby.

 Tama wiped away his tears and finally calmed down, but he said that he wouldn’t leave you alone until you forgave him. He was incredibly pitiful, and you took so much pity on him right now. You gave him the ultimatum that you’ll forgive him as long as he takes care of his child and as long as he does whatever you want. He agreed to your terms, but he also gave you an ultimatum as well: “If you come live with me, I’ll do whatever you want and be in my child’s life.” You were a bit hesitant, but you agreed. You didn’t know what would become of this entire situation but you knew that Tama had to do his part and be in the baby’s life.

 You two have been successfully living together for 6 months, you decided to name the baby Ashton and everything was good…..except Tama has a problem: he keeps bringing women home every. Single. Night. It wasn’t any of your business who Tama sleeps with but you felt as though you were being disrespected. A lot. This should be the last thing that bothers you about Tama Tonga but you didn’t want your daughter seeing this when she’s old enough to ask questions because she shouldn’t have to be subjected to it.

 All the women he brought over always noticed you, some of them would glare, others wouldn’t say anything and went on about their business. You thought nothing of the women that glared at you, there was nothing for them to be angry about since you yourself weren’t also sleeping with Tama. At least….that’s what you thought. It was abrupt and so sudden that it frightened you; you received a text from a private number and you didn’t know how to respond to it.

 “Listen bitch. Stay away from Tama Tonga or I’ll kill you and that ugly baby of yours.”

 Your sweat ran cold and your hands began to shake uncontrollably, you’ve never been in this type of situation and you never expected for something like this to happen to you. All because of Tama? You sighed through your nose and set the phone down on your bed. There was a knock on your bedroom door, when you opened it Tama was there “Hey, I’m gonna be having company come over again tonight so…..” you rolled your eyes “Yeah, I get it-” you looked over at your daughter “-just don’t wake up Clark, alright?” Tama nodded and walked away, closing the door.

 You couldn’t the entire night, thinking about the text and thinking about the safety of your child. The next day during breakfast Tama asked if you to come watch him wrestle in Japan “What?” “Yeah, I think you’d have a good time in Japan and you can bring Clark too since we don’t necessarily have a babysitter and I doubt you want to leave her alone by herself.” You fed Clark some apple sauce, thinking about Tama’s offer, and for a moment you forgot about the text and thought about the experience of going to Japan with Clark. A soft smile formed on your lips and you turned to look at Tama again “Alright, we’ll go. When’s the show?” Tama nervously rubbed the back of his neck “Tomorrow night.” You blinked at stared at him, that was really short notice “Then I guess we have to start packing and leave today.”

 That was that, Tama booked the flight and you packed the bags “We should probably ride in different cars too.” Tama suggested “Why?” he shrugged a bit “Fans are a bit crazy nowadays and the moment they see you with me it’ll cause trouble for you. So I’ll leave before you, is that fine?” You didn’t really care, he was probably lying but there was no way you were going to entertain him with an argument. You simply agreed and Tama took his luggage and left. You finished your breakfast with Clark and got ready to leave.

 When you picked up your phone you remembered the text message that you received, you shook your entire body and regained your courage “You’re fine (Y/N).....nothing’s going to happen to you or your baby.” You waited about 20 minutes, making sure that Tama got enough space between you two and then you left. You placed Clark in her car seat and secured her in the car before entering the driver’s seat and driving off. The drive for the most part was peaceful and smooth and you were thankful for that, you made it onto the expressway almost making it to the expressway. Clark began to cry in the back seat “Oh, what’s wrong baby? Mama’s here for you.” She continued to cry, she probably needed her pamper changed.

 You looked at Clark through the rearview mirror and smiled “You’re alright baby, everything’s alright.” You shifted your eyes back to the road and saw a truck, driving the opposite direction and heading towards you. Full. Speed. Ahead. Your heart began to race, you didn't know what to do, then you heard your phone “ding”. That's when it felt like everything went into slow motion and when you turned to look at your phone you saw another text: “Didn't I say stay away from Tama, bitch?” Turning back to the road the truck slammed right into your car.

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[dragonkeeper19600]

Shiny (Russian Translation)

Moana has been out long enough that some people are starting to post different dubs of its songs, including, of course, “Shiny.”

The Russian dub of “Shiny” sounds pretty good, but you might suspect, the lyrics in Russian can’t be exactly the same as English. That’s just a fact of dubbing. Due to the differing nuances of each language, as well as the need to lip-synch and produce lyrics with certain beats and inflections, you’re going to have to change the meaning of the words.

I know nothing about the Russian language whatsoever, but a user on Youtube by the name of StarTsurugi was kind enough to provide an English translation of the Russian dub.

And, oh man, it’s pretty great. Some of the Russian lyrics and really dark and biting as well as hilarious. The English lyrics are too, of course, but it’s like... a different kind of darkness. 

In case you’re interested, the translation is below:

Tamatoa didn't always live like a king. I was just an ordinary scrawny crab But go ahead and envy me today Because I am perfection itself

Geez, Tamatoa, go ahead and pat yourself on the back a little bit more. I don’t think this quite has the weirdness of “Because I’m beautiful, baby,” but there’s something lovably arrogant about this crab giving Moana permission to envy him.

Your grandmother told you to trust your heart Be yourself without shying away

How do you know that? How do you know that?

Seriously, with the English version, we speculate/joke about Tamatoa being able to read minds, but at least in the original lyrics, they leave the possibility open that maybe Tamatoa is just really good at guessing what people’s grandmas tend to tell their dumb grandchildren, but here, unless Moana went into detail about Tala to a giant crab (unlikely), he has to have some kind of psychic ability. There’s no other explanation.

But I could tear up her logic It's all nonsense.

I like that the Russian lyrics keep the pun of him singing the word “tear” while pulling on Moana’s arms.

Because you could live all shiny Glitter like a pirate treasure Light it up And just live all shiny

The translation here misses the connection between the “pirate” reference and the next line, “scrub the deck and make it look shiny.” Instead it follows with the line, “light it up” which is relevant but doesn’t follow the same chain of logic.

You can take the jewels off of anyone So to say

I’d like to point out that this lyric would be the one that accompanies Tamatoa making the cracking sound while moving his claw over his neck and sneering at Moana. Who earlier clutched her necklace closer when he tried to look at it. And who is now holding her own neck while looking at him nervously. Ominous stuff. 

And as well Fish have no brains They are attracted to all things shiny Fools

Did you just yell “Fools!” at a bunch of fish? How do you get this dramatic?

And here is my haul Aren't I just a charmer? Tasty

These lyrics in general lack the playfulness of the English version. Asking “Aren’t I just a charmer?” is more overtly self-aggrandizing than the more subtle “Here they come, come, come to the brightest thing that glimmers.”  

You are my sea fruit You are my seafood

What the hell is sea fruit? 

The rest of the lyrics are what follow Tamatoa’s exclamation of “Well, well, well!”

Baby Maui became as helpless as bug Our half-wit weakling demigod

Half-wit? Ouch.

And your hook doesn't seem to work at all any more See? I'm twirling-twirling you like a petal

This is one of the few cases where the English lyric is just objectively better. The “get the hook” pun and accompanying “get it” are lost completely, as well as the following line, “You don’t swing it like you used to, man,” drawing a parallel between the sung word “swing” and the visual of Tamatoa swinging Maui into the wall. Instead, Russian Tamatoa is just kind of describing what’s happening. And while the singer makes it sound good, the lyrics just aren’t as creative. 

However, they almost make up for it with the next line.

But of course, you are still handsome Covered in tattoos and muscles

I can hear the shippers hollering from here.

Just like me, who is incomparable and courteous I'm just like a prince.

Are you? Are you, Tama? Are you, Thomas? Are you, Thomathan?

This line, by the way, accompanies the shot where he holds his claws up to his head and makes those fucking doe eyes into the camera. Singing that line and making that face while beating the shit out of Maui has a wonderful Darla Dimple quality.

Because I live all shiny And I sparkle like a crazy emerald

Do crazy emeralds sparkly any differently from sane emeralds?

Here and there, I'm a trickster I'm all shiny Your tricks won't work on me... I'm too cool.

The line here in English is “my shell’s too tough.” The lyrics in general seem to play down the fact that this is an actual crab singing this song, replacing crab allusions with general preening. 

However, this is another case where the accompanying visuals may make it work, since at the point when he sings “I’m too cool,” he would be winking at Moana. Apparently, Tamatoa’s main strat is to just flirt with everyone all the time.

Maui, bro

Maui. Bro. Bro. Lemme be real for a second.

Go ahead and dare-dare, but you're just a demigod And your call is up. Man

Pretty sure there was no neat way to translate the demigod/decapod alliteration gracefully. It is a little disappointing that they didn’t replace it with anything creative, though. 

Slip-slip away, but the doom has caught up to you. What a shock

There is kind of a subtle comparison going on here as Tamatoa brings up references to small, wriggling things while kicking the crap out of Maui. Like, “I’m strong and awesome but you’re just a slimy son of a bitch.”

Incidentally, the rest of the lyrics are truly awesome.

For I am not the one who cast you into the sea You were the one to call this misery upon yourself Bragging and insolent But you've lost all of your strength

Oh shit, I love this for so many reasons.

First of all, “Far from the ones who abandoned you” does not have the same punch as “For I am not the one who abandoned you.” Just Tamatoa trying to make it seem like he’s not the bad guy in this situation is withering enough. “I’m not the one who threw you away. What are you mad at me for?” It’s also patronizing in a way, since it kind of compares Maui to a little kid throwing a tantrum, impotently trying to take our their anger on someone who isn’t at fault.

But then, but then, he takes it a step further by shifting the blame from himself and Maui’s parents shoving it straight back to Maui. He’s blaming everything that’s happening now on Maui’s arrogant attitude, basically saying Maui’s only about to die because he himself is a shithead, never mind that Tamatoa is the one killing him as he’s singing this. There’s something so deliciously manipulative about “If you were actually worth anything, I wouldn’t be able to kill you!” In other words, whatever happens next is totally Maui’s fault for taking on a something he couldn’t handle because, really, what did he think was going to happen when he faced Tamatoa? 

It’s also telling that Tamatoa makes no mention at all of Maui’s hidden insecurities or secret, desperate need to feel loved. Instead, all the criticism is related to Maui’s attitude, which the audience (and Moana) saw for themselves and made moral judgments on. I don’t think even the people who like Maui can resist the “Wow, what an asshole” reaction. The Russian dub takes that character flaw and has Tamatoa just ream him for it. It’s a bit more preachy than the English version, but it’s also kind of cathartic and maybe less clumsy than the original lyrics, where Tamatoa just kind of brings up Maui’s entire motivation without prompting.

You're arrogant...but you haven't been swift for a while. And then there's me...as always All shiny

This is chilling, too. He drives in the point that while Maui has deteriorated, Tamatoa himself as stayed the same. Especially coupled with the darkness of the cave and the neon glow of his warpaint, this line makes him seem like something eternal, like a force of nature. 

Just obediently accept your fate

Ouch. That’s always a scary thing to hear from a villain. The word choice of “obediently” also provides a counterpoint to his earlier references to immaturity. The sentiment is basically, “Behave yourself for once.”

C'est la vie, mon ami 

Yes, that line is still in French in the Russian dub. In fact, that line seems to be untouched in every dub, French included.

And I'm all shiny Gaze upon me for the last time ...and die.

Jesus, Tamatoa.

My arguments are the most weighty Boy, there's no way you could live all shiny.

Because he won’t live at all because he’ll be dead. GET IT?

The Russian audio is below if you want to hear it for yourself. And, trust me, you do.

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25 things to do during the inauguration if you're afraid of the Trump presidency.

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Inauguration Day is upon us. Soon, President Barack Obama will sail off into the sunset, and Donald J. Trump will be sworn in as our new commander in chief.

Yup. Photo by Chip Somodevilla/Getty Images.

There's no stopping this. As of Jan. 20, Trump will be your president and mine. If you're feeling lost or hopeless, it's OK. A lot of people are feeling the same. It may be too late to undo the results of the election, but it's never too late to do whatever you can to stand up for what you believe in. What better time to turn your feelings into action than than during the inauguration itself?

Here are 25 things you can do during Trump's inauguration ceremony to make the world a slightly less scary place:

1. Make donations to organizations whose work will be more important than ever in the next four years.

Lots of important and life-saving organizations are going to need your help to survive a Trump administration, and they rely heavily on donations like yours.

If you have some cash to spare, consider a one-time or recurring donation to Planned Parenthood, (which is hosting a $20 donation drive  on Jan. 20), the NRDC, the International Refugee Assistance Project, or the Trevor Project for LGBTQ Youth. There's also the NAACP, the National Network of Abortion Funds, Black Girls Code, the ACLU, National Women's Law Center, NARAL, Girls Write Now, the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence, and Purple Purse. That's just to name a few.

2. Call or write to your representatives to let them know you want them to stand against attacks on civil rights.

I know, you've probably heard that suggestion about a thousand times. Well there's a reason: It works!

It's also a lot easier than you think. Look up who your representative is and find their publicly available contact information. Then you can call or write a message to them saying that, as their constituent, you hope they will stand by the issues that make a difference to you.

Photo by Mark Wilson/Getty Images.

Don't be silent; the government is there for you.

3. Going to one of the protests the day after the inauguration? Have a sign-making party!

If you plan to attend the Women's March on Washington or any of the other marches being planned around the country on Jan. 21, why not spend the day making a totally badass sign?

Gather your friends, get some craft supplies, and go for it! Squeeze all that frustration out of a tube of glitter glue and let your feelings be known in the form of a pithy slogan. Or feel free to download and print one of Upworthy's Women's March signs.

Who says the First Amendment can't be fun as hell?

4. Find some local organizations that need your support.

Donating to nationwide groups is great but a lot of those organizations also have local chapters that need help. Find out which ones are in your area and learn more about how you can support them directly.

Which reminds me...

5. Volunteer!  

Money is one thing, and showing up to help is another. There's no shortage of places that need actual physical help and would be thrilled to have someone donate their valuable time. While the 45th president is being sworn into office on Friday (and also not planning to actually start work until Monday), why not use that time to give back?

Photo by Justin Sullivan/Getty Images.

Volunteering will also show you how easy it is to make a difference, which is a feeling that you're going to need in spades for the next four years.

6. Support real, credible journalism. With money.

I know, I know. Paying for news? Crazy concept. The thing is, journalism is in big trouble right now. In Trump's first press conference, he openly yelled at CNN anchor Jim Acosta. That's just one example of the president-elect publicly denouncing the credibility of a free press. Trump's chief adviser is Stephen Bannon, the former head of Breitbart — a platform that regularly publishes messages of hate and intolerance.

Trump has also promised to "open up the libel laws" in order to sue organizations that criticize his actions as president.

Photo by Mario Tama/Getty Images.

Now more than ever is the time to start financially supporting real news like The New York Times or The Washington Post or donating to ProPublica, a nonprofit newsroom.

As a pro tip: The Washington Post has lifted its paywall through Saturday for the inauguration.

Don't just get your news through Facebook. Now is the time to get out of your echo chamber and learn about the world through actual reporting and fact-based journalism.

7. Shut off inauguration coverage and watch the Love-A-Thon instead.

Tune in to Upworthy's Facebook page at 12:30 p.m. EST on Friday, Jan. 20, just as the inauguration is starting, to watch the Love-A-Thon, the first ever Facebook Live telethon. Its goal is to raise $500,000 for organizations like the ACLU and Planned Parenthood that stand up for marginalized communities.

That not enough for you? Did we mention that the Love-A-Thon will feature celebrities like Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Jane Fonda, Jesse Tyler Ferguson, and more, joining together to stand up for love? It's gonna be great.

Be sure to RSVP to the event on Facebook to let all your friends know.

8. Use the #Inauguration hashtag to make your voice heard.

As usual during big events, Twitter and Facebook will be lit up with people sharing their thoughts using an official inauguration hashtag. You can jump in on the action and share your thoughts too.

Imagine if the majority of tweets were about standing up for the rights of minorities or fighting to stop climate change. That would send a pretty clear and powerful message.

9. Check out some of the protest hashtags as well.

As Trump is being sworn in, lots of people will be using Twitter to protest and send a message.

For example, the sexual assault advocacy group Force: Upsetting Rape Culture will be starting #WeWillNotBeSilent. Sexual assault survivors will be tweeting with that hashtag to stand up to the rape culture Trump represents. They'll also be tweeting with #InThisMan — to represent the ways in which Trump reminds them of their abusers.

10. Write "This is not normal" on a note and stick it somewhere you'll see it every day.

In a year or two you might forget how weird it is that a populist demagogue surrounded by hate-mongers is the president of the United States. That might lead to complacency, and complacency is dangerous.

So make a note that this is not OK. Stick it on your fridge or above your bed or on your coffee machine. For the next four years, it will serve as a reminder of what you're fighting for.

11. Reach out to someone who's also feeling anxious.

I know, right? Photo by Fox Photos/Getty Images.

If you're feeling bad, chances are you know someone else who is also feeling that way too. Now is the time to reach out to them. We're all going to need each other's help and support.

You can even start planning to take real action together. Everything's easier when you have a friend.

12. Go visit a museum.

Museums are great, aren't they? You get to learn stuff, you get to see amazing artifacts and artwork, and you get to carry around an empty water bottle all day because, seriously, is there a recycling bin anywhere in the building?

On Inauguration Day, a lot of museums are offering free admission. New York City will be opening the doors to nearly a dozen museums, and many museums in the D.C. area will be hosting events.

Find out what's around you, and soak in some culture!

13. Join an online movement and start being active in it.

If you don't live in a major city or can't travel around easily, there are lots of online social justice movements you can be a part of. Pantsuit Nation got a ton of coverage during the election, but there a lot of other smaller groups on a range of issues from body positivity to immigration reform to workers' rights that you can join.

Being active and supportive in movements is essential if you want the causes you care about to stay in the conversation.

14. Give that whole meditation thing a try.

Meditation! You've heard of it. Your one vegan friend probably does it. You have an app for it that you haven't even opened yet. Why not give it a try today?

Meditation has been shown to help ease stress and promote relaxation, and at the very least, it's nice to just take a couple minutes to breathe and be peaceful.

Photo by Niklas Halle'N/AFP/Getty Images.

15. Take the #PeoplesOath with the ACLU.

While Trump takes the oath of office, the ACLU has offered a way for citizens to take an oath of their own.

Take the #PeoplesOath & help protect the rights guaranteed to all of us by the Constitution. https://t.co/ts8qDoiuBZ http://pic.twitter.com/HxeYEZxstn

— ACLU of Texas (@ACLUTx) January 18, 2017

The People's Oath is for people who want to make a promise — to themselves and the world — to uphold the Constitution and stand up for the rights of everyone, especially including those whom Trump has directly threatened.

16. Write about how you're feeling.

Chances are that your thoughts are complicated, conflicted, and not easy to talk about. One great way to work it all out is to sit down and write about it. If you're comfortable doing so, share your writing on social media so that friends and family know where you stand. It might help someone you know process their own feelings, and that's a powerful thing.

There are no rules, really. Write what you're thinking. It'll help you process it and make it clearer in your head — which will make it easier to figure out what you want to do next.

"Dear diary. What the f***." Photo by Ron Sachs-Pool/Getty images.

17. Watch a movie or read a book about someone overcoming incredible obstacles to remind yourself that together, we can do anything.

"Remember the Titans," "Selma," "Hidden Figures," "Spice World," "Harry Potter" — there's no shortage of on-theme stories about people overcoming insurmountable odds. That's what the next four years are going to feel like.

Based on true stories or not, they might just give you the juice you need to make it through the day.

18. Listen to something better than the inauguration speech. Like the "I Have a Dream" speech, for example.

Maybe you're stuck at work during the inauguration with a bunch of people who want to watch it on the office TV. Maybe you're a groundskeeper at the National Mall and there's no option to ignore what's happening right in front of you.

No biggie! Just pop in your headphones and listen to something that makes you feel better, like your favorite album or podcast. Or you can listen to Martin Luther King's "I Have a Dream" speech. Hearing it might give you a glimmer of hope in the goodness of people despite what they're up against.

19. Set a reminder for the 2018 midterm elections.

Mark this date on your calendar: Nov. 6, 2018.

Everyone has their eyes set on 2020, but if you want to, you can change the government in just two short years.

On Nov. 6, 2018, at least 33 Senate seats will be up for grabs. That's a huge deal if you don't like the way the government is operating, but you can't just sit around and hope for the best. You have to spend as much time as you can learning about your candidates and their policies, and then you have to get out and vote. Try to get as many people as you can to do the same.

Photo by Darren Hauck/Getty Images.

You have two years — make the most of it.

20. Donate to a food bank.

It's easy, it'll make you feel good, and it'll help some of the millions of hungry people in the United States. Plus, it'll get you out of the house and away from social media if you want to disconnect from inauguration coverage. There's really no good reason not to.

21. Form or join a book club.

Now is the perfect time to start reading again. I know, the inauguration is at noon Eastern time on a Friday, so it's probably not the best time to hold your first book club meeting, but it is the perfect time to send an email to your friends asking them to join you in starting a book club.

Read books that will motivate you, or at least entertain you, through the next four years.

22. Consider running for office yourself or get involved in a political campaign.

If there's one thing this election has taught us, it's that literally anyone — regardless of qualifications — can become president or end up in politics.

There's lots of great information available on how to run for office. The rules tend to differ by state, district, and position, so read up on it. If you're a woman, check out Emily's List. If you're a person of color, check out LaunchProgress. We need more diversity and representation in government, and there's no reason that can't start with you.

Even if you don't decide to run, you might know someone who would make the perfect candidate. You can be their campaign manager! Sounds fun, doesn't it?

They started somewhere. Photo by Joe Raedle/Getty Images.

23. Learn about how to become part of the resistance to the Trump administration's policies.

The power is in your hands to resist the hateful and harmful administration Trump has promised to lead, and there's no better time to start learning how than as he's being sworn into office. The Resistance Manual, which was put out by several prominent Black Lives Matter activists and racial justice organization Stay Woke, is a good place to start.

Once you know what your role can be in a Trump world, help spread that message to others. And after you've done that...

24. Read up on conflict resolution and how to have difficult conversations.

The 2016 election revealed a sobering truth about the American people: We disagree fundamentally on a lot of key issues. Remember how terrified you were to have Thanksgiving dinner with your conservative cousins? Yeah, well, get used to that.

There's going to be a lot of hard conversations in our future. You're pretty much guaranteed to have a run-in with someone you disagree with. Instead of going on the defensive though, why not take some time to learn about conflict resolution and how to have productive conversations?

Yelling and screaming and fighting aren't really going to get us anywhere. Instead of watching the inauguration, pick up a book that will teach you how to engage people on a human level and work out your differences with civility.

25. Take care of yourself.

It's OK to feel what you're feeling. Existential dread isn't a sign of weakness nor does it mean you're a special snowflake. It means you're paying attention.

This election did something pretty remarkable: It made people actually grieve. That means that people are experiencing the actual process of mourning, and emotions are raw and vulnerable. Yes, even two months later.

If you care about the world, you're going to need to work hard, but you're also going to need to take care of yourself. Whatever your self-care involves — bubble baths, yoga, spa days, burying yourself in your work, laying on the floor and crying — double down on it, and don't feel bad about it.

Photo by Matt Cardy/Getty Images.

You need to put on your own oxygen mask before you help others, if you know what I mean.

Most importantly, try to remember that this isn't the end of the world; it's the beginning of a hard and worthy challenge.

It may seem impossible to get through the next four years, but never forget that there are always things that you can do yourself to take a stand for the things you believe in and to make the world a better place in ways big and small.

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25 things to do during the inauguration if you're afraid of the Trump presidency.

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Inauguration Day is upon us. Soon, President Barack Obama will sail off into the sunset, and Donald J. Trump will be sworn in as our new commander in chief.

Yup. Photo by Chip Somodevilla/Getty Images.

There's no stopping this. As of Jan. 20, Trump will be your president and mine. If you're feeling lost or hopeless, it's OK. A lot of people are feeling the same. It may be too late to undo the results of the election, but it's never too late to do whatever you can to stand up for what you believe in. What better time to turn your feelings into action than than during the inauguration itself?

Here are 25 things you can do during Trump's inauguration ceremony to make the world a slightly less scary place:

1. Make donations to organizations whose work will be more important than ever in the next four years.

Lots of important and life-saving organizations are going to need your help to survive a Trump administration, and they rely heavily on donations like yours.

If you have some cash to spare, consider a one-time or recurring donation to Planned Parenthood, (which is hosting a $20 donation drive  on Jan. 20), the NRDC, the International Refugee Assistance Project, or the Trevor Project for LGBTQ Youth. There's also the NAACP, the National Network of Abortion Funds, Black Girls Code, the ACLU, National Women's Law Center, NARAL, Girls Write Now, the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence, and Purple Purse. That's just to name a few.

2. Call or write to your representatives to let them know you want them to stand against attacks on civil rights.

I know, you've probably heard that suggestion about a thousand times. Well there's a reason: It works!

It's also a lot easier than you think. Look up who your representative is and find their publicly available contact information. Then you can call or write a message to them saying that, as their constituent, you hope they will stand by the issues that make a difference to you.

Photo by Mark Wilson/Getty Images.

Don't be silent; the government is there for you.

3. Going to one of the protests the day after the inauguration? Have a sign-making party!

If you plan to attend the Women's March on Washington or any of the other marches being planned around the country on Jan. 21, why not spend the day making a totally badass sign?

Gather your friends, get some craft supplies, and go for it! Squeeze all that frustration out of a tube of glitter glue and let your feelings be known in the form of a pithy slogan. Or feel free to download and print one of Upworthy's Women's March signs.

Who says the First Amendment can't be fun as hell?

4. Find some local organizations that need your support.

Donating to nationwide groups is great but a lot of those organizations also have local chapters that need help. Find out which ones are in your area and learn more about how you can support them directly.

Which reminds me...

5. Volunteer!  

Money is one thing, and showing up to help is another. There's no shortage of places that need actual physical help and would be thrilled to have someone donate their valuable time. While the 45th president is being sworn into office on Friday (and also not planning to actually start work until Monday), why not use that time to give back?

Photo by Justin Sullivan/Getty Images.

Volunteering will also show you how easy it is to make a difference, which is a feeling that you're going to need in spades for the next four years.

6. Support real, credible journalism. With money.

I know, I know. Paying for news? Crazy concept. The thing is, journalism is in big trouble right now. In Trump's first press conference, he openly yelled at CNN anchor Jim Acosta. That's just one example of the president-elect publicly denouncing the credibility of a free press. Trump's chief adviser is Stephen Bannon, the former head of Breitbart — a platform that regularly publishes messages of hate and intolerance.

Trump has also promised to "open up the libel laws" in order to sue organizations that criticize his actions as president.

Photo by Mario Tama/Getty Images.

Now more than ever is the time to start financially supporting real news like The New York Times or The Washington Post or donating to ProPublica, a nonprofit newsroom.

As a pro tip: The Washington Post has lifted its paywall through Saturday for the inauguration.

Don't just get your news through Facebook. Now is the time to get out of your echo chamber and learn about the world through actual reporting and fact-based journalism.

7. Shut off inauguration coverage and watch the Love-A-Thon instead.

Tune in to Upworthy's Facebook page at 12:30 p.m. EST on Friday, Jan. 20, just as the inauguration is starting, to watch the Love-A-Thon, the first ever Facebook Live telethon. Its goal is to raise $500,000 for organizations like the ACLU and Planned Parenthood that stand up for marginalized communities.

That not enough for you? Did we mention that the Love-A-Thon will feature celebrities like Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Jane Fonda, Jesse Tyler Ferguson, and more, joining together to stand up for love? It's gonna be great.

Be sure to RSVP to the event on Facebook to let all your friends know.

8. Use the #Inauguration hashtag to make your voice heard.

As usual during big events, Twitter and Facebook will be lit up with people sharing their thoughts using an official inauguration hashtag. You can jump in on the action and share your thoughts too.

Imagine if the majority of tweets were about standing up for the rights of minorities or fighting to stop climate change. That would send a pretty clear and powerful message.

9. Check out some of the protest hashtags as well.

As Trump is being sworn in, lots of people will be using Twitter to protest and send a message.

For example, the sexual assault advocacy group Force: Upsetting Rape Culture will be starting #WeWillNotBeSilent. Sexual assault survivors will be tweeting with that hashtag to stand up to the rape culture Trump represents. They'll also be tweeting with #InThisMan — to represent the ways in which Trump reminds them of their abusers.

10. Write "This is not normal" on a note and stick it somewhere you'll see it every day.

In a year or two you might forget how weird it is that a populist demagogue surrounded by hate-mongers is the president of the United States. That might lead to complacency, and complacency is dangerous.

So make a note that this is not OK. Stick it on your fridge or above your bed or on your coffee machine. For the next four years, it will serve as a reminder of what you're fighting for.

11. Reach out to someone who's also feeling anxious.

I know, right? Photo by Fox Photos/Getty Images.

If you're feeling bad, chances are you know someone else who is also feeling that way too. Now is the time to reach out to them. We're all going to need each other's help and support.

You can even start planning to take real action together. Everything's easier when you have a friend.

12. Go visit a museum.

Museums are great, aren't they? You get to learn stuff, you get to see amazing artifacts and artwork, and you get to carry around an empty water bottle all day because, seriously, is there a recycling bin anywhere in the building?

On Inauguration Day, a lot of museums are offering free admission. New York City will be opening the doors to nearly a dozen museums, and many museums in the D.C. area will be hosting events.

Find out what's around you, and soak in some culture!

13. Join an online movement and start being active in it.

If you don't live in a major city or can't travel around easily, there are lots of online social justice movements you can be a part of. Pantsuit Nation got a ton of coverage during the election, but there a lot of other smaller groups on a range of issues from body positivity to immigration reform to workers' rights that you can join.

Being active and supportive in movements is essential if you want the causes you care about to stay in the conversation.

14. Give that whole meditation thing a try.

Meditation! You've heard of it. Your one vegan friend probably does it. You have an app for it that you haven't even opened yet. Why not give it a try today?

Meditation has been shown to help ease stress and promote relaxation, and at the very least, it's nice to just take a couple minutes to breathe and be peaceful.

Photo by Niklas Halle'N/AFP/Getty Images.

15. Take the #PeoplesOath with the ACLU.

While Trump takes the oath of office, the ACLU has offered a way for citizens to take an oath of their own.

Take the #PeoplesOath & help protect the rights guaranteed to all of us by the Constitution. https://t.co/ts8qDoiuBZ http://pic.twitter.com/HxeYEZxstn

— ACLU of Texas (@ACLUTx) January 18, 2017

The People's Oath is for people who want to make a promise — to themselves and the world — to uphold the Constitution and stand up for the rights of everyone, especially including those whom Trump has directly threatened.

16. Write about how you're feeling.

Chances are that your thoughts are complicated, conflicted, and not easy to talk about. One great way to work it all out is to sit down and write about it. If you're comfortable doing so, share your writing on social media so that friends and family know where you stand. It might help someone you know process their own feelings, and that's a powerful thing.

There are no rules, really. Write what you're thinking. It'll help you process it and make it clearer in your head — which will make it easier to figure out what you want to do next.

"Dear diary. What the f***." Photo by Ron Sachs-Pool/Getty images.

17. Watch a movie or read a book about someone overcoming incredible obstacles to remind yourself that together, we can do anything.

"Remember the Titans," "Selma," "Hidden Figures," "Spice World," "Harry Potter" — there's no shortage of on-theme stories about people overcoming insurmountable odds. That's what the next four years are going to feel like.

Based on true stories or not, they might just give you the juice you need to make it through the day.

18. Listen to something better than the inauguration speech. Like the "I Have a Dream" speech, for example.

Maybe you're stuck at work during the inauguration with a bunch of people who want to watch it on the office TV. Maybe you're a groundskeeper at the National Mall and there's no option to ignore what's happening right in front of you.

No biggie! Just pop in your headphones and listen to something that makes you feel better, like your favorite album or podcast. Or you can listen to Martin Luther King's "I Have a Dream" speech. Hearing it might give you a glimmer of hope in the goodness of people despite what they're up against.

19. Set a reminder for the 2018 midterm elections.

Mark this date on your calendar: Nov. 6, 2018.

Everyone has their eyes set on 2020, but if you want to, you can change the government in just two short years.

On Nov. 6, 2018, at least 33 Senate seats will be up for grabs. That's a huge deal if you don't like the way the government is operating, but you can't just sit around and hope for the best. You have to spend as much time as you can learning about your candidates and their policies, and then you have to get out and vote. Try to get as many people as you can to do the same.

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You have two years — make the most of it.

20. Donate to a food bank.

It's easy, it'll make you feel good, and it'll help some of the millions of hungry people in the United States. Plus, it'll get you out of the house and away from social media if you want to disconnect from inauguration coverage. There's really no good reason not to.

21. Form or join a book club.

Now is the perfect time to start reading again. I know, the inauguration is at noon Eastern time on a Friday, so it's probably not the best time to hold your first book club meeting, but it is the perfect time to send an email to your friends asking them to join you in starting a book club.

Read books that will motivate you, or at least entertain you, through the next four years.

22. Consider running for office yourself or get involved in a political campaign.

If there's one thing this election has taught us, it's that literally anyone — regardless of qualifications — can become president or end up in politics.

There's lots of great information available on how to run for office. The rules tend to differ by state, district, and position, so read up on it. If you're a woman, check out Emily's List. If you're a person of color, check out LaunchProgress. We need more diversity and representation in government, and there's no reason that can't start with you.

Even if you don't decide to run, you might know someone who would make the perfect candidate. You can be their campaign manager! Sounds fun, doesn't it?

They started somewhere. Photo by Joe Raedle/Getty Images.

23. Learn about how to become part of the resistance to the Trump administration's policies.

The power is in your hands to resist the hateful and harmful administration Trump has promised to lead, and there's no better time to start learning how than as he's being sworn into office. The Resistance Manual, which was put out by several prominent Black Lives Matter activists and racial justice organization Stay Woke, is a good place to start.

Once you know what your role can be in a Trump world, help spread that message to others. And after you've done that...

24. Read up on conflict resolution and how to have difficult conversations.

The 2016 election revealed a sobering truth about the American people: We disagree fundamentally on a lot of key issues. Remember how terrified you were to have Thanksgiving dinner with your conservative cousins? Yeah, well, get used to that.

There's going to be a lot of hard conversations in our future. You're pretty much guaranteed to have a run-in with someone you disagree with. Instead of going on the defensive though, why not take some time to learn about conflict resolution and how to have productive conversations?

Yelling and screaming and fighting aren't really going to get us anywhere. Instead of watching the inauguration, pick up a book that will teach you how to engage people on a human level and work out your differences with civility.

25. Take care of yourself.

It's OK to feel what you're feeling. Existential dread isn't a sign of weakness nor does it mean you're a special snowflake. It means you're paying attention.

This election did something pretty remarkable: It made people actually grieve. That means that people are experiencing the actual process of mourning, and emotions are raw and vulnerable. Yes, even two months later.

If you care about the world, you're going to need to work hard, but you're also going to need to take care of yourself. Whatever your self-care involves — bubble baths, yoga, spa days, burying yourself in your work, laying on the floor and crying — double down on it, and don't feel bad about it.

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You need to put on your own oxygen mask before you help others, if you know what I mean.

Most importantly, try to remember that this isn't the end of the world; it's the beginning of a hard and worthy challenge.

It may seem impossible to get through the next four years, but never forget that there are always things that you can do yourself to take a stand for the things you believe in and to make the world a better place in ways big and small.

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