#sums up just about me these days

[distance-does-not-matter]

update on the dating app guy: he made it so that if i did in fact meet up with him, i would not be able to defend myself from the egg on my face, so i had to call it off. also some of the stuff was :/ but the funniest was what i am calling the peacocking

[art--harridan]

[Image description: A traditional drawing of Katrina from the film Vamp. It is boldly coloured with oil pastels, and is a close-up of her face, stretched out to bare her fangs. Both her mouth and her eyes are wide open, although one of her eyes is obscured in a dark shadow. She is deeply shadowed, although the contours of her face are lit up from below in a bright and unnatural neon green, which also makes her visible eye look uncanny. There is a pink rim light around the top of her head, and deeper reds behind her. The oil pastels create a grainy texture that is offset by the rigidity of the colour blocking of the different tones of her face.]

[moe-broey]

I def wanna color these when I have the energy BUT..... back on a Pokemon kick.... ever so slightly......... also second sketch is so rough SORRY (I DO WANNA CLEAN IT UP!!! But I was mostly focused on conceptualizing the outfits!!!!)

I have soooo many other sketches too but I wanna save em for later.... but let it be known, this is just an elaborate excuse to play dress-up. Esp for Moe I'm gonna be so real, it has SUCH A SILLY OUTFIT and it is SO. SOOOOOO jackass rival coded. Guy who is gonna pick fights and cause problems for NO reason. Or for gay reasons. Most likely gay reasons tbh

[fungi-maestro]

a few fun gifs from True Stories (1986)

[voiceofsword]

i don’t know if you still do this kind of stuff but i loved seeing your trans niki rinniki comic 😭😭 i’d love to hear more of your headcanons with it too if you have any

OK!! i feel like. ive talked about the bulk of it, or how it at least manifests in nikis early life and after that he just. is trans and nothing really differs from canon, but something i've held onto from earlier enstars days (bc of beasts xoxo love u) is that tetora is a trans guy, as well! so when i first delved into niki - tetora interactions i was like wait a minute.. i love this

baby tetora sees this squirrely little kid on the other side of the screen and instantly just knows this guy is like him. so besides having his parents be away often and having niki's cooking show as the only company while he eats, he begins seeing niki as this older brother in that regard as well... he goes from thinking, hey am i allowed to feel this way? to seeing niki just being himself on his show and slowly realizing things about himself, too

and then he meets niki at ES again and fanboys the whole time and seeks him out both for cooking advice and general gender stuff, and niki doesnt know what to do bc he both doesnt expect the praise and he basically plays everything by ear and is like idk kid i just go here. even tho niki's hard on him (think sweets box) i think it's bc he knows tetora can take it... and because he sucks at cooking but that is besides the point.

he sees niki doing things and wants to do them too, just like him (like a little kid), bc to him niki is the epitome of what he aspires to be, bc its what he grew up thinking even when his show was pulled off air.......

do you see it. my vision

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Australian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(ft. Max Verstappen & Lewis Hamilton)(my personal post-race highlights)

[joelletwo]

[its own post and not in the tags] five years later i have spent muuuuuuuuuuch time agonizing over finding the limits of my responsibilities and the exactitudes of my fuckups and how profusely and heartfelt i would apologize for them if he ever came wanting one. however i also suspect unless he got more well-balanced about a lot of things real quick in this time that he would put more blame on me than im interested in taking.

and now that im no longer thinking about this every single day ive lost some of the authenticity of my desire to prostrate myself in repentance and go for the more kneejerk instinct to blame /him/ for more than he was actually responsible for lol. and some like. preemptive unfair irritation at the expectation of him blaming me for things.

and so [avpd wins!] i still think the best option for both of us is to continue not crossing paths and dredging this up lol. bc i think all i could manage politely is the heartfelt but precise apology and then i would have nothing else i wanted to interact w him about without fighting kjsfg. thank u me every day for irritating him into giving up the pretense about wanting to stay friends so i could work this all out in the privacy of my brain and not At him

[hexcitrine]

randomly looked at this account to update my age and holy shit it's been a while since i posted here..........i have a small pile of art i have yet to post but hbhbshdbshbd too lazy

[a-gaime]

Every time I see bull red son an angel (me) loses it's wings (gets mildly annoyed)

[memorys-skyscraper]

the scene in yakuza 5 where shinada and milky dance on the roof talking about how they should run away and start over in a new town with new jobs and new lives, only for milky to abruptly stop and let shinada go when she gets called back downstairs to work, while shinada is sent stumbling by suddenly being let go until he too comes to a stop, burns a hole in my brain

[leadendeath]

also gettin back into the vast umbrella of vaporwave/lofi(?ithinkitscalled) recently and. yeah. it was there for me before it’s still doing the same thing for me now

[sysig]

Everything day

[try-set-me-on-fire]

It's my fic and I can write a whole scene as a numbered list if I want to

[boygirlctommy]

SOBS CRIES EXPLODES. SHE STILL LOVES THEM. DESPITE EVERYTHING.

[alex-just-vibing]

shput out to me accidentally staying up till like 2 am writing last night

[shrews-things]

Another top surgery update!!! Yesterday I was 10 days post-op and things are starting to look better and I can do more and more things alone ❣️

Went out with my partner a bit and oh boy I've missed it so much, it was so nice