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the salty siblings- I just luv them so much
#Cookie run#CRK#cookie run kingdom#salty shark crew#cookie run npc#Rookie cookie#legend of the duskgloom sea#stole one of the lines from a tumblr post i saw#The blue bastard is trans and i am not going to be moved from this stance you will die trying#rookie cookie#I promise they're more competent than they look as sailors#Puffer is baby#can do no wrong#republic sailor cookie 2#republic sailor cookie 1#candy diver cookie#captain caviar cookie
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Care (Jeff the Killer x reader smut)
A/N Yeah, I haven’t written shit to post since early high school and I just graduated college. This doesn’t make sense, but I had a good time writing it, so I’m sharing it with the void that is Tumblr. Maybe someone will like it, idk.
I am also aware that this is bad. Shush.
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“Jeff, please!”
You called out, begging for him to slow down, but the killer didn’t slow down. He kept up his brutal pace, pounding into your pussy with a vigor he usually reserved for murder. Groans and growls escaped his lips, emanating from his chest.
“Huh-huh too much!” you whined out again, and this time he snapped up his head to look into your eyes. Piercing blue eyes clouded with lust stared deep into your soul, wild and out-of-touch with reality.
Suddenly, it was like a switch flipped and he remembered where he was and who he was with. He slowed his pace.
“Sorry, love, you just feel so good. Do you need a break?” He questioned, panting to regain his breath and composure.
You nodded a response, taking a deep breath of relief when he pulled out of you. Every muscle ached and you had no idea how long you and him had been at it, you just know that it was becoming too overstimulating. Jeff straddled your thighs, leaning down to kiss your lips, hands running through your hair to comb out any knots.
Exhausted, you kiss him back, relaxing into his kisses and touch. Despite how rough he can be during sex, these moments of kindness and compassion when he realizes he took it too far are part of what keeps bringing you back to his room night after night, begging for him to ravage you.
Soon, your exhaustion took over your body and you fell asleep, Jeff still kissing your lips until he realized you were asleep. He moved off your body to hold you while you slept, pulling a blanket up over both of you. Subconsciously, you snuggled closer to him and he smiled; a real smile.
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The next night, Jeff wasn’t surprised to once again hear a quiet tapping at his door. He already knew you were behind it, but what he wasn’t ready to see was instead of you being extremely turned on and needing him, your face was instead streaked with tears and you sniffled.
“What’s up?” he tried to casually say, but the concern colored his voice more than he would have liked to let on as he opened the door further to let you in.
“LJ is a goddamn jerk, that’s what’s up,” you sniffled again.
“He fucking stole my rabbit stuffed animal, and yeah, I know it’s so stupid to have it but forgive me that I have something from my childhood before this fucking place. And he won’t give it back!” Anger filled your voice as you relayed this short story to Jeff, plopping yourself onto his bed.
He was a little stunned. You had never come to him with a problem before. Usually he saw you as a confident person who wasn’t afraid of any of the weirdos and demons that called the forest home. Yet, here you sat in his bedroom, crying over a stuffed animal. He was unsure of what to do, but what he did know was that this was something serious. And he wasn't very good with seriousness.
“Uh… uhm, do you want me to get you a new one?” Jeff offered awkwardly. In response, you wrapped your arms around yourself and hugged yourself. A sniffle escaped your nose, followed by a quiet, “No.”
Jeff walked to his bed and cautiously sat down next to you. “Why can’t you get it back? You’ve never been afraid of any of us before.”
“I’m not fucking scared, I just can’t find it in LJ’s stupid carnival. It could be anywhere.”
Jeff felt the anger building in his chest that LJ had done something that had upset y/n so much. He stood wordlessly and began walking towards the door. “Wait, where are you going?” you called after him. “Out,” was his one word response.
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You sat in your room alone, watching the tree line outside the house for any animals. You couldn’t sleep, you were still riled up from the events of the day and couldn’t stand the thought of trying to sleep without your stuffed rabbit. Another sniffle held back another round of tears.
Tap, tap, tap…
A light knocking sounded from your door. You debated not answering it; you didn’t really want to see anyone right now. But when the knocking came again, a little louder, you moved to open the door.
Standing outside was Jeff, a little bloody, but gently carrying something behind his back. Wordlessly, he revealed what he had been hiding.
Your rabbit!
A huge smile overtook your face as you grabbed it and held it to your face. It didn’t smell quite right anymore, but it was definitely your stuffed rabbit. After hugging the rabbit, you hugged Jeff with an intensity he had never experienced from you.
“Thank you,” you whispered into his ear.
“No problem,” was his muffled response as he buried his face into your neck.
This hug didn’t end quickly, and soon Jeff began kissing your throat, leaving nips where he knew your sensitive spots were. You whined softly each time.
Releasing him, you made eye contact with him and dragged him backwards into your room. He shut the door behind him, especially as his dick started to swell and he could feel your heart rate pick up.
Inside your room, you paused his advances to put your stuffed rabbit on a chair, off the bed. You didn’t want your precious stuffed animal to be anywhere near the two of you while you were being ~intimate.~
Jeff grabbed your hips and pulled you closer to him when you turned around, kissing you roughly. You giggled.
“You didn’t rescue my rabbit to get in my pants, did you?” You questioned him.
“Of course not,” Jeff laughed back. “I did it because I care for you and this is something you were upset about. I knew it meant a lot to you.”
“...you care for me?” You repeated. “You’ve never said that before.”
“Oh. You think I let you into my room every night and let you sleep in my bed with my blankets and I don’t care about you?” He questioned, cocking an eyebrow.
“I guess… yeah, that is what I kind of thought.”
He shook his head. “If I didn’t care about you, I would at the least kick you out of my room after I was done fucking your brains out. Or leave you high and dry.”
You whined, pouting. “Ah, shush, I wouldn’t do that to you,” he responded to your pouting. “Now, lay down. I need you,” he commanded, pushing you towards the bed. You laid down, giggling the whole time.
#smut#Jeff the killer#jtk#reader smut#x reader smut#Jeff the killer x reader smut#Jeff the killer x reader#creepypasta#creepy pasta smut#creepypasta smut
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Creation of the Pan Flag
Copied (with grammar/spelling mistakes) from my twitter thread about it for posterity.
I was going to do this for Pride weekend but you know, life, so: I wanted to talk about a thing. I created the #pansexual flag, a thread.
Back in 2010, I was 20 and tumblr was my main social playground. I was active in various spheres, and I was learning.
I'd been IDing as bi since I was 13, but moved away from bi as an identifier and took up pansexual soon after discovering the term, bc I felt it fit better.
This is mainly bc the simplicity of pan being defined as attraction to any/all genders was extremely appealing to someone really coming into this new way of expressing their orientation like tumblr allowed. It felt right for how I wanted to relate to and express my orientation.
The bi communities I had access too often saw heavy discussion related to attraction parametres of "bi" - convos at the time I didn't really recognise for what they were: bi people working hard to define bisexuality on their terms, tackling intra-community transphobia, (cont)
(cont) and developing within a social space where more expansive gender experiences and identities were becomes more well known and understood.
My switch of labels was about finding something that felt truly right for me, but it would be dishonest to pretend the decision wasn't impacted by the politics and "discourse" I was involved in at the time.
There was no popular pan flag, and the offerings were frankly... ugly. To me. Various shades of purple, P letters, P symbols incorporating gender symbols, infinity symbols. They didn't feel consistent with the other pride flags.
So on a whim, I decided to design one. I designed it to be pretty, honestly. That was a primary function of it, to have s/t I liked to represent my identity. No point pretending I was trying to be super innovative and deep: I wanted something pretty to plaster on my blog.
Pink, yellow, blue. A strong magenta, a strong gold yellow, and a light cerulean. The pink not too purple, the yellow not too bright, the blue not too cyan. Hex FF1B8D, FFD900, 1BB2FF.
Pink and blue, because of their gendered traditions, and yellow, a generally non-gendered colour, to represent nonbinary folks etc.
I created it anonymously, on a side blog away from my main handle. I was already running LGBTLaughs which was proving very popular in tumblr and didn't want to monopolise queer blog space, I suppose.
I didn't expect it to take off. It proved popular on tumblr, and for a few years the flag kept getting added to the Wikipedia 'pansexual' page and then removed. Eventually it snowballed and ended up in use well beyond tumblr.
As I've got older I've realised a lot of people would be interested in knowing this part of modern queer history, and more about modern flag creation in general, and that it's worth documenting. Not for credit so much as for posterity.
So, that's that. The first time I saw a pansexual flag in real life at my city's Pride parade I may have had a little cry.
Twitter Drama
Best viewed on the original twitter thread, for the full documentation (I may update this with fuller documentation down the line) but here's a rundown of drama surrounding the flag.
First, to set the stage:
posted about designing the pan flag
said i was cool with bi/pan lesbians
said i was cool with kink at pride
Thus followed, in varying intensity 2020-2022:
misgendering
suicide bait
general harassment/pile-on
"called out" on r/pansexuals
blasted on sapphics for satan (fb)
now sworn enemy of of lesbian kpop avi twitter
claims the original pan flag was transphobic in meaning
multiple "new" pan flags designed to displace the one i designed
claims i stole the flag from a medieval indian kingdom, and subsequent vandalisation of wikipedia for the actual state of kerala
vandalisation of the wiki page for the pan flag, resulting in it having to be locked
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TMagP 22 Reaction
Hi welcome back, I didn't do this last week because out internet was out all week
As always I am a backer so this was written 16 July, 2024 and scheduled to be posted 18 July 2024
PRE STATEMENT
The first line of this transcript has me cackling
"GWEN is stood dripping in the middle of the OFFICE. LENA remains seated."
Lena being absolutely brutal
good Gwen is going back to data thank god
LENA'S MARRIED?
CASE BEGINS
Canis= Dog Family
Hominidae= Great Apes(Humans, Gibbons, Gorillas, Orangutan, Chimp and Bonobos)
Leporidae= Rabbits and Hares
Cercopithecoidea= Old World Monkeys(baboons, red colobus, macaques, ect.)
"I have enclosed a power point presentation to demonstrate how weird this dude is"
that was said with a laugh and I am uncomfortable at Augustus being exspressive because WE DONT KNOW WHO THIS DUDE
OH ITS THIS THEORY
"ALEXA PLAY BEFORE THE LOBOTOMY"
wheres that tumblr post about the dead fish on the mri table
...are we using morse code to read brain waves?
oh so you stole it and didnt ask first
it just come back as .. / ..-. ..- -.-. -.- . -.. / -.-- --- ..- .-. / -- --- --
He eats one more cookie than he should: uncharacteristic whimsy
YEAH CAUSE YOU WERE TAPPING ON HIS BRAIN
hi this is not how you treat a seizure /hj
"Just another case of unfortunate frontier Science" SIR THAT MANS BRAIN EXPLODED
the absolute lack of empathy from this guy
"The rest was obscured by Herr Schmidt’s cerebrospinal fluid.".... lovely
POST STATEMENT
OH NO SHES BEEN CAUGHT
OOOOO IS THIS WHY THEY BROKE UP???
DOES ALICE HAVE CONTROL ISSUES??
ooo the girl are fighting
BREAKROOM
HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT
WHO?
I THINK I JUST SAW GOD
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Amanda and Cecilia think thonks (THIS IS NOW GENERAL RANDOM SAW THOUGHTS)
“I grifted off his name. Shitting on his legacy was just a bonus I’ll admit that.” - Cecilia on her fathers work/legacy
“It is I who will carry on John’s work after he dies.” - Amanda on John, who basically is her father and his work/legacy.
Don’t know why these lines intrigue me, however I’ve kinda stated before how I find the comparisons between these two interesting. I don’t believe they are perfect mirrors but there are some similarities to look at, alongside their major differences as well. Cecilia uses her fathers name to benefit herself, she takes advantage of it and others to get what she wants. She is aware that what she is doing is wrong and if found out, would tarnish the Pederson name. Whereas if we turn to Amanda, she heavily dedicates herself to continuing John's work and the Jigsaw legacy. However, obviously throughout the Saw franchise, she begins to question his methods and goes against them. One takes advantage, the other is taken advantage of.
“I rob, I steal and I cheat.” - Cecilia
“I’m a murderer. He took my life from me, so I just returned the fucking favour.” - Amanda
They both admit what they're doing isn't correct to a degree. However, neither has or likely will stop what they're doing. Cecilia scams and Amanda rigs her traps to be impossible, in a way her own form of scamming? What I mean by that is, the whole point of the traps is to be a lesson- It's supposed to be escapable, any survivor of it will tell you that... Obviously, there are some places to question the tests/traps even outside of Amanda, but we're not looking at that right now. Anyway! She basically scams people out of a chance of surviving due to her own past experiences. Lynn Denlon in Saw 3 being a perfect example of this really? She died due to the shotgun collar going off yes, but she likely would have anyway due to Amanda shooting her- Which Lynn had already PASSED her test by that point really.
(Honorary Angel Trap mention) I don't think I have to go too in depth about how Cecilia scams people, but she doesn't just take their money. She also in her own way takes their lives- They leave thinking the treatment will help them, spending savings and such when really it's fake. We’ve also got the fact that Cecilia outright murdered Gabriela. This comparison of their characters and the reception to them by the fandom/audience is something I find fun! Yes, people dislike Cecilia for being a scammer, but the main cause of people's hatred that I've seen isn't even what she did to John? At least here on Tumblr, it's the fact that she killed Gabriela.... The reason I find this ''fun'' is because well, Amanda was the one who put Gabriela in that scenario in the first place and yes of course- We have to acknowledge that Gabriela was part of the scamming which is why she was tested alongside her being a drug addict, however at the end of the day I think it's agreed upon that base level, she isn't a terrible person. She did what she did to survive. So I wonder, if Gabriela had just died in her trap, whether there would be uproar about her death? Would people be angry at John and Amanda the same way they are at Cecilia? And to answer my own question, I don't actually think so. I believe this because of the circumstances of death, reactions and the reason why. Cecilia didn't just kill Gabriela whilst she was in her trap, she did it afterwards. She effectively stole her ''second chance'' because of how money hungry she was. Cecilia also showed no remorse for doing such. Then we have Amanda's reaction.
It goes without saying she was likely rooting for Gabriela the entire time, she reminds Amanda of herself for one and she's also distraught because Gabriela did WIN. I see this as a catalyst to Amanda's future behaviour alongside deaths such as when she ''mercy'' killed Adam and then Laura from Saw 2.
I'm also going to drop this link to a previous post I made, which I think fits in to what I'm saying here and possibly adds to other points. (I have a tendency to repeat myself or ramble)
Almost nobody in the Saw franchise is either fully ''good'' or ''bad.'' That's what I like about it, they are people with faults- Some characters have more redeeming qualities/traits, others not so much. The most beloved characters are likely the Jigsaw apprentices (And Adam). At least the MAIN three ones. Which, let's go over their crimes!
Fun fact! These kinds of crimes are the type that would land you in PRISON. It goes without saying that the moral compasses of all 3 of these characters are basically broken or spinning constantly. Yet, as I stated before- Amanda, Mark and Lawrence are some of the fan favourites of the Saw franchise.... And don't get me wrong, I'm an Amanda fan myself for example! However, it's so interesting the reception these guys get compared to other characters in media and generally in the Saw universe. If we go black and white/narrow our views, they are actually the villains at some points. The crimes speak for themselves and generally whilst watching the movies, you're supposed to be rooting for the people to get out of their traps- Not always mind you, but a good percentage of the time. So many people justify their actions due to their backstories, a common thing for villains and or ''bad guys''. It's understandable, because the shit all of them have gone through would definitely leave anybody unhinged... At the end of the day though, that doesn't mean they should be excused. I think I'll end this here because I've gotten so sidetracked? As I always say at the end of something like this, these are all just my thoughts and opinions- Not fact or concrete either, I'm open to discussions with people who disagree with me for example! IF YOU'VE GOTTEN THIS FAR DOWN! THANKS FOR READING, ANYBODY WHO LIKES AND REBLOGS MY RAMBLINGS DO MAKE MY DAY. -MAL OUT
#the lines of Cecilia's are from deleted scenes#just a disclaimer#I mentioned way more characters than intended#cecilia pederson#amanda young#john kramer#gabriela saw x#lynn denlon#allison kerry#adam stanheight#laura hunter#mark hoffman#lawrence gordon#jigsaw#jigsaw apprentices#saw#saw x#saw 2004#saw 2#saw 3#saw franchise#saw movies#sawposting#saw headcanons#saw character study#character study#headcanons
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spamton and addison headcanon post ^^
i saw one of my moots do this and i have many headcanons for mine so i thought id also post mine :D
(small sidenote a lot of these i stole borrowed from other creators and fics and stuff so i will highlight the unoriginal ones and put a key at the bottom)
addisons are 3d models so they can do stuff like glitch out and clip into walls n whatnot (but it only really happens when somethings wrong which is why spamtons is so much worse)
spamton can pop his jaw and limps in and out of place like a doll (also bjd body if that wasnt obvious)
spamton is eerily good at piano - he learnt it during his big shot era
addison hands are kinda like mitts which they can split into fingers if needed. also they can split into claws for self defence if one is in danger
spamtons ad speech and glitchiness get worse when hes stressed :c
spamton pretty much always speaks super energetically, like minecraft youtuber style
spamtons skin is made of plastic but normal addison skin is not. this also means spamton doesnt have the same thing where his hands arent mitt like which he can split into fingers theyre just always hand
addisons are luminescent but spamton isnt bc puppet
spamton (and jevil) can both speak wingdings
spamtons always had the pipis but they havent always looked like pipis. they used to look like a little red notification dot and the number on the dot would show how much damage it would do
all addisons just have black eyes (sometimes theyre lines and sometimes not depends if i can be arsed to draw proper eyes lol) but spamtons are a bright blue from the shadow crystal incident. if you look closely enough you can see a sun and clouds
also he doesnt have very good vision and without his glasses his eyes will feel like theyre burning
i believe in puppetification theory more than acid theory but i think that the acid is still harmful to addisons. if it comes in contact with their skin it can cause rashes/burning (like a bad sunburn) and if they swallow it it can make them ill or glitchy. if they swallow too much than it can cause irreversible code corruption, which is the main reason why spamton is so glitchy (but mike still caused a lot of the speech thing, its just the physical glitching caused by the acid)
spamton is super agile and sneaky like a cat (i mean no one found him for years in cyber city which isnt a massive place so it makes sense)
can mimic voices really well but in the bracketed speech. basically he can record voices
key vvv
red - taken from System Rebooting : Please Stand By (fic by manofthepipis on a03 GO READ IT ITS SO GOOD)
blue - taken from Defragmentation (comic by Zarla-s on tumblr, comicfury and devart and prolly a few others GO READ IT KAJHFKAH)
pink - idk ive seen so many people do it that I cant credit it to one specific person
anything uncoloured is smth i made up myself B)
#there are a few more that i didnt add#idk ill make another one if u guys want it#deltarune#spamton#spamton deltarune#spamton g spamton#deltarune spamton#blue addison#pink addison#yellow addison#orange addison#addisons deltarune#deltarune headcanon
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Time Travel AU part 5
I'm going to catch up to what I've written already really fast if I keep posting it like this. But AO3 is down so into Tumblr it goes.
(master post)
Part 5:
He caught up with Nancy after second period. She was at her locker, and she gave him such a sunny smile when she saw him that he almost tripped over his own feet. It was not the look of someone who remembered the horrors they went through, and he wondered if there was a way to keep her looking like that.
“Hey,” he said, drumming his hand lightly on the locker next to her.
“Hey yourself,” she said. “Did you get your English assignment done?”
Steve blinked a few times. He hadn’t even thought about looking at his homework. He vaguely remembered that he and Nancy had first started interacting because his English teacher had gotten her to tutor him for a couple of sessions and bring up his essay grades. It was a favor to the basketball coach, to make sure he’d have the grades to stay on the team. They’d hit it off immediately.
“I gotta admit, I haven’t,” Steve said. “When is that due again?”
Nancy gave him a look that was both exasperated and charmed. He had missed that look. “Thursday,” she said. She poked him in the chest. “You’d better get a good grade on it. My reputation as a tutor is on the line.”
“I will, I promise,” he said, folding his hands together. “But first, I wanted to ask you something.”
“Okay?” She pulled her books from her locker and shut the door. “So ask?”
“It’s... It’ll actually take longer than we have between periods to give you all the information. Are you free at lunch?”
“Sure, I guess?” Nancy said. “Fourth period?”
“Great, yeah.” Steve nodded and turned to get to his next class.
“Wait, aren’t you going to tell me what it’s about?”
Steve gave her his most innocent look. “I will. Fourth period!” He gave her a mock salute as he backed away, but turned around too fast and almost ran into someone. He jumped to avoid her, and stopped short, staring at the girl’s face
Barbara Holland stared right back before letting out an annoyed huff and rolling her eyes. “Excuse me,” she said as she elbowed past him to her locker, which was right next to Nancy’s.
Steve turned and continued to stare at her before he realized how weird he was being. He caught Nancy’s eye, and she looked completely confused. “Sorry,” he whispered, practically running off to recover some semblance of dignity before the bell rang.
He ignored the lecture during his third period class. His seat was in the back, and he brought out his Upside Down notebook to make some updates. It looked enough like he was taking notes for the class that the teacher thought he was paying attention, and he was free to make his updates. Nancy was acting like she didn’t remember any of the future, but that might just have been because he was, too. He would have to talk to her in private to figure out for sure.
Fourth period rolled around. Getting in line for his lunch was depressingly familiar, and he always had enough in his wallet to cover it. When he got out into the cafeteria with his tray, he looked around for Nancy. She was sitting with a group of sophomore girls, including Barb, on the other side of the room. Her back was to him, but he knew the slope of her shoulders and the curl of her hair. He got halfway through the cafeteria when he heard Tommy calling to him.
Steve turned around to look at him and Carol at their regular table. He’d walked right past it, and they looked confused. The rest of the table was empty, like it always was. No one sat with them unless they were invited specifically. Steve sighed and went back, but only to drop off his tray. “Sorry,” he said. “I need to go talk to Nancy about something. Don’t eat all my fries.” He knew this guaranteed that his fries would be gone by the time he got back.
When he got to Nancy’s table, he leaned over the back of her chair and stole one of her chips. “Hey Nance,” he said. “Got a minute?”
She laughed and shook her head. “I guess,” she said. He took a step back to let her get up, and she gestured at the chip bag as she stood. “Should I bring these with me? Do you need a snack?”
“I mean, I’ll eat ‘em if you don’t want them,” he said. She scoffed and left them behind, and he followed her out into the hallway.
“So, what’s this about?” she asked.
“Okay. So, this is going to sound weird. I wanted to talk to you about...” He hesitated. Even though he’d practiced this in his head, it sounded weird to say it out loud. “The future?”
She stared at him, definitely thinking that he was going crazy, and waited for him to elaborate. When he didn’t, she asked, “What does that mean? Like, next weekend? Christmas? College?” She giggled a little. “Are you wondering if we’re going to live on a space station someday?”
“No, more like. The next couple of months. Or years. Like, our future.”
“Our future?” she asked. She gave him that little smile that was halfway between charmed and confused. “Like, you and me? Is this you asking me out?”
Steve’s eyes went wide. “Not exactly?” he said, though he immediately regretted it when Nancy looked disappointed. “Not that I’m opposed to it, but that wasn’t what I was asking. See...” He sighed. “It’s going to sound really weird. It’s just that I had this bizarre dream about the future, and you were in it. And I was wondering if you’d ever dreamt something like that.”
She raised her eyebrows and gave him that smile again. “So you’re dreaming about our future, huh?” she asked. “What was it like?”
“I mean, it was, uh.” Steve scratched his head. If Nancy remembered anything, she surely would be saying something about it now, wouldn’t she? “It was kind of dark, actually. Like, there was something dangerous going on in town and you and me were both involved.”
She looked confused again, but just for a second. “Oh, you really meant a dream, huh? Wow. Uh, no? I’ve never had a dream like that before.”
Steve nodded. “Yeah, okay. I told you it was weird. I guess I just wondered if you’d had it too, then maybe it would mean something.” He brushed his hair back and looked towards the cafeteria. “I should let you get back to lunch.”
“No, I want to hear about your weird dream,” Nancy said. “Come on, tell me. It sounds interesting. How did you know it was the future?”
Steve hesitated. He had been thinking constantly about what he’d tell the people who’d gotten involved before if they didn’t remember, but he hadn’t come to a good conclusion. “It was just... it was weird. Like, I know it was the future because I was out of high school? Maybe? but there were terrible things going on and we had to run around dealing with things. Like, monsters or something.”
Nancy nodded slowly and looked like she understood. “Oh, I get it. Like how sometimes, in a dream you know how things are supposed to be even if it doesn't make sense. You just know.”
“Yeah, exactly,” he lied.
She brightened up a little, smiling like they had a little secret. “But I was there? Were you protecting me from the monsters?”
Steve snorted. “Kind of the other way around,” he said. “You had a shotgun and I was just following your lead.”
This surprised her but she also looked delighted by it. She started to laugh. “You were definitely just dreaming there,” she said. “I’ve never even held a gun, much less a shotgun.”
“Yeah, but I bet you’d be good at it,” he said. “Anyway, there was more to it, but you’re right. It was just a weird dream. I’ll let you get back now.”
“You could’ve told me about this between classes,” she said. “I mean, it’s weird but it’s not that weird.”
“Nah, I’ve got a reputation to uphold,” he joked. “Can’t go talking about dreams and monsters with a pretty girl in the hallway.”
Nancy blushed. “Do you want to meet again to go over your essay? I’m free tomorrow afternoon.”
Steve gulped. He could use that as a chance to convince Nancy that there was something dangerous coming, and that she should help him, but he wasn’t sure what he’d be able to say to get her to believe him. He also didn’t remember what he had scheduled for the next day after class. “Yeah, I think I could make that,” he said. “Remind me tomorrow?”
“Sure,” she said, still blushing. She walked ahead of him on their way back into the cafeteria, and he could hear her friends quizzing her about him when he passed her table.
When he got back to his table, he saw that his fries were gone, as expected. Tommy and Carol looked smug about it. They had left him a slice of meatloaf. He reached over and stole Tommy’s pudding cup, which was unopened. Tommy squawked about it, but didn’t do anything to stop him.
“Are you sure you want to be eating pudding for lunch, Stevie?” Carol teased. “Don’t you want to keep your trim figure for Miss Nancy?”
“Nah, she likes me for my curves,” Steve shot back. He stretched his feet out under the table and propped them up on the seat between Tommy and Carol. They both cackled at him and Tommy shoved his feet back down.
“So did you ask her out?” Tommy asked. “Are we gonna have to put up with little Miss Priss this weekend?”
Steve frowned and shook his head. “No,” he said, remembering more and more about this time period. His two closest friends were hot and cold about Nancy even when he was warming up to her. It started even before things had gone sideways. He’d forgotten that, or never given much thought to why that was. Had they been like this with every girl he’d been interested in? He couldn’t remember. He dug into the pudding cup. It was tapioca, which Tommy and Carol both hated, which meant he’d gotten it with Steve in mind. It made him smile a little.
Tommy had told Carol about the bet Steve had made with his dad, and she asked what he was going to do with the money. He shrugged it off, said he had no plans. They got to talking about plans for the week, and the weekend. Steve mostly stayed quiet, listening to them chat about other students and what they’d been getting up to. He finished his meatloaf and sat back, letting his mind wander.
“Hey, you’ve been quieter than usual,” Tommy said. “Still thinking about getting into Nancy’s pantsies?”
Carol snickered and rolled her eyes. “Ugh, that was awful.”
Steve shook his head. “Yeah, don’t be crude, Tommy,” he said.
“I meant the rhyme,” Carol said. “He can be crude as long as he doesn’t try to be clever. He’s too dumb for that. It’s literally painful.”
Steve snickered. “Hey, do we have anything going on after school tomorrow?”
Tommy and Carol couldn’t think of anything, so he took that as a good sign. He spent the rest of the school day trying to think of a way to approach Jonathan and ask him if he remembered anything. There was a chance that he did and just hadn’t tried to talk to Steve about it because they weren’t even remotely friends at this point. It would have been weird for Jonathan to talk to him first.
By the end of the day, he still hadn’t thought of anything. He saw Jonathan’s car in the parking lot, parked in its regular spot. It brought back unpleasant memories of standing next to it with his friends and waiting to ambush him about his photographs. He could try to meet him there after school, but not today because Tommy and Carol were already standing by his car, waiting for him. He didn’t want them to see him talking to Jonathan. They already thought of Jonathan as a freak and they saw them talking, it would put a target on his back. Steve didn’t know why he’d ever thought that was acceptable behavior for people who called themselves his friends. But on the other hand, he didn’t know how to confront them about it now.
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Things I’m excited to see in s5
- Azure Lion finding out who was pulling the strings the whole time (his eyes glowed ink green when he achieved his goal and I think that that’s something)
- The reveal of who stole the scroll and presumably gave it to Jin & Yin or AL (I firmly believe it wasn’t Azure because the person in the cloak had human proportions)
- Azure getting stuck with leaderly responsibilities (this could very well be played for comedy)
- Everyone learns why exactly the Jade Emperor being absorbed(?) is such a bad thing for the universe
- Peng insulting more people down to their core (I am firmly on the side of the fandom that likes that bird and I think he’s got an interesting role in the group dynamic)
- Yellow Tusk being wise in a significant way (like maybe a line where he’s like “Hey Azure, something’s up with you, maybe calm down a little?”
- Nezha being taught that he has value beyond what post he can take up and maybe having a cute moment where he at least smiles
- More content regarding Princess Iron Fan’s days as a celestial (this one I’m fine with because that shot with her and DBK’s first meeting is everything to me)
- More DBK angst (dude clearly has an issue with being called “weak” and I want to see another adorable shot with him and his wife saving each other from the ink)
- Red Son confronting his own issues + maybe even his parental abuse (maybe we could get flashbacks if we’re lucky)
- MK OR MEI RESCUING RED SON (if the show ends up leaving the fam in the scroll because they’re villains and it gets them out of the way I will be PISSED)
- MK, Macaque and the audience finally seeing what mind games Wukong was being put through (because we didn’t actually get to see that in s4 and since he never got out I bet we’re being set up to finally see him and Mac’s fallout in s5)
- More monkey form MK (hopefully him eventually coming to “embrace it” without “accepting his destiny”)
- MK finding out what exactly Subodhi meant by the stone being remade to make another celestial / demon monkey, but MK not actually being born from the stone (maybe getting to meet that goddess in the artwork who potentially shaped him (Quanyin?))
- Finding out what happened to the Samadhi Fire (we haven’t seen Mei use it since LBD and the only time it was mentioned since was Subodhi talking about it in past tense, and honestly if the writers nerfed her simply because they had trouble write conflict while Mei had that universe-destroying power I’m kinda chill with that)
- Sandy’s being “too nice for [his] own good” becoming a character flaw that he has to get past in order to save his friends (someone on tumblr came up with the theory that Sandy’s hiding something and being super nice on purpose and I haven’t been able to stop thinking of it)
- Seeing WTF happened to the Mayor after LBD’s defeat (did he shrivel up and die because his source of immortal power was destroyed? did he actually get arrested by the Megapolis law enforcement that we’ve never seen because everyone saw their mayor hanging behind the demon freezing and destroying the city + he’s more closely connected to human society than any of the other villains so he deserves a human punishment? Or did he actually get away and is currently plotting revenge while having an identity crisis? (please writers even if he anticlimactically died off-screen I WANT TO KNOW))
#wow ok this was a lot of stuff#but I wanted to cover all of my thoughts#I might actually think of more later so I might ykow add part 2.5#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid season 5#lmk#lmk s5#lmk season 5#longpost#I'm so invested in this 2 part season#they really left episodic format behind since season 3#Lily Orchard is gonna hate this#but Ink MK is right#now that they've experienced all that they have it's impossible to go back#the show is clearly disregarding that old rule of episodic superhero shows not developing their protagonists or acknowledging their trauma#LMK is becoming darker and I have mixed feelings about it#also I did not expect MK to actually be surprised that his name could also be an acronym for his title#I guess he really wasn't lying when he said his name was so long he went by MK#his mind was BLOWN#love that identity realization for him#at first I was sceptical of monkey mk being canonized#because I thought it was fine that mk was just a normal teenager who inexplicably had easy access to the monkey king's powers#it is a kid's show after all#but Tang pointing it out actually proved the show had more thought put into it than I'd realized#of course that's not to say that the show isn't clever or doesn't have meaning#I just thought lmk was going to be more like a thoughtless kid's show with a bit of heart#but honestly#considering my child self#I would've been so grateful for this plot twist#because I was a kid who analyzed the heck out of any show I watched
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Archie sonic isue #3
Back at it again at krispy kreme
reminder that as much as I dislike archie sonic I am going to attempt to post as many positive as I do negative comments, these are just me logging my thoughts as I go through ALL of the comics because I like to torture myself.
After fighting with the site for awhile I'm reading these on lmfao we start with issue number 3 it's release date was on august 1993 with it publication date being October 1993.
"Sorry I scared you, anyway robotnik has a bomb" very normal thing to say sonic.
Something about Antoine's being fancy is really funny. They wanted to call this fruit a faggot so badly.
Mans really went FUCK christians me and my homies HATE christians.
Okay this bit made me cackle I'm ngl
I think this is what furry conventions feel like.
turns out the bomb was in fact a bug bomb, still not exactly enviromental friendly but eh, maybe robotnik should try a glue trap next.
Ah so they do aknowledge they changed her hair, I'm sure they aknowledge her fur change to but I don't recall that.
Ah here we have one of my favourite child hood characters when I was a kid and her first origins before they changed it many years later.
Not that I'm complaining I guess they wanted to give characters more plot lines.
I think her current orgins were similiar? don't quote me on that though.
careful she's a hero.
I love she was dying, saw a pretty girl and went I'm normal now acutally.
Very hetro behaviour.
girl they stole ur pigment
Tumblr when they see trans women
because I had to clip these from a different site it sadly seems that I'm unable to nab the questions and etc.
I do love the fun these old comics have but they sure have not aged well in some aspects.
They have charm to them though I suppose but it really does make me laugh when some sonic fans hold these comics as like the word of god of sonic lore when most of the time they just
don't make sense
FIRST < PREV < NEXT >
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Book time! At last, a new one! This is a bind of In Death's Embrace, We Are Reborn by Arinia. It's a fantastic series from the Good Omens fandom. Angsty but sweet, canon-adjacent 20th century history fic. Absolutely gorgeous, rich prose and in character the whole way. Don't be discouraged by the 6/9 chapter count for part 2, it reads as a complete story and I cannot recommend it highly enough.
So! This is a Coptic bind, which means it has no glue holding it together, only stitching, which is visible. I see those recommended a lot of beginner bookbinders, but I have a habit of looking at a new craft and thinking "I don't wanna do the boring beginner project, I want to do the exciting intermediate/advanced one that I don't have the skills for", so I went right for case binding and skipped this kind until now. Two years and a dozen books later, this is my first Coptic. I learned a lot, tried a lot of new things, and will for sure do it again.
More pics and process talk under the cut!
Pic of the spine and endpaper. I used metallic embroidery floss to stitch it, a decision I am going to call hubris. It looks beautiful but is so fucking slippery it's ridiculous. Also it won't hold a weaver's knot like the other thread I've used. I put a French link stitch in the middle (also a first for me) because I saw someone else on tumblr do that a couple of weeks ago and thought it looked really cool so I stole it, but I don't remember who it was so I can't credit them. I made a mistake in that part, where the needle caught a thread it wasn't supposed to, but I don't think it's visible in the photos. The endpaper is also stolen, in that I saw someone post a photo of stuff they'd bought and thought this one was perfect for this project, and I was right. White and black feathers are important to the story so it couldn't have been more perfect. Again, I don't remember who it was or I'd give them a shout-out.
When it came to cutting boards for the cover, I did the thing you do with case binding, which is cut them a little bigger than the text block on top and bottom, but because it's a glueless binding the stitching kinda sags down when it's upright on the shelf. I'm thinking it might put unnecessary stress on the text block down the line, so next time I do this I think I'll make the boards the same size as the block and see how that goes.
Pic of the title page and the section break artwork I made. I really need to up my title page game, it looks so plain. The section break was made with free clip art of feathers that I found via google. I've never experimented with vector art before and I still don't really know anything about it. All I did was find the image, rotate it, mirror it, and draw that little diamond shape in the middle. I made it a little too big and too bold, so it kind of dominates the pages it's on more than it should. I was tired of using a plain gray line for section breaks though, so I'm more or less happy with how it came out. And I learned stuff for next time.
Materials: textured cardstock for the cover, chiyogami paper for the endpaper (I love this stuff, it was so much easier than cardstock), metallic embroidery floss for the stitching (terrible, would not use again), and gold embossing powder for the title. I'm trying to up my cover game but it's hard. The text for the "Reborn" part didn't come out as clear as I'd have liked. I like the gold frame, though. Would do that again.
#bookbinding#fanbinding#snek makes books#snek joined renegade bindery so she could do binderary with them#it's nanowrimo but you bind books instead of write them#binderary2023#good omens#fic rec
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Just wanted to give you a nod of respect for making that post about Jessica. I followed her for years until I started noticing her stories not lining up and how she stole a bunch of the art she was selling in her shop. Then out of curiosity/concern one day I checked back in on her and saw the AI art she was posting and the way she insisted it was her own art after getting called out on it, plus she was stealing photos and posts from all over the internet and claiming them as her own. She's also openly admitted to making up some of her popular posts in the past, like she's proud of lying to people on here. And when anyone says anything she's just like ''It's the internet, people lie'' and it's like ... sure, but not to this extent without getting called out for it. I feel like she thinks she's so much smarter than everyone else that she can just get away with anything. I was going to make a post about it all, but I chickened out after an altercation with a different popular tumblr (completely unrelated) led to me getting a ton of anon hate in their ''defense''. I just couldn't handle that again. I would never want to claim someone was lying about their mental health or their living situation to get money, but like someone else pointed out, it's gotten weird how it's always an emergency, and always on the same date, and everything she does to try fix things apparently always goes wrong. Like obviously we can't say for sure that she doesn't just genuinely have the worst luck in the world but ... idk. It feels fishy to me with all the other lying I know she's done/is doing. Anyway. Hopefully she gets her shit sorted out one way or the other someday soon, because it's pretty sad.
Yeah I wasn’t ever planning on going public with my info but she did beg me to… so I had to <3
It’s very nerve wrecking especially because I genuinely don’t want to hurt her — I just want to inform people that she isn’t what she say she is. I have sympathy because again I do think she’s unemployed & she is likely struggling with mental health (as all chronic liars are….) but it’s absolutely ridiculous that it’s gone on for so long with nobody calling her bluff.
I’ve also gotten a lot of support too and very minimal hate (mostly just people saying they don’t wanna get involved but they think I’m wrong, not actual threats or insults) which has been very reassuring <3
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#1 for "believe in me as i believe in you" (obviously), #8, #17, and #18 for the fic writer asks!
1: Share a song that makes you think of "believe in me as i believe in you"
definitely the song i stole the fic's title from, "tonight, tonight" by the smashing pumpkins! as i joke in my author's note, the song is a colin hughes's song if you either don't think about it too much or if you think about it way too hard. i am obviously in the second camp. i also joke about "i want to get better" by bleachers in the tags of the fic, but honestly? great colin/michael nolastname song (i didn't know i was lonely 'til i saw your face)
8: What project(s) are you currently working on?
several! i'm currently finishing up my first yellowjackets fic and i'm excited to post it. i also started drafting the second work in what i am calling my "ted lasso, by any other sport" series. have been learning a lot about hockey in the last few weeks. there's some exchange stuff i'm working on, too, that i have to be hush-hush about and a fic that if i finish, i will most certainly be publishing anonymously (which would make it my second anon fic of the year! here is to the embarrassing fixations we keep even from tumblr!)
17: What’s something you’ve learned about while doing research for a fic?
oooh, okay. so my next big multi-chapter fic i've been letting marinate in a google docs folder is taking place in mid-80s Boston and i've learned, among many things about the music scene there, tracy chapman used to busk at harvard square and on red line platforms while she was attending tufts.
18: What’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?
i'm going to go with a line from my most recent fic, love-all, especially since i was asking this myself today while playing tennis: It speaks to a question he has never been able to answer: do sports breed masochists or did masochists invent sports?
fan fic writer asks!
#ask#thank you laura!!#a colin hughes playlist might be in order#but that might also mean having to listen to drake
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For music reccs of what few less known bands I like:
INHEAVEN's Stupid Things
Whiteroom's Stole the IV
Black Honey's Disinfect
tumblr crashed while typing this post. fucken hell
Stupid Things: I’ll be honest I woke up this morning and listened to this song bc it was the first recommendation I saw and liked it and then fell asleep and forgot what it sounded like entirely. this is soooo 2010s for me affectionate. not in that the music sounds like it’s from that time (I’m so shit at determining that outside of 50s-80s rock) but more this song would have gripped my heart in the mid 2010s. in that sense I Do think there’s a time I will want to listen to it again when I’m in that teenage mood so it’s goin in a playlist for that purpose
Stole the IV: I SWEEEAAARRRR I’ve heard this song but there’s no evidence of that anywhere in my Spotify (typically I add every song I’ve been recommended even by the Spotify algorithms into a playlist for that purpose and stuff) also it’s not my typical vibe but I do like it!! it’s going in a couple playlists
also the album art is sick (for the double single/EP?)
it reminds me of this one tweeted animation that ended up being a phenomenon within my inner circles bc I was so obsessed with it. I can find the tweet later (scared to close out of tumblr to find it bc it may crash when I’m not looking again) but it’s this animation (if tumblr puts the gif in right) by someone with a handle like anonymooooose or something on twt
disinfect: this song is so good but also not my usual vibe. but u know what. it is going in some playlists too. bc this is exactly along the lines of what I had in mind when I made that bug music post and said I wanted to hear parasitic indie. I’m probably gonna become obsessed with this song when it hits me on a day where the vibe matches. I can feel it
thank you so much for the recommendations!!!! bless
#pls do not be discouraged that the songs are not my usual vibe I Still Enjoyed Them Greatly#lous clues#a-lavender-boy#music recs#music recommendations#ask
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rating kin i've been assigned by tumblr users on the tags of the post that made me a meme
shoto todoroki: hm. he is my favorite character but realistically april fools as a pairing is closer to bakudeku than bakuroki. 7/10.
mistoffelees catsmusical: gaze slides over to my forty cast recordings of cats as i think about the fact that i saw cats at a midnight showing by myself and then proceeded to watch it 12 times on demand. 9/10.
daenerys targaryen: i'm nowhere near that cool but i WOULD fuck a dragon so i think that elevates this one. let's call it 6/10.
elim garak: i am also nowhere near a cardassian ex-spy. 2/10.
tak invaderzim: i should remake that gir hoodie i stole from my ex-boyfriend. what? rate it? eh. 3/10.
diluc ragnvindr: i don't know anything about genshin impact so i'm gonna say that's a solid 0/10.
bucky barnes: i'm mostly offended that i got this one through the post being tagged clint/bucky. i'm with him 'til the end of the line, assholes. 5/10.
hanzo shimada: are you calling me a fucking hanzo main? that's racist. fuck you. 0/10.
valkyrie mcu: i'm rating this one 8/10 just for the sheer imagination of thinking i could be that much raw wlw energy at once.
the music meister: puts face in hands. if i were a batman villain, i would be the music meister. nobody hates this more than me. 10/10.
#who lets reili make text posts?#my wisconsin boyfriend#i ain't tagging any of the fandoms#this is purely to strike fear in the heart of craze
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We leave Bangkok on a Koh Samui-bound overnight bus this evening so I thought I would wrap up some Bangkok highlights. Today we visited Bangkok Art and Cultural Centre which was amazing. There was no entrance fee and so much amazing art, so definitely worth the slightly confusing public bus ride.
This was one of the first installations I saw and I felt drawn to it, especially the way the hoops and the textured fabric within cast shadows on the wall.
I really like this art style. Would love to get a similar style tattooed on me; the wobbly concentric lines in the tree remind me of a topographic map, creates so much depth!
This was one of my favourite artworks there, all the way from South Australia! The colours and patterns are so stunning. Funny to come all the way to Bangkok to see artwork created so close to home, but absolutely gorgeous.
This picture doesn’t show it, but each of these artworks are tufted rugs! They were super intriguing and played with themes of capitalism, war and beauty, using some traditional Persian patterns within designs of navy ships, tanks and the like, one driven by none other than Mickey Mouse. I think that’s quite an interesting symbolic figure.
This one I found quite eye-catching. Alongside many other similar painted figures mounted on the wall it definitely makes a statement. There was a lot of phallic imagery in this installation, and also used specific political and religious figures such as Boris Johnson, Gandhi, Buddha, etc. combined with themes of neoliberalism, late-stage capitalism, patriarchy, war and religion… and ultimately world destruction. Slay.
Finally, we saw an exhibition about the cats of bangkok !!!! This was a scandal because someone clearly hacked my Tumblr and found my cats of bangkok drafted post and stole my idea/cats. Both Bella and Luca can verify that I had this idea long before we saw this exhibition. But the fear of comparison won’t stop me, keep your eyes peeled later on for an intimate portrait of the many cats we have come across on the streets of Bangkok.
Overall I really enjoyed this experience! Definitely worth a visit if you’re ever in Bangkok. The Art Café (whose wifi i am currently using to post this) is also great.
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a date with the devil | yoon jeonghan
› pairings: yoon jeonghan x female reader › aus: gang leader jeonghan, bad boy jeonghan › genres: smut (18+) › word count: 26.1k
› 🎧: kazino – bibi | honey! – tabber ft. dean | control me – colde | bubbly – ethan low | i need you around – yugyeom ft. devita | movies – devita | 007 – tabber ft. syd | ghosts – highvyn | the killa – txt | hold me – hojean | shut the fuck up, that's mine – tabber | bonnie & clyde – dean
› this one shot is part of my hannieween fest/kinktober special!
› warnings after the cut! READ THEM CAREFULLY 🗣️
› warnings: shamefully stole a line from the show daredevil, gore, guns and other weapons, blood, injuries, descriptive violence, dub con, glamorized gangster shit, toxic and dark themes, cheating, yandere undertones, jeonghan is a jerk in the beginning, smut with plot, dirty talk, hard dom jeonghan, really subby reader, pussy drunk jeonghan, spit kink, degradation kink, voyeurism, some praise kink, impact play, instant love, fucking with clothes on, multiple unprotected p in v scenes, cumming on skin, creampies, fingering, breeding kink, pull out method, creampie, possessive jeonghan, manhandling rough fucking with love, dumbification, hannie is kind of insane and reader is too, backshots. brat taming: orgasm denial, spanking, humiliation. use of the word slut, pet names: baby, baby girl, good girl, pretty, sweetheart (hers) sir (jeonghan) › disclaimer: minors dni this post is intended for 18+ readers. please have your age stated in your description and try not to look like a bot please 🙂 › author's note: hey! hello! hi! this is the second part of my hannieweenfest/kinktober! this has been really fun so far! this is super self-indulgent — like i didn't even plan for this to reach these many words. so, i hope you like this! buckle up (●'◡'●) › author's note: big thanks to booki @kwanisms for helping me come up with seungcheol's nickname 🙂↕️ › another author's note: some bits of this are rushed and i apologize. tumblr is a bitch that did not let me expand on my ideas as i wanted to 😭 it's not thoroughly proofread but pls enjoy
› one, double-crossed
THE WALK FROM YOUR APARTMENT TO THE WORKSHOP WAS THIRTY MINUTES. You hugged yourself tightly as you hastily walked on the sidewalk, shooting a glance both ways before crossing the street, high-heels clacking at your wake.
Aside from the few incoming cars and the trucks that stopped by every corner to collect waste, the night was quiet. If you kept your pace, no one would see you. If no one saw you, no one would care that you were gone for the night.
You kept on the sidewalk, going under a bridge, the echoes from the upcoming cars rattling your head. Dull, pale streetlights blinded your vision as you tilted your head skyward, trying not to miss your step. God, what am I doing? But before you could try and justify this, you quickened your pace.
Reflecting was not going to work. It never does with these guys.
You recognized Kim Mingyu by the dark matte helmet he was taking off. His fingers unclicked the strap beneath his chin, placing his hands at the sides of the helmet to pull his head out. He let out a relieved sigh, mouth falling open as he ruffled his long dark hair.
His gaze found you at the clacking of your quick footsteps on the concrete. “What are you doing here?”
“You could at least say hi first,” you snapped, stopping before his Kawasaki Ninja. A black powerful bike, sleek, elegant, and faster than a race car.
He was known for the loud revving that swept through the streets at night. You knew him, however, as one of the gang’s most trusted members. Quick-witted. The muscle of the group.
“What I’m going to say to you is goodbye,” he hissed, darting his gaze around, making sure you were indeed alone. “You can’t be here.”
“I need to go inside. Do you know what will happen if someone sees me here?” you retorted, leaning closer to the bike to no use. The man was so tall you had to keep your chin up to look at him in the eyes.
“Yeah, I fucking do,” he whispered sharply. He snapped his head to his side, motioning to the other way. “Now, go home. You’ll find nothing here.”
You huffed loudly at him, rolling your eyes. “All of you are so useless.”
“Don’t say I didn’t warn you,” Mingyu said through his teeth, making it hard for you to listen. You were already turning away, walking down the side of a building.
A row of motorbikes were parked outside the workshop, making it seem like the place was packed inside. But as you passed by, the shutter doors were rolled up so you could get a quick glimpse inside. Vernon, the guy that gathered intel on the streets to communicate for the gang, sat alone on a rusty old couch, sipping on a can of pop.
The man arched an eyebrow at you, but remained quiet, his eyes following you as you passed the entrance and turned to the back of the building, where you heard the real workshop was.
As soon as you pushed the door open, you knew that you should have not walked in there. All your confidence, all your determination to get this done, dissipated in a second. The room was dark, smelling like grease and something else that made your nose itch.
Jeon Wonwoo stood up abruptly the instant he saw you come in, the loud noise of his chair falling making you jolt. “Get out of here,” he snapped.
“Where is he?” you asked, keeping your tone as flat as possible.
Wonwoo was someone who made you nervous naturally, being the one that was known to be the gang leader’s second in command. The one that aside from being a drug-runner, moonlighted as the gang’s spy.
“Get the fuck out,” he muttered, taking two big steps your way, grabbing you by the shoulders, and pushing you to the door.
You tried to slap his hands off you, “No, tell me where Seungcheol is.”
At the sound of his boss’s name, he retreated willfully. “In the back,” he replied, bewildered. “Why are you looking for him?”
“I need to talk to him,” you muttered, your voice breaking a bit. “My sister has gone missing, and I think he knows where she might be.” You read his gaze, just as he was reading yours. “Didn’t you know she’s missing?”
“What the fuck,” Wonwoo said under his breath. And in his confusion, he made a mistake.
Jeon Wonwoo, the guy you knew to be sagacious, flashed a look at one of the doors to his left. And that is where you turned your next step towards.
“No, wait,” he muttered. “Fuck!” he exclaimed quietly as you turned the doorknob and pushed through.
It was a storage room. One wall was covered with industrial racks holding duffel bags. There was a table. You were not sure what you had thought you would find as you took in your surroundings. But you found the smell that was caused your nose to itch.
There were two men in the room. One was sitting far back to where you stood. He had short black hair, a fringe that sit parted on his forehead. The other, closer to the entrance, had pale blond hair, long enough that the front strands reached his cheekbones.
This was Choi Seungcheol.
Seungcheol arched one eyebrow at you in the doorway. “Can I help you?” he spoke slowly, motioning a hand at Wonwoo who was standing closely.
The man exited the room, closing the door behind him.
“Y-yeah,” you croaked, finding your voice. “I want to talk to you,” you sent a meaningful look at a man sitting across from Seungcheol, implying you needed to talk alone.
Yoon Jeonghan sat on the other chair. He rested his elbow on the table and his chin in the palm of his hand. His brown eyes were expressionless, but you knew he was known to be like that. The book-keeper to the notorious boss Choi Seungcheol, his best friend and confidant.
“What about?” now he was raising both eyebrows, not noticing your unspoken message.
“Ki-ki…” you stuttered, looking between them nervously.
“Eh?” Seungcheol made a face of annoyance. “Why are you here?” he asked with a heavy tone. “You know you can’t just walk in here, you know that, right?”
Seungcheol placed the dismantled gun on the table, throwing the dirty rag on its side with a frustrated sigh.
Oh, you were well aware that you could not just walk into Seungcheol’s workshop and expect to come out scatheless. Or to come out of there at all. Choi Seungcheol was unnerving, intimidating. He had a reputation of being ruthless and calculated, once wiping out a whole gang in a single night, earning the nickname The Shadow of Daegu.
Part of his reputation also stemmed from the fact that not a single gunshot was fired. He handled everything with his hands.
“You’re so damn clueless,” Seungcheol hissed, reclining back on his chair. “Look, kid,” he quirked up a thick eyebrow. “I don’t know what you’re doing, but you’re not going to find anything in here.”
“I… I…” you searched for words, you had a whole thing rehearsed. But once standing upon The Choi Seungcheol, stupefaction swallowed you whole.
“Go,” the blond-haired man sneered, crossing his big arms over his chest. “And don’t come back.”
“I need to know where my sister is. Kiki’s been radio-silent for three days,” you blurted, your voice airy as if you had just used all of the air in your lungs to get those words out.
“And you presume I know where she is?” Seungcheol paused, linking his fingers together and placing his hands on his middle.
You made a motion to step closer but stopped short when the man bristled. The other man did not move, he did not speak, and you were sure, he had not even blinked. “No, but Hyunjun does.”
Seungcheol sent his gaze around the room as if looking for his fucks to give, shrugging. “You’re failing to make a point.”
“I think Hyunjun suspects I want to leave him,” you said through a ragged breath, it was becoming increasingly difficult to breathe. You knew you were on the brink of falling into a panic attack. “And he won’t tell me where Kiki is. I believe he’s holding her hostage, so I won’t break our engagement.”
“Ever heard of a lawyer? Some common people could handle that for you,” Seungcheol arched one eyebrow.
“You of all people know that won’t fucking happen,” you spat, crossing your arms to show some assertiveness, but deep down you were doing it to hold yourself together. “I do that, and he kills her. I won’t even get close to finding someone who even wants to go against him.”
“Again, the point,” Seungcheol punctuated, lowering his face but keeping his heavy gaze piercing your face.
“I want you to kill him.”
Seungcheol did not pause, scoffing right away. “One, you have balls to come here,” he sneered, lip curling slightly over his perfect set of teeth. “Two, who the fuck do you think you are to boss me around? And three, I don’t know how you found this place, but I do want to see you getting the fuck out of here before things turn drastic.”
You were used to receiving threats, almost daily, but being so worn out over Kiki’s disappearance had made you more irrational than you would have liked to be in a place like this.
“Please,” your voice brimmed with sorrow to the point that your limbs had started to tremble. “I’ll do anything.”
“Why don’t you kill him yourself?” Seungcheol drawled. “Why should I get my hands dirty?”
This is not going according to plan. Between the buzzing in your ears and your pounding heart, you knew something was extremely wrong. This is supposed to be Hyunjun’s rival, the only person in the whole city who would want him dead.
Seungcheol sat up straight, the foldable chair creaking underneath his weight. “Now go, before I have you removed,” he shooed at you with his hand, grabbing his gun and the rag to continue cleaning it.
You stood there, hopeless, helpless.
One thing that bothered you was, Yoon Jeonghan stared at you the whole time. Even as your tears started to roll down your cheeks, he stayed cold, expressionless. You were sure you had not seen him blink even once. It was as if he might miss out on some important detail. But you were the only thing to look at, nothing interesting.
You were crying, sobs broke from within you, flooding the room. You were sure you looked lost, like a kid that just lost a parent in the open street.
“Wonwoo,” Seungcheol called, eyes set on his work.
“Yes?” Wonwoo opened the door, and something told you he had been standing behind it the whole time.
“Show her out,” Seungcheol pointed at you with the tip of his nose, while his hands worked on putting his gun together. “And check that no one followed her here.”
“Yes, boss,” Wonwoo said, his hand grabbing you by the elbow. “Let’s go.”
“No, wait!” you cried out, face tearstained. You grabbed at the door frame, holding on for dear life as the man switched his grip from your arm to your waist, dragging you out of the room. “Please!”
“Fucking hell–,” Wonwoo grunted, managing to lift you by the waist, letting you go once you were out of the workshop. “I fucking warned you.”
“Let go, let go, let go,” you banged your hands on his hard chest, just as his hands released their tight grip on your waist with little to no care. As if he were disposing of something grimy and nasty.
“Go home,” he said, looking back to make sure no one else was listening. “Why the fuck did it occur to you this was a good place to seek help?”
“You won’t understand,” you plastered your palms against your cheeks, wiping your tears. “No one will.”
“Go home,” he reiterated. “And watch your back.”
You knew he did not mean to watch your back from him or any of Seungcheol’s people. You raised your teary eyes to find his cold stare. “He will kill her,” you declared with a sorrowful tone. “And it’s all my fault.”
“You knew what you were getting her into when you got engaged to someone like Hyunjun,” he murmured, and even if his statement was dull, there was some pity shining in his eyes. “Go.”
You turned on your heel on the wet pavement, walking away from the workshop. Wonwoo’s words resonated in your brain with each step you made, turning the corner and then into a deserted alley, deciding to wait.
There was nowhere to go now. You could not go back after crossing enemy territory. Even if Hyunjun did not know where you were, he would wonder why you even left the apartment.
If he started suspecting your plans were afoot, you were for sure a dead woman.
Wonwoo was wrong. You did not know what you were getting yourself into when you got engaged two years ago to that monster. You knew what he dedicated his time to, of course. But you did not know how insane he was when he proposed to you, and you said yes.
Even then, you did not have a choice.
› two, damned if you do
This part of the city was usually safe, and quiet. You wondered if Seungcheol and his gang made it so that no one would suspect that this was where his headquarters were. The workshop was found between a butchery and a flower shop, so it made sense for the place to be in this section of the neighborhood. It was the least place they would find suspicious.
It was a Monday night. The only people strolling by the streets were people going back home from work, not noticing you hiding in an alley. Even if they did, no one would care.
You banged the back of your head on the wall repeatedly, trying to come up with a plan. “Think, think,” you whispered into the midnight air. It was fresh with light rain, droplets of water falling on your head.
The loud roaring of engines announced them before you even saw them pass by. One by one you counted, one, two, and another two motorbikes running down the street, turning left and, you assumed, into the heart of the city. A big black SUV rolled on closely behind them, making your heart drop, that was Choi Seungcheol’s van.
You tried to become one with the wall behind you, pressing yourself into it. You shut your eyes tightly as the sound of wheels rolling on the sidewalk came closer. Vernon skillfully skateboarded down the street. Even if the pavement was wet, the man did not slow down or go on foot.
The moment he disappeared from your view, was when the second part of your plan started rolling. Granted, it felt more like you were improvising, but you needed to do something.
So you went back, hating every second as you rushed to the workshop again, going to the back of the old building. With Vernon, Mingyu and Wonwoo being gone, you had a chance to open the door freely, finding a place to hide.
The first part of the workshop was just that, a simple space for mechanical repairs. There were two doors, one where you had your conversation with Seungcheol, the other you assumed was a washroom.
So you went back outside, shivering from both the cold creeping up to your bones and the rush from being practically in the belly of the beast. You found a large trash container, auto parts dumped on top of the lid.
You treaded quietly around it, crouching down next to it. You thanked the midnight rain that washed away any smells from your new hiding place, also thanking whoever decided to throw away such large amounts of garbage to use them as cover.
The door to the workshop was pushed open, making your limbs go rigid and you sucked in a breath.
A lighter rasped a few times, the sound of flames burning paper caught your attention. Yoon Jeonghan drew in a large intake from his cigarette, his eyes narrowing as he swallowed the smoke, then quickly blew it out of his mouth.
If you can’t see him, he can’t see you. You tried to convince yourself, knowing damn well that it was a lie. You stayed stiff, holding your breath as the man paced on the pavement, smoking his cigarette, cursing under his puff of smoke when it started raining harder.
The rain pattered on the lid of the trash container, and the auto parts surrounding it. But it also made a soft sound as each heavy drop landed on your jacket. The sound was not enough for Jeonghan to notice, but it did add to your nerves.
The man paused once, and you got ready to make a run for it. But as he kept strolling down the alley, you relaxed.
Yoon Jeonghan was just a bookkeeper. That was how you knew him, as the guy who kept a record of all the shipments arriving on the bay, the ongoing train cargo, and so on. It made sense for the accountant to stay behind, while Mingyu and Wonwoo went on their operations and Vernon to make his plug shit.
But Seungcheol? Would he go too?
“What’s the problem?”
Jeonghan’s voice broke through the sound of the rain, making you gasp, hand flying to cover your mouth. The man paced back and forth, humming pensively as he lifted the cigarette to his mouth once again.
“Wasn’t he on our payroll?” he asked with a quiet, but dangerous tone. “I know he’s on our payroll, but did you remind him of that?”
Some things have started to fall into place. You stopped covering your mouth placing both hands on the side of the container for support, leaning forward to see him walking in circles.
“No, no. Leave him be. I don’t want to do anything at the moment, I just want to know where the fucking ship is with my cargo,” he gritted at the phone, his thumb and ringer finger pinching the bridge of his nose, cigarette still safe between his middle and pointer. “I don’t fucking care, Seungcheol. I’ll burn this city down to find that fucking rat if that’s what it takes.”
He took one last drag of his cigarette, rolling his eyes to the sky as he nodded his head to each of the muffled words spoken by Seungcheol on the other side of the call.
“Yes, mmn. Mmn. Right, you do that. See you here. Bye.” He slid his phone into the pocket of his black denim jeans, sighing out his frustration.
You carefully and ever so slowly pressed back against the wall again, processing what you had heard, knowing why you were confused when you saw Seungcheol leaving the workshop along with the two drug runners.
“The fuck are you doing out here?”
Your heart jumped to your throat, but you did not dare move.
You heard his footsteps crushing the gravel on the pavement as he approached you, the soles of his boots matching each pounding of your heart as he stood before you.
Jeonghan tilted his head back a little, eyes narrowly searching your face as you gaped at him. “I’m talking to you,” he arched one eyebrow.
“I… I’m not hiding,” idiot.
“You’re either on a suicide mission or got nowhere to go,” he said pointedly. When you gave him no answer, he hummed in amusement. “Or both,” he decided, nodding his head, and discarding his cigarette in a puddle of rain. “Come, you’ll catch a cold out here.”
He turned away from where you crouched, the heavy clanking of the door being pulled open startled you even more.
Fear settled deep down in the pit of your belly, twisting your guts. Being in this world meant that you were in constant danger. You have learned to tune in to your instincts, but when your instincts are telling you to run away all the time, it gets harder to pay attention.
“Unless you want to stay there, which Seungcheol won’t like,” he shrugged, motioning you inside.
You rose to your feet, which tingled once you put them to use, each step you took towards the man bringing your senses to a full nerve-rack.
Jeonghan closed the door once you were inside. “Sit,” he offered, pointing to a rusty foldable chair. “I’d offer you water, but I don’t trust the pipes in this retched place.”
“It’s okay,” you croaked, feeling weirder every second you were in the same room as him.
“You were planning on hiding out to… what end, exactly?”
“I already told Seungcheol,” you shrugged, deciding to sit down on the chair in the middle of the workshop. “I won’t be saying anything else until he comes back.”
“Mmn,” he hummed in understanding. “What makes you think he’ll cooperate this time.”
“I don’t know,” you said, playing coy, but you were telling the truth when you added, “I’m improvising at this point.”
Your gaze stopped at the drain in the corner of the space, a hose mounted on the wall. A thought crossed your mind: have people been tortured here?
Jeonghan was acting odd. Another thing you have learned living in this world is: be aware of the men who pose to be meek and quiet. You would know that even if you had not been raised in this dark life.
He was being strangely amicable. And that fired up every single alarm in your head.
The man was clad in dark clothes. Tight denim jeans, chelsea boots, and a leather bomber jacket. His dark and short hair tussled carelessly, and was wet from standing under the rain.
Jeonghan sent one look at you, dropping his act when he made note of your scrutiny. He sighed once again, but this was resignation. Pulling his hands from his pockets, he walked closer to where you sat.
“The clever one is the one who plays the fool,” Jeonghan said, kneeling so he could level with you. “And you… you’re no fool, are ya?”
What? The only thing that came out of your mouth was the shaky sound of the breath you took.
Yoon Jeonghan pinched your chin with two fingers. Like a hunter who just found its prey cute. “It’s easy to mask your cleverness with that pretty face,” he commented while standing back, his hands sinking into the pockets of his black trousers. “Everyone thinks that being pretty makes you dumb. But these guys are ugly and dumb for not making sure you had gone away.”
“What?” you blurted, your voice merely a whisper. Beneath your confusion, a thought forced you to continue playing the innocent. “I… I’m—I just want to talk…”
“You want to talk to Seungcheol?” he asked, tilting his head to one side, standing in front of you so close you could see the drops of water on his jacket.
As if the man had heard his name, Seungcheol entered the workshop, wearing a frown on his face. “What’s the meaning of this?”
“We need to start thinking about what to do with friendly intruders,” Jeonghan tutted, smirking at your reaction. “What?”
“Don’t call me that,” you muttered, standing up from the rusty chair and smoothing out your clothes with a huff. “I don’t like being patronized.”
Seungcheol’s eyes widened in shock. And much to your surprise, you saw fear in his eyes. “How long has she been in here?”
“What did you hear, sweetheart? When you were outside,” Jeonghan asked, and for a moment, you thought that maybe your earlier suspicions were wrong.
“I heard nothing.”
The answer just flew past their ears. Both men remained impassive, waiting for you to give them the real answer.
“I heard everything,” you sighed.
“Your sister is dead. It’s easier to give her up for dead and move on,” Seungcheol spoke out, a stern look on his face. Though the statement was heavy, you knew it was not true.
Mingyu and Wonwoo entered the workshop. As soon as they saw your face, they exchanged a look.
“What?! No, it isn’t,” you blurted, face scrunching in annoyance. “And I know she isn’t dead. If she were, Hyunjun would have displayed her dead body in front of me in some way. Holding Kiki as hostage gives him use over me. That is why I want him dead.”
“Seriously?” Mingyu sighed, shaking his head, and dropping on a seat in the corner of the room.
Wonwoo decided to do the same, though his movements were measured as he sat beside him. “What a nice fiancé you got there.”
Three men looked confused. As the seconds went by, the theory solidified in your mind. Yoon Jeonghan remained expressionless, hands deep in his pockets, his gaze never deterring away from you, again.
“Leverage over you,” Seungcheol repeated with a flat tone again.
You realized it was not a question, but you nodded anyway. “There is a reason why I haven’t gotten married to him yet. He wants to have my name. My dad’s name. I won’t allow it.”
“That fucking lunatic,” Seungcheol said under his breath, running his fingers through his long blond hair. “I swear I’ll fucking kill him.”
“So you’ll do it? You’ll kill him?” you crossed your arms, darting a look at the only man in the room who did not seem confused one bit.
Jeonghan finally moved, opening his mouth to let out a raspy sigh. “Okay, so what is your plan?” he crossed his arms, shrugging when you did not give him an answer right away. “You must have planned something when you came in here thinking Seungcheol would help. You have something to offer.”
Seungcheol cast a curious look at Jeonghan, arching one eyebrow but when he did not dare to bite back at Jeonghan’s offhanded comment, you knew you were right all along.
“You’re the leader,” you muttered in amazement.
Jeonghan pursed his lower lip, bobbing his head once. “Which leads me to think that not even Hyunjun’s aware of this. But that doesn’t surprise me, either he’s too stupid to realize, or he doesn’t have that kind of pillow talk with you.”
You bristled. In this world, you were used to coming across all kinds of people, none of them had manners, or even one ounce of tact when speaking to women. Or to people in general.
But the truth was, you did not have any kind of pillow talk with your fiancé. He would much rather spend his nights in the bed of other women than share the same space as you. It had been a while since he did so much as kiss you on the cheek.
However, you were nosy. And you built your case before you could make a run for it and come to the workshop.
Seeing your reaction, Jeonghan smirked. “So, both?” he approached you with a steady step. “Well then, are you going to tell me that little plan of yours?”
“You mentioned a problem with your shipments in the bay,” you said promptly, even while your whole body shook with unbearable anxiety, you pushed yourself to blurt the next words. “I know why.”
Jeonghan bore into you with his dark gaze, his lips parted, and you knew that his interest had locked in on you. “I’m listening.”
“I need your part of the deal,” you said. Being inches closer to his face, you could spot the mole on his cheek. “I won’t say unless you give me your word that you’ll get rid of him.”
“Get rid of him or kill him?”
“Semantics,” you rolled your eyes.
“No, no,” he had lowered his tone too, and with his voice, it seemed like he was cooing at you: “I could lock him in a warehouse for the rest of his life or I could throw him into the deepest ocean with his hands tied behind his back. Those two are not the same. Your choice.”
“Kill him,” you uttered at once.
“And you’ll tell me every little thing you know.” His dark gaze shone, even in the badly lit room. You saw the fascination burning in his eyes.
“To the last bit,” you promised.
And that was the moment when you knew. Yoon Jeonghan was crazy. Even if the thought had crossed your head some seconds before, this was what solidified it. If he was as cunning as he gave you the impression, then he knew you were just as crazy too.
“Deal.”
› three, damned if you don’t
That same night you struck your deal with Yoon Jeonghan, he started to work with the information you gave him. Though you knew how to play your cards, and did not give him everything you knew at once. You needed to keep yourself safe until you knew Kiki was safe, and far away from this shitty life.
“You’re going to go back home,” Jeonghan instructed, leaning back on the chair, and crossing his arms over his chest.
Your eyes widened in fear, even sitting across from him, he was unnerving for so many reasons. “Bu-but I can’t go back there—,”
He raised one hand to stop your protest. “You need to fool him. Make him think that everything is under his control still,” he raised his gaze to find Seungcheol standing by the doorway, hands clasped tightly on his back. “Have someone drop her by her apartment, do this quietly.”
“Are you seriously trusting her?” Seungcheol cocked one perfectly thick eyebrow.
“Do I have another option?” Jeonghan retorted, blinking slowly at the man. “So far, your boys haven’t come up with useful intel. We hadn’t got a single scrap of intel until she showed up at our door. If you have any suggestions, make them right now.”
“We should not let her go, then,” Seungcheol debated.
“It’s the third time you speak as if I weren’t in the room,” you intervened.
Then you saw something you were not expecting. Yoon Jeonghan smirked. The corners of his lips raised slightly, but you caught the sight. And the effect it had on you was like eating candy for the first time. It was exciting, like a rush of fresh oxygen to the brain.
“You will have to come back to me. Back and forth, from your home to here,” Jeonghan murmured, driving his gaze from Seungcheol to your eyes. “Indefinitely.”
“What, are you going to keep me here?” you asked, sending a short glance around the place.
“So you’re not upset you have to stay with us but upset about being in the workshop?” Jeonghan arched one eyebrow bemusedly.
“Well, I’d rather be literally anywhere else than with that animal,” you huffed, trying not to roll your eyes. “Yes, this place is horrible. It smells.”
“You’re going to take the most important stuff and hide it,” Jeonghan added, ignoring your comments. “Now, I don’t want you to be obvious. Just grab your passport and I don’t know, your phone charger, put them somewhere within reach in case you need to run.”
“Not even clothes?”
“You can buy that shit, don’t be ridiculous,” he grimaced.
“How will I buy that shit?” you bit back, leaning over the table. “I don’t have any money, he took everything from me.”
This is how you knew these people to be. Cold-blooded, cunning, calculated. You always believed that the head of the clan was Choi Seungcheol because of his way of handling things. He had a reputation, and his gang did too, naturally. You knew his gang from climbing quickly to be the rival to your dad’s.
And you were known as the fiancé to your dad’s second in command. Not as his daughter. You were a prized possession. A trophy soon-to-be-wife.
“But not your name,” Jeonghan remembered keenly. “You said that. Why?”
You bit back your tongue, sighing through your nose before mustering up the courage to give in a little bit more. “Because that way he will have access to everything my father left me,” you blurted out. “He wouldn’t have shit without my father. And he won’t have shit without me.”
“Your father?”
“Hyunjun doesn’t have an empire, he doesn’t have shit. Everything he has, it’s thanks to that old man,” now it was your turn to cross your arms, deciding not to give any more.
“Mmph,” Jeonghan smirked. “So you’re the iron fist’s kid? I never knew he had kids.”
“Of course you didn’t,” you scoffed. “My dad’s a psycho but he kept me safe. His mistake was letting Hyunjun into our lives.”
“Your dad’s dead? This is news to me,” Seungcheol tilted his head, now totally captured by the information he was getting.
Your chest burned, you knew you were crossing a line you would not be able to come back from. “Close to,” you whispered. “Hyunjun is filling in for him.”
“But you’re his heiress,” Jeonghan pieced together. “What about your sister?”
“Kiki’s not my sister,” you confessed, blinking the hot tears threatening to spill from your eyes. “She’s the only friend I have. The only friend I’ve ever had.”
“You would go to these lengths for someone who isn’t blood-related,” Jeonghan uttered.
You did not even bother to elaborate. Jeonghan did not need an answer, he was not even posing a question.
Jeonghan turned his head to the man standing behind him. “Get to work,” he told Seungcheol.
“I’ll bring the car around,” Seungcheol told you, motioning to the door to get you back home. He exited the room, leaving you with Jeonghan.
You stood up, and he followed waiting for you before the door as you approached it. “How do I know I can trust you?” you asked him.
“I want him dead as much as you do, sweetheart,” he whispered, the ghost of a smile showing on his lips. “But if it gives you more peace, then I’ll offer you this, you’ll be with me every step of the way. No secrets, you’ll be informed of everything.”
His words left you stunned for a long moment. Jeonghan had proven to be as secretive as your father, even competing at that. And not only that, but you were also never included in Hyunjun’s plans, he never talked to you about anything that was going on in his life. You knew your reaction was visible because the smirk on his face grew more defined.
“Now, I’ll return the question to you. How do I know I can trust you?” his voice was quiet and velvety. But you knew men like him, you knew that he was planning more than he was letting it show.
“I’m being honest,” you shrugged, feeling like there was nothing more to your answer that you could give him.
“Honest won’t make you smart, sweetheart,” he drawled, his gaze dancing on the features of your face, setting every nerve ending in your body on fire.
“That’s all I have left, Jeonghan,” you whispered.
“Fine, then I’m content with that,” he said. “Now go, I don’t want our plans ruined before we could even put them to work.”
Efficient. You walked out of the room with nothing more to say. Jeonghan stood in the doorway watching you go. In so little time, he showed you he was someone you could trust. You liked that.
Plans take time. Soon, you would say goodbye to the last rains of September and welcome the snows of December. You learned that time forgives nothing, and waits for no one.
Hyunjun leaned back on his armchair, one elbow on the arm, reclining one of the temples of his head on his finger as he looked at the screen of his phone.
You used to think Hyunjun was attractive. He had a long, straight nose, full lips, dark hair, and a cold stare. Nothing in his face nor demeanor had softness. He was never sweet to you, nor kind.
And he had not looked at you for the entirety of the lunch, and you did not want him to.
“Any news from Kiki?” you asked, breaking the silence that was nearly choking you out.
Your fiancé dragged his gaze from his phone to where you sat, at the other end of the table, meters away from him. Your food was untouched.
“She’s having a nice stay in Greece,” he let you know in a stilted tone. “Last I phoned she could speak some sentences. I’m pretty sure she knows more now.”
I hate you. You had to play a fool every time you were around him, making him believe that you did not know why you could not talk to Kiki. You did not let it show that you knew of his rivals, of his deals with the cops and every single judge of the city.
He thought you were happily content at his side. Happy and deluded about his love affairs, the trail of bodies dropping around him.
“Will I be able to speak to her?” you rasped, clearing your throat, you raised the glass of orange juice to your lips.
“If you remain silent I’ll think about it,” he said with an annoyed tone, staring back at you.
“I’d like to talk to her,” you gritted with a forced sugary tone, masking your hate with another gulp of orange juice.
“Don’t you trust me, love?” he discarded his phone on the table, stretching his arms in a snappy manner to adjust the sleeves of his dress shirt.
Hyunjun was about to leave on a business trip to somewhere overseas. All you had to do to get this information was hack his phone. You had become so stealthy that he did not even know that you already knew every single one of his passcodes. You had even memorized his passport number.
“Of course,” you whispered. “I just miss her dearly. It’s her birthday soon.”
“You could talk to her on her birthday,” he gave you a stern look. “If you remain quiet.”
It was not her birthday soon. But your stupid fiancé did not know that. Though you kept your mouth shut, resorting to toying with the food on your plate until he rose to his feet and left to the master bedroom of the nice penthouse you shared as a couple.
“Tsk,” you spat.
Your phone buzzed in your lap, and you moved your gaze from your food to the screen, discreetly reading the text message you got.
[unsaved number] Yongsan station. 1 hour.
The reaction you got from your body was nearly involuntary. Your tummy twisted, your heart stammering rapidly in your chest.
Hyunjun came back to the dining room, collecting his phone where he left it. “I’ll be going now,” he said flatly, fixing the buttons of his collar.
“Want me to come with?” you muttered, faking a meek look at him.
“No,” he said. “I’ll be busy, it’s no holiday trip… we’ll have time for that, when we get married.”
You kept your gaze fixated on him. “I’ll wait for you, then,” you said. As if you could go anywhere.
If he registered what you said, he made no comment about it. You watched as Hyunjun stood beside you, leaning over to grab your face with his hand, forcing a hard kiss on your lips. Then he grabbed his jacket and the travel suitcase he had readied before the door and left.
You sat frozen for a bit, hand on your palpitating chest as you processed what had just happened. He’s your fiancé for fuck’s sake. Why did a kiss rattle you so much? It’s not like it was the first time he kissed you. But it certainly felt wrong; not only because you did not want to be kissed by him but because you ached to be kissed. Just not by him.
Some moments passed before stood up abruptly, chair squeaking on the faux marble floor as you ran to lock the front door, rushing to the window that gave you the view to the gate of the apartment building and waiting.
It was not until you saw his black BMW leaving that you carried on changing your clothes, starting by removing your silk robes and undoing the hairpin tying your hair together. You chose a warm sweater, jeans, and boots, completing your outfit with a jacket for the snow. You had long forgotten to look nice, you were only thinking of being efficient.
In the months you had been constructing your ploy, you had also crafted a routine for cases like this. You cleaned the table, did the dishes, and tidied your room. But you made it a rule to leave a mug with tea on your bedside table, a lip-stained napkin sitting beside it. On top of that, you also made sure to toss a blanket on the side of the bed.
You kept a copy of your apartment door in your pocket, leaving your original key on the kitchen counter.
And lastly, you would take your engagement ring, sliding it onto your finger, itching to get it off immediately.
You opened an umbrella as soon as you got out of the building, taking the fastest route to Yongsan station, which was less than a ten-minute walk. But you liked to be early.
You snuck some glances over your shoulders every so often, trying to keep your heart rate steady as you quickened your footing. Even as the snow fell on the city, the station was packed with people, though it was no surprise to you, given it was a rush hour.
But it being crowded provided some sense of security for you. You took the stairs up to one of the bridges near by, deciding to stay there to keep watch for a sign, a messenger, or a familiar face. You were dying for it to be the latter.
[unsaved number] car, four o clock
You desperately looked around, rushing down the stairs with little care to watch your step. You almost slipped your foot on one step, but got to the sidewalk safely, opening the door to a black sedan with its blinkers on.
“Do you fucking care about your safety?” Seungcheol spat once you slid on the passenger’s seat. “You almost got yourself killed!”
“Good morning to you too, Seungcheol.”
The man’s nostrils flared. “I mean what am I supposed to do if you fucking snap your neck in the middle of the street?”
“I don’t know. What would gangster Seungcheol do, call one-one-two?” you mused, biting your lower lip to mask your smile.
He rolled his eyes, blinking rapidly. “Fucking put your seatbelt on,” he hissed, moving his hand to the gear stick, shifting it before the car started moving. “One-one-two, tch.”
You smiled quietly, crossing the belt over your chest, clicking it softly once you secured it. “Are you taking me to Jeonghan?” you asked promptly.
This had been your modus operandi for the past few months. You would stay home, watch your fiancé’s every move, sleuthing on his business as much as you could. Then you would get a text message every two weeks or so, sometimes to check in on you, sometimes to take you in.
The times you were taken in were the best.
“Yeah,” Seungcheol said with ease. In all this time, you had earned his trust with little to no effort since all you had to do was follow the plan and be honest.
“To his home?” you asked once you realized you were heading north.
“He’s not in the city. He’s taking a few days off to recover from a burnout,” Seungcheol explained.
Your heart dropped upon hearing that, you turned to see Seungcheol’s face, but all you got from his side profile was seriousness. So you turned to the window again, not letting him get a glance of the worry masking your features.
The ride was silent. However it was the kind of silence you welcomed, it made you feel safe and not like something was about to go off.
Jeonghan lived in a quiet, but rich neighborhood. His house was secluded, sitting atop of a hill, and surrounded by trees. It felt like visiting an island, whenever you came here. You were always driven, dropped off, and then collected.
Your visits were scarce, you could count them with your fingers on one hand. And each time you visited was just for business. Never quite as an invitation.
You closed the door, waving off at Seungcheol who only nodded his head at you, driving off on the snow-covered concrete in his expensive car.
To get to the front door, you had to follow a path surrounded by nature, trees, and grass. Boots crunching on snow as you went down to stand in front of a door to an eerily quiet house, where the were lights off.
You knocked your fist in a familiar rat-a-tat and waited.
Jeonghan came to the door, yanking it open and stepping aside to let you in, locking the door as you sheltered yourself from the cold wind.
“Hey,” you mumbled demurely, avoiding his gaze as you covered your face with your hands, trying to warm them up.
“Cold?” he asked, he almost sounded like he was smiling.
“Yeah,” you replied, sucking in a breath.
“Let’s go to the living room, warm you up.”
Your tummy tightened nervously. “Alright,” you sighed, following him in his spacious home.
Jeonghan had an expensive taste. Not only from the clothes he wore or the car he drove. His house was huge, way bigger for just one person to live in it. It almost felt like he did not even live there. The place was tidied, there were no family pictures, no memorabilia, no signs that someone even liked living there.
“Take a seat,” he muttered softly, pointing to the long black velvet couch in front of the warm faux fireplace.
You did as he asked, feeling much better once you got closer to the heat coming the heater. The flatscreen played soft jazz music, and the lamps in the corners of the living room were on, providing a cozy warm light to the space.
“How have you been?” you asked, searching his face.
“I’ve been better,” Jeonghan said, reclining on the sofa across from you. There was a blanket thrown to one side, and you suspected he had been sleeping there before you knocked on his door.
Jeonghan looked tired, his face colorless even under the warm yellow tone coming from the lamps. He avoided your eyes too, maybe because he did not want to face your scrutiny.
“Why did you call for me?”
His dreamy eyes found you.
“I’ve given you all the information I’ve gathered so far,” you elaborated. “And Hyunjun’s left for the rest of the week, so I don’t know what else I am useful for.
“I don’t want to talk about work tonight,” he muttered, blinking away from your gaze.
“Jeonghan,” you started, moving from the couch to sit beside him. “You said you would tell me everything.”
Jeonghan frowned, this time he did not avoid your eyes as you read his face. “I did not want you to spend Christmas Eve on your own.”
Christmas Eve. The concept seemed so foreign to you because it had been so long since you practiced anything festive during that night. You had even forgotten about it completely.
Jeonghan knew your fiancé was away since you had informed him of everything almost every day. From his deals with the cops of the city to his trips with his affairs.
“Thank you,” you whispered, swallowing a lump of heavy emotions down your throat.
“No, thank you for coming,” he replied. “I might not be a light company to keep around, but I knew you’d be lonely tonight, and I am too, so,” he shrugged, rising from the couch with a small grunt.
“I like your company very much,” you whispered, sheepishly looking away before you could see his reaction.
Your relationship with Jeonghan so far has been strictly limited to talking about business. He was a man who went straight to the point, with no detours, no tangents. And you liked that.
But sometimes, he gave you mixed signals, such as inviting you to his house on Christmas Eve.
The silence dragged on. You looked at him again, thinking that you might have overstepped with your statement.
But Jeonghan looked pleased. He was lying on his side on the long velvety couch, supporting half of his body on his elbow, stroking a cushion with his lithe fingers. In his eyes, you saw something akin to victory. As if he were resolute after hearing your meek confession.
“Are you hungry?” he asked, pushing his body from the couch, and rising to his feet.
Instead of walking towards the kitchen, the man turned to the couch where you were sitting, pacing until he stood in front of you.
He stretched out his hand to grab your chin, gently pinching your skin with two fingers. “Mn? There’s food ready in the kitchen.”
“Yeah, okay,” you replied when you found your mouth to speak, standing up only after he motioned you out of the living room.
The kitchen was spacious, well well-lit. The countertops were grey, and the cupboards white. There was a glass table, adorned with candles, different plates full of food to the brim.
“Tsk, I told her not to do this,” he muttered under his breath when he saw the candles in the middle of the table and a small vase with flowers in it.
“Did you have someone help you?” you prompted, looking at the man lower his gaze in utter shyness.
“Saori, my housekeeper. She helps me with the more…. Challenging stuff around the house,” he muttered, pouting softly as he looked at the table. “I asked her to make a simple dinner for two people…”
“Everything looks delicious,” you noted, and you did not realize just how hungry you were until you got the smell of beef, and rice, and then looked at all of the side dishes, elegantly plated around the candles.
“Please,” he reacted at once, pulling out a chair for you.
“Thanks,” you whispered, sitting down, and looking around, expecting him to sit on the opposite side of you.
But he chose to sit on the chair next to yours, still avoiding your gaze as he egged you to start eating.
“So,” you prompted. “The more challenging stuff?” you arched an eyebrow.
Jeonghan showed you a shy smile, but one that took over his face, making his eyes turn into half-moons. “I suppose you don’t expect me to know how to cook, but I do,” he raised his palms at you. “Granted, I’m not the best cook, but I don’t have time to do it. Saori helps me with that.”
You munched on your food as you looked at him explaining. “Well, you’re lucky because Saori is a great cook,” you nodded. “This is delicious.”
“Oh, is that the galbi?” his mouth parted as he took a look at your plate. “Yeah, she’s exceptional. I don’t know what I’d do without her.”
But your heart deflated a little bit. “Do you live alone?” you dared to ask.
“Yes,” he replied without much care. “I don’t mind it. I go to the city a lot, so I don’t spend a lot of time here as much as I would want to.”
You held your questions for the rest of the dinner, only replying to those he made at you or commenting on the food. It felt strange to share a moment like this with Jeonghan, not uncomfortable, just out of the ordinary.
After you and him were done with the food, he propped his elbows on the table, lacing his fingers together before placing his chin on them. “You look satisfied,” he murmured.
His sweet eyes were lively. Happier than you had ever seen him, even though there was still a note of exhaustion on his features. Under the candlelight, Jeonghan looked gorgeous. Heavenly, his sweet brown eyes outlining your face, his short dark hair tussled but somehow fell perfectly in place, his shiny creamy skin.
“I am,” you nodded. “Thank you.”
He remained silent, looking at you for a moment before reclining back on his seat. “Any news from your sister?” he asked with caution lacing his tone.
Your tummy clenched in anxiousness. “I thought you didn’t want to talk about work.”
“This isn’t work,” he arched an eyebrow. “This is your family.”
Jeonghan was fully aware that Kiki was only your friend. But he still referred to her as your sister every time the topic came up.
“I’ll be able to speak to her soon, Hyunjun told me so,” you stammered around the name of your fiancé. “He said she’s still in Greece.”
Jeonghan rolled his eyes, shaking his head lightly. “She’s not in Greece,” he muttered, an annoyed look twisting the features of his face.
“How do you know?” you asked. You had already formed your suspicions in your head but never went anywhere with them.
“He’s saying that to keep you in line,” he moved his hands to rest on his abdomen, nodding his head once. “The bastard probably has her somewhere in the country.”
Your heart throbbed painfully before you could even collect your words. “Do you think she’s alright?” you asked. “Do you think he’d do something to her?”
He shrugged. “Probably, though I wouldn’t think too much about that,” he said. “It won’t do you any good to think your sister is suffering. Just focus on getting her back.”
“Yeah, you’re right,” you whispered, looking at the table absentmindedly.
Jeonghan rose from the table, and you followed his tall frame with your eyes.
“Is it wise to drink while you’re recovering?” you asked, watching him approaching the bar in one corner of the kitchen.
“Want one?” he offered, lifting a bottle to his view. “This is a Japanese whisky. Very rare. And expensive.”
You could tell he was not looking to impress you, by the tone he used to describe the bottle he was tipping into a glass, you knew he meant it in an unconcerned manner. “Sure,” you mumbled.
He returned, handing you a glass, which you grabbed with two shaky hands, giving him a word of thanks. “I really feel like drinking one tonight,” he muttered, returning to his seat.
“Are you feeling better?” you asked, noticing the pink color on his lips.
“Eh, I think I’ll feel better tomorrow after this,” he said offhandedly. “I’ve always been sickly, since I was a kid even. So this is not new to me.”
“Mm,” you nodded in understanding. “Isn’t that stressful?”
Your heart dropped to your stomach upon uttering that question. You felt like you could talk to Jeonghan. Given that you had learned to trust him over the past few months. But this was different, this was personal. With any other human being, this would unfold into a light conversation.
But this was Yoon Jeonghan. Not just anyone.
“It is,” he replied, lowering his gaze, darned by his set of heavy eyelashes. “I’ve been doing this for years and one thing I have learned is that it won’t get any easier.”
“I know,” you muttered, remembering all those times you saw your father bedridden, nearing his death. Just like he was now. “How do you get by?”
“This helps,” he raised his glass, a smirk drawing on his lips. “I know that it’s bad to show weakness, so it wouldn’t be smart for me to be sick all the time. So I kept myself hidden, no one knows I’m the boss, I draw no attention from the law. Or from other gangs.”
Or your fiancé.
“So is that your code?” you asked, trying to remove yourself from that first caution you felt around him.
“Like a code of honour you mean?” Jeonghan smiled after clicking his tongue. “No. I don’t think I have one.”
You sipped the whiskey, which indeed tasted intense, sweet, and woody. “Ah, come on, you must have a code. Everyone does.”
“I really don’t,” he chuckled, pouting as he gathered his thoughts. “I just have two rules. I don’t force violence upon the innocent, and I always keep my word.”
His sweet gaze locked on yours for a second, making your tummy flutter, your heart pounding with something you had never felt before in your life. It felt like a punch in the stomach. Maybe it was the alcohol, maybe it was the serotonin from having a conversation that felt humane.
“So, like a code of honour,” you chuckled, the sound bubbling out of your mouth.
Jeonghan stilled for a second, his eyes flashing over the features of your face. “Maybe,” he conceded, uttering the word with a mere whisper.
You stared at each other for a second.
“I should go back,” you croaked, reaching for your phone, and realizing that it was already ten o’clock. “It’s late.”
“I’ll have someone pick you up,” he muttered, equally distracted. He excused himself from the table, making a phone call promptly to have someone take you back home.
So you sat there, thinking of that passing surge of emotions. You had heard stories, seen it in film, read in books. But you had never believed it, until now.
Maybe you liked Jeonghan a little too much.
Some moments later, he returned, stopping before the end of the table, a worried look on his face.
“What?” you uttered.
“Nothing,” he gaped, seemingly lost in his thought, raising his phone to your view. “There’s a heavy snowfall happening in the city, it is not bad right now so someone could come pick you up, but it’ll get worse later on your way back.”
“Oh,” you thought of what to do, maybe you could search for somewhere to stay, maybe you could…
“I have a spare bedroom, two actually,” he shrugged. “I don’t mind having you over. Until it is safe for you to come back. Is that okay with you?”
“I don’t mean to–,”
“Please,” he said. “I insist.”
You thought of everything that Jeonghan has done for you. True, he was also doing it for your benefit, but you felt there was more to it than him just trying to keep you safe. He wanted you there. Just like you wanted to be near him.
“Okay,” you nodded.
“Good,” he nodded too.
The silence between you returned, that silence that did not feel unpleasant but felt like it was squeezing the air out of your lungs. The overwhelming feeling returned to your bones, tingling at your fingertips.
“I should probably…” you whispered, beginning to clean the table off.
“Leave that,” he sighed, coming closer to stop you. “Don’t be ridiculous, leave that.”
You grabbed the used plates, the chopsticks, placing them neatly in a pile to take them to the sink. “Just let me rinse this at least,” you muttered, trying to bite the smirk fighting to get to the features of your face.
“I said leave that,” he gritted, grabbing the plates from your hand.
Now, even if he was tall and thin, Jeonghan was not weak at all. His strength overpowered your own, laughing as he swiftly took the plates from your hands without much effort.
“Jeonghan!” you squealed when he nearly dropped one of the banchan bowls.
The sound you emitted made him chuckle even harder. “Relax, I have it under control,” he muttered turning away to put the pile into the sink.
“Sure you do,” you said under your breath, continuing to tidy the table.
“You’re stubborn,” he shook his head disapprovingly. “Come, I’ll show you where you’ll be sleeping.”
You were in the middle of your task, but knowing his house was big, you had no choice but to leave the plates there. Running off to where he disappeared to, which was a long hall that had windows on one side looking to the exterior.
It was snowing heavily outside, wind slamming against the trees, the path you had walked on covered in a layer of snow already.
“I think I have some new toothbrushes, I’ll give you one,” he said, opening one of the three doors at the end of the hall and turning on the light for you.
The bedroom was simple. White walls, one twin bed, two bedside tables with lamps on them and a bathroom.
“I could maybe lend you a pair of sweats and a t-shirt for you to sleep in them, if you do that sort of thing,” he muttered beside you as you looked at the very minimalistic bed.
“That sort of thing?” you looked at him, standing beside you so closely it robbed the air out of your lungs.
“Yeah, sleeping with clothes on?” he arched one eyebrow.
“Oh,” you blinked, shamefully shaking your head. “Jeonghan!”
He chuckled again, but this time deviously. Such a tease.
“I think I’ll take the clothes, thank you,” you said, pacing to the foot of the bed, wanting to sit on the navy blue covers.
“I’ll be right back,” he pushed himself off the doorframe, opening the door in front of yours.
The room was exactly the same as the one you were staying in, the only difference was that it looked slightly more lived in. Clothes were dropped on a chair, you saw a suitcase on the floor, the lamp was turned on, a frame placed on the bedside table.
“Here,” he extended his hand out to you when he came back.
The clothes were neatly folded, a new toothbrush sitting on its package on top of the black t-shirt he was lending you.
“Thank you,” you said, sneaking a tentative look at him.
Only to find that short pang of nervousness shooting down your spine again.
“Don’t worry about it,” he retreated, taking a step back. “Have a good night.”
And then he slipped through the door of the bedroom, closing it behind him.
After brushing your teeth and washing your face, you changed your clothes into the ones Jeonghan lent you. They were soft, and recently washed. They smelled of fabric softener, and of him.
You decided to forgo your bra, slipping the cotton t-shirt over your frame. When you slid under the bedsheets, you sighed under the welcoming weight of the heavy covers, stretching your limbs on the comfy mattress to start warming up.
There was a window, covered by blackout curtains. You could hear the wind hitting against the walls, the leaves rustled under the mercy of the heavy snowfall. Closing your eyes, you wondered if Jeonghan was already asleep. You wondered if he thought of you at all.
You turned over on your side, trying your best to keep your eyes close, to shut out the world outside and sleep.
Inevitably, your thoughts wandered to that moment between you and Jeonghan. You thought how it felt to have an honest conversation with him. To laugh with him. It was so cruel to be shut out in your own little world, you could not even remember when the last time was you laughed.
If it was like this for you, you could not even dare to imagine how it must be for someone like Jeonghan. Your heart ached at the thought.
Fifteen minutes turned into half an hour, then into a full hour. You turned to your other side, stretching an arm to the empty side of the bed, the bedsheets cold against your skin. You shuddered.
You ran your tongue against your upper teeth, tasting the fresh minty toothpaste, realizing you were thirsty. You cannot just go grab a glass of water, this is not your home.
But you were so thirsty it was hard to swallow. Part of you was convinced that it was just a random, normal moment of thirst. Totally not caused by the throbbing feeling inside you, pushing you off the bed.
The floor was cold beneath your feet as you had expected, but you drew in a hiss, nonetheless. You opened the door ever so slowly, managing to keep your movements light and quiet as you exited the bedroom.
You paced through the long hall, now noticing the frames hanging on the wall. There was a watercolor painting, and a diploma hanging beside it. That was the moment you learned Jeonghan had a degree in law.
You huffed quietly, resuming your mission to get a glass of water. When you entered the kitchen, you found out that the table had been cleaned, the dishwasher humming softly as you approached the sink, grabbing a glass to pour cold water into it.
You gulped three times, refreshing your throat with a pleased sigh.
“Can’t sleep?” Jeonghan muttered.
Your whole body jolted so hard you nearly dropped the glass to the floor, gasping loudly, a hand covering your mouth. “God!” you gasped.
“Hey,” Jeonghan raised his palms at you, smiling lightly. “Sorry, but you are incredibly unaware of your surroundings.”
“What is that supposed to mean?!” you yelped, putting the glass back into the sink, annoyed that he had startled you so badly.
“You never notice when someone’s tailing you,” he shrugged, advancing towards you.
True, you never did notice all the times when he was near you, or noticing you around when you thought you were out of sight.
“Because you’re stealthy as fuck for no reason!” you exclaimed with a higher tone.
Jeonghan emitted a silly giggle, bending over a little as he looked at you joyfully. “You’re just easy to scare, sweetheart,” he leaned back against one side of the kitchen island, crossing his arms. “So?”
“I can’t sleep,” you conceded, leaning back against the counter, standing face to face with him. You sneaked a look at his eyes. “You?”
“Same,” he shrugged. “I tend to be light sleeper, anything wakes me up.”
Ah, you mouthed. Hearing the noise from the strong winds of winter slamming against the house.
“Why are you awake, though?” he asked, and you knew he was not satisfied with your earlier excuse.
“I just have a lot in my mind,” you replied with honesty. “I can’t stop thinking.”
“Well, maybe if you let those thoughts out, you might be able to sleep,” he muttered, his voice sweet and welcoming like a hug.
You wondered what his hugs felt like.
“I… don’t think I can tell you, Jeonghan,” you replied shyly, dropping your gaze to your feet.
“You don’t want to tell me or can’t tell me?” he pushed himself off the countertop, taking two steps towards you, making you drag your gaze back to his face.
Even in the dark, you could see that glint of cunning in his eyes. You sucked in a breath, pressing your back against the counter when he stood mere inches in front of you. You must be ovulating, you thought, grabbing at the rim of the counter with both hands.
Jeonghan waited, tilting his head to one side as he watched you. Starting from your face, your neck, your arms, your hands, his gaze swam all over you, absorbing you in.
Then a nimble knuckle brushed against the engagement ring that was hugging your finger. The touch did not even land on your skin, but you felt it everywhere, igniting every nerve ending.
“I think you know,” you whispered.
His lower lip pursed slightly. “I want to hear it,” he murmured, his sweet voice weakening, becoming raspy. “I need to hear you say it,” he fixed his gaze on your face again, defiantly.
“Jeonghan, why did you call for me?” you asked, every emotion you had felt before choking you out.
“Tell me first,” he shook his head lightly, propping his hands beside yours on the counter, leaning over you.
“I can’t,” you breathed, trying to move back as he drew in closer. An empty smile curving your lips. “I’m engaged to someone, Jeonghan.”
“Someone you despise,” he growled under his breath. “When was the last time you felt safe with him?”
You swallowed back your arguments. Did Jeonghan know that you had never felt safe around Hyunjun? Even when you thought you loved him, you were always walled up.
“Why did you agree to come here?”
The question was clear, but it answered what you also needed to know. Jeonghan knew it too, the glint in his eyes told you that much.
Intrigued, he went on. “Why do you look at me like that?” he asked. “The way you talk to me, when you smile… I know you feel something,” he whispered, reading your face swiftly, over, and over. “Tell me. Tell me, please.”
You realized that he was asking you for his own good. As if he needed you to turn him down before he did something totally wrong and unwise. Or as if he needed you to tell him what he was thinking, to do it anyway.
“Jeonghan…” you muttered right before he captured your lips with his own in a ghostly kiss, you closed your eyes, a low hum bubbling in your throat.
“Stop me,” he dared. “Stop me now.”
You grabbed his face with your hands, pulling him closer. “I can’t. I don’t want to.”
Jeonghan let out a raspy groan, returning to your lips with another kiss. This time, he went deeper, kissing you chastely, heatedly, as if he could not break away from you. His hand found your hip, pressing himself to your front.
He broke away, your lips resounding with a wet smacking noise. He breathed against your mouth, swallowing your breath as you were doing to his own. It tasted sweeter than you had ever dared to imagine.
“Come to my room with me?” he breathed, pressing his forehead on yours, leaning your face so he could press a wet, slow kiss on your lips.
Damned be your hormones. Or the whisky. The snow. Damned be your fiancé. Damned be everything. You were touched starved. Lonely.
But you could not fool yourself any longer: you had never felt this way before. It was electrifying.
You vaguely remembered how you felt when Hyunjun kissed you hours before. The emptiness of his kiss, like all of the other kisses that preceded it.
Testing, you pressed your lips against his again, and he reciprocated at once. The taste of his soft lips was sweet, minty. His kiss pulled you in, like the force of two magnets, his fingers clenching your waist gently.
Kissing Jeonghan was like taking a breath after feeling suffocated for so long.
“Jeonghan,” you breathed, so close to his lips, your hands slid from his cheeks, your fingers gingerly touching his jawline. “If we do this, I don’t think I can go back to how we were… This is dangerous. For both of us.”
“Trust me, I know. Even being near you it’s signing a fucking death sentence,” he replied softly, there was no snark or venom in his words. “But I don’t know if I’ll ever have the chance to be this close to you again. I’ve wanted you for so long…”
“Wanted me?” you asked with a tiny voice.
“This is complicated, and crazy, and a bad idea. I know,” he whispered, in his eyes you saw a flash of worry. “If you don’t want this, I’ll go back to my room. I’ll never bring this up again.”
You noticed the weird, dejected way he said those last words. Your heart instantly ached, making you shake your head.
Jeonghan saw the remorse hitting you. “I need an answer, sweetheart,” he pleaded softly, as though he already knew what you were thinking, but needed you to say it aloud.
“Promise me you will take care of me?” you whispered.
“I promise.”
You were crazy, you had to be crazy. But his kiss was so alluring, his attention so tempting you could not hold yourself back. Your hand cupped his chin, and he finished leaning over to kiss you fervently, almost as if he wanted to melt into you.
Jeonghan moaned when your tongue outlined his lower lip, the quiet, guttural sound making your skin tingle. “Let’s go to my room,” he grunted in your mouth, pausing just to say that before diving into your lips again.
Your hands slid from his chin to his hard chest, feeling his heartbeat under your fingertips. You needed to hold him, to feel him.
As if he could hear your thoughts, Jeonghan grabbed your hand, the cold metal around your finger pressing on his skin as he pulled you, motioning you to his bedroom. Your pulse quickened, quickly making you feel lightheaded.
You got to his bedroom, which was nearly identical to the one he assigned you. The lamp was still on, which led you to believe that he did not even try to sleep. But you could not pay attention to the fleeting thought.
Jeonghan pulled you closer, using his hand on yours to draw you in. His hands cupped your face, inhaling your breath as he resumed kissing you. You wrapped your arms around him, hands roving all over his back, stopping before the band of his sweats.
“Mmf,” you let out a half moan in his lips, trying to speak up but he would not let you, kissing you ravenously, as if he could not get enough from your lips. And honestly, you would be doing the same thing, if it was not for your aching need to undress him.
Your hands went around his waist, trailing down until your fingers found the hem of his t-shirt, tugging at it sheepishly. “Should we take this slow?” you whispered, the anxious feeling in your throat making your voice wane.
“No,” he decided at once. “We’ll have another night to take it slow. I need you right now.”
The words nearly sent you into a frenzy. You kissed him again, though briefly, your hands were finding his abdomen, feeling his skin.
“Go ahead, baby,” he whispered, so close to you that you could feel the slow smirk pulling the corners of his lips.
You hiked his t-shirt up his torso, uncovering his milky white skin to your view.
“Lie down,” he rasped, kissing you repeatedly.
You followed his command without a second thought, walking backwards until you found the bed with the back of your knees. You sat down first, backing up to the center of the bed, and he followed.
Jeonghan lied on his side, next to you, propping his body on one elbow as his other hand reached out to cup your cheek, pulling you into a wet, passionate kiss. You hummed in his mouth when his tongue rolled inside yours, your hands grabbing him, trying to pull him closer.
“What are you doing, baby?” he muttered with an amused look on his face.
You gently caressed his skin with your hands, feeling his slender collarbones under your fingertips, his chest, all the way down to his abdomen. The tip of your thumb dipped lightly into his belly button, eliciting a soft gasp from him, a smirk drawing on his face when you brushed the soft hairs of his happy trail.
“Don’t tease me,” he rasped, daring you again.
The corners of his lips tugged slightly when you curled your fingers on the waistband of his sweats, sending quick looks to your eyes and back to your hands. You bit your lower lip, grabbing the band of his boxers too, noticing the bulge under his sweats.
You got to your knees, tugging the waistband down as Jeonghan lifted his hips for you. You shuddered upon seeing his hard cock slapping his lower abdomen. You took his pants and boxers off, leaving him utterly naked on the covers of his bed.
Before you could even touch his skin, kiss him in places you so utterly wanted, his hands were pushing you back on the mattress. You complained with a loud gasp, finding a playful smirk on his face.
“Behave and I’ll give you what you want,” he muttered, placing his hands at each side of your head, leaning over to press a kiss on your lips, its sweetness betraying the firmness of his command.
A quiet moan left your mouth when he pressed another soft kiss on your lower lip. His dark gaze looking at you as he pulled away slightly, but keeping some inches from your face. “Mn? Will you be good for me, pretty?”
“Yeah. I’ll do whatever you want me to,” you replied, blushing over how turned on you sounded already.
But it made Jeonghan smile, a hand brushed your cheek endearingly, blowing you away with its gentleness. “You’re going to kill me,” he sighed, pressing his forehead to yours, stealing a chaste kiss from you, then another.
You felt the weight on pillows shift on the sides of your face, seconds later you felt Jeonghan’s hands slipping underneath your t-shirt, caressing your skin with his cold fingers. He backed away once he hooked his fingers on the band of your panties, grabbing your sweats too.
“Jeonghan,” you muttered softly.
“Shh, be patient,” he smirked, pulling back to his knees, dragging your clothes down your legs.
Your heart pounded frantically in your throat, but you kept your eyes on him, following each movement, darting looks down his beautiful naked body. He sighed under a smile, his hands caressing your thighs with a feather-light touch, gently egging you to part them for him.
“Good girl,” he muttered, leaning over you again, pushing the t-shirt up to your breasts with his hand, caressing your skin in the process. “You’re so beautiful.”
“Thank you, Hannie,” you sighed, eyelids fluttering wildly as his touch ignited you again.
Jeonghan smiled. “I like that,” he whispered, referring to the nickname you used. He leaned to press a loving kiss on your sternum, making you jolt in nervousness. “So responsive,” he hummed approvingly, darting a testing look at your eyes before pressing a kiss on the swell of your breasts, making a short trail to your nipple.
“God,” you sighed, letting your eyelids fall close. Your hand found the back of his head, fingers coiling around the strands of his black hair.
He muffled a giggle in your chest, littering it with wet, open kisses. He tasted, licked, and nibbled your skin, showering it with so much love you quickly became drunk, moaning, squirming and uttering his name.
Your skin prickled as he placed another open kiss right below your belly button, glancing at your face as he moved to push his hands on your thighs, angling you open for him.
“J-jeonghan,” you stuttered, tensing your spine as he placed a sweet kiss on your inner thigh, “God, please, Jeonghan,” you pleaded, being so long since you had been touched like this, it felt like fireworks going off inside you at each touch, each kiss…
“Patience, baby girl,” he muttered softly, nibbling your inner thigh, the enjoyment flashing on his face when a moan bubbled in your mouth.
“Please, please, please,” you whispered over and over, his reminder nearly going unnoticed by your pleas.
“Mmmn, you’re becoming bratty,” he muttered, still taking his sweet time teasing you with kisses on your inner thighs, running his tongue on your skin, eliciting a loud yelp from you.
You turned your head onto the pillow, trying to muffle your moans, snapping your eyes open when he finally pressed a kiss on your mound, then another on your clit. You shuddered in pleasure, your arousal pooling in your entrance.
“So needy,” he tutted again, and you knew by his tone that he was smiling.
You nearly choked on a gasp, hands flying to grab at the covers when he pushed his tongue between your folds, giving you a long stroke with his tongue against your cunt, drinking you in with a raspy moan on his part.
“Jeonghan,” you moaned weakly, easing your back on the mattress, closing your eyes, relishing in the sweet pleasure his mouth was giving you. “Oh, Jeonghan…”
He clutched your hips, licking every inch of your pussy lips teasingly, then his hands slid up your tummy, finding your breasts to fondle them, pushing his tongue on your clit at the same time. An airy moan spilled from your lips, trying to keep as quiet as possible as his tongue started drawing figures around your clit, getting it to swell.
You had to bite down your lip, releasing the covers from your tight grip to prop yourself to your elbows. The sight of him eating you out was so alluring you swore you could come from it alone. He raised his dark eyes, finding your face, probably seeing the awe and the pleasure written in it.
Jeonghan smiled, curving his lips slightly as his tongue worked on your clit, you moaned again, thighs tensing at his sides, bumping against the sides of his face.
“I’m close, Hannie,” you sighed, welcoming the long forgotten tension coiling deep inside you, your chest falling and rising faster.
His hands grabbed your thighs to keep you open for him, slipping two fingers inside your throbbing walls, his tongue switching the motion of the tip of his tongue on your clit, darting from side to side on it.
“Oh, Hannie,” you moaned, writhing on the bed, feeling that tension finally snap inside you, washing over you. “I’m coming, I’m coming, I’m coming…” you tilted your head back, fingers tangling in his hair as you came undone with lewd moans and ragged breaths.
You stroke his hair languidly, coming down from your high as he continued eating you out, licking the arousal pooling in your core, the sensitiveness in the area making you jolt.
Jeonghan kissed your mound, pulling out his fingers out of your walls before sneaking a playful look at you. “Hey,” he mumbled, crawling to you as you lied back on the pillows.
“Hey,” you whispered, wiping your arousal from his chin with one hand.
He kissed you again. “You’re good?” he asked.
“I’m good, Jeonghan,” you giggled sweetly, surprised that he would stop mid-sex to check in on you.
“God, I love that sound,” he sighed, his fascinated gaze outlining your features.
Your heart stammered. “Yeah?” you taunted, smirking at him. “What else do you love about me?”
“Everything,” he drawled drunkenly, planting more kisses on your lips, humming when your hands roamed on his back. “Everything,” he repeated, as though he had not found a single thing about you he disliked.
“Mmn,” you hummed in his lips, tasting yourself in them.
A hand returned on your tummy, blindly finding the t-shirt and motioned you to help him take it off you. Your bodies moved in synchronicity, you sat up just as he sat back, throwing the t-shirt once he removed it, grabbing your chin with one hand to steal another kiss on your lips.
“Are you on birth control, baby?” he asked, his tone gentle, but it had a slight gruffness in it.
“No,” you muttered, your heart falling to your stomach. “Do you have condoms?”
“No,” he bit his lower lip, eyebrows pinching softly. “It’s been a while since I’ve been with someone.”
The statement was nearly hurtful for you. Jeonghan was the most alluring man you had ever met. But you knew you had to be insane when a thought flashed in your head, not caring about anything else.
“It’s okay,” you whispered, cupping his face with your hands. “Me too.”
Jeonghan did not question this, but he remained frozen, as if unsure of how to proceed. “What do you want to do?”
Your heart fluttered uneasily, looking at his features. “I want you, Jeonghan,” you whispered, your hands falling from his face but found his waist, clutching him gently. “I want to feel you. Please…”
He pushed you back onto the covers again, placing his hands on each of your sides. But you realized that he had not conceded yet, his eyes were going over your face over and over, a sign that the gears in his brain were turning.
“Are you sure?” he muttered, smiling when you nodded eagerly. “God, baby, you’re crazy.”
“You’re crazy too,” you smirked.
Jeonghan made no reply to this. His hand cupped your cheek, slotting his lips in yours to kiss you deeply, humming into your mouth as he positioned his body between your legs.
Blindly, following his lips with your seamlessly, your hand found his length, stroking him slowly, thumb brushing the beads of precum leaking from its tip. Jeonghan moaned, his hand falling beside you on the pillow for support.
You guided his cock between your legs, breath hitching nervously when the tip slid between your pussy lips, covered in your arousal. Jeonghan gasped too, breaking the kiss to look at you in the eyes.
There were no words exchanged, just looking at each other as you nudged his tip against your pooling entrance. Jeonghan pushed his cock inside you, stretching your walls slowly. His mouth parted, letting out a silent groan as you moaned lewdly, squirming beneath him.
“You’re good?” he choked out, retracting his hips one inch to push back in.
“I’m good,” you stammered, fingers trembling on his waist, trying not to sink your fingernails on his skin. It had been a while since you had some action happening in your life, and although Jeonghan was not big, his length fit inside you perfectly, his tip pressing in one particular sensitive spot.
“I’m going to start moving, baby,” he whispered, meeting his hips with your own.
“Yeah, yeah, okay,” you sighed, trying to relax under his weight.
But you were nervous. Intoxicated by the smell of his neck, skin prickling when he pressed his chest on yours, hypnotized his lips moaning your name. No one had ever made you felt like this.
“Fuck, you’re squeezing me,” he groaned, dropping his forehead on yours. “Relax, sweetheart… or this might end too soon,” he whispered in your ear.
“It feels so good,” you whimpered, wrapping your arms around his neck. “You feel so good, Hannie…”
That made him smile, sending a powerful shudder through your body. “Put your legs around me,” he gave his command gently, and you followed it.
Now you were practically clinging to him, following the gentle motions of his hips on you. You closed your eyes briefly, easing the tension between your legs when his thrusts picked up the pace, going a little faster on you.
Jeonghan grunted quietly, making you open your eyes to find his gaze.
“You’re good?” you asked meekly.
He smiled endearingly at you. “Amazing, sweetheart,” he whispered. “You feel incredible,” he told you between kisses, pressing them on your lips.
You moved one hand to cup his face, still hugging him with one arm.
His gaze shifted, your hand caressing his cheek making him close his eyes for a moment.
Then something caught your eye. The cold ring hugging your finger was also pressing to his cheek, his eyebrows drew inward slightly, gasping softly as he blinked at you. Your heart deflated, seeing his demeanor had changed in a second. You almost wanted to pause and remove your engagement ring, but you also knew that it was too late.
Even though Jeonghan knew you did not love your fiancé, you were not a free woman.
But he was claiming you as his, his hips pushed against yours harder, knocking the air from your lungs. You removed your hand from his cheek, placing it on the covers of the bed.
“Fuck,” Jeonghan gritted, squeezing his eyes shut. “Fuck, fuck!” he exclaimed, dropping his forehead on the pillow, next to your face.
His thrusts slowed down sloppily, breathing raggedly against the pillow. It took you some seconds to understand he was resisting his climax for you.
You carefully used the tips of your fingers to stroke his hair. Jeonghan was groaning languidly, moving his cock with shallow thrusts inside you.
“Promise me you won’t let him touch you,” he rasped in your ear.
Your tummy tightened anxiously. “I promise,” you replied.
As he breathed on your neck, you could get the faint smell of his neck, of his hair. You hugged him tightly against your body, welcoming his warmth, deciding that you would never want anyone else.
You must be crazy.
He raised his head to look at you, his gaze had darkened. “No one else touches you,” he breathed. “No one but me.”
“I promise,” you parroted mesmerizingly.
He leaned on you again, cupping your chin with his hand before pressing a slow, sensual kiss on your lips. “You’re mine,” he muttered drowsily.
A thrilling feeling of exhilaration swept through your body all the way to your brain. “I’m yours.”
Then he started thrusting his hips against yours, hard and fast, as though hearing your promise sent him into a mad frenzy. You noticed him moving his mouth, babbling nonsense, and moaning out your name.
Pressing his forehead against yours, he tilted your head to meet your lips with his in a soft kiss. Moans spilled from your lips, his gaze going soft when you also mumbled out his name, daring to use your hand to cup his cheek again.
“Jeonghan,” you mewled, hugging him tighter with your legs around his waist.
“You’re close, sweetheart?” he forced out.
“Yeah,” you sighed.
“You’re gonna come for me, baby girl?” he asked, smirking softly when you nodded again frantically, thighs starting to shake around him.
You gasped, feeling so close yet there was something going wrong in your body. Overwhelmed with pleasure, moaning every time Jeonghan’s cock reached that particular sweet spot in your walls, hitting it with each stroke of his hips against yours.
Jeonghan realized you could not reach your high when you whined, closing your eyes to focus on the tight feeling pooling inside you. A light kiss pressed to your cheek, then below your earlobe. “Come for me, sweetheart,” he whispered shakily on your ear. “I’ll give you whatever you need.”
“T-talk to me?” you asked meekly.
Jeonghan emitted a giggle that send butterflies to your stomach. “Dirty?”
“God, yes please,” you gasped, giggling upon how needy you sounded at that.
You saw the effect your giggles had on him, a soft sigh falling from his lips. “Stop wrapping your legs around me, or we might end up making a baby,” he muttered gruffly.
A strange feeling bloomed inside you, making you moan salaciously. “Fuck, Jeonghan, please,” you whined. “I’m so close.”
He pulled his body back, grabbing your hips to keep thrusting in. The position of his cock inside you changed too, now pressing on your front walls harder.
Your eyes watered, a raw moan spilling from your lips. “Oh, god,” you gritted.
“You like that?” he smirked, jackhammering into you, making the headboard of the bed slam against the wall.
“Yeah, yeah, yes,” you balled your hands into fists at the covers on your sides, back arching as you moaned.
You were so, so fucking close, you ached to come, you needed to come. Pleasure was brimming inside you, wet noises coming from your pussy each time Jeonghan hit his hips against yours.
“Don’t fucking touch yourself yet,” he rasped when he caught sight of your hand inching closer to your mound.
You dropped your hand at your side, whining reproachfully at him. “But I’m close,” you sighed, tears brimming in your eyes from the unyielding pleasure that just kept on building inside you.
“You’ll come when I want you to,” he sighed out in pleasure too, throwing his head back slightly.
Pressure coiled tighter inside you, walls throbbing around him upon hearing him speaking to you harshly.
He gasped, a single vein throbbing in his neck from the exhaustion growing in his limbs. “Your little cunt’s so tight, baby, do you even finger yourself?”
“S-sometimes,” you choked out, feeling your face burn.
“How do you do it baby?” he asked. “Like this?” he rasped, bringing the pad of his thumb to your clit, rubbing gentle circles on it.
“God, Hannie,” you gasped, pushing the back of your head onto the pillow, biting down your lip to keep any more lewd noises from spilling out again.
Jeonghan noticed this time around, smirking at you with a glint of playfulness. “Be as loud as you want, sweetheart. No one’s around,” he drawled lazily, still thrusting his cock at a delicious pace, rubbing fast swirls on your clit.
“Oh, god,” you whispered, your legs starting to shake again. “Jeonghan, keep going, fuck, fuck. Help me come, please…”
A fascinated look flashed on his face. The speed of his thrusts slowed down a little, bending his head over you to let his spit fall on your cunt perfectly. You moaned at the sight, feeling the pad of his thumb sliding perfectly on your engorged clit, teasing it more.
He kept ramming his cock in your pussy, making the headboard slam louder against the wall, the mattress creaking beneath your bodies. You could tell Jeonghan was growing tired, but there was a glint in his eye, he wanted to push you farther, to see what would make you snap.
“Did he ever fuck you like this, baby?” he rasped, his throat bobbing as he swallowed back a moan.
“Fuck, Jeonghan,” you gritted, arching your back on the bed. Forcing out an honest no under your breath.
He leaned forward, but only slightly, resting his hands on the sides of your waist. “And he fucking won’t,” he muttered softly, taking one of your hands to kiss your palm, uncaring that you still had your ring on. “No one will. You’re mine, mine to ruin.”
You nodded obediently. A rush of exhilaration ran all over your body. “I am.”
Jeonghan looked at you in awe, pausing to grab your legs to hoist them up on his shoulders, resuming to slam his hips on yours, his cock hitting so deep inside you that you cried out, tears spilling from your eyes.
“Jeonghan¸ god, yes, yes, right there!” you squealed in pure bliss.
“That’s right baby,” he sighed under a pleased smile. “Come all over me, come on this cock.”
“I’m coming, Jeonghan. I’m there, I’m there…” you gasped, tasting your sweet orgasm, the feeling of release overwhelming you, buzzing in your ears, making your mind go blank.
Jeonghan read your face, moaning with you as you came around him. “God, baby,” he gritted, pressing his lips against your knee. “Oh, fuck. Fuuuck…” he threw his head back, a raw moan escaping between his clenched teeth.
“Hannie…” you mewled, crying from pleasure brimming inside you, making your walls throb and clamp around him. “Jeonghan, oh my god…”
“I know, baby,” he sighed, still pushing his cock inside your throbbing walls. You smiled slightly at him, coming down from your climax, making him reach his.
With perfect timing, he pulled out of you, spilling himself on your lower tummy with soft and languid, moans. Jeonghan breathed hard, looking at the mess on your skin, spilling until the last drop.
Jeonghan wasted no time, he bent over, capturing your lips with a lewd kiss. “Let’s go clean up,” he whispered between rushed kisses, making you scrunch your nose, giggling lazily. “Then we’ll cuddle, and sleep together. How does that sound, sweetheart?”
Mind fogged, you nodded at him. “I’d like that, Jeonghan,” you whispered back.
“Good,” he gasped, taking a moment to look at your eyes before smiling. “God, you really drive me crazy.”
Once you washed up, you lied in his bed, staring at the ceiling for a while, turning over on your side as he slipped under the covers. He hummed softly, wrapping his arms around your body, snuggling up to you.
“What are you thinking?” he asked, noticing you deep in thought.
Your gaze fell on the portrait neatly placed on his bedside table. In the dark, you could see four figures posing for a family photo. Even if you could not make out the other faces, you could see his. A young brightness painted his face, his smile, the half-moon of his eyes. He was happy.
“Who are they?” you whispered.
“Who?” he muttered, intuiting what you were asking, he followed your gaze. “Ah. They’re my family.”
“Are they safe?” the question flew out of your mouth before you could even hold yourself back.
“Yeah, they are,” he whispered calmly, moving his body so he could look at you, propping his weight on his elbow. “I do everything to keep them safe. They don’t really know what I do, and haven’t seen them in years but… I send them things every now and then.”
Your heart broke. And you could not hold yourself back any longer. “I just… I just can’t stand the thought that you’re alone,” you said with a shameful look.
His gaze softened, a shy smile curving his beautiful lips, showing his perfect set of teeth. “Oh, baby. But I’m not alone,” he said, bringing a hand to pinch your chin. “You’re here.”
You grabbed his fingers pinching you softly to press your lips against his pads. “I’ll have to go back eventually.”
“For a while,” he said, his fingers started toying with yours. “We need to keep this up until we find your sister, and we have a clear target on him.”
Your heart deflated at the mention of Kiki, and the sorrow showed on your face.
“Hey,” he whispered, drawing your gaze back to his. “What’s wrong?”
You caressed his shoulder, gathering your words. “I feel so guilty that she’s being used as leverage,” you whispered, even though it was something you knew was made clear by your actions, saying it aloud felt worse.
“You can’t really change that,” he muttered. “Hyunjun saw a weak spot in you and exploited it. It’s not on you. It’s on him.”
You nibbled on your lower lip, swallowing your tears. “She’s just a kid,” you said. Jeonghan remained quiet, reading your face so you just went on: “She’s just a girl that showed me kindness when no one did. She is not even a part of this world. I let her get close to me and now I don’t even know she’s alright.”
“Why do you say she’s your sister?” he asked with caution, and you knew that he had intended to ask that question before, but refrained from doing so.
“She called me sister a lot, it was quite annoying at first,” you explained, the memory bringing a smile to your face. “Kiki lived in the same neighborhood I used to live in before I got engaged. She was lonely, her parents were either at work or out drinking. So I would keep her company, watch movies with her, talk about boys… eventually I started calling her my sister too.”
Jeonghan showed you a smile, it was sad, but at the same time sweet. “You love her.”
You sniffled quietly, nodding with your head. “I can’t lose her.”
“She’ll be fine, baby,” he whispered, bringing a hand to your cheek, caressing your skin with his thumb. “We’ll get her back. I made a promise, remember?”
You smiled weakly at him. “You did.”
And he always kept his promises. No matter the cost.
› four, double dare
After that night, everything changed.
It became increasingly difficult to go back home to your fiancé. One, because you liked him even less than you ever did. Two, because of the burden you felt from cheating on him. And three, because every second you spent away from Jeonghan was miserable to you.
Granted, you could not remember when the last amicable time was spent with your fiancé. And the weight of infidelity you felt was because you never thought you would cross that line. Even if Hyunjun probably did not care, it felt dirty.
But everything you could think about was that night with Jeonghan. The morning after you slept together, you spent it pressed against his body, barely even stopping to have breakfast. And when it was time to get ready to go, you nearly cried from thinking that this would be a one-time thing.
“Why do you look like that?” Jeonghan had asked, using two fingers under your jaw to lift your face to his view. “What’s happening?”
“I don’t want to go,” you replied, your voice thickening.
A light frown showed on his face. “It’s temporary, baby,” he muttered, gently cupping your face. “When this is all over, you won’t have to leave, you can stay here.”
“Really?” you whispered.
“Did you think that I’d let you go that easily?” he asked with a soft tone. “Sweetheart, how do I make you believe that I want you?”
It was an understatement to say it was hard for you to even concentrate. Your every thought was riddled with memories of him, fantasies of you kissing him again.
You had stopped blaming that first kiss with Jeonghan on your vulnerability. It became clear to you that you had wanted to kiss him way before he even made an advance to you.
Every time your phone buzzed, your heart gave a leap, thinking it was some development, some notice that you would see Jeonghan soon. But days went by, and you did not even get so much as a text message.
Being an informant also meant that you had very little contact with Jeonghan. Assuming that you had to keep your role, you waited. And continued playing the fool.
Hyunjun suspected nothing about your affair, or about you being an informant. Though he was still weary of you and still felt like you wanted to call off the engagement, he never brought the topic to the table.
So you carried on with the plan. You gathered whatever information you could get, played dumb, and got back to Jeonghan.
Sometimes, you would have the opportunity to stay with him, sometimes you would have to settle for some hours. Either way, Jeonghan and you would get the most out of the time you had. You could not get enough of him, and he could not get enough of you.
Weeks turned into months, and soon you entered spring. And even though some time had passed, your affair with Jeonghan was still exciting. And dangerous.
You were sitting on the sofa, reading a book, a finger toying with the corner of the page you were pretending to read.
Hyunjun was handling some business on the phone on the other side of the living room, aloof to your scrutiny. Each sentence he spoke was direct and brief, but as you put them all together, you could tell that Jeonghan’s last move had rattled some of his plans. And stolen a lot of money’s worth of shipment.
Hyunjun was almost cornered. But in that, it also meant that your father’s empire was crumbling too. All your fiancé did was handle your father’s money, and his clients, it was your father’s network, his money, his men.
And by being the sole child, everything was yours by right.
You sighed in faux boredom, looking at your book. Hyunjun shot you a look that you were already expecting and ended his call, pocketing his phone.
“Honey,” he called flatly, making you draw your gaze at him.
“Yes?” you replied sweetly, your tummy tightening upon the action.
Hyunjun walked towards you in the living room, taking the book from your hands once he was standing in front of you. He crouched, so he could look eye to eye with you.
“I was thinking… I don’t want to wait any longer… we should get married,” he said, blinking twice before the corners of his lips pulled in a smile.
Several seconds went on. The wind had been knocked out of you, which served as a good reaction that passed for genuine shock. You opened your mouth, heart palpitating in your throat before you made your choice.
“Oh my god!” you squealed, trying to sound as excited as humanly possible. But everything inside you roared in rage. “Yes, oh my god, yes!”
You knew this day would come.
“Next week?” he muttered, his eyes shining with something you could not quite place. It was not love, it was not sweetness.
It was a man who had finally caught his prey.
“Of course!” your limbs reacted too, managing to wrap his shoulders in a hug, instead of kissing him. Once hiding on his shoulder, your worries came in, shaking in fear and worry. “I waited so long for this…”
When his hands touched your back, it took everything in you not to recoil instantly. “Me too, honey, me too…”
“You should do it,” Jeonghan stated coldly, crossing his arms over his chest, looking fixedly at the table he was standing by.
Your heart fell to your tummy. “But I just told you I don’t want to,” you muttered.
“It’s the smart thing to do,” he said, sighing heavily as he placed both hands on the table, leaning over it and crossing one foot. “Did you agree to do it next week?”
You bit your lower lip, dropping your gaze to the concrete floor before nodding your head silently.
Jeonghan had many hide-outs spread all around the country. The hideout you were in now was a hangar. It was private and had been given an abandoned appearance deliberately. It had everything you would expect to see in a hangar, cargo equipment, old aircraft parts, heavy tooling, and a nice little plane parked off to the side.
The only sources of light were a pair of industrial lights by the table. And some lanterns were placed by the large doors to the hangar, where you could see Wonwoo’s shadow pacing back and forth before the entrance.
You were not alone with Jeonghan. Seungcheol was also pacing in circles, but he was doing so behind Jeonghan, who was still fixating on some floor plans laid on the table.
“We need to act,” Seungcheol gritted, coming to Jeonghan’s side. “We have less than a week to attack then.”
Jeonghan shook his head. “It’s too soon,” he sent you a look that drained all blood from your face. “He knows.”
“He knows what?” Seungcheol spat. “If he knew, then we would be aware,” then he looked at you. “Hyunjun doesn’t know about you informing us, right?”
“I’m not talking about that,” Jeonghan muttered, crestfallen.
“Jeonghan, I don’t think he knows,” you said, but the man was not hearing, he was falling into a self-induced paranoia.
“He knows about us,” he said and even though the statement was something you were dreading to hear, he spoke it softly.
You went around the large table, standing at his side. “I’d be locked up if he did,” you stammered, trying to draw his gaze back to you. “Think about it, Jeonghan, he is asking me to marry him. He’s playing a game.”
That made him lift his head, his eyes finding yours. “What game do you think he’s playing?”
“I don’t know,” you shrugged. “But my guess is that he’s after whatever position of power my family will give him. He’s after my dad’s name.”
“Makes sense,” he said but he was not thoroughly convinced. “Do you think he’s planning on getting rid of him?”
“The man can barely talk but Hyunjun still obeys him,” you mumbled, looking at him for any signs that he was coming back from his panic attack.
“Okay, we can work with that,” Seungcheol sighed, placing his hands on the table as well.
Jeonghan seemed to be snapping out of it, his eyes reading your face over and over. “Marry him,” he blurted.
“What?!” you exclaimed.
“What?” Seungcheol questioned, huffing when neither Jeonghan nor you said anything, just stared at each other.
“Go on with the wedding,” he said dejectedly, standing up straight, as he would treat regular business. “That way we’ll know when and where he will be, surrounded by all his men. We’ll have the bastard cornered. We could even wait until the guests leave, then we got him.”
“You’re seriously not using me as bait,” you gritted, tears stinging in your eyes from the rage that quickly started building up.
Seungcheol looked astounded too, as though he also had not expected Jeonghan to say this, to form this kind of plan. “Fuck, this is insane,” he breathed, standing back from the table, running a hand through his hair exasperatedly.
“Do you think I’d let you in on this plan if I didn’t know you’d be safe?” he asked in a dangerously low tone. “Do you seriously think I’d be stupid enough to put you in danger?”
“What about the part I marry that fucking lunatic?” you raised your voice, stepping closer to him, making him take a step back from the table. “Did you think about that?”
Seungcheol went completely still, looking at your exchange with Jeonghan. You were sure that Wonwoo and Mingyu had stopped their patrolling to hear from afar. In the very tight-knit circle that Jeonghan had crafted, you were the only one that dared speak to Jeonghan like that, not because they feared him, no.
They simply held him in too much esteem to even talk to him in a condescending way.
“Do you think I fucking want this?” he gritted back darkly.
“Well, yeah! I don’t see you having a hard time telling me to marry him!” you shouted back, limbs trembling in rage and despair.
Jeonghan ran a hand all over his face, muffling a short sigh. “You can’t ask me to have him killed if you’re not willing to do something to–,”
“I go back to him every fucking night, Jeonghan!” your voice was becoming raw from raising it. “I sleep in his bed, I pretend I like him! I can’t be his wife!”
“It’ll be for five fucking minutes!” he said, not quite screaming but his voice was harsh. Harsher than you had ever heard him speak.
“I don’t want to marry him!” you said exasperatedly, throwing your hands at your sides.
“I need him distracted, vulnerable. I need him surrounded by all of his men and far away from the docks. I need everyone in that wedding to believe that you were on his side,” his eyes shone with a madness that if you had been smarter you would have avoided.
“I can’t do it,” you said in a mere whisper. “Please, don’t make me do it.”
“Fuck,” he gritted, scrunching his face in annoyance, he turned away from you, cradling the back of his head with his hands. “Fuck!”
Seungcheol sighed heavily, but in his face there was something written that clearly said, I don’t have anything to do with this. He turned away, raising his hands as he excused himself from the conversation between you and Jeonghan and walked off to the entrance, where the other two men were still snooping.
Jeonghan turned back to you, still pissed off by the darkness in his eyes, his brow deeply furrowed. Every step he took toward you brought a dull heaviness that made you swallow hard.
“Go on with the wedding, we’ll stop it before it’s over,” he said, tightening his jaws, delivering the next words in that same dejected manner: “You won’t be his wife.”
You could feel the loud thumping of your heart dying down little by little, but your breathing remained erratic, looking at him in utter disbelief. “You bastard,” you hissed, pointing at his face with one finger. “You would have me married to him!”
“He’ll die that night,” he put in simply, clearly not understanding what your complaint was.
“You–,” you gritted, smacking your hands on his chest in a fit of rage. “You’re just like him! You’re all the fucking same!”
“Stop, stop it!” he hissed, grabbing you by the wrists, stopping your feeble attack at once, and pulling you into his chest. “We need to play into his game, like it or now. What if he really suspects about us? What if he already knows that it’s me you’re having an affair with?”
“What if he doesn’t?” you asked, your tone dropping to a mere whisper. “What if this is just him trying to exert power over me? To own me more than he already does?”
Jeonghan went rigid, gritting his teeth as he let out a breath through his nose to calm himself. “He doesn’t own you.”
“He does, Jeonghan,” you argued. “My name is the last thing he’ll have. I won’t allow it.”
At that, he freed his grip on your wrists, but he did not step back. “Fine,” he breathed, clearing his throat once. “I won’t let it happen.”
“I’ll play along during the ceremony, but I won’t say yes,” you conditioned, feeling more at ease once he conceded to you.
Jeonghan closed his eyes briefly, his eyelids fluttering as he released a sigh of resignation. “You know I don’t want you to do this,” he muttered reluctantly. “You know I’d fucking kill him tonight if there wasn’t so much to lose.”
“Don’t expect me to agree to do things I don’t want,” you replied, the weight of your reaction finally falling on your shoulders.
“I’m sorry, I should’ve–I don’t know what I was thinking, I’m just–, I can’t stop thinking that he knows,” he stammered, blinking utter obfuscation.
“I know,” you whispered.
“I just want to get this over with,” he muttered tiredly, much as if it had drained him to argue with you. And you knew that it was likely, as your body came down from the stress of fighting with him, your limbs grew heavy.
“Trust me, me too,” you dared lifting a hand and cupping the side of his neck. “Listen, when this is all over, we could go somewhere for a while, to forget about this, yeah?”
Jeonghan smiled lazily at you. “You’re not mad at me anymore?” he quipped mischievously.
“Oh, you’re not off the hook yet,” you pointed, giggling shamefully. “I’m still mad, but I will let it slide for now.”
“Mmn,” he hummed pensively, cupping the back of your head, fingers tangling with your hair as he pulled you into a feather-light kiss. “We could go to London,” he muttered. “Or Barcelona.”
“I’d like that,” you whispered into his lips.
“You could take your anger out on me then,” he mumbled, giving you quick heated kisses.
“What about you?” you asked with a low hum as his hand clutched at your waist. “Are you still mad at me?”
“Absolutely,” he said under his breath, even though the sound came ragged, you could feel the smirk spreading on his lips slowly. “Raising your voice at me, hitting me, saying I’m the same as him… You’re in big trouble.”
“Am I?” you challenged, enjoying that glint in his eyes when you pulled back. “You know I didn’t mean that last part,” you said sheepishly. “I was just mad.”
“I like it when you’re mad,” he grunted, his arm sliding on the small of your back to pull you in closer to his body. “I’m afraid I like it a little too much.”
“Seriously?” you giggled, shaking your head at him. “You’re unbelievable.”
“And you like getting on my nerves,” he muttered, kissing you so obsessively that you hummed, trying to pull away from his continuous kisses.
“Jeonghan,” you mumbled, muffling out a short gasp when he started kissing you deeper.
“What?” he replied aloofly.
“There are people in here,” you gasped, pushing a hand on his chest, breaking away from his lips with great reluctance.
“I really don’t care. Do you?” he challenged, grabbing your face with one hand, and squeezing your cheeks a little.
“Jeonghan!” you squealed, giggling in his mouth as his hands slipped on your waist pushing you against the side of the table, your lower back firmly pressed against it.
“What?” he spat now, but you knew he was just challenging you with his tone, his dark eyes piercing your face.
“They’re watching,” you whispered, motioning to the men standing by the entrance to the hangar.
“And?”
At that, you knew you had nothing to say. In the short time you had come to know Jeonghan, you knew he did not give a flying fuck about what people said about him. And he knew that no one would even bat an eye if he decided to take you right there on the table. It was nothing foreign to him, or you now that you were his.
“Do you mind that they’re watching baby?” he asked softly, his hand sliding from your lower back to your waist, squeezing you gently. “You did not have anything to say when we did this back at the workshop…”
You giggled in his mouth when he pressed a chaste kiss on yours.
“Or at the old factory…” he husked, pressing a wet kiss on the underside of your jaw. “Or in the garage…”
And he could go on and on.
You closed your eyes, tilting your head to one side so he could continue marking your neck with his kisses.
“I hate fighting with you,” he confessed, his voice low in your ear, sending shivers down your spine. “You know that. But you love arguing with me.”
“I don’t,” you breathed, excitement building up in the pit of your stomach, making your fingers tremble in nervousness.
“Don’t lie. You love to rattle me, I think you like to see me mad,” he said, cupping your cheek with one hand to command your gaze to his.
Jeonghan was a different person whenever he got mad. Whenever he was working, he was cold and calculated. Whenever he was with you, he was sweet and caring. But sometimes, you did not know what to expect.
But the truth was, you also liked it when he was mad. Only after the conflict dies down or is resolved, is when you think of how strangely alluring he is whenever he is angry at something.
And Jeonghan knew.
“Only sometimes,” you replied, flustered by his kisses.
“Mmn, yeah I know,” he said, pressing more kisses on your neck again.
Jeonghan tugged at the hem of the neck of your blouse to uncover more of your skin. He leaned down to kiss your collarbones, humming delightfully when in the process he got the smell of your perfume.
“Jeonghan,” you sighed, closing your eyes when his hands came to cup your breasts, enjoying that your bralette allowed him to feel your nipples over the fabric.
“What?” he answered, lifting his head to be eye to eye with you.
You gaped at him for a second, burning under your skin. “Are you going to punish me?”
“Mmm, maybe,” he taunted, a wolfish grin slowly tugging his lips. “Do you want it, baby?” he asked, his tone dropping to a sweeter one.
You bit your lip, nodding your head dumbly.
An airy giggle was muffled in your mouth as he leaned to kiss you, moving down to your ear. “You’re such a needy girl,” he rasped, against your skin, making it prickle. “Open your mouth.”
He cupped your jaw in his palm, his fingers digging into your cheeks as he leaned closer to spit on your open mouth. His warm spit landed perfectly on your tongue, nearly making you swallow as an instinct.
Blushing, you looked at him with your mouth hanging open, waiting for his command. He released your jaw, but you did not dare to close your mouth. Jeonghan smiled at this, knowing that you would wait until he permitted you to do so.
“Close it,” he said, and you did what he asked, but did not swallow. His eyes shone with fascination, looking at you before he decided to let you swallow his spit. “Swallow, baby.”
When you did, he gave you a rewarding kiss, but you knew that the punishment had just begun. “Tell me what you did wrong.”
“I talked down to you,” you replied, squirming slightly when his hands grabbed you by the waist.
“What else?”
“I yelled at you,” you added airily. His hands went down to your hips, going underneath your skirt to feel your thighs, cupping your ass over your tights with a low grunt from him.
“There’s more.”
You hummed shortly, cupping his nape with one hand, the other clinging onto his shoulder as he groped your ass, kissing your neck. “I hit you. I cursed at you,” you mumbled, feeling hot in the face when you heard hushed voices in the distance.
“There’s one more,” he husked, ignoring that you were both being on open sight.
“I compared you to him,” you stammered. “I said you were just like him…”
“Am I?” he asked, grabbing your hips to turn you around.
“No,” you said, leaning over the table as his hand pressed on your back, the other hiking your skirt up. You crossed your arms beneath your head, hiding your face away from the men that clearly saw Jeonghan bending you over the table.
“I didn’t hear that,” he muttered gruffly.
“You’re not like him,” you said louder, gasping pathetically when you felt his fingers pinching the flimsy material of your tights, ripping a hole into them easily. “I said it to spite you.”
The slap resounded all around you, followed by your yelp. Jeonghan caressed your ass where he just had delivered a firm spank. You muffled a moan when he gave you a second spank, making you ball your hands into fists.
Jeonghan enjoyed this. He liked to take you whenever and wherever he pleased, he did not care if there was someone around, as long as you were in on it too. He liked to see how far you could go with him, and so far, you had never said no.
You enjoyed this just as much as he did.
“Do you like that, sweetheart?” he asked gruffly, giving you another spank that sounded even louder than the other two, this one hurt so bad it had tears brimming in your eyes.
But you just burned for more. “Yes,” you mumbled lewdly. Your skin was hot, tingling, and sore. You felt your arousal starting to pool in your panties.
“Yes, what?”
“Yes, sir,” you replied.
“Good girl,” he sighed, bringing his hand down on your ass again.
“God,” you coiled your fingers tighter, moaning when his hand caressed your sore area.
“What do you want, baby?” he asked with a lazy tone, caressing your skin lovingly with one hand, while the other kept your skirt up.
“I need you,” you drawled at once, your cheeks radiating with embarrassment that you did not even want to be worked up. “Don’t play with me... please, sir.”
Jeonghan laughed, making you bite the inside of your cheek and close your eyes. “I’m just getting started,” he sighed, tearing the hole in your tights further. “Want my cock already?”
“Yeah,” you sighed, covering your face with your forearms. “Want it so bad… ngh–,”
His fingers prodded in the middle part of your panties. A flashing thought told you that he might just rip them in two, but instead, he gently moved them aside, using two fingertips to rub your entrance.
“Mmn, baby this got you so wet,” he sighed, pushing his fingers inside you, eliciting a raw moan out of you, so loud that you were sure now that everyone was fully aware of what Jeonghan was doing to you if they were not before.
“Please…” you drawled, squishing your cheek on the table closing your eyes to focus on his long fingers massaging your walls. “I need your cock so bad. Please, sir.”
“Mmn,” he hummed, causing wet sounds to come from the thrusts of his fingers inside you.
Your face was blazing hot, to the point you felt the tips of your ears pulsating with warmth too. “Please, Jeonghan… I’ll be good, please. I won’t talk to you like that again.”
“Why should I believe you this time, baby?” he asked with a soft tone. “I remember punishing you for that exact thing last time.”
“I’ll let you… I’ll let you breed me.”
His fingers stilled inside you, and you heard a soft sigh that made you think that he was smiling. “Fuck… fuck, baby,” he let out a raspy chuckle.
You turned your head over your shoulder, sending him a meek look as he undid the button of his jeans with one hand, while he pulled his fingers out of you, taking them onto his mouth to lick your arousal off.
In quick succession, he moved the zipper of his pants down, pulling his cock out. A shudder flashed all over your body when you noticed the precum smeared on his reddened cockhead, he was fully hard for you.
“You’re not winning this time,” he rasped, placing a hand on the small of your back before he began pushing his cock inside you.
Your jaw went slack, a raw moan spilling from deep within you as his cock stretched your walls open. “Fuck, Jeonghan,” you mewled lewdly.
He sheathed himself inside you with a guttural moan, your walls throbbing around him as he pulled back slightly, and pushed in, thrusting shallowly inside you. “So fucking tight,” he sighed blissfully, closing his eyes.
“Jeonghan!” you urged lewdly, trying to get him to understand that you needed him to fuck you harder, faster.
“Shut up,” he snarled. “You don’t get to make demands,” he said, pleased that he was in control, making you utterly his.
You gasped, pushing yourself with your hands on the table to try and meet his hips with your own.
But Jeonghan stopped your plan at once, bringing his hand on your ass with a harsh spank. “Stop that,” he ordered. “Be a good slut for me and behave,” he said darkly.
“Please,” you sighed, pressing your forehead on the table. “Faster…”
“You’ll take what I give you,” he said, pushing his hips against slowly, his hips meeting your ass passionately as if he wanted to explore your walls with his cock inch by inch.
You imagined what the other guys in the hangar would think of this. Were they watching? Would they get turned on? You sneaked a look at the three figures standing by the entrance. They were pretending to be busy with something else, chatting with each other.
Jeonghan noticed where your gaze wandered to. A hand wrapped around your throat, pulling you in, so you were now standing up, back arched for his powerful thrusts. You whimpered at the change, feeling his cock hit a glorious spot inside you and kept ramming in on you.
“Jeonghan,” you choked out, barely even making out his name.
“Do you like that they’re watching you?” he asked, nudging the tip of his nose below your earlobe. “Eh? Do you like that they can hear how fucking wet your pussy is?”
You let out a shaky moan, grabbing his hand that was circling your neck, keeping you up as he delivered more powerful thrusts inside you. Feeling him raw, hard, and ramming fast inside you made you so horny you felt like crying. You wanted him so bad, and the mere thought that he had no intentions of stopping, or to come on your skin made you irrational, animalistic.
“Yeah,” you mewled, holding onto the table with your other hand.
The hard and fast manner in which he plowed on you was making your body bump into the table in front of you, making it squeak.
Seungcheol raised his gaze swiftly at you and quickly drew it elsewhere, the unwilled act of making eye contact with him drove you to moan louder, your pussy walls clamping down on him.
“Fuck, baby,” Jeonghan sighed blissfully in your ear. “Such a needy slut for me, so good.”
You nodded your head dumbly.
“You’re mine,” he growled, pushing his hips sloppily against your ass, the sound of his skin slapping against yours resounding across the place. “I’m gonna knock you up. Make you mine forever.”
“God, yes, yes, Jeonghan,” you gasped, arching your back more for his thrusts.
“I’m gonna put a baby in you… gonna be so round and pretty with our baby,” he said, his voice waning under so much pleasure and that mad frenzy he got into whenever he even thought about knocking you up.
“Please, please, please, ah—gah!” you moaned loudly, now drawing Mingyu’s gaze your way, then making him lower his face in utter shame.
“Keep watching them,” he ordered in your ear, thrusting hard and fast, and you knew it was only a matter of time before he made you his forever… before he would spill his seed inside you. “I want them to see how good you are for me.”
“Yeah, yeah, okay,” you said languidly, looking at the men pretending to pace from one side to another on their perimeter patrol. Wonwoo was the only one that had not looked your way, but you were completely sure that he was aware that you were being fucked by Jeonghan.
“Good girl,” he sighed, releasing his grip on your neck to slip it underneath your bralette to cup your tits with a raw moan. “That’s what you are, a good fucking girl for me.”
You grew more and more embarrassed, but you could not stop watching them, fishing for more reactions. None of them dared to look at you again, but from the looks they exchanged with each other, you could tell that your loud noises had rattled them.
“Jeonghan…” you called breathily.
“Sshhh,” he placed a sweet kiss under your earlobe, his hand slipping down to your tummy. “I’m gonna come, and you’re going to take it all. I’m gonna make you a mommy.”
“Please, I wanna come too,” you said, turning your head so you could see his face. “Please?”
Jeonghan showed you a light smirk, he looked tired and overwhelmed with pleasure. “That’s too bad, sweetheart. You’re not coming tonight.”
“Bu-but Jeonghan–,”
“Sssh,” he brought a hand to your cheek, giving you a chaste kiss, gasping softly before placing his forehead on your shoulder. “I’m coming—, god, baby, fuck. Fuuuck.”
“Hannie,” you uttered your last plea, but you knew it was too late.
“You’re mine, you’re mine, you’re mine…” he gasped, over and over, as he pressed his hand flatly on your tummy, pushing his hips languidly against your ass, spilling ropes of cum inside you.
You knew by the amount of sloppy thrusts he gave you that he came a lot inside you. You moaned at the thought of him coming inside you, painting your walls with his cum, repeating obsessively that you were his, no one else’s.
Jeonghan breathed raggedly on your shoulder, keeping his hand on your tummy for long enough until he started rubbing small circles with the pad of his thumb. He slowly raised his head, placing a small kiss on your shoulder over your clothes, then on your bare neck, then on your cheek.
“My pretty girl, you drive me insane,” he rasped, sighing a giggle.
“I’m sorry,” you drawled lazily, turning again so you could see his beautiful eyes.
“No, you’re not,” he cooed at you, his smile growing wider. “I know you. I know you’re not sorry.”
You giggled with him, instantly being swarmed by a fluttering feeling deep within your gut.
Jeonghan stilled, his smile starting to disappear little by little. The corner of his mouth twitched, and his eyes roamed all over your features. He pulled out of you then, his fingers swiftly placing your panties back in place to keep his cum from spilling out down your legs.
“I’ll take you home,” he decided coldly, tucking himself back into his pants at once.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” you muttered, confused by his sudden change, by the dejectedness in which he had started to handle himself.
“No, no arguing with me on this one,” he said with a finality in his demeanor that made you know he was not going to take more of your retorts.
“Fine,” you huffed, fixing your clothes with a pout on your face.
“What?” he arched one eyebrow.
“You could’ve at least let me come.”
Jeonghan’s face broke into a smile, tipping his head back to laugh out loud. “You asked me to punish you,” he shrugged.
You climbed onto the passenger seat of Jeonghan’s big SUV with a sigh, fixing the folds of your pretty skirt.
“Hey,” Jeonghan held your door open with one hand, stopping you from closing it. “Baby, look at me,” he said.
Your tummy fluttered upon hearing the sweet tone he used with you. “Yes?”
Jeonghan leaned inside the car and over you, sneaking two fingers beneath your jaw. “You know I would never put you in harm’s way, right?” he asked, and you could see on his face how much that question had messed him up. He drew his eyebrows in, and you saw a glint in his eyes you had never seen on him.
“Yeah,” you said, lifting a hand to his cheek, feeling sick for making him think that he was the same as your fiancé. “I know, babe.”
Jeonghan pressed his forehead against yours, nudging the tip of your nose with his own. “We’re almost there, sweetheart. We are so close to ending all of this,” he muttered. “Then it’ll be just you and me…”
“I know. And I know this stresses you out. But please, try to be more considerate,” you replied with a small smile that he felt as he pressed his lips against yours.
He giggled softly. “Alright,” he conceded with a raspy voice, pressing more kisses on your lips. “I’ll be more considerate. Just because my favorite girl asks.”
“Ah, favorite girl?” you backed off a little to show him an impish smile. “Does that mean you have other girls?”
Jeonghan rolled his eyes, but you could tell he was amused. “Yes. Many.”
“Mm, I’m falling behind. I should get other boys, then,” you giggled.
“Shut up,” he sighed, bringing you to his face to kiss you more. “So annoying.”
You let out a louder cackle, making his eyes shine with that fascination he never failed to show whenever you laughed with him.
Jeonghan went still ever so softly in front of you. He was a man who was completely enamored with his job You knew that his yearning for crime was greater than anything else in his life.
But at that moment, you felt how deeply he felt about you. The way he looked at you, was unmistakable, Yoon Jeonghan was in love. But you also knew it would be hard for him to say it out loud. You were becoming his weakness, so you weren't surprised to see fear in his gaze as well.
That is why you could not bring yourself to say it either. Your love for him was so strong, so passionate that it scared you.
“Boss.”
Jeonghan stood up straight, turning his head over his shoulder to see Jeon Wonwoo approaching with a cautious step. “Sorry to interrupt,” he said, motioning a hand before tucking it to his back. “But I think I found it. I found the warehouse.”
“Are you sure this time?”
Wonwoo nodded once. “Positive. I just got a confirmation from my guy, and it seems that there’s going to be a buyout in two hours.”
“Get the boys, tell them to get ready,” Jeonghan ordered without a second thought. “I’ll be back here in half an hour to cover the essentials.”
“Yes, boss,” Wonwoo nodded once again, walking away promptly.
Jeonghan said nothing else to you, closing the passenger door to go around the car, slipping on the driver seat, and turning the engine on swiftly. “Let’s get you home.”
“What was that about?” you asked with genuine curiosity.
“Wonwoo has been looking for your sister. He thinks he just found her,” he said with an aloof manner as he focused on backing up the car to then put it on Drive, his hand resting on the stick for some seconds before switching to palm your thigh gently. “I’m going with them to stake it out later tonight.”
“Will you be safe?” you asked sweetly at him, grabbing his hand on your thigh, and lacing your fingers with his.
“Course I will,” he replied warmly.
When you got back to your apartment, you decided to clean up at once. One, you had to eliminate all traces that Jeonghan fucked you. So you trashed your ruined tights and your panties. And then you took a long shower, thinking of what Jeonghan told you before dropping you off.
You were towel drying your hair, dragging yourself on your slippers and a robe to the living room where you stopped short at the sight of your fiancé. “Oh, hi honey,” you blurted nervously. “How are you?” you asked with an overly sweet tone. But as he approached, you noticed that he was getting ready to head out again. “Are you busy tonight?”
“Yeah,” he replied distractedly, approaching you to place a swift kiss on your mouth, which you were too surprised to reciprocate. “I was heading out to check on some deliveries and then I wanted us to grab dinner. So, get changed. We’re heading out in five minutes.”
Some moments later, you sat on one side of the backseat of a car. Both you and Hyunjun kept silent as the chauffeur drove you to a large warehouse near the docks of the city. You looked at your fiancé curiously.
“Stay here,” he had instructed before exiting the car. And you were smart and did the right thing. For about five minutes.
The warehouse stored columns upon columns of cement bags piled on each other. They looked like small buildings as you carefully treaded your way in search of your fiancé. He already believed that you were a complete fool, so you could explore here and come up with some lame excuse if he found you. And at the same time, you would gather intel for Jeonghan. What kind of business would Hyunjun have here?
It was an odd place, that was for sure. But you knew what kind of places gangs usually did their buyouts. This was not weird for you. So you let your intuition win and guide you, leading you down a hall full of doors. You opened them one by one, finding empty rooms. Until you opened one that did not.
Kiki was lying on a dirty old couch. She looked like she had moved in a long time. Her face was hidden beneath a cushion. You felt nauseous, heart racing in your chest as you rushed to the couch, dropping to your knees to try and turn her body over.
She was cold and frail. There was dirt collecting on her cheeks and you could see tears had dried on her skin. Her lips were chapped, and there was a bruise on one of her bony cheekbones.
“Kiki?” you whispered, using your trembling fingers to touch her, but you were so afraid to do so. “Kiki, it’s me. Wake up.”
You started crying, she was in such a frail state your mind started racing, fearing for the worst. But you had to calm yourself down, you had to act quickly for her. So you brought one finger under her nose, by her lips. And waited.
The hairs of your finger bristled when she let out the softest exhale. You checked your surroundings before deciding you would get her out of there, right there and then.
A chill ran down your spine when you tried cradling her weak body in your arms. Not because you could not do it, but because it came easily to you, being that she was so light.
Your heart pounded in your ears as you moved through the hall full of different doors, making your way out as quietly as possible, not drawing the attention of anyone, let alone your unassuming fiancé.
But that was until the first unmistakable sound of gunshots crossed the air. You stopped your escape cold, a wave of cold washing over you when you realized something. This was the warehouse Wonwoo had mentioned. Why were you here? Why had Hyunjun brought you here?
More gunshots were fired, a tumultuous happening in the distance. You took a few steps, glancing down the hallway. The warehouse esplanade was crammed with towers of cement-lined bags. The first column served as a good hiding place while you looked for a way out, so you decided to move quickly.
Carefully, you crouched to your knees, Kiki still unconscious in your arms. Panting, you took the chance to glance again, finding your fiancé’s man unconscious on the ground. It was as if there was no space in your brain to worry about anything else, all focus was on getting Kiki out of there.
But… where is Hyunjun? It was just a fleeting thought. Maybe you could drag Kiki to the nearest SUV. Maybe you would be lucky enough to find the keys stashed somewhere. Maybe you could wait until the gunfire stops.
“Sister?”
You dropped your knees on the ground for support, looking at your sister’s face. She opened her eyes weakly, your chest tightening when you saw how dead they were. Vacant, like a lifeless doll.
“Yes, Kiki. It’s me,” you cooed softly, ignoring the loud banging around you, the screaming.
“Is this real?”
Tears spilled from your eyes quickly, making you sniffle. “Yes. Yes, sweetie, this is real,” you replied sadly.
She gave you no reply, and you realized she was drifting away again. You needed to act now, you needed to find the nearest hospital. You needed to save her.
And in your hurry to get her to safety, you got more reckless.
Quickly, an idea formed in your head. You could get Kiki to one of the cars. You just needed a clear way out of the warehouse without being hit.
“What the fuck are you doing here?”
There was a sinking feeling inside you as you lifted your head to look at Seungcheol. At seeing your startled reaction, he lifted his palms onto view.
“Easy,” he warned, approaching you carefully to not draw any attention. “Is she alive?”
“Yeah,” you panted, saying the next words in a quick slurry mess. “Hyunjun brought me here, I don’t know why. Told me to wait in the car. But I just got a hunch that she’d be here.”
“Fuck,” he said under his breath. But he crouched in front of you, a darkness in his gaze that had your gut twisting tighter. “Hyunjun is dead.”
There is nothing that could compare to the relief that washed over you when you heard those words. But you also felt a heavy guilt falling upon you. Seungcheol looked worried, not like a man who just won a war.
“That… that’s good, isn’t it?” you stuttered.
“Listen carefully,” he said, his shifty gaze not quite focusing on you. “I’m going to take your sister into one of the vans and then I’ll come back for you, you hear me?”
You frowned confusedly. “What’s happening, Seungcheol? Where is Jeonghan?”
“Hyunjun got betrayed by his men,” he said, and then you understood the burden of the situation. “He got betrayed by your dad’s men.”
“C-could my dad have done this?” you asked dumbly. “I don’t get it.”
“I don’t know, we don’t know. He was dead before Jeonghan could even get to him,” he blurted uncontrollably, he was shaking. “Chances are that this is a sting op because half of the people out there are also cops.”
“What?” your chest tightened painfully. “Jeonghan is here?”
“There’s no time for that right now,” he said, grabbing your sister’s limp body from your grasp. “Stay hidden. I’ll come back for you.”
It had become hard to breathe. The feeling twisting your guts made you recoil back against the hard column behind you, trying to hug limbs to keep yourself out of sight.
The commotion kept on going, screams, grunts, gunshots. But you could not pay attention to that, you wanted to cover your ears, but at the same time, you needed to remain alert. You could tell that people were approaching your hiding place, and you made a motion to gather yourself to start running.
But the man came in front of your view before you could even stand up, pointing a gun at you, you made a move to crawl away, to move out of the way. He fired once, twice, the latter hitting you in the small of your back, the bullet penetrating you making your muscles contract and grow hot.
You felt confused the first second. You slumped down on the ground, then you tried to press a hand on your tummy. It was then that you felt the searing-hot pain.
Confused still, you lifted your gaze to see the man that just shot you. He was lying dead on the ground, a knife lodged in his bleeding neck.
You felt limp, your head lolling to one side before your body also dropped to the ground. A tall figure approached you fast, it was Seungcheol. He said he would come back to you.
“No, no, no, no,” he muttered, grabbing your body, and swiftly lifting you. “Stay with me, stay with me,” he said louder.
“Jeonghan,” you muttered drowsily, still feeling an echo of confusion invading your brain.
“He’s on his way back to the hangar. We’re going there,” he informed you promptly, knowing that the worry would kill you before the wide-open wound on your belly.
“And Kiki?”
“She’s fine, we’re getting you both out of here,” Seungcheol said as he placed you in the back seat of the car, then barked some orders to someone nearby. “Get inside now.”
Kim Mingyu climbed on the back seat of the car, the deep frown on his face going lax once he took one look at you. “Fuck, she’s bleeding,” he said, looking at Seungcheol who was just closing the door to his side.
“Help her,” he ordered, driving away at full speed.
“What happened?” he asked with a worried tone, the man who was all muscle and cunning was breaking down in front of your eyes.
“She got shot,” Seungcheol gritted, sending a look through the rearview mirror. “Don’t let her pass out.”
“Let’s get you on your back,” Mingyu said, motioning over to his lap where you automatically let your head drop, lying across the back seat. “I’m going to do something you won’t like, okay?”
Mingyu waited for no confirmation from your part, and pressed one of his large hands on your belly, right where the wound was.
You cried out loudly. “Fuck! It hurts, it hurts,” you stammered, tears springing out of your eyes immediately, you tried to back away, to free yourself from Mingyu’s grasp. But you were becoming weak, and the pain numbed the rest of your senses quickly.
“Does Jeonghan know?” Mingyu asked with a heavy tone, you could not make out his face between the shadows of the car.
There was a long moment before Seungcheol replied, and it was only one word burdened with a severity that you feared. “Yes.”
Mingyu cursed under his breath. “Bullet got through, she’s bleeding out quickly,” Mingyu informed loudly, keeping steady despite Seungcheol’s fast driving. “Is the doctor on the way?”
“Wonwoo’s already told Joshua to get to the hangar as soon as possible.”
“I know it hurts, but try not to move,” Mingyu muttered at you when you tried to get his hand off your belly.
You were a mess, squirming, crying, growing drowsy, babbling out nonsense.
Sooner than you had expected, the car was pulling up to the hangar. Seungcheol jumped out to get your body from the passenger’s seat. “Get the sister inside,” he ordered Mingyu as he carried you inside hurriedly.
You were neatly placed on a cold surface, squinting your eyes at a pale white light. You were in a small room, you spotted Seungcheol’s face, he was smeared with blood all over, a worried look plastered on him.
“Where is she?” you heard Jeonghan’s voice before you could even register where you were. Jeonghan came into view, looking so pale you thought he was sick.
“I’m alright,” you sighed weakly, your belly had stopped hurting, it just pulsated in between intervals. You knew you were trying to ease his worry, though it was futile, it was worth the try. “I’m okay.”
Jeonghan did not reply, approaching you with two big steps and started looking at the damage. “Give me a cloth, something to press on the wound,” he ordered and some seconds later, someone handed him what looked like a flannel shirt and started pressing on your belly again, making a drawn-out cry come out of you. “I’m sorry, baby, I have to do this.”
You gritted your teeth, breathing rapidly. “Jeonghan,” you called.
“You’re going to be okay, baby,” he spoke softly, and although your lucidity had started to wane, you knew he was worried for you. His eyes were teary, his eyebrows withdrawn, and his hands were shaking, pressed to your belly.
Your vision became blurry and bright, forcing you to close your heavy eyelids and swallow hard.
Not yet, not yet, not yet. You knew you were dying now. “Jeonghan,” you whispered, your jaw trembling slightly.
“Yes, sweetheart?” Jeonghan replied, still keeping his tone sweet for you. But he was heaving, looking at you with so much worry that you nearly broke down into tears.
But you were growing weaker by the second, you could feel your blood pooling on the table you were lying.
Jeonghan’s breathing became ragged, you knew he had started to cry. What you saw in his teary eyes was pure, and utter fear. “Baby?” he breathed.
“I’m cold,” you muttered weakly.
“Hold on,” he whispered shakily, tears brimming in his eyes as he leaned over your body, pressing with more strength on your tummy. “You’re going to be fine, help is coming.”
“Jeonghan,” you asked softly, pain had eased a while ago, you could only feel the muscles of your face, the rest of your body starting to grow numb. You took his wrist, but the man pressed harder at your tummy.
“Yes?” he breathed.
You blinked dumbly when warm tears fell on your face. “Let’s run away,” you whispered weakly.
“Where?” he muttered, his voice breaking as he sniffled quietly.
You did not reply, it was becoming harder to form thoughts, your mouth was numb, and you were sure you were drifting away now. Far away, you wanted to tell him. But never found the energy to do so.
“Where, baby?” he insisted, tears rolling down his cheeks. You wanted to tell him to stop crying, you hated to see him cry. “Baby? Please, please, talk to me, sweetheart. Don’t close your eyes, keep looking at me.”
You said nothing, and although you heard every word he said, you were finding it difficult to understand him. All you could think of was that you regretted not telling him you loved him. And now you were leaving him, and he would never know.
A gentle exhale came out of your mouth, you blinked one last time. Jeonghan’s tear-stained face was the last thing you saw before everything faded to black. But you could still hear the door bursting open, a dry voice telling Jeonghan it was time to go.
“No,” he gritted. “I’m not leaving her.”
“It’s now or never!” Seungcheol barked. “Jeonghan, they’re coming.”
A new set of hands took over. “She’s going to be fine. Step away, please, so I can get to work,” the new voice said with a calm tone.
“If she dies–,”
“If she dies, and they find you here, it’s over for all of us. If she survives and you stay here, it’s over for all of us including her.”
His cold hands released their grip on your body with a reluctance that you could feel even with your eyes closed. A ghostly kiss was placed on your forehead, it was quick, but you could make out his final promise.
“Wait for me, baby. We’ll find each other again,” he whispered.
And then you drifted to sleep.
› epilogue
The streets of the town were deserted.
Jeonghan made his way down the steep sidewalk as the dawn crept on the pavement. The sky was clear, the air felt nice, cold against his skin. As he approached the end of the street, the lake came into his view, making him notice the humidity in the atmosphere.
He cast a look over his shoulder, even though the only thing he could hear around him was the sound of his footsteps, the certainty was what he needed. Every morning, he went out to do some checkups, just to appease the paranoia in his head.
His hands got clammy as he approached the door, turning the handle quietly as to not make any noise, and pushed inside, tucking one hand behind his back.
“There you are, I was beginning to wonder,” you chirped softly, arching one eyebrow. “What do you have in there?”
Jeonghan bit down his lower lip, trying to conceal his smile as he showed you a big bouquet of fresh flowers he had hidden behind his back.
Your face fell in shock, making the man burst out chuckling. “What’s this? You got me flowers?”
He paced inside the tiny home, handing you the flowers. “Just because,” he said, planting a kiss on your forehead.
“Mmm, you’re in a good mood this morning,” you grinned, closing your eyes due to the proximity of his face to your own.
But you accepted the bouquet, running the pads of your fingers on one of the soft white petals.
“I’m just really lucky,” he muttered, swiftly reading your face, smiling at you.
“Babe,” you tilted your head in utter adoration for him, you lifted a hand to cup his face. “We’ve been through this. We’re fine, were safe.”
Jeonghan took the hand from his cheek, planting a soft kiss on your palm, shaking his head slightly. “Being on the run with me isn’t fine,” he muttered with a pained look on his face. “You deserve a better life.”
In fact, you were laying low in a quiet town in a different country. You have had to start over again multiple times since you ran off with him. Jeonghan was implicated in the events that went down that night and he had to run away, leaving you behind.
Jeonghan kept his promise. Your sister was safe, and you could start from zero now.
The journey to finding him was not easy. It took you months to get even a sign of life from his part, and you knew he only wanted to make sure you were safe before he tried to seek you out.
It was even harder to convince him to come to where he was. But you waited, knowing that it would take him some time and insisting to concede.
You lowered the bouquet on the table, now using your other hand to brush his short hair back. “Hannie, don’t say that,” you whispered. “All I want is to be with you. I’m happy, and I’m safe.”
But you knew he was heavily ridden with guilt, feeling that it was his fault that you got shot and injured. And now that you had to be on the run with him, he felt like you were not living a worthy life.
He pushed his eyebrows in question, pouting softly. “Happy?”
You giggled at his expression, looking so innocent and cute. “The happiest,” you muttered, wrapping his neck with your arms.
His gaze relaxed once he heard your laugh, lifting a hand to pinch your chin as the other squeezed your waist. “I’ll make you even happier.”
You smiled as you pulled him into a kiss. “Thank you for the flowers. I love them,” you whispered. “I love you.”
“For my favorite girl,” he replied in kind. “I love you too, baby.”
› author's note: hi there beautiful readers! (●'◡'●) i want to start this note by saying that i struggle with writing about dark themes such as this one, (gangster-related things). so this served as an exercise/challenge? i hope you like it! anyways, toodles support me on ko-fi? © RIGHTS RESERVED TO HANNIEWEEN I DO NOT ALLOW TRANSLATIONS, CONTINUATIONS, REIMAGINATIONS OF MY WORKS OR THEIR REPOSTING ON OTHER WEBSITES.
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