#swm;asks

[luvt0kki]

That new chapter was so effing good! I don't know why but that's exactly how I imagined how yeosang would fuck s/o. I feel so bad for wooyoung lmao but at the same time I want him to suffer more like I want him to see her fuck every single one of them until it drives him so crazy that he loses his shit and demands everyone the truth 😭

I'm so looking forward to her dynamics with hongjoong, seonghwa, jongho and especially San. You're a lil evil for teasing us with those subtle hinted smut scenes with san in chapter 3(San's sexy naked ass waiting in her bedroom)and 4. San is a mystery to me because I feel like he could be the kinkiest of them all or the most vanilla.

Mingi teasing wooyoung was so funny and hot at the same time. When he said "what if it's an invitation?" NOW WE GOTTA SEE THESE TWO HAVE A THREESOME WITH HER IN THAT DAMN SHOWER STALL. Imagine them having a competition on who can make her cum more. They gonna be doing IT for the entire night until the sun rises.

Amazing work!! Loved it loved it loved it 👏👏👏👏

The way I got so excited seeing your ask. ITS LONG AND UR TELLING ME SPECIFIC FAVE PARTS AHHHH. I love this so much. Reading this made smile 😭 that’s also my dilemma rn should I make woo get closer to hitting or…make him suffer more HAHDHDHAHAAG

All I’m gonna say is San and Y/N go way back…San is very sweet but don’t be fooled HEHE ILL STOP HERE I DONT WANT TO SPOIL

Mingi is hahaha tall scary silly cute sexy himbo. He’s going to make Wooyoung’s life hell at this point. He’s going to tease him just for fun 😭

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

people are so fucking weird. what james & sirius did to snape is NOT s/a. it is something most of the school was doing to each other, using a spell literally invented BY snape. plus pantsing was, and still is (at least when I was in school), a fairly popular thing to do?? like as a prank between lads??

THANK YOU oh my GOD . bullying ≠ sexual assault will now get you flamed ??? the amount of random ass shit people are saying is crazy too omg "you’re coming to me and saying that if a victim was in their abuser’s house and was naked, then you wouldn’t interpret it as sexual abuse" HOW did we get here. also omg the fact that SNAPE INVENTED THE SPELL . like that's such a major detail but snape dickriders are never gonna bring it up

[lines-in-limbo]

Lily can’t defend what she doesn’t know is happening, but what she *did* witness in Snape’s Worst Memory should’ve put her off James completely. Not because she owes Severus anything, but because James was sadistically cruel in that scene, not just a bit full of himself. A year (it was only a year later going by the timing of Petunia’s wedding) and she’s in a serious relationship with a guy she witnessed humiliating, choking and exposing someone underprivileged? Speaks volumes. Lily’s not a moron, so the only way it can be rationalised is if she comes to believe that Severus deserved what he got by the lake that day.

You’re overlooking an important aspect of Lily’s character: her capacity for forgiveness and her tendency to give people a chance if she perceives change in them.

Lily did see James’s behavior in SWM and was definitely put off by it, but she also witnessed his "genuine" growth and change since that time. It wasn’t only about the potential for growth; James actively demonstrated that he had made progress. Whether he truly changed or was just putting on a front is a separate issue, but Lily’s decision to give him a chance was based on the growth he demonstrated and her belief in his potential. Dismissing her choice as a failure to acknowledge James’s past ignores the complexity of personal relationships and the possibility for people to evolve over time. Lily’s actions were driven by her belief in change, which is a fundamental part of who she is.

[seriousbrat]

Ok guys, I'm officially CANCELLING the 'is lily a social climber' discourse. And I'm sorry but I don't think I'll reply to all the 'here's my opnion on why lily sucks' essays in my inbox haha, but I encourage you to write out your opinions on your blogs.

I think I've made my arguments on this topic pretty clear by now, a few times in fact. So I just don't want to have to repeat myself over and over. I don't think Lily is a social climber lol, and I think the 'evidence' for it in the text is flimsy at best and actively contradicted by a lot of the information we're given about Lily in canon. And (from what I've observed) a lot of this seems based on pretty silly and unfair assumptions about Lily. Like 'she was one of slughorn's favourites that means she's a social climber' is a huge reach imo, but anyway, pls continue to write 'Lily is a social climber' AUs if that's what you want.

My honest opinion is that none of this is based in canon though, unless you're jumping to the worst possible reading of everything Lily does. Which you can certainly do, I'm just not at all convinced.

I know I'm pretty open to discussion and disagreement on here. But I also do have my limits. Lily is a character I am very fond of, I think that's pretty obvious. For perspective, imagine your favourite character was Harry, and your inbox was just full of screeds about Harry being a homophobe because once he was rude to Dumbledore. Stupid example lol, but you get it. I don't think it's hate or maliciously done, but it is a little wearing. That's all.

[charmstwit]

Hai. Will you write a love letter from Regulus to Sirius? Pretty pretty PRETTY please? (Bonus points if it includes other members of wolfstarbucks 👀)

In Come with Me, Sirius sees Regulus writing to Kingsley and asks for a love letter of his own. It's not a serious request. Regulus does it anyway. This is that letter.

~~~

À mon chien,

I want to scold you for demanding a love letter. It’s impolite, however I have come to accept that disregarding societal norms is part of your charm, and really I’m pleased that you’ll demand the things you want from me. I wish to grant you those things. I wish for you to be exquisitely happy, even in the smallest, most ridiculous things. 

And perhaps you deserve a love letter from me. I’ve been a fool these last weeks. I did not mean to cause you harm and I hate that I have. I hated seeing you like that. I’ve had enough of seeing pain in your eyes. From now on, I’d like you to only feel good. 

In order to support this, I’ve compiled a list of things I adore about you. If you ever use this against me, I will have Kingsley spank you until you can’t sit. To be honest, I may do that anyway, but regardless, do not use this against me or you will regret it. 

I should likely stop threatening you in this love letter. Old habits die hard. In any case. 

I adore the way you laugh. I want to swallow the sound. It would taste like cinnamon sugar, it would keep me full for days. I adore the way your eyes crinkle when you’re pleased. Happiness fits you like a well-tailored suit. 

I adore your hands. You’re so restless, fidgety, and sometimes when I am feeling restless I watch you move, and feel soothed by the constancy of you. 

I did not know this until two nights ago, but I adore the way you sleep, the way you rest your head on my chest, the tickle of your hair. I adore being close to you. I adore that I can finally touch you, and see how you respond. The way you push back into my knot. The way your hair feels between my fingers. The scent of you. There’s so much that I wish to know, and see, and taste. I want to know your every secret. 

And I—Sirius, I adore you, everything about you, and I have for as long as I can remember. At times I’ve felt I must push it away, hide it behind scoffing and mockery, because it is so strong, how much I love you. How much I want you near. Even now that I do not have to hide it, I’m alarmed at what I’ll find. 

However, I’m willing to find it, because you will be with me. 

I miss you already. I wish you were back here in my arms. Tell me you’ll be back soon. 

Tendrement,

RAB

[theresthesnitch]

i'm about to do my 3rd reread of stay with me, and i just wanted to let you know that it's one of my all-time favourite fics. it brings such a unique joy, excitement and ease that i can only find within this series!!!!! thank you so much for your contributions 🫶

I love hearing this so much. Moss and I poured our hearts and souls into this fic, and I love love love hearing that someone enjoys it this much. 💖💖💖

[grimst4rs]

how do you think the marauders acted like to other ppl at hogwarts? like we know they bullied snape but we also know that despite james' and sirius' arrogance and status, they were still kind to remus and peter. plus, there was some line that lily i think said about james hexing ppl left and right. i mean we all know what those popular kids were like in school... and the marauders were pretty popular. by 7th year, we know james had changed. but how mean were they really do you think?

honestly i think they were about a little meaner than the average teenager, because in hbp remus mentioned that levicorpus (snape’s spell) was quite used by everyone during their years in hogwarts, and that it wasn’t unusual to have it used on yourself unknowingly.

i think that the privilege sirius and james grew up with definitely affected their perception on the world and on the other students, possibly a bit resembling draco malfoy; he made some quite nasty remarks at times and while i can’t really see james doing them (the potters were fiercely anti-muggleborn discrimination), we have seen a little bit of the blacks’ opinions in regards to their superiority and the inferiority of everyone else, so the younger members of their family might have had those values ingrained into their heads.

however, like you said, with time and being exposed to multiple views and diversity, they learnt and developed both as people and as members of society.

as in for remus and peter, i think that both of them were quite good people in school:

remus was most likely kind to most people as we have seen that that is his general attitude towards quite about anyone most times. he’s also a fly-under-the-radar person in order not to have his secret easy to access and i think that when he was a prefect, he might have let people (such as his friends) do whatever they wanted. (for his friends, it’s because they knew his secret and he considered that, with the possibility of making them abide to the rules, they will spill out — with other people it might or might not have happened).

with the people he knew, i feel like peter was thoughtful towards. however, most people considered him to be a “tag-along” or a “side character” for the marauders (we see this in poa, when they only remember peter for always being attached to sirius and james and for being, in their opinion, quite stupid).

[bitsandbobsandstuff]

Hi Bitandbobsandstuff

Just finished reading your epic story “Safe with Me”. I found it last night and I have binge read the whole thing. Absolutely and with no shame neglected my family and ran my phone down twice as I wanted to know what happens.

Your writing is amazing!! I love the relationship between the reader and Bucky (the sass and the snark is on point!). Love hoe you have fleshed out the relationship between Bucky and Steve so much more than any of the films have.

I actually laughed out loud when Bucky tells Steve to “stop being a little bitch and suit your self-righteous spangly ass up”. Thought that’s was so Bucky and such a good line.

The whole twist with Bucky’s trigger words and Jack - I would happily unload a clip into that arsehole!!

Just wanted to say brilliant brilliant writing and it’s definitely a favourite.

Thank you for sharing.

I’ve taken absolutely forever to respond, but thank you so much for this lovely message!!

I had a lot of fun writing this relationship with Bucky and Steve…making them as sassy and snarky as humanly possibly toward each other brings me joy. 😉

I appreciate you stopping by, hope you have a wonderful day!

[sapphicquill]

Hello! I just read your spin the bottle shadowidomauk fic, and I was wondering if there was going to be a second chapter? I loved it!! You wrote it very well and I love the concept. :] have a great day!

Ahhh hi! I'm so glad to hear that everyone's been enjoying this fic!! Yes, there WILL be a second chapter—I've been slowly plucking away at it since I posted chapter one, but life has been... unfortunately cruel and hectic since then, so I haven't had the time or the spoons to really throw a good effort into finishing it up. But rest assured, anon, there will be a second chapter SOON!

[luvt0kki]

THE WAY IM IN LOVE WITH YOUR WRITINGSSSSSS. The interlude was so GOOD ! it only makes me more excited and curious about YN’s past!😫 Now i need to know how San and YN separate and reunite. Not me being selfish in wanting a full chapter on the back story of how YN was sent on a mission to execute Caption Hongjoong 🫣 only to be REUNITED WITH HER CLEAR SOULMATE SANNIEEEE. ALSO this interlude only makes me question more on how YN falls in love with MINGI even after reuniting with her first love. UGH i love it so much. Hands down the best series i’ve read so far and i’m looking forward to so much more😫. THANK THANK THANKKKKK YOUUU for your hard AMAZING work 🥹🫶🏻

AHHHHHH THANK U FOR LEAVING THIS MESSAGE IM😭😭😭 man I feel like that’s why this series is becoming bigger than I expected. Like i want to add all those details! Before we come to the finale which is woo so OT8. But I’m just scared yall might get impatient .

I definitely plan to write San and Y/N’s reunion because the Hongjoong assassination mission is something that I think it is very important to the plot and Y/N’s character and Hongjoong.

THANK U SO MUCH ILYSM FOR THIS 😭

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

in some jurisdictions (including california in the usa and in the uk as well more recently) pantsing someone can result in sexual assault (or simple assault) charges, even if it's done between students. swm was def written to be standard issue bullying, but a decent amount of the modern western audience is gonna read it in a particular context that is familiar to them/filter it through anti-bullying lectures they've gotten in school/etc.

okok i def get this. i do have a few thoughts they probably arent very well explained but i will try to put them in words best i can.

tldr at the bottom. !!

i do wanna j put it out there, generally, that james & sirius were complete assholes for this and by extension, so were remus and peter. i dont like snape but this was shitty and inexcusable. if it sounds like i'm justifying them in this, i'm not (promise 💔)

i know today it's more often than not considered sexual assault/public indecency , which is totally justified ofc, but this scene didn't take place today - it took place around like . half a centaury ago. lots changed.

yes, ofc, it was wrong then too and even if it didn't mean j&s would go through legalities and stuff, they shouldn't've done it but back then it wasn't considered to be so bad and it was fairly normalized, they probably saw it and did it (albeit in a much crueler way).

hogwarts doesn't teach mannerisms , they never sat through anti-bullying segments or got taught the hard limits or how to fight back vs aggravate. it was written as bullying , because it was. it wasnt intended s/a but that doesn't mean it wasn't heinous .

s/a comes w intent, james and sirius had no intent further than to show their power over him + get rid of their boredom.

istg they were so horrible.

according to wikipedia, this is the definition of sexual assault

Sexual assault is an act in which one intentionally sexually touches another person without that person's consent, or coerces or physically forces a person to engage in a sexual act against their will.

according to this definition, it's not s/a. it's still blurry, if it happened today i would think it be, because james would choose a specifically sexually violent way of bullying snape, but at the time pantsing didn't have those connotations (esp between boys). obv you can still believe what you want , this is just my two cents.

(i'm also gonna reply to some comments from my original post here since it's easier than responding in the comment section).

@eddvirusz : there's nothing sexual about the scene, and i know s/a is a pretty umbrella term that more specific things fall into but i dont find this specific instance to fall under that. it probably was just a big bullying scene for him bc they didnt have the nuances we have today. ik jkr is sexist but also. 70s were sexist. male s/a wasnt considered shit . but that's not the point of it, because there was no sexual intent which, as i said needs to be present. pantsing itself is not considered s/a according to most sites.

@silentgirlspeaksout : okay i just read through the entirety of swm and this is the order of how they hurt each other physically/attempt to + talking abt what u adressed:

snape attempts to hurt james first. james calls out to him, and snape reaches for his wand. you could say that snape expected an attack and was prepping for self defense or something, but ehhh... i dont believe that. let snape be an imperfect victim, he tried to hurt first

james responded w expelliarmus

he then did impedimenta (slows down/stops target - can also blow them away (which it did) if used more strongly)

james and sirius just taunted him while he lay for a while, throwing insults etc etc . power play.

4. snape tries to throw hexes at them but he can't bc his wand is far away

5. james uses scourgify. i dont exactly know if this is like a bad hex, bc it just cleans, so it must just fill snape's mouth w soap ? ig it has chemicals and stuff, but i doubt pureblood james & sirius knew of that. it did make him gag & choke though, that's when lily enters

james saying 'he exists' seems like a joke ..... i 1000% believe j&s & snape were both horrible to each other and james wasnt gonna stop in the middle of his little show to explain that to lily in detail

this is also where he says 'go out w me and i'll leave him alone' - youre right ,,, this was gross. it was played as shits and giggles i think, 'oh haha he never does miss an opportunity to ask her out, does he!', but it's icky . same , it's no s/a but its harassment soo . big L james. this entire post is kind of a big L for james, and sirius too but he has a lot of Ls.

also, "choke him out with soap before he does anything," - he attempted to do shit

"so I don’t blame him for fighting back with a cutting hex after he’s been hit with several spells" - i get it, vaguely, but not in the same sense (?). if james only hit him with these three hexes and snape went to draw blood, i'd say snape was in the wrong (sorry?), but they had a history - snape drew blood because james and snape had done this before, they've gone violent

6. snape cuts james' face (deep enough that it instantly splatters to his robes)

7. hanging snape upside down the first time

lily tells them to back off,

8. james let him off (*threw him down)

9. sirius hits him with a body-bind spell that temporarily paralyzes him

lily tells them to stop,

10. james mutters counter curse

snape calls lily a mudblood + her exit,

11. snape is hung again and we're left unsure whether or not he was exposed or not

there can be arguments made that, like you said, this is only unconfirmed bc it wouldnt be allowed to be in a children's book otherwise (but the book deals w nazis n like a hundred other things so idk it may be left on purpose)

you say jkr is weird about s/a esp w men and while obv #fuckjkr men and s/a discussions generally were pretty weird in the 70s which is why james mightve never considered that a possibility as to what he did + snape never considered it as s/a. fuck jkr tho

for the mary and mulciber thing , i was just yapping tbh but tysm ! fuck mulciber hail mary

ok i think ive yapped enough gn

tldr : s/a requires there to be something sexual taking place. you can argue assault, you can't argue sexual given time frame and context and just .... anything. but that doesn't mean it wasn't terrible and disgusting. j&s sucked ass for this, i may not like him but ill go pro snape where he's a victim.

not s/a, still unforgivable. snape is an imperfect victim because he's violent too. james and sirius are sadists and they should talk that out with someone that isnt each other.

[hongjoongscafe]

hammy joongie how r u? where r u these days?

“Ohhh! Hello there! I'm fine, thank you for asking me! I'm doing so well. Y/n is in the kitchen making my favourite tea. She is such a sweetheart. I'm at home with my pretty fiancée. As you know we are now engaged, so we are just enjoying it so much! It's been a year now. I miss you guys! We will meet soon, BTW😉”—🐹

[fafodill]

On Snape depriving himself sexually...

SO, I got hyperfocused and I hope you'll enjoy reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. I needed only one person to tell me they were interested so thank you @severus-snaps haha. And thank you @wisteria-lodge for encouraging me !

This is a continuation of my previous post about Snape's relation with intimacy. I'm always a sucker for the pent up and deprived trope and I feel like Snape could fit the profile perfectly. Of course this is complete HC, as we literally have zero information about him having any personal life whatsoever so... pure speculation and meta discussion. Let's have fun, buckle up, here is why I think he'd make a great candidate for it :

Early teens: Many of us tend to interpret Snape as sexually inexperienced. This of course comes partly from his unpopularity in school, a time where teenagers start experimenting a bit. It's hard to imagine the little scrawny greasy potion nerd getting a lot of action. Though I'm open to thinking something might have happened here and there. I mean, girls also like smart and scrawny guys, I would love to read a fic where a Ravenclaw or Slytherin has a crush on him and he's utterly clueless because he's too engrossed in his books and when he realizes he's so flustered and clumsy about it. And they snog in the library and he's so afraid of getting caught by Mrs Pince. But being consistently bullied would have hurt his reputation, thus making people avoid being associated with him to not become targets as well. Also, his bullies were good-looking guys and it may have contributed to highlighting his bad looks in the public eye way more than if he had been left alone. And just with the nickname alone, but you won't tell me James and Sirius never insulted his nose, his hair, his complexion or his thin frame.

So one of the first core belief that might have emerged and latched itself to his sexuality would have been: I'm ugly/repelling.

But we don't have any proof in canon that he wasn't interested in romantic/sexual interactions back then. For all we know, he was a socially awkward teenager going through puberty. Even if he was certainly anxious and angry due to the bullying, he was still going through the same hormone cocktail as everyone.

HC : I've been wondering how the students find places to masturbate in peace and of course we don't exactly know why he invented the Muffliato charm but give me a Snape who was too whimpery to be completely silent and used it for this.

Post SWM though, I think it's safe to assume the trauma scared him unconsciously regarding the subject. Being perceived before wasn't easy, as he was aware he wasn't exactly good-looking and his self-esteem was impacted for sure, but after... oh boy. I can imagine him so traumatized that the mere idea of undressing in the vicinity of people was making his blood freeze. This may have led to hygiene issues as well, or only feeling safe to shower in the dead of night or at times where the dormitories where utterly empty. The shame linked to having his body and underwear exposed could have definitely stunned his sexual awakening as it happened at such a crucial age. How can you safely explore your own sexuality if every time you think about how ugly you are and that so many people saw your body and laughed at it ? (and the adults doing nothing to punish the people who did that hammered the beliefs that he was indeed laughable)

So second core belief added: I'm ridicule.

Also the SWM incident might have triggered his need to cover/shield his body from head to toe at all time and nobody can convince me otherwise.

At the very least I imagine masturbating would then be heavily linked to the anger and shame of that moment. The memory would either unlock or at least impact it unconsciously in some way, marking the act with a profound bitterness or stopping it altogether. The result: every time his body would ask for attention, he'd be overcome with very intense traumatic feelings and have no idea how to deal with them; so he'd start recoiling instinctively from any sexual thought. Also, since undressing/changing clothes became a triggering act, being even partially nude to touch himself would also stress him immensely.

So instead of indulging, he'd start developing coping mechanisms like focusing on anything else that brought him a sense of pleasure to trick his brain : potions, the dark arts, creating spells etc.

And of course, we can assume that even if someone was trying to approach him at that point, he'd recoil like a wounded animal, expecting mockery and reacting very aggressively.

After Hogwarts: We don't know what might have happened during his 3-4 years after school. We have a lot of creative space, though we know he got a Potion Mastery (??) so he must have studied somewhere and he was active within the DE circles. As @maxdibert pointed in a few posts - which I think is an astute point - the Dark Lord was aware of the affection/attraction Severus had felt towards Lily and, to prove his disinterest, he might have engaged with a few pureblood women. We could speculate on different situations here (and if anyone's interested we could explore this), but as I'm going for deprived!Snape, I'd say it wasn't helpful. At this point he's a young adult, torn between his inexperience and his limboing self-esteem. On top of that he's a deeply proud individual, obsessed with controlling the way he's being perceived. He's already occlumenting his emotions to remain safe, and well, engaging sexually does require some sort of vulnerability he isn't capable of at that point.

Maybe he said some harsh things to his partners when confronted with his clumsiness (even if they were kind), maybe he got bit back (and deserved it). He'd use these instances as confirmation bias to convince himself intimacy wasn't something emotionally safe, interesting nor even remotely pleasant enough.

Then there's Lily's death, and I personally don't see her as having a lot of influence on his sexuality directly (except maybe for the fact that when he had feelings for her, he might have felt she was 'too pretty for him', which fed the first core belief), but it did fuel a ton the last core belief which is : I'm undeserving (because I'm a bad person).

The undeserving part existed prior to her death. It stemmed from his upbringing (undeserving of care), of his social status (undeserving of material comfort), his blood status (undeserving of opportunities), his social awkwardness (undeserving of friendship), his special interest in the dark arts (undeserving of respect).

Lily's death crystallized such deep guilt inside of him that he devoted his life after that to atoning. I'm a firm believer that there's a clear before and after regarding the way he treated his body. Not that things were drastically different, but it made it worse. He ate less, slept less and touched himself even less. Probable not at all for a good few months, maybe even up to a year or so as he was extremely stressed from his new job, depressed and overcomed with grief. Honestly, at that point in his life he was barely functioning.

Then we have his adult life at Hogwarts: at that point in his life he's working and living where his worst trauma occurred. Not great for healing. During those years, he mastered the art of shutting down with occlumency everything he couldn't deal with, including his body's basic needs. He had excuses for everything. Sleeping? How could he rest when he had so much work to do dealing with the little shitheads and that infuriating Headmaster? Eating? Pfft, he had been fine all his childhood, so now he'd eat what he needed to function, but craving something and getting it wasn't something he'd allow himself. Masturbating? Tricky part, because he almost never thought about it anymore. He would not even treat it as a basic need. Like, sleep and food were still required to function, even in limited amount or he would pass out, but he could function without sex. Bottom line is, deep down he would feel undeserving of any sort of pleasure.

Rewarding his body, taking care of it wasn't allowed. It was part of his self-inflicted punishment.

But it would be still natural for his body to seek sexual release from time to time. He'd have hard-ons sometimes in the morning and ignore it until it went away, maybe take a cold shower or - why not - even take a potion he'd have invented to calm it down (or worse, to make it hurt so it would go down, if you want to go the masochistic way). The way I see it, every time he'd have an unwanted sensual/sexual thought (oh, this person at the Three Broomsticks has disarmingly pretty lips, this other person's got very elegant hands, or this one's hips look live they're meant to be grabbed), he'd shut it down immediately.

Fantasizing wouldn't be pleasant either. Each time, it would trigger the self-depreciating thoughts. Who are you fooling ? This person would never touch you, never look at you. And if they did, you wouldn't deserve it and would fuck it up anyway. Faceless people then, but it would still always be tainted with the ghost of years of bitterness, loneliness and unmet needs. So it'd be easier to pretend he doesn't have them or doesn't care. Of course this would do nothing to soothe his sour mood (and here talking from experience: I've been sexually frustrated quite a lot in my twenties, and I can definitely say that the mental relief you feel alongside the physical release when you get it is quite something. Like, I'd be a changed person, just because chemically my brain would finally be swimming again in endorphins. So yeah, at that point in his life I believe he's in dire need of a good shag and is partly always on edge because of this).

And when he would indulge in masturbation, it'd be because he's too tired to fight it or just because he knows that if he does, his body would leave him alone for a while. It would be quick, mechanical, in the dark, the mess cleaned up immediately and then forgotten about. The less thinking involved, the better so it wouldn't trigger the core beliefs. Maybe it'd happen when being tipsy after a night out with the other professors, or just when he was too stressed or exhausted at the end of terms and it was his body's way of asking for a break and a distraction.

I think he'd be also more prone to having his sexual needs resurface when he's not at Hogwarts and the mental toll of being there isn't weighing on him (maybe during summer or maybe even if he goes into the Forbidden Forest to gather potion ingredients, or a trip to Diagon Alley). He would find it really annoying, not realizing how the two are linked.

Then how would he be dealing with the constant tension and redirecting the release ? (fun stuff)

I think he could get a sick pleasure from being able to not indulge for long periods of time, thriving on his sense of control. He'd maybe even feel shame when he finally does, chastising himself for being weak.

When too tired to notice, late at night in his office, his body would hijack control a little bit and he'd start rubbing himself unconsciously with one hand while correcting essays and immediately stop upon realizing.

He'd be a GREAT candidate for edging. Like telling himself that if there's no release it doesn't count and he could get some pleasure whilst still shaming and punishing himself. Maybe sometimes even without touching himself directly, just letting the fabric rub on him, while shifting his hips just a bit. A good compromise he wouldn't want to analyze too closely.

Being pent up all the time makes one irritable, so some of that tension is fueling his already short-tempered nature and getting out by lashing out at idiots. It would also be a way to... spill out but with words (classy I know).

I don't see him doing any sport to get endorphins and relieve tension (though he does prowl the castle at night, that counts as walking haha).

The only part of his body I could see him pay attention to would be his hands as he uses them for potion work. He could be proud of their dexterity and I can imagine him taking care of them. Like, once of twice a week he'd put a cream or an ointment (self-made ofc) and massage his fingers and palms. Nothing sexual about it but it would be the closest he has to a gentle self-touch.

But mostly, his sole source of pleasure would still come from focusing on his interests. Working all night on improving a new potion, loosing himself in the method and appreciating his own skills, or reading about and experimenting with the Dark Arts (I don't think he ever stopped seeking knowledge, which is why he was able to save Dumbledore's ass from Marvolo's ring). These two things are his private garden, something that's inherently his despite everything, and it would be his way of pleasuring himself in an acceptable way: intellectually.

But what about the people around him or potential partners ?

He'd hate any sexual jokes or comments about him or in general. Sexually open people would make him angry (jealous). It'd irk him. As it's such a loaded and repressed subject for him he'd see them as flaunting their unspoken good experiences. He'd try to unconsciously shame them into silence by telling them they're being inappropriate. At the end of the day, it's just his way of protecting himself because he wouldn't know how to navigate the conversation, and his pride wouldn't let him feel ridiculed again.

He would also hate being looked at, even clothed. People judging his body would definitely trigger the awful memory from SWM. He would struggle immensely to accept the possibility of being looked at in an appraising way. If someone was sincere and stubborn enough to convince him they're not lying, he'd be extremely confused and wary.

And if he was to be attracted to that person as well, he'd have to deal with an almost second puberty on top of his core beliefs. He'd be so clumsy, so out of touch with his body and very frustrated with all the unwanted sensations he's not used to deal with. And that's such an interesting and fascinating subject aaaah.

At the end of the day, deep down he doesn't believes he deserves pleasure or comfort in his life so a partner would have to be patient with him. There's a lot of strategies they could try and I'd be delighted to explore them but I'm gonna stop here because this essay is so long already haha. SO, in conclusion:

He needs a good shag.

Thank you for reading.

I'd love to discuss how it would go with different characters trying to approach him, or I could talk about the classic trope of losing control because of his short temper but with him deprived, so many possibilties aaah, I love it when he's angry AND horny AND clumsy-

Also, my current favorite oneshot of deprived!Snape here : Cursed into Temptation by @marvel-snape-writes (very smutty, amazing, I'm on my knees)

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isn’t it funny how everyone says james hated the dark arts while the only time we saw him was when he used a dark spell🤔

did he? unless I'm missing something lol, he used a jinx. Invented by Snape, not that James knew that. Not exactly the dark arts even though it was offensive magic and he used it in a particularly nasty way. There's a difference in canon between hexes, jinxes, and curses, like dark magic is a pretty specific thing in canon. Hexes and jinxes can definitely be used cruelly or nefariously, but I think on the whole they're kind of meant to be whimsical, less harmful and not permanent in damage. There's a significant breach between that and something that has the sole purpose of maiming, torturing, controlling, or killing.

He did hate the dark arts, that doesn't mean he wasn't a dick. I don't think levicorpus is a dark spell even if Snape invented it, there's quite a difference between hoisting someone up by the ankle and causing gashes to keep opening up all over someone's body. Levicorpus is used on Ron by Harry and they both find it funny, whereas there's no situation where Sectumsempra would ever be anything other than utterly fucked up to cast on someone.

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Pretty messed up how some people are fans of a creepy and obsessive guy who didn’t care if a man and a child died just so he could get the girl.

Alright, let's break this down, anon, because there's a lot to unpack here.

I think I've mentioned this in several posts already, but I'll repeat it: Severus owed James Potter NOTHING—no compassion, no empathy, no mercy. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. James Potter was a rich, popular brat who abused his social and economic capital to torment a poor, unsupported boy for seven years just because he didn't like him from the moment they met on the train to Hogwarts, and from that moment on, he had it in for him. He was a terrible bully who used his friends to join in on that nasty bullying. So if Snape didn’t care that he died, well, Snape had every right to feel that way. Do you go to victims of domestic violence and tell them they should feel sorry for their abusers? No, right? Well, this is the same thing. James was an abuser, Severus was his victim. Severus did more than enough by not telling Voldemort to torture him to death with Cruciatus, because I would have. Honestly, I don't understand why Snaters always bring up the whole "James was dead and Snape walked over his body" as if it were some horrible thing when, hello! You're talking about an ABUSER being dead, mate. Of course, he walked right over his body—what surprises me is that he didn’t throw a party.

Harry had to die. I know this sounds terrible, but it’s basically what the prophecy indicated. He was a target that Voldemort wasn’t going to let slip away, his fate was sealed. And yes, it’s unethical. And yes, it’s immoral. But the truth is that wars are unethical and highly immoral, and horrible, monstrous decisions are often made. Harry was not an option—asking for mercy for him was pointless because there wasn’t going to be any.

I don’t think Severus ever believed that if James was out of the picture, Lily would go to him or anything like that. I mean, they hadn’t spoken for five years—about six by that time. Severus NEVER harassed or stalked Lily. The only time he went after her was when the whole SWM incident happened, and he tried to apologise. Once she made it clear she didn’t want anything to do with him anymore, Severus respected her decision, and as far as we know from canon, they never interacted again. So, I don’t think, after six years of not talking, with his supposed former best friend having married and had a child with his personal bully, Severus had many expectations of them ending up in any sort of romantic relationship. I think, quite simply, that Lily always represented the only good part of his childhood—the only happy memories, the only moments of peace amidst the hellish violence he endured at home. I believe this was crucial for someone like him, whose childhood and teenage years were marked by violence, and he wasn’t willing to let the one good thing in his life end up murdered.

I agree that Severus is highly obsessive, but haters tend to frame this in a derogatory way, referring to his "obsession" with Lily, and I think it needs some clarification. Yes, Severus is obsessive, and he’s terribly immature at times, and he overreacts enormously when confronted with something that really triggers him (just look at how quickly he loses his temper with Sirius, for instance). This is obviously because he’s someone who never had the opportunity to grow up normally or develop cognitively as he should have, because his whole life was marked by violence. His home life was violent, and at school, he endured violence, and then at 20 years old, he handed his soul over to Dumbledore’s cause and had to work for nearly two decades at a school that was the epicentre of many of his traumas. He literally had neither the spaces nor the environments needed to heal and grow into a functional adult, and you can clearly see this in his behaviour. I’ve always said Severus is more of a diva than the cold, mysterious character people often make him out to be in fanon. To me, he’s someone who, on a personal level, hasn’t been able to grow emotionally in a healthy way and doesn’t know how to manage certain situations, especially those tied to his emotional issues. That said, I also don’t think he was romantically and/or sexually obsessed with Lily. I do think he loved her or was infatuated with her in his youth—first love, crush, whatever. But I don’t believe his need to avenge her death was due to romantic or obsessive love. I think it’s more about his obsession with repaying his debt to her. Severus always felt partially responsible for Lily’s death, and that’s where his obsession lies: it’s not that he’s obsessed with her, per se, but with the fact that he feels guilty for what happened. He feels, in some way, responsible for the death of the one person who showed him kindness, affection, and care during his childhood, which made her the most important person in his life at one point. And guilt often leads to obsession, much like grief that is not properly processed, and I don’t think that kind of obsession is creepy. I think it’s a very human kind of obsession.

Lastly, I don’t find Severus creepy at all. Why is he creepy? I mean, Harry was running around with his invisibility cloak, spying on everyone. The Marauders had A BLOODY MAP that allowed them to track everyone at Hogwarts 24/7 like some kind of magical GPS. Is Severus really the creepy one here? There are literally Animagi who turn into animals to spy on people—I have to laugh at the whole creepy argument.

That being said, if you’re going to come into my DMs to complain about Severus, at least bring some convincing arguments because it’s a bit tiresome hearing the same nonsense over and over again.

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*sneaking sneakily in your inbox with another question* 5 and 15 with the Black King? 🥺

(you can sneak in as many as you want!)

5. What Muggle job would Regulus choose

We're having a hard time picking between Emperor of the World and staying at home being a kept man.

15. What spell does Regulus struggle with?

How dare you suggest he struggles with any spell? Regulus has been able to cast N.E.W.T. level magic since he was 12. He does not struggle.

(Sirius told us to tell you it's Riddikulus. Reggie is pants at fighting boggarts.)