lixiescheesestick

[lixiescheesestick]

If you missed me and want to shit talk with me, go follow my new acc. Let's whore around and be lonely together :)

@relatable-therapy-session

[lixiescheesestick]

Hey Kyra.. if you ever stumble upon my tumblr page in the future know that I miss you.

I love you.

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to all my friends, mutuals and just people I follow or that follow me I have seen that a lot of you have grown!

congratulations !!

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Thank you

Hey everyone,

this is a small letter that I am directing to everyone who has liked or currently likes my account and my works such as writing or small shit-posts I have created.

I have spent a lot of time on this app, creating and supporting my friends and mutuals. It has been an amazing ride and I have honestly met some amazing people, of which I am glad to call many my friends.

Thank you so much for the warm welcome into this community and I hope for.. less of a good bye but more of a 'see you later' type of thing.

You all mean so much to me, and all the support and growth have honestly been such a blessing and an amazing help. I love you so much and I hope to someday stumble across this and maybe even decide to start over.

For now, I guess this is the end

Thank You.

Yours truly,

Hannah aka. lixiescheesestick

[lixiescheesestick]

it’s okay! you can do whatever you want! i’m still so proud of you, so so whatever feels best -bub

thank you.. it means a lot

[lixiescheesestick]

If you do start a new account will you tell us what it is or if not can we follow you anywhere else 🥺💞

Of course I'd tell! It would be unfair if I made a new account and disappeared...

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I'm on the edge of quitting this account for good or just opening a new one and starting from scratch. I'm not up for writing anymore, I do small things in my free time but honestly nothing that is postable because they are small drafts I'd love to make into longer series. It's stressful and I'm so sorry.

[lixiescheesestick]

A very rare moment of my mum saying one of the members of skz is attractive just popped up. It was to my Changbin photocard in my phone..

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i’m sure it’s worth posting! everything you do is amazing! -bub

thank you, everything you say means a lot..

[lixiescheesestick]

bub anon loves you! how’s the writing coming? ask me if you need any inspiration

I have written small things, but nothing worth posting.

[lixiescheesestick]

no you’re awesome I said so - bub

I am very sorry for being so late, and you're awesome end of story.

[lixiescheesestick]

[01:30] Suddenly, it hurt. Loud, ring-like sounds echoed in your ears. All of your body feeling uncomfortably numb apart from your aching core. You truthfully didn't know how many times he had made you cum, but it hurt. No pleasure, no mention of stopping.

It was torturous.

Every sound you tried to make got swallowed up by the tight gag and the harsh 'shut-up's' you recieved. It was unfair. Were you deserving of punishment? Is that why your dominant other, Seungmin, was doing this to you?

Tears rolled down your face and in a single moment of being able to catch your breath, you screamed in a painful manner.

Everything went silent. The vibrations stopped and the bed felt empty. You lay there, eyes closed and crying unable to move your body. Hands slowly brushed hair out of your face. Your eyes opening to the sight of your boyfriend, fully clothed and a worrisome look on his face. He reached around your face and unbuckled the gag, putting it to the side.

He untied your hands and with that you quickly wrapped your arms around him and sobbed into his neck.

"Sh, baby. It's okay. I'm sorry sweetheart, I'm so so sorry. You did nothing wrong, don't worry." he muttered, stroking your head gently.

You pulled back and nodded, afraid to look him in the eyes. Though you had received the reassurance needed, it felt uncomfortable. He took some cream and applied it to any sore areas, being extra gentle. After, he proceeded to dress you in an oversized shirt and comfortable underwear.

"Water?", he asked, offering you a glass. You took it carefully and sipped out of it slowly.

After you placed it down, he laid a finger beneath your chin and tilted your head up so you would meet his eyes.

"I'm sorry, Y/N. Will you ever forgive me? If you don't appreciate this anymore I'll leave but even then I'll always-"

You jumped on him, hugging tightly and sobbing.

"-love you.." he said, cradling you in his arms again.

"D-don't leave me, please..' you sobbed into his neck, digging your nails into his shirt.

"I never will, my darling" he said, keeping you close.

[lixiescheesestick]

it’s gonna be okay, friend. i’m here for you! -bub

thank you. it means a lot. You're really awesome :(

[lixiescheesestick]

Thank you to everyone who is deciding to stick with me even though I keep my posts at a minimum//do not post at all. It means a lot and I will try to get back to everything soon.

[lixiescheesestick]

𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕣  𝟙𝟝💌

𝕕𝕖𝕒𝕣 @lixiescheesestick,

𝕚’𝕧𝕖 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕦𝕟𝕞𝕠𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕣𝕖𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕚 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕝𝕖𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕚𝕥’𝕤 𝕠𝕜𝕒𝕪 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕖 𝕦𝕟𝕞𝕠𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕕! 𝕕𝕠𝕟’𝕥 𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕔𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕥𝕠 𝕞𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕓𝕖𝕔𝕒𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕚𝕥 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕦𝕟 𝕠𝕗 𝕚𝕥 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕧𝕖𝕤 𝕠𝕟𝕝𝕪 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕤! 𝕤𝕠 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕗𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕝𝕝 𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕞𝕠𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟!!

𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖, 𝕗𝕖𝕝𝕚𝕩✨

[lixiescheesestick]

i’m so sorry, what things used to be your motivation? -bub

I guess mostly boredom and writers I looked up to. I had one friend who brought me into this whole 'kinky' kind of community and that's what really got it started... and general experiences I've had but those aren't many anymore I guess

[lixiescheesestick]

hello! i just wanted to say that it's okay to be unmotivated! things are probably tough right about now so it's important to not push yourself and to let yourself *be* unmotivated! it sounds bad, but hopefully it'll all work out!

thank you

I'm trying hard I swear