#t ㅡ be side

[grandlinedreams]

would you ever consider doing AS!reader with azriel about them having their first child? just all the angst and fear of it and poor azriel worrying? luv luv luv your writing!

Hiya!! I actually had been playing around w the idea of it so I hope this is to your liking!!

|| [AS!reader masterlist]

|| warnings: pregnant!reader, Azriel being rightfully worried, brief description of childbirth

You don't feel right.

Part of you wants to blame it on the fact that your mate hasn't been home the last couple of days. Away to perform his duties as Spymaster for Rhysand, you've felt Azriel's absence more intensely with the emptiness of the bed and nothing to soothe you but the answering tug on the bond.

But it isn't just him being away that has you unsettled ㅡ it's also the scent that's joined yours. Softer and sweeter, it's just an undertone ㅡ but it's enough to have you seeking out Madja for a proper answer, worried that you've caught some strange illness. But part of you knows the answer before she even confirms it ㅡ you're pregnant.

Part of you is over the moon, elated to be carrying your mate's child ㅡ but the fact that you still have to tell him tempers some of your excitement. Given that the two of you are recently mated, the conversation of children hadn't come up yet ㅡ and now it needs to.

Azriel is tired.

You can tell from the set of his shoulders, the way his wings are held just enough to keep them from dragging on the floor ㅡ so when he quietly sinks onto the bed and pulls you to him, you let him.

Azriel splays you over him, arms wound around you as his face meets your neck, sighing as you drag your fingers through his hair. "You can go to sleep, you know."

His grip tightens on you. "Want to spend time with you," he mumbles, pressing further against your neck. "You smell good."

You hum as he inhales, letting your scent sweep over him ㅡ and when he stills, you know he's noticed the change to it. Your heart hammers, but you keep combing your fingers through his hair. "You'reㅡ"

"I am." You play with a dark curl. "Madja confirmed it. I know we hadn't talked about having kids, and I don't even know if you want themㅡ"

"I want them." Azriel's voice is quiet, lips brushing against your skin. "I want them with you, but..." His grip tightens again, unspoken worry igniting ㅡ for both you and the baby growing in your womb.

Because he's Illyrian, and you're not. And with the way Feyre had struggled with Nyx, if your baby has wings...

Your lips meet the top of his head, trying to soothe the fizz of worry that ignites on his side of the bond. "We'll figure it out," you say softly. "Just take it one day at a time, okay?"

Azriel exhales. "Okay."

Azriel watches your body change. The scent that grows stronger as your stomach swells with the growth of the baby inside you. Paranoia has him adamant that he accompany you to every check in with Madja ㅡ even more so when you learn that the baby does indeed have wings.

Azriel had been protective before, but it's in overdrive now. If he can't physically be with you, one of his shadows is ㅡ curling against your stomach in a gentle caress before looping around your arm as a band of inky black.

He's gentle when he touches you, afraid that you'll break ㅡ and all you do is watch as he monitors the way the baby kicks against his hand.

"I hope our daughter knows how loved she already is," you murmur, and it takes Azriel a minute to register your words before he looks up at you.

"Daughter?" He echoes hoarsely. "We're having a girl?"

You nod. "I hope that's okay," you say, and then Azriel is moving up so that he can kiss you, the intensity of his mouth against yours and protective hand against your belly letting you know that it's more than okay.

Your daughter is born early.

It makes him worry something is wrong ㅡ but she's a fighter, and Azriel thinks that his heart might truly shatter as he listens to the pained noises that you make in the throes of labor.

Sweat plasters your hair to your face, turns your skin blotchy with the effort of pushing the baby out ㅡ but you're still the most beautiful thing in the world to Azriel.

Even more so for the way your face lights up as the newborn is placed against your chest. Tiny but all together perfect even for arriving weeks before she should have, he watches as you kiss the head of fine, dark hair and stroke a finger against her cheek, evoking the barely there twitch of those little wings folded against her back.

It hits him all at once. Azriel is a father now. You're a mother. You have a child. Half you, half him ㅡ your daughter, who watches him with little eyes the color of yours as he murmurs softly, "Welcome to the world, little one. I'm your dad."

[gojosatoruwifey]

ㅡ恭喜发财

✑ greeting everyone as lunar new year enters ♡(◕ᗜ◕✿)

✿ warning/s: fluff, jealousy, slight sexual insinuation, swearing, use of chinese terms, nothing much has changed it's just chung myung with a dragon tail, starts with pbss and ends with mhdd, let me know if i missed something!

✿ character/s: chung myung/cheong myeong, g/n! reader

✿ alt. title: telltale tail

📜🖋️🎀SUPPORT MY KO-FI🎀🖋️📜

straight and thumping on the ground impatiently. fast rhythm beat with 0.95-second intervals.

—and with that crease between his eyebrows, pout so evident in his lips, eyes boring through the side of your head. there’s no need to turn front to see the literal dragon of mount hua is displeased at the slow pace of his order shīzitóu. it’s not like you can afford to flat-out be rude to the half-huili jing server eagerly asking for more affirmations about their restaurant’s food. goodness, you’re not chung myung…

“the sauce? is it sweet enough? or perhaps you like it sticky…” the half huili jing server’s voice lowered in a purr. “..daozhang?”

you’re about to correct the server when a sarcastic, gruff voice enters the conversation. “no, they don’t like sweets that much and they prefer thin consistency sauce to sticky.”

speaking of, your companion finally spoke up. the entire time chung myung is either grunting or clicking his tongue to respond as you put out the orders on the menu. you wanted to let out a heavy sigh but held it in. he spoke up but at what cost?

chung myung tapped his palm on the table a little bit too hard. “put the shīzitóu down. that’s what i ordered.”

faced with the natural hierarchy’s top one, how could a huili jing fight against a dragon? even more to a half huili jing? with a graceful movement, the half huili jing set out the tray full of appetizing meals rich in different flavours and seasonings.

the silence was too loud despite the busy chatter heard outside the private room and so, once the sulky half huili jing strolled away, you picked up the chopstick, ready to eat. that’s how you and chung myung spent the rest of the evening with occasional banters, two unfilled cups holding beads of alcohol, and an abandoned bottle of peach baijiu in the side.

moves languidly

the elders and the youths alike have watched a certain senior-junior pair dance around with each other. be it when they are younger than they are now—the plum blossoms in winter’s seasonal bloom and summer’s jovial heat sighing at the young man finding himself to get the point across and you dodging every little thing almost nil. the terrified junior brothers betting on who will try to make a move first.

so far the winning score is on those who placed bets on chung myung’s side…

a group of junior brothers set aside their lunch once they saw the two together with the taller one carrying a box with decorative materials for the spring festival and the other having a ladder.

you propped the ladder to the wall and started climbing on it while chung myung set the box down.

“will the elder make a move?”

“shush.”

“come on, shixiong. he is right. how about we bet if the elder makes a move on them this time?” junior brother lu nodded to the oblivious pair. he pushed his lunch forward, “i’ll bet my lunch set a, elder chung myung will make a move.”

junior brother ming, the shixiong, responded dryly. “i’ll bet mine he will not.”

“i’m with brother lu!”

“shixiong, you can’t possibly think elder will not when you also saw him–”

“watch.”

“huh?” instinctively, junior brother lu inclined his head just to see you playing with the ends of the red lantern for the spring festival, let it brush to your senior’s nose as chung myung sneezed. sending you a harmless glare as you laugh loudly. elder chung myung may be directing witty remarks to you but this little junior brother lu can see the tail of the elder languidly swishing behind him.

he sighs and thinks, elder chung myung is almost never too honest and yet his tail is saying otherwise. 

wiggles in excitement

a new series of tomorrow awaits as the booming fireworks line up to the dark skies, below were the firecrackers noisy and frizzled. the sect adorned in red lanterns and spring couplets can be seen hanging on the doors. the disciples of mount hua gather all around in different places; some are in the dining hall, some are burning bamboo sticks and firecrackers, laughter fills up the festive mood, and some are watching the abundant glowing light flutters seen above to the lowered ground.

a single stick fell out from the fortune shaker.

you stare at it, losing interest in picking it up as each second passes by until the black-clad swordsman nudges you with his shoulder in a bump, snickering. “will you look at that.”

you can’t believe the gods had decided to be mean to you on the eve of the spring festival. the harmonious atmosphere feels like mocking you as the fortune stick reads ‘misfortune.’

then you shove the stick back into the cylinder, shake it violently, a stick falls out and you’re miniscule away throwing away the damn fortune shaker. tsk, should’ve known it’s a sham.

chung myung clutches his stomach from too much hysterical fits as he then grabs one of your hands that was choking the cylinder. surprised at his gentle touch, chung myung easily slides his fingers between the gaps of yours as his stare pins at you with a gaze swirling playful pink billows, night light kissed skin. suddenly, peering up into him through the shadows settled by the moon feels intimate as the two of you sit on the rooftop.

“there,” he whispered. “i’m sharing half of my great fortune with you.”

you swallowed thickly, wanting to squeeze your heart to shut up. 

a comical exclaim escapes out of you, shiny eyes admiring him, “gege!”

chung myung reacts to your address with a sudden burst of triumph. his tail wags frantically, displaying his excitement. hearing you calling him 'gege' has clearly delighted him, and he seems eager to engage whatever his mind is scheming.

[bangchanisinmymind]

"i love you"

pairing; bangchan x reader; fluff

It was nearly 11pm and for some reason you felt really sleepy even from earlier this afternoon. You and Chris were in your shared bedroom; Chris on his laptop and you on your phone. He had promised you cuddle since the past days he was to tired to even change his clothes, but you took care of him, you changed his clothes while he was in deep sleep and hug him until you fell asleep as well.

Around an hour ago you entered the room hearing the click from his keyboard and his low humming as you took off your work clothes and put on one of his t-shirts that reached the middle of your thigh and slowly turning to him putting your hands on his shoulders massaging him.

"Oh hey babe" he said turning his head to kiss the back of your hand, "hi love, how is it going today?" you said, even your voice sounded tired from the long day you had. "It's amazing actually, I think I'll be done in an hour or so. Will you wait for our cuddle date?" he chuckled at the last sentence as you nodded and headed to bed. After almost an hour you felt you eyes closing, you saw Chris turning his laptop off and putting down his headphones, signal for you to stay awake ㅡ cuddles were closer as seconds passed.

He turned to you standing up from his chair, you were already starting at him with a silly smile morphing on your face. Looking at your -almost- asleep figure made his heart flattered as he approached you getting under the bedsheet. It might be summer but neither of you could sleep without a cover or night hugs so you just used the air-conditioning system in your room.

He was wearing a pair shorts, his hair was fluffy and that adoring look on his face make you blush, shoving your head in his chest leaving small loving pecks everywhere you could. He started running your back, from the back of your neck to your waist and again. You smiled snuggling closer to him when he started kissing your hair and discreetly smelling your hair.

Your hands hugged his waist holding him closer to you as you started talking about your, being happy that now everything was over and you could just spend time with each other. After a while you decided to sleep, you turning to the other side and now hugging chest-back. His hand slipped on your waist hugging your hip bone and you hugging his hand.

That wasn't enough for you though; you wanted to hug something too. "Love, can I have your pillow" you whispered "sure but why am I not good for you" he said with amusement and love in his voice as he moved his head closer to your pillow to give you his. "You are more than you but I wanna hug something too" you complained whispering as he put his pillow in your -now open- arms, immediately closing when you felt it.

"Better now babe?" he asked shoving his head deeper into your hair, inhaling your scent. "Yeah" you whispered hugging his pillow tight "I can smell you shampoo" you chuckled breathing in the cozy smell from him.

"I love you" he said already travelling to dreamland waiting for you. "I love you more"

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[lesbiansloveseokjin]

day 69/547 of seokjin’s military service x

this selca was tweeted on 140107, after their japan showcases on the 6th and 7th of january (the first event yoongi attended since his appendectomy!), with the caption:

Japan schedule finished!

(trans cr: Juliana @bts-trans x)

~bonus pics & vids (including full 140106 showcase) under the cut~

they flew to japan on 140105, and tweeted this pic:

We'll be back soon, take care~

(Juliana @ bts-trans x)

full 140106 performance in tokyo:

and a fun behind the scenes video (with english subs!)

tweeted on 140106:

Memories from today!

(trans cr: Denise @ bts-trans x)

behind the scenes pics from 140106, tweeted by @ kstyle_news:

A wild Jin appeared! All the BTS members are very cheerful (laughs) x

BTS, the night show is coming to and end soon! x

(trans cr: Iraide @ bts-trans x)

The night show ended!  Jin who prepared a surpise letter for SUGA. He hid to practice. He told us that he was nervous. x

(trans cr: Iraide @ bts-trans x)

jin also tweeted a public message to yoongi:

You aren't completely well yet but you still participated in today's performance with lots of energy! Suga, I always respect you because you always work extremely hard. Suga, the one who refuses to show his weak side. It's okay to lean on your members sometimes. I love you.

(trans cr: @ bts_onlyjin (jap-kor) & @ ltsChristie (kor-eng) on twt x)

The performance in Tokyo ended! Today BTS burned it out! Tomorrow we'll advance into Ôsaka too^^ You all, good job! x

(trans cr: Iraide @ bts-trans x)

jimin also posted this namjin pic on the fancafé:

Waddup~~~ Today's showcase in Tokyo has ended well~~ Today Suga hyung performed together with us and it seems like there's many of you who are worried about our Suga hyung. I'll just say something. He has once again, started to annoy me… Worries end.. kekekekeke I’m kidding~~ (half honesty!) Suga hyung's recovering really fast so don't worry too much hehe Actually today I've come to tattle-tale! Leader hyungie! Leader hyung! Rap Monster hyungie! It is Namjoon-ie hyung!!.. .. he keeps picking on me ㅜㅜㅜㅜ So I've suddenly come onto the (fan)cafe to tattle-tale. Please scold him!!! And so in revenge I'm secretly pitching a picture~~ Jin hyung who's in the picture too, I love you!!! Namjoon-ie hyung meh-rong ㅡ..ㅡ (T/N: sound/action of sticking out the tongue)

and lastly, yoongi’s fancafé post on 140107:

Hello I'm Suga who's discharged from the hospital and after a long while, at a schedule in Japan with my members! It was really regretful that I couldn't be (standing) together on the end-of-year stagesㅠㅠ No matter what I'm very healthy now!! Performed yesterday, today as well!! It's nervous standing on stage after a long time, but hearing the sound of all our fans cheering, in that very moment, the nervousness disappeared from my eyes I'm probably made for the stage eungkyakya Since my body's also recovered completely, I'll go find our ARMYs again heh Just wait for a while more!! Now on worrying's no-no-no!! The picture’s of Bangtan downing orange juice after the event kyakya

[yexiwuu]

230707 - 230708 yves fromm chat log translation

may contain inaccuracies pls credit @yexiwuu when reposting

full translation under the cut

2:57 PM KST

y/n

have a nice day

🫶

it's really hot today ㅜㅜ

be careful.ᐟ 

🍎 i'm listening to Ai loona singing to spicy, it's funny

wow

send it to me too

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

ah there is a character limit, i see

okie

oh wow

this is my first time seeing ours

it's interestingㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

ah so my voice sounds like that

it's possible so it's more scary

🍎 unnie what are you up to

i'm going to cut my bangs soon

they've grown a lot

yibu who looks innocent without bangs

will return someday, too ㅎㅎ

huh the picture didn't send ..,

4:06 PM KST

��ˋˏ wow ˎˊ˗ at the bathroom of the dentist's office

i was going to wear my necklace but i dropped into the sink so

thankfully, the female staff took apart the drain and rescued the necklace

but there was no pop up stopper in the sink

so as soon as it was taken apart, there were 2 batteries and ˗ˋˏ wow ˎˊ˗ so many different items

they all came out together

yves: thankfully, my necklacee unnie-yah: drain edition ❤️mom❤️: ㅡㅡ yves: ㅜㅜ ❤️mom❤️: hermes-fished-out-from-a-pit-hole

ㅠ ㅠ

cold sweat dripping down

it was gifted from a fanㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅠㅠㅠ🥺🥺

even then, my mom asked me if i was wearing pajamas

but if seen in person, it looks so cute

my clothes

i'm not talking about myself

i'm wearing it

with long jeans skirt though

i bought them yesterday

picture send

[pic 1]

please

it sent

i cut my hair

🍎 that shirt looks like the same shirt worn by the person who you uploaded on your story when the lawsuit victory article came out;;;

heok

i'm nicole kidman today

i cut my bangs with thinning shears so

if you see me in person, it looks cute

.ᐟ

but it seems that you all hate my clothesㅜ

cries cries

it's cute if you see them with my jean skirts thoughㅡ ㅡ

you think my style changed a lot?.ᐟ

i guess it changes bit by bit as i age

but i was always a vintage girl

i wasn't able to show it to you all until now

since i am going to show it a lot now, it is different from my stage side

so i do get why (it's different)

ㅎㅎ

also there are so many

clothes that i like so i guess it's more like that

if i'm told to wear a practice outfit then

yes it'll be completely different

you agree, right ㅋㅋㅋ

[pic 2]

it's my first time with a long jean skirt

fyi, it comes down to my ankles

i got this for a good deal yesterday so it's really nice

someone said that

my feet kind of look like danaka san

i just saw how i was standing like that

it was really windy so

i wanted to show my bangs but

that was the best i could do ㅎ ㅜ

it's kinda like the mmt yves pose

mmt yves is that photocard

it's called the banpo xi (반포자이) pc (t/n banpo xi is a super pricy apt complex in kr so calling a pc banpo xi means it's a super expensive pc..)

anyways it's funny...

does anyone have 반포자이 pc

i don't have it either

wow do you have a lot of them? (in quantity)

amazing

shouldn't the price have fallen down by now

yup i like carrying it (pcs) around

hehe

🍎 does sooyoung also get mad like my dad when watching soccer..?

yup i get mad a lot

aren't sports supposed to have that (type of) feel to it?.ᐟ

but when i watch while i'm eating

it gets difficult for me as i'm unable to multitask

11:19 PM KST

[pic 3]

go send right now

everyone, you did well today

🤭💚

i'm into yellowish green these days

anyways i guess it is that?

someone said that i cut my bangs while facing it away

[pic 4]

if i see it like this?

i like it.ᐟ

should i upload it as an insta (post) today.ᐟ

230708 12:30 AM KST

i uploaded it

i would like it if you guys get used to me changing the thumbnail of my ig post if i don't like it

whew ~

now the colors look complete

the soccer stadium field really stands out right

when it matches with the yellowish green then i feel at peace

1:17 AM KST

my bias amongst newjeans babies is

"hyeinie"

has risen to the throne

💗🧎‍♀️

from bias wrecker

to becoming my bias

originally my bias was hanni baby who is so pretty

ㅜㅜ

but when i look at hyein, i find myself saying "she's so fricking cute ㅜㅜ"

turning point was

hyein baby singing youth by oohyo sunbaenim

my heart was in pain while watching it

my current situation bias hyein baby bias wrecker hanni baby

they're really really like healing cutie babies..

🍎 i heard that tottenham has been trying to recruit a lot these days

suddenly tottenham

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

˗ˋˏ wow ˎˊ˗ 2% battery

2:57 PM KST

y/n

have a nice day

🍀

END

[lgcseojin]

╰ be side,

Seojin consistently tried his damnedest to disallow nerves from breaking him. He tended to have a rather strong resilience when it came anticipatory things ㅡ even scoffing a bit at the idea of being anxious over something that could or might end up happening. Do first, think later. Of course, as time went on and mistakes caught up to him, this mentality shifted into something more mature. Especially when it came to anything revolving around Jueun.

Their rekindled relationship thus far hadn't experienced many hiccups aside from working around their schedules. Both of them knew what they were getting into; though, they had yet to have a serious discussion on the topic. Only when the reminder of Project Origin's fan meet tour schedule released did it cross his mind. One could say he was finally hit with a reality check. The time apart for such a prolonged period would be something of a trial run for what was to come in their future. 

He was certain if he could survive his girlfriend ( and his sister and friends ) being away for a month and a half, he could survive anything. Right. It was all about mindset, as terrifying as the idea alone was. On the upside, none of them would be truly on their own for the entire duration of the trip. He could take some form of solace in that.

However, their more recent activities did a good job of keeping them apart for a good few weeks. Her with preparing for debut and small part in a web drama and his own constant training to hone his vocal skills and pray for a break out sooner rather than later. He wanted to invite her over to his house for a nice dinner and some quality time in a more comfortable environment. One where they wouldn’t have to worry about being monitored so heavily.

The tiredness on Jueun’s face was more prevalent in person. Over their frequent messaging and video exchanges, he felt she did not seem as lively as he was used to. ( He hated to assume the worst but his worried nature toward the people he cherished took precedence over logical explanations more often than not. ) So, as they stepped up to his house, he tightly grabbed onto her hand in attempt to reassure her whether or not she felt negatively in any way.

“My parents are pretty excited to see you again, uh... but we don’t have to hang out around them all night. The backyard’s all cleaned up now, so... yeah.” He cleared his throat, free hand fumbling for his house keys. It was obvious he already wore the flustered color of a young man unprepared for the situation he was getting into. When he cracked open the door, the scent of dinner assaulted his senses. How long had it been since he had a home cooked meal that wasn’t of his own making?

He kicked off his shoes, then immediately greeted by his enthusiastic dog. Without hesitation, she sniffed Jueun to make sure she recognized her, only letting out one of two sharp barks. “Stevie, be nice. You remember Jueun, don’t you?”

@lgcjueun

[honeymark]

𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 | 이민형

Every relationship comes with a story. This is ours.

𝐄𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐎𝐃𝐄 𝟎𝟏 ; in which you & Mark tell your respective sides of your love story.

# 𝑫𝑼𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵 :: 15 minutes (3k words).

# 𝑾𝑨𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮𝑺 :: swearing, alcohol consumption.

『 The video opens with a shot of Y/N walking into the studio, hand-in-hand with Mark. The set is completely white ㅡ two white chairs are seated at a white table that has a set of white earbuds and white noise-cancelling headphones set atop of it. Y/N takes a seat in the chair to the right, while Mark sits in the chair across from her. 』

“Can you introduce yourselves?”

Mark: (points to Y/N) “You first?”

Y/N: “Sure.” (waves to the camera) “Hi, I’m Y/N. I’m 23 years old, and I’m an aspiring journalist.”

Mark: (smiles at Y/N, then turns and waves to the camera) “Hi, my name’s Mark. I’m also 23 years old, and I’m an aspiring author.”

“How long have you been together?”

Mark: (glances at Y/N) “Almost 2 years now, right?”

Y/N: (nods, then smiles) “It’ll be 2 years next Monday.”

“How did you two first meet?”

Y/N: “It’s kind of a funny story.” (glances at Mark, who’s clearly dreading this conversation already) “It was a random Saturday night, and I was taking the train back to campusㅡ”

Mark: “Oh my god, I still haven’t gotten over this story.” (covers his ears with his palms) “Go ahead, I’ll just pretend I’m not here.”

Y/N: (laughs) “So you know how there’s a charging outlet underneath every seat on the KTX? Well, I was minding my own business and using the outlet to charge my phone, but I kept catching the guy sitting next to me staring at me. Like, uncomfortably hard.”

Mark: (uncovers his ears) “I wasn’t staring at you that hard.”

Y/N: “You were looking at me like I dropped down from the sky.” (chuckles) “Anyways, I finally looked back at him and asked him if there was some sort of problem. And he just kind of awkwardly sat there for a second, and then finally pointed to my charger before telling me in this exaggeratedly hushed voice that I was using the wrong outlet.”

Mark: (covers his ears while squirming in his seat) “I can’t listen anymore.”

Y/N: “I was like, ‘No, this is the outlet on my seat.’ But he kept insisting that I was using the wrong one, and the funny thing was that he was getting impatient with me. So I looked down to show him where his outlet was, but he had a bunch of shit on the floor, so I ㅡ I still feel bad about this ㅡ I basically kicked all of it out of the way and, what do you know? There was an outlet underneath his seat the entire time.”

Mark: (sighs) “I’ve never been more embarrassed in my entire life.”

Y/N: “I thought you weren’t listening.”

Mark: (uncovers his ears) “I can’t help it!”

『 Y/N and Mark both burst into laughter. 』

“What was your first impression of each other?”

『 The video cuts to Y/N putting in the earbuds, then sliding the noise-cancelling headphones on over her ears. 』

《 HIS SIDE 》

Mark: “I...didn’t have a great first impression.” (laughs) “I figured she was just gonna ignore me for the rest of the ride, but she didn’t. She asked me where I was headed, so I told her that I was heading back to school. She told me she was heading back too, and it actually turned out that we went to the same college. We were even in the same department ㅡ the Media Communications department. Kinda like fate, right?” (smiles) “We ended up getting to know each other pretty well on that train ride and, honestly, I feel like we’ve been together ever since that day. We talked to each other every day, we studied together all the time, we sat next to each other at the department drinking parties ㅡ I actually got in trouble a few times for not giving my seat up to my sunbaes*.” (shrugs) “But it was worth it in the end.”

『 The video cuts to Mark putting in the earbuds, then sliding the noise-cancelling headphones on over his ears. 』

《 HER SIDE 》

Y/N: “My first impression of Mark...I really didn’t know what to think, to be honest. I mean, it wasn’t the best, obviously. Just the fact that he was so confident, despite being in the wrong, rubbed me the wrong way. But I also thought it was funny, because he clearly wouldn’t have acted that way if he knew he was wrong.” (chuckles) “Things got really awkward after all of that happened. I’m the kind of person who hates that kind of uncomfortable vibe, especially since I was supposed to sit next to him for the next hour and a half. I tried to, you know, make small talk with him...and it worked, surprisingly. Turned out we were in the same department at the same university.” (smiles) “The ride back was unexpectedly really fun ㅡ we had similar likes, dislikes, goals, hobbies...we got along pretty well, for a couple of strangers, and we’ve been close ever since.”

『 The video cuts to Mark & Y/N, neither of whom are wearing any earbuds or headphones. Mark is trying his best to keep a straight face, but he breaks into laughter after Y/N turns her face away to laugh. 』

《 BOTH SIDES 》

Y/N: “Why do you look like you need to sneeze?”

Mark: “I was trying to be serious!”

Y/N: “That’s your serious face?”

Mark: (laughs, then sighs as he stretches his arms) “Dude, I can’t believe I was that convinced you were using my outlet. What the hell was I thinking?”

Y/N: “And the fact that you were annoyed with me was just the icing on the cake.”

Mark: “I probably didn’t leave a very good first impression.”

Y/N: “Not really, but I still thought you were cute.”

Mark: (gasps) “You thought I was cute?”

Y/N: (smiles) “Why do you sound so genuinely surprised?”

Mark: “I just ㅡ I guess I never thought about it until now.”

Y/N: “You think it’s just a coincidence that I always had a reason to hang out with you?”

Mark: (falls silent, then covers his mouth) “Oh my god, were you flirting with me? Babe, you were flirting with me!”

Y/N: (turns to the PD) “Can we move onto the next question?”

“How did you start dating?”

《 HIS SIDE 》

Mark: (sighs) “Damn, this is an embarrassing story, too.” (smiles sheepishly) “There weren’t a lot of guys in the journalism department at the time, so we all knew each other pretty well. There was this one sunbae that I was really close to, and every time we’d go drinking, he’d always end up getting drunk and crying over this girl he was in love with. And one day, he got so drunk that he couldn’t walk home. I asked if there was anyone he could call to come get him, but his answers weren’t making any sense, so I texted the first person that popped up in his messages. It probably wasn’t a good idea, but the ID was ‘My Love♡’, so I figured it was okay.”

Mark: “We waited a for a few minutes, and then Y/N suddenly came up to us. She was clearly surprised to see me ㅡ I’m sure I looked just as shocked ㅡ but what bothered me the most was how she didn’t even say anything to me when she got there. She just took his hand and left without even saying anything. I felt...betrayed, somehow, and I know how stupid that sounds, but some part of me felt so bitter that I didn’t even know she had a boyfriend. ‘Were we not close, after all?’ ‘Was it just me who thought we were best friends?’ I felt so irritated, but I didn’t know why.”

Mark: “Y/N and I were in the same group for a class presentation, and when we got together the next day to work on it, she was acting like  nothing happened...and for some reason, it only made me more annoyed.” (pauses) “She caught on to my attitude pretty quickly ㅡ well, thinking back on it now, I guess it was obvious that I was pissed about something ㅡ so on the way back from campus, she asked if I was okay.” (sighs) “I guess I wasn’t, because the second she asked me, I kind of snapped.”

Mark: “I told her I was fine and asked if that sunbae was okay, and she said he was. And...I know that I was the one who asked the question, but hearing her acknowledge that they were together made me feel even more bitter. I asked her how long they’d been dating, but she...avoided the question. She asked me what was going on...and I basically fell apart.” (pauses) “I asked her...why it couldn’t be me. You know, why couldn’t I be...her boyfriend...I didn’t know what I was saying. All of my feelings were just...coming out, and I finally understand that the bitterness holding me down was just...jealousy.”

Mark: “So...um...yeah. I said a few more really embarrassing things before she, uh, told me that she...didn’t have a boyfriend. So I...asked if it could still be me...and she said yes...and now we’re here.” (fans his face with his hands) “Shit, is it hot in here, or is it just me?”

*선배 (sun•bae) = refers to a colleague with more experience than you. in a university setting, it refers to anyone in the grades above yours.

《 HER SIDE 》

Y/N: “There’s this oppa* in our department that I’ve been close to since elementary school, and I guess he and Mark became drinking buddies somehow. One night, I got a text from that oppa, asking me to come pick him up from a bar. It was already past 2am, and I had to get up early to meet my classmates in the morning, so I literally got out of bed and just walked out in my sandals to go pick him up. Like, I wasn’t planning on seeing anyone I knew, so I didn’t brush my teeth or put on proper clothes, I really was just planning on picking him up and going back to sleep...which is why I was so shocked to see Mark taking care of him.”

Y/N: “Like I said, I hadn’t brushed my teeth or anything, so I didn’t want to talk to him, you know? I feel bad about it now ㅡ it was pretty rude of me to do that, when I think about it now. I basically just pulled that oppa off of the ground, shoved him into my car, drove him back to his apartment, and went back to sleep.” (sighs) “I was praying that he didn’t think too much of it, but I knew there was something wrong when we met for the project the next day.”

Y/N: “He seemed...off. Like, he wasn’t ignoring me, but at the same time, he definitely wasn’t talking to me. I didn’t want to talk to him about it during the meeting, in case something was really going on, so I waited until after to ask him about it.” (pauses) “I asked him if he was okay, and he said he was fine, but he started talking about the oppa from that night. He basically thought we were dating, so I...” (pauses) “I made it clear that I didn’t have a boyfriend. And then he asked me if he could be my boyfriend, and we’ve been dating ever since.” (smiles)

*오빠 (o•ppa) = refers to an older brother/male, from the perspective of a younger female.

《 BOTH SIDES 》

Mark: “Why am I the one with all the embarrassing stories?”

Y/N: “It’s a cute one, though.”

Mark: “You aren’t embarrassed by me, Y/N?”

Y/N: (pauses, before turning to the PD) “What’s the next question?”

Mark: (jaw drops) “Wait, whaㅡ”

『 The video cuts to the next question. 』

“When did you realize you'd fallen in love?”

《 HIS SIDE 》

Mark: “I don’t think there was a specific moment where I realized. It was more just like, ‘Oh, okay. I’m in love with her. I guess that makes sense, since I feel like I’m floating whenever I’m with her.’ I think...my love for Y/N is something that grew over time, like a plant.” (smiles softly) “I know that’s cheesy as fuck, but I mean it. It started out small, but it’s grown into something that’s become undeniable.”

『 Mark pauses, his gaze falling on Y/N, who’s dancing in her seat to the beat of the music in her headphones. He smiles, a light chuckle slipping from his lips. 』

Mark: “Yeah, it’s undeniable. I’m in love with her.”

《 HER SIDE 》

Y/N: “I remember that moment so vividly.” (smiles) “It was January 2nd, Mark’s first day back to Korea. He spent the majority of his winter break visiting his family in Canada, so we weren’t able to see each other for a few weeks. We made plans to meet up as soon as he got back, and I remember just looking down the sidewalk and seeing his bright, ‘Mark Lee’ smile.” (pauses, then nods) “Yeah, I knew in that moment that I absolutely was in love with him. The way my heart soared as soon as I saw him...like, I know that I missed him, but the sheer euphoria that I felt seeing him...I thought I was going to cry. You only feel something that deep when you’re in love, you know?”

《 BOTH SIDES 》

Y/N: “Was there a specific moment when you realized?”

Mark: (shakes his head) “No, I don’t think so. The feeling’s always been there, I just didn’t know it was love at first.”

Y/N: “Are you sure it’s love, now?”

Mark: “I’m 100% sure.” (smiles) “What about you? When did you realize?”

Y/N: (shrugs)

Mark: (laughs) “Wait, what d’you mean byㅡ” (mimics her shrug)

Y/N: (chuckles) “I’m just kidding. Remember our first date when you got back from Canada last year?”

Mark: (nods) “Yeah, of course. I was looking forward to it so much, I couldn’t even sleep on the flight back home.”

Y/N: (smiles) “The moment I saw you was the moment I knew I was in love with you.”

『 Mark scoots to the edge of his seat and leans forward, pressing a quick kiss to Y/N’s lips. They exchange soft “I love you”s before shyly turning to the PD for the next question. 』

“What is your partner’s biggest strength and weakness?”

《 HIS SIDE 》

Mark: “Her biggest strength is...it’s hard to choose one.” (pauses) “Y/N is really, really patient with people, especially with the people who don’t deserve it. Like, she’s literally the second nicest person after God. I feel like one of the biggest reasons why she’s doing so well in the field is because she’s patient enough to deal with the mess that comes with journalism. But I also kinda feel like that’s her biggest weakness. Some people like to take advantage of her patience. They’ll be late to appointments, they’ll say offhanded comments, they’ll miss deadlines ㅡ all because they know that Y/N is patient enough to deal with it.” (sighs) “Sometimes her friends and I get worried about her. We know she’s an adult and that she can take care of herself, but some people are just...really bad, you know? But yeah, Y/N is really patient. Too patient.”

《 HER SIDE 》

Y/N: “Honestly, I think Mark’s biggest strength is also his biggest weakness. Mark is the most hardworking person I know. He’s ambitious, driven, focused, and he doesn’t stop until he’s reached his goal. It’s one of the things I love about him.” (pauses) “But at the same time, I think he sacrifices a lot of his wellbeing to reach his goals. He forgets to prioritize himself when he’s in the zone. Sometimes he’ll forget to eat, or sometimes he’ll go a day or two without sleep. Sometimes I won’t see or hear from him for a couple days, even though we live with each other. He’ll just stay in his office until he’s finished with whatever project he’s working on.” (pauses) “I just...I don’t want to sound annoying, but I get worried, you know?” (smiles softly) “As much as we all nag him about it, we know he’ll be okay. He’s Mark Lee, after all.”

《 BOTH SIDES 》

Mark: “You probably said I work too hard, didn’t you?”

Y/N: (nods) “And you probably said I’m too patient, right?”

Mark: (nods) “It’s the truth! You’re too patient with other people. One of these days, someone’s gonna try to scam you.”

Y/N: “I’m not dumb enough to get scammed.”

Mark: “Has [bleep] paid you back the $300 she borrowed?”

Y/N: “...no...bㅡbut she said she’ll do it soon.”

Mark: “When is ‘soon’, Y/N?”

Y/N: “...yeah, okay. Maybe I see your point.”

“Do you see a future with your partner?”

《 HIS SIDE 》

Mark: (nods, then smiles) “Yeah, I do. And I know that we’ve only been dating for a short time and that everything is still new and that there are more obstacles that we’ll need to overcome in the future, but I also know that I want to be by Y/N’s side through all of it. I want to give her strength, just like how she gives me strength when I’m going through shit. I just...I think a lot about what I want my future to look like, and every time, I never think about Y/N not being there. Being together just...it feels right.”

《 HER SIDE 》

Y/N: (smiles) “I do. It probably sounds silly to a lot of people, especially since it hasn’t even been 2 full years since we started dating, but I don’t want a future without Mark in it. I mean, we’ll both be fine, even if we do decide to end things one day. But I know that I’d be so much happier if he was in my life. He’s my best friend, my partner-in-crime, my voice of reason.” (pauses) “I want to be with him for as long as the universe will allow us to be together.”

《 BOTH SIDES 》

Mark: “I do.”

Y/N: (smiles) “I know. I do, too.”

Mark: “I know.” (smiles) “I’m going to spend the rest of my life making you happy, Y/N.”

Y/N: “That kinda sounds like a proposal.”

Mark: “Maybe it is.”

『 The interview ends. Mark stands up first, then takes Y/N’s hand before helping her out of her seat. They share a quick kiss before bowing to the staff and thanking them for their hard work. Mark takes Y/N’s hand, and they walk off-camera to exit the studio. The video fades to black. 』

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200917 BigHit’s Tweet

[네이버 포스트] 왜요? 우리가 빌보드 1위 가수 방탄소년단처럼 보이나요? ‘#방림이’가 전하는 따끈따끈한 첫 소식! 지금 바로 놀러 오세요! (@ https://m.post.naver.com/viewer/postView.nhn?volumeNo=29474347&memberNo=51325039…) #BTS #방탄소년단

[Naver Post] What? Do we look like Billboard Number 1 Artists BTS? The first piece of hot news from #Bangbell! Click right now! (@ https://t.co/KCLbyi7d0t) #BTS

Naver Post Translation

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Title: [BTS] 왜요? 우리가 빌보드 1위 가수 방탄소년단처럼 보이나요?

[BTS] What? Do we look like Billboard Number 1 Artists BTS?

여러분 안녕���세요~?! 네이버 포스트를 통해 처음 인사드립니다! (두근) 제 이름은 방림이, ‘방탄소년단 콘텐츠 소식 알림이’라는 뜻이죠! 앞으로 여러분들에게 방탄소년단의 다양한 콘텐츠를 띠링띠링! 알려드리도록 하겠습니다 ^ㅇ^

Hello everyone! I’m using Naver Post to say hi for the first time! (Excited)  I’m Bangbell, which stands for ‘Bangtan content news notification Bell’*! I will be ping!ping! pinging you with news about various BTS content. ^ㅇ^

(T/N: *The Korean name 방림 consists of 방/Bang from 'Bangtan' and 림/Lim from 알림, which refers to a notification bell/alarm.)

자 그럼, 오늘 방림이가 가져온 첫 번째 콘텐츠 소식은! (두구 두구…) 바로! 바로바로!

Okay then, the first content news I’m bringing you today is! (drum roll…) It’s! It is!

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바로! (feat. 적당히 해야지) (박수와 함성)

It’s! (feat. don’t overdo it) (cheers and applause)

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아~ 이 친구들 빌보드 핫 100차트 1위 한 친구들 아니에요~?

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Ah~ Aren’t these the guys who got #1 on the Billboard Hot 100 Chart~? 

“

(T/N: Reference to an interview clip where a Korean grandpa is able to name all the members of BTS. His passionate answer quickly went viral.)

맞습니다! 빌보드 핫 100차트! 1위! 가수에 빛나는 방탄소년단 분들을 모셨습니다!

That’s right! Billboard Hot 100 Chart! Number 1! Artists! The brilliant BTS have come together!

네이버 포스트 오픈 축하 기념! 빌보드 핫 100차트 1위 기념사진인데요! 방림이가 여러분들에게 빨리 보여드리고 싶어서 냉큼 가져왔답니다!

To celebrate! the beginning of Naver Posts, this is a Billboard Hot 100 Chart Number 1 commemoration picture! I wanted to show it to you as soon as I could and so I dashed here with it!

(Sash translation: Billboard Hot 100 Number 1 Artist Kim Namjoon/Min Yoongi/Kim Seokjin/Kim Taehyung/Park Jimin/Jeon Jungkook/Jung Hoseok)

A-yo! 우리가 누구? 비-티엣스!

Who are we? B-T-S*!

(T/N: *A reference to Jimin saying "A-yo! Who am I?" during 'The Red Bullet' concert in 2014. The members often refer to it as a joke.)

? ? ???? 방림이~ 장난 그만 치고 방탄소년단 사진 제대로 보여주세요..~^^ 앞모습 보고 싶단 말이에요. 이렇게 참는 나 제법 젠틀 해요.

? ? ???? BangBell~ Stop playing around and just show us the BTS pictures please..~^^ We really want to see how they look from the front. We’re holding back and being pretty gentle right now.

ㅎ..회..ㅇㅜㅓㄴ…앗! 첫 타자는 RM입니다! 왜요…? 우리가 빌보드 핫 백 1위 가수처럼 보이나요?

H..hwe w o n* ... Ah! First up to bat is RM! What...? Do we look like Billboard Hot 100 Artists**?

(T/N: *회원님/Hwewon literally translates to 'member' and in this case refers to a gym member.) **This is in ref to a meme that became popular among K-Armys after the release of the Ask Anything Chat with BTS on 6/9/20. RM's bulky arms prompted K-Armys to start a running joke about him looking like a personal trainer. The memes usually has RM, in the role of a personal trainer, saying something to the person he is training.)

빌보드 핫 백 1위 가수 비티엣스 김남준! 본새 난다!

Billboard Hot 100 Artist BTS Kim Namjoon! Looking good!

앗! 진의 넓은 어깨를 감당하지 못하고 흘러내려 버린 어깨띠? Hoxy… 잘생김에 놀라 흘러내린 건 아닐까? 쿡ㅋ 어깨띠 녀석 호강하네… ^ㅡ^

Ah! The shoulder sash that couldn’t handle Jin’s broad shoulders? Hoxy*... Did you fall off because you were shocked at his good looks? Shoulder sash, you little punk, you’re living the good life... ^ㅡ^

(T/N: 'hoxy' is internet slang meaning 'perhaps' or 'could it be?'. It is the Korean word for 'perhaps'/'could it be', 혹시 spelt out in English.)

저 좀 피곤한데 어깨에서 잠시 쉬었다 가도 될까요?

I’m a little tired, could I rest on your shoulders for a little while?

엥? 사진만 봤는데 아이스크림 한 트럭 먹은 거 같은 이 기분 뭐예요? ㄴ 저기요. 아이스크림 한 트럭 먹으면 배탈 나요. ㄴ 조용히 하세요. 아……… 달다.

Oh? What is this feeling, I feel like I’ve been hit by a whole truckful of ice cream just by looking at this photo? ㄴ Excuse me. If you eat a truckful of ice cream, you’re gonna get a stomachache. ㄴ Be quiet. Ah……… How sweet.

쁘띠 한 손이 포인트!

The little petite hand is the key point!

“정호석 잘생겼다…” “그만 말해.” “뭐?” “정호석 잘 생긴 거 다 아니까 그만 말하라고.” “그거 어떻게 하는 건데.”

“Jung Hoseok is good looking...” “Stop saying that.” “What?” “Everyone knows Jung Hoseok is good looking, so stop saying that.” “How do you expect me to do that?”

이번 겨울에는 제���홉 콧대에서 스키 타야지! 같이 탈 아미들 구함 (0/20200901)

This winter, let’s go skiing on J-Hope’s nose bridge! Looking for ARMYs who’d like to go together (0/20200901)

그거 알아요? 볼 콕이 제일 잘 어울리는 사람 1위는 바로 지민이에요. 출처 : 우리 집

Did you know? The person who suits the cheek poke the most is Jimin. Source: My House

(저 보x보x는 뭐야…? 애인인가 봐.. 곁을 떠나질 않네….) #JIMIM (출처: BTS 트위터)

(Who’s that BonoBono*...? It must be his lover.. It won’t leave their sides....) #JIMIM (Source: BTS twitter)

(T/N: *Bonobono is a popular kids animation character. He is the blue sea otter visible on the members' sashes.)

[속보] 루브르 박물관에 전시되어 있던 명화 실사화… “충격”

[Breaking News] Famous artwork displayed at the Louvre comes to life… “Shocking”

뒤통수도 잘생겼다? 오래 봤으니까 조금 바꿔 볼게요. 결론 : 옆모습도 잘생겼다.

Even the back of his head is good-looking? We’ve been looking at it for a while so I’ll change things up a little. Conclusion: Even his side profile is good-looking.

왜 인지는 모르겠지만 방림이는 지금 이 문장이 떠오릅니다. 기쁜데헹….. 코마워용….

I’m not sure why, but this sentence suddenly comes to mind, “I’m happy but..... Thankiew....” 

(T/N: A reference to something Jungkook said during the Wings Tour Final in 2017. He was in the midst of tearfully starting his ending comments when a fan shouted out from the audience that Jungkook was good-looking, causing him to thank her in the middle what he was saying. )

정구기는 코마워서 운 건데 울보라고 하면 서운하지.

Jungkook cried because he was thankful, so if you call him a crybaby he’ll be sad.  

아차차, 단체사진이 뒷모습만 있어서 아쉬웠다고요?! 더 보고 싶다고요?! 사진이 부족하다고요?!

Oh no, you’re sad because the group picture had only their side profiles?   You want to see more?! There weren’t enough group pictures?!

방림이는 바보야… 아미들 기쁘게 할 생각만 하는 바보…. 비티엣스 단체사진! 지금 바로 공개합니다!

Bangbell is a fool...a fool who only thinks about making ARMYs happy… BTS group picture! Here you go!

이… 이게 바로 핫 100 차트 1위 가수들의 멋짐, 인가?

Is...is this the glory of the Hot 100 Chart Number 1 Artists?

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방림이의 두근두근 첫 번째 포스트 모두 잘 보셨나요?! 방림이는 떨려서 포스트가 어떻게 지나갔는지도 모르겠어요! 저는 그럼 이만 다음 포스트ㅇ…. 네? 뭔가 빼먹은 게 있는 것 같다고요?

Did everyone have a good time reading Bangbell’s exciting first post?! I was so excited I didn’t even realise how the post came to an end! Okay then I shall get going and see you with the next post… I’m sorry? It feels like there’s something missing, you say?

흠 잠수

Hmm (REST)*

(T/N: *The literal meaning of 잠수/jamsu means to be submerged under water, but is also used as slang for when someone goes offline to avoid conversation. Similar to how (rest) is used on twitter for comedic effect.)

당! 연! 히! 네이버 포스트를 봐주시는 모든 분들께 방림이가 잊지 않고 자그마한 선물을 들고 왔죠~! 저장. 눌러요.

Of! Course! I didn’t forget, I’ve gotten a tiny present for all the people who read this Naver Post! Click. Save.

진짜_진짜_끝.post 방림이는 다음에 또 다른 콘텐츠를 알리러 찾아오도록 할게요. 봐주신 분들 감사합니다!

Really_Really_The_End.post I will be back next time with news about more content! Thank you to everyone who read this!

그럼 이만! 아-뿅! (아미 바이! 뿅!이라는 뜻)

Okay, that’s it! A-Poof! (It means Bye ARMY! Poof!)

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[grandlinedreams]

Hello!! Hope you’re having a good day 💞 I absolutely love you’re writing, it’s brought so much comfort for us lately, thank you 💞

If you’re still taking requests, may I ask for headcannons with the monster trio + law and a g/n reader who’s always has stress dreams? (That’s what I call it lol.. not sure if there’s a real term) they’re not exactly nightmares, but they’re not exactly the nicest things to wake up to… they became daily, so reader is used to it-But some days it throws them off and adds onto their stressed out vibes?? They need to chill.. it’s an effort-

But anyway!! Sending you good vibes and a good day 💞 thanks for all the fics you’ve been spoiling us with, stay awesome and take good care of yourself <3

Hi bb, thank-you!! I absolutely can, no problem!! My migraine med makes me have weird dreams/nightmare-esque ones too so I can relate a little but I also hope that you have better dreams and that you get good sleep!!

[Heads up!: wci spoilers in Sanji's and mention of cigarettes, hurt/comfort]

Luffy ㅡ Staring out at the sea from your perch on the lion figurehead of the Sunny, you tuck your blanket tighter around your shoulders and sigh before straightening when there's the familiar sound of sandals behind you, and you turn to find Luffy peering at you. "Hey [Name], whatcha doing up there?"

"Luffy," you greet, watching as his arms extend to grip the jut of lion mane and propel him up next to you. "This is your spot, isn't it? Sorry that I kind of stole it."

"Nah, you're fine. But what are you doing up here? Is everything okay?"

Luffy's head cocks to the side as he watches you seem to shrink in on yourself, blanket still tucked around you. "Just...I had a bad dream, I guess. With what's happened lately I guess I've been worrying about what'll happen next and it bled over into my dreams. It's dumb, I know."

"It's not dumb," Luffy says firmly, scooting closer to you. "It's been pretty crazy lately so it's understandable to feel that way. But you don't have to worry too much because I'm here, okay? And a good captain never lets anything bad happen to his crew if he can help it, right?"

You stare at him, expression softening. "Right. And you're the best captain there is out here."

Luffy beams. "You know it! Wanna go ask Sanji what's for breakfast? Whatever it is smells really good!"

It's an offer for distraction even if Luffy doesn't know it, and you nod. "Sure, let's go."

ㅡ

Zoro ㅡ Something is bothering you. Zoro isn't an idiot in the ways that matter, and it's obvious when he's aware of your more subtle habits. So when you take to all but avoiding the crew over the course of the day, he confronts you.

"Tell me what's wrong." He holds a hand up to silence you before you can protest. "You've been avoiding everyone all day."

"I have not," you protest and when his eye narrows, you sigh. "It was just a bad dream and I guess it's been sticking with me." You pause, debating before you add softly, "...you all died. In my dream."

He understands. He does, he's had those kinds of dreams here and there ㅡ but his mouth gets the best of him. "That's dumb." And then he scrambles to amend, "I mean, dreams are dumb. Like any of us are gonna croak that easy."

It's comforting in a roundabout way that's inherently Zoro, and he scratches the back of his head before he offers, "Wanna nap with me?"

A small smile tugs at your lips. "Sure."

ㅡ

Sanji ㅡ "Can't sleep?"

Sanji flicks the light on, watching as you blink against the lighting and rub at your eyes. "Something like that," you answer and he waits for you to explain. When you don't, he frowns and then decides that you'll talk when you're ready.

He can feel your eyes on him as he prepares things for breakfast, and it's when he goes to light a cigarette that you finally speak. "I had a dream that you didn't come back with us."

Sanji stills.

You stare at your cup, the tea that's long gone cold. "That we couldn't convince you to come back." Your grip tightens on the mug. "That you really were tired of us."

There's a familiar hand on your head, the smell of cigarette smoke and faint hints of cologne. "What I did was horrible," he says, "and I'm sorry. I don't know how to even begin making it up to you and the others."

You're quiet for a long moment before you look up at him. "Could you make me more tea? Mine's gone cold."

Sanji blinks, and then he smiles. "I can do that."

ㅡ

Law ㅡ When you'd told him that you had a dream that there was an issue Polar Tang, Law doesn't brush it off. Instead he lets you check over things yourself, following you as you dismiss your dream yourself.

But it's clear that it hasn't faded away completely, because ㅡ

"Stop picking at your nails," he intones, making you freeze before you look up to find him watching you. "They'll end up bleeding if you keep doing that."

"Not doing it on purpose," you mumble, and you halt for a second. It's a nervous habit though, and Law knows that ㅡ which is why he reaches over to grab one of your hands, lacing your fingers with his.

It takes a second for you to pick up on his intent, the slow drag of the index finger of your other hand over his tattoos, tracing the letters stamped on his knuckles. Law isn't the best at soft comfort, but he tries ㅡ and the way that you relax says that it works.

[latibulx]

For Sarang

people - 👻 😭

food & drinks - ☕️

plants & nature - 🙈 🌹

objects - 🎭 💡 🖍️

weather - 🌪️ 🌟

hearts - 💘 💖

𝐎𝐂 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐉𝐈 𝐀𝐒𝐊𝐒! ㅡ CLOSED ㅡ @nxvalunxsis

SARANG

people

👻 GHOST - do they believe in ghosts? what are their “ghostly experiences”, if any?

She knows ghosts exist. Not in the movie kind of sense with haunted souls scaring off humans and killing them off, no. But the souls that linger aimlessly in a place they're attached to? She knows they're here though she can't see them. When a soul remains on Earth because of love, she feels them and tries to appease them one way or another for them to find peace. It's not always easy, given the fact that some of those souls are really, really old and everything they're seeking for is already gone.

😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily?

She does cry easily! Happy endings in movies or shows, beautiful love songs, a heart wrenching love story, they all make her cry. Don't even show her videos of unexpected proposals because she'll be tearing up within seconds.

food & drinks

☕️ HOT BEVERAGE - do they prefer hot or cold drinks? what is their favourite drink?

She likes to adapt her drink depending on the weather, so autumn and winter are for hot drinks and spring and summer are from cold drinks. Though, of course, she doesn't mind the occasional change! And her favorite drink is the cherry blossom latte that all coffee shops have during the cherry blossom season because it's pink and even more romantic than Valentine's Day.

plants & nature

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don’t want to show other people?

Her real appearance, I think. That's something I have yet to figure out but being Love itself, she's on Earth with a human disguise.

🌹 ROSE - do they like valentines day? have they been confessed to before? have they confessed to anyone before?

How can love not like Valentine's Day? It's literally her day. She thinks that it should change name and be called Sarang's Day, or whatever word they use in other countries, haha. So, obviously she loves seeing all those hearts and romantic settings! And many have confessed to her over the many, many years she's been wandering the Earth though she has always rejected them for she knows they aren't tied to her and her to them. She'll only confess to the one her red string is connecting her to!

objects

🎭 MASKS - do they act differently around certain people? what’s different between the way they act around friends, family, strangers, etc.?

I don't think she does. She's just meddling with people's fate and making sure that they all find their other half, and she doesn't linger long enough to make friends - they forget her soon enough when they've met the right person anyway. And with the few people who are her acquaintances or friends, she doesn't have any reason to act differently. And with Sunwoo, she wants him to like her for who she is, so she'll certainly be herself in his company and make sure that he sees that she isn't playing around or a role.

💡 LIGHTBULB - is your oc a planner? do they write down every small detail or just wing it?

She's a planner when it comes to people meant to be because those things aren't meant to be taken lightly! Love is a very serious thing, especially in the life of humans beings. So, even though she knows that fate will do its own thing, she still needs to plan ahead to make sure that nothing goes wrong.

🖍️ CRAYON - what advice would you give to them?

I don't think I have any advice to give her so far! She's doing well on her own!

weather

🌪️ TORNADO - what is the biggest change you’ve ever made to them? how have they changed from their original version?

I haven't written her enough for changes to happen! And she's fairly recent so...

🌟 GLOWING STAR - what do they think about when they look at the night sky? is their someone they want to star gaze with?

She thinks that it's indeed beautiful and stunning from the Earth and that it's no surprise that watching the stars with a loved one is always part of someone's happiest memories. Of course, she'll want to star gaze with the one she's meant to be. Whether he wants the same thing though remains a mystery...

hearts

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

Well, the thing is that Sarang doesn't date just for the sake of dating. She wants to be in love with her fated one - and the traits of their relationship will be what she has always been looking for. There's no point in "looking for" something that will feel natural once she's with her person. And, well, she does believe in love at first sight, obviously! Even though she is also very aware that love needs work and patience and trust to keep that initial sensation of belonging.

💖 SPARKLING HEART - are they a subtle or a showy lover?

She's a rather showy lover, but I think she'll adapt to her fated one. If they're more of a subtle lover, then she'll make sure to not make them uncomfortable and become a subtle lover herself.

[lovesangyeon]

Selfish

pairing: haechan x reader

genre: angst / slowburn(?)

content: slight curses / wedding day / bestfriend haechan

word count: 3.3k

summary: it's donghyuck's wedding day ㅡ a day you both realize that being selfish was sometimes needed in life

i actually don't know how to tag this or anything. it's my first time writing in this platform. hehe <3 I'm not that good of a writer as well. I just... really wanted to atleast write my ideas. 🥺

The boy in front of you, no ㅡ the man in front of you gave you a warm yet a weak smile... which you return of course, looking into his eyes with love and regret and happiness, all at the same time.

Lee Donghyuck stood there in front of you, all in his beautiful glory wearing a black suit with his hair styled in perfection. His eyes shined and his sun-kissed skin glowed with the sun shining directly at him through the wide, transparent window. You’ve always thought it was weird yet so fascinating how he had always been such a perfect representation of the sun. 

Bright, Positive, Hopeful... yet sometimes too hot and irritating.

No matter what it was, he always had a special place in your heart. He was your bestest friend after all... your top confidant, your ~bitch~ who's ready to argue with another bitch for you - he said. 

In fact, he's too special that at this very moment, it made you weak and heartbroken.

The two of you stood far away from all the guests in the venue of his own wedding... taking advantage of the remaining time before his wedding coordinator call him out to prepare.

"I still can't believe it" Donghyuck said, sighing.

"I know", looking back at him through your gleaming eyes. 

"I really don't want to go through it"

"I know" You said again and both of you chuckled, though, it wasn't really a happy one. "It's for your family"

Donghyuck sighed. He didn't have anything to say about that. He knew it all too well too and he didn't like it at all. Who, in their right minds, would like to be in an arranged marriage just to save your family's business? not him of course.

"Cheer up, okay? Jisoo is an amazing girl, you'll catch feelings soon" You said and gave him a weak pat on his shoulder and a weak smile.

Donghyuck grabbed your hand and brought it down to play with it. He looked down at it and had a look of which you cannot explain... you hoped it was regret.

Regret because he wouldn't be able to be with you, go on trips with you, movie marathon nights, stargazing, random dinners and maybe... just maybe, ask you to be his... but no, you know it was a one-sided love for you. Everyone around you, even your and his guys friends said it wasn't... but you just don't believe it.

"I don't think I'll ever catch feelings for her" Donghyuck said. A sigh escaping his lips again as he looked up and caught your gaze.

"Why not?"

"She's... different" He said and bit his lip. "I just know she's not the one for me. she's not my soulmate."

You shook your head with a chuckle. You took your hand away from him and gave him a teasing push. "Now when did you - Lee Donghyuck - start believing in soulmates? you used to tease me a lot for it!"

"Hey, I really did think you were ridiculous for believing in such things!" He said and smiled, but just like any other smiles that day... it immediately turned into a sad one. "Until I had to experience this arrange marriage shit"

Your smile fell. "Hyuck..."

Keeping the eye contact with you, Donghyuck leaned on the glass window and took your hand again. It was comforting for him. You were the comfort he always had and will always want. 

"I just-" Donghyuck started but was cut off when he heard his name. He turned his head to the voice, not letting go of your hand.

"Donghyuck, you need to go for a solo shot and prepare by the aisle" His friend, Johnny, appeared together with Yuta, Your brother’s best friend.

"I-" Donghyuck started but sighed and looked at your eyes again. You were so sure his emotions mirrored yours. It showed sadness, pain, and regret, but then there’s always a voice in your head doubting it.

 "I'll see you at the altar?"

You wished he meant another thing. But reality is a hard pill to swallow. 

You bit your lip to stop saying anything else. You didn't speak as you felt your throat started to feel heavy and clogged, your eyes gleaming, and your heart breaking. The end of your adventures with Donghyuck was nearing. Today, it was the end. 

The both of you looked into each other's eyes and it felt like you were carrying the world on your shoulders. You didn't answer his question, instead you gave him a weak smile and squeezed his hand one last time. "You're gonna be okay"

Donghyuck swallowed down what he wanted to say and just nodded. He looked down at your hands and played with your fingers. He gave your hand a squeeze too before letting go. He looked at Johnny and walked over to him. "Let's go then"

"Alright" Johnny nodded and Donghyuck went ahead. Johnny gave you a sad smile which you returned. "I'll stay here for a bit" Yuta said and waved at Donghyuck and Johnny who were walking away.

Donghyuck turned his head back one last time, giving you a look. There it was again. Sadness and regret. He wanted to stop time more than ever and not go through this damned wedding. 

You smiled at him and gave him a pretentious thumbs up.

When they were far enough, Yuta scoffed. "I can't believe you're fucking letting him go just like that"

"He's not mine to keep" You said and took out a letter from your pouch. You handed it to Yuta and smiled. He shook his head as he also took out a plane ticket from his coat pocket. The two of you exchanged items.

"Here, I was able to get you one that leaves in exactly 30 minutes. Your brother took care of your luggages already" Yuta said as he handed it to you. "My sister already got the keys of your new home there. No one knows the location of it, not even me, not even your brother... it's just you and her" 

"Thank you, Yuta" You said and sighed. 

"Are you sure about this? He's gonna be really sad when he doesn't see you walking down the aisle with his best man" Yuta said, knowing full well that Donghyuck specifically asked and made special arrangements that you walk down the aisle with his best man, Renjun. You were his best friend after all. 

"It's better than him seeing me sad and in tears while walking... it's better than seeing him get married to someone else" You said and started to walk away, Yuta walking beside you as he accompany you back to the now empty changing rooms.

You stopped by the door and sighed. "I'll see you around then?"

Yuta scoffed. "Around? You won't even let my sister tell me where you're living. I just want to atleast make sure it's safe. Osaka is big."

You laughed and said a quiet sorry. There was comfortable silence after that and you heard Yuta sigh again for the nth time.

"I don't get you two... all of this could've been solved if you just confessed to each other.” He shook his head and looked into your eyes. “The lovey dovey eyes you give each other is very much known to every one. The frustration and sexual tension when we're all out drunk in clubs and parties are hard to miss. The hand holding, the skinship, the smile, the genuine care the two of you give each other daily should be in a fucking book of world records... and yet here you are, avoiding him and his-"

"He doesn't feel the same" You cut him off.

"Yes he does! What are the two of you so afraid of!" Yuta said, frustrated and running his hands through his hair. "If you two are just honest with your feelings, then you don't have to go out of the country to avoid this shit"

"Yuta..."

He sighed again. Understanding the dilemma. Even if it was obvious, no one knew what Donghyuck actually felt for you. Yuta gave up. "Fuck it. I'll just miss you. The guys will miss you. All of us are frustrated as fuck because of you two"

"I'm sorry" You whispered and looked down.

"Hey, I- damn it. Come here" Yuta said and pulled you in for a hug. "Take care, alright? Take all the time you need to forget... take all the time you need. I'm sorry"

The moment Yuta hugged you, the tears you've been holding back fell... and you sobbed in his embrace.

You really did want to stay.

To have more fun with them and Donghyuck. 

To be able to hug them like this and Donghyuck. 

You really did want to tell Donghyuck how much you loved him... but it wasn't easy. You just didn't want to be that selfish, especially when his family's business was in the brink of falling and this was the only thing left to do. Even your own family business can't help them.

"Shh... it's okay... you'll be fine. everything's gonna be fine" Yuta said as he lightly pat you on your back in his embrace.

Donghyuck was fidgeting when the music started. 

First of all, he was getting married.

Second, he didn't want to be here.

and third, he just wanted to escape and bring you with him.

but he didn't want to be selfish. it was his family after all. 

Donghyuck looked around, finding the pair of eyes that gave him comfort even though he knew you weren't gonna be in the crowd. In fact, he made sure you're gonna be walking down the aisle with Renjun... and even though he wanted to see you walking down the aisle in another situation, this was better than not seeing you at all.

He caught the sight of Jeno and Jaemin in the crowd and they gave him a small nod. Beside them was his other friends including Yuta. He gave them a smile but some of them bit their lip and gave him a familiar sad smile he's been sporting since morning.

Everyone was looking back at the doors to open and reveal the special people in his life, plus the bride. It was taking too long and Donghyuck bit his lip in nervousness.

Finally, after a few second, the doors opened only to reveal Renjun who looked slightly in panic and was walking over to him in a fast pace.

"Oh no... did the bride runaway?" Donghyuck heard someone from the crowd whisper and he felt somewhat weird about it. How was he supposed to feel if she really did? 

"Donghyuck!!! " Renjun whispered, alarmed, as he reached the front of the aisle. All eyes on him, including the music players, and the priest.

"What's happening?" Donghyuck whispered back. 

"Y/N's missing!" Renjun said, a panicked look in his eyes.

"What? What are you talking about?" Donghyuck said, eyes wide open.

"I swear we looked everywhere. The changing rooms, bathrooms, the garden, the parked cars... everywhere! she's gone! Her phone cannot be reached." Renjun said and Donghyuck's father who was nearby heard the information.

"Let's start without Y/N, Donghyuck. I'm sure she's just around and will be here in a moment. She supports you." His father said, attempting to calm him down.

"No! This will not start without her!" Donghyuck argued.

"Donghyuck, c'mon..." His father said, knowing all too well it was impossible to argue with him when it came to you. Even his parents were very much aware of you two.

"I'll look for her" Donghyuck said, about to get out from where his standing but his bride's mother was already at his side, gripping his arm.

"Start now, Donghyuck!" She hissed with a threat.

He was about to answer back when Donghyuck, in his peripheral view, saw Yuta stand up and walked out. Yuta was the last person with you. Maybe he has an idea of your whereabouts.

Donghyuck pushed her arm away. "Just give me two fucking minutes, okay?"

The women gave him a stern look and Donghyuck's father apologized in his behalf. He then walked through the aisle, Renjun following him behind while trying to avoid the eyes and whispers echoing the venue.

Donghyuck passed by all the other people standing outside - his entourage totally unaware of the situation - and ignored their calls.

"Donghyuck, man? why are you here? You should be inside"

"Donghyuck?"

"Bro, what's wrong?"

"Yuta!" He called out and the man stopped and looked back.

"Shit" Yuta cursed.

"Where's Y/N?" Donghyuck asked.

Yuta turned to look at him and scratched his head. "Uhh-"

"Donghyuck, what's happening?" A girl's voice said and Donghyuck froze. He turned back and saw the girl he was supposed to marry, all beautiful and dressed up.

"Y/N's missing" Renjun said and sighed as he answered Jisoo's question. 

"Oh... she's supposed to walk with you, right?" She asked and Renjun nodded.

Donghyuck turned his head back to Yuta. "You're the last person who was with her? Where is she?"

"Uh... fuck it" Yuta said and brought out the envelope from his coat. "Here. I'm supposed to give it to you during reception but fuck it. You and Y/N are impossible!"

"What's this?" Donghyuck asked as he grabbed the letter.

"Just fucking read it!" Yuta said and sighed. He looked over at Jisoo who was confused.

Haechan hesitated for a second but opened the letter.

To my sunshine,

Hey.

How's the married life? ㅎㅎ

I know, I know. It's only been a few hours. Stop calling me dramatic in your annoying little head. ㅎㅎ 

Yuta probably gave this to you already, right? I'm sorry if I wasn't there at your wedding. I know I promised you I'll be there until the end but just this time... I let myself be selfish.

Donghyuck sighed and tried his best to calm down. 

Did you know... 

These past few months of preparation.... no... this whole year since your wedding announcement have been the saddest and darkest moment of my life? My sun who has always been shining beside me was slowly being taken away from me.

Donghyuck... I...

I like you.

No.

I LOVE YOU.

Donghyuck paused and suddenly, he can't breathe. Suddenly, his whole body felt weak. Did he read that right? 

I don't know when it started.

I don't know how it happened.

but it has been there for a while now and I'm sorry. I'm supposed to be your best friend, yet I kept this secret from you. 

I love you so much. 

Even the smallest of things that you do for me makes me feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world. I started seeing you as a man I loved instead of the boy who always annoyed me and always took me wherever he goes.

Your simple texts of good morning, your annoying surprise visits in my room, your simple way of buying me my coffee before morning classes, buying me smoothies, taking my books from my hands when it's too heavy, driving me to my library visits, microwaving the popcorn during our marathons, taking off your gloves right away when I don't have them, and even when telling me I look ugly when I try on your stupid adidas caps but telling me I look beautiful without it.

I've always wanted to tell you but I don't want to risk what we have. I don't want to lose you. 

But let me be selfish just this once. 

I love you and I know after this, our friendship will never be the same... but this will hurt less than pretend to be okay and see you everytime with Jisoo.

I'm going somewhere else to try and forget. I'll be away for a while.

Please don't try to look for me.

Even though Yuta, Johnny, and my brother Taeyong knows I'm going to Japan... they do not know where my actual home will be.

So please let me forget.

Even though it's hard since we've basically been together since we were 5, I'll still try my best.

If I can love you this much, then I'm sure I can undo it, right?

Take care of Jisoo, alright? she's a nice girl. I'm sure you'll find her good traits and fall in love. 

Bye Hyuck.

"Fuck" Donghyuck cursed as he crumpled the paper in his shaking hands. Tears starting to form in his eyes.

"She left a while ago. When you left her with me, she only had 30 minutes before her flight." Yuta said and looked down at his wristwatch. "Just 3 minutes and her flight leaves... She told me to find her a flight that you won't be able to catch up"

Donghyuck gripped the paper tightly in his hand with anger and sadness and regret. "And you let her!? You fucking let her do that?"

Yuta sighed at the curses of the younger guy, but he let it slide this time. "She's my friend too Donghyuck. She's Taeyong's sister... I cherish her a lot too. And as much as I want her to stay here, you both suck at expressing your feelings and I don't like to see her hurt"

"She's in love with you, you know... and I know you're madly in love with her too"

Donghyuck looked at Jisoo in shock as she spoke. "What?"

"It's pretty obvious for everyone, Donghyuck. The two of you are so caught up with the fear of losing each other and what you have if you confess... but look! not confessing just took the both of you here" Jisoo softly said and frowned.

"You knew I liked her?" Donghyuck asked.

"Yeah. I'd know how someone would look at the person they love. Especially since I've given the same look to someone else" Jisoo said, momentarily looking at someone and Donghyuck missed who it was, too distracted.

Donghyuck swallowed in the information. The paper in his tight grip felt heavy. He always thought the two of you were too close and too comfortable with each other to just be bestfriends. He always thought you felt the same but there were times where it was doubtful. 

"Go after her!" Jisoo said, cheerfully.

"What?" Donghyuck's eyes widened.

"No one knows where she'll be" Yuta said, reminding her of that fact.

"Doesn't mean you have to let it stay that way" Jisoo said, countering what Yuta had informed. Encouraging her supposed to be husband.

"What about this?" Donghyuck asked, pointing at all of the decorations and the eyes of the entourage staring at both of them. “You’re supposed to be stopping me, Jisoo.”

"I'll handle it" Jisoo whispered, patting his shoulder and pushing him away. "Go!" She cheered enthusiastically and shooed him away.

Confused but happy, Donghyuck smiles at his supposed to be wife that was pushing him away. "I'm sorry Jisoo, you're gonna be all over the news as the heir and bride who got left behind"

"Pfft! That's gonna be funny to look back to in the future! Atleast it’s not divorce! Don't worry about it, now go! Take whatever steps you have to find Y/N!" Jisoo giggled and waved at him.

Donghyuck smiled at her one last time and looked down at the paper in his hand. He looked back up at Yuta who had a sheepish smile.

"Guess I'm going to your country, Nakamoto" Donghyuck said and smiled at his older friend.

Yuta gave him his signature smile back.

Donghyuck turned back and walked out of the venue.

Even though he wasn't sure where to find you once you land in Japan, he was more than willing to do anything just to be with you and tell you just how much he loves you back... even more than you could ever imagine. 

This time, he’ll be selfish and think of only you and him.

Thank you for reading hehe.

I hope to post more stories soon! <3

[beomqutie]

ㅡ nct dream reaction when their s/o is distant and they don't know the reason

renjun:

when you randomly started to contact him less and make up excuses when he wanted to meet up with you he would notice it pretty fast. you weren't one to decline an ice cream date or to stop wishing him an awesome day and a good night. so when you started becoming distant he would be worried to no end. he always thought you're relationship was one where the two of you could always talk to each other when something was wrong, which is what made him even more confused when you decided to not talk to him anymore at all. he would definitely unexpectedly show up at your apartment to talk to you about it. even if he was nervous about you possibly breaking up with him, he wanted to finally know what was wrong.

jeno:

unlike renjun, jeno would take a little more time until he noticed that you were becoming distant. once he took note of your unusual behavior tho, he would be quick to react. he'd either just visit you at your home or spam you with calls until you couldn't ignore him any further. he wouldn't be worried about you breaking up with him tho, he only thought you were currently going through a hard time in your life, but he wished that in the future you'd come to him for help instead of shutting everyone out completely.

haechan:

honestly, I think he would get kind of mad at you. he always told that he'd always be there for you no matter what's happening. even if he couldn't do anything to help you he wanted to at least always have an open ear for you and your problems. when you decided to rather shut him out of your life he would get a little mad as soon as he notices. he would make sure to visit you and tell you how he was lowkey disappointed in your behavior. if you had an actual reason to shut him out i can see him feeling sorry and trying to make up for his bad behavior with lots of cuddles, kisses and snacks.

jaemin:

jaemin would be the quickest one to notice out of all of them i think. from the first day one he told you that your relationship would have an open door policy. meaning if you ever wanted to talk he would be there for you, but he'd never pressure you into talking to him. he was a little confused when you started to shut him out tho. normally, when you didn't want to talk about your problems you two would continue to just cuddle and watch movies or something but this time you were different. he would, just like the others, try to visit you and ask you about it. If you still didn't want to talk he would nonetheless try to be by your side. and if you still didn't want to see him and could vision you two even breaking up, because he believes in trust in relationships and if you feel like you can't trust him, is that even a relationship?

chenle:

hnestly, he's kind of oblivious to your behavior at first. he is a pretty busy person himself so he figured that your schedule just didn't match with his. but when you started giving him short one worded answers only via text messages he would get quite worried. without further ado he would come over and talk to you about it. no matter what you told him he wouldn't get mad at you, believing that whatever reason you had is a good reason for you and he didn't want to be the one to make you feel little for it.

jisung:

i actually think jisung would be one of the members who would notice your behavior rather quickly. he would be e x t r e m e l y worried tho, wondering if you had become distant because you were about to break up with him. small baby would need a lot of reassuring and advice from the older members. once he had the courage to actually visit you he'd make sure to listen to you and your feelings really well and try to remember things incase things like this would happen again in the future. once the two of you talked and you told him you're not going to break up with him, you would awkwardly cuddle while watching a movie.

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[lixiescheesestick]

a/n: I couldnt think of a title so I'll just leave it here without xD

pairing: Seo Changbin x fem!Reader

genre: smut

wordcount: 1.8k

warnings: slight corruption kink, oral (female receiving), a bit of dirty talk

ㅡ

It was no secret that you were still a virgin. Pretty much everyone on campus knew, due to you being pretty much the last one. Even your best friend, Jisu, had lost hers a few months back. But then again, Jisu was a completely different personality compared to you.

She was the mischievous one of your friendship, and definitely a party animal. And since you each got older, her style changed into something more provocative. You on the other hand never changed much, staying shy and covering up as much skin as possible most days. You wore minimal make up and never went to parties.

Until tonight that was.

“Jisu! Don’t you think this skirt is a little too short?”, you called out of the bathroom, observing yourself in the mirror.

“Babes, we are going to a frat party, not a study group.” Jisu called back,”Now get your ass out here and lemme see you!”

And so you did, slowly emerging from your bathroom to see your best friend fully dressed up. She looked up from her phone as she heard you shuffling, gasping when she saw you.

“Y-Y/N… Oh my god! You look so gorgeous. At this rate all the boys there will be drooling over you.”

When Jisu said that you smiled admitting to yourself that you looked great. The black, leathery mini-skirt hugging your curves. The navy blue, silky shirt contrasting with its bottom piece perfectly.

“Now let’s get some makeup on you and get going. Jisung, is going to pick us up.” she explained, dragging you to her room to get you glammed up and ready.

-

The party could be heard from a street away, making you nervous. A swarm of uncomfortable butterflies erupting in your stomach.

“Hey, Y/N, it’ll be fine. I was nervous at my first party too. Trust me, they get more fun over time.” Jisu mumbled to you. You smiled at her and nodded.

As the car came to a halt, she grabbed your hand and led you inside. As soon as you got in, your nostrils were filled with a discomforting scent of alcohol. There was loud music bouncing around in your head as you were dragged in  a certain direction. From one moment to the other you were in a brighter room, hardly anyone occupying it other than people filling up their cups.

“So, what do you want? Punch, beer, malibu? They got everything.” Jisu said, holding a red cup in your direction.

“How about.. Water?” you asked, making your bestie break out into loud fits of laughter before just filling your cup with some sort of toxic looking mixture.

“What did I say earlier, Y/N?” she cocked an eyebrow.

You sighed, grabbing your cup and looking down.

“What I thought. Now come on let’s- Oh, Mia hi!” Jisu quickly walked in the direction of her friend leaving you behind. You knew she didn’t mean to, she was excited, but now there you were. Stood between a bunch of young adults grinding on each other with no other goal than to get into each other's pants by the end of the night.

You pushed your way through until you found a semi-empty corner. A few people sat around chatting and laughing together. You sat down on a free seat, observing the party. You scanned the crowd of people to see if you could find your friend, but instead your eyes landed on someone else.

He was stood by his friends, them being slightly taller. His hair black as well as his clothes, his look being mysterious. You didn't notice that you had been staring until you realized that he was looking back. His strong gaze made a warm jolt spread throughout your body, your thighs squeezing together slightly as a reflex.

He smirked, looking you up and down. You quickly broke eye contact after that, downing the rest of your drink before getting up and heading toward the kitchen for a new one.

You quickly took a random bottle and filled your cup and turned around to leave, only to walk into quite a hard surface. You didn't look up, quietly apologising and going to move around the figure before they stepped in front of you.

"Where do you think you're going, princess?" a playful voice asked, the male's arms crossing before his chest.

You looked up only to see the guy from before. Gulping when you realised how much better he looked close up.

"W-well I.. I was gonna.." you raised your hand in the direction of the party, unable to get out your sentence.

The man raised an eyebrow at you, chuckling at how flustered you seemed in front of him. He held out his hand in a gentlemanly fashion, though you knew his intentions were no where close to gentleman like.

"I'm Changbin. It's nice to meet you princess." he said.

You raised your hand, unsurely shaking his.

"I-I'm Y/N." you stuttered out.

"Well, Y/N." he spoke up, pulling you towards his chest with your conjoined hands to whisper in your ear. "I saw you eyeing me earlier. It was like you were basically undressing me with your eyes, hun. Why don't you and I walk down to my place and have some fun, hm?"

"I don't know.. I'm- I've never yknow." you muttered, the offer captivating but at the same time nerve wracking.

"Wait, you're still a virgin?" he asked, taking a step back and looking you in the eyes.

"Mhm.." you nodded. It was an odd situation, but coming to think of it you wouldn't mind losing your virginity. But maybe that was the alcohol talking.

"Well, how about we make your first time pleasurable. What do you say?" Changbin asked. He seemed eager but was still cautious.

You just shook your head, Changbin grabbing you by the other hand and walking in the direction of the front door.

And man, you had no idea what you had gotten yourself into.

-

As soon as the door shut, you were pressed against it. Changbins hands pinning your hips back as he kissed your lips as passionately as he could. Your hands just gripped the bottom of his shit, crunching up the fabric in your hands.

Slowly his lips trailed from yours to your neck, sucking around until he hit a certain spot that got you whining. His member hardening as he kept on thinking of corrupting you.

Changbin tugged your shirt over your head, chucking it behind him as his hands roamed down your back sides to the back of your thighs.

He pulled back from your neck, muttering out a small 'jump' so you did. Your legs wrapping around his torso as a reflex.

Changbin carried you around the apartment to what you were guessing was his room.

When you got to his room, you were laid down on the bed. Changbin tugged off his pants before crawling on top of you. His fingers going behind your back to unhook your bra.

Changbin marveled at the sight of your chest, his lips wrapping around your left nipple instantly as his hand went up to the other. You moaned as he sucked harshly, all the arousal rushing down into your core.

"You've been keeping this all to yourself, such beautiful tits.." he muttered, cupping your breasts in his hands as he kissed around your stomach.

Changbin trailed his hands down to your skirt, undoing the zip at the side and pulling them down your legs together with your panties.

"Shit, you're so wet princess. Was this all me?" Changbin asked, his fingers running through your slit.

You nodded your head again, Changbin frowning.

"Speak up, baby."

"Yes Changbin, was all you." you said, embarrassed but at the same time aroused.

"Good girl.." he said, leaning in and licking up your slit.

He groaned at the taste, sucking at your aching bud. His right hand trailed up your thigh, his ring finger prodding at your entrance before he pushed it in.

"Fuck, you're so tight. I can't wait to be inside you.." he said, a moan erupting from the back of your throat as he went back to abusing your clit with his tongue.

He thrusted his single finger in and out of you until he thought you were stretched enough to add a second one, the stretch of his fingers stinging, making you whine.

"How are you even going to take my cock if you can hardly take two of my fingers, huh princess?" he asked, now face to face with you as he kept plunging his fingers into your core.

"Please, don't stop!" you whined, a feeling of ecstasy running through your veins as you came over Changbins fingers.

He slowed down before pulling out, placing a chaste kiss on your lips as you came down from your high.

He tugged down his boxers, throwing them onto the floor as he reached over and pulled a condom out, unwrapping it and rolling it down his hard member.

"You ready?" Changbin asked, a small change if tone compared to before.

"Yeah." you said,looking down, eyes widening at the sight of his large, girthy cock.

"Wait, will that even fit?" you squeaked, suddenly nervous."

Changbin chuckled, going down to place a kiss on your lips.

"If you stay calm, of course." he said, rubbing the tip up and down your slit, making you desperate.

Changbin pulled you into a messy kiss as he lined himself up, pushing in slowly taking it an inch at a time.

You whined at the stretch, more painful that you thought it would be. When he bottomed out Changbin gave you a bit to adjust. You nodded your head, signalling him to start moving and instantly a wave of pleasure coursed through your body.

As you got more comfortable, and everything felt more pleasurable, Changbin got faster. The sight of your writhing body, flushed face and marked up chest bringing him closer to the edge.

"Fuck, you're pussy is basically swallowing my cock princess." Changbin grunted, his pace now harsh. Skin slapping against skin as he pistoned into you.

"Fuck, Changbin, I'm gonna cum." you moaned.

"Me too, princess." he said, slowing his pace but giving harsh thrusts, pushing you over the edge.

Your clenching core sending him into overdrive as he came into the condom and rode out your moments of euphoria.

"That was great." he said, pulling out and chucking the condom into the trash.

He put on his boxers and chucked you his t-shirt.

"Anything you need? A glass if water or something?"

You pulled the shirt over your head, shaking it.

"You wanna.. cuddle?" he asked, more like it was for him than for you.

You opened your arms inviting him as he laid back down next to you. The both of you falling into a deep slumber.

[moonchildushine]

Mind Over Flames

AO3 

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Fuse

Zuko / Fire Nation There was nothing Zuko could put attention to besides the hospital for the water tribe. Two months after their reunion in Ba Sing Se passed flying with all the preparations. Zuko was always surrounded by engineers and architects preparing everything closely. He also spent a lot of time with Bato. Katara sent him a month after with instructions and ideas. He was supposed to go back after a week, but Zuko asked him to stay and give his thoughts on the design. He wanted it to be appropriate for the water tribe. 

In one week he was going with two cruisers to the South Pole. He knew Katara didn´t ask him to go personally, but he wanted to. After three years of being the Firelord Zuko did not have even one day for personal projects or even a vacation. Except for that one time Mai kidnaped him to get some alone time. The guards freaked out for a few hours. 

He was in his study, as always, getting everything ready for the trip. Also checking some documents about war prisoners. The door then opened unceremoniously. 

“Do I have to kidnap you again? I haven’t seen you in two days”. Mai stormed in. She had her characteristically annoyed face. “Not really,” Zuko smiled “hi Mai. I´m sorry, the hospital preparations have me busy”. 

She came around the robust desk, leaned down, and cupped his cheek to kiss him on the lips. They remained there for a few seconds, enjoying the closeness. 

“Why is it so important to you?” she asked and settled on the desk. “I owe them, after storming in chasing Aang, and all people my father and grandfather took from them”. 

She remained silent. At first, she used to get angry or annoyed at all the people Zuko said he owed. But Mai eventually learned that it made him feel better, so there was no point fighting it. 

“Alright just know I´m very annoyed that I cannot go. And that you need to repay me”. She got up and left. “As always”. ー He almost forgot how cold the wind was in the South Pole. The last time he sailed those waters he was a different man, with a very different purpose. 

“Firelord Zuko we will be arriving in an hour to the Southern Water Tribe” informed him one of the guards. “Very well, make sure the filters for the towers are working well”. “Yes Firelord”. And the guard left. ー Katara / South Pole 

“Katara! Fire Nation ships are coming!” yelled a little girl coming into her home.

  Katara took the kid´s hand and they both went to the port. Two big Fire Nation cruisers were close to the shore. A small curious crowd gathered to receive the newcomers. 

The ships soon docked, Katara left the girl with Gran Gran and she went to reunite with her father. 

When the ramp lowered she was speechless. Coming down was no other than Zuko himself. Katara did not ask him to come, she in no way expected him to be there to help her out, yet there he was. 

“You did not tell me Zuko, the Firelord, was coming” muttered Hakoda beside her. “I didn´t know” answered Katara. When Zuko finally reached the bottom he greeted his dad Water Tribe style. “It´s nice to see you again Chieftain Hakoda” “You too Firelord Zuko, we are grateful for your help. But please, just Hakoda”.  

He then turned to Katara. 

“Hello Katara” he smiled at her. She felt warm in her heart. He came across the world for her. “You didn´t have to come” she complained. “I know,” he sighed “but I owed you”. 

She finally hugged him. And he hugged her back. They separated smiling. ㅡ Katara didn’t remember the last time she was as happy and excited as she was for the next two weeks. She and Zuko spent almost all day together. Supervising the construction, with both Water Tribe and Fire Nation workers. 

Zuko, of course, went all the way out for the design. He brought special carved wooden pillars, and she would even have an office and a private healing room. Including her requested water rehabilitation pond. Special made beds, and three more rooms that she thought initially.

She almost forgot how it felt to spend so much time with a close-aged friend. After Ba Sing Se both Aang and Sokka stayed on the Earth Kingdom. And before that, she did not see them for almost six months. 

Unfortunately, as it commonly happened in the South Pole, a blizzard covered the tribe for an ongoing three days. 

Zuko and his people stayed in tents near the outsides of the tribe. The construction was halted and there was nothing to do but to stay inside until the storm passed. 

On the fourth day, Katara got worried over Zuko. She knew he was alone in his tent, and being alone in a never-ending blizzard was terrible. So she gathered some furs and food and made the most effort with her bending to get though the raging wind and snow to make him some company. 

When she arrived and passed through the entrance she was met with a warm room. Zuko was sitting on a pillow, using his bending to control the fire. 

“Well I don’t even know why I was worried you’d get cold” joked Katara. 

He turned back to see her, a smile as warm as the room they were in took form in his face. 

“Hi Katara” “Hi Zuko” she smiled back “I brought some furs and food for you”. “Great I’ll make some tea” 

He prepared the tea and she served and warmed the food. She bent her tea over to her cup and they both laughed. 

“Oh wow,” she praised tasting the tea “your tea skills have greatly improved since the last time”. “Thank you. My Uncle wouldn´t let me become the Firelord if I did not make him a decent cup of tea”. “He was right, as always”. “As always”. 

She looked around the tent, it seemed rather simple for Fire Nation royalty. A rug, some pillows, the little chimney, and a short table in which they were sitting on conjunct sides. Their elbows almost touching each other. 

“So, mmm, how is your scar?” shyly asked Katara. “Oh,” Zuko looked at his chest “it is fine”. “Can I see?” Katara blushed realizing what she asked “I mean for medical reasons! I want to see if the method I applied for you helped at all. But is okay if you don’t want to” she finished looking away. “Okay,” he opened his robes enough to see the scar “you can look. It actually healed very well”. 

Katara looked back at him, and down, just below his chest. The scarring actually did look very good. The lines were not harsh, it reduced in size and the color was almost the same as the rest of his skin. 

“Those medicines helped so much” she lightly touched the scar “I´m glad”. Katara looked at Zuko. His amber eyes filled with and emotion she couldn’t interpret. “I can never thank you enough Katara” he held the hand that was touching his chest. One was cold, the other was warm. “Not only did you save me that day. You saved my nation Katara. Is a debt I will be paying the rest of my life”. “Zuko no,” she made sure he was looking at her in the eye “you saved me. You took that lighting for me. I would not have defeated Azula if it was not for you. Please, I don´t want your debt”. 

The fire was slowly dying. But she did not get cold, he was warm enough. Both of them remained silent, only staring at each other. He tucked a strand lock of hair behind her ear. She cupped his scarred cheek. Without thinking of anything else, they approached each other, getting closer. Until finally, they fused. In a tingling shivering, heart-melting kiss. They could no longer feel their different body temperatures, for they were one. There was not a place when one started and another ended. Only warm touches. 

A fire lit in both their hearts. One that was long due, and never to die. ― She felt lost and confused. Katara could not get herself to regret it. How could something that felt so good, so natural be wrong? She never found an answer. The storm ended and a  letter from Aang arrived the next day, he was coming back and he promised he would stay for long. A choice needed to be made. News about her lover´s return soon spread, and she received excited comments from practically everyone she encountered. She loved Aang, there was no doubt about that. But she couldn´t ignore her feeling for Zuko. Katara finally realized what motivated her so much three years back. She could try to but her heart did not lie, there was more than friendship with Zuko, but was that enough? Was that kiss enough to leave everything she had built with Aang already? 

Her answer came from two places. One was her father, he heard about Aang and came to give Katara a talk, about marriage. According to tradition, Katara was old enough. She did not think that was happening anytime soon. But her father looked so hopeful, and when he told her about how he and her mother got married it brought her to tears. The words stuck with her for many nights. You deserve good love Katara, safe, gentle, wise, equal. That was Aang for her. 

Her second answer came from Zuko himself, indirectly. He did not talk with her, did not look for her. She knew he was probably as confused as her, and he had Mai to think about, just as she had Aang. Katara was not great friends with Mai, but just the thought of being the cause of someone else´s suffering strained her heart. No. She was not going to be that. 

Two weeks later the day came. After a month of work, the hospital was almost done. The rest of the details were  finished by the people in the tribe. Many things and gifts stayed at the tribe, and the rest was packed back to the cruisers. He never came to say goodbye to her. And she did not go to see them leave at the port. With the sound of the ships leaving Katara cried. She cried for the love that could never be. 

And away in the chilled sea, Zuko cried. His love for the women who saved him in more ways than one could never see the light.

[jinistry]

Taehyung Smut Drabble

a smol something i made because i’m practicing with writing smut scenes 🥰

your body shivered in pleasure as taehyung's tongue kept lapping against your folds ㅡ occasionally circling around your swollen bud as he hungrily takes in your juices.

"t-taehy- ah!" you whimpered, your hips jolting up as taehyung now slides his tongue inside your cunt. the weight of his palms on your inner thighs gets heavier, his hands pushing down your thighs to prevent you from moving any further.

 "f-fuck! taehy-hyung!!!" you cried out as his tongue kept plunging in and out of you repeatedly ㅡ your gushing juices spilling onto his silken lips.

 ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

 with your face buried deep into the mattress and your ass raised upwards, taehyung couldn't stop himself from losing control.

 hearing your whimpers and cries had his cock hard and throbbing, and all he wanted to do was thrust into your tight little cunt until you were a crying, shivering mess.

the need to breed your sweet, fertile cunt took over his senses, and so, tightening his grip around your hips, he pushed his hard cock deep into your tightening pussy, burying himself inside your pulsating cunt. a low growl escaped his lips when he felt your warm pussy tightening around his throbbing cock.

 he slides out his cock just until the tip is at your entrance, and finally lets his feral side take over as he slams himself into you again ㅡ pounding into you hard and rough.

[moonboohoo]

BOOK: DREAM; IN THE STARS

CHARACTER: IWAIZUMI HAJIME X READER

SUMMARY: IN WHICH A GIRL NEEDS TO REPAY HER SINS BY BEFRIENDING WITH A VOLLEYBALL PLAYER.

WORD COUNT : 5158

*LOWERCASE INTENDED.

2.1 ㅡ SOUL. 

warnings: major angst. 

days had stretched into months, and months had stretched into years. the seasons come and go like old friends. they bring memories of seasons past and the promise seasons to come.  even though these seasons were like the circle of life, which means there were some possible new changes and such, but people nowadays still lack a sense of humanity - therefore, you came up with a conclusion that becoming a grim reaper was more likely to be happier than reincarnate into another identity, which you wouldn't face the same thing all over again. maybe the trauma still haunts you, it was hard to forget and move on from what had happened in the past, and the wounds take time to heal.

after going through numerous trials and interrogations, the ruler of the afterlife - kaito-sama had previewed your life throughout these years. you've been told that committed suicide was a crime, and in order to repay your sins - they have given you a task to follow akaashi to guide the deceased to the afterlife.

how many years do you need to follow him? and, do they give you a chance to reincarnate? you have no idea, and you didn't really care about that anyway.

the pale cerise and cranberry pink blossoms of the cherry trees on the streets had fluttered downwards with the end of spring. the temperature was starting to get warmer, you could see people cursing the weather, as they took out their handkerchiefs to wipe their foreheads. nobody knew your existence, after all. you were a spirit, a grim reaper, and you're pretty much happy about it. you wanted to be alone and not interact with humans, you're scared that they will hurt your feelings again. letting out a long sigh, you raised your head for a gulp of air. the sound of the ice cream truck was heard, you saw a bunch of kids running around hysterically calling for their parents to give them money for ice cream. when they got the money from their parents, they went running toward the ice cream truck screaming, "ice cream!" , "ice cream!"

you gulped nervously and ran towards the ice cream truck, you haven't been eating ice cream for god knows how long, and you just wanted to sniff on the creamy, sweet texture to satisfy your desires. there were two kids standing beside you, licking and eating the ice cream happily. one of their cones had sprinkles and candies while the other one had nuts, coconuts and a host of other delicious toppings on them.

"(y/n)..."

no response.

"(y/n), come on." akaashi dragged you away from the scene, you pouted slightly as you followed him. he pinched the bridge of his nose before facing you, and you knew that akaashi was irritated, both of you were on a mission and the fact that you get distracted by an ice cream truck was ridiculous to him. akaashi forced himself to calm down, his angry expression returned to normal. you felt relieved when he patted your head, he usually did that when you're afraid of him, he didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable as he tried not to trigger your emotions, akaashi knew everything about your past events, and scolding you was definitely not an option.

"i told you to walk beside me, (y/n). it was hard for me to keep an eye on you when you're walking behind. moreover, i'm sure that you know we grim reapers, also counted as spirits - we won't be able to eat those, you know. "

you let out a dramatic sigh and walked past him, "akaashi...ice cream is literally the best! i mean, have you ever eaten ice cream?"

"(y/n), you never ate anything since the day you died, and it's been 15 years. and to answer your second question, i never eat that before..." his voice trailed off, as he wore a nervous expression on his face. you turned to him, your eyes widened in surprise. you thought akaashi was joking with you, you're flabbergasted and pretty much speechless. maybe akaashi hates sweet things? but, ice cream was basically a dessert that everyone likes - and he really did mention his favourite was sweet sticky rice, you've tried it before when you're little, and you immediately regretted after eating it because it was too sweet for you. akaashi fiddled his fingers when you squinted your eyes, staring at him curiously.

what was he doing in his entire life-

"akaashi-" just when you wanted to speak, he quickly covered your mouth and waved his right hand around. and for the next second, both of you were standing in the living room. you couldn't even process what was happening just now, as akaashi pulled your ear and dragged you upstairs, you made a whining voice as you tried to protest by pushing him away, but akaashi was strong, by the time when you guys were outside the room; your right earlobe had a light bruise and it was all thanks to your partner.

you crossed your arms over your chest and let out a huff, "kaito-sama told you not to simply use your powers here in case there are any emergencies..." you sighed, pushing the door open without looking at him. there were times that akaashi would suddenly get really flustered when you asked him a few questions that he didn't know how to answer, and as a result; he would end up using his powers and bring you to other places. but today? it was unacceptable. akaashi never did this to you, and you're now fuming with anger because he was acting normal, even though he could sense that you're grumpy because of him.

"(y/n), can you tell me the details about this man?"

"hisnameiscalledfujowararukawaandhe'salready78yearsoldhedoesn'tlivewithhisfamily becausehisdaughterhateshimandhe'sgoingtodieafter10minutesduetoheartattack." you simply told him in one go, without rephrasing your sentences. you pouted your lips and stared at him angrily, you're still waiting for him to pat your head, or giving you his awkward smile as an apology, but that doesn't seem to be the case. you watched the man sink slowly into the bed, his breathing becoming slower and slower and his hands were clutching on his shirt tightly, struggling to breathe. and then, you glanced over to akaashi. he was fiddling his fingers again, he slowly went towards him and put his hand on his forehead, his lips slightly quivered when he saw the man tears streaming from his deep blue eyes, loud, heaving sobs tearing down his throat. akaashi turned away and took a deep breath, he dug his fingers into his soft hands, trying to regain his composure. you couldn't help but worried about him, you nudged his arm with your elbow, he sighed while staring on the ground, not bothered to look at you.

"he's an old friend of mine," he spoke softly.

you didn't quite catch up with his words, and you're confused, too.

"i don't understand, akaashi. this old man is your friend?"

"he was already in his second life." akaashi sat on the chair, he brushed his hair back from his forehead, fingers shaking. "we're friends during the tokugawa period (aka edo period, 1603-1867. the final period of the traditional japan). both of our parents were farmers, and he will always ask me to play with him every day. we went to our secret hiding place behind our houses to build sandcastles and threw pebbles on the tree, we enjoyed talking to each other - and we talked about a lot of things. when i was 13, he was forced to move out with his parents. we made a promise to each other, and i thought our friendship will last forever."

you nodded, not knowing how to respond. "so...you have the ability to see their past memories?"

"y-yes...by touching their foreheads..." you blinked a little and waited for him to continue his story.

"we passed through, every spring. and you know what children are, always swearing internal friendship, then quite forgetting one another when the season has passed. he did not even know me when he came back to my hometown. he is so changed. and both of us were already 19 years old at that time."

you wanted to ask akaashi a lot of things, but your mouth was screwed shut. you didn't want him to think about his tragic past memories, but you're curious about his real identity. you shifted yourself closer and stood beside him, and there was this very one question that you've been dying to ask him a few years ago, but you didn't get the chance to ask him properly. you're contemplating whether you should ask this question or not, and you wouldn't give yourself too much expectation of him answering you since it was too personal.

"akaashi, why do you end up becoming a grim reaper? only people who committed sins are forced to...you know...i mean! we don't have a choice, right? kaito - sama said people who committed sins need to become a grim reaper!" you waved your hands nervously, and you regretted asking akaashi. you're ashamed at your insensitivity towards him. akaashi was looking at the old man, watching him took his last breath as he rolled his eyes back, he stood up and walked towards him as he avoided eye contact with you.

"...i killed my sister, and i ended up becoming a grim reaper for 300 years."

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one of the guards leads the old man to the judgment hall, as you and akaashi went to a small garden beside the south gate, sitting on the bench while looking over the pond. fish were jumping above the large waves, which splashed on the shore. lily pads were swaying in and out of the waves, smaller frogs were jumping from pad to pad, playing as laughter filled the entire pond. you were always amazed by the beautiful flowers growing on the side of the pond, and you've never seen such unique colours before. their petals were surrounded by little blue diamonds, and the people in the afterlife told you that butterflies were reincarnated into those little gems, which you didn't understand why.

"butterflies are meant to shine, (y/n)." akaashi sat beside you, closing his eyes while responding to your question.

"stop reading my mind, akaashi," you stated coldly, clearly still annoyed that he didn't apologize to you. he was extremely quiet, it seems like there were other things occupied in his mind. was it your fault today? asking him in such a casual manner, you felt guilty for not being considerate of his feelings. you sighed again, you cleared your throat as you looked at him, you thought it was better for you to confront him face to face. you took a deep breath, opened your mouth but the words didn't want to come out. your heart was beating fast and it was odd - you weren't afraid of him, but this feeling made you so anxious.

"...today is my last mission with you, (y/n)."

it hit you hard. if you're to describe your feelings right now - sadness, anger and frustration mixed into one. you clenched your fist, your tears fall uncontrollably. you hated akaashi for not telling you, you hated him for being so selfish - he should've told you earlier, and you could spend time together with him as much as you can, it was hard to accept the fact that he was going to leave you, akaashi was there since the beginning of your death. 15 years of him taking care of you, 15 years of him staying by your side when you're depressed, 15 years of him doing a lot of things to you, to make you feel safe and comfortable around him.

"i'm sorry...i...i- please listen to me, (y/n)." he grabbed your hands and asked you to look at him. "after all these years, kaito-sama has finally given me a chance to reincarnate... i've been wanting to tell you since last week, but when i looked into your eyes, i felt guilty. it- it was hard for me too, it's been bothering me for months. (y/n)...i-"

he cried.

akaashi was crying.

when he cried, there was a rawness to it, like the pain was still an open wound. he hugged you tightly, the sobs were stifled at first as he attempted to hide his grief, then overcome by the wave of his emotions he would break down entirely. as much as akaashi tried to hold it in, his tears falling down one after another, without a sign of stopping. you hugged him back as your hands clutching on his black cloak, as you too, couldn't stop holding back your tears. you wanted akaashi to be happy, you wanted him to live a normal life again, it was true that you're still frustrated about him not telling you in the first place but, nothing matters now. akaashi wiped off his tears and pushed you away gently, his hand rubbed the bruise on your right earlobe and smiled; "sorry, (y/n)..."

"i-it's okay..." you hiccuped through your sobs.

"i've never pulled anyone before, except for my sister when she's naughty." akaashi bit his lips, tears threatening to fall. you nodded, his eyes not leaving you. "(y/n), i'm so sorry..."

"it's okay, akaashi...it's not a big deal...even though i was angry with you just now, i-"

"it-it's not fine..." he gripped your shoulders, his whole body was trembling when facing you. your face softened as you tried to draw circles across his back with your fingertips. "(y/n)... i said...i've never pulled anyone before, except for my sister..." akaashi repeated, closing his eyes as his salty drops fall from his chin, drenching your cloak. "akaashi, i know..."

"you don't understand! (y/n)! you are actually my sister!" he shouted as you flinched slightly. at this moment, you couldn't process anything that was happening around you. you didn't know what to think or how to think about akaashi. he was lying, right? those tears were rolling down your cheeks, the world turned into a blur, and so did all the sounds. he looked past your memories, he knew everything about you when he first met you in your room, touching your forehead and soon connecting the dots between you and him; and now this guy - who was crying and sobbing, was your brother.

why? you didn't want to believe him, but akaashi was the only one who knew your past, and you're so confused, you have no memories at all and you couldn't just simply hate him.

but he killed you.

he told you that he killed his sister, which was you... he kept apologizing to you, his nose grew very red at the tip. "i'm-i'm sorry... you are my sister...i don't have a choice really... those armies came to our town, trying to enslave all the girls... you're so scared, you hid under the table and kept screaming my name... i didn't want you to suffer, (y/n)! they're nasty and dangerous, i can't fight back. so...maybe i was thinking, it's better for you to die instead of being captured by them." akaashi's body was wracked with great sobs and he shook like a leaf. you scooted closer and pulled him into a tight hug, your eyes were burning and your chest felt heavy as if it were filled with lead. you smoothed your chaotic hair and wiped the tears from your cheeks which were now blotchy and mottled.

"i don't hate you, akaashi," you reassured him, his crying starting to subside but you could still hear his sniffles, you patted his back as both of you went silent for a moment. you're still in a trance - and it was hard for you to digest every single thing that he had said to you. you couldn't recall your past memories, and it was unfair to akaashi, too. he was trying to protect you from danger, and - even though killing you was not an option, but it was already over. it pains you when you saw akaashi crying to you, completely vulnerable. akaashi was always calm and thoughtful, he wasn't the type to break down so easily...

as much as you wanted to stay like this for a while, but it was time for him to go.

"hey...(y/n). thank you for everything." he slowly stood up, smiling at you. "don't cry, (y/n). i'm trying my best here...please smile for me. take care of yourself, okay? be strong, try to depend on yourself instead of others. if you're feeling lonely, you can always go to other grim reapers, make some new friends and it will make your life less boring. don't be afraid, i'm here for you, always." he pointed his own chest as tears were streaming down his already wet cheeks. he quickly wiped off his tears and you - your eyes now filling tears with glistening in the light, bouncing sadness through the atmosphere.

the pain you carry in your chest was inexplicable. seeing him walk away from you hurts you a lot. even though you wanted to hold him and keep him by your side for a long time, it seems like it wasn't going to happen. you didn't expect him to leave you someday.

"i will never forget the moments that you laughed with me, helped me...i don't regret any of those memories. thank you for everything...once again, i hope you found your happiness," you told him.

he walked towards you and kissed your forehead, "goodbye, mochi chan."

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2009, March 29.

another 14 years had passed.

it took three years to accept the fact that akaashi had left you, and up until now, you're still thinking about him sometimes. you hoped that he was doing well in his life, as much as you wanted to see him again, it was hard for both of you to meet each other now. he was not going to remember you, and his looks might change...maybe a totally different person, who knows? you sighed as you put the name list on the table, kaito-sama didn't assign any mission to you today. you stood up and stretched your body, letting out a yawn.

"yo, (y/n) chan !!"

you immediately rolled your eyes.

hachiro kazumi, assistant of kaito - sama. you had no idea what he was doing honestly, you only knew that he was good at writing reports and flirting with other grim reapers, especially guys. ever since akaashi had left, kazumi had become your temporary partner. god, this fox boy was annoying, he never stopped asking you silly questions and he was excited every time when he got a chance to go on a mission with you. and also, you didn't understand why he could look into his mirror all day, praising himself over and over again, and also gave himself a nickname called "the charming fox boy". you closed your eyes when he pulled you into a tight embrace, his tail wagging around as he squished his cheeks against yours.

"uh-ow...kazumi, that hurts..." he laughed as he pushed you away gently. "kaito-sama wants to see you right now!" you nodded as you tugged your hair behind, ready to go to the palace. but kazumi was still standing there, his head tilted to the side as his yellow eyes were staring at you, as you've forgotten to do something right before you go to the palace. you scratched the back of your neck and sighed, "right, i knew it." you walked to him and patted his head, rubbing his ears as he purred in satisfaction.

"alright ! let's go, (y/n) chan!"

kaito-sama was already standing there waiting for your arrival. you bowed to him as both of you proceeded to the room with kazumi followed behind. he closed the door as he asked you to sit on the silver chair, kazumi rummaged through the shelves and took out a few documents and placed it on the table. kaito-sama nodded slightly, he read through the yellow papers and gave it to you, as you're eyeing on them curiously. "i have a mission for you, (y/n)." kaito - sama clasped his hands together on the table, your eyes widened in disbelief when you've read through the last paper.

"kai-kaito - sama...eh...uhm...i don't understand..." you put the documents aside, blinking your eyes, utterly confused. you need an explanation from him, why did he assign such a mission for you? kazumi smirked at you, he wanted to say something but was interrupted by his superior. "after several discussions, we're giving a special task for you, instead of guiding the dead to the afterlife, you can spend your time in the real world to complete your mission, isn't that nice?" he smiled as he gave you papers to sign your contract. you hesitated, it was new to you, as much as you didn't want to disobey his orders, you thought it was quite ridiculous for you to take care of a boy for 4 years.

"kaito-sama, why do i need to babysit a boy for 4 years? plus, i'm dead. i won't be able to go to his world and follow him all the time, right? and the documents - it stated that i will be living with the hayato family, they got married but they didn't have any children since then. t-this doesn't even make sense? i'm dead, kaito-sama, i don't understand...why do i need to be friends with him?"

he sighed, scratching his cheeks as he tried to think of a better explanation, to make it convincing to you. "anyway, we are able to change your "parent's" memories. you will become their temporary daughter for 4 years. and also, don't question anything, (y/n). it's for your own good, you got to reincarnate once he's officially 18 years old. you will be going to the same school as him, and when the time you got into the real world, your body will start to shrink - as you know, this boy is only 15 years old, and your physique will be the same age as him, too."

"we can make you alive again, (y/n). only for 4 years."

you rubbed your temples and took a deep breath. kaito-sama didn't exactly answer your question, and you couldn't just disobey his commands. you didn't care about your reincarnation, though. you were just feeling very, very exhausted when you knew you're going to classes all over again. you took a piece of paper and wrote several things about his background, and also the details of the hayato family as well. you put it inside your pocket and signed the contract unwillingly, you tried to stay positive and cheery as possible, you didn't want yourself to be depressed for the next 4 years.

documents ; details of iwaizumi hajime and the hayato family.

kaito - sama smiled at you, "(y/n), as i said, it's for your-"

"yeah, yeah. it's for my own good."

"cheer up, babe! kaito-sama give you a chance to reincarnate! you just need to finish this mission, (y/n)!" kazumi pulled a chair and sat beside you, playing with your hair.

you groaned and looked up to him, "i'm not a guardian angel...you know? i'm a grim reaper."

they lead you into a darker room, which kazumi brought a few spellbooks and gave it to kaito- sama. the spellbooks were from the previous ruler, they guarded them like precious gems. kazumi prepared the circle. the candles glowed and the prepared purification materials were readied. kaito-sama asked you to step into a circle centre, as he took the spellbook and his hands ran over the words of the spell. the light rose up from the ground and circled your body. your body vibrated, your skin turned to silver as the light shot through your body. your head started to get dizzy, you felt yourself drifting further and further and you could hear kazumi yelling at you, but you couldn't hear anything from him.

suddenly, you woke up in an unfamiliar room.

the room was purple with beautiful murals on the wall, hand painted by someone else. there were a few books and papers on the table, and there were dry baby breaths beside you which you didn't know why, but it smells good, though. the vanilla scent lingered around your room, it made you sleepy but you forced yourself to crawl out of your bed. the paper that you've written the details on was on the table, you quickly put it inside your drawer before your so-called parents looked at it. your room was so different compared to your own room many years ago, you're happy when you see a few stuffed toys on the shelves. you hoped that the hayato family was not abusive, as you're nervous and excited at the same time.

you went to your bathroom and looked at the mirror, your face was slightly rounder and chubbier compared to your true form. other than that, nothing changed much. you didn't have much acne on your face, though. you're quite satisfied with your new room and your looks, you smiled as you went out of your room.

"(y/n) chan!! (y/n) chan!!" your heard footsteps approaching you and when you turned around, you saw a woman with black hair grinning at you happily as she grabbed your wrist and led you to the kitchen. your hands started to get sweaty due to your past events - she wasn't going to beat the hell out of you, right? "tada!" she took out the butter cake from the oven and placed it in front of you. "isn't it lovely! we are going to bring this to our new neighbour, what do you think? (y/n)?" her eyes beamed with excitement, sniffing the scent of the butter cake and let out a hummed of satisfaction.

"e-eh... uhm...yes? it-it looks tasty!" you replied, your heart was still beating fast.

"why are you so tense?! my daughter? here," she then kissed your forehead and ruffled your hair, "are you feeling better?"

"...i feel loved." you thought of yourself, you never experienced this kind of thing before, except for akaashi; kissing on your forehead before he left.

"yeah." you smiled, giving a peck on her cheeks. she smiled widely, asking you to follow her to bring this butter cake to your next neighbour, which you're happy to oblige. you felt safe when you're with her, you could tell that your "mother" was an optimistic person. you looked around the living room, you didn't see your dad in your house. "where's dad?" you asked. your mom wore her flip flops and turned around and looked at you, "ah, your dad will be coming home tonight! don't you remember? we are going to celebrate his birthday!"

"ah-ah yes! sorry, i forgot." you smiled sheepishly.

you knocked on the door twice and waited for their response, your mom was holding on the aluminium tray as she whistled softly to you. you could hear footsteps and then the door was swung open, revealing a small, brown-haired woman smiling at us. "i'm sorry, i was washing the dishes!" your mom shook her head, telling her not to worry about it.

" i brought you some homemade cake! hope you will like it!" she told her.

"oh my...i did not expect this! p-please, come in! make yourself at home!" she waved her hands frantically as she quickly took the cake from your mom, leading you guys to the living room. once she put the cake on the table, the woman turned around and asked you, "hi, sweetie! how old are you?"

"ah! i'm 15 years old." you told her, you cringed slightly due to the childishness in your voice.

"oh really? i have a son of your age," she replied enthusiastically as she helped your mom to take out the plates and put it on the dining table. you nodded and sat on the blue sofa nervously, you started to fiddle your fingers as your eyes started to dart around. this is the first day of your mission, and you still need to endure for 4 years. you closed your eyes, trying to calm down your emotions, a part of you wanted to stay with the hayato family forever, but another part of you wanted to abandon this mission and went back to the afterlife, completing easy tasks instead of befriending with a guy in the real world.

"hajime! come down now and serve our guests, please!"

"coming..." you saw him walking down the stairs and yawned loudly, he rubbed his tired eyes as he went to the kitchen, drinking a glass of water before he proceeded to the living room. when he saw you, his face turned red as he quickly poured a glass of orange juice and gave it to you, you laughed at his reactions before you took the glass from him. "i-i'm sorry! i just woke up from my nap, so my vision was quite blurry..." he rubbed the back of his neck.

"o-oh, it's fine!" you tried to hold back your laughter, as you quickly drank your orange juice. he sat beside you, and you could tell he was trying his best to find something to talk to you. "i'm not good at conversations, so i'm sorry if i weirded you out."

"not at all! don't worry about it."

"uhm...what's your name?"

"my name is (y/n) hayato. your name is iwaizumi hajime, right?"

oh shit.

you mentally facepalmed yourself, why did you say something like this? you just blurted out his name, iwaizumi will probably think that you're a stalker, his eyes widened as he questioned, "how do you know my name?"

"i got your name from the afterlife and my boss asks me to take care of you-"

"oh, your mom told me your name!" you winked at him, as you quickly took a sip of your orange juice and faced him again. he nodded slightly, and he asked, "you are the same age as me right?" you replied with a nod as he continued, "which high school are you going to? i'm going to aoba johsai, though. my friend forced me to go with him." he sighed, as he rubbed his left cheek. "just think about him makes me want to - ugh never mind."

both of your mothers shouted from the kitchen, asking both of you to take the cookie jar and placed it on the dining table.

"i'm going to aoba johsai too! wanna walk together to school everyday?"