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this is part two. for part one, click here!
pairing: rafe cameron x kook!f!reader, (not au, both are early to mid 20s)
word count:Â 4.4k
summary: rafe gives you an ultimatum, and in the setting sun, you see another
warnings: ANGST!!!!, pining/whipped reader, kook!reader & kook!rafe, suggestive but no outright smut, ultimatums, jj is alive, arguing, not proofread
a note: i'm sorry this is late!
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Were you being punished by your love for him?
You tried to move on, you really did. You tried everything you could think of, bar from ignoring Rafe all together. You had even joined a dating app, where you met a fellow Kook named Alexander, and you went on a few dates with him. He was a great guy, handsome, smart, and charming, but he wasnât Rafe. Alexander didnât draw your attention away from your best friend that you were hopelessly still in love with, even after trying to gaslight yourself into believing that you had a crush on him.
You kept Alexander around for a while. He was a fun guy, he paid for your little lunch or coffee shop dates, and he was a good fuck. You had lied and told him that you just werenât a very vocal girl in bed, but in reality you were biting your tongue to keep from moaning Rafeâs name into his ear. It had been a few weeks, and even after everything, Rafe was still the only person you thought of when you slipped your hands under your panties at night. You eventually started to feel bad about leading him on and tried to break things off amicably. He didnât take it well, but you didnât expect him to.
You had tried to distract yourself, going to party after party and club after club, making out with whatever guy you could get your hands on. But nothing worked. You couldnât stop thinking about your Kook prince, the most feared man on Kildare that had a soft spot in his heart for you.Â
You had almost hoped that Rafe wouldâve ditched you, wouldâve kicked you to the side like a dog. At least it would be easier to move on that way, and you wouldnât be stuck under his thumb, thinking about the ways you could get out of the hold he has on you. He still wanted to see you and be around you, constantly calling and texting like it was normal, like you hadnât professed your undying love to him only three weeks ago. You felt like a two-headed monster. One head was his best friend, one head was deeply in love with him.
You know heâs fine, but what about you? What do you do?
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Even after everything, you still have to show up for your Friday night tradition; sitting on Rafeâs sofa, tucked under his arm, watching a shitty 80s zombie movies while eating a Costco pizza. You shouldnât have agreed, knowing it would only make things harder, but you would do anything for him. Your poor heart would always surrender to him.
Maybe this time he would start falling for you, too.
You pull into the driveway of his new house, grabbing the pizza from the backseat before heading up to the front door, balancing the giant box with one hand as you knock.
The door swings open a second later, with Rafe standing in the doorway, grinning at the sight of the pizza box in your hands. He steps aside, gesturing for you to come in. âYouâve arrived with the goods, I see.â
You swallow hard. He looks so fucking good, wearing a tight black t-shirt and a pair of dark green sweatpants. You hug him with one arm, burying your face in his shoulder and inhaling deep. Your eyebrows furrow slightly and your free hand clenches around your keys. He smells different. Sweeter. Almost like candy.
Sofia mustâve been here earlier.
You pull away, carrying the pizza box into his living room. âYup. I got you extra cheese, too.â
He follows behind you, shutting the door behind the two of you. His arm wraps around your shoulder when you reach the sofa, pulling you in tight to his side. âExtra cheese for my girl.â he teases, taking the box from you to set on the coffee table. Youâre on the edge while heâs so goddamn polite and composed.
You tense up slightly as you settle into his sofa, grabbing the remote. You turn the TV on, trying to distract yourself from the empty feeling building up inside of you and gnawing at your guts. âWhich movie are we watching tonight?â
âMmâŚâ He stretches out on the sofa, his legs tangling with yours as he looks over your shoulder at the TV. His body is pressed up against yours, and as usual, his proximity starts to stir up feelings deep inside of you. Feelings you thought you had managed to repress. âHow about Romero?â
Your eyebrows furrow again. This man was going to give you wrinkles. âI thought we were watching zombie movies. Not ones about a Salvadoran archbishop.â
âNo, not Romero like the actual archbishop, I mean like--â He lets out a frustrated sigh. âThe man who invented the zombie film genre, dumbass. Do you need me to find a new best friend or something? Because youâre starting to get a little too idiotic for me.â
What the fuck? âExcuse me?â
He snorts, watching you get defensive. âCome on, it was a joke,â he says, nudging you with his knee. âLighten up, Iâm just teasing.â
âIt wasnât funny.â You say.
Itâs then that he notices the way your shoulders are tense. Your jaw is clenched, and your eyes focus on the screen in front of the two of you with a bit too much intent. Youâre upset. He can feel the agitation radiating off of you, and he hates it. Heâs too used to his best friend being comfortable with him, happy around him. He lets out a breath, sitting up straight. âDonât be like that,â he mutters. âRelax.â
âYou donât get to call me a dumbass, Rafe.â You say, your tone sharp.
Rafe stares at you, his irritation rising bit by bit. He takes in your expression, your sharp tone, the agitation that was practically coming off of you in waves. This was new territory for him. You werenât just being cold, you were pissed. Heâd never seen you this pissed at him. He didnât like it.
He wanted the old you back, the you he thought you were. His best friend, his confidant, not the girl whoâs helplessly in love with him, not the girl who lies awake all night thinking about him. Not the girl who moans his name into her pillow as she cums, hoping one day he would fall in love with her, too. He wanted you to just move on, to give up, to completely wipe your romantic feelings for him clean. He wanted more, while leaving you with less.
âYou didn't use to care about this shit,â He says. âNot until you decided you were in love with me or whatever.â
âDecided?â You ask, scoffing. âIt isnât something you just wake up and decide.â
Rafe stares at you, his gaze hard, almost like heâs trying to search for the words that he wants to say. He was never good at this, talking about his feelings. He sighs, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees. âI⌠I donât know.â He mutters, staring down at the floor. âI just wish things were the way they used to be, okay? I didnât ask for all this bullshit. I never asked you to feel this way, so why are you making things so difficult?â
âI didnât ask for this either.â You say.
âWell, youâre the one whose in love.â He says, the words almost bitter on his tongue. âYouâre the one who made things difficult. I didnât ask you to feel this way. I didnât tell you to go and fall in love with me. So why are you getting pissed because Iâm not in love with you too?â
âIâm not pissed, Rafe,â You say, although deep down you truly are. âI knew from the very beginning that I had no chance with you. I wouldnât love me, either.â
He falls silent, running a hand through his hair. He didnât know how to respond to that. He knew that wasnât true. He knows that youâre beautiful, and sweet, and kind, and funny. He knew that you should have every chance with him. But he just didnât love you that way. âHow many times do we have to go over this?â He asks, his voice soft. âIâve never loved you like that. Youâre my best friend, you know that.â
âThanks for the reminder.â You say bitterly.
He grits his jaw, frustrated now. He hated how bitter you were when it came to this. He hated that you expected him to be in love with you back when he just didnât see you that way. He hated that he had to keep explaining this over and over again to you, and he hated the fact that you were just sitting here, pouting like a toddler. Like a girl who was in love.
He was tired of being the bad guy in this. âThen you shouldnât have fallen in love with me.â
âI wish I never did.â You say.
He doesnât speak. He doesnât know what to say. He just turns to look at the movie, his jaw clenched. He hated that you said that. He hated that you wished youâd never fallen for him. He didnât want you to wish that. If you didnât fall for him, how long would it be before you fell for someone else? Someone who wasnât him? He didnât want the thought of you with another guy to piss him off so much.
Rafe sighs. âQuit looking at me like Iâm the bad guy here.â
âDo you want me to pretend youâre a good guy?â You ask, crossing your arms.
âI am the good guy,â He snaps, his eyes narrowing. What the hell? He knew he wasnât an angel by any means, but he was a good guy. He took care of his family, protected his friends, and stayed loyal to his girlfriend. âYouâre the one who fell in love with me. I didnât do anything wrong.â
You sigh, looking away. This was pointless, even more pointless than the daydreams you filled your mind with when you couldnât sleep. âWhatever.â
He looks at you for a moment, jaw clenched, his body tense.
âYou know, this whole self-pitying, 'woe is me, Rafe is the bad guy' bullshit is starting to piss me off. Itâs getting annoying.â He says.
âI donât know what you want me to do, Rafe.â You say.
âStop acting as if Iâve done something wrong. Like Iâve wronged you,â He says, exasperated. He canât understand why youâre being like this, and itâs pissing him off even more. âI donât like you that way. Iâve never liked you that way. Why is that such a hard concept for you to accept?â
âIt isnât,â You say, your voice starting to get thick with emotion. âI know you donât like me, I know you arenât attracted to me, I just⌠itâs just so hard for me to move on, and I donât know why.â
Rafe is silent for a moment, watching as your face starts to crumble. He canât help but sigh. He moves closer to you, placing his hand on your thigh. Normally, it was the opposite. Normally it was you comforting him, not him trying to comfort you. âItâll pass. Youâll get over it eventually.â
Itâll pass.
Itâll pass.
It will never pass, will it?
You sniffle, one hand reaching up to wipe the corners of your eyes. âI should go.â
He catches your wrist, tugging you back down on the sofa. âSit down,â he says, his voice firm. âYouâre not going anywhere yet. We need to talk about something.â
âAbout what?â You ask, not looking at him.
He lets go of your wrist, crossing his arms over his chest. âThis,â He says simply, gesturing towards your face. âThisâŚdepression, sadness, self-pity bullshit. I hate seeing you the way you are right now, like youâve just been kicked down. Itâs pathetic. Itâs not you.â
You donât reply, finally looking over at him, eyes red rimmed with tears.
He stares back, his expression unchanging. You think he wouldâve softened up at the sight of you, but he doesnât. He doesnât want to see you like this anymore. Youâre supposed to be his best friend, the person he confides in and takes comfort in. âYouâre supposed to be the person I come to when Iâm upset. Not the other way around. This pity party you have going on needs to end. Youâre better than that.â
You look back down at your lap, starting to pick at the skin around your thumbnails. âWhat do you want me to do?â
âMove on,â Rafe says, his tone harsher than he intended. âMove the fuck on. I want my best friend again, not this whiney, insecure brat. I donât have any romantic feelings for you, and Iâm tired of treating you with kid gloves because you canât handle the truth. Get a grip and get over it. You either move on, and things go back to normal, or we stop being friends.â
You feel your stomach drop, your throat constricting, air getting caught in your windpipe. You donât look at him, continuing to dig your fingernails into your skin. He watches you for a moment, noticing the way your chest shakes as you try to keep back the tears. He knew your habits by now, and he noticed the way your hands started to fiddle and pick. You did that when you were trying to distract yourself. You did that when you were upset, hurt.Â
âStop that,â He mumbles, reaching out and grabbing your hand.
You pull your hand away and stand up, fists clenching as your chest shakes. You couldnât break down. Not here, not in front of him. âI should go.â
Rafe reaches out, grabbing your wrist again. He stands up too, using his grip to tug you back towards him. âWe need to talk about this. Sit down.â
You pull away again, taking a step back, a soft squeak tumbling out of your mouth as you start to cry.
The squeak causes his stomach to twist. His face falls. âDonât pull away from me.â He pleads softly, his hand reaching out for you again.
You retreat again, shaking your head as more tears start to fall. Your legs shake, your hands coming up to cover your face.
He grabs your wrist again, gently pulling you into his arms. âStop it,â he says firmly, pulling you in close to his chest, his arms wrapping tightly around your trembling frame. âStop.â
You sob into his chest, your hands still covering your face, shoulders shaking violently as you try and take a deep breath.
He stays quiet, one arm wrapped around your waist to hold you firmly against him. His other hand comes up to tangle in your hair, playing with the roots of it as his chin rests on the top of your head. âStop crying,â He repeats, his voice a bit gentler. âIâm not worth it.â
âYes you are.â You mumble, wiping your tears with your fingers, palms still pressed against your face, mascara smearing across your cheeks.
âNo, Iâm not,â He says firmly, his breath fanning over the crown of your head. His fingers tighten slightly in your hair, rubbing slow circles into your scalp. Not to offer comfort. No, he knew that wouldnât work. But to just keep you where you were, firmly held against his chest. âIâm a disaster. Even after everything, after trying to change, Iâm still a disaster.â
âYou're not a disaster.â You say, pulling back to look at him.
He stares down at you, his expression hard to read. He has his usual, guarded look on, but the way his hand reaches up to gently wipe away one of your tears gives away the fact that heâs affected. âI am,â He repeats, his voice quiet. âAnd I wonât ever be the man you think I am.â
You hesitate. âI want the Rafe Iâm looking at. Not the picture of you in my head.â
He lets a huff of air out through his nose, his expression softening for the briefest of moments as he looks down at you. You were so beautiful, even when you were crying and on the edge of a breakdown. But he couldnât allow himself to get caught up in it again, like in high school. He had moved on. At least, in his mind. âYouâll never be satisfied with that. Iâm no saint, and Iâll never be the romantic, fairy tale guy you want me to be.â
âI just want--â You try to correct yourself, although you meant the former. âI just wanted to be yours.â
He stiffens for a second, his gaze hardening again as he studies your face. âNo,â he mutters, a tinge of something you canât place in his voice. âYou canât be mine. Iâm not yours, and Iâll never be yours. Youâre not mine to keep, youâre not the one I want, youâre not the one Iâm in love with.â
You sigh, your voice soft. âI know.â
He lets out a breath, the expression on his face pained. He cupped your face, wiping away some of the smeared mascara. âI donât want to keep hurting you,â He says softly. âI donât want to keep making you cry. I donât want to keep disappointing you.â
âIâm hurting myself,â You say. âItâs not your fault. Iâm the one who just canât move on.â
âYouâre not the one at fault,â Rafe says, his thumb still wiping at the tear stains on your cheek. âIâm the one who canât love you the way you want to be loved. And Iâll never be able to. You deserve someone who can, and I want you to find that person.â
You did find that person, the one holding your face and looking at you like youâre his saving light in eternal darkness. You had ignored so many bad omens, hoping that the universe was wrong, that they made a mistake, that your red strings of fate were intertwined in the stars.
But they werenât.
You swallow hard. âIâm sorry. Iâll try harder. To get over you.â
âGood.â He says, his thumb brushing under your eye one last time, wiping away a tear. His thumb brushes across your cheek, pressing down slightly to feel the softness of your skin. He moves his other hand to your jaw, moving his thumb side to side on your neck, feeling your pulse.Â
His eyes meet yours before his gaze travels over your face, soaking in every detail of you. They linger on your lips, just for a second too long, and much to his dismay, you notice it. His eyes move back up to look into yours.
Your breath hitches ever so slightly, your lips parting. Rafe purses his lips together slightly, rubbing them together, his eyes looking back down at your mouth. He mumbles your name quietly, his voice soft.
âWhat?â You ask.
He doesnât answer.Â
His eyes are still looking at your mouth. He watches your lips move as you speak, watches how your tongue peeks out of the corner of your mouth ever so slightly.Â
He canât think straight. He canât think at all. His mind has gone fuzzy, and every cell of his body is telling him something he knows he shouldnât do.Â
His hand slides from your jaw to the back of your neck, and he pulls you in closer.
He places a kiss to your forehead, his eyes closing.
Your eye twitches, your stomach churning, your face getting hot with shame and embarrassment.
He pulls away, looking down at you. âIâm sorry, alright? Can we just⌠can we just chill and watch a movie?â
You should say no. You should scream at him, yell at him for manipulating you, for looking at you like that and acting like he was going to kiss you.
But you canât. You canât bring yourself to hate him, even after this.Â
You swallow hard, blinking a few times as you look at the long forgotten pizza box on the coffee table. âYeah. We can watch a movie.â
He feels relieved. Thatâs good.Â
He gives you a small smile, placing a hand on the small of your back and ushering you towards the sofa. He turns you towards the sofa, gesturing for you to sit down, his hand still lingering on your back, the feel of your skin under your sweater making his heart race.Â
His eyes linger on you for a moment, before he turns to grab the remote off of the coffee table. He sits down next to you, trying to keep a normal distance between the two of you, instead of pressing himself up against your side. He opens the pizza box as he opens Hulu, handing you a slice.Â
You take it, your fingers and hands numb and tingling as you try to suppress the bile in your throat.
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The Outer Banks is truly paradise on Earth.
Although The Boneyard isnât the nicest beach on the island, it has a few secluded spots that still manage to take your breath away. You find your favourite spot easily, a small sandbank by the entrance to a long-forgotten cove. It was once filled with rumours of pirates and treasures, but now itâs full of seaweed.
You settle into the sand, holding your sandals in your hands, arms draped over your knees. You watch the sunset pink and orange streaking across the sky, listening to the soft crashing of the waves and the distant call of a seagull. The wind gently pulls through your hair, and you push some behind your ears, closing your eyes as you feel the sun on your face.
Itâs peaceful.
Another soft breeze brushes over you, carrying with it the scent of weed, an uncommon occurrence for this particular spot. Not a lot of other people on the island knew of your spot, mainly just Rafe and Sarah.
You turn your gaze to your left, finding a familiar figure sitting about a yard away from you.
JJ smiles, head tilted to the side, a lit joint between his fingers. âHey.â
âHey.â You say, smiling softly. You had always had a little soft spot for JJ, considering him to be one of the few Pogues you could actually stand, maybe other than Kiara.
JJ takes a hit of the joint, looking out over the ocean, the sun starting to descend towards the horizon. He sighs contently before turning to look at you again, raising his eyebrows as he studies you. âWhatâre doing out here all alone?â
âJust watching the sunset.â You say. You pat the sand next to you, inviting him to take a seat.
âYeah? Me too,â He says, moving closer to take a seat next to you. He stretches out his legs, leaning back onto his hands and resting his head against the sand. He takes another hit from the joint, sighing out the smoke before offering it to you. âWant a hit?â
You nod, taking it between your thumb and pointer finger. You take a deep hit, sucking in the smoke and blowing it out in a thick white cloud. You hold it out towards him. âThanks.â
He takes it from you, his fingers brushing against yours. âAnytime,â He says, leaning back. He watches you for a moment, his gaze lingering on your face. The sun is setting in front of you, casting a warm, orange glow illuminating you that catches on your hair. He canât help but admire the way the sunset looks against your figure, casting a glowing haze around you. His gaze softens in the presence of your soft glow. âYou look pretty tonight.â
You smile softly, feeling your face get warm. âThanks, JJ. So do you.â
He smiles back, his eyes locking with yours. Itâs just the two of you out here, and JJ likes it that way. Just you and him sitting alone on the beach, watching the sunset. âJust pretty?â He asks, raising an eyebrow at you.
âHandsome.â You add.
Heâs silent for a moment, staring back at you. He lets out a breath through his nose, trying to hide the grin on his face as his cheeks turn a deeper shade of pink, but itâs still clear on his face. âDamn right, I am.â He mutters. The two of you just stare at each other for a minute, the quiet sounds of the ocean in front of you and the distant sound of a fish jumping, trying to catch a bug flying across the water.
You smile at him again, looking back over the water.
JJ studies your profile for a moment, taking a hit off of his joint before passing it back to you, still staring at you. His eyes linger on your eyes, before slowly dropping down to your lips. He watches you, the soft expression on your face and how your hair blows in the wind. Heâs always liked the way you look when youâre relaxed. You always look pretty, but you really look beautiful when youâre relaxed, when thereâs no stress or worry in your mind.Â
He studies your face, committing every detail to memory. He sits up straighter, placing the joint back in his mouth. He hesitates before throwing one arm around your shoulder, pulling you closer to his side. You oblige, slotting yourself against him, leaning your head against his shoulder.Â
He smiles to himself, feeling you move closer. His arm tightens around you, fingers absentmindedly tracing circles into your shoulder. He watches the sun over the ocean, noticing how the light dances over the rippling water. He takes the joint from his mouth once again, taking a hit. He holds it in his lungs for a second, before leaning forward slightly, his gaze shifting down to your cheek. He lets out a cloud of smoke from his mouth, the smoke hovering in the air between the two of you.
You take the joint from him and take a hit before handing it back, holding it in your lungs before exhaling slowly. You look up at him, watching as he puts the joint in his mouth as he shifts in the sand. You smile softly again, admiring the way his eyes shine in the pink and orange hues of the setting sun.
Sometimes the one you want is not the one you need.
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the 141 and their obsessed girlfriend
pairing: task force 141 (ghost, gaz, price, soap) x female readerÂ
synopsis: you love your boyfriend, maybe a little too much that some of the things you say are... concerning to say the least.
warnings: kind of gory for simon, sexual innuendo, death threat, reader is just unhinged and in love with her man fr
a/n: if you get it, you get it. these all may or may nOT be things I've said to my boyfriend to which he said I was "batshit crazy but in a sexy way"
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Ghost:
You sigh, laying your head down on Simonâs chest. His reaction is instinctive, an arm wrapping around you and pulling you closer. You snuggle further into him, his warmth radiating onto your skin. A reminder to you of where your home truly was.Â
You can hear his heartbeat in his chest, pumping at a steady pace. You count each thump, rhythmic and soft. Faintly, you hear the sound of air moving in and out of his lungs and the slight bubbling of his stomach from the food you had eaten earlier.Â
Simonâs hand strokes your lower back, drawing circles as his eyes focus on the rugby match. Heâs unaware of his actions, something heâs too used to when he lies with you. He likes feeling the warmth, the subtle pulse, and shivers. Itâs a reminder that youâre real.Â
Youâre too lost in his heartbeat to hear the narration of the game. There was something so comforting to listen to him, affirming what you knew was true. Your boyfriend was alive, his heart circulating the blood through his body. You push yourself further into his chest, wanting to be closer. You couldnât get any closer, you knew that, but you needed to be. There was some part of you that kept urging for it.Â
âSimon,â You call out.Â
He looks down at you. âHm?â
You meet his eyes. âI want to cut through your skin, open your ribcage, and feel your heart.â You said it casually, not faltering and maintaining eye contact with him. You needed to crawl into his chest and live there, be one with him. Closer.Â
Simon doesnât flinch. He doesnât even blink at your words. âIâd want nothing more than to have you cradle my heart in your hands.âÂ
You move to straddle him, resting your legs on either side of his hips and leaning your chin on his sternum so you can really look at him. âYou donât think Iâm crazy?â
He scoffs. âQuite the opposite.â
âEven if I want to live inside your chest?â
âIf I could make that happen, I would.â He runs a hand through your hair, tugging gently at the knots.Â
You smile at him. âIâd let you live in mine and use my lungs as your personal trampoline.âÂ
Simon chuckles a beautiful sound to you and lets his hand rest on your hips. âI would be honored.âÂ
You trace patterns on his chest, huffing. âI just want to live in you.âÂ
âUnfortunately, youâll just have to settle for my dick in you.â
You purse your lips from on top of him. âI guess thatâll do.â
Gaz:
You set your phone on the bedside table, lying on your side to look at your boyfriend. He was shirtless, with nothing but his briefs on in bed. Your eyes trace up and down him, taking in all the curves of his muscles and the lines of his abs to the slight stubble of a beard and the downward slope of his nose. God, he was so pretty.Â
As if on cue, he turns to look at you. âWhat?â He murmurs in that voice of his. Kind, but a hint of grit to it. He made it so easy for your thoughts to run wild. You wanted to have his kids. See his eyes in them, the curve of his nose. Actually, scratch that you wantedââI wanna get you pregnant,â You blurt out.Â
Kyle laughs, loud. He isnât sure he quite heard you correctly. He hopes he did, but then again, you did have a knack for breaking silence with something worth talking about. âWhat?âÂ
âI wanna get you pregnant,â You repeat.Â
He stills, staring at you and how your face is unwavering. Heâs not quite sure what to make of that sentence. He stares at you, your lips pursed in thought and eyes sparkling with a bit of mischief. âThatâs simply not possible.âÂ
âI know,â You said. âBut I just want to be able to like fuck you for once.âÂ
âOh my god.âÂ
You shake your head, suddenly aware of how unhinged you sound. But thatâs just what Kyle did to you. You were downright obsessed with him. Everything about him made your thoughts melt into a pile of mush and goo. One look at him had you practically reeling. You couldnât fathom how he was real and yours, nonetheless. âSorry! Youâre just so fucking pretty and itâs like I need to bend you ovâ,âÂ
âBabe,â He cuts you off. âOkay! I get it.âÂ
âNo, but likeâ,"
He raises his brows at you. âItâs not biologically possible.â He restates, emphasizing that he was not letting that happen and neither was the world. Thank god, he thinks.Â
You flop down onto your back on the bed with a groan. âSo unfair. We should be like seahorses.âÂ
Kyle hums, choosing to humor you. âUh-huh, sorry babe.âÂ
âIâm just so obsessed with you. I have so many feelings I just⌠I donât know what to do with it.âÂ
Kyleâs hand traces up and down your arm. âWell, we could start with not getting me pregnant.â He moves to situate himself on top of you, pressing his nose into your neck. âBut maybe thereâs a compromise here, hm?â He kisses the soft skin, and once again, your brain melts into nothing. He was so good to you. He made it easy for you to forget everything in the world but his name on your tongue. So you couldnât get him pregnant. There was a better idea ahead.Â
âSounds good to me.âÂ
Soap:Â
You sat at the table next to Johnny, coffee in hand. You both sit in silence, observing the people passing by on the street. You make note of a man frantically texting on his phone, a little girl chasing after a bird, a couple clinging on to each other.Â
People watching. A favorite pastime for the two of you.Â
You watch as a girl walks by, her gaze lingering on your boyfriend a second longer than youâd like. Her eyes rake up and down his figure, and she pulls out her phone, no doubt texting someone.Â
You turn to Johnny, whoâs oblivious to it. âIâm going to fucking kill her.â
His head snaps towards you. âWhat, love?âÂ
âThat girl,â You gesture with your head. âIâm going to kill her.âÂ
âWhy?âÂ
âShe looked at you.âÂ
Your boyfriend nearly spits out his coffee. âSo youâre gonna kill her?âÂ
You glare at him. âThatâs merciful.âÂ
âOh really?â He jests you.Â
You nod your head, setting down your coffee and pulling out your phone. âIf I really wanted to fuck with her, then I could find her home address and slightly misplace all the objects in her flat and watch her go insane.â
Johnny stares at you, concern etched into his face. His eyes sweep your face for any ounce of joke, but he knows youârenot. He always wanted a possessive girlfriend. âYouâre crazy.âÂ
âCrazy about you,â You correct. âIf I ever see anyone look at you like that again, Iâm going to call an airstrike on them.âÂ
He grabs your hands. âLove, you never have to worry about anyone else.â
âI donât worry. They should worry. If they wanna stare, then they can stare at the ceiling before I gouge their eyes out.âÂ
Johnny sighs. He loves you, truly. But to say you werenât sometimes a little unhinged was an understatement. You always had a jealous streak about you, itâs what initially drew him in. That fire he saw in your eyes, dangerous but beckoning him closer. The idea of a possessive girlfriend really did turn him on. It was just moments like these that he wished he could carry around a giant sign that said âPlease donât look at me unless you wanna die.âÂ
âYouâre something else, you know?â He asked, running his thumb over your knuckles.Â
You melt a little at the gesture, and he can see your shoulders relax. âYouâre mine.âÂ
He presses a quick kiss to your lips. âTrue, and you never have to do that. So please stop threatening random people on the street in public.âÂ
You smile at him. He was so sweet. âYouâll never find a bitch crazier than me, baby.âÂ
âI never want to,â Johnny insists. âThough, you can show me crazy in a different wayâŚâÂ
You can see his eyes sparkling with something and you bite your lip, grabbing his hands. âLetâs go home.âÂ
Price:
Youâre sat next to Price on the couch. Heâs got a hand slung over your shoulder, keeping you close as you lean your head into the crook of his neck. He was warm, a giant teddy bear covered in rippling muscles. His beard scratches the top of your head, but itâs not uncomfortable. In fact, you love the feeling of it when youâre kissing. The soft pinch of his hair against your face.Â
But honestly, you loved everything about him. There wasnât one thing about him you could dislike. Well, maybe that he was gone so long sometimes. In reality, it just made you want him more though. It created special moments like this, where you knew time was futile.Â
You sigh, playing with the hairs of his beard. You feel like them against your fingertips, pinching and prodding.Â
You gaze up at your husband, his blue eyes focused on the screen and dark lashes contrasting with his pale skin.Â
âHoney,â You murmur.
He hums, looking down at you. âYes?âÂ
You cock your head at him. âI want to take your beard hair and make it into matching sweaters for us.âÂ
Price, unfazed by most things, is fazed by this. He could take a bullet, and wouldnât flinch at a grenade or a gun pointed at his face. But that.Â
That was a sentence he wasnât sure how to unpack.Â
âWhat?â He asked.Â
You giggle a little. âYou know, the clippings in the bathroom. What if I started collecting them to make a sweater?âÂ
Price nods, humoring you. âDarling, please donât do that.âÂ
âWhy not?â You pout, sticking out your bottom limit.Â
âThat would be itchy,â He insists. âMy beard is already itchy enough. You donât want to wear it too.âÂ
You donât, heâs right. You just wanted to say something to see his face contort. He was so comfortable around you that it made it easy to catch him off guard. And really, a part of you was that obsessed with him.Â
âFair point, I suppose,â You concede.Â
Heâs surprised you surrender so easily. âYou donât already have a collection going, do you?âÂ
You laugh, patting his chest. âWouldnât you like to know?âÂ
He pauses. âNo, I would not.â You snuggle closer to him, going back to playing with his beard. His arm drops to your waist, giving it a squeeze. âYouâre insane, my dear.âÂ
You grin up at him, planting a kiss on his lips. âIn more ways than one.âÂ
Price kisses you back, sneaking his hands under your shirt and higher. âAmen.âÂ
He was never religious, but that man did get on his knees for you.
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Dude this is sick, reminds me of this cool different Undertale multiverse idea I've made one day.
[this whole Multiverse happens like, years down the line, pretty much a time skip AU causing error and ink to be much stronger for some reason, there's a reason why I scrapped it a lot of the story is me making a scenario in my head and struggling to explain why it happens the way it does.]
In it error sans finally managed to end ink, and once he does it he regrets it later on because of the boredom that come from no one on his level to really attempt to fight back against him destroying things, and since there was no one making Another AU protector for so long, he needed to slow down on destroying the AU's because of [reasons that don't really make any sense for his canon character to do, because he would probably destroy them all regardless of how he would feel about it afterwards, which is why I've made this a completely different multiverse altogether AND scrapped it.]
Because in this MV (MultiVerse) he would die of absolute boredom if he actually destroyed everything in one swoop, so he needed to balance destroying things and then wait for creators to create more anomalies for him to destroy, which he finds really annoying, so in his absolute bored out of his mind state, he makes the choice to create something himself.
A replacement for ink that could rival him and force creators to work overtime and make more anomalies for him to destroy, he takes a pen and paper and sketches a sans design heavily based on ink, which is why this version of "ink" is named "sketch!sans" with nicknames like "sketchy, sketched, sketchup." [Ketchup joke, made by either classic sans or fresh sans, haven't really chosen who did it, could be any Sans', really.]
Then to bring this character to life error after a while of trying he would get really frustrated, because he doesn't know how to do it, making him throw the drawing away.
Causing it to fall down to the bottom of ink's doodle sphere where the remains of the destroyed AU's remained or something causing sketch sans to actually be created...
[...This only works here because I reworked what happens once you destroy an au, in this multiverse once you destroy an AU, the Portal to said AU in the doodle sphere turns into magic ink and it remains at the bottom of the doodle sphere for the rest of eternity, but thanks to how many AU's we're destroyed they accumulated and mixed together, making a huge mess.]
Thanks to the ink being mixed together this version of ink sans would come out with a lot defects, he would come out of the ink "colorless" or just "black, white and grey." Being straight up a blank Canvas, a husk of what the real ink is supposed to be, so a lot of his emotions were muddled and he didn't act like what you'd expect ink to act like...
...Causing sketch sans to be very insecure? Maybe, his whole character arc that I've had planned for him is him trying to live up to error's expectations and straight up trying his damnest to act like ink would, causing a lot of identity crisis's until he met the star Sanses and they explain to him why he simply can't get his whole attempt to imitate ink right, so they introduce him to the vials ink used to act the way he did, then sketch would start going after said vials to act more like ink, as he kept finding and drinking more of these vials he would slowly and surely becoming a lot more like ink and he would regain his colors with each vial, with error constantly encouraging this to make him keep going and get the real ink back, thanks to error's inability to care for sketch's whole identity crisis causing sketch to reach his breaking point when he meets Cross!Sans and his whole thing and experience with identity crisis's and making him realize how abusive this relationship with error is, causing him to either cut ties with error or just become his own person and completely ignore error's wishes, and just deal with him without the pressure of having to act like ink, or whatever, I don't have a proper ending to it.
It was nice getting this off my chest and head.
ERROR!INK (ASYNC SANS)
ok so, finally came with a full idea of this character:D an error version of ink. i'll be listing some facts and clarifications about him to prevent any kind of confusion, just under the cut!
i wanted to write his entire backstory on here but it ended up being a little too much longer than i expected so maybe i'll make a comic about it- or no (wheheh). but basically everything started when he also tore his soul but appeared in the anti-void instead of a normal void that would eventually become his doodle sphere
now, his design choices
he's wearing the first ever clothes he used in His Story comic
his eyes colors were chosen thanks to their inverts, those specific magenta and blue are the opposites of green and yellow, the first colors he experienced in his original story
the marks on his body are white to represent the meaning of the few white garments in his original design: "The white layer underneath says how he attempts to hide who he is, but his emptiness sometimes shines through."
his "tattoos" are no longer illegible when he turns into an error, they become common binary codes (the font used for these is Note This, ink's official font)
the red (magenta) eye is on the right side to somehow symbolize the blood his "scar" would cause
there is no yellow on his clothes to show how secretive he is, as he constantly hides half his face in his scarf
personality traits and extra facts!
as said before he is someone incredibly reserved, mostly because while being in his 5 senses he is afraid of his self without his doses of paints and tries to not attract attention
nonetheless, he likes being around people, he would probably travel across universes to hang out hidden in crowded places
the "specific situations" mentioned on the first part of the sheet refer, for the most part, to self-defense. but there may be other situations where he simply creates stuff that people ask for from time to time
compared to his original counterpart, he will take much longer to drain as he'll rarely use his powers
if he talks for too much time he'll glitch for an instant and forget everything he was saying. that is one of the reason he doesn't enjoy talking so much
when he's in the doodle sphere he often has momentary traumatic hallucinations, so he tries to leave that place as quickly as possible
these previously mentioned hallucinations also happen in panic situations or as a sign that the ingested paints are no longer effective
okie dokie i think that's all for now<3 if anything comes to my mind later or anytime i'll try to post it or smth! hope you like itđŤś
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Lorraine Baines McFly and Female Autonomy
Hello. I have spent the past month slowly losing my mind about Lorraine Baines McFly, Marty's mom in Back to the Future, so I am finally trying to articulate some of the reasons I'm so feral about her.
There's a quote from Lea Thompson, the actress who played Lorraine, that goes, "The three parts that women usually get to play are virgins, whores, and mothers, and in Back to the Future Part II, I got to play all three." While this is commentary on Hollywood and the limited roles that fictional women get forced into, I think it's also interesting to think about it in terms of how these roles are reflected onto actual women and used to limit their personhood and confine them to a very narrow range of acceptable behaviors . . . and then in turn to think about how the character interacts with these roles on a Watsonian level. They're affecting not just Lorraine the character as she was written, but Lorraine from an in-universe perspective trying to navigate life as a woman in a patriarchal world. Some of the sexism she faces is a deliberate narrative choice and some of it is a result of the writers' blind spots, but for the purpose of this essay I'm less interested in teasing out which threads are which and more in looking at it holistically.
Because the thing about Lorraine is that she's aware of what the acceptable roles and behaviors for women are, and the versions that we see of her across the various timelines alternately fight against and capitulate to these constraints. What is a woman allowed to be? How much is Lorraine willing to break from those restrictions? How much does she allow other women to break from them? Does she resent her role or embrace it? I have a lot of thoughts specifically about how the different iterations of her interact with concepts of female agency and autonomy.
(Putting this under a cut because it is. Long.)
I started thinking about this when I was talking with my partner about 50's Lorraine. She's extremely active and driven and planning to Get What She Wants (in a way that is very scary, if you are Marty) . . . but at the same time she's clearly aware that she isn't supposed to be. A Good Fifties Girl is demure and passive. Lorraine isn't--but she's still trying to toe the line. I think constantly about the scene where she shows up at Doc's garage to be like "I followed you home . . . so that I can ask you to ask me to the dance." The girl can embrace borderline stalking but she draws the line at directly asking a boy out! She's exercising a lot of agency but views doing so as rebellious and subversive--and risky.
And I also want to talk about the whole "boy crazy" thing because like . . . society (especially in the fifties) tells women that the most important thing they can possibly do is find a good man and become wives and mothers, that this will define the success or failure of their entire lives (and given how many things were unavailable to single women at the time this is in many ways true) . . . and then relentlessly mocks and punishes anyone who actually takes an interest in pursuing this instead of just sitting back passively and waiting. She is trying to do what society says will make her happy! And even her desire for a white knight is very much based in the reality of her situation! She's getting sexually harassed at school and around town and she's doing exactly what she's supposed to and standing up for herself and saying no and fighting back--and this is not enough. She does need backup! Biff harasses her in the middle of a crowded cafeteria and Marty is the ONLY person who does anything! No fucking wonder she latches onto him as hard as she does! (There's. I promise this is related but there's a BttF parody musical on YouTube where when Strickland comes to break up the lunchroom fight he says, "Now, I can excuse sexual harassment, but LIGHT SHOVING?" and like it's a haha funny joke but also?? Yeah?? That IS how it works. The way Lorraine's being treated is so overlooked and normalized that the authority figure isn't going to step up the way he will when it's a physical altercation between two guys. Screams.) I wonder if part of the reason she stuck with George in the original timeline even though they didn't have a lot in common is that "I have a boyfriend" is a boundary that some people might actually take seriously whereas "I'm not interested" is not.
But. In general 50's Lorraine is very much about grabbing as much agency as she feels she's allowed to . . . and then Twin Pines Lorraine is what happens when she regrets the result of those choices (because while we don't see it, it's pretty obvious that in the original timeline she pursued George as aggressively as she pursues Marty in the new one), and so she decides to deny, not just her own agency, but female agency as a general concept. She leans so heavily on the idea that her relationship was "meant to be" because it absolves her of any culpability in creating a life she's unhappy with. She's rewritten her own past to view herself as a passive participant in something inevitable. (Exactly the view of womanhood that she was fighting so hard against in the 50's!) And she extends this idea of female passivity to the women around her: telling Linda that she should sit back and wait and a relationship will "just happen," actively resenting Jennifer for doing something as simple as calling Marty on the phone. It's a really interesting form of internalized misogyny, perpetuating these sexist ideas as almost a misguided form of self-defense.
And then for Lone Pine Lorraine this is completely flipped! She loves Jennifer for the same reason she disliked her in Twin Pines: because she reminds Lorraine of her younger self. And like . . . this is something of an extrapolation, but while obviously her husband and kids are still very important to her, it also feels like she has interests and friends and other things going on in her life, whereas part of the isolation of Twin Pines is that her life has shrunk down to the point where she's ONLY a wife and mother with nothing else to define herself by. And it also matters that in this timeline she has a partner that supports her, not just in the big dramatic moments (although also that), but you can easily see the dance as a catalyst for George actually learning to listen to her and stand up for her about smaller things as well. George McFly feminism arc. (I'm being slightly facetious but like. George starts off kind of shitty. The spying is actively Bad and I hope Marty chewed him out for it offscreen, but also his reaction to the harassment scene being "I think there's someone else she'd rather go with," implying that he sees what Biff is doing as like. Normal flirting that he expects to work. He doesn't GET it. Unsurprising because he is. A teenage boy in the fifties. But I do believe that saving Lorraine was something of a wakeup call and after that he listened to her about things that make her uncomfortable and gave her the support that she needed. Which would also give her a lot more freedom in this timeline because she has someone with more societal power who has her back!)
And then. Hell Valley.
If Lone Pine is the version of Lorraine who has the most freedom, the most opportunities to make decisions based on what she wants instead of What Is Expected Of A Woman, Hell Valley is the opposite. The things denying her agency in Twin Pines is largely societal forces (and herself); in Hell Valley she is actively being denied autonomy by her evil husband who functions as the personification of a bunch of sexist ideas.
She's been objectified to the point that she doesn't maintain control over her own body; Biff pressures her to get cosmetic surgeries so she can continue to look attractive to him because that's the only value he sees in her. Her physical appearance is entirely tailored to his preferences.
Biff's view of Lorraine is wife-as-possession. He treats her like a prize he's won and her kids like parasites. And he is NOT subtle about this. But Lorraine is still desperately clinging to the idea that she's wife-as-family. She calls Biff "your father" to Marty when he arrives, and talks about "our children" because she wants so so badly for this to be something different than what it is. It's especially terrible because this is a timeline where she got seventeen years of being happy with George, she knows what she's missing, and she keeps trying to force this new relationship into a similar mold even though Biff is openly contemptuous of her and especially her kids. It's been twelve years and she's still trying to pretend. To call back to that Lea Thompson quote: it's obvious where Biff thinks Lorraine fits on the virgin-mother-whore axis, while Lorraine is actively trying to centralize her motherhood partially because the kids really are that important to her and partially as a defense mechanism.
(And it's also such a bleak cautionary tale about how fragile women's stability can be when they're dependent on their husbands; Lorraine was happy with George and had a fair amount of freedom, but he was the only one with an income so when he died she was suddenly forced into a truly horrific situation because she had no other means to support herself and her three young children. Especially given that the Hell Valley universe is also worse in some broader political ways that mean there were probably even fewer social supports available than in real life 1973)
And god. It kills me the way that we see her lash out, the way she's clawing for autonomy when she threatens to leave . . . and then exactly how Biff levels all his axes of control against her. It's very interesting that his first tactic is consumerist (Who will pay for all your things? Who will take care of you?) and that doesn't work even though not being able to support herself is a very real concern. It's only when he threatens her kids that she folds. And then she immediately crumples and pivots to rationalizing Biff's behavior and blaming herself for her own abuse (in a way that is both HEARTBREAKING and also? surprisingly sympathetic and realistic for an 80's movie?). It's similar to the passivity we see in Twin Pines, but here we see exactly where it comes from. She doesn't have any way out so she has to pretend. It's the only way she can keep going. She has these flashes of rage but they're immediately snuffed out by despair and denial.
There's not a lot of talk about Lorraine and what there is tends to reduce her to "well she's Marty's mom" as if she's a boring character who doesn't have a lot going on. But even though most of her role in the movies has to do with her relationships with the various men in her life, those relationships are really interesting if you actually pay attention to them! She's not just (in the 80's) a wife and mother--she's someone who has a complex relationship with marriage and motherhood and the societal expectations surrounding them. She's not just (in the 50's) a vapid boy-crazy girl--she's doing her best to go after what she wants in a world that doesn't want her to (the fact that one of the things she wants turns out to be her time-traveling son from the future is unfortunate but not something she has any way of knowing!). She's stuck in a society that doesn't want women to be people, and she knows this, and because we see her across two different time periods and three different timelines you can watch how sometimes society grinds her down until she gives in and tries not to be a person. And also how, sometimes, she fights back.
#back to the future#bttf#lorraine baines mcfly#this is what i mean when i say that lorraine has SO many interesting things going on and i do not think that most of them were on purpose#but i'm here and i have a shovel.#anyway. i would kill for her.
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between the ride and the roses (4)
Pairing:Â Jungkook x (f.) Reader
Genre/Tags:Â biker/ motorcycle shop owner! jungkook x flower shop owner! reader, enemies to lovers, opposites attract, slow burn, angst, smut, fluff
Word count:Â 3.3k
Series summary:Â There's an insane turn of events when your calm and peaceful life is intruded by Jungkook, a biker boy who sets up his loud business right next to your own. Your paths cross under unlikely circumstances, starting with a clash of personalities but gradually you find yourself establishing a deeper connection with the annoyingly attractive biker jerk. You both have no idea what's in store for you guys as you try your best to put up with each other.
Chapter Warnings:Â forced proximity, jungkook is emotionally constipated, OC is clueless.
A/N: I really hope that fans of "Gilmore Girls" come across this story, because the town hall meeting scene is entirely inspired by the show. Iâve tried to capture the same essence and energy, so I hope you can envision it just like it's depicted in the series, with all the quirky charm and fast-paced dialogues etc etc. that said, I feel like things are about to take a dramatic turn. what do we think? ;)
part 4: mixing the grease with the soil
As the days slip by, the tension between you and Jungkook has become an unspoken constant, like the hum of a distant engine, always there, always humming beneath the surface. Itâs an unyielding stalemate neither of you seems willing to break, as if maintaining the distance is safer, easier, less likely to damage the delicate balance of your lives.
But then, without warning, subtle shifts begin to take place. Jungkookâs friends, once notorious for crowding your shopâs entrance with their gleaming motorcycles, now park further down the street. The loud laughter, the sharp revving of engines that used to echo through your workspace, disrupting your day, have faded into memory. The newfound peace feels like a long-overdue truce, and while it doesnât erase the tension, itâs a welcome relief.
Your encounters with his friends Jimin, Hoseok, and Yoongi have settled into something almost cordial. A nod here, a wave there, brief exchanges that are polite but still distant. Itâs enough to keep things civil, but when it comes to Jungkook, thereâs no such middle ground. You donât greet him, and he doesnât acknowledge you. Itâs a silent agreement to maintain the distance between you two.
Yet, for Jungkook, the distance isnât as simple as it once was. The quiet animosity, the unresolved arguments, the invisible barrier between you guysâthey all weigh heavier on him now. He canât put his finger on it, but your presence has started to linger in his mind in ways that unsettle him. It gnaws at him, a persistent whisper he canât ignore.
He finds himself noticing things he shouldnât. The way your hair falls into your face while youâre tending to flowers. The way your laugh rings out when your friends visit, lighting up your features in a way he can't help but admire. His eyes find you before he even realizes heâs looking, and it infuriates him how easily you captivate him, how effortlessly you draw his attention without even trying.
It started small. A passing glance as he worked on a bike outside his shop. Then, the details began to add up. Like last week, when he saw you laughing with your friends outside. Heâs pieced together their names now, after observing from a distance.
The man who visited your shop that day, the one who elicited the first genuine smile he ever saw on your face, is Taehyung. An artist, Jungkook suspects, given the occasional specks of paint adorning his clothes, arms, or sometimes even his cheek.
Then there was Namjoon and Seokjin or at least that's what he thinks their names are. Their exact roles in your life are a mystery to him, but they tower over most people with their astonishing heights and they mostly show up late, long after your closing hours, often bringing you food or whisking you away in their cars for reasons he can only imagine.
And then thereâs a girl, Juwon, who seems to frequent your shop the most. Sometimes she buys flowers; other times, she simply lounges inside, waiting for you to finish your work.
Jungkook feels ridiculous for how much heâs noticed. He shouldnât care about the details of your life or the people in it, yet he finds himself drawn to them, piecing together bits of your world from snippets of conversation and stolen glances. Even the sound of your laugh, carefree and genuine, has a way of pulling his focus no matter how hard he tries to ignore it.
It hits him in unexpected momentsâhow beautiful you look when you laugh, how your smile seems to brighten everything around you. And in those moments, he feels the tension between you two fade away, replaced by something softer, something he doesnât want to acknowledge. You look happy, and it stirs something deep within him, something he wishes he could suppress.
He doesnât know why it matters so much. Why does it bother him that heâs not the one making you smile? Why does it sting to see you so effortlessly connect with others when he feels so distant from you?
He always tears his gaze away, forcing himself to focus on the bike in front of him, but itâs futile. The image of your smile lingers, a persistent flicker in the back of his mind.
The ease with which you interact with the people around you only serves to highlight the chasm between you. Youâre kind, approachable, a natural at making others feel at ease. And Jungkook? He feels like an outsider, watching from the shadows, wrestling with feelings he doesnât understand and canât seem to shake.
Why is it so difficult to be around you? Why does everything feel so impossibly complicated? The questions haunt him, their answers elusive, leaving him restless and frustrated with a distance he doesnât know how to bridge.
But what you donât notice is the quiet way Jungkook has begun to weave himself into your life, his actions subtle, small gestures that he hopes will somehow make up for the things left unsaid between you two.
Like that one time you were struggling to move a heavy bag of soil into your shop and he pretended not to notice, yet somehow, when you turned around to get something else, it was already sitting inside, untouched by your hands. Or the way heâs started parking his bike just far enough away so that it doesnât block your view of the flowers from the shop window, as though heâs silently trying to make your space feel a little more yours, and a little less his.
He never says a word, never acknowledges the thought behind it. He simply continues working, silently apologizing in a way that only he understands.
And then thereâs the smallest, most hidden gesture of all: the way he wipes his hands clean on a rag before leaving the garage to walk past your shop at the exact moment youâre working outside. His steps slow just enough for you to think heâs passing through casually, but if you weren't so oblivious, youâd see the way his gaze lingers just a second too long on you, a silent question hanging in the air that neither of you have the courage to ask.
Itâs as if, in every small action, heâs trying to show you something... something you canât quite see, something he canât quite say.
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Itâs a quiet morning when Mr. Kwon, a man in his early 60s and also the town head, steps into your shop, his polished shoes clicking against the wooden floor as he heads towards the counter.
Youâve just finished arranging a fresh batch of daisies, their bright white petals catching the light. He adjusts his glasses, eyeing you with that steady, slightly intimidating gaze.
âY/N-ah...â he begins, his voice as measured as ever. âI wanted to remind you about the town hall meeting later this week, on Thursday. Itâs about the annual fair. Please be there.â he says calmly.
You raise an eyebrow, wiping your hands on a towel. âThatâs it? No more details?â you question, amused.
He gives a small smile, one that barely softens his usual stern demeanor. âThereâs more to discuss at the meeting, so just be there.â And with that, he turns and leaves as quickly as he came, leaving you wondering what exactly heâs got planned. You watch him walk towards the shop next to yours and you're quickly distracted when a customer walks in.
Right next door, Jungkook is having his own first encounter with Mr. Kwonâs business-like approach. Heâs just finished cleaning his motorcycle when the town head arrives in front of his shop, looking like heâs stepped out of a corporate boardroom.
âJungkook...â Mr. Kwon begins âIâm here to remind you about the town meeting this week, on Thursday. Itâs a big oneâplanning for the annual fair. Since youâre part of the community now, I strongly encourage you and your friends to attend. We need fresh perspectives.â he states, eyeing the rest of the boys behind him.
Jungkook blinks, taken aback. âWait, I donât even know what this fair thing isââ
âYouâll figure it out. Just be there.â Mr. Kwonâs tone is firm, his back already turned as he walks away, but he suddenly stops in his tracks, turning his head over his shoulder. âAnd wear something presentable. Itâs not a garage.â he says.
Jungkook chuckles faintly as Mr. Kwon left, his friends stifling laughter behind him. âPresentable.â Yoongi drawls. âYou gonna show up in a tux, boss?â he jokes, causing everyone to snicker.
As Jungkook continues with his work, his thoughts linger about this so called town meeting. It was his first time being summoned to one, and while he wasnât particularly eager to attend, Mr. Kwonâs authoritative tone made it clear it wasnât really optional.
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The evening of the meeting arrives, and you walk towards the town hall with Juwonâs arm tightly clinging to yours. âIf weâre late because you had to rearrange just one more daisy, Iâm blaming you.â you hear her say and you laugh. âRelax Juwon-ah." you reply, rubbing her hands that held your arm.âNamjoon said heâd save us seats.â you inform.
As you approach the town hall, the streets hum with excited chatter, the townspeople preparing for whatâs sure to be an eventful fair. Suddenly, the low rumble of motorcycles grew louder. Heads turned as Jungkook and his gang rode in, their bikes gleaming under the evening sun. They parked with an air of nonchalance, right outside the town hall, drawing curious glances and a few whispers.
âFirst time seeing the townies up close?â Yoongi teases Jungkook as they get off their bikes. âI guess." Jungkook mutters, stuffing his hands into his jacket pockets as he waits for Jimin and Hoseok to take off their helmets so that they can head inside.
While the bikers still seemed to be parking their bikes, you and Juwon were already inside the hall. You instantly spot Namjoon, Seokjin, and Taehyung, eagerly saving two seats for you and Juwon. They wave you over once they see you, their faces a mix of impatience and playful annoyance.
âWe got prime real estate!â Seokjin declares, gesturing to the front row. âMore like you just wanted to be close enough to whisper critiques about Mr. Kwonâs tie.â Namjoon says dryly. "Someone has to keep the man humble.â Seokjin quips, shrugging.
You and Juwon take your seats and just as youâre getting comfortable, Taehyung grins. âSpeaking of critiques, how long do we think itâll take Mrs. Han to bring up her pie-eating contest again?â he asks, stifling a laugh. âIâm giving it five minutes. Namjoon replies as he holds up his phone. âStarting the timer now.â he chuckles.
Once Jungkook steps into the hall, he finds himself slightly out of place among the vibrant crowd of familiar faces and lively chatter. His eyes instinctively scan the room, landing on you and your friends seated in the front row. You laugh at something Juwon says, your eyes crinkling with genuine amusement, while Taehyung playfully argues with Namjoon about something he can't quite hear.
Jungkook feels a strange pullâyour energy, so warm and lighthearted, stands in stark contrast to his own awkwardness in this unfamiliar setting. His gaze lingers for a moment too long, enough for Yoongi to notice and nudge him. âSpot something interesting?â he teases, smirking.
Jungkook shakes his head quickly, looking away. âJust taking it all in.â he mutters, though the faint flush on his cheeks betrays him. He follows his friends, as they all take their seats somewhere in the middle of the hall.
The room fills with excited chatter, the buzz of anticipation thick in the air. People whisper eagerly about the fair and what it will bring this year. As Mr. Kwon takes the stage, he adjusts the microphone and clears his throat and everyone falls silent, waiting for him to start.
âGood evening, everyone.â he formally begins, his voice commanding. âThank you all for coming. As you know, the annual town fair is upon us, and tonightâs meeting is about planning and assigning tasks. This year, weâre aiming to make the fair even betterâmore organized, more collaborative, and, hopefully, more memorable.â He pauses to scan the crowd.
âNow, I know some of you have suggestions...â His gaze lingers pointedly on Mrs. Han, who immediately raises her hand. âMr. Kwon.â she begins, her voice carrying. âI really think itâs time we bring back the pie-eating contest.â she says, standing up.
Mr. Jung groans from the other side of the room. âFor the last time, Mrs. Han, the clinic is not sponsoring antacid tablets for everyone!â he says, his nose twitching. âMaybe if you baked better pies, fewer people would need them.â Mrs. Han shoots back, earning a ripple of laughter from the crowd.
âOkay, okay!â Mr. Kwon interjects as he holds up his hands. âLetâs keep this civil... or as civil as possible.â
Namjoon leans over to Taehyung. âThree minutes. Sheâs getting faster.â he whispers as they both cover their mouths, not wanting Mr. Kwon to catch them giggling like children.
Mr. Kwon clears his throat, signaling for everyone to settle down. âWe need to make this fair something special. This yearâs theme, âA Night in Stardust,â is all about wonder and magic. We want the fair to be an experience that stays with people long after itâs over." he announces.
"âA Night in Stardustâ, huh?â Taehyung whispers. âSounds like something out of a sci-fi romance.â he says while Namjoon smirks. âOr Seokjinâs poetry journal.â he jokes. Seokjin feigns offense as he dramatically clutches his chest. âExcuse me, my poems are classic.â
As Mr. Kwon continues, he outlines more exciting events, including a fortune-tellerâs tent, carnival games like ring toss and a scavenger hunt, handmade jewelry booths and various other things along with a stargazing dome to tie in with the theme.
At the mention of the fortune-tellerâs tent, Seokjin laughs. âLast year, she told me Iâd meet someone tall and handsome and that they would save me from a storm that was supposed to ruin my life.â you hear him say. âTurns out it was just Namjoon holding an umbrella when it rained heavily that one night in September.â The room erupts into laughter, Namjoon included.
âAnd weâll also have the hammer strength game. Letâs see if anyone can beat Taehyungâs record.â Mr. Kwon adds as Taehyung grins smugly, while Namjoon mutters something about âunfair leverage.â
âLetâs not forget the stargazing dome.â Mr. Kwon continues. âWhere weâll have a real view of the stars... no glitter, no tricks, just pure, unfiltered stardust.â The crowd applauds, everyone eagerly imagining the magical experience the dome will bring.
As the meeting continues, Jungkook watches the people around him with quiet fascination. He notices how easily they laugh and joke with each other, their voices filled with warmth and comfort. Everyone seems so relaxed, as if theyâve known each other for years. His attention shifts to you and your friends.
Heâs especially taken aback by how involved all of you are in the conversation. You and your friends arenât just listening; you're actively participating, cracking jokes, teasing one another, and sharing in the laughter. Each one of you adds something to the mix, whether it's a funny remark or a playful comeback.
The easy way everyone interacts with one another catches Jungkookâs eye. Itâs not just about the words being said, but the bond they share. There's a warmth in the room thatâs impossible to miss. The sense of unity is so strong that itâs almost like a shared heartbeat among the townspeople. He canât help but smile at how effortless and natural it all seems.
As he watches, it finally clicks for him... this is why the town fair is such a big deal. Itâs not just about the rides or the food stands or the games. Itâs about the connection between people. The fair is their time to come together, to celebrate their friendships and shared history.
Jungkook realizes that the fair is more than just a traditionâitâs a celebration of the townâs unity. Itâs a chance for everyone to bond, strengthen their ties, and create memories together. In that moment, he understands the deeper meaning of the fair, and he feels a sense of appreciation for the way this community truly values each other.
As the laughter fades, Mr. Kwon clears his throat, signaling the shift in the meeting's tone. "Alright, time to assign tasks for the fair." he announces, looking around the room. His gaze moves around as he begins assigning tasks to various townspeople.
Your friends Taehyung and Namjoon are responsible for setting up all the games, while Seokjin is responsible for the food stalls and making sure all the stalls have everything they require. Juwon is in charge of the performances as she's needed to choreograph a dance for the little kids.
Mr. Kwon continues his rounds of assigning tasks here and there. As he goes down the list, you shift in your seat, feeling a mix of nervousness and anticipation. When he finally comes to you, the room quiets, all eyes turning in your direction.
"Y/N-ah." Mr. Kwon starts with a smile. "Your shop will be in charge of the decorations... think glowing flowers, twinkling vines, anything that will transform this fair into something magical." he says.
You nod, a little taken aback by the responsibility, but youâre ready. The pressure is real, but you canât let it show. "I wonât let you down." you smile, even though the weight of the task settles in your chest.
"And..." Mr. Kwon continues, his eyes now flicking to Jungkook. "Since your shop is right next to Y/Nâs, Iâm assigning you both to work together. Jungkook, you and your friends will handle all the logisticsâsetting up tents, building stages, and making sure everythingâs in place and all that. You two will be coordinating directly."
A hush falls over the room. Whispers ripple through the crowd as the news sinks in. You glance at Jungkook, who shifts uncomfortably in his seat. His expression is unreadable, but you can feel the tension in the air. Itâs clear heâs not thrilled about the arrangement, but thereâs no backing out now.
Seokjin leans towards Juwon, his voice low but just loud enough for you to hear. "Oh, this is going to be fun." he whispers, and Juwon chuckles, eyeing you.
You catch Jungkookâs gaze for a moment, his eyes lingering on you a bit longer than expected before he quickly looks away. Itâs clear neither of you are particularly excited about working together, but the task ahead is unavoidable. Though there's an invisible wall between the two of you, you both know you can't avoid each other forever.
"Is everyone okay with this?" Mr. Kwon finally asks, scanning the room with a hopeful smile. "Remember, weâre all in this together to make this fair a grand success. Letâs show these other towns how we do things here !!" he laughs as everyone else in the room, nod in agreement, their energy buzzing with excitement.
For most, itâs just another fair, but for some, itâs an opportunity to come together and create something truly special. Jungkookâs eyes briefly meet yours again, and for a moment, the weight of the responsibility settles in. Neither of you speak a word, but thereâs a quiet understanding that the next few days are going to be full of surprises and challenges.
As the meeting wraps up, the lively chatter and laughter return to the room. Despite the awkwardness of the situation, you canât help but feel the tiniest flicker of annoyance, nervousness and excitement. The fair will bring more than just stardustâit will bring a new chapter for you and Jungkook, whether either of you are prepared for it or not.
<- part 3
#jungkook fic#jungkook#jungkook fanfic#jungkook x reader#jungkook fluff#jungkook angst#jungkook smut#jeon jungkook#bts#bts jungkook#bts fic#enemies to lovers#jungkook fanfiction
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Anyways I'm still not over my devil boys. Thinking about all the parallels between them:
Because like, the road to Hell is paved with good intentions, right? Draws in and punishes people for trying to be good, trying to *help* those they care about. And whether they succeed or not is irrelevant because in the end they're damned either way. That's the lie, then, that their sacrifice would ever actually change their fate.
And its just: HELL IS LIKE THAT BECAUSE ITâS A REFLECTION OF ITS LORD AND THATâS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO *HIM*. THATâS WHAT MADE HIM REAL IN THE FIRST PLACE AND NOW HES STUCK LIKE IT FOREVER!!!
That's what happened to Asmodeus and then he did it to Vespin Chloras and Zerxus and then Zerxus tried to do it with Pike too (in tlovm). It's a never-ending cycle where the one who's burned then becomes the fire for the next person!!! UGHHH
And it all starts with that one act of good intent, that act of sacrifice! Imri throwing himself to the flames, knowing he would burn, to protect his family at the cost of himself. Luz saving him but in the end he chooses to burn anyways, this time out of hate. Zerxus selling his soul to save his son and his world, knowing that damnation would be the end result. Nydas giving him an out, killing him before dawn struck but Zerxus stubbornly, hubristically clinging to life, to his ideals and pride, anyways. Choosing to burn and losing himself entirely in the process.
(Ironically enough Vespin kind of breaks the cycle? Trying to replace a god to remove a great evil from the world and instead damning it in the process. But when given his mind back he takes this chance and stretches it as far as he can, choosing not to be the fire but to give his world a chance at survival. Doing it knowing he will be hated anyways. Learning from his mistake, humbled at the consequences of his hubris where Asmodeus and Zerxus grew proud. Burning for it anyways. I get the sense that if he was given an out he would take it, unlike the other two.)
Love becomes sacrifice becomes resentment becomes hatred. Hatred towards those they sacrificed for because why did it have to be them who burned? Why do they get to be whole while I am broken? How dare they get to have light and love and happiness while I burn in the dark. Why didn't they burn with me? If they really loved me they would burn too!
Hatred towards those who seek to help them, because how dare you pity me. I chose this, I chose to burn! I knew the costs! How dare you spit in the face of my sacrifice! Did it truly mean so little to you that you would wipe away all trace of it!? Trying to heal me, trying to fix me, trying to redeem me, I did this for you! I didn't do anything wrong!
Hatred towards their corrupter, towards their damnation because everything was fine before they came along. Before they ruined everything! It's their fault for breaking it and now I'm going to make them pay for it! It doesn't matter who I hurt because nothing else matters except making sure they regret ever touching me.
Hatred towards themselves because how could someone be so stupid as to try? Love is weakness and sacrifice is for fools and those who throw themselves to the pyre deserve to burn. I'll prove it, to anyone who thinks themselves good and noble and true. Come find out.
And how could they not become resentful, to not have their love turn to hate? It's one thing to choose to burn and another to burn *forever*. A martyr is not supposed to live through the martyrdom, they're supposed to die. Their sacrifice is meant to have an end. They never got to have an end. (Though I will say, its very interesting that Zerxus chose not to die while Asmodeus seemingly *didn't*. He was dying, and the Everlight healed him. Gave him life but took peace with her.)
And the horns too! The symbol of their damnation, of corruption. But they didnât get it that way, the horns were protection first, before anything. A testament to their love and sacrifice scarred into their flesh, on display for all to see. But that love born of protection is forgotten, both by others and themselves. Twisted into something rotten.
(No wonder Asmodeus is so good at manipulating good. He knows how good people think because that's how he thought, once. He could be so good at being good.)
They're burning. Always. They hate the fire but also, also-- they want to burn. They choose it every time because the alternative is to sacrifice the one thing they cannot, will not--their pride. They would have to be honest to do that, wouldn't they? Honest about the hurt they've caused, honest about how broken they've become. That they do not deserve their fate (that no one does), that while they were burned once they do not need to burn forever. There is always a choice. They'd have to be honest to change and they never will because the Devil sometimes tells the truth he is never honest. He can't be. He won't let himself.
#every time i think im over them the brainrot comes back and suckerpunches me in the face#the devil never sleeps specifically to haunt my every thought#âzerxus was meant to be a paladin of the everlightâ nah man. hes a damn funhouse mirror reflection of asmodeus.#critical role#exu calamity#cr downfall#tlovm#tlovm s3#critical role meta#cr meta#cr3#cr asmodeus#asmodeus cr#the lord of the hells#asmodeus the lord of the nine hells#zerxus ilerez#vespin chloras#shelley's overdramatic character analysis
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#bumfuzzled art#fundy fanart#fundy#just a guy#just he#little man#smoll#taking break for personal things to draw him
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Lintroller fanart based on @justyouraverageleafykinnie fanfic?? more likely than u think etc go read that thing!! Could not stop thinking abt them!! and they cant stop thinking abt eachother, hell yeah
#thank u for writing such bangers#heres some fun facts abt this btw:#i added the little blood splatter on troys face as like a#âim gonna do anything to get back homeâ thing#and lint hurt their hand a lil when breaking peoples belongings :(( oopsie#also lint has bandages and troy doesnt bc the person who takes care of him isnt there anymore... anyway...#THEM!!!!#jrwi lintroller#troy lougferd#its a draw
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Finally, we get the opportunity to put our Spy Cards worldbuilding in a work. Though there are many questions about such things as "regulation" "how these cards are printed" "who approves a single spy card", and so on, we are here to present a bold new take: this game is based like 60% on obscure roach memory-reading tech that got turned into a card game with absolutely No card-game-related intentions included in the original tech and most of the card vetting is just from the fact that there aren't too many card printers out there and most of them make cards that need to be translated from Roach.
Strictly speaking, as a card game, it is not a terribly good or well-balanced one. It's popular primarily because of a mix of the difficulty involved in getting the data for high-level cards, the fun of seeing the variety of monsters that can be brought to the table, and the incredible amounts of ham and drama that goes into specifically the professional scene.
#we speak#bug fables#bold and new because we think that only maybe three people have even asked questions about the semantics ofc#notable points: professional spy cards is an entirely different thing from competitive spy cards#and the overlap between fanbases means that there is occasionally some REALLY incomprehensible beef about deck composition#also every time that carmina uses astotheles' card in one of her decks she has to pay him royalties#this is because he approached her personally about it. it was an Experience.#the roach tech thing also means that like a decent chunk of high level spy cards players know like. a handful of words in roach#competitive spy cards is generally smaller than professional and involves shit like actual deck composition and like#trying to get ahold of That One OP Card so that you can utterly crush people at the local tournament. actual card geek shit.#professional spy cards is basically wrestling in card game form and does NOT optimize the decks very well#because 99% of the draw of PROFESSIONAL spy cards is that youre gonna watch a whole bunch of people roleplay elaborate storylines#while also playing a game where most professional venues will invest in tech to read card crystals and summon appropriate effects#its a spectacle sport. specifically a spectacle sport where the actual game is mostly framework for Cool Monsters and Interpersonal Drama#carmina is a heel#this might be slightly incoherent but we'll clean it up later maybe. we are taking a break from sketching comms to write rn
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MY LOORD, I NEED HELP!!!
i need references for angry archer for my future art projects! He's so stupid i love him so much, i couldn't stop thinking abt him!!
PLS give me any screenshot that u have for refrence i am going insane!!
GOUUUWWWHHH THE ARCHHHHHHH lucky for yewwwwww I am also incredibly freaked up about this guy specifically, and I have quite a few images of him I cannot lieđźđźâźď¸đĽđĽđĽlet me rally all these freeks upppppppppppppp
#give me a moment this is gonna be like the master postâŚâŚâŚ I must show off all my arches now#love men who r canonically wearing tightsâŚâŚđ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤đđŤśđŤś#ALSO on the topic of drawing him! Little tip from me-#take several pictures of him and just start tracing over them. break down the shape of his body into a sketch#how it curves the shapes he can be broken down into like specifically his torso and his head#tracing very rather helpful in my experience!!! it will definitely be your friend here#cause holy hell mister Aaron Archer is so difficult to draw what the flip#another tip I have on the topic of tracing! I also like to practice the art of going sliiiiightly off model#when I say that I mainly mean like try adapting the sketch to your personal art style a wee little bit#what I like to do is tweak things like the eyes the arms and legs and stuff cause I personally have a specific way I like to draw those#thatâs my two cents anyways! I hope maybe these tag ramblings make sense and can possibly help a teeny little bit! :DDD#thatâs just my methoddddd you go wild with these thangs do whatever the freak you want tewwww the world is your oyster#ask#answer#transformers#transformers animated#tfa#angry archer#tfa angry archer#aaron a archer#aaron archer#maccadam
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i havent even read enough gl to justify the feelings and emotions i have about kyle i just have the lovers heart and also something wrong with me. and my projection. in my mind he's just like me. and he would have loved college vending machine frozen cheeseburger and heating it up in the microwave at 1 in the morning because he was bored and didn't want to work on a drawing assignment on 20" x 30" paper that was due tomorrow in his freshman year. he would have loved going to the club to push off finals work that's creating the worst stress known to man in his brain. and he would love to annoy the fuck out of his roommate when high and avoiding homework on a saturday.
#IN MY MIND HE'S JUST LIKE ME and i understand why he dropped out of art school also.#i need to get back to my readings but im too into thinking about the couple dozen issues i have read#and then going i wonder what he was like in college. and the answer is definitely fucking annoying.#if i knew him i know we would be not arguing in art history class. i would be saying his takes are stupid outside of class during break.#and he would go i dont know how somoene can defend british utilitarian furniture so vehemently and try to liken it to bauhaus design#our arguments would also stem from having very different art history and therefore philosophy education. his background would be from a pro#who would focus on european canon as per usual while my prof was coming from the perspective of someone with a phd in asian art history#and a curriculum based mostly around exploring and investigating non euro art work and how movements like modernism and#post modernism functioned in other continents.#this is such a main blog post but idont care. EVERYONE HAS TO KNOW HOW I PROJECT AND INTERACT WITH HIM IN MY MIND#he would also hate how i argue for art even i dont care about by approaching it at the philosophical angle.#'how do you like this it's barely even art. or it is art. but it's a boring cop out for suckers. honestly.'#'the thing is i dont like it. i just think you need to expand your world views and stop being close minded. youre limiting yourself.'#you might go eiffel what are you basing this on? the answer is vaguely remembered panels in my mind plus generally taste opinions of his i#can gleam from what art references they give him within issues.#it would also be funny bc like. he has a background in design... he's just stubborn and snobby i think when it then comes to the realm of#fine arts. i think his opinions and how they operate in regards to design + illustration + non gallery art are probably quite different#but i cant lie. from the singular 'i dont wanna be some loser who shows up with a blank canvas to a gallery' panel i remember someone talki#about in a post i have used it to create a variety of thoughts i think he could have had.#and the answer is the opinions of someone definitely a little annoying in art school. with a pretty standard traditional training#and background that stems from euo+american art history and sensibilities that inform how he interacts with art. which is very normal#but i think it's funny to view him as someone i would probably roll my eyes at for some comments he would be making.#and it gets funnier with how he acts generally as a person.#kyle you cant be this snobby when you are drawing pin ups of your work crush in your home studio...#good lord this got so long i have a problem. hi. sorry to my new follower your kyle posting made me go ha ha kyle. i like that guy.#static.soundz#back issues box#< it might as well go there bc i blabbed way too hard and too much. sorry. overtaken by an entity in my mind
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favorite part of work today was when i told the kids to get into two lines, n this one guy was like "i don't want to" n then started talking to his buddy in mandarin, n so then in chinese i was like, "hey, come here."
n he n his buddy looked at each other n then looked at me with like that faintly displeased expression that means they've realized they can't get away with not being that good at english (or feel terribly isolated from n indifferent to the adults bc they don't speak their language) anymore
and then when i told them to line up in mandarin they groaned abt it for sure but they did drag themselves into a line
#i walked in n this one kid handed me a book to read like a big hardcover graphic novel type thing n said i could look through it#so for kicks i started reading it out loud with all the silly voices n sound effects n blocking#and so then obviously the other children started to swarm me and god. kids have so much body heat#n you can feel it bc they have no personal space qwq#n anyway so i led them all to a different corner of the room and ended up reading 15 out of the 16 chapters of the book#out loud to a big chunk of the kids for like an hour w/a 5 min break halfway through for water#and when i came back the kids were organizing the chairs themselves into a semicircle to give me enough space to perform#i was sweating more than i have in Quite A While by the end bc again. children are So Warm n also being dramatic takes energy#the same kid who handed me the book today last year handed me some pokemon cards n i ended up spending all of spring camp#drawing pokemon from cards as references for kids to color n stuff bc i didn't want to go to the computer n print out coloring pages#so! i should probably stop spoiling/âyes and--âing kids at work w/my nonsense but it gives them smth memorable at least#but also i am so fucking tired today lol i had to leave class as soon as it was done dash home to drop off my jacket n backpack#i didn't even have time to take off my shoes before entering the house so I Did An Unforgivable Sin (walked around w/shoes on)#n then put on my work jacket n dash out the door again to go to my 5.75 hr work shift o(--(#i don't regret it!! i did tell my boss i was free for afternoon camp shifts specifically bc i wanted these shifts even tho timing'd be tigh#successfully taught a kid to tie his shoelaces today though!!!!! what's w/kids n always using the very tips of their laces to mimic you tho#when you are very clearly handling the parts of the laces right next to your foot. it did click for him tho eventually#the worm speaks
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I just realized if I want to write about Oppenheimer for my final paper for my west class I probably have to rewatch it and it is So Damn Long. Iâm also writing about it in comparison to a production I saw of Doctor atomic (the Oppenheimer opera (yes thereâs an Oppenheimer opera)) but that will be a little bit easier bc Iâm pretty sure no footage exists of that production so like at least I donât have to rewatch that
#if curious the class is like. stories about the American west#and itâs fantastic.#one of the best Iâve ever taken#I was this close to writing about breaking bad for my final lowkey but I donât have a Thesis#and I do have a Thesis here which is that Oppenheimer sucks#well. more. I want to look at how the movie Oppenheimer uses tropes of westerns#like. the single figure of an empty west reshaping the world#and the like the attraction of that as a story#and the thing is that it just like. is not fucking true#where they were resting wasnât empty there were people within a couple of miles of where they tested#*testing#and they made a conscious decision to test anyway bc they decided that they couldnât risk breaking secrecy#and that is NOT in the movie#and I think a lot of discourse Iâve seen about the movie about whether it glamourizes Oppenheimer or not#is kinda informed by that#bc my take on it is like I donât think itâs depicting oppenheimer as a good person#but it is still depicting him as a story#like his guilt and experiences are very abstract and Greek tragedyesque promethean whatever whatever#it examines things in grand arcs and asks the question of to what degree he is complicit#but doesnât show that conversation#doesnât show anything beyond the very abstract#whereas the opera though it is hella stylized due to genre#when possible it draws from the historical record and uses the actual things people said#however it also recognizes that like thereâs a lot that didnât make it into the historical record and tries to fill those gaps#like. not perfect still and like while I think the opera did better thereâs still much to be said for like. accessibility esp#anyway thatâs the essay outline I was procrastinating it by posting but I think thatâs basically the outline right there
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All your ninjago art reblogging has hit me hard with a realisation of fucking why do people bother to make Zane black if their gonna just give him the whitest blonde hair and blue eyes. It would be one thing if his hair was dyed but they put no effort into showing that it is, and he still has the brightest blue eyes ever. I get that they like the colour contrast, I get that they wanna show his ice connections, but if you wanna make a character black then at LEAST drop the euro centric beauty standards oh my god.
i do agree that I actually would like to see more of Zane with light hair that resembles actual bleached hair + brown eyes if he's going to be depicted as black.
Though I do think for the blue eyes part it is largely based on him being a robot, so like he's got led eyes that glow blue. maybe I'm not the best person to ask if this is bad or not, but I'm personally ok with this. It's not like ppl are supposed to think that's realistic (they're glowing robot eyes) + if ur depicting the other characters with non-eurocentric eye colors (like please. they're like all asian ....) as it further shows it's simply a robot feature (You can also argue his hair not resembling dyed hair is also bc of robot stuff like. Artificial hair ig??? Idk how I fully feel abt that one though)
but even then he does occasionally don looks where he's supposed to blend in with humans, so blue eyes can be a bit odd for that (in s8 though his human disguise had blue eyes in it... But whatever).
Another thing that would be cool actually for Zane to have light hair + blue eyes is for him to be an albino black guy. I do not see a lot of ppl depict characters in general like this, so it would be, as I said, Cool to see that. Still doesn't mean u can skimp out on making sure his features aren't eurocentric in this one as he's still black here
grain of salt for my takes on this since I'm not black I'm just passionate abt diversity in character design, feel free to wreck my shit or add onto it if ur more qualified to talk about it <:] ,,
#anon i also think a lot abt how ppl draw ninjago characters with white features and it makes me go bro cmon....#the other post i talked abt how i rlly specifically dont like blue eyes jay#give me brown eyed jay or give me death#like i said already i see all the characters as asian#(pls. just let me have this for my guilty pleasure butchered asian culture depiction media.#let me have them at least be asian and not white ppl in oriental aesthetic world)#so thats a no-no for me.#but also bc of the movie i attach the Pakistani headcanon onto him#so thats still asian. double no to blue eyes for me#Lloyd i can be a bit particular with too bc i like to think he has naturally brown eyes but Green Powers can make them look green.#like listen to me rn. You arent making the grandson of the guy who created this world White. You Arent. Dont Try It.#id honestly prefer if his hair was depicted as dyed too for that same reason#anywya this post is about Zane !!!!#personally i just cant stand white zane. too scary for me#and bc hes a robot i can be lenient on showing him with things like blue eyes and light hair as long as they're clearly robot features#like idk. due diligence besides that to appropriately show black features on him is the real make or break for me#thats my take a bit here ig. would still love dark eyes and realistically dyed hair#ESPECIALLY IF ITS A HUMAN ZANE AU. i wouldnt make that one blue eyes and naturally light hair#im typing this at 3am so if its incoherent and rambly. its bc it is#ask wooly???
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cw: shy!choso x reader, prone boning, college au. sukuna and gojo ver linked at the bottom!
college athlete!choso whoâs an absolute beast on the field. everyone loves to watch him play, itâs almost like a movie every time heâs out for the game! heâs always ready to charge headfirst when it comes to his sport, and he wonât let anyone take it away from him.
college athlete!choso who doesnât talk to anyone outside his teammates and a select few. itâs fair anyway, a lot of people only want to speak to him bc heâs deemed important, not like they want to know him.
college athlete!choso whoâs also known for his aloof personality. but when youâre partnered up for an essay, you soon realize everyone is painfully wrong.
college athlete!choso whoâs the most shy thing ever! it almost breaks your heart how he starts to stutter and avoid your eyes while you work out the details, just humming in agreement and you swear he almost passes out when you ask for his number.
college athlete!choso whoâs practically about to fall off the edge of your bed, trying to sit as far away from you as possible. itâs like trying to coax a hostile cat to eat food you brought it, but with the way youâre looking at him, choso is sure he wouldnât mind you putting him in your mouth just a bit.
college athlete!choso who finally warms up to you after a couple of evenings together. thereâs still significant distance between the two of you, both physically and emotionally, but heâs more open now. he can actually hold a conversation with you now, and he thinks youâre the coolest! he canât get you off his mind at all, whether heâs walking to the field hoping to spot you on his path, or secretly searching for you in this shared class.
college athlete!choso who jerks himself off to the thought of you after practice, making sure the locker room is empty as he moans out your name, wishing it was your hand wrapped around his cock instead.
college athlete!choso who forgets heâs supposed to meet up with you, cussing himself out when he sees your texts and missed calls. youâre super understanding though, and you tell him to take his time or you can reschedule if itâs better. but he assures you he can be there in less than ten minutes.
college athlete!choso whoâs at your door in three minutes, panting and soaked. you canât tell whether itâs from the shower water or if itâs sweat, but your eyes are more focused on the outline of his exposed arms and damp shirt clinging to his frame. heâs babbling, saying sorry for wasting your time, he ran because he couldnât find his keys! but his apologies are hitting deaf ears, your mind is definitely on something else. and he notices.
college athlete!choso whoâs eyes widen when you pout, shyly asking him to kiss you. this is something youâve been trying to avoid since the first day he sat in your room, but itâs so hard to hold yourself back when he looks like this!
college athlete!choso who presses his back to the door, holding you in his arms while your tongues tangle. heâs moaning around your tongue, shamelessly feeling you up while you grind your front against his hardening bulge. heâs almost embarrassingly loud, but each sound he makes sends vibrations straight between your legs.
and youâd have to say the same for yourself, fingers dragging down his arms, around his neck, across his chest. but the real kicker is when you softly place your hand against his abs. heâs unconsciously flexing beneath your touch and it draws you in like magic. maybe heâd have good core strength? youâre the one whoâs going to put college athlete!choso to the test.
college athlete!choso who passes your test in flying colors, prone boning you with an ease that has you seeing stars. youâre face first in the sheets, cries muffled by the pillow your head rests on while he slams into you like he hates you, much different from the way he asks if youâre okay after a couple of thrusts. you canât even get your head up! and heâs getting worried but you guide his hand towards your neck, struggling to place your head in the crook of his elbow before telling him to squeeze.
college athlete!choso who gets off on the way your eyes roll back and your voice gets whinier. his hips falter just a bit when you call out his name in that voice, and if not for how good you felt, you wouldâve teased him for the way his cock just twitched.
college athlete!choso who canât face you in class the next day. youâre a little sad when you donât see him, so you decide to check the field later in the day.
college athlete!choso who freezes up when he sees you waving from the stands. his teammates donât miss his change in demeanor, and they start to laugh and nudge him in the side, teasing him about the cutie cheering him on from the bleachers.
college athlete!choso who comes up to you during their break, face still blazing hot from the exercise and the memories of you from last night. he says he would have hugged you but heâs insanely sweaty right now. not like you wouldâve minded, that sweaty body was all up on yours last night like it was nothing!
college athlete!choso who gives you a nice long kiss before he leaves. trying to drown out the sounds of his team hollering at the two of you from a distance. you break the kiss with a laugh and tell him he can come over later if he wants.
college athlete!choso who forgets his keys and runs all the way to your place for the fourth time this week. he doesnât mind though, he just thinks of it as prep for the calories heâs about to burn with you in a couple of minutes.
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your superior finding out about the secret praise kink you didn't know had a name because you'd always been called an over achiever, a goody two shoes. never gave anyone any trouble, nose burrowed in a book since you had knobby knees and a library card.
you'd thought it normal that the apples of your cheeks burned when praised after giving your teacher the drawing you'd made for them the night before. that heat spread from the center of your chest up when your first boyfriend/girlfriend whistled at the sight of you outside of uniform. that warmth settles in your belly when you get a pat on the back from your platoon leader firm enough to force the air out of your lungs because you'd disassembled and cleaned a glock with the ease of a professional.
apparently it wasn't.
after weeks of training with the fabled task force, weeks of sharing elbow room with the team, weeks of soaking up the dizzying praise from the captain ("did real good out there, eh? can always count on you." you didn't question the throb betwixt your thighs, taking care of it with a cute little bullet like you've always done since joining the military)
you're confronted by the worst of the lot. ghost catches you in a break room, your back to him, hands clutching a cup of coffee that's more sludge than liquid, its warmth barely seeping through the styrofoam.
his figure fills the doorway, shoulders nearly brushing the frame. your first thought is that his brows aren't twisted together and he lacks that cold, blank look in his eyes so your death isn't in the nearest of futures. the second is that when he's not fully covering his face, the outline of his jaw is quite visible, looking sharp enough to cut.
then he crosses his sculpted arms over his chest, seams straining against the expanse of his muscles, head tipped to the side.
he moves with the keen curiosity of a predator sniffing around a newborn fawn, gaze intense yet inquisitive, assessing your every detail with a menacing interest.
"you ever gonna tell me you've a praise kink, bird?" the question sends a chill through your veins before turning into a fiery rush as it races at twice the normal speed.
praise kink? no. surely not. doesn't everyone like to receive compliments?
"sure. i don't mind gettin' told i've an impressive cock but that's bed talk. you look ready to bend over 'nd show us how slick tha' pretty cunt can get over a rufflin' of hair and a couple of empty words."
that has you positively reeling, fingertips cracking the cup in your hands, pulse on your neck fluttering. you feel a cornered, skittish animal, ready to flee lest your life come to an end in his maws.
but as usual, the cruel man more creature than person, twists the knife he's dug into you with a certain ruthlessness only he can muster.
"so be good for me, eh? love your praise? earn it."
you've always been an over achiever, proven once again by the way you take him to the root in one long, broad stroke with any complaints at the sheer size of him resting firmly behind your clenched teeth.
"tight little thing, spread open over me like you were meant for it. for me." he runs a gloved thumb over your swollen bottom lip. "there's tha' look. drivin' me bloody insane when you gave kyle tha' molten gaze. none o' tha' now, yeah?"
he creeps his ungloved hand down to circle your pearl with the spit-slick pads of his fingers, drawing in a sharp breath when your walls flutter and constrict around his cock at the feel of something other than your toy giving you the relief you need after a hard day's work.
"bloody fuckin' 'ell."
ghost claims a fistful of hair, pulling you closer to him, his breath warming the stinging, throbbing mark he bit onto the delicate skin of your neck. the shuffling of feet right outside the door snap you out of your daze, fingernails sinking into the bulging muscle of his chest but he has none of it.
he uses your hair to direct your focus back onto him and even though he'd only given you a leading tug you felt some strands of your hair come off with a pop.
"easy. can't see your pretty face when i'm fuckin' ya if your lookin' away."
your expression twists into what you hope is bliss when he bucks his hips, your whimper drowning out his groan when he hits on something new.
something you want him to keep hitting.
"exactly like i'd thought."
everything else blurs together after that, and only when you're back in your room using a warm cloth to clean yourself up do you remember the other things he'd rumbled.
(inside o' ya, make you mine-)
(-get 'bout bein' with anyone else-)
(-ll to myself-)
you touch your tender pussy with gentle fingers at what he'd said in the end.
(leave tha' f'me, he swipes your hand away, i'll get ya there, pet.)
if price's compliments take a nose dive off a cliff you don't notice because you're getting your daily fill of them and ghost after dinner every night. kyle keeps them to one word and soap likes to tempt fate as always.
#desperate gross old man definitely gets his ass chewed out later#what the fuck was he thinking fucking the newbie in the BREAK ROOM#not your fault though you're an angel and price will always have your six đđ˝#unless laswell hears of your shit then you're on your own buddy#simon ghost riley#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley x you#simon ghost riley smut#simon riley x you#simon riley smut#cod smut
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