#study blur

[wiststudies]

42 / 100 days of productivity

5th november

☆ got chem marks ( passed with a 19/35 - still upset over it )

☆ bio revision class + physics class

☆ best friend got me cinnamon rolls to cheer me up

☆ studied for biology test

☆ barely drank water

☆ walked 4.5 K cuz my leg is still healing

[tea-tuesday]

06/13/2024

i'm trying to strike a balance between complaining and uh... not complaining but it's so hard😭 civil procedure has come back to bite me in the ass. it was my lowest grade in law school and one of the densest/most abstract subjects i've encountered, so i am absolutely terrified and shaking in my boots. i'm staying positive, however, and will not let it crush my spirit !!!

[arielluva]

its just a burning memory

(version without extra effects/textures under cut)

[starlight-eclipsed]

His complaint cuts off abruptly as the ceiling splits open, a familiar triangular rift forming above them.

Will the Chain accept their new shadowy friend? Will Dark find it in himself to start opening up to these heroes? And will Hylia ever stop trolling people? Find out next time on A Dark Among the Lights by LuckyLectio on AO3!

[deer-a-day]

183

lighting pt 2?

[casheugh]

Sun kisssst☀️🕶️

[keznated]

damon albarn & gerard way studies that i did a while ago

[muckyschmuck]

AAAAAAAAA

[cuptitude]

found an old drawing lurking in my files while procrastinating on business studies

[luuxxart]

let’s go down to the tennis court and talk it out like yeah

[wiststudies]

35 / 100 days of productivity

29 october

☆ physics class got cancelled

☆ took the time to finalise all my friends ppt's and submitted them

☆ had bio lab session

☆ 6k steps

[lastrosebloom]

🌿Study with me! 31.08.24🌿

📖 Subject: Academic Planning

⏳️ Time: 30 minutes

📍Location: The British Library, London

Hello again! This was me writing out my timetable into my planner for all the weeks of my first semester, as well as looking up my reading lists ahead of time and saving them to my library account. Tomorrow I will download the ones available online and set up my digital notebooks on Noteshelf for Second Year. Exciting!!

I still have yet to receive my marks from my August exams but I think (fingers crossed) that I have passed the year, so I am looking forward to my new modules this September <3

[gifti3]

It's 1am and youre watching miniature cooking videos....

[tuallart]

blurrr

[cultpastorkevin]

riko :: what if

“Finally a stranger steps forward to introduce himself and his team of psychiatrists. The university has brought in counselors, he says. The university has called their parents. The university is closing the Nest.”

What if instead of being killed, what if Riko was alive when Tetsuji stepped down? What if he was there with the other ravens, watching Jasmine break a tv and dragged away? What if he lived?

Would it have been better? Would he have survived? Could he?

the university is closing the nest.

ichirou doesn’t want him. neither does tetsuji.

the university is closing the nest.

intensive therapy is required for him, but it’s hard, because he’s in his twenties now, they don’t say it but he knows the therapists and social workers he meets with don’t have high hopes for him to make a full recovery. too old they say, he was in there too long, it’s a miracle he is still alive

theuniversityisclosingthenest.

exy is all he knows and it’s stripped away; no one wants the raven captain on their team, not after the news articles. not after the interviews. he’s a risk, they say, a liability, he’s clearly unstable, they can’t keep someone like him in line, after all, those from the nest are damaged goods, he is not worth the effort

theuniversityisclosingthenest.

he was not abused; everything that happened to him was for a reason, he argues, he is better because of it, he would not be perfect court would not be captain would not be himself if he wasn’t; he gets violent, lashing out, getting cruel when the therapist asks him if he thinks it was worth it

what does she mean? being the best will always be worth it, there is nothing for him if it’s not number one

when she asks if being so afraid was worth being the best, he has no response

the university is closing the nest.

his body has been absorbing trauma since he was born; he had exy to help expel it, it kept him from crumbling to pieces, it was easy to believe that what was done to him was because he was a Son of Exy, that the pain and suffering was birthright because he would win Olympic gold and all the trauma is justified if it makes you better, stronger, makes you able to take a hit and by god he knew how to take a hit and he learned how to make his own count and he made sure his ravens knew it too because if his bite could not drown out his bark he would not survive

even after kevin abandoned him, when tetusji made sure that he was more blood and bruises than skin, he picked up his pieces and came back a thunderstorm of his own making because exy was a birthright no one could take from him, he would survive without kevin, he had to

the university is closing the nest

he is a villain but not entirely of his own creation, he was molded into hatred and fed pain instead of love; he is at fault for everything he’s done but what was done to him was not his fault, it is a hard pill to swallow; the pain he considered birthright was a lie, and not for the first time, the 1 on his cheek itches to be sliced off; once he understands what his therapist is saying, a woman who specializes in cult survivors, he chokes

he could’ve been different. it could’ve been different. he had dished out to others what he was trying to outrun. biting the hand that touched him was out of the question, so he turned rabid on those around him, becoming the very thing he himself was afraid of.

you are not tetsuji the therapist says

aren’t I? is his reply

the university is closing the Nest.

failed ravens have a tendency to commit suicide

[fi1mstar]

the mental gymnastics that damon albarn does whenever he’s talking about his sexuality is so unhinged