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moon 0, page 5
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I WANT ENDLESS BLISS!!!
HALF-AWAKE, HALF-DEAD, HALF-LIFE CRISIS
ALL NATURAL POMEGRANATE PULP.
FERMENTED TO PERFECTION, SAVOUR YOUR SAVIOR.
Q: What's your favourite food? A: THE ALE THEY SERVE AT THE TAVERN!
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s4 episode 2 thoughts
ah, this episode! i have heard it is very scary. so iâm curious to see how creepy it can be. usually what gets me the most is body horror, at least so far.Â
iâm really not a horror fan so iâm interested to see if this will push my limits or just be kinda silly. remember that evil AI in like s1 episode 8? and when it was unplugged it said ânoooo, brad :(â or something like that? yeah that one just made me giggle lol
(author's note after seeing the episode: what...)
(additional author's note: read to the end to see why i think this episode might be actually about the civil war's long-term consequences)
how far we have progressed since then!Â
let us begin!!!
we open with a storm and some scary music. pretty intense for the first few seconds. oh, now someone is giving birth. it is very dark and hard to see but it appears these individuals do not look like your average fellow off the street.
GAG! slurping noises are produced as the baby emerges. birth counts as body horror btw i do NOT make the rules. EUGH the umbilical cordâŚ
(sorry yâall pls take no offense to those who have or desire children someday... itâs just something that makes me feel dizzy to watch but i support your dreams and choices i promise đ)
okay, but the baby is crying so thatâs usually a good sign right? like better than a quiet baby, i think.
but a bunch of people are leaving after the delivery and i thought they would stick around to do things like look at the baby and see if it is healthy and stuff. but no. theyâre leaving. where are they going...
theyâre digging a hole?????? WHAT DA HELL. BABY IN THE HOLE??!!!!!! while someone cries terribly. OMG the griefâŚ
WHAT THE HELL???
what have i gotten myself intoâŚâŚ
intro time. always gonna think about that tweet regarding scullyâs glamour shot on her ID. anyway just in case you forgot the truth IS out there.
so we see some kids in a place called home, pennsylvania, and theyâre playing baseball. you know how children are, with their baseball. itâs as serious to them as a senator running a reelection campaign.Â
kid knocks the ball over the fence, and onto the property of âthe peacocksâ. the kids will NOT go get the ball, and instead find a spare. seems they prepared for this, or could maybe find a place that isnât next to a very scary house to play ball, but i understand spacial constraints.
OH???? the kid is digging his foot in to go swing andâŚ. BLOODY PUDDLE???? THIS MUST BE THE BABY FROM BEFORE????
he backs away as we see a tiny hand in the dirt. that poor kid omfg he must have been traumatized⌠and his sneakers were so bright and whiteâŚ..
cutscene to mulder in the field after all the kids have fled! ah, mulder loves his baseball. in fact, he even sniffs it. heâs practicing his pitching LMAOOOO please be serious for FIVE minutes.Â
scully is measuring the hole while he does all this. in fact, he is not stopping. it just keeps going while she talks about the angle of the shovel.
she makes some quip about quitting the FBI and becoming a spokesperson for the ab roller, when he SHOVES THE BALL UNDER HER NOSE and says âsmell thatâ THIS MAN IS SUUUUUCH A WEIRDO I LOVE HIM
âitâs perfume. eau de ballâ (stupid little mulder smile)
very strong juxtaposition between baby death and a daydreaming mulder, but that is the sort of thing we have come to expect from this show. he seems enchanted.
WAIT! heâs talking about his sister⌠âall-day pickup games out on the Vineyardâ and going down to the beach⌠no cell phones or faxes⌠oh man, this baseball has him talking about his family :(
âmulder, if you had to do without a cell phone for two minutes, youâd lapse into catatonic schizophreniaâ <- WELL GET HIM! it is true. he is always making calls and then abruptly hanging up.
feels weird to be smiling like a fool at my screen as these two talk about their lives after seeing the opening scene... but here we are!
âscully, you donât know me as well as you think you do. you know my work demands that i live in a big city, but if i had to settle down, build a home, itâd be a place like thisâÂ
OHHHHH MY GOSH
1. he has though about settling down and having a life outside of his work, and this is such a character reveal, and i know he wants like a small army of children, and
2. i just KNOW those words are gonna come back and bite him when this place is revealed to be some sort of cult
she says it would be like living in mayberry which i had to google BUT: it is the town from the andy griffith show. ah, i see. so very quaint.
someone pulls up to see them and i paused at just the right time to see that mulderâs shirt is very baggy and living up to my URL, which is good because sometimes i worry itâs a bit TOO niche, but i made it after watching 4 episodes so iâm too attached to change it now. meanwhile, scullyâs coat is wonderfully sleek and itâs a fun little contrast.
this is sheriff taylor, who says this is a very small town, and there are no real suspects. mulder asks about the peacocks next door, and the sheriff goes⌠quiet. apparently three boys lived there, and their parents were hurt in an accident. the sheriff and his team tried to administer care to the parents, but the boys took the bodies home??? thatâs. odd.
so these peacocks have no electricity, grow their own food, and⌠are inbred. the sheriff says they are feeble and sad, and wouldnât have any idea what they are talking about. which just makes me think they are the prime suspects.
the sheriff is saying that he loves his town, it is quiet and peaceful, and he knew someday it would change when something terrible happened. when he saw âitâ in the ground, he knew that day had come. he seems convinced itâs an outsider but also he is purposefully ignoring all the evidence in the other direction. and he wants their help, but he doesnât want anything to change.Â
(i see... this is about the terrible secrets of small towns and the wish to keep everything quiet and preserve an idyllic image rather than make meaningful change)
apparently they were recommended to help out when âthe victimâ was described, so mulder says that maybe they should go take a look.
and whew, when they cut to a bundle of blankets next to some cans of spam (that look like theyâre partially covered to hide the branding?) itâs a lot. it's a lot to handle, for me, emotionally, but i guess that's a fairly normal reaction. the sheriff just pulled the baby right out of the fridge. we also meet a deputy named barney.
they shove poor scully in a tiny bathroom with just a sink in it to do her work, because they donât want anyone else seeing the autopsy go down. the sheriff says they canât do it in his office, because everyone knows he never locks his office door, and theyâd start rumors. this whole small town thing is starting to seem quite oppressive.
mulder is also here in this tiny closet-like bathroom, and i can feel the claustrophobia from here. despite the lack of space, scully begins.
and she is taken aback, but not as much by the fact that it is a child but that said child âhas been afflicted by every rare birth defect known to scienceâ. mulder has his arm on the wall leaning in and watching in a way that is weird for the space.
we only see a few shots of the baby- thankfully, because i don't think i could handle seeing any more of it than we do- but itâs enough to make me go whew, shout-out to the props department for making something that looks like that, because that is how i cope with seeing things on this show that make me nearly faint
she is reciting the various things that this child has been born with, and mulder says that they can probably rule out murder, right? but scully says idk⌠it looks like it WAS murder, actually. dirt in the nose.
lord, they walk out after doing that and somehow donât need to like, down some vodka or something to cope.Â
âimagine all a womanâs hopes and dreams for her child, and then nature turns so cruel. what must a mother go through?â oh my gosh is scully gonna make me cryâŚ
âapparent not much in this case, if she just threw it out in the trashâ, says mulder, while they sit on a bench on he is manspreading like you would not believe. but i assume they are in a tough spot mentally so manspreading is permitted in this situation.
âi guess i was just projecting on myselfâ, she says, and oh my gosh does scully want kids somedayâŚ. stop iâll cry!! iâll cry.Â
âwell, just find yourself a man with a spotless genetic makeup and a really high tolerance for being second-guessed and start pumping out the little uber-Scullysâ he says, rubbing her back.
and i canât decide if this is funnier if heâs truly and deeply down terrible for her and suggesting subtly that HE could be that man, or if heâs just being a really good pal. so iâm gonna turn around both options in my head for a while and see which sticks.
âwhat about your family?â âhm? aside from the need for corrective lenses and a tendency to be abducted by extraterrestrials involved in an international governmental conspiracy, the mulder family passes genetic musterâ (said with a celebratory flourish of his hands)
oh my gooooooosh i love them both so bad. he is SUCH a nerd. and his constant need to joke about the horrible things⌠even when they are approaching a serious topic, life ambitions and the desire to start a family, he has to go in there with some sarcasm to avoid getting Too Serious...
see? he has good genes. allegedly. go forth.
but he sobers up, points out that the child they had to just examine is a serious tragedy, and some likely very young parents are probably incredibly scared. but this isnât really an FBI matter. 10 points to him for being serious for once.
she is brainstorming how such a thing could happen- ânow, we all have a natural instinct to propagateâ âdo we?â <- ace mulder subtext i see youâŚ
scully is convinced that the woman who gave birth to that child did it against her will, and mulder points out that kidnapping is a bureau matter⌠she seems determined to save someone caught in a horrible circumstance here, and i admire that about her, the sense of justice she has. she gets up to go investigate.
but he calls out: âhey scully- i never saw you as a mother beforeâ <- OH MY GOD??? OH MY GOD. i canât even begin to process that right now. oh my gosh it seems like he has wanted kids SO terribly⌠but scully never really brought the subject up, which is fine because not everyone wants kids!! but what does it say about her character if she DOESâŚ? i am analyzing.
i hope she is happy someday with whatever she chooses. music is playing as he looks after her. do not for a second think i missed that little musical flourish and gaze combo.
so, they go to the peacock's farm. where they find a chopped off pigâs head on the steps. it doesnât seem to bother them at all, which must be a testament to the strength of bureau training.
mulder tries to do his usual âenter first and ask questions laterâ thing, but scully STOPS HIM, saying there is no probable cause.
WHAT!!! for once they did NOT JUST BURST IN!!??? their random entering of places is one of my favorite running gags and for once they didnât. oh she is serious about this oneâŚ
so they just peek inside insteadâŚ. and then they get their guns and go inside after seeing a table covered in blood. ohâŚ. the scissors from beforeâŚ. yes, bloody table = probable cause
there is blood everywhere, and the footprint from the crime scene matches the footprint in blood on the floor. AND they find a bloody shovel. well!!! we know who did it now!!! but⌠where are they??
it is soooo dark and creepy as they make their way through the house. and someone is WATCHING THEM THE DARK as they investigate. BLEUGH we get an extreme closeup on their eyesâŚâŚ.
i am spooked.
now scully is on the phone with sheriff taylor, who is describing the warrants for the arrest of the peacocks he put out, while mulder slams a TV in their hotel room, trying to get it to work. typical mulder behavior
(i bet they felt a need to incorporate some silly moments to lighten out the heavy heavy heavy content, and honestly i didn't think it would work, but for me it kinda is. don't get me wrong, it's still VERY heavy, but it's not start to finish just trauma like we got in calusari, which stands out to me as being the darkest and least fun episode in the series so far. but let mulder sniff a baseball a little and smack a TV and our agents talk about having a family and it is slightly less overwhelming in terms of tone)
and she brings up the white cadillac they found there but he says get a lot of abandoned cars. damn, who is abandoning a cadillac...
what is this sheriff hiding�
he pulls out his gun from a locked box, and seems deeply regretful. before he puts it back in the box⌠hmmâŚ
back at the peacock farm. the brothers are packing what looks like clubs into the cadillac. and i notice how silent and scary the whole thing is⌠no music whatsoever.
meanwhile, mulder is doing a little dance to try and get the TV working, which scully is smiling at him in a way that implies long term affection and exhaustion. i want to get those gifs and save them upon my blog forever and ever.
heâs trying to watch the knicks game, but as she heads out, he says âgoodnight momâ, and she looks⌠uncomfortable. i mean, itâs a weird thing to say, but still. he says a lot of weird things and she doesnât always look sort of⌠hmm. idk, the only phrase that comes to mind is âcut to the quickâ. i WILL be analyzing that.
she tries to leave and the lock is broken, so he places a chair underneath, which might do something but like⌠probably not a ton.
anyway, back to the cadillac, where the brothers are pulling out while listening to music. where are they goingâŚ.
sheriff taylor is up late at night, âtaking one last look around before it all changesâ. oh, he loves his town⌠but it is rotten, like mulder says. AND HIS WIFE DOESNâT LOCK THE DOOR AS THEY COME IN!!! NOOOO!
the brothers are on the move, while scully sleeps and mulder watches a fuzzy documentary on hyenas?? okay. king behavior.
but back at the sheriffâs house, he can hear the brothers approaching, and pulling into his yard. oh noâŚ. he looks out the window and the brothers arenât there. so did they already get inâŚ?
heâs going for the gun, he says, and they enter his house. and heâs got a baseball bat, but where is the gun! they have clubs! like the kind the bad guys in zelda use!!! they look very very dangerous!
he hears them approach as his wife is under the bedâŚâŚâŚ and he swings his bat at the intruder, but he is barreled right over, itâs three on one, and they beat him RIGHT AS HIS WIFE SEES THE WHOLE THING FROM UNDER THE BED. and they sniff and sniff and FIND HER UNDER THERE????????
what the fuck. who came up with thisâŚâŚ.. that song is still playing as they get in their car and leave. i'm sure the song also has some significance to the meaning of what these guys are doing but tbh i have never heard it before so it's hard to unpack.
the deputy is at the scene of the crime the next day, smoking a cigarette, hands shaking in terror. he had come over to give the sheriff a reportâŚÂ and found them that way.
so the owner of the cadillac was found in baltimore, she had left it behind after running out of gas. this is not a lead in the slightest.
mulder is investigating the scene while scully pulls out files from the crime lab, and it is. well, it is very bad, to put it bluntly. the crime scene is horrific.Â
she says that the crime scene messed up the tests on the infant⌠but mulder proposes that⌠perhaps each of the brothers were the father? she talks about how babies are made and how that makes no sense, but he proposes that generations of inbreeding could maybe make such a mutation. but she says that isnât possible, theyâd need a female family member and there arenât any left. hmm...
scully wants to try and trail them right now and go save whoever it was that was forced to give birth, but mulder points out that they are outnumbered and could further endanger the victim. what to doâŚ? i donât know the answer.Â
oh! the deputy barges in and says heâll take them up there so itâs three against three. and they have guns, which should give them the advantage. okay. shoutout to the deputy.
mulder seems suspicious however, and says his suddenly entry was a bit âtoo chuck bronson for meâ. so yeah, i had to google that too. this chuck fellow is the guy from machine gun-kelly. and NOT that sleazy rapper one. the more you know.
scully is confused, though, because why would they kill the sheriff? he didnât even investigate them. unless they somehow overheard them talking about issuing the arrest warrants while in their house⌠and they are operating under the assumption that the brothers were not in the house when they wereâŚ. but we know that someone was in hiding!!!
OH! back to the house. one of the brothers declares he is hungry. we finally get a semi-decent look at them, and they are incredibly gruesome. someone is under the bed stillâŚ.Â
and when they declare that they are âreadyâ, they strip down. they knew this day- and change- was coming, and all they can do is be ready for it. this is our home. and this is the way itâs gonna stay.Â
again, i ask, who came up with thisâŚâŚ
the deputy and our agents are on the property, now. deputy wants to come in from the front and let them take the back. a brave thing to offer, but i am slightly suspicious of him. they have wired headsets on and bullet proof vests on, and he is going in.
so theyâre approaching- scully and mulder in the field, the deputy out in front. scully is peeking through binoculars but she doesnât see anyone inside!!! it has to be a trap!!!!
OH MY GOSH!!! just as scully tells the deputy to not go in, he opens the door and an AXE SWINGS DOWN AND CHOPS HIS HEAD OFF!!!!!
i am sorry for being suspicious of you, deputy. may you rest in peace.
mulderâs reciting his facts from the hyena documentary. they are witnessing something akin to prehistoric humanity. but he has an idea: divert them out of the house, so they don't have to deal with their traps. it is a good idea.
so they are sneaking into the pig pen, which had to be a pain to shoot. âscully, would you think less of me as a man if i told you i was kind of excited right now?â he asks as they try to get the pigs in a line to topple like dominoes or something???
âis there some secret farmer trick to getting these things moving?â âi donât know!â lmaooo these city slickers...
theyâre shoving pigs straight out the gate, and sheâs trying to say some magic pig words from babe, which her nephew apparently watches all day. you know what that means...
! SCULLY LORE REVEAL ! she has a nephew!
but there are more pressing matters at hand than a lore reveal as one of the brothers emerges, falling for their piggy trap. we see them in daylight now, and it is an unsettling sight.Â
as the brothers try to herd the pigs back in, the agents sneak in, with mulder picking up a giant log to poke open the door. and it is a good thing he did that, because a trap descends right on the log that surely would have beheaded him as it did the deputy if not for the log taking the axe/weapon thingy for him. thank you for your service, giant log.
they sneak in beneath the log and close the door as if nothing went down. scully is yelling to see if anyone is in the house. theyâre doing a sweep in excellent coordination. mulder mumbles âoh noâ and iâm scared but he just picks up a newspaper that says elvis is dead and frowns đ his ass cannot be serious for more than five minutesÂ
but something approaches!!!! they enter the bedroom and see photos of generations and generations of this family, with varying conditions. and at this moment mulder notices that someone is under the bed!!
heâs trying to say that theyâre here to help, but whoever is down there is screaming, screaming at them to go away. so scully tries to move the bed, but sheâs strapped to a board underneath the bed, and they pull her out andâŚ. oh my gosh, she has no limbs, i think? itâs dark and hard to tell. they keep her under the bed..........
mulder says theyâre going to get her home, but after a glance at the pictures on the wall, scully says that she already IS home. itâs mrs. peacock. the mother of the family that they thought died in the car accident!!!!!!
she is sobbing and they roll her back under the bed, with mulder having a horrific look on his face, unable to process what he just saw.Â
mulder is back on the prowl to find the other brothers. and he tasks scully with trying to convince mrs. peacock that she is the only one who can get âher boysâ out of here without them being hurt. a mighty task, indeed.
she walks away, and he says âscully, w-watch your stepâ and heâs worried about her and i want to cry. oh!! we see a trip wireâŚâŚâŚ.
so scully goes back to mrs. peacock, explaining that she needs medical attention, and the agents are here to help. she says that this is their home- why leave it? she has to see if the boys are okay.Â
and she lost her limbs in the accident that killed her husband. âsewed me up just like the family learned in the war of northern aggressionâ OH! so that is an WILD thing to say in pennsylvania. but it was at this point i thought i was putting the pieces together for an extended metaphor...
but she insists she felt no pain, and that no one in the family does. and theyâre such good boys. scully points out they murdered three people, and mrs. peacock says she can tell scully has no children, but maybe someday sheâll learn the pride and the love âwhen you know your boy will do anything for his motherâ
well i think you probably just made her swear that off forever!!! so!!!!!
the brothers see mulder in the window, and they start to run in. and as he holds one at gun point, another tries to bash in his head, so scully shoots him. but this isnât enough to take him down! and the other one joins in on their attack, so itâs two against one tag teaming mulder!!! oh my gosh scully can you use your perfect aim???
yes, she can, but despite emptying the whole clip, they arenât hurt!!!Â
theyâre running and running and dodging a whole lot of terrible blows, and scully yells out that she has the mother! she trips over the wire and one of the traps falls RIGHT into one of the brothers, seemingly finally taking him out.
she notices marks on the floor, and when they go back for mrs. peacock, they canât find the other brother or the mother.
so they put out an APB for them, saying that in time, theyâll catch them. but he counters with âi think time already caught them, scullyâ
cutscene to the cadillac- where mrs. peacock says that ���sherman and george were good boysâ- SHERMAN? a union name? edmund, sherman, and georgeâŚÂ
it ends with mrs. peacock saying that there will be more peacocks, and they have to find a new home, make a new family to be proud of. she is in the trunk of the car while she says this.
okay so first thoughts: WHAT THE FUCK.
this episode definitely lived up to its horrific reputation. but i canât figure out exactly what it is it MEANS!
beyond exploring the horrific topics of generational abuse, i feel that there is something a bit deeper going on here. i actually felt so compelled to see if i was imagining things that i went on the wikipedia page for the episode, which spoke of its themes on the american dream and the nuclear family. those themes i see for sure- how mulder was talking about settling down in a place like this, so quaint and quiet, how they started discussing their own desire for a family, and how every idyllic thought about what a family could be was upended on its head with the peacocks. that made sense to me. but...
that line- âthe war of northern aggressionâ- was what the confederates called the american civil war to justify their rebellion. this is notable for the fact that this whole episode took place in pennsylvania, which was a union state- but somehow, they got so twisted up in their own hatred that theyâre parroting the lost cause ideology over a century after the war.
the repeated motifs of âthings being the way they are in a small town, in our town, in our homeâ- is that a symbol for the festering of post-civil war wounds? the inability for the war to make meaningful change when it came to the attitudes of the people on the losing side, who continue- even to this day- to spew their hateful ideology? the inbreeding metaphor- is that a representation of how hate begets hate begets hate, generation after generation, compounding and corrupting by the lack of intervention from outsiders who are too afraid to change âthe way things areâ and call out harmful behavior? and the newspaper from elvisâs death⌠is that another allusion to the family (or perhaps certain parts of the country) living entirely in the past, in addition to their lack of electricity and water, just stewing in their own hatred? even the name- home- reminds me of the âhouse divided cannot standâ rhetoric. is this talking about the rot of "back in the good ol' days" thinking?
or if not a metaphor for the country, and instead just the horror of abuse? of how people can feel that things are the way that they are, and so that makes it correct, no matter what the cost? about how warped perceptions of family can be made and shaped? and the fact that mrs. peacock went along with all of this, despite being the biggest victim of the family... is that to speak on the twisted nature of gender roles and how they are weaponized in familial abuse?
i have to clarify that i am not an expert on abuse in the slightest; i am just trying to work through the themes of what i just saw. you know how it is on this blog; i do my best to interpret the big issues, but also recognize that i can only see and comment upon so much.
i'm really, really curious to hear how you interpreted the episode, though. or how audiences have understood it in the past, or if it has ever been re-evaluated. what did the cast and crew have to say on it? i want to know.
man. this is gonna really make me ponder. i want to know. it was too purposeful to just be a âwouldnât it be fucked up ifâŚâ sort of situation.
regardless of the terror, i actually thought this episode was pretty good. it felt cohesive, not just a sideshow of horrible things to make you feel shocked. and we learned more about our characters- their ambitions in life, the possibility of a family someday dangling over their heads, and the terror associated with everything that could go wrong. i think there is always some fear about starting a family (i wouldn't know, but i do read books and stuff), and for scully to just now vocalize her thoughts on the subject and to immediately see this case- i can only imagine what it did to her thought process.
i thought the more light-hearted elements were working at the beginning- mulder's TV dance, baseball time, the merits of their genetics, family talk- worked well at first. but by the end it was just... damn. that was a lot. maybe that is the indication of a successful episode, that it can take you along heavy subject matter with a sense of character analysis and horror, but end with just terror.
i'm not a horror fan outside of this show, so the balancing of the heavy and the humor always baffles me a little bit. i don't know how other materials do it, so i can't really say if it could have been done better or worse. i think the important part though is that they don't turn the tragedy itself into the joke. it wasn't giving "point and laugh at the horrible peacock family!" it was finding humor in other situations, that ultimately still surrendered to the sober feeling of what humanity can do.
whew. this one is definitely gonna stick with me for a while, and iâll need like 12 hours to formulate my thoughts into something comprehensible. but, you ask, did you like the episode?
yes! while i'm not sure i'd watch it again for funsies, i thought our agents had to confront some inner demons while also learning a lot about them together and individually, which is exactly the thing i want in an episode. i think it brought them closer and they understand each other better, and i think we're getting into some real juicy parts of their relationship. i can't stop thinking about him rubbing her back- how terribly devoted they are to each other, regardless of if either of them can put that into words. those dynamics of devotion that go beyond words- it's so special to me.
and sure, i'll take the bait, and daydream about them living together... i am not above fan service in the slightest. it is me, the fan, who loves to be serviced.
but again. i'm spooked.
#but PLEASE: tell me what you thought of this episode. like i'm BEGGING you.#did you like it? did you hate it? were you spooked? did you think it had a deeper meaning? is it the scariest in the show?#does this episode have wild behind the scenes lore? or a dedicated fan base? or a hateful fan base?#please share all of the things...#maybe someday if enough people would bother to read it i'll make a full post on the things i see in parallel to american history#so if you'd ever read that please just sort of yell at me#sometimes i read into things too much and maybe it stops being fun after a while so i need to know#sometimes when we go from A to Z and back in terms of tone my recaps feel all over the place in a way that doesn't really happen as much#when watching the show visually. some tonal things are hard to translate to written media.#anyway! i need to know#juni's x files liveblog#4x02#the x files#txf
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Twisted Wonderland Novel 2: I had grown tired of thinking⌠I knew I was just running away from what had pained me, but nonetheless, my heart felt lighter. With enough distance between you and the subject, youâll lose all desire for it. The warmth of the sun, the smell of new leaves, the damp wind of the rainy seasonâ itâs nothing but a blur when seen from so far away.
#please excuse the translation of the passage i had to do it#Leona Kingscholar#Web weaving#twisted wonderland#disney twisted wonderland#!#the quote is from Leona's overblot monologue btw#okay so im always thinking about how Leona describes leaving home and its genuinely a gut punch to me that he's so honest with himself abou#missing it but genuinely feeling like this is for the best. He runs away from what ails him but cant bring himself to truly hate it.#Hes such a romantic person (dramatic? maybe...) in the sense that he's so honor bound and feels like there is this legacy of love to keep#alive that he somehow is missing out on. Like... the things he describes liking are all lovely and small things that are easy to take for#granted. And on top of that he feels so burned and scorned because he's missing out on this love he believes his brother is receiving over#him. to his core he's somebody that loves love#likewise he feels slighted that his brother loves him so much (good) but doesnt stop his suffering (bad) so in turn he makes him hate him#(double bad- leona is sensitive and hates hate)#đŚ
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oh so alisaieâs exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock
#say one thing wrong to me and you will have a wonderful few days with the rock#if angry silly girls have 100 fans etc if they have 0 fans i have died#sorry i saw a YouTube meme i vehemently disliked on principle and got mad at the only child behavior-#kipspeak#she is just short tempered and uses anger to mask other more âshamefulâ emotions!!! alphy did the same thing with just deciding not#to express them. which is still not good and I think why he breaks and ends up teary so often now#this shortness does not translate to actually being mean to people. she only uses being mean as a shield for herself and being snarky#Is just fun for her. itâs fun for Me. you have to inconsequentually tease people or theyâll never learn to laugh at themselves#the twins and thancred 𫵠do this thing where they have big emotions but they donât want anyone to SEE they have big weird emotions#so alphy pretends he doesnât have them under a veneer of dignity and alisaie pretends the emotions are Something Else. thancred is#just so emotionally constipated he has trouble expressing anything. heâs got enough baggage for a flatbed#anyways. alisaie is such a compassionate and kind girl and she learned how to make snarky jokes and went ham. and she hates appearing sad o#weak or vulnerable so she blocks it off with an unapproachable emotion so no one pities her and they maybe get on with the plot#it is in fact also great at getting ppl to move away from the sad or embarrassing topic. even if the tradeoff is being more offputting#she would never (grabs youtube meme) she would never seriously bully her brother. this is sibling ribbing only. Cain instinct#just leave her be she is learning how to snark humor and she loves it she loves being sharp. alphy has wit he just keeps it close#my brother didnât learn how to tell or receive a joke until he was 14 he took everything so seriously. he can do it now though and heâs#HILARIOUS. Donât tell him I said that. my man knows exactly where the funny points are even if he hasnât learned when to stop yet#too many tags. Whatever. jokey snark alisaie who sometimes compliments is happy alisaie grouchy snappy angry alisaie is way too stressed#very easy way to tell between the two. even alphy can tell between the two I believe! He tends to rib back in protest if theyâre having fun#and try to stop her if theyâre not having fun. case in point âwhat is that supposed to mean?!â vs âalisaie ryne was only trying to help.â#I know theyâre twins but thatâs such an intensely older sibling thing to do that it reels me#LONG TAGS AND THREE EDITS TO ADD ON SHORT I resent this stereotype taken too far into ooc behavior. it happened with nya#It will happen again and as a postscript let me regale you with Things U Can Notice About Character Motivation and Actionsâ#Iâm not done let me s#she and raha are friends now I decree. âhaha you like meâ SPUTTERING PROTEST FROM BOTH
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random draft because mizuki and aoba have a very interesting relationship to me. have a lot of ideas for them but this was the biggest on my mind at the moment
#need these freaks out of my head#the main thing stopping me from making a 5k character study rn#is that i haven't finished morphine route#and mizuki's like backstory scrap scene isn't translated in the one i'm reading. i think#i fall over and die if i'm not canon compliant so i have to find a translation before i jump on something like this
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Warning to fellow foreigners on rednote:
Do not talk about immigrating to China. Do not joke about it or even mention it.
China has extremely strict laws around immigration. It is one of the hardest countries to immigrate to. Anybody who says otherwise is actively trying to scam you.
I made a post on rednote apologizing for Americans mentioning immigrating without thinking, and had to delete it due to the notifications.
#rednote#many people were kind about it don't get me wrong#but there were a lot of people who started getting really rude and said some hurtful things#so I had to delete the post.#a lot of people misunderstood me also which was deeply frustrating. I checked the translation multiple times to make sure it was right.#just. please don't mention it.#I've seen so many posts about it now. it is making it very hard for me to use rednote without getting overwhelmed and frustrated.#please just stop talking about it.#im sorry.#please look into other places to immigrate if you are serious about it.
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i was actually trying to do a completely different thing but ended up here because i got curious in testing shit out
i present to you the definitive neru lmao - a morph of high-pitched miku & low-pitched rin
(excerpt is from a shitty vpr i made myself from a midi [which i can no longer find] of "the bluefin tuna comes flying" , thumbnail is from this post)
#my audio lol#vocaloid#fanloid#akita neru#did i really learn a wholeass new software for future shitpost purposes? YES I DID nothing can stop me#ok to be fair vocalmorph wasn't that hard to learn it was pretty basic... no disrespect to the people who couldnt figure it out#like yeah its in japanese but i got. deepl to translate and i referenced creator's og demonstration?#anyway this sounds kinda janky but im noticing most things that warp audio do that... vocalshifter does this too#so idk if this method is suitable for making a whole cover but this was just for funsies anyways lol#this vpr (which i converted to other formats too) is like my main 'test purposes' file lol? interesting considering the lyrics...#idk if i can 100% say its an og vpr actually since i just isolated the main melody from the midi and input the lyrics#its not properly tuned or anything#but i cant find said midi anymore my dumbass forgot to save it... i think it was on niconicodouga but it's been down for months now so...
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HAMILTON HAS A GERMAN TRANSLATION????
#i have mixed feelings about hamilton donât get me wrong#but they translated the american history musical??#i havenât been this excited since i found out my fair lady had a german translation#ok das wichtigste zuerst:#hamilton does not siezen OR duzen washington but a secret third thing#ihrzen?#is this some sort of even MORE respectful anrede because heâs the president- no wait washington is doing it too#hang on checking something#hamilton and burr also address each other as ihr#i think ihr was just the 18th centuryâs sie#but wait! hamilton and burr switch to du midway through the room where it happens#was hast du dir dabei gedacht new york city an den sĂźden zu verraten#thatâs an odd place to make the switch! wouldâve thought during non-stop if anywhere#actually maybe it does make sense#they still respect each other in non-stop#room where it happens is kind of the turning point in their relationship#i canât find the german lyrics to your obedient servant but i bet theyâre FASCINATING#this is so cool
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I think some of you read too much into things. Yes this is about the guidelines being posted to twitter
#shay speaks#also 'no hate' its very clearly 'stop replying to our posts with character hate'#and 'stop being excessively hateful in the main tags'#like idk you are still allowed to be a hater but acting like being told to stop replying with#'i hope this character kts' or whatever is a crime against you says more about you#and the translations thing is more about making money off translations.#they havent gone after most other translations after the wiki take down bc no other site is running ads#and hosting translations#u could argue tumblr is but the users dont see the money from ads and they probablt dont care abt tumblr#as a platform. and like. just dont say anything where they can see it#but dont do tl commissions and dont tag happyele in them and youll be fine#dont be a snitch is what im saying.#and be polite to the social media staff bc i cannot imagine posting an event#and having to see people just endlessly hating on it#i have to imagine this is more of a response to people shitting on esupuri recently#and ibuki being another new character. than necessarily the matrix backlash#thats just my 2 cents though okay its time for me to shower bye
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i personally believe that deku is more likely to have vices than katsuki
#idkidkidk it's just the gut feel#they're both extremely stubborn just in different ways#but i think deku's a lot more susceptible to trying new things especially when he's under pressure#and i think his obsessive behavior makes him cling onto things easily --- it's easy for him to form habits whether it's good or bad#i also think deku's disregard for himself translates like. it wouldn't bother him as much that smoking is bad for him#he wouldnt care if the sleeping pills are bad for him down the line --- as long as it gets the job done for him to perform properly NOW#maybe unless mama inko or all might begs him to stop sjdfhbks#i feel like katsuki doesn't really give in that easily and is a bit rigid in that regard that he sticks to doing things his own way#i also think katsuki... tho equally as insane... kind of has a future-sense to him? IDK. like. he looks very much towards the ripple effect#like he understands the concept that if he unnecessarily ruins his body for immediate relief it won't be good in the long haul#and it's an overall decrease in performance eventually.#IDKIDKIDK my mind is stewing... brewing... thinking...#FORGIVE ME IF THE TAKE IS WRONG HBFAHAHAHAAH#this concept is a bit darker than i'd write so idk if i ever will but these are just my Thoughts#i talked so much again
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no im still on maffhew calling the forsymaffhew lovechild a missile
#txt#missile#i have also learned ive mispronounced missile all my life at least in american terms#wdym you guys dont say mis-AISLE#the culmination of living in city where we're all 1st/2nd gen immigrants whos primary language at home is not english#anyways male equivalent of rocket... missile#sorry my queer mind can't understand that#my gender is when we played house in 2nd grade i didnt want to play because i had to be mom or dad and i went well im only playing if i get#to be like the family dog and they all got nervous because that felt mean and the teachers would scold them#and i was like nah its fine check this shit out (runs around and barks)#my gender is when the classroom got seperated into boys and girls i staunchly refused and insisted i be in my own group as a joke and#everyone was okay w that because it was the height of lolz so random! and i was the poster child for that so naturally yeah thats#charming and cute yeah tumblr user ratatatastic you can have your own group and that was the class joke and it never felt mean because#it was a small sheltered school and weve all know eo since we were like in daycare#my gender is hey i volunteered at a pride festival and ive always struggled with expressing any sort of femininity and bristled pretty#badly because it gets beat into you and after the pandemic i chilled out a lot after sitting with it and this is all to say#i got partnered with a brazilian guy because i was the only one who spoke spanish on shift at the time and while he spoke 3 languages#(eng esp por) sometimes he struggled with how to say something and changed languages like he was channel surfing which was refreshing#because i do the same thing so it was this weird culmination of both of us code switching heavily and acting as translator for eo anyways#this is all to say when i toddled in no one really knew what to make of me pronoun wise and what he decided to do instead of just ask me#like a normal person he just he/him'd me and then proceed to call me good girl in the exact same sentence and i laughed about it at the time#proceeded to file it at the back of my head for when i got home so i could despondently stare at a wall for 5 hours of what exactly that#entails about me and why it didnt bother me at all and i was like huh the panic never stops thats fun you can just have random revelations#even when youre an old dog in the game at 23 and known your gender fucker wuckery since you were like 12 like oh great#conclusion is that i dont know why god sends me his toughest battles im a crybaby AND a whiner LIKE PICK SOMEONE ELSE ALREADY#anyways hehe missile#sorry we lost the thread here
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i was relatively normal about firefly wedding until chapter 12. do u know how insane it is for a yandere to stay even when the yandere thing doesnt matter anymore. the shift from selfish to unconditional love just like that???? its so my love is heavy because its a burden but ill let you let go of it if it makes you happy im going to eat a brick
#its so crazy like yk how i play grindblue fantasy that shift from selfish to unconditional love TAKES TIME. IT TAKES SUPPORT FROM OTHER PEOP#sandy needed THREE events to get there#nier still hasnt gotten there.#the way shinpei does it BY HIMSELF because he CARES THAT MUCH????#because he sees that it makes satoko unhappy and shes crying and he cares enough to throw the yandere thing out the window and STAYS.#satoko doesnt do anything to convince him to stay he does it by himself he cant even leave for long#boy your love is heavy because its a burden but also consider thereâs a lot of it#this is not me saying that shinpei stops the yandere jealousy shit btw im saying he stops caring abt satoko#because of the marriage thing but because he himself cares a lot#claude txt#EDIT. CHECKED THE OFFICIAL ENG FIREFLY WEDDING TRANSLATION. THE LINE ISNT MY LOVE IS HEAVY#UHHH PRETEND IT IS
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randomly looked at this account to update my age and holy shit it's been a while since i posted here..........i have a small pile of art i have yet to post but hbhbshdbshbd too lazy
#part of it is that i haven't posted any of my recent art but in addition#i haven't made new art in a WHILE (abt 3 months) which is highly unusual for me but the reason for that is#3 months ago i suddenly remembered that i tried learning mandarin for three (3) days before forgetting about it for 9 months#(amusingly the reason why is not because of danmei......i did not even know danmei existed when i first decided to learn it)#anyways i have been insanely fixated on learning it for the past 3 months#however since art is primarily a way for me to process my interests and that only really be done when i'm fixated on media........well#let's just say i have not been making art at all#that might change soon tho#rn i'm reading ćé (saye) in chinese bc it's at a level i can read and i fucking love it so far#idk why i picked a book longer than svsss (which took me a week to read in english)...u would think there's no chance of me finishing it#or even reading it#especially when the only novel i've read before this is a chinese translation of the fucking magic finger by roald dahl LMFAO#but it's been a week and i'm a fifth of the way into it which i was not expecting at all#it was initially an exercise of âi will get as far as i can and try my best to read a chapter a dayâ but i've been zipping through chapters#last night i was up until 3 AM reading it and i was so tempted to read more but had to stop myself#of course this is all aided by pleco which lets me quickly look up words that i don't know yet. pleco ily#that being said...this all does mean i know words like ćśéĺ° before i even know the word for âorangeâ (the color) which is pretty funny#but idk considering that the sum of my time spent learning chinese is just 3 months..........i think i am doing pretty damn good#i thought it would be a LOT longer before i could finally start enjoying some interesting things#god but it really has been a while since i last read a high school romance...but i am quite fond of the leads and their respective baggage#sorry for the whole tag ramble.........i haven't really had anyone to talk abt this stuff with#oh also it's my birthday#that is why i am even here to update my age in the first place#happy lan wangji birthday#actually the only reason i realized it was gonna be my birthday soon is because i saw chinese artists posting lan wangji birthday fanart#and then remembered that we share the same birthday#also re: the art i haven't posted yet.........a good chunk of it is misvil fanart...song qingshi my beloved#and there's also a luo binghe drawn on an art app i PROGRAMMED MYSELF (!!!!!!!!!) in there#actually that piece is the main reason i haven't posted the art i HAVE made. how the fuck do i explain that i drew it on an app that i made#sorry this is genuinely the most off the rails tag ramble i've ever done. okay i'm done
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reminiscing on the period where i didnt know sawashiro was modeled after ttm and the second i learned and embraced that it 1000% altered the way i drew him These Are Not The Same Bitch
#snap chats#i still remember the day someone inboxed me that fact like ik i mention this story every three seconds but its still so funny#like The Beginning Of The End For Me <- i became somehow even more wacko#thank you for singlehandedly changing the trajectory of films and movies id watch for months anon ill cherish you forever#this post is brought to you by one of my fave artists being like. with whatever jpn knowledge i have to translate.#'if i draw sawashiro as a man in his 50's it wont look like ttm... im glad he's a beautiful girl...'#LIIIIIIIKKKEEE SO TRUE BESTIE.... ttm is the prettiest girl ive ever seen this is true#the cool thing about ttm is that he has incredible range however this does not negate the fact he is Very Pretty#this just a restated version of that post i made the other day LMAO LIKE MECHANICALLY ttm can play sawashiro. very well even#And I Repeat rgg not committing to making 90's sawa look like ttm in his 30's was Majorly To Their Benefit#he can have the voice of a no-bullshit yakuza yet he still has the face of an angel its very funny all things considered#on the real tho its so funny like i only drew sawashiro like. idk five times before actually referencing pics of ttm#yet the difference is like night and day he ACTUALLY looks like a jackass. and much older than 38 BYE#its 1000% the lips. and the doe-like eyes but anyways im sick#i love being seen i love being heard... thank you how_to_open#i should redraw my first sawa drawing... or second.... my first sawa drawing was the one with masato im p sure#the second one's just a headshot so it'd be a better focus on how i draw sawashiro differently.. lol...#its like when rgg recasts a chara and their model just different as hell. amazing.#srry i mention how pretty ttm is eveyr three seconds this isnt healthy and ill stop until im reminded of the fact later on#ok bye i have to take an exam. âââââtake an examââââââ all of the answers are on google BYE
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