#strawb’s diary

[chocolatestrawberriesandcream]

just read some bs on the internet about how ddlg/cgl/littles are gross!!! i love it here!! as if i already don’t feel bad enough about myself!!!

[imeminemp3]

birthday party tmr soooooooo excited

[tinsyfairy]

09.17 food diary ! 🍂

* note : this is not intended to encourage anybody or follow my habits i'm just documenting my life and i want to find others who are like me :)

₊⊹ intake limit : 1.3k

₊⊹ water intake : 2L

₊⊹ f4st¡ng time : 23 hrs

⌗ breakfast :

n/a

⌗ lunch :

n/a

⌗ dinner : taco salad 🥗 (whos suprised? LOL)

– 3 cups of salad mix (30)

– 1/4 cup feta (70)

– ??? lean ground beef (est. 405)

– jalapeños peppers (10)

– 2tbsp taco sauce (20)

> total : 535

other : yog bowl 🍓

– 1/2 cup chobani yog (65)

– 1/2 apple (48)

– 1/2 cup honey comb cereal (65)

– 1 cup of frozen strawb (50)

> total : 231

☆ total : 766

☆ burned : 593 / 15 min y-0ga / 16k st-ps

☆ net : 173

— log :

hi friendsss!! today was worse than yesterday and I did a lower intake T_T idk I was just so anxious today i didn't even want my yog bowl (i had it anyways bc im not letting myself go under 650 in b-nge recov!!). i even had a few b-nge urges which was a bit scary but i got over them. hopefully i don't have any urges tmrw bc im super scared of b¡ng!ng now. I also feel super bad for my mom because I haven't been eating anything that she cooks T_T I mean today I did kinda?? I just didn't have a taco shell to go with it. tmrw I already planned what I was going to have so hopefully we don't argue abt that!! stay safe guys :)

[strawbsberry]

i‘m kinda falling for the girly aesthetic 🤨🍓💗

[bruisedpinki]

day one 25.10.21

trying to make food diaries to hold myself accountable - please ignore my gross arm in the middle one

total intake: 389 cal

breakfast: strawbs and ricecake 101 cal

lunch: itsu rice noodle 191 cal

dinner: ryvita and vegan cream 'cheese' 87 cal

snack: monster ultra and herbal tea 12 cal

water: 3l

exercise: 30 mins hula hoop (apparently - 176 cal) and waitressing for 5 hrs (probs like - 100 but am being on safe side)

net calories: 389 - 176 = 213 cal

[ufogirl]

i think my blog has been infiltrated bc my friend just texted me “wow i forgot how good mcdonald’s smoothies are” like a normal human being drinks and enjoys their smoothies okay GREMLIN IF UR HERE GO AWAY y’all ruin my secret accounts for me

putting mcdonald’s mango pineapple smoothie on my list of god-tier drinks

[keporkak]

koi’ve decided to write a little diary here again, since 1. i need to practice my english 2. i really need to declutter my brain 3. i miss being able to remember little day to day things, and revisiting my thoughts even years later. so here goes - this is i suppose kinda private, but not really, it IS on a public tumblr - however one that nobody visits much (hello arlet!)

so this is a ramble about my new job, a long bit about my plants and my garden.

i’ve been at this new office job (scoff!! why, again?) for 2 weeks and i’m not sure i’ll last more than a month. after the whole quarantine thing, i realised how much i love just... not having to wake up in the morning when i’m least functional, getting ready (i hate how much effort i have to put into my appearance. i know i dont HAVE to, but I feel like once you set a standard at a new workplace you kinda... can’t go below it without people actively noticing it), and taking 40 minutes by buses to get there. this was supposed to be a remote job!! and i don’t feel competent at it at all!! and people are pretty dismissive and rude!!! and i wrote like 3 paragraphs just complaining about it, but i deleted those just now. idk, what’s the point, right. i just don’t like it here, and i will last till the end of the month so i get one proper payout and then i might just quit and REALLY try to survive on freelance. if ONLY i was more successful at building an audience, and potential customers!! jesus. i don’t know. i don’t draw because i don’t feel like people care to see it, and obviously if i don’t try i won’t gain anything. why am i like this

anyway, a nice thing is that i feel like my plants are trying to cheer me up?

first of all, pretty much all of my 16 houseplants are doing well - my monstera deliciosa is SUCH a good lil bugger, she keeps sprouting new leaves every week! soon she’ll have to be repotted at this rate. and my finicky calathea, whom i recently treated of mites, which involved meticulously scrubbing every leaf with a toothbrush, is also sprouting two new leaves - something i have NEVER seen her do in the months of owning her. i guess this is her way of thanking me!

in addition to that - after my balcony garden got SCORCHED by the sudden heatwave this month, it’s finally recovering - i threw out the ugly little flowers that completely dried out and replaced them with fresh herbs (more my style, the flowers were a gift from my dad). i planted my some lemon balm, chives, oregano, mint, and my favorite herb - parsley. in addition to that, my strawberry plant has waken up from its little coma - after the insane harvest of spring berries it exhausted itself and went dormant - and now it’s round two, baby! she’s full of fresh leaves and flowers and everyday i get to snack on at least 4 new ripe strawbs. i can’t believe my dad suggested throwing her out after she stopped bearing fruit and got burnt leaves from the sun! look at her now. beautiful. dad’s jealous now, too, we bought the strawberry plants together from the same store and his never did this well.

i still have an abundance of cherry tomatoes and my bell peppers are finally ripening too, which is nice. on top of that, i planted some raddish and kohlrabi (turnip?) and to my shock, after my weekend camping trip, i found that they have both sprouted already! that’s like, four days! damn.

my heart still aches after the tragic loss of my favourite one  - the pea plant that i managed to, in record time, raise from a seed into a full grown plant that gave me exactly 12 delicious pea pods before succumbing to sudden 35 celsius heat. I nearly cried when i had to throw it out, but i kept the pot.... and like a phoenix from its ashes, it has risen again!! a little sprout, but we’ll see how it does. we do love a good comeback story!

today i also bought an ivy plant that i planted next to the herbs (is that a good idea? idk we’ll see) and some seeds that i planted, too (basil, more parsley, more chives, spinach, and some pea seeds that i sprinkled around my pea plant to give it some company hopefully, haha). we’ll see. i enjoy growing plants from nothing - it feels incredibly invigorating to see baby greens poking out of the dirt where there was nothing before. it’s not easy, but it’s rewarding.

random cute stuff from the past week that i can think of :

-camping trip was nice. saw a lot of gorgeous nature, went for a really nice long bike ride, ate some really good ice cream.

-biking is still amazing, i love my bike (i named him lestat, cause he’s got sass) and i go almost every day. thank god petržalka is such a heaven for cyclists. 

-cashier lady in billa complimented me on my stag beetle brooch that i have on my bag strap. it is a not much of a brooch, it is literally a 10 cm plastic beetle that i glued pin closings to, and he’s very visible on my chest. looks pretty realistic. it was nice to see him appreciated!!

-i might start streaming, just for my friends? like, videogames. i’m good at some, very good at others, and i can talk passionately about most, and that’s why throughout my life many of my friends and family members really enjoyed watching me play. i don’t know, but i don’t mind. i don’t really want an audience of strangers, but i don’t mind the occasional company and giving my friends something to fall asleep to. i mean i play vidya often anyway, so there is not much extra effort there haha

also, not cute, but tomorrow i have my 3 hour dentist session. i’m not excited for it, but i guess it’ll bring me a bit closer to my new teeth. jesus, i can’t wait. i know it will take like 2 more months to have it all done, but i really really want it to be done.

[smokesfordinner]

food diary 8:3

- banana pancakes w strawbs (280)

- ice cream (90)

- rice krispie (90)

- chipotle (1,000)

- ice cream (90)

- chocolate (250)

total: 1800

[chocolatestrawberriesandcream]

no one talks about how actually embarrassing it is to crave a cg/l relationship with a partner. like, you don’t want to start a relationship on that basis bc 9 times out of 10 that ends up being a weird thing, and you also feel weird bringing it up to a partner after having been together for however long because you’re afraid they’ll judge you or reject you and idk abt y’all but i’m already hyper sensitive to rejection, and my little side is EVEN MORE hyper sensitive to rejection. so it becomes this paradox of never having what you truly want because it’s just so hard to go about

[hmel78]

In conversation with Andy Jackson ...

73 DAYS AT SEA (2016)

At the mention of ‘Pink Floyd’, people often, perhaps immediately, identify with a certain sound - you could argue that there’s nothing throughout the annals of modern music that quite matches it. Over the past 35 years, of most things pertaining to ‘Pink Floyd’, that sound has been shaped and polished to perfection with the help of Andy Jackson.  As senior engineer at David Gilmour’s studios, he has also worked on all of Gilmour's solo recordings / multimedia projects ( as an engineer and/or co-producer) since 1984. 

Andy Jackson’s talents, however, do not rest solely with ‘Pink Floyd’ - he has also worked with artists such as ‘Heatwave’, ’The Strawbs’, ‘The Boomtown Rats’ (most notably mixing their hit "I Don't Like Mondays"), ‘Incredible Kidda Band’and goth rock group ‘Fields of the Nephilim’– he was also guitar player in the live band version of ‘The Eden House’. Originally trained in the sound engineering profession by producer/engineer James Guthrie, at Utopia Studios,  Andy served  as his assistant for several years, and began work as an engineer for Pink Floyd in 1980 - assisting in the recording of the performances of “The Wall” at Earls Court ; He was also the Front of House engineer on the band's 1994 world tour. Jackson also engineered Roger Waters' first solo album “The Pros and Cons of Hitchhiking”, and worked Front of House on the subsequent tour in 1984.  As Guthrie's assistant, Andy worked on the film soundtrack recordings for “The Wall” and the studio album “The Final Cut”.  When Guthrie relocated to Los Angeles, Andy became the band's primary engineer beginning with “A Momentary Lapse of Reason”, and then “The Division Bell”;  receiving three Grammy Award nominations for Best Engineered Album - for ‘A Momentary Lapse of Reason’ - and Best Engineered / Best Surround Sound album - for ‘The Division Bell’.

In collaboration with engineer Damon Iddings, Andy remastered the majority of the bonus features material on the Immersion editions of “The Dark Side of the Moon” and “Wish You Were Here” for the "Why Pink Floyd...?" reissue campaign ; plus the material recorded for the soundtrack to the band's 1992 auto racing documentary film “La Carrera Panamericana”, as well as engineering, producing, AND playing bass on two of the tracks on their last album “Endless River”, in 2014. Inbetween times, Andy continues to work on his own solo albums - his debut “Signal To Noise” received nothing but rave reviews, and his latest release “73 Days At Sea” looks to be achieving more of the same. We caught up with Andy, on one of his rare hours off ...

HR : When we spoke in 2014, about your debut album “Signal To Noise”, you hinted that one day there may be a second offering of songs - and here it is! “73 Days At Sea”. It’s a truly incredible album Andy, are you happy with it? Andy Jackson : Thanks! I’m sure for anyone involved in any creative process, there’s always a degree of doubt - could it be better? Having said that, I’ve learnt over the years that there is a point where you have to put it away, accept that you are into microscopic changes that no one but yourself will perceive. I feel pretty comfortable that the album was the best I had in me at that time.  The next one will be better! HR : What came first this time, the music or the lyrics?

AJ : One of the things that I decided last time, on ”Signal To Noise”, was that I wouldn’t record anything that wasn’t finished being written, having seen at first hand (many times) the pitfalls of recording backing tracks with no idea what the song is vocally.   That is, after all, the single most important element.  I didn’t change my opinion about that this time.   There again, I can’t say necessarily that anything came first. I tend to knock around lyrical ideas & musical ideas independently, and at some point it becomes clear that one particular lyric belongs with a particular piece of music. Then the evolution starts, when the two things become interactive.   I do allow myself to start on a piece without the lyrics necessarily being totally finished, not least of all, all sorts of minor tweaks are needed once I actually start to sing them, just to make them scan well. HR : Across both albums, some of your song writing is quite personal - although I’m sure many listeners will connect with your philosophy, and the snapshots of your life experiences that are shared in the songs. Do you listen to them and hear your heart on your sleeve, or do you just hear some really great music? AJ : I’ve tried writing from other perspectives, but it always feels like I’m being dishonest.   I don’t think that, that is something that can’t be done - Plenty of great writers write about things outside themselves, I just don’t find that I can do that.  ‘The Gyre’ is a good example - I originally wrote it from a totally different perspective, but in the end it felt contrived, and I needed to write it from the perspective of ‘me’.   The ‘me’ isn’t necessarily totally me, but I just like writing in the first person.   Drownings is a bit of a departure that way, that has bits written as other people, but even then, I needed to totally get under their skin to do it, including a section which I ‘method improvised’, ad lib’d in character.

It’s in my nature to listen to the music primarily, but if I’m going to write lyrics I want them to be worthwhile, I want to be able to read them as if they are someone else’s and to like them.

HR : Has making the recordings somehow aided your own ‘journey’? AJ : Absolutely.   It’s in the act of making them, of doing things that are difficult, that the value lies. “Nothing worth having was ever achieved without effort” -Theodore Roosevelt. HR : The songs on “73 Days At Sea” are linked by a theme - primarily the ocean ... Was the inspiration down to a lifelong affinity with being beside the sea - say, a love of eating ice-cream in the salty air -  are they musings, or is there a deeper connection?

AJ : As I allude to on the album notes, it comes from spending a bit of time working next to the sea at David Gilmour’s studio. I kept feeling a sense of nostalgia when ever I left there, as if it were somewhere that was significant in my past, which it isn’t. I wrote about that in a song (Type 1 error) and found that I kept making reference to the sea in lyrics, without necessarily realising I was doing it until afterwards. I thought about a suite of songs linked by the sea, but it kept getting bigger & bigger, until it became the whole album.  I went down onto the beach one day & recorded the waves, which made a lovely link between songs.  There is no huge significance to it really, or maybe there is on an unconscious level, I can’t know ... HR : Do you have a favourite track on the album? AJ : Same answer as everyone gives – they’re all my babies!   I actually have a fondness for the segue of songs that start the album, that’s the original ‘sea suite’ and works well as the Soft Machine Volume 2 inspired idea.  ‘The Gyre’ was the last one I wrote & recorded, and is probably the most sophisticated musically, so I’m proud of that one too.  The best one is always the next one though, so you’ll have to wait for that! HR : “Drownings” is nothing short of a masterpiece ; some may pick up on a bit of  a ‘Pink Floyd’ vibe - would you embrace that comparison? AJ : People are inevitably always going to hear ‘Pink Floyd’ in what I do.   I often wonder if chance had meant that my career was most associated with, say, ‘Genesis’ or ‘King Crimson’ or even ‘Steve Hillage’, if people would say I sounded like that.  Frankly I don’t worry about it, I just make music I like.

HR : I’m curious about the significance of the dates, detailed alongside the lyrics in the booklet ...

AJ : The dates in ‘Drownings’ really serve to help understand the chronology in the song.  I thought of Part 1, Part 2 etc (although not in that order), but I like the dates as it makes it like diary entries. I also ended up with having 2 of the sections being the same date, but from different perspectives, which I like, what 2 different people are thinking at the same time.  The specifics of the dates are arbitrary, although I did look them up to make sure they were all mundane dates, so they all feel like rainy Tuesdays.

HR : “Signal To Noise” was a complete solo effort, but you invited some guest artists to perform on “73 Days At Sea”; namely David Jackson from ‘Van Der Graaf Generator’, and  Anne Marie Helder from ‘Panic Room’, who both feature on ‘Drownings’ - did you envisage their involvement from the beginning? AJ : No, it evolved as I was making the song, and for different reasons.   Once ‘Drownings’ became written from the different perspectives of the people in it, it became obvious that I needed to have a female voice to sing the female role (there is a version with me singing it, but it’s a bit ridiculous).   Anne-Marie came about just because I knew her work and thought she’d be good, so I asked her, simple as that.   David Jackson was just because I have always been a huge fan of his playing, and thought it’d be great to have him on the song.   If he’d said no I wouldn’t have got a different sax player, it was specific to David.  Again it was just a matter of asking him.   I definitely envisage doing something with David again, on the next album probably ...

HR : Did ALL of your guitars make it onto this album? AJ : No they didn’t this time. It was a much more limited palate than I used before, somewhat deliberately.   Pretty much one electric (which was new for me, a PRS with P90s), one for slide, a 12 string electric and one 6 string and one 12 string acoustic.  No real reason, just keeping it simpler this time, there’s a bit of trying to give it a ‘band’ feel to the album, even though it’s 4 incarnations of me. HR : The cover artwork on both “Signal To Noise”, and “73 Days At Sea” are pieces by Michael Bergt, and they’re an absolutely  perfect fit -  how did you come across his work? What is it about his art that you admire? AJ : It was a chance find when I was doing Signal to noise.  I googled for ‘Sisyphus’, while writing the lyrics to ‘One More Push’, and the painting that I used on the cover for that album came up. It immediately struck me as perfect for the album cover, so I emailed Michael and asked him.  He was more than happy for me to use it, and for a very minimal price.   It seemed obvious to go back to him again for 73 days at sea.  If anything, I think that one is even better & more appropriate.   One fluke is the balloon in that painting, I already had the instrumental piece called ‘Ballooning’ (in fact that’s a very old piece of music & was always called that).  Couldn’t be more perfect!   I should mention the ‘barbie on the beach’ picture, which I love, was kindly provided by you!!

HR : [laughs] Indeed! I feel very honoured ...

AJ : I had a conversation with Anne-Marie about the fact that, as ‘cottage industry’ artists, we end up doing our own artwork, with no Storm Thorgerson type bringing in brilliant ideas & craftsmanship.  Makes the whole thing even more ‘mine’ though.

HR : Totally - and it is perfect. I think you get a real sense of how much of YOU has gone into the whole album ;  the sound, and the way the physical copies look. Both of them  - you should be incredibly proud! Since we last caught up, you’ve worked on David Gilmour’s latest album “Rattle That Lock” -  it’s quite an eclectic album, was it demanding to record?

AJ : It was a slightly odd album to work on. The way David works these days, he does a lot of work of putting the songs together on his own. We’ve set up the Brighton studio so he can come in & tinker and record anything he likes.  I get brought in when we do the ‘serious bits’.  This was doubly unusual inasmuch as we broke off this album to do ‘Endless River’, so it was a couple of years between my first stint on it, recording drums with Steve, to the final overdubs and mix. In the middle, David had built the album, so I came into half finished songs that I didn’t know.   One of the issues that many ‘big stars’ have is that no one is prepared to tell them that anything they do is no good.   That’s not a problem for me, we’ve worked together for 35 years now.  He really needs someone to be able to say yes/ no do it again, let’s drop in this bit and so on, which is a role that I do for him. As ever, with Protools sprawl, the toughest thing was that in the end some of the songs were 120 tracks or so, just because it’s so easy to defer decisions. Took a bit of sorting out!! HR : What projects have you got lined up for the coming year - are you planning  a 3rd solo album? Any live shows?

AJ : Well I’m halfway through a stint on a project I can’t really talk about. Let me just say it’s a whole heap of archive recordings for a well known band who I’m associated with!

As for my own music, when I get the time I’ll start on my next project. I want to explore a particular dynamic I have in mind. I’ve often thought that in recording or rehearsing situations I’ve been in, either working with others or as part of a band, sometimes someone will play something that I think is great, and that everything else should be built around that thing, to let it be the most important thing. Too often I see that idea lost, buried under other people’s opinions or lack of vision.  As, with my own music, I am in the position of being able to make all the choices, I have the opportunity to absolutely follow my vision.   I’m going to try a methodology of working with other people (such as David Jackson) and giving them the chance to be the defining element on something (by being ‘first’).  Hopefully this way I can get an album that is made of extraordinary things.

Live shows, I don’t know.  It’d need to coalesce into a band really for that to be viable. I’d like to do it one day, but who knows when.

[Andy spotted one of my more bizarre photos one day, and it features within the inlay booklet artwork of 73 Days At Sea]

[euchreiade]

*all of the sweet n pure asks*

🐰- do you believe in soul mates?

I do!

💌- diary or journal?

Never had either, I’d say journal?

✨- which fictional character (book, show, or movie) do you relate to most?

Yasuho Hirose, from Jojolion

💕- are you crushing on someone?

At this point in time, it’s complicated.

💋- kissing in the dark or kissing in the rain?

In the dark. I really don’t like rain

🐝- describe your aesthetic in emojis

Cowboy emoji cowboy emoji cowboy emoji dab emoji cowboy emoji

🍼- what is your favorite memory?

The 1000th time I dabbed

🌸- what is your favorite flower?

Hyacinth

💖- have you ever been in love?

Unrequited, yes.

🍰- strawberry or vanilla?

Strawbs forever

🍯- describe your favorite smell

Chili Garlic. Most recent one

🎂- if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?

1. No anxiety ; 2. Well-being of my loved ones ; 3. Infinite wishes

🍪- cookie dough or cookies?

Chocolate-less cookies (pancake dough is underrated)

☕- coffee or tea?

Tea

🍃- would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?

Fairies are the best

🍂- what’s your middle name?

Geoffroy Philip

💫- what is your sun, moon, and rising sign?

Virgo, Virgo, Aquarius

🌧️- favorite thing to do on rainy days?

Play RPGs. Well, like most days

🍭- how tall are you?

6′

💒- which show would you want to live in?

Gravity Falls

🎄- what is your favorite holiday?

New Year’s probs

🍦- what scented candle is your favorite?

Never had them

🎶- favorite song right now?

“The Impresario” by Jake Kaufman and Tommy Pedrini

💘- 3 ways to win your heart?

Daring, caring and dabbing

🍩- current mood?

In the mood to sing my heart out

❄️- what is your favorite season?

Summer. I love the heat

💍- your current relationship status?

Single.

📷- a photo of yourself

Theater fuckboi picture (I don’t actually smoke)

💅🏻- do you like being spoiled?

Heck yeah. Sugar daddies come to me

🕊️- 3 habits you have?

Rocking back and forth, dabbing and caring about my loved ones

🦄- how do you perceive yourself?

A caring person, but anxiety-wrecked

🦋- how do you think others perceive you?

Loud, caring, anxious, funny, can’t read situations...

🌈- things I find attractive in girls/guys

Sass, blushing, funny, liking me (I’m desperate)

🍓- one secret about yourself

I had a lisp, and I still have hints of it.

🍒- how do you act when you have a crush?

FLIRTY, embarassing

💔- the reason behind your last breakup?

Bold of you to assume I ever was in a couple.

💬- what your last text message says?

Einstein wants what I have (said after a pun)

🎥- what show are you currently binging on?

Not any particular one right now

⛅- what is your morning routine?

Waking up, taking 1 hour to get outta bed, meds, shower, skin care, dressing, go

💗- who do you miss?

People I love I can’t see face to face

🥀- last time you cried?

Mental breakdown

🎁- when is your birthday?

18th of September

🔪- scariest/creepiest experience?

Forgetting my entire wardrobe in the laundry for 6 hours, I was lucky it wasn’t stolen (I had way creepier, but I won’t talk about it)

💤- date someone younger, older, or same age as you?

As long as they are outta high school and aren’t older than my mom, I’m okay with all.

🎀- any question you want : How many times a day do I dab?

50 times

Thank you Kent!

[tinsyfairy]

09.19 food diary ! 🍂

*note : this is not intended to encourage anybody or follow my habits i'm just documenting my life and i want to find others who are like me :)

₊⊹ intake limit : 1.3k

₊⊹ water intake : 1.5L

₊⊹ f4st¡ng time : 18 hrs

⌗ breakfast :

– 1/2 cup of strawbs and banana (53)

– 1 apple (95)

> total : 148

⌗ lunch :

– 3 mandarins (135)

> total : 135

⌗ dinner :

– 1 apple (95)

– 1/2 cup of berries (35)

– raw honey (53)

> total : 183

other :

– applesauce pouch (60)

– sf orange jello (5)

> total : 65

☆ total : 534

☆ burned : 529 / 15k st-eps / 25 min p¡late-s

☆ net : 5

— log :

hi friendsss! today was a fruit mono and pretty busy day but i did a lot of studying and catching up on work! I did c/$ some food my mom made bc I was getting b¡nge urges luckily after I did that they went away :) I think my parents are starting to not care if I eat w them at dinner mainly because they want me to focus on school (which is awesome because they usually cook high c-l low volume stuff) they're also allowing me to have meal alternatives instead of forcing me to e-t so now I can seriously control my intake instead of just estimating (i'll try to omad dinner sometimes with them though) anyways I hope you guys all had a great day orrr I hope you have a great day:) stay safe <3

[skinnyminny111]

food diary 4 tuesday:

breakfast: 6 am apple banana and strawb (3) and a tea (185)

coffee (100)

Soy chai tea, lunch: pumpkin soup (100)

Lemongrass and Ginger tea with some honey (yummy) (20) 

400 cals pre binge at 4.30 pm

- 2 pieces lindt choc (80)

- 2 pieces white bread (120)

- 2 small apples (100)

- health choc stick (90)

-2 mini sweet potato brownies (200)

- some salad 

(600 cal binge)

Dinner: thai and an apple (probably over 1200 cals

30 min run and 40 min yoga

[chocolatestrawberriesandcream]

being a little as a woman who likes men is the most infuriating and contradicting experience. all i want is for my partner to care for me in that way but knowing that most men who are into that are creeps is so sad and gross, especially when they only want or see the sexual side of a dynamic like that. (looking at my ex)

[chocolatestrawberriesandcream]

hello everyone! not that i anticipate anybody finding this blog since it’s essentially a public diary as i probably won’t be reblogging anything on here. i mainly just want to vent into the void.

this blog is for no one but myself, however, if someone happens upon it and finds a sense of “i’m not alone in this!” then that’s fantastic, feel free to send me an ask at anytime for any reason (just don’t be gross)

this blog will contain nsfw topics, i know it’s controversial on tumblr to have a sexual side to regression at all, and while i won’t be posting straight up p*rn or smut or anything, i might mention it from time to time. (for clarification though, to me littlespace and subspace are entirely different, though similar, but for sure can have some crossover or confusion due to my trauma with a past cg/boyfriend which i will not disclose) so if nsfw topics like that aren’t something you want to see, that is completely fine, feel free to block me (i will also do my best to tag those posts as such with nsfw tag, so just block that tag if it’s not something you’re interested in)

hope you have a good day <3

[tinsyfairy]

09.18 food diary ! 🍂

* note : this is not intended to encourage anybody or follow my habits i'm just documenting my life and i want to find others who are like me :)

₊⊹ intake limit : 1.3k

₊⊹ water intake : 1.5L

₊⊹ f4st¡ng time : 18 hrs

⌗ breakfast : oat bowl 🥣

– date and walnut oats (140)

– 1/2 apple (48)

– 1/2 berries (35)

> total : 223

⌗ lunch : strawb cinnamon waffles 🍓

- 2 buttermilk egg–0 waffles (180)

– 2 tbsp of ch0ban¡ yog (39)

– 5 strawbs (20)

> total : 245

⌗ dinner : egg & ham sandwich 🥪

– 6 slices of black forest ham (60)

– 1 egg (72)

- 2 egg whites (36)

- cheese (35)

– 1 cup of spinach (7)

- 2 slices of bread (130)

> total : 349

other :

– 4 spoons of peach cobbler (130)

– honey comb cereal (39)

> total : 169

☆ total : 986

☆ burned : 604 / 18k ste–ps / 10 min y-ga

☆ net : 382

— log :

hi friendsss!! today was pretty bad but good at the same time?? i reached my g-w and i had some pretty yummy and filling foods today but i wanted to try my mom's peach cobbler i had about 4 spoonfuls of mostly peaches but it was sweet so idrk how to est. it) i felt SOOO guilty after to the point i locked myself in my room and started ex3rc¡sing. i'm going to just do a fruit mono tmrw so i can speedrun!! i'll try to be more active this weekend stay safe guys <3