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[pamwritessometimes]

Loving Soldier Boy…

Soldier Boy x reader (drabble)

Summary: Just a short n’ (bitter)sweet drabble about what it’s like to love Ben.

Warnings: language, innuendos (c’mon, it’s Ben), mention of violence

Song inspo: I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can) by Taylor Swift.

Loving Soldier Boy isn’t easy.

You knew Soldier Boy was a handful. Hell, he knows he’s a handful. And you know Ben has never been handled before. Not properly. Not by someone who knows when to push and when to pull, when to hold steady and when to let go.

But you?

You thought you had him figured out.

He’s bad news — at least that’s what everyone keeps telling you.

“That man is not safe” MM says, arms crossed.

“He’s straightdown psychotic” Annie agrees, looking at you like she’s waiting for the spell Ben must have put on you to break.

Hughie just grimaces, rubbing the back of his neck. “Are you sure about this? Like, really sure?”

Frenchie sighs. “I have seen many dangerous men, mon coeur, but that one?” He shakes his head. “That one is the iceberg that sinks the ship.”

Even Kimiko seems to eye you with pity.

And Butcher — he just tsked.

“That’s a bloody dangerous game you’re about to play, luv.”

But all that didn’t matter.

Not when Ben flashes you that cocky, wolfish grin. Not when he pulls you in with that fiery gaze that makes your pulse stutter. Not when he touches you like you’re the only thing keeping him from unraveling completely.

He’s a walking contradiction.

He can be crude and crass and violent, but his hands that are scarred and calloused from years of supposed war and bloodshed, are so uncharacteristically gentle when they touch you like he’s terrified of breaking something he doesn’t know how to stitch back together.

And you love it.

You love that you make him hesitate.

That you make him stay.

"Fuck, you’ve ruined me" he murmurs one night, pressing his forehead to yours, breath warm against your lips. “You made me a goddamn pussy.”

Loving Soldier Boy is mastering the skill of interpreting nonverbal communication.

You see, Ben isn’t good with words. Not the important ones, anyway.

But he’s fluent in actions.

Like how he always, always keeps a hand on you — your waist, your back, the nape of your neck — like he needs the physical contact to remind himself you’re real and still with him.

Or how, when you’re pissed at him, he won’t apologize outright, but he will fix your coffee just the way you like it, set it down in front of you with a grunt and a pointed look, like There. Happy now?

Or the way he watches you when he thinks you’re not looking. Like he’s trying to memorize every inch of you because no matter how much of a dick he is sometimes, the thought of him possibly outliving you haunts him.

He’s an asshole. A menace. A walking disaster.

And yet, when he pulls you into his lap, his fingers threading through your hair, his lips ghosting over yours—

You think maybe he’s worth the trouble.

Loving Soldier Boy is a delicate art.

It’s catching the flicker of rage in his eyes before he explodes, steering him away from the fire instead of into it.

It’s letting him run his mouth, knowing that half the shit he says is just to get a rise out of people, and the other half—

Well.

“Because it was fucking beeping” he answers when you find bullet holes in your microwave.

Ben’s not stupid.

But when he came back from the dead, or, you know, from 40 years of being locked up, you’re starting to realize… he might not be as up to date as he thinks.

You blink. “Because it was beeping?”

“Yeah.” He shrugs, leaning back against the counter like he didn’t just pull some absolute batshit nonsense. “Wouldn’t shut the hell up.”

“That’s… literally its job, Ben.”

“Well, now it’s unemployed.” He smirks. “Like half the people I’ve worked with.

Loving Soldier Boy is like wrestling with a live grenade.

Violence isn’t just second nature to Ben — it’s first.

He doesn’t do restraint.

Like the time some guy got a little too close to you at a club and ended up with a broken jaw — because Ben doesn’t do warnings either.

Or the time he punched a cop without even thinking about the consequences.

“To be fair, he was being a dick.”

“He was giving you a parking ticket.”

Ben scoffs. “Exactly.”

“Oh my God.”

“What?” He throws his hands up, all mock innocence. “I told him not to touch my car.”

Loving Soldier Boy is fighting for feminism while actively losing the war.

There’s something infuriating about Ben’s shameless, unapologetic brand of horniness.

His jokes are always just a little too loud, just a little too offensive, making you cringe even as he smirks, because he knows damn well what he’s doing.

And yet, you’d be lying if you said you didn’t enjoy it.

And he knows it.

No matter how many times you glare at him, no matter how often you mutter “Ben, we are in public”, he sees the way your breath hitches, the way your thighs press together when he leans in too close, and he can practically smell the forming pool in your panties.

“C’mon, sweetheart.” His voice is low, dripping with amusement. “Don’t act like you don’t love it when I talk dirty to you.”

You glare at him. “You literally just told the bartender that I needed something ‘to keep my mouth occupied.’”

Ben grins. “And I stand by that.”

You fight the urge to groan. “You are insufferable.”

He leans in, his lips just barely brushing against your ear. “But you like me insufferable.”

And fuck.

Maybe you do.

Loving Soldier Boy is realizing you’re the one really losing the fight.

When the team calls you out on his bullshit, you just sit there and listen.

You have no defense.

Because what are you even supposed to say?

He’s trying? (He’s not.)

He didn’t mean to? (He absolutely did.)

He’s a work in progress? (Is he?)

And despite what everyone says — despite the fact that he probably won’t ever change — you can’t seem to stop yourself from diving headfirst into the madness.

Maybe you can’t fix him.

But damn if he doesn’t make it worth trying.

The chokehold this man has on me is insane — help

Also… This sat in my drafts for months, but I gave it a reread and didn’t completely hate it — so here you go. Hope you enjoyed!🤍

xx Pam

[lovelyjuju]

maki is such s fucking tease and i will die on this hill. like him imitating harua’s baby talk? this man would bully you relentlessly 😭😭 but at the same time i think he’d instill so much confidence in his s/o. always complimenting them and pointing out the little things:< like if you said something passionately or puff your cheeks while you’re concentrating or something, he’d playfully mock and tease you to no end BUT he’d also admire and brag about you and everything you do:(( (“you’re making me fall for you jojo!”)

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yes yes yes! i feel like he might need to find a good balance at first, asking if what he said was okay and reassuring you that he's not seriously making fun of you?

but once you both get to know each other's boundaries, set new ones together, and get used to each other's way of thinking and talking, you could have a very light and fun atmosphere with maki.

he strikes me as someone who's either very straightforward or hides compliments behind a teasing joke? 😭 like idk. if he finds something adorable or admirable, he'd either point it out by teasing you about it or just straightdown dryly compliment you and acting like nothing happened when you get surprised or flustered?

while he would tease you a lot about things that he knows do not overstep any lines, he would also make sure to boost your confidence in areas where you feel insecure :(

[libelelle]

SONIC AND CO SKIING. BECAUSE I CANT

Sonic: IF hes skiing (he would be snowboarding), its straightdown style. Barely digs his skis in at all. Its scary to watch because he does this on black diamond runs too but he just uses the slope and uneven terrain to launch himself and do a bunch of crazy tricks. Breaks his equiment often and banned by the rental shop

Tails: also skis very fast, but hes a lot more technical about it. Carves with his skis very nicely and follows Sonic down marked runs at a reasonable pace. Uses his tails in the terrain parks to fuck it up. He prefers powder skiing though

Amy: avid skier with no difficulty preference. Dabbles in it all and knows the runs like the back of her hand. Tree skier also. She find it "relaxing". She also snowboards really well but prefers the terrain park when she does. You can find her giving impromptu lessons to beginners and directing traffic

Knuckles: Snowboards decently but cant ski. Says that skis are an uncoordinated nightmare and pizzas (method of slowling down where you point the toes inward and the heels out) all the way down the mountain. After yelling at Sonic for taking him down the longest run, he switches out for a snowboard.

Silver: beginner and a cheater. Everyone keeps telling him he'll always be bad at skiing if he keeps using his psychokinesis to turn his skis but hes not listening. He can only go straight down or do wideeeee slowwww turns if hes not using his powers. He does like to send himself flying on occasion. And uses his powers to lower himself back to the ground.

Blaze: skilled but not crazy. Sticks to blue runs primarily. She tries skiing with Silver but he does it so weird she usually ends up skiing with Amy instead. Likes going on bumpy terrain (moguls) but avoids steep drops. Always has a thermos of premium tea from home with her

Babylon rogues: dont ski on a principal. Jet says its for babies because hes immature. Wave snowboards exclusively because it gives her ideas for her extreme gear and she want to show off. Storm WANTS to ski but is a little afraid to bring it up. They are also the assholes who block the entire run at the top of the hill and cut you off in the middle of a turn.

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