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*i appear for a second to present this excitedly and then i disappear :3*
but i just wanted to show my love and affection for surrogate, specifically sunnyparks for a quick sec bc i love them soso muchhh i dont even knowww grrrr they make me go feral and the series is written SO WELL AND IM JUST!!!!!!
(yk the drill: click pic for better quality, also yes ik its kinda pixelated)
so i made this lil tarot card for them!!!!!!!! info about the card and also the flower crown below:
Strength:
inner strength
determination
power
underlying patience & inner calm
composure & maturity
perseverance
âStrength is about knowing you can endure lifeâs obstaclesâ
âYou are committed to what you need to do, and you go about it in a way that shows your composure & maturityâ
âThe Strength card encourages you to find the power within yourself to persevereâ
âApproach your situation from a place of forgiveness, love and compassionâ
(^source: biddytarot.com)
Flower Crown:
Chamomile: Patience in adversity
Yellow tulip: Sunshine in your smile
Morning glory: Affection
Babyâs breath: Everlasting love
(^source: god i wish i could find the link i used again bc all sites have different meanings :(((( )
#okay i DO need to catch up on surrogate cuz i havent since their hiatus ;-;#bro the story got me Feeling Things /pos#my art is not the best but i do the best i can :>#i LOVE how sunny (/ the smoke) turned out i was looking forward to doing that since i started!!#surrogate series#surrogate#surrogate malevolent#malevolent#surrogate fanart#malevolent podcast#parker malevolent#parker yang#sunny#sunny surrogate#(GRRRRR SUNNY AND PARKER MY BELOVEDSSSS)#fanfic fanart
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On the Same Page - a Malevolent fic
To keep a wound from festering, one must reveal it. Vulnerability is not in the nature of gods, but Sunny is willing to try anyway, and conclude this painful discussion so both he and Parker can, at last, begin to heal.
Part of the Surrogate series. Written with @sepiabandensis.
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Parker, Sunny said. What do you do, if you're waiting for a good time to discuss something painful, but one simply doesn't exist?
Parker let out a low breath. Oh, boy.Â
It wasn't that he intended to just⌠ignore the situation at hand. Or even that it had slipped his mind. It was moreâŚÂ
Things had been good. They'd gone for a solid week and a half without a single incident, with the King checking in on them every now and then, and Parker had gotten used to taking a run in the morning while everyone else ate breakfast and doing more training at night.
Parker could handle the schedule; it was nice to be in control of most of it. Parker could handle the King; that was not a good being, he knew, but he understood this kind of crime boss: there was a weird code of honor here, and as long as Parker followed the rules, he and Sunny would be safe.
This was the part he didnât know how to handle. "Is this because we're going to dinner with them tomorrow?" he asked, low.
Sunny was quiet. Suspiciously quiet. No, he lied. I was just wondering.
"Is that true? 'Cause it sounds like something is bothering you." Parker washed his hands in the basin of water by the courtyard door, getting the dirt out from under his fingernails.
Putting that investigator's mind to work, I see.
"Come on, bud. Rip the bandage off, use your words."
Sunny was quiet again for a long moment.
I want to talk about Arthur Lester, he finally said, his voice soft and cautious.
Parker sighed. "I figured."
We donât have to, he said quickly, pure worry. If it will ruin dinner tomorrow, we donât have to. I can wait. Itâs not that importâ
âSunny.â Parker only rarely interrupted when Sunny spoke, and only when it was importantâand the entity felt a thrill of fear at that knowledge. âWe ainât doinâ that, bud. This is important, âcause youâre my partner, and youâre important. Alright?â
Alright. Parker could feel his jaw set itself on its own, a nervous tic that had bled over from his passenger. Alright. I⌠Can we go to the water garden, and sit under the tree?
Parker blinked. âSure, alright. Any reason?â
Itâs⌠Itâs calm there. Peaceful. I think⌠it might make it easier for me.
âThen yeah, let's go to the garden.â Parker shook his hands dry, slipping out of the herb garden to make his way through the winding halls of the palace.Â
He was really starting to get a feel for the place, seeing the patterns within its strange architecture. Already he could get to the important places without assistance: the kitchen, their room, the throne roomâŚ
The music room.
They passed it as they walked, the sound of tinkling piano notes sweet against Parkerâs ears, and it set his heart aching.
He wondered, again, if that was something Sunny could feel; the sensation of lead in his chest, heavy and dragging him downward. He could almost feel the entity cringe, shrinking away as the music grew, the sound of muffled conversation emerging when the notes stopped; and then they were past it, moving on, and Sunny was starting to relax again.
The water garden was one of Sunnyâs favorites. The twin suns were shining above, the trees lining the garden cast dappled shadows across the path, and sunlight gleamed off the water between lilypads and water flowers. Parker sat heavily in the bench beneath the tree; it was a kind he had most certainly never seen before, and Sunny said did not exist outside the Dreamlands, with drooping branches and small leaves that were dotted with small white flowers.
Parker sat and watched the water bubbling down from a small, artfully arranged waterfall, and took a moment to breathe. âSo,â he said, breaking the silence.
So, Sunny agreed. I think⌠I think Iâm going to start from the beginning. Is that alright?
âHowever helps, bud.â Parker leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees.
I donât remember anything before waking up in Arthur Lesterâs head, Sunny said, his voice soft. Anything Iâve remembered since has been⌠Inspired by seeing something. But when I awokeâwhen I became âthere was nothing. I was just suddenly there, and I had no idea why, and I was sharing a body with���with thisâ person. I⌠I was surprised when he spoke. I half thought he was dead.
âWhatâd he say?â Parkerâs voice was soft, and he swallowed thickly.
He asked⌠âWho is this?â Sunny let out a very soft, mournful sound. Itâs⌠Itâs almost funny, now. Looking back. It was almost polite. I told him I was a friend, and⌠end that it looked like heâd been through the wringer. When I asked him what happened, he said he didnât remember, and⌠he tricked me.
âTricked you?â Parker glanced away from the pond, focusing on the way the breeze tangled a few of the branches of the strange tree above them. âHow?â
I told him weâd been in an accident. I didnât know any better, but I needed him calm. You understand that, right? His voice was pleading. I didnât lie out of malice. And then I asked him to look in his bag, and⌠And then he revealed that he knew, all along. The words were tumbling out, like stones down a hillside, and he was so afraid. He told me he knew all along what I was, told me who I was, and that heâd made a deal to bring me to him, told me I wanted this, but I wasnât John, Parker. I wasnât. And he was covered in blood, and there was a fucking blizzard outside, andâŚ
âEasy, bud.â Parker reached up, brushing the curve of his jaw, and Sunny let out a shaky breath. âYouâre alright. Iâm listening.â
He called me a parasite, Sunny said. Like⌠Like it was my choice to be there. He said he didnât care if we both died, because I wasnât John.
Parker sucked in a breath, completely involuntarily. Flexed his hands into the dirty knees of his linen pants.
I⌠Iâm sorry, Parker. Maybe itâs best if Iâ
âNo, bud.â Parker fought to keep the grief from his voice; fought to keep himself from talking about Arthur, from defending him. âIâm alright. Itâs just⌠Itâs rough to hear that. But I gotta. We gotta get all the evidence, even if it sucks. Okay?â
âŚOkay, Sunny said, sounding not sure whatsoever.
âSo he called you a parasite.â
Itâs⌠Itâs strange, that itâs stuck to me through ten years. ButâŚ
âThatâs a pretty charged thing to call someone.â Parker took a moment to work at the muscle of his jaw, encouraging Sunny to release the tension he could feel building. âEspecially since you didnât choose it.â
Yes. Yes, exactly. His voice was weak. It didnât⌠It didnât get better. We fought. He begged me to remember, after threatening to kill us both, so I tried to take charge and tell him to do as I said so we would survive, andâand he threatened me right back. He said he had an artifact that would send me back to the Dark World, and⌠I didnât want to die, Parker. So I cooperated. I⌠I hoped, in time, after my anger had died down, that I might still win him over.
He went quiet, for a long moment.Â
âI take it you didnât,â Parker said.
No, Sunny replied, voice hitching. No. I didnât.
Fuck. "What happened then?" Parker's voice was soft.
He almost got us eaten by wolves, Sunny mumbled.
"What?"
It was a blizzard in the middle of nowhere. He stole a useless rifle, went charging blind into the snow, got chasedâŚ
âWhat the hell?â Parker muttered.
But we got lucky. We found an inn, the Red Right Hand, by sheer fucking luck. And then, because he couldn't control himself, he got himself fucking drunk on some nasty local concoction.
"He drank." Parker's gut twisted.
Yes. A pause. Is that⌠bad?
"Heâd mostly given it up," Parker said quietly. "I convinced him to. He drank way too much after Faroe's deathâI told you."
O-oh. Sunny went quiet for a long moment. I⌠I pushed him to drink. Everyone was⌠staring at us. He kept talking to himself. To⌠to me. I didnât know what else to do to fit in.
âI get it,â Parker whispered. âYou didnât have a whole lot of choice. Appreciate the honesty,â Parker said. He reached back up, pressing his hand to his own cheek. âHe could have faked drinking. He could have done a lot of things. Still his choice to swallow. You didnât know. Okay?â
Fuck, Sunny said, very quietly.
âHey. Youâre alright. Iâm not mad,â Parker sighed. âWeâre talking factsâhistory. What happened then?â
He⌠he rambled about strength and being alive, and quoted some poem at me, and then pretty much passed out. It was so strange. He was strange. He was skin and bones; he looked terrible, smelled terrible. At that point, I really thought heâd get us both killed out of spite, so I⌠I tried to maybe convince him I was John.
Parker swallowed hard. âOkay. Okay. Bettinâ that didnât go over too well, though.â
Sunny let out a soft groan. He saw through me like it was nothing. Thatâs when he revealed heâd lied about the artifact and being able to send me back to the Dark World⌠and being able to return me to the King. He just⌠I didnât know what to do, Parker. I couldnât trust him, and I couldnât even see him in a mood stable enough to be able to do anything with it. Anything I said, he fought. It didnât matter.
âFuck,â whispered Parker. âThat sounds like Arthur after losing his shit, yeah, but⌠this is worse than I think Iâve ever seen. What the hell happened to him before you got to him?â
I genuinely donât know. He told me things, but I couldnât trust anything he said anymore. There was blood everywhere when I woke, Parker. Everywhere, including on himâbut the wounds were closed up. His legs⌠And his throat.
âThatâs when he got the neck wound?â said Parker.
Yes. And someone had closed it up. Humans donât heal that fast. He said⌠He said âheâ wanted him to suffer.
âDoesnât make a lick of sense,â Parker murmured.
It didnât. Nothing did. We⌠we tried to get out of Addison. We needed a car, and Arthur went to find some surveyor who had one, but⌠the man was missing. Arthur did some detective work, trying to locate him, but then we were attacked by an invisible monster in the woods. The creature nearly killed us, but JackâLarsonâs sonâretrieved us, and carried us up the mountain to the Larson estate. Thatâs when things went⌠south.
â Thatâs when things went south?â Parker said. âHow south? Bermuda?â
Worse. I thought we were all right; our clothes were cleaned, our new wounds bandaged. But we heard a woman, sobbing, in the vents of Larsonâs house, and Arthur was⌠irrational about it. Larson finally came and spoke to us, telling us he was Andrewâa fictional descendant to handle rumors of his longevityâand he seemed friendly. Honest. Sunny paused, and when he spoke again, shame tinted his words. I⌠I believed him. Arthur didnât, and⌠and while we were discussing it, we heard Jack kill the crying woman. We knew it was Jack because⌠Larson told us.
âJesus.â Parker took a moment to rub his face, to run his fingers through his hair and pull it away from his eyes. âJesus fuck. He just fuckinâ admitted it?â
Yes. He⌠he admitted he had Jack kill her. Arthur went crazy again. We made an insane escape through a window over a cliff. We found a dead body in a bed, and when Arthur touched it, I⌠I saw how they died.
âWhat?â said Parker, startled.
That hasnât happened with you. It seems to be something unique to Arthur.
âWhat in fuck?â Parker murmured. âHeâs got magic powers?â
I donât know. Sunny sounded fearful.
Parker stroked his jaw. âItâs okay. You donât have to know. So what happened then?â
I think I may have⌠Seen a flash of the Arthur you knew.
âYou did?â Parker straightened. âWhat happened?â
I apologized to Arthur for lashing out at him. Though it made no sense, though we hadnât gotten along at all, he⌠he seemed to accept my apology.
Parker sighed. âYeah. He always was a sucker for a good apology. Thatâs⌠Thatâs good? I think thatâs good.â
It⌠it felt like I was finally getting somewhere. Sunny mumbled. I didnât want to fight with him, Parker. I really didnât.Â
âI know. I believe you,â Parker said, brushing the curve of his jaw once again.
I just⌠I want you to remember that. Because we got caught. Weâd escaped, and weâd talked, and weâd investigated, and I thought things might get better, and we might get out of there, but Jack caught us. He knocked Arthur out, brought us down to the dining room, tied us to a chair, and⌠and when Arthur woke up, he was weeping. And he told me about⌠about Faust.
âFaust?â
Their throat tightened. Parkerâs tongue twitched in their mouth. Before I came to him. When he was still with John. When the King had them⌠captured, thrown into something called the prison pits, Arthur was starving, and the King threw another prisoner in with them. The man was a murderer; a cannibal, who plannedâArthur saidâto kill and eat him. Instead⌠instead, Arthur killed him, murdered him by crushing his eyes with his thumbs just like he did to Jack later, and confessed to me he⌠he ate Faust.Â
Parker sat right down on the garden path, right on the ground, like his strings had been cut.
Parker? Sunny whimpered.
âJust⌠I need a second. Youâre good, bud. Youâre okay. I just need a second.â His voice sounded like heâd been strangled.
Their tongue twitched again.
âItâs okay,â Parker whispered, though it obviously wasnât. âGo on.â
Sunny sat in unsteady silence for a moment before he could. It was like he was confessing this to me before we died , and I just⌠Sunny let out a sob. I had done my best, and heâd still... what was the point? What was the fucking point? This man, this murderer, had ripped me away from my godhood and imprisoned me within him, threatened me into cooperation, lied, and then when I thought I might have an understanding with him⌠he told me that . And then Larson spoke to us, and Larson⌠Larson knew things Arthur didnât. He knew of the gods, of their powers, called us superior , and IâŚ
âHe knew you were there,â said Parker. âDidnât he?â
I believe so, Sunny whispered.
âThat asshole played you. Didnât he?â
Sunny let out a sob. Yes. I was swayed immediately. I was angry at Arthur. Angry at the various ways in which he harmed himself, harmed me. Larson punished him for speaking out of turnâJack did that to his ear. Tore the piece of it off.Â
âFucking hell,â Parker muttered. âDid all his scars come from that house?
Not all, I swear, Sunny said quickly.
Parker touched his lips this time. âI ainât blaming you.â
Sunnyâs voice hitched.
âI ainât. Itâs okay. If you need to stopââ
Sunny would not stop. When it was revealed Larson had sacrificed his daughter, Addison, to one of the gods for his longevity and power, Arthur went completely insane .
Parker got up and began to pace. âHe always did when kids were involved. Always,â he said, and his voice was a growl.
Parker, Sunny whispered. Parker, Iâm sorry. I should haveâI donât knowâ
âJust gotta move, bud,â Parker said, running his hands through his hair. âAinât mad at you.â
Parker, Sunny whimpered. Please, Parker, Iâm sorry. I really am, Iâ
âBuddy, Iâm not angry at you.â There was heat to his words. âHave I ever lied to you?â
No, Sunny said, voice shaky.
âThen trust me,â Parker said. âYou told me about the sacrifice before. Remember? And I was fuckinâ mad then. I just⌠thereâs more context now.â
I understand. Sunnyâs voice hitched. Is it my fault?
âNo, bud. No. Did you kill Larsonâs kid? Did you make him kill some woman beneath the house? Fuck, did you throw some cannibal into the pit with Arthur? Fuck, no.â Parker threw his head back and took a deep breath in through his nose, and then hissed it out between his teethâin for five, out for seven. And again, in for five, out for seven. âYou didnât do any of this, and I donât hold you accountable.â
I just wanted to go home, Sunny whispered. Larson dangled that in front of me like a lure, and I⌠I bit down hard.Â
Parker let out one final breath. âI know, buddy. I know.â
Sunny was quiet for a long moment before he spoke with a tiny, broken voice. Do⌠Do you still love me?
âWhat?â Parker startled, stopping dead in his tracks. âWhat kind of crazy questâyes, Sunny. Yes, I still love you. For fuckâs sake, bud, Iâm a bit harder than that to shake off. I mean, I thought Arthur strangled me fuckinâ dead and I still love the guy.â
But you⌠Sunny let out a soft, desperate noise. I⌠Okay. Okay, yes. I just⌠You really arenât mad?
âNot at you. At the King? Yeah. That was fucked up, makes me wonder what else happened that we donât know about. At Larson? Oh fuck, yeah. I already was, but now⌠Iâm really wondering what to do about that guy.â
âŚWe will need to talk about the King too, Sunny said, voice weak and completely exhausted. But I⌠I canât. Not right now.
âThatâs alright. Weâve got time.â Parker reached up and gently cupped his jaw, feeling the twitch as Sunny settled into the touch. âYou got a hell of an introduction to Arthur. Confirmed several of my suspicions. Heâs still got some stuff to answer for, with you, but it sounds like he was still in there, just⌠this went beyond flipping a switch. Itâs like somebody ripped the godsdamned outlet outta the wall and started crossing wires.â
I can agree with that. He was in one hell of a state. Sunny let out a rumbling sigh. Parker?
âYeah?â
Do you think⌠Do you think John was part of it? Arthur had told me theyâd fought, badly, right before.
âIâm thinking so, more and more,â Parker said quietly. âI donât know whatâs going on with that just yet. But weâll figure it out. Okay?â
Okay. Partner.
âThis canât have been too easy to say. Thank you, partner. This was valuable. Important.â Parker gently patted his cheek. âYou gonna be okay for dinner tomorrow?â
I⌠I think so. Iâll be quiet, but⌠I just donât know how to talk to him. I donât want to. I thought I could move on, but seeing him again, IâŚ
âYeah, I understand that.â More than Sunny could ever really know. âDonât worry; Iâll take point on that one. You just sit back and listen for me, so I can double-check theories later. Sound good?â
Sounds good. He slipped into silence for a long moment. Parker?
âYeah, bud?â
Thank you. I⌠I love you.
âAnytime, bud. Love you too,â he said, taking a seat back on the bench. The words, still so fresh, did not ease the tension that had twisted his muscles tight, as much as he'd like to watch the fish in the pond until the afternoon light turned rich and golden. Parker got up and walked, pacing the gardens, following every path, and if he moved like an angry wolf while he did, it was effective, because no oneâDancer or servant or anything else���came anywhere near.
#malevolent#malevolent fic#parker yang#peter parker yang#sunny surrogate#yellow malevolent#surrogate series
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Already missing Sunny and Parker
#I fell in love with them immediately#I just want them to be happy :((#sunny deserves the world#malevolent#surrogate series#malevolent au#malevolent fic#peter parker yang#yellow malevolent
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AU where Zoro and Sanji decide to have a kid. They want to use a surrogate and when theyâre deciding whose DNA to use Sanji pretends to put up a fight about it and then when they're in private Zoro says âI really don't care, the baby can have your DNA. You're strong as hell and I'll raise them to be an amazing swordsman regardlessâ
And Sanji is like âNON ON ONONONOPLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE IT HAS TO HAVE YOURS IT CANT BE A VINSMOKE GOD PLEASE NO NO NOâ
And Zoro's like "jesus fuck- fine whatever."
And Sanji is so, so happy when the baby comes out with green hair and furrowed, straight eyebrows. A little mini marimo for him to love.
The crew's all like âdamn Sanji you must be pissed he doesn't look like you at allâ and Sanji responds âwhat haha yeah what an asshole Zoro is for winning the argument for that hahhaâ but he's so glad that his son looks nothing like him. Nothing to remind him of his birth âfamilyâ
But of course the kid grows up with so many Sanji traits. He's polite, and selfless, which really should've shocked Zoro more the first time his son gave his food to the small seagull that had landed on the Sunny. But really, he just finally saw Sanji. He also loves to cook, and he understands the intricacies of food way more than Zoro ever could. His son knows more about flavor and drink pairings at 5 years old than Zoro ever will.Â
Everyone can see Sanji in the little boy, even if he's missing the curly eyebrows and blonde hair. Even though he has his dad's grey eyes. Because Sanji broke the cycle of abuse despite all his worst fears. And he's nothing like his own father. He's an amazing papa, and their son becomes an amazing person.
#zosan#my writing#zosan fanfic#zoro x sanji#zosan parents#drabble#I found this in my notes with zero memory of writing it#but it's cute so thanks me#Maybe I'll write a full fic of it idk
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SUNNY AND COTTON'S SMILES WHILE SAGE IS SCOLDING THEM LMAO. Who is the honor sire btw if there is one? Lesbians win even in the face of terminal illness!!!
not entirely sure what you mean by honor sire? if you mean surrogate/donor, i am pleased to remind you that Sunnytuft is a trans molly! these kits are 100% biologically sunnycotton :D
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The Cure to Injuries
pairing: spencer reid x reader
summary: you most definitely didnât think that the most effective cure to a bruise is a gentle kiss placed on it.
genre: fluff & angst
word count: 1.8k
author's notes: this is the first fic i have ever written since my stay on wattpad during grade school. so, forgive me for any mistakes & cheesiness that bled into it. spencer is too cute and he deserves more softness in his life. anyway, i hope you'll enjoy what you're about to read as much as i enjoyed writing it. i hope you'll like & reblog if you find this fic good. please do tell me if you want me to write more because i will!
GROWING UP, YOUâVE ALWAYS KNOWN YOU WANTED TO DO SOMETHING TO HELP PEOPLE. The first job you thought of was becoming a teacher. However, you realized that making lesson plans and dealing with naughty kids werenât your thing.Â
The next one was becoming a lawyer. But, youâve had enough of seeing your dad being buried in paperwork and your family telling you, "Youâd be a great lawyer! You literally enjoy debating with everyone."
Then, you thought of becoming a doctor. You were good at science, and you found the human body interesting. That was your dream until you had to see your friends vomit literal bile on the sidewalk and have their stomachs pumped after a night of drinking. After that, you didnât think you could deal with vomit and other possible human excretions in the future.
Luckily, one sunny day, your brightest idea of what you wanted your future to be like finally came to you. You wanted to work for the FBI. Youâve always been a bit too interested in criminal justice, but at the same time, you wanted to fuse it with your interest in science. So, youâve decided that becoming a profiler is your end goal.
You just didnât think about how becoming one could involve getting bruised and battered, possibly even shot at and blown up, and you most definitely didnât think that the most effective cure to a bruise is a gentle kiss placed on it.
"Ow! Itâs good you arenât the medical doctor kind of doctor because your patient would definitely file a complaint against you."Â
You huffed and puffed, as you gingerly sat on the ambulance, accompanied by your co-worker, Dr. Spencer Reid. He shook his head and rolled his eyes at you as he continued prodding you for other injuries.Â
The FBI's Behavioral Analysis Unit, or BAU, has been your workplace for almost four years now. You never thought youâd get here after you realized that you donât only need brains to become a profiler but also brawn. Fortunately for you, you were too smart for the FBI to pass up on, and, well, you at least passed your physical examsâalbeit barely but still enough to get to where you are now. Oh, the dream!
Where you are right now, despite that, is definitely not the dream. You were presently black and blue after being the one to take down and make the arrest of the unsub who had abducted children in Kentucky as surrogates for her deceased child. Despite your injuries, the day ended on a positive note. All the children are going home to their parents alive, and thatâs all you could ever ask for. Well, that, and the incessant flocking of your co-worker, who just so happened to be the person with whom you have harbored romantic feelings for quite some time now.
"What you did was stupid, Y/L/N! You couldâve gotten killed, going in there like youâre bulletproof or something," Reid exclaimed, complete with the hand gestures and the word vomit when heâs excited or worried. "Did you forget what happened five months, seven days, and three hours ago? You got shot in the arm!"
In this case, youâre positive heâs about to pass out from all the talking and lack of breathing.
"You know, Reid," You chuckled in amusement and said, "Iâm more concerned about you keeping track of the exact date and time I got injured. Are you sure youâre doing that out of concern for me as your coworker, or is it because you secretly have feelings for me?"
The doctor paled, his pouty lips opening and closing like those of a fish, swimming in the depths of the ocean.
"W-what?! What do you mean I have feelings for you?"
That made your heart twitch, and not in a good way. You knew the doctor couldn't reciprocate your feelings. He just happened to have a phenomenal memory. He canât help but store random information; he has no choice but to remember. But, you canât help yourself. A tiny part of you still yearns for him to return your feelings. Oh well, youâd rather have him as your friend than nothing at all. But, a little teasing wonât hurt, right?
"Iâm kidding, Reid," you snickered, "I know you know that piece of information because of that eidetic memory of yours or whatever."
"Itâs not just because of that, you know," Reid sighed.
That gave you pause. It seemed like your world stopped turning and nothing else mattered. It couldnât be, you thought, thereâs no way he likes you back. Youâre you, and heâs this otherworldly guy. You canât even believe heâs real.
"What?" You chuckled nervously, tugging at your ear gently, "What are you saying, Spencer?"
Spencer sighed and frowned, "I know I was the reason you got shot that day, Y/N. I saw the glint in your eye when you thought the best way to save me from getting shot was to push me out of the way and shield me. And that was a stupid move, by the way."
Your jaw dropped. You were about to say something, but Spencer beat you to it.
"Let me finish first," He said, raising his index finger as if to say I still have a lot to say, "Itâs stupid because you almost got yourself killed. I was about to move out of the way when you covered for me and you got hurt! You got hurt, Y/N! How was I supposed to live with myself if you ended up dying that day because of me? How, Y/N?"
"But I didnât! Iâm here, Reid." Youâre scowling now and about to rant Spencerâs ear off. " What do you want me to say? That Iâm sorry I wanted to save you that day? Because Iâm not!"
You know that what you did that day was incredibly stupid of you. What Reid was saying was true. You could have died that day, but you were too selfish to admit that. You were so selfish that you couldnât imagine living a life without Spencer Reid in it if you hadn't pushed him out of the way and ended up hurting yourself for it. And you have had no regrets to this day about doing it.
"Thatâs the thing, Y/N," Reid was almost full-on shouting now: "No matter how much you end up getting hurt to protect the people around you, you donât care! Did you really think Iâd appreciate what you did for me if you ended up seriously getting hurt, or worse, dead?"
Your vision is getting blurry from the unshed tears now. You love Reid so much, but he wouldnât get it. He would never see you as more than just a coworker. More than a friend.
"No, Spencer," you sniffled, looking directly at him now, "I know you wouldnât have appreciated it if that happened. Call me selfish, but I care for you too much to ever let anything hurt you and regret what I did."
You stood up from where you were sitting and were about to head to the SUV where you could be alone before driving back to the precinct, but Spencer didnât let you. He held your wrist, pulled you back, and groaned.
"God, youâre insufferable!" He exclaimed, "Donât you get it? I care about you, Y/N!"
"I know, Reid," you smiled wistfully, "you care about me because Iâm your friend."
"No, I donât."Â
This made you stop in your tracks and stare at him intently.
"I donât care about you as a friend, Y/N. I never did."
"Oh."
Reid sighed deeply and ran a hand through his hair. "Now that the catâs out of the bag, I donât expect you to love me backâ"
"I love you." This made Reid stop fully. "I have loved you since the day you talked my ear off about Doctor Who. I have loved you since that time I woke up in the middle of the night back in Atlanta and ended up knocking on your door because I couldn't go back to sleep. You told me you'd always be here for me."
"I love you, Spencer Reid."
Before you could overthink your sudden confession, Spencer held your uninjured cheek with his slender handâand the next thing you know, he is kissing you.Â
You couldn't help but gasp. You were startled by the suddenness. His lips were warm and soft, almost pillowy against yours. Warmth blossomed in your chest as Spencer's lips brushed against yours tentatively. The smell of his hairâlike the smell of early mornings after a night of rainâwas dizzying. He smelled so clean and fresh, like soap, with a hint of the smell of a new book.
You felt lightheaded as he swiped his tongue against your lips, asking for entrance, which you gave him. You could taste the hint of sweet coffee he drank just minutes before the takedown. You could feel the soft tickle of his breath and his fingers as he carded it through your hair while you breathed each other in.
You never imagined kissing Spencer could feel like this.
Regretfully, your bruised cheek was starting to take the brunt of all the snogging. You had to pull away because you were running out of breath, so you tapped his cheek. Spencer wasn't taking the hint at all, which made you giggleâcute. Having no other choice, you held both of his cheeks and pulled away.
"Y/N? What's wrong? Did I hurt you?"
"No, silly," you chortled; he's so cute. "I just ran out of breath, and my bruised cheeks hurt. It isn't your fault. Don't worry." You assured him.
Spencer sighed a breath of relief, which made you want to tease him.
"I know what can stop my bruises from hurting, though."
Eager to please you, the doctor was about to start searching for possible medical remedies to your injuries, not knowing you had something else in mind.
"You could plant a kiss on them." You grinned widely as you saw Spencer's neck start reddening, "I'm kidding, Spence," you said, "You don't have toâ"
You didn't expect Spencerâof all peopleâto be the type of person who would shower you with kisses if you asked him, but he is. He started planting light kisses on the purple blotches on your faceânot caring that anyone from the local police to your workmates from the bureau could see you.Â
"I love you too, Y/N Y/L/N," Reid said, eyes glistening with unshed tears as he brushed his lips against yours once again.
You never thought the best day of your life would be the day you get injured. You never thought the best cure for cuts, scrapes, and bruises could be a kiss from the one you love the mostâSpencer Reid.
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WIP excerpt for ZepysGirl; the wet nurse omegaverse. TW for Bruce and Clark discussing/assuming the worst and mentioning the possibility of sexual abuse, human trafficking, and infant death, though none of those things are actually happening here. (( chrono || non-chrono ))
Thereâs nothing Bruce can say that Clark is willing to hear right now, though.
âIt wasnât because of you,â he says anyway, and Clark just shakes his head and looks away. Not even out the window; just away.Â
Itâs sunny out today.Â
And when Clark wonât even let himself look outside on a sunny day, thatâs never a good sign.Â
âIâll look into the agency, obviously,â Bruce says, giving them both the mercy of a topic change for the moment. âThey seem . . . questionable.âÂ
âThat beta offered to arrange a mating for Carl without even consulting him about the idea, so yes, âquestionableâ is a word for it,â Clark says with a sigh, folding his arms. âAnd she was about to leave him alone with Alfred before we signed the contract. Whichâitâs Alfred, of course, but she doesnât know him from Lilith.âÂ
âIâll be looking into her personnel file specifically, yes,â Bruce says with a sigh of his own. Well, at least Clark doesnât seem concerned about Carlâs age, so that buys some time there. Heâll figure it out himself either way, and just . . . go from there.Â
Go from there either way, again.Â
âCarl didnât smell like a pup,â Clark says, his mouth twisting slightly. Which . . . well, that much is unavoidably obvious, so of course heâs thinking about it. âOr a pack.âÂ
âHe did not, no,â Bruce agrees. And Carl had said he didnât have pups of his own, but he hadnât said heâd never had pups of his own.
âHe couldâve put them up for adoption,â Clark says halfheartedly. âOr just been a surrogate. If he has a detachment disorder, well . . .âÂ
Itâs a way an omega could make a living, in a sense, and certainly would be easier for an omega with a detachment disorder to manage. Surrogating for infertile couples or carrying for betas or omegas who canât or donât want to carry their own pups. Especially because itâd make having a career as a wet nurse much easier too, having a pup or a litter every few years. Surrogacy pays very well, especially compared to most jobs a stray and likely uneducated omega can get.Â
Bruce really doesnât want to consider that possibility if Carl is actually as young as he suspects he is, but it is possible.Â
But also . . .Â
âYou donât really think that was a detachment disorder, do you?â he asks. He doesnât want to rub it in, but that feral bond was strong, and Carl responded to Lorâs barely-begun bond to Jon, too. He ignored Tim and Damian, yes, but neither of them is young enough a pup to need to nurse, and neither of them have pack bonds with Lor. Damian almost has a secondary pack bond with Jon, at this point, but thatâs just not the same thing as a primary one. Especially not a familial primary one.Â
âI think his pup is dead,â Clark says, and looks very briefly but very intensely pained.
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So a few more thoughts on my super dumb Bleach AU where Quincy war goes bad and Aizen and Ichigo go back in time. (Links to previous posts here and here)
This is just arrancar all ending up in soul society. Like Ichigo somehow finds a way to get them to evolve to arrancar form (Residuals of the Hogyokus powers? Ichigo somehow ended up becoming the soul king without anyone realizing? Aizen has no idea and a t this point has given up trying to figure anything out about Ichigo and his powers all it does is give him a headache and have hs office turn into that always sunny meme)
So Ichigo ends up smuggling Grimmjow in and tries to hide him... it's actually the disaster trio of Byakuya, Soi Fon and Gin who start the mess. (Because they've followed Ichigo on trips to Hucheo mundo and know all the arrancar it's a little hard for their sensei/surrogate big brother to hide his maybe a boyfriend from them)
Someone catches them when Ulquiorra is with them in soul society and Byakuya starts it all when he just turns to the freaking out Shinigami and says completely calmly 'This is my cousin' and of course all the Shinigami are like 'No...No we can sense hollow reiatsu' and Byakuya just stares back 'no he's my cousin, can't you see he's clearly a Kuchiki'
And no one can quite argue with that. Also they don't exactly look like a normal hollow. (When asked about the mask and Hollow hole Byakuya and co just answer 'it's a skin condition')
This leads to Soi Fon ad Gin joining in and all three of them coming up with dumber and dumber excuses for the arrancar that they smuggle in, just to see how dumb they can get.
After a while the entire soul society is full of arrancar, and a lot are in multiple divisions 11th love them! these guys are awesome at fighting, we will protect them at all costs, 6th, 3rd and 2nd for obvious reasons, 4th because Unohana thinks this is hilarious. Then 5th because Shinji thinks this is part of Aizen's plan and wants to see what he's planning. He still thinks Aizen has an evil scheme going on... when in reality Aizen is trying not have an aneurysm and screaming into the void.
So anytime central 46 tries to do execution orders or be like 'WHY ARE THERE HOLLOWS EVERYWHERE' everyone else just goes 'What hollows? Those are just Shinigami with a skin condition'.
Shinji is still doing the keeping your enemy close thing... at this point there's a betting pool of how long it takes him to figure out Aizen's no longer planning the whole evil take over plan and just how close he'll get to him...as they're basically currently dating most bets are like 10 years after they're married
The Captain commander knows whats going on but after dealing with Ichigo and his chaotic trio of students he's just given up at this point
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Glenn Rhee x reader who allready has a child and like He tries to like get to know them and get along with them
Survival and Serendipity
Glenn Rhee x reader
In the desolate world overrun by the undead, where trust was as scarce as hope, Glenn Rhee found himself facing a challenge he hadn't expected: getting to know you and your 6-year-old child, Mia. His heart, once solely focused on survival, now fluttered with uncertainty and a longing for something more meaningful.
It all began one day when you stumbled upon the group of survivors that Glenn called family. In the midst of your weary travels, there was a glimmer of hope that led you to their camp. As Glenn watched you approach, holding Mia's hand tightly, his heart skipped a beat. You were cautious, guarded, and rightfully so. In this world, trust was a fragile commodity, and Glenn respected that.
He approached you with a warm smile, though he knew the smile could never truly match the warmth he felt inside. "Hey there," he said softly, crouching down to meet Mia's curious gaze. "What's your name?"
Mia's eyes, big and innocent, studied Glenn for a moment before she mumbled, "Mia." She clung to your side, her tiny fingers clutching your shirt.
Glenn nodded, understanding her apprehension. "Well, Mia, I'm Glenn. And this is your mom, right?" He glanced up at you, offering a reassuring smile.
You nodded, a mixture of gratitude and skepticism in your eyes. But there was something in the way Glenn spoke, something in the kindness that radiated from him, that made you want to believe that maybe, just maybe, there was still goodness in the world.
As days turned into weeks, Glenn took small steps to win both your and Mia's trust. He'd often sit with you by the campfire, sharing stories of his own childhood, his dreams, and the world before it all fell apart. Mia would listen, her eyes wide with wonder as she started to view him not just as a stranger, but as a friend.
One sunny afternoon, Glenn brought out a deck of playing cards he'd found in an abandoned gas station. He knelt before Mia, his eyes twinkling. "Hey, wanna learn a card game?" he asked, offering her a playful wink.
Mia's face lit up with excitement as she nodded vigorously. Glenn patiently taught her the game, his fingers showing her the tricks of the trade. It was in these moments that a bond began to form, a connection built on trust, patience, and the simple joy of being together.
Through countless encounters, Mia began to see Glenn as a surrogate uncle, someone she could turn to for comfort and laughter amidst the harsh reality of their world. And as for you, you couldn't help but admire the way Glenn had taken a genuine interest in your child's well-being.
One evening, as the sun dipped below the horizon, you found Glenn and Mia sitting together on a log, sharing a quiet conversation and laughing. It was a sight that warmed your heart and filled you with a hope you thought had long disappeared. Glenn Rhee had become more than just a fellow survivor; he had become a part of your family.
As the days turned into months, Glenn's bond with both you and Mia deepened. His protective instincts grew stronger, and he couldn't help but smile at the sight of Mia clinging to his side, her tiny hand in his as they navigated this treacherous world together.
One evening, under the starry sky, you found yourselves sitting around the campfire. The flickering flames danced in the darkness, casting a warm and intimate glow. Glenn's voice was soft as he recounted tales from his past, stories that spoke of a time when life was simpler, filled with laughter and love.
You couldn't deny the warmth that Glenn's presence brought into your life. He had a way of making you feel safe, cherished, and understood in a way that no one else had in years. It was as if the world had conspired to bring you together in this bleak reality.
One night, after Mia had drifted off to sleep in her makeshift bedroll, you and Glenn found yourselves alone by the campfire. The silence between you was comfortable, a testament to the deep connection that had grown between you.
Glenn turned to you, his eyes filled with a mixture of vulnerability and longing. "You know," he began, his voice barely above a whisper, "I never thought I'd find anything worth holding onto in this world. But then you and Mia came into my life, and everything changed."
Your heart skipped a beat as you met his gaze, the intensity of his words leaving you breathless. "Glenn," you whispered back, your voice trembling, "I feel the same way. You've brought hope back into our lives."
In that moment, the world around you seemed to fade away, leaving only the two of you illuminated by the campfire's gentle glow. Glenn reached for your hand, his touch sending a shiver down your spine. Slowly, he leaned in, and your lips met in a tender, heartfelt kissâa kiss that spoke of the love and connection that had blossomed between you.
From that moment on, your relationship with Glenn deepened into a love that was both fierce and tender. You faced the dangers of the world side by side, finding strength in each other's arms. Mia, too, began to see Glenn not just as a friend but as a father figure, and her trust in him only solidified your love for him.
In this harsh and unforgiving world, you and Glenn had found something rare and preciousâa love that had grown from the ashes of despair, a love that would endure the trials of the apocalypse. Together, you forged a family, bound not by blood but by the unbreakable bonds of love, trust, and survival.
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Sims In Bloom: Generation 2 Pt. 29 (Pregnant Again?!)
When Spencer and Everett's dog, JJ, fell ill, they trusted no one more than Heather to care for him. So Spencer made the long trek from Oasis Springs to Brindleton Bay while Everett stayed home to take care of their son, Greyson.
Once Heather had worked her skills and cured JJ's sickness, she invited Spencer to her place to get caught up. "I'm heading back to Selvadorada soon," said Spencer. "I can't wait to start this dig!"
"I'm a little jealous! I miss the jungle, but even a sick pet is easier to deal with than a swarm of plasma bats!"
"I'm all stocked up on repellent! Now that Greyson's a little older and eating solid foods I can think about spending time away from him. It's a little scary, but I've needed a work trip like this for so long."
"I know what you mean. Ash still needs me for everything, but the daycare is a great help."
"Malcolm hasn't stepped up at all, huh?"
Heather curled her lip in disgust. "Who? I haven't heard from any Malcolm since I was six months pregnant."
"I'm sorry."
"I'm not. If this is what Malcolm wants, it's better for Ash not to know him. He's such a sweet baby, and every time he smiles at me I feel like a superhero."
Ash was cooing away in a sunny mood when they picked him up from daycare. Spencer smiled at the infant with brown hair and green eyes. "Despite everything, you and Malcolm made a very cute kid."
"Baaaa!" The women laughed as Ash attempted to make conversation.
Heather let her son watch the world from his playmat while she and Spencer chatted about Greyson's milestones. "He's really clingy, but he clings more to Everett than me. I think he sees me as the parent who makes him eat his veggies and practice the alphabet, and Everett is 'fun guitar dad' who does all the voices when he reads him bedtime stories."
"Greyson should have both. You and Everett are a great team."
"And we've worked hard to be! It's not easy, but we started counseling recently, and we came to a decision about growing our family. We want to hire a surrogate."
Heather was surprised. "You were so sure you just wanted one kid."
"Even if I could be, I don't want to be pregnant again. And I'm not a baby person, but I'd run through a brick wall for Greyson. I enjoy being a mother, even if I'm the sort of mom most Mommy and Me groups would shun, but we both want Greyson to have a sibling."
"Why surrogacy? If you can't have children, would the baby even be yours?"
"The baby will biologically be Everett's and I'll choose the mother. That's our deal."
"How do you decide something like that?"
"I did have one idea. Everett supported it, but...I thought of you."
"Me?!"
"You loved being pregnant. I know you and Everett had feelings. In counseling he told me you kissed again when you found out you were pregnant. We discussed it for a while. I wouldn't find it strange to raise a kid who was biologically yours, if you'd even agree to such a thing."
"I'd do anything to support you two. I'd be honoured to help you grow your family, but are you sure it wouldn't be easier to raise a child with a stranger's DNA? What if the kid turns out to be a romantic mess like me?"
"And what if they turn out to be a badass business owner who saves lives and can switch out suppliers without getting sued by the Landgraabs?"
With Spencer's affirmation, Heather agreed to be their surrogate. "But I really advise against letting any of your kids get tangled up with the Landgraabs."
When Ash was just a year old, the Pancakes returned to Brindleton Bay for Heather's successful insemination. Heather really did enjoy being pregnant, but the Pancakes visited throughout her pregnancy, helping with Ash and taking her to her appointments.
But even as she bonded with the growing baby inside her, she knew in her heart his mother was Spencer. ->
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NOTE: I know, I know, this is such a stretch and if I were Spencer I'd pick literally ANYBODY ELSE, but originally I had planned for Everett to offer to be her sperm donor when she had a science baby (per the Gen 2 rules), until they acted up when Heather found out she was pregnant with Ash.
They've all been friends since they were five years old (Everett and Heather since they were about 2), so they definitely have a lifelong bond, but I was mad enough at Heather and Everett for almost woohooing autonomously that I made them decide to be just friends and changed course. But I am a sick simmer who loves to play with genetics and I really wanted to see what would happen with Everett and Heather. Will Bob's genes win, or Neal's? (Bob genes are super strong but playing this legacy for 2 generations has shown me Neal's genes are pretty strong, too!)
I wanted to include a science baby storyline in this generation but with a twist on the suggested plot for the official rules because Heather being a messy romantic versus anti-romantic and single for life felt more her after all the pining for Everett since high school. I considered having Spencer and Everett adopt, which feels like the actual right choice, but but but playing with genetics!!
I also really wanted to try out the surrogacy feature on Lumpinou's RPO mod even though I'm playing as the surrogate, not the mother, which isn't recommended. BUT it went fine except I have six-day pregnancies on long lifespan set through MCCC - a year is about 8 sim days - and the mod is only 3. On top of that, as soon as I clicked it, Heather was pregnant, first trimester. It was instant, so it all went as quickly as this whiplash post suggests!
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Treasure - a Malevolent fic
John just keeps remembering the bad things first.
This one lands hard.
Part of the Surrogate series. Written with @sepiabandensis.
AO3
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âCome on, English! You can keep up!â Parker needled, running without any effort at all, and it just wasnât fair.
Arthur shot a look in his direction that communicated the profanity he couldnât get the breath to speak.
âFaster!â Dis called.
âFaster or longer?â Parker called back. âHe canât do both!â
Dis considered. âLonger this time. Good call, Yang.â
âThank me later,â Parker muttered to Arthur, deadpan.
âI⌠hate⌠you,â Arthur gasped.
âNo, you donât,â Parker grinned.
John and Sunny ignored them both.Â
Everyoneâs exercise routine had changed; Faroe was still doing princess stuff, but Arthur and Parker now spent at least an hour walking and jogging and running, side by side (or at least, Arthur wasnât too far behind), and Sunny and John were taking full advantage.
John loved it. More than he knew how to express. Because of Sunny, he finally didnât feel so⌠alone.
[How has the poetry quest gone? Found anything you like yet?] Sunny said, tone somewhere between genuinely curious and gently teasing.
[Challenging because heâs so damn stubborn.] But John sounded pleased. [Iâve decided Iâm going to bring Hastur into it. He owes me.]
Arthur tripped. Parker pulled him up. âThanks,â Arthur muttered.
âAlways, pal,â said Parker, and smacked him on the back too hard because it was funny.
âFuck you.â Arthur grinned.
âRight back atcha.â Parker grinned, too.
[Impressive,] said Sunny. [I'm sure he will have a wealth of poetry to loan you; the Librarian should also be able to make some good recommendations, if Arthur doesn't get too suspicious.] Sunny chuckled, low. [How did you manage to get a favor from the King?]
[Because he failed to protect us, and I am going to use it.] There wasnât even really any emotion in that statement. John saw an opening, a weakness, a sore spot, and planned to take it. That was all. [Heâll provide what I ask.]
[Would he not provide what you ask anyway?] Sunny replied, quietly puzzled.
John paused as though that hadnât occurred to him. [I⌠well, I donât know. I just donât want to give him any ideas, and asking for erotic or romantic poetry for Arthur could do that.] It made sense. Who wouldnât want Arthur?
Sunny, for one. [Does the King desire Arthur?] There was growing horror in Sunny's voice. [I don't know that I will be able to deal with THREE of you lusting after that noodle-man. Ugh.]
John huffed. [Itâs not like you have to worry about it. Parker wants you. Thatâs clear. But Hasturâs marked my personâI mean, he has good taste, obviouslyâbut I donât trust him. He actually has a body to work with.] John growled a little.
Arthur was used to weird noises from his passenger during these times, and ignored it. âGotta⌠gotta slow a bit.â
âSure.â Parker relented, though his âslowâ was still aggravatingly hoppy, as if he had to keep his heart rate up and just walking wouldnât do it. âYou sound like a damned broken bellows.â
Arthur raised his middle finger. Parker laughed.
[Maybe that isnât such a bad thing, that heâs marked,] Sunny said. [Hastur does appear to care for him. Perhaps not in the past, judging by what we heard, but certainly now.] Sunny let out a thoughtful sound. [I mean, assuming that Arthur isnât too hung up on the idea of bodies in general, I think youâre safe; you do have a hand, after all.]
[And a foot. Up to the knee, actually.] John wasnât boasting. He recited this with the unselfconscious pride of a child. [Not that itâs been worth much. When I try to take over that thing, we just fall down.] A beat. [Sometimes pretty hard.] Another beat. [Weâve fallen in a lot of holes.]
[What is it with that man and holes?] Sunny laughed. [I didnât have anything but his eyes. Thatâs probably for the best.]
[Ha! My person doesnât know how to take care of himself. He needs me.] John would preen, if he could. [Itâs a miracle heâs alive at all. Anyway, Iâve decided the poetry will happen, and maybe⌠a song. Weâll see. Iâm torn becauseâŚ] He stopped.
[You can tell me.] Sunnyâs voice was gentle. [I mean, you didnât laugh at me before.]
âSounding better,â Parker said.
âJust another minute,â Arthur whined.
Parker turned and glanced back. âDis is tapping her foot.â
âShe is?â Arthur sighed. âFuck. Fuuuuuuck. Fuck!â He picked up the pace.
John let the silence stretch for a moment, hesitating. [Itâs⌠it might be⌠bad?]
Sunnyâs voice gentled. [You can tell me, John. I think⌠I think of everybody in all of Carcosa, you and I⌠we share⌠more than anybody else, in a way. Tell me anything.]
[I still donât feel like âJohn,â] John said quickly as though afraid the words would be condemned. [And I canât tell him that. I canât tell anybody. You donât count, obviously.]
Sunny took a moment to answer. When he spoke, his voice was solemn. [I⌠Iâm sorry, I didnât know. I thought you had taken the name back up.]
John sighed heavily. [I use it for him. It makes him feel⌠I donât know, but it means a lot to him, I guess because I chose it myself, before the poison. I say guess because he sucks at explaining really emotional things.]
[He does.] Sunny paused, weighty, the kind of pause that John had learned meant he was ruminating. [...He⌠he wanted me to be John when we first met, you know. Mentioned someone called Lilly and everything. When that didnât⌠jog my memory, or whatever it was he was hoping for, heâŚ] Another sigh. [...I donât want to say he âgave meâ my old name. It wasnât a good thing when he called me Yellow. Itâs like he was⌠denying me⌠any of the personhood youâd earned. What Iâm trying to say is Iâm sorry youâre stuck with a name that doesnât feel right. I understand that feeling. I⌠didnât like my old name at all.]
John fell silent while Arthur puffed, silent while Arthur took a moment to bend over and gasp like a dying fish (âWait! Just a fucking⌠come on, â) as Parker lightly jogged around him.
âYou gotta get in better shape,â said Parker.
Arthur held up his middle finger again. âBest I can.â
Parker had a look on his face John had seen; a look that said he was thinking something that made him mad, but whatever it was, Parker didnât say it. âGonna give you to the count of ten, then Iâm carrying you like some dame in a dime novel.â
âOh, you fuckingâŚâ
âNine⌠eight⌠sevenâŚâ
Arthur got moving at the count of two. âI hate you all.â
âNo, you donât.â Parker sounded pleased.Â
[The problem is I chose this name,] said John. [But I donât remember doing it, nor do I remember this Lilly who inspired it. I donât know what to do because I want to give him things Iâve created, but I canât⌠put that name on them. Right now. It doesnât feel right.]
[Names can change.] Sunny let out a low, mournful sound. [I was⌠I was Yellow for a long time, John. Almost nine years. I hated that name, but⌠âYellowâ isnât gone just because Iâm Sunny, now. I just⌠Iâm not him anymore, if that makes sense. If you wanted to use a different name, until you feel like John fitsâor never, if the case may beâI think thatâs understandable.]
[You donât feel like Yellow to me.] John said earnestly.
[...Really?] Sunny said, low and stunned.
[You never have, as long as Iâve known you,] John said, oblivious to the profundity of his words.
âFuck this,â said Arthur, interrupting the moment.
âCome on,â said Parker more gently, pulling him up. âIs it really that bad?â
âStitch in my side wonât go away.â
âAll right. Weâll walk the rest of the day. Fuck Dis,â said Parker, who could tell the difference between whining Arthur and exhausted Arthur. âHonestly? Itâs fuckinâ amazing you can do this blind.â
âIâm not blind, though,â said Arthur. âNot really. I have John.â
[See? See? What in fuck do I do with that? I canât take that name from him!]
[He doesnât know any better.] Sunnyâs voice was gentle. [I mean, youâre right: the name âJohnâ is important to him. It represents a lot. But itâs just a name. Youâre still important, even if you donât feel like being called that; and he loves you. Thatâs not going to change because youâve decided to call yourself James or Fitzwilliam or something.]
John went quiet for a moment. [How are you so wise?] He asked, almost suspicious.
[Probably the eight years being called a name I hated by a person who also hated me,] Sunny said dryly. [Personally, I donât recommend it. I feel like Iâve learned more in the⌠oh, year and a half or so Iâve been with Parker than I did in all of that time.]
John let out a deep, pleased rumble. [Are you sure you donât want your praises sung properly before the court? I still think you should be.]
[If word gets out that Hastur has a Forgotten One, heâll look weak,] Sunny said, which was not an answer at all. [Itâs safer for all of usâme, you, Parker, Arthur, Hastur, Faroeâif I stay hidden. Besides, it would be silly to do so if Iâm going to rejoin with Hastur in five years or so.]
John sighed. That was a whole topic he didnât like, so he moved along. [What do you think I should call myself?] he said.
Sunny considered. [Do you feel like human names? Or is that too close to John?]
[I donât think I want a human name, no. Even if itâs just for me, and I donât tell Arthur. Iâm not human.] He hesitated. [I still think of myself as the King in Yellow. But that obviously wonât work.]
[You⌠you could, if you wanted to.] Sunny sounded very much like he hoped John wouldnât want to. [You know, I could use your personal name, if you wanted. If that would help you feel more yourself.]
Arthurâs left hand formed a fist and raised into the air as if celebrating. [Thatâs brilliant!]
Parker eyed it.
Arthur tilted his head. âEverything good?â
Yes! said John.
Arthur shook his head. âTheyâre like a couple of kids in their room, scheming, while we do the real work.â
Parker snorted.
[I⌠Iâm not brilliant,] Sunny said, baffled. [Iâalright, I will. You just have to decide on one, then. And when youâre ready, you can tell Arthur and Parker, and weâll handle it.] He rumbled. [Maybe⌠something in Râlyehian? Most names for our kind come from our language, you know.]
Dis had caught up. âDown to walking?â
âYeah, heâs tapped,â said Parker.
âGood. Time to shoot,â said Dis.
âWh-what?â said Arthur, gasping. âNow?â
âTake aim and shoot.â She shoved a bow and arrow against his chest. âLike this. Before you catch your breath. People in a fight wonât wait politely while you wheeze.â
âOoh,â said Parker. âI like that.â
Arthur sighed. âGuess Iâm outnumbered. Ready, John?â
Yes. [And yes. I agree.]
The conversation paused briefly while John directed, helping Arthur to take aim with his new bow (and how the hell Faroe made it look so easy was a mystery in itself). Theyâd done it with a javelin; it was a different thing with a different weapon, all while Arthur hadnât caught his breath yet.
The breathing kept moving Arthur, throwing off their aim.
You have to breathe out and hold it. Just for a moment, while you release, or it goes off.
âRight,â said Arthur.
Yes. Yes! Straight line from the opposite shoulder. Good.
âWow!â Parker said. âHit the target!â
âI have a great partner,â said Arthur, warmly, and touched his left hand. âYouâre a treasure, John.â
Dis took the bow. âWalk.â
Arthur did, shaking his fingers. âIâm going to need callouses.â
âIâll join you next time,â said Parker, walking with him. âDamn, that was cool to watch.â
[Yes,] John said suddenly. [In my own tongue. Yes.]
[Well,] Sunny said, deeply pleased with himself. [I think Arthur just gave me an idea.]
[Iâm all ears. Haha! I donât have any ears,] said John.
Sunny politely chuckled. [Itâs simple, snappy. Can shorten it for a nickname if you want. Itâs golden, so it works even better. And, technically, Arthur gave it to you, so it has meaning.] Sunnyâs voice was bright, cheerful. [What do you think of Gokarâluh?]
John went completely quiet.
Arthurâs left leg jerked, and he fell with a gasp.
Parker caught him. âHey, careful! You okay?â
Arthurâs left arm hung limp. âJohn?â
IâŚ
âJohn?â said Arthur again, standing.
Itâs a beautiful name, John said softly..
John?Â
You donât⌠remember. Do you.
Remember what? Sunnyâs voice was puzzled. Are you alright?
A beautiful name, John said again. We⌠we picked that name before, Sunny. When we were one.
âHuh?â said Parker.
âJohn?â Arthur gripped his left hand. âWhat name? Whatâs going on?â
And John growled.
This wasnât the playful, childish growl of before. This was deep, and angry. The kind of growl that came with destruction. We need to go in. All of us. Sunny, we need to find Hastur. This doesnât get borne alone.
Did I do something wrong? Sunnyâs voice went worried. John? Iâm⌠Iâm sorry. I donât know what I did, but I wonât do it again.
No. You did not. Johnâs voice dropped. He did.Â
âWho did what?â said Parker. âArthur? You know whatâs going on?âÂ
âNo. IâŚâ Arthur frowned. âI donât understand them, and I wasnât paying attention.â
Parker reached up and stroked his jaw. âItâs gonna be okay, bud. Itâs gonna be okay.â
HASTUR! John roared, and there was magic in it, and he hadnât warned Arthur, and maybe didnât care.
Arthur passed out.
Parker caught him. âWhat the fuck?â
And maybe, in fact, it was on purpose. Thatâll get his fucking attention! John snarled.
What the fuck, John? Sunnyâs insubstantial breath came in panicky gasps. Why?
âWhat the hell is going on here?â said Dis, jogging up.
âI donât know! Johnâs lost his fucking mind!â Parker said.
It was necessary, John snapped.
Parkerâs jaw was set. âYouâre fucking lucky I donât have a way to deck you.â
No! Sunny yelped. No, no, donâtâdonât fight! Please, let me wake Arthur up and we can justâwe can figure it out, pleaseâ
Hastur appeared, replacing air so quickly that breeze blasted them all back a step. The world went still. Sound faded out; color did, too, as though heâd put reality on pause.
He seemed huge, and he brought some kind of boundary with himâclear and pearlescent, like a soap bubble, keeping Arthur and Parker and Sunny and John in one place.
Dis was on the outside of whatever this bubble was. She mouthed, good luck, gave Parker a thumbs-up, and walked away at speed.
âOh, shit,â Parker said quietly, staring up at him.
âIs there a reason,â Hastur said slowly, and they could both feel the rumble of his voice through the ground, âthat you have chosen to hurt your host?â
Yes, said John. And first of all, heâs not fucking hurt. Heâs out, because I donât want him getting in the middle of this.
âFuck, fuck, fuck,â Parker was muttering.
Sunny let out a small whimper.
âIn the middle of?â prompted Hastur, louder.
Gokarâluh, said John.
And Hastur⌠shrank?
Not exactly. But the anger evaporated like mist in the morning, the rumbling around them ceased, the looming threat just⌠vanished. The bubble disappeared. Birds chirped. The day was lovely.
âAh,â said the King in Yellow.
Ah? Ah? John repeated.
Parker frowned. âGokarâluh. I know that word. Treasure?â he said. âUh. Buried, orâŚâ
âYou remember,â said Hastur to John. It wasnât a question.
I remember enough. Sunny doesnât yet. But Iâm sure he will.
Arthur stirred.
Hastur rested one hand on his head and put him right back under.Â
Ha! said John, as if heâd been proven right.
âWhat in fuck is going on?â said Parker.
âI suppose it cannot be avoided,â Hastur said softly, and without any further warning, picked them both up.Â
Parker yipped. âWarn a guy!â
Whatâwhat donât I remember? Sunny whispered.
âUh. Hey. Big guy. We, uh. Are we in trouble?â said Parker.
âNo,â said Hastur, and flew.
Arthur slept. Honestly, he probably needed it.
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They went to Hasturâs bedroom, which was huge. Absurdly huge, though Parker knew that was for practical purposes; couldnât get up to much with another god if it wasnât huge in there, just practically speaking.Â
Sunny was quiet, but there, present, awake. Parker kept contact, fingertips on his jaw. Parkerâs tongue lashed in his mouth; Sunny twisted incorporeally in his head.
Arthur snored very lightly. It was cute. Hastur laid him gently on the bed.
Answer for what you did, you coward, said John.
Instead of answering, Hastur took Arthur up againâstill holding Parkerâand went to a seemingly random corner in his room.
It turned out he had a little secret stash there, hidden in the wall. From it, he took something; something of spikes, something black that gleamed as if twisting light inside itself, something Parker had trouble focusing clearly on.
âWhat is that?â Parker said, voice low and wary.
In his head, Sunny gasped. Is⌠Is that a crown? Of godblood? His voice was low with shock, the disbelief clear. Hastur⌠what is this?
Hastur put the crown in Parkerâs hands.
Parker froze. âThe fuck?â he whispered. âWhy does this feel familiar?â
âGo on,â said Hastur.
Parker turned it in his hands, studying, analyzing how it buzzed against his palm. âIt feels like the first time Sunny cast magic through me.â
What? Said Sunny, soft and high.
 âFucking hell, Hastur, what is this?â
âThat is the crown of my son.â
Parkerâs eyes went huge.
Sunny was quiet.
You fucking⌠John started.
âSunny⌠you had⌠you had a kid?â Parker said almost reverently.
S⌠son? Sunnyâs voice was soft, raw and vulnerable and shocked. We⌠We have a son?
Had, snarled John.Â
And Hastur just⌠went there. âHe was going to kill Faroe and Arthur.â
âOh, shit,â Parker whispered. âWhy was he going to do that?â
âTo hurt me.â
Wh⌠What? Sunny sounded so small, so lost. Why wouldâI donât understand.
âWas he jealous?â said Parker quietly.
âYes,â said Hastur. âBut I had driven him away long before then.â He took the crown back, handling it like the most precious thing he had; his many eyes lingered, one finger gently tracing the glassy planes of its points.
John was breathing hard. You killed him!
âI had to.â
You killed⌠you killed him!
âYou donât remember anything but that moment, do you?â said Hastur.
I⌠I had a son, Sunny whispered slowly. I had⌠But I donât⌠His breath quickened.
âI got you,â Parker murmured. âBreathe.â
I had a son! Sunny hitched.
Parker was staring at the little hole in the wall. âWhatâs that in there? Thereâs more stuff.â
âThings.â Hastur sealed it up.
Murderer! John cried.
This had swung right out of control. Parker exhaled slowly and touched his lips.Â
Hastur sighed deeply. âI hadnât planned on this today. We will go over all the facts later, including the public face we must wear about this.â
I wonât be an issue, Sunny said, his voice⌠broken. I donât remember. Iâm⌠sorry.
But you⌠John seemed confused that no one was rising with him in rage and shouting. But you killed him!
âI was not given a choice,â said Hastur.
âAt least you got to be a father,â said Parker quietly. âSome of usâll never get that chance. Iâm sorry it went that way.â
But you⌠John stopped.Â
Iâm sorry, Sunny said again.Â
âDonât be.â Hasturâs voice was rough. âArthur was there. Heâll have his own version of this to tell. Perhaps⌠you should all stay away from court today.â
But you⌠John trailed off again. In court? What, you want me to pretend this is a good thing? That you killed our son?
And Hastur bailed.
He put both humans on the bed, gently enough, and then just left . Floated out. Left them in his bedroom.
Coward! John cried after him, voice cracking, and then fell silent.
Arthur snored, the tiniest little buzzing.
Fuck me, Parker thought, and swallowed. Did this make him the responsible adult in the room? Close enough. He tried misdirection. He wriggled a little. âNow, this is a bed for a king, huh? Hey, Lester. Come on, buddy. Wake up.â He patted Arthurâs cheeks lightly.
Parkerâs eyes stung, but the tears were not his own. I donât remember. I donât remember him, Sunny mumbled as they spilled down Parkerâs cheeks. Heâs⌠I donâtâŚ
âHey,â Parker said. âSunny, itâs⌠youâre okay. Iâm here, bud.â
I donât remember my own son. Sunny made one small, pained keening sound.
He⌠he was⌠John stumbled. Gokarâluh wasâŚ
âProud,â whispered Arthur. âLike Hastur without Faroe. You remembered?â
John sounded shaky. Yes, he whispered. But only the end.
âFuck. Iâm sorry.â Arthur sighed, then slid his hands over the blankets beneath him. âThis isnât our bed. Where are we?â
âHasturâs bed, no big deal,â said Parker. âTalk.â
Arthur looked troubled. âThatâs really ironic,â he said softly. âThe night it all happened, we came back here. We slept in this room.â
Gods donât sleep, John snapped as though catching him in a lie.
âFaroe and I slept. Nibbles was here, andâŚâ Arthur sighed. âIâd better start at the end of the Games. I guess itâs time to talk about this.â
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Arthur told them.
He told them about Faroe reacting to their constant bickering by running off, blaming herself.
He told them about their journey through the Dreamlands, their many adventures, always just behind her, fighting to catch up; he told them about Hastur changingâabout Hastur away from the constant adoration of court. About finally finding peace, even respect, between the three of them. About the strange, simple beauty of being stuck alone on the road.
He told them Hasturâs version of events when the Oracle was cast aside.
And then he told them what the Oracle claimed.
âOh,â said Parker, who could see it, who had always been good at seeing from all sides, and could see how everybody fucked up and there was no good or bad guy.Â
It was just sad. Fucking sad. He wiped his eyes, this time for himself.
Arthur struggled to describe the sound of Faroeâs throat being torn, struggled to describe the pain of his legs being snapped, of John casting magic, of the desperation to reach Nibbles and free her so Faroe could be okay.
He healed her, said John, suddenly remembering.
âHe did,â said Arthur. âOr sheâd be dead.â And then he had to briefly stop, shuddering and gasping for emotional control.Â
Parker wrapped an arm around him and hugged him tight, rubbing small circles into his back with his thumb.
Arthur turned against him and breathed against his shoulder, exhaling slowly and shakily. Finally, softly, he continued.
He told them how heroic John had been. He told them of drawing the sword from the stone.
We did? said John, awed.
âYouâre incredible, John,â Arthur whispered, and meant it.
John made a choked sound and fell silent.
Arthur told them about climbing the rubble and leaping toward their enemyâhow John directed him like a human javelin, how they managed to pierce Gokarâluhâs hide. âThen he ripped us off him, howling like a demon,â Arthur said, voice rough, âand he threw us so fucking hard. So hard it made my neck hurt. So hard⌠it was worse than falling. He threw us so hard .â
âHe was trying to kill you,â Parker said, voice low and full of gravel. âSmash the both of you.â
Arthur nodded. âI donât know this part, but Iâm still sure of it,â he whispered. âI think they were both⌠done. They needed it to end, but they were both too fucking proud to just⌠end it. Or at least, Gokarâluh was. Hastur kept telling him to stop, but he wouldnât. He wouldnât.â
âI think I know where this is going,â whispered Parker.
Arthur swallowed. âGokarâluh said, âAll this time, you could have changed⌠but not for me.â After that is⌠he⌠was trying to force Hastur to kill him. Iâm really certain.â
âYeah,â said Parker, and scowled. âI swear. I swear . These fucking gods pretend to be so different from us, but theyâre not.â
âSo yes,â Arthur said. âHe tried to kill us. And when Hastur saved us, Gokarâluh swore heâd murder Faroe. That there was nowhere she would be safe, he said. Heâd find her, and kill her. No matter how long it took. And thatâs the thing about Hastur, Parker. Heâs done horrible things, but he really loves my daughter. So that⌠Gokarâluh had found the magic button. Heâd already nearly killed her once, and the threat of a repeat was just too far. So thatâs when Hastur took the sword weâd made, andâŚâ
Killed him. John took a shaking breath. Pierced both of his hearts in one strike. He knew exactly where they were, and he justâand heâ
Arthur took Johnâs hand in his, holding it to his heart as he squeezed. âHastur held him while⌠while he died. They said⌠Hastur said he was defeated. That Gokarâluh had won. And⌠that he loved him. I think f,or what it was, it couldnât have gone any other way, but it could have been⌠so much worse.â
Parker wiped his eyes again. âWorse.â
âHastur was so fucked up after that,â said Arthur. âWe got Faroe, and we came home, but he was so fucked up. He was like a different person.â And there was no better time to say it. âI think heâs still fucked up. Heâs hiding it, but heâs not okay. He hasnât gotten better.â
âFuck.â Parker slumped, arms on his knees. âFuck. When was all this?â
And perhaps unexpected, Arthur laughed; it was not a good sound. âThe night Kayne dumped you and Sunny and Larson all into our laps and said we had to make a good show. Literally hours after, right on the stroke of midnightâFaroeâs birthday.â
Parker groaned and rolled onto his back. âOh, fucking hell, no wonder you were bugfuck crazy. And thatâs why Hastur had toâŚâ
âSway me. Yes.â Arthur swallowed.
Parker exhaled, puffing out his cheeks, and stretched his arms over his head onto the pillow bigger than his bathtub. âThis is a big problem, fellas. A big problem.â
Iâm sorry, John, Sunny whispered, the sound heart-wrenching. I didnât⌠I didnât know. Iâm sorry you had⌠to remember, like that.
John was so quiet. I just remembered the moment, the⌠the moment it was too late . Thatâs all I had. It was too late. He was dying.
âI donât know that remembering the context would have made it better,â Arthur said quietly. âYou were so angry at Hastur afterward. You were for a long time.â
I am angry now, John said. Fuck. But I donât know what I would have done in his place.
âWait a second,â said Parker. âThat canât be the same Oracle they were all laughing about Hastur smashing in court. Tell me itâs not the same one, Arthur.â
Arthur sighed slowly. âIf Hastur looks weak, if it becomes known how he reacted to threat against Faroe, if any of this gets out⌠we all get a target painted right on our fucking faces. Especially Faroe. Sheâs the most vulnerable, and he wonât risk that. For all his awful qualities⌠heâll never risk her .â
Fuck this place. Fuck it. Fuck!
Parker let out a sigh. âThatâs just mobsters for you. They show weakness, someoneâs gonna come gunninâ for that as hard as they can. You got targeted âcause heâs been calling you his kid, John, and thatâs not a weak position.â
John paused. I know that. Though it sounded like it hadnât fully sunk in until now. And Faroe is⌠a child . I can see why we must⌠defer attention.
âFaroe stays safe.â Arthurâs tone was grim, final. âPeriod. Iâm united with him on that.â
Yes, yes, I know, said John, because theyâd been over this loads of times.
âI fucking mean it,â Arthur actually snarled. âWhatever has to happen for her to be safe, itâs happening. â
âAinât no one arguing that,â Parker said gently. âItâs okay, English. For once, everyoneâs in agreement.â
Arthur calmed.
Parker climbed out of the bed, stood, and held open his arms. âCome âere, English. Thisâs for you too, John. And you, sunshine.â
Arthur needed it. Sore, slow, he climbed out of the bed, following Parkerâs voice, and accepted a hug so tight it made his bones crack. He exhaled slowly, tension draining. âJohn, Iâm so sorry you remembered this way.â
John hesitated. At least I remembered when we werenât in public view. I donât think I couldâve⌠maintained myself if this had happened in court, or something.
Youâre not upset with me, are you? Sunnyâs voice was so small.
John grunted. No. Why would I be upset with you? You helped me. Youâre the wisest person I know. I trust you.
This⌠has hurt you. It was my doing, however unintentional. Sunnyâs voice was subdued. I am⌠It is⌠Itâs a relief to know you donât hold it against me. Iâm sorry it happened, but Iâm⌠Iâm glad youâre here.
Parker smiled, giving Arthur another tight squeeze before letting go, and he turned away. âYou alright, partner?â he asked, voice quiet.
I⌠donât know, Sunny replied in his own whisper. Could we stay a bit longer?
Parker smiled, touching his lips.
John? Could⌠could Parker and I stay a bit longer?
Iâd prefer it if you did. We need the wisdom.
Arthur snorted softly, but didnât seem really dismissive. âYeah. Wisdom. I canât say we donât need it.â He got back on the bed (well, climbed onto it), and sat with his arms around his knees.
I donât know that Iâm up for any more wisdom today, Sunny said, quietly.Â
Just be you . John was so sure of this.Â
Arthur closed his eyes and leaned forward.
Parker hesitated just a little, then put his arm around Arthurâs shoulders.
Sunny took a shuddering breath, and began to speak.
This is my son that you have taken, Guard lest your gold-vault walls be shaken, Never again to speak or waken.
This, that I gave my life to make, This you have bidden the vultures breakâ Dead for your selfish quarrelâs sake!
This that I built all of my years, Made with my strength and love and tears, Dead for pride of your shining spears!
Just for your playthings bought and sold You have crushed to a heap of mold Youth and life worth a whole worldâs goldâ
This was my son, that you have taken, Guard lest your gold-vault walls be shakenâ Thisâthat shall never speak or waken.
John let out a soft sob.
Arthur took a shuddering breath, letting Johnâs tears fall onto Parkerâs shoulderâand, head down, he responded.
âDo not stand By my grave, and weep, I am not there, I do not sleepâ
I am the thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints in snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle, autumn rain. As you awake with morning's hush, I am the swift, up-flinging rush Of quiet birds in circling flight. I am the day transcending night.
Do not stand By my grave, and cryâ I am not there, I did not die.â
Fuck you both, John choked out.
Sunny laughed, voice thick with tears; in a moment John joined him, the two bass voices rising and falling with their sobs and laughs. Arthur held Parker tight, face buried against his shoulder, and Parker held all three of them as best he could until they grew quiet and still.
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Notes:
Sunny's Poem: A Mother To The War-Makers Arthur's Poem: Immortality (Do Not Stand By My Grave And Weep) Kraiva would like to dedicate this fic to IchthyOccult, who has been dutifully reminding everyone of how neither John nor Sunny knew their son was dead since John lost his memories. You're a little freak, Ichthy, and I love you.
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I know this song is Christian in origin, but I feel like the lyrics can really fit Parker and Sunny (especially Sunny)
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For Bobby?
â'Cause you're beautiful and smart, fuckin' talentedâ
Bobby doesnât mean to fall in love with you, itâs just something that happens throughout the duration of your partnership. Youâre meant to be a maternity cover, someone to pick up Eameâs caseload while sheâs away as a surrogate for her sister.
When you first appear, he hates your sunny disposition. Eames is sensible, practical, itâs a good balance to his eccentric qualities. Youâre too bright, too vibrant, it hurts to even look at you. The worst part is you donât even try to reign him in.
âYouâre an adult. Youâre smart enough to know when youâre going too far.â You tell him when he confronts you about it. âYouâre just pissed off because youâre missing your partner.â
He pauses then because honestly, he never dreamed that youâd call him out like that. He hadnât thought it was in your nature. He starts to see you in a different light then, because underneath all of the sunshine and rainbows, thereâs a core of steel.
He sees it during interrogations, when you go toe to toe with suspects. You have a way of getting under peopleâs skin, of deducing their secrets. He has a forensic mind but you, youâre emotionally intelligent. You get people.
âHowâs she working out?â Captain Deakins him one night after youâve gone home.
âWe had a rocky start.â He tells his captain, his palm rubbing across his mouth as he stares at your desk with the brightly coloured pens and post its. Youâre a visual person, you work best colour coding information, it was infuriating in the beginning but now he kind of likes it. It adds a little something to his day. âBut sheâs growing on me.â
Itâs a Tuesday when he realises that everything has changed. You look up from a report youâre reading, and you give him that smile, the one that makes his heart beat a little faster in his chest. He finds the edges of his mouth tilting up as his gaze lowers back to the paper in front of him.
Yea, youâre definitely growing on him.
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Awful idea, but t4t4t Poly MC, but the stroyline is that Tubbo was originally going to be the surrogate for FitPac but they all end up falling in love.
Bonus points for childhood friends trope
WDYM AWFUL IDEA. THIS IS BEAUTIFUL. Anyway he still is the surrogate. Tubbo had ramon first and then pac had richas and tubbo had sunny :) I think the first time they see tubbo swaddling and holding ramon they fall in love with the sight and realize they want him living with them and being a parent to ramon too....
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hey!
I just wanted to ask it you're still doing the Animutant thing, I'm getting back into it now and I had a few questions
First was if me and a friend were allowed to make an OC for it, and I just wanted to ask permission, and second was what kinds of jobs could they get?
Yes, I have two slow-process on-going fics of the FNAF Animutant AU (A Not so Sunny World & My Dear Daffodil). And then I have my original Animutant story "Dreamflower" slowly in the works too, hoping to post a couple of the first chapters before the year ends!
Both, the original story and the FNAF AU are open for people's OCs! Just be mindful of the universe when designing your OCs. The universal rules for the original and FNAF version are a bit different.
If you want to make an OC to the FNAF AUs, here's a quick recap of the basic concept of Animutants:
Animutants are always created in laboratories. All Animutants are adults (with very rare exceptions).
Animutants come in 3 sentience levels: 1 is the lowest, close to a plant sentience, level 2 is like a trained animal sentience, and level 3 is human sentience.
Animutants are a mixture of different DNAs; mutated alien DNA is their base, some human DNA and various animal and plant DNAs are used to create individual-looking mutants.
Animutants don't get ill with human illnesses, and they live 10 times longer.
Animutants can work almost any job, as long as their owner is a human, or a company.
Animutants come in all mixtures of animals or creatures. All animutants are about 5'10-10' tall, but some exceptions exist (like DJMM).
Level 3 animutants have fake reproductive systems, but none of them are fertile. Female mutants have periods and wombs, but the womb is used only for surrogate pregnancies. Female mutants are more expensive to make.
Non-animal animutants are called celestials, and they're always intersex.
Animutants are treated like "robots", so technically as objects you can own and sell. Sometimes the world is very cruel to them.
If you want to make an OC for the Dreamflower original story, I'd suggest checking my other blog @pixel-chills where I answer questions relating to it. These Animutants differ from the FNAF Animutants a lot:
Animutants are mutated humans. They act and look more human-like, but might have some animal or plant genes mixed in their system, thus giving them ears, horns, tails, or weird skins.
Animutants are a small minority of humans. A person might mutate if they die, if they happen to carry the mutant gene. Most animutants are early embryos who died in the womb, but mutated and were born as an animutant.
Animutants work very similarly to humans bodily, they can get pregnant, get ill, have chromosome-based genitalia etc.
...uh, just ask if you have any other questions :D OCs are welcome!
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#FFxivWrite2024 Wrap-Up Post
Collected for your convenience, the entirety of #FFxivWrite2024! Arranged by day, by AU/pairing, and by spoiler amount.
Spoiler key:
No spoilers: No spoilers apply.
Light spoilers: Place or people names from content may be used, but no plot is mentioned.
Full spoilers: Plot is mentioned.
Table of Contents
01. Steer - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. Motorcycle riding is more complex than anticipated. No spoilers.
02. Horizon - The last of the gods makes their decision on where to spend their days. Full spoilers for post-Endwalker Myths of the Realm alliance raid.
03. Tempest - Archon, Alphinaud and Tataru take refuge at Camp Dragonhead after the Ulâdahn banquet, but their hearts are unquiet. Full spoilers for Realm Reborn post-MSQ.Â
04. Reticent - A short character study between Warrior of Light Archon Valusk and a Tertium NPC about their cultural differences in outward joviality. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
05. Stamp - Raubahn receives a letter from a soldier previously under his command, and is gladdened to see how the man has grown. Full spoilers for Dawntrail MSQ.
06. Halcyon - A lazy morning. No spoilers.
07. Morsel - Archon is a foodie. Light spoilers for Endwalker locations.
08. Free Day: Thread - FFXVI Dominants AU. Archon exploring Naldâs powers. No spoilers.
09. Lend an Ear - Archon and Thancred argue about the pros and cons of linkpearls. No spoilers.
10. Stable - Maxima considers his new living situation and how it differs from his old. Full spoilers for post-Stormblood MSQ.
11. Surrogate - Archius pairing, G. Archon doesnât want his partner to leave on a trip. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
12. Quarry - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 1 of 4. Zenos hunts Archon while Archon hunts him back. No spoilers.
13. Butte - Weird West AU. Archon arrives at Stonewood in Tuliyollal. No spoilers.
14. Telling - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 2 of 4. Zenos spots signs of his quarry. No spoilers.
15. Free Day: Bubble - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. Archon appreciates some of the unique amenities Garlemald has to offer. No spoilers.
16. Third-Rate - Lolorito wants to make a deal in an upcoming market. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
17. Sally - Archius pairing, G. Archon introduces his partner to his chocobo. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
18. Hackneyed - Archon ruminates on his homeland. Light spoilers for Endwalker place names.
19. Taken - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 4 of 4. Zenos makes the pin. No spoilers.
20. Duel - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 3 of 4. Archon and Zenos begin to fight. No spoilers.
21. Shade - Archius pairing, G. Archon enjoys a sunny beach day with his partner. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
22. Free Day: Requirements - Archon obliges the twins with a formal dinner, despite his reservations. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
23. On Cloud Nine - Archius pairing, G. Archon and his family enjoy a night under the stars. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
24. Bar - Weird West AU. Archon hears something suspicious downstairs at the Saltlick. No spoilers.
25. Perpetuity - Archon, Alphinaud, and Lucia consider if items are safe enough. Full spoilers for Heavensward MSQ.
26. Zip - Archon and Nero fight over some gear. Light spoilers for Stormblood character and gear names.
27. Memory - Archius pairing, T. Archonâs partner has a nightmare. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
28. Deleterious - Maxima deals with the heat. Full spoilers for post-Stormblood MSQ.
29. Free Day: Holdup - Weird West AU. Archon has his work stolen from him. No spoilers.
30. Two Heads are Better than One - Thancred considers his future after the end of Endwalker. Archon cheers him up. Full spoilers for post-Endwalker MSQ.
Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU:
01. Steer - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. Motorcycle riding is more complex than anticipated. No spoilers.
12. Quarry - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 1 of 4. Zenos hunts Archon while Archon hunts him back. No spoilers.
14. Telling - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 2 of 4. Zenos spots signs of his quarry. No spoilers.
20. Duel - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 3 of 4. Archon and Zenos begin to fight. No spoilers.
19. Taken - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 4 of 4. Zenos makes the pin. No spoilers.
15. Free Day: Bubble - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. Archon appreciates some of the unique amenities Garlemald has to offer. No spoilers.
Archius pairing:
11. Surrogate - Archius pairing, G. Archon doesnât want his partner to leave on a trip. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
17. Sally - Archius pairing, G. Archon introduces his partner to his chocobo. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
21. Shade - Archius pairing, G. Archon enjoys a sunny beach day with his partner. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
23. On Cloud Nine - Archius pairing, G. Archon and his family enjoy a night under the stars. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
27. Memory - Archius pairing, T. Archonâs partner has a nightmare. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
FFXVI Dominants AU:
08. Free Day: Thread - FFXVI Dominants AU. Archon exploring Naldâs powers. No spoilers.
Weird West AU:
13. Butte - Weird West AU. Archon arrives at Stonewood in Tuliyollal. No spoilers.
24. Bar - Weird West AU. Archon hears something suspicious downstairs at the Saltlick. No spoilers.
29. Free Day: Holdup - Weird West AU. Archon has his work stolen from him. No spoilers.
Canon:
02. Horizon - The last of the gods makes their decision on where to spend their days. Full spoilers for post-Endwalker Myths of the Realm alliance raid.
03. Tempest - Archon, Alphinaud and Tataru take refuge at Camp Dragonhead after the Ulâdahn banquet, but their hearts are unquiet. Full spoilers for Realm Reborn post-MSQ.Â
04. Reticent - A short character study between Warrior of Light Archon Valusk and a Tertium NPC about their cultural differences in outward joviality. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
05. Stamp - Raubahn receives a letter from a soldier previously under his command, and is gladdened to see how the man has grown. Full spoilers for Dawntrail MSQ.
06. Halcyon - A lazy morning. No spoilers.
07. Morsel - Archon is a foodie. Light spoilers for Endwalker locations.
09. Lend an Ear - Archon and Thancred argue about the pros and cons of linkpearls. No spoilers.
10. Stable - Maxima considers his new living situation and how it differs from his old. Full spoilers for post-Stormblood MSQ.
16. Third-Rate - Lolorito wants to make a deal in an upcoming market. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
18. Hackneyed - Archon ruminates on his homeland. Light spoilers for Endwalker place names.
22. Free Day: Requirements - Archon obliges the twins with a formal dinner, despite his reservations. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
25. Perpetuity - Archon, Alphinaud, and Lucia consider if items are safe enough. Full spoilers for Heavensward MSQ.
26. Zip - Archon and Nero fight over some gear. Light spoilers for Stormblood character and gear names.
28. Deleterious - Maxima deals with the heat. Full spoilers for post-Stormblood MSQ.
30. Two Heads are Better than One - Thancred considers his future after the end of Endwalker. Archon cheers him up. Full spoilers for post-Endwalker MSQ.
No spoilers:
01. Steer - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. Motorcycle riding is more complex than anticipated. No spoilers.
06. Halcyon - A lazy morning. No spoilers.
08. Free Day: Thread - FFXVI Dominants AU. Archon exploring Naldâs powers. No spoilers.
09. Lend an Ear - Archon and Thancred argue about the pros and cons of linkpearls. No spoilers.
12. Quarry - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 1 of 4. Zenos hunts Archon while Archon hunts him back. No spoilers.
13. Butte - Weird West AU. Archon arrives at Stonewood in Tuliyollal. No spoilers.
14. Telling - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 2 of 4. Zenos spots signs of his quarry. No spoilers.
15. Free Day: Bubble - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. Archon appreciates some of the unique amenities Garlemald has to offer. No spoilers.
19. Taken - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 4 of 4. Zenos makes the pin. No spoilers.
20. Duel - Zenos/WoL Arranged Marriage AU. The Chase, part 3 of 4. Archon and Zenos begin to fight. No spoilers.
24. Bar - Weird West AU. Archon hears something suspicious downstairs at the Saltlick. No spoilers.
29. Free Day: Holdup - Weird West AU. Archon has his work stolen from him. No spoilers.
Light spoilers:
07. Morsel - Archon is a foodie. Light spoilers for Endwalker locations.
11. Surrogate - Archius pairing, G. Archon doesnât want his partner to leave on a trip. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
17. Sally - Archius pairing, G. Archon introduces his partner to his chocobo. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
18. Hackneyed - Archon ruminates on his homeland. Light spoilers for Endwalker place names.
21. Shade - Archius pairing, G. Archon enjoys a sunny beach day with his partner. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
23. On Cloud Nine - Archius pairing, G. Archon and his family enjoy a night under the stars. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
26. Zip - Archon and Nero fight over some gear. Light spoilers for Stormblood character and gear names.
27. Memory - Archius pairing, T. Archonâs partner has a nightmare. Light spoilers for post-Stormblood character names.
Full spoilers:
02. Horizon - The last of the gods makes their decision on where to spend their days. Full spoilers for post-Endwalker Myths of the Realm alliance raid.
03. Tempest - Archon, Alphinaud and Tataru take refuge at Camp Dragonhead after the Ulâdahn banquet, but their hearts are unquiet. Full spoilers for Realm Reborn post-MSQ.Â
04. Reticent - A short character study between Warrior of Light Archon Valusk and a Tertium NPC about their cultural differences in outward joviality. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
05. Stamp - Raubahn receives a letter from a soldier previously under his command, and is gladdened to see how the man has grown. Full spoilers for Dawntrail MSQ.
10. Stable - Maxima considers his new living situation and how it differs from his old. Full spoilers for post-Stormblood MSQ.
16. Third-Rate - Lolorito wants to make a deal in an upcoming market. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
22. Free Day: Requirements - Archon obliges the twins with a formal dinner, despite his reservations. Full spoilers for Endwalker MSQ.
25. Perpetuity - Archon, Alphinaud, and Lucia consider if items are safe enough. Full spoilers for Heavensward MSQ.
28. Deleterious - Maxima deals with the heat. Full spoilers for post-Stormblood MSQ.
30. Two Heads are Better than One - Thancred considers his future after the end of Endwalker. Archon cheers him up. Full spoilers for post-Endwalker MSQ.
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