#t: ptsd

[killugonficlibrary]

full count by nogoodalone ( T | 73,866 | 13/13 )

Killua Zoldyck’s carefully crafted strategy to graduate early was all going according to plan. Until the beginning of his last scheduled year, when his academic advisor decided to share that he was missing all of his required athletics credits. And that all gym classes were full for the year. And, no, scanning into the workout center once a week could not count for credit.

What could count for full credit, though, was being a practicing athlete on a university sports team for a minimum of two semesters. Great news for the men’s baseball coach whose team desperately needed a new pitcher and was willing to give opposite-of-athletic Killua a shot. No hitting required, minimal fielding promised, and an unexpectedly killer curveball later, and Killua had a #99 jersey with his last name on it.

The issue? Killua knew nothing about baseball. Luckily for him, team captain and catcher Gon Freecss had selflessly volunteered to teach Killua everything he needed to know about the game outside of practices.

Luckily for him, Killua loved study sessions. And baseball pants. And maybe the fact that things didn’t always go according to plan.

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a modern uni & baseball killugon au | for the 2023hxhbb

[kingtuna]

"C-PTSD? Heh, no. CT-PTSD"

*laughs histerically as The HorrorsTM reflect in their eyes*

–every single clone ever

[spirk-trek]

Contact Fanzine #6 | Merle Decker, 1979 These pieces were drawn for Home is the Hunter by Bev Volker, which can be read here in PDF format (beginning p. 214)

[sauronism]

can't stop thinking how galadriel's hyper vigilance from s1 and her endless pursuit for sauron is a manifestation from her ptsd. almost like a ritual for her to perform. an intrusive desire that she can't stop. seek the enemy so you can feel protected. seek the enemy so your people can feel protected. seek the enemy so you can be sure no one will get hurt. seek the enemy again so the kingdom can stay intact. seek the enemy again and again until your mind said enough.

[worstloki]

love the idea of the Avengers adding new members but being stingy about rooms so the OG Avengers each get their own but Bucky and Loki are forced to share one under the guise of it being 'healthy interaction'

[scrunckled-idiot]

I imagine Medic giving a check-up to a tiny (just to scare them of course) opening his own mouth in that uncanny smile like

"Now, say 'AAAAH~..."

And the poor thing so scared JSHSJ

—🍭 anon

teefs

[themulitipurposechannel]

Do I have assessments due? Yeh. Should I be studying? Probably 😂But like most things this just grabbed hold of my brain and won’t let go so here we are XD

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But on a more serious note I think we’ve all felt this at some point or at least we all will eventually feel this. Esp as you get older and your body starts to fail or for those who ever got diagnosed with a life changing condition.. things just.. get hard when it used to be so easy.Esp if you’re also at that age (eg: teens/early 20s) where it should be your golden years you just.. get so angry. If that’s you then I’m sorry.. that this is happening to you. And I’m sorry that no one save God can take this away, but if nothing else, I hope you know, Anatawa hitorijanai.

[vanlegion]

Grimmons Nation Feeling like

[marshbarks]

did you guys hear the rumor? the king and his ranger snuggle at night!

[starfishinthedistance]

I've talked a bit about this before but if someone tells you they feel like their trauma wasn't bad enough to be valid and your response is to just start talking about """big T and little t trauma""" I hate you and sincerely hope you step on glass.

All that you're saying is essentially "Oh you feel like your trauma isn't bad enough compared to other traumatized people and it's causing you a lot of emotional turmoil? I have the solution! Here are two arbitrarily created boxes I've called 'Big Scary Traumatizing Valid Events' and 'small events but you're having reactions so I guess we have to acknowledge you', and you're actually in that second box! You actually don't have the same problem as the Big Scary Event People! They have the big problem and you have the little one! Do you feel better yet?"

Like, I've already talked about how trauma and its severity is subjective and the Big T vs little t bullshit has no set definition and varies wildly from person to person, but even setting that aside, do you think creating another box and separating the """little t people""" from other survivors is going to make them feel more valid and secure? Epescially how when people talk about """little t trauma""" they always talk about it like "oh the event wasn't that bad but you had a Big Reaction and it was your Feelings that caused the trauma" like...you're essentially saying they're overreacting disguised with a bunch of therapy buzzwords.

"The event wasn't that bad but we still feel hurt 😢😢😢". Go fuck yourself. ESPECIALLY when therapists/psychiatrists/etc tell this to their clients. To have a professional tell you your trauma doesn't fit into 'bad event box' and is just caused by you overreacting does so much fucking damage. Professionals should fucking know better, especially if you claim to be trauma informed.

Just say "Trauma is any event where the brain feels it is in danger, and trauma symptoms are simply when the danger response prolongs past the event. Doubting your experiences and the validity of them is a very common and severe trauma symptom. It's a way of your mind trying to separate itself from the trauma to protect you from the pain of it, and it's observed in almost all survivors with all kinds of trauma. In cases where the trauma is abuse, it's also indictive of severe psychological abuse using methods like gaslighting and other kinds of manipulation."

There. Gets the message across better than telling them they're just apart of the 'not that bad' group of survivors.

God I hate the wellness TikToker-ification of trauma discussions.

[killugonficlibrary]

all the pretty lights by blueberryberet ( M | 47,633+ | 12/16 )

Killua is a rockstar with some… messy habits. That’s how he tells it to his sister when she calls, the reality of it is a lot more destructive.

Except now she’s not calling, she’s in his hotel room writing on his arm cast (no, he doesn’t remember how he broke it) and demanding to join him and his band for their cross-country tour. He can’t send her home for obvious reasons. He needs someone to keep an eye on her, or more accurately, keep her eyes off the disaster that is his life.

And when his band manager Bisky says she knows the perfect person he thinks that maybe, he’s finally got lucky, and maybe it will all be fine.

Except things are never, ever, fine with him.

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[goodluckbabeheffron]

talk tuah podcast bastogne episode

[spirk-trek]

Contact Fanzine #6 | Merle Decker, 1979 This was also the cover art for Home is the Hunter by Bev Volker, which can be read here in PDF format (beginning p. 214)

[kanthonyficrecs]

Featured Fic (Canon Divergence)

Breaking The Wheel To Stop It Turning by WaterlilyRose

Rating: T

Summary: Everyone jokes that Anthony will be insufferable when Kate becomes pregnant with his fussing and worrying. No-one realises how right they all were.

[who-dat-homeless]

I hope there are rehabilitation/adaptation programs for starfleet officers

Because no matter how much I love them and believe they're a good people, at the end of the day they're an army men returning home from traumatizing events IT'S DANGEROUS TO LEAVE THEM WITHOUT SOCIAL HELP

[eirenical]

Homecoming (2052 words) by eirenical

Fandom: 九龍城寨之圍城 | Twilight of the Warriors: Walled In (2024) Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary: AV, Chan Lok-kwan, Shin, and Twelfth Master are different men than they were a year ago. The world is heavier now, harder to bear, but still they've won. They've taken back their home. But can a place where they've lost so much ever truly be home again without the man who made it one?

Their first night back in the Walled City after its liberation was both homecoming and memorial service all rolled into one. So many people gone. So many people damaged, broken, forever changed. They could repair homes, shore up walls, reopen businesses, but people were not so easily replaced and repaired.

Lok-kwan had seen that already in his three friends. "They aren't the same men," Tiger had said, and he'd been more right than Lok-kwan had then understood. Broken in body, nearly broken in spirit, yet still there had been sparks there, deeply buried, of the men he'd known, the men he'd come to think of as family—a true luxury for an orphan who'd never had one. And with their reunion, that spark was slowly fanning back into a flame.

As the sun had set and night settled in, they had milled around the destroyed barber shop, unsure where to go, what to do, until Lok-kwan had finally realized that after a year spent living so closely together, they no longer knew how to be apart. Lok-kwan went rummaging through the place—his old loft, Shin's apartment, to a few of the aunties who had shops nearby—until he'd gathered up enough bedding to make a sleeping pallet big enough for the four of them to curl up together, to watch each other's backs.

That had been nearly five hours ago if the clock on the wall could be counted upon. Five hours ago… and there were only two other people curled up in the blankets with him now. AV. Twelfth Master.

Shin was nowhere to be found.

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November 24, 2024: This one is all @qilingxiong's fault. I watched this movie a week or two ago and it's been poking at my subconscious ever since. Then I spun a whump wheel and got "panic attack" and all the fic thought bubbles burst all over my keyboard and here we are. XD Enjoy? ^_^

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 九龍城寨之圍城 | Twilight of the Warriors: Walled In (2024) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: AV & Chan Lok-kwan & Shin & Twelfth Master Characters: AV (Twilight of the Warriors), Chan Lok-kwan, Shin (Twilight of the Warriors), Twelfth Master (Twilight of the Warriors) Additional Tags: the relationship between the four could be read as romantic or preromantic if one chooses, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Flashbacks, Panic Attacks, Grief/Mourning, cuddle piles, Literal Sleeping Together, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Post-Canon