#tagging all these because im bitter and i want ppl to see the kind of garbage acephobic bullshit i have to deal with on this site

[curiouskurona]

 ( for context , this was originally a comment on this post but i tend to be long winded / i could tell it was gonna get long so i decided to just maek my own post bsdjhgfkjdhgja . also abuse discussion tw for tha following + tha post i linked to , as well as spoilers for Princess Tutu )  

 ive made my peace with rue and fakir-- well , not 100% completely absolutely , but ive come a long long way from where i was when i first watched tha show , where i hated fakir SO much , and i had more sympathy for rue but wasn't fond of her either . in fact , where before i was adamant that i hated fakir , i can say i actually liek him now . didnt think i would ever get to this point lol . and i liek rue as well , though her turn around came easier for me          

 i feel like i would have warmed up to them a lot faster if liek . they got ANY consequences for their actions . im not talking about either of them being sad / having other troubles , im not talking about cosmic punishment / karma , i mean direct consequences for the way that they treated mytho . ive heard people argue that " well mytho doesnt have feelings so it doesnt matter how they treated him " , but that argument falls flat fast when you point to tha fact that they both KNEW mytho was getting his feelings back , and they did absolutely nothing to change their behavior . hell , they might have even treated him worse , because of the stress of tha situation or whatever . fakir pushed mytho's face against the mirror and said " look at this repulsive face thats regained the feeling of loneliness " . rue backed away unsettled when she saw mytho smile . there is no argument of " well he didn't feel anything " or " well they didn't realize " . they knew what they were doing   

 and they kind of just ... get away with it . they dont really have to acknowledge the way that they treated him past an almost throwaway line from fakir in the end where hes liek " damn i was kinda mean huh "         

 i would probably be moar forgiving about it if they got ANY sort of consequences ( narratively or through fandom perception ) for their actions , but most ppl dont really care enough about mytho for that . and seeing his situation be largely ignored made me defensive and bitter towards them [ fakir and rue ] . as a trauma survivor myself ( who heavily relates to mytho ) it was a really high hurdle for me to look at them , fakir especially , in a positive light , regardless of whether or not i could recognize their own traumas / understand why they did som of tha things they did .  

  and yeah ppl change n whatever . wounds can heal , relationships can be mended . but fakir never even tried to mend theirs . mytho never got any closure or an apology or anything and it just sucks so much . i mean yeah he got to tell fakir off as r!mytho during that one battle . but most of him being all * evil laughter * at fakir wasnt even him , you can see he doesnt even consider himself that person when hes staggering back to his dorm clutching his heart going “ what are you , who are you , whats goin on ” . mytho got to be a lil scoundrel to fakir as r!mytho but thats not tha saem as any meaningful acknowledgement / apology on fakir’s part      

 and im just . idk . im hesitant to put this in any tags , i dont think i will . bc i know ppl love fakir . but liek . please . can we at least acknowledge what he did . or are we going to keep pretending that his worst offense is being abrasive / grumpy . im sorry to have to tell you this but fakir’s ( and rue’s * ) behaviour towards mytho is literal actual textbook abuse . they isolate him , control him , berate him , lock him up , get in his face and yell at him , manhandle him , tell him who he can talk to , tell him what he can read , tell him that he has to listen to them and no one else . liek . hello . i know you dont want to hear this about ur fave characters but theyre abusers . its not even subtext its just THE text    

 the fact that fakir grows softer after meeting ahiru is irrelevant . him treating ahiru better as the series goes on does not mean that he is treating mytho better as the series goes on . him softening up and growing into a better person is not equal to an apology or any kind of closure or comfort for mytho  

 and dont even get me started on how mytho and rue should not have ended up together . no piece of media is perfect , i do have some things is disliek about PT , and one of them is definitely the ending unfortunately . but thats another post . and its purrobably not even for tha reasons you might think i have    

 also , this is not to say that i think fakir or rue are evil , or that they dont care / never cared about mytho . i dont think its as black and white as that . fakir and rue arent such one dimensional characters , silhouettes laughing evilly to themselves as they take joy in hurting him . i dont think that the fact that fakir abused mytho means he was never worried about him or didnt care about him . i dont think tha fact that rue abused mytho means that she never cared about him either . its messy . they were all put into a very straining situation . ive talked in other posts acknowledging the strain fakir was under , and ive talked at length with friends about why rue felt the need to act the way she did , too . but that doesnt make what they did okay . and i just wish that mytho got any sort of apology , closure , or comfort . instead of everyone going “ well glad thats over !! lets move on with our lives while pretending we all [ sans ahiru ] didnt just abuse mytho this entire show “       

 anyways this post isnt very organized and i purrobably didnt maek any sense . i was just rambling i guess . this is something that ive thought about a lot    

 * if youve noticed im leaning harder into fakir rn , its purrobably bc ppl are moar willing to acknowledge rue’s behaviour . shes loved as an evil gal girlboss or whatevar , even if its often joaky ppl are moare ready to go “ yeah lol rue was so fucked up “ , and have made a lot of serious fanart about the toxicity of her relationship with mytho too . but for tha moast part ppl shy away from putting fakir in any serious negative light . aside from a few posts ive seen ( that were a breath of fresh air honestly ) that talked about his actions , moast ppl portray fakir as someone whos grumpy and abrasive , kind of a jerk , maybe even a “ tsundere “ , but ultimately harmless . so i guess im harder on fakir for that . because im frustrated that ppl only care about shipping him with ahiru , and are more than ready to downplay how horrible he was to mytho so that they can pretend its all sunshine and rainbows with him or something . again it goes back to them receiving no direct consequences for their actions , narratively OR through fandom perception . rue is at least acknowledged as someone that doesnt have a totally great track record , in tha fandom                   

[nakasomethingkun]

⭐ director's commentary on 'one way or other(or maybe neither)' :)

hello! thanks for sending me this :D

unlike my other fics, this one didn’t really have any specific scenes that i had outlined prior to writing it. it was written as part of a gift exchange event and my recipient asked for something about neil discovering his sexuality, and the only thing i kept thinking about was how important his demisexuality was to me - somebody who is also in the ace spectrum. 

i just wrote about things that i would have loved to see happen to any canonically asexual character; i wanted neil’s asexuality to be acknowledged and understood without somebody chiming in to say “well, it doesn’t really matter because he’s gay for andrew. hence, he is gay.” 

it was worded in a much ruder way, but i had to read something along these lines with my own two eyes recently and i wanted nothing more than to burn the world down. yes, i know what you mean. yes, you’re not wrong when you say he’s gay - if you’re using the word ‘gay’ as an umbrella term for ‘not-straight’. the worst part about seeing what i saw was how that person who posted it defended themselves by saying that neil “clearly has internalized homophobia” and that “he never had a chance to explore his sexuality, so saying that he doesn’t swing is just an excuse.” i’m just. at a loss for words. mind you, this “”discourse”” happened quite recently, and i wrote ‘one way or the other’ in 2017. you can see why i think stories that explicitly address asexuality are very relevant and important. 

lmao sorry for digressing. back to the fic - one of the most important parts of neil’s introspection is how he thinks that even without his mother’s abuse, he would have still been in the asexual spectrum, because he was just. not interested in sex and anything related to it. at all. i guess i just wanted to have an ace character who’s ace because they’re ace, and not because it’s some by-product of their trauma, as it often is with sexually-repulsed characters or characters whose sexual drive is almost non-existent. 

which brings me to andrew and his role in this fic: an attentive listener. i didn’t want go deep into his trauma or how he came to terms with his sexuality or anything as such in this fic, but the line “I would not have done this with anybody else” was intended to be kind of vague because i wanted to put out the possibility that andrew might be demi-romantic or gay-ace.   

anyway. this fic commentary morphed into me complaining about ace-phobia in the fandom but yee haw

Fanfic Writers: Director’s Cut

[mcl38]

thank you for your respectful reply think just in a day when people are calling daniel fans all sort of names I just felt the need to address what u said! in regards to the tags u put, especially the ones about daniel's ig story, I am interested to hear your thoughts. Even as a Daniel fan, I can see it as tactical, especially now if he did know there were other discussions going on, but it also seems that it is something he almost had to do so that the media would shut up about it all and I do think he would have had to make mclaren aware he was making a statement like that...just interested to hear your thinking if you feel ok to share?

ok so. as i warned before i cant promise to keep my thoughts within the realm of like. respectful objectivity on this topic so be warned

essentially i thought it was really presumptious of daniel in that insta story to imply that the rumours were about him quitting mclaren of his own volition rather than mclaren firing him. when he said "i am committed to mclaren until the end of next year and am not walking away from the sport" it sounded like he was shaping the discourse as if people were worried HE was disappointed enough in mclaren to quit them before his contract was up.

i get that in reality its likely daniel is very aware that the risk was actually on mclaren's part, not his, and its likely he just couldnt rly frame it in any other way - especially bc as we have now discovered mclaren werent committed to him till the end of next year. it was a response to ppl who were already assuming daniel was a free agent, and possibly tinged w some bitterness that he has to write this kind of statement even if his seat WAS on the verge of being lost.

that said, to me it read like his driver's ego peeking through, like he can't picture the relationship between him and mclaren as one where HE has a responsibility and even after a year and a half of his teammate severely outperforming him he still thinks its solely mclaren's job to fix the issues no one but him seems to be having. or, even if this is just the way he's trying to showcase the situation to the public as if the rumours are so silly he didnt even figure out where they came from, it still felt like a subtle power play of you should be happy im even choosing to stay with you because look how worried everyone is (ie look how worried i can frame it so everyone seems to be) that i would possibly be leaving you.

thing is, by the time that insta story was released i had already fully lost patience with daniel's stint at mclaren. i was tired of p13s every quali and interviews saying he doesn't know how he's losing time or complaining abt having to adapt to a car as if thats not every drivers job, and mclaren app blurbs from practice sessions where lando was talking abt how to improve performance and he was talking about how he liked x country or y fans or had a good time for z reasons, but couldnt get the tyres to work or whatever (again im being subjective - not his fault lando is dry as fuck and allergic to fun in those mcl app exclusives). so like. i wanted to believe that hes at least trying his hardest and pushing for the team rather than for his own self satisfaction - which im sure he was, dont get me wrong, it would be stupid of me to say that i genuinely believe daniel wasnt trying, but that insta story certainly did nothing to help my frustration at the time

[wri0thesley]

many many anons under the cut bc i didn’t want anyone to feel like i was ignoring them and i wanted to respond to u all! warning for small text too, it was so long i wanted to make it look smaller fgbnjkgkjn

Anonymous asked: NAT... you can write WHATEVER you want! It's your blog, and I hope that rude anons can learn to respect that. I used to be on your blog just for jjba content too, so when you started getting into jjk I was indifferent but eventually you dragged me into jjk so hard!! I already like bnha, so seeing you write for it only made me happier! I hope that you continue to write whatever make YOU happy:) ❤and yes, longer fics certainly doesnt mean it's better, quality over quantity

ahh i’m happy that you are here for all three!! i always feel so accomplished when someone is like ‘your constant screaming made me think about jjk <3′. all three of the fandoms are fairly popular and i tag everything v carefully so i hope people who do use the filtering find that useful!!! 

Anonymous asked: Goodness gracious. People really be out there thinking they're entitled to dictating what kind of content you should be making

i think part of it might be that i do take requests so people feel like they have like . . . a certain right to certain kinds of my content? i take requests mostly bc they keep me motivated, i like making content for ppl who cant find what they want bc i’ve Been There, but maybe people think i am a pushover? idk i am just trying to have a good time!!!

Anonymous asked: Hi. I only started following you a few days ago but please ignore that rude anon. People are so fucking entitled towards writers it's insane. I recently had someone throw a fit for "spoiling" something in my fanfic, even though the fic was about a manga-exclusive character, so what did they expect?? Overall I've really enjoyed your writing so random assholes coming to guilt you is just a shitty thing that happens. Keep going with what you wanna do.

ah gosh anon i’m sorry about that :(. i’m always super careful tagging spoilers and stuff but like, if someone clicks on a fic about say, naoya or the steel ball run boys and is mad that i spoil something they havent found out yet . . . yeah thats on them fgbnkjgfkjn

Anonymous asked: That...that anon had the nerve to say "we". The fuck?! No no no anon, YOU'RE the only one talking and you're just talking for yourself, don't you dare try and lump us other anons/followers up with you to make yourself look like you're right. We love you nat and we appreciate you. It's your blog, you're allowed to write about whoever and whatever. This brain dead anon just needs to either go read someone else if they're that salty or write their own stuff if they're that impatient.

gosh i WISH some of my mad anons would just write their own stuff honestly. idk if this anon thought they were talking for everybody but i guess they expected anons to agree with them and not be mad at them. i appreciate u anon ;_;

Anonymous asked: Just want to say that ily and you’re one of the best jojo fanfic writers in my opinion 💗 I don’t think you’re half assing jojo fics and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you being multi fandom. A lot of jojo blogs have started posting about jjk so it’s not as if you’re the only one. I’m not sure why you get hate like this but I think it’s just because you’re one of the popular writers and that makes people bitter for whatever reason. Keep being you and posting about the things that make you happy 💕

honestly after so long writing for jojo - i’ve written well over 200 jojo reader insert fics - sometimes it feels like i’m retreading stuff, and that’s when i take a break bc i dont wanna half-ass stuff!!! i love all of my fellow jojo friends who are posting about jjk too, i appreciate them <3. 

Anonymous asked: Hey my dude, ur writing has really grown since the jojo days and its better and awesome seeing u become happier to branch off and write in different fandoms 🤌🤌 those stupid anons are just boring farts that couldnt be bothered making their own content 😤😤 is it possible to block them to ease ur mind?

hello anon!! i run a statcounter for IPs but it doesnt always work for ppl who access through the tumblr app, i don’t think; a lot of the anon hate i get i just use the ‘block’ option, but last night got to me because i’ve been getting that kind of writer a lot which is . . . a bad look for the jojo fandom who are, as a whole from the ones i’ve interacted with, lovely!!! <3

Anonymous asked: People often forget, the person behind art or writing, is just another regular fan. You deserve to be happy with what you create and we should be thankful you share your talent with us. You also have right to change your main interests, and it's very normal thing. Jojo is one of the MANY things that you write for and all you get from that is a like or share. Its not your job. It's your fun thing to do, in spare time. You haven't betrayed anybody. That person was just rude, selfish and bored.

i am just a person doing my best!!! anime fanfic is one of many interests i have and i already devote a lot of time to it honestly, i love when people tell me they’ve enjoyed something i made bc it makes it feel worthwhile but equally it gets to me a lot when people are rude because i am usually trying my hardest. 

Anonymous asked: Bro that jjba anon... the entitlement🤮 Fam, you write whatever you want to write😤 -Saturday

dfnjbkjnkgf i find most fic readers are NOT entitled at all and are just grateful but when they are . . . oof. 

Anonymous asked: It's funny how people throw "we got you popular" and they think you start apologize and cry. Your writing and passion made you gain few numbers on a follow counter, nothing more. I think I'm too old for stuff like this, we are nothing more, but +1 on a number scale. You ow us nothing, we ow you nothing. Popular... Funny word. You just write for fun of it, fake scenarios about someone's manga characters. It's not that deep. Have fun and don't listen to people like this. I knew it's not that easy, but they are really not that important as they think they are.

extremely fun fact for people who think ‘popularity’ is important to me: i would 100% rather have 10 people who regularly comment, reblog my fics with tags and interact with me than 100 people who read my fic and either leave a like or simply move on. i think this is true for the VAST MAJORITY of writers tbh. i’m glad that people think i am a ‘popular’ blog (i am not in the grand scheme of things, one of my ex-best friends used to run a kpop reader insert blog with like 30,000 followers) bc it gives me an ego boost lmao, but i really just want people to read and enjoy the stuff i write!!! 

Anonymous asked: I followed you a while ago for jojo and when my friends started getting into jjk i was like...eh sounds like work...but now that I see you writing for it I feel really motivated to get into it!!! I really enjoy your writing and I want to be able to read the new stuff too!

ah anon i really hope you like it!!! it’s only one season rn if u wanna watch the anime and there isn’t too much of the manga to catch up on either but it is a lot of fun and it’s nice to be in a fandom that’s like, excited about a new chapter and new plot developments every week!

Anonymous asked: Pls dont reply if u dont want to! <3 I'm not sure if this will be of any help to you or not but this is the kind of thing that often helps me and is the only way I know to try comfort others so I wanted to give it a go~

Now im not gonna say 'dont feel bad pls' bc I know that's not really useful but what I do think is useful is just discussing why that anon and many others feel the need to respond that way. As someone who follows a lot of writing blogs myself and have done for a long time, i've seen my handful of favourite writers come and go for different reasons, lose motivation for a while, gain motivation for a while, go from multi to single fandom, or single fandom to multi. Often times as a reader it can be upsetting when things change but it's also important as a reader to understand that some things aren't in anyone's control, I can't control what my favourite writers become a fan of or lose interest of, I can't control things in their personal lives that may motivate or demotivate them to write, but what I can do is support them as long as they're active, and if they move on to do things i'm no longer interested in or i'm the one that changed interests, rather than being upset that they're evolving to do other things or that they're not evolving with me, I think it's important that I still feel thankful for the works that I enjoyed while we were still on the same page and this is how I personally deal with those negative feelings. I think the anons that lash out at you probably just dont know what to do with themselves, maybe they got attached to your works while you were still only a jjba blog and now that you're evolving they're upset, while I understand how they feel, they're going the completely wrong way about it. I've learned to take these things and turn them into something positive for myself or at least something bittersweet that I can move on from but the anons that lash out at you for whatever reason probably haven't learned this yet. Maybe it's because i've moved on and changed interests a lot myself that I know how these things go for both writers and readers but those anons maybe haven't experienced this as much so they dont know what to do with themselves other than complain that you've changed and throw insults at you in an attempt to get you to revert back. None of this is because of the quality of your writing like they want you to believe, it's literally just because you've evolved and while some of your old followers might not like the new content for no reason other than it not being their cup of tea, it's definitely not regressed at all. You are pumping out a lot of content right now but every single thing i've read has just been better than the last. Things that really stand out to me is how well you get characterisation down to a T and all of your dialogue is just on point and from the pov of a reader I think those things seem the hardest to get right so I am such a huge fan of your stuff at the moment and I can tell you're really putting so much thought and care into each and every fic no matter how fast you're producing it, I think the fact that you're also proud of what you're writing at the moment really shines through as well and I just adore the passion that radiates from every completed request as well as in the responses for the subsequent thirsts resulting from these works that appear in your ask box later (I know i've sent quite a few by now~)

Just to be clear i'm not defending those anons in any way, while I can understand what they might be feeling/why they're reacting in the way they are I still believe it's just so immature to be hateful online point blank. Even during a time where I still got upset with writers if they started doing something else I still never targeted that negativity directly to the writer and sending rude or hateful comments whether on anon or not never something i'd stooped low enough to do even when I still had an immature way of thinking, however, I hope that it might make it a little easier to brush them off if we try and understand what they're really upset about, and that they're just putting the blame for their negative feelings onto the wrong thing rather than coming to terms with change themselves.

hello anon!! i appreciate the long message. i do feel bad for people who have no interest in what i’m currently producing and i get that they feel upset about it; i’ve watched a lot of fellow jojo writers move on completely or just stop posting, honestly. this kind of thing is why i was so intense about asking people if it would be better if i made a separate blog but the resounding answer seemed to be ‘i’m just vibing with whatever happens and i’ll block tags as needed’. 

i often return to works by my favourite reader-insert writers who no longer write for the fandoms i like (and i read stuff bc it sounds interesting or i trust the person who writes it), but change can be difficult and i guess at this point i’ve - whether u like me or not lmao - been a fixture in jojo reader-insert tumblr for a While so it’s probably kind of jarring. 

anyway i really appreciate you and the nice words! <3 

Anonymous asked: hi nat! I just wanted to pop in and say that regardless of what fandom you write for, the love and care you pour into your writing and into interacting with followers who care about your work as well is really obvious. you're doing this for FREE and people should appreciate what you've given us so far, since ultimately this blog should be for you, whatever that means to you at any point in time. it's ok to jump fandoms! the important thing is that you feel good about what you're producing and that it makes you happy. everyone else is just a bonus - but, seeing you on my dash certainly makes me happy : ) I hope you feel better soon!

thank you anon! i’m feeling much better and happier today. birthdays are very difficult for me (i did not think i’d be alive at eighteen, much less 25!) so this event is definitely kind of a way for me to concentrate on something else, and i’m a little bit extra sensitive atm. i appreciate you so much, thank you for the kind words!!! <3

Anonymous asked: Hello! I just wanted to say, write what YOU want and make YOUR writings as long as you'd like. 💖 To the anon who is like "We mAdE yOu FaMoUs dOnt HalF asS iT" stfu, let people do what they wanna do. If you think they half do it, write something better and longer you asshat.

this is an open invitiation to that anon to send me a link to their writing blog and i’ll hype them up i promise <3 

Anonymous asked: nat i'm so so sorry about that ask please know that your older followers don't share the same opinion :( sometimes people forget about the living, breathing person behind the screen smh. you are not a machine. you absolutely should not restrict yourself to posting about one fandom forever. yes, we're first pulled in by your amazing content, but we stay for your wonderful personality and work ethic. please just keep being you, taking up projects you feel comfy with! <333 bless u

ahh thank u anon! unfortunately i actually am a writing robot, i’m sorry u had to find out this way. my jojo chip has been removed, please send it back so i can continue to not half-ass my jojo work. fgnjkbgjkfn thank you so much angel!!! i appreciate you ;_;.

Anonymous asked: i don’t think it’s fair for other people to say shit about what you choose to write about because on tumblr and other writing platforms, writers are constantly developing how they write and the fandoms that they write for. it’s not fair for someone to criticize that “you don’t care about jjba blah blah blah” because you can enjoy new shows/manga. and like you said you’ve grown so much!! proud of you nat and im glad that ive been able to read your works (sincerely other nat)

i am STILL waiting for you to come and fight me other nat fgnjkbnf. it’s nice to be enjoying different things! i am constantly learning new things and reading new works and making new friends and improving and i think that’s important. i do care about jjba - a lot! but i can care about other things too! <3 

Anonymous asked: I may not be one of your oldest followers, but i've been here for almost 3 years. Yes, i started following u for ur jojo content, but let me tell u, ur newfound motivation and enthusiam for other fandoms was honestly contagiuos for me. And i say this as a person who finds very difficult to move from one interest to another. Jojo is great, but so are other fandoms. Please don't let some faceless scum rob u that motivation. This is ur blog and u r always free to write whatever u want.

honestly, i have been there! i am autistic and i have special interests and watching other people move on to stuff i’m not vibing with has made me sad in the past, but i want people to be happy more than anything and sometimes that means new things and change! <3 

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I saw that rude anon message & I just wanted to pop in & say that they're wrong. You're not betraying anyone & you should write whatever it is you want to write. I followed you for jojo & I'm not familiar with the other fandoms that you write for, but personally it makes me SO happy to see you enjoying new things! It's always good to find joy wherever you can, so keep writing what you're interested in. There a lot of ppl who want to see you happy and healthy <3

honestly the idea of it being a GRAND BETRAYAL is so funny, i am just writing anime fanfic here and thriving!!! tysm anon! <3

Anonymous asked: Those anons can piss off! They have no right to judge how long or how short your writing is. If they want longer content write it their damn selves. I think your writing has improved wonderfully and I originally followed for Jojo and I'm enjoying all the content period. I don't even watch jujutsu ( not my cup of tea personally) but I love seeing the creativity and the interactions. You write what makes you happy Nat and that's on that! You don't owe anybody anything! I know how hard writing is and when your consuming new content it's hard to make content for something else. That doesn't mean you don't like it any more your just doing something different for a while. Love you and your content and I'm enjoying the love your putting into your content whether long or short. ♥♥💕 Sending love your way!

honestly my idea of ‘short content’ is still over 1k words, i’m not good at reeling myself in! i guess it’s bc they see like, 1.5k jojo fic versus 5k jjk fic but it’s not that i didn’t enjoy the first fic, just that the point and the story came a lot quicker and so did the natural end! thank you anon, i appreciate you ;_; 

Anonymous asked: Hello! Just wanted to let your know that I think your writing is awesome, and that you should write for whoever and for whatever you want to! You dont have to stay loyal to one fandom or anything, and your followers shouldn't expect that from you! It's not like they are paying you to write, you are doing this for free, and because you enjoy it and it makes you happy! If they dont like your stuff, they dont have to follow you, they can go to other blogs that cater to their taste, and they definitely don't need to be sending you such hurtful comments, and they dont get to make you feel sad about your writing! Just because they followed you during your earlier stages of writing, doesn't mean you owe them some type of loyalty or compensation! You can write literally whatever you want as long as it makes you happy! That's what your hobby and your blog are for! I hope you know that alot of your followers love your work and think that you are an amazing writer and are down to support the work that makes you happiest! 💖💖

ahh thank you so much anon!!! i am always so bowled over by how many people are nice to me when something like this happens, i am sending you my love <3

Anonymous asked: don’t listen to them!! we love you as a writer no matter what you write, because you’re a good person and a talented writer!! you shouldn’t have to change what you write to please a bitter person, and if they only want jjba, they can go to another blog instead of bringing you down. you’re doing amazing and they should be thankful you grace us with your talents!!

to be totally honest, if i was half-assing or not vibing with content i was making i just. wouldn’t post it. like you’d be able to TELL when i was half-assing stuff just to get words out (source: i have re-read my own nanowrimo works). there are lots of great jjba blogs who could do with more followers n interaction!!! i hope they do find them and i hope they’re nice to them :(. 

Anonymous asked: Please don’t pay attention to that anon. People only have that confidence when they have anon turned on. Them looking through your blog despite feeling that way is peak fan behavior and speaks to how addicting your writing is. Naturally, you can’t please everyone and there will be people who are irrational and feel entitled to tell you what to do or what to write no matter what. Trust me when I say they’re a small minority and are more likely probably passing viewers rather than regulars. I check your blog about three or more times a day because I love reading not just your fics but also your takes, banter with other anons, or even random updates. Brainrot posts? LOVE TO SEE IT!!! Desk update? AMAZING!!! With that being said, don’t feel pressured to continue pushing out content for others. Write what makes you happy! You’ve been writing for JJBA for 4 years and it’s completely normal + healthy to get into new media. I’m not sure if it would mean much, but your love for JJK has gotten me excited to start it too!!

anon i really hope you enjoy it!!! sometimes these anons remember stuff i’ve posted and said better than i do tbh, i am living in their heads rent free i guess! 

Anonymous asked: I've been following you for a couple of years and honestly it would always be a joy to see when you posted. Your writing has improved and I'm very happy you're enjoying yourself ! I know it hurts hearing and seeing stuff like that but I'm happy you're here. I'm honestly blessed everytime you post. Your writing is phenomenal. I love reading it even if its characters that I dont care for. You capture their essences so well and weave an amazing tale within the prompts and whatnot. You're amazing nat!

wehh thank you so much!!! re: the improvement, i really don’t feel like it has and then i re-read something i wrote when i first started and i’m like oh my god maybe it has. did i really write about jotaro acting like that. 

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat. I recently became a follower of yours and I'm really saddened to see you get hate. You seem like a genuinely sweet person with amazing talent! I'm a writer myself and, unfortunately, get the same kind of comments. And when you get those comments, it doesn't leave you feeling motivated. People need to understand that people can and will, at times, grow out of fandoms. (1 Not just that but you're doing all of this for free. Again, I'm sorry you got such a comment. But please know that I'm proud of how far you've come. I'm proud that you're living a life that makes you happy. And no matter what fandom you may find yourself in next, I will always enjoy your writing. Take care of yourself. (2 end

HELLO NEW FOLLOWER I LOVE YOU (i get a lot more a day now than i used to and i feel guilty about not being able to look through so many blogs but i do try and follow back other writers for my fandoms!! ;_;). i’m sorry you get the same kind of comments! i’m always just happy to see people i like enjoying new things, even if i have no interest in it (hello to all of my mutuals who write for hunter x hunter and haikyuu, not interested but i’m sure you’re having a great time and i support you!!!). 

Anonymous asked: I'm sure you're getting a barrage of supportive messages now (at least I hope so) but I figured I'd add my voice, because I'm a longtime follower. Your writing is, and always has been, wonderful. I've been so happy to see you and Haz get to a place that works for you both. Idk if it's obvious for everyone, but you seem like you're emotionally in a pretty good place most of the time these days, and it makes me really happy to see that. I followed years ago for JJBA content, but I stayed because regardless of what content you put out, I find your wit delightful. And I'll stick around even if you move fandoms entirely, because whatever content or editorializing you produce is going to be worth reading, regardless of what it's for.

ahh, anon!! thank you for sticking around so long, sorry if you’re old enough to have been around the vore and jorts and spider rohan fiascos! <3 i am definitely a lot more stable than i have been and - barring the Pandemic Related Mental Health Issues - happier! i’m glad that it’s noticeable! <3

Anonymous asked: It actually makes me mad how entitled some people are. Nat, you're not a content creating machine and those who expect you to be are not worth wasting a thought on. Your love for something is not measured in word counts and for you to write every day without getting burned out in the slightest you really must have a burning passion and huge dedication to your craft. If others decide to send hate then allow me to send admiration because I can feel your love and hard work in each post you make!

i try and write every day bc it’s super good for my little ocd/autistic brain to have routines and distract itself, so i’m glad other people can enjoy them because that makes me motivated to carry on! like, i write for myself mostly bc the content i want i sometimes get find, but filling requests and writing for other people also leaves me with happy warm fuzzies too! i appreciate you!! <3 

Anonymous asked: If people only care about your writing for the jojo porn that’s on THEM, not you. Your writing was amazing when I followed about a year ago, and it’s only gotten better and will continue to get better! I think it really comes through when you enjoy what you’re writing and it adds a whole other layer of worth to it, because not only are you making free content but you LIKE that content and we can all gush about it together!!! More than just fans, I think you’ve created a community here and we don’t just stick around to read smut, I promise you that. -Reronon

i do miss having a discord community bc it was nice to talk to everyone in real time but it was hard work, i am glad that people feel like they can just come into my askbox and gush! i’m not very friendly in real life and people tend to think i am cold and stuck up so i work very hard to try and seem friendly and approachable online, which is much easier for me because i get to think and re-draft before i type! <3 

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I’m sure you’re getting a lot of messages like this right now but I just wanted to say for what it’s worth that, as a person who originally followed you for jjba content and hasn’t watched/read any of the other series you’re currently writing for, I’m honestly still along for the ride. This is your blog and you’re allowed to do what you want with it and put out what content you feel like writing. Sometimes??? People acquire new interests??????? Shocking! I know absolutely nothing about jjk or bnha but out of curiosity still read some of your posts about them and even though I might not Get It, I still enjoy them because I think you’re a very talented writer! Honestly, as long as you’re still writing, I’m still down to clown, and whenever you take breaks (which are important!) I’ll still be waiting for your return or supporting and respecting your decision to stay away longer. Don’t let the entitled assholes get you down. Utilize YOUR blog and YOUR space however YOU choose. Your talent and kindness speak for themselves. Love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️

anon i care about you and i am so appreciative of you and everyone for sending me such nice messages! i am running out of ways to say it but it’s true, it really does mean a lot to me ;_; <3

[zontiky]

okay so i tried to save this ask as a draft and it got deleted because tumblr is just such a functional website like that <3 but the prompt was “the hargreeves as ghosts in the apocalypse with five” or something like that i’m going to scream

this is SUPER long so i’m putting it under the cut hfkjsd

pre-five: the hargreeves siblings are dead. wait i feel a drabble coming on ooh

The Hargreeves siblings are dead.

Ben isn’t very aware of this at first. He’s been dead since 2006 -- he’s quite used to it, by now. What he is aware of, first, is light. Blinding white light. And Vanya, in the middle of it. He doesn’t close his eyes because he can’t feel pain, but if he could he thinks she would have made him blind. There’s light, and heat, and power, and then he closes his eyes anyway because the ceiling is collapsing around him and it’s instinctual.

When he opens them again he sees ash. Ash -- and Klaus.

He’s gotten used to Klaus, too. Klaus has a memorable sort of face; even if he didn’t, Ben has seen it every single day for almost twenty years. He doesn’t know if it’s actually been twenty years, for him. He doesn’t know how time moves for ghosts. Klaus has assured him it moves the same as it does for the living. Ben isn’t sure Klaus, stoned out of his mind, bleeding sluggishly from his arm, knew what he was talking about.

Anyway.

Klaus.

He’s wearing the coat he’s been flaunting around for the past week. His shirt is see-through, with little stars on it, like a pale imitation of the sky. Ben remembers his pants had laces on them, he’s sure they did not a minute ago, before the brightness that threatened to wipe out his very soul -- his soul is all he has left, really. His gaze drifts down anyway, to check.

Yes. Klaus’ pants have laces up the sides.

“No,” Ben says. Klaus is laying in a heap on the ground, his fingers curled like his tendons have been cut.

His lips feel numb because they always feel numb. Because Ben can’t feel at all. He takes a step. “No,” he says again, louder, surer. “No!”

Klaus looks up at him. His makeup is smudged, like it tends to be. His lips are bitten raw, like they tend to be. His hair is a mess, like it tends to be, and like it will be, always, because Klaus isn’t breathing.

Klaus is lying in a heap on the ground. Klaus is standing above his own body. Klaus is reaching for Ben like he’s hoping to touch him for the first time in years. Just when Klaus’ cold, dead, fingers brush his face, a voice from behind says, so quietly, dripping with disbelief: “Ben?”

Ben shuts his eyes and wishes desperately he could cry.

He feels a hand on his shoulder, for the first time in so, so long, but he also doesn’t feel it at all. He feels-but-doesn’t-feel someone turn him around, until they are saying, “Ben? Ben!” and he has no choice but to open his eyes and face the music.

Diego is gripping his shoulders like he is a dying man and Ben is the answer. Behind him, Luther and Allison watch them, stunned silent. Allison’s hands are pressed to her mouth. She looks like she wants to cry. 

And Vanya. Little Vanya, painted white. Her head is hung as her shoulders shake with the weight of the destruction she has so inevitably caused. (Ben would say he always knew she was destined for great things -- but he can’t, because he didn’t.) (Nobody ever said great things had to be good.)

The Hargreeves siblings are dead. Their bodies are strewn across what is left of their childhood home, smouldering and burning, and Ben is very aware of that fact.

righto anyway. so they have an emotional reunion but its also kind of bitter? id have to actually write this for it to make sense so lets skip it for now lol

five shows up

he cannot see them obviously bc theyre all ghosts

god if i did write this it would be such a monster of a fic and would take me like 2 years to finish i already know fhkjdsk

somehow ?? they manage to influence the world around them maybe? idk maybe now that klaus is dead hes sober

or maybe hes high for all eternity?

for the purposes of this au lets say he died sober or in the late stages of withdrawal, and bc ghosts cant feel pain in action hes sober

so EVENTUALLY they figure out how to corporealize bc klaus is like blam wham ghost powers

asdlfk that sounds so stupid im sorry

he would say that tho imho,,, it sounds like something hed say,,,

if i DID write this it would be alternating povs also,,,

ok so out of all of them klaus and ben have the most experience homeless

and while being stuck in an apocalypse is not at all the same thing as being homeless it does help to have some knowledge

five doesnt eat the twinkie!! good for him

dammit okay. theres 2 options we can take here. in the comics five couldnt get back bc he fucked up his math and spent 15 years doing the wrong thing, but if u apply that here, with 6 other ppl checking his work this could be avoided and they end up skipping the whole assassin shtick and just hopping straight back to 2019, ready to prevent the apocalypse

OR five still gets hired for the commission but the sibs are tagging along

i think bc five isnt completely alone in this au unfortunately dolores doesnt exist :((

for each other the 2 paths tho theres also options?? bc they (ghosts) can go back in time and inhabit their past selves bodies? OR they could just,,, cease to exist

IM JUST NOW REALIZING HOW MANY PATHS THIS COULD TAKE,, AAH FUCK

okay gonna split this into parts. this is gonna be so long brace yourselves.

1) they go back in time because math checking and the ghosts swap out for their past selves

after multiple years of being stuck in an apocalypse together i think they would learn to get along with each other. like at least a little bit

which would make it easier for them to prevent the apocalypse

bc theyd:

trust each other more

already know abt the apocalypse and not have to wait for five to grace them all with his knowledge

are working as a team from the very beginning

have open lines of communication

yeah uh. so there

vanya is also already aware of her powers so the whole harold goading her into turning against her family and snapping to wipe out all life on earth thing? yeah that doesnt happen

oh and harold wouldn’t know how to do that in the first place because klaus wouldn’t throw out reggie’s journal! this solves so many problems wtf

there’s still commission issues bc they (and by they i mean five) are on the commission’s radar

so there’s still dope fight scenes sdlkfd pinky promise

okay idk. they stop the apocalypse and everything is okay the end hfkjd

2) they fix the math but only five can go back and the ghosts cease to exist

this is just sad! it would be sad okay! im sad! lets move on

subset of the past one: ben CAN go back with five because he was already dead and time travel affects them differently or something idk

aaaaaa

five & ben dynamic duo would be dope as shit BUT five would not be able to see him... so they use klaus as a middleman fjsdsfd

is there 2 bens? is one ben deleted in favor of the time-traveling ben? i dont know! i dont know my brain is melting

either way shit is happening yall!! obviously klaus is clued in, directly or indirectly it doesnt matter but he is on board the ‘don’t let the entire world end in flames’ train

3) they join the commission and then when five goes back in time they all go back

this is fun because now five is a highly trained assassin who is also lowkey a complete marshmallow for his siblings and once again TEAMWORK WOO

basically the first path but now five has a gun fhsdjk

4) they join the commission but five has to leave them behind and they cease to exist

five with a gun but hes sad now

i didnt go into how much losing his siblings would suck in the prev path but like. it would suck so much. he’s already lost them once if you think about it when he time traveled the first time and yeah he found the adult ghost versions but,, its different

and now suddenly hes stuck with these strange adult versions of the people he knows and he KNOWS them but also he doesnt? at all? they dont have all the years of shared experiences together? and theyre all grown up from the first ‘set’ of siblings he had which for five was like 40+ years ago??

SCREAMS

i have losing my mind disease (self-diagnosed)

subset: five has to leave them behind but they still exist because the commission is out-of-time kind of? idk but they’re still floating around somewhere and come back to impact the plot later or something

yeah idk. literally just wrote them down bc i didnt want them to die^2 hfkjwehd

subset: they still exist but instead of being just Somewhere they’re specifically at the assassination of JFK onwards because thats where five left them and they either go on ghosting and make an appearance in s2 OR they cease because them-wise they havent died yet but that doesnt make sense because ghosts can time travel so nevermind

i dont have the brain energy left to explore this one aaaa

okay jesus christ i think that’s all

I DON’T KNOW. i don’t know. i might write some more of this because honestly it is a very fine flavor of angst + hurt/comfort <3

[081098]

bla bla brain mush of reasons i stopped posting on qi4n

changed my mind abt ot21. unfortunately i had kinda branded myself on it early on

didn't feel comfortable voicing opinions on my own damn blog

annoyance at mistreatment and fans dismissing it

annoyance at favouritism

mutuals being overly familiar n it made me uncomfortable

^^pressure of feeling like i needed to buy or stream everything even if i hated the songs and invest all my time/money/effort towards ppl who will literally never give a shit about me or i'm a bad fan

increasing discomfort with stan culture + fan entitlement

overall, interacting with nctzens and weishennies who tried to convince me to have certain opinions or to feel a certain way made me spiral into bitterness and rage and i bottled that shit up bc i knew if i posted ppl would hate me for my opinions

likewise, i genuinely like doyoung and jungwoo as people. their existences make me happy and i think the world is better because they're in it. but no, i felt back then that nothing i was saying was valid bc u can't like nct AND wayv. well guess what im a doyoung jungwoo akgae now and i cant think about nct without feeling stupid and naive. thanks guys. all i wanted was to joke around about 96 line and pegging jungwoo but nah.

school stuff. programming stresses me out and i actually almost failed that course the semester i closed qi4n

health!!! my stupid fucking knee injury, having to quit cheer + not being able to straighten my leg for several months (WHILE WORKING A STANDING/ACTIVE JOB LMAO) aka no exercise for u bitch really fucked with my wellbeing

gif making is tedious and i hate ppl reposting them no matter how ugly my gifs are okay

tagging things and keeping an update/fan blog is a lot more work than yall think it is!!!!!

also the tags. why do u tag every member if the post only pertains to one of them. shut up. i know why. fucking hate you. also there's so much weird smut holy fuck u know these men probably hate u right

kun red hair + minwoo. i know it's fucking dumb but i see him so much in kun and it fucking hurts. seeing kun interact with that grey cat made me bawl. the lion king references certainly didn't help, seeing as minwoo's cat's name was literally simba. i genuinely think i loved kun more as a result of my grief, my guilt at not loving minwoo enough at the right time. i projected mw onto kun a lot and for that i'm truly sorry. i miss you, lovely, wonderful man. the world was so unfair to you. i love you. i love you.

i didn't want to be the kind of person who relies on celebrities and pretending i know/understand them for my own happiness. idolizing people is toxic and it's so easy to get absorbed in it.

[lowkeysebastianstan]

hey there. I totally get your frustration with endgame and the ending. I wasn't happy and I'm not happy how half the fandom tells me/us how we have to look at it. how we have to accept it. how the actors are happy with it and so should we. how the writers/producers - okay, I'm gonna leave them out of this seeing neither of them have any idea what they have done in the first place. after all they disagree on everything in every interview since the release. and isn't that funny? (1/?)

how even they are not on one side with the movie? what I despise most right now when it comes to this movie and this fandom is how we are treated. how we should tag our “hate” - which I think is funny since I didn’t hate the movie entirely. I hated pieces of it, like I did with past movies. I never liked doctor strange and even back then people were allowed to mention how casting cumberbatch for the part wasn’t the smartest idea they had. (2/?)

people want us to be happy with an ending that doesn’t make sense to us and they appreciate and are “allowed” to shove down our throats with their happy posts about a perfect ending. how is taking tony’s life after he finally married pepper and got a daughter is perfect? how is sending steve back to peggy after they did everything in their power to convince us he moved on from his past life…how is that perfect? (3/?)

you can probably tell I’m bitter. I really am. there’s not a day that goes by I’m not frustrated with what we got after ten years and 22 movies. however, I thought to myself what would it give me to cling on to this on my blog. would it change anything? I do know I’m not alone. I see so many people agreeing with this anger and it gives me some sort of peace. at the end of the day, though, it’s also important to see what it gives to you. (4/?)

talking to one of my closest friends about it and voicing my frustration with the end helps me more than keep posting about it. because in the end it won’t change a thing. the longer I surround myself with the frustration and anger and everything that comes with this not being what I had hoped for the more it pushes me from the fandom. of course everyone do as they please and I get people who want to get it out of their system. (5/?)

but maybe sitting down and look at what the constant repeating will give you in the end, realizing where it might end, could help finding some kind of peace for you. I’d hope for you to enjoy the parts of the fandom that still apply to you. I really like your blog and you as a person and I’d hate to see one of my fave people on this site to leave (I lost count, but this is the last)

whew! hi right back, that was quite something. 

i feel ive answered this ask before, was that also you?

i mean, yeah. i know im not alone, i do. i see some of it on my dash, but not a lot, since ive had to block every marvel related tag just to keep from indulging in some light murder (just gentle ones, not to worry), and i really cannot fathom why ppl on the other side of the isle can’t do the same? or if you’re getting tired of the negativity? blacklist. or unfollow, block even. 

as ive said a few times lately, ive been here 6 years. and this is the first time ive aired my frustration in any noticeable way. sure there’s been a few occasions where i got the salt shaker out, but that was in relation to much more limited subjects, and it was a post or two at the most. 

ive been frustrated with previous movies too, but ive kept my trap shut, ive just gone on, kept my queue stocked, giffed the rare set and hid behind pretty solid content, no drama, not personality, no engagement. 

and it’s not too bad, to just be anonymous, to look at the pretty, spread the pretty, do the occasional tag rant, and let that be it. 

but.

when i came back after a long hiatus last autumn i started writing again. i posted a psa where i apologised for the fact that i would reblog my writing on this blog, i informed what tags i was gonna use, and for the first time i actually checked my follower count before and after. i lost 20 followers the first day. for posting writing. my writing. that was tagged to a ridiculous degree. and i saw a fair few more disappear before the exodus, and idk. i made me realise a thing or two.

one, people like my blog and the content i post

two, they’re only here for that content

three, to have a strictly themed blog will limit you horribly

four, my followers in general don’t give a shit about me, only about the content i post, which fair enough

five, i care about that, even if i don’t care about the follower count as such, i do care that the ones i have actually like me

six, which is completely absurd bc none of them knows me at all, i never show myself

but that was then. this is now. and the last weeks has made me realise the most important thing of all, i dont care any more. why the fuck should i? when my showing any kind of negativity about something that i did care a whole lot about but i no longer have?

endgame might have killed all my enthusiasm for the mcu, and it fucking hurts. it’s been a staple in my life for years, ive invested my time, my creativity, my love and my goddamn money, and ive got jack shit to show for it. i have a blog that i used to love, but is becoming alien to me, and that hurts too. ive invested a lot in this blog too, after i deleted a few of my other blogs a couple of years back, this is by far my biggest one. and im torn tbh. 

do i want to leave it? no, i don’t. can i go back? honestly? i doubt it. if my love for the mcu is gone, well so is bucky. and lets be real, a sebastian stan blog with no bucky? i cannot really see it, can you?

but hey. ill make you a deal, all of you. ill ease up on the memes, i won’t stop bc i have a few scheduled, you guys blacklist or unfollow if you dont want to see them, and ill see about sprinkling in some sebastian content if i can find any i deem worth it. 

also i don’t have any close irl friends to air my frustrations with, everyone here loved this crap, and that’s not really the discourse im looking for. but im happy for you, it sounds nice :)

hope you’re having a great day! 

eta: i won’t leave btw. not unless the porn hub thing comes into fruition. just so you know, and if anyone cares. just sayin. 

eta2: also? the fact that i, or we, are complaining and being pissed at the movie, but the opposition are attacking us for doing that? instead of, again, fucking blacklist and leave us the fuck alone? yeah, doesn’t help with the bitter. if y’all are so threatened by our arguments, maybe you should reevaluate your own, seems you’re trying a bit too hard there. i don’t want to take enjoyment from anyone, i envy you too much for that, but ffs, just leave me the fuck alone to deal with it. (that’s not @ you, that’s to them)

eta3: and thank you for saying im someone you like. but see? ive been trolling you all, im terrible. and i expect you don’t like me as much now anyways. but thank you, it was nice to hear nevertheless.

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

hi!!! i made this post on a whim and stuck it in the blackhands tag bc i was kinda hoping people would be open to talk abt it, and now that i've gone to bed and woken up and sat in a car for like 5 hours and read the notes and re-read my original post i can see that my tone probably came off more aggressive than i meant it to?? like, im so desensitized by cursing at this point it just feels like sprinkling a little flavor into my sentences, but the "fucking baffled" part probably came off as really rude, especially in written text vs talking out loud. i am genuinely sorry if this post made you bitter, i really wasn't trying to come at anyone for how they interpret the show, i was just saying that some people's interpretations confuse me. which is fine!!! we don't all have to be on the same wavelength. i didn't mean to upset ppl, but if i did that's on me and i apologize

all that aside tho i made this post bc i love this show and i love talking abt this show and i love discussing this show at length, especially with people whose opinions on this show differ from mine, so i do want to respond to the points u brought up.

(fair warning: this gets long)

re: ur first 3 paragraphs. i spent the morning reading + responding to ppls comments on this so i've already talked abt this a bit, but i agree that yes ed is at an emotional low point and exaggerating abt a lot of things in that scene. he is a killer, even tho he doesn't think of himself that way, and he does have relationships that a lot of ppl would consider friendship. but i think when ed uses the word "friend" he's talking abt something more than a friends-with-benefits drinking buddy or a partner-in-crime to watch his back. the way he only refers to calico jack as his "old mate" but calls stede his friend feels significant to me. what exactly ed means by friend is pretty vague and kind of up to interpretation, but to me, when ed says he doesn't have any friends he's saying that he doesn't have anyone he can express vulnerability and insecurity to.

(i also agree that ed isn't rlly a good person. idk if anyone in this show is a "good person." they are... literally all pirates. but being a "good person" isn't rlly the point of this show, imo)

re: calico jack calling izzy sentimental for giving himself up. u say here that izzy "gave himself up to protect ed." im sorry but i uhhhhh genuinely don't know what ur talking abt lol, all izzy did was arrange for jack to lure them to blind man's cove and for the british to ambush the Revenge, and then for calico jack to get ed out of there before the british showed up. when ed didn't get out of there, he convinced badminton that setting the ambush up was enough "service to the crown" that they would hand ed over to him. most british soldiers probably wouldn't have taken that deal, but we know that badminton was so eager to get revenge for his brother that he was alright with letting the legendary blackbeard go so long as he got to see stede dead. but izzy definitely didn't sign an act of grace or anything. izzy didn't "give himself up"

i mean, this is just my opinion, but i don't think jack calling izzy sentimental is rlly proof that ed and izzy are Actually Close. for starters, jack does give the "what kind of pirate has a friend? we're all just in various stages of fucking each other over" line literally seconds later; he considers izzy "sentimental," but still not a friend. and, imo, the reason jack calls izzy sentimental is bc izzy probably had the opportunity to get a huge reward for turning blackbeard in, and bc jack is a huge asshole douchebag who can't keep a crew from mutinying against him, the idea of a first mate not wanting their captain to be captured by the british is sentimental, even tho that's kinda just. the literal job description of a first mate.

re: izzy putting the bows in ed's beard. ur right, that scene wasn't cut for being ooc. but because it didn't end up in the show, i feel kinda weird using it as evidence for the level of intimacy in ed and izzy's relationship in either direction. like, other than "izzy puts bows in ed's beard," we don't actually know how that scene went down. was izzy calmly following his captain's orders? was izzy blushing and stammering? were the two of them laughing about stupid costumes and disguises they've worn in past fuckeries? or was izzy glaring and seething? did ed have to come up with some lie about robbing the boat to get izzy to agree to help him get dressed? did the scene have the same vibe as when izzy couldn't get ed down from the harness in the beginning episode 6? we don't know! and sadly we probably will never know. it could've been something izzy was happy to do, or it could've been an order from his captain that izzy bitched and moaned abt the whole time. who's to say. all we know is that ed had izzy put bows in his beard. considering that ed's ordered izzy to track down some random rich guy who sucked at being a pirate, i feel like this is far from the weirdest thing ed's had izzy do for him.

re: we don't see ed talking to anyone other than izzy and stede. im kinda glad i couldn't make this reply right away, bc i saw this post a few hrs ago and it talks abt how ed's limited social interaction is somewhat by design on both izzy and ed's part. i personally rlly liked the takes ppl had, but my take is basically: ed probably isolates from other pirates for his own safety, and izzy does his best to keep ed isolated

re: ed excitedly dragging izzy around the revenge. yeah, showing someone the things ur excited abt is friend behavior, but izzy is very much not into it. in his defense, the spanish are closing in and izzy isn't aware that ed has a plan, but it's not like we ever see izzy share ed's joy in anything non-pirate related. from the way izzy's demeanor is mostly just weary frustration in episode 4 (up until the outfit swap, at which point he becomes properly pissed off), it makes me feel like this dynamic is pretty standard for them. in general, the vibe i get is that whenever ed shows interest in something that doesn't fit the image of "the legendary blackbeard, bloodthirsty scourge of the seas," izzy tolerates it at best or tries to shut it down at worst.

re: izzy saying he's been taking care of ed for a long time. i have seen. SO many posts (like, so so so fucking many (fair warning if u choose to check out all those links: lotta those posts get Really Long)) talking abt how izzy's whole rant abt "managing your increasingly erratic moods" and "massaging the crew when when they were worried about your judgement" is a massive load of bs. and personally, i'm inclined to agree?? you say we see izzy taking care of ed over and over again, but i rlly don't know what you're referring to. i can't think of a single time izzy provided emotional support for ed before stede leaves, and as for after stede leaves: yeah, izzy is probably the one who got ed the marmalade, but there is no evidence that he helped him build the blanket fort. we don't rlly see how izzy interacts with ed between the end of e9 and the start of e10, so it's hard to say how effective izzy was at dealing with ed's heartbreak depression, but considering ed didn't try to leave the room until after lucius goes in and gives him a free therapy session and starts actually cheering up when the crew all show him support, the conclusion im inclined to draw is that izzy sucks at "managing ed's increasingly erratic moods." if izzy has rlly spent years taking care of ed's emotions, and if ed and izzy have the kind of close intimate history that some fans seem to think they have, surely izzy would've gotten better at cheering ed up by now. the one caveat i suppose is that it seems unlikely that ed's ever experienced THIS level of heartbreak before stede, so izzy probably wasn't ready to handle it. but again, i can't think of any other time in the show where izzy even tries to successfully "manage" ed's mood.

(also, like. i don't rlly see ed's moods as being particularly erratic?? mayyyyybe he's more prone to mood swings before the show starts, but based off of what we see and know from the show, pretty much all ed's moods are like, pretty notmal and consistent reactions to the situations he's put in; the only person who seems to think ed is "insane" or "erratic" is izzy)

re: izzy grabbing fang's beard. i agree with you that izzy's line there is not so much a betrayal of ed's trust as it is izzy's way of trying to intimidate the crew into submission by banking on the reputation of blackbeard. but i feel like this is a pretty clear example of izzy's approach to "massaging the crew," and i... don't think it's an effective method. like, as far as i can tell, fang and ivan seem totally fine to keep following ed when he's relaxing his blackbeard persona and hanging out with the Revenge crew (ivan says ed's "open and available" in a way that makes it seem like he finds this to be a good thing, and fang was excited by the talent show and seems to be drinking a lot in the background once ed goes Full Kraken). izzy's management style is not as great as he seems to think it is. and because this casts izzy's claim of "massaging the crew" into doubt, it puts that whooole speech into doubt.

re: izzy and ed being casual around each other. i mean, a first mate is gonna spend a lot of time hanging around their captain. on a boat, which is kinda a very isolated and cramped environment. you're gonna get to a certain level of casual griping at each other. i don't really see this as evidence of an emotionally close relationship, just a comfortable one. which, after so many years of working together, of course they have that.

re: ur last paragraph. ok but like. izzy doesn't just say "im not friends with you anymore." izzy quite literally threatens ed's life. he insults ed's masculinity by calling him a namby pamby in a silk gown and tells edward to watch his back. he makes it clear to ed that unless he goes back to his old ways, ed is in danger. and again, by ed's definition of friendship, izzy and him already aren't friends (maybe never were). ed already knew that izzy didn't like when he did things that didn't align with the fearsome image of blackbeard. izzy being mad at him for singing songs and putting on a talent show probably isn't a surprise to him.

and for what it's worth, i don't think ed going full kraken is him being "pushed over the edge" into some kind of emotional breakdown. ed already had the emotional breakdown; he built a whole pillow fort over it! the way ed behaves, donning blackbeard once again and calmly going about putting izzy in his place—there's like, no emotion there. he's not angry. he's not erratic. he's fully in control of himself, and he's making these decisions for a reason.

more importantly tho, i don't think that reason actually comes from that convo with izzy, at least not entirely. i don't think that conversation is enough to "push him over the edge" on its own (he was fine with izzy leaving from the Revenge after the duel with stede, wasn't he? he smiled through izzy's very colorful resignation). ed's just been abandoned by the only person we see him refer to as a friend in the entire show; he's shown stede the squishy vulnerable part of himself that everyone else has rejected, he's thrown away everything to be with stede, and as far as he's aware, stede saw more of ed teach than anyone has in decades and decided he didn't want it. he's been abandoned for being himself. and when he goes back to the crew and sings his song and starts recovering from that heartbreak he's suffered, izzy comes at him and threatens his life. and if what you meant was that this conversation is the final straw for ed, i don't really agree with that either! bc in that scene, right after ed leaves, we hear the crew call out for ed. for eddie. and that is the moment that ed—still heartbroken from stede, freshly reeling from izzy—decides to retreat back into blackbeard.

these posts go into it so, so well, better than i could (and they're a shorter read than all those other posts i linked before). to borrow some quotes:

And we also seem to be agreed that this is sparked because the crew shout "Hey Ed, sing us another song!" and start chanting his name, and this hearkens back to "Play something for us, Jeff." They're a fickle crowd.

#connecting that with what happened at the dinner party #and the social anxiety trauma from that ... There's a connection there, with him not being able to read the situation correctly when he was out of his element and probably now thinking "is this the same?"

And finally, the crew. This crew stuttered in fear when they met him. This crew couldn't stop calling him sir and hung on his every word. They believed in the reputation of Blackbeard, and they feared and respected it. And yet so quickly, when he showed softness, that fear vanished. They rushed to call him by his given name and make demands of him. They saw him vulnerable and they stopped treating him as a captain. Ed can't count on his crew.

(oouohg baby that last quote is from the 2nd post i listed and god it's one of my favorite fucking metas. christ.)

aaaand last but not least!!! re: why would either of them do what they do if they didn’t have a close relationship. (this was in the middle of your post but i saved it for the end bc it felt like a good jumping off point for me to basically elaborate on the stance i made in my original post. bc that one sentence doesn't fully convey my interpretation of these characters)

so for starters. i dont exactly know what specifically u mean by "do what they do," but im gonna guess u mean like, ed telling izzy to stay at the end of episode 4, izzy challenging stede to a duel, izzy going to jackie and the british to try and get ed back, ed immediately asking for izzy to chat when he gets back from the pirate naval academy, and so on. so! Why Are Ed and Izzy Like That:

again, this is just my interpretation, and a lot of the details i could probably be persuaded against, but the reason i would give for Why They're Like That is that once upon a time, ed genuinely had a blast being blackbeard, and he and izzy got along much better. they had each other's backs in raids, probably saved each other's lives more than once, but they also probably didn't know each other very well outside of piracy. as ed got more bored, he would try and express interest in other things, but izzy wasn't bored yet. izzy was ecstatic to be number 2 for the biggest baddest guy around and he didn't want that to end.

that last part i'm pretty much 100% sure abt; when izzy talks abt managing the crew and ed's mood swings, the reason he gives is that he was honored to work for the legendary blackbeard. not that ed was his friend, or that he cared abt ed, or that he and ed had been through it all together, or that he helped build ed's legacy. he's honored to work for blackbeard. this, in my mind, answers the izzy half of Why Do They Do That. i feel like a lot of ppl consider loyalty to a legend to be unrealistic, that izzy must have deeper feelings than just hero worship to do the things he does for ed. but like, the secret service isn't willing to jump in front of a bullet for joe biden, they're willing to jump in front of a bullet for the president of the united states. dedicating your life, risking and giving your life, to an idea that's bigger than the man that stands behind it... that's literally a thing that ppl do irl all the time. blackbeard is izzy's potus, basically, and he doesn't want that legend to die. he would rather kill ed than let that happen. it would be a betrayal of everything izzy has worshiped and worked towards for the past however many years.

as for ed's side of Why Do They Do That: Divorce Era for Pirates Who Never Even Dated. im gonna be real the only things ed's done that i can think of that could arguably imply a deep emotional connection w izzy are 1. try and include izzy in his excitement abt stede's ship, 2. tell izzy to stay after the lighthouse fuckery, and 3. immediately asking izzy to bring him tea when he gets back from the pirate academy. so, here's why i think ed did those things:

including izzy in his excitement abt stede's ship. like you said before, we don't really see ed interact that much with a lot of characters, and there is a level of comfortable casualness between ed and izzy that ed doesn't seem to have with a lot of characters. i've admitted that ed trying to include izzy in his excitement is friend behavior, but i've also said that ed's definition of friendship seems to be more like. intense. or vulnerable, i guess. like i said, i think this is probably not the first time ed has tried to chat with izzy abt things other than Being Pirates, but i don't think they were ever met with much enthusiasm. i think the reason that ed still tries tho is bc izzy is one of the only ppl ed like, regularly talks to. so i feel like even tho ed knows he's not gonna get the response he wants, he's still going to talk to izzy when he's like, giddy with excitement abt this rich guy's weird boat (and ALSO i wanna point out that those scenes seem to be izzy following ed around; i don't think ed was seeking out izzy's company, but while izzy was there nagging him abt the spanish ed was gonna take the opportunity to talk abt how much fun he's having)

telling izzy to stay after the lighthouse fuckery. ok so my interpretation of the whole "murder stede and take his identity" plan seems to differ from most ppl's take on that plot point, which is to say that i actually do think ed planned to kill stede (or have someone else kill stede) and take his identity. i think ed rlly liked stede, but he was still operating in pirate mode, where the only way to get what you want is to take it, and what ed wanted was to retire from piracy and roll around in luxury in the upper class. as for how that progressed to ed signing the act of grace and kissing stede on the beach, that's another post; point is that ed was planning to kill stede, and he did need izzy there for that. if he was gonna hang around this ship and learn to be fancy, he needed his first mate there to have his back.

telling izzy to bring him tea when he returned from the pirate academy. for one thing, we never actually see how ed and izzy interacted while ed was in his depression fort, so it's hard to say how much ed was rlly telling him. his tone when he says "i'll take tea in my room" is pretty quiet, and he does pretty quickly duck out of there without actually meeting anyone's eyes, but like. did ed cry in front of him the way he did with lucius? or did he just order izzy to bring him stuff and brush off any questions izzy had abt what happened while he was gone? did izzy actually ask any questions, or did izzy just start asking ed what the plan was and when they were gonna get moving? did they hang out, or did ed try to get izzy out of there as soon as possible? did izzy try to get out of that room as soon as possible? now that i am typing these questions down i am literally dying to know what actually happened in that room before lucius went in, but i doubt we'll ever get to see that. point is that much like the ribbons in ed's beard scene, we don't rlly know what happened in there, so it's hard to use as evidence either way. (my headcannon, unsurprisingly, is that ed just asked izzy to bring him stuff, brushed off any questions izzy had, and tried to be alone as much as possible. and then he also cried a lot whenever he was alone and only called for izzy (and then lucius) when he wasn't in tears. but that's just headcannon, i'm not gonna try and argue that that's irrefutably what happened)

so yeah. izzy Does All That bc he's obsessed w the idea of blackbeard. ed Does All That bc izzy is the closest thing he has to a friend (but by his own admission he doesn't consider izzy his friend) and has a long history of having ed's back when it comes to pirate shit, even if they aren't emotionally vulnerable the way ed wants (and a quick note abt your line that "'emotionally vulnerable' is Ed’s state of being right now and has for awhile": i... do not agree lmao. ed's been looking for something new, and he's probably tried to reach out and open up to izzy in his own way a few times, but i don't think izzy's been giving ed what he wants. but i don't think ed ever opened up in a way that was truly vulnerable, not until stede, or else he already would've gotten that harsh rejection from izzy that we see in episode 10.)

in conclusion: sorry if i made u mad with my original post. also sorry if i made u mad with this reply!!! it's not my intention to come after ppl who interpret the show differently than i do, all i meant by the original post is that im confused by ppl who interpret the show in that way, not that my interpretation is better or more correct. however i am obsessed with this show and if given the chance i will talk abt why i interpret this show and these characters the way i do. as you can very clearly see, lmao.

anyway literally all of this is just my opinion tho, please do not take me too seriously lmao. im literally just a random bitch obsessed w gay pirates. you and i very clearly disagree abt many things going on w this show, but i don't see that as a bad thing!! if anything, it's kinda cool to me how many ways this show can be read. and like, who knows, maybe season two will give more insight into their relationship and show that there's more between ed and izzy than i currently think, in which case i'll eat my words! as of right now i still don't fully understand the interpretation of them being friends, but at the end of the day that is a me problem.

EDIT: wait also fuck fhjghkdfjhg im gonna answer ur first question even tho u probably meant it rhetorically. yes i've 100% had a moment where my self worth was at rock bottom and i told someone that i ‘didn’t have any friends’ even if there were people that would absolutely consider me a friend. what i would say abt that moment of my life was not that i literally did not have any friends who i could talk to, but that there was nobody in my life (aside from like, my parents) that i felt would make an effort to hang out with me outside of the times when our routines would naturally force us together, like school or clubs or whatever (and also this took place during summer break and i was still to young to drive, so i didn't have school to give me any social interactions and i didn't have a car to get anywhere. this was an incredibly fun period of my life). i feel like this kinda makes my original point stronger, tho? like, i wasn't saying i had no friends, i was saying i didn't have any relationships at the level of intimacy i needed. ed was saying the same exact thing. maybe ed's relationship w izzy could be described as friendship, but it wasn't giving the level of emotional intimacy ed needed. which again, makes me struggle to understand some people's interpretation of ed and izzy's relationship. but again!! that's just me lol

no offense to any fans this applies to but im so fucking baffled by ppl who think ed and izzy have an intimate and emotionally vulnerable history as if ed doesn't literally tell stede he doesn't have any friends

[groundramon]

Homph I finished tri and I wrote down my thoughts as I was watching because I had too many funny shitposts and nobody to share them with bc charlie hasn’t watched tri yet

PS i wont be reblogging tri spoilers (besides MINOR stuff like, digivolutions of already confirmed digivolution lines or non-spoilery shitposts, but I’ll try to tag shitposts as #tri spoilers anyways [digivolutions specific to tri ill tag as well but not ones that were already basically confirmed]) for a while so ur safe here!  I’m just gonna like everything/most things because then I can rb em to hisyaryumon lmao (also u should check out hisyaryumon....its me n charlie’s digimon blog)

EP 1:

- ok. alright. ok. good. they’re dealing with kari’s emotions now instead of just. nothing.  ok. alright. cool.  Still dont like how obscure/”artsy” they’re being with it, this is digimon not kagerou project, but ok.

- Also. I stand by tk and kari being one of the few good straight ships in digimon.  just saying.

- kari: this is my fault... me: god damn it shut up you little brat also me: god relatable ALSO me: ill take whatever display of emotions i can get

- I love how nobody believes tai is dead like.  They’re upset and worried but they’re also like “nah. he cant be. that fucking asshole just left us in our time of need” (actually only matt is the last one)

- Gabumon i would die for you also im crying and I think that’s the first time tri managed to make me fucking CRY

EP 2:

- I had thoughts but then the 02 kids happened and I entered another plane of reality.  I don’t feel real right now

- the only one I can remember is evil!gennai being a dumbass and being like “SUFFER AND SQUIRM YOU PATHETIC HUMANS AS YOU FIGHT OVER THE LAST SEAT” 1. humans are KNOWN for their ability to care for others you dumb obvious fuck and 2. is. is the entire tube going? because that tube can fit too people if they squish.  This isn’t a joke I’m serious it can.

- oh yeah also when i saw whomstever the fuck his name is (adult guy who i love but fuck names) and he was all bloodied i was like “its a cold day in hell when i see blood in digimon” (I think there was blood in an earlier ep but shh idc)

EP 3:

- didn’t nishijima start off as a fucking life coach to these kids.  What the fuck he was supposed to help them find a career not emotionally scar them by bloodily dying in front of one of them

- im realizing that the reason hackmon was always in his cloak, in the shadows, standing still is that they cannot animate him in any normal position for the life of him.  I drew him with better anatomy when i was 14 and didn’t have a tablet.  No seriously, look:

I didn’t say it wasn’t bad, you guys are just underestimating how bad the anatomy on this poor creature is.  Why cant ppl draw dracomon or hackmon correctly imma cry

- ordinemon has the best reaction faces

the best part about these two screenshots is that they literally cut one to the other, first the first one to the second one and then it cuts back to the first one.  They were really proud of these stupid ass expressions.

- I started overcoming my dissociation shock from the second episode and my hypercritical mind was analyzing the shit out of everything that happened (it is Not happy) but then evil!gennai called kari and evil goddess and idk if he’s exaggerating to make her feel bad or if she’s literally a fucking god of chaos and destruction and either way im like

she did kinda like.  Watch wizardmon die, watch tai die, watch gatomon get absorbed.  The dark ocean is just a metaphor for depression and honestly if 02 wasn’t all over the fucking place I think Kari would’ve had some pretty decent development in it.  Actually you know what, I’m using that as an angle to approach Tri at now, wish me luck bc i might actually give it more leeway now

EP 4:

- I’m not dissociating but I forgot to say anything again and I already forgot what happened

- Cant believe mei is fucking dead

EP 5:

- I like to imagine that Tai got there like a few minutes ago, but he was like “well damn guess yall figured it out without me.  alright ill just. see if I need to do anything” and then meicoomon was Still Bad so he waited for when she struck just to make the most badass entrance possible.  Fucking extra ass bitch

- I forgot to write anything again but uhhh I wasn’t satisfied so anyways lets just get into the Juicy Details

Originally I was actually planning to be kinder to Tri than I expected.  Was very invested during it.  ‘Round the end of the last ep I realized hmmm no this isn’t working out.  Where are the 02 kids.  You should’ve brought them in to save the day.  That would’ve been SO cool and SO fun.  Fucking cowards.

god I’m kinda tired so I’m going to address a couple things I still had problems with, note that this isn’t everything it’s just everything I felt comfortable yelling about without rewatching past eps.  Like I forgot nishijima was all bloodied and presumably died in the last part until they brought it up and I was like “????” ALSO DID THE LADY WHO WAS HIS PARTNER OR W/E KILL HERSELF WITH THE GUN SHE FOUND, I JUST REALIZED LITERALLY AS I WAS TYPING THIS THAT SHE FOUND A GUN AND THEN I THINK IT CUT TO BLACK AND I’M

DID SHE FUCKING KILL HERSELF WHAT THE FUCK

anyways my problems:

1. They did joe. really dirty.  I’ll write a more proper rant on this sometime later (mostly bc charlie is MUCH better at talking about joe than I am) but basically I can tell you that his character development in the movies squandered his OG character development.  He’s basically an entirely different person.  Like Tri joe isn’t bad, besides being largely neglected (yes he has a whole half a movie to himself, no that doesn’t make up for it all), its just...not OG joe.  He’s a fine character just not the same character, and its NOT fine when you put the two together.

2. THEY DID THE 02 KIDS EVEN DIRTIER IM SO BITTER sorry you nostalgia-blind, money-hungry fucks at bandai, but the 02 cast is PART OF THE ADVENTURES UNIVERSE.  The only people who hate 02 are ones who like the characters but hate the mess of the storyline at the end, or are completely irrational and elitist about their love of the digimon series and would greatly re-evaluate their opinions if they watched the original series and 02 back to back.  They couldn’t even show them in some kind of group montage at the end??? Standing in the background when they call Mei???  Why couldn’t they call mei from a home phone also, but that’s a less important problem idc that much.  It was a cute scene besides the lack of 02 characters.  Whatever.  AND THE PROBLEM IS LIKE kari and tk?  This entire time???  Were like “oh they disappeared. oops” instead of being frantically searching for their lost friends???  Like i get tk and kari probably have fucking ptsd and can’t express any emotions because they watched important people die in front of their eyes at an incredibly young age but also 1. they didn’t address the ramifications of ptsd, so fuck that theory/excuse and 2. THAT??? WOULD ONLY MAKE THEM LOOK HARDER??? and put on a brave face as they look, but inside they’re so scared and so worried.  Not just “oh sweet, they were found/saved, theyre in the hospital but that’s fine” like WHAT theyre fucking assholes if that’s what they’d canonically do lmao.  God I am SO bitter over the ENTIRE thing with the 02 kids, it would’ve been BETTER if they were deleted from the fucking canon entirely.  Would I have still been bitter?  Yes.  But at least I wouldn’t be madder at TK and Kari too.

3. I stand 100% by the notion that Digimon is not and will never be cut out to be an adults’ franchise.  It wasn’t designed for adults, and it can’t be skewered towards adults.  These particular characters were designed for kids to relate to and find entertaining.  They do not work when placed into an adult setting.  Like, can you imagine a character like Ed from FMA going to the Digimon world?  I guess in a way that’s just Marcus but like.  Just imagine the FMA cast in Digimon Adventure.  It doesn’t work.  Digimon Tri is basically that except real.  Also Data Squad was darker than Adventure so my joke doesn’t even work.

I guess my primary point is that Tri isn’t mature enough of a setup for an adult audience.  It puts a focus on being “complex” and “philosophical” instead of working within Digimon’s constraints and making something good and adult out of that.  Like!  Digimon is a fucking TOY COMMERCIAL.  Don’t give me messages about the futility of human life.  I want bad puns and emotional characters.  That’s what Digimon has ALWAYS been, and ideally always will be.  Tri could’ve made itself more mature by dealing with the ramifications of the Digital World’s events, how it affected the kids psychologically and dealing with healing old scars.  It would’ve been a more mature take on a story we loved and would use things we loved about the story already - the fact that it took so much time exploring characters’ emotions and was surprisingly mature for the time - to make itself better.  You need to take the aspects that drew adults to the show and amplify them, not just slap on a complex story and unfunny dialogue and be like “oh this is fine, right?”

It’s not that Digimon can’t exist as an adult property, its just that if it repeats what Tri did, it’s got no merit and in my eyes the franchise is dead.  If it survives I guess I’ll be happy that people can still enjoy it but I find it unsustainable and unsatisfying to fans of the older series.  Tri is just a fuckfest of highly specific nostalgia that tries too hard to appeal to old fans without capturing what made the original series so magical, and in part thats because the original series WASN’T FOR ADULTS.  I don’t know about the Digimon Story games, bc they’re T-rated so perhaps they’re a better take on an adult Digimon story than Tri?  But you either need to make your own characters and lore specifically for an adult-oriented Digimon season, or perish.  Also, please make it a series and not a group of movies.  Getting four eps every 6-9 months was hell.

I stand by saying Appmon is a more faithful Digimon season than Tri to Digimon’s original spirit.  I believe it holds more potential for success than Tri and better embodies the spirit of the older Digimon seasons.  It’s dumb, its corny, it has horrible puns, but I LOVE it because it also has a deep dark story and emotional moments.  If you dislike Tri and you agree with things I said that make it unlikeable, I highly recommend giving Appmon a chance - if you watch a few episodes and think “oh yeah, I guess this is decent” you’re going to like it.  It’s everything Digimon has always been and hopefully always will be, just with a different concept.  And hopefully the end of the series doesn’t leave a sour taste in my mouth and I have to redact this statement haha since I’m not done with it yet, but I’ve heard good things about it so I’m hoping not so.

Overall, if you watch Tri, don’t get your hopes up.  It resolves everything okay-ish but it’s a pretty forgettable anime on its own and simply doesn’t work as part of the Digimon franchise.

I am, however, pretty interested in what evil!gennai said at the end about Diaboromon and Daemon.  It raises interesting questions about the timeline too.  We know Daemon is in the dark ocean, so perhaps that’s a hint at a future project?  (They did confirm a future project btw, in conjunction with tri being over)  But what about Diaboromon?  I dont believe that Our War Game (I think thats what its called?) took place after Tri, based on the outfits and ages and stuff, but I also don’t remember the movies that well.  Could Diaboromon still be out there too?  It’s interesting.

However, because of the lackluster performance of Tri, I don’t have my hopes up and I really hope that this “next project” goes in a different direction.  Although I guess if they include the 02 kids, I’ll be somewhat less salty...

Side note, did they ever explain why the gennais went evil?  Like ?  That’s a pretty important thing.  The gennais helped SAVE the human world in 02.  And I get that apparently Tri is ignoring 02′s ending but still.  It’s shitty, because Gennai was still a good guy in the original too (and also they cant just keep is younger look and act like 02 never happened)  MAYBE its something I missed but I dont think so.  God there’s just.  So much wrong with Tri.  I’m very displeased and very bitter and I wanna get back to Appmon asap.

It’s got good moments, its got bad moments, I dont know, I don’t care.  There’s nothing wrong with you if you like it, there’s nothing wrong with you if you don’t, and there’s nothing wrong with you if you flip flop and are split like me.  I just wish Tri fulfilled its potential instead of becoming a boring mess.

[ac-ars]

you taught me about your past, thinking your future was me

after this dramatic title don’t think its a fic im just messing around but listen to this song its very pretty 

because i am very bored and @proudtobeadepphead tagged me (thanks dear from saving me from english vocabulary thoughts)

about me (yay)

looks xdddd 

im a blondie i guess but dark blondie what in polish is double funny and im using it recently v much, i guess i have blue eyes that are sometimes blue sometimes grey depends on retrica filters (no that was a joke, i dont really know), bc im basic bitch give me a pair of jeans and i will wear it until it gets ripped, i love sweaters gimme all of them when its cold (now) + i can walk the world in converses or flip flops hehe 

make up who

jewelry who

i brush my hair i guess and when im too lazy i just pull a ponytail, depends really

personality

im a petty bitter bitch but i guess thats bc im polish and we are this kind of ppl (no no dont judge others, dont listen to me) and i love memes so as a result i am a big meme and if you wanna talk to me prepare yourself for many dumb jokes and probs random song lines

im trying to be nice person tho i have my bitch moments (barbara says we all do so i guess its not the worst) but generally im very funny (people tell me so) and supportive and i think patient (bc patience is a virtue ofc), you can joke to me about everything you want unless my mom or my friends and i wont be mad or dramatic really believe me

tho i am v dramatic in general like making fun or sth, i remember all shit, everything unless daily basic stuff like doing the laundry or sth (sorry mom ily) and i can get jealous over the smallest shit (nobody’s perfect), im generally anxious when it comes to ppl i am not comfy around - unless it’s internet, in the internet i love everyone and send hugs yay

i think i like too much shit in my life and writing them all here would make you get bored even more /if you survived until this moment thanks you are v strong ily/ but mostly i like music because well i listen to music like all the time except classes, i also like reading books and fanfiction plus movies (because tv shows and me this ship won’t sail, it keeps sinking) but i also like stupid shit like cleaning or cooking bc it chills me out and idk im weird i also like doing shit in excel dont ask me i really do 

i like making playlists on spotify and sending  dumb snaps

relationship status

who

fun facts (i doubt fun but whateverrr)

when i was seven i got hit by car (i think i can blame all shit on it)

im studying transportation and its super fun no it’s not this is shit because i hate physics and i barely passed math im sorry science who, once i went to rossmann instead of physics and i spent shit ton of money hehe

im a mess a chaos but yk like they said in the beginning there was only chaos so i dont really mind, i never proofread fics so if you find a typo thats your problem not mine

word “chapter” scares the shit out of me and it’s very intimidating

give me a song i will give you its lyrics

ive seen now you see me movie like a fuck ton of times (pierdyliard hi polish ppl)

i have more friends in the internet than irl boo but if you are my friend i will confess my love to you a billion times a day

is anyone even reading that

my phone is dying all the time, the earlier one because it had shitty battery and new one because it has too good battery and i forget to charge it at night bc why would i if it will work hehe

i deeply love masterchef and project runway with my whole heart plus i love watching makeup videos on youtube even if i dont know how to makeup

i have no sleeping schedule, i can sleep 10 hours but also 6 or 4 or 2 there’s no difference really 

im anxious as fuck when it comes to relations with other people no matter how sure of them i am bc i am lil shit 

i change my phone homescreen every week or so and yet my laptop wallpaper is the same since august 16 xD

i like to curse using astronomy words lol

I HAVE PLUSHE SHARK ALMOST AS BIG AS ME HIS NAME IS TONY HE SAYS HIII

i tag

it is super fun and i want this fun for you guys @sky-girls, @deliverydefresas, @aquietgirlsmess, @over-the-pink-moon, @alla-voy, @lunambar

you’re welcome ily

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SnK Chapter 95 Poll Results

The chapter 95 poll closed with 1,069 responses. Thank you to everyone for participating. Let’s do this!

RATE THE CHAPTER (1,019 Responses)

75% of respondents had a  favorable reaction for “Liars”. Less than 1% expressed extreme dissatisfaction.

I actually loved this chapter! I was kinda meh on the Marley arc at first, but this completely changed my feelings on it!! Seeing everything from the Warriors' perspective is a refreshing change of pace.

Bertolt is the God of Destruction, RBA deserved better, Magath is actually a nice guy, poor Porco has a terrible name and deserves more love

This is the first chapter in the Marley arc I've wholeheartedly enjoyed. I was always looking forward to getting the Warriors' perspective, but the way in which it's been done has been terrible pacing wise, if definitely interesting story-wise; consequently I've had mixed feelings about the recent chapters. But this one managed to really make me feel for the characters and their tragic, terrible circumstances for the first time in awhile.

Good chapter in terms of lore although kinda meh in terms of story development

I liked the chapter, and the Marley thing we are going through, but I would still like to return to the walls

Not the strongest chapter, feels the same kind of "recap-y" that 63 did, but still a solid outing. I'm convinced we're staying in Marley as the main location for the final arc of the series, with the main cast's appearance kicking events into overdrive.

IN A RECENT INTERVIEW, ISAYAMA REFERRED TO MARLEY AS AN “ARC”, NOT A VOLUME. WOULD YOU BE HAPPY IF THE MARLEY PERSPECTIVE CONTINUES FOR AN ENTIRE 16 CHAPTERS? (1,046 Responses)

We are a fandom divided.

I feel guilty about complaining too much but I really am bitter that I have to wait another month to potentially be disappointed again

I'm kinda concerned where the series is going‚ it seems like Isayama's taking it slow as he's running out of time

As much as i am loving all of this marley pov i do crave for just...idk something else. Like don't get me wrong i love finally getting more explorations of Reiner but it would be better to have some variation: like what about bertholht, why is he a warrior?? and annie; is her dad still around?

I can see why Isayama's doing this, but it feels v e r y  s l o w.

I can't believe I'm saying this but I kinda miss eren.

  HOW MANY MORE CHAPTERS FROM THE MARLEY PERSPECTIVE WOULD YOU WANT TO SEE? (1,043 Responses)

48.6% would like to see the Marley Files end in 1-3 months. 25.8% of the fandom is much more flexible. Judging from the write in comment, trust in Isayama is still high.

I would be happy if Marley took over the whole manga

I want the main cast to reappear, but to see them from the Marley perspective

I would've like to get back to the Walldians by now, but I think I'm good for another chapter or two of the Warriors.

I'd like the perspective to switch between marley and paradis

Depends if Pieck is often seen.

Looking forward to seeing the fall of Shinganshina from the warriors perspective

I'm starting to think Isayama will troll so hard. Marley Arc to the bitter end. Sasuga Isayama.

If this means we're going to remain in Marley for a while, I hope we'll at least get to see something exciting soon, like maybe at the festival. So far we've been getting more information than action, so I'd like to return to that action soon. I also can't wait to learn more about the Tyber family and meet the members.

  WHICH STATEMENT MOST CLOSELY MATCHES YOUR FEELINGS FOR THE MARLEY CHAPTERS AS A WHOLE? (1,044 Responses)

Nearly everyone who responded has enjoyed the Marley focus. 39% would be happy with a little more, while 31% liked it but are ready to return to the main cast.

On the negative side, 3.4% said that while it was necessary they didn’t enjoy it. Only .4% said it ruined their enjoyment of the series.

I like the Marleyan perspective, honestly if the rest of the series was like this (with a few chapters focused on the main cast of course) I think that would be great!

I felt the Marley perspective was necessary but I was bored most of the time. And now I'm just desperate to head back to the main cast.

I enjoyed the Marley perspective and I'm fine with more of it but something has to happen because I'm starting to get bored

This series has just been a series of peaks (Piecks?!) and whenever I think that it's surely gotten as good as it can get, they surprise me. The 30 day wait is hellish lately, more so than ever before.

  HOW BADLY DO YOU WANT TO RETURN TO THE ORIGINAL CAST ON PARADIS? (1,040 Responses)

While the previous questions have shown we are patient people, a solid 50% would sell their soul, or at least consider it, for a return to the original cast.

Lemme see the main cast again, but keep the best girl

I would still love to know if Jean has grown some ill-adviced facial hair, but I also love the Marley chapters.

I at least want a glimpse of the Walldians post-time skip!  I especially want to see Colossal Armin and if amputee-kun is Eren! I'm okay with a couple more chapters in Marley since I trust Isayama that this part of the story will be important (plus the characters are interesting and I enjoy seeing RBA flashbacks), but I just miss the old crew and want to see what they've been up to the past few years!

I feel like in all honesty, I enjoy the Marley perspective but I'd like to see how our 104th cast is doing. I'd really hate for them to do the same thing to Reiner and Co and recreate Shiganshina.

BOI I want to see the original squad again PLEASE

I love the Marley Arc!

Wake me up when the main casts return

   WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE MOMENT OF THE CHAPTER? (1,038 Responses)

Judging from the write in comments, Pieck is the best girl. 33% of us had a favorite moment that involved her. Seeing the Paradis mission from the perspective of the warriors and the reveal of the Tyber family had 17% and 18% respectively.

tag yourself im zeke being super enthusiastic over pieck

Boooring... except for sasuga pieck.  That part made me laugh.

Zeke's subtle way of warning everyone that the room is bugged, and Pieck and Reiner immediatly understanding.

I was excited to learn about the 9th titan, the Tybar family and Zeke praising Pieck. Very heart-broken for Reiner though.

Tired of seeing Marcel get eaten. Its a little repetatitive

  HOW MUCH WORSE CAN REINER’S LIFE GET... FROM THE NEW CHAPTERS, WHICH OF THESE IS THE MOST TERRIBLE MOMENT FOR HIM? (1,032 Responses)

Each new event of Reiner's life is like beating a piñata of misery. Everything is terrible and the sadness candy just keeps spilling out. When the piñata is done, they beat Reiner with the bat instead.

Learning of Marcel's lie, immediately followed by Marcel's death, giving him no chance for closure or resolution

Tough one.. but i say his mom's pressure & the conflict of seeing pradise ppl as normal human being & still having to kill them.

I want some form of lasting happiness for Reiner Braun

#ProtectReiner854

Reiner seems to have inherited Ymir's real titan power: the Complex and Depressing Backstory Titan

I would like everyone to hug the shit out of Reigner.

Being Reiner is suffering. Seeing his face the page after his own father refused to acknowledge him as human broke something inside of me. Also Galliard is still a dick but I'm disliking him less.

  NEW CHARACTERS MEAN NEW SHIPS. HAVE ANY CAUGHT YOUR INTEREST? (1,040 Responses)

Someone please remind me to never give “Other” as an option for a shipping question :/  I do, however, appreciate that almost 60% of you would like Reiner to have a bit of happiness.

Annie x freedom from her crystal, Pieck x being exactly right, porco x death,  Isayama x vague hints, Zeke x tea, Everyone x Happiness (except them motherfucking Marleyans) and my personal notp, Zevi, were a few of the many write in answers.

WHAT IS THE MOST INTERESTING NEW REVELATION FROM THE CHAPTER? (1,034 Responses)

Last month learning the identity of the 9th titan was high on everyone’s wish this. This month we got it. 52.5% were most happy to learn about Warhammer.

At least we know the 9th titan. Just a decent chapter, Not my favorite of this arc though.

Really enjoyed this chapter, did not expect a mention of the ninth Titan. The montage of the Warriors was really awesome too.

Tybur family's new plot introduction is very intersting! I still think zakrus in pradise is shady as hell.. maybe he'll play a role in pradise fall.. pradise cant be too unified. Marley is not unified either.

I'm so excited to see more of the Tyber family. Their brief scene is drawn in an epic and mysterious fashion - symbols of seashells, flowing robes, a man with a clenched fist and correspondingly flowing golden locks standing before a crowd. I expect them to play a pivotal role in whatever comes.

  MAGATH IS SO FAR THE ONLY MARLEYAN WHO HAS ACKNOWLEDGED THE WARRIORS AS HUMANS. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT HIM? (1,027 Responses)

Magath is perfectly meh. About 50% of us place him in the dead center between “tiniest gold star ever” and “swell guy.”

Magath is on the Eldians team. He loves and cares about all the Warriors, is possible he loves them as his children...I thought it was cute how he asked them to finish their mission and come home together! Hes like a tsundere "I-Its not like i care about you eldian demons!"

FAVORITE CHARACTER THUS FAR IN THIS ARC? (1,043 Responses)

Reiner wins by a landslide. I think it comes as no surprise to anyone that Pieck has a solid showing with 17%. Zeke came in 3rd with 9.3%

Zeke's unique & bizzarre nature.. immense cruelty + cleverness + immature nature + bizzare obession of games, playing & his twisted concept of fun! This guy is a very interesting mixture indeed.

Pieck is a great new character.

Tbh the series is kind of getting boring but Pieck is Bae

Reiner has become my absolute favorite character in the series.

LEAST FAVORITE CHARACTER THUS FAR IN THIS ARC? (1,029 Responses)

Reiner’s dad edged out his mom for least favorite character, but the real news is that 24% of people hate Gabi and Porco even more than Reiner’s  terrible parents.

Can i just pick both of Reiner's parents?

Reiners father and mother are both trash i'm taking him away i'm his mother now.

Asshole marley soldier who made bomb noises @ the disabled soldiers

Karina Braun doesn't deserve the hates she gets, she wasn't tricking Reiner...she legit believed ths they would live with his father one day, she really loves him and you see her pain filled face when Reiner lies and says "It was hell"

I like Porkboi more than I'd like to admit.

If I was the Colossal Titan I would find Reiner's father and flip him what would literally be the biggest middle finger ever.

Can't stand Porco. Won't ever forgive him for Ymir. Won't ever forgive Reiner or Bert for Ymir either tbh

  HAS THIS CHAPTER CHANGED YOUR FEELINGS TOWARDS THE WARRIORS (1,023 Responses)

51.2% say yes!

I'm far more sympathetic to them than before, especially Reiner. That poor boy only wanted to have his family together.

Last chapter changed my views about them.

Not much - this is pretty much how I though things would be once we found out about the ghetto and Marley. The only really interesting bits are the new pieces of info, like the Tybur family and the 9th titan.

I've gone from 100% love to 110% love

I feel that this "arc" is being dragged on for the purpose of readers gaining sympathy with them and for me last volume was enough to make us sympathize with them. I have no patience left for this especially when I know the end is closing and there is more to cover and I’m afraid it'll be rushed or that I would lose interest before we reach that part

I feel invested in Porco against my better judgment... and I wonder...if there will ever be a moment when Pieck is not exactly right as expected... :o I wanna see Bertholt's past!!!!!!

  RATE EACH WARRIOR IN TERMS OF HOW THIS CHAPTER AFFECTED YOUR PERCEPTIONS OF THEM

The Winners: Reiner  - 840 people view him more favorably Pieck  - 708 people view her more favorably

The Losers: Gabi  - 151 people view her less favorably Porco  - 161 people view him less favorably

I love RBA. Zeke is interesting as ever. Falco looks like he'll probably end up being a character I'll end up really liking, but he's not there yet. Don't really care about Pieck currently. Hate Gabi and Galliard.

Pieck is love

I wish we'd met Pieck earlier because she's everything.

porco the best

Bardlot is best girl

  WHICH CHARACTERS DO YOU GENERALLY ENJOY THE MOST (1,032 Responses)

Looking back over past polls, support for the 104th has stayed consistent. The real change is with the vets. In early polls, 30-40% of people preferred them. That number has fallen to 12%. I suspect some have left the series or aren’t interested enough in the story direction to take the poll.

  WHERE DO YOU PRIMARILY DISCUSS THE SERIES (984 Responses)

Tumblr 364 (37%) Reddit 626 (63.6%) Discord 55 (5.6%) Twitter 12 (1.2%)

  FINAL THOUGHTS

There were more than 500 additional write in comments. I wish I could publish them all. Thank you for sharing all your thoughts!

I'm still not over the serumbowl and how much the paradis cast showed they're really no better than the ones they're fighting against, so I'm really happy to see the side that's been less favored by the narration so far. Bless the warriors, they're all full of personality and I already love them.

It was rlly heartbreaking when Marcel tells the truth to Reiner and he deludes himself saying: ""wtf are you talking about Marcel? I WAS CHOSEN BY MARLEY, i don't believe you"".The Armored Titan is the only thing hes got...

Next chapter is a recap of the old arcs with Warrior POV I can bet my seafood on it.

This and chapter 94 have been my favorites so far. Please give me more Reiner, more marley, more warriors, more everything. Isayama I love you.

LOVE THE WARRIORS! On a more serious note, im very curious about zeke and his true motives.. what is he trying to accomplish? I also really wish that his relationship with eren can be expanded on. Zeke told eren that he would save him. Does he to some degree care for eren's own life? Or is he just after eren's powers? Regardless, i find zeke fascinating.

Good but background could have been better incorporated with both sides

I'm loving the Marley arc. We need the other side of the coin and this really shows that evil can be grey. Neither the islanders or Marley-Eldians are really bad...they're just all raised/brain-washed in different settings. I really enjoy the added layers fo Reiner.

These few chapters have been really interesting, but I hope to see our guys back on Paradis, unless Amputee-kun turns out to be Eren and the other Survey Corps have infiltred Marley. Would love for the story to continue from that point of view, but with flashbacks as to what happened in Paradis. Really interesting chapters overall, learning about the 9 titans was really hype.

I hope that Isayama gives us an ending almost as great as ATLA. Each character gets a proper conclusion & the entire story is satisfying. I want AOT to go down as one of the top 10 solid anime/manga of all time. I have faith in Isayama but still the future is unpredictable.

I hope we get to see the attack on Wall Maria from the warriors pov next chapter. And I was disappointed that Amputee guy wasn't in this chapter.

More Marley please. Even if some are salty not to see the Walldians, I think it's very enlightening to see Marley and Warrior perspective on this. As would say Bertolt : "no one is at fault" and, in the same time, each side has their fault.

I've been rocking with this arc and loving it, although I've generally had little complaint with any arc of this series, I love everyone :) But I think some development for my favorite characters and their side of the war is backed up by some subtle set-up for the climax of it all. For all that some people are desperate to see the main cast, I think this kind of exploration is necessary, not just for emotional investment, but because it gives us a look at the world the Walldians are so desperate to get to. It shows that the battle is only just beginning; Marley is not the endgame boss, and in fact it might be the only thing standing in the way of total destruction for all Eldians. How do they deal with that? Seeing that from the Warriors' perspective gives it reality and weight.

I am enjoying the Marley perspective, but I'm having trouble with the pacing. These past 2 chapters are moving so slow. And even though Reiner is my favourite character, I wish we wouldn't have such a huge focus on him chapter after chapter. It's becoming a bit repetitive, and I would rather learn more about the other warriors. I am looking forward to seeing RBA's pov of the attack on Shiganshina however. :)

Shit's heatin' up! Woo!

I am such a fuckin' slut for all the Marley stuff. I have been dying to see everything from the Warriors' perspective since the initial reveal of Marley and honestly I live on the tears of everyone bitching about how there's too much Marley. EMA are pretty much...... the most boring characters in the series so I am livin' this up. Give me more.

MORE MEMES PLEASE (and a bit of main cast too)

can i see more bardlot creating titnas???? please answer this one question!!!!!!!

Waiting for Annie to come back. Any moment now.

It's a good chapter, I'm enjoying seeing the flashbacks and the distinction of the Titan powers. On a smaller note regarding that, I wish they'd tell us what makes the Female Titan "female."

Very good chapter, but it feels like one that's setting up for the rest of the volume. I'm looking forward to this festival as well as getting even more details about the warriors' mission on Paradis

Headbutt of Love copyright Isayama

A relatively good chapter, but I reallllllly want to see the main cast again. It doesn't have to be from their perspective, but I just want to see them again after a 4 year time skip.

We will most certainly  remain on Marley, but the perspective will soon shift to the main cast when the rest of them arrive to backup Eren and trash the festival in which the Tieber family will present the plan to capture the Founding Titan.

I can see why Reiner had all that plot armour now! Learning more about the warriors (RBA etc, not the new kids :/) has been really interesting and a much needed flesh out of their characters.

I enjoy seeing more of Reiner (cause he's da best) and learning more about his past and the world outside the walls. I would love to see him decide that he's done with Marley and doing things against his moral code (cause let's be real he probably is totally against this shitshow). I know he'll die and that makes me sad so I'm trying to enjoy whatever time we have left with him. ;_;

No doubt next chapter will show the Wall Maria breach from the Warriors' perspective. I only wonder how much of the flashback will be shown in a single chapter.

I hope we get more backstory on Zeke. There's still so much about him that's mysterious. More of him interacting with the other warriors is always good. I really really REALLY need to know what his thoughts on Eren are. Does he still plan on "saving" him, whatever that may mean? And how much does Pieck know?

When will we see giant naked people punch each other again?

I feel sorry for all the warriors but they killed so many people that I cannot see them as pure cinnamon rolls that need to be protected, for me they will always be morally grey.

I love that we are finally getting details about the warriors. This was something long in the making. I can understand where fans of the main cast are coming from, but you just have to have patience until we see the main cast again. For a story like Attack on Titan, which is supposed to be morally grey, we have to have insight on both sides of the conflict. It would have been extremely stupid if Isayama never delved into the warriors background after all the stuff that they had did. The timing of the switch may have been wrong, but I would rather have it now than not at all.

More Marley, but not at the expence of our heroes. It's Shingeki no Kyojin after all; not Yoroi no Kyojin

This arc has introduced the grey into the world of snk, I no longer see any one main character as bad or good because they all have the reasons with them, although perhaps some unjustifiable it still causes me to think about whether this person is a truly bad person or not. It really makes it quite difficult to favour or not favour people, however I do find that it makes it a lot more interesting.

I love these chapters, I really like the depth isayama is going for the viewers to know that this war isn't black and white and it really shines light on the complications of war and who really is the victims of not only war but also being the victims of a manipulative government.

I think this was a very powerful chapter, it had a lot of revelations and hints about the near future events. It is more clear than ever that the clash with the Paradis people is coming very soon. I am not sure how much more of RBA and Marcel heading towards the wall are we going to see though.

I can't shake the feeling that the "Tybur" family is connected to both the Tiber river (i.e. the fertile crescent--Garden of Eden imagery galore!) and Thor's hammer. Isayama likes to pull from both biblical sources and Norse sources for his world-building and I'm curious what's going on with this name.

this might have been my favorite marley chapter (which still isn't saying much but there you have it)

Seeing as I love the Walldians and Warriors equally, I think it's fair to give the Marely side attention. How can we have a dazzling final battle with no build up, including parallels and foreshadowing in this arc? Worse comes to worse I'm sure Isayama would just add the extra chapters he needed to in order to finish the story. Let's enjoy it while it's still being published.

Isayama is trying to make us think that there aren't good sides or bad sides. And he fails. We have already seen the perspective of Marley and they are clearly the villains. Not the Eldians of Paradis. The reasons why the mainland Eldians are supposed to hate Paradis Eldians are absurd. No real life social group/ethnicity is that stupid to believe what mainland Eldians believe. Or what they do to other Eldians.

As usual with every first chapter of an SnK Volume, this chapter was kind of boring, but we did learn about the ninth titan and the family thats been in possession of it. Also, seeing all 6 of Marley's titans on the battle field at once is interesting.

I think this volume will focus on the build-up to the reveal of Amputee-Kun in the present day, whilst also showing the road to Trost from RBA's perspective, which will be awesome

The perspective change felt rushed. I wish everything about the inital time-skip to the ocean had been handled differently. We got no closure whatsoever on so many important happenings and character developments re: serumbowl and basement, and that really frustrates me. The second - 3 year - just rubbed salt in the wound. I want to enjoy the Marley arc, I really do,  but this just frustrates me a lot.

Snk? More like Attack on Game of Thrones.

I really do like the perspective of the warriors and as interesting as it is, I just can't get myself attached to the characters, and that makes it tiresome for me. At the beginning I was hopeful, but so far the only Warriors I can relate to are Pieck and Falco and even that's a thin line. I am eager to see them interacting with the main cast though!

This chapter in particular was great. There's so much subtlety in every action and foreshadowing of things to come. We got a lot of interesting info (the Tybur family, 9th titan, shifter memories, TONS of Reiner background, and Porco feels ahhhhh), and also saw how the warriors are operating under the stress that Marley is putting upon them. I especially loved the Zeke's tea meeting. Zeke's aware that they're being monitored and is able to subtely warn the others, who all get it except Porco, and Reiner then saves him from saying something dissident about the Tybur family and possibly Marley. The interactions of the characters are wonderfully done, with a lot of side glances and small details to pick up on. I think Isayama's character development and world building abilities are shining so brightly in this arc. And I can't get enough of the warriors, new or old. Overall, this is swiftly becoming one of my favorite arcs so far. Also please Isayama, stop torturing Reiner, give the poor man a break ;-; My heart can't handle anymore....

Less flashback plz

I just want to find out if Amputee-kun is Eren that's all I freaking want Isa.

I don't want to spend the entire rest of this arc with Marley, but I think it would be cool to first be reintroduced to the main cast through the new character's eyes. Of course, then we'll need to see things from the main cast's perspective again and find out what they've been up to this whole time

Love the new memes. =P thanks pieck and zeke

to be honest, i expected the 9th titan's reveal to be more epic art-wise

I think I am now more on the side of the "Warriors" than the main cast on Paradis and this thinking of mine is keeping me awake at night. I hate Isayama for this because now his "there's not bad or good side in the story" statement hit me in the face. Also fuck I have the need to hug smol RBA and know finally seeing their backstory and situation withe all the hometown and warrior thing was all I was asking for so I am loving this Marley arc but at the same time I wanna see the main cast so badly.

I want to see amputee Kuns plan.

Poor baby Armin is the god of destruction no soft boy :(

I want to learn more of Bertolt's backstory... He's my fav next to Reiner and we know next to nothing on his backstory and motivations.

There won't be an invasion of the island. The islanders will invade, instead.

Knowing each titan's function is good. But I feel isayama could have used the page more efficiently, like not drawing large, single-panel images of titans. I feel it's kinda wasteful to use up your pages that way with not so dense information given out.

Confrontation between Warriors and SC will be super interesting but I'm kind of apprehensive about actually seeing it. It can easily turn into another serumbowl since we don't have clear enemies and everything is relative.

i feel isayama is just making some poor decisions in an attempt to make reiner more likable and while the new perspective is interesting it was introduced far too late in the game

I do find this arc interesting and I would be okay with it going for a lot longer, however I'd hope for a few chapters which go back to the 104th's in between those chapters, just a little show of where they're at during all this, I miss those guys, its been nearly half a year since we had a chapter with them. I love reiner yo he needs to be protected at all costs. But i do wanna know more about berholdt and his family. Please i need some closure on my tol boy.

I can't wait to see Historia again and see what role she will play throughout the rest of the series. To be honest, I'm concerned for her because now that she is publicly known as the queen now, Marley might try to capture her if they find out. And what will Reiner do if that happens? Ymir is no longer around to protect her so now it is his turn to owe something to Ymir. I wonder if Historia will ever meet Porco, I hope she kicks his ass, I will never forgive him for ending such a beautiful relationship.

No one is talking about this but the part where Magath says something about Zeke saying unnecessary things in the meeting has me very intrigued. I wanna know what he means, I'm overall very interested in the role Magath may play in the story. Looks like he is the only one suspecting Zeke at the moment. These chapters have been interesting and I'm in no hurry to get back to most of the main cast, but I would like to see Jean again soon. And Armin.

You know, this was a pretty boring chapter, all things considered. However, I did enjoy seeing Gabi look a bit more "human" for at least a couple of minutes and hope the Falco vs. Gabi bit isn't drawn out for too long (I feel it could get tiresome after a while). Reiner's father honestly surprised me; I didn't think we'd get to see him at all/that Reiner would even be aware of who he was, and yet...we got his perspective and I could not have been happier with what we got. Poor Reiner, but considering his scheming selfish mother (who may also be pretty delusional), it seems fitting.

Pieck and chubby cheeks baby Bertl are the only good things in this depressing arc

Reading Isayama's interview about wanting to change perspective to blur the line between hero and villain made this arc less jarring to me. However, I really want to go back to the main cast. Also, the basement reveal ironically made the series less epic in my eyes. Mainly because the idea of a war

AND FINALLY

As expected of poll-chan, excellent questions!

I enjoy these polls and i have nothing else to say

Come back Momtaku!

<333

[meejijis]

I was tagged by @cerfcoeur

Huehue, thanks for tagging me hannah! u//w//un

Post the rules

Answer the questions from the person that tagged you

Write 11 questions of your own

Tag 11 people

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Questions by @cerfcoeur:

1. What’s your favorite book?

(CanitbeamangaIwonder) I’d say “Out of my mind” by sharon draper

2. What’s your favorite book about?

Its been so long since I’ve last read it (like in 5th grade) I don’t remember much(?) but I remember the summary of it; Its basically about a girl who actually cannot talk at all and she also cannot walk either; It’s kinda sad but however it turns out better at the end and it’s still one of my favorite books up to this day

3. Who’s your favorite fictional character ?

♥ ♥ ♥ 🐟 🐟 🐟 Samekichi 🐟 🐟 🐟  ♥ ♥ ♥

4. Tell me about them and why they’re your favorite!

He’s a mature- tsundere (He’s not one of those cliche tsundere characters who goes on violent on their significant other and slaps them 24/7///Plus atleast he also doesn’t repeat the same “cliche” tsundere term “I-its not like I like you or anything..B-BAKA!” like literally I never seen him said those words in both the game or manga so thats why I see him as a “mature” tsundere)

Another reason why I see samekichi as a “mature” tsundere is because he really isn’t that pissy/angery 24/7 unlike most other anime tsundere characters I’ve seen in anime (EX: Louise from zero no tsukaima, kirino kousaka from oreimo//they’rebothbigbitches) In the manga of wada’s past living with samekichi, yeah at times you may see him acting grumpy but however, He is shown to smile alot around wadanohara and yeah, he really isn’t that pissy/angery all that time around her but rather a “bitter-sweet” character

He’s actually kind/nice and caring even if he’s grumpy

Atleast he doesn’t make violent death threats unlike any other tsundere characters would towards their significant other (However he did a couple of times towards wada in both game/manga in the beginning but however that was because of sal’s curse on wada and he just wants to protect her (he just wants to scare her so she can leave, so again, he really deeply cares for her and doesn’t mean that way but he’s just saying stuff like that to protect her)

Also the way he cares, especially towards wada, that shit just hits me, I just love the way of his caring towards her, its beautiful, TO ME, atleast. (EX: In the game (andalsomangatoo)He follows wada’s boat everywhere in secret because I have this headcanon that he does that is because he’s just constantly worried that danger will come around and he wants to protect her at all cost- An of this example (even tho its a headcanon) was that around in the cave where the tosatua’s bunnies appeared, wada met up with kichi and you can see that in this part, theres blood splattered every where, which implies he killed off the bun-bun soldiers. So: Wada comes in= Blood is seen everywhere=Samekichi is standing right there=Implies he killed off those bun-buns=Meaning that he doesn’t want the bun-bun soldiers to do any harm to wada so thats why he killed them off= He still strongly cares for her in this situation (Also in the manga, in the part where the bun-bun soldiers appeared, samekichi came right in and helped wada so he still shows his caring towards her) I genuinely love how he strongly shows his caring, again, that shit is my favorite kink (Always a slut for characters who strongly shows caring for their significant others)👌👌👌

All of these points from #1- 5 are my biggest points why I love samekichi, he’s a well-written character

The way he blushes around wada is cute (always a slut for characters who acts all blushy when their significant others makes them blush)

He looks like he’s attractive (bestDSPboi)

I love his design

Including his hairstyle

He and wada make up a good chemistry together (Thus minami was born)

Unpopular opinion, but what I also like about him is his attack-movesets

Thats all of my reasons why I love samekichi u///w///u

5. If you could instantly speak any language, what would it be?

I would love to speak in French, spanish, korean, japanese, mandarin, and vietnamese (Although I am technically a mixed asian (Vietnamese and american, I however, am not that accurate with my vietnamese)(Over the years, english has been the most language I’ve speak more then vietnamese when growing up so its a big disadvantage to try and talk to my asian relatives);; But however, I do wish constantly instantly speak in this language

6. If you only had one year left to live, would you change how you spend your time or would you continue to do the same things?

HMMMM thats a hard question;;; If I had one more year to live, then I would rather want to accomplish my dreams/goals that I’ve longed to strived first, if Im gonna die one year later;;;

7. Tell me something you love about yourself! (If you can’t think of one I’ll beat you up!)

I really don’t know...(?) I do love myself but I can’t think about one thing I love about myself(???) I guess what I like about myself is...??? that when Im outside in public, I am a quiet person (???) (I hate having my true personality revealed in public)

8. When you see a pretty flower, do you take it or leave it be?

I leave it be because in my opinion, leaving as it is makes it more beautiful then just taking it

9. Tell me something interesting that happened to you today! (It can be anything!)

I have my first day of school today and boi oh boi do I not care about anyone or any of my classes (Big mood)

10. When you see a bug in your house, do you kill it or put it outside?

I attempt and try to kill it but Im also a big pussy when it comes to insects so I always call for help from my siblings/mom to kill them

11. What do you think happens after death?

I want to be reincarnated

My 11 questions for the people I tagged:

Current mood?

When was the last time you cried?

What was the last thing you have ate?

Do you miss anyone right now?

What are your best subjects in education?

Can you cook?

Favorite food?

Who are your favorite family members and why?

Funniest memory?

Do you put ketchup all over the fries OR do you put out the ketchup onto a bowl or make a pile so you can dip the fries in and eat them?

If you wish to be reincarnated one day, what would you want to become in your next life?

For the 11 people I tag, @ered-nust, @wondernevereverland, @tia-paneritas, @reinerrubin, @caritobubblegum, @sup-poki, @freedxwolfie, @heibii, @pinkchopsticksx, @caramazel-tea, @ someone who wants to do this for fun (sorry, I only know 10 ppl im familiar with lol;;)

[eligile]

i was tagged by @futuristicallysizzlingartisan, thanks~

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 ppl you want to know better

THE LAST :

1. Drink: sweet tea 2. Phone call: my little sister asking me to pick her up from work 3. Text message: the vice president of my school organization 4. Song you listened to: how can i say? - day6 (on repeat!) 5. Time you cried: i mightve shed a few tears last night when i saw that dreamcatcher is having a comeback 6. Dated someone twice: lol no relationship 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. Been cheated on: no unless my cat accepting my sister instead of me as his mother counts 9. Lost someone special: my grandmother died a few years ago 10. Been depressed: at some points yes 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: not yet but im turning 21 next week so we’ll see ;)

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS : 

12-14: red thats not too bright, some form of blue, and black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU :

15. Made new friends: yup

16. Fallen out of love: um i guess you could say that. “out of sight, out of mind” 17. Laughed until you cried: ahaha yeah of course 18. Found out someone was talking about you: nah? 19. Met someone who changed you: i dont think so 20. Found out who your friends are: i already knew? 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

GENERAL :

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: personally, very few, but i vaguely know most of them from like high school 23. Do you have any pets: yes! a dog and a cat. i would also have a bird (cockatiel, conure, or some other kind of parrot possibly), snake, turtle, and rabbit if my mom would let me 24. Do you want to change your name: no 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i dont remember. probably ate cake at home with my family 26. What time did you wake up: 8:22am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: surfing the web before heading to bed

28. Name something you can’t wait for: my 21st birthday~ also the end of my classes this summer 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: before i left this morning around 9:40 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: that i could easily talk to other people like outgoing people do 31. What are you listening right now: sounds of people talking 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i dont believe so 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: PEOPLE WHO DONT USE THEIR BLINKER WHEN THEYRE CHANGING LANES 34. Most visited Website: onehallyu, youtube, twitter 35. Elementary: yes 36. High School: yes

37. College: in process of undergrad

38. Haircolor: dark brown thats lighter towards the ends 39. Long or short hair: long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: actually i dont think i do at the moment 41. What do you like about yourself: im totally okay with presenting in front of people 42. Piercings: two on each ear 43. Bloodtype: O+ yep im boring 44. Nickname: jas 45. Relationship status: single 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: the golden girls 49. Tattoos: no but i want some. of my cat or maybe a song title/lyric 50. Right or left: im right handed but for some reason i prefer the left side of things 51. Surgery: no 52. Piercing: *check #42 53. Sport: i went through a tennis phase in middle school because of prince of tennis 55. Vacation: ive been to the philippines a lot but i want to take an extended stay in south korea and japan. ive been to both places for like a day each 56. Pair of trainers: ooh i just bought new shoes but i dont know the brand

MORE GENERAL : 57. Eating: i like. but if its with people i dont know very well i get nervous so i dont eat as much 58. Drinking: currently half tea/half lemonade which i actually hate but took just to be polite bc it was given to me 59. I’m about to: study for my orgo chem exam on tuesday 61. Waiting for: dreamcatcher to come to america 62. Want: to move out so i can get all the pets i want 63. Get married: possibly 64. Career: something in forensics but not sure what exactly

WHICH IS BETTER : 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs. especially back hugs 66. Lips or eyes: eyes. i really like my own and people compliment me on them a lot so i notice them on other people 67. Shorter or taller: taller (which is not me...) 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: both! 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive loudness 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: dont be too hesitant that you cant do anything. but dont be a jerk and get arrested either

HAVE YOU EVER : 74. Kissed a stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: yes i prefer it over wine and beer 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes 77. Turned someone down: yeah that was awkward 78. Sex in the first date: ha no 79. Broken someones heart: if i did when ive turned someone down 80. Had your heart broken: in a way 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: hm no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN : 84. Yourself: in general yes 85. Miracles: not entirely 86. Love at first sight: nahh 87. Santa Claus: hell no i was played one christmas, i made santa money for santa and i found the bills in my parents’ drawer a while later. i am bitter af 88. Kiss in the first date: sure 89. Angels: no?

OTHER : 90. Current best friends name: aiden (thats my dog) 91. Eye color: hazel 92. Favorite movie: fried green tomatoes?

I am tagging @taekeyxx, @pristindream, @12moonas, @my6gfriends

[gukiee]

Spread Friendship And Love 🌸 Give a shout out to 5 of your irl friend or mutuals and say why you love them! Send this to 10 other people once your done 🌼

Lmaooo OH boy okay have fun w/ this

@bluekyun SO I’m sure u already know my feelings 4 u since im emo almost every day of my life BUT i’m gonna tell u again anyways. I’m kind of surprised by how quickly we became really close and how much we have in common i swear to god we’re the same person it’s almost weird @ this point. The fact that you’ll watch all my conspiracy/murder videos n talk to me about it like wow queens of friendship can u believe. You’re the one person I talk to from the second I get up to the second I go to sleep and honestly idk what I would do without you. You’re always able to calm me down when im having a bad day and are one of the only people who can still manage to make me smile n laugh when I’m at my lowest. every time i talk to u my heart quickens a little bit because you’re such an amazing person and will ALWAYS put others before yourself even if you’re drowning in your own stuff. You’re one of the most selfless, thoughtful people I’ve ever met in my life and I’m so thankful to have you. ALSO your writing is phenomenal? you put SO much time and effort into everything you do and are so hard on yourself it’s actually really inspiring to me and pushes me to always work harder and do my best. If I could put even HALF of the time, effort, n heart that you do into things I’d get so much accomplished. Thank you for being such an amazing bestfriend I truly love you with every single inch of my heart 

@hyungsk marissa...... my angel..... my lov... honestly together we’re the sour patch kids bc ur honestly my bitter queen n if i ever need to rant i know i never need to filter myself around you because ur just as bitter as I am and will always listen n be understanding (you’ll also make me feel better when ppl r doing me dirty smh). You’re SO easy to talk to and make me so happy. Honestly like? it was meant to be considering we were reach other’s valentines before we were even friends like? queens of friendship? wow. Even tho u think ur bad at expressing emotions you’re always so so so good to me and are really a lot more kind hearted than I think you even know. I lov u lots!!!!

@floral-hobi DANI okay wow u r? the sweetest honestly wow I love being friends with the sun. You always tag me in some good guk and yoonseok posts and every time I see you in my notifs I get really excited. I’m really so thankful that we actually talk now because I feel like you’re someone I can go to if I need a pick me up or if I’m having a long day because you’re honestly? So refreshing. You make me feel SO good about myself n give me so much happiness. I love reading ur tags when u reblog stuff from me u honestly make me laugh so hard (tbh we’re talking as i’m writing this and i’m laughing as we speak). I lov u so much i’m really thankful we’re friends!!! Thank you for always listening to me and cheering me up after long work days! 

@1una CARLY MY ANGEL honestly ur so fun to talk to (even tho we don’t talk much because school/work plus timezones ugh) BUT whenever I talk to you I always laugh so hard. You’re another person who is SO understanding n ur also a lil petty like me when it comes to things n I feel like I can talk to you about literally anything n you’ll always listen (like when we talk abt gg’s and shitty record labels lmaooo). You always tag me in SUCH sweet posts n r the only person who tags me in dog pictures/videos n I’ll forever be grateful for that. You’re SO friggin beautiful it’s unreal like i love being friends with a queen??? i lov u! 

@taekookiesandcream kia you are !!!!! so great honestly, I know I don’t tell u enough and I’ve been really busy so I’m sorry for that but you’re honestly such a good friend? you hype me up SO much my heart is always so warm talking to u. your snapchats always make me laugh SO hard n the memes we send each other are sgfhjkdgf too much. The fact that you message me to check up on me when I’ve been a little MIA is so thoughtful and I really appreciate it more than you know. You’re so kind hearted n gentle n silly I love you so much. Thank you for putting up with me even when I’ve been super busy and haven’t had the chance to speak to you as much! I promise I think of you daily and love u a lot!!!

@jungkookio okay ik it said 5 but i needed to add u in here because ur so gr8 omg dghfjk I remember I used to look at ur blog from afar and always think abt how cool u were and how I wanted to be ur friend. Now that we snapchat n speak more regularly i really honestly wouldn’t trade you for the world! Even if we don’t talk much I honestly appreciate you so much. You’re SO pretty omg dshgfj every time u tag me in a selfie game I honestly die, you’re also so sweet and kind like you rly have a heart of gold and I’m so thankful to have u in my life

SO ya anyways I’m sorry I haven’t been around as much BUT I love u guys all so much wow okay 

[skunkpixels]

Like... im gonna be real here and say that ive been a little irrationally bitter towards at and sv/tfoe purely because at the height of the whole su crit thing, adventure time and star vs were like the leading "thing that is way better in every shape and form that people should pay attention to instead" cartoons. Like people even straight up moved on to claiming that they had better lgbt rep because of non canon relationships or ppl kissing in the background like. That's not me ragging on them if there really are censors in place but dont... act like those two things are somehow better than ruby and sapphire

So im at least? Happy? That everyones immense hateboner for su has died down to this point but at the same time i am very very worried about the existence of crit blogs in general right now. It just doesn't seem like the solution? Not that im claiming to have an answer but like. Yknow

The thing with having an entire community built around picking apart different wrong aspects of a show is that, like the su crit community, it can tend to start off with a good intention in mind, go on with that decently well, and then just keep going after everything useful has been said until it's just a big fucking mess of people clamoring for problems that don't exist.

Like, i used to follow the person who really coined the whole crit thing (i later unfollowed for reasons outside of that, my general contempt for su crit has nothing to do with them) and their blog was just kind of one blog. They made it because people didn't want to see constant crit of su on their dash, but they felt like there was a lot they needed to say. To this day, I still find that a fair goal.

Im not gonna say that problems began the minute people started joining in because honestly there was still a whole lot to talk abt in terms of what su got wrong so it was cool to see other perspectives on it + get some interesting other ideas for what they might have done.

The thing is, though, particularly with the hiatuses su gets, people just kind of ran out of things to talk about. I was noticing some uncomfortable trends before, but the minute people started trying to continue after the fact is when it all just turned to useless complaining.

I fell out of crit stuff a little after the "Steven is a bad person for accidentally giving Connie's eyesight back" discourse happened.

So then, basically, by that point, people really fucking wanted something to be mad about. Su wasn't airing much, we weren't getting much side content, by that point it was time to just. Reach for shit. What was worse is thay they didn't even keep it on their own posts anymore. Random posts made by fans and little pictures from crewniverse would always have like seven blogs in the notes trying to make some epic funney potshot at the show. As much as crits hate to admit it, yes, even innocent little posts enjoying something got overrun with people telling them every reason it's actually not good (thinking back to that animation gifset where op wanted to say how nice they thought the animation was and half the notes were people borderline mocking them).

New episodes came out and somehow mysteriously nothing was ever good about them. Long, obnoxious fucking posts littered my dash which were basically just unfunny thought bubbles pasted over caps from the show (which op put in the main tag and refused to put in a readmore, mind you, because they thought it was progressive or some shit). People littered tags in hate saying "well what im saying is relevant just block me :///" as if it hasnt always been fucking rude to put hate in random tags? Every new episode i saw just had this feeling of "i dont want to see the fandom reaction to this anymore" because i was always on guard for every little wrong thing and dreading the way people would blow it out of proportion. Every character ever became abusive, Lapis and Pearl were suddenly the worst characters in the world, Rose was unlikable, Rosepearl was an unacceptable ship, blue diamond cried too much, nothing could be revealed without a full explanation on it thirty seconds later, it was pure hell where everyone wanted to put their two cents in but none of them had even one to give so they just resorted to tossing in dirt. If you even tried to point that out people would just assume you were too uncomfortable about people hating the show to just grow up and take it.

And, honestly, in my mind, that's something that'll probably just. Inevitably happen to any crit community. Groups of people together whose only connecting trait is "I have a problem with this thing" will always eventually turn into "i passionately hate this one thing and will do anything to prove im right" because thats just the people they always interact with and it's all they want to hear.

I scrolled for a little on the star vs blog and honestly? I didn't find anything I found to be overtly ridiculous. It was mostly just talking about pony head (eugh), body diversity problems, how the show treats girls, etc, which is all things i already saw from the couple of episodes i watched. But, a crit community's a crit community. Also, considering i saw them rbing from su crit blogs as well, im extremely wary about where something like this is headed. Especially since star vs is not something i can put judgement on myself.

I remember what happened to su as soon as one person had a problem with it. All of a sudden all of its representation was bad, all of its storytelling was bad, and it was tossed into the bin of "cringy things to enjoy X3" where nobody even talked about it anymore.

Even though hiatuses had some part in su's decline in relevance, the ball's already rolling and i dont want to see othet cartoons get the same treatment just because people can't be bothered to employ nuance in the ways they address a problem

Just found a star v critical blog and i dont rlly have the energy to check if there are any of those for other cartoons by this point nd i have extremely mixed feelings