#sui cw

[toringo]

Can't look away now

[dontjinxx]

bad influence

[kingofdoma]

i wish aubrey plaza and her family my deepest condolences in this awful time and i hope, when she is ready, that she gets to murder every motherfucker making jokes right now, cuz holy fucking shit

[splatoon-names]

[shepswrath]

i hate how revealing that you're struggling with suicidal ideation is seen as manipulative or burdenous. Girl. I still have it even if i lie about it. It's not like it's any easier for me if you don't know. "Ohh it's attention seeking behavior" has an undertone of doubting that a person is actually suicidal - which, by the way, i think is as bad as doubting that someone is ill. What, would you only be happy if they actually did it? I get it's exhausting. I get it makes you afraid. That doesn't mean people should have to hide it from you.

[waterme-stories]

Euridyce really said fuck Hades, marry Orpheus, kill yourself

[candyskiez]

do you ever think about how nimona specifically tried to kill herself on gloreth's sword and the implications of that.

was it spiting gloreth? "this is what you wanted, isn't it?" was it wanting to see her old friend one last time? was it her wishing gloreth had just killed her a thousand years ago? was it her wanting to spite the city? maybe even spite ballister? "you want me to be a monster, right? well, congratulations! your precious hero fucking killed me! aren't you happy? isn't this what you've always wanted? you'll never have to deal with me ever again!"

there's so many potential reasons I wanna hear your thoughts.

[writers-get-biters]

we requested smth from a blog when requests were closed bc we were confused whether or not they were closed bc it said in one place they were closed but not another place and then they kinda complained about us and an anon said ppl who requested at the wrong time were like the piss on the poor.post and we got so embarrassed we blocked em and now we want to kill ourself& (:

adventures in rejection sensitive dysphoria ig?

(no shade to them ofc it was our bad for misunderstanding)

(just feeling shitty now)

[pockymorbys]

disordered pedo Rick who couldnt receive the help he needed so one night he numbs himself with drugs, rapes one (1) Morty, and offs himself like a loser ❤️

[yoursminehourss]

do yall know how fucking difficult it is to wake up every day AND go to sleep??? like oh my god what do you mean theres tomorrow. and the closer it gets to october the worse it gets. and yet i persist somehow

[revenancy]

impossible fires || nile whist.

obligatory content warning for anything related to Nile: repeated mentions of suicide and death,

including the idea that the former self was "killed." he was 20 and desperate and hopeless back then, and now he's none of those things, so he's better now, right?

right?

→ reborn 13 years ago from the shadow of a suicide and pulled back from the edge countless times by Dovey, who gave him another chance under the Stillwater Gospel. she encouraged him to live his life for himself: his family wouldn't have him; he could still pick up and carry on.

→ for the first 10 years he was proud of his devotion to the Gospel. he was proud of his new family – Nile's family. Nile's life. Nile's purpose. he was still convinced he had purpose.

→ 3 years ago he was hired by Somatik, a small security firm and child company of Fallon Tactical based in L3, as a remote technician. Somatik pays for his apartment in Lychester; if not for them, he'd still be living with the rest of the Gospel in the rotting corpse of Sacred Spring Hospital.

→ now, he's run into a memory from his life – before. before the Gospel. before he killed himself and rose anew. before Violet. and god does it hurt to think about Violet now.

→ he's successful, isn't he? he's got everything he asks for. everything he could ever want.

→ that's a dead man's family.

→ pick up. carry on.

[veinwires]

put some visuals to a diary entry from 2 years ago. you can read the original here

[t4tails]

if i accidentally click on tumblr live one more time im going to kill myself

[lazygravez]

[likeadog]

i cant even kill myself because i know these bitches would start fighting at the funeral

[candyskiez]

rewatched nimona. once again, going insane!

specifically, the ballister and nimona fallout.

a thing that didn't dawn on me first watch is that he says she tried to make everyone hate him so she wouldn't be alone.

not that she wanted to destroy the city unless I am. Massively forgetting something. not that she was going to kill him.

he thinks she wanted a monster like her. someone who would be her friend and never leave.

even when he's straight up going propaganda drowned little bitch on her, he thinks that she was trying not to be alone. which is so so interesting to me? absolutely not better in any way shape or form, wtf ballister, but SO interesting.

really drives in propaganda overriding what he genuinely knows about her. he KNOWS she was terrified of being alone. he knows her. he knows that she wants a friend so so bad, he doesn't doubt that.

and he STILL turns on her. that's what fucks nimona up so bad. he knows her, knows what she's like. but the second someone tells him she's evil? he turns on her. he knows her, knows what she's like and what she's afraid of and what she wants, and he encorporated those things into why she would manipulate him. he knows her and he STILL gave up on her the second he was told to. (hello trans metaphors??) he still decides she's an evil creature, even if he doesn't fully believe it. because at the end of the day, it doesn't matter if he truly believes she's a monster. what matters is that he treated her like one.

that's what fucks her up so bad. it was gloreth all over again. they both knew her, saw her vulnerable and trusting, but someone told them to hate her and suddenly none of that mattered.

that's why ballister was able to stop her, I think. because he chose to believe in her. even when she was very very incriminating, snarling and rampaging through the city. it would be SO easy to see a monster.

and he still risked his life to save her.

still not an excuse obviously, they gotta TALK post movie that's for sure just... fuck if that isn't powerful.

it would be so easy to see a monster rampaging. to take it as confirmation. and he sees she's only defending herself. and hell, she causes some (emphasis on some) of the damage! she breaks a building (with the killing monsters ad) and steps on shit. but fuck, she's....she's breaking down. she's lashing out at everything that hurt her. this is a terrified, traumatized kid who just wants to fucking die lashing out at the world who rejected her. and the VAST majority of the damage is caused by the people attacking her. she's defending herself and lashing out at everything that hurts and she's being branded as a monster for it. this is her trying to defend herself from everything around her.

he left her behind when she needed him the most and he's realizing it. and he doesn't apologize to her to save the city. he apologizes to her to save *nimona.* to save his sidekick. to get her down from that edge. he can't lose her. THATS why he runs to save her. not to make her not destroy the city, but because he cares for her and he doesn't want her to die.

I am not emotionally the same after this fuckin MOVIE, MAN