#sylvain angst

[onyxedskies]

 “i know we don’t know eachother well, but i can give you my number and you can talk to me whenever you need..”  Duo of your choice. Make me cry.

oo ok. alright i can work with this.

i am not super good with modern aus but i shall try my best lmfao

pairing: mercedes & sylvain

word count: 767

warnings: suicide attempt

His heartbeat thrummed in his ears.

Miklan had been right about him. He was always right about him.

Just a stupid coward who took everything away from everyone else. Who hurt people with his existence, with his stupidly self-destructive actions.

It was better this way.

Felix, Dimitri, and Ingrid were still at college, and Glenn was on a business trip for the week. He had no other friends - the fact that those four had stuck around so long was a miracle in and of itself. His father would send the notes when he found out. He could be a douche, but he wouldn't go that far.

Sylvain stood on the edge of the bridge, looking down at the roaring waters. He wasn't wearing a coat, a poor choice for anyone to make in a Faerghan March, but he deserved the cold that nipped at his fingers and stung his cheeks.

There were idle footsteps somewhere around him. He didn't care.

He took a deep breath, steadying his resolve. He'd always been afraid of heights; this was the perfect way for him to go. The perfect final punishment.

He bowed his head.

"Wait!"

The footsteps he heard earlier were getting faster, louder, and all of a sudden there was a hand on his shoulder, on his arm, and they were pulling him off of the ledge and into a hug.

"What-"

"No," the voice said. Sylvain tried to lift his head, getting only a glimpse of ash blonde hair before his head was being gently pushed into the person's shoulder. "I won't let you do this."

"Mercedes?" Sylvain asked, hesitant. It was a long shot, but it was possible; she had moved away her senior year, but it was possible she was back to visit.

They didn't know each other well in high school, and they hadn't spoken since then. All they had were fragile memories of shared activities from a time long past.

"You can't do this to yourself," she said. Her voice sounded thick. "I know we don’t know each other well, but I can give you my number and you can talk to me whenever you need."

"I'm not worth that," Sylvain laughed. It was hollow sounding, even to him.

"Yes you are." Her voice was firm, and yet soothing all the same. Inexplicably, tears sprang into his eyes. "You are worth that and so much more. You're not- you're loved, Sylvain."

"All I do is hurt the people around me," he replied, more aggressive than he wanted it to be. "It's better for everyone this way."

"No, it isn't," Mercedes said.

"Yes, it is!" Sylvain cried. "All I do is hurt people. My existence hurts people! God knows my actions don't do anything to fucking help me in that regard, but I can't stop. I want to stop, but I can't, I just can't, so it's better for everyone if I'm gone. If I'm gone, there's only so much damage I can do."

"That's not true," Mercedes said. She hesitated for a second before tightening her grip. "Whatever your brother told you, your father - they were wrong. About all of it. You are worth so much more than you think you are. You deserve support, not to be pushed aside because you resorted to unhealthy coping mechanisms because you had nothing else to do."

Sylvain tried to swallow down a sob. "But I-" his voice broke- "hurt everyone I've ever loved."

"Have you apologized?" Mercedes asked, so painfully gently.

"Of course I have," Sylvain said. He was crying now, tears running down his face as he tried to keep himself from sobbing.

"Have they hurt you?" she asked.

"Yes, but that's different!" His voice was trembling.

"How?"

"Because they're them and I'm just me," Sylvain sobbed. "Because they have good futures ahead of them, with happy and fulfilled lives, but all I have is a silver tongue and a track record of hurting people."

Mercedes clutched him tighter, and he buried his face into the crook of her neck and wailed. She rubbed his back, waited for him to calm down. She might have said something, but he couldn't hear anything else over the sounds of his anguish. Of fifteen years of pain exploding out of him.

"You are worth the help I'm going to get you," Mercedes said as his sobs turned to hiccups. "You are worth all of the money, time, and energy it will require. You're worth it, Sylvain."

He didn't agree, but he didn't have the energy to argue.

And maybe, just maybe, she was telling the truth.

[frickingnerd]

love triangle with sylvain and felix

pairing: sylvain jose gautier x gn!reader x felix hugo fraldarius

tags: love triangle, rivalry & jealousy, pety!felix, flirty!sylvain, silly & wholesome fluff, open ending, sylvix friendship

it's hard to tell which one of the boys fell for you first

sylvain was the one who started flirting with you first, but he wasn't really serious about it right away

felix on the other hand never seemed to change much around you, even after falling in love with you, making it hard to know when exactly he realized his feelings for you

though there is one thing that starts to show that he's in love with you: he tries to keep you away from sylvain!

felix worries that you might end up falling for sylvain and tries to avoid you and the red head running into each other

of course, this only intrigues sylvain as he starts to notice it, suggesting that felix might be crushing on you and keeping you away from him for that reason

though when felix denies that he has feelings for you, sylvain starts to assume you're the one who's in love with him, which only piques his interest

he starts to seek you out more, flirting with you every chance he gets and before he knows it, sylvain fell for you as well

it takes the two boys a while to realize they both love you and once they do, it gets a little awkward between them

both suggest the other one should have you, but both deny as well. in the end, they settle on fighting for you and the better one wins!

sylvain continues his usual flirting with you, often taking you on dates as well, while felix attempts to have more time with you than sylvain, without actually having to call it a date or admit to his feelings

felix also likes to play dirty, telling you small lies like "sylvain won't be joining us today" so he'll have you to himself or he'll cover your eyes when sylvain is does something impress during training, to prevent you from seeing it

[claudvain]

Do you remember the promise we made when we were kids? About sticking together until we die together?

I remember.

[callmewishful]

This clip from AM is reason 23 why I think Miklan should have lived in AG.

If Sylvain was this remorseful over the worst version of Miklan, imagine how upset he was over what was arguably the best version of Miklan when he died. Imagine the dynamic between them that could have occurred if Miklan had been allowed to keep growing.

[princessofthevalley5]

working on a crimson flower sylvix fic bc i am insane <3

[onomatoseeyah]

@sylcedesweek

So I stretched the prompt (by a lot lol) so please imagine the 5+1 fanfic prompt where Sylvain protects/helps Mercie the 5 times, and then the 1 time that Mercie protects him

[randomnameless]

Which is stupider, Brave!Lysithea agreeing with Supreme Leader and thinking that getting rid of crests will automatically cause the concept of people with more power over society than others to disappear, or Brave!Marianne idolizing Momo despite presumably knowing full well how much of a monster he was?

B!Lys without a doubt !

B!Lys thinking crusts makes people nobles erases Judith, Holst and hell, even Marianne herself from Fodlan (Marianne is a noble because she was adopted by Edmund, not because she has a crest, hell, her crest is hidden!!).

B!Marianna can sort of exist in the post VW limbo where it is probable that post VW Claude never said a thing about the origins of the Relics and the identity of the Elites to his classmates (just as it is probably he told them, the game doesn't want you to think about those pesky "issues") - but B!Lys exists in a verse where she ignores members of her own faction so...

I wouldn't say it's stupid per se anon, but it's a case of FEH completely ignoring events from the games to create characters (re : Ayra training A!Mareeta) with the Fodlan speciality : the vast majority of the FE16 characters (not their Nopes versions!) cannot have definite personality traits or connect two dots, because if the stars align a certain way, they can join Supreme Leader/ditch their country/family/friends for Billy's pretty eyes. Unlike the Lord who are from their, well, canon versions, B!Lys cannot say Supreme Leader's "reasoning" is nonsensical, because Lys can join Supreme Leader, let it be for Billy's pretty eyes, or because she is the only unit in the game to be able to look at her city being invaded and her friends having been massacred, and choose to side with the invaders to save her life (tfw Lys adopts more willingly the Almyran POV than Hilda, who rejects it in CF and dies fighting to protect her leader/friend).

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

au where the faerghus dads in their school years end up in the same timeline as the blue lions from dimitri's school years and they have to co-exist until lambert's group finds a way to get back to their time

[bladesandstars-fics]

Surprise! Happy New Year! I updated this with a short new chapter and am already thinking about the next.

nothing to lose

sylvain/lorenz, FE3H

leicester is gone, and lorenz is a prisoner in gautier

sylorenz history, painful past, painful present

M, currently 1.6K, chapter 2/??

[randoimago]

Day 16. Love Triangle Turned Poly, Felix x Reader x Sylvain

Note(s): A bit of angst, thinking it's unrequited love but it's not. Everyone is just an idiot.

requested by @beawesome04

Felix is annoyed by how much he likes you. He hasn’t felt this way about anyone. He hasn’t felt like his heart would burst each time you smile at him or laugh at something he said (which he wasn’t even trying to be funny).

Even accepting that he liked you was frustrating. He wanted to blame you for some magic gone astray. Or maybe the meat wasn’t cooked properly. But as hard as he tried to search for excuses, he knows that he can’t continue to push down his feelings.

At least, he thought that. And then he saw Sylvain.

His best friend since childhood, one person that hasn’t left his life even though he tried pushing everyone away. A man that also made his heart race so fast, he’d think it’s palpitating.

Sylvain, who he watches flirt with you. And you smile and laugh along. It makes his heart ache in a completely different way. But he knows Sylvain. He knows when the redhead is just playing. The look in his eyes towards you is not one for a fling. And who is Felix for trying to get in the way of that?

Sylvain has always only chased others because “it’s his duty” to spread his crest and make a powerful heir. Or whatever political bs that goes around at this academy.

And yet, when it comes to you, he’s not interested in testing your loyalty. He doesn’t want to know if you like him only for his crest. He’d laugh it off and say, “I knew it”, but his heart will be broken. It’d be rather ironic, the playboy having a broken heart.

But Sylvain hasn’t made any attempts besides flirting like usual. The reason? Felix. His best friend, a man that constantly shrugs off his flirting and thinks that Sylvain doesn’t mean his words. His best friend that doesn’t realize how Sylvain was chasing him before you. His best friend that also loves you. Sylvain might act like a carefree playboy, but he knows the look in Felix’s eyes. And no way in hell will Felix do anything to break Felix’s heart. Even if it means having his own break while watching the two of you together.

And it’s like that for a while. A frustrating situation of Felix wanting to be closer but stopping and Sylvain flirting “meaninglessly”. And you, caught in the middle of two men you’ve also learn to care for. But you don’t do much besides being friendly as you’ve seen how Felix looks at Sylvain when the playboy isn’t looking. And you’ve even seen Sylvain’s own soft looks towards the swordsman. The last thing you want is to ruin their relationship because you got in the way.

So, nothing happens between the three of you besides longing looks and wishing for more. And it ends up being a regret that nothing happened when Edelgard attacks the academy, and everyone has to go home to prepare and process the fact that you're at war.

“Will you two go flirt in a different room?” Felix snaps, unable to help it as you three are in the training area together, preparing for the final battles to hopefully end the war. Sure, Sylvain has been flirting with you and you’ve exchanged words back, but you didn’t think it was that bad.

You all met up again, relieved to see that each other is okay. But of course, with the stress of war adding to the tension that is still happening between the three of you, things would inevitably boil over.

“You could join in,” Sylvain retorts, causing a scoff from Felix.

“Please, as if either of you want me around.” That causes both you and Sylvain to be taken aback. You know Felix can be extra hard on himself, but this was new.

“Felix, of course we want you around,” you tell him. You don’t need to speak for Sylvain, but the other man looks so guilty and hurt that you do.

“So you can rub it in?”

“What is your problem?” You’re surprised by the harsh tone Sylvain has. You’ve heard it before when he chastised girls that eventually admitted using him for his crest.

“My problem is how you’re constantly flirting with each other and always state you’re being ‘friendly’. My problem is how I’m always given a second glance as if you’re pitying me for being a damned third wheel!”

“The second glances are because i don’t want to break your heart, you dastard!”

You’re definitely surprised with how heated things are getting.

“Break my heart? What are you talking about?” Felix scoffs and so does Sylvain. You see him open his mouth, but you step in to try and deescalate.

“I see the way you look at Sylvain, Felix. I don’t want to get between that.” Sylvain looks very confused by your words. You’re also confused to his reaction, but you continue. “And he looks at you the same way. I don’t want to-“

“What are you talking about? I love you both,” Felix interrupts, looking a tad annoyed that he was called out. “And Sylvain loves you. I don’t know how the hell you think he likes me-“

“Wait. Wait.” Sylvain cuts Felix off and you’re sure the swordsman is going to be more mad, but Sylvain sends him a look. “All of us are idiots.”

“Speak for yourself.” You can’t help saying and Sylvain gives you an unimpressed look.

“I flirt with you because i’m in love with you,” Sylvain says and you’re surprised by it. You hear Felix scoff and Sylvain continues before he gets upset again. “But I’m also in love with Felix. Have been for a long time.”

That makes Felix shut up, not expecting to hear that. “You love me?” He whispers, not quite believing it. “I thought you and-“

“I kept giving you second glances because I saw how you looked at them and didn’t want to ruin it for you,” Sylvain admits and your eyes soften at the two.

“Well, I think I should make my feelings clear too,” you say and the boys look at you. “I love you both. But i’ve seen how close you both are and didn’t want to ruin it.”

It’s silent between the three of you as the words process in all of your heads. It’s been a constant angst battle, thinking feelings were unrequited. But in reality, it’s the furthest from the truth.

“We are idiots.” You break the silence and Sylvain chuckles while Felix tries not to smile, instead pouting.

“If you didn’t want to break my feelings then why were you flirting? You made me think I didn’t stand a chance, jerk,” Felix huffs and Sylvain rolls his eyes playfully.

“Yeah, I’m an asshole. Now let me kiss you and make up for it.” You and Felix are taken aback by that and you watch as Sylvain kisses the swordsman. A smile comes to your face as you see Felix soften for once, watching him enjoy the kiss and his cheeks flush.

Sylvain pulls back and turns to you, smiling brightly. “And I’m not leaving you out.” You laugh a bit before Sylvain pulls you into a kiss too. You feel him melt against you, his hands holding you tightly to him.

“Don’t hog them to yourself,” Felix mutters and you feel Sylvain’s chest rumble as he chuckles against you. He steps back, holding his hands up in a mock surrender.

Felix kisses you and it’s a bit awkward, his lips are slightly chapped, but he still does his best to kiss you. He pulls back and there’s a small smile on his face, cheeks more flushed.

You three are idiots for not realizing each other's true feelings. But you’re definitely going to make up for it.

[frickingnerd]

Sylvain Masterlist

oneshots

don't call her what you used to call me

you catch your boyfriend kissing another girl...

drabbles

“you shouldn't have to see this”

when sylvain ditches you on the night of the ball, dimitri is there for you...

headcanons

sylvain with a girlfriend who everyone flirts with

polyamorous

poly relationship with dimitri, felix & sylvain

poly relationship with sylvain & felix

poly relationship with dimitri & sylvain

love triangles

love triangle with sylvain and felix

[theeeveetamer]

So I was thinking about how they keep the bond scar from getting infected in omegaverse, yeah?

Concept: antibacterial alpha saliva. Hear me out!

So my thought here is that when an alpha is ready to bond with an omega they might produce some kind of disinfecting effect in their saliva, which would basically make their fangs sterilized before they go in

The wounds they leave behind still heal under a normal timeframe. So I was thinking it's a sign of devotion or love for an alpha to continue taking care of their omega's wound personally after mating. So a particularly devoted alpha would spend days afterward checking the wound and licking and kissing at their partner's neck to keep it clean until it's fully healed.

Of course if an alpha didn't want to do that then they could just take care of it normally. So like, if for example an omega was bitten by someone they didn't know then they'd have to disinfect and bandage it themselves. But I think if they do it that way it never quite heals right. Like, you can always tell when a bond scar was healed by an alpha vs. when a bond scar is healed without an alpha.

Whiiiiich leads to lots of social stigma/judgement toward both alphas and omegas. Like, if the couple is still together then a poorly healed bond scar will have people judging the alpha for being an inattentive or uncaring partner. If they're not together then maybe an omega is pitied or judged for choosing poorly and being left by their bondmate.

So ways I could totally make this about my ships:

1 Angsty Dimidues where Dedue marks Dimitri just before sacrificing himself to save Dimitri during the time skip. Dimitri has to heal the wound all by himself, complicated further by him being on the run with very little in the way of supplies, which leads to it looking pretty gnarly.

That's partially why he wears high necked shirts/armor after the timeskip. Partially because he doesn't want anyone to know, and partially because looking at Dedue's mark hurts too badly. Once they're back together he fiercely defends Dedue against anyone who would judge him for the way the mark looks

2) Soft Dimidues where Dedue takes the best damn care of that bond mark and Dimitri constantly brags and gushes and shows it off to everyone so they know how wonderful Dedue is

3) Maybe some angsty Sylvixes where Sylvain marks Felix during a rut and then doesn't remember it later. Felix takes care of it himself and hides it from Sylvain for years

Sylvain discovers it eventually, but doesn't realize it's his mark, and is ready to rip whichever asshole did that to Felix to shreds (surprise! it's you, asshole!)

4) Fluff-angst Leokumis where Leo takes the best damn care of that bond scar, but partially because he's traumatized from Garon being such an asshole. Garon never took care of anyone he marked so they always wound up with gnarly looking scars. The court judged them very harshly for it

5) Some kind of interaction between Alfred's illness and the scar mark healing? I dunno if I would want it to turn out gnarly no matter how hard they try (for the angst) or if I would just want it to take a really long time for it to heal, meaning Diamant has to be extra extra dedicated to it (for the fluff)

[windbreakes]

get to know the mun! repost, don’t reblog.

——— BASICS.

NICK NAME(S): nana, nams, namnams, nami, nimnuts, i have been amassing an army. i don't care what people choose and actively encourage nicknames!!

PRONOUNS: he/they/it, please alternate!

ZODIAC SIGN: sagittarius! fun fact my bday is the same as sako's :>

TAKEN OR SINGLE: shingle

ANYTHING ELSE?: i volunteer at a local apothecary and just grind up herbs every week...?

——— THREE SERIOUS FACTS.

i realized i had bpd because my roommate who got diagnosed started talking about her symptoms and it was like something clicked. i had an "oh, shit" moment and it's actually been really helpful in processing my emotions ever since!

i have early onset arthritis. ripe old age of twenty. and carpal tunnel probably

unsure what else i can put here... this is sort of basic but i'm a junior in uni right now and i really want to do a semester abroad and go to grad school. not in that order and unsure how financially that will play out but we'll see.

——— THREE RANDOM FACTS.

i have a dog named milk who is evil but i love her anyways; i also technically have a cat named beef who is the cutest cat in the world. i say "technically" because i don't live with my friend who owns him but i basically do. (beef is my godson)

i have the cilantro soap gene...?

i binged wind breaker in like a three days. i don't think a piece of media has affected me this much since haikyuu and that's saying something because haikyuu made me throw up

——— EXPERIENCE.

i've been rping for over a decade now i think...? i started really young (maybe not even 12 oops) on places like wattpad, skype, kik, google+, animal jam, etc. i don't really remember why i switched to tumblr rp but it was one of the best decisions of my life—— i've met so many of my close friends here!

that isn't to say i didn't have bad experiences though. oopsies

——— MUSE PREFERENCE.

LMFAOAOEWRIJAMSDFLDSFM I WRITE ANYONE AND EVERYONE IF YOU COULDN'T TELL. i rarely make single muse blogs—— the only time i really do so are for ocs—— and even if i make a single muse blog for a canon character, i guarantee you i write others from the same media somewhere. i am physically incapable of only writing one character.

i do think i generally go for muses who have bad home lives, who have several mental illnesses (either confirmed, coded, or projected), and most of the time kind of bad people. examples: endo yamato, sylvain jose gautier, childe tartaglia, among others. i look like a walking red flag and i'm so sorry about it.

——— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT.

FLUFF: i love fluff so so much! sometimes it's about the comfort and the happiness of it all... i'm always down for some feel good threads! however——

ANGST: —— i love to put my muses in situations. it is my favorite past time. call me a torturer the way i treat my muses because even though i love them they're always going through it cuz of me. i do love angst for angst's sake, but you will rarely see that from me because in the end i do need something to balance it out. it's always hurt and comfort with me!

SMUT: not on this blog, no, but i do write smut! i get embarrassed very easily though so it takes me a while to get to them. not my preference but if it happens, it happens.

——— PLOT / MEMES: i love love LOVE plotting!! i get so excited talking about how my muses would interact with others, it's why i may jump to respond to some things over others.

TAGGED BY: @cherriedrage !! thank you zag ♡ TAGGING: obligatory "if mari sparky and rain see this you have to do it" here; @prudenze; @taritsu; @timewounded; and anyone else who wants to!

[priintaniere]

collab i did with @/dryltt3 on twitter for originally a prompt for the 2022 Sylvix Week, you can read their fic “bathe a body” here (also known as  titsout_miserable.jpg)

summary:  sylvain spends most of the first year of his marriage away in sreng, bypassing the honeymoon phase and going right to angst upon returning to felix’s side

※ please do not repost my art ※  ➜ commission and ko-fi links in bio

[themoomoorn]

Don't forget how ppl adore harping on Faerghus being sooo "sexist," like...more than her being the heiress apparent of a County, she has a Major Crest of Charon. She shouldn't be playing knight at the baby-eating church, she should clearly be back home being forced to pop out Crest Babies(tm) like the Fandom alleges Faerghus of doing/Ingrid is likely doomed to!

For that matter, Major Crest of Fraldy Felix should be back home playing the very same role Sylvain mangsts about, but nope! According to Roddy Dearest, Felix's most important duties aren't just being the next Duke, but being someone strong enough to protect the king. Clearly he didn't get Sylvain's memo about how he should be little more than a glorified sperm bank /s

It's funny in hindsight to realise Cat was completely overlooked because she BaD bcs she lufs the Evil Lizard Lady and berns a city when ordered too bcs she religious extremist or whatnot -

When you look at her supports in Houses she's a complex character who, when faced between two difficult choices, picked one and wants to make sure it was the right choice so she follows the evil lizard lady to the depths of Tru Piss and brings more of this so beloved "realism" to the table - which leads the token dumb idiot obsessed with "justice" to think about what and who he is using his fists for* (something he ignores on in Nopes and Tru Piss) - despite her presentation of being, well, a token brash idiot too.

But comes Nopes, and while the game leans even more on the "brash idiot" angle, we get this :

When I was a kid, I never imagined I'd be wielding some holy relic as a Knight of Seiros. I thought my destiny was to follow in my father's footsteps and become the next Count Charon.

Faerghus is very sexist and the land of toxic masculinity, Cat expected to become the next Count Charon, aka, the leader of one of the Kingdom's most important Houses.

Meanwhile, the very same game tells us that the Southern Church Rebellion started because a Lady Varley wanted to become Minister rather than a potted plant for her crestless husband. Huh.

*Funny how the entire schtick "but X kills children!" is adressed in the Capsar/Catherine support - and it all comes down to circumstances, Cat praises Caspar for having ideals, but when it comes to a situation where Caspar will have to chose between a life or a death ? Caspar's reply is to basically continue fighting for what he thinks is "just" or what feels "right" to him -

And given how you can unlock this support in SS (where both units are here by default!) this support gets a conclusion when we have to fight crazed!Rhea : both Cat and Caspar feel like dirt, and yet pull through, Cat even rationalising this crap battle as "ending Rhea's suffering".

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

flashback to the time this happened in my vw run 😔

tried to get all his boyfriends to calm him down

he attacked a boyfriend (and called him not worth it! 😩)

boyfriend had to retreat