#suffocation feelings

[skellydun]

who wants to lay on top of me like a weighted blanket and fix me

[amid-fandoms]

do you sometimes get reminded about how far they’ve come and get the urge to fling yourself into the sun

[whump-galaxy]

The whumper rolling the whumpee over with their boot. Pressing their steel toe under the whumpee’s ribs. Kneeling on the whumpee’s chest while mocking them for not being able to get a word out.

[courtmartialme]

pregnant riza going through mood swings because i need her to tell roy to kill himself and then cry about it😚😚😚 good thing roy loves her a lot and is having fun getting to see riza being so honest about her feelings whether it is because they didn't have what she wanted at the store or because she said he should die lmao

[fuji-sen]

Monachopsis; SAGAU Creator!Reader Headcanon

Monachopsis: the subtle feeling of being out of place.

c/w: angst, homesickness, slight cult genshin impact characters.

synopsis: The adrenaline and excitement had worn off, what replaced it was a sense of detachment and the feeling of homesick-ness slowly building up. No longer feeling joy at being treated like a God in your favorite game, you could only feel that subtle but persistent feeling that you did not belong there coupled with the sadness and grief at your past life.

divider credits: @enchanthings

✨ you wonder how things became like this, perhaps it was because you were constantly detained and kept inside a lavish palace, unable to see the outside world.

✨ or perhaps it was how your acolytes treat you.

✨ they did not harm you, but they might as well have all together.

✨ they treat you so full of devotion and reverence. Their touches stiff and light never holding you for longer than it is necessary, their manner of speech was always formal, never jovial even the bard of Mondstadt had a more serious and deep persona when it came to you.

✨ although their goal was simply to respect you for you were their supposed Creator, that very devotion towards you became the very wall that separated you from them.

✨ you could not get close to them, you could not pass that damned relationship between a Creator and a faithful believer.

✨ Furina had been closed to you at least, perhaps because she understood your plights. However your relationship seemed sinful in the eyes of the other acolyte.

✨ you no longer were able to see the cheerful girl.

✨ Buer or Nahida who's ability to read minds and the hearts of people worked on you, but it seemed she had learned from Fontaine's leader, she did not get close to you, however she left more sincere gifts for you.

✨ handwritten letters, books with annotations, even Aranara's were given to you on the guise of being servants.

✨ speaking of gifts, wealth, gems, lavish furniture, clothes made from the rarest fur and the softest silk had been presented to you. At first it made you overjoyed, to received the things you had long for, to become rich and wealthy.

✨ now seeing the pile of untouched presents all you could feel was cold, it was impersonal really. The clothes did not suit you, the gems and gold were useless for you could not even go out to spend it, the furniture as well for it was too big for you to used by yourself and you lacked the friends to even sit together with and have a chat.

✨ however upon seeing your favor towards the dendro archon's gifts, they tried to follow in suit. Yet their letters were simply filled with compliments of your visage, poems and tales about how great you were, talking about you as if you were a historical person they had studied and were doing a greatly embellished report on but never truly getting to know you.

✨ to fight off the feeling of sadness that began to wallow in you, you asked for them, desperately, "treat me as your friend, if you truly love me as your God then treat me how I want to be treated." you'd say.

✨ they looked at each other, before carefully and hesitantly agreeing.

✨ now you felt guilty, they spend their times on you. Chatting with you, telling you stories.

✨ you feast together, with food made by Xiangling and other characters.

✨ but even as they surround you, their conversations became white noise to you and the food seemed tasteless under your tongue.

✨ you did not feel like you belong among them. especially with that nagging voice in your head, snickering and whispering that 'they aren't your friends, they're just acting like it all because their precious Creator begged them to.'

✨ In the past, or your past life, doing something for yourself, by yourself seemed like a chore. The mundane chores, your job, studying even, but now that seemed like a luxury with the title of God.

✨ they did not ask you to do anything, you did not participate in state of the nation addresses, you could not change laws or fight for the people. . at least they didn't let you.

✨ you could not even clean your own room or dress yourself, Noelle took care of the cleaning, Chiori took care with choosing a set of clothes each day for you to wear like you were a kid and Xiangling did the cooking.

✨ It left you with nothing to do, like you had no purpose other than sitting still and looking pretty like a piece of decoration.

✨ Nobody disagreed with you even, nobody argued with you, they were like yes-men. God you began to miss your parents and siblings, you missed your classmates/coworkers, you missed working, you missed being your own person!

✨ it was beginning to eat you up at this point,

✨ to the point you had became overwhelmed with sadness.

might make a mini-headcanon series for this or an actual series revolving around this idea/angst.

do you want a series like this tho? it'd be heavily angst and might just have a bad ending or good ending.

[magnolia-sunrise]

in the vastness of you i drown

[froggerland]

I could’ve sworn someone sent me a request for some Goodcollins but apparently im going insane bc theres nothing in my ask box?? (well no goodcollins request at least)

Anyways take this, anatomy is kinda whack and its very messy in general but i wanted to draw some fluff (I am a big guy Henry Collins truther even if its just to distinguish him from Goodsir bc they lowkey look similar if you’re not as deep into the terror swamp yet)

[wikoymi]

postgame komahina househouse with pet cat named aki (after chiaki) and she really likes nagito. and hajime i guess but if nagitos home she’ll only sit on hajime if nagito is sitting on hajime

[chebyshevptera]

i like the idea of jay pre ndr never really wearing his gi properly, like it’s loose and not ironed and overall just looks a little messy, but when he starts wearing it again during his redemption arc post s3 it’s nice and pressed and fitted because he’s so used to the strict administration dress requirements and the tight specialized wolf clan attire that it’s engraved into his brain to be presentable or else

[sprtruechara]

chara can have a little bit of protective older sibling traits, as a treat. why does frisk sleep face down

[letmegrabyourcuteass]

Imagine they're getting intimate, exploring each other, and it's Buck's birthday. Eddie kids around, saying he had done a 'Yes' day for Christopher's birthday once. Buck perks up.

"No, you're not getting a yes day, Buck," Eddie laughs.

Buck pouts. "Then, how about giving me a yes hour? Nothing leaves this house."

Eddie hums. "Fine, what do you want, birthday boy?" He sputters when Buck plops a giant red bow on top of him and drags him into the bedroom. They strip, and Eddie doesn't know where Buck got the other red ribbon from, but he fashions it into a bow behind Eddie's back.

They're fifteen minutes into Eddie sitting on Buck's face wanting to sob when he lifts himself off cause he swears he feels like he's suffocating the man under there. It's the first time he's ever done this or even considered wanting to be done to him. The following few words he won't admit now turn him on like hell.

"Sit back down," Buck demands, fingertips bruising on Eddie's thigh.

"Buck," he whimpers.

"Sit."

[onabisworld]

Trying to read nasty billford smut and that random painfully tender scene hits out of nowhere

[thatsolacegirl]

I can't even imagine what COVID did to me. I had it twice before I could get a vaccine. (In my country, it was rolled out stage-wise. Basically, front-line workers got them first, then old people, then people of my parents' age, then me & the people in the age range b/w 18-45, & then younger children. So, b/w Oct 2020 and April 2021, I had covid twice.)

The first time I had it with my father, he barely made it out. He was in ICU, bi-pap. It took him literally 5 months to recover and another year and a half to come to his somewhat pre-covid health. I was with him in the hospital. He would've been in total isolation if I hadn't followed him (DW, I wasn't admitted to the ICU). On top of that, he is a patient with epilepsy. After covid (& still), he had to take more medicines than he was taking earlier.

The second time I had was absolutely harrowing. My ability to think just vanished for a week. That too happened during the week of assignment submission. I think that had made my immunity so weak that I get cold & flu every season (which had never happened before). Last year, I got sick 5 times, that is once every two months. Also, this year, I have had constant stomach issues (and the fucking joke is that it happened once after eating groundnuts which I was never allergic to begin with).

Also, this whole thing fucks up with your motivation & your belief system. You're not the person you were anymore. This whole thing left me with so much scepticism. The first time when I was in the hospital, I saw body bags every two days. It shakes to your core. When you see death being so near to you & you know whether your dad will survive, it fills your heart with dread.

And then I see news that people refuse to wear masks. It fills me with rage. The only thing that protected my mother & my sister from covid the first time was they wore masks.

[mikimeiko]

I Saw the TV Glow (Jane Schoenbrun, 2024)

[gurggggleburgle]

Despite popular belief as someone who owns a skinjiu and loves him dearly they are

A) not cruel and needlessly vicious 24/7. Yes he's an incorrigible brat and will start destroying things if he doesn't get what he wants but like all skinzuns are a little mean somewhere in their systems

B) totally capable of socializing with a skinhe and trying not to kill them. While my skinzun isn't actively letting my babies suckle for milk they do play fight all the time. Yes I know in the wild skinjius will eat skinhe skittens but domestically, that doesn't happen. Those videos you see on MyBingSpace are fake. My skinzun does take bites out of bingsoup and shrimphe, but neither of them care of seem to mind. Most days, they just stay at opposite ends of the house barely interacting.

C) if your skinjiu is being mean and awful to you maybe just give them space and don't baby them. I feel like a lot of people get this idea that with enough love and kindness you can completely rewrite a skinjius personality. Love your awful stinky man as he is.

D) Skinjius do not have more elitist and refined tastes that make feeding them a bitch. I promise you that if he sees you drinking Fiji water he wants it because he sees you have it. If you fill it with tap he won't know the difference.

E) they are also not smarter by default either. I once watched this fucking moron stare at how I rearranged the living room and he was absolutely flabbergasted at how to walk between the pieces for a solid minute even though there was so much room. Like your little snob is also capable of being a dumb fuck and that's fine.

[eelclaw]

stupid fucking bastard. i am not coping with the leaks