#sya: bridges

[adventureofthedancinggirl]

See You After - Part II: Rebuilding the bridges that were burned

Chapter 45 of "See You After" is posted

This chapter concludes Part II: "Rebuilding the bridges that were burned".

Part III: "No one told us (that winning the war would be the easy part)" begins in Chapter 46.

Some of my personal favorite parts to write in Part II were:

Koi pond scene (Ch. 28)

"Calm" app text thread (Ch. 33)

Conversations about identity and names (Ch. 35, 36, 39, 40)

Rei & Shouto scene (Ch. 39)

Bakusquad birthdays text thread (Ch. 42)

Unsent Letter (Ch. 44)

I also had way too much fun writing the news articles (which appear in Ch. 26, 38, 43, 45)

Preview of things to come in Part III:

The long road to recovery (as individuals and as a society)

The downside of being known (Hero Daily Mail returns)

Supportive friends, Class 1A interactions (and speculations)

Training (searching for purpose, re-learning how to fly)

The highs and lows of being a real family

Touya

Questions about what it means to be a hero

As I mentioned last time, the "slow burn" tag is there for a reason, but there will be lots of moments between Shouto and Katsuki in letters, texts, and other conversations.

Another thing to keep in mind: healing isn't linear.

[seeyouafter]

SYA Extended Notes Ch. 39-44

Or: Acceptance and healing - some thoughts on Shouto's post-war journey

Notes for "See You After" Chapter 44: August 2: Shouto's Journal - Unsent Letter

I can’t forget what happened but maybe someday I’ll be able to forgive you so that I can put all of it behind me and move on. I don’t know what that means for us or for our family, but I hope that someday I’ll be able to show you that I’m proud of who I’ve become in spite of everything you did.

I originally started typing this up to post with chapter 39 but decided to wait until after this chapter, and Shouto's unsent letter, to share my thoughts on how I imagine he and his family might begin to navigate the healing process.

In essence, I think that a post-war arc for Shouto involves him taking the time to process the things he went through and to decide for himself what he wants to do going forward.

This fic inevitably contains my personal headcanons of what Shouto's healing journey might involve after the war ends. Of course, there are as many interpretations of what "should" happen next as there are readers, but these are a few of my thoughts in relation to "See You After" so far.

Acceptance is the first step

I talked a bit about this in the extended notes for Chapters 10-11, but up until this point, I really don't think Shouto saw what Endeavor did to him as abuse. Even if he knew it on an intellectual level, he probably didn't want to accept it for various reasons. Although he did acknowledge that what his father did to his mom was abuse, when he expresses his anger toward his father, it's always framed around what he did to his mom (and later Touya).

BNHA 192: The Todoroki Family & 249: The Hellish Todoroki Family

One of those reasons probably has something to do with the way Touya revealed Endeavor's abuse of his family, specifically Shouto, very publicly and out of spite toward their father.

BNHA 291: Thanks for Going Strong

Shouto never had a say in the matter and Touya didn't do him any favors. Rather than viewing him with sympathy for being a victim, the public views him with suspicion because of his blood ties to a mass murderer and an abuser. Of course, that's not fair, but that's the cultural context of the society they're living in.

BNHA 325: The Bonds of One for All & BNHA 327: Rest

Guilt, Blame, and Responsibility

Shouto has been the one carrying the burden of his father's mistakes for his entire life, but even moreso since Touya reappeared. Unlike Touya, he blames his father completely, but I don't think Touya is entirely wrong when he says that Rei is guilty too. She's a victim, of course, and most of it was beyond her control, but she agreed to the marriage, knowing what it was. Moreover, it is a parent's responsibility to take care of their children, and she wasn't able to do that. Even though it wasn't her intention and Shouto refuses to blame her for hurting him, there's still a lot to unpack and a lot of trust that needs to be rebuilt.

BNHA 249: The Hellish Todoroki Family & BNHA 302: The wrong way to put out a fire, part 2

Natsuo and Fuyumi's guilt about not being able to do anything was realistic and understandable, but they were also children and it wasn't their responsibility to fix everything, which makes their experiences heartbreaking in a different way. There's a lot for all of them to reconcile on their own and as a family.

Rei showing up at the hospital and meeting Endeavor face to face again took a great deal of courage, and I don't think we can fault her for the things she says. Although it shouldn't be any of the children's responsibility, they do all have to deal with the fallout, which I think was the point she was trying to make here. But once again, the burden fell on Shouto to be their family's hero.

Shouto believes that he has to be strong because he's a hero. And while that's admirable, that mindset is part of the larger problem. So far in canon, we've mostly seen Shouto protecting his mom, not the other way around. And that's part of his character, his foundation as a hero - the way he had the instinct to protect when he was just a child, and his decision to take the first step after the sports festival to reach out and save her.

But it still kills me that their reunion scene in the hospital post PLF war was skipped over just so there could be a big reveal when the family went to confront Enji.

BNHA 298: Sounds of Collapse & BNHA 300: The Hellish Todoroki Family, Part 2

In this scene, Shouto had his hand on Rei's back to support her, meanwhile not once do we see him get a hug or any comforting touch from any of the people who should be there to support him. (A lot of Chapter 39 of "See You After" came from my desire for just that)

Identity and the choice to become a hero

BNHA 39: Todoroki Shouto: Origin

Shouto's fight with Izuku during the sports festival was the start of him reclaiming his identity as his own person, separate from his father, and reaffirming his desire to become a hero on his own terms. Still, the fact that he never really had the choice to try to be anything else is something to consider, especially as we see the rest of the world question the role of heroes and the overall system.

Names are important

BNHA 45: Time to pick some names (+anime ep. 26)

I really love the symbolism of Shouto's hero name. By using his real name, he's essentially refusing to separate his identity as a hero from who he is as a person, which is important because of how he makes a clear distinction between Endeavor (the hero) and Enji (the father). But something that's often lost in translation is Shouto's choice to use the phonetic spelling: ショート instead of the kanji characters: 焦凍 (meaning to burn and to freeze), which I've always interpreted as a statement of his desire to exist as an individual beyond the context of his quirks.

It was hard to convey in this fic because I'm obviously writing it in English, but I wanted to make it clear that he signed the unsent letter as ショート because of what it symbolizes.

I feel like Shouto would probably have a complicated relationship with his given name because Endeavor valued him solely for his quirk. Meanwhile, "Todoroki" is a constant reminder of his family's legacy in the aftermath of Touya's broadcast.

I like to think that even before their conversation during the long phone call at the end of chapter 39, Katsuki understood this on some level. That's why in this fic, even though he rotates through a variety of nicknames (in their earlier letters, he uses a different one each time), he rarely calls Shouto by his last name, unless he's trying to make a point (like in his letter in Chapter 11 and the phone call in Chapter 19).

That's something I leaned into when I started writing the transition to them using each others' given names back during their text conversation in Chapter 36. (Originally, I thought it was going to happen quite a bit later in the story, but writing is a funny thing and characters sometimes have minds of their own.)

[jopetkasi]

i just came from a coffee shop to meet a friend when I got this SMS from chris.

siempre tao lang ako at masakit din pero wala eh, manhid na ako. i mean i am used to being dumped and somehow that made me resilient I guess?

wala naman tears or breakdown. actually, i was expecting something is about to happen kasi we did not see each other for a week and he never reached out (call or text, nada)

my only beef is that he could have at least said these things to my face BUT I reminded myself na wala kami relasyon to begin with so wala akong reason to demand naman diba?

pero sana hindi na sya nagbigay ng signals that got me expecting.

mabuti nalang walang sexual encounter na nangyari, otherwise sisirain ako ng attachment issues ko.

yun lang once i got home the married guy I used to play with suddenly sent a pm asking us to meet for sex. and I was like telling myself, "oh jopet, naiwasan mo na yan ng 1 year babalik ka pa ba sa pag self-destruct?"

but the other side of me was tempting me like "oh look at you, dumped once more, you go have sex. you deserve it"

and in a quandary i find myself torn between my regained values and the sexual itch brewing inside...it does not help that chatting with that married guy would elicit memories of long nights in bed with him and feeling a warm body hugging me....and do I have to mention the orgasms? that type of orgasms that make you scream and give your face that "glow" afterward?

c'mon, Jopet, go naked with Emil...

the only thing that got me back to reality was monkeypox.

oo nga naman, kantutan now, hospital later...thank you nalang, my hands can still do wonders.

and besides, abby (his wife) and I just reconciled. a huge wall recently was torn down and we are just starting to build bridges...

but man, the temptation........

not even a cold shower could douse the intermittent seduction it gives. you know what I mean right? that fucking urge builds up and starts to mess up my head and no matter the logical reasons I can unearth to avoid this shithole, the kalibugan feeling is standing ground and asking me to "sige na, last sex na to..."

sorry i guys if you find my struggles hideous. this is the only space I could be myself...

stay safe and dry. take care....

[shoodleynoodle]

What a fucking day.

Super rollercoaster emotions ko this week kasi andaming tao ko na naaalala tapos nagpapakita sa socmed ko na feeling ko napapareminisce ako malala. Tas kanina nagpunta yung totga ko sa shop. I didn't know how to react and what to feel kasi last time na nagkasalubong/nagkasama kami eh todo iwas sya sakin tas nakaunfriend ako sa fb nya. Parang may forced interaction kanina kahit di nya naman ako need pansinin at kausapin malala kasi customer ko sya at barista lang ako.

Sobrang cinematic pa kasi nadedicate ko nga ata halos lahat ng kanta ng buzz ni niki sa kanya tas nung pagdating nya ang tumutugtog eh paths. Parang tanga ang universe, parang jinojoketime na lang ako hard. Tas nung nagpalit ako ng playlist (nagshuffle ako ng liked songs), tumugtog naman northern downpour ng p!atd. Huhuhu. Halos maiyak ako sa bad timing at hiya kasi lagi niya kinakanta yon for me before. Ang dami pang kanta na tumugtog na gusto ko na lang magpalamon sa lupa kase super affected ako tas sya halata mong okay na kahit pano. Saka may jowa na rin naman na sya at wala naman akong balak na magmake ng move or anything, naguiguilty lang talaga ako sa mga nangyari before between us. Puta para akong nasa au, nababasa ko lang to before eh. Ahahahaha.

Di lang rin siguro nakakatulong na most of my friends and family are still rooting for us kasi, ewan, feeling ko ang sama kong tao lalo kasi wala namang ginagawa yung jowa nya tapos biglang ako pa rin ang shiniship ng home friends nya sa kanya. Sobrang rollercoaster ng everything kanina tas ini-small talk nya pa ako na para bang di niya ako inunfriend sa fb for ilang months???? Charot. Nagdamdam pala. Tas ang awkward talaga kasi buong 4-hour shift ko eh nandun sya, tila ako may bantay lalo kasi mag-isa lang ako sa shop. Hahahahaha.

Sana okay na sya kasi kung hindi pa edi magsosorry na naman ako taon-taon niyan. Char. Muka namang happy and moved on na talaga sya, yung mga nasa paligid na lang namin (saka ako slight kasi naguiguilty pa rin lol) ang hindi pa. Inanticipate ko na rin naman na magkikita kami someday kasi ang liit-liit ng lugar namin at ng mundong ginagalawan namin, di ko lang siguro inexpect na ganito kabilis mangyayari yung mga nakaraang inooverthink ko lang. Ahahaha. Kakasabi ko to ng i'll cross the bridge when i get there eh, ayan, nataranta tuloy.

Alexa, play small town by clara benin.

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[nyctoaerah]

HII BEHHH IM BACK NANAMANNN

Have you ever thought of what it would be like if Satoru actually took action when Suguru was spiraling??? Like, what if tinulungan niya si sugu, and he was able to prevent him from leaving? IT'S SUCH A BITTERSWEET IDEA AND I WOULD'VE WRITTEN A FIC ABOUT IT IF I KNEW HOW TO WRITEEE

Also, how are youuu? It's been a while kasi HAHAHAHA, I haven't been active sa Tumblr

-「 ✦ ⋆˚࿔ 🎀🌷 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ✦ 」⋆˚ (sa atin ang WPS!!!)

Babes i think it’s impossible sorry😭😭 because suguru started questioning his morals na after that, and i don’t think na tutulungan ni satoru. Since satoru is the one who wanted to kill the humans and inistop lang sya ni suguru. Pero THAT'S A NICE IDEAA, ang inaano ko lang, baka maano si miminana😭 maraming disadvantage to ih, oonti yung cursed spirits ni suguru (cause he normally gets them from non-sorcerers, or the curse collecting monkeys just as he says) tsaka, he’s tired din sa routine nya na exorcise, consume then repeat. It has its advantages though, baka maging teacher din si suguru and may kasama si satoru sa pagpapalaki kay megumi and tsumiki, tas di mag dridrift yung Sashisu trio (since si suguru yung bridge nila). Tsaka makakatulong din si suguru sa future, like, sa fight kay sukuna. Walang mangyayari na pagseseal kay satoru. And wala si Kenny (unless may body sya na nahanap) pero even so, walang silbi kasi wala syang magagamit against satoru. Kasi si suguru lang naman ang may kaya na tanggalin yung cool ni satoru. PERO THAT’S A GOOD IDEA OVERALL MWHAHSHA

ANYWAYS, I’M OKAY NAMAN, STRESS NA STRESS NGALANG DITO DAHIL NGA SA CHINA AND PHILIPPINES BEEF 😭😭 Tanginaaa kinakabahan ako kasi what if magkawar...

Pero

SATIN LANG ANG WEST PHILIPPINE SEA. IT'S CALLED WEST PHILIPPINE SEA FOR A REASON!!

[lovesung127]

Golden Age album review

Baggy Jeans-okay first of all the mv is absolutely wild. im like gagged. my jaw was dropped the whole time. probably screamed more times than i'd like to admit. THEY ALL LOOK SO HOT OMGOMGGMOGOGMSAJSDHAIDAJVI. the little insta photo with ten in 7thsense AHHHH. couldn't stop giggling at the bridge part with doyoung. the song itself is so catchy. LOVE LOVE LOVE jaehyun and doyoung's vocals in this song they ate it up. also when mark goes "yea boy" it ignites something in me. the bridge is so good and mark taeyong and ten ateeee. ALSO THE CHOREO IS SOO GOOD I LOVE ITT ESP THE END CHORUS

Call D- okay the intro is cute i love the like game boi sound. ALSO TAEYONGS VOCALS WHAT AHOVDKDKO okayy the chorus is so cute and upbeat i love. reminds me of some krnb song but i can't remember which one. kinda love the outro

PADO- okayy introoo. love taeyong's opening verse and johnny's too! eat it up hendery! XIAOJUNS VOCALS?!?! love haechans part! jaehyun's voice fits this so well. and i love mark's raps! OMFGG THE CHORUS AHASHSJHDSIHVUKV I LOVE IT AHAHHHHSDHHDHFHDVHV bridge is eating. love the whistling too

Interlude: Oasis- omfg is the chenle in the intro bc omg his voice is so heavenly. I LOVE JAEHYUNS WHISPER RAP THING! AND OMFG YUTAA! AND WINWIN AND JAEMINS RAP OKAYY! THIS IS SUCH A NICE COMBO OF RAPPERS OMGOMGOMGM THE CHORUS IS SO CATCHYY AND CVNTY

The BAT- wait i love the intro sounds so dream like. omg jungwooo HSHDSKSDKFDJ omg whoever is syaing "my bat" or something like that in the whisper voice OMFG? JENO AND JISUNG FAST RAPPING GAGGED ME TO MY CORE. WHOEVER THAT WAS ATE. OMFGG THE BRIDGEE AHJOFSJOF THE HIGH NOTES. this is so good. and yuta's vocals ate as he always those. im like dancing in my seat omfg. that was so good

Alley Oop- YUH OKAY! omg yangyang ateeeeee! and jaemin. YEEEE JISUNG OKAYYYYY! YAS JENO! WAIT WHOS DEEP VOICE SINGING IS THAT BC OMGGGG! i love this song its so like football stadium coded. yuta is slaying the vocals. okay slay winwin and hendery! IS THAT JISUNG SINGING?? major ass shaker. THE BRIDGE IS SO HEAVENLY OMG I LOVE IS THAT JISUNG SINGING AHAHAHAHHAHAHH I LOVE IT. i love the whole songs build up. okay adlibbbsss

That's Not Fair- YUHHH TAEYONGGGG! okay jeno and johnny. STOP I LOVE THE SINGING PART OKAY LIKE MARK LEADING AHSDFJFJKJ. like very musical marching! loved tens vocals. YESSSS YANGYANG IS SINGING! i love marks second rap. OMG THE WHISPER RAPPING PART. the melody sounds so familiar but i can't figure it out. i love the low voices

Kangaroo- the intro is cute like show choir vibes IS THAT TAEIL OPENING BC SLAY! STOP I LOVE WHEN YANGYANG AND JISUNG SING. this is such a cute and summer song! love chenles vocals and kun and renjun serveeed! this song is very beach vibes like im imagining sitting on a beach chair and waves are going in and out

Not Your Fault- oooo love the piano intro. YASSS RENJUN. Taeil's voice sound so nice omgggg. doyoung's voice fits this genre so well. ahhh the adlibs sound so good!!! jungwoo's voice sounds so sweet and heavenly and xiaojun's voice sounds so heavenly. the vocal unit atteeee

Golden Age- the switch up from doyoung's vocals to marks rap took me out. i was baffled. but yangyang's rap!!! WINWIN HAS LINES! I LOVE XIAOJUNS VOICE AHHHH!!! the bridge slayed. the mv was also so cool. this song is so coming of age movie ending coded. they all ate!

okay this whole album slayyed! like the members they did for each song all fit each other so well its wild. also their voices all sound so good together AHHH. my favorites are probs baggy jeans, pado, the bat, alley oop, and interlude:oasis is really good too! GO STREAM BAGGY JEANS AND THIS ALBUMMM!

[adventureofthedancinggirl]

Chapter 39 summary: Shouto starts to deal with certain things from his past, has some real conversations with his family, and has a moment with his mom that he didn’t realize he needed.

[seeyouafter]

Names are important.

(What you call stuff matters.)

[jointhebottle]

Vivid nightmare

I was so happy seeing my newly adopted Persian cat purring beside me.. so cute and sweet. While i was trying to get that thread-like thing out from my doggy’s teeth, I can’t seem to pull it out, so I decided to have him checked with a vet doctor.

Ang una ana kay nag adopt kog lain2 pets sa usa ka vet doctor. Ni adopt kog mga iro mga iring ug kana scary creatures like frankenstein doll nya mulihok jd like naa gyuy life ba. Duha gae to kabuok jigsaw dolls ako gipalit. Mga buotan rmn to sila nuon. Ang doctor kay kuyaw kau supervisor nko sauna sa Johndorf hahhaha naa diay syay dghan kaau collections love nga mga scary creatures, mga vintage stuffs, books, couches etc. nya dghan jd sya pet dogs and cats. Nya nakoy usa ka dog need jd ipa adtog vet doctor kay naa daw nasangit sa iya teeth di jd nako makuha. Sa ka busy ug broke nako, di na nko makaya ug buhi sila tnan. Nay 1 cat ug 2 dogs sud sa ako room. Pag gawas nako sa room, nakalimot ko dghan man diay kaau kog gi adopt na dogs and cats, not knowing nga gutom na diay kaau sila na pa bayaan nagyud nako. Mao to ga wild btaw na. Gutom jd daw kaau sila. Nya mao to ni contact ko ni vet doctor, maugne accommodating ra sad kaau gi tubag rko then mao to niadto kos iya clinic nagdala sako usa ka iro nga need ug help sa iya teeth. Before ani nga scene kay naa pa gae toy scene nga mag hiking ta ko pdung, nag change nko clothes nya nag wait hantud di diay madaun amo hike hahaha nya weird kau naa si mariz imo manghud ga hgda sa double deck sud sa room sko amiga na bayot nga si Gab. HAHAH

So back to the scene nga niadto kos clinic sa vet doctor, ddto nako na discover nga dghaaan jd sya collections like old books sa harry potter, vintage couches, nya mga scary mannequins ug bsta scary creatures na mulihok gyud. Mura mo niyag gi tour sa iya space or balay nga dako nya mga yuta niya nga dghan kahoy2 kung asa gipamutang mga collections niya na old libro ug mga mannequins etc. Ambot nganu naabot inani nawani ako tuyo na magpa checkup ras ako iro haha nya si doc iya mi gi explainan nga isa sa iyang negosyo kay mag himo ug dog and cat foods, like dghan kaau mura mi gi tour sa iya gamayng bodega or warehouse ba na, bsta kay mga stocks sa iya pet foods nya todo explain jd sya namo (ambot kinsa ako kauban, nikalit rasag tunga) hantud naabot mis part na dghan kahoy nya dghan kaayo books.. taod2 ana nilakaw si doc kay murag ga wild na sud sa iya clinic daw mao to iya gi tn aw. Nabilin ko ddto sa lugar nga dghan kaau books etc. nya na shock mi sko kauban dghaaan kaau mga dead bodies sa mga taw nga himuon btaw niya ug lain2 scary creatures nya collection or baligya niya. Nya kato ako kauban natagakan mn guro to sya ug patay na lawas ka tunga nlng nabilin nya fresh pa kaau ug blood. So mao to ga duda nami nga basin kaning doctor kay killer pud. Actually kani tyma, dghan nakog kauban ani nya kami tnan ga duda njd kulba na kaau. Mao to ni takas mn guro ko ato love kalimot ko du naunsa to ako iro hahaha nya purti nako dagan nya nay ga gukod nako mga taw2 sa doctor love. Kuyaw kaau ako kaagi kay naabot pakog ilawm sa bridge nga baho kaau kanal nag crawl ko ilawm sa bridge mura nag spiderman HAHHA hugaw na daw kaau ko. Nag dagan2 ko layat2 murag nag parkour HAHA chuya lage nako HAHAHAHA nya mao to bisan asa nlng ko naabot naa pjd mga scenes nga hapit njd ko madakpan nila ataya kulba kaau hantud naka kita kog balay nisud kos ila CR nya weird kau kay pag sud nakos CR gi sungog kog babae gitupo2 sa iya igsuon laki nga murag bayote HAHHAAHHA weird scene nya mao to helpful and accommodating ra kaau ang pamilya tag iya atong balaya gi tabangan ko ug isa nako kauban, si Joella ug nining daw ang names namo ddto hahaha nya gipa ilis mi nila etc. hantud niabot gihapon ddto ang doctor ug iya mga bata2x murag ng check sila maau sa ug mga balay2 gi check gyd tagsa2 kay naa lage daw silay gipangita na duha ka babae. Kulba njd kaau pag abot nila pangita sa katong balay nga gi stayhan namo. Sge silag libot nya chika2 sa mga pamilya tag iya nya sige pd mig tago lipot2 sa balay. Gitabangan rgyd mi nila nya bsta ey kalimot nko sa sunod hahahaha pero taas2 pjd to ataya kulba kaau

[the-firebird69]

And there are two other things we're in receipt of warnings all over the place I sent this to use the yellow chicken it says he's doing it all the time LOL and will continue to with or without their say so and they are astounded at the language and he says who cares for a bunch of knitwits so that's going on as well and we don't want them around they're gross. Put the side effect of what happened today and part of yesterday. The announcement that real stone chips are under separatist cities and most of the separatists are Morlock so they have to question them because it's a curiosity and they say they don't know anything and it's easy to believe and possibly a deception so they're being kidnapped tons of these **** and we're tired of them. We cannot stand themright now they try to pica fight iwth us and we hit them instead...and charge them hold them and more but otns are beingnabbed you go there why. and wht is there. some howl it the city is ours te proof ours it is the way it has alwasy been and now here we are more prepared than ever in history and we go it is the calling. and march out. and stuff in hand.

- There's a couple more things this exodus is gigantic the roads the highways bridges gas stations fast food restaurants grocery stores and banks are packed service stations and parts places there's so many people there you can't ever believe in it's more than the 20% no and so they can get out and a huge numbers of sales of campers and modular homes and trucks to carry modular homes and tons of people are getting their place ready to take with them it is a humongous exodus they're buying campers they're swapping their homes with people who are not from the city nearby usually it's with their own race it's not true they don't want them there they say you might have the advantage now but you won't later and so I'm fighting like that like Corky has to now in seperatist cities of thiers yes he is forced to fight for all his things d stuff and food and by having us work your nuts h ere. and sya it is on pourpose good.

we use it now

more shortly

Thor Freya

Olympus

i want out of this and soon it shall be nd great news today was yes

Hera

[ikaelawa]

Convo sa tawag:

B: alam mo yung nakakatawa, pareho tayong Christians tapos ganto ugali natin lalo ka na

M: miss ko na nga tumugtog sa church

B: baka kaya nangyayari satin to kasi gusto Nyang bumalik tayo sa Kanya.

M: alam mo possible yan, pero kasalanan ko talaga bat nangyayari sakin to bat ko naman papasa kay Lord kasalanan ko

B: para macleanse ka...?

M: ....

B: (nagpatugtog ng Hosanna) nagcchurch pa naman ako, di lang tulad before na naglilead ako

M: bat kaya ako nawala

B: di natin alam

Yung Hosanna yung paborito kong tinutugtog ng Worship Team before lalo na yung bridge part. Masakit talaga sya sa puso. Literal.

M: HEAL MY HEART AND MAKE IT CLEAANN. OPEN UP MY EYES TO THE THINGS UNSEEENN

B: hoooyy

M: BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS EVERYTHING I AM FOR YOUR KINGDOM'S CAUSE

B: sarap?

M: yaa. yung bridge part talaga gusto ko dyan

B: same. patugtog ka rin dyan ng gusto mong worship song, batuhan tayo

M: di ka lang makatulog eh

B: kaya nga patutulugin mo ko thru worship songs diba

M: nautusan pa nga

M: pero gusto ko rin yung As You Find Me.

B: lamo naiyak ako dun nung una kong narinig yun. Story yun nung kumanta eh

M: oo parang nabasa ko yan

B: naiyak mo na ba lahat yan, go kung hindi pa

M: last time I did was november something.. 9 yata. Kay May ako umiyak.

B: then? Gumaan pakiramdam mo?

M: feeling ko dinagdagan ko yung sakit

B: okay lang yan. Mahal mo sya eh. And besides, minamahal mo pa rin naman sya ngayon sa malayo

M: yep. gusto ko lang na maachieve nya yung desires nya lalo na sa career nya

B: how about her happiness?

M: mabilis makaadapt si May. I know.. mahahanap nya rin agad yun. Baka nga nahanap na nya.

B: and sana mahanap mo na rin yang peace na pinipursue mo

M: minsan sumasakit puso ko, literal. Iniisip kaya ko ni May? Hahahahaha

B: hahahaha sige gaslight mo sarili mo

M: chariz lang.

Yes, di kami nagsasalita pero nagpplay lang randomly yung mga worship songs sa bg.

[bonholmesy]

Sabi ko pala magkkwento ako. So here it goes..

I’m feeling better naman na. Nasa stage na ng acceptance haha at moving on. Not giving meaning to anything na but still feeling giddy over the smallest interaction.

Last night we met for dinner. Nakatalikod ako sa entrance ng restaurant so hindi ko kita kung parating na sya. Nalaman ko lang na nandyan na nung sumesenyas na yung dalawang kasama ko (na alam na I had feelings for pas) pero di ako tumingin. Naramdaman ko na lang na may bumeso sakin and I touched her face haha to beso back.

She looked stunning as always. Pink looks good on her. We’re seated across each other so kitang kita ko siya. Good talk sa restaurant. After nun, we went to 12 monkeys for Janine’s gig.

Nung nasa backstage kami, pinakita niya sakin yung tiktok video niya about holding it together kasi ayaw nyang may sumilip sa rectangle at sabihing “sana matagal ko nang sinabi sayong mahal kita”. I’ve watched that video. I watch all of her videos. But I pretended I didn’t. Hindi ko alam irereact ko haha so I just said mapapabangon talaga ako niyan at sasabihing it’s a prank!

Tapos nung set na ni Janine, nasa side ako ng stage pero tinawag nya ako at sinabing dun kami sa audience banda. Tinabihan ko siya literally kasi ang taas ng upuan hahaha so tumayo na lang ako sa tabi niya. Out of nowhere pinakita niya sakin yung video ng doberman niya na galing sa photos. Ang cute! Very random. So fucking cute!

Wala lang, sumasayaw lang kami in place. Ang boring ng crowd pero we enjoyed the set. Binubulong niya na sobrang dull ng crowd tapos nagccheer siya kay Janine. Dinamayan ko siya haha I also cheered and shouted and danced.

Nung bandang bridge na ng Hulaan hugot na hugot siya napaka-cute! Sabi ko “pas grabeng hugot yan ah!” The line goes “puro ka amba nakakalunod kang ibigin” I was thinking hayyy para kanino kaya yung hugot niya. Lucky guy!

After the gig we went to UCC for coffee and chill. Kwentuhan about lots of things!! When we get there she explained to me the meaning of 1st wave, 2nd wave, and 3rd wave ng coffee. Smart woman! Then we also talked about TFIOS, John Green, at ang pinakabinabaran namin na topic ay mga sci-fi series. I can feel the excitement in her and her love for marvel and sherlock. Her eyes and voice glow.

Sadly, magsasara na yung UCC and she also has to go kasi may gown fitting pa siya for her parents vow renewal.

It was a great night. I learned something new again.

Looking forward to more nights like this.

[joannalou]

02-15-24

I didn’t feel like coming home right away from work. I was waiting din kasi coding. I finished working at around 8:30 PM. I decided to eat dinner at Krapow MOA pero after kumain ayoko pa din umuwi talaga.

Naisip ko mag drive sa pa Harbor Square but I ended up going to Intramuros instead. After ko mag-ikot sa may bridge, may nakita ako stairs sa gilid and na-curious ako saan yun pa punta. Nagulat nalang ako na dun pala yun sa spot na medyo importante sakin few years ago. Way back 2017, spot namin yun nung isang tao na mahalaga sakin dati. I went down the stairs and roamed around. Grabe! Ang laki ng pinagbago. Yung lugar na yan holds a very special place sa puso namin dati or maybe it’s just me. Baka sakin lang, idk.

Narealize ko lang din na nagbago na kami separately pati yung lugar kung saan kami natambay para magusap or magpalipas oras nagbago na din.

Everything does change.

Tumabay ako dun sa stairs sa may ilog for a few minutes. Ang dami ko na-realize.

I’m happy kung ano meron ako ngayon. Masaya ako mga nangyayari sa buhay ko kahit ang dami pa din nangloloko sakin. At higit sa lahat, I’m happy he ended our relationship kasi kung ako yun promise I will never have the courage to walk away. Hindi ko kaya. No shit! Forgiven na din sya sakin. Matagal-tagal ko din yun dinala pero I’m okay now. I think that’s the closure I really needed. I’m happy na masaya din siya. Sabi nga nila diba, if mahal mo talaga yung tao, let them go. Kahit sa iba na sila sasaya. If mabasa mo man ‘to, I’m happy for you. Masaya ako kasi masaya ka. Thank you for giving me an opportunity to reset my life. Ang only regret ko lang is sana hindi tayo ganun nagtapos. Sana di naging bad terms pero it is what it is diba. Hanggang dulo naging totoo ako sayo. I just really thought naintindihan mo ako, and kung ano nangyayari sa pamilya ko. Anyway, sorry din if I caused you pain. I am truly sorry.

Anyway, I have been dealing with my problems for a year now. Kahit madaming problema, masaya pa din ako. Masaya ako kasi I can do all things alone and syempre kasama si Lord. Kala ko dati hindi ko kaya pero atleast na-try diba. Masaya ako kasi kaya ko pala mag-isa. Masaya ako hawak ko sarili kong oras. Masaya ako kasi I get to spend time with my parents palagi. Masaya ako sa work ko. Malaki sahod, maganda benefits. Nakakatravel ako kahit mag-isa. Natakbo ako mag-isa. Nakain ako sa labas mag-isa. Okay na ako. I will never look back. Spot ko pa din yun pero ako nalang. Spot ni J version 2 and version 2 din nung lugar. Ang saya sa feeling. Mas naiintindihan ko na sarili ko talaga. Kalmado lang palagi. Focus nalang tayo sa flight school. Mas prio ko yan kesa sa ano mang bagay. Relationship? Hindi ko yan prio. If meron naman diba, dadating nalang yun. No rush sa relationship na yan. I got so many things to focus on. Grabe! My Goal is to be an Airline Pilot! Hehehe 🥺

[adventureofthedancinggirl]

SYA Writing Log 11.25.2023

Tonight's writing problem: Trying to add in a scene to provide additional context and develop character relationships but realizing halfway through that including it means that a different conversation that takes place later in the story now makes absolutely no sense...

[seeyouafter]

SYA Writing Log 02.01.2024

So, this wasn't in the plans, but apparently people want to see the tdbk arcade date after their conversation in the previous chapter and Katsuki's "Shit to do when Half and Half gets home" list.

(It's me. I'm people.)

I already know it's not going to be part of the main fic but now I really just want to do a fluffy little one-shot about this (and maybe some of the other items on the list).

Here's the most recent chapter in case you missed it: