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steeples my fingers. chiyo's partner has definitely walked in on her having personal time. i know this in my heart bc it's one of her worst fears which means it's gotta be canon no matter who she ends up with
#chiyo vc: they can't know that i do these things by myself or i'm gonna actually die i mean it i'll die on the spot#me with my keyboard and spotify playing: oh you don't say :)))#ngl i'm half tempted to write an open or something but i think i would also combust and i feel like nobody would wanna reply to that#which is fair bc like i said i think i'd combust asdfgh#also when i say i gotta stop being distracted i mean it but do you know that's actually so hard---#y'all i've been out of the shower for like an hour and the skincare is still not on my face it's dryyyyy#tw suggestive#shield your eyes | nsft#i sit before flowers & hope they will train me in the art of opening up | headcanons
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now deeply curious after reading some comments on a related news article
(whether you get periods now or you got them 20 years ago...doesn't have to be current)
#idk if people will take to this poll but i'm so so curious#me personally...#i'm on birth control these days that largely stops my periods from happening (thank fuck)#and i tempt fate on the regular because i don't carry period products on me when i go out#i'll bring them with me if i'm going anywhere overnight#but out for the day? nope#it's not a smart choice because my periods do break through every so often and there's NO pattern#surprisingly it actually hasn't really bit me in the ass yet#i think when i had regular periods when i was younger then yeah i did experience this once or twice#thinking high school. definitely asked for help before#and i've offered help#anyway this is so deep in the tags i can now say#this article i read had people going i've menstruated for 30 years and never been caught out. it's YOUR responsibility to carry things on y#it's ridiculous to say that public facilities should carry them. that's learned hopelessness.#and i was like bitch what the fuck.#then of course there were the 'well if they're going to carry pads they need to carry condoms!!!'#or#'well if they're going to do that how about chocolate too?? what next??'#and there were 'if you know you're close carry products on you'#have you. never. in your life. been caught out.#AND OKAY. if you haven't. CAN YOU NOT IMAGINE THAT SCENARIO??? HELLO???#people have irregular cycles. people might unexpectedly need to change part way through a day.#sometimes periods fucking seem to stop and then hello they're back again a day later#sometimes you're at an age where they've stopped but then hello. months later it's back#sometimes YOU FORGET TO PUT PRODUCTS IN YOUR BAG. god forbid.#i'm so glad you've never had a problem. congratulations. good for you. but how about we fucking offer the help anyway. ffs
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Hi! Hi. Guess who's in. Love y'all.
#so i guess i am allowed to post about the plurality without Gail deleting it now#i wish that was a good thing#anyhow; we've been carouseling!#Gail can't keep a grip on the front for the life of him#usual state of affairs is that he fronts most of the time#and me and Fenn cofront with him periodically#sometimes we front without him for a bit but not for as long as he can go without us#frankly Gail's blessed existence is the only reason why we got HoR as polished and published as it is#i don't think SP is going out on time gang; let's aim for May 2026 should our world not collapse by then#current state of affairs is that I'M in charge mostly and fuck damn i don't want it#i want the guy who gets stuff done in or at least the guy who likes to be here#Fenn is not able to make firm grabby hands for the front either which is not usual he's the second most common guy in#and ALABASTER has been showing up#which happens once in a very blue moon#she's a sweet kid nowadays but how do i address this delicately#i don't want her to have to deal with this because her traditional answer to stress is “what if we stopped existing”#and i want to say that i'm not tempted by her old default solution but FUCK#don't worry#we will be fine#i just needed to bitch about it a little bit#i'll make it fine#please help me i'm the “fight or flight” part of us leaning mostly on “fight”#i don't have the necessary skills to outpace slow tigers#don't haul me out until an actual apocalypse happens
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on the negative side, I'm never drinking caffinated tea ever again because it apparently makes me manic. That's especially sad because I found that out after drinking delicious tea I'll never be able to drink again and by becoming manic (i.e. the hard way)
on the plus side, I wasn't manic before I drank caffeine! and I probably won't be come tomorrow afternoon thank fuck. It's so unpleasant. So, so uncomfortable. I'm already starting to come down I think. It's hard to tell.
but yeah otherwise getting tea with my friends was nice. It was kind of magical to do a tea tasting, it's just too bad that- well. Can't drink alcohol. Can't drink coffee. Can't even drink tea either. They need to invent some kind of chocolate milk tasting or something for me personally so I don't feel like a sad wet dog about the situation.
#personal#mental illness#*shaking the bars of my emotional cage* let me be depressed or normal again damn you#I want out#it sucks that bipolar is like alcoholism#you have to watch yourself every damn day like sam vimes does there's no 'being done' or 'solving it'#it's not like healing a wound in a cast#it's not even like celiac's#there is always that psychological component#that little evil weevil impulse that says 'pick the bad decision!' in a voice that sounds just like yours#it'll be fiiiiine#<- words said just before relapse#I want to fit in! I want to have fun!#<- about to ruin my whole week like a dumbass#I was stupid. even at the event it was starting to hit me and I just fucking. gave up#'well it's already horrible'#'might as well have more?'#no. no that's dumb. once you get in a hole there's no reason to keep digging lav! that's A BIGGER HOLE#stop! stop! it's already too deep! [simpsons meme]#etc#it's really hard because it wouldn't normally hurt other people so it's really tempting to just pretend the boundary is fake and not real#long enough to step over it#even other bipolar friends don't have as uh. delicate sensibilities as I do around caffeine#so it feels profoundly bad that I can't indulge in it#though one part is the forbidden aspect#I want it and can't have it- so I want it more because I can't have it#I stayed within budget though#I got a fun trinket to remember the special occasion by (tradition tea brewer and cups that I'll drink chamomile out of because fuck it)#I have enough to get ramen tomorrow (yay! something I enjoy that won't hurt me physically or mentally!)#and I'll probably get weaving supplies this month
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#when im extra depressed i watch old yt compilations#this week is critical role moments#and ugh. Ugh#i always forget how mf touch-starved and affection-starved i am until i watch those 8 interact w each other#like. always touching. so much touching#i havent had a cuddly / touchy friend in like 6+ years and i am Suffering for it#like as much as w any other people im v touch-averse and dont want that at all#when it comes to friends i am extremely pro touch and genuinely love being affectionate#and i Can't#and sometimes that sucks ngl#no shade to my friends who aren't comf w that obviously#that's 100% gr8 and i would never push or wanna make them uncomf lots of ppl dont like that#i just. used to always have at least 1 friend who /was/ okay with it that i could be as cuddly as i wanted with#and now i dont and it ??? is getting to a point where it is almost painful#like str8 up i've had to talk to my therapist abt this the last 6 months bc its becoming a bit dire#hugs r wonderful dont get me wrong but thats the max amount of touch for my ok-with-touch friends#and the rest r no-touch#whereas im sitting here like 😭😭😭 PLS I JUST WANNA HOLD SOMEONE'S HAND#OR LEAN MY HEAD ON SOMEONE'S SHOULDER OR HAVE AN ARM AROUND A WAIST OR A HEAD IN A LAP#OR STR8 UP SNUGGLIN ON A COUCH#I DESPERATELY NEED IT#ANY OF IT IT DOESNT NEED TO BE ALL OF THAT#I FEEL LIKE I AM SHRIVELLING UP LIKE A SENTIENT RAISIN INSIDE#JUST HAVIN ALL THE LIFE SUCKED OUT OF ME THRU LACK OF TOUCH#I WANT SOMEONE TO RUFFLE MY HAIR OR PAT MY ARM OR KISS MY CHEEK#HELL I'LL TAKE A HAND ON MY BACK PURELY FOR THE PURPOSE OF STOPPING ME FROM WALKING INTO TRAFFIC#WHICH AT THIS POINT I AM TEMPTED TO DO DUE TO EMOTIONAL DISTRESS LMAO (DEVASTATED LAUGHTER)#aiyaiyai and i cant even just go and Make New Friends bc most spaces to do that arent accessible or safe for me#the only friends i've made in the last few years r thru Mutual Autism Vibes~ and they're all anti-touch#WHERE R THE OTHER TOUCH-STARVED CUDDLY AUTISTICS AT ??? WHERE R U ??? COME FIND ME PLS I BEG !!! i feel like im gonna die fr
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whats fun is looking at the thread youre hanging on by and seeing where it's about to snap. whats even more fun is deliberately cutting through that thread because you know it'll just snap anyways so why bother clinging to it as if youll make it somehow
#im at the point of complete and total apathy#no matter how many ''life plans'' i make itll all end with me killing myself anyways#ive already proven that i cant change so why bother trying#shes right i did go right back to how i was before going away. no actually thats a lie i got even worse ahah#i dont care. i just dont care.#i actually got a library card on my own today. i even reserved some books and just have to wait for another local library to send them over#i even have plans on friday to get an actual id! but yknow what?#i could still jump off a bridge tomorrow without batting an eye.#i dont care about ''making it'' anymore. whats the point when once i die i'll just reincarnate into the world i was supposed to be in?#whats the point when even if i do manage to become a successful person i'll just be cutting myself and planning my suicide either way?#i dont care. i'll put on my favorite outfit and go jump somewhere high enough that theres no chance id survive i dont care.#i'll even bring all my pills and my box cutter with me for good measure#i really dont care. i really think this is gonna be it.#i rethink for a second when i remember how those i love are going to feel but then i remember i wont be alive in this world to see it#i'll see everyone again when im home anyways. if i will it enough i can bring them along and we'll all be happy#and even if i never wake again then even nonexistence will be better than this#i see no real reason not to anymore. i dont have a future that doesnt end in me taking my own life anyways#i really could do it tomorrow if i have the willpower for it. im going to be left alone in the house for a few hours so#no one could stop me#its tempting#and you know me#self-destructively impulsive without a care in the world towards self-control?#we'll see. we will see.#please pray i will make it home everyone.
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good morning!! <3
#eeee i'm still happy it's his birthday#can't wait to read his letter when i play genshin in a lil bit <3#i put a bunch of my old fics for him into my drafts so i can reblog them sporadically over the day#& i might post another fic (idk which one since i have several for him i haven't posted but yeah :3)#((also someone stop me from changing my pfp to his new bday art like i did last year hehe))#anyways#i have normal hsr stuff to do today & i think we're getting groceries tonight#so idk about other games after that#but i'll at least have fun today and that's all that matters#i'm tempted to rewatch the dialogue & stuff for the inversion of genesis quest today too#<3#but anyways#i hope you have a good day/night! <3#morning rambles
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Catch me voting on all the Tumblr Polls. It's honestly an addiction at this point. I just see the buttons and something takes over me, like I NEED to click it.
#Maybe I really DO need to click on it#If I don't what will happen to me by this point?#I don't want to know#I'll stop thinking about it so I'm not tempted curiosity#Poll#Polls
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I think I should log off for the night . uhm . but I probably won't . so . bweh .
#➳ the fool speaks#i won't let my stupid inability to form normal attachments to others get in the way of the last few hrs of my birthday#<- listening to my bpd playlist#ugh . don't turn this into a vent post uu'll literally feel fine tmrw don't turn it into a vent post uu'll literally feel fine tmrw don't t#I'm always like this man#in a year will this matter ? looking at my record of ppl I've acted like this over . no . but in the moment however -#very tempted to re-use my dar.ling da.nce theme but i literally just changed this#I'll keep it for at least a week . shrug .#but god fucking damn it what do i have to do to finally get the love i so desperately want . when can i stop being a pathetic little kid#begging for attention and love ?#and care . god fucking damn it i just want somebun who CARES . and loves me and gives me attention . all three of those .#what is that too much to ask for or something ???? eueuehththehrhrhrhr
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I've been working on a big project on and off for five months now and man. I'm so tempted to post it on my main YT channel even though it has literally nothing to do with Vocaloid.
Either way the project is ranking every single Pokemon based on what I think their sexuality is. I've already ranked every single Pokemon (that literally only took me one day) but I'm doing individual analyses (w varying degrees of seriousness) for every individual Pokemon and form. So I ended up ranking about 1,500 Pokemon once you include forms because I ranked every single Unown letter, every possible Alcremie form, etc.
I've also made a spreadsheet where I'm inputting this data along with other data (Gay% and Homophobic%, for example) so that I can have statistics to generate too. Tell people what type is the gayest, most homophobic, etc. Might throw gender in there too but I'm trying to finish one aspect at a time so I don't get overwhelmed. Working on the notes right now. Here's some highlights:
I bought a microphone just so that I can turn this into a long-form YT video when I'm finished. One day you will get to hear how horrifically flat my affect is. It's truly going to be a video by autistics, for autistics.
#talking#I stopped working on this for a while but I'm back at it again#I finally watched iBinged iCarly and that dude has inspired me to be insane#I aspire to be on his level of commitment to the bit#It'll be a while before I finish this but when I'm done I'm tempted to do a video inspired by the one I watched#Where I like watch every single episode of Pokemon and review them. Maybe even rank em#Or I'll start smaller and do that with the Pokemon movies like the dude who watched every Barbie movie#Except I'll actually go into detail on every single movie#I like Pokemon a normal amount
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Good news! While bone density might be a real concern if someone was on puberty blockers more than a couple years or into adulthood, blockers are generally not prescribed for that long. Once a kid has had some extra time to figure themself out, they either get on HRT or not and their metabolisms proceed to add bone mineral density (BMD) basically as normal. It's a risk, sure (though one study I read that reported lower BMD in trans youth also noted suboptimal calcium intake and decreased physical activity in the people they had studied, which would be risk factors in any child), but that's why doctors are advised to monitor bone density throughout the regimen of blockers. See Table 7 and the section on side effects in this paper published in The Journal of Clinical Endocrinology & Metabolism, Volume 102, Issue 11, 1 November 2017, Pages 3869–3903, https://doi.org/10.1210/jc.2017-01658. Supplements can be offered to combat this issue if it becomes a concern.
Vaginal atrophy is also reversible to some extent and is treatable in basically any case I could find (I'm at work so unfortunately I cannot do as much research on this one). There are LOADS of resources available for people struggling with this, postmenopausal cisgender women being arguably the largest group affected. If indeed genital atrophy is a major concern for children whose bodies are still growing and often able to catch up developmentally when puberty resumes, that will be monitored by their physicians.
I swear to god, people have GOT to stop talking about puberty blockers as if a kid is just handed a bunch of pills and waved out the door, never to talk to their doctor again. That is a WILDLY disingenuous way to discuss these treatments, which involve far more developmental monitoring than is offered to most cisgender children (who, fun fact, occasionally need to take puberty blockers). And you should be ashamed for ignoring the fact that puberty ALSO causes irreversible changes that are ALSO incredibly damaging to trans people and expensive to correct. Any damage caused by puberty blockers (and I'm still not convinced the damage you're describing is guaranteed) can be tracked and mitigated. The damage caused by puberty cannot. Even if you're right and these are certain and irreversible side effects, it would be a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation; to feign otherwise is ignorant to the point of malice.
(Also, kinda odd that you jumped directly to "oh this is about trans children specifically," as if it could not also be about reproductive rights. Or trans adults. The push to deny people the right to decide what happens to their bodies is not exclusive to trans youth, and yeah, I'm gonna mock the shit out of control-freak, overreaching, fearmongering, pearl-clutching, fucking invasive "concerns" that center solely on someone else's potential regret.)
Anyway. Isn't it great how we have the ability to monitor and mitigate side effects? Isn't that just the best? Isn't that fantastic news? Don't you feel reassured? Maybe now you can stay out of other people's treatment. Just butt entirely the fuck out of other people's medical care. You get to decide what you wanna do with your body, and I get to decide what I wanna do with mine, and parents get to help their kids make informed decisions about what they wanna do with theirs, and nobody has to spout fearmongering nonsense about how harm is the only outcome and it's better for kids to suffer permanent unwanted changes than risk the horrors of [checks notes] calcium supplements and estrogen creams.
Seriously, dude. What the fuck.
If you have bodily autonomy, then there is always a chance that you will do something to your body that you will regret. This is not an argument for taking that autonomy away.
#the number of people who regret elective medical procedures at any age is astronomical#but you mention trans people and suddenly everyone and their brother is JUST A CONCERNED CITIZEN AAAAWWWWEWAAAWWWW#trans#dal is a scream#puberty blockers DO NOT ALLEVIATE GENDER DYSPHORIA.#that is NOT THEIR PURPOSE.#their PURPOSE is to stop it from getting WORSE and to BUY TIME for a kid to get a little older before they make a decision#VERY tempted to just post this and then block this person; i do not have time to get dragged into a debate with a clown#like. between my nespring wanting to kill themself and needing to monitor their bone density and take some supplements?#I THINK I'LL TAKE THE LATTER. CALL ME CRAZY. BUT KIDDO NOT WANTING TO DIE???? A LITTLE MORE IMPORTANT. TO ME.#IDK. MAYBE THAT'S WEIRD. MAYBE THAT'S CRAZY.#I DUNNO.#this is like going Oh you're an adult who wants to get on T? but you might have higher cholesterol!!!! you can't!!!!#like. bro. that is not the only effect.
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Hm. I am getting the distinct feeling that either revanced broke or some apps are doing smth real shitty
#rat rambles#anyways guess who's youtube completely stopped working#It's fine I can watch on browser but it's still very annoying#And the tumblr thing is even more annoying hense why I've been like completely off of tumblr recently#Maybe the universe is telling me to take an Internet break but like I have just been starting to feel a bit better#My family got a new dog the other day btw not relevant to the rest of this post but her name is karla and she's a very anxious doggy#I'm just waiting for laundry rn so that's why I'm posting at all lol#Might have to switch to posting from my laptop soon if things don't get unfucked#Which wouldnt be the end of the world but sure as hell would be annoying#Idk maybe it'll motivate me to finally make a proper blog theme#Idk what Id do for a blog theme tho tbh#An oni theme would be rly fun but it would also probably age poorly (as in the second I get into smth new)#So maybe an oc theme?#That could be fun#Not sure what characters Id use but maybe mascot and/or midas#Idk but chances of me actually doing it anytime soon are slim#Rly if I'm gonna customize anything more it's gonna be my toyhouse page#Oh also good news I'm going to do a pet sitting job for my aunt and uncle at some point#It'll be like 3 weeks I think and I'll be getting paid 700 buckeroos if I'm remembering correctly#I already have a lot of thoughts of how I'm going to spend it even if I should probably try to save at least some of it#There's just a lot of ppl who could use that money more and better than me and I don't wanna be stingy during times like this#I have also might buy like a new game since I've been interested in playing smth new#There has been one game I've been eyeing for a while and I have a mutual who likes it a lot but idk if I'm ready for new blorbos yet#But oldie or whatever her name was calls to me. She tempts me so#I'm open to other game recommendations tho just know that I'm gonna be picky on more story heavy games#Again I'm not exactly on the hunt for new blorbos rn and getting new story hyperfixations is scary to me lol
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Seriously, it would be a mercy to kill me. I'm begging for help dying. Do you not see why it's fucking torture to keep my alive while living with her? I'll never escape her, like there's just no practical way to make it happen
And yet, till I get my act together and find a way to die already, show must go on
#you can't stand still; no matter how miserable you are there's shit you got to do#lord knows I'm bad at it and it takes me forever; I'm not even close to good enough or getting enough done#but still... I slowly work at it and occasionally do things like get rid of the trailer by myself#and in return I get lovely anons telling me to stop using my one point of socialization and to go get some help#my misery repulses them and I really need to fix it before I get back on the internet#and I'm so sleep deprived and in so much pain from having to be a therapist today; especially with how bad it was today#that I'll just be blunt that if I could distill every bit of pain I feel#I'd fucking seep it into people's bones when they say shit like that#I want to see how you deal with it; I want to see if you writhe just by living my life#I've told you all so many times that I'm bitter and cruel and that you only don't see it because I'm polite#there's a reason I identify so much with Soulcutter as a sword#and it's because I'd call it the sword of depression almost as much as I'd call it the Tyrant Blade or Sword of Despair#the way it's described; like it drains the will out of you meaning that even the idea of holding it aloft becomes tiring#...I could fucking wield it; I know how#that's not a blade you draw; you rest your hand on the hilt and let the misery eat into everyone carving them up#and you realize how pointless it is to even bother keeping your hand there and let it go limp and slide off#and frankly if I had it I'd be real tempted to carve a path of despair through the world... especially anywhere policy makers were#I'll work with everything I have to make sure no one ever feels like me; or as few people and make them feel as little of it#but it would be a lie to say I didn't want to force you all to feel it exactly as I feel it#then you come back to me and tell me all the ways I'm not doing enough and need to fix my depression this way or that way#you feel the decades of total isolation and you tell me if I'm doing as badly as you've decided I am
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I ran out of tags XD Good Omens Spoilers Beware! (time for dinner now)
The Magic Trick You Didn’t See: Being An Analysis of Good Omens Season 2
(or: Neil Gaiman, Your Brain is Gorgeous But I Have Cracked Your Sneaky Little Code And Have You Dead To Rights*) (*Maybe)
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Soooooo I just spent the last 48 hours having a BREATHTAKING GALAXY BRAIN EPIPHANY about Good Omens Season 2 and feverishly writing a fuckin16,000 word essay about the incredible magic trick that @neil-gaiman pulled off.
Yes, it’s long, but I PROMISE your brains will explode. Do you want to know how magic works? Do you want to know what Metatron’s deal is (I’m like 99% sure of this and it’s EXTREMELY FUCKING GOOD)? Do you want to know about the Mystery of the Vanishing Eccles Cakes and the big fat beautiful clue I found in the opening credits? Do you go through the whole inventory of Chekov’s Firearm & Heavy Artillery Discount Warehouse?
Here is the essay, go read it: https://docs.google.com/document/d/193IXS11XN46lziHRb6eUpM17yK0BQkRqke1Wh64A_e0/ When ur done u can tell me I’m an insane crackpot, and u know what, i won’t even be offended
In case you don’t know whether you want to bother reading the whole enormous thing on google docs, I’ve put the first couple sections of it under the cut. JUST TRUST ME OKAY, HEAR ME OUT, THIS IS VERY EXTREMELY COOL, NEIL IS GOOD AT HIS JOB–
Keep reading
#FASCINATING essay#intriguing ideas and clues#the eccles cakes are DEFINITELY significant! weren't they called the ultimate comfort food? comfort disappears...#s2 has so many threads left up in the air ready to be played with in s3 it's great#wondering hard about the editing/erasing memories ability...is that something any angel at michael/uriel/saraqaels' level can do?#is it something they can do to ANY angel (or demon?)/only if they decide as a committee?#cuz they expected to erase gabriel's memory. saraqael had the thing to “look up” gabriel's memory in her hot little hands at the meeting#was THAT the book of life or is angel memory editing a separate function? (I'm leaning toward the latter)#GABRIEL fell in love?? GABRIEL?? with a demon?? is that Real? is it??#One Prince of Heaven may fall (lucifer/satan) but not two (crowley?) and CERTAINLY not 3 (gabriel) eh metatron? eh?#you are on to something BIG and the payoff is gonna be great!#(hey hollywood execs pay your fucking staff already & stop forcing wga & sag-aftra to strike for survival) (s3 doesn't HAVE to be on prime?)#oooh maggie not sure about maggie not being real. you've got me halfway convinced but aziraphale loves her records#AND she gets all the everyday records that the resurrectionist keeps getting--possible grounding in reality?#“it's just a thing we do” - i am on the fence on this one. on the one hand it is a very Character thing to say. on the other...#it's also a very mellow go woth the flow i don't get it but I'm here and i don't hate it kind of thing to say (and she really really wants#to dance with nina)#*with#the perfect crime...the parallels to gabriel's disappearance with none knowing who done did it (cuz he zapped himself into the fly)#back to gabriel & beelzebub and the everday records....the sheer NUMBER of records...does it imply gabriel turned EVERY RECORD in the juke#every time they visited the resurrectionist (3 times on screen?) or does he change just the one currently selected and there's a ton more#visits there that we DON'T see (but the records are proof of)?#gabriel says Nah. nah. nuhuh. nope. great & terrible prophesy bad things coming ah yes I'll renege and lose my memory to avert it ???#Nah is too out of character to not be deliberate. WHAT DOES GABRIEL KNOW ABOUT WHAT IS COMING. why did he set things up#so that he could escape heaven scot free but memoryless and WHY was that integral to averting the Terrible Thing that is coming?#is metatron the terrible thing? did gabriel have to leave the coop SO THAT metatron would be tempted to meddle & suck aziraphale in?#so that aziraphale (and crowley) can save the day by stopping “heaven”/metatron's plan for the second coming?#the Great Plan is ineffable...the Apocalysn't...the plan behind the plan for apocalypse...god's narration & the nice & accurate prophecies--#what I'm getting at there (poorly) is that...maybe god's plan is to see how long things can last? how great creation can become?#because it IS a damn shame to end an infinite universe after 6000 years before the engine is even fully cranked up...
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i feel like ass emotionally but at least my sleep schedule + water intake is getting normaler
#flea.talks#its so tempting to just sleep through it all#but my doctor specifically said like. “try not to do that i'll check in w you soon”. so.#i'm infinitely grateful for all the help i've recieved in my life.. even if it isn't as much as i'd want ideally#but sometimes i wish people would stop trying to help me and just let me rot#sorry thats sad but yea. not many people read my silly little text posts so#tw vent#vent tw#vent
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141 with a partner who likes to bite
Okay, anon. I'll be honest. When I read this prompt, I immediately thought of "cute aggression." Not sure if that is what you meant or if you meant something else, but that's what I went with. Kinda. There are some more suggestive undertones in a few of these. I had a lot of fun with this one. Thank you so much for sending it in!
Presented in four double drabbles.
For the masterlist and how to submit your own request, click HERE
Task Force 141 x Reader (can be read as gn!reader)
Content & Warnings (per the warnings MDNI): swearing, biting, cute aggression, established relationship, teasing, flirting, suggestive themes
Word Count: 800
ao3 // main masterlist // imagines & what if masterlist
John Price
"Are you teething?” asks John. “Do I need to get you a pacifier?"
John sounds annoyed, but you know that he isn’t. Not really. He happily puts up with your shenanigans.
"Can't help it,” you reply, showing your teeth. “You're too tempting."
The two of you are curled up in bed. He’s trying to read. And you’re trying to annoy him. When John is shirtless and reclined in bed, you have a clear view of his muscles. The temptation is always there, and it’s a pull you can’t resist. The aggression isn’t violent. It’s just overwhelming.
Clearly not liking your answer, John grunts. He tosses his book aside, uncaring of losing his place. One moment you’re next to him, and the next you’re fully on your back, trapped beneath his weight.
Giggling, you playfully shove at him, but there is no intention to escape from him. It’s not like you could break out of his grasp if you tried. He is warm and taut. A weighted blanket. This is what you wanted all along. To be beneath him.
"Stop."
He nips at your throat.
"Fucking."
Then he nips at your shoulder.
"Biting."
Finally, John nips at your upper arm.
"Me."
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick
"Someone's going to think you're abusing me."
You grimace, even though Kyle’s tone is teasing and not at all upset. His arm and neck are peppered with small teeth marks. Most of them look like random little indents in the skin while others appear to be in the beginnings of bruising.
“I might have used excessive force,” you murmur, thumbing one of the marks.
Sometimes you can’t help yourself. The need to do it is overwhelming. Most times, you shake it off.
Kyle grins. “I like them. They’re little reminders.”
You laugh. “Oh yeah? Reminders of what?”
Kyle leans in, hand sliding up your back to grasp the nape of your neck. Pulling you close, Kyle lowers his voice. It’s all sultry smoothness.
"Of how many times I can make you come,” he coos.
“Kyle!” You lightly smack his chest, face heating as his gaze softens.
He shrugs. “You also just like to bite me.”
“Can’t help it,” you mutter.
“You’re like one of those small dogs,” he teases.
You roll your eyes. “Don’t you dare,” you scold.
“Adorable. Sweet at first glance.”
“Kyle.”
“Mean bite.”
“I swear to God, Kyle.”
“A—”
You place your hand over his mouth.
John "Soap" MacTavish
With Johnny as your bed, you spread yourself over him, head resting against his right pectoral. A rugby game is on. Johnny’s completely focused on the television as the two teams move about the field like small insects.
Johnny’s large, muscled arms are draped over your back, but his left bicep is dangerously close to your face. Every vein is pronounced. Tempting. You want to trace them with your tongue.
A naughty little urge creeps in. Makes itself known. Slithers around your brain to whisper that you should.
What’s one little bite?
It won’t hurt.
Like an itch that needs to be scratched, you lean forward, lightly chomping down on Johnny’s arm. The urge settles, the neurons in your brain content and happy.
Startled, Johnny jerks. Then, he laughs, arms tightening around you.
One second, you’re in full cuteness aggression. The next, Johnny is rolling you over, trapping you beneath him against the couch. Instead of you biting him, it’s Johnny biting you.
You shriek playfully, but he continues to nibble.
“Let me go,” you laugh. Smacking at him does nothing.
“You little goblin,” he mutters, dragging you off the couch and hauling you toward the bedroom, rugby match forgotten.
Simon "Ghost" Riley
Simon wears only a thin, black shirt, leaving his arms bare. Your mouth waters at the sight of the protruding veins and taut muscles. The urge to touch and taste is overwhelming. It burns bright and hot beneath your skin.
"What are you looking at?" asks Simon without looking away from the menu board on the far wall.
“Nothing,” you reply instantly, glancing away like you weren’t thinking about his muscles.
A few seconds pass, and then you slip an arm between his, clinging to Simon. He doesn’t react. The menu board has his full attention. Simon is more worried about filling his stomach.
Turning your face into his arm, the urge to bite down—to unleash the aggression—wells inside you like a tsunami. At first, you resist, reminding yourself that you are in public and this behavior is inappropriate.
But you lose.
Your mouth starts to open, teeth poised to lightly bite.
“My arm isn’t a chew toy,” says Simon out of the corner of his mouth.
"I didn't bite," you mutter.
Simon slips his arm out of your grasp and then drapes it over your shoulders.
He leans in close. "You can bite me all over later."
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