#sure hope season does right by every single fuckin character

[theskyexists]

Fleabag

ok that sweater pull is just

that got me 

the way that was set up

i can't really stop laughing

but what comes after is just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa too knife edge for me really

my favourite relationship is already the one with her sister

fleabag wow she is a disaster. i always used to think - at least im not dysfunctional in that way. then i used to think, yeah but there's big advantages to it because you can lash shit out and away from you and idk fake it until you make it - coping for independence babey. but now im like nope. being that ragged and defensive and incapable of yielding at the right time or fix things sucks.

this rabbit teeth man apparently can hold a conversation all on his own.

this is fascinating because this woman i so extremely different from me it's insane. she just - what a dick oh my god hahahaha. she feels like she fucked up at being closer with her sister, hangs out with some dude she doesn't really like, has a horrible time, steals money, feels guilty over rejecting him and stealing from him, so tries to blame him and project on him for being a dick and get it all over with fakely. not to say that he isn't a dick. financial insecurity is a TRIP of mental bandwidth going narrower and narrower i imagine. (edit: oh and yeah grief)

no good deed goes unpunished lol

woah she can't be vulnerable with anyone? oh she did it. but then her dad is an idiot who deflects her one attempt with humour. wow this dude. well she instantly does payback. omg it's olivia colman. this dialogue is searing. it's not even that they were sleeping, it's just that they dont fuckin want her there. 'look after yourself' - yeah the point is that she came here for somebody to look after HER.

this is fucking DRAMA

makes perfect sense to me that she'd steal that statue though. by that time it's like why the fuck not nobody fuckin cares about me anyway im beholden to no one hey

so the one person she had a good relationship with ACCIDENTALLY killed herself. yikes. YIKES

im liking the bi vibes

damn all the men in this series are.........awful. lol

she really lives on the edge doesn't she. why seek out a confrontation with olivia colman that just seems like punching above your weight.

every single of her romantic options are SHIT. except possibly the girl in the sex shop but i guess that one's not real.

what the fuck.

allllll the men in this series are awful??? so far. fuckin FUCK!!!

so what im getting from this is that the whole series spins on the thwarted potential for fleabag to connect with her sister be vulnerable, and gain a smithereen of acknowledgement?

WHY.

god woman love yourself and kick the guy in the nuts again verbally like he deserves. like, make him fuck off oh my god. stop playing nice!!!!!

though i am kind of liking how this show has so many sex scenes but they're played pretty realistically but none of em make me feel disgusted. guess it's cos of the subjectivity that goes into it.

she pet the guinea pig! first step in recovery??

god i love her and claire's relationship but like. they're both totally not okay lol.

but they do seem to be the only ones who consistently get the truth out of each other

well wow this series does go There.

why is it that everytime she makes claire laugh she cries?? what is going on??? ah god i LOVE THESE TWO

why is every single fuckin man in this show pretty much awful (except possibly i suppose the man trying genuinely to be better at better man camp)

at end of the season: can't believe he was the one good man in this goddamn show. 

---- intermission ----

im just so fucking angry about this last episode of fleabag

so goddamn fucking furious

by how every single fucking person in her life abandons and betrays her!!!

but most of all her goddamn fucking DAD - he KNOWS that he wronged them for  fucking hooking up with their GODMOTHER, he KNOWS that his fucking wife is a monster to them - he’s right THERE when she says these horrible things to her, he SEES her SLAP HER, and he won’t fucking support her in ANY way - not emotionally, not financially (when he should know and DOES know that that cafe is all she has left of her friend), and then he has the AUDACITY to blame HER!!! HER!!!! for ‘fucking him up’??!??!!

when he basically JUST told her to FUCK OFF out of his life?? and then she’s nice to him??? she apologises to him??? he deserves to get punched out! he deserves to get screamed at

her sister betrays her and blames her for her best friend’s death?? leaves her humiliated and completely alone in the world when she’s just looking out for her?

AFTER she’s lost her best friend in the world with intense guilt issues?

she cannot rely on anyone - ANYONE. she’s right about that - and that’s the most devastating thing. but i feel like she needs to scream at them - stop pushing it down, stop keeping up appearances, stop stop stop.

show your pain.

makes me think her childhood was also one where she could never count on support, or a listening ear, or trust, or belief, after their mother died.

i can barely continue. this is the LAST episode. she’s clearly valued by fucking no one. are they trying to recreate - like, show how Boo felt? that maybe if you hurt yourself, then they may finally fucking CARE?

wow i was right.

well i suppose he did save her life

and…this total stranger….did more for her than any of the people that were supposed to care for her.

-------end

anyway. when love is scarce, you take anything you get. that's fleabag.

i wish she could cut out every motherfucker that betrayed her in that last episode. i know her sister is going to be a big character next season - but i will find it enormously hard to forgive her. BECAUSE she was the one person who cared for her, supported her, was real with her, appreciated her - and the other way round. that betrayal is worse than anything (apart from the dad's betrayal - he deserves to burn in hell, not get apologised to)  im sure fleabag will just let it go. like she seems to let everything go - every single goddamn insult and humiliation and hurt that other people put her through.

she never addresses any of it outright - never. never does she call people out. she internalises everything. she internalises even! 'i fucked up my family' NO YOU FUCKING DIDN'T

she cleans up the things she shattered? the most frustrating thing. they hurt her but she never dares to hurt them back - not really. she doesn't even dare show her pain or anger.

but the end is life-affirming af. and phoebe waller bridge did that very right.

[quirklessidiot]

Title: coward :: coming clean Pairing: Y/N x Miya Atsumu Genre: angst, romance, and very slow burn [ex to lovers au] Warnings: Cursing, alchohol, mentions of unprotected sex, unplanned pregnancy, and mentions of abortion

Synopsis: You try to push him away from you but he isn’t taking any of it, the much long-awaited confrontation is there but you’re still finding a way out.

notes:

have yall seen the new season?? mY FUCKING HEART MAN NSNDNND it got me so stoked i literally wrote something about kita after that trailer skdjjdm kita is so underrated. I love him.

also, a huge thank you for the 200+ followers. Ma’am i literally only had this tumbler a month ago and im already celebrating a lot of milestones, hence i present you a more angsty chapter! I hope you’ll love it <3

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“You’re on gossip sites.” 

“Tsum-tsum, why are you so close to L/N-san? I thought you hated her.”

“Riku-chan’s calling me-”

“Everyone shut up.” The setter throws the ball on the ground, “It’s not what it fucking looked like.”

“Can we talk, ‘tsumu?” Osamu’s voice resonates the most and Miya Atsumu knows where this is going already by the sound of it.  He was surprised to see his brother come by today but when he sees why, he takes it back.

No wonder.

He follows him to the quieter side of the gym, he notices the tense air between them and he knows what's about to follow. He hopes that Osamu does this quickly, he has to practice well since he needs to impress those brats when the game comes up and try to let them have their eyes on him and not on Tobio and Shoyo.

“What the hell are you thinking?” His brother growls, “You have a fucking girlfriend. Y/N has kids and is very much in love with the dead guy who isn’t yo-”

“Why the fuck are you all getting up my ass when its about Y/N?” he suddenly cuts his brother off, eyes narrowed and jaw clenched, “It's been that way since you met her eight years ago. Just tell me that you didn’t like her from the start. You didn’t like her because she was different.”

“I didn’t like her because she wasn’t good for you.” the grey-haired twin barked back in reply, “In case ya don’t remember, You were a fucking mess after she left, Atsumu. You were almost not able to make it into the jackals because of what she did!”

Osamu wasn’t calling him by his nickname anymore, it seemed that the weight of the situation was too serious for him.

“Well, I’m here now aren’t I?”

“And you’re getting involved with her again. Can’t you give it a fucking rest already?” 

“No.”

“Miya Atsumu.” He glowered, grabbing his brother by the collar of his jersey, “Don’t throw a good woman and your career away for someone like her.”

“I’m not throwing shit, ‘samu.” He hissed, slapping his hand away but before he could walk out, the younger twin grabs him and yanks him back, swinging a fist right at his face. The team members of the black jackals are immediately thrown into panic and chaos with what’s happening. Hinata and Bokuto grabs onto Osamu restraining him from damaging the setter even more while Shion and Meian hold back the blonde setter from throwing a punch, “Stop acting like a fuckin’ brat, ‘tsumu.” The twin yelled while Atsumu flipped him off with a middle finger, clearly showing no signs of restraint. 

Sakusa remains far from them and snorts underneath his breath, completely indifferent,  “Fuckin’ idiots.”

The twins end up at the infirmary right after, Atsumu lets out a heavy sigh as he recalls the feeling of his brothers fist. They’ve never fought this bad since high school and Osamu was never one to be triggered easily.

This just showed how grave the situation was.

A curtain separates them both as they lay on their separate beds, “You’re stupid, ‘tsumu.” Osamu calls out his twin as he lays on the bed of the infirmary, a patch on his forehead and a bandaged hand. Atsumu, on the other hand, has a busted lip and swollen cheek.

“I’m not fucking five, ‘samu and whatever you saw in that picture wasn’t what it looked like.”

“But you still love her very much.” 

Silence ensued between the pair and Osamu breaks it off with a long sigh, “Ya gonna be some scrub that chases after her again or something? Break off with your girlfriend right now who looks and acts better than her-”

“Stop.” Atsumu cuts his brother off, sitting up to open the curtain to face him head on, “so, so what if I still like her? So what if I want to break off with Riku and be with her and try to take that bastards place?”

“Yer outta your mind.”

“It’s my fuckin’ life.”

“It is but I’m not watching you throw yourself away for that woman.” Osamu paused, “Just what the fuck do you see in her? She feels nothing for ya, even when you dated-”

“Now that’s a fucking lie.” Atsumu defended you, eyes glowering right at his twin, “You didn’t see how Y/N would take care of me whenever we were alone. You don’t see how selfless she was most of the time and how she doesn’t expect me to be some character that everyone expects, shit,  you don’t even see how she’d patiently sit down and just listen me babble off about how bad my day was when I didn’t even know she was from a fucking bad family with a bad life back then!”

Atsumu is panting from that long explanation and he’s shaking because why couldn’t they see it? Why couldn’t they see how much you tried back then? How relationships were so out of your comfort zone but you force yourself to try it because he asked you too. He feels sick, he feels sick that they couldn’t see. That they could only see the tip of the iceberg.

“Yet she doesn’t feel the same for you.” Osamu points out,  “Not anymore. So stop clinging onto her with those past memories of yours and move on, ‘tsumu. Fuckin’ suck it up, life isn’t fair.”

“Nope, don’t wanna.”

“ ‘tsumu-”

“I-I’m breaking up with Riku. I want Y/N back in my life, I want her. I-I’ve never wanted anything so badly since volleyball, ‘samu. If I have to wait again, shit, I-I don’t fucking mind.”

Osamu sees the glint of conviction in his eyes and lets out another hefty sigh, god, he feels like he’s aging faster because of his twin, “I know you won’t listen to me.” he settled, he knew that if Atsumu wanted something, he wouldn’t stop until he got it, “Just know that I fucking told you so.”

You’re wary.

After that little stint your mother had pulled, she kept calling you and bothering you. It also didn’t help that you ended up on tabloids because someone had caught wind of that little moment you and Atsumu had. If it weren’t for your kids' over-excitement on Atsumu’s promise, you wouldn’t be here, “...Y/N-san? Are you alright?” Sugawara asks, tilting his head in curiosity as you enter the arena.

Some people seemed to have recognized you and the kids that you had to hold onto them tightly in case anyone did try to approach you.

“I’m good.” 

“Kaasan, kaasan, I saw a super big picture of Hinata-san!” Youta called out, pointing at a rather big banner of the orange-haired blocker.

“I think I saw Kageyama-san buying milk, can I follow him, kaasan?” Yuuto adds, blinking innocently as he looked at one of the stalls.

Sugawara is absolutely in awe by your calmness in this situation, he knows that you’re probably feeling far from alright after all those gossip articles came out. Atsumu, of course, tries to lessen your burden by letting out a public statement that you were his good friend back in college but it didn’t really help since someone tweeted a picture of the both of you back in college with the caption that you were exes.

“Could you do me a favor, Sugawara-san?” you turn to the man, “Do you mind switching seats with me? Stay with the boys in front while I just stay at your seat?”

“Sure but wouldn’t Atsumu be-”

“Please.” You frowned, giving your ticket to him, “I’ll take the kids right after the match.”

The boys looked at you in complete wonderment when you didn’t follow them to the front row. You maintained a good distance as the game started, the players being introduced on the big screen. Your eyes narrow when Atsumu gets out of the dugout and gazes at your kids in confusion then around the crowd as if he was looking for someone.

“Don’t be silly.What feelings would there be but hatred?”

“It’s anything but that, L/N-san.” 

You felt your fists clench as soon as the game started, you wanted to direct your focus to the game but Inunaki’s words kept bothering you and pestering you throughout the whole thing. Why did Atsumu like doing this to himself? Was this some sort of premonition? Were you going to have to tell him?

What if it ended up like your parents?

Would your kids end up like you?

Cold, untrusting, and anxious?

Would you end up like your mother?

A borderline alcoholic, desperate for a man’s love?

Would Atsumu wake up and realize one day that this was all a mistake and call you one too? Blaming you for every single bad thing in his life?

You held your doll tightly on your hands as you held your breath behind the pillar, you had just come home from Daiki’s house as you heard the loud voices of your parents arguing again. For the past years, it seemed to have worsened and you spent more time around your friend’s house rather than this cold and big empty place you called home.

“...are you doing? It's the middle of the day! Stop drinking!” you hear your father bellow.

“What’s it to you? Shouldn’t you be around with that young woman? That whore you proudly call your business associate?” 

You flinch as you hear those harsh words and the sound of a bottle breaking, it seemed like the argument was particularly bad today. You shakily make your way up to your room, wanting to avoid this ordeal and skip dinner but fate wasn’t on your side today. 

Despite your light footsteps, they seem to have noticed your presence.

Your father’s eyes soften just a bit while your mother’s remain cold. As much as possible, you grew up wanting to avoid those scary and expressionless eyes. At the young age of five, you feared your mother and loathed your father at the same time but that didn’t stop the fleeting feeling of wanting them to change. Wanting to feel the warmth and youth that every child craved for.

You suck in a deep breath, “I-I’m home, okaasan, otosan.”

“You’re always out these days, Y/N.” her voice is cold, far from the warmth that a mother should have.

“I-I was out with Daiki.”

“With that boy again?” a frown immediately paints her features, a small tsk under her breath to signal how disappointed she was of you yet again, “Aren’t you supposed to be studying? You said you wanted to skip a grade this year.”

“I-I am.” you replied, “B-but Daiki-”

“All you need to do is study and get good grades, Y/N.” she cuts you off, walking close to you, the smell of alcohol growing stronger, “Is that something too hard to do? Are you being ungrateful now?”

You turn to your father for help but he remains unmoved, was he really going to watch your mother do this to you? You hold onto your doll tightly, trying to control yourself. You shouldn’t cry, especially not in front of them. 

“N-No, okaasan…”

“Then why are you crying, Y/N?”

Your eyes widen as you feel the wet substance flowing down. No, no-

“Answer me.” she repeats, you feel the tears flowing down faster, “Why are you crying, Y/N? Are you feeling ungrateful? Is that how it is-”

“(M/N) That’s enough!” Your father finally says but your mother continues to ignore your father.

“Don’t you think we should tell her that she shouldn’t feel sad?” she expressed, telling your father as if you weren’t standing there, “After all, we didn’t have her aborted, she should be grateful we let her live well with three meals a day and expensive clothes and belongings. Even if she was a mistake.”

You're shaking so hard at the moment, you didn’t like where this was going at all. Your father can’t respond to your mother’s blank tone, did he agree too? Were you, were you really just a mistake? Countless questions flooded your head as she walked close to you, her cold presence looming over you even more so today. With the same blank and expressionless tone, she says, "if you probably hadn't been born, we would've been happier. We'd have better lives, Y/N. So don't go around and cry and think you got it bad, you hear me? Your sadness is nothing compared to ours. It's nothing, Y/N. So stop being ungrateful."

You watch as the game comes to an end. You had zone out for the most part, the fleeting memory of your past and your anxiety bubbling up couldn’t keep you still. You texted Sugawara that you’d meet him and the boys at the front.

You were about to leave your seat when you saw the blonde approach the kids after the game, ruffling their hairs and pinching their cheeks with a huge smile. Why couldn’t you be as open as Atsumu? Why couldn’t you express yourself well? 

You shut your eyes tight and turn to the exit, right, you were a coward. You didn’t face things like this head-on, you ran from them because in all your life, the only thing you knew was fear from people you expected love from.

“Y/N…” 

You turn to find Atsumu standing there, still in his jersey and a towel hung on his shoulder like he had just ran out to chase you. Where was Sugawara and the kids? Why weren’t they here yet? What is he even doing here? You grab his wrist and immediately pull him towards a private area.

“Are you out of your mind? What are you doing? You have a girlfrie-”

“We broke up.” he cuts you off.

“W-what?” 

“We broke up.” He repeats, “I couldn’t stay with her anymore, Y/N.”

You clenched your fists, what was he even thinking? Wouldn’t the rumors worsen if he broke up with her now?

“I-I can’t let you go again.” Atsumu confessed, throwing all his pride out the window again for you because damn it all, you are worth it,  “I can’t keep pretending that I’ve moved on when I’m clearly hung up on you.”

“What are you doing?” You spat, anger slowly creeping in, all the pent up emotion towards him being released, “Why would you do that?”

Atsumu notices the change of emotion, you’re getting angry. It’s a complete contrast to what he was expecting, he’d expect the calm and cool exterior, even expected you to cooly reject him like the past but this, this was new, “Why can’t I?”

“Are you out of your mind?” You exclaimed, “I left you! I have kids from another man-”

“So?” He asks, walking closer to you. The familiar smell of perfume and sweat invaded your senses, something you were accustomed to when you were dating him back then. He traps you between the wall and him. You can see the busted lip, what happened to him? Did he got into a fight? You feel like your mind was turning blank by the sudden events. You want to say something, anything but he’s rendering you speechless again, “What if I tell you I don’t care? What if I tell you that I still feel the same even after all this time?”

“Y-You're insane...I-I’m in love with someone else-” you tried to lie but you remember this is Miya Atsumu, he doesn’t give two shits and was willing to work as hard as he could to get what he wanted.

“Y/N, your kids told me that the bastard left. Why didn’t you tell me?” he cuts you off, this time, his voice seemed disappointed and angry yet you didn't know if it was towards you.

“W-what would you have done then?”

“If you’d come back to me then,” he paused, voice turning soft, “I would’ve helped you. I would’ve been there to stand in as a father if you even needed one.”

You’re trembling at his confession, were those words really from the heart? 

“Y/N, I don’t know what happened between you and that guy.” he laughs, he didn’t expect it to be like this, that even after six years he’d still be pinning over the same woman who repeatedly broke his heart, “I don’t know what happened between you and your fucked-up family. All I do know is that I’m still in love with you and I’m willing to wait here until you’re ready. I won’t ever leave, Y/N. I-I don’t think I ever will.”

“You’re crazy.” You shakily point out, you’re in a fit of rage. You’re angry at him, you’re angry that he still lowers himself to you when he could do so much better, you’re angry that he still feels the same after all the shit you put him through, most of all, you’re angry at yourself because you couldn’t own up and tell him about everything.

Atsumu slowly holds up his hands, wanting to cup your cheeks but it is immediately swatted away. He notices that you’re trembling now, your facade, slowly crumbling.

“What made you think that I’d come back to you?” Your voice was trying to maintain it’s cold and emptiness tone yet your eyes showed the complete opposite, “Please be selfish for once, Miya-san. Just because you give your all to me, does not mean I’ll return it. I hope I really don’t see you again.”

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[aimmyarrowshigh]

Dark Greetings this Spooky Season Ms. V. Can we get a list of your favorite Halloween movies and specials? I know you have seen *everything* and I am trying to go beyond my usual rewatches this holiday month.

V. AIMMYARROWSHIGH’S CRITERIA FOR HALLOWEEN EPISODES

Does the Halloween element combine convincingly with the usual universe of the show (ex: Lizzie McGuire 2x09 “Those Freaky McGuires” is not good as a Halloween episode because it changes the rules of the Lizzie McGuire universe, whereas Community 2x06 “Epidemiology” is a GREAT Halloween episode because it manages to logically introduce zombies to the regular Community universe)?

Does the Halloween element advance the plot of the episode/series (ex: the reason Boy Meets World 5x17 “And Then There Was Shawn” is literally the best Halloween episode ever made is that it uses the horror movie tropes it satirizes to provide a CRUCIAL turning-point to the plot of the show)?

Is the Halloween episode in the forefront enough that it’s clearly a holiday episode (ex: HAVING ONE JACK-O’LANTERN ON A DESK DOES NOT A HALLOWEEN SPECIAL MAKE, LAW & ORDER 16x03 “GHOSTS”! You gotta go ALL-IN, like Bob’s Burgers 3x02 “Full Bars”!)?

Does the Halloween theme balance well between spooky and warm-n-fuzzy (ex: Criminal Minds 11x21 “Mr. Scratch” is too fucking bleak, but Criminal Minds 12x06 “Elliott’s Pond” has a joyous/celebratory tone to the ending despite being a genuinely scary episode)?

Is it generally a well-written, acted, and designed episode of television (ex: Saved by the Bell! 3x26 “Mystery Weekend” is seriously, not exaggerating, the worst thing I’ve ever watched in my life; Psych 1x15 “Scary Sherry, Or Bianca’s Toast” is a triumph of the medium)?

THE BEST, bar none, Halloween special ever made is Boy Meets World 5x17, “And Then There Was Shawn.” Period. There can be no argument, except MAYBE Community 3x06, “Epidemiology,” but I like “And Then There Was Shawn” better because the parody and homage as less… biting? And because I think it continues and addresses the emotional core of the regular BMW season better than “Epidemiology” does for Community s3. “Epi” DOES plant the seed (…heh) for the Season 3B major plot arc of Shirley’s pregnancy and Chang Deciding To Murder, but it gets some major minus points for mocking Yvette Nicole Brown’s weight with other characters’ responses to her costume, tbh. And “And Then There Was Shawn” is just fucking iconic. It is THE Halloween episode manual, IMO, if there were to be a textbook on how to write a perfect Halloween episode for your sitcom.

HOWEVER, I also have to give major props to Bob’s Burgers and Psych, as complete series, for their CONSISTENTLY excellent Halloween episodes. A lot of series that have multiple Halloween eps really phone it in after one or two, because they don’t have any more ideas for how to incorporate Halloween pastiches while maintaining the overall feeling of the series (tbh B99, while the Halloween Heists are excellent in general, is/has been coming very close to this line, and I think that if they HADN’T had to switch out the Heist to Cinco de Mayo in s6, they would have jumped their Heist Shark [and I think they know it, too, because it was lampshaded in the episode itself]) or they just straight-up don’t have any more ideas for what or how to have the characters they’re bound to parody or pay homage to a Halloween thing after they’ve already done one or two. And let’s be real: those one or two have probably been either The Shining or Rear Window, because those are pretty much the two that every show starts with.

Bob’s manages to make every Halloween episode feel very fresh and organic to the series, which I think they do have some leeway to do because of the nature of cartoons keeping the Belchers living a kind of loop of never aging, yk, but amazingly they’ve only done the “Tina feels too old to trick or treat, maybe? Nope, she’s not 14 yet, so there’s still time!” thing in a way that felt tropey once (in 3x02 Full Bars). They’ve been able to address Tina being 13/in 8th grade, and worrying about it being almost too late for her to keep trick or treating, in ways that were in-character and added to the overall episode in 4x02 Fort Night, 5x02 Tina and the Real Ghost, and 9x04 Nightmare on Ocean Avenue Street, without me rolling my eyes at the screen and going “TINA, EVERY SINGLE SHOW WITH A TWEEN IN IT HAS ALREADY DECIDED THAT THE AGE AT WHICH YOU MUST STOP TRICK OR TREATING IS FRESHMAN YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL, COME ON NOW” which… at this point, is a Feat. Because like, I’ve POSTED over a thousand Halloween episodes, right? But I’ve watched and screencapped ::checks folder:: 3,905 Halloween episodes since 2014. Which is, um, a. lot. The ACTUAL BEST Bob’s Burgers Halloween episode is 6x03, “The Hauntening,” which is just… achingly perfect television. I know I’ve posted about it before (probably a couple times tbh) but the way that it aired originally back-to-back with The Simpsons 27x04, “Halloween of Horror,” so that the evening of Sunday cartoons juxtaposed eight-year-old Louise whose family worked so hard to scare her like she wanted with nine-year-old Lisa’s family working so hard to keep her from being too scared and make sure that she felt safe… reader, I FUCKIN CRIED. Little girls being deeply loved while also Spoopy Things!!!!!! IS WHAT HALLOWEEN SPECIALS ARE!!! FUCKIN!!!!!! ABOUT!!!!!!!

Psych, though, has the benefit of not really having any, like… central tone to the series? Beyond “friendship” and “having fun with joking,” tbh? So it’s able to do what a lot of series get docked “points” for in my Foolproof Halloween Special Ratings System That Is Completely Subjective To My Tastes And Mood, which is really just run full-tilt into parody and homage without really worrying about overall tonal connection to the rest of the season or series. 1x15, “Scary Sherry, or, Bianca’s Toast,” while it DOES fall victim to the way-too-common Halloween episode trap of making mental hospitals into a Scary Thing (they are a medical normality and a necessary thing for health for many people and should not be feared), is delightful Spooky Fun AND has the benefit of having Shannon Woodward in it.* We all know by now that if an episode of any show has Shannon Woodward as the guest star, it will by default end up being one of the best, if not THE best, episodes of that series. It’s just how having Shannon Woodward as your guest star rolls. I also really like, with Psych’s Halloween episodes, that quite a few of them understand the underlying thematic scope of Horror, which is “The Monstrous Feminine Is A Thing And All Horror Tropes Are Actually About Women’s Interior Lives Because Men Can’t Write Women And Fear Women Always,” yk, in a way that is neither TOO Actual Horror, which I am too afraid of to Do, or too trite and demeaning, which is the other basic trap that Halloween stuff falls into A Lot. Like, Scary Sherry is very much about women villainizing other women, avenging other women, and being in very specifically-female pain, even though Shawn & Gus are still the lens through which we solve the mystery, and so are 4x04 The Devil Is In The Details And The Upstairs Bedroom and 6x03 This Episode Sucks. But they give their Monstrous Females dignity and breadth, which is impressive, ESPECIALLY since they’re one-off guest characters. Also, 3x15 Tuesday the 17th is just plain funny and well-done, like, just give it props for the title alone.

*(Speaking of Shannon Woodward, another amazingly good Halloween episode is Raising Hope 4x07, “Murder, She Hoped,” which is among my very favorite Rear Window homage episodes and has probably the funniest gag in ANY Rear Window ep, in Martha Plimpton floating across the screen in the Grace Kelly silk nightgown and peignoir and announcing that it was on sale at Walmart, can you believe?! and honestly, yes. Perfection.)

Also excellent:

• The Addams Family (1991) + Addams Family Values (1993) • Scooby-Doo and the Ghoul School (RAISE YOUR HAND IF YOU WERE GAY FOR SIBELLA AS A CHILD!) • Scooby-Doo and the Witch's Ghost (RAISE YOUR HAND IF YOU'RE GAY BECAUSE THE HEX GIRLS!) • Halloweentown + Halloweentown II: Kalabar's Revenge • Mom's Got a Date with a Vampire! • Z•O•M•B•I•E•S (to a lesser extent, Z•O•M•B•I•E•S 2) • Clue (1985) • Coraline • Corpse Bride • 6teen 2x00 Dude of the Dead • Arthur 21x00 Arthur and the Haunted Treehouse • Lamb-Chop in the Haunted Studio • Arthur 8x04A Fern-kenstein's Monster • Arthur 10x02 The Squirrels • WandaVision 1x06 The All-New Halloween Spooktacular (I KNOW YOU, SPECIFICALLY, DEAR @plavoptice, HATE MCU!WANDA AND I DON'T BLAME YOU, YOUR REASONS ARE VERY VALID! But this is a good Halloween special so I'm putting it on my list In General.) • Boy Meets World 2x06 Who's Afraid of Cory Wolf? • Ghostbusters (2016) • Gravity Falls 1x12 Summerween • Leverage 4x02 Ten L'il Grifters Job • The Loud House 2x40 Tricked! • Mockingbird Lane 1x00 Unaired Pilot • It's The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown! (Classic, etc.)

I'm SURE I'm forgetting some that I'll rewatch this year myself. I'm a big Halloween Baking Championship fan, tbh, which is on Discovery+ now so I recommend that if you like mostly-relaxing nice people baking cakes that look like bats and such.

I'm also IMMENSELY INTENSELY EXCITED for The Muppets' Haunted Mansion on Disney+ next week!!!

[canonicallyanxious]

i’m v tired but i just started my first full druck s6 rewatch and i got through the first five eps tonight [hoping to get to the rest tomorrow] and just have a couple of thoughts i wanna jot down:

idk who it is but either sira or nhungi is lying about their height there is no way there is only two inches’ height difference bw them you cannot convince me otherwise [this is not a serious point i just kjnfksjnfsd]

character work in this season fuckin slaps, even the first five eps hit differently knowing where all the character arcs are going esp for kieu my and ava and mailin, also very gratifying to see some of the earliest foreshadowing - fatou’s first line in the entire season is literally her recounting the money!

for real tho kieu my in these first few eps i remember watching them live wondering what was going on in her head and to know now that she was overthinking things and not sure about anything that was happening bc she’s never had anything serious with anyone before makes scenes like when she answers the door in the fries/milkshake clip or sends the cat gif and proceeds to type and never send a message or encounters Fatou in the hallway and clearly has no idea what to say so she takes her first opportunity to bail Hit Different

Sira’s acting is phenomenal i cannot stress this enough she has even more solo clips than i remembered her having but she nails the emotions in every single one of them

i love the way fatou sees the world [actually still kind of gutted we’re not still seeing the world from her eyes :’[[[ maybe this is why it took me so long to start a rewatch sknfksdjfns i was in mourning] but she just exudes this warm and empathetic energy with everything she does and the things she finds delight in i too find delight in just bc of how she reacts to them, like Fatou with Maike never fails to make me incredibly tender, also her certainty in her own actions versus her uncertainty in how her actions are perceived by other people - the good shit!

Fatou being Known as the attentive listener to her friends but slowly losing focus as she herself becomes quieter and quieter about her own feelings versus Kieu My hearing everything she says and remembering all of it... relationships/listening are a two-way street and if you don’t let other people in then it’s hard to be there for them as well... the good shit...

one thing i noticed is they did a wipe cut b/w the matching on tinder clip and the next morning texting clip which??? idk if i’ve ever seen anything like that in the skamverse b/w clips???? i mean i guess i don’t hate it i just find it a bit baffling like why there and nowhere else lol

do wish we could have gotten more material with her family dynamic - it’s so fascinating to me! - but i think what we did get with her parents and Ilai is very, very good

watching fatou and kieu my fall for each other and remembering what it was like to watch this happen in real time and feeling myself fall for their love all over again :’] :’] :’] can’t explain how often that actually doesn’t happen to me

i thought about doing ep 6 tonight as well but i’m not strong enough to experience an emotional roller coaster like that right before i go to bed rip

[period-dramallama]

Spanish Princess Episode 5: many many thoughts

Strap yo selves in 

-WHERE WAS THE APOLOGY?? Lina’s just back with Catherine like nothing happened?? 

-Katherine, I get why you’re upset, but you kind of should be unsurprised?? Your dad was unfaithful to his wife, most kings were. Henry VII and Richard III were the exceptions, and even they had illegitimate sons before their marriages. Many kings also had official mistresses that everyone knew about, so by the standards of the time Henry and Bessie are actually being pretty tactful in at least trying to keep their affair out of sight. (Sexy dancing aside). 

-Honestly it would have been so much more moving if KoA was like “I know kings take mistresses...but I thought...I was so sure... he would be different...”

-”they gave me a purse of gold!” It’s expected that you give the monarch lavish presents, lmao Ursula and Stafford would do that even if they hated each other and you

-”everybody loves a masque” the only sensible thing Henry has said so far in this show. Also court probably had way more masques than we see in the show, and it would standard to have a masque every holiday. 

-”she is not a boy” hurry up with your character development and learn to love Mary already i am so TIRED of this miserable BS

-seems a rather depopulated masque? If the Chateau Vert pageant is anything to go by putting on a masque was a court activity, with most of the ladies performing.  

-Bessie Blount in her cute masque costume... sweet mother i cannot weave Aphrodite has overcome me with GAAAAAAAAAAAAY

-”I never enjoyed carousing...my mother scolded me” look i love the Neville sisters with my whole heart but a) Margaret was 3 at most when her mother died, how does she remember her? She’d have clearer memories of her double-uncle and double-aunt, Richard III and Queen Anne b) Isabel Neville in the White Queen was established as very prim and proper, a well-bred girl who cared about enforcing decorum, she refused to ‘carouse’ and she certainly would never bring a 3 year old to a party c) we saw little Margaret as a girl at the end of the White Queen and she didn’t seem at all shy. 

-”she died young, didn’t she” ...yes? most people did?

-”they both did” understatement of the year. Isabel Neville died young because she was ill, George died young (in the universe of The White Queen, at least) BECAUSE HE WAS FORCEFULLY DROWNED IN A VAT OF MALMSEY WINE. THESE TWO THINGS ARE NOT THE SAME! I do at least trust the writers of this show that the understatement was intentional, I’m sure even Emma Frost couldn’t forget a major character getting violently drowned.

-So the court only noticed the plague when one of their own got it so obviously and then died? Yes, plague could move fast, but if there was a whiff of plague the court would flee with the speed of the Looney Tunes road runner. If an acquaintance of an acquaintance of a cook had a cousin who saw someone with the plague, the court would flee to the country. How have these people not died of terminal stupid?! Like Compton was in the same building as the heir to the throne

-To be fair, it makes sense that they’re surprised Compton’s dead. Because the real Compton died of the sweating sickness. In 1528. Also he was involved in Buckingham’s downfall so... you just wrote yourself into a corner.

-Oh wow an actual good reason for More and Pole to be quarantined together i am amaaaaaazed

-”attend the queen” Boleyn, what do you think your daughter’s been doing all season if not attending the queen? Playing tetris?

-Katherine helping Anne into the wagon...I actually like that little moment. Like it does make sense, because the two have no reason to hate each other yet. (And who couldn’t like Anne? She’s such a babby!)

-Thomas More in the Tudor equivalent of casual clothes... much better. Shame about the 1930s lady’s wig.

-”what else should we do?” Maggie, this cannot be the first epidemic you’ve ever lived through. Have you forgotten the sweating sickness of 1485? You’ve probably lived through more epidemics than Oviedo has, you should know the protocol better than him.

-Oviedo continues to be the only man with rights. I wish we could see him crying and missing his wife and babies, but then my lil heart would break so maybe it’s for the best.

-They burn Maggie’s weird blue hood AS THEY SHOULD! IT WAS UGLY AND STUPID! I NEVER HAVE TO LOOK AT IT AGAIN NOW! THANK YOU SO MUCH! yes they also burned her nice dress with the strawberries on it but honestly it’s worth it, bc now i can rest easy, knowing the evil hood has been defeated.

-”you were a plaything” Katherine is so obviously insecure. I’m getting second-hand embarrassment. Like if she really was certain Bessie wasn’t important, she wouldn’t need to say it, would she? Except to rub it in. Which this KOA would absolutely do. 

-literally all Bessie said was good morning?? Like Bessie is doing her best?? The masque was Henry’s idea, not hers, she hasn’t shown off about her affair, she hasn’t demanded money or titles, she hasn’t demanded any status to rival Katherine’s, she doesn’t flirt with or even speak to Henry when Katherine’s around, she acts like they’re strangers, she doesn’t even react when Katherine loses her temper...someone please please stick up for Bessie!

-”the rocking of the cart is unsettling to the stomach” is Anne naive, or is she covering for Bessie? I hope it’s the latter, in which case Anne is the one person looking out for Bessie...the babby is Soft, I repeat the babby is Soft!

-the irony of Mary being cold to Bessie when she’s next in the firing line...

-”it is not the rocking” Thank you Lina, where would we be without your gift for stating the obvious?

-”where did Wolsey get his money”...He’s a churchman...at the top of the church hierarchy...how do you fuckin think he got wealthy. Have y’all not been in the sixteenth century for five minutes? Why do you think Luther is so mad at the church?

-”I know of no other man in her bed most nights” Honestly wow I’m surprised KoA wasn’t like “well :/ a girl like that :/ who knows how many men process in and out of her bed :/” KoA gets half a point for being less bitchy than usual. Also Bessie looked so uncomfortable with Henry groping her stomach in front of Katherine. I pray the next man in her life treats her right and that Fraham don’t prematurely kill her off like they did with Compton.  

-”the future king” if you’re regent on his behalf, then he’s already king! “Civilised companionship” back at it again with the Scots-are-barbarians.

-Laura Carmichael is utterly stunning this episode, with her hair down. The cinematography was beautiful in general this week.

-”freedom to speak and licence to speak are two different things” hey look at that one of Thomas More’s actual beliefs. I am giving all the credit to the historical advisor for that, I don’t believe for one second Fraham knew that beforehand.

-Maggie I love you but no, God does not sanction adultery. For any reason. 

-KOA smirking and gloating about Bessie’s pain...she has never been so punchable. I would understand, if not condone it, if Bessie was manipulative, or greedy, or ambitious, or trying to supplant Katherine. But Bessie’s been betrayed by Henry too, and there’s no concrete evidence she ever gloated about her affair, to anyone let alone Katherine.  

-”You think only of your own fate while London is struck down with plague” Earth to Katherine?? What concern have you shown for the Londoners?? Also calling Bessie selfish...Bessie’s not the one who lashed out at Lina, was jealous at Lina for having twin boys, and who wanted to continue a war for personal reasons. And then Bessie proves KoA wrong 5 hot seconds later by sticking up for Mary. Bit rich of KoA to be all “how dare you leave my daughter unattended” when she herself won’t even hold Mary. 

-”Louis didn’t last a year” What! Is! The Timeline!

-Meg in that cloak reminds me of the Scottish Widow adverts. Georgie is so greedy- she steals every single scene she is in! Even when she’s raging she has more dignity and more presence than KoA ever has.

-”YOU LYING SOD” i burst out laughing it’s really not the little two-timing shit’s day, is it?

-Mary receiving Charlie B in the most Extra way possible. A++

-Why does Wolsey look like he’s about to cry?

-”thoughts are not actions” Lina I love you but... that is NOT what the New Testament says. Jesus said evil thoughts are very very much sins. I’ll give you a pass because maybe you haven’t been Catholic as long as Katherine has? Idk your backstory.

-Aaand now she’s wishing death on Bessie and her unborn baby and Lina isn’t disgusted? At least Katherine is feeling guilty. AS SHE SHOULD.

-”must it always fall to me to be magnanimous?” Katherine, you think only of yourself, for 23 out of every 24 hours. 

-”God wants me to be compassionate to Bessie because of my sins” God wants you to be compassionate because that’s how Christianity is supposed to work. It’s not very selfless of you to decide to be selfless so that you can get what you want. 

-oh wow look at that! She’s getting some self-awareness, i never saw that coming.

-”you betrayed Bessie” 5 points to Katherine of Aragon for standing up for Bessie when Henry screwed her over. Finally, some positive character development.

- MINUS 20000 POINTS FOR BABY STEALING

-WHAT THE FUCK

-is henry so dumb he thinks that baby is Katherine’s? Katherine was so obviously not pregnant

-When a baby’s born his skin needs to touch his mother’s skin so they can bond. They should have at least an hour’s cuddle time. Katherine of Aragon is literally traumatising a baby the very minute he is born. For her own selfish, selfish desires. 

[reginaldqueribundus]

and now, time for more The Man in the High Castle

(spoilers for season 3)

Kate Hepburn Jr. aka Julianna is now a badass living with her alternate timeline sister

John Smith, President Nazi, lost his son to eugenics but at least they named a school after him

on the bright side his wife is now an alcoholic

Jul’s sister has seizures but is that just her thing or is that to do with the dimension-hopping

Aryan Tom Holland (Jake) just killed a guy with a shovel

Naked Clark Kent (Frank) continues to be dead (good)

Jul is hanging out with Old Japanese Bureaucrat Guy (Tagomi)

where is Dobby?? he is the only one free from sin

Japan is running out of gasoline

I thought they owned Alaska, isn’t Alaska supposed to be full of oil? Isn’t that what George W. Bush was always on about

omg DOBBY IS STILL ALIVE and he’s doing the Breaking Bad thing with the dickhead weeb antiques dealer guy, this is all I could ever want

I’m pretty sure a random cowboy has just mistaken them for a gay couple and is about to propose a threesome

also I hate, hate, HATE the trope where male character goes through a trauma and then hot girl has to have sex with him to heal him with her magic vagina

because men on tv are only allowed to express their emotions through sex and cold-blooded murder amirite fellas

I guess this is the part where Aryan Tom goes fully down the Evil Path™? I seriously hope Jul isn’t going to have to heal him with her vagina or I will roll my eyes so hard

uM WHAT THE FUCK THEY’RE JUST STRAIGHT UP INTRODUCING MULTIVERSE RESEARCH???

that awkward moment when you lose access to your mental health treatment because you accidentally killed the grieving widow of the doctor your husband murdered to protect your son from the eugenics police who then gave himself up to the eugenics police anyway which is why you need the mental health treatment in the first place

including George Lincoln Rockwell is an interesting touch

DOBBY IS GAY??? MY SWEET BEAUTIFUL BOY

ew Hepburn is making out with Aryan Tom

Tom: “it’s just a fucking job it doesn’t define who I am” uhhhh Tom you are literally a Nazi assassin, pretty sure that definitely does define who you are!!! no Kate DON’T KISS HIM GOD DAMN IT

oh GREAT Naked Clark is alive, ugh

(I’m exaggerating my dislike for Clark ofc, he was just the victim of some shitty male writing in seasons 1-2)

me every single time John Smith is onscreen:

ugh I know Julianna has to do it for Spy Purposes™ but does she have to sleep with Jake? he is gross and doesn’t deserve happiness

oh nvm she killed him go Julianna

*Sans voice* you feel your sins crawling on your back

also Smith’s wife is boning her therapist. good for her

my favourite point in antiques dealer Robert’s character arc is when he gets his ass beat and wanders through his old shop picking up everything that belongs to him

OH MY GOD TAGOMI IS A FUCKING BADASS WHO JUST CRUSHED A NAZI’S THROAT WITH A STICK

if anything happens to this wonderful old man I will personally kill Jeff Bezos

now Juliana and her new Irish friend are going to go blow up the Nazis’ multiverse portal

also wanted to point out some atrocious editing in the lesbian bar scene, we can clearly see the bartender’s mouth doesn’t move but her voice just comes out of thin air and asks them what they want

aw yeah fuckin get it Tagomi-san

yes this show is very depressing but every once in awhile they’ll throw me a bone and a violent anti-semite will get shot in the face so that’s nice

so recently a blog called @frankfrinkstilldeservedbetter followed me and uhhh wow they sure are right about that

I have to say they did a great job with the story and the mechanics of the whole “traveling” thing, which I don’t think was in the book?

but in conclusion John Smith get fucked

[lailarain]

Spoilers for TBHK

TW: Mentions of s3xu@l åss@ult/@buse, $uicidə and bl00d

Episode 9(continued):

"Is Amane good at S M O O C H I N G"

"He isn't my type" "you sure about that?" this is literally the only time Tsukasa has been right I swear

NO DON'T LET THEM TRICK YOU

WOAH WHAT HAPPENED TO HIS EYES

HEY NO LET HER GO

THEY LEFT HIM THERE TOO LMAOOOO

NO NENE NOOOOOO

Also, on an unrelated note, does Nene have the same VA as Chiaki from Danganronpa, cause they sound really alike

WAIT IS SHE OKAY

SHE'S OKAY YEAH BABY

OKAY WHERE TF IS HANAKO

WAIT IT'S HANAKO

HOLY SHIT WHAT IS THAT

This Natsuhiko is not that bright

THAT ISN'T WHAT LOVE IS YA STUPID

OH MY GOD HE'S DEAD

Holdup this isn't her home🤨

OHMYGODITSHANAKO

WHO HURT MY BABY BOY

Hanako🥺🥺🥺🥺

HE'S BLUSHING

Wait so she still has the keys? What are they even for?

YES NENE PROTECT YOUR MAN😤

Episode 10:

Okay I'm starting to doubt my $exu@| @$$ault theory a lot, but I know that Tsukasa DEFINITELY hurt my precious Hanako somehow and I don't plan on forgiving him for it

Interesting🤔

ARM WRESTLING I'M DYING😭😭😭😭😭

I LOVE THEIR TRIO ISTG

IT WAS MITSUBA WHAT

THERE'S A MOUTH ON THE HAND WHAT THE HECK

NENE NOOOOO

WAIT IS THAT MITSUBA OH MY GOD IT'S MITSUBA ISN'T HE SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD

MITSUBA WHAT THE F

OKAY WHAT'S GOING ON

I gotta admit, Mitsuba is pretty cute

OKAY WOAH "MASTER"?!?!?😳😳😳

WAIT AOI?!?!?

OKAY NO THAT'S NOT AOI

LEAVE NENE ALONE

Kou💀

WAIT WHY DOESN'T HE REMEMBER HIS LIFE

OH SHOOT I THINK MITSUBA JUST REALIZED

CAN PEOPLE LEAVE NENE ALONE ABOUT HE LEGS NOTHING IS WRONG WITH HER SHE IS LITERALLY GORGEOUS

The mirror dude is just roasting Mitsuba and Nene💀

NOT NENE

YES MITSUBA

NO MITSUBA

NO NO NO NO NOT NENE NOT MITSUBA

WAIT WHAT

NO THAT'S NOT HANAKO

TSUKASA STOP IT

YOU LITERALLY HAVE BLOOD ON YOUR FACE AND HANDS AND ARE CHILL ABOUT IT

TSUKASA STOP IT YOU MANIPULATOR

Episode 11:

SECOND TO LAST EPISODE OF SEASON BABY LET'S GO

I'm still wondering what Tsukasa did specifically to push Hanako to murder him(other than being a terrible person. I normally LIKE psychotic characters, but this guy is just manipulative)

YEAH DON'T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF NENE

DID HE JUST RIP OUT HIS HEART

OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK DID HE SAYYYYY

Awwww Hanako🥺

I love Hanako I swear😭😭

WOAH IT'S SO PRETTY

WAIT SHE'S HUMAN AGAIN

Awwww Fox Girl🥺

THAT'S SO SWEET AWWWWW

wait why did Hanako stroke his face post-it thingy just now

TSUKASA LEAVE HIM ALONE

STOP BEING SO MANIPULATIVE

WAIT WHAT DID HE JUST DO TO NENE

OH KOU ISN'T GONNA TAKE THIS WELL

POOR MITSUBA

SOMEONE GIVE MITSUBA A HUG

THIS IS SO CONFUSING I CAN BARELY TELL THESE TWO APART ISTG

TSUKASA YOU FU€KƏR

NO MITSUBA

TSUKASA YOU SUCK

Hanako just standing there like 👁👄👁

DID TSUKASA JUST PUNCH HIM

WHAT IS HE TALKING ABOUT HE LITERALLY KNOWS ALL OF THEM

OKAY WOAH CHILL MITSUBA😳

OH NO POOR KOU

TSUKASA DOESN'T WANT HIM TO REMEMBER I BET

NENE ARE YOU OKAY

POOR MITSUBA

NO MITSUBA DON'T DO THIS

Awww Nene is sad🥺

WAIT THAT WAS THE WHOLE EPISODE?!?!?

Okay I'm gonna save the season finale for I tomorrow because it's getting late where I am

Episode 12:

Okay I know i said I'd watch it the next day and it's been more than a week since then but I swear I wasn't procrastinating

OKAY SEASON FINALE BABY LET'S GO

Okay so I think I still kinda believe in my s3xu@l @$$ault theory because I have been thinking abiut Korekiyo from Danganronpa's backstory and HE was gr00m3d by his sister(I think. I haven't actually gotten to that part of the game yet. I only heard this from tiktok), so it's still possible, but I'm not sure anymore.

WAIT SHE HAS A HAMSTER THAT'S SO CUTE

I'm still salty about Tsukasa manipulating Mitsuba🙄

I still feel really bad for Kou🥺

KOU🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Princess?🤨

Hanako istg why are you so LIT

She's worried for Kou😭

HANAKO THAT'S A LIL SUS

Awww hanako is so cute🥺🥺🥺

HANAKO WHY YOU GOTTA DO HER HAIR LIKE THAT😭😭😭😭😭

Yeah Hanako you gotta open up too😤

IT'S A FUCKIN PUFFERFISH WHAT THE FUCK

Nene lmao💀

Why does he keep calling her "Your Highness"

THIS FISH FUCK IS NTO GONNA TAKE NENE AWAY FROM HANAKO NO WAY NO HOW

A princess? Sounds like bullshit to me🤨

HE WAS CRYING AND HURT YOU FISHY IDIOT HE DIDNT ATTACK HER

NOPE DON'T YOU DARE NENE😤😤😤

This is totally the fish trying to trick her

Aoi got herself a deticated guy😳

BUT NENE DESERVES TO KNOW HANAKO'S PAST

WAIT HANAKO WAS THERE THE WHOLE TIME?!?!??!

He really has to tell her his past, otherwise he's gonna lose Nene before he knows it and I DON'T THINK I CAN LIVE WITH THAT

YES NENE SHE TURNED IT DOWN MY GIRL

OH SHIT NO NENE

LET HER GO

BUT HANAKO IS IN LOVE WITH HER

WHY DO PEOPLE KEEP MAKING FUN OF HER LEGS ISTG

NO NENE DON'T

YES HANAKO TO THE RESCUE

HANAKO YES HOLY SHIT HE'S CARRYING HER

Awwww Nene no you mean everything to Hanako🥺

AWWW HANAKO🥺🥺🥺

THEY ARE SO CUTE AHHHHWHY DID YOU KILL YOUR BROTHER THOUGH

AJNDGEKBDJRBREJSBDUD SO CUTE

TSUKASA WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT BLACK STUFF I'M SCARED

AW KOU🥺

WAIT IS TERU NOT A PIECE OF SHIT ANYMORE

AWWWWW YES HANAKO AND NENE ARE SO CUTE EEEEEEEEEE

WAIT THAT'S IT?!?!?!?!

Okay so I googled it and apparently Season 2 hasn't been confirmed but there is plenty of material from the manga available to make a sequel. If anyone has any other information, I would LOVE for someone to reply to this with that info.

REVIEW TIME!

Toilet-Bound Hanako-Kun is an anime about a ghost named Hanako-Kun, who haunts the school bathroom, being summoned by Nene Yashiro, a girl who dreams of having a boyfriend to love her for who she is. Despite how weird and crackhead-sounding the title and storyline are, the show has an amazing plot and incredible characters. Definitely high up on my list of animes I love. Overall, I have to rate Season 1 a definite 8/10. The show is awesome, but I despise the fact that all the characters keep making fun of Nene's legs as if a woman is supposed to have every single feature of her body be perfect. I feel like it would've made more sense if you had people make fun of her boobs or something rather than her ankles because for her boobs to be kinda underdeveloped in high school would be a definite target for bullying rather than a feature as random as her ankles. I am definitely a Hananene shipper, and possibly a Mitsukou shipper. I still wanna know WHY Hanako killed Tsukasa, and if my s3xu@l @$$ault theory was right or not. I can't wait for Season 2 to come out, and I hope they continue to have the show be the masterpiece it is.

Thank you all for being so patient with me finishing the first season, and thanks for reading my thoughts! Bye!

UPDATE: I've been told that the manga confirmed that the s3xual @ssault theory was wrong so yeah

Also, I've started collecting the manga(i currently have 1-3 and 5, with 4 and 6 arriving next month)because I'm sick of waiting for Season 2 so when Season 2 comes around just know that I might know everything that happens by then

[singingaboutwishingx]

my Thoughts and Opinions on mad men

this is quite disorganized and very long. contains spoilers for all seven seasons after the cut.

-though i think don was a good character, he was such a shitty person!!! cheating on every partner he ever had? bad! being an asshole to everyone and getting away with it because he’s handsome? also bad!

-but also like... just to put it out there, jon hamm can do literally anything he wants to me. good lord, that man is attractive. 

-there was literally a point where i hated every character except peggy, betty, and sal

-speaking of sal, HE DESERVED BETTER. i genuinely almost cried when the fire alarm went off. he was so happy for like three seconds and then SOME MOTHERFUCKER lit something on fire (i don’t remember exactly what happened).

-FUCK lee garner, jr. 

-i ended up having such complicated feelings about betty. on one hand, she was cheated on and emotionally abused and gaslit, so i can absolutely understand why she became harder as the seasons went on. on the other hand, she didn’t treat her children so well and idk how i feel about that. i do feel so, so bad for her regardless.

-bert cooper was honestly such a baddie, though. he got heated sometimes during important plot points, but his general “i’m old, i don’t give a shit” vibes were excellent (i also watched this whole show in less than two months, though, so please forgive me if i miss details)

-like when harry crane was too afraid to say the wrong thing about bert’s red rothko and bert was just like “bitch shut up about my painting, no one cares”

-and his “the best things in life are free” after he died was so good. i was personally offended that they took his name out of the opening credits afterward

-peggy. my sweet girl. arguably the best character. this girl’s transformation made me so damn proud. the iconic scene where she walked through mccann with the octopus painting and a cigarette hanging out of her mouth was just everything. 

-i really didn’t like stan at first, but he grew on me. mostly i’m just a hopeless romantic, so i was very, very happy when he and peggy ended up together.

-i didn’t hate abe, but i was VERY relieved when they broke up

-poor, poor michael ginsberg. i hope that man gets some help. that’s really all i have to say. 

-pete campbell falling down the stairs made me laugh for like an hour because he just sucks so much. he did NOT deserve trudy. also vincent kartheiser is DAMN lucky he has good hair, because shaving his hairline is a serious gamble.

-pete is such a shitbag. i’m so sorry. i just dislike him so much. i remember watching the second season and thinking if he and peggy ended up together, matthew weiner was going to be the recipient of a very angry letter lmao

-did he have *some* growth? kind of. does that mean trudy made the right decision to go with him to kansas? mmmmm probably not.

-joan definitely grew on me. i did not like her at first, but her character arc was so damn satisfying. holloway harris productions? freaking incredible. her son is cute, she’s her own boss, and she doesn’t end up with someone controlling. we stan. 

-i really hope her lesbian roommate from the first season found a girlfriend. that poor girl pined for years, and hopefully she ended up with a girl that loved her

-i feel so bad for lane pryce. that man did not deserve what he thought he did. was it bad to steal from the company? of course. he did not need to kill himself, though. i was fr so upset. the man knocked out pete campbell, which clearly makes him the best. 

-the sheer giddiness that flooded my body when lane fired them all from the og sterling cooper was incredible. it was a great, great decision. 

-pete campbell can go to hell

-every time glen bishop appeared onscreen i was afraid. i just thought “oh my god, this bitch gonna grow up and become a serial killer.”

-watching sally grow up was so great. she was still so bratty up until henry told her that betty had cancer, but the second she knew, she was ready to be there for her family. she did also say some rather iconic things. i love kiernan shipka haha

-they got the cutest freaking babies to be on this show. especially tammy because her little cheeks were just so chubby and i loved herrrrrrr

-it really didn’t end the way i thought it would, but it makes sense. the hug between don and leonard was EXCELLENT

-i know this is so specific, but every once in a while there would be a shot that was just perfect. like the one at the end of season five where joan and sterling/cooper/campbell/draper were all standing facing the window on their second floor of the time life building— that was beautiful. sterling and cooper, the older generation, on one side, campbell and draper, the future, on the other, and joan in between them. truly, she was what held every single thing in that office together and i cannot get over how freaking incredible that shot is

-i didn’t really love betty and henry. every marriage has problems, but betty and both of her husbands had serious problems.

-speaking of marital problems, megan and don were a disaster. i was so confused when he proposed after having sex three (3) times and going on zero (0) dates????? donald what the fuck

-i loved ken cosgrove’s tap dancing, i didn’t love ken cosgrove. i do feel bad for what he went through w the jaguar account (and also in general), but he was kind of a bitch in the earlier seasons

-i did not care for harry crane or paul kinsey. sorry bout it

-i hope kitty romano finds someone who can love her the way they’re supposed to. i do think sal loved kitty platonically, though. honestly though it would have been excellent if kitty was a lesbian and they were just married to avoid questions. i mean, obviously they weren’t, but i would have LOVED to see that storyline

-megan was a very interesting character. she was just so childish. she was very sweet (mostly) and i think don kind of fucked her over emotionally (like definitely in every way except financially, but like... i have a feeling that she’ll never be the same because of him)

-also marie calvet straight-up taking all of don’s living room furniture was so funny

-i do not like roger sterling either. he cheated on both mona and jane!! sure, maybe he didn’t love them, but what gives, dude? we don’t stan.

-also he did blackface, which is a big yikes from me. yeah, it was the sixties, but also fuck that shit.

-another thing about don is that this man’s libido is just fucking WILD. i mean, he has no goddamn shame.

-fucking his secretary? did it at least twice, married one of them. his child’s teacher? great! he’ll be over soon! his neighbor’s wife? all good until sally catches them. his quasi-niece is maybe 22? he’d hit that!

-seriously, he just doesn’t care at all and it’s fascinating.

-when ida blankenship died it was like... but you did this... for what? watching them roll her fuckin body out of the office covered in the afghan during a meeting was actually quite funny though

-every so often my brain will just go “sterling cooper draper pryce cutler gleason and chaough.” that’s not a thought. sorry lol

-also they fucking took it off of netflix so now i can’t rewatch it! mean as hell, netflix, mean as hell.

-in conclusion: fuck peter dyckman campbell.

[cruddyborderlandstheories]

so i’d really like to finish my guardian takedown lore analysis, but honestly the game isn’t really fun to play at the moment anymore (even with the health debuffs they added) so I think im going to be taking a break for now because I’m just not having fun anymore.

this game has a lotta mechanical problems i think need to be addressed so im gonna summarize it as bullet points below. I’ll play the new dlc when it drops, but idk if i’ll be on more than that (grinding, end-game stuff) until they make some serious changes. I’ve been playing (near) daily since launch, followed the patch/hotfix notes every single week, and my patience has finally, FINALLY run dry, especially with that really disappointing Phase 1 Patch and then the hotfix this week not adding anything else. What is the balancing team doing??? 😩

tl;dr: FIX THE VAULT HUNTERS!!!!

anyway. That’s all I needed to get outta my system. I might log on to this blog every now and again to post some random shit that pops into my head (probably with regards to my AU), but I’m not going to be actively playing and posting for the time being. Goodbye (for now), and here’s hoping the new DLC is good!! 

guardian takedown only problems:

there’s a lot of waiting around, and sometimes it’s not explicitly stated that you’re waiting for something, so you’ll be lost on what to do next (not sure if that’s a dialogue glitch or not)

the crystal charge insta-death is bull. just. what the hell. at least make it so you just have to start over. killing ur players for failing a “puzzle” that they then have to fight all the way back to is so infuriating.

dying because you fell off a platforming puzzle is also bull. 

i remember playing the first DMC on my playstation in middle school and having a conniption over the part in the observatory(? it’s been a hot minute since I played DMC 1) with the disappearing/invisible platforms. I h a t e jumping puzzles. why are they in a section of the game where death is semi-permanent and a detriment to your teammates. i tried the takedown 2x with friends and both times one friend didn’t make the first big jump to the temple and had to wait for our inevitable deaths. that’s so unfair to them.

there’s absolutely no reason for a boss to have 12 fuckin immunity phases. 4 per health bar with 3 health bars? Who the fuck designed this? *pumps shotgun* i just wanna talk. 

i appreciate a tasteful immunity phase every now and again (the ones in the Valkyrie fight are actually p reasonable), but christ. that is overkill. I don’t mind the main boss fight, since u can end those early through certain actions, but jesus. the mid-boss fight is annoying as hell. you spend more time running from the immunity phases and finding the damn boss than u do actually shooting it.

drop rates are crap, which I guess should be expected given what happened with the Maliwan Takedown and the handful of months it took for them to fix that, but also you think they’d have learned.

in the maliwan takedown there’s a sense of progression thru the facility after you kill each area’s batch of enemies, but in this one it’s... dampened by the crystal charging sequences. you kill all the enemies in an area, press a button, and now you have to kill 3x that number of enemies in the same area, expect you’re just standing there motionless. It’s not fun.

the crystal charging stuff is just not fun in general. standing in a square is not entertaining. it’s worse that it was clearly designed for 3+ players when a majority of people play/grind solo

i gotta admit the boss fights just aren’t as fun as the Maliwan Takedown fights overall. I felt like a real badass fighting Wotan for the first time, but the main boss for this Takedown is kind of a bitch. Wotan’s fight is chaos, there’s so much shit happening at once and you don’t really have time to process everything and I love it. This one is p meh...

This would be fine and I’d 100% not care that much if there weren’t all these OTHER problems

General Issues with the Game

There’s no endgame stuff to play outside of the takedowns. 

I assume they’re working on the first raid given some stuff I found in the Guardian Takedown files, but I really wish they’d keep the seasonal events/areas. They give us the option to disable/enable them while they’re ‘active’, just give us the ability to do it whenever we want.

when i hop on i either run through Athenas (my favorite map), or farm a boss or two. I have all the loot i really need from the maliwan takedown/elsewhere, and the guardian takedown just... isn’t fun atm, so i have nothing to do.

I’ve reset my playthru multiple times to play the main story at m10, but u can only play it (and the dlc) so many times

Mayhem levels and modifiers are a hot m e s s

a majority of the modifiers just aren’t fun to play with

they incorporated like 2-3 fun modifiers (from the community), then added a bunch that straight-up aren’t. I’m fine with the game being more difficult, but at least give us modifiers that make it more entertaining to play at a higher level instead of more annoying. I like the ones that have trade-offs or add new ‘enemies’, but I hate the ones that just straight up reduce your damage output.

a majority of the weapons with the mayhem 10 anointment (scaling) do not work on mayhem 10 (we’ll go more in-depth with this later)

Player Characters (Vault Hunters!!!) are also a hot mess and a lot of problems plaguing them haven’t been fixed SINCE LAUNCH

theyre literally the basis of the game and its balance. why havent you guys fixed them yet. stop adding new content until they’re fixed. no new skill trees until the base 3 trees work ON EVERY CHARACTER.

seriously. Why is amara p much limited to using Phasegrasp. Why does Iron Bear not matter to Moze except to proc anointments. MAKE ALL ACTION SKILLS EQUAL AND HAVE HEFT.

i wrote an essay here about it bc i feel that strongly about this

SERIOUSLY FIXING UR VAULT HUNTERS WILL MAKE BALANCING SO MUCH EASIER PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU THEY ARE THE BASE OF UR BALANCING WOES

ZANE IS STILL UNUSABLE WITHOUT THE SEEIN’ DEAD CLASS MOD!!!!!!!!!!!

MOZE IS SCREWED BC HER DAMAGE IS TOO RELIANT ON ASE ANOINTMENTS!!

AMARA DOESN’T HAVE A FUCKING MELEE BUILD AS THE ADVERTISED MELEE CHARACTER???

FL4K’S HEADCOUNT SKILL IS S T I L L BROKEN EVER SINCE THE RELEASE OF THE MALIWAN TAKEDOWN

ARE YOU GUYS LISTENING TO THE COMMUNITY *PLEASEEEEEEE*

BUFF AND FIX THE GODDAMN VAULT HUNTERS

Anointments were a mistake. Damage end-game is wayyyy too reliant on them

anoints should have a maximum of, like, a 20% damage bonus. the damage necessary to kill enemies *should be coming from the VHs themselves*. i don’t care if you have to revamp every single Vault Hunter’s skill trees and buff them all by 9000%. THEY DESERVE IT AT THIS POINT

at the moment in m10 there really isn’t much build diversity *even between Vault Hunters*. We’re all using the same 5 guns (OPQ System. Kaoson. idk. fuckin brainstormer? is that still a thing? jesus fuck) with the same 3 anointments (100% on ASE, cryo while SNTL, and 300% while 90%).

you want to diversify builds like you said during the gameplay reveal???? you want our choice in Vault Hunter to actually fuckin matter???? FIX THEM!!!! THEY SHOULD BE ABLE TO DEAL DAMAGE WITHOUT STUPID POWERFUL LEGENDARIES AND ANOINTMENTS!!!

Anoints also shouldn’t be common. At all. They should be, like, Pearl rarity. To let that happen, their damage needs to be tuned way the fuck down (again, 20ish % bonus MAX) and ALL ANOINTS NEED TO BE USEFUL IN SOME WAY

NOBODY IS GOING TO USE THE AIRBORNE OR SLIDING ANOINTMENTS JUST REMOVE THEM ALREADY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

obviously these changes can’t happen because they fucked up and buckled down with everything being anointed in m10, but still

imagine a world where the VHs actually did damage on their own without anointments and the damage buff from them was just an incentive to grind for the 100% perfect weapon and NOT A REQUIREMENT TO DEAL DAMAGE

>:(

A majority of gear is borderline worthless at M10

I’m fine with the difficulty of M10, i should let it be known. The enemy health isn’t really the problem IF ALL GUNS ACTED THE SAME AS THE OPQ SYSTEM

ffs.

you know, if you fixed ur vault hunters so they all did damage with just purple weapons (abt the same damage as legendaries w/o special effects) and removed the anointment requirement from late-game play, balancing your guns would be sooo much easier. you know. just saying.

right now only 10% (im being generous) of guns in the game are viable. 90% are worthless. We need AT LEAST 60-70% viable at M10. WHERE IS MY BUILD DIVERSITY. WHY ARE ALL LEGENDARIES NOW JUST “HEY THIS GUN IS STRONGER THAN THE LAST 4 WE RELEASED. HAVE FUN”

how to fix this problem? do as above: BUFF YOUR PLAYER CHARACTERS. MAKE ANOINTMENTS LESS STRONG.

then, at least the 10% already strong weapons would be stupid strong and OP as fuck, BUT AT LEAST WE COULD HAVE BUILD VARIETY!!! I don’t care if other people are dummy strong one-shotting everything in sight. I don’t! so long as they don’t play with me, I couldn’t care less!!! I want to be able to play with the unique, interesting legendaries. instead of the OPQ System. which, by the way, I dislike compared to the normal Q-System. let me use the frozen heart shield and the infiltrator mod. I don’t wanna be chained to the Seein’ Dead anymore :(

honestly at this point im starting to think removing slag was a mistake bc then at least we could use guns that aren’t solely damage-based guns. you know how fucked up you’ve got me that im thinking maybe slag wouldn’t be so bad this time around??? YOU GOT ME FUCKED UP B A D.

FIX THE GAME

IM TAKING A BREAK

MAYBE I’LL BE LESS UPSET WHEN I COME BACK FOR THE DLC BUT HOT. DIGGITY. SHIT.

[theskyexists]

she-ra 4

the reason i stopped watching she-ra is the same reason i stopped watching the dragon prince.

the narrative doesn’t take the situation seriously. instead of leaning into the anguish of war and violence (atla, teen titans) - they make light of it. EVEN when the characters’ guardians are KILLED!!

when Angella died and they spent 2 seconds on Glimmer’s grief at the end of season 3 i was like......actually fuck this. HOW can i take any of these stakes seriously when they insist on brushing them off???

anyway just had to complain about that - especially because the start of the first ep of 4 is them joking AGAIN about something as grim as Glimmer now carrying all the responsibilities of her mother - who may i remind you IS DEAD

but catradora became canon apparently so now i have to struggle through

her aunt, her mother’s sister, is fuckin, joking about cakes, her friends are laughing at the joke. COME ON! how goddamn unrealistic and insensitive. EVEN if they wanna make a point of it - it’s silly! because the narrative PARTICIPATES in making light of the situation. if it was just the characters it would be less jarring

‘we’ll make sure this day is perfect’  WHAT? how could it EVER BE IF HER MOTHER IS FUCKING DEAD????????? AND THAT”S THE ONLY REASON SHE’S QUEEN????? ‘must be hard’ YEAH IT’S HARD - IN FACT IMPOSSIBLE. instead of pretending to be happy maybe you can show some genuine sensitivity. these people are so crazily emotionally underdeveloped my god. what age are they supposed to be? 16? 17? The problem that She-ra has (just like the dragon prince) is that there are no relevant adults. Oh sure there’s a Queen, and some Soldiers, and a Sorceress. But there isn’t a single relevant competent adult around who is concerned with running a bureaucracy or the emotional stability of children

I do like how Catra has overcome her fear of Hordak. but i think i remember being fuckin furious at her for almost destroying the whole world and hurting Scorpia and betraying Entrapta just to spite Adora. vaguely.

the rebellions problem is that they’re all extremely stupid himbos. like literally, in the whole story, only catra and shadowweaver have any smarts, while glimmer gains the ability to think during full moons on wednesdays. meanwhile everybodys is a slave to their emotions - which destroys any brain cells that shadowweaver or catra (or angella or anyone) might have managed. they could literally have killed hordak the entire time but just let him order them around because they’re so hot for acknowledgement

I’m glad Glimmer reflects my frustrations now hahahahaah

‘everyone is already acting like she doesn’t matter’  - yeah dudes, you fucking insensitive bastards

‘im supposed to take care of you glimmer’ - but unfortunately i have the emotional intelligence of a crab! FUCK!

this is another thing about this show that makes me groan. sappy quick resolutions of emotional turmoil through re-affirming the fuckin power of friendship in the first episode of the season.

also couldn’t Adora have done this she-ra stuff from the very beginning

that was badass.....miss glimmer’s other hair though. ok the emotions at that hologram and statue though...

the coolest part of she-ra for me is finding out more how the ancient systems all fit into Etheria and the She-Ras and Hordak Prime etc.

THIS IS A GOOD SPEECH. love this badass.

love Hordak getting put in his place. Love Catra realising she has power - love Hordak reaping what he sows. its unfortunate that she’s a shitty brat who JUST can’t get over her inferiority complex

if i could endlessly teleport i would do what glimmer does

also, glimmer was willing to fuckin murder catra before and she DEFINITELY will be now lol. love that for her.

why did they only introduce adora learning to transform her sword NOW ahahaha, theyve had SO MANY SCENES in which she doesnt have it and then suddenly does - and then its gone again

scorpia is the funniest and most likeable person in the whole show

they really suddenly can’t take five people on with she ra and fuckin huntara on their side??

i remember that little sadistic righteous twist in my stomach when Adora finally was like: FUCK!!!!!! YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! Catra!!!!!!! and the stupid idiot got it

FINALLY A GLANCE AT THE PEOPLE OF ETHERIA AGAIN! i love the party sequences in this!!! the people of etheria are so beautiful! nobody ever comments on the main characters all looking plain human in contrast....

‘and i fell for it!’  yeah cos you DUMB AS BRICKS ADORA

so first they quietly take out the guards....and then literally break open the door hahaahahahahaaha

‘we forgot the bots regenerate’ - yeah cos you DUMB AS BRICKS ADORA

i just dont understand why they insist on making the main characters so DUMB ahahahahaah

Adora and Catra are great at hitting where it hurts. the difference between them is that Catra KNOWS that she’s hurting Adora - she does it deliberately.

wow that could be some pretty angsty stuff constantly leaving her to struggle on the floor while painfully electrocuted. Catra has also moved to kill Adora straight up so many times. im sure she really wants to (but it would destroy her later). But now, Adora swept something at Catra that might have actually killed her. I get Catra though, I would’t want to get beaten by some blonde, blue-eyed, glowing golden kid who always gets to win and do better. this is truly the first time Adora has moved to kill Catra......

does flatterina not have parents who’d be like: uhhhhh maybe leave the soldiering for a couple more years?

catra truly burning all her bridges. hahaha. it’s so satisfying to see her use her anger and power to truly destroy herself - because of guilt!

no other villagers were like - HMMMMMMM this random new kid is here? weird..... i didnt see that coming either.

Adora doesn’t think about what Catra might have even been doing there - cos she’s DUMB AS BRICKS

the interesting thing about this show is that they’re setting up a dichotomy. they’re treating war like a high-stakes game because they have the good side adhere to an aesthetic of ....magic. they will not make the two sides equivalent in any way - which makes questions of morality moot. the show is purely an emotional drama. the horde is an army of brainwashed kids in an industrial wasteland - they fight with tech and guns. but the good guys cannot fight with an army or tech, they fight with cleverness and magic. they’re called the ‘rebellion’ - they HAVE to be underdogs because they have to follow the script of good - even though what’s really going on is war, not a rebellion. That’s why they have a single strike team that do ‘missions’. They are presented as FUNDAMENTALLY different - on the level of identity which they cannot change lest they destroy themselves - and in that way the good guys can never become the bad guys. it is ALMOST meta. think they’re gonna do something with that at one point. i hope

also Netossa has such a super cool design.

‘everyone knows you’re needed in bright moon’ - uh. really? i dont know. some random person i’ve never seen before demands you go to meetings. so? is that important? why?

spinerella can literally FLY???????? why has she been in the background this whole time??? hahahaha military inefficiency.

there was an explosion that ripped trees apart - but bo’s alive!! honesty why didn’t they try explosive suicide bots before. they’re very lucky he was still alive to heal

‘could they be tracking she-ra?’ WHAT? isn’t the obvious suggestion - A SPY???? they just assume that the general is right hahahahaa.

i love how double trouble is so meta.

actually, why wasn’t glimmer trained as a sorcerer anyway?

glimmer is upset about her growing magic plants but not her having magic ingredients

why do they present good strategic thinking (for once) as evil influence from shadowweaver

what a fuckin badass. honestly - glad that this show finally utilised glimmer’s extremely op powers like they should be. honestly, she’s much more powerful than She-Ra.

that bit with spinerella was so contrived jfc.

‘by using me as a decoy’ adora says, pissed off. uhhhh YOU went off on your own to get smushed by fuckin bots adora. Glimmer didn’t do that to you. she just used your stupidity.

glimmer really left catra to die. hahahahaa

i like adora best when she’s on her own and being a dork

they definitely managed to foreshadow that Light Hope was evil but im glad they picked up the thread now

am i seeing this wrong or did scorpia have two mums??? but also. where the fuck are they

lolololololol because everybodys dumb as bricks and emotionally volatile they’re incredibly easy to manipulate

‘i cant risk hitting flatterina’ pffft - ALL YOUR ARROWS ARE NON-LETHAL BO. ugh i cant deal with these contrived stakes

I LOVE THIS BADASS EFFICIENT HARDCORE GLIMMER

they’re really gonna spin it like this is a bad development? fuck off. finally some grit.

‘you took things way too far’ - but she got results! dumb as bricks adora

(this may seem harsh but adora is DUMB shes so fucking DUMB!!!! and she has many good qualities (such as an almost innate sense of morality) but goddamn. i guess its good to sometimes have a show about all around dumb characters. i mean, it’s not unrealistic per se, it’s just.....weird.)

the interesting thing about these characters is that you can SEE every single one of them struggling with cognitive dissonance. thats the big story of this show. they see the world a certain way - and then when something challenges that, they fight to the death to destroy or deny or ignore that new information - to everybody’s detriment. and they can’t back down because every step they’ve taken - would turn to sins they can’t live with. it’s interesting and its also a kind of conflict that‘s frustrating if not resolved at SOME point. thats why i love this season for its characters going off the rails. adora aiming to kill catra, catra destroying her last relationships, glimmer growing more and more militant.

they’re all acting like teens - that  is - highly volatile - unable to keep from provoking others or be provoked - but they ARE teens.

‘catra doesn’t care. she’ll hurt people to get her way (implied: EVEN people on her side)’ - we must remember that Scorpia was entirely fine with KILLING the trio (it was Catra that wasn’t at the time).

‘you’re a bad friend’ OH OUCH. Catra - who’s always been treated as a whipping girl by those in power - does the same to those she is in power over. But on some level she doesn’t WANT to be that. she’s just always always been rejected and take advantage of and lashed out at and abandoned by the people she considered important (shadowweaver ---- doing the same to catra that was done to her is so goddamn....it’s the story of this show. the simplicity and banality of damaging and hurting others and that carrying over to harm even more people - is the story of this show and it’s immeasurably frustrating and REALISTIC)

she still flinches at Hordak’s lashing out. but she imprints on him the exact lesson she’s trying to school herself in. If you don’t need anybody - you don’t want anyone - if nobody matters but the mission and winning - then you can’t be hurt. she wants to prove her worth - but she doesn’t realise that inherently means that she’s putting somebody in power over her - again and again and again.

mermista coming  in clutch with the braincells: there’s a spy! I love how this is played as completely implausible and just Mermista nonsense (who i love learning about) - while it’s so obviously true/

i actually love Adora when she’s being serious and heroic, or a huge dork. and she has the wit to RECOGNISE good ideas. but i just don’t understand why Adora is being big b about being used as a distraction. like....why?

i love that the underside of Mermista’s sneaker has a figure. but why the fuck is a common soldier with them (flatterina) and do they really think they can interrogate the whole castle filled with some shitty guards and...what - the guerilla troops they sometimes employ? where do they even live? ah in a tent city. ok

why is the GENERAL in front line combat WITHOUT SOLDIERS???? oh wait. glimmer did that too when she was general. lolololol

i understand why Adora doesn’t trust Shadowweaver and doesn’t want her around most of all - and Glimmer getting buddy buddy with her is hurtful. but...it’s not helpful to needle glimmer about it. but dismissing the guards around shadowweaver however? stupid of Glimmer. unnecessary. ‘what has she done but help us?’ - uhhhh she kidnapped you, corrupted your powers, almost wiped Adora’s mind. I wish Adora had summed up those things instead of leaving them implied.

so perfuma and mermista come across inconsistencies in the stories - but then. forget about it? i just...... UGGHGHGHGHGHGHGH. people really aren’t this dumb are they? they’re just NOT.

‘no more secrets and doing things without us’ - that was a good speech. but like, glimmer is right - she’s surrounded by INCOMPETENT IDIOTS lolololol. but good leadership is corralling idiots, Glimmer. not going off on your own. but she’s already planted the bait about the dining room.

‘we were the only ones who knew about the plan to take back dril’ ---- THEN WHY DID YOU INTERROGATE OTHER PEOPLE AHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHA

‘stop questioning my choices, stop whining about being a decoy’ YEAH FUCKIN HELL ADORA STOP BEING SUCH A FUCKING SHIT. IS THIS REALLY ‘TAKING CARE OF GLIMMER’????

‘all you do is question my authority, it’s exhausting.’ yeah god...it really is. adora needs to fucking BACK! OFF! but im loving these fights because it brings out the grievances. Adora is right to be worried about Glimmer no longer including her in her decisions. and she makes a good point that that’s bad. She makes a good point that Shadowweaver cannot be trusted. And Glimmer makes zero good points - except that it’s been hard for her and has garnered 0.1% understanding from the people around her. Oh they were working together. BUT those were definitely real grievances.

GLIMMER CAN ALREADY DO A CONTAINMENT SPELL LIKE THAT??? godDAMN. castapella completely flunked her responsibilities to Glimmer but shadowweaver did NOT.

hmmm so Solinius was....destroyed. but like, did the people die? like....the people? that’s the important bit isn’t it? i mean, they were under the sea right?

i suppose the problem i also have is that this show will NOT hurry up. normally i love filler stuff but ...the characters are too.....cheery. too flat. their quirks are fun and funny until they’re literally character flaws.

are the horde just literally attacking civilians? jezus. the war crimes. how did shadowweaver ever expect to trick Adora when she was released into the field?

‘you can’t just keep going off on your own!’ - SHE LITERALLY SAVED THE WHOLE FUCKING TOWN. SHE’S THE QUEEN! EVERYBODY SHOULD LISTEN TO HER! lolololol

the problem with Adora’s points is that everything about their dynamics are always so nebulous. why cant glimmer keep showing up to help out? WHY??? she’s the most capable fucking soldier in the field! she’s supposed to have full fucking authority! like, Adora isn’t in the right here. the problem is that her needling is only a symptom of her worries - which is that Glimmer doesn’t trust her any more. but the needling does NOTHING but make her seem like an idiot

i do love this trope reversal here - Seahawk deliberately damselling them to let the princesses save the boys? pffft

love catra getting the consequences for her actions regarding Scorpia. You can’t keep lashing out at people and expect them to stay my dear cat.....

oooohhh Glimmer.... you’re treading close to very hurtful territory. Blaming Adora for the Rebellion failing? for things she couldn’t do anything about? stupid.

really?? you’re really gonna fucking fight-resolution BLOCK ME? are you FUCKING kidding me? edging me for the whole GODDAMN SEASON??? and finally Adora cries at Glimmer going over the line????  fuckin I HATE the narrative decisions in this stupid show I FUCKING HATE THEM FUCK THESE WRITERS GOD FUKCING DAMMIT!!! this has been the whole GODDAMN SHOW!!!!!! ARGHGHGHGHGHGH

i’ve been waiting for a fucking resolution for Adora and Catra the whole! goddamn! SHOW! NOTHING! else matters! you do the exact same for glimmer and adora and now you let it fester again??? because of some no-stakes BULLSHIT? just give me the fucking godddamn PAYOFF for watching these kids be IDIOTS.

this fight on the boat is COOL and really wonderfully animated

really? Glimmer’s response to Adora being hurt and not wanting to be TOUCHED is to be angry herself? what a fucking IDIOT. god i can’t stand this. I CAN’T STAND IT

is this how people act? do they never take a moment to breathe and think and reflect and realise their priorities and take a step back and fucking apologise?

jezus FUCKING! CHRIST!

‘no matter what glimmer thinks of me’ oh that HURTED. oh damn. that’s so relatable. it’s a way to run, it’s a way to internalise the hurt and then prove the things that hurt wrong. the one that hurt you

I know Bo is supposed to be the emotionally intelligent one but he’s also too soft. He should go up to his friends individually and ask them the sharp questions. not - ‘communicate more positively’.

I just like Adora so much better when she’s alone. Her friendships’ positive moments are always so sappy or so....like over-exaggerated, the negative moments always so fucking annoying. Alone, Adora is generally driven, tragic, and cool. the problem is perhaps that i don’t care for the constant fucking drama

god i LOVE Mara so much - she’s so beautiful. and i LOVE learning more about the Old Ones. So they were trying to study Ehteria’s magic.... but then Bright Moon and the princesses were already here. The Magic-Like systems of the Old Ones are pure tech.

wow! even Mara’s transformation is way cooler.

so why was the first one’s tech (she ra) responsive to the magic? why does Raz know about She-Ra? when she ra is first ones tech????

WAIT ONE SECOND. She-Ra is ‘magic’ ??? it’s the SWORD that’s the first one’s tech! She-Ra is Etheria’s magic ! but how if the First Ones chose Mara. Did they steal She-Ra from Etheria?

so what im getting is that. the Old Ones colonised Etheria. Etheria has magic, and when Mara was chosen they made that girl an elite soldier - giving her a first one’s tech sword so she could ‘control’ Etheria’s magic. Then Mara was told to study the magic of Etheria - the ship implying that she’d not been on the planet before. then they created a Heart of Etheria project - which will probably turn the magic into a weapon. this was going to be used against Hordak Prime, im sure. I mean, Mara saved Etheria, but she did doom the rest of the universe to...extinction.... like, judging from Hordak’s strategy, Hordak Prime just literally exterminates planets and repopulates them with his clones....

But why would the planet choose a girl from amongst the colonisers - twice?

OOOHHH that anguished scream. i love anguished screams

why dont they put fucking safety belts in these ships. it’s not like the ship didn’t survive. only Mara got splatted (i guess)

also i love Mara. but damn Adora just got some more shit on her plate. why the fuck was she pushed through a portal again? for a She-Ra chain reaction?

I love madame Raz.

So they didn’t explicitly use it against Hordak Prime. and it wouldn’t have destroyed Etheria back then but it will now...

guh this showmakes it so hard to enjoy catra’s pain.

well they did finally have a good talk about it. I have to say, Glimmer is making good strategic sense - it’s just that this show only rewards harebrained schemes

Catra having a crazy panic attack cos she can’t find Scorpia and she’s completely lost and she knows its her fault. kinda love that for her. my heart

my dear Glimmer, theres a difference between absence of trust and absence of agreement.

they’re bringing king micah back just when angella is dead? oh fuckin lol

the horde....exiled micah? they exiled Micah instead of killing him???

why do they ALWAYS interrupt important conversations? i hate that shit. it’s cheap. it’s unsatisfying.

now THIS is what im here for - that unstoppable WILL!! john gonzalez is right - we watch stories for characters overcomign obstacles. writing, is creating the obstacle course. .....what does that say about me and my life....hmmm.

‘light hope told me everything i need to know’ - uhhh no she didn’t. she didn’t tell you how to harness the energy at all. ugh

how the fuck did double trouble escape. seems to me that they didn’t actually. they were let go....

it’s always so stupid when people try to tell other people: oh no you’ve got no plan - this is too risky! when that’s NEVER a problem

Glimmer is going to activate the weapon just in time for Hordak Prime to use it. And naturally she misses the return of her dad. fuck this

they’re gonna have Hordak and Catra fight? hmm

Double Trouble is right - this IS good for her - and it IS Catra - except for Shadowweaver’s case - she was an abusive bitch

I love Scorpia’s new cool fight music and also glowy eyes

is glimmer going to throw herself into lava??

the unfortunate thing is that Hordak Prime is right on the doorstep and he took over the whole universe or whatever. so they could probably have used that weapon. i mean the Old Ones must have seen something coming. there must be a reason they’re all GONE maybe????

why did Adora assume that all those stars would be destroyed?

THE ANIMATION ON THAT FINAL STUFF WAS INCREDIBLE AND EPIC

how the fukc are they going to beat Horde Prime lolololol.

i guess Glimmer really shouldn’t have done that. but at least she was in time to bond with Catra.

[wackygoofball]

Hey, I’d just like to thanks you for staying positive though these Braime angst times because almost all the other blogs I follow went cRAZY about him “leaving Bri for Cers” and your posts gave me new hope and reminded me of all the wonderful things that happened in that episode, so, thank you so much💗💕💕💗💕

Glad to hear it, anon!

People have their feelings, they are entitled to them, but so am I and I am a very happy customer right now because I am a thirsty bitch for drama. And we are getting it! JB being at the very center *all of a sudden* (*coughs* biggest romance of GoT/ASoIaF *coughs* *coughs*) of the relationship conflict front tells us so much more than having to feel the angst. It tells us to feel the HYPE.

They are finally where we all wanted to see them… I guess ever since Harrenhal??? One of the producers called it something along the lines of “the most reluctant romance in TV history” in his commentary on the Red Tent Scene back in season 6. And I think JB is still living up to that and it’s beautiful and dramatic and I friggin’ love it. They *are* reluctant, have been for so many seasons (books, respectively). Because they are so caught up in self-doubt and for Jaime in particular self-loathing, feeling unworthy of a good kind of life, the kind of life they wanted to have or grew to want to have, feeling unworthy of love and affection and fearing that it could never truly be reciprocated.

I could start crying at the sad beauty of this right now, but my tears can suck it because I am way too much in the HYPE.

Because yes, anon! We were given so much goodness. Brienne smiled so much. Jaime smiled so much! Can you remember the last time he smiled like that?! I mean, we are all hyped to finally see Brienne smile, but think about how often Jaime only ever had a smile to spare only for shit to hit the fan all over. He didn’t have a time to ever truly have a breather and just be happy and fool around with his brother, and he got that, and Brienne got that, too. And they shared that happiness. It was so heart-warming that I felt like Jaime, wanting to nibble off my shirt lol.

Their first time (albeit a wee bit shorter than I as a shipper would have loved it to be, but you know, wishful thinking is one thing, and the rest can be filled with smutty fanfic :) of which our wonderful fandom provides plenty!) was awesome-sauce. The glow, the tenderness, the hesitance, the awkwardness, there was a purity to this encounter that it still has me shooketh.

And even the angst-filled goodbye… LOOK AT THE GUY! LOOK AT HIS FACE! LOOK AT HIS BEAUTIFUL, GORGEOUS, HANDSOME FUCKIN’ FACE! LOOK AT HOW HE BREAKS ON THE INSIDE SAYING THOSE THINGS JUST TO MAKE SURE SHE STAYS PUT!

BTW GIVE NIK ALL OF THE AWARDS! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM! THAT GUY HAS A REPERTOIR OF EMOTIONS HE STUFFS INTO THREE SECOND BIGGER THAN THOSE OF SOME ACTORS HAVE IN THEIR ENTIRE CAREER! *waves fist in the air*

Sorry, had to get that off my chest. Back on topic:

Jaime has, ever since their roadtrip started, protected this woman. Nikolaj once commented about how Jaime sending Brienne out of King’s Landing back during the Oathkeeper episode was also fuelled by Jaime’s fear that Cersei may be on to something with Brienne after he saw her talk to Brienne and her walking off with a scared kind of expression (not knowing what truth bomb Cersei actually dropped on Brienne during the Purple Wedding aka that she loves him). The show changed the dress to an armor, a type of clothing literally meant to protect from bodily harm. He gave her Oathkeeper. And a squire to keep her company. Jaime has, at every step, tried to protect that woman to the best of his abilities within the constraints he found himself in. Do I believe that suddenly changed? Not for a fuckin’ second. This is Jaime Lannister as he lives and thrives. That guy is as hellbent on protecting the people he loves as Brienne is. Brienne is part of that circle, so of course he protects her, even if that means hurting her.

That is Jaime’s modus operandi alongside looking way too hot for me to handle. Or for him to handle, as last episode proved.

And just never forget him rubbing his thumb against her wrist. That shit still has me weak and whimpering at the beauty of it. That was just... poetic cinema!

The whole scene was a thing of beauty with the visual callbacks to Ned/Cat (arguably one of the few considerably healthy, longterm and strong relationships the entire series has ever seen, despite the fact that Ned was a douche sometimes - more often than not - and kept things from her that clearly made her feel shitty but that’s a topic for another day).

Brienne appearing in a robe that made her look lady-like and womanly and like a fuckin’ goddess rather than having thrown on breeches and a tunic or whatever! It made it all the more heartbreaking to have her feel that way while dressed that way because it just highlighted her vulnerability, but the VISUAL IS AMAZING AND THE NON-VERBAL CLUES THAT GIVES ARE OFF THE CHARTS!!!

Someone made that post and I am totally plagiarising this: this scene of her cupping his cheeks and him holding her wrist was a fuckin’ RENAISSANCE PAINTING. And JB is about to be REBORN. I am telling you!

Nik and Gwen acting the living shit out of themselves in that scene, giving us the rawest of emotions, acting out all with their facial expressions, with their FUCKIN’ EYES! Nik tells us all that we must know the way he looks at her!

So yeah, he ain’t a hateful man. He ain’t creepin’ back to his sister after having realized that Bri was not his jam. He’s doing what he’s always done, what he always does:

Protect, no matter the personal costs.

Not just Brienne, not just his family, it’s his finest act of slaying Aerys and thereby sending his reputation down the drain so half a million people could live that’s on the line! Those people are on the line! And Jaime is not part of that whole castle-swap game Daenerys and Tyrion are playing. If the guy has proven anything, then it is that he, despite of what he may have others believe or tries to make himself believe at times, is one of the few characters who actually give a damn on the smallfolk. He ended the Riverrun Siege without bloodshed (Jaime, seriously, revisit that scene, it’s in supercuts, you clearly got some things mixed up there, hon). He killed one man so half a million could live. It was not without purpose that Varys gave us that callback to how those people matter as much as any of them and how even someone Daenerys claimed to be so much more important because he is so clever, Tyrion, is in the end just as important as any other farmer going about his life. They deserve to live, and I think Jaime’s upset about Tyrion being like “just give him the Reach, what does it matter???” is all the more telling as it reaches beyond his personal conflict. The Reach is the center of food production and we are just giving it up to a sellsword who has no fuck-o to give about either politics or the people who live within the constraints of these? Fuck no.

Jaime wants to protect people. It’s been one of the driving forces in his character all along, even before we got to know him, when we were still led to the conclusion that he was just a douche that needed to be killed off because EVIL MAN!

Jaime wants to protect the people he loves in particular. For them, he goes extreme lengths. That was his family foremost, but that certainly included Brienne long before they got intimate. He’s cared about her for so very long. So I do not believe for a single second that he’d just... forget that, be able to put that aside. Jaime can’t.

And he doesn’t have to. He just has to see that. And Brienne will make him realize that.

Because as much as Jaime wants to protect everyone, factors are now changed. He just doesn’t see it yet.

Because this time, he is in for a surprise as there is someone who will protect him the same way he is committed to that person’s protection. And that will make the crucial difference, it already does. He never had that with his sister. She literally threatened to kill him, literally sent an assassin after him for having the *effrontery* not to act the way she would have liked, not falling in line when she as Queen demanded it. Jaime’s never had anyone step up for him the way Brienne did. Jaime never had anyone protect him that way.

She stood up for him during the trial when Tyrion failed.

She saved him and he saved her during the battle against the living dead.

She certainly had conversation with Sansa to ensure he was welcome at Winterfell.

She will stand up for her man and will protect him - from himself if she must.

“Nothing’s more hateful than failing to protect the one you love.” - she won’t let history repeat itself with the man who finally loves her back.

She will protect Jaime.

Jaime will protect Brienne.

And that is and has always been the very core of their relationship.

And that core is beautiful and pure and no angst gets between that.

Thanks for coming to yet another TED talk.

[thehollowprince]

Why The Vampire Diaries and it’s spin-offs suck.

... pun intended.

Before we get started, I just want to let anyone who stumbles across this that I will be ripping into not only the writers and showrunners, but at least one of the actors and quite a few of the characters, namely Damon and Klaus, so save yourself the trouble and just pass this right on by if you like those characters or this franchise.

This is also probably going to get a little long, so here

So I was browsing through a blog, and the blogger made a post about TVD, about how they never got really far into the series because it wasn’t really their thing, but they apparently just discovered that one of the characters, who sexually assaulted/raped one of the female mains, got a happy ending when the show finally died.

It set off some kind of trip wire in my head that I didn’t know I had placed there, because all of a sudden all of these things that I thought I’d put behind me started flooding my head.  Apparently I wasn’t willing to just let go of all the bullshit that these shows, despite making a rant about all of this before, so here’s another one that I’m going to try and condense for the sake of space.

Unlike that other blogger, I stuck with TVD for quite a while, until the lead actress left at the end of the sixth season, and I even got into it’s first spin-off (THE ORIGINALS) despite my lack of enthusiasm in the plot point they were basing it all around.  The real downside with each passing season is that I realized more and more that the first two seasons (of both shows) were really their peaks and I stuck around for nothing more than the sake of completion and the faint whiff of hope that they might actually treat one of the few minor characters that I actually tuned in for some screen time.

One of the things that became so apparent as the shows went on was how the writers and showrunners favored one or two characters above all of the others.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I understand that some stories revolve around only one or two characters, but then both of these shows (and I’m sure LEGACIES as well) are marketed as ensembles.  Like most shows on The CW, they try to reel in viewers and hook them with the promise of representation, with the hope that this ensemble cast that contains one black character and one gay character on the main cast means that, since they’re mains, maybe we’ll get some actual screen time out of them.  That maybe, just maybe, they’ll actually use the ensemble cast to their full potential.  But alas, that’s never the case.  It’s one of the reasons I abandoned the CW as a network, because that’s the same way all of their shows are - they bait us with the promise of representation, but then focus the entirety of their story around two characters, and usually the dysfunctional romance that is their only actual story.

And that’s another thing that The CW does with all of its shows, but with TVD in particular.  Their shows are based on one thing and one thing only: 

Relationship. Drama.

That’s it.  That is the foundation, the bedrock, of every single show on The CW network, and I can say that with absolute certainty knowing that I haven’t even watched half of their shows.

Sure, on the surface, TVD (and TO) looks like a show about vampires living in a small town, but that’s not the case.  No, both of these shows are entirely about whether Elena will chose Stefan or Damon.  That’s the main plot through all eight seasons, even after Nina left the show, it was just about how Damon could get her back and have his happy ending (like he deserved one).  All of the vampires and witches and werewolves was just window dressing to pull people in who don’t normally watch these clichéd love-triangle shows that seem to permeate the entire YA genre.  (Makes me wonder if any of the writers ever actually attended high school, but I digress).

Now, the thing that started this whole rant, is that I just suddenly remembered after reading that other person’s post that Damon fuckin’ Salvatore, serial killer and all around douche-bag, got a happy ending while so many of it’s other characters who sacrificed their own happiness over and over and over (Bonnie Bennett, Matt Donovan, Jeremy Gilbert) got shafted so hard in the finale.  Hell, Tyler was actually killed off by Damon to “further the latter’s redemption arc”, but that redemption arc never happened.  

Damon Salvatore, who raped Caroline repeatedly back in season one (and yes, that’s what that was, no matter how much you try to dress it up - he took away her choice to say no and then proceeded to have sex with her and feed on her), who murdered people indiscriminately out of sheer boredom and, as the show progressed, killed off people for spite because Elena wasn’t there “to hold him back”.  For a show written and run by women, with a large female fanbase, you’d think the fact that they pushing the trope that the woman has to be the conscience for the man wouldn’t play that well, but here we are.

I mean, I could sit here and list all of the people that Damon killed for fun, or to save his own ass after causing the problem in the first place, but then we’d be here all day and this post would be so much longer than it already is.

So, instead we’ll move on to Klaus Mikaelson, who, yes, ended up dead by the end of his own show, but he ended up dead by his own choice on his own terms, something he repeatedly denied everyone else he killed over the years for much the same reasons that Damon did, and yet he got to have his romance with Caroline before that happened.

I don’t know what it was about Caroline that Julie Plec latched onto as a sort of self-insert once Nina left the show, but it’s very apparent, because in what world would Caroline, the most outspoken of the few women on these shows, allow herself to have any kind of romantic relationship with the man who murdered her friend’s aunt, who drove the love of her life out of his own home out of sheer jealousy, who attempted to kill her... twice!

I seriously don’t know what it was with Plec and Dries and McKenzie and this fandom, with their ability to forgive attempted murder and see it as some sort of romantic act, but it was disgusting to watch, especially when I look at myself and realize I stuck with these shows for as long as I did.

I could rant a lot longer about the way these shows treated their black fans (because I don’t recall any Latine characters, and only one or two Asian characters) as well as their gay fans abysmally, but I wont because this is long enough.  I may make a separate post, but then again, I may not, so I’ll just stop here because I’m sure the person I started this for doesn’t want to read a college thesis about why these shows sucked and how they damaged modern television with their embracing of classic abuse tropes.

In conclusion, THE VAMPIRE DIARIES and THE ORIGINALS (and I’m sure LEGACIES) suck ass because they always push the idea that a man has a “good reason” for whenever he does some horrible thing, and for completely ignoring all of those horrible things to give them a happy ending, while making the other characters suffer for it.

[gamerwoo]

Minho: Ace of Hearts

Anonymous asked: Could you please do an imprinted where a mate is ace? I really wonder how a werewolf would take that

peep my clever fuckin’ title it took me 3 minutes to come up with

Everyone knows I was panicking for like, a whole day because I didn’t know how I would go about writing this. I also chose to make this a stand-alone oneshot because I didn’t know if I’d end up changing any the “rules” I’d originally made for imprinting/mating. I didn’t know much about being ace, so this whole experience definitely taught me some stuff. I hope I did this well!

Character: Minho x ace female reader (featuring exo)

Genre/warnings: werewolf au, angsty fluff, and me probably not knowing anything about asexuals but I tried

Word count: 2,928

Summary: Both of you think that fate has played a sick, cruel joke on you two. A mate is supposed to be made for the werewolf that imprints, but you both think you couldn’t be more different. He wants things you don’t, and it never ceases to cause tension. However, because you are his mate and you both feel the pull, you can’t seem to stay away from each other and try to make it work.

Minho wasn’t happy, but neither were you. Yet, here the two of you were, standing out in the rain at a bus stop while Minho held his jacket above your head to protect you from the water pouring from the sky and drenching everything it touched. He was completely soaked, but you were only damp under the protection of his thick denim jacket.

He always did this: acted cold and angry toward you, but did whatever he could to protect you and keep you from being upset. But how could you not be upset? You were the mate of a werewolf who had instincts and needs they had to follow, but you refused to follow them. You were uncomfortable with some of the aspects that came with being a mate, and while Minho didn’t push them, he was still grumpy about the situation.

He always made sure to tell you that. It was the situation, not you that he hated.

Minho couldn’t help but be completely in love with you. The moment his eyes landed on you, he was head over heels. Things were okay for the first few months. You weren’t super into PDA, and Minho would laugh at how cute your shyness was. But when he decided he was ready to take things to the next level, you had to stop him.

“I’m ace.” you blurted, putting a hand on his chest to hold him back.

Minho cocked his head to one side as he stared at you, blinking emotionlessly. “You’re...what? What is that?”

“I’m asexual, Minho.” you clarified, studying his reaction. You knew he’d still love you no matter what you identified as -- it was just in his instincts to, he couldn’t ever make himself not love you -- but you still knew it would put a strain on things. “I do love you, but it’s all more mental and emotional than sexual. Sex just...makes me uncomfortable. I’m...sorry...I guess.”

Though, you weren’t all that sorry. You were comfortable with who you were, but you still felt kind of bad for not telling him sooner. You just didn’t know how to go about it.

“What about marking?” he asked, his eyebrows furrowing together as he realized what this meant. Half -- at most -- of the imprinting instinct was all sexual and physical. The marking ritual was like, 99% sex and 1% biting. How was this supposed to work? “What about mating season?!”

You just scoffed at his last worry. “You have two hands for a reason.”

An argument broke out after that, which resulted in slamming doors, shouting, and Minho storming out of you small house before returning two hours later because he couldn’t stay away from you knowing you were upset. You almost laughed because even though he kept an arm around your shoulders, he had a frown on his face, and didn’t say one word to you.

And that one moment was basically your relationship in a nutshell. Being grumpy but sticking around anyway because neither of you could resist. Neither of you ever really mentioned the sexual aspects of the relationship -- you didn’t want to, and Minho seemed to try to forget they existed. However, both of you still cursed cruel fate for bringing the two of you together. You thought he he belonged with someone who could comply with his needs, and he thought you belonged with someone who understood you better than he could.

He definitely tried to understand. Every single day, he tried his best to better understand you as an asexual person. He’d definitely come a long way in his knowledge, and he always shared whatever he’d learn with the pack. But you two weren’t even together for a year, so he was hoping he’d eventually find a comfortable routine that both of you would be okay with. 

“You can always invest in a fleshlight!” Chan had suggested with a giggle.

“Gross.” you commented.

Minho nodded in agreement. “I’m all set, dude, thanks.”

The bus finally arrived, and Minho hurried you on first before he ducked inside, shaking his dripping wet hair as he walked down the aisle to sit in the seat beside you. He wrung out his jacket as you stared out the window at the gloomy day. You were supposed to be going to meet at Chan’s house, but you weren’t sure why.

After a few minutes of silence, Minho finally looked at you. “We’re meeting an older pack tomorrow.”

His voice was low so the other passengers couldn’t hear the strange conversation, but you heard him well. You looked at him in confusion, having not heard of any other packs nearby.

“Why?” you wondered.

“We’ve been on good terms with them for a while, but they always invite us over every six months to check up on if we’ve kept our side of the deal.” Minho explained. “They offer us protection, and we keep stray wolves and other packs off of their territory.”

“We live in their territory?” you asked, earning a nod from your mate. “What do you guys need protection for? There’s eight of you. Are there more of them?”

Minho shook his head, carding his fingers through his wet hair. He looked like he just got out of the shower. “There’s only nine of them, but they’re older, tougher, and more experienced. But the reason I’m warning you is because they like to know when any of us mate, because it means our pack gets bigger. They need to know these things to trust us.”

“So...that’s why I have to go?”

“Yeah, but there’s...a condition. ...Ugh, you’re going to hate me...”

You raised an eyebrow curiously. “What is it...?”

He just shook his head, dropping the subject. “I’d rather tell you when we get to Chan's.”

-

“Stop. Moving.” Chan huffed as he tried to catch Minho by the shoulders and keep him from pacing.

Once your mate was standing face-to-face with his brother, he slowly turned his head to look at you from where you watched him pace from the couch. Seungmin and Hyunjin sat on either side of you, and Felix was sitting at your feet with his pillow hugged to his chest.

“So?” you wondered, referencing to what he was supposed to tell you about this older pack. “What’s the issue?”

Minho whined, looking back at Chan again. “She’ll hate me!”

“She already does.” the older wolf muttered.

“Do not!” you frowned.

Seungmin groaned, rolling his eyes. “Just tell her! You should’ve told her a while ago, anyway. You know we visit them every six months, and you know how Jongin is.”

Minho took in a deep breath before he turned his whole body to face you, fidgeting with his fingers. “_____... The thing about the older pack, is that... Well, one of them collects mates.”

You shrugged. “And? What, is he going to steal me awa--”

“Yes.” Minho nodded solemnly. “Anyone who is unmarked is free game to him, and literally anybody that enters their home usually doesn’t leave without becoming his.”

You just scoffed, not believing any of this. The whole thing sounded absurd to you. “Why would he collect mates?”

“It’s a dominance and power thing.” he explained, running his hands through his now damp hair. “My point is, if we take you and you’re unmarked--”

“But I don’t want to have sex.” you reminded him.

“I know.” Minho quickly reassured you. “You technically don’t have to.”

Felix sucked in a sharp breath between clenched teeth as Hyunjin flinched and shook his head. Seungmin just patted your knee in what seemed to be sympathy.

“What?” you asked the few of the pack that had shown up.

“Marking hurts.” Chan told you. “Like, a lot.”

“Then don’t take me.” you shrugged.

It wasn’t that you didn’t trust Minho. Surprisingly, you trusted him with your entire life. There were so many countless times where you almost tripped and fell flat on your face, and he’d catch you right before you hit the concrete; times where you’d walk across the crosswalk without paying attention and Minho would put himself in front of you as if he wasn’t even afraid of the cars that almost hit him.

But were you afraid of pain? Definitely. Especially if the toughest boys you knew were telling you it hurt too badly to tolerate without that distraction of...mating.

“If we don’t, they'll think they can’t trust us, and they’ll break the deal.” Chan explained as another member of the pack walked in. 

“What’re we talking about?” Jeongin asked, taking a seat beside Felix on the floor. “Are Minho and _____ fighting again?”

“They’re talking about marking--”

“Bye.” the youngest said, jumping up and walking back down the hall to the kitchen instead. There was a brief moment of silence before you heard him ask, “Why is everybody else in here?”

“What?” Chan asked, not knowing his entire pack had already shown up.

“We came in through the patio!” Jisung called from the kitchen. “You left it open!”

Chan just sighed and carried on with worrying about the older pack. In your opinion, you thought Chan should just take his pack and move somewhere that wasn’t controlled by some sort of werewolf mafia, but you also understood that was easier said than done. 

But collecting mates? Really? You and Minho clearly were no match made in heaven, but the two of you were still committed to one another.

In the middle of the commotion, Minho stopped listening to the panic of the pack and looked at you, gesturing with his head for you to follow him. You stood from the couch, none of them really paying attention to you leave as you followed Minho to the back deck -- thankfully, it had stopped raining outside. He closed the sliding door once you were out, and turned to face you.

“What do you want to do?” he asked.

You sighed, running a hand through your hair as you stressed over the situation. You either had to endure the pain of marking -- which, honestly, marking wasn’t even something you had considered since your fight with Minho back when you first came out to him -- or endure an obnoxious werewolf that would more than likely hold you as one of his many mates against your will. At least you did love Minho; you’d probably hate this Jongin guy.

“It would be nice if i had more time to think.” you deadpanned.

Minho frowned, knowing he put you in a bad situation. “_____...I’m really sorry. I should’ve told you sooner. I know I’m not the best mate, and all I do is put you through hell, and--”

“What?” you snorted, cutting off Minho’s rant. “Minho, I don’t really care if you get frustrated sometimes. I get frustrated too, but you still make the effort even if it’s hard.”

“But we hardly ever speak to each other because it always leads to the same conversation that nobody wants to have.” he laughed dryly. “How are you happy with this relationship?”

“Because actions matter more than words, and we always show the other that we care, even if we don’t say it.” you stated, taking both of his hands in yours. “You never make me uncomfortable, you never make me feel bad for who I am, you still tell me you love me everyday, and you’re trying for me. Neither of us are too happy with fate, but we’re making it work. You said it yourself at the beginning of the relationship: we’re made for each other.”

“Aren’t I supposed to be the cheesy one because I have the stronger pull?” he joked before he brought you into his arms and rested his chin on the top of your head. “So you don’t think I’m horrible?”

“Sometimes annoying, but never horrible.” you told him.

“Minho! Minho, Minho!” the shouting got louder until Felix had thrown the door open and was staring at him with wide, amber eyes. “They’re here.”

You felt Minho completely tense in your arms. You pulled away to look at him, and he was staring down at you in horror. The older pack had shown up? But why?

“You have to figure something out.” Felix told him before turning to go back into the house, leaving the door open.

Minho just looked down at you, and you stared back at him. He brought his hands up to cup your face, and softly kissed your forehead.

“Do you trust me?” he asked.

After that whole speech you just gave him, you nodded instantly. He let out a quiet but deep sigh, and his head moved down, his face nuzzling into your neck. His hair tickled your chin while his breath fanned your skin, but you knew that pain was about to come.

“Just hang on to me, okay?” he told you softly as you felt his growing fangs graze your skin, making you shiver. But you didn’t recoil from him. “It’ll hurt, but do whatever you have to to help.”

You heard his soft voice counting down from three before you felt the sharp, hot pain right by your collarbone. It felt like being stabbed -- at least, that’s what you assumed it felt like -- with a hot knife. You inhaled sharply, but refused to let out the scream building in your chest, instead, opting to bite down on Minho’s shoulder, causing a low growl to rumble in his chest. 

Despite that, his hands stayed at your sides, rubbing soothing circles with his thumbs while the pain just got more intense as his teeth sunk deeper into your flesh. It was the most intense pain you’d ever felt, and it made tears spring into your eyes and spill over onto your cheeks. You couldn’t even control the soft cry that was muffled by the thick material of Minho’s damp jacket.

The pain had spread through your body like a a short electric shock: quick but painful. It made your body jolt and feel like it was on fire before it was just back to your neck. Then Minho pulled away and lifted his hand to wipe away the tears that had escaped.

“All done.” he promised, frowning from the knowledge that he’d caused you pain. But you could still tell that he was happy deep down because you officially belonged to him. You were off limits. “Do you want me to heal it for you?”

You shook your head. “I’ll settle for a band-aid, but thanks.”

The knock on the front door was heard by even you, and Minho stood up straight, staring into the house. “C’mon, before they’re invited in.”

He took your hand and brought you back into the house, shutting the sliding door before he followed you to the kitchen and found you two small circle band-aids to place on the two marks. He smirked to himself as he put them on, proud to have you as his official mate now. It didn’t matter to him how it happened, just that it happened.

“Content?” you guessed.

“More than that.” he told you, kissing the top of your head. “Overjoyed, more like it.”

“You’re still annoying.” you teased as he took your hand once more and brought you to where all the talking was happening: the living room.

“So are you.” he shot back with a quiet laugh before he turned serious as the two of you entered the room.

“Minho!” one of the nine wolves you didn’t recognize smiled warmly as you entered together. “Oh, who’s this?”

“This is _____, my mate.” he explained, pulling you to stand beside him.

Under the gaze of the wolf you could only assume was Jongin due to the two girls on either side of him that clung to him, you shrunk into your mate’s side and slightly behind him.

“She smells a lot like you...like she’s been newly marked.” Jongin noted, quirking an eyebrow. “Though neither of you smell like you mated recently. Is she marked.”

“Yes.” Minho replied with a sharp tone to his voice. It was softer when he spoke again. “She’s not comfortable with...those kinds of things. We make things work.”

The rest of Minho’s pack seemed a little taken aback by his quick outburst toward his elder, but since the older pack seemed to have not noticed it -- or just brushed it off as a werewolf being possessive over his mate -- they didn’t say anything about it.

“Don’t mind Jongin.” a very pretty looking wolf with a bright smile told you as he shot a teasing look toward the mate collector. “How long have you been with your mate, _____?”

“F-five months; almost six.” you replied timidly.

“Just after we last met.” the first wolf spoke up again with a nod before he gave you a warm smile. “Well, welcome to the pack. I hope it feels like home.”

You looked up at Minho, who had been watching you since Minseok had directed his question to you. Your mate who pushed your buttons, sometimes ignored you -- you did the same, though -- and never ceased to make sure you were comfortable in this weird relationship the two of you had. Minho, who put you before him, even during mating season where he can’t seem to get comfort or relief from anything; he’d still keep himself away from you, and have his pack look after you for that week, only contacting you to tell you he loved you.

“It does.” you nodded. “He was made for me.”

[eggoreviews]

10 Most Anticipated Releases for (the rest of) 2018

I’m excited about a lot of things. So are a lot of other people. So this list shoves all of the music, films, games and TV shows scheduled for release this year that I’m most excited about into one handy list. Enjoy some content and let me know if one of your faves is in here too!

Also, yes the picture is just a switch, but this list does still contain stuff other than games. What else do you put as a picture here other than like a stock image of what year it is? Idk I like putting pictures here, it keeps up an aesthetic u feel

10. Super Mario Party (Release date: October 5th)

Okay so I’m pretty much a sucker for anything Nintendo based at the minute, especially since I only just got a Switch and I really have a lot of catching up to do (still haven’t played Zelda or Mario Odyssey) and the only Mario Party game I’ve ever played is the one where you’re in the car that everyone seems to hate. So while this isn’t the most hyped thing on my radar, or anyone’s radar really, I’m still pretty excited to see the newest addition of what is basically just a Mario board game.

Hey at least Waluigi is playable in this.

9. Hotel Artemis (Release date: July 20th)

This film looks fuckin great. I always talk about going to see a film on a whim because it looks kinda cool, but never do considering how far away my nearest cinema is. But for this one, I think I’ll make the effort. I mean, a film about a criminal hospital that has Dave Bautista, Jodie Foster and Jeff Goldblum in it? And also Gazelle from Kingsman? Big yes.

8. Doctor Who Series 11 (Release date: Probably the autumn or something)

I’ve been a fan of this show since I was basically a toddler and have loved to bits every one of the modern doctors so far. So now we’re finally getting a woman in the role, that’s something to be very, very excited about. And also three companions? Yeah this series will be good and I’m ready for it.

7. Mario Kart 8 Deluxe DLC (Release date: A day that isn’t today)

I was 100% sure that Nintendo weren’t doing any more content for MK considering it’s a port, but there was a reveal on a Nintendo Twitter account that there’s some content coming soon. This is actually one of two Switch games I own right now (pls send me games) so new content would be cool, hopefully in the form of some new characters and courses. Give me Funky Kong and the Waluigi Pinball course and I’ll be a very happy bean.

6. Ant-Man and the Wasp (Release date: August 3rd)

I know literally everyone in the world has already seen this but I’ve still got a couple of weeks before the new Marvel boi and I’m really excited to see where everything goes. As much as Antman was never my absolute fave, I’m hyped to see Hope take on a more central role this time. Plus that salt shaker fight from the trailer has got to be worth a watch.

5. The Walking Dead: The Final Season (Release date: August 14th)

As I mentioned in my Walking Dead themed post, I’ve been spending a lot of time catching up on missed seasons of this amazing set of game series and have now finally finished the Michonne miniseries. So I’m really excited to see how Clem’s story wraps up and whether or not any of the AWOL characters will return.

4. Life Is Strange 2 (Release date: September 27th)

Here’s another series of games that made me feel a lot of emotions back in the first game’s release in 2015. There was just something so powerful about the cheesily-written characters, hard hitting storylines and a perfect indie soundtrack that just struck every nerve for me. So after a slightly disappointing prequel in last year’s Before the Storm, I’m happy that Dontnod are taking the reins again for this one. Also, if you haven’t played the Captain Spirit prequel yet, it’s amazing and also it’s free. V much worth your time.

3. ‘Simulation Theory’ by Muse (Release date: November)

Muse were my favourite band for a long ass time and are still definitely one of my favourites so I’m very, very excited for our first album since 2015′s Drones, which feels like forever ago. I’ve loved all the singles from the album so far, especially Thought Contagion. The single Something Human, which literally came out today, continues this weird 80s dystopian vibe they’ve got going on with this and I’m here for it. It’s kind of shaping up to be one of their strongest efforts yet. (Also, Simulation Theory isn’t the confirmed title, it’s just what a lot of people deciphered and it makes the most sense so I’m running with it)

2. Bastille’s Third Album (Release date: Late summer?)

Another contender for favourite band status, Bastille’s debut quickly became one of my favourite albums and 2016′s Wild World only cemented their place as an all-time fave. We’ve already had some pretty great albums this year (Mania, Pray For The Wicked, The Now Now), but with Quarter Past Midnight being a certified bop, I am seriously excited to see what else they’ve come up with this time.

I promise u I’m definitely not a more biased Watchmojo clone in blog form but here’s some hONORABLE MENTIONS:

Spyro Reignited Trilogy (Release date: September 21st)

Fallout 76, even though I’m still a lil bit cautious of this one (Release date: November 14th)

Daredevil Season 3 (Release date: Whenever it comes out I guess)

1. Super Smash Bros. Ultimate (Release date: December 7th)

If you’ve seen a single one of my other blog posts, you’ll know how overly excited I am for this. I’m a more casual player so most of my excitement comes through potential newcomers, but even with the game as it stands, it’s looking to be pretty good. My hype for this game is basically endless (pls give us Rayman I will die happy if that happens)

What are you excited for that’s happenin’ in the rest of 2018? Send me a thing if u have any. Also, if the Walking Dead games are your thing I’ve got a post right here listing all the characters I want to see return. Have fun!

Thank for reading!

[whatevarandomlygoes]

I can't believe I'm doing something like this. But in the end it had to be only because of @looselucy and one of her beautifully crafted and marvelously written stories.

Funnily enough, TFA was the first one I started to read from you, and it's gonna be the fifth one -of many more to come, hopefully- that I read completely and love.

And I was so undecided and dumb, and always procrastinated to get in to read it, until luckily I found a reblog of one of your previews for the latest chapter at the time, I guess it was the 17 or 18, and was then and there when I decided I might be missing something great. I wasn't wrong. It got me from the get go and I binged those chapters, then I learned you had another couple of fics completed, two of them I also binge read them and BB, well, we're going little by little. 

The thing is, even when I've loved each and every single thing you write, TFA it's so far in my humble opinion, the best idea and plot you have came with, and even when having such a last chapter made me so happy and gave me that sense of true closure, knowing that there's only the epilogue left, makes me I don't know if sad or more like with some kind of emptiness for not having more of those lovely characters that you created, every week or so. I'm so gonna miss them.

Now, I guess I'll give it a go with the last chapter, which I loved because like I said, it gave me a sense of closure.

For starters, Ren and Beatrice; we agreed earlier on not liking Ren's mom for how she trated her and all that, even when I did kinda understand her reasoning on her behaviour with her daughter, after all she was just projecting herself and it was wrong, but it happens. So I liked to see that she's trying, more than just kinda get along better with Ren, she's trying to be better herself. After all, everything has to start from within ourselves, right? Also, I liked how much Ren understands how difficult it has to be for Beatrice to try those changes, and how she doesn't try to imposse herself to her mom. She's trying to have a relationship with her, but giving her the option, too. With her doubts, and fears that she could say no, but still does it, and that says a lot of Ren and her growing.

Then was the celebratory night at Vocatus -I effin wish there was a bar like that with such kind of beautiful specimens serving drinks and looks-, and I loved that the gang was there, Mo always being his special self, and having his big revelation. And so true, we should celebrate every accomplishment in our lives, even the little ones. Like really, he should be a therapist, he'd be a great one. I just love that he happens to be Ren's best friend, she deserves someone like him in her life. Also, pretty glad that he's getting more into the team. And by the way, poor Niall and his unrequited crush/like or whatever that is with Molly. I want to think that for sure she wasn't aware of that at all, right? So, in that case, I'm gonna imagine that Niall gets over her and finds the right good girl he deserves, right? Right. Then, whatever happened with Zayn and Melissa? Hope everything worked out for them. And special mention to my beloved Louis, for being him, such a special, lovely, gorgeous guy oh, yeah, and friend, and somehow helping Harry to keep tabs on Ren.

Now to the better parts. I'd like to say that I can't believe that she remembered the date, the night it started all, but I can; because after all it was somehow the trigger of it all in their story, and yeah. And obvioulsy he had to be there too.

And then again I get a bit overwhelmed and my thoughts get all jumbled up.

Alright, so when Ren just blurted out that she loved him, was like the best fuckin thing she did without thinking, and it was just so imperfectly perfect everything she said. Our baby totally poured her heart and soul infront of him.

But then that gorgeous little bastard almost kills everyone with the suspense. And of course poor Ren was gonna feel like she had no chance at all. He's such a dramatic hoe, but I love him. And loved him more when he told her he wouldn't let her go again, and her full name? C'mon! Kill me now, won't you? Somehow, at some point, I thought he was about to say "you jump, I jump" since almost everything seemed so along those lines, and Ren loving Titanic and all that.

That was all so perfect, and then this happened,

"I joined him in that bubble he had created, where the outside world didn’t exist, where neither of us could feel the cold or the wind of be in fear of the darkness. We were there, together, locked within a golden light that couldn’t be fragmented."

And hi, I have no words when you create such exquisite descriptions.

Then Moggy made her apparence and at this point I was a total idiotic moron happily smiling to myself, glad of being alone, because I couldn't stop smiling. I mean, not only Moggy that we all love, of course, but the fact that she was again at his flat and noticing the little yet so meaningull changes, like the bursts of blue in the art. It had to be a big step for him, because of what that color used to mean, and instead of keeping it somehow blocked of his life he did the opposite. He makes me so proud of him.

Aaand a good, needed sexy time is always welcome. But, Harry telling her that she doesn't need to hide anything from him, kinda melted me.

And then again, I go speechless and please,

"I felt incredible because he made me feel incredible. Not just then with what he was doing, but always. I had never known a force like it, where his love elevated me into this existence that felt so healthy, and thriving. Of course my natural instinct was to walk away from something as powerful as that. It was completely in my nature to reject something so pure.  I never wanted to be that way again."

But then,

"I felt as though I was stepping into summer, bursts of green and gold growing beneath my feet with each step I took into the season. We had both been missing within winter, cold and empty and withholding new beginnings; but being back with Harry, having him love me so intensely, so physically, aided me in my escape of a valley lacking life and wilting before my eyes.  Finally, I could feel that the air was gentle. Finally, I could feel that the iron sky was altering into a soft blue. Finally, I could feel the blossoming branches stretch towards the sky and burst with colours that would titter in the wind.  Finally, we were summer."

Or when with just little phrases in a dialogue, let us floored. I mean,

“You’re my one and only, sunflower.”

Thank you, Harry, let me bury myself, since I was already dead and almost in a casket.

"We were so achingly happy with one another, and we could clearly see the bright future that we were building together, where the once grey skies were eclipsed by a golden sunrise instead.  The moon was shooting silver arrows directly onto us through his window, but I couldn’t see anything other than the yellow hue we created between us. His body was the earth, and I was laying upon a beautiful bed of flowers."

And to end it, the cherry on top,

“A view has never been so beautiful.”

I mean, how do you do that? That, those words, THAT is art. And coming for someone who used to hate descriptions, and/or metaphores within descriptions, or dialogues, I'm guessing I just had to find the right ones, the well written, the real meaningful ones, and with your stories it's what I always find.

So I could go line by line finding something to like and to love, but maybe it'd be a little too much, so all in all, it was just the perfect ending, just closing a perfect circle that oh how I wish it was a never ending one, because I love these characters that feel so real, so bright and so alive that just make you want to keep them close to you.

I guess, no, I know, this, all of this, is what you expect of a good story, no a good fic, more like a great book, a good novel, the ones that get you from the beginning and keep you all the way till the end, with the thrill and  then that bittersweet feeling of getting to know a part of someones -even if ficticious- lives, wanting more but at the same time being satisfied with the last words of that last chapter.

Seriously, you've got such a way with words, Lucy, that for all that I care, you could write about the periodic table, and I'd read it as the most fantastic engaging story ever. And I kinda wish I could say that I'm jealous of your talent and gift as a writer, but actually I feel proud and excited about being your reader, an spectator of a part of your imagination.

So thank you so very much for giving us Ren and Harry, and everyone else in their beautiful world. You let me thinking that from now on, instead of wanting a love like Romeo and Juliet, we all be wanting one like Ren and her Harry... it'll last more and nobody dies there! lol!

So yeah, that's about it, I think, for now, I'll be waiting for the epilogue, and then for the hard cover or at least paperback, and that Netflix series that it should happen.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for letting us fall in love with the words and worlds from your beautiful mind!

So much love to you always.

[txxil]

( your MASQUERADE; I don't wanna be a part of your parade. everyone deserves a chance to WALK with EVERYONE ELSE. )  ———  task 001. character questionnaire sheet 

general info

full name: nam taeil nickname(s): tae? i dont think he has any nicknames tbh. gender & pronouns: genderqueer male, he/him/they/them sexual & romantic orientation: demiromantic/demisexual age & dob: twenty-two ( 22 ) year’s old / November twenty-sixth, 1994 ( 11/26/1994 ) birthplace/hometown: andong, south korea parents/siblings: mother, father, younger brother astrological sign: scorpio dominant hand: ambidextrous  handwriting style: flows very easily; he usually writes in cursive language(s) known/spoken: korean, a little bit of english religion: n/a!  current living arrangements: a small one story house near a middle school, something like this maybe? occupation/major: stay at home author! i like to think he’s actually very popular

appearances

picture reference:  [ 1, 2, 3, 4 ] blood type: O+ nationality: korean skin tone/color: light tanned birthmarks & scars: n/a! height: 177cm build: 65kg hair color: black hair length: covers his forehead and down to his ears! eye color: brown eye shape: [ X ] diet: taeil doesn’t have a strict diet, but he loves little sweets and eating salads, especially really dressed up ones. it’s safe to say he has a pretty good diet. exercise & level of fitness: the most exercise taeil gets is walking around outside when it’s chilly how’s their posture ( or lack thereof )? he’s got a decent posture ! typical style of dress: [ 1, 2, 3, 4 ] - taeil dresses really casually? but he also likes to wear aesthetically pleasing things; like his rolled up jeans and sometimes ripped, shirts tucked in and he loves wearing hats too. he sounds like me, yikes. body modifications: none! 

body language and mannerisms

how does your muse walk? with his hands in his pockets if he is wearing a jacket, usually looking too far up and taking small, slow steps because he loves walking. how does your muse talk? quietly and subtly? he doesn’t like to talk that much, but observe, and he usually sounds really calming and poetic, i guess. what accent/dialect does your muse talk with? gyeongsang dialect ! how high (or low) is the tone of their voice? are they loud or quiet? taeil probably has a bit of a monotoned voice that is in the middle of high and low, but he is very quiet. what is their laugh like? have you ever heard jhopes laugh? probably the same, but less loud OTL how does your muse typically smell? he probably smells like pine. what kind of air do they carry? are they intimidating? a calming air, people probably feel like they can trust him easily because of the way he carries himself around quietly and calmly.

psychology

what makes your muse happiest? talking to his baby brother over facetime/texts/etc. what upsets them the most? being in a place he is still a bit unaccustomed and unknown to does your muse have any quirks? uhm, i don’t think he has any weird quirks, besides his tendency to go out at 1 or 2 am and walk the city when it’s cold. what are their hobbies? how frequent do/can they do them? he loves to write, obviously! and i can imagine taeil likes to do word puzzles, like crosswords and word searches, and maybe he likes to draw a little and probably read the newspaper? because of his ‘create your own work schedule’ deal, he actually gets to do most of things he enjoys a lot. do they have any guilty pleasures? things/people who smell like flowers, indie/acoustic music, beautifully written poetry. is your muse an extrovert? an introvert? neither? introverted for sure, although he can be open depending on his relationship with you. do they have high or low self-esteem? what about confidence? uhm, i would say taeil is in between for both? he is very emotionally distraught at the moment because he is in a place he is uncomfortable with and he still misses home, but he has high hopes for his dreams and himself. he knows he’s a decent guy. are they easily stressed? how do they respond to stress? taeil is not easily stressed due to the fact that he is constantly under pressure for his books. he has learned to deal with it by taking time off from what is stressing him and doing things he knows will make him happy. what is your muses worst fear? that he won’t ever see his family again, probably. what is your muses biggest dream? to be a best selling author! but also to provide for his family and loved ones with the royalties he makes. is your muse an early riser? a night owl? a night owl for sure. how intelligent is your muse? do they acknowledge it? uh, he’s probably fairly smart? not book smart though, but probably more in the.. he knows random facts and about the subject he is writing about smart. what is their sense of humour like? uhm.. probably nonexistent OTL he has his moments though ok

relationship tendencies

what’s their sexual orientation? what about romantic? taeil is a demisexual and demiromantic! the same as yoonsik. are they currently in any sexual or romantic relationships? no they’re not :( what is their experience with relationships? uhm, probably NONE lol. taeil never really cared for relationships because they were always harder for him? how does your muse view the idea of friends with benefits? have they ever had one, or would they ever? he wouldn’t really care, tbh, BUT he also wouldn’t care for having one. he’s not like that. sex, is it important to your muse? yes! what are their biggest turn on and turn offs? see below!

sexualy turn ons: body worship, slut shaming, vanilla sex, orgasm denial, over stimulation sexual turn offs: bondage, gagging, pain, forced domination, forcefulness in general natural turn ons: lip biting, glasses, smooth talking, poetry natural turn offs: loudness/obnoxiousness, desperation, overly flirtatious 

does your muse find it easy to make friends? not really to be honest. how important is friendship to them? very important! he really values his friendships to help him get through his hardships of living in seoul. quantity or quality of friends? quality. how important is family? VERY important. are they close to their family? why or why not ? yes! taeil’s parents ( specifically his mom ) have always accepted him for who he is. his brother was always a key role in his life, too, and he always protect his baby brother with everything he had. his family is what keps him going every day.

headcanons

001. you know those people who are creative in every single fuckin’ way? that’s taeil, but he won’t admit it. 002. as you saw above, he writes with both hands, but he is better with his right. 003. at least twice a week, he has the same dream about going back home and when he wakes up to see it’s not true he gets kinda sad? 004. while most of his stories are on a computer and typed out, he has one or two that he hand writes just for the hell of it. one of these stories is about his baby brother. 005. every other day he calls his family to check in on them, specifically his baby brother. 006. anyone who knows taeil well would easily be able to tell how homesick he is. 007. his favorite genre to write about is modern realistic. his favorite genre to read is probably modern fantasy or crime novels. 008. he doesn’t watch a lot of television. 009. nature muses taeil the most out of everything; other things that muse him are music, other people, his surroundings, flowers ( specifically ), weather, etc. i think all the BASIC things. 010. he never holds grudges and is easy to forgive. you could toy with him and he would still be your friend. he’s a doormat, basically. 011. his favorite season is fall, his favorite weather is when it sprinkles and is chilly, his favorite time of day is sunrise, and his favorite day of the week is Monday.

i did eleven headcanons because i did eleven for yoonsik, too! this was so much fun to do.