#suicide tw ahead-

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Applied for a job and applying to community college. It feels weird. It feels like I'm 18 again, even though I'm turning 23 in less than a week. It feels promising though

[ghostvibesonly]

wait odysseus is suicidal wait he was really gonna end his life the way he ended the infant’s wait the only people who’ve called him ody are those who hurt him badly/betrayed him wait “let me close my eyes” parallels penelope and telemachus begging him to “keep your eyes open” wait wait calypso was trying to talk him down and “stay in my open arms” unintentionally triggered the memories/hauntings of polites, eurylochus, his mom, etc wait wait athena held baby telemachus wait wait athena is dead?? wait wait wait

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

woof

[zootopiathingz]

Hey if you’ve ever harassed anyone or sent death threats to someone for something they ship I hope you go to jail and fucking rot for the rest of your miserable life

[anxious-witch]

This post specifically goes for my mutuals/followers who have been struggling lately. I see you and I don't always have something encouraging to reply, but if you have been feeling down recently, I hope this will help.

TW for mental health talk, mentions of suicide (this is an encouraging post, but please don't read further if anything of the sort might trigger you. Keeping your mental health intact is more important ❤️)

It's so very easy to get in the spiral of "I am not doing enough, all these people that I love would be better off without me". And convincing yourself those same people would forget you and move on quickly.

It's not true. I understand the sentiment, I really, really do. I used to fully believe that myself. But that's a lie. Mental illness reshapes the way we think and perceive things. And our brain and wired to remember bad things more than good ones. But when you'd write down everything that happened every day, I'd honestly be surprised if all of it was bad. Of course there are bad days, but even then, depression tend to focus on things you did wrong instead of those you did right.

But I am here to talk about the fact that I'd miss you if you were gone, too. Which seems ridiculous. "Rio, you follow 1000 blogs, you wouldn't notice". *loud incorrect buzzer* wrong! I would notice. As long as we ever interacted, as long as you liked and/or reblogged my posts, I'd notice.

When someone gets busy and I don't see them in my notes for over a week, I hope they are okay and just doing something more fun irl. I am not always great at remembering usernames, but as soon as they like one of my posts again I'm like yes!! They are back! I am glad you are okay!

"But I don't even contribute to the fandom!" No? Do you think creating content is the only way to contribute? Even just lurking and liking stuff counts. And I know some of you send really lovely anon messages that have made my day more than once. It DOES matter. Notes help other people as encouragement to keep posting. That absolutely counts.

"We barely post about the same fandom anymore" ah! But I still see you! I have a mutual that I have been following since 2016-2017, I believe. I have no idea what the hell he posts about these days. I can't rven accurately tell you why I originally followed him in the first place, it was either LOTR or Twilight, but fuck if I remember, because neither of hs posts about it!

And I still care. Because his journey ended up helping me. Seeing people's posts about their little achievements always makes my day. And even if you don't feel like you achieved anything in awhile, that doesn't mean you won't in the future. My point is, you are loved more than you know.

And this is only about online stuff. People notice when you walk down the street. Maybe someone likes your hair, or some detail of your outfit. Maybe someone saw you feed a stray and thought how nice you are. Maybe someone takes the same public transport as you every day and takes comfort in the fact you share the same path, if only for a few minutes.

This tumblr post perfectly described it, actually:

So please, if not for your own sake, for the sake of all the people who love you silently, keep going. It will get better. You might be just a bit further away from getting better. But you won't know unless you keep going.

So let's find out together, shall we?

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

Lowkey I think I share on tumblr as a way to prove to myself that I'm stupid and weak and can't even handle myself like, at all. I would probably be a lot better if I deleted tumblr and stopped sharing and actually Dealt With My Own Stuff, but anyway. I get a lot of joy out of it too, you know? Y'all are great.

Hm. Why does this slightly read like a suicide note. Ignore that, it's not meant to. Anyway I love you all, that's all. Sorry I'm a terrible oversharer xD

[unicronnomnomnomnomnomnomnomnom]

🦀

can we talk about one of the funniest fuvking scenes in cinema.

context for those who haven't watched a 40 y/o movie that set thousands of science and horror standards: the noose was not there when they put the diabetes man in the closet.

[nostomannia]

I ranted about this in a voice call earlier but I think I should put it into writing here, as well as some extra thoughts.

Have you guys ever thought about how we can kinda start to woobify abuse victims? Or at the very least like. Not give them agency or even actively take away their agency? I've had that happen before with Solita and it bugs me.

Deity is her abuser. But they're her parent. Her best friend. Her most hated enemy. Her purpose and her downfall. You can't just take them away without even consulting her about it. Or on the flipside, take her away. It's like if you took away someone from their abusive S/O or parent by force, without verbalizing and convincing them that 'hey, this person is horrible.'

Solita NEEDS the agency to walk away from Deity. If she doesn't, she falls back into a cycle of toxic dependency on someone else at BEST. At worst, when her ties are cut from Deity, she will flat out end her own life.

I understand the sentiment of wanting to save someone from an abuser. That's an entirely natural reaction. But if the person doesn't understand, or believes that they deserve better, where's the closure? That's not a satisfying end, is it?

Solita will actively place herself in the way of any attempt someone may try to rid her of Deity, so it's not like she's gonna stand by and watch. SHE'S the roadblock every single step of the way. Going behind her back is only going to break a relationship or plainly just break her.

Easy solutions sometimes make the situation worse. Taking someone from an abuser, no matter how right morally it is, can still just be kidnapping.

[dragonanne]

Someday & Again

I don’t know when I’ll see you; I know not when it will be. But on the day I see you, We’ll be in God’s country.

I’ll meet you on the ‘rizon; We’ll dance in our embrace. For on the day I see you, We’ll see our Savior’s face.

No tears nor sorrows stain, Beyond that pearly gate. The saints will sing with laughter, And speak not of the wait.

Although you’ve gone ahead, And left me here behind, I’ll hold tight to the mem’ries, That will ever fill my mind.

No bitterness will haunt me, Though I know it wasn’t right. Forgive you as our Savior did, And cling to His great Light.

I love you so, my dear sweet friend. I’ll miss you day and night. But though my heart is heavy, I shall cling to heaven’s Light.

Yes, you’ve gone ahead, And left us here behind, Yet we’ll hold tight to God’s promise, That we’ll see you at our time.

I don’t know when I’ll see you; I know not when it will be. But on the day I see you, We’ll be in God’s country.

"On the Day I See You" a poem by me

[j0kers-light]

TW suicide, don’t need to respond if you don’t want to.

this is random but this scenario has been on my mind, out of curiosity how do you think joker would react to someone about to commit suicide? like he so happens to walk by them about to let themselves fall off a bridge or shoot themselves or something. would he just ignore it, sit and watch or talk to them or even kill them himself for fun? (or possibly even find it in himself to empathize with them and help??)

it’s mostly interesting to me because he goes on about “people in their last moments” and he likes to expose people being cowards and scared of death and such. but what happens when someone clearly isn’t afraid and even wants to die?

doesn’t have to be a one shot btw (unless you want it to!) i’m just curious about your general thoughts.

Hey hi anon!! 🖤✨

Found this ask buried deep in the inbox! (yay to my emails for helping me restore most of them!) I thought about it and I couldn't fix this into a oneshot since its a very short scenario. BUT YOU ARE ONTO SOMETHING ANON!

I'm reminded of Joker's conversation with the cop in the GCPD precinct/ (I couldn't find a link of the exact movie scene but I have it memorized!)

"You see in their last moments, people show you who they really are. So, in a way, I knew your friends better than you ever did. Would u like to know which one of them were cowards?"

and Ledger delivered that speech sitting on the floor!! He is him! Moving on. I think Joker would be stupefied if someone was unafraid of death. Someone that embraces it and (disturbingly) makes the situation beautiful or poetic would shake his psyche.

Kinda like this. Warning TW: Suicide down below 👀

Imagine! 🃏

Joker is lurking around the alleyways of Gotham City letting the night fly by when he comes across someone standing on a tall building. Like on the ledge arms stretched out with their head titled back.

He approaches them and clicks his tongue which gets their attention. "Don'T do iT. There's uhh, more to life than... this." He gestures to the long fall. "You'd only make a mess."

He thought his dark humor would get them to question things but they shake their head.

"No there isn't. I've made up my mind. I'm ready."

Joker eyes them warily. He's not used to this type of potential jumper. They actually sound sincere. "Ready for what? At this height your best outcome is a broken leg." He's lying, the building is over ten stories tall, but it gets the person to finally look at him over their shoulder.

In that moment J sees their tears despite the smile on their face. The juxtaposition is jarring.

"Why you crying?" He asks.

They chuckle and turn to face the edge again. The wind disrupts their balance, causing them to sway back and forth but they stay on the ledge. For now. Joker moves closer out of instinct. Why does he feel uneasy about this? Should he step in and stop them?

Usually people step down from the ledge by now.

"You won't understand; I'm happy. This isn't an end, I'm simply embracing my new beginning with open arms." They close their eyes as Joker's widen. He yells at them to stop, but he's too late.

By the time he makes it to the ledge, their body is already in freefall. He watches their beginning unfold with a horrified expression. Was it madness, a delusion? What beginning could someone embrace with such a brutal end?

The entire walk back to your apartment he's troubled to his core. It doesn't make any sense. Joker believed that people showed their true colors in their final moments.

Joker was unsure if they were a coward for toughing it out or truly the strongest person alive for taking matters into their own hands. Joker hasn't been the same since.

[ophelianated]

how do i tell people that the reason i have no plans for the future or even an inkling of a direction i want to go in life is because i didn't think i would live this long and now i'm just low-key existing from one day to another with no idea of what i'm supposed to, or even want to, do without telling them

[starlightshadowsworld]

I get a bizarre sense of nostalgia and amusement when I receive hate online.

Like good sir, I'm passively suicidal, relapsing, losing my hearing, have been told I'm better off dead more times than I can count, was a student nurse in a pandemic.

Ran away from home and have to face my family every day knowing they don't care for my wellbeing in the slightest and I'm always told it is my fault and I will go to hell for upsetting those who abuse me.

.. Your petty little comments do not touch me.

In other words Danganronpa content is cmg back because why did I ever let those comments stop me.

My lil pep talk I guess.

[parmejeannecheese]

Genuinely don’t understand how I’m getting worse at life

[knifegrrrl1312]

living is so annoying and tiring , its like im constantly having to maintain myself and its exhausting. Like i will suddenly start starving and i have to eat at the most inconvenient times, then i have to brush my teeth and oops i forgot now i have gingivitis and i have to drink water bc suddenly im dehydrated and i dont get to ever rest im too fucking busy trying my best to keep myself alive and its like whats all this effort for anyways im always sick, people around me are abusive and i have to live in a colonized country with a colonizer government whos actively starving and displacing my fellow people and like maybe i should just kill myself now lmao.

[night-dragon937]

gods listening to music of artists that i've gone and seen in concert/at raves and just like. reliving the euphoria of the moment when i was there at the live performance like. obviously sitting at my desk with my headphones is not the same as being at a rave or concert but i can kind of capture some of the memory and those good feels are just smth else

[krispiecake]

i start college on tuesday and u know what i think im gonna choke. i dont actually think i can do this. everyone keeps saying i can and that this time its different but we all said that last time and then i had three attempts and got sectioned so i just feel like maybe we can’t trust our faith in me on this. so im rlly fucked now and i have literally no other plan.